#i've never been in a relationship or even done anything romantically with anyone ever lol... so maybe that's why?

[singinginthecar]

do you ever just...... stop yourself from having a crush? from having little harmless feelings for a person who probably doesn't know you? almost like... you're too scared to even have teeny tiny feelings (that you're not even planning on acting on btw) for someone because you think that you're not even allowed to let yourself do something as simple as that?

[salad-006]

hi salad

I've been thinking about this for a long time... so, theoretically, can I (or anyone) ship oliver and evelyn (his girlfriend)? you just pointed out that you are not glad to see shipping content, and at the same time your character has a partner.

Honestly i can totally see why this makes me sound like a hypocrite , so let me try to explain it in a bit more detail (INCOMING LONG RAMBLEY RANT)

To put it simply: im acearo. Im one of those who's so heavily detatched from sex and romance that i just have zero interest in it at all, and I never have. So hopefully you can understand how romance being such a massive and reoccurring trope in effectively All media can get pretty tiresome and annoying for someone who doesn't really understand the nuances of love. One of the many reasons I like eddsworld so much is it's one of the few shows out there that's almost Never used romance in any sort of serious or long-lasting way. I can fully enjoy all of the writing.

And this isn't to say I'm AGAINST portrayal of romance in media, obviously it's a huge part of human history in many ways. I think what i truly dislike the most is when shipping stories are introduced via fanon that weren't there before. If that makes sense?? Like I dont like canon romance storylines, but I can just ignore them. But when a fandom turns what's left into a romantic story as well I cant really enjoy the fandom content the same way everyone else does. I don't even bother reading fanfic anymore just because i know it'll aways be there and I'll always be uncomfortable and close out early. (This isn't me demanding everyone stops shipping btw. I've done just fine for years by simply ignoring it. You do you, I'll just look the other way while you do it)

With oli and eli they're dating in cannon, but i never truly ever draw them being like romantic romantic, nor do i ever dive into the intricacies of their relationship. The fact that he's with eli barely has plot relevance in the overarching zomverse story (name patent pending) and that's how I like it. There is no story to them being in love its just how it is, and how it always will be.

This was long and nonsensical so

TLDR: what i dont like more specifically is romance-central stories, not just romance in itself. Oli and elis relationship has no story to it and i never do anything with it, which is why its there. So as long as you're not going too crazy (they're all minors as a reminder) I'm okay with that yeah . (Though realistically i dont think you're really shipping when the pairing already exists lol. The ships already sailed)

[vitospaghetta]

re: about Leon's emotions and feelings towards Ada and vice versa. This is my little attempt to break it down and offer a perspective that evidently not many in this fandom have and here's how: it's been romanticised to hell and back, I wouldn't be surprised if one day the division at Capcom reveals a big "well actually it was never about love between them, but rather a plethora of events that attached them to each other"

Because it can't be about love, it's just too ludicrous. It's not love. It's trauma bond, and like you said it's a sense of comfort and familiarity. But people in our society are too simple minded and once again viewing things through such short sighted romanticised lens to ever be objective about the reality of it. Nothing that Leon and Ada have is written in stone to set some "relationship" to flourish because it's not that, it's a situationship and nothing more.

This is why they resort to trying to use what the devs say and conveniently put words in their mouths to try and justify their biased perspectives. Just because they won't change their dynamic of the usual Ada being one step ahead of Leon and always leaving him in the dark and being a weakness of his, does not mean that it's love. Because it isn't, that's not what they're doing and it's emotionally inept to think so. Because everything they've done has shown the exact opposite. Leon's character was never about Ada and Capcom removing the "romance" from their dynamic isn't what's gonna alter the entire plot, it's the nature of their typical two steps ahead alienation that would wreck it and that's why they'll keep the core of it. But it was never romance.

Hope all this makes sense lol, if you got anything to add, please do :)

"Leon's character was never about Ada"

Everything you said here is 100% correct but I think that specifically stands out a lot, because I think a big issue with hardcore Aeon shippers is that they see Ada as an extension of Leon and vice versa. Like you can't have Leon without Ada, and Leon can never have feelings for anyone else because Ada is such an integral part of his story or whatever. Ada is no more significant to Leon's narrative than Claire or Sherry; the only difference is that he developed feelings for Ada, but having feelings for someone does not equate to love.

I've said this before, but I understand shipping from the perspective of 'these two characters look good together/have a dynamic I like to explore through fanon.' When it extends to taking developer comments out of context to prove canonization of a relationship dynamic that obviously doesn't exist, foregoing common sense and any understanding of nuance? That's touchgrass behavior.

Yes, the only canon longstanding love interest Leon has ever had in the franchise is Ada. This is a fact. However, love is something that is developed over time, and Leon and Ada barely know each other. A loving romantic relationship is not what has been established between them. It's very clear that they both have feelings for one another in the original continuity, but any chance of a normal romantic relationship is ruined by the complexity of their personal situations and moral standing. That's the interesting part about their dynamic, which is literally why they're written that way. That dynamic doesn't even entirely change in the remakes; it's tweaked and built upon, like everything else. Whether or not Leon has feelings for Ada, his story doesn't change, and neither does the foundation of their relationship.

[wikiangela]

seven sentence sunday

tagged by @giddyupbuck @hippolotamus @jesuisici33 💖

just yesterday I finished my two wips I've been working on and don't really have enough of anything new to share, so for now I decided to share more of the now finished fake-dating holiday fic bc I'm excited that it's finally done haha

this is definitely way more than seven sentences but who cares lol

___

They’re just getting comfortable, reaching for each other under the covers like always, which they never talk about, when Buck suddenly speaks up:

“You know, I really like being here.”

“Yeah?” Eddie tries to drape his arm over Buck’s stomach, but Buck takes his hand and brings it to his chest, lacing their fingers. Eddie’s heart speeds up. It’s a normal occurrence now, but Eddie doesn’t think he’ll ever get used to this kind of intimacy with Buck.

“Yeah. Your parents are so nice, and… I just feel good here, you know? Kinda… welcome. With your family.” he whispers, looking at the ceiling. “Thank you for… for inviting me. However that came to be.” he chuckles, finally turning his head to look at Eddie. “I love it here.”

“I love having you here.” Eddie whispers back, and he tries not to look at how close Buck’s lips are, and how he kinda kissed him again just hours ago. He also tries to convince himself he’s imagining Buck’s eyes lingering on his own lips a couple of times. Not possible, he's seeing things. “Thank you for agreeing to this whole thing.”

“Anything for you.” he smiles, and his gaze flickers over Eddie’s face, before he turns away and looks at the ceiling again. “Besides, it was kinda selfish.” he chuckles.

“I guess.” Eddie laughs as well. “Better this than dealing with your parents.” he adds, not sure if it’s not crossing a line a little bit, joking about all that. Buck just laughs, though.

“True.” then, his smile dims a little, as he glances back at Eddie really quickly, before his expression snaps back to the soft amusement. Eddie’s not sure what that was about, or if he maybe imagined it. “It’s a good excuse. And it’s awesome here.” he grins.

