#idfk. yolo. longing

[int0themist]

back with another post abt the brain and my hatred of/fascination with it. i lived in one place for Most of my childhood - enough of it that all the memories i actually have of being a child are from that area. i moved when i was 11, and i kept in vague contact with a couple of people, but, yknow, i was Eleven. at least 1 of those people has disappeared from my life now. THATS NOT THE POINT. The point is that i still follow these people on social media, and watching them go to the places i grew up going to is so weird now. i long violently every fall for an apple orchard about an hour outside of where i grew up - i havent even been since i was maybe 9? - and one of my friends posted a photo dump of their family there and its just so.. so incredibly odd to me, how these experiences that were once an annual/regular thing in my life are no longer are now distant concepts.

[tatoasting]

I havent seeen my mushroom in a couple days (omg thats such a cringey nickname dont tell them I called them that) and I'm so excited!! I wake up tomorrow and go pick them up from work and we hang outs all day!! So excited!!!

[allsaiint]

↠  simon “ghost” riley/reader

↠  word count: 700

↠  masterlist

↠ description: simon’s demons creep up.

↠ warnings: very vague mentions of death, self-loathing, potentially cringy handling of ptsd idfk

↠ author’s notes: even now i’m hesitant to post this bc of the fandom’s general characterization of ghost but i also really like how i wrote this so-- yolo. it’s based off of a dialogue prompt (the first sentence) and completely unbeta-ed-- also yolo. i really suck at endings and at this point i’m not sure that’ll ever change.

“I don’t hate you. God, I could never hate you.”

Simon, with his head still in his hands, snorted. “You should. I don’t deserve—”

You, up until then, had remained stationary on the other side of the coffee table. Now, you made your way around to kneel before Simon. A touch on his knee made him flinch— almost jerk away before the fight seemed to leave him in a rushed breath.

“There’s so much you don’t deserve, Simon,” you said, reaching up to wrap your hands around his wrists. “This isn’t one of those things. You deserve me and this life and good things, Simon.”

“I’m— I don’t want you to get hurt because of me,” he said, digging the heels of his hands into his eyes. “Everyone around me gets hurt.”

You sighed and glanced at the file sitting on the couch beside him. One of his team had gotten hurt during a routine mission and as with all things related to Simon, it had triggered something unexpected. He so rarely talked about his past but what you had pieced together painted a very unpretty picture.

“Everyone gets hurt, Simon,” you said, careful to be as gentle as you could without tapering into pity. “It’s a part of our job. You can’t save everyone, and you can’t blame yourself for their decisions. You know that.”

Simon remained resistant, pulling away from you to reach for his mask. The trembling of his hands sent it to the floor instead, but the way he leaned to fetch it left him open and vulnerable.

Wrapping your arms around his neck forced him to stop before he could get his fingers on his only safety net and, at the risk of hurting her, he relented. Quicker than you expected, his arms came around your back, and you were pulled up to your knees to make the hold easier.

“I don’t want to lose you,” Simon tried this time, breathing the words into your hair. 

The sound of his voice was fragile and a testament to his own state of mind. It told you how you would need to proceed if you wanted to draw him back from whatever brink he currently stood on. There had been many moments like this for both of you after how long you had been together. You knew there was no way to absolve him of these feelings, but you could coax him down to reality again— at least for a while.

“I’m here, Simon,” you said, nosing at the curve of his jaw. The day’s worth of stubble scratched your skin, and you could smell sweat and gun oil and the chemical newness from the mask that he wore. “Right now, I’m right here, and I don’t plan on going anywhere.”

You pressed your hand flat over his heart as you said it. Through his shirt, it raced too fast, beating against your palm like it wanted to escape the confines of his ribs. Not for the first time, you wished there was some way to take this fear from him. Anger over a loss you could take, but seeing Simon so broken by fear was terrifying. It was an unnatural thing to witness, like Soap frowning or Price turning down a cigar. 

Simon covered your hand with his and let out a long breath. The next inhale was deep, and he held it for a handful of seconds before it was let out. Slowly, with each breath, the pace of his heart settled into something more regular, and you knew he was back with you when chapped lips touched your temple.

“‘M sorry,” he mumbled, and the layers to it were endless.

“You never have to apologize,” you answered, pulling back to touch his face with the tips of your fingers. “Just means you’re human, Simon.”

