#idek why this is longer than the first 4

[away-ward]

ok all these nightfall bonus aside, why does emmy's character reads so mousy? I knew she was scared about almost everything (she admitted this to herself in nightfall), but she was never described as so from anyone who has met her except for will or damon. But for some reason she was seen yelping about in Kai's POV?

i might be reading her character wrong here, but huh? I think emmy's character hides her weakness very well, that the only thing obvious about her home life's implication was her bity & moody behaviour and her messy outward experience. Nobody suspected a thing. Not even damon, only until he saw her in that shower stall.

or am i being jumpy for no reason? I mean, she was around 1%4 here right? Idek anymore.

also, what do you mean will and kai's chapter are the shortest? 😃 why was damon and michael's longer, like hello PD, this is NIGHTFALL's bonus content, not CORRUPT & KILL SWITCH bonuses. wtf i shouldve known this about PD already and shouldnt be disappointed at all, but i still am.

I accepted it without much thought because, as you mentioned, she's younger here. Closer to the abuse starting and maybe not as hard as she is in NF. Remember, she started out as a happy child.

This would be her orientation, as well. Martin is probably in the crowd networking, or she's there by herself. I assume she's probably got a lot of anxiety. Will is a huge personality, and it's probably still unclear to her why he's so in her face all the time.

I'm not sure if she whimpered because he grabbed a bruise, and she's just not good at concealing her reactions yet, or she's not used to people touching her much anymore. I assume it's the former.

Overall, the bonus scene in its entirety is about 16-18k words by my estimate. It felt like Damon's and Michael's went on for a bit longer/had more content than the first two. It's deeper into their friendship, and Damon and Michael had bigger issues in high school than Kai and Will. It's still really unbalanced, because even though Kai's chapter was shorter, he's still heavily featured in Damon and Michael's chapters, with Will falling into the background a bit more. I assume that it's included with Nightfall because it's the finale. Sort of "you've seen how it ended, now let's go back to where it all began."

This scene is definitely not going to make everyone happy, but I think that's an impossible task. The story started with the Horsemen and PD was always going to end it with the Horsemen. It's unfair that Willemmies will always have questions that the other couples got answered in their books, but I fear that those are things we're just going to have to answer for ourselves. At least no one can come along and tell us we're wrong (unlike me, who just had two fics with high school events replaced by this canon scene).

I at least hope you're enjoying the bonus scene posts! Thanks for messaging, anon!

[brokenmachinemusings]

literally just watching it makes me think they watched link click with a brick wall separating them. like how did they fuck up this badly. im glad u and ur sibling could make some fun of it though we always unite for this muahahaha. i also had super high hopes i’m not sure if i mentioned it on this post (reblogged it like, 2 times with additional commentary i’m not normal about this.) also whoever the new guy was that’s qiao ling’s friend i think should Explode because i haven’t watched that far but it feels like a romance subplot that’s unneeded and makes me want to rip my eyes out.

i’m so honest idek how they fucked up that badly. they tried. but they fucked up. not letting cheng xiaoshi connect to the characters he possesses absolutely fucked everything up i think. he doesn’t have to relate to every aspect of their identity (he doesn’t in the donghua either, eg they didnt completely do it with liu siwen other than amp up the playfulness), but that doesn’t mean you can absolutely scratch that. and they took longer in telling the story of some things, not allowing the audience to think on their own. god the constant overexplaining trying to make us understand when in the donghua they barely understand either. its so unnecessary and ruins it more. i think they underestimate how far sound design carries (basketball game. in the donghua, before cheng xiaoshi/chen xiao enters the game, there’s maybe one shot of them playing, with a passing one as well. other than lu hongbin’s leg being broken but that’s another topic. in the live action? they keep showing and showing and showing and it gets sooo boring and the audience is just being spoonfed.)

the diving is so. ugh. i dont even have words. i’m just saying lu guang wouldnt act like that. like thats dangerous my man. why r u explaining everything about diving upon the first meeting. r u not scared that cheng xiaoshi might change the past for his own motivations (he DID try to take advantage of the powers but it didnt work. still.)

i think generally making the choice that shiguang meet in adulthood fucked it up. like they dont have the years of emotional connection they built up they dont have the experience. its so underwhelming. like the donghua is so much better because we immediately get, oh, theyre good friends about to do a deep dive or something. but? the live action??? zero emotional semblance. made the main character lu guang (i only watched like, 4 eps btw). like they gave more backstory to lg than 3 years of link click did and i am pissed at that because not everything needs to be explained. give it time. live a little

generally the live action sucks by not trusting the audience and making awful decisions to adapt. that’s how i’ll end this for now sorry for making yet another long as fuck rant even though i could probably go on and on if i thought more (-> tired and sick rn). thank u dearly for ur reblog 💙

i am one (1) episode into the live action why does it lowkey suck. compared to nothing else its. okay. but compared to link click its literally taking the concepts and characters not understanding any of them and trying to make something w it. i wouldve been more hyped if this was an au ngl like give us museum au i would eat that shit up. dont try to tell a mediocre story compared to the real deal…

[voidstilesplease]

ephemera

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"What time are you leaving tomorrow?"

The question throws Theo off-kilter. He's catching his breath after a long kiss when Stiles pulls back to peer up to his eyes. One hand curls through Theo's hair, and the other runs from his neck to his chest and back again with supple fingers gentle on Theo's warm skin.

It takes him a moment to process the question. When he does, he grips Stiles's waist tighter, pulling him closer on his laps. Theo wets his lips, meeting Stiles's eyes. There's a strange sensation in his chest, all of a sudden. And he has to swallow through compressing airways. The foreign feelings are jarring him, and he'll not stop wondering how Stiles manages to provoke them out. With a kiss-rough voice, he answers, "7 am."

An expression crosses Stiles's face, which he immediately quells with a thin smile. He pushes back Theo's fringe with his free hand, and it's so familiar a gesture now that Theo has to close his eyes to absorb it - all the small details of Stiles's touch, the way he smells, his lips on Theo's forehead, on the tip of his nose, on the corner of his mouth - for their last hours together. If he can't bring him home, he'll take their memories.

Squeezing his shoulder once, Stiles climbs off his lap and out of the backseat of his Jeep. They're deep in the preserve, parked on a cliff overlooking the entirety of the small town of Beacon Hills.

Theo didn't want to go when his father called to spend his summer in California with the Hales. Why would he? He's sure Peter's wife wants to strangle her husband's bastard child and his half-sister Malia is bitter that she's not the only child produced from Peter's loins, or at least, the elder one in this fucked up situation. Theo also knows that his aunt Talia is just being polite and that she also curses his existence. At least his cousins don't pretend that he's welcome. Theo thought he was going back to Massachusetts with a missing eyeball or something.

Then, as a gesture of goodwill after a nasty brawl, his eldest cousin Laura brought him to Beacon Hill's best diner, according to her. That's where he met Stiles, who's working the summer as a busboy. Theo sat in a booth brooding, swearing under his breath, and Stiles had been the only one willing and able to handle his shit. Theo left the establishment soaking in a tall glass of strawberry milkshake and weirdly satisfied. For that reason, he was back the next day, and the next, the next after that, and he never stopped coming.

Theo exhales and follows Stiles to the hood, where a basket of cocoa milkshakes and muffins sit. He leans on his elbows against the vehicle, watching Stiles watch the moon overhead.

"Look into the basket. There are napkins," Stiles tells him spontaneously, without turning.

Theo draws his brows together at the odd statement but reaches inside the basket anyway. His fingers close around a stack of napkins, and he takes them out. Theo stretches his hand to pass them to Stiles when he notices something on the thin white sheets.

His mouth drops open as he stares at the drawing on the napkin. It's a boy, frowning and pursing his lips, glaring down at his lunch plate. His fists are closed, and his stiff, hunched form wants the floor to swallow him for good. Theo knows; it's him on the drawing after all.

Theo flips to the next napkin, and it's still him, with a slightly more neutral expression. The next one is him chatting with another figure - it's the Sheriff, Stiles's dad when they shared a booth for the first time. The next one is him scowling in concentration over a book that Stiles had lent to him. The next one is him smiling, flirting shamelessly at the boy behind the counter. It's all him in two-dimensional pictures sketched on fragile sheets.

"You can have them," Stiles says, leaning back on the hood with his arms. He turns his head sideways, smirking half-heartedly. "In case someone dumps you a beverage at the airport, and you have nothing else to wipe yourself clean. They're excellent quality table napkins."

Theo exhales a laugh, heart pounding, and surges forward, pulling Stiles's head so they can meet in another searing kiss. The angle is awkward, but Stiles kisses back with fervor, tasting like milk, sugar, and chocolate. They don't stop even when Theo takes the few steps that transfer him in front of Stiles, between his legs - they don't stop. Theo's other hand is behind Stiles, clutching the napkins still; he can't let go of both.

They don't stop even when Stiles struggles to say the words between licks and bites, "Promise me nothing else," he states breathlessly. "But that you will be fine after this."

They don't stop even when the drinks spill as Theo climbs and lays Stiles down. They don't stop, the tissues crumpling in his grasp, and Theo thinks he will be all right. He will count the days until next summer.

Then, Stiles will not have to draw him on napkins.

~•~

steo a-z: part 5

[zukkacore]

Idek who in my audience would still be on the h*p bandwagon but tbh I say this as a pitch both for ppl who still have nostalgia for the property and ppl who enjoy being haters (I mean, if you can withstand the salt without also getting just so so so burned out hearing about JKR’s bigotry, I know it hits me sometimes too), the Shrieking Shack Podcast is excellent in terms of critical analysis of the wizard books while also just being extremely funny. I swear the hosts xeecee and Liz have a wire tap into my brain, in terms of sense of humor and just voicing the problems I have with this stupid franchise.

I understand the stance of people who are avoidant of the franchise completely, but I do think having a better understanding of how and why the books ultimately failed and veered off in quality definitely helped me demystify the franchise as this like, untouchable thing of quality I was too attached to to ever give up but instead as a flawed work that I had grown out of and was far more at peace with letting go. I also think it helps me articulate to other people why the artist is not separate from the art. Her worldview is imbedded into her books, and especially later on, that’s why they were so mean-spirited and awful. No matter how much I liked the series as a kid, I think the distaste for the pernicious aspects of the franchise has been an… effective deterrent for me going back. And while I don’t have the energy to get into terminally online arguments, I think critical analysis is useful as a skill to give people who also have a skewed and nostalgia colored view of the franchise.

I will addendum that their perspective on the first few books is a lot more charitable and while I do agree w their thoughts, hearing nice things abt the franchise might feel distasteful in this climate, (I know it is for me) so if that’s the case and you have no problem starting in the middle I recommend starting around book 4! That’s when you start to get much more of a mixed bag.

And if you wanna hear basically nothing but wall to wall dunking, start with Deathly Hallows. Jumping in cold to a seventh season is rough but I promise it’s so worth it. I re-listen to the podcast All The Time when I’m between interests, and I tend to skip the early seasons and just go straight for the bad stuff. I’ve probably gone back to the DH season so many times. It’s brutal yet somehow completely earned. I’ve never seen anyone so thoroughly articulate my long held feelings that DH is a failure of a capstone on that franchise on all levels structural, thematic, and moral. This is not me pretending I had clairvoyance into the future bc there was plenty of shit that snuck past me as a kid (hello, book 4 was my favorite for forever) but when I read that book in like 5th grade I could just feel something was deeply wrong.

Also they just wrapped up the season where they were reading midnight sun and twilight at the same time and it’s been great. It’s way more lighthearted which has been a nice palate cleanser & I do think they’re a bit charitable toward twilight but the thing I appreciate is that their critique is more substantive than just the common reactionary low hanging fruit talking points & they have actually brought up the neglected topic of racism within the books

Also if you’re just starting and the news topics + freebies / goofs segment they do at the beginning and ends of the episodes throws you off , I get it. I love shriekcast & I do find the segments funny but they’re not everyone’s thing, and I do scrub through that stuff sometimes bc it can be long winded. For reference It usually lasts abt 30-40 min sometimes shorter and occasionally way longer.

[dontwakeme-causeimdreaming]

Evermore thoughts:

1. Willow

-already off to a chill vibe

-not sure if it’s a love triangle or her and Joe

-“come back stronger than a 90s trend” love it

-the beat almost gives me invisible string vibes

2. Champagne problems

-been waiting for this one all day

-immediately love it

-it sounds like her old stuff but is also so original and new

-dom perignon? Subtle brag

-dorm? This can’t be about her life

-idk why the bridge is reminding me of this is me trying though

-the ending note is so good

3. Gold rush

-immediately a vibe

-poppy than her others, but then again so was TLGAD which was also track 3

-immediately getting the “drinking on the beach with friends and sparklers during the summer and taking pictures with a vintage camera” vibe

4. ‘Tis the damn season

-ok so this is NOT a Christmas song

-as someone who just ended a hometown hookup relationship this song is now my new anthem

-also I just moved across the country so that’s fitting too

-“call me babe got the weekend” “it always leads to you in my hometown”

-I feel attacked

-but in a good way

5. Tolerate it

-is this also about Scott and scooter?

-“so much older and wiser” “use my best colors for your portrait” idk kinda getting my tears ricochet vibes but that could just be what I’m expecting

-leaning against Scott and Scooter the more I hear

-definitely an abusive relationship of some kind though

6. No body, no crime

-without even hearing the song, I’m reminded of the tik tok theory that Haylor committed vehicular manslaughter and have been leaving clues in their songs

-Haim is also friends with Harry so 👀

-hearing the song gives me Before He Cheats vibes though

-“I think he did it but I just can’t prove it” probably not that deep but I’m getting r*pe culture and me too movement vibes

-love the country roots

7. Happiness

-before I listen, I hope this is a marriage proposal announcement song

-ok def not marriage

-kinda peace vibes though (not the feeling the song ofc)

-but this is like the opposite of peace just the slowness gives me peace vibes

-like kinda a good message to remember in break ups that happiness is still possible bc you were happy before the person and can be happy without them too

-“green light of forgiveness” is that a Gatsby reference? Bc Gatsby is hoping the green light will be a big sign to Daisy but she still moves away anyway

8. Dorothea

-I heard the theory that Dorothea is the name of Zigi’s baby i vibe with that it’s a cute song

-don’t really have many comments on this one

-it’s cute but it gives me Hey Stephen vibes in a way and Hey Stephen isn’t my fav

9. Coney Island

-I’ve never heard anything by the National but I’m excited

-another reference to the mall... she did say in the Long Pond Studio Sessions that she was really excited to sing about the mall in August

-initially it’s not my favorite but I think I just need to listen to it again bc I do like the vibe

10. Ivy

-is this why there was ivy in her Insta from last week?

-“my pain fits in the palm of your frozen hand” omg I love that

-the lyrics in this are so beautiful and are almost reminiscent of Cold As You which is lyrically one of my favs (“roots in my dreamland” is like a grown up Cold As You)

-I love hearing Taylor swear

-overall love it

11. Cowboy like me

-this is another one I’ve been waiting for all day long

-love that this is explicit too

-my first thought seeing the name was Closest to a Cowboy her unreleased song from forever ago

-the background music at the beginning sounds like Tim McGraw

-longer than I was expecting

“You’re a bandit like me” reminds me of the lakes for some reason

12. Long story short

-immediately a vibe

-ok is it just me getting a ton of references to her older music?

