#idc if they refuse to change the schedule

[vitiateoriginator]

Mentally preparing myself to go into work and argue with my managers-yet again-about scheduling me to work on Tuesdays. They know that's the one day I have no availability. I can work all the other days of the week, anytime they want, just not Tuesday. Yet every now and then they conveniently "forget", and schedule me to work that day. They did it for this week and next week. They'll probably ask me to "make an exception" this time. Absolutely not.

Once a few months ago I did that, because we were preparing for a corporate visit, and then they argued with me for 2 weeks that I should be able to work Tuesdays since I was able to come in that one time. You give em an inch and they take a mile. Never again.

[cordidy]

Grieving...

The LaDS men helping you after Josephine and Caleb's fake death (cause he definitively is "shady guy" idc).

I took the part of not dating cause I wanted some friendly comfort and since Zayne is a chilhood friend I assumed he would be more present than the others, hence his is longer (😏🤭)

TW : mention of death, funeral

Featuring Zayne, Xavier, Rafayel and Sylus.

English is not my mother tongue.

- Zayne was in surgery when the explosion happened and it's only a couple of hours after you got admitted to Akso's ER, when he got back to his office to relax, that he got the memo as your physician.

- He spends the night by your side, refusing to move until you wake up and holds your hand the next day when the police comfirms they did not find any remains in the rubble of the house.

- The man will be HERE for you all the way down, moving onto your couch the moment he brought you back home. While he can't clear his bussy schedule, his free time will be dedicated to you, making sure you get healthy meals, rest and all the support you need but also leaving you space of needed.

- Zayne is very organized so wether it's the paperwork with the insurance or the funeral organization he will help and will even step up to take decisions when you mentally can't.

- He's madly in love with you but won't try anything innapropriate in your weaken state, going as far as gently push you away when you try to hit on him one night just to feel something else than the despair you've fallen into.

- "Not like this" he will whisper as you try to kiss him before breaking down in his arm. He will hold you while carressing your hair to try and sooth you thou, kissing your forehead gently, lulling you to sleep with sweet words.

- The day of the funeral he stands by your side, holding your hand tight to remind you you are not alone, your fingers intertwined being the only thing grounding you.

- On the following weeks he will abuse his prerogative as you physician to check your tension and run tests to make sure you are not letting yourself drown in sorrow. Dropping by you place after work will also become a habit and he won't hide the fact IT IS to check up on you, no shit given at the side eye you give him while he is cooking you dinner instead of instant noodles.

- Xavier finds out when the news reaches the Association.

- He will volunteer to bring you flowers and condoleances on behalf of your coworkers and will offer to drive you home when you get discharged from the hospital since you are neighbors.

- He will find ANY occasion to show up at your door. "I ran out of sugar" "do you have hot water ?" "The delivery guy (he bribed) gave me your package" all of these just to check on you without saying it out loud cause he knows you don't like people seeing you in a weak state.

- He will barely get sleep as he wants to be sure he won't miss your knock on the door when you'll start doing the same just to not be alone with your thoughts.

- It will become a habit for you to fall asleep on his couch whihe watching a movie to try and change your mind since your place, so full of memories, will become unbearable. His place will turn into your sanctuary even when he is at work as he gave you a spare key.

- After the funeral, once you're back to work, he will always offer to train together whenever he sees that look in your eyes, just to keep you busy and will start to do some overtime (mainly in the firm of sleeping at his desk) so he has an excuse to walk home with you.

- Whenever one of your friend come to visit and he knows he had a couple hours he will take the opportunity to turn the N109 zone upside down, looking for intel

- Rafayel heard about the explosion on the news, like everyone else but did not realize you were involved so, when you did not answer his messages for the past 3 days (cause you were at the hospital) he got pretty annoyed at being ignored, spaming your phone with complains.

- One evening, he shows up at your door unannounced, all pouting and whinning, thinking the bruises on your face are from another "stupid mission" and it's the reason you didn't show up to his last exhibition when he "really needed you to protect me from all these snobs !"

- "You obviously don't care about me or your job as a Bodyguard ! I could have died over the past 3 days and you wouldn't care" He complains dramatically, not expecting you to snap at him (very poor choice of words from his part thou !) and break down in tears, telling him how immature he is, that the world doesn't revolve around him and you don't want to see him again before slapping the door to his face.

- Thomas is the one telling him what happened when he reads about the upcoming funeral in the news and Rafayel is mortified. He shows up at your doors with flowers and when you tell him you don't want them he stops you "they are for your family..."

- He will spend all his nights on the phone with you, talking about everything, listening to you cry or just being there and won't hang out until you fall asleep (also answering on the first ring whenever you call him back if you had a nightmare)

- Sylus is not around at that time but that doesn't mean he doesn't know someone is trying to frame his organization and himself for the explosion. He will remain in the shadows thou while trying to find out who did it.

- Not being involved with you yet, it's not really about you but more about "fuck around and find out" to him.

- Luke and Kieran will attend the funeral discretly to keep an eye on the survivor and see if anything suspicious happens.

- You also start noticing strange little trinkets left here and there, a little coin, a shinny rock, a pretty leaf....

[kamiversee]

Hihi kami, hope that ur doing well c: i’m a new reader to ur blog and i just wanted to say that i’m so fricken grateful that i came across tfl cuz hot diggity damn what masterpiece did i just read 😳 am just gonna yap abt the series for a bit CUZ I CANT GET OVER IT AND MAY HAVE DEVELOPED AN EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENT TO IT 😭 i refuse to accept that choso is endgame in the official ending 🙄 so im just gonna be in denial and pretend that the alt ending (presumably gojo endgame heh🤭) is THE REAL ENDING TEHE CUZ MY SNOWFLAKE HEART CANT HANDLE MY POOR BABY LEFT HANGING LIKE THAT :,c LIKE IDC IF HE DID ALL THAT DARK NASTY SHIT IM STILL LOYAL TO MY KING REGARDLESS🗣 And all the sappy angst/fluff moments with gojo had my heart clenching bc no matter how many times we had those juicy intimate moments it wouldnt change the fact that the relationship was forbidden from the very beginning u-u like damn you author,, u made me feel every emotion experienced known to mankind 😭 Idk what you incorporate in ur writing but its so seamlessly immaculate to the point ive ruined my sleep schedule just to read ur fics n find myself deeply immersed in them 🥹 anyway enuf yapping but CONTINUE COOKING LIKE THE 5 STAR MICHELIN CHEF YOU AREEE 😘😘 am so pumped for more chaps of the sequel!!! :D lots of love 💖💖💖💖

AHH THANK YOU SO MUCHH >< This boosted me to write just a bit faster ugh, ilysm.

I love how I always have everyone go thru every emotion throughout tfl ^.^ I always say its the best thing I’ve ever written & I still stand by that! I’m gonna try my best to make Gojo’s comeback worth it for the girlies who need him so terribly bad 🙏

Because Im a smut author, I don’t get to write angst too often so whenever I do, I end up pouring all my emotions into it & I’m glad it always gets perceived well!

Tysm for readin bby! <3

[starocean]

y’all i’m so sorry i’m hardly active on here, i really am.

i sound like a whiny baby but i’m so exhausted all the time, and mentally and physically i’m just not doing well. this has been feeding my depression and making it worse, which isn’t helping in the slightest. why do these always keep getting really long lmao

tl;dr i'm tired and all i do is sleep or lay around and rest and do nothing productive and it's taking a toll on me bc idk when i'm getting anymore extended time off and i just want to have time to properly rest and recuperate w/o worrying about work. and it's preventing me from doing anything productive

i'm a broken record but idc anymore man.

my vacation keeps getting pushed back, and i’m ngl, i’m still miffed my boss hasn’t even talked to me about it. i’m just. so tired. so physically tired that atp, if i let myself sleep without getting up to do anything that i need to do, i am getting around 12 hours of sleep or more. that’s literally half the day. i should not be sleeping that much of my time away, and it’s because my body is literally exhausted to the point that i’ve been getting headaches and fighting to stay awake while at work even when i am getting normal amounts of sleep.

i can't keep going on like this, and i really hope it changes soon bc it makes me want to cry. i hate feeling this way, feeling so sick and tired all the time. i just want my frickin extra time off, and the fact that my boss won't even talk to me about it just upsets me even more. the asm will literally pitch a fit if she can't get her vacation time or keep her off days. she does it all the time. when she starts trying to put her vacations in too close together and the sm rejects it, she will come to the store on her time off and demand to know why her time off requests were denied. she rarely has to cover for anyone if they call out, and when she does, she doesn't hesitate to let everyone know how pissy she is about it.

and not to go back to it, but that's a thing that really pisses me off about the sm trying to guilt trip me for wanting that one off-day back. i'm not like the asm. i don't gripe to all my coworkers about not having off this day or that day or whatever. i have not ever, actually, said anything to her about all the 9 - 13 day "weeks" she keeps scheduling me for (which will probably change, bc if i found out that the reason i have next weekend off is bc she's scheduling me for an extra long work "week" again, i will be saying something to her bc i'm fucking tired of it. i should not have to work two damn weeks for one day off). i have quite literally NEVER said anything about my off-days being taken without her contacting me before—even when that's been the reason i've had to work 13 days straight, but whatever—unless i had to remind her about certain times i'd already requested off bc of prior appointments (mostly for medical), and it's rare i have to say anything to her about that. i keep my displeasure to myself and bitch to my mom or on here, but i never say anything to my coworkers or my boss bc i don't like feeling like i'm being a nuisance.

but like??? that was the first double she'd had to pull in months. i've pulled more than they have, bc of someone calling out and the asm and other coworkers refusing to cover for anyone. and i still don't feel sorry for her covering that night bc she got the next day off. if i'd just let it stand and not said anything to her, it would've lead to another one of those 13-day work "weeks" for me and i wasn't having that lmfao. and, like, i am the only one that this happens to regularly. not even the girl who wants to work for days on end with no time off gets to do that. the sm has denied her requests of less time off because "you need to take time off, no one can work like that without a break here and there." which is true, yeah, but it's really fucking hypocritical bc?? she expects me to?????? she's scheduled me for these long ass "weeks" more than anyone in that store without even asking me if i'm okay with it, so????? fuck that.

it fucking sucks and it makes me wonder if i made the right decision about not taking a chance on that work-from-home job i found. i can't tell if i dodged a bullet by listening to the reviews, or if i screwed up a really good chance.

let me have my extended time off! damn!

[wonwoonlight]

my way to you / jeon wonwoo | chapter 3

➝ Wonwoo x fem!Reader

➝ rich!AU // heir & heiress!AU // best friends to lovers // idiots to lovers lol // fluff // a lil drama bc why not // somewhat angsty // clicheeeee <3

➝ series warning: OC is Dense with a capital D, so many cliches but idc, implied sexual activities (but no actual smut scenes), eventual suggestive scenes, theyre both idiots, food, insecurity and self doubts, somewhat toxic parents, someone fainted like once, not always proofread am sorry ;-; that’s probably it? tell me if there’s more!

➝ A/N: hi! decided to change the schedule from tue/sat to tue/fri bc tuesday and saturday is too far away lol anyway, i feel like this fic is slower than you guys must've expected so im sorry for that jhdfbsfb anyhow, pls enjoy and, as always, dont hesitate to drop by and share your thoughts with me!

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“What’s wrong this time, son?” His mom asks yet again. She’s not sure how many times Wonwoo has refused to actually pursue the girls she has set him up with. But, then again, she’s his mom and she knows Wonwoo only has his eyes–and heart–on the Yoons’ only daughter.

She can think of a few scenarios on why he hasn’t tried to pursue the heiress either.

“Just not my type,” he shrugs nonchalantly over dinner. He knows this talk was coming the moment his mom calls him over to have dinner on the family house; she has even extended the invitation to you, who was with Wonwoo when she called, but you already promised Jeonghan you’ll eat with him so you make sure instead to invite his mom to lunch one of these days.

“Do you even have a type?” His dad asks, serious and oblivious of his son’s affection towards his childhood friend.

Jinyoung shares a look with his mom, not even bothering to comment on it when Wonwoo simply shrugs and says he’s not looking to be in a relationship now.

“Why do you even keep on setting me up?” he asks, trying his best to bite back the tired and annoyed tone. This is his parents and he has to be polite.

“We’re not getting any younger, son.”

“Then ask Jinyoung to get married? He’s literally the oldest son here,” he offers innocently, earning a glare from his brother. “You’ve been dating Jisoo for what–5 years? Why haven’t you proposed yet?”

“Not your business,” Jinyoung simply answers, stopping the discussion there. “But Wonwoo’s right, Mom. You don’t need to worry about his lovelife. He’s simply not interested for now and you shouldn’t push it.”

Their mom sighs, once again muttering about how she just wants the best for him. Their dad doesn’t fuss too much about it, either because Wonwoo’s the youngest or because Jinyoung’s set with a serious girlfriend anyway.