“Only because of you, love.” He turned into your hand and dragged his lips across your palm. “You remind me I am.”

“Always,” you said, smiling at the tender show of affection. Not that it was rare with Simon, but after months of pretending they were anything but superior and subordinate, it was a relief to have it again. “Come back to bed, now?”

“Yeah, love. ‘M right behind you.”

[brainweird-equilibrium]

much tw check tags I guess

more than a decades worth of frankly masterful trauma bonding has fucking got me trapped again. I escaped twice before but I don't see a way out again. I have fucking ptsd from this guy already but of course that wasn't enough. I've been having flashbacks and nightmares about him for years but I can't fucking remember or reconcile what it was about.

that song he always said was us is true. the red flags were so obvious and it didn't even matter bc he knew I couldn't do anything about it. "I will always find you... you can run but you can't hide, try" ; that's how you think about people you respect right?

back in the beginning (I was .. 9 then?) I dreamed that by this point in my life I'd have dealt with enough of my shit to be able to like assert myself on the most basic level. and I've tried so fucking hard for so long. and I HAVE got better overall. but he knows how I work too well. I have had little hope for anything in general for a long time so maybe I might as well stop trying and just fucking be someone else's idea of me. yolo right

I'm stressed. I feel sick all the time. I'm seeing things not a lot but enough that it's hard to pretend it's not happening. I am dissociated constantly. complete insomnia every couple days, which I have never experienced before. I have nobody else close to me in my life and he's always been happy for it to be that way. I'm only attracted to women but that doesn't need to matter to him of course. I have had relationships since I last got away but it's all so fake, I don't know how to relate to people in healthy ways. I can't trust anyone,I can't experience love or even affection because I'm just layers of fucking fear. and his is the face I see in that fear every day of my life. I can't undo this.

I don't know if it was on purpose in the beginning, he's older than me but only by a couple years, but last time it can't have been totally accidental. he made me who I am and it only feels natural no matter how sick and painful and scary it is.

I've been fucked over by the mental health system I have no hope for their help anymore. the drugs I was on made me just Nothing for years, no motivation, no desire, no care, and they called it a success and told me to piss off because I couldn't be bothered trying to kill myself as much anymore. every time I overdosed they just upped my dose of the shit I was on because obviously the problem was that I didn't have enough! I'm done with that, it was no way to live, and neither is this, but at least it's interesting.

drugged into nothing or living in pain, don't give a fuck if it sounds edgy anymore, I only see bad options. I can't die now bc my mum's partner is about to (terminal illness) and she can't lose her kid at the same time, I need to make sure she has people around her. but the thought of continuing longer than I absolutely have to is unbearable. I've been living so long in Nothing I might as well Do with what there is left. I'll go be A's pet human for a while maybe it'll be interesting. and if I'm lucky maybe I can drop out of consciousness, let the dissociation cut me off, and someone else can be who he wants and actually be fine with it.

idfk. whatever I have been doing has not been working

[all-hail-the-witcher]

(for that fic commentary thing :) ) Mush tried desperately to make eye contact with Blink to see if it was real, but Blink stubbornly kept his head down. Mush felt hot tears in his eyes. Surely, this wasn’t how they would end, this had to be a dream. He would wake up any second and Blink would put his arms around him and hold him close and reassure him that he would never leave him.However, it was not a dream, and Mush found that out the hard way when Oscars knuckles connected with his skull.

I should really title my shit

comments in these bad bois ()

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Mush had been on edge all morning. He listened to Jack ramble to Weasel about the strike, scanning the crowd of newsboys for a familiar head of sandy hair. Blink hadn’t been at the lodge that morning and Mush was beginning to get worried. What if he had bailed on them? (Welp that’s a terrible opening, it doesn’t even establish if they’re at the actual strike or not but yolo I’m leaving it)

Mush’s worst fears were confirmed when he saw his boyfriend walking up to the circulation gate amongst the other scabs to buy papers. His stomach sunk down to his shoes. (is that a term? isn’t it sinking to the floor? they’re outside there is no floor….Wait is it your heart?) Surely Blink wouldn’t do that. He wouldn’t betray all of them. Would he? (oh yes he would)

Mush tried desperately to make eye contact with Blink to see if it was real, but Blink stubbornly kept his head down. Mush felt hot tears in his eyes. (ew that’s cringy. can tears even be hot? I don’t think I’m using this correctly…..) Surely, this wasn’t how they would end, this had to be a dream. He would wake up any second and Blink would put his arms around him and hold him close and reassure him that he would never leave him.