“Well, just so you know, you’re welcome here for as long as you want to come. At this point, I think they’d be mad, or at least very disappointed, if I didn’t bring you.” Eddie chuckles, desperately trying not to think about how they’re going to react when they find out the truth. There’s a kind of fear and anxiety about that constantly sitting heavy in his chest. He thinks that he needs to finally bring it up in therapy, because he refused to up until now, or he’ll start having panic attacks again or something. He needs help dealing with all those… feelings and emotions.

“Okay.” Buck’s smile widens, and he lightly squeezes Eddie’s hand. “Then I might just never stop coming here with you.” he teases.

“That’s more than fine with me, Buck.” He wants Buck to never leave his side, honestly. He’s not going to say that, though. Buck doesn’t answer, just looks at Eddie, and gives him a grateful smile. Eddie can feel his eyelids start to get too heavy to keep his eyes open. “I’m beat. Let’s go to sleep.” he yawns.

“Yeah, alright.” 

They get comfortable, with Buck’s arms hugging Eddie close, and Eddie’s head on Buck’s chest, and that’s how they fall asleep. Eddie thinks they’ll need to address this weirdly intimate sleeping arrangement soon, because he’s almost sure he’s never even slept like that with anyone he was in actual romantic relationships with. Even if he did, with Buck it feels… different. Better. More intimacy, closeness, comfort… safety. And he doesn’t want this to ever end.

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[jinxed-sinner]

Came For the Grumpy Cat Demon, Staying For the Critique of Christianity™️

Hi, I'm Jinx. I'm a 20 year old autistic furry artist who ended up hyperfixated on Hazbin Hotel after it jabbed me in the religious trauma lol (basically I watched the scene for Loser, Baby, got emotionally attached to Husk's design, decided to watch the show, and decided "wow, this is a really good criticism of something that traumatized me! Also giving Lucifer autism was a big brain idea!!" My brain has been nothing but Hazbin Hotel because autism so I'm hoping having a designated blog for me to post random Hazbin related stuff will help me focus on non-Hazbin stuff because I swear to god I've never been this hyperfixated on ANYTHING

My main blog (where I post regular furry art) is @jinxedshapeshifter. My Hazbin themed furry art (such as Hazbin characters drawn as anthro animals) will be posted here.

I use the same personal tags on all my blogs, since they relate to the "jinxed" part of my username; those tags include:

#jinxed chatter - random discussion posts. This can be pretty much anything tbh

#jinxed fanart - any fanart I've done for Hazbin Hotel. Basically my art tag.

#jinxed headcanons - personal headcanons I have.

#jinxed analysis - any analysis posts I make. This can be anything from analyzing details in a specific episode to character analysis.

#jinxed overanalysis - anything I deem as overanalysis. Usually this basically comes down to "I noticed this tiny detail in this one scene, here are my thoughts on that detail" and it ends up being an obscenely long post for how tiny the detail is.

#biblically accurate radioapple - not necessarily a personal tag (I'm probably not even the only person who uses it), but a tag I like to use for posts that feel like could be canon Alastor and Lucifer interactions. It doesn't necessarily mean I view the post as a romantic Radioapple post, or even a platonic Radioapple post, it's just a tag I like to use for silly Alastor and Lucifer posts that feel canon.

#i will never shut up about how people treat alastors asexuality - A tag I use for posts venting about asexual people acting like there's one right way to be asexual and anyone who ships Alastor is either not doing asexuality right or actively aphobic. As the tag suggests, this is a topic I refuse to shut up about, because I myself am aroace and sick of dealing with other aroace people acting like there's a right or wrong way to be aroace. Aroace people can be in relationships, sex- and romance-repulsion is not a universal aroace experience and it's weird to act like aroace people using Alastor to explore their boundaries are experiencing being aroace wrong.

I'm currently writing a multi-chapter Radioapple slowburn fanfic. You can read it here:

I'm also working on a Hazbin fancomic loosely based on how I headcanon Vox and Alastor's relationship and centered on how I think Lucifer would react to it if he ever got attached to Alastor. You can read it from the start here:

I really like designing characters! Here's a design I made for Juno, a character I created as basically a self-insert (don't yell at me about mistakes in art style, I'm not used to mimicking other artists' art styles lol):

I've also had people ask me what hypoxemia is after showing them this goober so here's the Wikipedia page on hypoxemia

[sunny12th]

What are your favorite Dany ships?

I dont really ship Dany with anyone. She's a romantic character and she longs for a partner that will love her regardless of her past but I've always interpreted this as her wishing for a family as well. She equates marriage and romantic love with family bc she doesn't believe she can have children and all of her family has died. Her last chance at family is through marriage but "who could ever love a dragon." I think it'd be pretty beautiful for her to find a family (like her literal nephews) and have that found family love. She's never experienced pure familial love and, imo, Dany finding that would be much more poignant then finding romantic love. I'm always gonna choose a found family trope over anything else lol.

I like Dany and Daario, I think it's massively overhated and Daario is villainized by the fandom even though he's no more violent than any other male character. Of course I'd like Dany/Daario is they were closer in age but I like that Daario is clearly her mistress and is just a fun time. It's a very lust-fueled and youthful romance. It's not great but it's overhated and I like the version of it that exists in my head a lot. There's also some potential exploration of Dany's trauma here with how she compared Daario to Drogo in one of their first encounters. It's like she's trying to recreat her first traumatic sexual experiences except this time she is in control, she initiates the sex, she is the one with power. Can't ignore that all of this was started when Jorah molested her and she suddenly began to have sexual urges, like the molestation triggered her into seeking out what she experienced with Drogo again. I feel like grrm could've done more with their relationship in that regard but Dany actively avoids looking too closely at her wounds. At some point though, she's gonna have to get over that. If grrm had my vision then Dany would have pegged Daario the first time they fucked.

Dany/Tyrion is also a good ship imo but, again, I wish they were closer in age lol. That's just my personal preference but it is what it is. I'm happy with them being platonic as well esp considering they can be the loving siblings they never had. I love found family dynamics, I love healing from generational pain, I love the heartache and relief of realizing 'this is how family is supposed to love.'

I'm not into Jonerys or Dany/FAegon. I dont, like, hate those ships but I'm pretty ambivalent about them. *Could* be interesting but we'll see. grrm is a very good writer (when he wants to be) and all that so whatever he decides, it'll probable be good. For me, personally, Dany and Jon being a family and accepting each other as their family is way more interesting than some soulmate driven romance. Dany and Young Griff have so much potential as a platonic pairing to me too.

I dont really think about any other Dany ships that much honestly. Dany/[insert any woman character here] is obviously perfect. Seriously wish grrm would explore Dany's sexuality more but I doubt he will at this point.

