#id say guess who my lesbians are but it's obvious

[laswells-ashtray]

Okay, kind of a weird ask BUT.. Ghost 141.

And I’m not talking abt how they are now, no, I mean like ACTUAL see-through dead people from different periods of time OR from the same time period.

I could imagine that Soap is from the Viking era(Makes sense?), Price is from the Victorian Era, Ghost is from the early Reconstruction days after WW1(I think), and Gaz is from the 70’s or 80’s!

How they meet is completely unknown, but now they stick together like glue and just roam around the Earth as it is.

Sometimes I feel like they’ll see things from their past that no one else can, and the others are confused because- what’s there? Like for example, John was walking the halls of some large abandoned mansion and all of a sudden he sees his lost(and long gone) lover Nik, damn near tearing the house apart trying to look for the criminal before coming to the realization of what he was doing and disappearing for a while.

Nobody knows what the hell that was about, but they most certainly know that it must’ve been serious if the man disappeared for a week straight.

When John finally reappears, the other three men don't know what to say. He looks worse for wear, his clothes are ruffled in a way that requires effort to achieve as a phantom, and his eyes are empty.

They had spent the week debating the identity of the Nik he'd be screaming for. Simon had assumed the person to be a domestic servant but they'd debated the use John had for one. John never had a family, he had been an anomaly of his time. No wife, no children and he wasn't particularly inclined to any career path. He'd stuck to whatever earned him the means to live but much about his life had been kept private and none of the three had felt to pry.

Gaz has other assumptions, might've been taboo in the 80s but it certainly wasn't unheard of. He's unsure about what would've happened if you were perhaps "caught" in Victorian times but he assumes it can't have been good.

But Gaz had spent enough time in queer spaces amongst his people to know one when he saw it. John had been trying to tear his way through them just to get a glance of the Nik he was yelling about and Gaz had heard him muttering to himself about a Nikolai on more than one occasion.

Sure, they'd all developed over the years of being stuck as spiritual presences but some things lingered. Occasionally Soap would slip into a damn near unintelligible rant about something that would leave them all confused. Although, he is just Scottish so that might be it. Simon still struggled to wrap his mind around modern-day laws, smacking around your kids could earn you a prison sentence. He'd get a distant look in his eyes before quickly switching topics whenever it was brought up. Gaz would be the first to admit that hearing about modern-day movies centred around queer stories would always sweep him off of his feet.

Even if he was more used to the openness after they'd taken to following around a CIA agent that John had found amusing. The woman was a powerhouse and finding out she had a wife floored them all but they'd taken to lingering around the couple's home for amusement.

But John had never been willing to elaborate on the Nik he so desperately sought. No one quite knew what to say to him when he came back after disappearing for a week, trying not to ostracize the man through sheer verbal accident.

It surprised no one that Soap had been the first to talk but even Gaz would've expected a more tacful greeting.

"John, you're back. Just in time, the lesbians got a new cat."

Silence falls over the four of them for a moment. Simon facepalms with enough force that Gaz worries for his nose. John looks utterly caught off guard and the way his nose scrunches is undeniably endearing.

"What- what colour is it this time?" He asks, voice utterly wrecked. He sounds as if he'd been gargling glass shards for fun.

"Grey. Looks like mold."

They all smile at the way the man's lip quirks, a faint hint of a smile shining through.

[aritany]

my new project is a very silly contemporary self indulgent NA novel and it’s about exes falling in love again or more accurately having to come to terms with never having fallen out of it in the first place

also it’s a sequel

alternate excerpt title: wyd when your ex girlfriend’s very mean lesbian best friend comes to tear you a new one and you cant even run away because you’re already running

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Somebody yanks one of my earbuds out. 

“What the��jesus, what are you—Mayu?” I snatch the earbud back as Mayu falls into step next to me.

“Jonah.” She gives me a nod, matching my pace without missing a beat.

I’m almost tempted to start running faster. “What do you want?”

“Look, buddy.” Mayu’s not even breathing hard. “I know we’ve never had a lot of love to lose, but you are on my shit list.”

“What the—what am I supposed to have done?”

“You broke Aila’s heart,” Mayu says, like it wasn’t the other way around, like it’s supposed to be totally obvious. “And you never even had the decency to tell her why. I think there’s possibly something very, very wrong with you, and I need you to know that if you hurt her—no, if your presence even affects her—I will tear you limb from limb, and it will be horrible for you, scrotally speaking.”

“I’m not going to—scrotally speaking?”

“Did I stutter?”

I give my head a little shake. I actually have started running faster without even meaning to, but Mayu doesn’t even look like she notices. “I didn’t even know you were friends again.”

Mayu cuffs me upside the head.

“Ow!”

“Were you even listening to anything I was just saying? Did I not make my threats clear?”

“Yeah, I got it, I just—I guess I wasn’t expecting this from you.”

“Who were you expecting it from?”

“I don’t know,” I tell her truthfully, because I have been doing my damn best not to think about it. “Her boyfriend?”

“Sam is four and a half thousand kilometres away, or he would.” Mayu gives her head a shake. “And he’d have been way too fucking nice to you, because he’s an excellent fucking person, so I have to be the violent one.”

[manchesterau]

I'm not the prev anon and I wouldn't call you a disgusting homophobe but I would guess they said that because of your use of homophobic slurs like "faggy". I consider that word offensive personally maybe others do too. It's for gay men to reclaim that one

I use to be very uncomfortable with the words fag, dyke, queer for obvious reasons bc those were the words I heard growing up being used to describe queer ppl, and not to long ago id reblog post about how bad the word queer was and I couldn’t wrap my head around the fact that people actually wanted to use that word. I preferred using/saying/calling myself butch rather than dyke for that same reason. even seeing the word fag used so leisurely between other queer ppl online a year ago made me so uncomfortable and in my head i was like ‘why even use that word gay man or not ew’ so I get people being uncomfortable with those words bc I use to be to! I could go even deeper, I use to be very against kink and leather at pride bc it made me uncomfortable and only recently after taking many queer studies classes did I realize why and it took me reading actual archive queer news articles from the 80s and 90s for me to learn.

all of this is to say, there are certain ppl in the community who say only lesbians can say dyke and only gay men can say fag and man idk! 🤷🏾 like I get it but also im getting called a fag if I hold hands with another woman in public like fag isnt only used against gay men but again I get why ppl think only they can reclaim. when I use words like fag/faggy dyke queer etc it’s not in a derogatory way it’s in a good way like being a fag is good! being a dyke is good! and also im trying to be silly like not serious at all!

+ I dont ever want to make anyone who likes my blog uncomfortable and im sorry if anyone is!

[macksting]

Stop ideologically grilling each other every time you meet another leftist goddamit

Like, obviously don't sit at the table with the Nazis, but if one is required to commit to a Take on every subject, some of those opinions will be absolute dogshit. It's not so much that it's okay to have dogshit opinions, as that it's inevitable you'll have at least a couple of them, and we're not gonna learn from each other's experiences if we are constantly trying to make sure everyone around us thinks the same things about the Winter War. That is not a hypothetical example. I don't think either party had any relation to Finland or Russia whatsoever, but one of the sticking points that cost me friends when they met each other was whether the war was "silly" or "an atrocity." It can be both.

[ID: Three images, screenshots from Legend Of The Galactic Heroes. Yang Wenli sits writing an opinion piece at a table at his home on Heinessen. It reads, "The reasons for 90% of all wars are chillingly moronic in hindsight. In the remaining 10%, the reasons are even moreso, and clearly evident to those involved." /end ID]

Yes there were other problems in that conversation, but that this was one of the complaints is a point worth belaboring a little. Expecting everybody to agree with you and be right on everything when you barely know each other is practically solipsistic. How much of a goddamn individualist do you have to be to be sure that your opinions are so goddamn good that you can't have a civil conversation with other leftists? Admittedly everybody involved in this conversation is super traumatized. But that does seem like reason to walk away for a few fucking minutes.