-like rabbit hole (wonderland) and spinning in high heels (reminds me of both Mirrorball and Holy Ground)

-maybe this a nod to re-recording?

-I’m very tired I may be mishearing things

-the most poppy so far

-“long story short it was the wrong guy” lmao story of my life what a vibe

“Long story short I survived” this song makes me so happy idek why

13. Marjorie

-Track 13 on folklore was a nod to her grandfather and I think this is a nod to her grandmother this is also track 13

-like Marjorie is her grandmother’s name

-as someone who also regrets not appreciating her grandmother enough, this song resonates with me sm

-like I was only 10 when my grandma died and I didn’t realize what I had until she was gone

-so overall hits home super sad song but very beautiful

-love the idea that our loved ones never really leave us

14. Closure

-loving the tracking on this

-this reminds me of a friend break up

-I really like how her past few albums she talks about doing better (IFTYE, the 1)

-possibly about Karlie?

-idk don’t attack me for that just a thought

15. Evermore

-sounds like winter to me

-I like that one of the recurring themes of this album is moving on and realizing the pain won’t last forever and that happiness can come again

-idk is this about the pandemic? Is this about Emily Dickinson whose birthday was yesterday and uses “evermore” as a closing line to one of her famous poems? Is it about Edgar Poe? Whose to say?

-hot take but I like this better than exile

-is Joe playing the piano in this too like he did in exile?

Overall I really like this album it’s so good and compliments folklore but is still uniquely its own

Taylor has done it again

[liberons]

so anyways have a weird pseudo-meta on the 239894 ways levi’s character could’ve been better used story-wise

tbh i do believe yams had it in him to write a nice, tight, cohesive story where everything could’ve fallen in place well enough -- at least to the point where actions made sense with reference to established character personalities and arcs within the story. i have no issue with regression, but you can’t make it half-assed or just. entirely left-field and leave it at that and ok moral of the story i’m like, 90% sure come from being far too invested in the fandom as an author. NEVER change your story because of someone else’s opinion when it’s SERIALISED y’all.

SECTION  I .     KILL  HIM  OFF  !

let’s be honest !!!  this is the most obvious !!!  we get it he’s popular, you’ll get backlash, yaddi yadda ya girl’s tired.

(  i .  )   why didn’t eren kill him.

why

remember what levi was actually established to DO early on? the whole “i’ll take care of eren if he goes manic”? his WHOLE NARRATIVE PURPOSE? would be great if we, you know, played with that At All.

how fucking FRIGHTENING would eren’s final form be if it just fucking nipped levi in the bud? if levi, completely fine and uninjured, stayed true to his word and lead to handle eren, just to be fucking annihilated? eren has like 60 fucking titans inside him INCLUDING the activated founding. I THINK IT’S PRETTY FAIR TO REDEFINE HIM AS BEING FUCKING OP NOW.

just define some real form of tension come on.

this could’ve also just. so naturally shifted the tension in mikasa’s direction. literally everyone instinctively has mikasa jotted down as second-best-next-to-levi, both in and out of canon. it would make sense for other characters to just eye awkwardly in deciding mikasa ‘has’ to be the next one to try through the framing bias that presents. 

right now it’s like it’s not even her choice but everyone decided it would be for no goddamn reason. why does mikasa need to be ok with killing eren at all??? why cant one of YALL do it????????? and like mikasa kills him but then presents absolutely no real conclusion in doing so. we get 0 insight into what’s really going on in her head and WE DONT EVEN GET TO SEE IT !!!!!!!!!!

(  i i .  )   zeke if yOu’Re goNnA do it dO it RIGHT

to stay more true to canon, here’s way better ways zeke could’ve actually been rid of him that aren’t. regressing and dumb lmao:

zeke’s still a war chief, he’s had YEARS of troop strategy / planning up his sleeves. why didn’t he use turning levi’s squad into a means to set up some real traps because what’s he gonna do to a bomb, huh? Fight it?

or better yet, spike more than just levi’s squad and just have swarms and waves of mindless titans coming in to provide that distraction.

or have more help?? there’s all the yeagerists at your disposal and not ONE can secretly set something up with you?

overall like zeke should know levi’s skill and levi shouldn;t have to assume zeke’s not ?????????????? “willing to die”??????????? WTF????? AREN’T YOU WHY WOULDN'T HE BE?????

god anyways

zeke kills levi u know what that sets up? the fact that he’s pretty fucking clever and powerful on his own???? so now when eren & zeke team up to cause the rumbling, regardless of zeke’s original intent, would make them Far more horrifying to the rest of the crew; 

tbh i feel like this should mean moving the ‘reveal’ of eren’s betrayal to the very end of the manga when eren explains everything through path visions bc at least it keeps his moral grey area more.... grey. 

we know by the end that he betrayed zeke so it’s like ok So Yes He’s Doing Summ For The Greater Good But What and at least this would balance the scales of mass murder a lil by not snipping all the men i fucking Guess lmao god

(  i i i .  )    RUMBLE HIM

step on him 

but really he can just??? die during the rumbling???? point blank??????????? why were there not more major character casualties lmao boi

if the colossal titans are just far too many and far too boring, all the previous titans on eren’s back is so delicious and should’ve been drawn out im not sorry about it.

where’s the 349873 iterations of character x character teaming up and slowly getting better at absolutely Slicing these bastards? WHERE ARE THEY? 

i want my warriors x stray marleans x survey squads just dedicated to keeping the 9 titan iterations out of eren’s neck.

he could’ve finally killed zeke here too but i’m gonna get to that whole thing lmao god.

we've also established him getting wounded when others are involved (à la leg injury helping mikasa) so have him??? sacrifice???? to help others like finish his empathy arc

let him sacrifice himself by keeping the titans back while armin blows up idc

and for all of these — it doesn’t even have to be a quick death. let him lose a body part and die of blood loss. let his organs fail. let him get infected like yo not every death has to be in 3s flat.

SECTION II .     OR  DON’T  !

like. let’s just say there’s absolutely no way your publicist is gonna let you kill this character. you love him too much / he’s become a weird self-insert. ok sure. YOU CAN STILL DO SOMETHING.

( i .  )  why does he just. not grow.

he’s five three but does his heart have to be?

anyways fr he’s literally a huge fucking asshole and he doesn’t grow out of it. no one ever point out that it’s terrible. the biggest blacklash he gets is historia punching him like pew. and it’s not even addressed why she did that. it’s just like haha, yep.

can we get him some uhhhh??? clear empathy ???? some actual growth?? like we know he went from the guy beating eren up Excessively to forcing historia to be queen to giving armin the colossus, and then back to just slicing zeke up uselessly and caring about one (1) thing. like he was clearly on a path somewhere.

like first of all, holy fuck get over it. it’s like he had a manic episode for 4 years just obsessing over killing zeke when the game changed buddy??? it’s been established that the issue is No Longer zeke why are we so hard on this. his entire character just becomes kill monkee because his arc is DONE so if we’re going to keep him around find something else?? or CONTINUE to develop him.

make him grow his soft skills as a leader. make him learn how to stick around his team and know exactly how to fall back. 

if he’s injured, make him LITERALLY stay back and learn how to handle those he has to keep back with him.

make him struggle keeping morale. 

make him argue with some of the non-paradisians, or even those from paradis that are like what the FUCK and just learn to offer his perspective.

if he’s so obssessed with zeke maybe uh?? address that with someone???? talk it out with your therapist buddy you’ve clearly not come to terms with the fact you let erwin die and he has no reason to be so caught up by that and if he does like lmao ok let us see and understand it???

( i i .  )   do something with the ackermans

that’s it that’s the post

idek what else to put here i want this fucker dead

[baelatargaryen]

☕ + mcu fandom post endgame?

update: uhh not me realising u said fandom after writing a whole ass essay: this fandom has been so divisive since civil war tbh. i wish people would hold the writers a little bit more accountable for their writing than hating on fans who’s characters have done something they don’t like. it’s like, a lot of the uh things that happen in the mcu that people have a problem with is just a case of really bad writing. (see below hhuuhwhuwe)

prev answer: ahhhhhhhh. okay i have a couple of thoughts. so obvs, post endgame marvel is largely tv shows atm. i think....it’s a transparent business decision and a good one, mind you, for marvel lmao. i think there’s several reasons. for it. first and foremost, obvs the avengers have disbanded so there isn’t a new group to carry future movies. secondly, splitting into several tv shows not only allows marvel to launch its own exclusive streaming platform, but ensures more viewers have to watch the shows for the future movies to make sense, y’know? 

in terms of my opinions about the shows, atm i’m most surprised by wandavision which i didn’t expect to enjoy. i was worried they wouldn’t pull off the humour and sitcoms but they did a great job acc. i think both shows however suffer from pacing issues, particularly in the last episode where they try to tie everything up and it kinda falls apart bc there are too many antagonists — tfatws particularly struggles with it, i mean what the hell was the 180 turn on john walker in the last ep i’m still so ???? about that whole mess. a bit worried for loki but it’s the only tv show that probably doesn’t impact the upcoming movies as in it’s own alternate timeline.

black widow is still such an insult imo. firstly i dont think its the right place to put in the mcu - ideally you’d want the black widow after catws bc that’s when nat leaked all the shield files and her own past, so it makes more sense for her story to be situated into the timeline at that moment. the whole movie feels redundant given the character’s death has already happened, it’s like...it doesn’t really matter what happens bc u know how she dies anyway, and the emotional impact of it is lessened bc of that. the thing is i get why the russos killed natasha — bc mcu!clint has been so destroyed by....everything idek....there would be so little emotional impact with his death. that does not however mean i don’t still hate it lmao. it truly makes me furious that female characters are so outweighed by male characters in the mcu that the russos managed to kill both the only female guardian, and the only female avenger. 

endgame!steve’s arc.....i pretend i do not see it. i really do. i lowkey talked about it on my blog a lot when endgame came out, bc it was sooo regressive in my mind and since the russos set up the rules of time travel to mean things could not be changed without creating an alternate timeline (mind u they broke that anyways.), then what that means for steve is that he had to go back in the past and do nothing for the timeline to continue as it did. (meaning, ignoring his own frozen self, ignoring bucky’s capture by hydra and the soviets, etc, etc). a lot of people hate on aou, and rightfully so in many ways, but that doesn’t change the fact that there were some pretty significant arcs in that movie that people wanna ignore - one of which is that steve has made his peace with being in the present. the avengers are his family, bucky is there as well, peggy has married and has told him to move on, and even his flashback is a kind of horror sequence of pretending “it’s over, we can go home” while people die around him.

for me, i think i miss the early movies so much. the og iron man movie, and catfa and catws, as well as the avengers are my top favourites. i really appreciate those storylines the most bc they exist on their own. once we got into phase 4, and the tv shows, it felt like every movie was an advertisement for the next with the way they threw cameos in. the most obvious being civil war with the spiderman reboot. in fact civil war in general was so redundant when you realise infinity war and endgame are literally gonna be like, “yeah all of that that we just talked about? it no longer stands”, and i mean this both re: the accords, and re: bucky, bc at no point somehow in the following movies do we even get a MENTION of bucky from tony. you’d think with endgame you’d at least have one line. it could have been as simple as tony saying: “we’ll get them back cap, all of them. barnes included.” 

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[hongism]

request from @shibereomma​ :

    “Hi! This is my first time requesting an imagine but I love your posts and was wondering if I could request a 4&16 San ft Seonghwa angst with a happy ending”

oof this req made me really excited bc i haven't done one with more than one member yet so i was both excited and nervous at the same time bUT i hope i did it well and it makes sense?? idek what i'm saying at this point but n e wayz onto the writing

#4: "Why are you lying to me?”

#16: “Are you hurt?” “No.” “Then why are there bruises all over your face?"

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You and Me (and Him)

"Y/N." The voice startles you, rousing you from the partial sleep state you're drifting in and out of, but you don't look over at the person who is speaking. Rather, you sit up straight in your chair and shake your head to dispel the tiredness from your mind. "Y/N, I asked you a question."

"Hm?" You blink at the person across from you. Cat-like eyes pierce into you. You flinch under the intensity of your ex-boyfriend's stare.

"I asked you a question, Y/N." San tilts his head to the side, eyes narrowed at you and your evident lack of focus on him.

"Could you repeat it? I'm a bit tired." You scratch the back of your neck.

"Late night?" He asks, and you don't miss the hint of underlying annoyance (and perhaps lingering jealousy) in his tone. "I asked if you're happier with him." You frown at his words.

"Do you want me to be honest or tell you what you want to hear?" San's gaze hardens even further at the question.

"Why don't you just lie like you always did while we were together?"

"That's unnecessary, San." You sigh and fold your arms over your chest.

"Well? It's the truth. Something you don't seem to understand the concept of."

"San," you hiss out between gritted teeth. You shift your gaze to look around the restaurant, searching for one person in particular, and San catches your eyes drifting. He follows your line of sight, and you both look over at the tall figure in the corner of the restaurant.

"You brought him? I thought this was going to be just the two of us."

"I didn't mean for him to come. He kinda just...followed along. I meant for it to be just the two of us."

"Why are you lying to me?"

"I-I'm not. I'm being completely honest with you."

"Did you bring him to rub it in my face?"

"San, I just said I didn't want to bring him. I'm not trying to do anything, I swear."

"Are you happier with him?" San repeats his previous question. He brings his gaze back to you, but this time, the gleam in his eyes is much softer. There's more pain there than before.

"We broke up."

"What?" San blinks at you in wonder, eyes growing wider by the second, and if you had it in you, you might laugh at his expression.

"Seonghwa and I broke up."

"Why?"

"He--" You cut yourself off. The sentence that was about to leave your lips is not something you want to admit, even though it's something San would want to hear. Something Seonghwa knew before your relationship came to a crashing halt, a swift and painful break in your heart, and you remember the night he broke up with you all too well.

"I'm ending this."

It hurt, quite a bit more than you would like to admit, and you're honestly surprised that Seonghwa even agreed to be in the same room as you after how you reacted to his following accusations.

"W-What? Why? I thought--we were--I don't understand, Hwa."

"We need to break up. I can't keep doing this, Y/N. You don't feel the same, I can see it. I know you don't, and I know you still love San. It isn't fair to either of us to stay in an unhappy relationship."

"I'm happy though! We're happy, aren't we? We love each other, right?"

You had grabbed hold of Seonghwa's face to catch his attention, only to spot a large number of bruises covering his face.

“Oh my god, Hwa! Are you hurt?”

“No.”

“Then why are there bruises all over your face?"

"Are you still holding a grudge, San?" You ask, pushing the memory to the back of your mind as you look at the man across from you.

"Against who?"

"Seonghwa, obviously. You know he broke up with me the night you two got into that fight."

"It's nothing, don't worry about it. Just a small fight."

"Are you blaming your breakup on me?" San scoffs. It's his turn to fold his arms over his chest and lean against the back of the booth.

"You still love him, Y/N. It's obvious that you do, and he still loves you. I'm not going to keep you from being happy any longer. I love you but I know San can love you better."

"No, San, that's not my intention at all."

"If you broke up, then why is he here?"

"Probably because of how you acted last time you were together."

"Are the bruises from him?"

"No, no, no. I said don't worry about that."

"It was him, wasn't it? What did he say to you? We can work through this, Hwa. Don't listen to whatever he said to you."

"This isn't about what happened between San and me. It's about us, what we are, and what we aren't. And I think I know where we both are."