Dany/Jhogo is the superior ship but there's very little to go on bc grrm refuses to give any of the bloodriders interiority or personality. It is the ship that had the most potential tho, if only grrm could try to care about the nonwhite characters that have been by Dany's side since day 1.

edit: wrote some more thoughts about different Dany ships here if you're interested

[theharddeck]

if anyone has resources on bisexuality pls let me know

or opinions they feel like sharing, or really anything but yeah word vomit below the cut, bc i don't want to overwhelm/ overshare with folks who might not care (which is valid, pls have a good sunday)

so yeah i'm really looking for opinions, shared experiences, or resources that helped anyone else come to terms with their (bi)sexuality. i was raised in a very religious environment but have done a lot to consider myself an ally these days, and lately i've been wondering if maybe it's more than that?

basically i've only ever been with one person (a cis man) and it was fine (typical shenanigans, ultimately me feeling less known/loved by him than i did by my (women) friends, but also the physicality of that relationship kept me in it way longer than it should've, so i'm at least attracted to men physically, if not in other ways), but the more time i spend consuming queer media, the more i'm like...hmm. i've always had deep deep relationships with women (to the point of being the best friend right before they find a man and get married, and then i have the jealousy/fallout of feeling i could care for her better), and celebrity crushes same as anyone, and i truly in my heart feel like i will never be known/loved by a man the way i have been by women (or someone who's nonbinary, but i live in a small community, and don't know anyone in person who isn't cis) (also is that on patriarchy and learned incompetence, rathen than sexuality), BUT THEN is romantic/emotional attraction even the same as sexuality?

up until recently, i'd never considered a future with a woman, but if i think about it, it sounds kinda scary in that it's unfamiliar, but also wayyyy too good to be true? like i just like women better than men, but idk if that translates into physical intimacy...which then lends itself to demisexuality, which is a whole other conversation.

now obviously the easiest thing would be to switch my bumble to men and women, but i'm 28 like i don't want to be that harmful person who's like lol lemme just try it to see like i'm not 21, i don't want to hurt anybody who's secure in their identity and is looking for something serious where i'm like idek what it's like to kiss a girl?? or maybe i'm being dramatic and just another straight woman having a crisis so yeah thoughts/opinions would help, if anyone has any to spare

[aroaceconfessions]

i've considered myself aroace for a while now and have been pretty secure with that identity. not happy, but secure. i always thought that if i ever developed feelings for someone i would welcome them because i do want a relationship. it seems that that really is the case now and wow, i am not happy about it. i feel like part of it is that i am not entirely sure it is a romantic crush and not something else because emotions are really, really complicated. what complicates it even more is that it is on a guy, and i always imagined myself falling in love with a woman (i am also a woman). and lastly, i am 24 and have never even held hands with someone romantically, and i have never (purposely) flirted with anyone. just genuinely no idea how to approach this crush, how to get an idea of whether he likes me too, how to talk to anyone about my feelings without being embarrassed, or anything. i'm honestly just panicking. to make matters worse, i might have to quit in a few weeks (the guy is a colleague) and that could have two consequences: i lose contact with him and never get to figure out my emotions, probably agonising over them for years to come and thinking that might have been my one chance at a relationship, or he wants to ask me out and hasn't yet because we work together, me quitting would mean that he could do that. i don't think that's at all the case, i'm guessing he thinks i'm cute but boring lol but who knows. anyway that would put me in a very awkward position because i don't know how to react to something like that. the thought of dating is super terrifying. idk if that's because what i'm feeling is not really a crush and i am truly 100% aroace and just overthinking things, or if it is because i've never done this before and have issues with anxiety. and i want to add that i feel bad for allo people who apparently do this all the time?? how do they get stuff done. anyway sorry for this aroace confession that's about how maybe i'm not all the way aroace. thanks for providing a space to vent, it is so very much needed

Submitted March 5, 2023

[raspberry-gloaming]

Anyone want to hear about my episode ideas for my fan companion (and secret zygon), Erin? No? Well your getting them! :D

Episode 1: Bats in the Belfry aka, "That is not a fucking bat"

We are introduced to Erin as she drives up to a property. This property is in the north east of England, and is a kinda crumbling, old country house/estate. It has recently been bought by a new family, and they want to do it up (as much as they can since something like this is probably listed lol) or even like perhaps it's a new property that has come into the hands of the NHS. Either way, the owners are having a bat survey done. Enter Erin, a 29 year old Ecologist.

There are hints or even scenes, building up tensions as the audience but not the characters can see that these possible bats... that ain't a bat. Erin decides, as per surveying thingy I need to research more, to come back at night/dusk when the bats are more active as there is stuff that suggests bat activity, but haven't been able to see anything since it's daytime and bats are nocturnal.

On return, hyjinks! Or rather more scary than simply hyjinks, but the adventure begins. Enter, Doctor. Why is he here? Plot reasons, that's what. Perhaps he's been tracking these things - that to absolutely no doctor who fan's surprise, are not bats, but actually aliens.

Plot. Ending. She's gonna travel and be a companion, tada! I know that didn't sound that interesting, but I've got a lot of thoughts I can't really express on mini scenes and visuals and relationships between how the characters interact that I can't put in writing, frustratingly. Just know that there's a vibe.

Episode xyz: The one where a bird gets stuck in the TARDIS

I'm surprised this hasn't happened before - or perhaps it has, and we just haven't seen it. This episode takes place for the majority, just inside the TARDIS. Unless I'm wrong, we haven't had a tardis as the setting episode since... Series 7? It's time to bring that back, with a low stakes episode.

Most people know the frustration of trying to get some animal, be it bird, insect or even something else, out of your house. And that animal like, never, wants to go out the way it came, it's like it wants to bang into the wall or window instead of the wide open door. Now imagine your house is an infinite complex of tunnels and rooms, stretching on for ever and ever and ever and ever... and ever... and ever....

Yup, that's the tardis, and there's a frightened animal, earth or otherwise, that we need to get out. Perhaps add possible tension by it damaging wiring or getting into places it really shouldn't, or the TARDIS ain't happy about all that jazz. Watch Erin and the Doctor bond as they hyjinks inside the TARDIS, and we get to see some rooms, and mechanics, and dimension-breaking stuff that we haven't seen before.

I've also got ideas for a two parter - somewhere in the second half of the series, possibly even like last two episodes. Not really anything about the big bad or whatever arc the series has, but about The Reveal.

And also the flashback and montage cold open at the start of the second episode of said two parter - Mwah! Chefs kiss! What I've got in my head I adore, each little scene and interaction, character building, little threads and stuff. The big bad ain't important, nooo it's this stuff it's delicious and I ship my own characters so damn much, but like... not in a straight up romantic way? It's complicated. They're alien. They're simultaneously Tudors, Millenials and Gen Alpha all at the same time. They're in love. But is it romantic love like humans have? Do zygons have a concept of romance? Idk but Rahul and Erin are soooo cute and I love them even though I made both of them up in my head.

