#id protect you if i could

[heavensinhell]

‘keefe has changed so much!’ what did you expect? for the majority of his life, he’s always felt what other people felt. he always had an idea about how they were feeling, about how they felt about him — and then suddenly he didn’t just had an idea, he just knew. he straight up knows — and then, he lost it. he lost the ability to feel other people’s feelings overall. that’s it, he doesn’t know shit anymore.

he knew he could trust his friends because if he holds their arm, holds their hand, even brushed their hands together, skin on skin, he’d feel how much they love him, how much they trust him, all that stuff. and sophie? he doesn’t even need all those extra steps. he just needs to be around her and he knows already how she feels — and that’s so important because sophie wasn’t like anyone else. she was covered in shit that could burn her skin off and she wasnt even screaming or crying. ‘isn’t she amazing?’ you’d think. he did think.

sophie means so much to him. i can’t put their entire story into one post because (cough cough im lazy as hell) and he ran away from her. guys. he ran away from her. and ykw happens when he comes back? he can’t feel what she feels. not really. in the entire time he knew her, her feelings were always there, he always knew how she felt. and for the first time in the entire time he knew her, he wasnt sure about how she felt. like of course it wont feel like how it did the first few books. hes broken, hes ruined, hes scared, and he cant trust his own guts. hes pushed past a point he didnt know he could past guys guys guys of course hes gonna be different. from the moment he found out his mother was a part of the neverseen hes changed you know that. but he just never showed it because hed always known one of his parents were that kind of assholes. he had kinda expected that you know. then it got worse and worst and worst and of course. guys. he was bound to break one day.

[sssnakeparty]

on a mission 2 try and draw everyone still :> and give them fursonas apparently. eurylochus my good friend eurylochus.... if you have no defenders i am no longer on thius planet

[dykedvonte]

Honestly I see Jimmy's refusal to put Curly out of his misery less about his weird feelings of envy or his delusions but the fact Curly is all but stated to be a shield to Jimmy from his actions and people seeing the worst in him.

The only characters that Jimmy really interacts with one on one before the crash are Curly and Anya, two individuals he has wildly different relationships with. It's likely that Curly really did most of the talking between them as the pilots and the rest of the crew as staff. They didn't know of Jimmy's more reprehensible behaviors cause they never really had the chance to and Jimmy is subconsciously aware. If they had disliked him more than Anya would have told Swansea earlier or even Daisuke when things got really bad.

It's why he takes the immediate opportunity to blame Curly; He's the shield. He's saved Jimmy's ass more times than he can count and more times than Jimmy would ever admit. Even when he can't really do it anymore, he mentally shields himself from his own faults by putting Curly between them. Letting Curly die puts too much on him because he doesn't know how to function without a safety net.

In the end Curly only lives because Jimmy needs the idea that Curly will inevitably make things better to stay alive, meaning Curly has to live, no matter how much it pains him to do so.

[dailykugisaki]

Day 107 | id in alt

Imaginary technique: Narrative brain damage.

[roselleasly]

found a scrapped platinum bones sketch and redrew it

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[monards]

not only do i not use ai because i understand, and am against, the ethical implications, because i am a decent human being who understands it sucks . But my anxiety also goes beyond humans and to literal robots & algorithms, to the point i feel physical sickness at the thought of typing anything to one , so

[arcsin27]

i really dont know how to explain to you that it is canonically in character for narukami to look at two people murdered, all his friends nearly murdered, his goddamn cousin/sister figure nearly murdered, and still say "nah but adachis too important to me ill just sweep this under the rug for him" like how much more whipped could you be bro

[stylishanachronism]

I have received a snitch ticket, and the most hilarious part is it’s for something that is, in fact, traffic code legal to do

[gxlden-angels]

Christians will see a group of stressed college students and ask if anyone else is gonna make their stress worse and not wait for an answer

[okonominyaki]

The irresistible urge to do a pregnancy test whenever your period is more than 48 hours late even though the probabilities for a actual pregnancy are pretty much zero

[silverislander]

have discovered a new enemy while doing research for the honours essay. why are you pretending to understand psychology and BLATANTLY misinterpreting actual terms and concepts in order to tear down a movie aimed at teenage girls, my good bitch. i'm going to start biting

[cupiare]

wholly appreciating the protagonist in this book who has inhuman grace in a fucked up family situation bcs a faultless child is caught in the middle of it and she’s resolutely putting all resentment aside to ensure the kid doesn’t have to suffer any more as a result of adults’ mistakes. “im hurt and in pain and i hate this situation but we have a duty to this child an innocent person can make us all behave better” sooo heartwarming and also heartbreaking to find this attitude expressed so clearly and having children treated with the kindness they should all and always be treated with. Give me a moment

[mudstoneabyss]

kind of Kevin raring to do anything if Charles asks yet not knowing how to handle what Charles wants being for him to be kind to himself...

[viderose]

he’s annoying, i don’t like him (he hasn’t given me as much attention lately)

[welcometoteyvat]

two days until the update so yelan yelan yelan yelan yelan yelan please please come home in 20 pulls or less I don't want to have to reach 80-something pity again............ for once in my gacha gaming arc i'd like primos left over ...........................

[shoutyourporpoise]

Actually WAIT something else just clicked for me I was like. SOUNDLY scolded for gaining the freshman 25 in undergrad and I’m not gonna claim I was eating super healthy bc I was not but it was treated as though it was due to a singular lack of self control on my part when like. I had JUST finished my arangetram in senior year when the only requirement was for me not to tank my grades???

I had just spent a whole year doing intense physical exercise practically every day and eating like an athlete only to go to undergrad where I was definitely not doing classical dance? And the veg options were VERY largely carb and cheese based and I was still trying to be veg so it was either eat unhealthy or hit the bottom of my checking account every month (also scolded).

Like I was doing taekwondo and yoga and swimming but of COURSE I was gonna gain a certain amount of weight bc the size I was for the year prior was like. The size a person would be at peak physical activity, not the size they’d be living the fairly sedentary life of a student.