#idek if i'd be the first there
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i want to find some obscure feat that people still keep accurate records about and become the first nonbinary person to do the thing and have my name live on through that, at least in a small corner of niche historians
first nonbinary person to become a chess grandmaster?
first nonbinary person to climb denali?
first nonbinary person to win the price is right?
idk i'm sure i'll find something
#personal#shitpost#mattea roach already beat me to my dreams of being the first nonbinary jeopardy champion or some such#so i gotta expand my dreams#not especially serious about those specific ones listed#idek if i'd be the first there#i don't know the rules of chess#i've never mountain climbed in my life#and i'm shit at playing along with the price is right#but i bet i could find SOME niche
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rules: in a new post, show the last line you wrote (or drew) and tag as many people as there are words (or as many as you feel like).
tagged by @luzho!! which, hilariously, i'm a bit in the same boat that i only recently have anything to share. which. tbh means i'm gonna share three for funsies lol
(it's all smut)
also i'm reasonably certain most everyone i know has done this?? so if you see this, you have officially been tagged! 🧡
To touch him the way Zuko has dreamed about for the past too many days. Sucking hickeys into his hipbones where only he will see and his neck where everyone will, gripping his length and stroking until precum is dripping down Zuko’s wrist and the hold on his neck is there to keep Sokka upright, prevent him from crumpling to the ground as Zuko works him closer and closer to the edge—
And Katsuki loses himself to that. Nods without air then gives a verbal affirmation when it doesn't seem to inspire Izuku into more, and Katsuki wishes his boxers were off so he could feel the press of that gleaming mouth on him without cotton in the way.
He's obsessed, working over his cock head with quick fingers so that he can devote his full attention to each of the piercings, and Hobie's fingers dig into the back of his neck and the cabinet rattles as he thrusts into those incredible moves. He can barely keep his eyes open, he feels fucking pulled into shreds, Hobie has lost control of his hips, his voice, his goddamn heart all to Miles.
#the burnout/writers block was So Bad man.#like i'm still being careful to not trip back into it bc it def feels tenuous. but. i missed my hobbies so much#unfortch don't have any papercraft wips but i've got 30570359 refs saved so. future plans!#my writing#also funniest thing about writing bk.dk is using bk's first name#izuku my darling boy i'd kill everyone in the room and then myself to give you the world. and bakugou. my fellow associate#(i also love him so much idek where that particular mental block is coming from lmao)
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daydreaming about my 25th in feb 💭
#my last bdays have been kind of lonely and quiet for various reasons#money; no one around/too busy to celebrate/pandemic for my 21st... kinda sucked a bit.#ideally i'd love to go to finland but it's a bit too soon and idek who i would go with lmao laugh out loud#also i thinkk i'd rather go to finland first time in summer so i don't have to worry about packing heavy duty clothing first#anyway i wanna get total makeover hair and nails done#part of me also wants to get another piercing (either belly button or nips) but i am SO SCARED#and ikkk i'd have to go alone and my parents would be like ?? why would u want that#ik i would slay i just know it ugh#like i don't rly have a fearrr of needles per say (i just don't look at them for injections etc.) but the thought of it going in such a#sensitive area uGH#i have balls sometimes i just have to get in the right mindset#i've conquered fears way harder ik it#just uhhhhh#anyway at least i'll hopefully have new hair new nails#even if my bestie will probs be busy bc.... bf sigh#the struggles#and my sister is always way too busy with her masters it's just a bit shit really innit#personal
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nowe thus in chronological order (so far)...IF anyone cares <3
December 1518
December 1525
1526 (short excerpt), 2
January 1526 (short excerpt)
February 1526 (short excerpt)
March 1526
December 1526
1527 (short excerpt)
March 1528 + March 1528
October 1528
December 1528
Late 1530 (short excerpt)
Late 1530 (short excerpt, 2)
February 1531
February 1533
October 1533 (short excerpt)
February 1534 (short excerpt, before 'read more')
Summer 1534 + short excerpt (reblog, 2nd one)
September 1534 + September 1534
December 1534 (excerpt, to be added to its own chapter)
July 1535 (short excerpt)
And then the 1535 scenes (thus far) are the only ones which are traditionally linear, so I'll leave those be for now...
