#idk about sen i don't know her well

[knight-engale]

Some extremely self indulgent headcanons because I am in so much pain

TOUCHSTARVED characters ranked by the quality of their period care, from best to worst

1. Leander

You think Kuras would be the best at looking after a partner on their period? Wrong. Leander provides not just medicine and a comfortable place to rest, but he also comes from a place of empathy and not a medical stance and can give better emotional support. For example, he'd provide whatever food his partner craves regardless of the healthiness of it. The food might not be of the best quality, given that it's probably from the Wet Wick's bar, but junk food is junk food. He'd also be good at offering distractions or things to do. He'd be incredibly attentive and always ready to offer help in any way, shape, or form, at "Bloodhound rates".

2. Kuras

Kuras, being a fairly ancient doctor, probably has a lot of experience in providing menstrual care. Pain medicine, a hot water bottle, and somewhere to rest are provided right away. He definitely has a variety of menstrual hygiene products in the clinic, all of which are made available. As far as emotional support goes, I'm sure he does try his best, but mortals and their emotions are still a fairly distant thing to him. He tries to provide healthy and nutritious food, with varying degrees of success due to how bad a cook he is. Maybe he'll fetch something from a vendor if he's asked nicely, though.

3. Mhin and Ais

Mhin and Ais are tied for third because I feel like they'd have similar hands-off approaches. They'd care, but they don't seem likely to be proactive about it. At least not to the same degree as Leander and Kuras. Ais would at least make tea though. And you'd get to cuddle Princess.

4. Vere

Assuming he doesn't go into some kind of blood frenzy like a shark, he's probably not going to be the best. Half because of his self-absorption, and half because of the Senobium not letting him out all that much. If he's able to, he would probably put together the best Aesthetic Self Care baths, though. Maybe nicks some fancy wine to share.

[bitchthefuck1]

Literally without fail every couple of weeks my manager will be like "this communication should have gone out already, why have you not sent it???" and I have to find a polite way to be like, girl YOU didn't approve it

[fairyhaos]

hey hey heyy!! i have a question about your first impressions of your moots and anons?

sure! this is gonna be a list of moots first and then the anons after :]

@rubywonu "omg this person is so so sweet 🥰" it's bc she appeared in my inbox asking if we could be moots literally at the Same time that i was considering asking her lmaooo so that was kinda fun

@etherealyoungk "wowee famous person!!" bc her work was always rlly well received and she wrote so well :]

@mirxzii "aww someone wants to be moots with me? 🥺" bc i think roxie was the first person who i didn't know before she asked to be moots and it was so sweet to think that others wanted to be my friend

@blue-jisungs "zanna's bubbly friend" bc literally the only time i used to see axe on my dash was when she was talking w zanna haha and she always sounded sooo bright :>

@gyuswhore was just. sooo intimidating to me for some reason???? she kind of still is but she's also a really cool and really kind person

@woozis @joshuas @meowonhao @goblinvern @leejungchans not to group u guys into one point but it was literally a case of going "holy FUCK TH3SE PEOPLE ARE SO???!! ;;;!? ///??💗💗💗💗" and screaming into my hands bc u r all so cool in my eyes

@weird-bookworm the adorable and sweet person who pops into my inbox literally ALWAYS w joshua stuff hehe

@wheeboo "omg,,,, a moomoo??" bc i saw the whee and i was like OHHHH OH MY GOD THAT'S FOR WHEEIN RIGHT

@hannyoontify @icyminghao idk how to describe it but it was like a feeling of just awww oml this person is so ADORABLE

@wonwoonlight just the vibes of khione being a very gentle and very kind person tbh ^^

and anons (i don't rlly see many of u these days so idk if there's much point in doing everyone 😭) :

🍒 i think it was the joshua lips thing that prompted the first convo????? so it was like "HELL YEAH ANOTHER SUPPORTER ✊" sort of impression haha

🎐 was just soooo sweet n lovely bc we started talking bc of the synaesthesia post and wind chime anon just had an Adorable way of typing haha

🌙/ @mesanthropi it was kinda like... "this person is kinda adorable" bc i kind of KNEW who u were but that didn't make ur conversation any less endearing

🥡/ @h-ao i just remember my pure and utter delight bc sen was sooo friendly and seeing the new named anon in my inbox made my day ^_^

[butterscotch-goat]

heyy haha hi twirls hair do you have any Elijah fun facts or perhaps Lucy

OOOOOH LET ME SEE WHAT I CAN COME UP WITH!! Thank you so so so so so much for asking aaaa <33

Alright!! Eli!!!!!

-their nose is naturally hooked, but it's bumpy and lopsided because it has been broken!! he has been in a fair share of fights, never starting them, but they've gotten pretty good at ending them all things considered

-i have given them the title "The Apostate" :]

-they would go to church with Martha because it would make Grace too existential and scared but Martha didn't like going anywhere alone, sooo

-he tried to teach Martha to read but gave up; Martha got too frustrated (she learns eventually, thanks to Beatrice!)

-they know how to sew! fixes his own clothes and stuff

-Grace offered to try and heal his foot before but he politely declined; it's a part of him that he's accepted

-Grace's trial and execution was the front page story for a hot minute, so he had to shout about his best friend's death and sell biased & inaccurate stories about it so he could get paid :"]

-occasionally refers to Martha as "Marty" (Beatrice parallel BEATRICE PARALLEL)

-after Martha disappeared they started learning piano. He didnt get far though because he couldn't stand going in the church (to use the piano), especially without Martha

-when Martha returns, the only thing she could bring back of Grace was a jar with her heart in it (since her body got Dissected as fuck, chopped up to study n stuff) and anytime Eli is over at Martha's house (Martha kept it on her windowsill (where else is she gonna put it lol)) he like,, greets Grace's heart? I used to do this with an urn, it's a thing I swear. he would greet her heart,, he'd say hi to Grace, idk man.

-He and Martha still celebrate Grace's birthday; they set her heart jar on a table in front of a pastry or something. They don't take it very seriously (they need some lighthearted moments in their life god let them joke about their trauma please)

-after The Plot, Eli often goes with Martha on her (every-other-year-ish) visits to Aster and Beatrice. Beatrice and him get along very well (because of course they do) while Aster kind of scares him, but it's all good :]

-this one doesn't happen anywhere near the plot, only happens when hes like an adult n stuff but I think it's funny so...Eli COULD NOT keep a straight face at his Lavender wedding with Martha. Martha was more composed but Eli was NOT helping her keep it together Lol. After the fact he makes fun of Martha for being a terrible kisser (THIS IS SILLY GUYS PLEASE IM BEING SILLY)

Lucy time!!!!! Silly little guy!!! Pathetic man!!!

I'm reaaallllyyy struggling with the whole Dawn rework (ask Sen and he'll tell you,, I'm struggling so bad) so I don't have much at the moment. BUT I'LL TELL YOU WHAT I DO HAVE!!

As of writing this, Lucy WILL be a lot more active in the plot!! He's looking to prove he's still a powerful demon, so he goes with Gene to hunt down Frappe (and Dawn by associatio). He does, in fact, suck at his job though, so if anything he probably slows them down,, but that's okay...

Uhhh random stuff GO!!