Or keep it up. Just be glad, I guess, when the fuckin' neo-nazis jump you, that your friends were perfectly correct in their opinions that they dared share with you, and that you died in perfect solidarity against the real enemy. We have a right to be angry. Angry as fuck. We have a right to expect better of each other. When we have personal experience or history involved in a matter, that should be given extra credence, and some things are unsafe. I won't put up with antisemitism around me, for example. There's some really obvious and easy lines out there. I also won't put up with my white friends grilling my Jewish friends to make sure they have the right opinions about Israel, and I am sick and tired of fucking cosplay anarchists and communists who do no fucking work but are willing to murder each other over Barcelona. And if someone comes at me saying "bisexual lesbians" are a disastrously dangerous notion that hurts lesbians everywhere, and you press me as to why I do not want that discourse in my server, I am gonna eventually have to tell you that opinion is TERFy, and you need to calm the fuck down if I do, because sometimes our opinions are dogshit. That is not a hypothetical.

I am so fucking tired.

[ID: Bubblegum Crisis gif. Nene's suit's engine pops open and vents hot air as it shuts down, and the air swims with heat distortions. /end ID]

[thejakeformerlyknownasprince]

What is an “error” anyway?

So this image, which is going around my social media because the robots know I like Jurassic Park, has got me thinking about what counts as a movie mistake.  Because... is this an error?  Is it really?

[Image ID: Three panels.  The top one is a screenshot of actress Ariana Richards as Lex, wearing a purple ball cap and a purple tank top with a paisley print, standing next to actors Sam Neill and Laura Dern. The middle panel has the text “Jurassic Park/ Different tank top, though same style”. The bottom panel is a screenshot of the same scene, but there is a different paisley pattern on Richards’s tank top. Indigo circles emphasize the difference.]

The pattern changes, but within two shirts so similar it looks like they were literally cut from the same cloth.  If I had to guess, either Ariana Richards grew during filming (kids do that) or Version 1 of the tank top got sacrificed to the scenes where Lex is soaked in mud, so Version 2 had to be used.

So: is this an error? I say no.  It doesn’t draw attention to itself — in fact, it took 30 years for someone to spot it in one of the most-watched movies on the planet.  It doesn’t "break” any plots or characters — the in-universe explanation can be that Lex changed shirts after being around dino poop.  It doesn’t have an obvious fix, since it certainly looks like an effort was made to match the shirts as close as possible.  So is this a mistake, or is it just a sign that this was a sci fi movie and not documentary footage?

By contrast, the most-known error in Jurassic Park has to do with the tyrannosaurus enclosure, and is pretty obvious.  The T. rex walks through a defunct electric fence, moving across a slight slope to enter the road, in the movie’s most famous scene.

[Image ID: A screenshot of a T. rex puppet pushing through the wires of a fence, looking down and to her left at one of two Jurassic Park branded cars stopped in front of her.]

However, when Lex and Dr. Grant flee the T. rex’s wrath (or rather her idle curiosity), they do so by going into her enclosure — which takes them off a 100-foot drop.

[Image ID: Screenshot of Ariana Richards and Sam Neill covered in mud and crouching at the front of one of the cars, between posts of the fence the T. rex just crossed.  Behind them in the enclosure, there is a sharp dropoff with several fence wires falling out of sight.]

This is clearly an error.  It “breaks” the reality of the movie, because the landscape couldn’t have just changed off-screen.  The characters’ actions make some sense, since they’re trying to go where the T. rex is not (the movie cut the plot with the two tyrannosaurs being trans lesbians who raise several nests together, so they’re only fleeing “a T. rex”).  But the story world itself has stopped making sense.  It pulls you out of the movie, enough that you might be tempted to rewind a few seconds to be sure you didn’t miss something.  Plus, this is a huge set piece; you can’t exactly overlook the changes.

It still achieves cool effects — the most-loved scene in the movie is the dino causally wandering up to roll the cars, while the protagonists are at their most helpless and terrified because they’re in the world’s largest cat toy and they’re the kibble.  The following escape is also hella cool, because it pulls the action-story trick of having characters interact with environments in unexpected ways.  And the discrepancy between the two is fixable, just by having Lex and Grant enter a different enclosure.  Change the framing of a few shots so that the T. rex tosses the car across the road, instead of behind her, then show Lex and Grant running across as well.  Or even just add a bit of dialogue; have Grant yell “No, that’s the triceratops pen!” and Lex say “Timmy’s down there!”  Either way, it can establish that they’re climbing down a different wall than the one the T. rex just stepped over.  So it’s a nifty scene, but that’s definitely an error.

On the spectrum of purple tank-top nonentities to retaining wall reality-breakers, the size-changing table is somewhere in the middle.  It’s a scene late in the movie where Hammond is eating the ice cream before it melts and Dr. Sattler interrogates his motivation.  They’re sitting at opposite ends of a super-long table, a classic movie trick to convey psychological distance.

[Image ID: Screenshot of Richard Attenborough and Laura Dern sitting at far ends of an 8-seater banquet table.  There are several open tubs of ice cream and lit candles sitting on the table near Richard Attenborough.]

And then midway through the scene, in a concession to Hammond’s point of view, Sattler leans forward and grabs the spoon out of the nearest ice cream tub... and it seems like impossibly far for her to reach.

[Image ID: Screenshot of Laura Dern with a spoon in her mouth, from the same scene at the banquet table.]

It feels like the scene accidentally used a too-small table to film, or like Sattler has 10-foot arms.  But if you look closely, it is possible to reach out and grab that closest spoon from where Laura Dern is sitting.  So this might not be a literal shrinking table... but it feels like the table is too big for Sattler and Hammond to share ice cream.  The earlier shots framed the table to look so huge, the characters so isolated, and the two chairs so distant the ice cream both is ~4 feet away from Sattler and looks half a room away.

So: is this an error? I say yes.  In the same sense that a too-complex plot resolution can be a deus ex machina.  Not because the author actually hand-waved the problems, but because the audience can’t follow the solution.  Harry Potter technically sets up the thing where Voldemort just drops dead at the end, but the series spends so much time making his threat feel insurmountable, and the in-universe explanation for his death is so convoluted, that it sure feels like he kicks the bucket for no reason.  Similarly, the ice cream scene in Jurassic Park pulls off the “we’re so far away” forced perspective so well that bridging that distance feels literally impossible.  But if you just move the camera back a tiny bit as Sattler grabs that spoon, the error disappears.

So.  It’s an error (according to me) if:

It draws attention to itself and distracts the audience

It could’ve been fixed pretty easily in-story

It makes character, plot, or setting nonsensical

Pattern-shifting tank tops aren’t distracting, don’t “break” the story, and have no clear fix.  Not an error, IMDB, not in my book.  Shape-changing tables distract, feel like character discontinuity, and have an easy fix.  Someone tell Mr. Spielberg I have notes.

This is all building to a point about Animorphs, because I’m always building to a point about Animorphs, but I’ll save that for a different post because this one’s too long already.