However, it was not a dream, (no shit) and Mush found that out the hard way when Oscars knuckles connected with his skull. (that was a disgusting intro argh I regret writing this)

•••

Hours later, after getting beaten beyond recognition by the bulls and the brothers, Mush staggered into an ally to rest a moment. (wait what injuries does he have? im confused, should I work those out...nah) He was trying to get back to the lodge, to all of his brothers whom (is this an instance where I should use whom, idfk but it sounds cool) he knew should be worried about him, but he lacked the strength. (seriously what happened to him??) All he could hope was that one of the boys found him.

And someone did, eventually. But it wasn’t the someone he had been hoping for.

“Mush?! Oh my god. Mush, can you hear me? Oh my god, oh my god.” (ah yes I forgot to add those italics when I published whoops)

Mush blinked open his eyes to see the one person who, until this morning, he had trusted more than anything. Blink was kneeling down in front of him, concern and worry clouding his face. (I use the word clouding way too much) Mush wasn’t sure if he was relieved or terrified to see him.

Blink reached out his hand to touch Mush’s face, but he flinched away. Blink looked hurt. “Mush…” he whispered in disbelief. (awwwwwww)

“No,” Mush croaked out. “You don’ ge’ t’ touc’ me an’mor’.” (Argh stuttering and slurring is so hard to write is that even legible)

“Mush, listen I-” (sHuT uP bLinK)

“No,” Mush said again with as much force as he could muster. He paused to spat some blood out of his mouth. (Seriously boi What happened to you? If you’re that badly hurt Blink should havebrought you to the lodge instead of talking) “You b’tray’d us. You shoul’n’ e’en be ‘ere. Jus’ -”

“Michael Myers, will you just shut up and listen to me?” (FUCK IS HIS NAME MICHAEL SHIT FUCK CRAP I NEED TUMBLR)

Mush was so startled by the use of his real name that he paused his rant.

“Oscar and Morris,” Blink began, “they cornered me yesterday. Offered me three dollars (is three dollars even a lot back then?) and a promise that they wouldn’t hurt you during the strike if I became a scab. As I didn’t-” Blink paused, sniffling slightly. “I didn’t want you to get hurt. And money’s been tight at the lodge recently and I knew we would need some to buy medical stuff and food once the strike started. And I didn’t want to, believe me it was the last thing I wanted. But I had to keep you safe, I had to at least try, I can’t….I can’t lose you too.” (too? Who else have you lost? Idk but I’m putting it in) Blink wiped at his eyes with the bottom of his shirt. “But it looks like it was all for nothing cause they beat you up so bad I barely even recognized you coming in here. It was all for nothing and now you probably hate me and the boys all probably hate me so I’ll just bring you back to the lodge and then I’ll be gone, okay? I’ll leave and never come back. None of you guys are going to want to have a traitor there anyway.” (awwwwwwwwwwwww soft soft boyo I love you)

Mush stared at Blink in a stunned silence for several long seconds before reaching out his less injured arm to clasp Blinks hand. (Less injured arm? Has this kid gone through a war or something?) Blink looked up in surprise at the contact.

“I firgiv’ ya,” Mush slurred. (fuck more slurring) “Ya did th’ wron’ thing fir th’ righ’ re’sins. An’ ‘f any uh da fellas can’ see tha’...” Mush trailed off. There was so much more he wanted to say. Blink had been so brave, doing something he knew might get him kicked out of his only home just to protect him. Admittedly, it hadn’t worked in his favor but it was the thought that counted.

“Thank you,” Blink whispered, curling his fingers gently around Mush’s potentially broken ones. (pretty sure I stole this from a fic oops) “I love you, Mush.”

Mush was too tired to say it back, but he squeezed Blinks hand ever so slightly. Blink seemed to notice Mush’s rapidly deteriorating physical state (oh finally? It’s not like he’s half dead or anything get him back you moron o wait I’m the author I have the power to do that oops) because his eyes widened and he gently picked his boyfriend up. Mush let out a few pained moans, but remained otherwise quiet.