But Wonwoo figures his mom is probably bored because she doesn’t get to play cupid like her friends. He rarely even agrees when she says she wants to set him up with someone, and the few times he does, it’s because he’s either interested in the family’s company or he already knows the other person isn’t looking for a relationship either.

“Who did you meet anyway?” his brother asks, suddenly curious.

“Han Yerin,” his mom answers instead, eyes twinkling at the thought of playing cupid.

Jinyoung snorts, and at least he still has enough manners to reach for a napkin and close his mouth as he does so. “You couldn’t have chosen a better date for him? What made you agree this time?”

“Mom promised not to set me up on blind dates again until the year ends,” he shrugs, not minding his mother’s pout. “Plus, I heard one of their subholdings is branching to Singapore so I wanted to see if I can prod.”

“You made me promise that,” she sighs dramatically. “Honestly, if it’s not because of that partnership with their company and I already promised her mom, I wouldn’t have agreed with your condition.”

“I’ve always thought you’re bound to get tired already, Mom,” Jinyoung chirps again as he nudges his younger brother for some tissue. “None of the date has seen a second time but you’re still so adamant on setting him up on one.”

Their mother sighs and says something about not stopping until Wonwoo finds himself a girlfriend, because it’s fun and she has never forced Wonwoo to actually date any of them anyway.

Ultimately, it’s his decision if he wants to take things further, and as much as it’s annoying to go on these occasional dates, Wonwoo’s still glad his mom has never pushed him into an actual relationship with any of them.

Deep down, he figures that’s the reason why he goes (albeit reluctantly) to these dates as well; he knows it makes his mom happy and there’s no real commitment behind it. He would never understand how it makes her happy, but that’s really the last of his problems. If anything, at least he gets to dig about their family companies most of the time.

“Speaking of,” their mom speaks up once again. “Have you heard Jennie is returning to Korea some time next week?”

Wonwoo chokes on his food at the mention of her name, with Jinyoung quickly patting him in the back as he tries to calm himself down. The older brother looks at him in concern, his mind floating to you.

He's heard from Jennie herself that she's going to be in Seoul after so long, and between his meetings and reports, he's forgotten to tell his brother about it. It's been quite sometime since the girl is going to stay in her birth country for so long, and the first thing that popped up in his mind when he heard the news was you.

Jinyoung isn’t sure why, but even though you’ve always had a high self-esteem and self-assurance, Jennie Kim is the one exception that makes you feel queasy inside. And if Jinyoung is already worried about this, God knows how Wonwoo is feeling inside.

Jennie is a family friend, one that lives mostly abroad than within the country–even right now she mostly stays in France with her parents. She spent half of her childhood in South Korea, and because her mom is somewhat close with their mom, she often made Jennie play with the Jeon siblings and, by extension, you.

You’ve never explicitly said or even shown that you have any distaste towards the girl, but, even in their young ages, Jinyoung, Wonwoo, and Shua had it in them to notice that you got quiet everytime Jennie was present.

Jinyoung knew Shua had asked about it before, somewhere during your high school holiday when Jennie had suddenly joined the short vacation in Toulouse all of you had been planning for a while. You were so excited when you got off the plane, and Jinyoung still remembers the way you stilled the moment Jennie came to pick you up at the airport as a surprise. Of course she was going to be there, she was living in the country, after all, and she probably heard from Wonwoo’s mom that you're visiting for the holiday.

“Did she tell you anything?” he had asked Shua, his brotherly instinct kicking in after seeing you quiet most of the time when you were the most excited about this trip before.

The younger guy had just shook his head, telling Jinyoung you had refused to tell him if anything’s bothering you. “I… don’t think it’s something she wants to talk about, at least not now. You know she rarely keeps things from me.”

“For what reason?” Jinyoung asks even if he knows already, well aware that Wonwoo’s curious but wouldn’t sound it himself.

“I’m not entirely sure,” their mom answers honestly. “But I think she’s shooting a… photobook? For her portfolio, I suppose.”

It’s to no one’s surprise that Jennie Kim, in line to take over Ruby Corp., is quick to climb up the business ladder and is already a world famous high fashion designer at her young age. She does have the talent for it, and is also very meticulous at everything she does, but everyone knows her parents’ connections get her everywhere quicker than anyone else would.

People (the elders, to be particular) were skeptical at first, not getting why she’d become a designer when her family owns a giant fashion company for her to manage. But Jennie has always loved drawing clothes, has always loved dressing people up too, so when she declared she’d learn their family business while she takes on the challenge to be a high fashion designer, her parents couldn’t really say no to that.

Wonwoo’s mind wanders to you, perhaps Jennie wouldn’t be here for long and you wouldn’t have to meet her.

You’ve never explicitly said anything to him, but Wonwoo knows Jennie makes you uncomfortable. In what way or why, he’s still not sure, but what he’s certain of is he doesn’t like you being uncomfortable and he doesn’t like your eerie silence–they worry him, and Wonwoo has never been good at dealing with his worries when it comes to you.

But your parents have never really cared about this, or maybe they don’t notice their daughter’s obvious discomfort in the Kims’ heiress’ presence, which is why they always make you hang out–if what they consider hanging out is politely meet up–with her everytime you’re in the same city.

It is good publicity, after all.

Jennie doesn’t seem to mind your quietness either. He wonders if she knows you’re not… you in her presence, if Jennie’s simply unbothered, or if she’s making a statement. But at least she doesn’t treat you differently and simply acts like she doesn’t notice that you rarely initiate anything with her.

“–and so you’ll have to take care of her okay?” his mom’s voice brings him back to reality.

“Who?” he blinks in confusion. “Sorry, I missed what you were saying.”

“Jennie will be here for at least two months, Wonwoo,” she repeats patiently, used to her son’s tendency to zone out in the middle of meals. “Take care of her, okay? I know you’re busy but I’ve promised her mom we'll take care of her while she’s here.”

Wonwoo sighs, having an internal battle in his mind. He doesn’t… dislike Jennie, she is still an old friend and she’s actually one of the few people in this society that isn’t hypocritical. She’s pretty nice, actually, and she’s a very good friend to have which is why the whole thing is all the more complicated.

If she had been another spoiled rich kid, it’d be easier to just brush her off and tell his parents he couldn’t spare time to babysit the girl. But Jennie is a good friend, perhaps not a close one, but she’s still a good friend nevertheless and it would just be plain rude if he were to ignore her.

It wouldn’t be polite.

Ironically, everything you do around Jennie is just polite. You’ve always been fiery for as long as Wonwoo has known you, but whatever fire you have within you has never appeared in front of her. You don’t get quiet around people unless you dislike them that much, and Wonwoo knows you don’t harbor any ill feelings towards the other girl–it’s not apathy either, and it’s the one and only thing that Wonwoo has never managed to figure out about you.

“Invite her to lunch or dinner once she arrives, okay?”

The finality in his mom’s voice tells him he’s got no choice either way.

“Hey Won.” You close the door of his office.

It’s past lunch, somewhere around 3PM, and you’re here after your last meeting of the day; you’ve still got a lot of documents to review, but Chan, Wonwoo’s secretary, has called you earlier because Wonwoo’s in one of his mood and hasn’t left his office at all, which is concerning. You’ve given him the go to call you everytime it happens, and you’re certain it is bad because Chan has never taken that option unless he really has to.

“Did Chan call you?” he grumbles from his desk, a frown evident in his face.

“No, I was just in the area after a meeting,” you lie easily, searching for his face. “Have you eaten lunch?”

Wonwoo makes a sound from the back of his throat that you don’t really know how to translate, but it doesn’t matter because you’re set on making him stop working anyway. Even from where you’re sitting, it’s clear that his whole body is tense; he’s trying his best to keep it together even though he’s burnt and stressed out.

“Are they urgent?” you softly ask as you make your way to him. “Think you can accompany me out for a bit?”

He’s really not in the mood to go out, though spending time with you does sound much more appealing than staying here with this hell of a workload. To top it off, people have been pissing him off since morning so his mood is completely sour to the point where even Chan is staying away from him.

He’s about to reject your offer though, because he still has a lot of work to do and he really doesn’t want to lash out on you by accident. But how can he when you’re looking at him like that? When you’re standing right beside him and your thumb is softly caressing his shoulder?

“Come on, they’re not urgent, are they?” you smile at him, planting your palm against the side of his face. Wonwoo immediately leans into the touch, he closes his eyes and exhales a deep breath as if it helps him let go of the stress he’s been carrying all day. You see his shoulders relaxing and you can only huff in satisfaction as he does so.

It sounds somewhat conceited to say it yourself, but it’s clear even to you why people always look for you when Wonwoo’s not in a good place. It works the other way around too, only Wonwoo can get to you when you refuse practically everyone else.

“Let’s go?” you ask after a while, relishing the feeling of his lips on your palm before he pulls away.

“Yeah,” his low voice greets you at last, the sight of his smile making you sigh in relief. “Let’s go.”

“Chan called you, didn’t he?” Wonwoo tries once again, and then reaches out to tuck your hair behind your ear before it falls into the bowl of patbingsoo in front of you.

“Hmm, this is very good,” you deflect as you shove another spoonful into your mouth. “You should start eating too, Won. They’re going to melt.”

He shakes his head in amusement before doing exactly what you tell him to. Gosh, even he knows he’s so whipped for you it’s not even funny. There would be times when he’d try to trace back when the whole thing started, try to remember if there were times when he did not love you.

But he always draws a blank. He couldn’t think of a time when his heart doesn’t belong to you; not when you cried to him because Jinyoung pulled your hair a little too hard when you were five, not when you whispered to him the big secret of you finding your first boyfriend in junior high school, not when you told him some guy called Jihoon stole your first kiss during high school.

Not even when you went through a phase of sleeping around just to piss your parents off.

And certainly not now, when you readily set aside your hell of a workload just to make sure Wonwoo’s not too stressed.

Wonwoo knows you’ve been too busy these days to a concerning point, something that he’s been meaning to talk to you about but hasn’t found the time to. The few times he’s found you in his place, you’re already fast asleep and, at times, you didn’t even get to charge your phone and turn off your laptop because you’re way too tired.

And if that’s not telling enough, the fact that you rarely talk to him these days is. You rarely let Wonwoo to himself, always making sure to talk to him at least twice a day to make sure he doesn’t forget to take a bite. So when a few days passed and Wonwoo sees the last time you’ve contacted him is three days ago, he knows you’re much too busy than he would’ve liked.

“How’s the preparation going?”

“For which one?” you ask sheepishly, well aware that Wonwoo’s still not happy you’re doing three projects at once.

Your friend clicks his tongue in disapproval. “The charity dinner.”

“I told you that one’s practically finished Won,” you pout. “You know the dinner’s next week.”

“It’s not finished if you still have to meet the florist today, princess,” he huffs tiredly, completely worried. He truly wishes he’s imagining the growing dark circles under your eyes and the way you’re more quiet than you usually are, but he knows the telltale of you being worn out and he’s sure you’re going to get sick in a few days if you don’t take an actual rest.

“How did you know I have a meeting with the florist…” you mumble to yourself, which Wonwoo provides the answer to by telling you he’s heard from Seungcheol. “I really should stop letting you befriend every single one of my staff. Anyway, they just told me last minute that there's a problem with one of the flowers so I had to change the bouquets concept a little, okay?”

Wonwoo gives you an unimpressed look, brows furrowed. “You need to rest, you know? Won’t be any good if you’re going to be too tired and can’t attend when the event is due.”

“I am resting now, aren’t I?” you say cheekily, trying your best not to worry him. You know he’s true, that Shua and Jeonghan’s concern since that day is valid, and it’s also true that you’ve been lightheaded for the past few days, often having to hold on to something when you try to stand up from your seat.

Wonwoo doesn’t need to know that though, and you’ll make sure to eat a proper meal and take your supplements before it gets worse.

That should do it.

“You wouldn’t be if Chan didn’t call you,” he retorts back.

“Won, he’s worried and probably afraid you’ll fire someone out of anger again if I don’t take you out of the office,” you try to make light of the situation. “And it’s my best friend duty to bother you, remember?”

“It happened once,” he cringes everytime he remembers that episode. “And the guy totally deserved it regardless of my mood. Anyway, it’s also my best friend duty to make sure you’re not becoming a walking zombie.”

“It’s not that bad,” you pout. “Tomorrow is my last packed schedule before the charity dinner takes place and I don’t have any meeting the day after tomorrow. I already plan on catching up on sleep then, okay?”

Wonwoo sighs once again and puts down his spoon before he stares at you pointedly. The worry in his eyes is clear as days, and you really hate knowing you’re the reason behind it. “Just… don’t overdo yourself, alright?”

“I know my limit Won, I promise. I’ll probably just review some documents because I’m finally out of meetings,” you grin tiredly, hoping that it doesn’t look like you’re forcing it. “Speaking of, should we go to lunch on that day? It’s been some time since we went out for lunch.”

He winces slightly at the question, a gesture so subtle that you would’ve missed it if you hadn’t been staring at him. “I… Jennie’s in the country and Mom asked me to take her to lunch.”