"Not my fault he was jealous." San spits the words out like venom, betraying his own jealousy.

"This is exactly why we broke up, San."

"What? Because Seonghwa was jealous?"

"Because you can't contain your anger and bring it out on everyone."

San sighs, and you catch his eyes drifting back over to where Seonghwa is sitting. "Does he think I would hurt you?" The question is quiet, a soft-spoken tone exposing San's vulnerabilities. Even though you're absolutely certain that Seonghwa thinks that's exactly what might happen, you still care about San far too much to hurt him with the knowledge of Seonghwa's doubts.

"No, never." You say the words a bit too quickly, but San doesn't seem to catch. "Let's not bring Seonghwa into this, San. It's between you and me." Funny how Seonghwa had said something oh so similar the night he broke up with you, and now you're bringing it back around.

"Don't bring San into this, Y/N. It's between you and me."

Even more funny though is the fact that this has never been about just you and San or just you and Seonghwa. No, it's never been that. It's always been about you and San and Seonghwa because Seonghwa has been involved in this mess since before you and San even started dating the first time.

"You asked me here for a reason, San, and I want to give you a chance to explain it."

"Why did you break up with Seonghwa? I want a real reason, not an excuse."

"He..." You trail off, still hesitant about admitting how you truly feel, but San's expression hits something in you. "He wasn't you, and it took me too long to realize that."

"I want you."

"San." There is a hint of warning in your tone. You've heard these words before, you've heard him say this time and time again, three words that weaken you no matter what. You want to be strong this time, even if you want him back.

"I still love you."

"San, please."

"I need you." San leans forward, palms connecting with the table. You press your lips together. "Tell me the truth, Y/N. The truth." And that's enough to break you, tear down your walls of defense, and leave you vulnerable in front of San.

"I love you," you whisper. "I want you." Tears spring to your eyes before you can stop them. "I need you." You furiously try to blink the tears away before San catches sight of them, but you're too late, and they fall onto your cheeks as you look at him. "I want us to try again."

San's chin dips to the table, and a small laugh escapes his lips. "I want us to start over. Well, not start over, but retry with the things we know now. I think...I think losing you once showed me that I need to make more of an effort for you. I don't want to lose you again. I'd do anything to have you back." San reaches out, hand finding yours, and you let him, squeezing his hand as he wraps his fingers around yours.

"I want to give us another chance then." San grins at you from across the table, hand gripping yours tight, and he brings your hand to his lips to land a quick kiss to the skin of your knuckles.

"I'll make sure I do things right this time, Y/N. I promise."

...

a/n: hngnhngnnhgnhngh i am very very nervous about this one bc i've never written something like this before idek if it's even goOD idek ANYTHING y'all im just sitting here Stressed and Confused and Worried so klfjioweruklsdjf yeehaw i have NO idea if this is a happy ending or nah i was feeling the slow burning angst mood

[dumbfuck-mojave]

FNV Companions React to Someone Being Aggressive Towards Rex.

@spidester basically came up with this idea.

TW: Mentions of violence against humans and animals. Some sexual flirtation. Swearing is the norm at this point

Fucking IDEK if these are out of character anymore we just roll with it. Also, shitty and inconsistent writing and react length ahoy. Also yes I lied and said this was going to be out last night but I got sick please understand-

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Arcade: Six had dragged him into Ultra-Luxe because once again, they were being stupid and trying to beat some sort of goal they had set for themselves earlier that day at the gambling tables. Rex had also come in with them, but had wandered off with his snout up in the air towards the kitchens. While Six was focusing on the Blackjack table Arcade heard a sudden yip and bark behind him and turned to see two people laughing and kicking the poor dog. They weren’t dressed like the people that would usually gamble here and they certainly weren’t a White Glove, so Arcade just assumed they were some travelers that didn’t know Six’s reputation and love for their canine companion. Also angry at the situation unfolding, Arcade briskly made his way over to them.

“Excuse me-”

“Fuck off.” 

Now, that made Arcade very unhappy. Honestly, he expected them to be rude, but was still a little surprised at how quickly they shot him down, not even trying to start an argument or anything. Yet.

“Listen, gentlemen.” Arcade said sharply, “I suggest you leave now because you’d much rather deal with me telling you how vile of people you are than for my friend over at the Blackjack table getting word of what you’ve been doing to their dog.”

“Oh, tough guy, eh? Well guess what, we don’t give a shit about what you or your idiot friend have to say!” The taller of the men sneard, getting right up in Arcade’s face. “Fucking forget it, the dumb dog isn’t worth our time. They ran out of booze a while ago anyway.”

Arcade gave them a look of disinterest as the semi-stumbled out the door. He made….. eye contact?..... with one of the masked servers when he looked away from them, who also seemed relieved that the two men were gone, probably because they had trached dust and mud throughout the entire main room.  Making his way back to Six, Arcade was going over scenarios in his head about what Six would do once he told them. Turns out one of his guessed scenarios was true. He did know Six very well after all. Unfortunately for the men, they had decided to sleep naked that night and Six had found out where they were staying through a few connections. A few hours later the men’s clothes were strung up on and lit on fire in the middle of Freeside, with the neat edition of shoving several hungry geckos into the men’s hotel room. The men ran out into the Mojave, naked and with a few flesh chunks missing from their body, while Rex gnawed happily on his Brahmin Steak in the Lucky 38. 

Boone: A Legion party had ambushed them just outside of Red Rock Canyon as they were making their way towards Vegas from Goodsprings. The system they had was working well enough, Boone had managed to climb his way up on the hill to the right of the road and was sniping them from afar while Six was up close with their ripper. It was hard to get solid damaging headshots on them since they were those dumb helmets, but if he got lucky Six would get close enough to rip one of their helmets off so he could get a clear shot through their skull. Usually, there were 4 Legionaries in a party but Caesar must have really wanted Six dead at this point, so they were currently being surrounded by at least 12, possibly even more. As Six drop-kicked two legionaries into each other, Boone noticed one of the other Legionaries targeting Rex and backing him up against the Canyon wall. Luckily for Boone and unfortunately for the Legionnaire, there was no helmet in sight. Boone lined up the shot and it entered the target’s head with a whiz and a squish. As the now-corpse fell to the ground, the group of three reorganized amongst the carnage. Rex sat down at Boone’s feet and looked up at him, mouth open and panting. 

“Don’t look at him like that.” Boone said in a monotone voice, making the Courier laugh beside him.

“Boone, you’re talking to a dog.” The Courier started on their way once again to Vegas, looking down at the dog now trotting beside them.

“You want to go see the King Rex?”

*Bark*

“Look who’s talking to the dog now.” 

Veronica and Cassidy: The girls had decided to hang out together today, without the Courier. They also had Rex in tow and were currently sitting at the Atomic Wrangler’s counter. Both of these women were at least three bottles in each already and their laughter poured through the casino as Veronica slouched over and snorted at one of Cass’ merchant stories.

“There is *snort* there is no way he did that.” Veronica wheezed out, falling into another fit of laughter.

“He did! He just grabbed that fucker by his-”

Their conversation was cut off when a man walked over to them. Much too confidently, I might add. They both looked up at him in disgust and annoyance. 

“So, what are two beautiful ladies doing out here all alone. You know, why don’t we all go upstairs and have a little *fun* together. ” The man leaned in so far he almost touched noses with Veronica. Rex had been sitting idly with his head in his paws on the floor until this moment. When the man leaned in, Rex growled and stood up, brisling at the man. 

“Dumb dog.” The man grumbled, swinging out his hand and hitting Rex in the head. Now no one knew if the man had meant to hit Rex so hard that he slammed his glass dome into the counter, but it didn’t matter now. Veronica pushed up off the counter and shoved the man back.

“Who do you think you are?! First, you come up to two ladies who are CLEARLY disinterested in you, interrupt their good time, then you have the audacity to hit our dog?!” Veronica practically yelled, drawing attention from several others in the room. Two people in particular had the look in their eyes that was almost begging to see a fight.

“Listen, girlie, I do what I want, ok?” The man growled, cut off by Veronica shoving his back against the counter, “Oh, girlie, you want to start right now?” 

“She doesn’t want to do anything with you. Nobody would.” Cass said as she finally stood up, looking over Veronica’s shoulder.

“Now come on ladies, no need to fight over me.” The man slurred, the beginnings of a wolfish grin on his face. 

Now, Ronnie may be small but she has a power fist and can fuck some people up. In a flash, the man was on his knees with both arms straining behind him, courtesy of Cass. Veronica unveiled her power fist and a spark of fear appeared in the man’s eyes as she swung it dainlity near his temple.

“I could swing my fist sideways right now.” She started swinging faster and more aggressively, “And give you a good lesson about how to treat others around you with an indent on your head to remind you.” 

“N-No!”

“Oh, come on. I’m sure it would be no trouble for my friend here.” Cass sneered, tightening her grip on the man’s arms, making him squeal out in man. 

“Please, please! No!” 

As the once confident man was damn near sobbing just at the prospect of getting hit, Veronica and Cass looked up at each other and grinned. Dragging the man outside, Veronica used her unarmored fist to hit him into a puddle of… something. The man stumbled to his feet and looked back in fear at the doorway. Then sprinted off. 

“DAMN! NEXT TIME YOU START A FIGHT YOU BETTER BE ABLE TO FINISH IT!” Cass yelled after him before they retreated into the casino once more.

. On their way back in, two figures walked out the door, following the now out of sight man. Sometimes, if you want to see a fight, you just have to start one yourself. 

Ed-E: *Pulls out laser canon* “Beep beepbeep bop'' Translation: “You bitch ass motherfucker”. Even if Rex sometimes drools on Ed-E or accidentally whips a ball at it’s shell, Ed-E will still protecc and attacc. 

Lily: Ok no but honestly and sorry to disappoint but any scenario involving her reacting to this is just them fighting, her calling the Courier Jimmy, then absolutely rocking the perpetrators shit. Like, tear that person in half grandma. I wanted to write a longer thing out….unless

Raul: He and Six had decided to stop at 188 Trading Post for the night instead of attempting to walk all the way back to Vegas. They were low on supplies, tired and hungry, and Raul’s back was acting up again. Samuel was nice enough to let Raul lie down for a bit on one of the mattresses behind the bar while Six was focusing on cleaning their weapons and bartering. Just as he was about to drift off, he heard Six’s voice speak up above the radio.

“Don’t touch my goddamn dog like that!” 

“You don’t get to tell me what to do you fucking piece of shit! Oh fuck-” 

Raul stood up and peered around the corner to see a rather interesting sight. Six was straddling some random man and aggressively slapping his hands away when he tried to reach for them, all while screaming every obscene thing they’ve ever been taught, even some things in Spanish thanks to Raul. Samuel was looking very concerned at the bar, not wanting to get directly involved in this mess while Rex was barking his head off in the man's face. After Raul managed to drag Six off the man, he found out the man was an associate of Alexander and was talking about making a deal with him when Rex came up to him to sniff his hand. Agitated, the man reached down and put his fist around Rex’s muzzle, yanking him up on his back to legs. Nothing escalated past that point as Six had entered the picture by then. They eventually decided to just walk back to Vegas that night and extend their break home, but damn if Raul wasn’t impressed and kind of flattered at the way they gracefully told a man how they were going to cut out this tongue and feed it to rats. Raul is dad.

(The insult thing was definitely a nod to one of @nuclear-reactions posts)

Thank you for reading! Requests are open!

[kingluffy]

My top 10 anime’s/manga series

One piece (simply the goat) rating 9.75/10

Gintama (slow start but great anime all round especially the comedy) 9.25/10

Black Clover ( from 3 to 10 they are was below how I view the top 2 and my only problem with black clover is my interest In what’s going on goes on and off but when it’s on it’s absolutely fantastic) on it’s day 9.5/10 but average 8.65

Bleach (Great anime fantastic was my number 1 till I watched 1 and 2 but if I’m being honest I don’t think I’ll ever rewatch it again) when watching 8.5/10 looking back 8

Magi and sinbad (can easily be third pushing second but they just stopped both series for some reason, like its really good easily recommend if your not looking to watch over 100 episodes) rating is 9/10 but it only has like 50 episodes combined

FMA (just great I think it’s overrated but it’s still a great anime binged watched it and it’s movie in a weekend) 8.5/10

Tower of God ( The manga before people get confused I was really hooked on the manga a couple of weeks ago but I stopped reading it Idek why but am now struggling to get back into it since I forgot a lot it’s really is good but idk I’ll probably get back into it before the end of the year) 8/10 but certain parts were 9.5/10

Konosuba (Gintama was the funniest anime for me till I watched the konosuba movie and rewatched the anime and I can say hands down this is probably the funniest anime you’ll watch, like I now watch clips when I’m angry or something because I’ll know it’s crack me up no matter what) 9.9/10 for comedy but overall 8.5/10

Quanzhi fashi and hitori no shita ( now these two are Chinese so probably unknown but quanzhi fashi is really good got me hooked since episode one but I won’t lie the ending of season 4 kind of put me of that’s why it’s so low before it was like number 4/5 on the list. For hitori no shita it’s first two episodes are boring I’m not going to lie and it put me of the anime twice but I’m consistent and from episode three it just got better and better and season 2 was absolutely great I didn’t have any issues with it at all, season 3 came out a while ago but it’s very confusing to me now that’s why it’s this low before it would have been at 7). 8/10

My hero academia (I’ll be honest this was the first anime that I watched as in like after childhood with dragon ball,Pokemon etc and it got me hooked on anime I thought it was the greatest thing ever until I started watching other anime’s and stuff even then I still thought it was top 5 but then as I started to watch MCs like luffy, asta, ichigo even kazuma and main girls like nami,Darkness, rukia and others, I found myself disliking delusions and oraka because to me deku was too much of a crybaby and still is and he just lacks that spark for me to be that funny mc or that cool/badass one to me he literally just feels like a child and then oraka is just dull in my opinion and doesn’t really get enough moments that being said I love everything else in the anime it they had different main characters it would be like 3-5 on my list) at first before I watched any other anime 10/10 but now 8/10

Ones you should still definitely check out

Black lagoon (current time pirates and badass characters would have been on the list if it was longer)9/10 but is only like 35 episodes

One punch man (used to be on the list and now that I think about idk why it isn’t 😂😂 it’s tied 10th I liked season 1 much better than 2 but two was ok just a let down from one imo)8.5/10 but is short too

Prison school (very funny top 5 funniest but very highly sexual)8/10

Grand blue (for me this is top three funniest behind gintama and konosuba)8/10

Shokugeki no soma ( when I watched this at first it was my number 1 for sooooo long mostly because I just felt like soma was the anime version of me always proving the doubters wrong but then when he started getting respected and feared it just lost that element and slowly left my top 10 still a fantastic anime but again very sexual)8/10

Attack on titans (great anime pulled an all nighter watching season 1 when I had a huge exam same day(dw I aced it) shows how good it is but why it didn’t make my list is just that it’s general theme I really don’t like the zombie apocolyse types of shows but aot is the only exception so yeah.

Probably forgetting a few to mention oh well hope people check some of this out to me all this anime’s are over 8/10 and please feel free infact no please recommend me anime’s you think I’ll like

[uozlulu]

Given some spoilers I’ve seen for chapter 291, I’m going to post some snipets from my giant TodoBaku soulmate AU relevant to upcoming spoilers.