#maybe i'll add excerpts. just to be craaaazy.....#this is making me realize how little i added A/N research notes in the beginning like whoops#like idek why i chose to set those first scenes in march 1528 particularly... except that i think i'd read anne had her own lodgings#in windsor at that time and wanted to write around that. lol#im also likely to private this fic once i get to the E-rated scenes/chapters so like. watch this space...#(private as in accessible to ao3 account holders only)#downloading the pdf. also not a bad idea! <3#if you're a re-reader particularly#the only one in between 1518 and 1525 here i have missing is#december 1521; where mary has lost margaret pole as her governess#or i might place 1520? i need to recheck the dates where she was removed from her service#it was either in relation to the investigation of arrest of the duke of buckingham#but anyway. it's the first time she and george interact. at a yuletide banquet. so i have it set up to parallel a future 1535 scene
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the council has spoken
#milgran't#council posting#the council has spoken. literally#but no sorry im just. celebrating a mild(ish) victory#i think i like. shared food? with another part?? for the first time??? like. Ate Together???#idk i always heard/saw other systems talk about doing stuff like that. like doing Things Together.#and i was just kinda like... :/// when i'd see it bc i didnt know what the Fuck they were talking about because we dont communicate for shi#so. I Suppose There Was Some Envy There. Perchance. (<- you cant just say ''perchance'' /ref)#usually ''doing things together'' means one alter doing something while another yells from somewhere about how much they want to die lmao#or the ''thing'' we do together is fight about what we want to do#but now.... i have experienced..... the mythical ''system bonding''............. feels good...................#..... i hope they come back again soon to share food again... 🥺#idek who it was so. i guess ill just get the same food out occasionally and be like ''pspspspspspsps''--#going to achieve internal communication via feral cat techniques
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when it's been so long since you've read a fic that you forget about it and you find it in the search tags and start reading it again
and it's great, if a little familiar, but you've read a lot of these sorts of fics bc you like this tag a lot, so you assume it's nothing
but then the deja vu starts adding up and you start to wonder
and then moments before the great big Plot Twist Reveal happens you're suddenly like ah hell this is the bloody sundial fic again isn't it
smh this has to be the fourth time yet
#not that I don't love that fic bc I do#but also this is quite funny to me#have I made this post already? I don't remember#mdzs fic#time travel fix it#I love that tag#iceberg tags under see all#bc sm of the fandoms I'm in have such messed-up backstories that it works#it's funny. like for the media that doesn't have as dark backstories ttfi doesn't really make sense (although time loop might!!)#mdzs and st go perfectly with it as does hp (ew)#pjo not as much bc the big bad stuff (for the most part) happens much further down the line in canon than in the first few chapters#like. b99 and idk descendants of the sun or haikyuu wouldn't really work#ik it doesn't HAVE TO but I've also noticed this trend where ttfi is more common in fandoms where it's somehow plausible by the magic syste#haikyuu just does not have that magic system lol (for example)#whereas jjk? maybe. aot? probably not physically/magically but it's got such a messy timeline that at this point why not honestly#tbf the second time I read that fic I did get legitimately surprised by the plot twist#pjo#percy jackson#stranger things#atla? maybe. like it would be weird but still sorta plausible using spirit shenanigans#hp and mdzs by way of their 'hard' magic system side - wards/arrays and the like#pjo by the gods ig?? so kinda like atla with the deus ex machina and not exactly soft nor hard side of their magic systems#cinematic universes? depends but for the marvel ones it's plausible for studio ghibli idek man for kpop music videos sometimes.#not tagging hp lol#terfs dni#like literally if you've made it this far down my notes already if you're a TERF please just fuck off or block me or smth#anyway anyone know about monsta x?#they have time travel literally baked into their concept so I bet there's time travel fix it tropes over in that fandom#I don't really touch rpf these days so idk#if you have any good recs you can argue for I'd be willing to try them ig?
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officially 10K into this fic and having a realization about where I'm at on characterization so far, so i'm wondering:
#N posts stuff#i'm like. this first draft is really the writing equivalent of layout sketching: which characters are where / what's the scene About#with the expectation that the second draft will have the building blocks there to build up specific characterization further#but i'm realizing that i am in fact SO broad strokes on the characters so far that i'd need to do extensive studying#of the source material to really hammer in the characterization in a way that i would be satisfied with. a task that at this point#likely wouldn't be very fun. so i had a moment of 'oh idek if i'll be able to finish writing this fic :(' and got sad about it#which was where the 'oh. actually if i'm That loose on characterization right now I could just. shift the characters in#Whatever ways i want them to go and just make them OCs instead of fanfic...' which would actually be like. technically speaking#a Lot more fun bc this fic is so self-indulgent that i keep having moments where i'm pulling back on other elements i'd want to#incorporate into the fic bc 'if it's Too self-indulgent with numerous headcanons it won't be Good to fandom readers'#(ie the character who would Really vibe being a furry and the other begging to be a tgirl)#it Might wind up being something we do no matter what but i am still curious if there would be like. an actual audience for it#and not just something i'm doing all for myself lol; i used to make a LOT of ocs but haven't really done it in Years nd Years#i had a 'no way' moment but i Have had multiple people tell me they read my fics Regardless of whether they've seen source#material or not. so tentatively hopeful the answer is yes? but i'm curious :3
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Hello friends. Would you like to meet the antagonist of Faust's route? The dastardly entity responsible for untold pain and misery, for putting our intrepid couple through the metaphorical wringer? The arch-enemy of mankind for centuries??
