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[moncheriez]

Fast Forward

Fuck, fuck, fuck ! I just opened this account right now and finished to read that one post of mine about yanyan liking another girl. MY CHIKA IS,,,, he already admitted that he likes her daw. NAKAKAIRITA RIGHT ??? So what happened is, I asked him if may nagustuhan na siya na girl before. KAHIT PARANG CRUSH CRUSH LANG, GANON. He didn’t answer my tanong until our class was dismissed na. SABI NA AMO BURI NE KANU DATI, EDI USTU YA ING ISIPAN KU KANITA. Hay, grade 11 na kami and may ganap parin about HER. Banas ing, atin pang dakal amo. Mas dakal ku ababalu ngeni. SORA, dapat kasi ali ku namu isipan. Pero ita pin, buri ne pala talaga kanita. Eku mu balu nung hanggang ngeni. Sabi na naman ali na ne favorite, dati mu kanu ing. CHACHAT NE PIN PALA TALAGA AMO, MAKASELUS KASI OT KAYA GAGAWAN NA ITA TAPUS KAKU BALAM TRIP TRIP MUNG ALANG CHOICE ING. Nakakalungkot lang din, parang binababa ko lang sarili kong value hahaha kasi pepabren kung kanyanan naku mu. La, buri ke eh hahahaha ana kasakit !!!!!!

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[06-02-23]

So yes, it's my birth month. FINALLY JUNE NA. Okay, let's talk about yanyan. Masaya ako kasi it's already june na, though hindi naging maganda ang welcome ng june because me and yanyan had misunderstanding moments. Pero everything's fine na, because of him lang din naman, of course. Yas, kanina we have pasok kaya nagkasama kami. Nag-usap kami about the bad things that happened sa life ko. He naiintindihan me naman kaya kanina, noong umiyak ako ng ditak, nafeel ko na I'm really really lucky to have yanyan in my life. I kwento a lot and he listened. Ahh it's just so masarap sa feelings na you know that you have someone sa tabi mo, always. Mahal, I love you so much. Thank you for always being here sa tabi ko when I needed someone. Also, do you know ba na ikaw lang talaga need ko sa life (syempre family ko is automatic ko na need sa life), no one else can do what ang mga ginagawa ng isang igb. Thank you so much bffae.

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[ 05 - 26 - 23 ]

Yesterday, I'm not feeling well to write this post that's why I'm making this right now instead. So, it was really a good day naman. Walang klase kaya hindi kami nagkasama, I really miss him na. We talked about our future (?) dream dream thingy. AAAA I think he's really really really seryoso about me, about us. He told me na magkasama naming aabutin yon. "Kaya natin to" hahahah nakakaomg. We talked about this for an hour. After we usap usap, nag sleep na. But me, nag breakdown a little kasi naiisip ko ang mga things that I don't want to happen. I really really love gab because he makes me feel that I am special. I don't want him to leave me. PLS STAY WITH ME FOREVER GAB :>

[moncheriez]

- Comfort Person -

Good Morning ! the chika for this morning is all about what just happened last night. I already confess my feelings na to bebe. We talked about me, how my feelings gulo my mind hahaha. I told him na i do not understand what nararamdaman ko and if this feeling ay hindi nag stop, there's a chance na baka mag iba ang feelings ko towards him. I don't want that to happen so I sabi na to yan what about that. He got sad kasi akala niya iiwan ko siya hahahaha cute talaga. So ya, I'm finally okay na. Yanyan told me na I am the only one. He explain how much he loves me and told me that he's always here for me. I THINK I'M THE LUCKIEST WOMAN ALIVE SA WORLD NA ETO. My confession went nice naman, naging clear na ang feelings ko. He knows how to make usap usap to me, kahit minsan hindi nagkakaintindihan. Wala, I think he's the only person na kilala ako, loves me kung who me, and he's really the only person na ginugusto akong intindihin palagi. THANK U SO MUCH MY ONE N ONLY !

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- Gt Part 2 -

Yes, may part na pala to hahaha. Earlier I'm holding yan's phone because he gave it to me, sumasayaw e. I opened it kasi I was with my pinsan and I just wanna show to her sana yung picture ng crushiecakez niya (monie's friend). Sa gallery kami and I accidentally saw the photo of that girl na naman. I feel so so so so so sad kasi bakit hahaha I dunno. But yas, yanyan still don't know about it. AAA I don't know what na ang i t-think ko. Lalo na while I'm typing this he called me maganda and many more haha. Hindi lang doon na f-finish. Another yanyan's friend mention that girl na naman by asking yanyan if I know about that girl. And bebe said that i knew about it daw. I think he said that because he knows that I know that girl. Hindi yung baka he likes her before (?). Or like, hindi yung I know what's with her ba. HE'S SMILING PA. Sabi ko kasi "ano" and then sabi ng friend niya na I don't know about it pala. Lalo nag smile ang bebe, lalo akong naging sad hahahaha. Ang sakit kaya sa heart. Yun lang, i hope there's no part 3 na. Sakit po love love ko :(