“Oh.” There it is, the resigning tone you often use when her name is brought up. Wonwoo frowns at the way your gaze drops from him, suddenly eyeing your empty bowl like it’s the most interesting thing you can find. “Oh well, I can just eat with Chaeyoung or something.”

“I can just reschedule if you really want to go out,” he tries, cursing himself for not thinking about it sooner. You shake your head though, and then tell him to have fun with her.

“You did say I should rest,” you shrug.

“Princess…”

“It’s fine,” you softly tell him, a small smile that churns his heart on your face. “And I just remembered I promised Shua I’d drop by his studio too to help prepare his open class.”

He bites back a sigh at your faux nonchalance, not having it in him to ask what is it about Jennie that always gets you like this. He’s not dense enough to ask about it, not when he knows how you react everytime Jennie is the topic of a conversation. The least he could do was not ask, he’d spare himself the ‘nothing’s wrong’ answer and would rather figure it out on his own one day.

“Alright, call me if you’re up for dinner that day?” he offers.

You simply nod at him, your eyes refusing to meet his. Wonwoo can only hope Jennie’s schedules for the next two months are packed and he wouldn’t have to ‘take care’ of her as often as his mom would like him to.

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[fweasleyswhore]

Can I request a headcannon or fic (idc whichever one you'd have more fun writing) with a slytherin reader who is completely obliviousto the fact that Fred is in love with her and George painfullyhas to watch this all

a/n: so I did headcannon because I felt like it worked better, this was so cute omg

You always liked Fred more than other people. 

You met on the train when you were trying to find a compartment. 

“Wanna sit with us?” A young boy asked, his hair was fiery red and his smile was welcoming. 

“Y-Yes.” you said and sat with him. 

You met his brother George and you all clicked immediately.  

Like literally you would not shut up the whole way there. 

You watched them get sorted into Gryffindor and you hoped you would end up there. 

Of course you got put into Slytherin.

You met new people, they were kind but you didn’t click with them like you did with Fred and George. 

It was hard to see them after that because your different houses, you got worried that they forgot about you. 

Until you sat down in potions class and almost immediately two ginger boys sat down at your table. 

“We missed you!” They said unison. 

After that the only thing that separated you were your houses and different class schedules. 

You made time to hang out with them after class and planned study sessions in the library. 

Of course that just turned into a paper airplane flying contest.

You started to sit at the Gryffindor table for meals, you refused at first because you were scared because of the house rivalry. 

Everyone was welcoming. 

Any one who wasn’t had was too afraid to say anything because Fred and George made a point to brag about being beaters on the Quidditch team. 

Even going so far as bringing their bats to the first few meals you sat at.

In your second year they gave you the Marauders Map to use secret passage ways to get to the astronomy towers to hang out after curfew. 

In your third year you used it to have sleepovers with them in the Gryffindor common room. 

You helped them protect Ron, Harry and Hermione. 

The trio were slow to warm up to you at first, only having interacted with Malfoy. 

You were quick to teach them that Slytherin isn’t bad, having the character trait of ambition is what put a lot of the bad apples in there because they often put their goals above anything else which sometimes included being kind. 

Once they did warm up to you they treated you like a big sister. 

You loved it.

But you never admitted it.

Things changed in year four, every time Fred was around your hands would get sweaty and you would choke up. 

You pushed the feelings down because you had been friends for so long at this point you didn’t want to ruin anything. 

You got good and lying and acting cool around him. 

Even when mentally you were screaming or your legs felt weak. 

George noticed how you took longer to reply and started putting more effort into your appearance when it was just you three. 

He didn’t say anything at first until your fifth year. 

Your crush had taken over now, you felt butterflies when Fred would talk to you and thought about him when you fell asleep. 

One day you zoned out staring at him in class when you felt a paper ball hit your head. 

“Stop drooling over my brother” was written in George’s messy scrawl. Your face burned and you glared at him. 

He never stopped teasing you either. 

Not even when you put something in his drink to turn his hair green. 

He did not give up, but had the decency to do it when Fred wasn’t around. 

On your birthday Fred gave you a charm bracelet that had a snake and a lion on it. 

You cried. 

He started freaking out. 

“I’m s-sorry, here I can take it back.” He tried to take it off your wrist but you wouldn’t let him, hugging him instead.

He froze and you got nervous. 

He slowly hugged you back and your nerves calmed down and you felt at peace. 

You stayed like that for awhile, just holding each other. 

“I love it, thank you Freddie.” His cheeks got red but you assumed it was because of the nickname. 

It wasn’t.

You wore the bracelet everywhere. Even slept in it. 

You made sure to make it obvious to Fred, rolling up your sleeves or shaking your hand after you wrote something down so the charmes would clink together. 

He adored you for it. 

He started to get more touchy, just small things like putting his arm around your shoulders or grabbing you to get your attention. 

It made you melt inside.

When sixth year rolled around and the Durmstrang boys were around he was extra touchy. 

Holding your waist or interlacing your hands. 

Every time this made you blush but you kept up your unfazed facade.

You knew why he was doing it. 

You tried to act annoyed. 

But failed miserably.

Attempting to scold him would cause you to stutter and grow more red. 

Eventually you gave up trying. 

You even found yourself reaching for his hand a few times. 

“When will you two just date?” George groaned. 

Your face heated up, as did Fred’s. 

You both let go of each others hands. 

“It’s a joke.” You breathed out. 

“Yeah.” Fred said back. 

George cringed watching you both put distance between each other and step away. 

He was trying to help. 

You found out about the Yule Ball and were ecstatic. 

Until Fred asked Angelina.

You went with a guy from Slytherin. 

He ditched you and ended up snogging a Ravenclaw the whole night. 

You ran out of the ball crying. 

You went to the astronomy tower hoping that it would make you feel better. 

It didn’t. 

It reminded you of the countless hours you spent up here with Fred. 

George found you. 

You confessed your feelings to him, told him about your date. 

“I know.” He whispered back. 

“I thought he liked me back.” You croaked. 

“He does!” George would yell back. “I told him to ask you but he didn’t believe me when I told him you liked him back, thought I was pranking him!” 

You laughed at him sadly. 

“Guess it’s too late for that now.” 

“It’s not.” 

You didn’t believe him.

George spent the night with you in the astronomy tower, comforting you. 

Fred saw you two together on the Marauder's map when he went back to his dorm.

He thought you and George were snogging.

In reality you were sobbing.

Fred avoided you after that. 

He made a point to sit with Angelina and her friends instead of yours. 

Eventually you found yourself back at the Slytherin table. 

You avoided both of the twins, taking that as his rejection you tried to get over it. 

You still hung out with George outside of classes, never saw Fred though.

One night you felt lonely and decided to go to the astronomy tower. 

Fred was there. 

You sat down next to him and looked at the stars. 

“Why do you hate me?” You asked. 

He looked at you with disbelief. 

“Why did you chose my brother over me?” 

It was your turn to look at him now. You mirrored his expression. 

“What?!” 

“I saw you two on the map up here the night of the ball, probably snogging, and you guys hang out all the time without me!” He exclaimed. 

He started to get up to leave when you didn’t say anything. 

“We weren’t snogging he was comforting me after I started crying because you took Angelina to the ball instead of me!” You yelled getting up. 

He froze and turned around. 

“What?!”

“You git you took Angelina to the ball and stopped talking to me, George hung out with me because I’m sad and you're too busy with your girlfriend.” 

You were full on crying now. 

He walked toward you, brushing your tears away. 

“Your not dating George?” 

“No! I wanted to be dating you.” You sniffled. Although you were upset his touch was comforting. 

“I’m not dating Angelina.” He confessed. 

You felt like you could fly. 

“Then why take her?” You asked. 

“Because I was afraid of asking you! I didn’t think you liked me.” 

“George told you I did!” You exclaimed, you were laughing now and your tears had dried. 

“I thought it was a prank.”

You brought your hand up to hold his cupping your cheek. 

His eyes were flickering between yours and your mouth. 

You nodded before he could even ask. 

He pushed his lips against yours and you spilled every unspoken word to each other in that moment. 

He pulled away and rested his forehead against yours. 

“Y/N I think I’m in love with you.” 

“I hope so Freddie, because I know I’m in love with you.” 

You spent the rest of the night wrapped up in each other at the astronomy tower. 

Walking into breakfast the next day you guys would hold hands. 

“Finally!” George yelled. “Lee you owe me 2 galleons!” 

You sat across from your friends and watched them exchange money. 

Back at the Gryffindor table, back in Fred’s arms, you felt at home. 

You would spend the next Christmas at the Burrow. 

“I’m so glad to finally meet the girl my son talks about all the time.” Molly would say as she pulled you into a bone crushing hug. 

Meeting the whole Weasley family would be met with an exclaim of ‘Finally!’ from everyone. 

On Christmas Eve you and Fred sat in the living room alone in front of a fire. 

Fred had one arm around you and the other was playing with your hair as you sat in his lap. 

You were reading a muggle book your parents had got you, giggling to yourself every now and again. 

“Oi, when did you too bloody get together.”

Ron was shocked to see you in his brothers lap, the girl he saw as an older sister and assumed Fred did too. 

You and Fred would burst out laughing, having to use each other for support from falling. 

“Keep your bloody secrets.” Ron would mutter running back up the stairs prompting you to laugh harder. 

[frigidvm]

✧･ﾟ(   khione + kaylee bryant + cisfemale   ) 𝒎𝒂𝒎𝒎𝒂 𝒎𝒊𝒂 !!  have you seen (   eleanora “ella” duponte  ) around ? (  she  ) has been in kaos for (   six months   ). the (   twenty two year old   ) is a/an (   unemployed   ) from (   ontario, canada   ). people say they can be (   fierce   ) but maybe that’s not too bad ‘cause they can also be (   cunning   ). whenever i think of them, i can’t help but think of (   the numbness in your fingertips when touching ice, frost patterns along a rose petal, & the warmth of hot chocolate on a winter morning   ).

I ALSO MADE A PINTEREST HERE IT ISSSSSS click here

hi usually i have a pretty intro graphic but ya girl is feeling ultra lazy today and photoshop is being a big bitch and so i just ... decided to use a little gif that truly encompasses ella as a person EIRUFLKND

BUT ANYWAYS hey it’s me again, lou, i also play julietta and i am soooo excited to be introducing this baby to you all !! i’m gonna be frank, she’s not the easiest to get along with ?? i kinda based her a little bit off of how khione was in the pjo books but Less Evil and Less Messy if that makes sense ?? she’s just really blunt and kinda sorta rude and very much the queen of RBF. below is a bio i wrote in second person -- it’s pretty long so u dont have to read it if u dont want to i promise it wont hurt my feelings ill be happy to give u a tldr if u want me to. 

i hope u enjoy my baby ,, pls dont be afraid to plot with her i promise she may seem like a meanie but she rlly does have the Capability to be nice ,,, she’s just forgotten how ,,

on december 25th, in the year 1997, you made your way into the world in the midst of the coldest night ontario had faced in months. your parents, evelyn and nathaniel duponte, had prayed and prayed for a baby girl for years. years and years and years of trying and trying and trying until eventually, they had given up. and it was only when they’d given up that you came to be.

as a child, you were nothing short of the brightest light in the house. your smile was enough to brighten even the darkest of hearts, your laughter sweeter than even the daintiest christmas bells. you were a dream child – that is, until they stole your light. and how did the do that, you ask ? well, this is truly where our story begins …

no one is entirely sure when the passion blossomed, but some rumor it to have started on your fourth birthday. your mother and father thought that a fun trip to an ice skating rink would make for a good present, and much to their surprise, you were a natural. it was as if you were born specifically for the ice. one step into the rink and off you went, able to hold yourself upright and balanced even at such a young age. a prodigy, they said. absolutely incredible, they praised. you left that evening with a new pair of skates and weekly lessons scheduled into your routine.

after two months of lessons, they went from weekly to three times a week. and then every day. before you really knew what was happening, you were spending every second of your life at the ice rink, honing in your skills. this talent that you possessed was going to get you far in life, your coach had said. what he didn’t seem to realize was the monster that it would awaken within your mother. it was gradual, at first. a slow trickle. one day she was more proud of you than any parent ever could, and then a week later she was subtly criticizing your technique. and then she was restricting you from going out with friends, saying that practice was far more important. and then she was pointing out every single flaw that you had, and harshly at that. pretty soon, the joy in your eyes winked out, the warmth in your chest icing over entirely. if a machine was what she wanted for a daughter, a machine was what she would get.

competitions came and went, gold medals were secured, and you were on a fast track to competing in the olympics. your once bright and bubbly personality had since faded into one of cold and cunning, of ice and harsh. you only ever smiled when you won. your mother was no longer the nurturing woman you remembered. your father allowed her to treat you like her own personal doll. you began to fold within yourself until you were nothing but a frozen front, a heart iced completely with no chance of thaw.

your first olympics were terrifying. but you persevered, and came home with the gold for your division. a landslide win, they’d called it. rookie sensation, they deemed you. the praise went right to your head, and the arrogance bloomed in your chest. you knew just how good you were, and didn’t let anyone tell you differently. four years later, you competed again, and yet another gold. a two time olympic champion, a national ranking – what more could you need ?

and then you saw the zillow ad for a nice house on a small island called kaos. for the first time in forever, something besides ice caught your attention. it was an impulse decision, and a quick move. she waited until both of her parents were out of the house to have all of her things collected, and just like that, she was gone. vanished. no word as to where she was going other than a note that read ‘see you whenever.’ it’s been six months since then, and she has no plans on leaving kaos anytime soon.

iii. details.

she is not very nice ,,,

she also comes from a fuckload of money. very high society.

is a world ranked figure skater

has won two olympic gold medals

her favorite color is champagne ( shes so boujee i hate her )

always has very manicured nails

honestly the best way i can describe her is like

blair waldorf except not whiny ??? very much a “i’m important and idc what you say about it” vibe

definitely lives in designer clothing

used to be very artistic and was actually fantastic at painting and drawing and sculpting but then her mom was like “its a distraction no more for u”

she really …. doesn’t know how to have fun anymore ??