-his glasses were accidentally stepped on by Ronnette when she was trying to wake him up one time (he passed out on the floor) but Lucy would rather DIE than go to the optometrist again so he's dealing with a cracked frame right now

-Lucy hates Juno almost as much as he hates humans,, but like he's never gonna hate anyone as much as he hates humans so (sorry Dawn, he wants you to perish so bad)

-Lucy is so sure that he's a MASTER at blending in with humans. He is not. He and his garish purple vest, unkempt And uneven long ass hair, and a shirt that's either A. Probably Gene's and therefore too big for him, or B. His shirt that has an entire sleeve missing. He doesn't remember where he lost the sleeve but he hasn't gotten around to getting a new one yet BUT HE WILL SOON GUYS TRUST (it has been 5 decades at LEAST)

-as of writing this I think I'm gonna make it so demons can actually control/choose what their humanoid form looks like, and I think Ronnette would pick on Lucy a lot for making his humanoid form so scrawny.

Uhhh I don't have anything else,, here's some Eli doodles WEEE (featuring his section of a bunch of character profiles I impulsively made in my sketchbook with NO PLANNING WHATSOEVER???? WTF IS WRONG WITH ME)

[itonashi]

FOR YOU

pairing: chigiri hyoma x fem!reader

warning: royal!au, fluff, romantic (idk)

note: sen req me this and yes. idk how to do dance idk... anyway i read some historical manhwa and that's that i guess.. im using like my manhwa knowledge to write this.

the newest rising star lady among the young nobles, [first name] [last name]. she's considered a one in a million genius. usually it's the men who will be sent to academy. the rarity of women in the academy is low. the majority is mostly men.

as men is supposed to be the head of the family. they need education, but who said that women can't be a heir too?

[first name] [last name] the only child and the heir of [last name] family. the pride and joy. [last name] family is known for their multi-talented. an all-rounder, simple as that.

every year, the academy will host an event showing off their best students; hosting an event especially for them to be known. the academy is keeping everything inside private from the public so this is the only time they would reveal to the world on who is their best students.

the event will be lasting for three days. the last day as predicted is always the time for them to have fun. they're required to go to the ballroom night with a partner but going there alone is okay.

"[first name], who will you be choosing to go to the blue lock event this year?" every year, students will be curious on who [first name] will take to go to the event with her. it has been years she's going to the event alone. maybe this year she will choose someone.

"it's a secret." putting a finger across her lips.[first name] already have her eyes set on someone and wish that the guy would be the one to ask her out. his speed amazed her, it was as if he have become one with the wind. a beautiful eyes and hair, he's what she desire.

he was a new student, just one year younger than her and yet in the first day of the academy — he already made a big impression on [first name], but he doesn't know about it. through gossips, [first name] heard many things about him. some say he could be a princess in disguise because of his feminine features — the best yet, is that this man might be a superpower user. which is a rare sight in the world.

only 10% people in the world have it. if people knew among them that there is a superpower user. one might be jealous and kill them. so that's why, those superpower user have to keep secret.

if you think that [first name] is one of those lucky 10%, no she's not. she's just like any other human.

"did you hear? you and that guy have a fanclub! probably better than the prince." one of your friends giggle. you asked her to lower the voice so passerby won't hear what she just said about the prince. it will be devastating if she was charge for insulting the royal members.

skimming through the pages of your book, suddenly your friend tap your arm rapidly. you look to see why; it was love at first sight really, ah no well you have already been smitten by that guy now. let's just say we're reenacting it. you are sure that your eyes is widen and pupils dilated right now.

putting a hand over the lower part of you face, you hide your blushing face. suddenly someone shake you hard "earth to lady [first name]! are you okay?" your friend flick her fingers again and again to get you out of your head. "don't tell me... you have a crush on him!" she grin, your other friend agree with her.

"just keep your voice down, ana." you replied. you aren't denying it all as you are quite sure of your feelings. would it be weird for a lady to ask the man to dance? the blue lock event is just two months away. you cannot let this chances go. ana and cecilia (the other friend) , eyed you suspiciously but shrugged what you just said off.

you bid your friend goodbye and make your way to the dorm. when suddenly you hear a meow and a voice. "were you really that hungry?" a soft man voice could be heard and it was soothing to your ears. you walk towards the voice, and see the scene you weren't expecting to see in your life.

chigiri hyoma! i think he's the only one here...

"looks like the cat is fond of you." you spoke up. the red-haired man slightly jump by your sudden presence. he look into your direction, while you make your way towards him. he's looking at my direction!! you may look like a calm person on the outside but certainly you're not on the inside.

"not really..." he chuckled and softened his eyes "when i first encountered this little guy, he scratched me and hissed at me." he added. you may be crazy right now but when he soften his eyes he look so cute to you. you tried to keep your composure, keyword 'tried'. "a-ah.. is that so? pardo have always been wary of new people..." you stammered, looking at the black cat.

curse me for stammering there!

"pardo...?" he mumbled under his breath with curiosity. does this cat have a owner and is it her? he wondered. "pardo is a name given by the students. so it basically means this cat is the unofficial pet for the academy. the professor doesn't mind at all about this one cat wandering here." you shook off your thoughts and beamed at his curiosity on where did the pardo name come from.

"i see..." he raised his eyebrows and look back at the cat, eating the treat he had given the cat. the slight end of his lips perked up. why is he so pretty... there's really no turning back from not liking him. maybe this is the time for you to get to know him for a month and ask him out to be your partner for the ball a few days before the event.

"why are you standing up, lady [first name]? you should go and take a seat here." he pointed to the bench that's empty beside him while he stood up from there. "well then, excuse me." you sat on the bench, fixing up your skirt.

"i wouldn't be a gentleman, if i let you a lovely lady to only stand there while i sit here." he reasoned with you when you ask him to sit too. your body stiffened at the 'lovely lady' and could feel the warmth coming in but you kept the composure and smile at him. "thank you, chigiri." you thanked him, putting a hand on your chest.

"you knew my name?"

"were you uncomfortable? i knew it because of the gossip that was around. the nobles wouldn't really shut up about it..." you worried if you make a mistake there but he doesn't seemed surprised about the gossip and only shake his head indicating he wasn't uncomfortable at all.

"well, do you know my name?"

"of course, who wouldn't know the rising star in the academy? one would say lady [first name] [last name] is also the rising star in the empire ever since your debutante ball." he stated, making you more flustered than ever. you humbly denied the empire one even if you're the duke's daughter, you wouldn't think that you're the rising star in the empire when there is the prince.

"welcome back, lady [first name]." your roommate greeted you as soon as you enter the dorm room. "you're late than usual. today is not the day you study at the library, right?" she added, you nod your head and explained that you were playing with pardo which is half of the truth and leave out the fact you met with chigiri hyoma for the first time formally.

you finish showering and put on your pyjamas, sitting on the side of your bed. kira, your roommate called out to you. "yes? do you need anything, kira?" you replied "why do you never request for your own room without any roommate? im sure the academy will give you the special treatment." kira rambled on how you could be getting the luxurious life in the academy but you're not using your authority right. "i would've done that, you knowwww..." kira sighed, burying her face into the pillow.

"all the students here is equal, kira. you're amazing yourself as you're a commoner that managed to get into the academy. even nobles that studies here may or may not get here into illegal meaning..." you explain, almost pissed off.

"im sorry for the sudden rambling just now. i was just thinking on how you're a noble and not disgusted by the fact me, your roommate is a commoner." kira express her apologies towards you, hugging her pillow tight while looking at you. you smiled and just simply accept it. you bid your goodnight and goes to sleep. kira does the same thing and goes to sleep.

now that you have finally become acquaintance with chigiri hyoma, whenever he passes by you would greet him and he will greet you back. cecilia nudged you and ask "since when did you two know each other? if i recalled you were still shy to even speak to that guy." she tease you with a grin but it soon turned into a neutral face when you look infront of you.