[destinyc1020]

Seeing Vanessa’s kinda petty behavior when Austin started getting praised, i think if he did do something terrible to her she would hint at it. Like she doesn’t seem like the type to be quiet about being cheated on. Given how petty she is acting just when he gets any positive attention from critics and stuff. Like it’s just very strange. As if she didn’t want to see him succeed without her. Which if you love someone, wouldn’t you want them to succeed? And she never flat out said anything bad about him. We will never know for sure, but I think it says a lot. She really just wanted to be married. That’s all she’s ever been straight forward about in the interviews she has for. She just leaves some snarky comments here and there, and some shady posts to encourage people to shit on him. Of course we don’t know these people personally. But I’ve never heard anyone say anything bad about Austin. Keep in mind, he’s been in this business for a very very long time. And left good impressions wherever he went.

also I expected a comment from her when I saw the dune 2 praise. It’s like clockwork she’s so predictable. Lmao

Exactly 💯

I've been thinking the same thing Anon. Of course, we'll know all of HER side of the story when/if she ever drops her memoir book that she's been saying she's gonna write lol 🤭, but I agree with you. I think if Austin had cheated, Vanessa would have 1000% for SURE been vocal or at least hinting at that long time ago rofl. Coz she would want ppl to know and "connect the dots". 🤣 Even if it was just liking cheating posts/quotes on Instagram after they broke up.

Or, in current interviews, she would be saying stuff like:

"You know, after my LAST relationship, it's just nice to have a man like Cole who is actually loyal and doesn't CHEAT on you, you know??" (*insert sarcastic Betty Rubble laugh here* 🤭)

🤣😆😂

The fact that she hasn't been doing that is pretty telling to me.

Plus, she was hanging around and having fun with Olivia Dejonge AFTER she and Austin filmed "Elvis" together. I don't care HOW much of a "bigger woman" I am, but I am NOT hanging around the woman that my bf of 9 years cheated on me with. 🙄

It just doesn't make sense! 🤷🏾‍♀️

And when exactly did he cheat on her with Olivia? 🥴 Austin and Vanessa broke up long before he even started filming the movie with Olivia.

And according to Baz, Austin and Olivia's romantic chemistry was so bad in screen tests with each other (gee idk, maybe cuz Austin was going through a major breakup? 🤔) that Baz was actually worried lol 😆

Only they know the full truth of course, but I really feel like Ashley T. would not be supporting Austin (not publicly anyway) if he really had cheated or done Vanessa horribly wrong in any way. Ashley always gushes about Austin. She's known him the longest.

And like you said, Austin has been in this game for a LONG time, and everyone has had nothing but good things to say about him.

I know Austin is not perfect... But it always feels a little SUS to me when it seems like there's a massive hate campaign going on for someone online, and then you actually look at their interviews or ways of behaving, and it's so totally different from what people are claiming about the person. 🤔

[millenialfanfictionaddiction]

Hi ma, how have you been? I've been working on my driver's license even tho I'm 18 and tomorrow I have to drive with my driving instructor so I'm super nervous and can't sleep 😭😭😭.

In light of the new information on the haikyu movies. I can't say I regret forcing my family to watch haikyu subbed. My mom and brother liked it but they didn't quite get into it. Unfortunately for them my dad(48) got hooked. Ever since I mentioned there's a two part movie coming out he's been checking for updates whenever he can. Though that isn't the only anime I've gotten him to watch. I sat him down and showed him "Way of the Househusband" (which I highly recommend you watch if you haven't, it's subbed and dubbed on Netflix and I believe it's on Crunchyroll as well) and that probably has to be his favorite. My mom just thinks it's weird lol.

My parents aren't the best, but it's times like these that I enjoy. I'm always afraid of opening up to them, or just anyone in general, about my interests because I think they'll make fun of me or think lesser about me(thank you anxiety 💀) But I just find it funny how my dad got so into it especially since he's 48 and can have some "old fashioned" views.

I want to go to Japan at some point in time in my life (not because I like anime or anything like that, but because I like it for its art, fashion, food and culture) and I've talked about it with my parents a lot now that I'm out of highschool and my dad said if I go he wants to go with me. I've done lots of research on Japan and currently studying some of its art and artists so I've shared this information with my dad and it's some how got him interested as well. It's kind of bizarre to me how I managed to get this super close minded old man into someone who's more open minded and willing to try different things.

I'm not exactly sure where I'm going with all this but ig it's just, people can change? No matter how old they are? Or you can like try new things no matter how old you are, it's never too late.

That's kind of the thing I'm struggling to realize rn because I graduated highschool and now I have the rest of my life ahead of me. I have a vague idea of what I want to do but for me my career isn't a major concern. It's more my social life that is. I have very few friends and I feel like I don't have enough time. It's been a struggle for me to find relationships because it's hard for me to interact with people and get to know them. I've never been in a romantic relationship before and it's difficult seeing everyone around me in a relationship like that and I want that kind of connection with someone, but I'm not good at talking to people. I feel like I'm running out of time to be in a relationship like that even though I'm only 18.

I've been seeing people close to me in relationships since I was 12 and only three people have ever said they wanted to date me. I've never been on a date either. So it's does get under my skin sometimes and it is not a good feeling. I know I have time but man...

Any tips ma? Also, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to make this a tangent, but I just wanna get some advice and opinions from you.

Omg hi!!! I’m doing pretty good right now how are you??? I can totally understand the nervousness with driving! I’ve had my drivers license for almost 20 years 😅 (yeah that’s embarrassing) and the idea of someone watching me drive still makes me nervous but believe me, you’ve got this! Soon it will be a distant memory and you will have the freedom to drive as you please!!

Second, let me just say, I love when kids connect with their parents on anything! I’m sure your dad really appreciates you and him having Haikyu to watch. I have two kids and I love whenever my kids and I get into something together. It really makes us as parents feel so close with our kids.

Also, you are very right! People can change no matter their age. It’s not easy to change things but the point is that they work on them and are willing to make the effort needed! I’m really glad you are seeing positive changes and I really hope you and your dad are able to visit Japan!!

Now lastly, let me just say that what/how you are feeling about everything is VERY normal! Being someone between teenagerhood (is that a thing?) and “adulthood” is extremely hard. So many people act like when you turn 18 something automatically switches and you’ve become and adult but that’s not how any of that works. You’re in the age of discovery and finding yourself and this is one of many stages you’ll go through. Society acts as if we need to have our lives together by a certain age when in reality many of us millennials still have absolutely no idea what we are doing 😂 and that’s ok! I got married “young” and had kids “young”. Im also divorced and been through many different periods of my life. Heck, I didn’t start seeing a therapist until I was almost 30! The thing to remember is that there is no right or wrong in the journey of finding yourself. We all mess up, have regrets, wish we would have done things different, but that’s all part of life. If there’s one thing I know it’s that life doesn’t end as you get older, it actually gets so much better! Im way happier in my thirties than I ever was in my teens/twenties. My advice would be to just have fun! If you want to try dating, go on dates and see what happens. Just have fun! If you want to focus on a career, do it! If you want to travel the world, please send me a post card 😂 do what makes YOU happy. It’s really hard not to compare yourself to others because we all do it. We see someone having something we want and we get jealous. It’s natural! But always remember, lives are like icebergs, we only see the surface. So much is happening underneath that we will never see.