I used canon-typical plot points to pad the fic and guide the soulmate plot because since the soulbond is the ability to feel each other’s emotions, it’s a very slow burn fic about growing up and maturing as people as much as it’s about Todoroki and Bakugou being soulmates

I decided to do this fic preview since some sections might change or might not depending on how the canon goes. I was trying to come up with ways to do anticipated plot points like the upcoming spoiler and Midoriya vs. Shigaraki in ways I thought the canon wouldn’t do them, so there might be nothing to change in the end. 

Anyway, warnings and such under the cut. I’ll provide relevant context to the snipets. Please keep in mind that these sections have only gone through the first edit phase so they are still rough and will be tweaked further before posting. 

I’ll probably get around to posting the fic in about idek probably 3 - 4 weeks since it took about 10 days to put half of it through the first edit. 

Okay so generalized fic summary is basically: Todoroki and Bakugou share a soulbond that allows them to feel their emotional states. When in a shared emotional state, this soulbond can vibrate and increase their quirk output. After finding each other in high school, they go on a journey from soulmates to classmates to friends to boyfriends. 

Some general warnings: canon typical abuse (though in canon it’s more implied and this gets into it a bit more than that), canon typical violence, suicide, immolation, death, kidnapping, cursing, major character death, gruesome injury (not in that order, I’ll be more exact about warnings when I post the fic properly)

So, you know, read at your own risk. 

If you’re curious why I did what I did I either a) forgot, b) didn’t notice, c) it’s in the pocket of story I haven’t read yet, d) chose to ignore it (like Mineta or Yaoyorozu flashing people to use her quirk), or e) it just wasn’t working out for the fic  (Hatsume unfortunately D:).

I’m going to post all the sections Dabi appears in and provide context before each scene. I should also note it’s my headcanon he was born just under two years before Fuyumi, making him nine years older than Shouto. 

Please keep in mind there are several sections in-between what I’m posting, so these sections have lighter moments and so forth in-between when the fic is whole

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Basically at the start of the fic, I establish when the soulbond began. The following is the second scene of the fic. The previous scene was Bakugou’s POV and established how things work in universe and teased that Midoriya’s soulmates are Uraraka and Iida. 

This scene is Todoroki’s POV because their POV alternates throughout the fic. Todoroki grew up sheltered from things like how the soulbond works so he thinks Bakugou’s emotions is a part of his brain acting on its own rather than another person’s emotional state (this will get clarified to him later in the fic)

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For a long time it was just Todoroki Shouto, one mind and one body. Then one day, his brain decided it was tired of this routine and became sentient. When Todoroki was sad, his brain was mad. When he was content, his brain was aggressive. When he tried to feel no emotions at all, his brain was endlessly frustrated. It was worrying. It was too much like his father. On television, Endeavor was commanding, confident, and capable. He dispatched villains easily and everyone complemented him as strong, fast, brave, and exceptional. At home, Endeavor was angry, violent, demanding, and commanding in a different, more stressful way. Todoroki did not want to be like that. He did not want to be two people, and he definitely did not want to harm his family.

Todoroki’s brain became another person soon after his quirk manifested and Endeavor began training him. No matter what Todoroki did, thought, or tried to feel, his brain stubbornly felt other things. Luckily it was not always aggressive annoyance. Right now, for example, it was content like a day at the playground. Maybe his brain was just nostalgic. Todoroki could not remember the last time he went to a playground. There was no way to train there after all.

It was afternoon, not long after Todoroki’s birthday. He was hungry and bored from studying. As he approached his bedroom door, he froze. Voices drifted to him from his oldest brother’s bedroom. Ever since Todoroki started training, his siblings did not talk to him much anymore. His father said it was going to make him a better hero. Todoroki was not sure. It seemed like heroes should play with their siblings, give them presents on their birthdays, and help them with their chores.

“I don’t want to play it,” Touya murmured.

“It can’t be that bad,” Fuyumi said.

“When I use my quirk, I get blisters. Sometimes I just set everything on fire. I don’t want to be Blister Man, so I just didn’t use it,” Touya said. “It was that bad.”

“He’s got Shouto now,” Natsuo said. “Maybe it won’t matter.”

“You know it will.”

A long silence followed. Todoroki frowned. He knew he should not keep listening but he could not move from his door.

“Play it before Father comes home,” Fuyumi said. “We’ll figure something out.”

“Fine.”

Todoroki kept himself against the bit of wall beside his door. He held his breath. What were they watching? Why was it so bad? Todoroki put a hand on his door and then removed it. No matter how curious he was, he could not look. He should not look. He could not get them in trouble. He should ask his mother for a snack before their father came home. He remained against the wall. He let out a breath he did not know he held.

“Thank you for participating in UA’s hero entrance exam this year!” All Might’s voice boomed.

There were hasty whispers and button pushing to reduce the sound as much as possible.

“All of you showed great skill and achievement, however, only so many students can pass,” All Might continued.

“Shit,” Touya whispered.

“I am sorry to say that you did not pass the entrance exam this year,” All Might said in a firm but not unkind voice. “That does not mean your hero journey stops here! Cheer up and –”

There was silence. Todoroki held his breath again. After a moment, the disc ejected and the laptop closed. His brain commenced a power trip. Why? There was nothing to feel powerful about. Todoroki bit his lip. Heavy footsteps sounded in a far hallway.

“I…I got to get rid of it,” Touya said.

Todoroki should say something. He should do something.

“He’s going to want to see it!” Fuyumi  hissed.

The footsteps only drew closer, making the door shake as they passed. It was too late.

“I don’t care. I’ve got to get rid of it.”

“Get rid of what?” Endeavor’s voice seemed to echo through the house.

Todoroki’s heart stopped. He pressed himself against the wall more even though no one could see him. His brain continued on its power trip with a twinge of spite.

“That’s it,” Touya said. “This is fucking it!”

Todoroki braced for the sound of a hand on skin.

Instead there was a whoosh of flames and everything seemed much hotter than it ever did when Endeavor used his quirk inside the house. 

“Touya! Don’t!” Fuyumi shrieked.

The smell of burning flesh, fire, and smoke filled the hallways and surrounding rooms.

“Touya!” Natsuo cried out.

“Get back! I’ll handle this!” Endeavor commanded. Not even seconds later, Endeavor ran down the hall and out the door. Fuyumi or Natsuo cried. Todoroki could not move.

“Why would Touya do that?” Natsuo whispered.

Fuyumi did not answer. Maybe there was no good answer. Todoroki remained against his wall. Endeavor did not return for hours. Touya never returned. His photo appeared in the family shrine. No one explained anything. Todoroki did not know when or how to ask. Rei snapped two days later and then she had to live at a hospital Todoroki could not visit and she could not come home again.

Todoroki did not want to feel anything. He could not feel anything. His brain continued its parade of incorrect disembodied emotion. Maybe Rei was right. Maybe he was too much like Endeavor. Todoroki wrapped himself in muted numbness. He would make sure he did not become Endeavor. He would find a way.

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This next scene is Bakugou’s POV. This first part of the fic explores canon events with the soulmate lens to help me get a feel for how the soulbond works and also a feel for the character development journeys both Todoroki and Bakugou would have to take. So this is set immediately after the League kidnap Bakugou during summer training after the sports festival he got tied down to a cement pillar because he didn’t want to accept the gold medal. 

This is also a scene in which the soulbond’s ability to amplify quirks comes into play. I called it the resonance since the ability for emotions to resonate together is what amplifies quirks. So for Todoroki, his fire and ice  become easier to draw forth and for Bakugou that means increased sweat production and increased explosion power. 

***

There were no windows. There were few doors. There was a bar of all things. Sweat puddled around Bakugou. When the villains attacked the training camp, everything went sideways quickly. The resonance began to vibrate as Bakugou’s sweat production skyrocketed. His arms ached from holding back his quirk. He could no longer estimate the size of his explosions. If he let one off against his leg, he could just blow his leg off instead of bust his restraints.

Bakugou’s jaw tightened. Every time his mind wandered, it returned to Midoriya staring back at him as he disappeared into Kurogiri’s quirk. Midoriya’s eyes lit with determination. He totally did not listen when Bakugou told him not to follow. How long would it be before Midoriya was here too? Before both of them were completely fucked?

The room grew colder. Bakugou froze. The mist had been cold and suffocating. He took a deep breath. The bar’s air was normal. The resonance kept vibrating. Of course now would be the time Todoroki would finally allow himself to feel so freely. Todoroki definitely looked terrified enough before the mist made everything dark.

“You can’t stop thinking about the consequences can you?” Dabi asked. He looked like some kind of Frankenstein reject and smelled of death and ash. They were the only people in the room right now while the other villains took care of whatever villains did after a successful kidnapping.

“All of us have this rage,” Dabi flexed his fingers as though his joints were stiff, “because we want control.” He looked from his fingers to Bakugou. Dabi’s laughter was quiet, mirthless, and hoarse like his voice. “Who controls you?”

“Not you,” Bakugou said.

“That’s right,” Shigaraki said as he entered the room. His voice was thin and quiet. Hands gripped his body like some kind of bizarre fetish. It set all of the hair on Bakugou’s body on end. “We aren’t here to control you. We’re here to give you control.”

Bakugou narrowed his eyes. “Then free me.” Would it be that easy?

Several other villains appeared like some reject disco revival group.  

“In time,” Shigaraki said. “We want to give you control, but we’re also not idiots.”

The resonance began to lessen. The sweat began to dry. Fear and terror transformed into resolution and determination. Bakugou’s jaw tensed, his stomach tightened. Midoriya had a dumb plan. What else could it mean? He had to come up with his own plan to counter it. If he freed himself then there would be no need for a stupid reckless plan. The resonance fluctuated between aching and normalcy. Bakugou would have to act sooner than later. Bakugou could still feel his quirk aching in his arms. He had to find the right time to act and find it fast.

===

In the fic the hospital raid goes differently like the whole Shigaraki vs. Midoriya thing doesn’t happen, though Shigaraki has been enhanced so he can use his quirk without destroying his body in the process. 

Anyway, after the hospital raid, Endeavor finds out that samples obtained from Ujiko’s lab are a DNA match to Touya. Now the heroes are doing a preventative raid against multiple targets in different cities. Endeavor’s group is targeting an apartment complex full of villains and civilians. Bakugou and Midoriya are helping Burnin’ get civilians out of there while Endeavor wants Todoroki in his raid group in the off chance they confront the villain he assumes is Touya (aka Dabi, but Todoroki doesn’t know who Endeavor suspects is Touya). The ring goes back to a theme of jewelry, adornment as an expression of rebelion. 

This sequence is set during second year in late April maybe the very start of May. It’s after Bakugou’s birthday but with enough time for students to recover to do the sports festival the weekend at the end of Golden Week. I decided to include Bakugou’s POV between the two Todoroki POV involving Dabi so it would flow as intended. When you see a ~ the POV changes. 

***

Todoroki fought Endeavor many times. Frequently as an intern he was support and rescue. Only on rare occasion did they fight in the same place at the same time and even then Todoroki was not sure he would calling it fighting alongside each other. Today was different. Endeavor was deliberate, swift, and dramatic like always. He expected Todoroki and the heroes with them to keep up and assist without direction. Todoroki did not have to blink. He knew Endeavor’s attack patterns, the pauses, the direction and intensity the fire would take. He knew when to shoot his ice and when to shoot flame.

As they traveled upwards through the building, the fighting from below grew fainter. Sometimes there were ambushes, sometimes the villains attacked head on. Endeavor motioned for Todoroki to meet him on the next floor. Endeavor took stairs to the right and Todoroki to the left. The sidekicks finished securing the villains on this floor.

Todoroki charged up the stairs as silently as possible. There was no one in sight. He looked at the numbers on the doors. None of them matched the numbers he memorized.

“I told you. Get your ass downstairs!” Dabi kicked a villain with a tiger quirk near Todoroki. There was door open at the end of the hall that was closed when Todoroki arrived.

Dabi ran his hand through his hair. In the hallway light he seemed more grotesque than he had in the dark woods at the training camp. His flesh seemed to slip from the staples in places. Dabi looked at him. “You’re not my enemy.”

“You kidnapped my friend.” Todoroki slid into a stance. He drew his quirk to his hands. Dabi did not look away.

“Still doesn’t make you my enemy.” Dabi put his hands in his pockets. His shoulders almost slouched out of their sockets, but he managed to keep them where they should be.

“Touya.” Endeavor’s voice seemed to echo.

Todoroki did not move. He kept his eyes on Dabi. Endeavor was just in his line of sight down the hallway over Dabi’s shoulder.

Dabi held Todoroki’s gaze for a long moment and then rolled his eyes, turning his body so he could keep Todoroki’s movements in the corner of his eye but also look towards Endeavor while keeping himself between them. His chest moved with each breath, and he wheezed occasionally. His fingers contorted but he did not draw flame to his hand yet. “That name means nothing to both of us.”

Endeavor approached. Dabi remained where he was. His shoulders angled like a shield. For the briefest moment, something through Todoroki’s mind. Touya with his body almost in the same position except with a hand stretched out to block Todoroki even more, body tensed. Endeavor’s footsteps loud and decisive against the flooring. Touya’s hair was pale. His flames were yellow and blistered his palm and fingers. The memory faded as quickly as it arrived.

Dabi bounced on his feet. His attention turned more and more towards Endeavor.

“Your quirk was so unpredictable, I never imagined it would consume you. It was a shock. It seemed impossible.” Endeavor approached them. “So I pushed myself. I resolved to become even stronger, even stricter. Then I lost your mother, and again, I pushed myself farther. I kept pushing, I kept winning, but also losing.” Endeavor stopped walking. His flames shrank but did not extinguish. “You started me down this road. Finding you again now is a sign that my actions are the right direction now.”

“Yeah, and that direction is down!” Dabi called flame to his hand, intense and blue. The smoke carried the smell of meat turning from burnt to beyond salvaging and intensified the smell of death wafting from Dabi. Dabi lunged forward in that same instant, his flame engulfing his arm. It plunged into Endeavor’s chest and intensified further.

A low rumble approached. The building began to shake, bits of ceiling began to crumble. Dabi pulled his arm back, his hand covered in blood and arm charred to a crisp. His unused hand shoved Todoroki towards the stairs.

Todoroki stumbled. He could He could not look away as blood oozed from Endeavor’s wound and Endeavor fell to his knees. Todoroki’s feet remained stubbornly planted to the floor as the building began to creak and squeal in agony, the shaking building. Dabi grabbed his arm and pulled him towards the stairwell. Todoroki called his quirks just as the floor gave out from under him.

~

This was it. This was officially one of the worst days of Bakugou’s life. Bakugou bit his tongue. He wanted to curse. He wanted to shout. He had to keep his voice down. He had to keep his movements to a minimum. He was trapped between floors and a wrong choice could compress the debris further. Midoriya’s teeth were just about to bite through his bottom lip. His eyes flickered up towards the debris hanging centimeters above their heads dim from the emergency lights attached to their costumes. Midoriya’s gaze returned to the body between them. They landed on Endeavor when the building collapsed. They managed to dig him out without compromising things further. Midoriya pressed his undershirt firmly against Endeavor’s chest wound, trying to keep it closed. “We have to cauterize it, Kacchan.”

Bakugou took a deep breath. Yes. Yes of course. Use nitroglycerin sweat to cauterize the wound on a fire user. Bakugou grit his teeth. Even with their first aid gear they really didn’t have a better option for such a deep, gaping wound. “Fine,” he hissed, already formulating a plan. He was not going to be the reason Endeavor died. He was not. Not after Best Jeanist.