MAAAAAJOR slytherin vibes. like major. very ambitious and cunning and will do anything to get to where she wants to be

like she doesn’t care who she has to go through

and she also doesn’t care who’s feelings she hurts

has a maine coon named fluffernutter ,,, because he is white and brown and reminded her of the sandwich. however she commonly refers to him as fluff and refuses 2 tell anyone his actual name

wears only one piece of jewelry and it is a silver necklace with a locked heart pendant ( this is absolutely symbolism thnx )

does not have a job because she does not need a job

really likes the luxurious lifestyle

definitely owns a rolex

really just … doesn’t care abt anything

someone thaw her out pls & thank u

iii. wanted plots !!! im also super duper open to brainstorming things of our own ! these are just ideas !!!

1. the former best friend - this is someone that she spent a good majority of her time with before her mother limited interactions with people. they did everything together, whether it be watching a movie or trying to see how long they can get away with hiding in a grocery store after they close. it’s been nearly four years since they’ve spoken, and this might be one of the only people to bring a genuine reaction out of her.

2. the almost, the maybe, the “there’s something there” - they met recently. or maybe they met awhile ago. could work either way. this person was almost successful in attempting to worm their way into her heart. almost, however, is the key word in that statement. having gone so long without genuine human interaction outside of her sport, she hadn’t realized just how much she had longed for a friend. and then, she suddenly liked them as more then a friend, and that was when ella cut off everything. she’ll never admit it, but the idea of building a connection with someone terrified her.

3. the rival - oh, these two do not like each other. the why is something that can be discussed, but just know that there was some sort of altercation that led to the level of dislike between the two of them. could it possibly change ?? maybe so. i’d actually like to see how that pans out. however, as of right now, the most they do is snipe at one another mercilessly

[classic-rock-roller]

1. You and Tom and Kevin are joining Bonham in the Game Grumps studio for filming of the 10 minute power hour. They have the schedule set so that you each are guests individually except Tom because he doesn’t like it. You all watch the recording when each other is serving as a guest, and when it’s Bonham’s turn they are doing each other’s makeup. At one point she is working on Danny and says, “Your fucking hair is in the way, hang on.” She holds his hair back like a headband, and sits on his lap to get a better view. None of them are making a big deal out of it, but Kevin is visibly fuming in the seat next to you. He says to you, “Can I please tell her to get off of him? I don’t like how this looks.” Arin says to him past the camera, “Dude she’s putting children’s makeup on him for a shitty YouTube show, you can’t honestly be jealous right now.” How does Kevin respond, and what do you, Tom, Danny and Bonham say?

Kevin: Of course I am. Have you seen how beautiful his hair is?!

Danny: Why thank you, Kevin. I use coconut oil and special shampoo.

He flips his hair which messes up Bons. 

Bons: Knock it off, Danny. I gotta do this. 

Tom: (under his breath) This is so stupid. 

I pat his thigh. 

Me: Just let us enjoy the stupidity, Tommy. 

2. You and Bonham and Tom and Nikki are standing offstage at a Quiet Riot show, and you’re all loving it. At one point Nikki says to Bonham, “I dare you to go out there right now.” “What no, are you insane? I’m not interrupting a show.” Tom looks at you and says, “Watch this.” then turns to Bonham, pushes her out onto the stage and says, “Yes you are!” She stumbles out onstage and instinctively freezes. Kevin is jumping around and sees her, and he shouts into the mic, “There she is! Look at my girlfriend! Kiss me you scandalous bitch!” What happens and what do you, Tom, and Nikki say?

She is still frozen. I go out and go to pull her back in and Kevin goes, “Look! My best gal pal too. Hey Tom! Get out here! Kiss your girlfriend!” Nikki Pushes Tom out and we’re all kind of standing there. I peck Tom on the lips and then pull Bons backstage again. Kevin screams, “Ladies and Gentlemen, my wonderful girlfriend and Mr. and Mrs. Keifer.” I glare at Tom after we get backstage again and go, “You’re a fucking asshole” before taking Bons to a chair so she can calm down because it looks like she’s going to faint. 

Tom(following after me): come on, honey! You know I meant nothing by it. 

Nikki has been cackling since Tom pushed Bons onstage.  

3. You’re returning from a hot date with your college boyfriend when you see Bonham scurrying back to your dorm with a trash bag full of instant coffee packets, but they’re all empty. You ask what she’s doing and she says, “All will be revealed in due time.” Later that night, there’s an angry knock on your door. Bonham answers calmly and says, “Hey Vince, what’s up?” He pushes her squarely in the chest, and she topples over. He stands over top of her and says, “Don't play dumb with me you fucking bitch! What did you do to my room?” She says, “You mean why are there nine hundred instant coffee packets spilled in everything you own? It can’t possibly be because you stole all my underwear, so in that case I’m stumped.” Her sarcasm is just pissing him off. How do you react to hearing what she did, and what does Vince say about the situation? What does his roommate Tommy say when he gets back?

I’m giggling and Vince glares at me. “You know I could just tell the RA your boyfriend is in your room when he shouldn’t be.” He glares at Bons, “You’re helping me clean it up.” Tommy thinks it’s funny because none of his stuff was touched. 

4. AVERT YOUR EYES KIDDOS AND STAFF YA FUCKIN SQUARES

You’re sitting with Tom on your couch one day and after a while you both get bored so you start kissing. Things are getting pretty intense, and finally Tom tells you, “Touch yourself.” “What?” you say. “Don’t play coy. Touch yourself. I want to watch.” How do you respond, and what does Tom do?

Me: Uhh, no way. You know I don’t even normally do that when you’re not here and you know it makes me uncomfortable. 

He pulls me in for a kiss.

Tom: Then I guess both of us’ll have fun instead. 

5. You’ve been with Tom for a couple of months now, and Bonham’s been helping Kevin out. He’s been out of rehab for a couple of weeks, and the four of you are hanging out for the first time. It’s been a tough week and you’re all tired, so you end up dozing off. At one point you hear Kevin make an uncomfortable noise and Tom says, “What’s the matter DuBrow?” He makes the same noise again and says, “Nothing I’m……fine…” You open your eyes a little bit and see that Bonham fell asleep across his lap, and she’s got her chest directly on his lap. You soon put two and two together and figure out why he’s uncomfortable. They don’t know you’re awake yet. Do you say anything? What does Tom say? Does Kevin move Bonham?

I don’t say anything but I get up to get something to drink and Tom says, “You’re in a real predicament there aren’t you, DuBrow?” Kevin doesn’t move her. He just sits there until she wakes up. 

6. AVERT YOUR EYES STAFF kids idc so much this one ain’t  so bad

Your band and Cinderella are getting ready to film a video together. Kevin is there too. At one point, Tom accidentally runs into a secretary and just says, “Sorry.” Kevin says to Bonham, “That Tom guy is so stoic I don’t know how he and BabyCarrot are going to have a kid.” Bonham says, “Oh what ever, he’s just as much of a sex fiend as you, he can just hide it.” “No way, I’ll bet you fifty bucks that he’s a complete prude.” Kevin says. “You’re on,” Bonham says. “And I got just the way to prove it.” (you are unaware of this whole conversation, this is just for context). Bonham comes up to you and Kevin is off to the side. She’s trying to open one of those squeezy water bottles. “I can’t get this open, can you? Maybe Tom can. Hey Tom! C’mere!” He walks over and says, “What?” “We can’t get this open, can you–ooooooooooopsss…” Bonham grabs the bottle from you and says an exaggerated ‘oops’ and squeezes the bottle super hard, soaking your shirt. You were getting ready so you don’t have a bra on. “What the hell!” you say. “Oh no, now you’re soaking wet!” Bonham says exaggeratedly, “I’d better get a towel!” she walks off, and when she comes back and hands it to you, she says to Tom, “Help your wife clean up!” and thrusts the towel at him. He starts to dry you off and then when it’s time for you to change your shirt he says, “I’ll uh…be right back.” “What was that all about?” you ask Bonham. She says, “Oh nothing, I’m just clumsy but Tom seemed REALLY HOT AND BOTHERED ABOUT THAT.” She shouts the last part over her shoulder and you see Kevin fume before coming over. “Alright you win.” He says. How do you respond? Who explains what’s going on? WHo are you more mad at?

Me: What do you mean? What’s going on? 

Kevin: Bons bet me that Tom was as much of a sex fiend as I am and I told her she was wrong so she had to prove me wrong. 

I smirk at them, “Of course he is. Where do you think the two of us were earlier for a half hour?” 

Kevin’s mouth is hanging open after i grab Bons arm and pull her away for sound check. 

7. You and Bonham and Kevin and Tom are visiting a community college to do a talk with the students. You’re walking down the science hall when a terrible droning buzz comes over the intercom. “ATTENTION ATTENTION. THIS IS A LOCKDOWN. PLEASE SEEK SAFETY. LOCK YOUR DOORS AND TURN OFF YOUR LIGHTS. A POLICE OFFICER WILL RELEASE YOU WHEN IT IS SAFE TO COME OUT. ATTENTION ATTENTION…” this continues on a loop. Your tour guide, the dean of students, pulls you four into a science supply closet and locks the door. THe announcement hasn’t said whether or not this is a drill, so you’re all a bit confused. You’re all sitting in the closet, the only light coming from the eerie green exit sign. Bonham and Kevin are sitting on the floor, you’re sitting on the counter, and Tom is pacing around. After fifteen minutes, Tom turns to the dean and says, “So when’s this drill up? We’ve got shit to do.” Just as he’s finished talking, you hear a pop come from the hallway. The dean just looks at him and says, “If this was a drill the announcement would have said so. Someone’s in here.” More pops sound. Bonham kinda squeaks and grabs Kevin’s hand. Tom really quickly yanks you off the counter and puts his arm around you. How do the four of you respond to what the dean said? How long does it last? What happens when you come out?

Tom: Seriously?!

Kevin: You should have better security. 

I’m hyperventilating and trying to keep myself calm and I go over and hug Bons. 

We all just sit there and wait for like an eternity which was actually only 20 minutes when it’s over and we can come out, we find out they caught the crazy guy and no one was killed, thank god. 

8. You and Bonham and Kevin and Tom are getting ready to go out to a fancy restaurant for dinner. You and Tom are ready to go but you hear Bonham tell Kevin, “No, you are not wearing that.” “Why not? It’s fine.” “Kevin I love you but your fashion sense is the worst thing I have ever seen.” How does Kevin respond? What do you and Tom say when they finally come down?

Kevin: No, it is not! 

Kevin comes down in that god awful pink suit. 

I stare at him and go, “No, you’re not wearing that. I thought I burned that thing.”

Kevin: I have multiples. 

Bons: He refuses to change.

Me: Well we’re changing that. 

We both take him upstairs and he changes. 

Tom: God, you’re burning my eyes in that thing. Why do you even have it? It’s atrocious. 

9. You and Tom are in the studio one day when you get a call from a cop. “Is this A. M. Keifer and/or C. T. Keifer?” “Yes, why?” you say. “I’m on the scene of a car wreck and one of the victims has you as her emergency contact. We’re at 45th and Youngsfield. You might want to get down here.” He hangs up before you can say anything. You and Tom go down there and you see Kevin before you see the cop, but you’re more confused by the wreck. Kevin’s car is there and the front end is smashed, but the twisted pile of metal on the other side of the intersection is harder to recognize. THe driver’s side is smashed in, but it looks like Bonham’s car. You ask Kevin what happened and he’s a bit hysterical. Through his ravings, Kevin tells you that he was planning on meeting her at a new restaurant, and she was turning and he ran a red light and hit the driver’s side of her car head-on. He’s fine except for a couple of scrapes and bruises, but the EMTs are loading Bonham into the ambulance as you speak. The cop who called you earlier is walking up just as Kevin is telling you all this. How do you and Tom respond? What does the cop say? What happens next?