Ok my last comment I promise 😅. I’ve always been a person that keeps few people close and develop strong relationships with them. I have many people I talk to and consider “friends” but only 2 people I’d consider my best friends. Those are the ones I put my energy into, the ones who’ve developed deep connections with. Making friends isn’t easy and I’ve always been a pretty outgoing person, so I usually just go for it if I want a friend 😅 however I totally realize many people don’t work like that. My best advice would be to find friends who have things in common with you. Like one of my best friends I found on Tumblr and we connected over writing! The best thing about the online world is that it’s given us the opportunity to meet people from all over and form friendships! Do what makes you feel comfortable and have fun with it!

I hope some of this at least helps! I’m definitely more of like an advice columnist in my response 😂 thank you so much for reaching out and good luck on your driving test!!

[lyokosims]

Short answer: I keep her with Thornton. I only get rid of his "commitment issues" and "hates children" traits with cheats. And just like that, problem is solved lol

Long answer: Brace yourselves for some philosophy on moral values of marriage 😅

Anyway,

We Middle Eastern people generally heavily value marriage and family, so it probably won't come off as a surprise when I say that I don't believe in divorce, except if God forbid someone is cheated on or they're being abused. Selfish reasons like "just got bored" or "we've grown apart" are invalid for divorce. If you have this mindset, don't ever get married. Marriage means you have to go through thick and thin together until death tears you apart (or the two valid divorce scenarios I mentioned), it's not something you can treat like a teen relationship.

That's also why I'm against rushed marriages, or even relationships as well. Infatuation is extremely dangerous if you can't tell it apart from genuine love and compatibility, especially when you end up with the wrong person and your life goals and moral values are incompatible. That's something we all see in the Wolff's marriage as a result of Morgana's infatuation with Thornton.

If anyone in the Sims has a strained marriage, I've never been one who enjoys seeing families being torn apart; neither in the Sims or in real life.

With Morgana specifically, since Thornton didn't do anything that calls for divorce in the beginning of the game, I just yeet Thornton's "commitment issues" and "hates children" traits, and replace them with "family oriented" and "hopeless romantic". I also give them a kid or two. I've always done that to the Wolffs since I was 12, and even now as a 24 year old adult I wouldn't change that if I ever play Sims 3 again in the future.

I've always wanted Morgana to be happy since she's always been one of my favorite Sims ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶

Ok I'm curious about something...

So one of my favourite past time sims things, is to read upon what people do with pre-made sims in their games, and it's all different sims... Sooooo a poll to kill the good old curiosity bug!

[hella1975]

"I have read about love a thousand times over in a thousand different stories, and it never looks like me." hella even as I'm simply writing that line out I'm crying fucking again because of it. It's hard for me to write this rn because I keep crying about it. Kanuts thoughts on how when he was young he felt better than the rest not to be so caught up in feelings like that but as he got older he felt lonely. Kanut at 14 years old not wanting to come to any conclusions because he just assumed he's a late bloomer, he'll start feeling that way soon, maybe it was his family that made him so loveless. When I was younger I didn't really know why but, I'd get angry when stories turned friends into lovers because they wanted to be "something more". That stupid fucking line ruined a lot for me, it turned everything I did into something that wasn't enough. It really fucked over my irl relationships because if they were the opposite sex or queer I'd get paranoia that that's what they'd want from me, when all I wanted was a friend. I feel something else, I do not want something more.

My representation often comes from robots, deities and god things and inhuman creatures that don't feel anything in the first place. Side characters not written to have any partners. Distant and rude characters often coded as autistic because god forbid any autistic people who want to have romantic partners. The representation on purpose came in "I never felt that way and it made me feel broken" but just that... that small part about Kanut feeling high and mighty about it until it got lonely was so fucking personal. It's honestly a really silly thing to think, but that thought was so private to me I didn't think anyone else shared it, or thought that way. No representation I've seen ever had that.

thank you hella. sorry this is more personal than I usually am lol but I dont think i could ask this anonymously, I tried to keep it vague and brief anyways

no please dont apologise, this means the world to me like i need you to understand how much i appreciate this and how touching it is that you shared this, and that i managed to get this right. i also need you to know that a lot of kanut's very aroacecore comments like this one were put there very purposely because of RESEARCH i had done. aka i saw countless other people from countless other sources saying similar things and that's why i decided to get that in. and that's not undermining how personal that thought is to you, but i guess i just want you to know that you are absolutely not alone. i think bato summarised it pretty well actually; 'it was not that kanut was abnormal, but simply that bato's definition of normal had been wrong'. the world is slowly learning to unbend from the rigidity its been moulded to for so long, but it will learn love again in all its forms. too slowly than what we deserve, but i truly believe we'll get there one day

[eunoiaflow3r]

not ur friend

spencer reid x reader

aaron hotchner x reader

part two - part three

a/n: haven’t written for spence in a while lol. hope you guys like it. wow...and i wrote him as an ass. bahahaha what am i going through i’m so sorry.

warning(s): language. angst. not proofread. will be mistakes.

word count: 1.8k

request(ed): no.

summary: y/n overhears something she shouldn’t have. this conversation alters her relationship.

not ur friend by jeremy zucker.

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Hang up, if you ever think of calling me up. Not afraid to say it, darling.

3 days.

It’s been an entire weekend of you ignoring Spencer and his ever intruding phone calls. This wouldn’t have been a big deal except for the fact that this felt like a breakup. Your head and heart was treating this like you were in a relationship and he made it painfully clear that you weren’t.

It was quiet in your apartment. The television was off, the radio was silent, the heater had paused and even the refrigerator wasn’t making the usual silent buzz noise it made. The deafness of it all allowed the conversation you heard friday night play over and over again through your ached head.

Friday 11:37 pm.

“So Reid...” you picked up your phone when it rang and read Spencer’s name across the screen. It wasn’t like him to call so late but you picked up anyway. When it was a muffled Morgan’s voice you heard instead of Spencer’s you realized he hadn’t even meant to call you at all.

“How’s your girlfriend?”

You just knew all eyes were on him. Spencer Reid was very private about his social life. It was rare he even told you about anything he’d been up to. He just wasn’t one for small talk. The fact that you just knew they were talking about you made you press your phone harder into your ear even though you weren’t even sure you should have been listening.

“Oh y/n? Yeah she’s definitely not my girlfriend.”

This stung. There wasn’t even a label or anything that you guys put on it, but usually when Spencer would talk about his romantic relationships he’d get nervous and stuttery and try to change the subject. Spencer’s voice was clear and steady. Zero hints of nervousness and bashfulness. He was serious.

“Really?” This was Emily now, you could recognize her voice. “You guys seem like pretty close friends if you know what I mean.” Her tone was laced with humor but Spencer’s was far from joking.

“No. I wouldn’t call us friends either. She’s just someone I visit. Like y’know...how you would a grandmother.”