Bakugou removed his storage tanks and gloves, setting them down slowly. He waited for signs of their perch settling with the change of weight distribution but there was no movement. “Move your shirt. Hold the wound closed.”

Midoriya did so. His lips became a fine, thin line, and his brow furrowed with focus.

Bakugou took a deep breath and thought about a small amount of pressure, small sparks, a line of very excited tiny sparklers. He took two fingers and showered the wound with sparks, energetic but controlled. It did not work. Endeavor’s skin was too used to heat. Bakugou grit his teeth.

“Maybe if you –”

“Shut it.”

Midoriya surprisingly did. Bakugou breathed through his nose. Fire resistant skin meant higher heat. But even with a low level explosion he could cause organ damage. Sweat trailed down his forehead and nose in the heat. The resonance remained quiet. Bakugou frowned deeper. “I need metal.”

“My mask,” Midoriya said. “Use it. Destroy it.”

Bakugou freed it from Midoriya’s costume. He put his glove on his right hand and began heating it with his quirk from his left hand, trying to keep everything low-level. The metal did not warp or melt. It did heat. When he could feel the heat through his glove, he pressed the metal along Endeavor’s wound. The wound finally sealed.

Midoriya leaned back and removed his hands. Bakugou set the mask aside and put his gear back on his arms. If he wore them, he had more control on their weight distribution.

Endeavor continued to breathe. There were no other sounds.

“It’s eerie when you can’t feel them isn’t it?” Midoriya murmured after a long time.

Bakugou did not answer. He had not thought of Todoroki since finding himself in this collapsed hellscape. He searched the resonance a moment. There was only a dull buzz like there was when Todoroki slept.

“I can’t feel either of them,” Midoriya murmured. “They were probably on the ground floor when it happened. They were both in the final wave.” He continued to murmur to himself, his voice becoming quieter and hard to distinguish syllables.

Bakugou’s jaw tensed. The constant whispery noise almost made his ears hurt and set his brain on fire. He should probably tell Midoriya why he hated it, but then Midoriya would write it in one of those notebooks and who knew what would happen when villains got their hands on those things. Bakugou took a deep breath. He could not shout. He could not lunge for Midoriya either. “Will you shut up?!” he managed a gruff hiss.

Midoriya blinked. “Ah…sorry.”

Bakugou kept his eyes on Endeavor. He was still breathing. They already sent out a distress signal. Now all they had to do was wait.

~

Todoroki opened his eyes and then immediately closed them when his futon shook beneath him. Something gave way and he fell just a second before everything settled. He groaned and coughed, dust filling his lungs. When did his room get this dusty? Why was his futon so uncomfortable? He opened his eyes and blinked. Everything was completely dark. It felt like the ceiling was much closer than it should be. Debris seemed to lay underneath him instead of a futon. He was not in the dorm or in his bedroom. What was the last thing he remembered? His head hurt too much.

“I wouldn’t sit up if I were you,” a voice rasped.

Todoroki’s instincts and the dizziness in his head agreed. He tried to ignore his growing nausea. The resonance was full of sharp annoyance and frustration, maybe fear. It was hard to discern. It did not quite feel normal, but it was a good sign. Wherever Bakugou was, he was awake and possibly with Midoriya.

“You should talk,” the voice said.  

Todoroki tried to place it, but it was hard to concentrate. The person seemed to be laying down nearby. The smell of death wafted from the same place. “Why?”

“Because you hit your head.”

Todoroki’s eyebrows drew together. He went to touch his head and then reconsidered and lowered his arm.

“Tell me about the ring.”

“It’s just a ring.”

“Endeavor wouldn’t think so.”

Todoroki frowned. “How would you know?”

“I’m his number one enemy.”

Todoroki tried to see in the darkness. There was nothing to see. “I like the ring.”

“Good. You’re not completely their dog then.”

“I’m not…a dog…” It was hard to make words. Maybe he really did have a head injury.

“All heroes are dogs.”

“No…. Just the dog ones.”

“Which are all of them.”

Todoroki opened his mouth and closed it. He tried to focus on Bakugou’s emotions. If he could just latch onto them, maybe he could stay conscious. There was more fear now and stress. Whatever was happening wherever Bakugou was must be dire and terrifying. Maybe the adrenaline would transfer.

“Shouto, keep talking.”

Todoroki opened his mouth but there were no words. His eyes fluttered closed. The darkness seemed less claustrophobic this way.

Todoroki opened his eyes. Sun filtered into a white room. The smell of death was gone, replaced by something distinct but sterile. An alarm somewhere kept ringing. It was near and then far, left and then right. Maybe there was more than one alarm. Activity rushed past. Todoroki’s brain could not focus or process it beyond acknowledgement. He tried to speak but only managed a faint graon.

“Oi!” Bakugou’s voice rose above the din before saying something unintelligible. Someone answered from nearby. Midoriya also said something. Todoroki could not process any of it. He closed his eyes.

Todoroki’s eyes opened again. The room was white again but this time there was barely any light. There was a television in the corner. There was an IV hookup in his arm and a heart monitor clamped to his finger. Fuyumi sat in a chair beside him, using a reading light to work from a binder. Todoroki blinked. Fuyumi was still there.

“What…?” his voice barely functioned.

Fuyumi closed the binder, turned off her light, and set both aside. “You’re in the hospital. Looks like the doctor’s quirk finally worked. I have to call the nurse now.” She reached over and hit the button by Todoroki’s bedside.

A medical team appeared and started poking and prodding. Todoroki slowly sat up when allowed. There was no dizziness or pain. After some water, his voice began to work properly. This was his second day at the hospital. He was in and out of consciousness for that entire time due to a healing cranial injury. He also sustained an injury to his left side, but it healed first and even when Todoroki prodded his side through his hospital gown, he felt no evidence of it.

“We should be able to release you tomorrow morning,” the doctor said. “Unless there are any more complications in the healing process. These types of injuries are always difficult even with my quirk.”

There was a long silence after the medical team left. The clock said it was about the time Todoroki would turn in for the night. He did not feel sleepy, though he could feel Bakugou’s sleepiness, exhaustion, and stress acutely.

“What do you remember last?” Fuyumi’s voice was quiet.

Bakugou and Midoriya were there, but maybe it was Dabi. It was dusty but also sterile. Strong terror and yellow flame flickered. He might have used his quirk in a building. There was blood. So much blood. Whose blood? What was clear? Endeavor must have been there but Todoroki could not remember. What was clear? What was solid? “Waiting for the signal,” he said. The memory was well before sunrise. Everyone was silent. Endeavor was just seconds from turning his flame on full. It felt real.

Fuyumi frowned. She tugged at her bottom lip in thought. “Shouto,” she said carefully, looking towards him in the dim light, “Father’s also a patient here.”

Todoroki tensed.

“They told me there was a building collapse. That makes sense with your injuries, but his…” her voice trailed.

Todoroki shivered involuntarily. His first thought was blood, All that blood. Except there was no source. Just blood. “What happened?”

Fuyumi continued in the careful voice, choosing her words deliberately. “Something happened to burrow into his chest and damage his heart. They’ve done all the healing they can, but the injury weakened his heart significantly.” Fuyumi paused to let Todoroki process the information. Then she said in a quiet voice, “They’re optimistic about his prognosis, but he’ll have to retire.”

Todoroki pulled his blankets up around himself. Even his right side felt cold. What if Endeavor did die? What if Endeavor did not die? What would retirement even look like? What would Endeavor do with that much free time? What would an Endeavor who could not use his quirk at full power be like? Would he just push himself to death even if he survived?

“I’m going to help while I can,” Fuyumi said. “So, don’t worry about Father.”

Todoroki’s frown deepened. Was he worried? Was he relieved? Guilty? Afraid? Which emotion went with which outcome? “You don’t have to do that.”

“I…I know.” Fuyumi stretched her legs out and looked down at her hands on her lap. Her lips pressed into a thin line. “But I want to. I know our childhood was beyond stressful, but things aren’t so stressful now. Maybe it can keep improving.”

Todoroki did not know what to say. Staff walked past their room. Someone’s heart monitor crashed across the hallway. There was a rush to help.

“Your friends are okay,” Fuyumi said. “I’m not sure about your classmates or teachers.”

Todoroki nodded. He was one of the people everyone waited for this time. They probably made food for him. How many others had not returned? Did they get up early and fall asleep in the common room waiting again? They should not sleep on the sofas for his sake. His shoulders slumped and he ran the hand without the IV hookup through his hair.

“Why don’t you lie down?” Fuyumi suggested. “You’re still recovering.”

Todoroki did so. Slowly exhaustion crept over him. He did not remember falling asleep.

 ===

One of the points of the fic is to get Todoroki, Bakugou, and Midoriya to a point in which all three of them become something different than they set out to become as first years. Todoroki steps out of Endeavor’s shadow, Bakugou becomes less of a King Explosion Murder, and Midoriya diverges from being an All Might clone. Part of what encourages these journeys is the corruption of the Hero Commission. That’s why, after Dabi’s captured after the building collapse, this scene happens because the Hero Commission wants what it wants and what it wants right now is confirmation that Dabi is Touya and also confirmation none of the Todoroki sibligns are working with him. 

Narratively though I wanted to do this scene so Natsuo and Fuyumi are now both in on the Touya is Dabi circle. 

This takes place after Todoroki is released from the hospital following recovering from injuries sustained in the raid from the previous section. The reason they’re not at Tartarus is Shigaraki eroded Tartarus when he broke Kurogiri out of prison a few sections ago. 

***

Golden Week meant a break from internships in lieu of the sports festival and this year also meant a time for recovery from the recent raid. Today was one of the days off school, and Class 2-A planned an outdoor lunch. It sounded fun, but Todoroki would have to skip it. That morning, All Might arrived at the dorms to collect him with Detective Tsukauchi. They picked up Fuyumi and Natsuo and began a long drive. Detective Tsukauchi drove, choosing a playlist that had a mix of music from several decades. All Might hummed along quietly frequently especially to the songs that were in English.

The car ride kept going. Where? No one would say. Why? Still no answers. Todoroki stared out the window as mountains, houses, and fields passed. They were on the road with the whole of Japan it felt like. When Detective Tsukauchi turned off the music, they entered a section of tunnel that required his ID.

There were several forms to fill out, all of which Fuyumi had to sign as Todoroki’s present guardian. There were still no details.

“It’s like we’re going to meet a prisoner or something,” Natsuo murmured.

“What else would it be?” Fuyumi whispered.

“But why?” Natsuo whispered.

Todoroki said nothing. He glanced at All Might. All Might kept watch.

Once the papers were signed, All Might cleared his throat. “I’m sorry we could not say anything sooner. This matter is highly confidential.”

“About what?” Natsuo asked.

“Even I am unsure of all the details.” All Might���s eyes seemed to soften. His lips were a thin line.

Todoroki stared at him for a long moment. He glanced at Natsuo and Fuyumi. Natsuo’s jaw tensed. Fuyumi stood straighter.

“Are we in danger?” Fuyumi asked.

“No,” All Might said.

“Is this something Shouto should really be doing?” Fuyumi asked.

“The Hero Commission believes so.”

“But do you?”

All Might was quiet a long moment. “From what I understand, there is no reason he should not.”  

Todoroki watched All Might’s face. It was that face when Midoriya broke his fingers. The face when Bakugou and Midoriya fought after the kidnapping. That face. All Might did not like this. Todoroki tensed and looked around them. There was no one out of place. There were no windows. There were only two doors in view. His eyes returned to All Might. All Might held his gaze. “You are all safe,” All Might mouthed.

It seemed that way. Todoroki remained silent. He followed his siblings, Detective Tsukauchi, and a pro with a wasp theme down the hall. All Might brought up the rear. There was an observation room at the end of the hall. The siblings sat in the chairs provided. The room on the other side of the glass was dark.

“I will be outside the door,” All Might said. He closed it behind him. The siblings were alone.

“I don’t like this,” Natsuo whispered.

“If they were going to do something I think they would have done it by now,” Fuyumi whispered.

Todoroki remained silent.

The lights in the other room turned on. Todoroki’s heart caught in his throat but in a way vastly different from how it moved when he was around Bakugou. Fuyumi froze, her fingers curving but not quite curling.

“Touya!” Natsuo exclaimed, his voice thin.

Dabi stared at them. He was strapped to a chair and there were reinforced gloves on his hands to smother ignition. He laughed a dry, hoarse cough. “The assholes running this place must be desperate for fun.”

Fuyumi’s fingers curled into fists. Todoroki tried to keep his attention forward. He tried to keep his mind focused. It kept flickering back to the villain raid. The fire. The blood. The collapse….

“This doesn’t make any sense.” Natsuo said. “What the hell is this? What kind of sick entertainment….?” his voice thinned further. “How long have you been alive?”

“Who said I was alive?” Dabi snorted. “Surprised you were let in here without the chimney to supervise.”

“I’m in charge here,” Fuyumi said firmly. Her gazed locked with Dabi’s gaze.

“Ooooo….teacher voice,” Dabi said. “What are you going to do? Expel me?”

“I’m in charge here,” Fuyumi repeated. “This is cruel and unusual punishment for all of us. I work hard. I don’t use my quirk on others. I pay our bills. I make sure everyone has what they need. What has Natsuo and Shouto done to deserve this shock? Why couldn’t you people tell me and let me handle this? I’m the oldest. This is my burden. There was no reason to do this to my brothers.”

“Fuyumi…” Natsuo murmured.

“No.” Fuyumi’s fists tightened steadily. “No, I’m serious. Shouto is only sixteen. He’s fighting a war. Natsuo is working so hard to become a nurse, which must be so stressful. How does this help them? How does this help anyone? It doesn’t. This is unproductive.”

“Then what are you going to do about it, Fuyumi?” Dabi asked. “You don’t use your quirk on people.”

“None of us should!” Fuyumi said. “Isn’t that what we all should have learned?”

Dabi snorted. He leaned his head back as much as the high back of his chair would allow. “If these freaks want a show. I can give them one.”

Todoroki tensed. He turned the palm of his right hand upward and curved his fingers, keeping his movements small so not to draw attention from anyone observing. He did not call his quirk, but waited.

“When Natsuo was two he was a fucking prodigy. He opened his mouth one morning and let out a bunch of misty icy fog into the playroom. It was ridiculous like a fucking frog or something.” Dabi smirked but there was no mirth in his eyes. “Anyway, we had a blast. We played swamp monster for hours. Fuyumi and Mom would have loved it, but Fuyumi had a fever so they were busy. This was before we had anyone else watching us.

“Anyway, Endeavor comes home and the playroom is a fucking disaster. Everything’s been stewing in frozen mist all day. Mom never saw it so no one gave a shit about it, so we just didn’t realize you know what was coming.”

Todoroki’s heart rate sped up involuntarily. He could almost finish the story though he had not lived it.

“So Endeavor comes home and he’s pissed already because that’s who he is. He starts roaring audibly fire and voice. No clue what the fuck he said it was all noise. He grabs Natsuo because the last time he grabbed me he left bruises without even trying. I had to make a choice. I had to do something. So I light myself on fucking fire.” Another breathless coughy laugh escaped. There was still no mirth. “It hurt like a bitch. I was covered in blisters immediately. Endeavor shoves Natsuo aside and starts shouting at me and rolled me up in this carpet in the playroom until all the fire was out. So now I couldn’t run, couldn’t hide. Natsuo is crying.