Me: Kevin, you fucking idiot! 

I hit him with my fists and Tom grabs my arms. 

Tom: Whoa, whoa, whoa, there tiger, calm down. 

I go with Bons in the ambulance and she’s fine but we have to postpone our upcoming concert because she broke her leg again. 

10. Your band and QR are hanging out one night and drinking when the subject of death comes up. Everyone is slowly speculating how everyone will die, and Bonham suddenly says, “I know exactly how I’m going to die, I’m going to shoot myself with a smile on my face. I’ll make sure my friends are happy and then I’ll take myself out cause God knows that no one is going to help me.” That’s dark. How do you, Rudy, Kevin, Carlos, Frankie, Erik, Linus, and Sean respond?

I burst into tears and go, “Please don’t please.” 

Kevin hugs me and goes, “We’d miss you Bons. Please don’t do that.” 

Rudy pulls her into a tight hug and Linus and Erik join it. 

Frankie is sleeping because he’s too drunk and its late. 

Carlos: Whoa, heavy man.

Sean was in the bathroom and comes back, “...what did I miss?” 

11. AVERT YOUR EYES STAFF

You and Tom and Bonham and Kevin are hanging out for the first time since he’s gotten out of rehab. At one point you’re all playing cards, and Bonham steps out to get drinks. She puts beers in front of you and Tom, and as she’s placing Kevin’s drink in front of him, she rests her chest on his shoulder and whispers something about strategy into his ear. She says more loudly, “But that’s just me.” As she sits down, Tom nudges you and points to Kevin. You look up and you see that he’s flushed beet red and is fidgeting in his seat, meanwhile Bonham’s got a smug look on her face. What does Kevin say? How do you and Tom react to what just happened? Does Bonham say anything?

Kevin: I...uh...I’ll...be right back. 

He gets up and makes a beeline for the bathroom. 

We both look at each other but don’t say anything. 

Bons just has a smirk on her face. 

____________________

1) Your singer is pregnant with her and Tom’s first kid and Tom is halfway across the country performing when she goes into labor. You and Kevin take her to the hospital and Kevin is going to her once they get her in the room, “Just breath.” She glares at him and screams, “That’s easy for you to say! I don’t see a kid coming out of your vagina!” How do you and Kevin respond?

2) Your sitting in the front row of a QR concert with your singer and Tom. Kevin is leaning over the stage and singing and Tom goes, “Eww, something wet just dropped on me.” Your singer looks up and goes, “Oh yeah, that’s just Kevin. Slobbering as usual.” How do you and Tom respond?

3) Your singer was given four free tickets to a Stryper concert. She takes you, Kevin, and Tom with her. At the beginning of the concert, you see the band tossing something out. One lands in front of your singer and your singer picks it up, “First concert I’ve ever been to where they throw Bibles into the audience.” Tom looks behind you and goes, “And people stampede to get them. Look out.” A horde of people are coming towards the four of you at the front. What do you, your singer, and Kevin say and what do you guys do?

4) Before Kevin goes to Rehab, you, Rudy, Carlos, Tom, and your singer are drinking and having a good time. Kevin has had a couple beers and is drunk. Your singer gets up to get something and Kevin follows. Soon you hear your singer screaming, “Kevin, get off me! Help get him off me!” The four of your run out in the kitchen to see Kevin has her backed into the corner of the counter and the next thing you know he slaps her hard across the face. You have no time to process this before Tom has him on the ground and is wailing on him. “Don’t you ever hit my girlfriend again! Understand!” What does Kevin do and how do you, your singer, Rudy, and Carlos respond?

5) You, your band, and Tom are working on an album when some guy who’s been stalking your bad gets past the recording studios security and comes into the building. He’s begging you guys for autographs, he’s brandishing a gun and saying, “If you don’t give me what I want I’m going to shoot you.”  Your singer goes, “You want something buddy? How about a knuckle sandwich.” Before she punches him in the face and disarms him. Once the security come to take him, Sean goes, “You’re 78.3% badass.” Your singer looks at him and goes, “How can someone be 78.3% badass?” How does Sean respond and what do you, Tom, Erik, and Linus say?

6) You and your band are drinking and talking about your sexual escapades when Sean goes, “I’ve been around the block a few times.” Your singer smirks at him, “With yourself or with someone else, Sean?” Sean glares at her, “With someone else, Smartass.” How do you, Linus, and Erik respond?

7) Fifteen-year-old Cassie comes walking out into the kitchen where you, your singer, Kevin, and Tom are sitting and goes, “Mom, you used to date Uncle Kevin?” Your singer shakes her head and goes, “Yeah, Cas, I dated him a couple of years before I met your Daddy.” Cassie looks between your singer and Kevin and goes, “I don’t see it.” How do you, your singer, Kevin, and Tom respond? 

8) Kevin is very drunk one day and he leans on the wall beside you at a party you’re at and goes, “No one can take me from being inside of you.” Your singer pipes up from next to Tom, “You realize semen only last about five days in the female body and then is dispelled from the body or dies so she’s actually getting rid of you inside her.” Kevin looks at her, “...shut up, BabyCarrot.” How do you and Tom respond?

9) You and Kevin are in the delivery room with your singer while she’s in labor with Cassie and is holding both your hands. Kevin is visibly uncomfortable and goes, “Why are we the ones helping you? Where’s Tom? You should be breaking his hand.” You glare at him and go, “Kevin, man up! He’s across the country performing. He’ll be here as soon as he can.” Right when you say this, the door bangs open and Tom says, “I’m here! I’m here! What did I miss?” Kevin looks over at him and goes, “You missed your wife breaking my hand.” How do you, your singer, and Tom respond and what happens next?

10) You and Kevin are going over to your singer and Tom’s to help them take the kids trick or treating. When your singer opens the door, you see she’s wearing what she used to wear when you went to QR’s first concerts. “What’s with the get-up?” you ask her. She’s about to say something when Cassie runs up to you and Kevin and goes, “Uncle Kevin! Uncle Kevin! Look I’m you for Halloween!” Kevin leans down to height and goes, “And who’s Sammy?” “Sammy is Uncle Randy and mom dressed Chrissy up to look like Uncle Rudy. And guess who daddy is,” Tom steps out at this moment in a 70s outfit that Drew would have worn. You, your singer, and Kevin burst out laughing. He looks at you, your singer, and Kevin and goes, “I hate you all.” Cassie runs up to him and goes, “Doesn’t he look amazing!” What does Tom say to her and how do you, your singer, and Kevin respond?

11) You and your singer come back from having lunch to find Kevin’s car in your singer and Tom’s driveway. When you come in you hear Tom and Kevin talking. “Don’t you dare tell Cassie, Sam, or Chrissy what I did to BabyCarrot when we dated. It was a bad time in my life and I’ve regretted it once I got sober and realized what I did. I don’t want them looking at me differently.” You hear Tom sigh, “We may have had our problems in the past, but I’ll never tell my kids that. They love and look up to you, especially Cassie.” You and your singer know you weren’t supposed to hear this. Do you make your presence know? If so what do you and your singer say? How do Tom and Kevin respond?

12) You, your singer, Tom, and Kevin are sitting at the kitchen table when 17-year-old Cassie comes storming into the kitchen and slams a magazine open to an article in front of Kevin. “I found this in a drawer in your office. Care to explain?” You, Tom, and your singer look at it and find that it’s the article that was printed when Kevin beat your singer up pretty bad with a not so flattering picture of her face. Cassie has huge tears in her eyes and she goes, “I’m so mad at you right now, Uncle Kevin. I can’t look at you. How could you do that to mom?” How do you, your singer, Kevin, and Tom respond?

13) You’re over at your singer and Tom’s with Kevin while Tom is on tour. You walk into Sam’s room to find him...busy. You squeak and he hears you. How does he respond? Do you tell your singer what you saw him doing? What do you and Kevin say to him? Does your singer ask Kevin to give him ‘the talk’? How does that go?

14) Your singer is nine months pregnant with Cassie and you're sitting with her on the couch. You’re listening to Crüe and Tom and Kevin are sitting on the opposite couch. Your singer is gently rubbing her stomach while talking to you and you hear Tom go, “Isn’t she the sweetest?” Kevin responds, “Yeah who can punch a guy out no problem and listens to lyrics like, ‘”I’m gonna break her face’.” How do you, your singer, and Tom respond?

@osbournebemydaddy your turn Bons :) 

[willowhaven-blog1]

2018 was a year of ups and downs for me. In January I went back to college at Benedictine College to work towards my bachelors in sociology. I was working full-time at night and attending school full-time during the day. Exhausted doesn’t begin to describe it.

As busy as it was, I felt such a great sense of accomplishment everyday as I worked towards such a difficult goal. I enjoyed the classes I was taking and  the challenge excited me. Then everything changed. Cancer took that all from me. The excitement, the motivation, the incredible sense of accomplishment. With three words, that all was gone.

When I was no longer able to work or go to school, I lost my sense of purpose. I laid in bed for days and weeks feeling in credibly sorry for myself. I began to give up on myself, and to give up in life in general. During this time I was talking to a friend of mine about my younger sister who had recently moved to Arizona. I was talking about how proud I was of her for moving so far away to chase a dream. It was while we were talking that my friend suggested that maybe I should take a trip to visit her. My initial response was are you kidding? I can’t even get out of bed, let alone make a trip halfway across the country. But my friend told me that it would be good for me, to get away and see something new.

Suddenly I had a goal to work towards. I began pushing myself to get out of bed, even if just to walk around the house and get my own meals. In the beginning it was incredibly hard. I was extremely weak and couldn’t walk without a walker. But I kept pushing. Soon I graduated to using a cane, and finally I was able to walk short distances unassisted. I was so proud of myself. It’s amazing how much you take for granted in life until it’s gone.

In late November I had a hysterectomy to stop my body from producing the hormones that were feeding the tumor in my breast. While this surgery was incredibly necessary, I was a little sad because I figured my recovery would set my trip plans behind but I had a goal. I decided I wasn’t going to let something as minor as surgery stop me.

I pushed myself more and more each day. I became more active. I started driving again. Surprisingly enough, the more active I became, the pain that had become a part of my life began to fade. During my worst days I had been taking as many as 24 Percocets a day without relief. Suddenly I realized I was down to as few as four during a 24 hour period. Slowly I was taking back control of my life. Cancer wasn’t winning the war anymore. I was. The sense of pride I felt couldn’t compare to anything I had ever done before. I felt as though I had just won the Boston Marathon.

I had an appointment with my oncologist scheduled for December 10th. My goal had been to leave for Arizona the Wednesday following if my doctor felt I was healthy enough to go. He was so pleased to see the progress I had made since my first appointment when my pain was so bad that reduced to using a wheelchair because I was unable to walk. Now I was walking again and had actually driven myself so my husband didn’t need to miss a day of work. Much to my delight, my doctor told me he thought the trip would be great medicine for me.

Having received my oncologist’s blessing, I began to make the final arrangements to take the bucket list trip of a lifetime. I had considered flying into Phoenix to shorten my trip, but after much deliberation I decided that driving would offer me the opportunity to see more of the world and with no real time table in my head I planned to take my time and see what there was to see.

As I left Atchison on December 12 I began to have second thoughts. Would I be able to make such a long drive after being bedridden for so long and having only been getting up and around for such a short time? Would my back hold up to the strain of the trip? I was facing a 21 hour drive, the longest drive I had ever made in myself. I almost changed my mind many times as I set out for Arizona, but I kept telling myself I can do this.

The further along on my trip, the better I felt. For the first time in months, the weight of my stress and anxiety began to evaporate. With each mile I drove, a happiness and calm settled over me. Normally when I am driving I become so focused on the road that I miss everything around me. For the first time, I opened my eyes to everything around me taking in each little detail seeing the world with a childlike wonder.

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I had my first daughter two days before 19th birthday. I had spent my entire adult life caring for my children and had never really had the opportunity to travel. While my peers were traveling to Europe and going to college, I was changing diapers and burping babies. I had never really made it outside of the midwest and this was one of the few times I had ever taken a vacation that didn’t involve a soccer tournament. Normally those trips were rushed and there was very little time to relax and enjoy the sights around me.

The further I got from home, the more I saw all of the beauty in the world. As the miles passed, I began to believe in myself and for the first time I believed that cancer wasn’t going to beat me. I was going to fight with everything I had in me and I was going to live whatever life I had left no matter how long or short as though each day was my last. I decided that I refused to die with regrets.

When I reached the mountains of Arizona and my sister’s home, I was overwhelmed with everything I had seen. I was excited to see my sister, her husband, my adorable niece and my favorite floofer (code word for dog). I spent four days relaxing in the warm Arizona air, far from the cold of Kansas. The days with my sister were lazy and simple and incredibly calming. My mind was clear and free of worry over my future. I took each day as they came without thinking about whether cancer would beat me.