"your highness, good morning." you and cecilia greet the prince and bow. "[first name], do you have anyone in mind this year...?" the prince ask you with his neutral voice. you hate to admit it but you have known the prince since you two were children. one of you two is bound to like the other person. the prince like you ever since that time but you don't. this may be the final chapter, the prince will go up to you like this.

"with the utmost apologies, your highness... i already have my eyes set on someone." you stated while looking straight into the prince's eyes. he stiffen and wanted to open his mouth but couldn't. cecilia was stun by what you said and felt the awkward tension going on. you were lucky that there was no passerby and took cecilia hand walking away from the prince.

the prince clench his fist and grimace. if people knew about this it would spread like wildfire.

"uhhh... the prince wouldn't do anything to you, right..?" cecilia whisper when you two arrived at a place where there's a lot of student. "he wouldn't." you nonchalantly said.

"i gotta go. im sorry, cecilia." you run away from your spot and saw pardo — laying around doing nothing. you approach the cat and sit beside it, the cat notice you and sit on your lap.

how did it happened? how did you managed to bag the fastest student in the academy? either way, you're happy with the results — about you asking out chigiri hyoma for the last day of the blue lock, it spread like wildfire. it was the talk of the academy.

left and right, students will question on how and why you did it. how long? are you and chigiri a couple? their curiosity exceeded your expectations. they even went out their way to interview ana, cecilia and kira for the answer.

"[first name], are you excited for the first of blue lock event?" ana is ecstatic for the blue lock event that she even stated she didn't got a single sleep last night. "since when are you excited for this, ana?" you said while reading through your book. ana start to ramble about how she's only excited for the last day to see you and him dancing in the middle of the ballroom taking the spotlight off the prince.

"that's..."

"my lady, don't tell me you're not excited..." ana pout while crossing her arms. she will only call you my lady when she want a reaction out of you. cecilia snicker at ana acting mode.

"i am excited."

three days later...

"i cannot believe it. it's time!" ana hug you tightly, beaming about the fact that this day is the day for the last day of the blue lock event. the time for the students to relax and interact with other nobles. the time when even the emperor himself may make an appearance.

"did you already have a dress for the night?"

"i do. don't worry." you nod and put a hand on ana shoulder "you should worry about your cookies instead." the smell of burning flew into ana's sense of smell and she rush to get the cookies out while you just mind your own business looking at her being a mess.

you walk away from the scene, walking along the hallways of the palace that was made for the blue lock event only. you notice a red head lingering infront of your personal room. you fasten your step and he hear footsteps, he look towards the direction and see you. the moment he saw you, his lips raised and make a smile that's truly so beautiful to you.

"what's wrong, chigiri?"

"i just wanted to see you."

this is very bad for you health. definitely. you take his hand and enter your room. he jump at the sudden contact but didn't resist you. "then, let's just hang out in my room." you beam at him, and he just couldn't stop smiling in your presence.

night time...

"and here comes, the heir of [last name], [first name] [last name] with her partner, chigiri hyoma!"

the servant announced your arrival with chigiri hyoma. you mouth at chigiri hyoma 'be confident' and he nod. the nobles gasps that you finally have a partner for the event.

"the duke's daughter finally have a partner?"

"oh my, this is a surprise."

"isn't this an interesting moment?"

"this will shake the duke."

father, im sorry. i think i won't be single at the age of 25...

time passes in the ballroom. the only thing you did before the dancing was talking and laughing with chigiri. you didn't pay a mind to other surroundings when you are with him. some might say chigiri is lucky for having you at the tip of his fingers.

a melodious sounds started, and that means the dancing have started. people start getting with their partner and ask them for a dance.

he hold out a hand infront of you "shall we? my lady." his voice that's pleasant to the ears. you accept his offer and hold his hand "we shall."

"do you actually know how to dance, my lady?" he put a hand around your waist and start to sway left and right, getting accustomed to the melodies that's playing by instrument. "im a noble. of course i know." you slightly smirk.

"don't you think the music is getting faster now?" chigiri twirl you around and you gotta admit he really got the move to sway you over. the two of you move with the flow of the music as you felt yourself drifting to his world where you guys hearts connected as one. the melodious music of the piano and violin filled the air, giving the glamorous ballroom a romantic glow.

chigiri is the one leading this dance at this point and you follow only him to take you away, to save you, to lead you. to be the only one for you.

taglist: @seneon

[theoxenfree]

cort!! hope you've been doing well <3

this is really random but i remember you posted somewhere on your old blog you were reading this thing between us by gus moreno and i just finished it recently and was wondering about your thoughts!

finally answering this, sen! literally just finished the book after slamming it out in like a day.

first and foremost:

overall rating ⭐⭐⭐.5/5

fucked up rating 💀💀💀.8/5

MAJOR MAJOR MAJOR MAJOR SPOILERS

overall, I think it was an interesting read and a fascinating take on the whole "possession" trope while integrating the inescapability of technology, grief, and struggles with cultural identity. those themes came thru consistently and potently throughout the entire story and I'm glad for that.

interestingly, I'm actually really delighted to have a protagonist like Thiago bc he never really grows from his experiences—only dissolves deeper into his grief and struggles, still blames himself, and I think his story was really the exploration of the opposite side of grief. usually, we read novels where the protagonists overcome their grief or, at the very least, learn to accept their lives as they were by the end—thiago just sort of continually spirals throughout the entire thing and sort of relents to the fact that he's going to die no matter what he does

I don't have a lot to say in regards to the cultural identity stuff bc it isn't something I can relate to on any level—but, moreno made sure this was a pretty significant focal point throughout the story, albeit quite spotty, and other reviewers don't seem pleased with the route he went with it.

I've read some people think moreno just spent a whole lot of time trashing mexican culture than anything else, but I do think that his idea was to write about a character who came from a "hard" background, who grew up knowing nothing besides that, and never really was given the opportunity to fully escape that. sure, vera is there, and he loves her, but I feel like a big point moreno tried to make was not only the significance of having vera come from a "easy" background (both parents, never having to struggle), but to have them culturally similar to sort of... idk really drive home that Thiago holds some sort of internal resentment towards her for that, and that he could never view himself as anything other than less than.