“Mother appears.”

Dabi’s face contorted. “She should have stayed with Fuyumi. Mother could do this thing where she could cover her body in ice, so she had this shield. I tried to get out of the rug but it was too tight. I couldn’t do anything. Natsuo kept crying. I didn’t know what to do. So that night I took Natsuo and ran away.”

“What…?” Fuyumi whispered.

“We got picked up by the police immediately. So I made up a bullshit story about a villain with a fog quirk. It worked? Endeavor actually told me I was brave or some shit. How the fuck did that work? Everything got stricter after that.”

“What the heck…?” Natsuo whispered. “What the…? I don’t remember any of this! My quirk’s too weak to even show up!”

Dabi wheezed. “Lies.” He sighed. “My story is true. You can prove it. Open your mouth and let it fly.”

“Don’t,” Fuyumi whispered, her teeth close together.

“I read the agreement,” Natsuo whispered. “Besides, we all know my quirk’s a dud.”

“There’s more proof of the story,” Dabi said. “You’ve got burn scars on your elbows.”

Natsuo tugged at the sleeve of his shirt self consciously. He pressed his lips together. “Endeavor’s grabbed me like that lots of times because I’m as good as quirkless.”

“Who said that? Endeavor? Fuck him.” Dabi snorted.

“Well maybe you’d know if you didn’t disappear! I saw you die! Fuyumi saw you die! Endeavor saw you die! Mother saw him carry your body out the door! And here you are!” Natsuo’s chest heaved. His lips trembled. Tears formed but did not fall. “We’re just some freak show. Can’t even take you home.”

“That’s not my home.”

“Touya –”

“Dabi. My name is Dabi. Touya died from his injuries in a white room. I’m going to die in a ball of fire.”

“You’re just going to die again?! What kind of BS is that?!” Natsuo’s fists were so tight his knuckles paled.

“Do you really think the heroes will let me live after I ripped Endeavor’s heart out? Natsuo, you’re a genius. You can do math like some human calculator. They’re not going to let me live. They already took the bad doctor away. It’s already set in stone. I just got to do it first before I fall to pieces.”

“Wait,” Fuyumi said. Tiny snowflakes began to appear instead of tears. They melted the instant they touched Todoroki. “I didn’t hear that right. You did what?”

“I ripped Endeavor’s heart out. You can thank me later.”

Fuyumi sucked in a breath. “You did that?”

“Yeah.”

Fuyumi’s fingers trembled. Her arms trembled. The tremor worked its way to her torso, her face, her legs, and feet. “I….” More snowflakes appeared. “I didn’t want that!”

“That’s because you’re too steeped in Endeavor’s bullshit –”

“I AM NOT!” Fuyumi held Dabi’s gaze. “He was terrible to us! He used his quirk on his own family! That’s not love! But….but that doesn’t mean he deserved what you did! He was changing!”

“He wasn’t changing! He can’t change! If he was going to change, then he should have changed the first time he used his quirk against Mother! He should have changed when –” Dabi tried to shout but it led to coughing and a quiet, wheezy, “Fuck.”

Fuyumi waited for the coughing fit to pass. She sat straight in her chair. Her fists were so tight her nails drew blood from her palms. More snowflakes fell from her eyes, some gathered around her fists. “Did you even think about the consequences?! Did you even think about us?!”

“Of course I did! I didn’t even attack Shouto in that stupid forest or at the raid.” Dabi’s hand moved in Todoroki’s direction vaguely despite being restrained.

“No! No you didn’t think of us at all! This isn’t cathartic, it’s a nightmare! I woke up in the middle of the night and Dad and Shouto were both unconscious and in the hospital and had been for hours! I had to sit there and watch them decide if they were going to live or die! Now I have to deal with you as a villain in this place. I…” Fuyumi shuddered with a silent sob. “I…” She could not finish. She removed her glasses and put her hands on her eyes. Snowflakes kept falling from her hands and face.

No one spoke. Todoroki saw every sob but Fuyumi made no noise. How many times did she cry and they just did not know? How stressed was she? What could he do? What was he supposed to do?

“Do something, Natsuo,” Dabi said.

Natsuo’s hand hovered above Fuyumi’s head. “Do you…? Should….?”

“I don’t know,” Fuyumi wailed as quietly as possible.

“For fuck’s sake. Just wrap your arms around her. That’s what you do. She’s a crier,” Dabi said.

Why was it so hard? Todoroki frowned and then put his hand on Fuyumi’s shoulder. “Is it too hot?”

“No….”

Natsuo slid as far over as he could in his chair that was bolted to the floor. He put an arm over her shoulders.

Fuyumi just cried harder but still silently.

“We should….We should go,” Natsuo said. “Fuyumi’s This isn’t productive.”

Todoroki looked up at the ceiling trying to find the camera. He could not locate any. Perhaps a quirk recorded them instead or the cameras were too well hidden. “Let us out! We’re done!”

There were several voices outside the door.

“Then you’ll have to arrest me!” All Might boomed.

Silence followed.

The door unlocked. All Might appeared, breathing labored. “Let’s go.” He looked at them a long moment and then looked at someone behind the wall in the hallway. “We’re leaving.” It was firm. Final.

Natsuo and Todoroki helped Fuyumi to her feet. She could not stop crying. Natsuo wrapped an arm around her shoulders and helped her to the door. Todoroki paused and looked back at Dabi.

“See you later, little brother!” Dabi called out. The lights on his side of the glass went out.

Todoroki lingered. The other room remained completely dark. Was that really Touya?

“Todoroki-shounen, we must go,” All Might’s voice was barely audible.

Fuyumi still cried snowflakes. She still made no noise. Natsuo offered her some tissues. Todoroki swallowed something in his throat. He followed All Might out of the room.

===

So, I needed a subplot for Todoroki so he didn’t like disappear in the word count. I was also not really sure what to do with Gang Orca who’s his current internship. I kind of didn’t know what to do until I decided when the League broke Dabi out of prison, the Hero Commission put the Todoroki family basically under a type of house arrest to prevent Dabi from interacting with them. This evolved into the Hero Commission trying to bait Dabi into attacking Endeavor or any of the other sitting ducks in a bid to recapture Dabi. 

Meanwhile, after resonating so much Todoroki and Bakugou double knocked each other out with their amplified attacks at the sports festival, they realize they have to train this soulbond resonance thing. Aizawa is helping them do this, since Aizawa has done it before (though this is just heavily implied in the fic, Aizawa never tells them why he’s the one training them). 

So, this section picks up in October or so of second year after the cultural festival. Class 2-A put on a play Kouda wrote about superhero insects. That’s what the first part of this section is going on about. Also, as a side note, Bakugou’s new internship is with Miruko. Natsuo and Todoroki have been messaging each other since the family dinner incident. since part of the goal of the fic is for Todoroki to grow closer to both Natsuo and Fuyumi. 

***

The play was a success. The jokes for the most part landed and the audience seemed to enjoy the ending when Hagakure sent Bakugou sliding across the stage. They won their year but the overall school champion was Class 1-J and their maze. After the festival wrapped, it was time to study for midterms. The mornings grew increasingly chilly making jogging easier. By the end of the month, Todoroki was running faster and found he had more strength and endurance during his resonance training.

Today was the last day to train the resonance before midterms. When their cellphones buzzed to indicate the end to the session, Todoroki and Bakugou walked over to Aizawa. Aizawa observed them a long moment. “For the last few weeks, you’ve gotten to a point I don’t need to use my quirk during some of our sessions. You’re showing greater control when attacking and greater control when you try to disconnect from the resonance. After midterms, I think you will be able to start practicing attacking simultaneously. Custom dual attacks can come later after you prove you won’t create indiscriminate bombs you can’t control.”

“About time,” Bakugou said. He let off a series of sparks, each spark diminishing in intensity as Todoroki calmed and Bakugou’s excitement grew.

The session ended. After cleaning up and changing, they headed to the cafeteria, walking in step with each other. Todoroki’s phone buzzed. He glanced at the screen and then accessed his messages with Natsuo.

Natsuo: I did it! Behold~

Natsuo:  [a stack of Japanese style pancakes sitting on a plate]

Natsuo:  Be jealous.

Todoroki silently snorted. He texted as he walked, too hungry to pause.

Todoroki: No syrup?

Natsuo: I put the sugar in the batter.

Todoroki’s lips turned upward as he put his phone back in his pocket. While stuck in his apartment near campus, Natsuo started cooking regularly. He always sent Todoroki a photo of his successes. Todoroki hoped the pancakes tasted as good as they looked.

That phantom tightness returned to Todoroki’s stomach. Bakugou looked away casually like Todoroki could not feel the tightness.

“Are you okay?” Todoroki asked.

“Of course I am.”

Todoroki’s phone buzzed several times like a phone call. He frowned and glanced at the screen. It was a call from Natsuo. Natsuo never called. Todoroki slowed and answered the call.

“…going to kill you,” a faraway voice murmured.

“You don’t know that!” Natsuo hissed. He also seemed far away from the phone.

Todoroki froze. His heart started beating faster but it was different than when Bakugou made it beat faster.

“How can you trust the Hero Commission to do anything? They looked at Mother’s medical assessment and said, ‘Yeah nothing to see here,’ and then locked her away.” Dabi was the faraway voice.

“She has a legitimate mental illness you know. Oh wait. You don’t know. You decided to fuck off on us!”

Todoroki looked down the hall. Bakugou stood only two paces away, eyes fixed on him. “Get Aizawa,” Todoroki mouthed.

Bakugou disappeared back towards the gym.

“Do you think I chose to die?!” There was a raspy, breathy chuckle.

“Well, you’re still alive, so I don’t know!” Natsuo shouted.

There was a scuffle. Something or someone seemed to hit a wall possibly.

“Shut up! Shut up! Do you want to get busted?!” Dabi hissed. Then he said something too quiet for Todoroki to discern all the words.

Aizawa and Bakugou appeared. Todoroki bit his inner lip. There were no more voices, but he did not dare take the phone from his ear. “Sensei…I….” his voice trailed. He tried to ignore his own rushing, cycling emotions. “Natsuo’s phone called me. Dabi’s there.” His voice was not as firm as he wanted it to sound. He hoped no one on the other end would hear him and end the call.

There were still no more voices on Natsuo’s end of the call.

Aizawa pulled out his own phone. “I’m going to contact Detective Tsukauchi. Don’t hang up.”

On the phone, someone in another apartment turned on the television or maybe the radio. Someone honked multiple times outside the window. There were no other noises.

Todoroki’s heart kept pounding. He did not move.

Aizawa greeted Tsukauchi barely. “I’ve been alerted that Dabi is at Todoroki Natsuo’s location.” He looked at Todoroki. “Are they talking?”

Todoroki shook his head.

“There are no voices on the call now.” Aizawa was quiet for a long moment. “Alright. Thanks.” He hung up and looked at Todoroki. “He’s going to forward the information.”

Todoroki nodded. The television kept playing. There was the sound of a door barely. Then nothing. Absolutely nothing. The call ended. Todoroki’s phone slipped from his hand. He took a step back and leaned against the wall. His hands kept trembling. He was sort of certain Dabi would not hurt Natsuo. He was not sure about the Hero Commission. Now what? What about Fuyumi? Was Dabi going to try and take her too? Would he come to UA? What kind of battle would that be this time?

Aizawa’s hand hovered beside Todoroki’s arm and then withdrew. “Todoroki, I need you to breathe.” His voice was low, steady.

“Natsuo’s not a villain,” Todoroki whispered. “Fuyumi’s not either….”

“I know,” Aizawa’s voice was quiet, still firm.

“But do they know?” Todoroki put emphasis on the word they.

Aizawa did not answer. Maybe he could not answer or did not know.

Todoroki took a few deep breaths. What could he do? He could not leave campus. Even if he could leave campus, then what? Even if he was there, then what? Could he have stopped it?

“Todoroki,” Aizawa said, pausing until Todoroki looked at him, “you can’t let what ifs and unknowns overwhelm you. If you need things, ask for them. We might not be able to let you leave here, but there are other things we can do.” He paused and waited. When Todoroki said nothing, Aizawa said, “I’ll let you know if there are updates.”

“Thanks.” Todoroki took a deep breath and stepped away so he could pick his phone up off the floor. “I’ll…let you know if there’s anything.” Did he want anything? Did he need anything? There was a rushing in his ears with no sound. His shoulders tensed. He wanted to scream.

Aizawa left.

Bakugou watched the direction Aizawa left in for a long moment. He was either calm or his emotions so much quieter than Todoroki’s own that Todoroki could barely feel any of them.

Todoroki remained standing in the hallway, clutching his phone. What should he do? Should he call Fuyumi? Was she in danger? Should he text Endeavor? He was definitely in danger. Did they already know? If they asked for details, Todoroki would have none to give. He could not even prove Dabi took Natsuo, though he doubted Dabi would kill Natsuo. Kurogiri probably used his quirk. Todoroki’s grip on his phone tightened. His jaw clenched.

Bakugou approached and extended a hand. When Todoroki did not step away, Bakugou carefully worked the phone out of Todoroki’s grip. “Breathe,” his voice was louder than a whisper but still quiet.

Todoroki inhaled and exhaled. He lowered his head and then ran a hand through his hair.

“I’d kick your ass in the gym but we already did that. Miruko says what we need most now is protein and rest.”

“I don’t know if I can eat.” Todoroki’s stomach rumbled in protest.

“Do you want to bother with the fucks in the cafeteria or eat at the dorm?”

Todoroki rubbed his face. His thoughts were still all over the place. “I want…to do something normal.” Maybe. He had to do something at least. He also had to eat. Maybe things would seem steadier after eating.

Bakugou nodded. He handed the phone back to Todoroki, who put it in his pocket.

“Thanks.” Todoroki tried to breathe deeply. He put a hand on Bakugou’s shoulder. It made things seem more real. Todoroki dropped his hand and headed to the cafeteria.

A few seconds later, Bakugou followed. They parted on their way to get their food as they always did. Todoroki took another deep breath and kept his face neutral. His emotions were still anything but.

===

While Todoroki’s stuck on campus indefinitely, he’s been interning with Present Mic temporarily since he can’t go to his internship with Gang Orca. This will be Dabi’s final appearance in the fic. 

I decided to kill Dabi because I wanted to keep a 1:1 hero : villain death ratio. So since Best Jeanist died earlier in the fic, Dabi was the League member to die. 

***

Everything seemed surreal. Todoroki sat on the floor in Aizawa’s and Present Mic’s apartment with a cat nestled against his left side. Eri stretched out on the other side of the cat. She had a blank notebook she was filling with doodles. She sang softly with the pop act preforming on the New Year’s variety show on the television. Present Mic and Aizawa were in the kitchen preparing food. The apartment was a modest two-bedroom apartment in commuting distance to UA. Artwork and photos decorated the living room. On either side of the TV were two picture frames. One was a selfie of Present Mic and Aizawa that had to be almost ten years old from when they first moved in and the other was a timed photo with Eri on the sofa from last year. The same cat against Todoroki’s side was the cat Eri held in the photo. The second cat was more aloof and remained in Aizawa and Present Mic’s bedroom on its own volition.