[arundolyn]

Mind sharing your orientation hcs for the undernight/guiltygear cast?

thats a bit of a tall order so here's the ones i personally have particular thoughts on?

hyde - bi

linne - too old to care about labels (bi, some flavor of trans/nb for fun. can't tell me she's basically immortal and is not tired of cishettitude. and also her reincarnation thingy is potentially very conceptually interesting in that it specifically puts her in the bodies Of Girls. brings up some interesting ideas regarding transness even if i personally like to think her soul just goes to whatever it vibes with that's closest at the moment her current body dies and she has no say in the matter. fuck canon that one's more fun. from that standpoint maybe some kind of genderfluid then.)

wald - GAY CAUSE YOU CAN'T TELL ME THE SHIT WITH KUON WASNT LGBT AS HELL. yeah uh huh you respected him as a warrior sooooo much that you defected and pissed adelheid off so bad she said licht kreis is girls only now. no they broke up and she was so big baby mad about wald being Gay, Apparently she's not letting a man within 10 feet of her again i guess

amnesia is like lgbt gang. chaos and gordeau are obvious. too easy. enk gay trans man. hilda trans lesbian who will flirt with men just for fun or evil purposes. girlboss moment.

orie lesbian executor squad quadrouple so true. mika's bi. kaguya is so lesbian definitely. wagner nb lesbian bc why not lets run with the shoddy localization its more fun that way.

phonon + nanase trans lesbian besties to gfs speedrun

yuzuuuuu so bisexual. i love you failgirl

vati agender for sure

merkava canon trans

carmine's just confused and would punch someone he had a crush on (hyde) bc hes pissed theyre making him act weird.

lmao thats mostly everyone whoooops

gg: (i have not played strive's story and dont anticipate to in a while)

sol - lgbt all at once no i will not explain

axl. dont even get me started trans butch nb lesbian you either get it or you dont. i can opine for days

relatedly i-no lesbian. she said im not about to date a man and axl said wait what the fuck did you just trans my gender. her power...

bi ky bi ky no i will not explain

milla elphelt ram all lesbians. id say millia is ace too

baiken and anji trans wlw mlm solidarity ofc

testament

goldlewis is gay as hell for sure and we love him for it

johnny is an egg detector that counts for something

bridget trans gener

ANSWER IS SO GAY. chipp is bi. they are in love and they kiss in the president's office

zato hates women he's gay by proxy but who's keeping score over there. and his strive outfit is literally gay as fuck. why is he as a man always standing with is ass toward the fucking screen. stupid.

slayer bi but hes married. if sharon let him..... im not elaborating.

gio big lesbian for sure

venom. well. yknow.

jack-o trans and bi queen shit love her for that so bad

nagoriyuki has transcended mortal perception (gay and trans but by far the coolest about it)

thats everyone i can think of off the top of my head i think

[dyke1]

i cannot find the post or if I imagined it but that that one tweet where one of the writers is like id like to think homophobia or the concept of the closet whatever doesn't exist in the future is so so strange when it comes to Bangalore's character cause she is portrayed as this person who (imo) represents a lot of the repressed nature found in a structural environments like the IMC and military in general who uphold homophobia, ableism etc..

the point im getting at is i feel the writers have gone out of their way to emphasize the expression of denial and alienation in Anita's character (not believing her brothers dead[note* this one was true but still its about conveying to the audience], liking loba, not wanting to admit the ICM’s crimes, and to some extent her friendship with wraith) as faults that developed because of personal resentment and fail to consider what that would mean for a lesbian coded character like Anita.

the reason i point this out is because a lot of that denial seems to bubble into internalized hatred for herself and hostility for people who share traits she has come to recognize as "unfavorable"

like in most obvious of ways her outright refusal to renounce the IMC which..

considering she grew up on a military operated planet she still holds like a lot of misogynistic attitudes especially towards women who express themselves in a feminine manner and like you could say it stemmed from her grievances with her brothers's gf but they are still specific to women..like she makes it clear that she is directing that weariness specifically to women . she hates men too because they are stupid and self-interested... but.... anyone can be stupid and act like that and ESPECIALLY in this character just makes her seem even more aligned with lesbianism actually... like even just her excessive use of the term ladies in squads full of men, “dont call me lady” etc..(btw like where do you think that was learned -_-) she has come to align feminine traits with weakness or a weapon to wield against authority in environments where that power is kinda expected to go to men. ASSUMING these structures are even just specific to Gridiron and not the Frontier as a whole its still funny that the writers were like homophobia is over :) but we still hate women who express themselves in this one specific way like ok lol

less obvious but even with wraith... the ableism there.. i just dont know why the writers would go down this path to show anita as like? this hateful person when Anita herself is NOT the most shining example of neurotypical behavior either..unless to continue the narrative of trying to distance herself from these traits.. but again they make her repeat those insults to a point it seems irredeemable which sucks cause i feel like people already find her unlikable and its continuing a narrative i find really gross.

anyways, ultimately it does result in a character that comes off with a ton of internalized lesbophobia in a universe where the concept doesn't...exist? like maybe if the loba/anita relationship where straight i could understand her not wanting to get attached to anyone, i could understand this coming off as her being a “private” person. WHICH. like she still can be... but even NOW with Valks introduction as woman who is unapologetically GAY ...its hard to not make the comparisons..like seriously..

theres a line im not sure theyll ever use for the halloween event or something but its directed towards anita and im not going to say what it is but like thinking abt it. HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO TAKE IT?

ofc this does seem like an issue of dissonance in writing with language/ perceived assumptions that dont translate well in contexts from modern life to the apex universe which i guess is also my fault so like sorry for existing in this day and age and being a lesbian but uhh ok im done whatever also i havent kept up with the lore so maybe im wrong idk

[snugrugbug]

you know whats super crazy… idgaf that ur saying males (as in men. im guessing you dont mean amabs exclusively.) cant be lesbians bc i think it doesnt make sense to id as both a MAN and a lesbian. but like. also who cares its fucking gender. if you try to defend any gender or gender-based attraction orientation as if theyre not spooks then… lol. pretty stupid!

ok i think we agree here but let.me be crystal clear. i have 0 problem whatsoever with who people are attracted to regardless of the gender of either party. (also incase this wasn't obvious before i am not a terf, i.e. i am not gender essentialist, my definition of man/woman includes anyone who identifies as such regardless of genitalia or what have you) my issue is chiefly with the language used

it is universally agreed that a lesbian is a woman who is attracted to women. being a woman is a necessary condition for being a lesbian, so it follows that anyone who is not a woman cannot be a lesbian. If A is necessary for B, then if not A, then not B. we both know this makes sense, right? so how does it make sense for any man to identify as a lesbian? if you're a man (or otherwise not a woman) and you are attracted to women, logically you can't be a lesbian because being a woman is necessary for being a lesbian

[akihiko-sanada]

BRO, WHY’D YOU LIKE YUKICHIE SO MUCH??

Ok first of all, bro,,, B R O, bro ilysm being able to infodump like this means so much to me for real. And second of all, this is gonna be very bullet point-e since I can't string a coherent sentence together to save my life. LET'S BEGIN:

Tropes and dichotomies

Yukichie has a bunch of romantic tropes, including but not limited to:

-Beautiful and popular genius falls for airhead jock outcast.

-Childhood best friends to lovers.

-Two girls fall in love but one girl's close minded parents (yukikos) disapprove and kick her out so she suddenly moves in with chie (this definitely happened i'm sure of it).

Now the dichotomies:

Fire and ice: I feel like I don't even have to explain why this is romantic so I'm just gonna jump straight into the evidence: Yukiko is the teammate with Agi and Chie is the one with Bufu, one of Yukiko’s themes is called “Snowflakes” and there's also the twin dragons special move.

Sun and moon: Might be a stretch but I really do think that Yukiko is the moon, silent, beautiful and graceful while Chie is the sun, energetic, bright and hot to the touch.

Shadows

Shadow Chie reveals that Chie developed an inferiority complex from constantly comparing herself to Yukiko (not surprising but aw :(), and part of this is her not feeling worthy of Yukiko and her company, bUT MEANWHILE YUKIKO HAS THE OPPOSITE PROBLEM WHERE SHE RELIES TOO MUCH ON CHIE,,, like shadow Yukiko literally says says to Chie “Chies my prince, she's a strong prince, or at least she was”, she hoped and relied on Chie to save her from having to take over the inn and having to stay in Inaba,,,,. ALSO WHEN SHADOW YUKIKO'S HEALTH IS LOW SHE SUMMONS A PRINCE SHADOW WTF, WTF WTF WTF, SHE STRAIGHT UP SUMMONS HER PRINCE, CHIE, WHEN SHE’S MOST VULNERABLE????? HELP???

