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oh no it's theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
unexpected urge to cry!
#im fine im just uhhh processing shit#listened to rothko by dessa one too many times and an emotion slipped out!!!#(im good tho i made the right choice in leaving the house today i feel so much better in so many ways)#(but oh boy grief just hits you whenever it wants to huh!)#well i think maybe the sad is a good thing. cause i was kinda numb for a while#and now im experiencing like the full range of human emotions and it's catching me off guard#and well it's hard but id rather occasionally break down crying in my beautiful little bedroom that i love so much#than ever go back to how i was living before#i didnt even realize how bad it was at the time. like i thought i was doing fine. ha#doth oversharing hour
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someone tell me to go outside pls
#ive looked up the place i want to go (fen) and theres parking#it's raining really hard rn but i like walks in the rain#idk ive been on my own in the house for a while. and my two friends came back for 20 minutes this morning so one of them could pack up more#of her stuff (she moved out a couple of weeks ago) and both of them forgot their keys so needed me to let them in#and then the 1 who moved out didnt really speak to me except right before she left when she said something rude about the kitchen#and then tried to backtrack by saying 'i didnt mean that. in fact. i dont even remember what i said!' like just say sorry its not that hard.#id rather you said something rude and then said youre sorry and that its uncalled for than pretending you dont know what you said#10 seconds ago#so i just went up to my room until they left and it sucks because that was like my one opportunity in a week or so to speak to someone#in my own house#thank god i went into the office this week and spoke to people#also my friend messaged and was like 'odd core vibes?' about his partner who said the rude thing and i wish id been like its actually just#rude not odd#but whatever#and ive just been sitting and thinking aboht it for 2 hours instead of leaving the house
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me when running away from everyone makes me end up all alone:
#i dont have any irl friends anymore theyre all gone with my old discord and its been too long to go back#i lost myself over the summer in ways i can never explain.. i dont know where i am if im being honest#drinking is worsening it all#i feel so insane.. genuinely.. i cant stop getting into my own head and letting it all happen#its just me and teddy#im too scared to leave the house for longer than a few hours anymore#i cant handle people looking at .e#me. i cant handle talking. i cant handle daily tasks of anything. even these days moving feels too hard#i keep finding myself face down floating in the river#and when i turn my body over#my face isnt rotten#it isnt bloated at all.#... its just me and i look young and like i died two minutes ago#then i snap out and im making dinner#and im someone else. somewhere else forever#im so alone but id rather it right now. no one knows how bad it is. intentionally. i never tell anyone#because what would they do?#the only thing i ever learned was to run away and hide. i cant stop thinking i need to keep doing it#i just want everyone to be rid of me so i keep running and running and running
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could not be mc because if i heard a voice speaking to me i’d just think it’s on me and my brain. like oh no i’m hallucinating voices again haha, makes sense since i’m in this stressful insane situation :)
and then at some other point when it does become unbearable and i realize it’s NOT me id just ask to move to purgatory hall. (would ask diavolo directly and give my reasoning as to why because lucifer is a dickhead and would say no simply because he can)
#there is a chance diavolo says no too but…. i am going to be annoying. u brought me here against my will i have a right to be annoying.#so i’ll just go 🥺🥺🥺🥺 at the angels until they INSIST upon having me ❤️#sorry id rather room with the angels and some old guy than demons that barge in your room and yell 24/7 like i can get that at home#baking with luke and simeon and learning magic from solomon sounds so fun and peaceful#ok fuck i forgot solomon’s cooking. id jusf tell him not to fuvkin add that weird ass mushroom he found outside no ifs ands or buts. i#will become the second house mom. (simeon is the first)#yk how fun and soft domestic life would be with them though…..#throuple simeon mc and solomon and their kid luke#i think of that sometimes#however if beel or mams gave 🥺 eyes i’d feel bad….like okay i’ll stay i’m sorry…..pls forgive me 👉👈#then mams says some stupid shit 2 seconds later and i’m fuckin leaving again#these tags are so long this is why i abbreviate shit LOL