A grandmother? He compared you to a grandmother? He said visiting you was like visiting a grandmother?? You could feel the tears in your eyes. You really thought Spencer was a good guy. Why would he say something so rude? Something so hurtful about the person he was sleeping with.

It wasn’t a friends with benefits. You guys had agreed on that, but you weren’t dating either. You had met him at a museum and ever since then you two had behaved as if a couple would. The only difference was that you weren’t public. You weren’t posting pictures, or gushing over how cute you thought your “boyfriend” was to your friends. And you were fine with that. Labels are constricting. You were glad not to have them except when he decided to say he barely knew you at all and compared you to a grandmother.

“Damn.” Morgan sounded impressed. “Does she know that?”

“Maybe.” Spencer paused. “There’s nothing really romantic about our relationship. To be honest, she can be a bit needy at times and it’s suffocating.”

He paused again.

“I’m actually thinking of breaking things off. She wants more and I just don’t like her that way.”

Sorry, I'm not sorry if it hurts. I don’t mean to make it worse.

This is where you hung up. Your tears never stopped flowing. How dare he? How dare he say you were needy and suffocating? You rarely asked him for anything, and didn’t bother him with things at all. You knew he was a busy person. A busy and hardworking person. You never tried to ask him for more than he was willing to give. Ever. It hurt your heart to think he was playing you the whole time.

It hurt to think that all the “I adore you’s” and “I think I’m in love with you’s” were all fake. You were pretty sure with the way things were headed that you and Spencer would have much more than just a relationship. Much more than sex and cuddles. But a meaning - an understanding.

Spencer was your comfort. Your safe place. The person you’d go to if you were hurting, or in trouble. You were his. Countless times he came to your house and cried to you about the stress from his job. He’d hold you and tell you all about his day and what more he wished he could have done.

You’d buy him his favorite food and he’d cuddle you to sleep only to wake you up in the morning with kisses and great morning sex. To hear all of that meant basically nothing to him tore your heart to pieces.

It made you want to throw up. Had you wasted your time? Had he felt this way the entire time and you just never noticed because you hoped he felt the same? Were there signs that you missed? Something you could have done to prevent yourself from falling this hard for someone who didn’t care?

But you thought he cared.

Spencer was the most caring, empathetic person you’d ever met in your life. He was so understanding in a way no one could ever get.

I've decided that I'm not your fucking friend.

This is why you thought that maybe this is why he tried to hide you. Maybe he just was afraid of his friends not liking you, or afraid of someone from where he worked would try to hurt you. You prayed this was the case. You hoped and cried that this was the reason he’d ever let those words leave his mouth.

The reason you couldn’t believe this though is something understandable.

He had never, ever, called you anything other than his friend, and never wanted to go out.

He told you it was because he was protecting you, but he never wanted to even meet your friends. And when you talked about a guy or introduced him to one, he’d get upset and say something like, “Yeah well he seems perfect for you anyway. Not like we’re a thing - do what you want.”

And your brain tried to rationalize this as protection. The more you thought about it the more the other part of your brain screamed manipulation. You tried to ignore it but is that what was happening? Had he been manipulating you the entire time and you just never knew it?

If he was protecting you he wouldn’t call you needy. He wouldn’t not even bother to look at your friends. He wouldn’t feel the need to hide you from the entire world and lie about it in such a - douchebag way.

This hurt you though. His team can call out a liar faster than anyone and they would have said something if they thought he was lying. They would have defended you. The wouldn’t have egged him away and joked about you like you were some embarrassing one night stand.

You expected respect and decency and got dishonesty and asshole attitudes instead.

After the weekend of pitying yourself you realized you needed to stop. This wasn’t your fault. He has issues of his own. Issues he needs to work out and come to terms with on his own. Why should you feel anything for a man trying to hide you? Lying to you? Lying to his friends ABOUT you. Reassuring yourself helped but didn’t help the ache in your heart.

Were you ready for this? Were you ready to throw it all away? After all it could just be a misunderstanding. A misinterpretation. It could be your fault. Maybe you were clingy.

No.

No. Absolutely not. You weren’t going to try to defend his actions.

Right now, there's not much that we agree on. Sit down, if you need someone to lean on.

You called him.

“Hello?” he answered right away. “Where have you been are you okay? I was gonna come over and check.”

“Don’t come over.” You cleared your throat and blinked away tears.

“Then please come to mine. I have to talk to you, I missed you.”

He still has no idea. He doesn’t have a clue what you overheard on the phone. All the pieces of the puzzle you put together. All that you’ve realized in the past 3 days.

You rolled your eyes. Any other day you’d think his obliviousness was adorable but right now it only made you want to punch him in his stomach for lying to you and wasting your time.

“I’ll be over to give you your things.”

And you hung up.

That was so hard for you to do and you had hot wet tears running down your face to prove it. No matter how many times you tried to brush them away they just kept on going down.

Fuck him.

A shower and a change of clothes later you were finally ready to see him.

Honest, if I'm coming to your place, it's to say it to your face...

In your car you tried to talk yourself out of it. You told yourself to just forget the phone call over happened and just go back to the way things were. At least you here happy then...at least...sort of. You were okay. You were happy with him. The time you spent with him was enjoyable but you were tired of being his therapist. You were tired of being his dirty mistress. You didn’t want to be lied to or lied about. You were over it.

When you got there he rushed you in the house and looked down at you confusingly.

You had never been inside his place. The only time you were ever really here was when you were inside waiting in the car so that he could change his shirt.

“I thought you were coming tomorrow?”

“I came now to give you your things.”

“JJ will be here soon, you should probably leave. Why did you bring this stuff?”

“They’re yours. They shouldn’t be at my place.”

He looked confused but took the box from your hands anyway.

“I’m leaving.” You simply said and turned towards the door. The sooner you were out the better.

“Can I at least have a kiss?” Spencer asked in the cute voice he knew you liked.

You closed your eyes. “Sorry Reid, but no. I don’t want to seem needy or suffocating, ya’know? Makes it easier to break things off.”

Color drained from his face as he realized what you were talking about. He couldn’t even come up with an excuse other than a - “No, baby I -“

You put your palm in the air facing him telling him to stop.

“It’s okay. I was just someone you visited...like a grandmother. You shouldn’t miss me too much. We’re not even friends, right?”

You walked out of the house.

You walked out on him. Your heart was beating out of your chest. He was always the one to leave. He was always the one to say goodbye.

I've decided that I'm not your fucking friend.

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taglist: @hotchsbabygirl @pinkdiamond1016 @thefemalestorywriter @sizzlingclamturtlesludge @samyilf123

[lunarflux]

"i felt your arms reach for help, and not a muscle in my body could keep me from holding onto you so tightly"

lee felix x reader

genre — fluff!au

tw: suggested abusive relationship

suggested background music: x

note: i like to put a bit of my life into my writing - i had a dream the other night that i saw my abusive ex and hid behind a member of skz lol

You never usually went out on the weekends. It's always been that way. Maybe once a month, you'd entertain the occasional invite out for dinner and drinks, but it had been a while since you'd gone out so casually with your small group of friends.