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[ 05 -25 -23 ]

Away moments again namin ni bebe. So we went to school at exactly 3:30 am kasi we had an event, it's called fun run. While me and my pinsan walking sa school together, we saw mon cherie. He ask me where am I going daw, i answered him naman na we're finding my pinsan kasi he forgot his pera. So yanyan helps me to find my pinsan and sadly, hindi namin siya nakita sa school. We go back sa room and sit for a moment. Nung tinawag na kami ng classmate ko and get ready for registration daw, he got mad kasi hindi ko daw siya hinihintay. I said sorry naman and napapabilis lang naman ang lakad. Yanyan is mad at me kasi hindi ko siya hinahawakan and yas, he thinks that I don't want to be with him. He's really really mali kaya sa point na yon, kasi I like him so much more e. And the "alis ka na" moments. The chika is the fun run is starting na so we're getting ready na for everything. I can't be with him kasi tatakbo siya suler and I hate running. Kaya sinamahan ko yung pinsan ko na classmate ko. I'm with yanyan pero mag s-start na kaya pinupuntahan ko na yung pinsan ko. He pigil me bigla kaya hindi ko nasabayan yung pinsan ko and I'm worrying baka wala akong makasama sa daan. So i got mad, not that galit naman, slight lang. Gladly, my other pinsan was still there and sa kanya na sana ako sasabay. Yan is mad nung sinabi ko na "alis ka na". Kasi there's no ingat and ily HAHAHAHA cute. He cried again while we're getting ready sa fun run kanina. After the fun run, nag away again because I'm always with my pinsan. Pero kasi nag c-chikahan lang kami. I chika to my pinsan about that GIRL. Just some girl girl talkz. I saw another na naman e. Ahh ang ouchy talaga. But in the end, nagkabati din ofc. He atad me pa sa court and we bought corncorn. Thanks a lot mahal. Anddddddd that's the end for today :>

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- Before I sleep -

I'm just wondering if yanyan will stop doing this things and when hahahaha. He's really amazing kaya, even though sometimes imma pa ang mind niya, like clueless kasi first time niya lang (maybe?). Yan treat me very well, nagiging masaya sobra. Hindi niya alam limit niya minsan hahahaha pero love ko pa din siya. Yes, sinasabihan ko naman siya so that it will never happen again. Nakikinig naman siya sa akin minsan, naiintindihan niya, pero minsan hindi din. I will never ever get tired of loving yanyan. He mean a lot to me and I don't know what na ang mangyayari kapag nawala siya sa life ko. Mahal na mahal kita, Mon Cherie. He's probably sleeping na right now, sabi ko sabay kami pero I wanna post this pa e. Every time before we go to sleep kasi, ang sweet sweet niya sobra. Araw araw naman ganon pero apaka sweet niya talaga. Pogi mo !!!!!

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- Girl Talkz -

I just have this thoughtz in my utak about monie likes another girl. AND THAT GIRL, SHE'S REALLY PERFECT. Yesterday, I am using monie's phone and nag c-check lang ako sa gallery niya because I saw my pictures on his gallery and ofc, kinilig hahaha. But nung pababa na ang scroll ko, monie stopped me. NO NO. HE'S TRYING TO STOP ME SA PAG SCROLL. Syempre nagtataka ako WHY. He don't usually do that eh. So yes, kinabahan na. But then again, A LOT OF THINGS CAME TO MY MIND. I'm super curious what ang nandoon and why he did that. So naglakas me ng loob to check what's on there or is he hiding something ba ?!?!?! Yup, I checked it. And I just saw a photo of monie with that GIRL. Yanyan didn't pansin na I saw it kasi I'm just chilling chilling kunwari about it. Nafeel ko ang mga things na hindi naman dapat i feel kasi nga monie told me na I am the only one. (but what if he really likes that girl?) Yanyan's friends always asking that kind of question that makes me feel like watdaef. THEY'RE ASKING MONIE IF HE MISS THAT GIRL NA. Something came up sa mind ko. Baka he really like her pero hindi lang pwede (?) I know that GIRL and she knows about me too. Nakasama ko na din siya that is why I can tell that she is really really perfect and all na boys sa mundo, ma i-in love sa kanya. Maybe girls too? HAHAHA. Uhm that GIRL din naman told me na nag c-chat daw si monie sa kanya before. The day she said those salita, nag overthink ako syempre. But the thing is, parang relatives na kasi sila. Like, yanyan really like her but hindi pwede that's why sa akin siya ngayon hahaha. Well I'm glad, pero nakakabanas kasi he likes her more than he likes me. And last thing na paulit-ulit sa utak ko ay bakit niya tinatago or ayaw pakita yon sa akin. KAYA MAS NAISIP KO NA BAKA GUSTO NIYA TALAGA. I think the picture was really matagal na, kaya lalo ko talagang naisip na gusto niya yung GIRL. Ugh, can't hold it anymore, nalulungkot ako. Everytime na mag p-picture kami naiilang na ako so much. Naaalala ko na yon and na i-insecure me about how I look. I hope may explanation about there hahahah. Hindi ko naman malalaman if meron amd nothing, kasi I'm not malakas enough to tell that to him. Feeling scared :(