(spoilers behind the cut)
Here you go! Yersinia pestis, or Y. pestis to its friends, in all its gram-negative, electron scanned, color enhanced glory.
Aww, but Mrs O, you say, it's so cute! Look at its widdle fimbriae waving hewwo! Its pastel pink Lisa Frank inspired palette!
But don't be fooled! This tiny cold-blooded killer is responsible for more deaths than possibly any other infectious agent in the history of humankind - we all know it as the bubonic plague. The Black Death. It's cut down hundreds of millions of people over the course of human history, and it is still a threat today.
Transmitted to humans primarily by the bite of fleas, Y. pestis is a nasty character - without treatment, mortality rates upon infection are 30% - 90%. It sets up shop in a nearby lymph node, gets busy, and the resulting damage causes tissues to die. Victims tend to develop large, swollen, and painful lymph nodes called buboes, which is where the illness gets the name 'bubonic plague'.
One thing to note though, for Faust's route, is that while we generally think of this type of plague as THE plague...there are two other forms an infection with Y. pestis can take. A septicemic infection, where the bacteria enter the blood stream rather than the lymph nodes and which is almost always fatal, and a pneumonic version. This one here is the stuff of epidemiology nightmares. It often is the result of inhaling airborne droplets from another infected individual, and it can spread from person to person very easily unlike the usual bubonic form which requires bodily contact or a bite from an infected flea. It causes fevers, weakness, and violently severe coughing, and without antibiotics is nearly 100% fatal in a frighteningly short period of time - most victims are dead within mere days. Sometimes hours.
The first major recorded outbreak of the bubonic plague was the Plague of Justinian, which began about 1,500 years ago in 541 CE and ravaged the Sasanian and Byzantine empires. It's estimated that the plague resulted in anywhere from 15 to 100 million deaths, up to 40% of the population of Constantinople at the time, and some historians believe people were dying at a rate of 5,000 per day in the capital city.
The second plague epidemic, the one many people are more familiar with, was the one we refer to as the Black Death. This epidemic began raging across Europe, the Middle East, North Africa, and Asia in the late 1330s, with Europe being hit particularly hard. By the time it was over Europe would see its population cut between 30% and 60%, and the Middle East losing about a third of its people as well. Numbers are difficult to estimate but they range from 75 -200 million dead.
There is, however, a third plague epidemic, although not as well known. In the 18th century the plague made a resurgence in SW China, remaining somewhat localized until the mid 19th century when it spread to Hong Kong and from there globally. There were outbreaks in the United States, India, many African countries, SE Asian countries, Russia, South America, the Caribbean, and most importantly for our story purposes - Europe. The largest outbreak was in Lisbon, but there were many smaller pockets of infection in various cities across the continent.
This was around the time the plague bacterium got its scientific name, Yersinia pestis, because of this man - a secondary character in our vampire love story, albeit with a slightly different name:
Say hello to Alexandre Yersin, a Swiss-French doctor and scientist.
Keenly interested in bacteriology, in 1886 he studied in Paris where Louis Pasteur was doing work in microbiology and worked on antiserum for rabies and antitoxin for diphtheria, two other famous scourges. (Antiserum, in the briefest of explanations, is basically a way to transfer antibodies from someone/something exposed to an infectious agent to a different person, thereby triggering the recipients immune system earlier and more vigorously EDITED TO ADD: this also applies to venom and this is actually how antivenom is made as well!)