And speaking of shadows, Chie is pretty calm when it comes to rescuing people from the TV world except for Yukiko, she goes absolutely APESHIT, says "You don't know SHIT about how I feel! Yukiko might DIE from this, for crying out loud! I'm going, and that's that!" before running HEADFIRST INTO A MONSTER INFESTED PALACE WITHOUT A PERSONA OF HER OWN,, TRUE LOVE RIGHT THERE BABY. She also almost single handedly beats up a whole ass police station for even suggesting that Yukiko was involved in the murders.

Color theory

I'm a huge rwby fan so colors is definitely gonna have its own section IFSFNS. Anyways, in color theory, colors that are on opposite sides of the color wheel are considered complementary colors, and guess what the most used example for this? Green and red! Green and red always pop out when they're next to each other, and color is very important in p4 (for various reasons but a big example is how all the students at school wear dull colors except for the investigation team, they're just full on power rangers), so id like to think that making Yukiko’s and Chie’s colors the prime example of complementary colors was something intentional made to remind you of how well they work together.

Also: Chie “wow yukiko red looks really good on you” yukiko, twirling her hair “haha thanks do you mind if i wear it for the rest of my life-”. Also side note I’m 100% sure that Rio’s favourite color is red because it reminds her of Hamuko <3.

Comphet and obliviousness

It's very obvious that like, everyone’s in the investigation team suffers from comphet, especially considering their reaction to Kanji coming out (which is, something), but I'm only gonna talk about yukichies; first of all this whole scene screams of comphet, no one just gushes about their friend THAT much:

Also, Chie disapproves of all of Yukiko's suitors cause she's subconsciously jealous, Chie is 100% a baby lesbian cause shes literally like: “haha im not a lesbian, I just cut my hair short and mostly hang out with guys because then I’ll be more masculine and men like girls so-aw shit”.

Also, Inaba is a breeding ground for comphet because it's a rural town in the middle of nowhere in a town where most of the popuñation is old so,,,yeah,,,.Yukiko feels like her only option in life is to take over the Amagi inn and follow in her family's footsteps, which would in turn be like rotting away in Inaba, so I like to think that the Amagi inn is some sort of metaphor for how being yourself is key even though it can disappoint your parents by making you stray from the path they paved for you, but that’s still an important step to take to become a better person and being true to yourself. Now that isn't very different from coming out now is it?

Official art and others

-Yukiko’s and Chie’s designs inspired Tomoe Tachibana and Maria Torres from Trauma Team and they’re hella gay

-Yukiko and Chie are next to each other or side eyeing each other when the other isn't looking in 99% of the official art they're in, I wonder why that is-. Also if  you look through Chie’s gallery 90% of her photos include Yukiko and vice versa.

-Everyone in Inaba knows that Chie and Yukiko are practically dating cause some bullies literally threaten Chie with hurting Yukiko saying stuff like “that precious Yukiko-san of yours” and “So don't you care about what happens to your loved ones” LIKE HELLO???

-Chies social link? oh you mean the yukichie social link right? No but seriously like Chies social link revolves around Yukiko NANFFGGW

-Yukiko’s theme in p4u is “princess Amagi” and shadow Yukiko calls Chie her prince, coincidence? ABSOLUTELY NOT. 

Fun headcanons and random stuff

-Chie definitely short circuited for a full ten seconds when she saw Yukiko in a yukata for the first time

-I'm sure that when the investigation team meets up like 20 years after p4 they'll be like “wait Yukiko you've been living with Chie for years?? did you get married?” Yukiko and Chie who haven't even started dating officially “no?? what are you talking about- WAIT.”

-Yukiko and Chie: *adopt three cats and a dog and call them their children*, also yukichie “we’re just really good friends :)))”

-Yukiko and Chie definitely made out with each other a couple of times using the excuse of “were practising for when we have boyfriends”

In conclusion, yukiko and chie have the type of love where they've known each other for so long and care for each other so deeply and passionately that they don't need to search for a significant other because deep down they've always known they were each others. They've always pictured the other in their life from beginning to end but have yet to put together that they want to be in each others life romantically because of comphet and just, never really seeing each other as an option because they've just always been friends, nothing more nothing less. Thank you for coming to my ted talk I hope I gave you yukichie brainrot <3

[ask-a-wlw]

Hi, I love your blog! Now, I know this is not going to get me an answer you can't read my mind I just. I wonder if I'm alone in this and I want *some* advice. For a lot of reasons I've been starting to feel like I'm a lesbian. I'm mainly into women and I mainly find women attractive and I only want to live with a woman and settle down with her. The idea of being with a guy kind of has be thinking like 'eh I guess? if the right one came along? Sure!' BUT. But while online I've found (part 1)

2) while online I do engage in fetish talk with some men and I enjoy it. But I've never seen most of them? But I'm aware that they're men and it doesn't repulse me? I guess I just. don't know how to feel. I don't know if I just like attention w/ men as far removed as possible or I actually like men & have never actually gotten that proven yet. I just think this is a thing that maybe other wlw struggle with, and worrying what they 'count' as and yes I know labels aren't everything but still.

Hi, thank you for your question!

You are definitely not alone. I do not know a single WLW who has not had a difficult relationship with her own (lack of) feelings for men and kept questioning her identity based on what that relationship is like.

Sexualities are complex. Also, as you know, romantic attraction and sexual attraction are a very diverse spectrum and different for everyone. It might be that you're romantically primarily into women and attracted to men some of the time. (Do you know the gender unicorn? I find the visual representation really helpful).

With attraction, my experience is that people know and it's just there. It's very rarely a case of "haven't met that one extremely special person yet". It'd be obvious, you'd know. Also, I don't know what your kink experience is like, but play does sometimes incorporate gendered powerdynamics that can be enjoyable even if you don't want to have an actual relationship with a man/m-spec person.

It's actually similar for me. I ID as a bisexual lesbian because I'm sexually attracted to masc-identified people and some men in some very specific situations but romantically, I'm exclusively into femme-spec people/women. I'm a domme and I enjoy playing with male/masc-identified subs online very much, but only there.

You did say labels were not everything, which is true, and you can pick whichever labels you are comfortable with. Being a lesbian does not mean that you must be into men 100% of the time, and you alone are the arbiter of what "counts".

All the best to you! &hearts;

[cannibal-wings]

It took me a long time to unlearn a lot of the gross things I had taken as truth with regards to the queer and lgbt+ communities.

Many of those things I learned on social media, in fact, all of them came from social media. I won’t discount the importance of social media and even fandom in opening up young people’s minds to the queer and lgbt+ communities. Especially if you were, like me, raised in an era that went without common internet access until late middle school or high school. For me, my first introduction to any of this in positive manner came from fandom on social media. My family was openly not safe for that kind of exploration, and I didn’t have the resources early in my life to gain better knowledge.

But that’s the thing, I don’t think people should be using social media as their only resource for learning about the queer and lgbt+ communities. The amount of toxic misinformation I took in took a long time to sort out and toss out. And I’ll be open about this, right now. On tumblr I learned a lot of false things. I was told by friends, even my ex boyfriend some of these things. I was told that bisexual people are transphobic, and that you have to ID as pansexual to not be transphobic. I took this as truth for years and changed my identity over to pansexual to avoid being transphobic. Now I know that that is false, and that bisexuality is not transphobic. I’ve since changed my identity back to bi. When I was younger, this was probably around 2012 or 2013 so eightish years ago, I was told that in order to be trans you had to have some form of dysphoria. At the time, that made sense to me, and I nodded my head and agreed and got angry at anyone and everyone who insisted differently. I know for a fact I had said something along the lines of “oh if that makes me a truscum then I guess I am! Put me down for that!” to a group of friends at a party. I was not corrected and some of the people I was with agreed. No doubt because they were reading the same posts on social media I was. I’ve long, long, since changed my views and am incredibly disappointed in the person I used to be. The person who decided that since someone else’s life experience didn’t match mine, then they must be wrong.