As my days with my sister came to a close I made the decision to head further west since I was only four hours from the sandy beaches of San Diego. I was amazed as each mile passed and I drove through the mountains and palm trees. I was amazed by the mild weather and when I reached San Diego  I fell in love with the sights all around me. I walked through the beautiful winter wonderland of Balboa Park at night, and dipped my toes in the ocean during the day. I enjoyed the tastes of authentic Mexican and Italian food, and let my mind clear from any of the negative thoughts that had held me hostage since my diagnosis.

As I returned home I had a new goal. My journey had given me a new purpose. My passion for nursing was still there and I realized just how much I missed taking care of and spending time with my patients. But I also realized that my time might be short and I wanted to experience as much as I could for whatever time I might have left. The more I thought about this, the more my mind wandered back to an idea I had a few years earlier. I wanted to move on from my staff hospital position and become a travel nurse. I realized that travel nursing would offer me the opportunity to combine my love of nursing with the ability to travel and see all that the country has to offer.

I celebrated New Years Eve by mailing my applications to Arizona and California to obtain my nursing licenses. In the weeks following I began discussing opportunities with recruiters, and began the initial process to build my file for submission to future employers.

As excited as I was, a cloud of fear hovered over me. Would my body be strong enough to return to work? When I had my appointment with my oncologist on January 10th, as terrified as I was to hear the answer I asked my doctor if my career was over. He looked at me and told me he didn’t see why. In one moment all my fears evaporated. I will be able to return to the work I love so much. Cancer didn’t take nursing from me.

2018 brought a lot of pain and fear as I was forced to accept my new reality. 2019 is going to be a year of adventure and discovery for me. Some days I am angry for all of the changes that have come to my life since I heard those terrible words ‘you have cancer.’ There are still days that I want to cry when I think about possibly not being here to watch my nieces and grandchildren grow up.

Even with all of the sadness and uncertainty cancer has brought to my life, some days I am thankful for the things I have gained. I have realized how very precious life is and how important it is to appreciate the gift of each day. I live more fully, I love more deeply, and I appreciate each moment I have. I’m living with cancer, not dying from it. I’m LIVING. Each minute of every day.

Jennifer – Extensive mets to bones. Diagnosed de novo at 43 on 9/25/2018. Cancer won’t win. I won’t let it. Life’s too short not to fight for every minute. Dx 9/25/2018, invasive ductal carcinoma (IDC), left breast, 1.5cm, Nottingham Grade 3, hormone receptor positive, ER+ (estrogen receptor)/PR+ (progesterone receptor), HER2- (human epidermal growth factor), BRACA- (genetic mutation), Stage IV, metastasized to bones First CA 27.29 10/9/2018 83 (goal <38) Hormonal Therapy 10/12/2018 Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone) Targeted Therapy 10/12/2018 Xgeva injection (Denosumab) Hormonal Therapy 10/19/2018 Lupron Depot injection (Leuprolide Acetate) Surgery 11/29/2018 Vaginal hysterectomy with bilateral salpingo-oophorectomy First CA 27.29 post hysterectomy 12/10/2018 73 (goal <38) Hormonal Therapy 12/11/2018 Femara pills (letrozole) Targeted Therapy 12/23/2018 Ibrance pills (palbociclib) First CA 27.29 post medication change 1/10/2019 60 (goal <38)

New Year, New Me! 2018 was a year of ups and downs for me. In January I went back to college at Benedictine College to work towards my bachelors in sociology.

[lunaehymn]

hey y’all, ok, so this is an URGENT psa...

my partner’s family and i will be driving back home on SATURDAY ( august 18th ) and i’m going to be bored out of my mind... so if... u guys... would be so GENEROUS... as to go about answer all ( or just a few, or only one ) of these character development questions down below to keep me entertained; i would be soo grateful, you have no idea.

alcohol; do they drink often?

if given the chance, to go back in time to change a decision they made, what would be changed?

what do they think their most redeeming qualities are?

in their opinion, what makes a good friend?

easier for them to talk or to listen?

when was a time they were most vulnerable?

in their mind, what is the most important emotion?

what is their diet like / consist of?

what is their favorite snack, favorite meal?

what is their favorite type of weather?

what makes them feel unsafe or insecure?

do they have any allergies or chronic conditions?

do they suffer from any mental illnesses? depression, anxiety, ptsd, etc.?

what do THEY think of mental illness... do they tell anyone? do they think it’s just them?

what is something that can always be found on them? in their pockets, or just in their possession?

when they're stressed, on edge — what is something they do to fix it? is there a place they go, a person they see?

do they, or have they, ever thought of having children?

do they play any instruments?

what is their relationship like with their family? their mother, father... any siblings?

what memory is most important to them, something they will never forget?

best pieces of advice they've ever received?

what / when was their first experience with death? have they ever witnessed it?

do they trust easily? once they have trusted you; what is the sign?

did they go to school? if so, did they get along with teachers and other students?

have they ever been in love? are they in love? who

what does their handwriting look like?

what color evokes strong memories for them?

favorite quote? ( does not have to be said by them, can be from a poem )

what is something they wish they could do? a bucket list, maybe?

what do they see in people first? their best traits, or their worst? 

SCARS, TELL ME ABOUT THEIR SCARS HOLY SHIT !!!!! tell me all about them, give me all of them, idc how many they have.

birthmarks?

childhood headcanons; what was their first word? when did they start walking?

favorite holiday! ( can be a canon holiday, one from the real world. or an entirely made up one, tbh )

what is their sleep schedule like? sleeping position?

their morning routine.

how do they react to change?

what is something they refuse to open up about? what is a dark secret they’re forced to carry to the grave with them?

if you have thought this far into it — HOW. DO. THEY. DIE. WHEN? ARE THEY ANGRY? accepting of it?

TELL ME ABOUT THEIR HANDS, DESCRIBE THEM TO ME, HANDS ARE SO IMPORTANT F UC K !!!!!!!!!!!!

how do they react to praise?

last time they cried

what do they say literally all the time

WHAT IS THEIR FAVORITE MEME

what are their thoughts on sex? is it for everyone? or just someone special?

these are questions for muns

what songs do you associate your muse with?

what god / goddess / entity do you associate your muse with?

what is something you wish people would stop assuming about them?

tell me something u love about them, whAT DO U LOVE

place ur muse on this image

[softhobies]

RULES: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people

tagged by @heartsbian (actual loml thank you)

i tag: @damnwilds @danwildsofficial @naminyard @battlefieldheart @daddariossmile @ffsmagnusbane @bramgreenfclds @lailadermctt (and if anyone else wants to do this feel free to consider yourself tagged or if you want message me and i’ll add you lmao)

THE LAST…

1. drink: water

2. phone call: unknown number

3. text message: from my mum: “i guess”

4. song you listened to: and the crowd goes by mudslide crush

5. time you cried: idk?? i cry too much lmao

HAVE YOU EVER… (PT.1)

6. … dated someone twice: no

7. … kissed someone and regretted it: no

8. … been cheated on: no

9. … lost someone special: to death? no. drifting apart? i guess.

10. … been depressed: always

11. … gotten drunk and thrown up: uuuhhhh yeah

FAVORITE COLORS

12. black

13. red

14. idk?? white, grey, blue, purple... changes

IN THE LAST YEAR, HAVE YOU…

15. … made new friends: yep!

16. … fallen out of love: i don’t think so

17. … laughed until you cried: of course

18. … found out someone was talking about you: probably but i don’t remember

19. … met someone who changed you: hmmm i don’t think so??

20. … found out who your friends are: 99% of my friends have been made in the past year so?? maybe?? i’m working on it

21. … kissed someone on your facebook list: nope

GENERAL

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: idk i hardly use it?? but it was full of people i used to know but yeah i don’t talk to any of them except like my immediate family irl now lmao

23. do you have any pets: no :(

24. do you want to change your name: uuhhhh yeah like alex isn’t my legal name and it’d be nice to not have to sign my legal name or go by it at doctors bc i’m too scared to correct anyone lmao

25. what did you do for your last birthday: i think i mostly just soaked up whatever attention i got on here and stressed over tr*mp bc my bday is on inauguration day?? also i annoyed family and may have watched a couple episodes of vld with my bro

26. what time did you wake up: like 12:30am lmao

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping i guess

28. name something you can’t wait for: uuhhh happiness?? idk 

29. ??? there is no 29 lol

30. ……. no 30 either

31. what are you listening to right now: she’s so gone - lemonade mouth (uuhhh i’m listening to the album if you couldn’t tell by my answers lmao)

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: i’d assume so?? only one that comes to my mind tho is tom in mysme but he’s not real lmao

33. something that is getting on your nerves: my shit sleeping schedule like i’m trying to fix it but i suck at sleeping and ugh

34. most visited website: probably tumblr lmao

35. hair color: black but naturally it’s blonde

36. long or short hair: short bless up

37. ??? she’s gone

38. ……. not here either

39. piercings: 2 in each ear and 2 in my lip for now

40. blood type: i honestly have no clue?? p sure it wasn’t o but that’s all i remember so uuhhh oops

41. nicknames: i just go by alex

42. relationship status: single forever

43. zodiac: aquarius (or capricorn idk i’m a cusp but i’ve always went with aquarius and i refuse to change now)

44. pronouns: they/them

45. favorite tv show: idk?? b99 is p good

46. tattoos: none but i want a ton one day

47. right or left-handed

48. surgery: i don’t think i’ve had any

49. piercings: ?? already answered

50. sport: i don’t play or watch anything really?? at least, not anymore

51. vacation: anywhere and everywhere

52. pair of trainers: idk i hardly ever where any?? probably have some somewhere tho

MORE GENERAL

53. eating: fav food = cheese calzones at old chicago but like if you mean am i eating? no? but i ate leftover hamburger helper within the last hour so

54. fave drink: water

55. what you’re up to: answering this but after i’m going to try queuing a ton of posts while i wait for my phone to charge completely

56. waiting for: happiness?? but uuhhh short term i guess attention (aka my friends sleep at night like most people and i’m l o n e l y)

57. what do i want: happiness again but also money and maybe a purpose

58. do you ever want to get married: kind of?? i kind of don’t believe in love for me really but i have this dream wedding so like?? i’m down marrying just for the tax benefits lmao i just want that spooky wedding

59. career: don’t have one and don’t know what i wanna do yet so rip

WHICH IS BETTER

60. hugs or kisses?

61. lips or eyes?

62. shorter or taller?

63. older or younger? keeping it crossed out bc?? what does this mean?? idk but the only options i can come up with idc

64. nice arms or nice stomach? (i guess? just barely idc mostly)

65. hook up or relationship?

66. troublemaker or hesitant? (to a point)

HAVE YOU EVER�� (PT.2)

67. … kissed a stranger: nope

68. … drank hard liquor: a lot (unhealthy coping for the lose)

69. … lost glasses/contact lenses: oh god yes?? lost glasses in a hotel once and have lost so many contact lenses it’s ridiculous i suck lmao

70. … turned someone down: yeah but i think both the times the people asked me out as a joke?? i heard one guy planning it and the other i just kind of assumed the guys friends were asking me out bc pulling a prank on their friend 

71. … sex on the first day: uuhhhh how about sex never lmao no thanks

72. … broken someone’s heart: not that i know

73. … had your heart broken: uuhhh by my ex bff a billion times lmao

74. … been arrested: nope bless

75. … cried when someone died: not genuinely, no

76. … fallen for a friend: yep

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

77. … yourself: not anymore

78. … miracles: unlikely

79. … love at first sight: not for myself for sure

80. … santa claus: why would i

81. … kiss on the first date: you do you

82. … angels: maybe bc of others experiences but i believe in demons more 

OTHER

83. current best friend’s name: i have a lot but nøname

84. eye color: brown

85. favorite movie: idk?? star wars i guess

[teenmomtruths]

My Weekly Thoughts

Yes, Javi did admit he not only came over unannounced and uninvited, he Hopped The Fence!! And when he came in, he said there were shoes and clothes everywhere and he asked Kail what had happened, why tf is the house so messy? Um, none of your fucking business! He doesn’t live there; it Would be scary to come out of the bathroom and there’s your hulking ex-husband ranting about the mess. Kail didn’t say Isaac said he was scared, Jo did. Because Kail called the police, since Javi refused to leave, and then called Jo to come get Isaac. Jo said Isaac said it scared him and he didn’t like that. I thought Vee downplayed it but she’d feel differently if it were her home and her child scared. That was when Kail asked Jo to tell Javi because of all this he couldn’t be alone with Isaac anymore, for now. Jo literally said, ok..goddammit. Lol. Javi laughingly told his friends about hopping the fence. That’s psycho stalker behavior and it’s not ok. The cops asked if Kail had anything in writing saying he couldn’t be there, since it technically was still his house, she didn’t, and there wasn’t anything they could do. But the fact that Javi stayed on and ranted and made her call the cops before he would leave is crazy. And him saying shit about how the house looks is yet another example of his compulsive, controlling behavior. You would think Kail learned her lesson about getting pregnant by someone you really don’t know that well. Idc if they were married, they still met, married and conceived in a very short period of time. It takes years to really know if you’re going to work. At least date two years. Chelsea, so far, has just been lucky in that with Cole. At least she waited 6 months to introduce Aubree; Kail had Isaac saying I love you to Javi within 6 months. Kail also said on the aftershow that she was sick as a dog for the first 12 weeks of her pregnancy and wasn’t at all with either boy, so maybe it is a girl. And maybe she’s already showing how different that will be :)