Clubs were always dark, and you were never the type to run into the crowd. So there you stood by the bar, watching your friends as you nursed your beverage, the sweat from the glass dripping down to the floor. You wanted so badly to have fun, but this just wasn't your scene anymore.

After the departure of your ex-boyfriend, you realized just how much you missed out on. Your friends no longer waited for you because they'd just expected you to say no. It took over a year to realize your relationship had grown toxic, and no partner should ever keep you from experiencing life. Being in a relationship meant sharing a life - not becoming someone else's.

The need to be alone washed over you, remembering the last argument with your ex over reprioritizing your life. To him, friends came second. You just couldn't live like that anymore.

You're free now - and you still haven't adjusted to that feeling.

Club patrons would stand next to you and try to strike up a conversation, but as cold as ever, you avoided their gaze and sipped from the now watered down beverage, still dripping down your hand.

One in particular didn't try to talk to you. In fact, he stood at the bar much like you did, checking his watch, his phone, whatever he could to seem occupied. He glanced at you every now and then. Through the chaotic lights, he'd catch your eye, and he'd smile.

All you could see were the faint hints of the freckles scattered across his cheeks.

After about the fifth time noticing him check his phone, you leaned over. "Did your date bail on you or something?"

He chuckled. "No. I'm just killing time, so my friends stop bugging me about hanging around their apartment so much."

The conversation died as soon as it started, but you two stayed in place. You'd toast with him to every new glass, and then you'd go back to how you were - standing by the bar, killing time.

"y/n - "

Steadying yourself, you looked past your freckled partner only to find a familiar - unwelcome - face.

Staring your ex in the face for the first time in three months, the only thing you could do was stare. Your legs locked in place, and it felt like this club was just another nightmare.

"What are you doing here -" The familiar stranger took a step towards you.

It was a reflex.

All at once, you dropped your glass and found yourself gripping onto the denim sleeve of your drinking partner.

The blonde looked down at you, noticing the vice grip on his arm. He swore he could feel the tension built up within you as you just stood there, holding onto him like a scared child even though he was nothing but a stranger for the night.

Your view changed, and now you were looking at his back. Your drinking partner stood in front of you, his hand holding yours protectively.

"Can I help you?" He said to your ex who merely examined the sight before him like it couldn't possibly be happening.

"You her boyfriend?" Your ex spat with a matching sneer.

"I said, can I help you."

Trying to maneuver around your shield, he laughed, and it was a cruel sound. "So two years just in the fucking trash, and now you've moved onto this guy?"

You whispered into your protector's sleeve. "Please leave."

"Go - " The still nameless blonde nodded his head towards the crowd. "Before I call security for harassment."

"No need." Your ex took a swig of his drink. "You can have her."

The interaction only lasted a minute, but you swore you couldn't breathe. They never tell you about this kind of aftermath from a bad breakup. You were supposed to feel elated that this villain was out of your life after years of over-controlling behavior and manipulation tactics. This was supposed to be your new life.

Still stuck in place, you followed robotically as your protector pulled you up the stairs and out into the street. It was only then that he let go of your hand to cradle your face, wiping away the tears from your cheeks with his thumb.

"Are you okay?"

"I -" You let out an uneasy breath. The fresh air almost hurt to inhale. "Yes, I'm fine. I just didn't.... expect to see him so soon."

"What's your name?"

"y/n"

"y/n, my name is Felix. Have you eaten yet?" He took off his hat and placed it on your head, securing it tightly like it was a new shield to keep you safe.

Shaking your head, you let him lead you down the street to the closest night market. It was a little past midnight, but it was still crowded. Bumping into patrons, Felix grabbed your hand again and led you through the crowd.

Stopping in front of a dessert cart, he guided you to stand next to him. "Well?"

"It's fine, I should go."

Felix squeezed your hand. "Come on. It's late. You're clearly shaken up. I don't think anyone should be alone like that."

He was right though it pained you to admit it. Your fun Friday night went from decent to shit in less than five minutes, and now this handsome freckled stranger was the one to try to comfort you.

"I have a thing about sweets." Felix looked up at the selection of ice cream. "Brownies and ice cream - it's like my comfort food."

"Mine, too." You finally noticed how warm his hand was.

He held up two fingers to the part-time worker before letting go of you to grab both of the treats.

"I can pay you back." You took a spoonful of vanilla. "I'm sorry. I think I ruined your night out."

Felix shook his head, clearly enjoying the frozen treat. "You didn't ruin anything. I'm just sorry your night got cut short because of... your ex, right?"

You nodded quietly. "I'm sorry."

"What are you apologizing for?"

"Well, I - "

"I've only known your name for ten minutes, and you've apologized to me twice already." Felix's freckles were much more visible now, and it suited him. He looked kind, and his smile was bright before softening to concern. "Did he make you feel like you had to apologize for everything?"

Poking your spoon around your ice cream, you couldn't find the words. Felix took your silence as a 'yes.'

"That doesn't seem like any way to treat your girlfriend."

"I mean, some of it might have been my fault - "

Felix interrupted your excuses with a spoonful of chocolate. "Stop."

"But I -"

"- am single now. And I am not him." He grinned again. "So just erase everything he made you feel like you needed to do, and just be in the moment with me. Okay?"

"It was just," you tried to find the words. "I don't know. I haven't done this in a really long time, and I know not everyone is like that. But I don't even really know you."

Felix placed his hand on your head, his smile still comforting and genuine. He pulled you close to him. "Well, I guess we're going to have to change that."

**

It was another Friday night, but now these nights were taken up by Felix dropping by your apartment with freshly baked brownies and a new movie.

He never passed the boundaries of holding hands and hugs. It almost made you wonder how you ended up here with this person who was nothing more than a fellow bar patron at some point.

"Can I ask you something?"

Felix was scooping ice cream onto the brownies. He offered you a spoonful, "What's up?"

The words got caught in your throat again. It's only been two months. You hadn't returned to the club since, and you were finally sleeping well again. It was almost like having Felix kept the nightmares away. Simply knowing he was there did more healing than anything else ever did.

You didn't want to ruin it.

"Never mind." You grabbed your bowl and settled in front of the TV.

Felix looked back at you. Lately, it was like you always started out tense in front of him, and he was dying to know why.

An hour into the movie, Felix finally noticed that you weren't paying attention. Your dessert was left half unfinished which was unusual. You just sat there beside him, staring at the floor.

He poked your cheek before reaching over to pause the movie. "What's on your mind?"

"It's nothing."

"y/n, come on." Felix sighed. "What is it? Are you having nightmares again? Did you see him again?"

It shouldn't feel odd, but you didn't expect him to find you so predictable. "No, I just have a lot on my mind."

"Okay, so tell me."

The silence filled the room again.

"Is this something you can't tell me?"

"That's not it, I just don't know how to tell you -"

"Try!" Felix laughed. "I haven't seen you this speechless since the night we met."