After lunch, Present Mic received permission from the Hero Commission for Todoroki to leave campus under certain conditions. Todoroki could only go to the off campus apartment, he could not tell anyone outside of UA staff that he was not on campus, and he had to return to UA by noon tomorrow. How Present Mic made it happen, Todoroki did not know.

Paper ripped, drawing Todoroki’s attention. Eri sat up and smiled that same awkward smile from the photo except it reached her eyes more now. “I drew this for you.” The picture was the two of them sitting on the floor with the warm cat and the aloof cat. She drew the cats better than the people. Across the top of the drawing was “Happy New Year” written in hiragana.

“It’s really nice.” Maybe more than that. It was the first drawing someone gave him. Todoroki rolled it up carefully and set it where it would stay nice. He would put it up in his dorm room later.

“Maybe when Mei-chan gets used to you she’ll come out of the bedroom. She’s very soft.” Eri smiled a little bigger. “Last year she curled up with me on the sofa. I want to stay up all night this year!” It was an ambitious goal.

Eri made it to about ten thirty before she reluctantly fell asleep between the cats on the floor. Aizawa put her to bed. Close to midnight, Present Mic cracked the window and they listened to gongs from a nearby temple. By twelve fifteen, Aizawa was in bed. Present Mic and Todoroki finished a movie that started a little after midnight. By three in the morning, only Todoroki remained in the living room. He could not sleep. The futon was comfortable but his mind kept wandering. He scrolled through his messages.

Fuyumi messaged him leading up to midnight and a little after before disappearing. Bakugou sent him pictures of food that Todoroki responded to with little cat stickers he found in his phone options. The Class 2-A chat finally quieted for the night for the most part. Todoroki put his earbuds in and opened a music app. He opened a user profile that had several playlists of music sorted by century. He was several playlists in, but still in music made before quirks. This playlist was a bit peppier than the previous playlist. He saved songs he liked to a playlist of favorites. Todoroki watched colorful lights shoot across his phone screen, moving somehow in rhythm to the music. It was hypnotizing 

His phone buzzed.

Hero Highway: Endeavor spotted in Shinjuku! Live feed!

Hero Highway was a service that tapped into local security cameras and provided live streams of events in real time, some of which never made the news. Midoriya suggested it along with some similar services that also specialized in rare footage and news. Todoroki hesitated and the alert disappeared, returning him to the light display and music. He paused the music and closed out of the app. He opened Hero Highway.

The video angle was from the perspective of a security camera second story balcony on the same side of the road. Endeavor stood almost unrecognizable, his muscles considerably leaner and his shirt almost a size too big. The building behind Endeavor glowed orange, setting a familiar glow in absence of flames.

Dabi stood a few meters to the left facing Endeavor, his shoulders surprisingly relaxed. Cars sped past them on the other side of the road. People nearby gawked. Some wore kimono, others street clothes.

“Where’s Natsuo, Touya?” Endeavor asked, his voice barely carrying to the microphone.

“That’s not my name now,” Dabi hissed, his voice carrying slightly more. “Natsuo is safe.”

“Your lair isn’t safe!” Endeavor’s posture changed to the one he struck most often before igniting. There were still no flames.

“It’s safer than being surrounded by Commission pricks!

“It’s safer than surrounded by Commission pricks! I mean look what they did to Hawks. Who would trust them with their children?” Dabi’s voice grew louder.

“Touya –”

“You know when I was twelve I reported you to the police,” Dabi said, projecting his voice as if on stage. “They threatened me! They said I must be desperate for attention! That if we angered you, we were at fault! That I lied about Mother! They said it was discipline! That wasn’t discipline!” his voice grew in intensity and volume. He let over several wheezy coughs after.

Endeavor said something in response, but it was too quiet for the camera to record.

“No! I won’t! Everyone should know! If the Musutafu police office is worth their asses, they’ve still go it on record! It’ll be from March fifteen years ago at midnight. I detailed everything. If anyone wants to go digging, it’ll be the file about the father who uses his fire quirk against his family. Sometimes it’s ‘training’ sometimes it’s an argument, sometimes it’s ‘discipline’ which leaves blistered and marks. It sucked ass when it was me. I hated waking up to an immediate fight or being covered in burn salve gauze, but then Shouto got his quirk that February and everything changed.

 “Who fucking trains a three year old by attacking them? Who fucking does that? Surprise attacks. Constant fear. Constant vigilance. I had to watch you fuck him up like you fucked me up. I started trying to stand up to you, but my fucking body isn’t made for this shit. I just couldn’t take it. I just stressed out and lit myself on fire. I didn’t even fucking think.” Dabi snorted. “I can still remember standing up to you, trying to protect Shouto. I would still have the scars on my palm, but…” Dabi bent his arm at the elbow and made a gesture with his hand, “well, this skin isn’t really mine. The bad doctor kept patching me up with treated cadaver skin.”

“I know I made mistakes,” Endeavor said, his voice carrying this time. “I’ve been working to atone for them. I want everyone’s lives going forward to be better than they were. That’s why I built that house, that’s why I told the doctors it would be all right if Rei transitioned away from the hospital. It’s why I’ve made promises to everyone I intend to keep and have kept. It’s why I need to find Natsuo.”

“If you find Natsuo, they’ll just send him to jail now. You know that.” Dabi snorted. Flame flickered to his hand. “I’ve been thinking about revenge for almost twelve years – Hell, maybe my whole life. When you captured the bad doctor, my body started falling apart. Not even Natsuo can do what that geezer’s laboratory could. I’m royally fucked, but it showed me what I should do.” Fire shot up Dabi’s arm. “Fuck killing you! Fuck this body! Fuck your mistakes! Fuck your promises! Fuck everything! Live with this! You can’t save what you throw away!” Dabi’s entire body erupted in blue flame. There was a cry of shock and fear from the onlookers.

“Touya! Touya!” Endeavor ran towards him.

Dabi’s flames grew more intense. When Endeavor reached him, his flames ignited even brighter, leaping to Endeavor’s clothes and skin. Dabi fell to his knees, his flames becoming a blue beacon in the street, his body too weathered and dry to fight his quirk. Endeavor kept trying to extinguish the flames, ignoring those on his own body, but they were too intense and fast. All too quickly, all of the flames extinguished as Dabi’s quirk stopped. Endeavor sat back on his knees. A howl echoed through the street and buildings. It was not quite a cry or wail, not quite a scream or shout.

Todoroki dropped his phone. His hands shook. Tears threatened but did not fall. Touya was important to him even if his memories were faint and short. Dabi terrorized his friends and committed so many crimes even if he did not attack Todoroki directly. Dabi made Fuyumi cry and kidnapped Natsuo. Todoroki did not like Dabi. He might have loved Touya. Endeavor’s howl echoed in Todoroki’s ears even though he no longer wore his earbuds. What kind of noise was that? Was that even real? Was any of it real?

Todoroki pulled his blankets over his head. He shut his eyes tight. All he could see was Dabi burning. Todoroki opened his eyes. He did not know what to do.

[patchofsunlight]

Hii sorry I’m sending this so late!💗💗 I got back from work a little bit ago and was eating and watching bnha! I watched 2 eps (I’m on ep 4) and I think I’m gonna watch one more before started my hw loll. So far I really like Midoriya he’s so adorable and hardworking 🥰 I’m glad that’s he’s finally gonna become a hero like he always dreamt. Aww getting to sleep for longer than you expected is the bestt

Aww you’re so sweet thank you!! 🥺🥺 I’m really trying lmaoo

Aw ofc I’ll let you know!! Thank you for being so interested 🥰 he kept saying “what are you doing? Why are you doing that?” And I was like bro idk any better this is the first time I’ve driven on the road with actual other ppl 🥺 idk how I didn’t start crying lmaoo. And he just kept talking and talking and asking me questions and I was like can you stop asking me stuff I’m trying to focus on not crashing the car (keep in mind I didn’t actually say any of this stuff I was just thinking it lmaoo. Wayy to shy to say what I’m thinking 😗✌️) and then at one point he started saying “you need to become more confident blah blah” and I was like so done lmao. Like everyday ppl tell me that I’m so quiet or that I need to be more confident and I’m just like I’m aware thank you. Please let me live I’m trying 🥺 so yeah after that I was like I don’t think I can handle 9 more 1 hour lessons with this guy. Ah feel free to do so that would be greatly appreciated tyy ☺️ aw tyy yes I think it’ll go wayy better now!

Oop- so don’t watch it??😂

Aw I’m sorry it was weird!! And I mean you’re right it could’ve gone a lot more worse! Do you have to see him again?

Aww tyy!!! You make me feel so loved 🥺🥰 I love you too!!!

HAHA NO ITS OKAY!! I was laughing afterwards!! At least you killed ppl. The very first time I played I got impostor and I didn’t wanna kill anyone cause I felt bad lmaoo. And then I found someone’s body and I was gonna run away and then I was like no I should report it but someone saw me and reported it and I got voted off but I didn’t kill them 😂 yess I need to learn how to do the tasks lmao. OMG yeah I saw!! I saved it 🥰

Aw my heartt 🥺🥰❤️ you’re like the sweetest person I’ve ever met! I have so much funn reading your replies and talking to you! I always look forward to them!! Like it’s the highlight of my day especially when I’m having a bad day I’m just like aw I get to talk to Nina and it makes my day better ❤️ ilyt and thank you for existing

How was your day?? -🌙

dont worry bby!!! i love your asks anytime of the day!!!!

yes midoriya is baby but i’m just here to the side like haha..... hey...... how y’all doing...... because if i’m really honest i only started to actually like him during season 4 OOF LMAOOO I MEAN HE’S A SWEETHEART BUT he was always doing stupid shit that WORKED AND THEN I WAS LIKE OH HELL NO THIS IS NOT FAIR why does he get to just aaaa go crazy aaaaa go stupid and then things WORK OUT??? no. i deny. i reject. so he annoyed me a lot but now 🥰🥰🥰🥰 now i LOVE HIM

that guy sounds like a jackass i’ll GLADLY throw hands with him for you. also ughhh i hate when people do that like YEAH you a RANDOM PERSON telling me i need to be more confident will DEFINITELY make me more confident. wow!!! look at that!!!! i’m confident now!!!! shut the fuck up

also being introverted isn’t a flaw???? leave people alone not everyone is extroverted and good with talking to others and that’s none of anyone’s business wtf i hate people like that and i’m GLAD you got a new instructor

xnwjzowk YEAH I WOULD SAY DONT WATCH IT it has some good characters but it just isn’t worth the time yk?? idk the only good thing i got from it was my favorite characters + being a part of the anti clarke griffin community at tumblr. that’s it

i mean i don’t HAVE to see him again but. i meannn like idk idek what happened i’m very confused head full many thoughts

🥰🥰🥰 I LOVE YOU MOONIE BABY

LMAOOO IM SURE YOU DID FINE AS IMPOSTOR LOLOLOLOL i love being impostor but i’m usually bad at it oof AND YES I SAVED IT TOO best ghost friends 😎😎😎

🥰🥰🥰 MOONIE STOP IM GONNA CRY I LOVE YOU OKAY I CANNOT BE THE SWEETEST BECAUSE THATS YOU!!! i always look forward to your asks too!!! you’re amazing!!! i love you!!!

my day was alright!!! i was very productive as y’all see 😌😌😌 FOUR HEADCANONS IN A DAY BRO!!! FOUR!!!!! and i finished a sokka imagine!!! and started writing stay pt 2!!!! YES i feel very accomplished so i’m. im happy!!!!! yes

i hope you sleep well moonie!!! have a good night!!! tell me if you have any weird dreams later hehe

[goddamnmuses-a]

Long ooc post about just my thoughts and stuff, it’s long and doesn’t matter so feel free to not read. 

First off.. Writing this after writing a lot of this because it goes places.. This is not some like attention seeking “i hate myself i wanna die, i might kill myself, would anyone care if i just left” thing that i see some people doing, I just wanted to get thoughts out. I’m not deleting this blog ever, I’m around until I die i think but yeah.. 

I have this really strange kind of.. issue. It’s stupid really but I feel like I should voice it somewhere instead of just keeping things to myself, feel free to ignore this and carry on I’m just gonna ramble from the heart. 

But.. yeah I think I might be a bit bipolar, one moment I’m happy and then I’m just like urgh and im drained of energy and struggle to talk ooc to people or when im doing a reply i hit a point and im like just so drained that my reply ends up being sorter than I’d like it to be because I can’t find the words something, probably doesn’t help that I’m dyslexic, or I’m just drained and I know if I leave it the post will just end up staying in my drafts forever so I try to get my reply done anyway even if it’s not much. 

I also push people away sometimes despite myself, I don’t know what it is, I think it comes from the fact I have had great friends on here who have just suddenly vanished and not really been around since. In a few cases they just made a new blog and told a select group of people and I guess I wasn’t special enough. 

Back when I was Goddamndeadpool I was a few people’s exclusive Deadpool’s which was always nice but even then, sometimes the above would happen and I’d eventually find their new blog through just luck and see them roleplaying with some other Deadpool and I’d just feel replaced. 

I have no idea why I’m sharing this, therapy I guess *shrug* 

I used to have like a group, where we could all reference each others characters and stuff but sometimes I just kind of feel like a side thing to everyone, like everyone has their faves and then like I’m just also there to the side. 

Oh crap I’m going to go into some real life shit which I don’t tend to do on here but In school, well like near the end of school, my friends all had a party and I was the only one who wasn’t invited and I guess since then I just have this like feeling of being an outsider even when people are friendly and really nice towards me. 

I know I probably make some people feel the same way too, I know theres times I’ve gone to do a reply and just felt drained so I’ve gone “I’ll do it later” and drafted it and like I said earlier it ends up staying in my drafts and the longer it’s there the less I’m feeling it until it’s been ages and I don’t even know what the posts really about anymore and so I have to get rid of it. 

I know I have mutuals who play characters from things I’ve never seen and have no interest in watching at all, yet I try and rp with everyone who wants to because I remember what it was like starting out and just trying to get people to rp with you and trying to get follows. 

I got lucky when I started, I started a little while before the Deadpool movie came out, there was very few Deadpools but a lot of people didn’t really know who he was which is insane to think now but yeah, so i had the struggle but then the movie came out and suddenly i didn’t have to worry about it but since then I always try and give everyone a chance. 

Idek what I’m writing anymore here or why I’m writing this, I just wanted to air some shit because I’m all over the place. I miss my rp family who no longer rp, I miss those friends I made when I was new to tumblr who gave me a chance and are now all inactive and have been for like 4 years. 

Idk wtf this is I’m just gonna end this here before I ramble for another 10000000 words about absolutely nothing that matters. If you read this I guess, thanks? You don’t need to like come and say anything to me about it, it genuinely will make no difference, nothings changing around here, this was just.. random ooc stuff i felt like I had to just blurt out randomly. 

[yourfaceislikeabluemoon]

3-Ways Are All Fine And Dandy Until Someone Catches Feelings ~ Part 3

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6

You Aren’t Mine To Keep

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Warning: Brief, strong language and minor suggestive themes. Angst. Wait, is it angst? Idek let’s just call it angst.

A/N: And we’re moving right along to part 3! This one pretty much gives a bit of backstory to everyone. Huge thanks to my best friend @broccoli-channie-soup for helping me (as always!) when my brain decided not to function properly. Y’all wouldn’t have wanted to read the mess this was before she edited it lmao So thank you, ilysm! I hope you all enjoy! (Side note: this is my 100th post whoop whoop! lmao)

You all went about your lives, outwardly nothing had changed, but each one of you felt like something was different, something new was drawing you away from the normality you all tried to put back in place after that night. Changkyun would never bring it up on his own, he was tirelessly trying to convince himself that he didn’t notice a change in himself, so the topic went without discussion.