Jace came into Jenelle’s house, sat down and immediately picked up the Xbox controller and started playing. I think he looks at her place as the ‘fun’ place (most of the time), where he’s largely left alone and allowed to do whatever he wants. Sharing custody with my nieces’ and nephew’s paternal aunt has taught me about that one. They act completely different, by all accounts, at either home. She’s always frazzled, yelling, has no control. She lets them run wild and talk back and regularly feeds them cereal for supper. At our house, while they are allowed freedom outside, since we live in the country, they have rules. They have to eat a good meal or they don’t get a snack. If they don’t eat their veggies etc, they get a banana, apple or whatever instead of ice cream or cookies for snack. I don’t argue with them. I tell them what to do and they do it. If they start to talk back they get time out or some consequence. And they are so much easier to deal with. Because the rules are clear, they know what to expect, and they know I don’t play. This makes them torn. On the one hand, they enjoy the freedom they have at her house to skip a bath, eat cereal, talk back. On the other, they thrive on a schedule and knowing what’s coming. They’re so much calmer that way and I keep trying to tell her, don’t get down to their level. If they tell you to shut up, you don’t scream, no You shut up! You calmly tell them they don’t speak to adults that way and to go to their room. It works so much better but she keeps doing it her way and keeps texting me all the time all upset. It’s frustrating. I just hope having them Fri-Sun will be enough to instill good hygiene and eating habits etc, to make a difference. They Love corn and green beans! And they’re like .50 a can at Walmart, how freaking hard is it to warm up a can of corn to go with supper? Ok, I'ma stop now. :) Ohhhh, but Jace’s face during that whole conversation :( You could just tell he was thinking, this is my fault, it’s about me. Esp with Jenelle screaming she only gets stressed out over her mom and Jace. Good job Juhnelle. If that text from Nathan about moving to England and signing over his rights is real, OMG. Shows how impulsive and unstable he is, again. I can’t believe he’d even consider just leaving Kai and signing over all rights. That would show he really only cares about himself.

I thought Chelsea ordering the baby was a little over the top. Cole was a good sport about it, but as she said, she’s the one whose going to be breastfeeding and getting up at night. So why make him get up several times with a crying, mechanical baby when he has work the next day? She can be a little controlling too. But baby Watson is just beyond adorable and I love the things she buys for him, too cute!

This is from last week, but someone mentioned Leah’s grandma saying have Germy sign over Addie and do it alone. I couldn’t believe she was telling Leah that. I get it’s frustrating for him to change times, but it’s not grounds to keep Addie away from him and her have no father. I was glad Leah didn’t even consider it. Her mom and grandma are crazy. Leah seems to realize that now and she is doing so much better as a mom and in thinking for herself. She must’ve decided on college instead of cosmetology because of the schedule, mostly. It would’ve required Saturday hours and her missing time with the girls. In any case, it’s awesome she’s staying un-pregnant and starting college. I hope she sees it thru and continues on this path. My only criticism would be that she needs to stop discussing Ali’s life span in front of Ali. Ali doesn’t need to know right now that she may not live to get married and go to college. Kids come up with enough to worry about on their own. She might interpret it as, omg, I could die any day!

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My Weekly Thoughts

Yes, Javi did admit he not only came over unannounced and uninvited, he Hopped The Fence!! And when he came in, he said there were shoes and clothes everywhere and he asked Kail what had happened, why tf is the house so messy? Um, none of your fucking business! He doesn’t live there; it Would be scary to come out of the bathroom and there’s your hulking ex-husband ranting about the mess. Kail didn’t say Isaac said he was scared, Jo did. Because Kail called the police, since Javi refused to leave, and then called Jo to come get Isaac. Jo said Isaac said it scared him and he didn’t like that. I thought Vee downplayed it but she’d feel differently if it were her home and her child scared. That was when Kail asked Jo to tell Javi because of all this he couldn’t be alone with Isaac anymore, for now. Jo literally said, ok..goddammit. Lol. Javi laughingly told his friends about hopping the fence. That’s psycho stalker behavior and it’s not ok. The cops asked if Kail had anything in writing saying he couldn’t be there, since it technically was still his house, she didn’t, and there wasn’t anything they could do. But the fact that Javi stayed on and ranted and made her call the cops before he would leave is crazy. And him saying shit about how the house looks is yet another example of his compulsive, controlling behavior. You would think Kail learned her lesson about getting pregnant by someone you really don’t know that well. Idc if they were married, they still met, married and conceived in a very short period of time. It takes years to really know if you’re going to work. At least date two years. Chelsea, so far, has just been lucky in that with Cole. At least she waited 6 months to introduce Aubree; Kail had Isaac saying I love you to Javi within 6 months. Kail also said on the aftershow that she was sick as a dog for the first 12 weeks of her pregnancy and wasn’t at all with either boy, so maybe it is a girl. And maybe she’s already showing how different that will be :)

Jace came into Jenelle’s house, sat down and immediately picked up the Xbox controller and started playing. I think he looks at her place as the ‘fun’ place (most of the time), where he’s largely left alone and allowed to do whatever he wants. Sharing custody with my nieces’ and nephew’s paternal aunt has taught me about that one. They act completely different, by all accounts, at either home. She’s always frazzled, yelling, has no control. She lets them run wild and talk back and regularly feeds them cereal for supper. At our house, while they are allowed freedom outside, since we live in the country, they have rules. They have to eat a good meal or they don’t get a snack. If they don’t eat their veggies etc, they get a banana, apple or whatever instead of ice cream or cookies for snack. I don’t argue with them. I tell them what to do and they do it. If they start to talk back they get time out or some consequence. And they are so much easier to deal with. Because the rules are clear, they know what to expect, and they know I don’t play. This makes them torn. On the one hand, they enjoy the freedom they have at her house to skip a bath, eat cereal, talk back. On the other, they thrive on a schedule and knowing what’s coming. They’re so much calmer that way and I keep trying to tell her, don’t get down to their level. If they tell you to shut up, you don’t scream, no You shut up! You calmly tell them they don’t speak to adults that way and to go to their room. It works so much better but she keeps doing it her way and keeps texting me all the time all upset. It’s frustrating. I just hope having them Fri-Sun will be enough to instill good hygiene and eating habits etc, to make a difference. They Love corn and green beans! And they’re like .50 a can at Walmart, how freaking hard is it to warm up a can of corn to go with supper? Ok, I'ma stop now. :) Ohhhh, but Jace’s face during that whole conversation :( You could just tell he was thinking, this is my fault, it’s about me. Esp with Jenelle screaming she only gets stressed out over her mom and Jace. Good job Juhnelle. If that text from Nathan about moving to England and signing over his rights is real, OMG. Shows how impulsive and unstable he is, again. I can’t believe he’d even consider just leaving Kai and signing over all rights. That would show he really only cares about himself.

I thought Chelsea ordering the baby was a little over the top. Cole was a good sport about it, but as she said, she’s the one whose going to be breastfeeding and getting up at night. So why make him get up several times with a crying, mechanical baby when he has work the next day? She can be a little controlling too. But baby Watson is just beyond adorable and I love the things she buys for him, too cute!

This is from last week, but someone mentioned Leah’s grandma saying have Germy sign over Addie and do it alone. I couldn’t believe she was telling Leah that. I get it’s frustrating for him to change times, but it’s not grounds to keep Addie away from him and her have no father. I was glad Leah didn’t even consider it. Her mom and grandma are crazy. Leah seems to realize that now and she is doing so much better as a mom and in thinking for herself. She must’ve decided on college instead of cosmetology because of the schedule, mostly. It would’ve required Saturday hours and her missing time with the girls. In any case, it’s awesome she’s staying un-pregnant and starting college. I hope she sees it thru and continues on this path. My only criticism would be that she needs to stop discussing Ali’s life span in front of Ali. Ali doesn’t need to know right now that she may not live to get married and go to college. Kids come up with enough to worry about on their own. She might interpret it as, omg, I could die any day!

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Between my children and I it's an unspoken agreement.

Its not about who or where you came from -- its about where you're going

I expect my children to be kind and generous not only to other people But also to include themselves as i would, as I cannot.

They are in their lives, i am not so they must take care of themselves first, any excess is to be given away.

It is their decision as to what is excess. Do they want a small house or a palace?

A palace? They will not have excess cash but excess excitement and passions to expand while they wait.

A small house? They will have excess calmness and cash sooner.

All the excess is needed by somebody in the world and it's their choice as to when where and how to share it.

Should they wait to keep that excess willingness to expand and excitement until they meet the right person to share it with -- even after the palace is built -- that's fine.

There are no rules to as when and where but that they must and they keep that in their back bones.

Their skull and ribs know they must live each snd every day to the fullest. However it is.

May be depressed and angry or sad and morbid. But they must live and be themselves 100% and no one else.

Because if i ever meet my child, i want to meet ny child 100%

Even if it is my child's situations and problems i meet first. Its still my child beneath them. That's what I want to pull out of the rubble of Earth. My child.

So I've promoted soulmates knowing i have children out in the world i don't know.

Because they have a life they deserve to live, love snd be happy and safe in.

I would love to meet them and share myself in their life.

But they must have a life. They must be successfully happy above most and all else.

Happy. That's all i care about.

Happiness blankets safety and financial well being, happy friends and less problems they worry about in the world. So much is included in happiness.

So that is why i chose that word to dictate what i expect and what i must do in the world.

I have 37 children living in South America. If one says "but mom i worry about the people in my country and it makes me unhappy the way the government is"

Then I as the World's Queen do have the power to change that and so i must for my child's happiness.

If they're unhappy, I am, too.

So the unspoken rule is not to worry about mom. Run the world over, crush it, spit on it, throw it up and let me know it made you happy.

That's all.

Its their job to find the love of their life -- to find the greatest sex that did or should had created them -- which can only happen with Some one they truly love and can truly care about them.

So I see them and I think they must know the feeling that created them. The passion. Adoration. Absolute best feeling in the body parts that exist and were used to create them.

And whatever it takes to get them safe enough to feel it proper.

I know some are thinking about Saint Luches and my daughter. I allowed 20% unloyalty towards me. Meaning 20% of their life they devoted to only themselves however they saw it fit. 2% was all Saint Luches took. 17% Jesse Tony Jamison took (yes hes a Saint), Mark Anthony took 4% and Alex took between 0 and 1% mostly for job purposes over the last 30 years and the others took more and they were actually evil.

My children I allow 99% UNloyalty towards me.

So 1% is included in the above and also not misunderstand me purposely. Like know the truth and deny it -- without cause. Deny it until you can understand it. But don't deny it and not care about yourself. Don't deny I care and refuse to take from my heart. Say Fine mom you're a bitch and did every thing wrong but take from my heart and apply it in the direction of your life.

Like i said run over the Earth and let me know you're happy.

To misunderstand purposely would be to begin human trafficking for your own power or finances. A conscience choice to harm others in an unfair way that it is obvious.

Otherwise we seem to make mistakes that aren't mistakes but end in miracles.

Its Not easy being a Goddess and it's not easier to be a Goddess' daughter.

So 1% loyalty to me and their father. 0.5% each or 0.1 and 0.9 idc

And then 99% to them and their lives.

That 1% of the time -- oh yeah i have a mom/dad. We should mesh schedules if possible

Candy says "oh mom gets to see me on TV and i get to read her posts" so we see each other.

And yeah! Definitely! But also one day it's good to really see each other in person. To see each other at the same time. But in the meanwhile.... It's "mom I don't want to see you today, do you care? "I don't care, too"

100% be you.

And i 100% accept you.

Annabelle and Declan are 82-100% I'm not living without you or my dad...

Declan... We tried making Annabelle 42 times and they were all killed or abducted from 1979 to 1986 and 1999-2002. So we did it different. That is why i have her to raise and keep safe.

And also it indicated a time to change the world.

And soulmates for Gods and all So much else, especially interplanetary communication and expectations.

Hence the extreme war on aliens and clones.

So all my children are different and i expect them to be. Because they are. That's the truth.

They were created for the future of this world. And to not have parents is something that should make them proud of themselves and who they are

And not sad. Depressed or uncared for.

Because they are cared about. Allot. Very very much.

I wouldn't be taking over the world if they were not.

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What You Hate The Most About Your Own Zodiac Sign

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What You Hate The Most About Your Own Zodiac Sign

What You Hate The Most About Your Own Zodiac Sign Niharika Nayak Hyderabd040-395603080 December 11, 2019

Ever wondered why you just cannot seem to catch a break? Or why your friends keep distancing themselves away from you because your personality just seems to irk them? Read this list to see the worst traits your zodiac sign displays and see where you can fix things:

1. Aries (March 21st To April 19th)

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You just hate how much you love danger. Your impulsivity is your most significant negative trait, and you hate that you always give in to it. Bad decisions rule your life and your stubbornness to listen to your friends when they warn you is very off-putting. You’re probably the first one at a party to be blackout drunk but not before texting your ex.