“C’mon babe,” he whispered. “Let’s get you home.” (that could have been longer but I’m lazy argh)

[jinniejohns-blog]

Get To Know Me Tag

I was tagged by this sweet cutie: @hellodarknessmyoldbud ty ty <3

1ST RULE: Tag 9 people you want to get to know better

(I apologize if you didn’t wanna be tagged ahhh >-<) @sabysabysaby @billiethebean​ @jhsxrsq​ @neckpillows​ @disastrousgguk​ @supermanscrib​ @pandemonium365​ @taehyungturnup​ @cicis-gay-pizzas​

2ND RULE: BOLD the statements that are true APPEARANCE: I am 5'7" or taller I wear glasses I have at least one tattoo I have at least one piercing I have blonde hair I have brown eyes I have short hair My abs are at least somewhat defined I have or have had braces

PERSONALITY: I love meeting new people (if I don’t have to initiate it ahhh)  People tell me that I’m funny (*shrug*) Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me I enjoy physical challenges I enjoy mental challenges (sometimes ehh) I’m playfully rude with people I know well (yeah, if I’ve known you for a super long time, you may start to call me a b*tch, but it’s like- our thing lol) I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it (”lol,” “lmao,” “yo,” “yolo,” “amazeballs,” “deuces,” “that’s f*ckin sick bro, yeeeah *dabs*” and “suh dude.”) ABILITY: I can sing well (??? at least I’m in pitch idfk) I can play an instrument (like, technically...because I can play piano by ear but don’t actually know the keys or whatever lol) I can do over 30 pushups without stopping   I’m a fast runner I can draw well (I mean it ain’t Picasso but it ain’t stick figures either lmao)  I have a good memory I’m good at doing math in my head (depends on the math tbh) I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute (I’ve done it like 3 times before, but haven’t tested it out recently. So...) I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES: I enjoy playing sports I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else  I have learned a new song in the past week (I’ve learned a new song like, singing-wise and playing-wise idk)  I work out at least once a week (I walk 2 miles every other day and do yoga eH that counts I think pfff)  I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months I have drawn something in the past month  I enjoy writing  I do or have done martial arts  

EXPERIENCES: I have had my first kiss I have had alcohol   I have scored the winning goal in a sports game I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting I have been at an overnight event (what even is that? lmao is it like, a sleepover??? idk idk if it is, then yes. if not, then ... idfk) I have been in a taxi I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year (like, for me?? no. but for someone else?? yes.) I have beaten a video game in one day I have visited another country I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts RELATIONSHIPS: I’m in a relationship I have a crush on a celebrity I have a crush on someone  I know I have been in at least 3 relationships I have never been in a relationship I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them I get crushes easily   I have had a crush on someone for over a year I have been in a relationship for at least a year I have had feelings for a friend

MY LIFE: I have at least one person I consider a “best friend” I live close to my school My parents are still together I have at least one sibling I live in the United States There is snow right now where I live I have hung out with a friend in the past month I have a smartphone I have at least 15 CDs I share my room with someone RANDOM STUFF: I have breakdanced I know a person named Jamie I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce I have dyed my hair (just the ends tho) I’m listening to one song on repeat right now (”Out Loud” by Gabbie Hanna <33 and “Mud Blood” by Loïc Nottet ahhh) I have punched someone in the past week I know someone who has gone to jail I have broken a bone I have eaten a waffle today I know what I want to do with my life   I speak at least 2 languages I have made a new friend in the past year

[robinyourbank]

21 tag

Answer and tag 21 individuals. Tagged by @merryweather0708

And yk i never do these things but why not, I’m bored

1. Nicknames: Most popular amongst my friends is probably “dickhead”

2. Zodiac Sign: Gemini

3. Height: Like 1.73 m / 5′8′’

4. Hogwarts House: Hufflepuff motherfucker

5. Last Thing I Googled: the online version of my religions book yolo

6. Favorite Musicians: cigarettes after sex are heavily played rn, but my favourite? rn? of all time? idfk mate, i dont do favourites

7. Song Stuck in My Head: None. Too tired to have a song in my head rn. its just.... empty

8. Following Now: 217

9. Followers: 145

10. Do I Get Asks?: lol this is the first personal post ive ever made, you think i get asks? (but go for it, i need something to fill my days with)