In 1894, he was sent to Hong Kong to investigate the plague outbreak and it was here that he identified the bacteria responsible, the one that now bears his name, along with confirmation of its transmission route via rodents. (A Japanese scientist in Hong Kong at the same time, Kitasato Shibasaburou, independently identified the bacterium almost simultaneously as well, but because his documentations were not as clear it is Yersin who is generally credited with the initial find)
Yersin spent the next few years continuing his studies of the plague, traveling back to Paris in 1895 to develop the first anti-plague serum. It was the work of scientists like him, and so many others at this time, that paved the way for modern medicine and a path towards eradicating the diseases that have held us in their skeletal grip for so much of mankind's history.
...And perhaps, in the world of Ikevamp, that path owes just a little bit to a certain bespectacled German priest.
#ikemen vampire#ikevamp#ikevamp faust#spoiler#spoilers#ikemen vampire spoilers#ikevamp spoilers#how to tag this?#lore? background? idek#maybe just 'stuff i wish i'd known the first time i read his route'
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Y'all I just realized... March 10th is officially Lurimol's first anniversary. And also kind of my anniversary of really getting super into hollow knight?
Sh. Should I do something?
#I'll likely do some art for myself but im like#would it be annoying to like. idek the word. encourage? others to partake in tragic old man yaoi on that day#i dont wanna be annoying TTwTT#but also wow ive had a hyperfixation for a full year thats a new record#idk i guess im proud of my little ship#ive learned a lot by doing art of them and also writing fic for the very first time???#lots of good things have come from gay bugs#if anyone makes lurimol stuff on that day i think i'd cry and piss and shit and throw up#but in a positive manner#may make a better post later idk idk
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Just got the craziest idea:
Ok, so we all love the din fics when he falls for the new member of his crew as she takes care of lil green bean baby... but what if she has a secret?
Not just that she's kinky crazy in love with our tin can man, but that she's a part of a rare alien species: they're born in 2 parts.
No, she's not a twin. Her people are born into two bodies, that share a consciousness (to a degree) & they feel everything that happens to the other... though they have different kinks & preferences (one is sweet & soft, & the other is similar, but craves ownership & corruption), they are ONE.
Due to the fact that they're so vulnerable (if one dies, they both die), & the fact that their people are nearly extinct, they keep their alien biology a secret... their whole life...until they meet din.
Maybe it's the baby who outs them? Force sensitive toddler can't keep a secret 😆 or, they're both on the crest (one stowed away), & din comes back early from a hunt, to find the mirror image of his crush cooing over his son. Idk....
I have many ideas I'm too afraid to write down (yet), but i loved this one so much, I had to post this lil thot before I forgot it! 😬
I blame the glorious monsterfucker writers i follow for this tangent... & I'm thrilled 😆
(If anyone takes this idea & runs with it? Please, tag me 😆 I expect it to disappear into the void until I get the courage to get the laptop out, but we'll see 🤪)
#din thot#my first one#be kind#idk if i'll ever finish this#but i love it#station!#I'd you get that reference i love you#one alien split in two#that's the vibe#cucking yourself#is that even a thing?#😆#random thoughts#din djarin fanfiction#my thots#thots#idek if that's the right term#help me fanfic gurus!#reblogging is love#monster romance#monster fucker
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they got me again and they probably can always get me again
#a sock speaks#local construction#I'm going to be helping with the church's junior Bible quizzing program#it's been 4 years since I was told I wasn't permitted to be a church singer or do children's ministry#I asked the pastor and he gave his approval so I'm going to do it#I look back on my Bible quizzing days as miserably stressful but there's a reason I kept doing it year after year#and now I'm an adult. I can tell people no. I have a car and I can leave when I want to. I can participate on my own terms.#maybe I can help these kids have a good/not traumatic experience quizzing#back when I stopped singing on the platform I'd sit in the first row and sing at the top of my lungs#now I can sing louder than they do with microphones#but I was so bitter then. I can choose to leave or stay but I don't want to live in that bitterness. idek that it was wrong#just that it wasn't good#anyway I love my hometown and will want to stay here or return here if I leave#this church is my community. I want to have a place here and a positive relationship with the people around me#even though I don't really know what that would look like#I disagree with many UPCI doctrinal statements but I love the Bible and I think quizzing is fun#and I hope that maybe I can find unobtrusive ways to teach a bit of Bible interpretation here and there
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Any tips for a fly infestation?