2. Taurus (April 20th To May 20th)

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Your materialistic and self-indulgent nature makes it very difficult for you to not boast about how well you’re doing. But truth the is, you’re still hung up over things you can’t control from your past, and no matter how far you try to run, it still haunts you. Your tendency to be super possessive about your belongings doesn’t go down well with others, and you prefer not sharing; anything.

3. Gemini (May 21st To June 20th)

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Your tendency to bite off more than you can handle puts you in often avoidable situations. Due to your lack of decision-making skills, most people don’t bother asking you to make any. And honestly, we don’t blame them. Hanging out with a Gemini is like dealing with two bratty kids who can’t decide between ice cream and pani puri (Get the reference?). It’s not your fault, though. You want to do the right thing; you just can’t decide what the right thing is.

4. Cancer (June 21st To July 22nd)

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Your over emotional nature tends to make people wary of upsetting you. Despite your best efforts to not care a lot and adopt an IDC (I don’t care) attitude, you fail epically. You’re the type of person who’d cry if the other team beat you during a debate. And if you do lose, your pessimistic personality makes you feel like it’s the end of the world. It’s not your fault. After all, the cruelness of the world just makes you want to curl up in a ball and cry, right?

5. Leo (23th July To August 22nd)

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Careful with your ego there, you might crush your own head with the weight of it. Leos are known for their egotistical nature and always want things to go their way. If your favorite saying is “It’s my way or the highway”, then you’re most true to your zodiac’s nature. Your friends often put up with your controlling nature, but only because they love you. And we get it, you’re a born leader, and you were brought into existence to lead. At least that’s what you believe.

6. Virgo (August 23rd To September 22nd)

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It’s challenging for you to keep an open mind and relinquish the reins to someone else’s command. When you do occasionally give control to others, your overcritical nature makes it difficult for them to do their thing. Your friends often get annoyed at you when you ask for help and refuse to take a back seat around them. Being fussy isn’t really a bad trait to have, but it isn’t positive either, and if often why everyone gets frustrated with you so easily.

7. Libra (September 23rd To October 22nd)

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Your unreliability is no fun at all. When it comes to making plans, you have the highest record for flaking. From dropping your college road trip to Goa with just a day’s announcement to bailing on that late-night movie your beau scheduled for the weekend, you’ve done it all. Your friends call you lazy, but you just call yourself selective. Sure, your room is a mess, and the leftover pizza is stinking up the kitchen, but indecisive nature will have you procrastinate until it’s time to call the exterminators. Maybe keep them on speed dial for next time?

8. Scorpio (October 23rd To November 21st)

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You live to manipulate people, especially your partner. Your jealous nature makes it difficult not to follow their every move. You’re the first person to accuse your partner of cheating and then get mad at him for defending himself. You also tend to resent people who hurt or mistreat you. For like, way too long.

9. Sagittarius (November 22nd To December 21st)

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Your impatience and overly confident nature often make you put yourself in extraordinarily reckless and careless situations. This often takes a toll on your work, and you end up rushing projects and then having to salvage the situation haphazardly. You tend to lose out on many opportunities due to your inability to perform consistently.

10. Capricorn (December 22nd To January 19th)

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Getting you annoyed is literally the easiest thing in the world, and your stubbornness always has you at loggerheads with those around you. This makes it difficult for you to express your pessimistic views towards life, and you find it hard to trust those around you. Sure, you have those few friends who you trust utterly, but at the same time, they too grow weary of your ways and need their space.

11. Aquarius (January 20th To February 18th)

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Sure, making friends and getting into relationships is no big task for you and your intelligent nature makes you the center of focus. But your unpredictability and aloofness make it hard for you to keep those friends or even relationships around for a long time. Your extremist beliefs make it hard for you to hold an argument, and you tend not to keep an open mind when it comes to things. This makes you pull away from the ones who love you, and you end up self-sabotaging and taking for granted the people around you.

12. Pisces (February 19th to March 20th)

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Your head is always stuck in the clouds, and you’re the first to run away as soon as conflict or drama rears its head. When things take a turn for the worse, you’re in the habit of cursing your luck rather than your inability to stick around and fight things through. You’re lazy. But only towards things that don’t matter as much to you.

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Search Engines Crawl Systems Solutions and SEO Guide shallow

Search engines crawl the web to understand the process helps clarify the SEO work direction, this article will and other resources, and personal understanding to explore and search engines to crawl process for SEO guidance.

First, a brief look at the process of search engine spiders, as shown:

The figure depicts a brief SE crawl principle, although there is communication between distributed information gathering needs in reptiles, but the process will be for a single reptile probably as shown, do the following for each analytical steps:

A Total Link Library

The total inventory stood links crawling reptile had been URL and the time the new URL , controlled by the scheduling system to extract the new URL , or need to re-visit the URL by crawling reptiles. The total link library stored URL is unique not repeated, thus ensuring no repeat reptile crawl to avoid falling into the trap cycle.

Fetching Strategy

What’s new with respect to the entire Internet, SE resources are limited. Full crawl is impossible, you need to SEwith minimum cost to crawl the most significant portions of what it would need to crawl priority deployment strategy. Scheduling system, to be crawled URL into a queue structure, fetching strategy will play a sort of these queues role.

Many reptiles crawl strategy, but its goal is to give priority to important pages crawled . Common example: breadth-first traversal policy, depth-first traversal strategy, PR priority strategy, anti-chain priority strategy, OPIC strategy, major stations priority strategies.

Breadth-First Traversal Policy

Breadth-first traversal policy refers to grab a starting page, all links within the page into the crawl queue until the end, not a page’s importance rating, according to the order crawl, as traversal path: A BCDE HFG ;

Depth-First Traversal Policy

Depth-first traversal policy refers to a crawl after the start page, choose one of these links to track crawl crawl until completed, the next start page, continue to follow the crawl, traverse the path shown: AB CFG D EH ;

PR Priority Strategy

In this refers to incomplete PR strategy, because PR is a page for all the algorithms, and reptiles crawl collection process only for a web page PR terms, it is called incomplete PR priority strategy. In this strategy, according to the queue to be crawled URL or imperfect PR value to determine the crawl order. Of course, the PR value is not calculated once every crawl a page, but a certain amount crawl as X pages later, all the download page again recalculates a new non-complete PR value. According to the PR value that determines the queue to be downloaded URL to download the order. Without crawling to X before a page, a new page in the extracted crawl URL importance may be higher than the previous URL , these URL to PR to 0 at the end of the queue to be downloaded is inappropriate. At this point, it is necessary to calculate a provisional anti-chain based on this page for all PR , inferior race to be downloaded into the queue;

Anti-Chain Priority Strategy

means the number of pages to be linked to other pages to determine the queue to be crawled URL crawl sequence;

OPIC Strategy ,

Online Page Importance Computation computing, online page importance. This strategy is similar toPR priority, in essence, is given to the page of the “quality points.” Before the beginning of the algorithm, all the pages given to the same initial “cash” (Cash) , when a page is downloaded, the page will be their “cash” equally among all the links page, and empty their cash. To be crawled URL , based on the amount of cash the importance of sorting crawl.

Dazhan priority strategy means to be crawled URL , sorting through its ownership of the domain name in accordance with the priority to be downloaded download URL and more number of links.

Other strategies, such as based on URL of the target level, URL suffix and URL strings, etc. to determine the crawl ordering.

In actually captured in a variety of strategies are often used in combination. Above strategies for SEO to improve the collection there are a lot of significance, such as: the number of control into the chain, the chain control number, structure and control of the site outside the chain of weight (quantity, quality, Nofollow , etc.), adding new content update frequency.

Reptiles

Crawler is based on the specified URL to download a program or script web content, general search engines are used in a distributed architecture reptiles. Distributed crawling by data centers, distributed crawling servers, distributed crawler composed by more than one data center servers crawl, crawl on each server can host multiple crawlers.

Common distributed architecture has a master-slave distributed reptiles and reptiles on the distribution of the equation .

Master-slave distributed crawlers only the equivalent of a URL assigned server, the whole of the Internet URL is assigned to several crawl server download. This architecture significantly on URL distribution server performance demanding, large face of the Internet data, it is prone to system bottlenecks.

Peer to peer distributed reptiles no URL assigned servers, each server is responsible for a particular domain name set to crawl under the URL to crawl. Internet domain diversity by modulo hash or hash consistency :

Hash modulo means for n sets crawl server, first hashed domain, the value obtained for the n modulo, get the remainder shall be allocated to the domain server number. For example, suppose there are five sets of crawl server, the corresponding number is 0 , 1 , 2 , 3 , 4 value after the domain name hash calculated 16 , 16 to 5 modulo remainder get alower, namely the domain URL should be referred to a number of servers crawl. However, this model is flawed, in a station crawl server downtime or due to URL leads to increased server load average increased need to increase the crawl server, modulo n we need to change. This means that the entire system should be re-allocated, will lead to a waste of resources.

Consistent hashing refers to hashed domain, mapped to an 0-2 32 between a number, the hash range end to end, that is considered the value 0 and 2 32 overlap, can be into a hypothetical ordered loop sequence, each server is responsible for a certain value segment, as shown below. Assuming the site domain hash fall after 2 No. server performs crawl, andtwo No. server goes down, you continue to find clockwise, the URL of the server by the first encounter, namely 3 No. server until 2 No. server back to normal.

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Due to the distributed crawler structure, so the same site will be a lot different IP spiders crawling record, this collaborative crawling system is normal. Part SEOer think different IP segment means different weights of spiders, a field in which the IP is right down the spider spiders. Crawling system might URL weights were assigned, in order to determine the order crawl. However, the weight value is only used for crawling system, web crawlers ordering more complex weighting rules. So, say a spider down the right set up.

Download

Spider browser download process is similar except that the spider only download HTML file, the file does not render the picture is not loaded, Flash , etc., under normal circumstances is not loaded JS .

Spider in the acquisition of the site will consider network load information website, according to the website of the network bandwidth to control crawl. Under normal circumstances, the load is based on IP control. Therefore, increase the bandwidth the site is beneficial SEO ‘s. Of course, if it is a shared IP ‘s website, this is difficult to control.

The download process can be divided into four steps: DNS resolve , TCP connection , server computing , HTMLdownload .

DNS Resolve

Major with DNS server performance, and the other with the analytical approach also has a certain relationship. For SEO is concerned, you can choose a professional test DNS service providers. In the case of this step is the most prone to spider operations shielded IP , because the process is very similar to a spider crawling DO Sattacks. Benniao operations where the company had appeared shielded Google spiders cause the disappearance of the event included Google, once a famous domestic IDC service providers have no intention of operations shielding Baidu Spider, led to the use of the IDC server Baidu included a large number of site conditions appear to disappear.

TCP Connection

speed depends on the Web server can quickly access request, in general, when the server at the same time will have access to a large number of cases of congestion request information or refuse access, the greater the amount of access TCP connection speed is slower. Of course, with the selected WEB server program (such as IIS , Apache, Nginx , etc.). For large sites, the problem can be solved by increasing the configuration. Using shared server mode for small sites, to avoid Sheremetyevo and forums, download station, etc., consume large bandwidth site shared server.

Server Computing

speed depends on the program website architecture, the efficiency of database programming language efficiency (for dynamic content), while the amount of parallel processing and so on. In this process, the most common problem is the low efficiency database, which will result in site speed reduces errors when the page is accessed even. Benniao server where the company would often visit the same time as the emergence of excessive database error, the other person is depressed. The process is optimized for operation of the main things, either for good or change the program a little bit better engineer.

HTML Download

speed is mainly depends on the file size and network bandwidth (for large sites more visible), forSEO is concerned, can HTML code optimization. Many websites HTML code lengthy problem exists, and even throughout the code and the text is only a very small part of it. Benniao part of the page where the company also have this problem, had used a page function, after removing the remains of code, or a “More” button to hide all of the links of the function (embodied in HTML , the content and even exceeds the amount of content body of the page!). For HTML optimization, see the source code is a good habit.

The Total Page Library

To crawl to the site for storage, allowing SE quickly create snippets in search results, you can save SE of CPU and network resources, you can extract the information for subsequent indexing, sorting, etc. (eg extract anchor text) to provide support. And these must support large-scale data storage smooth storage, random access and sequential access, large-scale updates, which requires a lot of technical support, but this piece of content and SEO basically irrelevant.

URL Extraction Update

This step extracts caught webpage URL , and the URL to re-conduct, norms and other treatment, and URL database to communicate, do not repeat the new URL , remove the expired page URL so on. For SEO , the part has to crawl and rank the value of a page can not properly Nofollow , giving a new page, it is important to take the opportunity to crawl more pages and weights.

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