11. Amount of Sleep? If i can sleep as long as i want? like 8-11 hours? on school days, its closer to about six or seven hours

12. Lucky Number: are overrated

13. What I’m Wearing: Matching dark grey hoodie and jeans because im Cool and have Fashion, accesorised with my Beanie, yellow converse and tequila socks

14. Dream Job: death

15. Dream Trip: six feet under (but i dont want to be buried alive)

16. Favorite Food: cock uhm idk like pizza or something oooooooor like summer bbq with some good marinated chicken wrapped in bacon with potatoes made The Good Way and a super good salad mmmmmm thats the one, with some music and a sunset and good company on the side

17. Instruments: I can play the intro to welcome to the black parade on the piano and thats all my tone deaf ears can handle

18. Languages: norwegian native and therefore i get most swedish and some danish too, english, and i had spanish for five years but like everyone else who had spanish in high school i dont think i can hold a conversation

19. Favorite Song: love for a child by jason mraz will always have a place in my heart

20. Random Fact: favourite superhero is probably spideyboy. or cap ‘murica

21. Aesthetic: bro idk im not gay (kidding. very gay) but like its what everyone else says, after the sun has set in the summer on a beach with a bonfire, and the first warm week in spring and you can smell the cherry blossoms, and blankets on a lonely night, and cups of tea with honey, and laughing with friends, and cold snowy days where your nose and ears and fingertips turn red, and natural beauty in contrasts and softness and hands and bare backs. generic bullshit

and lmao im too lazy to tag anyone, if you have more than 21 braincells, congrats, you’re tagged

[peeessimistiiic]

1-100

Unusual Asks1. Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? soundcloud’s my go to but spotify is my side hoe

2. is your room messy or clean?kinda both?

3. what color are your eyes?dark brown

4. do you like your name? why?i’m not used to being called “angelica” but jelly is def something i’ve adapted well to

5. what is your relationship status? single

6. describe your personality in 3 words or lessshy, energetic, wild

7. what color hair do you have?dark brown, but in the sun it’s light brown

8. what kind of car do you drive? color? i have a white 2015 camaro and a blue gmc

9. where do you shop?what’s shopping tho? jk idk, i don’t shop much

10. how would you describe your style?lazy, girly sometimes but also v lesbian

11. favorite social media accounttumblr

12. what size bed do you have? twin?

13. any siblings?i have a deceased older brother who would be 22 this year, and a younger brother who is 11

14. if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?i’m not sure, i lowkey hate being stationary

15. favorite snapchat filter? basic hoe one

16. favorite makeup brand(s)i’m not really into makeup but the chocolate scented two face foundation is hella guuud

17. how many times a week do you shower?usually every other day i wash my hair but i wash my body everyday since softball

18. favorite tv show?not too sure, i don’t watch many shoes

19. shoe size? …5.

20. how tall are you? 5’ strong

21. sandals or sneakers? both!!!!

22. do you go to the gym? no lmfao i’m a lazy bean

23. describe your dream datehonestly bout that cheap date shit! buy me boba and pizza or burgers and we’re honestly set. i don’t care for expensive dates, as long as we can kick back and i can learn more about you

24. how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?i’m ballin’ with the $1’s except there’s only like 3

25. what color socks are you wearing? i’m barefoot lmfao

26. how many pillows do you sleep with?i hug one and use one so two??

27. do you have a job? what do you do? nah im a student athlete tho

28. how many friends do you have? hella

29. whats the worst thing you have ever done? forgave a girl who cheated on me and took her back on the spot because i was blinded by the fake love she manipulated and brainwahed me to believe

30. whats your favorite candle scent?lavender maybe31. 3 favorite boy namesluke, andrew, and dylan????

32. favorite girl namesmichaela, jocelyn, and idk lmfao????

33. favorite actor? uhm idk?