For a long time I hated people who identified as demi, thinking demiboys and demigirls were just normal people, because, “hey, who always feels like their gender right?” they just want a cool label to join the club. They aren’t trans, they aren’t genderqueer, they’re normal. I was wrong. Again, because I personally couldn’t understand or relate, I decided they were in the wrong.

I used to make fun of noun pronouns. Viciously sometimes to other friends I had. I thought all these tumblrites were going to ruin the name of the trans community and make us all a joke. As if the cis people who hate us would suddenly like us if I was mad enough at the “right” people.

Something I’ve learned over the years is that I don’t have understand each and every identity to respect it. And that it is much healthier mentally for me to focus on kindness and not anger. If I don’t understand why someone would ID as something, I should take the time to listen to their side and see if that helps. And if it doesn’t? Then I sit down and really think, “Are they hurting anyone? Honestly? Is their ID in their bio actively harming people?” If the answer is no, then I just ignore it.

I don’t have to completely understand he/him lesbians and she/her gays. I don’t have to know the personal appeal of each person with a noun pronoun. I don’t need the life story of every person with a long list of identities. New identities will continue to pop up because that’s how life is. Everyone is always changing, and the queer and lgbt+ communities are always growing. It costs me exactly 0$ to be nice to a person. It costs zero dollars to shut the fuck up and ignore it if it’s not hurting people.

And it’s taken me a lot of years to separate out the things I took as truth but were peddled to me by exclusionists of one form or another. The major takeaway here, from me dumping all the stuff I took as truth that actually wasn’t is this: Be careful with what you read. Really look at who is saying it and why. Because toxic rhetoric can be spread covertly. And I know from personal experience, that if you’re young and eager to be as “correct” and “unoffensive” as you can, that you’ll fall for it hook, line, and sinker. It’s not always going to be obvious, and that’s the scariest part.

Growing as a person never stops. Learning new things never stops. Adjusting your point of view and evaluating yourself is normal. I encourage everyone to stop and think about if any of the views you currently hold are hurtful. And if they are? Why do you hold them? Why do you focus any amount of energy on making someone feel bad for an identity that makes them feel whole? Why are you so eager to strip them of that and shove them into a different label? Could that energy be used on something kinder?

And to steal a quote from Anthony Oliveira, “Be brave enough to be kind.” That’s all I ask. 

[thespacenico]

Hi! I just saw your post about asexuality and wanted to share for a sec!! I'm a trans queer guy who happens to be ace as well. I've not thought about it much actively, but I've never really considered myself as part of the lgbt community for my asexuality mainly because it's something I could keep to myself. Being trans was obvious for a while and will always impact me visibly. If I'm in a queer relationship, that's visible. Both have brought me far more strife than my asexuality (although with what you mentioned in your post, I'm sure my situation factors into that). I guess I've always separated my identities; if I want to talk about ace stuff (which is rare, to be fair) I'd go to aspec specific spaces. Otherwise, I go to more generally queer spaces. I mean this in a fully respectful way because I'm interested, but why do you group your "aceness" with your lesbian identity? I have interacted with other ace people outside of the internet and their perspectives wildly vary. I will say anecdotally that the "het" aces I know that consider themselves lgbt for their asexuality often speak over me on queer and trans issues. Personally, I feel there exists a deeper systemic issue regarding trans and queer discrimination than ace discrimination which is part of why I don't immediately consider my asexuality as lgbt or those heteroromantic people as lgbt. In another regard, asexuality obviously is a sexuality (as you mentioned), but I've found with the way my identity blends together, it just makes more sense to talk about that specific part of it with other ace people. I think I see the ace spectrum as a separate thing to measures of the types of people I'm attracted to and the type of person I am. Levels of attraction vs. identity and types of attraction in terms of identity, ya know?? I hope this doesn't sound aggressive!! I really want to hear more about your perspective as a fellow ace person. Most ace people I do regularly speak with who see themselves as lgbt choose that community because that's where they first learned about the label. Feel free to disregard all of this because I know it's long!!!

hi! thanks for sharing! you brought up a lot of good points so i’m gonna try to acknowledge/respond to all of them best i can! for the record, i think it’s worth pointing out that we’re both ace, but since it’s a spectrum there’s a really good chance that even we don’t experience it the same way, which is why discussion amongst the actual asexual community is super meaningful compared to discussion amongst allo people who have a very limited knowledge of asexuality to start with. all that being said, here’s my perspective on things! 

I've not thought about it much actively, but I've never really considered myself as part of the lgbt community for my asexuality mainly because it's something I could keep to myself. Being trans was obvious for a while and will always impact me visibly. If I'm in a queer relationship, that's visible.

that’s fair! i agree that it’s something we can keep to ourself, but why do we have to (or choose to) keep it to ourself? the why probably differs for most aspec people. in my case, i’m pretty vocal about my asexuality (on twitter at least), but in real life where i’m surrounded by straight cishet allo people, i keep it to myself because they wouldn’t understand it in the slightest, many of them would think i’m just trying to be special, etc. not only am i assumed to be straight (i’m not), but i’m also assumed to be allosexual (i’m not).

visibility is an interesting topic too because i think that’s when we veer into conversations about things like “straight-passing,” “cis-passing,” etc. at home i’m mostly still in the closet, but my identity is still very much real. it may not always be visible, but it’s definitely there! a visibly queer relationship is just one way our identities are put on display. but even then, sometimes two lgbtq+ individuals can be in a relationship and it’s not visibly queer — for example, two (or even one) bi people in a m/f relationship. to people outside of the community especially, it doesn’t look like a queer relationship, but it very much is.

all that to say, asexuality often isn’t visible per se, but there are many other identities that also lack visibility under certain circumstances, in a sense. that’s why i don’t personally consider visibility very much!

Both have brought me far more strife than my asexuality (although with what you mentioned in your post, I'm sure my situation factors into that). I guess I've always separated my identities; if I want to talk about ace stuff (which is rare, to be fair) I'd go to aspec specific spaces. Otherwise, I go to more generally queer spaces.

i can’t speak on your trans/queer experience specifically (and i’m sorry for the trouble people have given you for them), but this is also where i would personally say that just because asexuality doesn’t cause you as much strife as your being trans/queer, doesn’t mean that it’s not important or any less valid as part of your overall identity. asexuality aside for a moment, the lgbtq+ community has been historically oppressed and discriminated against, basically even before its official inception. this may not be realistic, but let’s say that 100 years from now, we're finally free of that oppression/discrimination. we don’t suddenly lose our place in the lgbtq+ community, do we? oppression doesn’t have anything to do with the validity of our respective identities, if that makes sense. other identities aren’t more or less valid depending on how oppressed they are. that’s my opinion on that! and like you mentioned, i think our personal situations definitely do affect our experiences in general. 

when it comes to talking about ace stuff, i think the point is that lots of us within the lgbtq+ community sometimes separate our identities in different ways, even those that aren’t ace, because there are often specific spaces within the community itself. sometimes lesbians need lesbian specific spaces, sometimes bi people need bi specific spaces, sometimes trans people need trans specific spaces, etc. it’s always much easier and more validating to talk to people who share your experiences. like you said, there are also aspec specific spaces! and yet, everyone within one of those specific spaces can have very different identities. as an ace lesbian, i might engage in a lesbian specific space without ever needing to talk about my asexuality, or engage in an aspec specific space without ever needing to talk about my lesbian identity. i’m not necessarily talking about every part of my identity all the time, but that doesn’t mean they aren’t there. 