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#(( ooc. ))#venting tw#negativity tw#i know ive been bitching about this a lot lately but just let a girl vent pls#husband just got home and said 'you look tired you should go lie down '#and i told him i cant. i have too much housework to do. 'well lay down after that '#cant. because then i have more housework after that.#and he got all huffy at me like i was being dramatic#and he said 'how am i supposed to snuggle up with you if you arent laying down? c#and i shot back ' who's going to do the housework if i dont '#and he rolled his eyes. straight up rolled his eyes.#this is the man that is constantly telling me to just ask him for more help. just make a list#yelled at me and stormed out of the house whej i told him to pls just use his eyes#bc i dont have time to make him a list of chores#and also the man who if i do ask him to do smth it doesnt get done#examples just from today. he was heading into town and i asked him to please bring the recycling with him. he didnt.#he yells at me for doing the cat litter bc its bad for my asthma. but then leaves it until its bad enough i have to do it#bc its unfair to the cats to expect them to use a litter box that bad. and then he gets mad at me for not just asking him to do it#like. its in the bathroom. right next to the toilet. he has to look at it when hes taking a shit every day. and youre telling me#he doesnt notice it? i have to remind him???#and then i get yelled at and reprimanded for just doing it myself#' ASK FOR HELP DAMMIT! '#i do. i do all the fucking time. i ask you to empty the garbage bc bending over makes my back scream. but you dont#and i have to power through and do it.#i ask you to bring the recycling into town to drop off. and as soon as you leave i find out you didnt even gather it up.#i ask you to please clear out the bathtub drain. for two weeks. and you brush it off until the day i decide to#do it myself and you get so passive aggressive about it and ' no ILL DO IT. the tool is back in my mom's room#guess I'll just go WAKE HER UP FROM HER NAP so i can grab it since you need it done! '#im so tired of asking and then just being disappointed anyway.#if im gonna get yelled at anyway id rather just do it all myself so at least its done. and not sit there and beg for help and do it anyway
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my head hurts, im bleeding still (more so than before i called ny clinic), im so stressed i want to cry cause i have no support and so much to do and all i want is my person cause everyone is in christmas mode and i cant handle this time of year alone again
#i never leave the house becuase its too exhausting and painful so i never get the chance to meet people#and theres nothing to do here and i swear this is the city of the worlds ugliest men anyway#so theres no reason to leave#and i cant use dating apps cause im trans and the only one thats actually decent to trans people isnt popular#and again some of yall are just the most boring people alive id rather kill myself than subject myself to that#like genuinely i cant fathom how these people are so average and so ugly all at once and all seem to have the same personality#like great okay i like dnd too but why is it your only personality trait#maybe your life isnt as empty as mine but its definitely not interesting either#like...i just want my one person#at this point thats all i want in life anyway cause nothing else is worth the effort#and instead i have to watch so many ungrateful people get what i desperately need#honestly do aby of you know what its like to have no idea when the next time if youll get to kiss someone?#youll get to like someone enough to want to?#but have no idea if or when itll happen when every atom of you feel likes its being ripped apart from want and need and#a history that hates you and your own body being unreliable and in pain?#i want to throw up over it all i cant do this any more and im sick to death of all of you who brag about shit you dont deserve#you had your taste of goodness sit down shut the fuck up and let some of the rest of us whove never had anything get a taste too
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Now I remember why we don't watch horror shit.
#im fine dont worry#i can handle watching/playing horror things but it leaves this... constant bubble of panic in my throat#mainly because the 'could happen irl' movies/games leave a panic#like: IT chapter 2. we can handle that. FNaF? we can handle that#marble hornets? thats becoming a questionable standpoint#like- we might be able to push by it more and more. but id rather not fuck myself up accidentally with paranoia.#so: no watching at night. not alone in the house either. pause when a child comes into the room.#this is partially why i fell out of criminal minds too.#not reblogable: just want to talk to myself in the tags.
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So it's gonna be one of those days huh, brain?