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[05 - 24 - 23]

Today there's a lot of bagay na nangyari. First, umiyak si monie pogi hahaha. The chika behind that is I don't do pansin daw to him that's why he feel so so so jealous and ended up crying BESIDE MEEEE. Well, I think I just did some mali din but it WASN'T MY FAULT. Hindi naman din niya fault. Yea, naiinis kasi ako kay monie kaya hindi ko siya pinansin so so so much. You wanna know what happened next? Monie said that why I am so so so so happy daw when I'm talking to others tapos kapag sa kanya I'm not even bumubulad hahaha. The reason why I'm naiinis kay monie is he doesn't think how his words saktan me a lot. Kasi pagkakita ko sa kanya sa school kanina dami dami na niyang sinasabi. Why I'm with him daw (kinaiinisan niya na person). Monie can ask that naman in a good good way but he's shouting at me. I was like OH NO BEBE PLEASE BE MALAMBING MUNA ANG AGA AGA HUHU. So yas, nag galit galitan po me. PERO I REALLY FEEL BAD DOING THAT TO MY BEBE. I'm so sorry pogi. I just want monie understands what I felt when he's doing that to me, like intindihin niya din ako. Kasi kapag he's mad, he is mad talaga. I can't do anything. I can't explain my self, kasi kapag nag explain ako lalo lang lalala kasi hindi niya pinapaniwalaan mga sinasabi ko. And, kaya naman kasama ko yung banas person na yon e may tinanong lang. Second reason is that earlier monie thought that I have iba na. I TOLD HIM NA NOOO IT'S JUST U MAHAL KO. Kaya naman niya yon naisip kasi hindi ko pinaalam sa kanya what me and my friend talk about. Just sum girl talkz huhu. And lastly, kinausap kami ng isang teacher namin about his clingy clingy thingy. I FEEL SO NERVOUS KAYA THAT TIME. It's our mali kasi we're nasa school tapos ginagawa ang mga bagay bagay na yon haha. I tried to warning him na about those things but yes, monie is not matured enough to understand those. So i just need to make sabay sabay to what he does but at the same time, iwas sa hindi maganda. I don't know why I can't stop my sarili sa "sabay sabay" na yan. I really don't wanna lose him. That's all the chikaz for this post. LOVE U MON CHERIE !

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EVERY TIME I SEE YOU, I FALL IN LOVE ALL OVER AGAIN.

Hi monie pogi. I really really really like you so much. I made this account for you kasi super special ka sa akin. I don't know what words will I use to describe how am I lucky to have you in my life, I will treasure you mahal ko. I can't explain what ang mga things na pinaparamdam mo sa akin, basta ang alam ko you make me fall deeper in love everyday. There's some mga bagay bagay na ginagawa mo that I kinda hate and I do not know how will i make sabi those bagay to you. Sometimes I overthink a lot of things about you liking others. But most all of the times, naiisip ko ang mga bagay bagay na tungkol sa atin at my future. Ano lang, ka emehan lang siguro. Kasi everytime na nararamdaman ko na may mas nagugustuhan ka kesa sa akin, kapag nag usap na tayo ulit nawawala na yung feeling ko na 'yon. Thank you so much bebe. Starting December 15 2022, you changed my life. AND YES, I will forever remember that day. NEVER MAKAKALIMUTAN AT KAKALIMUTAN. You make me the happiest person in the WHOLE UNIVERSE. And I just wanna chika this one din hehez. Mahal ko, I know that minsan may mga nagagawa tayong mali and uhm ewan, I feel like I just need to makisabay. I'm natatakot to lose you. Sana hindi ka mawawala sa akin. Nag sisimula pa lang tayo love and I hope there's no ending na ang magaganap. I WILL LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONALLY !! <3