Behind the scenes, Hoseok was in pure agony over the entire situation. He had finally received the opportunity to feel what it was like to be with the both of you, who are we kidding, it was laid out on a platter in front of him. Then it disappeared and his desires that he had kept hidden for so long continued to go unspoken. Temptation rose, fighting it was slowly becoming impossible. He just wanted to hold you again, to feel Changkyun’s lips on his own again, to be with you in more ways than just the way you were together that night.

Giving in to temptation, Hoseok came over one night, unannounced, in such a panic he was almost in tears. You quickly let him in and took a space on the couch as he paced your living room. Words wouldn’t leave him for the longest time, he was unsure of his words and how you would react to what he had to say; Changkyun entered the room just as Hoseok fell to his knees, tears streamed down his face while his fingers tugged at his hair, “I can’t do this anymore.” His voice cracked and you rushed over to him, attempting to pull him into your embrace when he shrugged you off. Changkyun came to your side and urged the older man to look at him.

“Can’t do what? What are you talking about?” You could tell Changkyun was just as worried as you were, the strain was evident in his voice.

“This!” Hoseok gestured largely, “This acting normal shit. I can’t put on a show anymore.” The two of you stayed silent, waiting for him to continue, “You both have taken over my mind like some kind of virus… Every day, I long for something I can’t have, something I could only touch for a moment before it was taken away from me again. Taunting me, tempting me, fooling me. I should’ve said 'no' from the very beginning, but I was too stupid and naive and desperate to say ‘no’ and now I’m in over my head and it really does feel like I’m drowning all the time.”

Changkyun reached for him, “Hoseok, I—”

“No!” The older man clamored, his voice cracking again, cutting him off, “No, you can’t say anything. Do you have any idea how long I’ve been in love with you?” Changkyun’s eyes widened at Hoseok’s sudden confession.

“I’ll give you a hint,” Hoseok’s tone started to drip with animosity, “It was long before this stupid idea of yours.” Changkyun shook his head hesitantly, deer-in-the-headlights look still present on his face. “Well, I should hope you didn’t notice! I spent years doing everything I could to hide it from you. And you!”

Hoseok turned to face you, his countenance softened immediately despite his best efforts to stay upset, remorse washed over his features, “I’ve spent all these years wanting to give you the world, but Changkyun got to you first. So, I stepped into the shadows, savoring the times I was lucky enough to be the one to put that gorgeous smile on your perfect face, wanting to hold you but keeping to myself, desiring to give you anything and everything but settling for giving you what I could without looking suspicious, wishing I could be the one to keep you safe but accepting the fact that,” his words got caught in his throat as he tried to hold the tears back, but they were too powerful to contain as he searched your eyes. The muffled sound of his heavy tears dripping onto the hardwood floor seemed so loud in the still room, you could hear his heart breaking as he breathed his next few words, “You aren’t mine to keep.”

Tears pricked at your own eyes and with a blink, down they fell, joining Hoseok’s on the floor beneath you. Changkyun’s breathing was ragged as he knelt in front of the two of you, tracks glistening on his cheeks, giving away that he had been crying, too. “Why didn’t you just tell me?” He whispered, “Why did you let it eat away at you all this time? You have to know, I wouldn’t have been upset with you. Why didn’t you just tell me?” Changkyun repeated, tentatively brushing his fingertips over the back of Hoseok’s hand.

“You wouldn’t have been upset if I told you I was in love with you and your girlfriend? That seems highly unlikely for anyone.” Hoseok cowered away from his touch, doubting the strength of his legs or else he would’ve run right then and there.

Changkyun sighed deeply, running a hand through his hair. “I mean sure, I probably would’ve been slightly confused and it might have caught me off guard a little, but I can promise you I would not have been upset with you and I’m not now. No matter how much we annoy and tease each other, I really don’t think it’s possible for me to actually be upset with you.”

Hoseok matched his sigh, the tension in his shoulders visibly loosening, “I’m sorry.”

“Why are you apologizing?” You finally spoke up for the first time that night.

“Because I don’t want to cause a problem in your relationship or anything like that. And I didn’t ask for these goddamn feelings.”

He didn’t cower away when you reached for his hand, “I know you didn’t, bunny, and you aren’t causing a problem, really.” His shoulders softened even more with the use of your fond nickname for him. You slipped your fingers between his and squeezed his hand affectionately, “Changkyun won’t say anything himself, but we’ve both been...different since that night. When we’re together now, it almost feels like-”

“Someone’s missing,” Changkyun finished your sentence for you, seemingly reading your mind.

You nodded and swallowed thickly, turning to him and trying to formulate your words properly, “Kyunnie, you know I couldn’t love you any less even if I tried, right?”

Glossy eyes stared back at you, full of love and warmth, like a home you’d known for so long. “I’ve always known.”

Smiling back at him, your eyes spoke words that your lips couldn’t. They tried to convey feelings that Hoseok thought were nonexistent and with that you had made up your mind. “I think this means that this relationship no longer exists.”

“What? You-”

“Shh,” you hushed Hoseok’s panic, cupping his face with one hand, gently wiping his stray tears away with your thumb, “I’m not breaking up with him, it’s ok, bunny.”

Changkyun chuckled, scrubbing at his own face with his sleeve, “What she’s trying to say is that our relationship no longer exists in this form. It exists in a different form now, with you included in it, if you want to be.”

Hoseok blinked, glancing between the two of you, thoroughly baffled, “OK, I love you two but I have no idea what the fuck you’re talking about.”

You and Changkyun laughed regretfully, “Sorry. We didn’t mean to confuse you.” Glancing over at Changkyun, you wondered if he was still thinking what you were thinking.

Sure enough, he grinned widely and tilted his head, “You wanna sleep with us for, like, ever?”

Realization flooded over Hoseok’s features and he couldn’t help the smile that was threatening to curve his lips. He dramatically flopped back on the floor, giggling, “Yeah.”

Changkyun shook his head, laughing at Hoseok’s concise response, and crawled over to lay beside him. You took your place on the opposite side of Hoseok, the two of you instinctively cuddling into his sides. Changkyun suddenly snorted with laughter, “All this just because we slept together?”

Hoseok scoffed jokingly, “Nah, it’s ‘cause I caught feelings.”

~~~~~

That was the official start of this odd love triangle romance thing. You now had two boyfriends -- two -- who spoiled, adored, desired and pleasured you more than you ever thought possible. The only major downside to this relationship was the boys going on tour and being away from home as often as they were, restricting the time you all got to spend together. You eventually discovered the benefits of forming strong couple relationships inside your interconnected romance, each pair’s bond different from the others.

[marudeinu]

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1. FIRST NAME: I still need to get it legally changed, but Jae-Seung 2. STRANGE FACT ABOUT YOURSELF: I have a natural resistance to certain anesthetics? I always wake up WAY too early and they keep having to add more until they get scared I’m gonna OD. When they tried putting me in a ‘Twilight’ state during extraction of my wisdom teeth, they could only get halfway through the procedure before they had to stop. The oral surgeon I was referred to just knocked me out entirely and it went fine. This understandably makes me really nervous about needing any major surgery in the future... 3. TOP THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE ON A PERSON: Uhh... Usually stuff like their eyes? I also LOVE toned and/or veiny forearms, idek why. Muscular AND veiny? HUBBA HUBBA. But soft is also great, I do love a person that actually like, looks like they enjoy food like I do. 4. A FOOD YOU COULD EAT FOREVER AND NOT GET BORED OF: Soon dubu jiggae... omg. I eat that shit no matter what time of year it is, always boiling lava hot. And Boba Tea. And like, breakfast sandwiches. 5. A FOOD YOU HATE: Jellyfish and sea cucumber, the texture bothers me greatly 6. GUILTY PLEASURE: Buying stuff for my main on FFXIV...  7. WHAT DO YOU SLEEP IN: pajama or sweat pants and a tank top 8. SERIOUS RELATIONSHIPS OR FLINGS: Serious, but I’m definitely not in any hurry atm. Monchichi is my girlfriend, all I need is my cat to spoil and lavish affection on. 9. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN THE PAST AND CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOUR LIFE, WOULD YOU AND WHAT WOULD IT BE: I think I might have reached out to my birth family sooner, re-learned my native language sooner, just... been more interested in reclaiming my heritage and identity a LOT sooner than now. I mean, there are other things I kinda wish I had done, but I also don’t believe they would have changed the outcome? But maybe how I felt about trying wouldn’t have been so... regrettable.  10. ARE YOU AN AFFECTIONATE PERSON: I am affectionate in that I’ll verbally support you and genuinely talk about what I love about you and will go out of my way to help and buy/make you thoughtful things. Physical affection seems to be an area I’m still very awkward at and my own discomfort with being touched doesn’t help that I don’t especially think about it mattering so much to other people. 11. A MOVIE YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN: I’m going to agree with Ray and say The Hunchback of Notre Dame! I also SUPER loved Into the Spider-Verse? And The Last Unicorn, OMG- AMAZING ANIMATED MOVIE. 12. FAVORITE BOOK: The First Law Trilogy by Joe Abercrombie 13. YOU HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO KEEP ANY ANIMAL AS A PET, WHAT DO YOU CHOOSE: Maybe a tiger or snow leopard? Cheetahs are VERY nice, as well. I guess they also wouldn’t be so much like PETS and more “a wild animal who is also my friend” since I would hate to keep them in captivity. So whenever I go out into their territory, they remember me as a human they can trust and want to spend time playing or relaxing with me. 14. TOP FIVE FICTIONAL SHIPS: Booster Gold/Bruce Banner (only the RP portrayals that Turk and I wrote tho), Soriku, Todoiideku, Pullo/Vorenus, Taiga Saejima/Majima Goro 15. PIE OR CAKE: Cake. 16. FAVORITE SCENT: “Wasabi”, it’s a soap I use that smells like mint, lime, eucalyptus, and ginger. Also, Sugar Lychee is an AMAZING scent. Burberry Brit Sheer is nice sweet, but SPICAY. Also Candy by Prada. 17. CELEBRITY CRUSH: Robert Downey Jr., Salma Hayek, Bryce Dallas Howard, Choi Min Soo, Mads Mikkelsen 18. IF YOU COULD TRAVEL ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD YOU GO: ALSO, EVERYWHERE. But my big ones would have to be Italy, China (again), Japan, Thailand, and back home to Korea.  19. INTROVERT OR EXTROVERT: Introvert 20. DO YOU SCARE EASILY: No, I was raised on horror movies and am not easily spooked, so I kind of am ATTRACTED to the possibility of actually being scared. But I also am a wuss when I truly believe there is a hostile supernatural presence around me, like I will be the first one to admit I’d run and pee myself. 21. IPHONE OR ANDROID: Android, I just... don’t like Apple anymore as a company.  22. DO YOU PLAY ANY VIDEO GAMES: So many... 24. WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH A MILLION DOLLARS: Help my parents finally retire, get all my dental work done, TRAVEL, buy a huge house where all of my friends can come visit me and have a smaller manse for each cat I own (priorities). 25. FICTIONAL CHARACTER YOU HATE: DC movie Joker iterations, Griffith from Berserk, Tyler Durden from Fight Club, canon Bkg from BNHA, The Comedian from Watchmen. 26. FANDOM THAT YOU WERE ONCE A PART OF BUT AREN’T ANY LONGER: ATLA/TLOK, Joss Whedon’s Firefly, Harry Potter, uh... I’m sure there are others but I can’t think of them right now.

[johobi]

rises from the depths like a sea monster...when i opened the tumblr app i damn near couldnt believe what i saw...i swear my heart skipped a beat and my stomach flopped. i was legitimately nervous to read it because i knew it was gonna be wild AND LET ME SAY IT WAS 100000% WORTH SKIPPING TWO TRAINS FOR BC I!!!! LOVED!!!! THIS!!!!! CHAPTER!!!!! i was honestly expecting my heart to be ripped from my chest but thankfully its still taped together LOL. im rooting for tae but even i was like WAIT (1)

ajsdlaj LOOOL I bet it was a shock to see  that I’d actually uploaded a WYLEI chapter. It’s like some Twilight Zone shit by this point ljeawlekj. DID U REALLY SKIP TWO TRAINS MY FRIEND? OOH I FEEL GUILTY BUT IM ALSO INCREDIBLY FLATTERED HAHDAHWJKFgh yes it was a little more mild on the angst front, huh?? I think next chapter has even less angst than 12 actually. So your heart can remain unshattered for a little while longer ;)

I WANNA HEAR WHAT JUNGKOOK HAS TO SAY GDI TAEHYUNG BE QUIET FOR LIKE TWO SECONDS but at the same time im glad he was angry for her bc jungkook was the guy tae was willing to step back for so oc can be happy and then jungkook betrayed her and hurt her so badly (again we dont know the whole story so tae and oc are working with what was shown) that tae was ready to GO. it was well intentioned but at the same time even for oc i could tell it was too much for her to deal with in one sitting and (2)

YES!!! yesssss!! Tae left her in Jungkook’s hands thinking he might be the one for her as he was making her so happy. I think that’s going forgotten in some people’s minds :((. I know it was frustrating that he kept cutting in, but 1) Jungkook was saying unbelievable, repetetive stuff, and 2) he’d hurt his best friend/love emotionally, made her sick by chasing her into the rain, and is aware of her mental health struggles too. I think it’s understandable he was that angry (though the punch was all Tae haha.. I don’t agree with that part). 

jungkook is just!!!! so hard to not love!!!! damn this golden boy!!!!! when he was putting two and two together i was like…ouch…i felt bad. thats gotta suck. i get the feeling hes gonna pull out the Ultimate Reasoning when he and oc finally get to talk and itll be like oh noooo why didnt oc just hear him out but a lot of things changed in the span of 48 hours. and again jungkook Lied about this from the get go. does he even have a real way out of this imposed marriage?what kind of future (3)

he is obscenely hard not to love. he is a precious, precious, silly bunny-toothed lad that is so smitten but also so incredibly trapped by circumstance that i’m sure, if we managed a glimpse inside his head, there’d be a fucking dumpster fire going on LOL. Ahh thank u for bringing up his realisation, I don’t think anyone has commented on that part particularly yet. Yeah he was more upset than anything, and not even at her… at himself. His jealousy he took out on Taehyung, who punched him first, so. It took hold a little. But when MC pushed him away he kinda snapped out of it and knew he’d done all this himself. TT I did feel for him then, despite his questionable actions…

would oc have if shes jungkooks true love/“real wife” while he has a public wife or some shit. from the way this has been building up idek if jungkook had thought of a way out yet and was pursuing this love with oc while it lasted. it hurts to think about lol. and ofc i could be wrong!! this is just my theory lol i love the turmoil we all are going through! 😂 and i just wanna say thank you so much for this story!!! this story loves every character and it makes me want ocs happiness most! (4)

OOOF. You’re so close to some things here *eyes emoji*. I won’t comment on that bit further but gosh, you’re closer than other people have gotten so far. Don’t thank me hun, it is my pleasure to write for you, this kind of feedback is more than I ever could have hoped for and you’ve utterly spoiled me. Thank you so much babe