I mean this in a fully respectful way because I'm interested, but why do you group your "aceness" with your lesbian identity? I have interacted with other ace people outside of the internet and their perspectives wildly vary.

i think that for me specifically, i feel like my asexuality plays a veeery big part in how i experience attraction in general. i used to id as bisexual, but after a while i realized i wasn’t attracted to men at all and so began to id as lesbian. it wasn’t until then that i realized i was also ace, and that honestly threw me for a loop because for a while it made me wonder if i was bi after all (i’m not, but i thought about it for a while!). technically speaking, there are other labels i could use to describe my attraction, such as sapphic asexual or homoromantic asexual, although i think for the latter sometimes it depends on how a person feels about the split attraction model and how it can be applied. 

either way! it’s my experience that asexuality significantly influences how a person experiences attraction compared to allosexuals. i’d say that’s the main reason i “group” my aceness with my lesbian identity, because to me they’re intertwined.  

you’re right though about how the perspectives of ace people wildly vary! it’s super interesting to hear from other ace people what their thoughts are. i think for me it comes down to the fact that some ace people may not need a space specifically for their asexuality, and that’s okay! like you’ve mentioned, they typically don’t experience the same level of discrimination, at least not in the same ways, and sometimes it wholly depends on the kind of people you’re around and whether or not you’re out. many ace people do experience discrimination though and desperately do need that space, and i don’t see why the lgbtq+ community shouldn’t be for them as well, considering. there are certainly differences between issues involving asexuality and other identities like gay, lesbian, trans, etc. but there are differences between issues involving specifically those identities as well, and certain similarities between all of them.

I will say anecdotally that the "het" aces I know that consider themselves lgbt for their asexuality often speak over me on queer and trans issues. Personally, I feel there exists a deeper systemic issue regarding trans and queer discrimination than ace discrimination which is part of why I don't immediately consider my asexuality as lgbt or those heteroromantic people as lgbt. In another regard, asexuality obviously is a sexuality (as you mentioned), but I've found with the way my identity blends together, it just makes more sense to talk about that specific part of it with other ace people.

i know how frustrating it is to have people talk over you about issues that directly impact you and not them, and i’m sorry you’ve had to deal with that. i do think however that this sort of thing happens even within the lgbtq+ community all the time. this is in no way a justification or excuse for the people who have spoken over you, but just a comparison. i’ve seen tons of conversations (usually on social media) where lesbians will speak over bi women on bi issues, non-lesbians will speak over lesbians on lesbian issues, cis people will speak over trans people on trans issues, etc. it’s frustrating in any case, and it typically has to do with the fact that there’s a certain level of ignorance for almost everyone when it comes to an identity that’s not theirs. (am i making sense??) i even see allo people speak over aspec people on ace issues all the time as well. tldr - i’m not saying there’s not a specific underlying issue with the “het” aces who have spoken over you on those issues, but you can definitely draw comparisons to certain circumstances elsewhere within the community.

i 100% agree with your point that there is a much deeper systemic issue regarding trans and queer discrimination than ace discrimination. i think my view on that pretty much goes back to what i said earlier about how i don’t think discrimination or oppression determines the validity of an identity as an lgbtq+ identity. regardless, like you said about how you feel that it makes more sense to talk about your own asexuality with other ace people, i think sometimes it just comes down to how we perceive/experience our own identities! i often feel more isolated due to my asexuality more than i feel isolated due to my being a lesbian. that may not be the case for all aspec people, but it really impacts me personally.

I think I see the ace spectrum as a separate thing to measures of the types of people I'm attracted to and the type of person I am. Levels of attraction vs. identity and types of attraction in terms of identity, ya know??

that’s also fair! i think in my mind it’s just that aceness is part of my identity/is its own independent identity regardless of who i’m romantically attracted to. my asexuality would still exist whether i’m also a lesbian or not. i just happen to personally combine my identities (aka ace lesbian) because they’re both there and they influence each other. 

Most ace people I do regularly speak with who see themselves as lgbt choose that community because that's where they first learned about the label.

i’m glad you brought this up at the very end too!! i first learned about the label from the lgbtq+ community as well, but it took forever for me to realize that it described me. in my experience, asexuality is crazy misunderstood both in and out of the community. it took me weeks to months of doing my own research on asexuality to understand what it really is, and even then that there’s a spectrum. in regards to everything about this post, i think where an ace person falls on the spectrum might be a big factor that plays into what their experience is like and whether they feel they need a space like the lgbtq+ community. either way, the fact that most people first hear about asexuality from the community and the fact that we have our own flag and everything really speaks to all this. why not choose the lgbtq+ community since it’s already here, that’s where asexuality is often talked about, and that’s where people understand what it’s like to experience attraction that differs from the norm? 

anyway those are my thoughts!! it’s nice to be talking to someone else who’s actually ace rather than feeling like i’m having to preach to allosexuals who don’t think my asexuality matters period :’)

[jacobhpb]

questions 11 to 42 because i wanna see you infodump.

Hoo boy, here we go 11: fave alpha kid, well i absolutely love every single one of em, but ive gotta say jane, shes so good and she needs more love 12: fave alpha troll, as in like dancestors? joke answer is horuss, real answer is porrim. (double joke answer is aranea, haha funney cerulean beauty) 13: fave alpha overall jane 14: least fave alpha kid? pass, i love em all 15: least fave alpha troll? pass, theres too many i dont give a shit about 16: least fave alpha overall? cronus 17: fave beta kid has gotta be jade, shes just so good, she loves her friends 18: fave beta troll is probably terezi, but aradia and kanaya are also top contenders 19: fave beta overall is jade 20: least fave beta kid is another pass, theyre all good kids 21: least fave beta troll is a pass, its hard to pick from all the sucky ones 22: least fave beta overall? eridan 23: fave guardian, my fave is grandma english but ill also say dad crocker cause like duh of course id say grandma so ill throw you a bone 24: least fave guardian is bro, fuck that guy so much 25: fave ancestor is probably the dolorosa, but i love the whole signless crew 26: least fave ancestors are mindfang and dualscar 27: fave carapacian has gotta be sn8wman, love her 28: least fave is probs AR, nothing against him hes just not as interesting as the rest of em to me. least out of the named ones, but i dont think background carapace #32 counts as a proper shout for this question 29: fave friendsim is wanshi, shes a good kid 30: least fave, well i dont know much about most friendsims but probably that fuckface creep zebruh 31: fave sprite is probs davesprite, theyre the only one thats a proper fully fleshed out character. other than that i also love jasprose 32: least fave sprite is gotta be calsprite, but hes from the doomed timeline so probably ARquius out of the regular ones. (unless we count troll sprites in that case its spidermomsprite, fuck spidermom no matter what her form) 33: fave pale ship? dont fuck with quadrants much but jane and dirk are good moirails i think. gay/lesbian solidarity 34: fave pitch ship: idk vrisrose is funny sometimes 35: fave flushed ship, i mean theres a lotta em, lets say vrisrezi cause they deserve to be recognised as in heartsies and not diamondsies 36: fave ashen ship: ah yes, the fourth quadrant, *checks smudged writing on hand* horse baptizing. but for real tho idk like, clubs seems fake as shit but i guess that panel where nep is clubsies for solkat, that was alright lets go with that 37: fave vaccilating ship? idk, junerezi? look i dont take much stock in quadrants sometimes ill joke about pale shit but even then thats rare these days 38: OTP? honestly arasol. theyre best fucking friends and they love each other and regardless of if its romantic or not they care about each other so fucking much holy shit. thats my answer for 40 as well theyre the brotp and the otp 39: other than the really obvious shit, meowrails. fuck equius, hes a controlling shithead and nepeta deserves better 40: like i said arasol, but also the entire alphas group, they are all best friends who love each other and care about each other and yeah. alphas brotp 41 and 42: i literally cant think enough about quadrants to say which characters id want in my quadrants, i wanna be friends with lots of homestuck characters and kiss probably about half of them thats close enough to an answer