#im so mean and ugly#who wants to be seen with a skinny white bitch anyways#my eyes are so boring my hair is so boring and mu personality is blander than a piece of bread#its no wonder my only friends offline are family memebers who are obligated to see me and talk to me#even then i could just not leave the house ever and no one would even notice#why cant the ground open up and swallow me whoke#id rather die than live this life and yet every day i wake up and have to live it and im getting real sick of it#im off. gonna do something irrational
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i cannot even think of dating bcus im too preoccupied by the idea that i would have to explain why i dont want to be my partner's second mommy and that alone is terrifying and exhausting i might as well stay single
#i s2g if i have to do that i wouldnt even explain i'd just leave i would bcome a ghost#i read so many horror stories but there r clearly still men like that out there#and i dont wanna deal w them !!!!!!!!!!! not even in passing !!!!!!!!!!! i have 2 in my house rn and id rather they die !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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accidentally became the proud parent of like 10 peace lilies um. does anyone want one
#divided one bc i didnt have a big enough pot to repot#intended to divide it into two#ended up with like 6#and i already have 2 others..ehlp#best house plant though idec that theyre hard to flower im not really here for the flowers#id rather putthem somewhere shadier n just get leaves
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this is my pmdd but ughhh
#it feels like any sort of wrongdoing or mistake i make in regards of my partner its an infraction upon his parents so like i really do just#want to leave their house and not talk to them ever again#id rather do that than anything else at all with them imo. i have no way to become their friend or in any way close to them#i just wanna go to sleep constantly#idk i bet they think im a brat. irresponsible on purpose. annoyingly too loud especially in laughter. i know they think im a leech lol.#whatever lol. if i get stoned off my ass maybe ill be normal again#vent
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My new job closes because of inclement weather?
#totes bro#hilarious today because its just raining#im not out yet but theyve warned us#id rather be here than my house in tornados to be completely honest its a ton safer#closes at 4:30 which is when i leave
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kinda hard to get over the fact that my mom took the child support money when she literally hasn't changed at all and is infact now 10 years later charging her kids more to stay at the house than her weirdo boyfriend :\
#i just need to leave fr#id honestly rather struggle a little bit living on my own than have to continue living in that house
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Going out with your friend and she ditches you so you have to hang out with people you've never seen before is an introverts worse nightmare
#just happened to me actually 😅#ahe invited me to go out#the left to make out with a dude#i was literally screaming inside cuz I couldn't even leave since i had her house keys and phone in my bag#when she came back i immediately left#i doubt I'll be going anywhere with her soon#trying to make small talk while people around you are screaming to be beard over the music#and then the only person you're remotely comfortable with leaves#absolute nightmare fuel#it was so boring too like#standing around a bunch of people smoking and drinking#not even a place to sit cuz its the middle of rhe fucking street#I'm kinda mad at her but also not cuz like ahe shouldn't have to deal with me all of the time#if she wants to disappear to make out with a man thats fine#just like tell me you're planning on doing that ao i know I'm not gonna be comfortable around these people#cuz id rather just not go#random rant#introvert#i hate parties#and teenagers#ans young adults (i say this as a young adult btw)
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#so ive spent the past several days moving from my apartment to a new townhouse and tbh literally everything is as bad as i was worried about#like first of all its kind of in the middle of nowhere#like the neighborhood is in the middle of an industrial park with nothing around but offices#which is great for my roommate who now has a 5 minute commute. but not great for me who has to commute 30 minutes on the highway#its also a lot smaller#like the house itself is bigger and all of the spaces that are my roommates are bigger#but my bedroom and bathroom are a lot smaller and theres no storage#so ive had to go through everything i moved here just to see how much i can get rid of just so i can have space to live#like i asked my roommate if i could store some of my yarn and fabric stash in the office#and she technically said yes but i know she really meant shed rather i not#so ive spent the past several days panicking because i dont know what to do about any of it#the worst part is that the day we move out i leave for a cruise which should be fun but instead its just another thing to be stressed about#i hate this place already and i wish i had a choice to go somewhere else#i wish id at least been able to see it before coming in to get the keys#cause the pics online were really shitty and i had to dig to even find a shitty walkthrough video#it doesnt help that theres been a bunch of drama with my guild that might mean i end up leaving and quitting the game#im just so tired of it all and i just wish that i had *anything* to look forward to right now
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#i have to leave my house tomorrow omg id rather die#i am so agoraphobic ahah#its getting worseee#i was meant to be leaving the state in a week but i literally cant ugh#we had to cancel the flights and everything#im so upset#im just. rotting. this house kills me and we HAVE TO STAY#id rather die tbh but instead i will smoke more ha
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