I could be completely wrong, but that's just sort of how I ended up interpreting it. some reviewers definitely didn't approach it critically, but even tho it was done poorly in some places, moreno really tried to give the cultural identity stuff complexity and I can respect the attempt there.

uhhhh

man, I am too tired to try to theorize about what the fuck was happening half of the time in the novel, but I do think: 1) this was more than a demon, but an interdimensional entity trying to make itself "real". 2) why it was trapped in a itza I have no fucking clue 3) probably the scenes of the beach and the table were easily the creepiest scenes in the book

it's fascinating bc Thiago does a pretty good job doing everything "right". he resists. he avoids. he runs. he destroyed the itza. tried to destroy the wall. tried to do the rituals that diane suggested. he's a lot more mentally robust of a character than he was aware of it and it took MULTIPLE deaths and possessions to finally get him to fully surrender; whereas he spent the entire novel believing that he was the weak one compared to vera.

one thing I'm thinking about is that this is technically a psychological horror—there are numerous times throughout the story where reality shifts, you're not sure of your head or your ass, and what the hell is going on. I think that's partially bc moreno may not be too familiar writing those sorts of things, bc I was confused more times than not BUT

in the beginning when thiago first met the cook at that diner, he drank the milkshake and it seemed to me that the diner actually existed. just like the possessions of brimley and jacobson actually existed, but, like, idk it makes me wonder how much was actually hallucinated vs real idk

gore was plentiful, somewhat gratuitous, but not really detailed enough to make me squeamish so it's whatever. tho, not-brimley's zipper mouth of teeth and Jacobson's eel eyes definitely put unique images in my head that are gonna hang around for a while. I really digged how moreno described the cook's real body bc as being fibrous, viscous, like some sort of bug covered in something—i think. it sounds and feels like it'd be gross and unnatural.

moreno's descriptive language was quite good imo. his imagery never really fell flat and he had this way of creating very specific, saturated images in your head that I really respect and is probably one of the biggest things I took away from his writing style. that imagery definitely did most of the heavy lifting for the story bc w/o it, the writing would've kinda just... a pissed off, grieving man whining the entire time.

one thing I did find jarring was how direct he could be with some details e.g. the scene where Jacobson throws Thiago into the grave and, like, hits him with the shovel and basically scalps him—it's so point blank that I'm like ?????

like, cool. I get it, but ???????

as a writer, I understand not everything deserves a paragraph of description to make it effective, but some elements could've been expanded imo

hands on hips

the ending was pretty bleak and it was meant to be bc this is, ultimately, a man who's been chased down to the point of being physically, emotionally, and psychologically exhausted and has completely surrendered by the end with a dim smolder left to fuck with cook just as a final 🖕🏻. fitting.

I felt pretty neutral about it tbh. not particularly impressed. not really able to say it was awful. it was kinda just "eh, that works, I guess. nebulous as hell, but whatever"

and, yeah!!! it was an okay book that was pretty easy to read and shred thru. not really making any of my lists for outstanding literature, but worth the time if you wanna read something sort of gory, highly atmospheric

what are your thoughts?????

[amoneki-ramblings]

oh and also idk if the amoneki blog is the place to ask but can u tell me about ur opinion of eto :]

OH HELL YEAH !!!! I should've clarified, I'm cool with asks for anything/anyone, unfortunately I might not have as much to say for some characters/ships since. I'm still getting through the manga orz but I'd down to discuss anyone!!

Also sidenote but thank you for sending two asks?? I'm answering this one first since the amoneki ask will take me. A while. But also I read this and immediately went "eto !!! eto holy shit it's her!!" so I must get the energy out (and hope it's coherent)

How I feel about this character:  Goddd Eto is so fucking Cool as a character. She has so many things I absolutely Love in one character. She's an absolute monster in terms of power, eldritch-like, she is a horror beyond anyone's comprehension and I love her so much for that. When she made her first (I think) big appearance in :re (Volume 5. The Kanae Scene) I loved her sooo much more I love her fucked up-ness, I love her Apple and God Thing and 'breaking down people's idols and becoming their god' because I Love religious symbolism. She's so ominous and formidable and she has such a fucking presence, it's amazing, yet at the same time we still see the same loneliness in her that's prevelant in the majority of Tokyo Ghoul, but maybe even moreso. Throughout the series it's shown how important parents and family are and how they've shaped the characters and give them drive (especially considering almost nobody has both parents. alive, and it effects everyone So Much it's a constant theme.) And obviously Eto couldn't really. Have that. At all. And it fucked her up definitely. The loneliness is overshadowed by. The Monstrosity (which makes sense of course, because that loneliness also brews Hatred for the world) but it also cuts through in things like her writing as Takatsuki Sen (which Kaneki obviously picks up on and relates to), the way it shines through when she's able to deconstruct others' desires and wills and suffering (after all, one must experience suffering themself to truly understand someone else's), and the slight respite with Aogiri (man. I wish to know more of her dynamics with the members/executives so bad) god I love her so much, she also has such a cool character design I'm in love with it, I can't wait to see her even more in :re.

All the people I ship romantically with this character:  Hmm since she hasn't made too many major appearances with individual characters so far none really yet? However I feel like I may grow very intrigued in etoken, two people that share loneliness, they're also a little fucked up I think they could be interesting together (I'm certain they're gonna interact more later also i've seen. the eyeball scene (on accident) and honestly yeah that's my kinda Weirdness))

My non-romantic OTP for this character: Again I want to see more of her appearances/interactions with others more first !! But I'd honestly be happy just to see her interact with the other Aogiri executives more, it's pretty entertaining and it's definitely my kinda thing

My unpopular opinion about this character:  I guess I wouldn't really know if anything I thought is considered unpopular haha, I just kinda like her all around okay?

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: Well, currently I just want to see her more in general, although I think seeing more of the ways she can totally screw with people would be great, she is so Psychological Horror and I fully support it

my OTP: Again, none yet but there may be Something on the horizon

my cross over ship: Honestly I don't really have any crossover tg ships

a headcanon fact: I am taking this opportunity to increase the religious undertones tenfold. She can pull out So many bible references on the fly (that a lot of people probably don't get) and definitely weaves them throughout her writing (Kaneki canonically knows things from the bible, more than the average person at least, so he would absolutely pick up on them). I think she'd have some very interesting thoughts about the bible and what it says about humanity and the idea of God itself, and she definitely owns one somewhere

Hopefully that wasn't too long orz Anyways yes I see Eto in my inbox and I jump up and down in excitement I don't have a coherent list of favorite characters but she is definitely Somewhere in there and I'd let her rip my limbs off anyday Eto my beloved

[bropunzeling]

fic author Never Have I Ever brady/quinn?

oh gosh do i want to write a fic for them so bad. i am a bit intimidated just bc i have mutuals who are Hughes Bros Scholars and i am not a scholar, merely auditing the classes as it were, but like. they're besties! they had to do a stupid odd couple video for the draft! the way quinn looked at brady at his wedding gets me!!!!!!!! and while i have some concepts that i am v seriously batting around (ballet quinn you are IN THE QUEUE) i also have some where idk if i will ever get to it, and one of the latter is the one where brady gets divorced.

the thing is, no one ever gets married expecting to get divorced, and brady certainly did not get married expecting to get divorced. two years ago, he would've said they were happy and he wouldn't have been lying; a year ago, he would've said they were happy and it would've been - not the truth, exactly, but not a lie, either. they were happy, most of the time. happy enough.

and then they weren't happy. these things happen, apparently. you can try your hardest, give 110%, and it still won't be what the other person needs. what they thought life would be like and what you did aren't lining up, can't line up. hard to stay married after that.

they finalize the paperwork during brady's bye week. when he signs on the line, brady can't help feeling like he's fallen short, somehow.

the sens do okay. make the playoffs, which has happened more frequently than it hasn't in the past four years; lose in the first round, which is - also pretty typical. brady hangs out with his siblings for a few weeks, hits the golf courses with dad, tries to keep his mind off his season.

mom sometimes mentions his ex in passing, but only when she thinks brady can't hear her. brady tries not to be too upset about it.

midway through the summer, brady goes to michigan. he didn't go to the lake that much when he was younger - always spending time with his family, and then with his girlfriend, and then it was his wife, and well - there wasn't time. but this summer, he's at loose ends, and he accepts quinn's invitation gratefully.