[y01te-moved]

momo !!!!!!!!

i think this ones? probably short enough to be fine not under the cut? so anyways without further ado.,

1: sexuality headcanon:110% lesbian there is no heterosexuality in this girl2: otp:kidomomo is the only ship ever actually contrary to popular belief.3: brotp:probably hibiya bc that feels like a bit of an obvious answer and its kinda cute? i think momo really just fits in well with almost everyone tho shes so good…4: notp:on a similarish note to the last question if u ship h/ibimomo im legally allowed and required to hunt you for sport5: first headcanon that pops into my headi think any sort of friendship dynamic with say like kano or ene just kind of goes without saying but what i am getting at here is like.  kano 🤝 momo 🤝 ene w/the solidarity being I Like To Cause Problems (For Shintaro Specifically) On Purpose. it would mostly be ene and momo bc they know him more personally but kano would also join them sometimes just bc he thinks thats fun no matter who it is.6: favorite line from this characteram too lazy to find the very specific line but the part in kisaragi attention where she’s all nervous about to go up on stage but then she’s like “oh i have friends that are supportive of me now i can do this!” is rlly good..7: one way in which I relate to this characteri had a hard time with this actually bc in a lot of ways i feel like the exact opposite to her but i guess the personality is still fairly close sometimes? can be shy and prefers to avoid attention but with friends i still like to go crazy go stupid sometimes8: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this characteri actually cant even rlly think of anything for this. maybe if i lived in the same universe and interacted with her id feel a bit awkward bc i probably could not keep up with her much but even thats not rlly secondhand embarrassment..9: cinnamon roll or problematic fave? def cinnamon roll bc i cant think of any way you could ever call her a problematic fav. we are all love momo.

[afewmarvelousthoughts]

Stay Ch. 16

Master List

Pairing: Natasha X Reader (Female)

Summary: You have a gift, the ability to see other people’s innermost secrets. For years you used it to gather intel for the highest bidder when you take on The Widow. After she becomes more than a mark the two of you spend years stealing moments. Post snap you wait in your designated meeting place, look back on the sordid past you share with the woman you love and hope against everything that she’s still alive.

Warnings: Angst, and fluff, and feels oh my!

A/N:  So yeah I swear I wroth an authors note for this... but idfk what happened. 

ANYWAY! Thank you all for being so patient while I got my life together. This one is also short and sweet (guess that’s the mood I’m in). However, y’all should know me by now. This is just the calm before the storm. 

Hope you enjoy this one my pumpkins! 

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March 2007

At some point in the last five months, you’d stopped recognizing yourself. The woman in the mirror wasn’t Y/N. Her hair was different, down to even the eyebrows. Her accent distinctly that of a life long Londoner. She worked for an independent UK couture fashion magazine, chose wine over whiskey, and was distinctly heterosexual.

When the chance to work this job requiring deep cover came up in December you jumped on it. You didn’t want to be you anymore. The you that couldn’t be with the woman you loved. The you that was heartbroken. The you who was beginning to doubt that you’d ever be happy. Fuck her.

Being Charlie Daniels was far better. She was, of course, a real person. Just one who was now living comfortably in the Bahamas courtesy of MI6. Even legit agencies had use of freelance talent every now and then.

Settling into her life had been easy. Not setting her boss on fire or blowing his brains out daily was a different task altogether. Turned out that a magazine was a great front for a crime empire. Lots of international travel, young and beautiful and desperate men and women, money exchanged in countless untraceable ways, on and on. And this fucker was happy to take advantage of every single disgusting avenue it opened up.

You almost had everything you needed to hand to MI6, get your obscenely large payout, and get on to another gig while they threw all of these bastards into cells to rot for the rest of their miserable lives. Just one more trip. After whatever horrible things they lay out in Tokyo you’ll be set.

Tokyo is one of those cities you can lose yourself in. Like New York but better for its interesting balance of vibrancy and grounded reserve. You absolutely love it.

The whole point of the trip, at least on the surface, was to focus on Fashion Week Tokyo. Honestly, there was a part of you that wished this was your world. Nothing but runway shows and after parties. Writing about the latest trends rather than delving into the inner workings of the worlds miscreants

Oh well. It was nice enough to pretend. You had to admit that you’d miss Charlie Daniels once you shed this skin in a couple of weeks.

You’re sitting two people down from your boss at an underground show. The level of security here screams that there are other things going on behind the scenes but it’s still a room filled with a who’s who of the Japanese and international fashion communities.

This was your third show of the day, and you knew there would be a party after where you’d have to schmooze all while plucking information from your unsuspecting fellow guests. You’re exhausted. So rather than pay much attention to the show you let your mind wander.

When she walks out you feel her rather than see her.  Slowly you turn your head to stare dumbstruck at the model walking onto the catwalk. Your heart begins beating against your ribs, your mouth goes dry, your hands shake.

It takes every ounce of control you have to keep your emotions in. To not scream “Natasha!” at the top of your lungs. To not grab her and run for the hills. Charlie Daniels and her easy life be damned. It’s hard but you manage.

As she turns and comes back down, passing now closer to you, her eyes don’t graze  the crowd at all. Head up, shoulders back, she walks the runway like she’d been doing it for years.

The rest of the show is maybe ten minutes but it feels like years. You know the models are all attending the party. Eye candy for the high end guests.

It’s fairly easy to ditch your coworkers in the crowd as you try to find the best vantage point in the room without being too obvious. After a solid twenty minutes, you find yourself planning an escape route. Most of the models are milling about but she’s no where to be seen. You will find her.

But you know you can’t skip out just yet. At the bar, you order a red wine and make yourself seen. Charlie would never miss the whole party after all. You spend a bit chatting with designers and a few models, feigning interest in the whole thing until you hear your boss call out to you.

“Oy, Charlie!” Carl’s voice alone makes you want to put him down. When you turn he’s waving you over to the bar. Sighing heavily you head over.

You’re about ten feet away when you see her, head back laughing at something Carl or his friend had said. Both men are far to close to her for your liking and the hungry look on Carl’s face sets your blood boiling.

He slings an arm around your shoulders and you carefully coach your face to not show disgust. “Charlie here is my best writer. Doin’ some pieces for us on this whole thing,” he waves his other hand around wildly.

“Good to meet ya, Charlie, I’m Dan,” the other man, clearly American says.

“Likewise,” Natasha doesn’t react to the accent at all.

“This here is-”

“Natalie,” Natasha cuts him off, extending a hand to you. Holding her eyes with yours you take it. It’s like touching a live wire.

“Natalie is an American model working here in Japan. May be a good topic for a piece.” He ribs you leaning closer, “And a good piece for the office eh?” Suddenly that MI6 money seems far less appealing.

“I’d love that,” Natasha beams. “Why don’t you guys go mingle and Charlie and I can chat!” The men exchange a glance, but there’s plenty of fresh meat around to sink their teeth into.

Carl flashes you a greasy smile and a wink as he walks away. Thinking clearly that you’re going to snare this woman for him. You, unfortunately, had a few others. Not something you were proud of. Demands of the job you told yourself.

“She’ll take a vodka neat,” you tell the bartender.

“Yes,” Natasha smiles at him, “Whiskey for her. Makers if you have it.” He thinks nothing of it and makes your drinks.

“So, how’s modeling in Japan?”

“Probably about as good as writing for a sleazy jackal.”

You laugh, “That bad? What’s the goal.”

“Getting a cover,” you commend the clever word play.

“That’s a good goal. Long term?”

“Something like that.” She takes a sip of her vodka, “How long are you here?”