Thinking about that night brought so many mixed feelings. It was like seeing the evil witch and meeting your prince charming all at once. After your ex said those things, it was like something just held you back. It just always seemed too soon to say anything - no matter how much you liked Felix, no matter what he did you help you heal and just be happy. If this is what a relationship is supposed to be like, you didn't know how to operate. This was a book on love you'd never dared to read before.

"It's nothing." You said quietly.

Felix almost looked disappointed. He looked down at the floor, shuffling his feet together. "Should I leave?"

"What? No -"

"I just feel like I'm bothering you."

"You're not bothering me!" You grabbed his hand. There it was again, one of the two romantic gestures that wouldn't be pushed any further.

Felix held your hand gently, stroking your thumb with his. "So do you want to tell me what's on your mind?"

You leaned forward, resting your head against his arm so he couldn't see how flustered you were.

"I just don't know when the right time is."

"Meaning?" Felix had every right to be confused.

"How long is long enough to be over someone and move on?" You kept your head down. You didn't want him to see you crumble like this. You felt so weak and tired at the thought of exposing yourself like this.

You and Felix sat in silence for a moment. His grip on your hand was tighter than usual, but his demeanor was difficult to read.

"Is that what's been bothering you? You don't want me to think you've moved on too quickly?"

You nodded against his arm, still hiding your face.

He pulled you up and into his arms again, holding you securely. He smelled like vanilla and musk today. He hid his face in your neck, and you stayed like that. This was the safest you've ever felt, and being here with him finally stopped that awful feeling of not knowing what it was to want to share your mornings with someone. Felix wasn't a burden. He was the sunshine, and his warmth was your safety.

Taking a deep breath, Felix finally sat upright nodding to himself. "Okay, so let's talk."

"Talk away." You almost giggled at the flush on his cheeks.

He brushed the hair away from your face, keeping hands cupped on the sides of your neck.

"There is no time limit for being ready, okay?"

Felix's eyes stayed on yours.

"If you're over him, then you're over him. Fuck that guy, he was awful. And I know you think that with the timing - meeting me that night - it was a burden, wasn't it? Because there was no way you could ever tell if you were ready or if you'd just found a distraction." Felix smiled softly. "Do you trust me?"

You nodded quietly, eyes feeling awfully heavy.

"Well, I trust you. And I trust you know that this burden of never knowing will go away on its own, okay?"

"I just don't want to hurt you." You tried to pull away with no avail.

Felix released another heavy sigh.

He searched for something in your eyes before making his decision.

His kisses were like his hugs - warm and comforting. He was gentle, rubbing the edge of your face with his fingers. The small pitter-patters of his breath against your cheeks tickled.

Felix kissed you sweetly in silence. The moonlight had already set on the apartment, but he just stayed with you in the moment, feeling like if there was ever a time, it was now.

Leaving a final kiss on the tip of your nose, he sat back.

"Take your time. I'm not going anywhere."

[thetaekookcloset]

Probably gonna get hate for this and I’m not even 100% convinced myself that they’re actually in a romantic relationship because obviously we don’t really know shit lol, but if it turned out that they’re just best friends and their relationship is and has always been just purely platonic, I’d definitely accuse them of queer baiting… 🙃

I feel like there’s a line that they’ve crossed with each other and their antics for it to be just two friends being cute and performing. They know that there’s a huge fan base and they see what people talk online and they are constantly adding fuel to the fire themselves by being very touchy touchy with each other (way more so than with any other member tho I’m sure other shippers would highly disagree lol), making comments about each other, mentioning private vacations and everything that is taekook. We see antis commenting that they hate being shipped and it makes them uncomfortable and that one Weverse answer by Tae is some sort of a passage from a bible to them, but obviously we’ve never gotten any actual denial from them as far as I know, they haven’t changed their behaviors at all and that answer the antis keep holding on to for dear life can be interpreted in many ways. But obviously they wouldn’t deny anything if everything is only fanservice, because that would be bad for business and in the end, they are part of a multi billion dollar industry. 🙃

Obviously they don’t owe anyone any answers about their personal lives and in a way they’re definitely not responsible for all the shippers, but then again, I feel like on some level they kinda are because their behavior encourages the fans to keep going. 🫠

Well I'm not going to hate on you, anon, and I would hope that no one else will either, but I disagree with you.  In my opinion, it's not up to us or anyone else to determine what is and is not an appropriate level of touchiness between two people who are friends or otherwise.

I've said it before and I stand by it: calling anything any of the members do "baiting" is too much in my opinion.  It's true that they know shippers exist and some things will always be interpreted through that lens by some people, but it's also true that no matter what they do and how frequently they demonstrate their closeness, there will always be people who see them as uncomfortable with each other.  So why wouldn't they just interact in whatever way that comes naturally to them?  Why should they or would they change the way they act within the boundaries already set for them, just based on how some fans will interpret it? Personally, I obviously feel that the way they act makes it seem likely that they're romantically involved, but as I said earlier, they haven't done anything to make that reading overt and unavoidable.

This isn't a "gay for pay" kind of scenario because none of the members have ever gone that far.  There's also the fact that, regardless of whether any of them are involved with each other specifically, any number of them may not be straight and could still be expressing their platonic bonds in ways that read to some people as queer because they are -- ways that come naturally to them, are genuine, are platonic, and are queer, because queer people have friends and those friendships don't always look the same as friendships between straight people.

As far as getting a denial from them goes, it seems to be policy not to address intra-group relationships (aka shipping) at all. It's not like there have been denials for Sope or Namjin either. I imagine there are a number of reasons for this, first and foremost being that shipping is good for business, and I imagine this would be the policy whether any of these relationships was actually real or not. This is a big part of why I personally have never taken Taehyung's Weverse comment as being against shipping.

I understand your feelings about them potentially baiting the ship specifically, and we really don't know enough for me to tell you there's no way that's the case -- maybe it is for all I know.  For me, though, I'd rather assume better of people until I know otherwise, for one thing.  More than that, whether or not Tae and JK are together, I feel pretty confident in my guess that neither of them are straight, so I personally would feel a lot less comfortable accusing either of them of any kind of baiting, even if it did turn out that they were never involved with each other in particular.

Besides all of that, a lot of their most telling moments have always been the ones just barely caught on camera, or not shown at all and we just hear about them later.  How can I consider it baiting for them to act close on cam if we know that they act close off cam too?  Not to mention the subtlety of a lot (not all, of course) of what they do.  It's hard to consider the subtle stuff baiting, and I feel like there's a lot more of that over the years.  Add to all of that the fact that if they're not literally onstage at the time, there's no real, direct benefit to any of this.  They're just as likely to gather criticism as they are praise, which makes it seem that much more likely to me that whatever interactions they have, at least off stage, they have primarily for their own benefit.

Of course, these are all my opinions.  You're entitled to yours and to your feelings.  I'm not trying to tell you that you can't feel the way you do, only to explain why I personally wouldn't feel that way.  Either way, we're talking about a hypothetical future scenario where we not only find out their relationship status, but also know the details of what it's always been, and it seems unlikely that that will ever happen.