the best thing about it is quinn is the only one who isn't treating brady like he's different, like something happened. which, yes, a lot of things happened, but that doesn't mean brady wants to think about it. brady wants to try out jetskiing, brady wants to beat quinn and then jack and then trevor at beer pong. brady wants to help quinn buy groceries and put on a party. brady wants to do circuits and watch quinn's t-shirt cling to his back. brady wants to sit on the dock and talk about nothing, the way they used to all the time as teenagers.

about a week in, brady realizes that he doesn't just want to sit on the dock with quinn. he wants to put his hand on the small of quinn's back. he wants to rub a knuckle along the nape of quinn's neck, to see if quinn will flinch, or shiver. he wants to - does, not on purpose, but he does - reach out and tug at quinn's hair. longer now. it falls in his eyes. he wants to kiss quinn, and one night, he does.

for a millisecond, quinn kisses back, and it's up there for one of the best things that's ever happened to brady.

then quinn pulls back, eyes flat and revealing nothing. when brady tries again, quinn puts a hand between their chests. when brady asks why - quinn liked it, quinn wants it, he kissed back - quinn stares at the splintery wood of the dock and says, you don't get to just - decide you want to kiss me because you're sad, or you - you don't get to. not when i -

quinn doesn't say anything else, but he doesn't have to. brady knows, now. he can read it all over quinn's face.

[anonymusbosch]

so I give mr senator Padilla my little email about "hey I see you voiced full-throated support for Israel and I think it would be cool to do a ceasefire actually" and I got a response in my inbox which included, in addition to the salutation and closing,

(begin quote)

Please know that my heart breaks for the more than 1,000 Israelis murdered in Hamas’ brutal acts of terrorism, as well as for the hundreds of Israelis taken hostage. My heart also breaks for the many innocent Palestinian civilians who have been injured or killed in the subsequent violence.

It is important to understand that Hamas – an internationally recognized terrorist organization – is responsible for the violence which began on October 7th and has resulted in the injuries and deaths of thousands. Israelis and Palestinians have both been victims of Hamas’ terrorism.

Hamas’ attacks have also impacted us here at home. United States citizens are among those killed and among those taken hostage. We are doing everything we can to support the families in California and across the United States who have lost loved ones or are anxiously awaiting details on their friends and family who remain missing. It is imperative to secure the release of all the hostages held captive by Hamas as soon as possible.

I strongly support Israel’s right to defend itself and the Administration’s swift action to provide support for our ally. These efforts have included bolstering our own military presence in the region to promote deterrence, as well as providing additional military assistance and support to replenish the Iron Dome defense system. I will be working with my colleagues on a bipartisan basis to pass President Biden’s supplemental funding request to provide the necessary aid for Israel to continue to defend itself and work towards security in the region. And I echo the President’s calls to minimize civilian casualties as Israel defends itself and works to eliminate Hamas.

(end quote)

over a thousand Israelis and many Palestinians? How many, Sen Padilla? over nine thousand and sixty. nine thousand and sixty.

going to keep doing my little civic duty phone calls. did some this morning. talked to my mom last weekend and I think I changed her mind on a lot of things. passed some info around to friends on supporting the ceasefire resolution in the House so they're also calling/emailing. idk. I want the congresspeople to hear that their constituents don't stand for the slaughter of innocents

[keroppidreams]

16 + 30 ginklara, 39 + 51 hijirei :3

quick sidenote: i did see your other message, you did not dream about sending me an ask 😂!

16. Can they stay up all night just talking?

Honestly, 50% of the time probably not. Mostly cause Gin seems like the type to get pissy if he doesn't get enough sleep oops. But, if he happens to have a nightmare or is all jittery because he happened to overhear/watch something ghost related, then Klara does her best to stay up with him and talking about random things to get his mind off of it.

30. Your OTP gets to pick out each other’s outfits; what is each wearing?

Klara would probably go to the store and choose something like this for gin. Anything that makes him a bit less raggedly while also making sure he feels relatively comfortable with lol. I can see her also choosing outfits that have a pastel color scheme. [klara vc] it's time for your pink era, gin ^-^

Gin, on the other hand...this is a hard one. Not because I don't have any ideas, but it's cause it's Gin-freaking-toki 😭that man never has innocent intentions 75% of the time. But, I feel like if he was genuine about it, he'd pick out an informal and simple komon most likely from the bargain bin that he thinks she'd like as well.

for some reason he chooses her outfits that have a light blue/white color scheme going on. wonder why. (sidenote #2: i went down a rabbit hole, looking through so many pics of komon on pinterest jpn oops)

39. Who would rescue an injured animal and nurse it back to health? What would the other think?

Reina is slightly more likely to do it, but we all know hijikata has a soft spot for animals. Just look at the kabukicho cat arc and the episode with the lil puppy...honestly, he might act like he doesn't care as he offers to lend a hand (though he'll perish on the spot if someone walks in on them trying to nurse a small animal back to health).

...on the other hand, she'll nearly get a heart attack if she catches him trying to feed said animal mayonnaise.

51. What’s a non verbal way they say I love you?

WEEPS...idk if this counts per se but i feel like since hijikata is always so busy with work, he lets her choose what to do whenever they have a date. Also patiently and quietly listening to her rambles even though he doesn't know anything about juj*tsu ka*sen (and is lowkey tempted to tell her that she shouldnt read shounen jump and should switch to MAGAZINE, the superior option).

meanwhile reina does her best to make sure that he's eating a decent meal, even willing to walk to the headquarters just to deliver him some food. she never forgets to top it all off with mayo. also i like to think that whenever theyre both busy doing their own stuff, they like to exchange letters or messages especially since they both find it easier to communicate sometimes via writing/text than verbal😭the power of toshifollow followkata!!

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary396

10/22-23/24

wednesday - thursday

ummmm. not much today to say.

we saw our friend, he came over and we talked for a while, he was outside for about 10 minutes while i was still getting ready, feel bad about that. he didn't seem to mind, it's nice out side at least, lately.

uhmmm, what else.

we talked about a lot of stuff, he's moved out, and is working a lot, and he's generally rather happy i think, or being around friends makes him happy. so he was happy to be here. having him here makes me happy, and my gf too, we both really like him and she can relax around him. others, it's harder to relax around, it makes sense to me, since he's more relaxed than basically everyone else but not in a way that's like, vegetal, like, stoned or whatever. not to hate but sometimes people who just turn into a vegetable on the couch make me sad and stuff. not pity it's just like, i wish i could talk to you more type stuff.

he talked about some frustrations he's had with other friends of ours recently. which is sad, it's sad that there are frustrations, it's also sad that like, he's not just tripping or something. it's just simple quotidian stuff nobody is evil or bad it's just frustrating when some people are like, i'll do this, let's do this, i'll do x, and then don't and then when someone is like, well just be honest with me, to be like, fuck you, about that, it's normal i think, it seems very normal for things like this to happen, but it does bother me that it does, and him, and it's also been an issue w/ one of our other friends too, since we've known him he's always been soooo flaky and stuff. i dunno. the only answer, thinking of it now, for me at least, has been to become more patient.

i didn't do much else today, i was gonna write but it's 1 am now and i need to sleep now/soon cuz we have to go grocery shopping tomorrow. probably go to walmart, her mom seems to be in good enough shape to drive. i hope that goes well. i am thankful for that, since getting some more stuff w/o having to walk very far will really help us out.