34. favorite actress? too many i’m hella gay

35. who is your celebrity crush?lauren jauregui😫

36. favorite movie? perks of being a wallflower (i think the book is better), pitch perfect, harry potter series

37. do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? i don’t read as much as i want to, but perks of being a wallflower and milk and honey (because i’m hella basic) and anything really

38. money or brains? brains turn me on

39. do you have a nickname? what is it? jelly40. how many times have you been to the hospital?too many

41. top 10 favorite songslocation by khalidlosin control by russsaved by khalidfirst day of my life by gnash (p sure it’s a cover idk)no problem by chanceprblms by 6lackdown 4 u by blackbearidfc by blackbearmisunderstood by wemmymosunday candy

42. do you take any medications daily? yeet

43. what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)lmao idfk

44. what is your biggest fear? love

45. how many kids do you want? 2-3

46. whats your go to hair style?my hair’s always layered but i like wavy

47. what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) smol

48. who is your role model? mi madre

49. what was the last compliment you received?“your pitching was good!!”

50. what was the last text you sent?“HONESTLY”

51. how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?lmfao idk?

52. what is your dream car? any car tbh

53. opinion on smoking?yolo

54. do you go to college? i plan on it

55. what is your dream job? as long as i’m working with kids, i’ll be happy

56. would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? shit idk

57. do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? FUCK YA

58. do you have freckles? nope

59. do you smile for pictures?yeah

60. how many pictures do you have on your phone? 842

61. have you ever peed in the woods? hell yeah

62. do you still watch cartoons? hell yeah

63. do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?MCD!!

64. Favorite dipping sauce? RANCH FOR PIZZA AND HONEY MUSTARD FOR CHICKEN ANYTHING

65. what do you wear to bed? minimal clothing

66. have you ever won a spelling bee?no i lost to vacuum

67. what are your hobbies?softball, tumblr, procrastinating

68. can you draw? not well at all HAHA

69. do you play an instrument?yeah!! ukulele, drums, guitar, flute, saxophone, clarinet

70. what was the last concert you saw? lmao well the closest thing to a concert was the thing a radio station did at California’s Great America

71. tea or coffee?MILK TEA

72. Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?both

73. do you want to get married?it’d be p dope

74. what is your crush’s first and last initial?Me Myself and I

75. are you going to change your last name when you get married? im not sure

76. what color looks best on you? black bitch

77. do you miss anyone right now? fuck yeah

78. do you sleep with your door open or closed?CLOSED WTF

79. do you believe in ghosts?idk

80. what is your biggest pet peeve? when people play w you

81. last person you calledlol lilly!!!!

82. favorite ice cream flavor? chocolate? idk

83. regular oreos or golden oreos? tf regular

84. chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? i don’t like sprinkles

85. what shirt are you wearing? this pink/purple shirt

86. what is your phone background?this cool ass graffiti

87. are you outgoing or shy?both

88. do you like it when people play with your hair?yes play w my hair and you can have my heart

89. do you like your neighbors? ya they give me guud shit

90. do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?ya

91. have you ever been high? nah not yet

92. have you ever been drunk? heavily tipsy

93. last thing you ate? rice lmfao asian as fuck

94. favorite lyrics right now“she’s falling but she doesn’t think he’ll catch her”

95. summer or winter? depends on my mood

96. day or night? omg both

97. dark, milk, or white chocolate? MILKKKK

98. favorite month? all

99. what is your zodiac signidk, im an aquarius tho!!!

100. who was the last person you cried in front of? uhhhh, anna????

[0fthewolves]

rip myspace

1: Is there a boy/girl in your life? Sho ‘nuff

2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them? I have.

3: What do you think of when you hear the word “meow?” Obviously a cat.

4: What’s something you really want right now? A giant wine glass of chocolate milk, a long shower and a week off of work.

5: Are you afraid of falling in love? I wouldn’t say afraid, no.

6: Do you like the beach? I like to look at it, and I like being on it at night. Beaches on a hot summer day are miserable and I hate it.

7: Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else? Ya

8: What’s the background on your cell? My fiance and I

9: Name the last four beds you were sat on? How the fuck do I name a bed

10: Do you like your phone? I mean, yeah

11: Honestly, are things going the way you planned? Much better, to be honest.

12: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts? Um, shit I don’t even remember.

13: Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler? Holy fuck I’ve had both. I love my poodle to death but Rotties are  my heart and soul. Rottweiler.

14: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? Emotional, I’d say. But only because I haven’t experienced much physical pain in my life.

15: Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? A zoo

16: Are you tired? Constantly.

17: How long have you known your 1st phone contact? My whole life.

18: Are they a relative? Yes lol

19: Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes? Absolutely not. And not only because I’m engaged.