#And yes I know an exterminator#That's a last resort if they come back#I'd have to talk to my property manager first anyways#Idek where they came from#my life
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uh oh guys i'm only a few pages into agamemnon and i'm already hissing FUCK out loud in my living room as the chorus summarizes the sacrifice of iphigenia
PAIN BOTH WAYS
see this is why i think agamemnon is so much more interesting to approach as a tragic character within the confines of a tragedy than simplistic pop cultural "agamemnon = villain man, boo". he made a horrific choice but it was the fact that he had to choose that was horrific! "the worst will break me once i rend my child". FUCK
#i'd never read any greek tragedies until this year but god it's how people's hands are forced that really fucks me up every time#how the tragedy is inevitable and even if people make bad choices it's a bad choice that must happen y'know?#idek i'm emotional at the parodos already god help me#first impressions tag#the oresteia
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can you tell how happy i am to see paper mario gaining attention again after over a decade lol like it's genuinely made the start of pride month more delightful to Me
#paper mario#paper mario ttyd#like idek if i'd call it a Full hyperfixation really but the first 3 games really are some of my favorites of all time#so it feels like coming home <3#and i will not shut up about it to anyone i love ☺️
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I realize that to others, having recurrent suicidal thoughts and other violent intrusive thoughts, having several coping mechanisms that are in some way or another self-harm and dangerous habits, having difficult to control memory flashbacks out of the blue that ruin your entire mood and bring you down, and having a generally almost constant level of demotivation and negativeness, derealization and depersonalization, and sheer panicked internal anxiety and paranoia that can go overboard at any second, are not normal. But like, that's been most of my life since I was 13ish, very few times I have not felt this way. I've just learned to carry on and not talk too much about it, because it scandalizes people to hear that sort of stuff, and that means they turn against you and abandon you, because they think I am either too much to handle or am acting out too much.
#personal#mental health#tw: suicide talk#tw: self-harm talk#tbh I have not been able to even bring it up completely to the therapists and psychologists because also I don't want to end up in the#mental hospital and cause a whole ass upheaval in my life and bring unnecessary attention and criticism from family and others#I don't want to be deemed ''crazy'' and thus have my personal freedom and self-determination taken away mainly by my parents#they both will demean and attack me for being this way despite the fact it is very much their fault and will try to take over control of my#life and never let me ever leave them like I want to#if it gets to that point I am fucking killing myself because fuck that#so ofc I just try to carry on life and try to act normal at least on the outside so people don't fuck me over#I did mention the ressurgence of my suicidal thoughts to the psychologists on the health clinic (with a lot of ''but I'd never act on it'')#ressurances so they don't fuck me over and that was the first time I've talked about it honestly but like.... IDEK what to even say to them#I guess I'll just wait until the turn of the month so I will go back to therapy (I finally gathered up some money for that) and talk about#it to my therapist but yeah that'll be fun
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outside the sanctum of lady edelgard's parlour - that birthplace of so many plots through the years - how absurd it seems. but now several seasons since the long war's end, needs be that someone go to leicester. the gesture has grown necessary, and ultimately, it does have to be him.
"and you. I want you with me," is how hubert concludes. simple is best, perhaps. ferdinand sits very still before him, hand over mouth. "look - this was never my idea. but I also can't downplay your role. I hope I've elucidated how valuable your presence would be."
"you - you really have. I," and he takes a strong sip of wine, then another. (hubert pours a generous replacement.) "excuse me." he then moves to the adjoining room, and paces rapidly for a good many minutes.
this is as difficult for me as it is for you, is what hubert longs to call, fingers pressed to his temple. but he has already put that mortification aside out of necessity, and his duty now is to affect total calm. he must not distract from the seriousness of the endeavour, nor the confidence lady edelgard has imparted in them.
ferdinand doesn't need to know that he needed a full day to process the idea.
"hubert, dorothea once confided in me a worry. that if I were to wish you marry, whosoever I commanded you take as your partner you would accept. well, I ask you now to put on the act."
a ~17k T-rated ferdibert fic for the “fake dating” prompt 🧡 🖤
link!
#fe3h tag#ferdibert#brought to you by being like#fake dating? 🙄 i could never enjoy that..don't get it..sounds awkward..how would it even work...#the only way i can see it working is...yes and then... *writes 17k feverishly* yeah it'd have to be like that. :)#read ma silly little tale if you want a silly and nice little time. it's so NOT mentally ill like my normal stuff i promise#it's just FUN..... just some repressed romantic fun i say....... god sometimes that is soooo valid#i think this is the first time i've written not to Process Something but just to have FUN.......#i'm in a sorrowful mood today so i'm going to reread it myself. let me know if u like it and have a nice visit 💗#i never thought i'd write so much for them again idek what happened. i even wrote claude and marianne. they just came to me. my friends
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