just kept thinking about man hating today as well. unproductive but what can i do. i thought about how people can get hung up on stuff online that seems meaningless when compared to the issue which is how men see people who aren't men, the phallocentrism of things, the way you're nothing or like, in some cases, you will be dragged into that way of seeing and thinking no matter what. a kind of forced conversion into being someone who thinks less of others. i shouldn't be like that about men, or all of them, though in some cases, by some men, that is what being raised by them can feel like. i will make you someone who thinks it's okay to beat kids, like i beat you, you will be afraid of women and wish to possess them, and so on. subtle arts taught by fathers who don't know how to be kinder people.

or idk. that's just a lot of bad parents. women teach that too honestly, maybe less so the gendered stuff but they hit their kids as well, i've experienced it though significantly less so from my mother. i know my gf has had it that way though.

i don't know, idk what's going through my head right now, it's just a strange sadness. it's sad to think of people as being similar, especially realizing one is really only similar in some ways that describe a general unpleasant thing i've noticed among the men i've encountered, the very frustrating ones, who make me feel like this, my stepfather is kind of a centerpiece in that, but even then... i soften on him, feel bad for him, there is one guy who traumatized my friend, and my friend he's just like, so fucked up because of how unpleasant this guy was, self obsessed and weird, a lot of these people, they all kind of have stuff like that guy, but that guy is so different too, or, not different... it's maybe that for my friend, and in my experience of him, there's less to feel sorry for. some of it for me is this sense and wish that i could make them not awful, or, no sense, just wishing, really, not so much the i can fix him of people who are pathetic and sad, like daan from fear and hunger, for instance, just like, there is some way to help someone out of this kind of fear they seem to have, and out of the walls they have, right? with this other guy, it's like all wall, and what's behind it, i dunno, it's probably just that if i could see him, i'd have the pity, and the wish to try and be his friend to make the thing that sucks go away, or less, by being his friend. but that's insane of me, it's probably some kind of egotistical thing in me, that makes me think that by being around me, someone could be less like that. what's special about me? i'm just stupid, and sometimes people think i'm funny and i like being around people. it's just dumb.

anyhow, my friend was here, and i played fear and hunger 1 for him a bit, and got le'garde and got to ma'habre, with he and d'arce + moonless. now i need to lose moonless and get the girl... then... i d k,,, hum.... i just wanna get ending a.

lately i've been listening to less music. i should get back on my usual stuff. just lots of stuff that's soothing to me i guess right now since i'm depressed. i also want to do a drawing of daan, i'll try to lay it out tomorrow.

here's a song i hadn't heard until recently, somehow:

i love siouxsie, and i love basement jaxx, not hearing this feels like a crime, it's so perfect, love love love the bass synth in this one.

also, thinking of drawings, i want to do more marina at some point. while i have this fixation, it feels good to try and use it to get better at drawing, so i wanna try and do something with her in colors, and maybe a place? who knows about that second one though. scenes seem very difficult for me. also i need to read soon, i'm such a dummy for not.

okay, it's about 2 am, so i ought to sleep,

so,

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[mokkemusic]

Since I can’t share these magazines anywhere else I may as well share them here. These are super cool and extremely old Bessatsu Friend Magazines that have Yuki Suetsugu older works way before Chihayafuru. Including her very old short mangas, Only You, Eden no Hana etc. I’ve gotten a few I bought so I’ll share them by magazine. This will be the first one I post:

Bessatsu Friend January 2001 (Eden no Hana chapters 8 & 9 2 pg color spread plus single color page.)

I didn’t know what chapters were in these till I actually got them but this Bessatsu Friend might be the best one cause it has one of my favorite scenes in all of Eden no Hana!

“Why…? If you look down on me as well… I’LL BE ALL ALONE!”

“I don’t look down on you…

I DON’T LOOK DOWN ON YOU!”

- I’m gonna break this up right here. THIS, I think this is when I knew I loved Tokio as a character. It’s the words of “I don’t look down on you.” (Well yea that’s obvious Dana) No, you don’t understand those words are personal to me. I want someone to say that to me, genuinely. And actually mean it like Tokio does here. Verbalize it and mean it.

“I just feel terribly hurt.

I didn’t have the confidence to keep smiling by your side, as if I didn’t know anything.

I’m so sorry… You didn’t want to run away from the pain, but I was the one who wanted to escape.”

I don’t know what kinda magic Sensei has I really don’t know but the way she writes the genuine honesty of her characters, especially her male characters- It’s so hard to explain without being misconstrued. IT’S A GOOD THING. She shows the clearest way of saying “we all feel pain” Tokio is so honest with Midori in this moment. I’m suffering cause your suffering. Me reading this like “you can feel that way? You can?” But I believe it! The way Sensei depicts this scene I BELIEVE IT! I believe how raw it is. And I know that PLENTY of other Shoujo and Josei manga have similar moments where it’s just like this. But there’s something about the word choices the expressions there’s just something! That I am not literate enough to put into words for you I’m sorry. But this scene GOT TO ME! :')

Same thing with Chihayafuru. It’s something she does! And no one can take this magic and put in a bottle. I wish but it can’t be done. It’s special.

Something else I also REALLY love about this magazine is even though it's kinda distracting the way the ink bleeds to the other side. I am sure it's the paper choice and I am also sure it's probably because it's older quality. But you know what? I find this really frekin cool! Don't laugh at me if other older shoujo magazines do this too this is my first experience owning one. lol

Also the color changes of the pages is neat. I don't know how they decide that or if it's just they ran out of a color ink and had to move onto the next one idk but this is cool!

(Ahh that panel right after in the second image ahhh! god I just love owning the original magazines there's something so special!)

It also contained this 2 pg color spread! I've seen this before but now I have the one from the original magazine of Tokio, Midori and Hashiba! I know, I know this is Sensei's older style but still ugh Tokio's hair here I am not a fan I'll be honest lol. He just doesn't look like Tokio! (Then again how many arts has Sensei done of Taichi where he looks nothing like Taichi and how many hair color changes too. It's a stylized choice I'll let this one slide lol.) Midori and Hashiba look great here though. (See Chalres, I am giving Hashiba compliments and insulting Tokio. Frame it if you see this cause it won't happen again. :P)

There's also another single color pg but I cannot show that one here. It's a combination actually of ch. 8 pg 14 and pg 17. But done a different way and in color. So there I gave you that and you can look for yourself if you're curious.

I think this is also the perfect time to get into my disclaimer of even though I really love the work of Eden no Hana the story is very dark and there's a lot of sensitive themes. This is my personal merch but I am by no means telling you guys to go read this. And if you do get curious from my post (for the 2 people that might see this post) please be mature and proceed with caution cause I did say sensitive subjects and trauma. You can use your imagination.

[vidyagamereference]

Fuck you (loving)

Leander:

dont be fooled ny his glowing green eyes! i think he's actually either web aligned (bc manipulation and constant lying) or stranger aligned (bc idk where the FUCK else to put necromancy but it aint the End bc that would hunt and eat him)

BUT i think a serious argument could be made for corruption. He is the thing that loves you. He will eat you alive to keep you close.