20: When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with? A couple hours ago when I left work. He’ll be home in about 20 minutes :)

21: If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today? I have a goddamn ring on my finger as we speak, so I sure do plan on it.

22: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Yes

23: How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now? One :( All my other ones break bc I’m too cheap to buy anything that won’t 

24: Is there a certain quote you live by? YOLO jk, no.

25: What’s on your mind? Nothing specific

26: Do you have any tattoos? No :(

27: What is your favorite color? Blue or black

28: Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? In about 20 minutes

29: Who are you texting? No one

30: Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch? Yea probably

31: Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right? Yep

32: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? I do

33: Do you think anyone has feelings for you? Well fuck I sure hope so

34: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? Yes

35: Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you? Oh boy shit’s about to go down Actually no I’d probably just cry and break down into a puddle of tears, to be honest.

36: Were you single on Valentines Day? Nope

37: Are you friends with the last person you kissed? IM ENGAGED TO THEM GOD DAMMIT

38: What do your friends call you? Jess

39: Has anyone upset you in the last week? Yeah, but it’s pretty damn easy to do

40: Have you ever cried over a text? Oh absolutely

41: Where’s your last bruise located? Shit I don’t know. Probably on my hip, I hit those bastards on everything. 

42: What is it from? A piece of furniture or a door handle or some shit

43: Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad? lol every day at work

44: Who was the last person you were on the phone with? My boo

45: Do you have a favourite pair of shoes? I do I do! 

46: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day? Beanies yes, but they don’t really help :’(

47: Would you ever go bald if it was the style? Probably not. My noggin would get cold.

48: Do you make supper for your family? I help... kind of... 

49: Does your bedroom have a door? Yes

50: Top 3 web-pages? I don’t ever use my computer so Idfk

51: Do you know anyone who hates shopping? Well yeah

52: Does anything on your body hurt? Actually, no. Not at the moment.

53: Are goodbyes hard for you? Yea

54: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? HAHAHA I don’t even know I spill shit on myself every day

55: How is your hair? A fucking mess

56: What do you usually do first in the morning? Pee

57: Do you think two people can last forever? I can only hope.

58: Think back to January 2007, were you single? I was 12. and ugly. and weird. Yes I was single.

59: Green or purple grapes? Im not sure. Both.

60: When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug? IN LIKE FIFTEEN MINUTES

61: Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? Nah, I love my bed,

62: When will be the next time you text someone? The next time someone texts me.

63: Where will you be 5 hours from now? In this bed that I’m in right now.

64: What were you doing at 8 this morning. Working :(

65: This time last year, can you remember who you liked? Yep

66: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? Yep

67: Did you kiss or hug anyone today? Yep

68: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? Probably something stupid

69: Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? Oh absolutely

70: How many windows are open on your computer? Just this one

71: How many fingers do you have? 10?

72: What is your ringtone? The standard Iphone ringtone

73: How old will you be in 5 months? 22

74: Where is your Mum right now? Probably at home

75: Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love? Well I guess because I was fucking 14 and I’ve grown up and changed into a different person and things change dog idk ????

76: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days? Yes

77: Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago? I mean, I guess. I don’t really have friends though lol

78: Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7? Yep lol

79: Is there anyone you know with the name Mike? ugh yes

80: Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? Yes

81: How many people have you liked in the past three months? One

82: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days? Yes

83: Will you talk to the person you like tonight? YES

84: You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with? dunno

85: If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care? Define drugs

86: What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie? I don’t remember the last time I went to a movie

87: Who was your last received call from? Jamie <3

88: If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you? Omg I don’t know. That’s a lot of money but that’s cruel as fuck. 

89: What is something you wish you had more of? MONEYYYY

90: Have you ever trusted someone too much? Yeah

91: Do you sleep with your window open? I take naps with them open

92: Do you get along with girls? I don’t NOT get along with girls, but I don’t typically keep girl friends either so I mean...

93: Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth? I don’t believe so

94: Does sex mean love? No.

95: You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem? No

96: Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring? Haha no

97: Did you sleep alone this week? Napped alone, but not sleep-sleep no

98: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you? Yes

99: Do you believe in love at first sight? Not really, but I’m pretty sure I’ve loved Jamie since the first day we actually hung out. Or close enough to love. Idk dawg.

100: Who was the last person that you pinky promise? A lady at kroger while I was buying wine lol, she didn’t feel like checking my ID