“End of the week.” Your skin itches to touch her. The men are rounding back. You hold her gaze and shift your eyes back to them. She catches on.

“Perfect! It’s so hard to have a good interview here, don’t you think?”

“Absolutely. Why don’t you come by my hotel?” You whip out your spare key card. “I’d love to get your story for the mag, maybe do a full feature.”

“A feature would be excellent exposure!”

“Wouldn’t it?” Carl slides up next to her. “We can get you all the exposure you could want Ms. Natalie.”

“Charlie was telling me all about it.” She flashes him a coy smile. “Thank you so much Charlie! I forgot I have a late fitting tonight for another show so I’ve got to run. But we’ll chat soon yeah?”

“Absolutely! It was so good to meet you Natalie.”

“Same! Bye!” She hurries through the crowded room and disappears.

“Busy girl.” Carl quips. “Whiskey?” You look down at the glass by your hand.

“Some guy sent them over,” you gesture to Natasha’s lipstick stained glass. “Seemed rude to refuse. Can’t stand the stuff though.”

“That’s a mans drink,” Carl laughs at his own perceived joke and you force a smile.

Somehow you make it through the rest of the evening. You’d refused to allow yourself to hope that she’d be here, too obvious to come the same night, better to wait. Kicking off your shoes you head straight to the mini bar and crack open a whiskey, downing it in one gulp.

“You really need to be more careful,” Natasha’s voice comes from the bathroom. “I mean not even checking around. Sloppy.”

“Charlie Daniels doesn’t have to check for Russian assassins in her bathroom,” a smile pulls your face so tight it hurts.

“Well, Natalie Rushman isn’t a Russian spy. So…”

You let your real accent resurface as you pull her into your arms, “Natalie Rushman, I don’t know if that’s clever or lazy.” She kisses you hard, tongue sliding over your lips hands gripping your ass.

“Mmm,” she hums. “Kinda like the accent.”

“Oh?” You revert to the clipped posh Londoner sound. “Would you rather be with Charlie? I hate to break it to you, she’s strictly into dick so you may need to get a bit creative.”

Natasha’s head falls back with laughter, “I’m always into a challenge but,” she cups your face in her hands, “I’d much rather Y/N, she’s got a cute accent too.” Your kiss is soft this time, “I missed you.”

“I missed you too, honey.” Gently you push a strand of hair out of her face. “Is this smart? Are you gonna get-”

“I’m good. I wouldn’t be here if I thought there was risk.” She pulls away and tugs you toward the bed. “There’s no surveillance on me here, I check in every week, that’s it. This is strictly to build a cover.”

“Cover for what?” She gives you a sideways glance. “Right. National security.”

“Do you really want to talk about work?”

Smirking at her you push her back on the bed. “Maybe later.”

You lean down to her but she stops you by planting a strappy heel in the center of your chest. Trailing your fingers down her leg you snag a knife from her thigh holster. Carefully you slide the blade under the straps, the incredibly sharp edge cuts through the thin suede like it’s nothing.

“Those were very expensive you know,” eyes sparkling with desire.

You slip the shoe off and toss it aside. “I’ll buy you a new pair.” Your lips press against her ankle.  

Everything in your life until her was so fleeting. Even your own name, the sound of your own voice, who you were… But with her, you were grounded. You weren’t anything but her’s, you were Y/N.

Suddenly you’re overwhelmed. Caressing her muscular calf you just stare at her eyes. Emerald green, dark liner, lids heavy with lust and exhaustion.

“Natasha…” Your voice cracks and you fight for composure.

“Y/N? What is it?” She shoots up, cradling your face in her hands.

You shake your head, unable to really find the words and unwilling to send this storm of emotions to her. “I just…” You cover her hands with your own. It’s not that you don’t want her, you do. But…

“Can we just… I just wanna hold you…” Her expression immediately softens, eyes sparkling a touch with tears. “Sorry… I… I just…”

“I’d love that, baby.” Tenderly her lips brush yours, then your cheeks, your forehead, your eyelids as they flutter closed.

You shed your clothes and crawl into the plush bed. Holding tight to one another you spend hours drifting in and out of sleep, covering the other with soft kisses. Before the sun rises your hands wander southward.

This time you don’t fuck one another senseless. It feels like you’re trying to memorize every curve, every sound, every subtle thing that marks being together. You both know you many not get to do this for some time. The knowledge aches but it doesn’t make having her any less sweet.

Post Snap

You lean your head back on the wall behind the booth. The crying man from last night is gone, you find yourself hoping that he’s resting peacefully somewhere… even though you know it’s pointless to hope for such things.

There are more people filling the bar than there was before. The TVs are off, radios turned up, reporters frantically trying to determine what happened. It was global, that was clear. All planes grounded, trains stopped, communications spotty due to damaged cell towers.

A man speaks frantically to someone who seems to be a friend that he was heading to Nuremberg from Budapest, how the roads are almost not navigable. He doesn’t know if his family is even still there but he has to find out.

Despite his distress, your lips curl a bit at the mention of Budapest.

[shinra-makonoid]

"The problem aren't trans people" ?? Girl, who else? You're the ones who started with all this self-id nonsense. The medical department only cares about money and then exploit the poor women and girls that got poisoned by your cult! Like it or not but even if you always scream "uwu we're different! Those are not real tranns people!" you are all the same! Because your cult made it acceptable for men to comepte in women sports, invade our spaces and to try comverting lesbians to like dick! Die mad

You’re the ones who started with all this self-id nonsense.

You know why I used to believe in the self-id nonsense? Because I went on a feminist French forum that is called Madmoizelle. Which is, you guessed it, a feminist blog/forum, that advocates for “queer theories” and victimization of the female sex all the time. You know what’s worst? When I realized what I was believing was bullshit, I went there back and told them, and I got harassed because of it, so much that I can’t go back to the forum without feeling like shit. And it wasn’t trans women doing this, it was females who compared me to a nazi and threatened me to punch me in the face because I was disagreeing with self-ID.

So, really, who are the ones who really started this mess? Do you think TRAs popped out of nowhere? Do you think gender studies have nothing to do with feminism? It absolutely does. Maybe not your branch of feminism, sure, but still your big dumb ideology based on fairytales and denial of science.

The medical department only cares about money and then exploit the poor women and girls that got poisoned by your cult!

Yes, the big pharma trope. As if it’s not something that people say regarding antidepressants, or mental illnesses in general. Oh wait, most radfem and detrans actually are begining to do this! Great right? All those people who suffer from mental illnesses going away from psychiatry because of the fear of big pharma. This trope is going to kill people, but go on, spread it.

I agree that there are maybe a couple of people who had good intentions, or blinded by ideology, who went high enough to fuck everything up. I’m pretty sure trans organizations had something to do with it. What do you want me to do? I’m already vividly talking against the organization in my closest city, and since I’m no one, I can’t stop it. How do you think I feel about that? Do you think it’s fair to say “your cult” when I’m actively trying to stop that? Do you think I want people to be trans somehow? Do you think I want to medicalize kids who aren’t grown up enough to know what they’re doing? No I don’t. We’re on the same side with this, if you stopped having shit in your eyes, maybe you’d see it.

Like it or not but even if you always scream “uwu we’re different! Those are not real tranns people!” you are all the same!

And yet, a lot of studies proved that there were differences between males who transitioned later and the ones who transitioned earlier. I don’t like the justification they came up for it (AGP/Homosexuals), because it’s unscientific, but that’s still a thing that exists, whether you like it or not.

Because your cult made it acceptable for men to comepte in women sports, invade our spaces and to try comverting lesbians to like dick!

Not my cult. I don’t agree with males competing in women’s sports, nor do I agree with obvious males going into women’s spaces or trying to force lesbians to like dicks. Again, same side, or almost, but damn, you people are so deluded into your nonsense you think people sharing a characteristic are monolithes.