And because the man the myth the babygirl has so much going on in his pretty little head he could ALSO be a Hunt avatar (aint he special) but im tired and have been editing this for over an hour so im not explaining any more shit

Ais

I think Ais and Vere could both be Slaughter, but for Ais i like the idea of him being Corruption more, and much more seriously than Leander tbh. Esp since he has the whole groupmind thing going on, and Ocudeus acting almost as a parasite, it honestly reminds me of Jane Prentiss and the whole "being consumed by what loves you" thing. Its all about unhealthy relationships i mean, everyone has a foil in touchstarved (leander and ais, vere and kuras, mihn and MC) so if leander WERE to be an avatar it'd be because he, like Jane, was spreading the word of True love and affection. Where as Ais would likely be more like Gerry. Undeniably a victim but also too badass to take that lying down and is getting shit done about it

Vere:

Hole in one on the Hunt thing. But I'd also like to put forward Avatar of The Dark bc every mention of vere being frightening coincides with mentions of darkness and shadows. Thats all i got for that one

But a more interesting a case Could be made for Buried. Remember, too close i cannot breathe can be about oppressive feelings and symbolic burial as well as any kind of breathing problems. When veres presence is described its an oppressive force hunting the MC and choking them out, mc references their breathing a lot in his presence, also vere kills MC in the demo by choking them and cracking their windpipe. No extra chase or hunting to be done there, but lots of wheezing.

Kuras:

I think Kuras is a Stranger because he is described as occasionally making unconvincing attempts at "eat" around other people and it made me realize that unlike the others his human form likely isnt "angler fish" close (vere), or probably came first (mihn, Leander), or anything like that. Its 100% fabricated by him. Hes that one interaction with Nikola "how can i sound anything? I'm plastic silly, i don't when have a voice! I had to borrow this one."

Sen:

I think youre absolutely correct in the Desolation assessment! What is the worst punishment for anyone whose lost everything and is ready for death? Its absolutely immortality

However i also would like to explore the Hunt for her, since her only other desire is revenge. The Hunt isnt about indiscriminately stalking and killing people, it's about an eldritch god feeding an obsession temporarily in exchange for supernatural serial killers. She has a need to hunt and kill right now, who better to prey on that weakness than the Entity of hunting and killing. The Hunt has never been about mindless killing, it's always been about patience and ruthlessness.

Elyon:

Bestie your guess is as good as mine

BONUS: powerful locations!

The spring: infection centeral! Wanna be indoctrinated into a horrifying cult that thinks the same always and also never dies of their (grevious) injuries? Like a certain Jane Prentiss? Thats a corruption station baby

Senobium: i WANT to call it an eye place bc IT LOOKS SO EYE!!!! but its So secretive and its whole deal ISN'T that you can't avoid what it knows and how It Will See You, but rather how it hordes this knowledge and keeps it at a distance from everyone except those it deems worthy. Places can be touched by two entities at once so id like to place the senobium under the dual custody of the Buried (oppressive, selective, pressure filled from inside or out) and the Eye (as you said above) and maybe the casual wine aunt who visits is the Lonely (its SOOOO exclusionist i couldnt help myself)

Bloodhounds: hunt (its where hounds go to party and plan raids hunts and fuel their obsessive needs)

TOUCHSTARVED LI’s as TMA entities go

[donewiththisshitplsstop]

No I'm sorry because I do agree that if what Christian said is true and RBR employee's children are being bullied than that is categorically wrong but don't tell us that we can't call out a pattern of RBR continually victimising themselves and their employees or any individuals associated with RBR in situations that they are wrong in, victimisation that is in fact perpetuated by toxic RBR stans. Don't tell us we can't call out the negative behaviour exhibited by RBR and their employees.

RBR don't victimise themselves? The RBR that incited racist abuse against Lewis by insinuating that he purposefully with malicious intent crashed into Max only to later suggest that their golden boy had been (Rightfully) criticised for inciting racist hate against the only black driver of the sport and therefore this perpetuation of discriminatory behaviour isn't that bad. That RBR?

RBR stans don't attempt to victimise their employees? Oh the same stans that coddled Max like he was a little baby the 2 TIMES he said ableist slurs and the one time he defended racist abuse. "Oh but he's Dutch", "It's part of his culture" "He's young" "Well actually Nelson said the N-word a year ago sooo", "Hey guys I think we should keep Kelly and Max out of this even though Kelly just liked a post in which she agreed it was okay for her father to use that language and Max just suggested that every black person who was offended by that racial slur had simply misinterpreted the definition" DO NOT infantilise a 24 year old man only to turn around and accuse us of thinking RBR and their stans are the masters of being victims and making people the victims.

P.s. Also you guys totally said leave RBR/Max out of the Juri vipps situation and it was really funny because no one was acc talking about them and then u guys opened ur mouth and we remembered oh yh Max also used discriminatory language oh yh rbr did the same thing and then we realised that the only reason you wanted us to separate rbr/Max from juri was bcs yall realised that Max did the same exact thing and u lowkey agree that vips did something messed up but u couldn't possibly say that Max messed up so u just attempted to separate the two situations (well played u lil victimisers)

Oh and wasn't RBR so upset about Deitrich dying. Well how come they had a whole party to celebrate Max's victory?.

And yeah you guys bring up a very good point RBR employees shouldn't be abused for doing their job. So why was Shaila Ann Rao having her whole integrity questioned by a bunch of you guys because she used to work for Mercedes and now the FIA - Fun Fact: 4 men from Ferrari also worked at the FIA but you guys had nothing negative to say about that. Was it misogyny or sexism idk but there's something very messed up there. Oh and why is Angela always being reduced to Lewis' s*x slave when she's an educated physio like yall do kno that happened right - for the longest time Angela was not given the respect she deserved. Oh and we musn't forget the time Susie got told she belonged in the kitchen. But then Hannah Schmidt gets called a snake and you guys are so outraged. You know before hannah got called a snake Angela got called a s*x slave but I suppose you become anti-misogyny when the RBR woman gets called a snake. To clarify, it's good that Misogynistic attitudes within f1 are being combated but like where was all of this outrage when that was happening to the merc ladies. Or acc where was this attitude when ur golden boy called Kelly his "most expensive purchase" or is there a doubl3 standard in the fact that you absolutely CANNOT call out the misogyny of ur golden boy objectifying his girlfriend but hannah schmidt getting called a snake is what makes u put ur anti-misogyny hats on.

Oh and apparently Toto like leaked the budget cap info and he was the first person to know? No it was actually AMUS. And apparently Toto musn't leak info like this about RBR because the current situation on social media is very anti-rbr (do I sense some victimising) but like Helmut can accuse Lewis of taking performance enhancing drugs after he saw the fallout of Silverstone, Horner can accuse Lewis of faking injury after seeing how RBR stannies latch onto his words and unleash racist abuse. But toto's the bad guy. Funny how you teehee over Christian's misogyny and discrimination and call it 'Shitstirring' but lose respect for Toto talking about Abu Dhabi.

And the next bit may sound like me being a right bi*ch but I'm not going to care about the mental health of a team/man/fanbase that refused and often denied the mental trauma that other members of the f1 community have suffered at the hands of this pathetic team. Lance get's called ableist slur and apparently that isn't a horrific thing to experience as if it won't make Lance feel horrified at the implications and the thing is maybe there are neurodivergent people on the F1 grid, maybe there are people with hidden disabilities and what does that do to their mental health but its fine because Max is Dutch and young and he doesn't know the meaning of the language (Maybe someone should have educated him the first time he said it so it wasn't said a second time?) And apparently he doesn't use it that often and it was just a slip of the tongue in that situation but I've never heard any other driver use a slur on team radio. Have you? And if he's saying it so casually on his radio how casually is he saying it day to day life. And if he is saying it in day to day life than how can it just be a slip of the tongue. Oh and if someone was too distressed to go into the car again after a crash like Romaine's then Max would just fire them, why should i sympathise with his mental health when he himself cannot sympathise with the distress of the people around him. And the large communities who have to deal with the negative implications of having their safe sport (place) being infiltrated by a man who can say the same slurs as the bullies in school or the thugs on the streets apparently will have perfect mental health after such an incident because apparently Max doesnt care enough to apologise when a whole organisation asks for one and instead says 'not my problem' I suppose their mental health wasnt all thag important to max was it. Lewis apparently crashed into Max on purpose and that led to 200,000 racist social media posts being deleted and who perpetuated this abuse may you ask a certain team and a certain driver and I suppose that his mental health wasnt important enough to consider.

So it's upsetting that Max and the other people in charge of RBR (Christian, Helmut) have poor mental health I simply cannot muster a large amount of sympathy simply because they've perpetuated huge amounts of negative ideas/behaviours against certain drivers/teams without a single apology. The only people I feel for are the employees working their backsides off for a livelihood (I think many people in these teams are underpaid) and their children that are being bullied for a budget cap.

Also last point: don't say that we're making Max the villain by calling his Misogynistic and ableist when he has been Misogynistic and ableist. You say they're trynna make him the villain only for him to have done the villainous stuff.

[lila-skies]

Your first impression to your mutuals? (Kindly ignore if you dont want to answer :c)

okay! i won't be doing everyone, though just the selected ones who had a specific impression

@kallikrein - i've never felt uncomfortable around katie tbh. maybe it was because she was the first one who started a conversation??? but honestly, i think it's more like because katie, for me, has this gentle personality somehow which is very comforting! and she's very friendly, too and that makes it easier to approach her.

@keimisan - A GOOD WRITER. i came across mal's mikey long fic before and i loved it so much, so i tried requesting a mitsuya one and istg i fell in love ;; and i've always seen mal as this sweet, caring person even if she doesn't show it that much.

@sxlver-sweet - arba's fr the one first tokrev writers i followed. i was so shy to talk to her before but she posted one scenario before so i was like fuck it! and went straight to her inbox. what i really like about arba is that she really speaks when she has to ??? like she's not gonna let the rude anons get what they want or sumn. other than that, i also feel comfortable around her.

@haruchyio - oh sweet, sweet sennie. i really like seeing sen on my dash tbh. i see sen as a warm person! she's kind and friendly, plus she's funny too. she's the type of person you never want to get hurt and will always protect fr.

@mqnjiro - i've never felt uncomfortable around naya too. it's very easy to start a conversation with naya maybe bc she's full of energy most of the time??? but i really adore that about her.

@mqtsuno - i was shy at first, honestly. but it wasn't so hard for me to talk to chif for some reason because just like naya, i think it's because she's very lively on the dash as well, and it feels like she's very welcoming (???) as a person IDK IF I USED THE RIGHT WORD and if i'm making any sense but that's that. in short, friendly LMFAO.

@zvchinni - just like chif. she also has this welcoming (???) energy that's why i don't get so shy approaching rae anymore as much as i did before. when i don't see rae on my dash yelling about haruchiyo, i feel like something's missing. 😹

@01-20-1992 - i was genuinely intimidated before and honestly until now but not that much anymore 😭 himeno radiates the bad bitch energy (HIMENO DONT BE OFFENDED PLS I JUST CANT THINK OF A BETTER TERMHSJFKFKSKD) y'know like the popular student or sumn. anyways, even if i found it kinda hard approaching himeno before, i still did bc of the professor ran, and i really had fun talking to himeno that time soooo.

@8kh - similar to himeno in a way. i also felt intimidated at first but it didn't last that long??? i think or maybe i still am but anyways we've interacted a few times, but i think hunter's a nice person n i hope these bitchass anons see that + i like seeing her takes on tokrev as someone who can't organize her thoughts HDHDHSHAHA.

@svnflowery - we really don't talk to each other but VERY SWEET !! i hope you know that i come back to your comment on my kazutora fic from time to time whenever i'm writing smth 😭

[djemsostylist]

Hi, would you be able to rate all the dizis you’ve watched in order of favourite to least favourite?

Excellent question anon! I decided to answer this in reverse order because it's honestly easier to go from the worst and then work our way up.

The Bottoms--don't bother watching tbh

Winning the worst of the lot is...Sen Cal Kapimi. Technically it would be a three way tie with the other romcoms on the list, except that at least no one hid a whole child for 5 years in EK and KA so, SCK wins for having the single worst love story ever.

Erkenci Kus is next, mostly bc Can Yanem has a very annoying face and also bc the relationship between Can and Sanem was borderline uncomfortable to me (she seemed like a child in so many ways) plus they were both annoying as fuck tbh.

Kiralik Ask actually wasn’t bad, and I did like both Defne and Omer, but I hated the drawn out secret plot and it was just very blah in general. Turns out I think I just don’t love romcoms.

Bu Sehir Arkandan Gelecek actually had a good central story and I quite enjoyed the lead and his whole family plot. But this show featured two of the single most annoying female characters to ever exist, so in the end, this has to go far down on the list. I literally got to the point where I fast forwarded all of their scenes, they were that insufferable.

Kurt Seyit ve Sura is one I technically didn’t finish, but it was my first so I feel like I need to mention it. It was good but overly dramatic and also the ending was bs, and yes I know it was a true story.

The Middles--these are all kind of interchangeable depending on my mood

Yeni Hayat was a very boring show but the little girl was adorable and I love Serkan and Melisa is very pretty so idk. Take that as you will.

Icerde was actually really good, and the performances were excellent. It dragged on for about 10-15 episodes too long and I didn’t love the fridging but it was quite good overall.

Carpisma was the dumbest show with the dumbest characters I have ever watched in my whole life and it was supposed to be dramatic and sad but honestly I laughed the whole time and it was the funniest show ever. I loved all the stupid foursome and also the main bad guy who ended up being the best. I mean, you might not find it funny, but the whole thing was a riot tbh. It’s all about perspective.

Muhtesem İkili was excellent for the family storyline but honestly I either didn’t watch or fast forwarded through literally every single police plot. It was exceedingly dull. But the main family was excellent, I loved the actors together, and the chemistry was good. I just didn't watch 70% of the show.

Zemheri was excellent. Excellent acting, excellent drama, excellent plot, and also--excellently short. There was one very small storyline that pissed me off that could easily be handwaved, but otherwise, it really was very well done and short enough not to get exhausting. Melodramatic, perhaps, but in all the best ways. The two leads are just phenomenal.

Her Yerde Sen was also very good, and I loved it while I was watching it, and it’s probably the only romcom I’ll ever like. That being said, I literally forgot it existed the moment it ended so…

The Tops--these 4 are my favorite.

Seref Meselesi is a beautiful show. It has this sort of timeless, dreamlike quality to it, and there is a feeling almost of a stage play. From the sets to the lighting to the drama and characters, SM tells exactly the story it means to tell. It is heartbreaking, but beautiful for it. It ranks as 4th only because it’s not the type of show you’d watch over and over, but it is excellent.

Son Yaz, Halka, and Meryem are tied for tops. They combine the best of all possible categories--excellent central cast of characters, phenomenal chemistry, excellent ships (romantic and otherwise), beautiful core friendships, excellent pacing, minimal to no skippable side plots, tons of rewatchability (both as a whole and individual scenes), fantastic acting, and characters that won’t leave you alone. These were shows I couldn’t put down, ones I wanted to watch and watch and watch until they were over, and then turn around and watch all over again.