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ne0nwithazero · 6 months ago

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Kliegkaard is singlehandedly getting me through my art block

#my art #kliegkaard #rouxls #rouxls kaard #klieg #sorry I'm just caught up with my cross stitch project Lol #but I have been working on some pixel art stuff :'D #i've just been exhausted from work

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lotus-pear · 24 days ago

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ace detective more like ace DEFECTIVE

#I HATE THIS BITCH SM HES GENUINELY SO FUN TO DRAW FOR NO REASON 😭😭😭😭#bro idk if the first one makes sense to anyone else. 😔 get it cause like akechi is in the siu so he techincally works for the government 😔#i finished shido's palace again and cried like a bitch because of him so im back to drawing persona again im so sorry everyone #my brother deleted persona from the steamdeck i play on and idk how to redownload it so i cant touch the game until christmas now 🫶🏼#i drew a lot over break actually i've just been going back and coloring a few of the sketches i did #idk how ppl draw everyday aren't u exhausted 😭#anyway hope faggotron 6000 dies in the royal version too i can't stand him #persona 5 #persona 5 royal #p5 #p5r #goro akechi #akechi goro #UHHHH ren is here so i'll tag him #ren amamiya #akira kurusu #lotus draws #goodnight everyone im so tired #i need winter break to come faster.........

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deoidesign · 16 days ago

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Btw just want to be clear that Time and Time Again is set to, and will if I don't pause, conclude in May 2025!

Webtoon didn't want to renew or give me any extra episodes so I'm trying to work with what I have. I'm sorry it's ending sooner than I'd like, it's been difficult to come to terms with and challenging to condense my plans.

You deserve a solid conclusion, and I've spent months writing to try and reach that. If there's anything you'd really like to see before it ends, do let me know in case I can (and want to) fit it in.

I'd rather not work with them again, and I hope I won't have to! But coming off of years being overworked and underpaid does not make that easy, to say the least...

I'm doing my best, and I hope you like what I have coming up.

#years of being overworked. underpaid. and literally manipulated and gaslit lmfao #it does not feel good to beg to be treated equally. and then told to be satisfied with less than that #it has been repeatedly demoralizing and insulting #and im not doing it again #i would rather nanny again (most exhausting job ive ever had) than work with them again #but. i would rather not!#I'd rather continue to make comics #but to do it full time i would need like 500 patrons on the $5 tier minimum...#which is SO MANY PEOPLE and incomprehensible to me #ive already proven to myself i can live on 25k a year but obviously its tight (i live in socal)#this. is not what this post is about #it's so hard for me not to complain about them #i feel bad for my current patrons i only share stuff on discord as of right now #well i do the merch packages but like #it's mostly just my discord #just dont have the time or energy to manage my patreon #cause idk if yall know but patreons site is TERRIBLE from the creator side???#it takes like 5 minutes to upload a single post it's ridiculous #so i cant manage it rn. I've thought about hiring someone to help me with it but i cant afford any help #anyways ultimately this is informing people its gonna end #and is turning into a vent around all of the stress surrounding that #like i literally had to take a couple months to just be sad its gonna end and come to terms with that #its hard! it's hard feeling so tossed aside and having your stories controlled even in part by someone else #anyways yeah #i havent finished writing the last arc yet #so theres space for me to fit stuff if theres something people really want #so id like to get in what i could if i can!#text post #sorry i always turn any thoughts about comics into vents about webtoon #theyre so ass man..... it's fine. im gone in may...

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letmetellyouaboutmyfeels · 6 months ago

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Not to be a total asshole here but if I get one more "I need more! give me more!" comment on my Platonic Sugar Baby Buddie AU, it's going away. It has literally been two weeks since my last update, during which time I've been working on another fanfic, finishing up my second part-time job, working a full-time job, and being an adult with a full life.

I have never experienced this amount of whining in my entire time in this fandom and I can only presume that it's new people to the fandom who have an appalling lack of etiquette.

It's literally people just saying "give me more! I want more! hurry up!" And while none of you are at all entitled to my personal business, it sure doesn't help the depressive episode I'm in that y'all are doing this.

I love sharing my fics with you guys, and I love the enthusiasm and joy that you have for my writing. But the sudden influx of demands for sequels, for specific scenes in fics, unprompted fic, smut, and chapter suggestions, and now just outright demanding like a toddler for an update is disheartening, annoying, and the opposite of encouraging.

Please stop. Please. Please stop.

#lincoln writes stuff #lincoln rants #you think I don't feel bad not updating regularly?#you think I don't wish I could post a chapter every few days for you?#I spent two months working three jobs #and JUST wrapped up my second job #I'm currently on my period dying of cramps #what the fuck do you want from me?#if you all want to pay me so I can just write fic for you all then great I have a ko-fi and a Patreon hop to it #I am EXHAUSTED fucking hell #oh! and the icing on the cake?#I'VE BEEN WORKING ON ANOTHER BUDDIE FIC FOR YOU ALL THIS ENTIRE TIME #my muse wanted to work on The Gang Plays D&D so I was #I'M LITERALLY STILL MAKING STUFF FOR YOU UNGRATEFUL BRATS #I will probably delete this later when I have calmed down

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1meengreenie · 1 year ago

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Some more Pokemon Infinite Fusion fanart! This time it's some various Eeveelution fusions (including a new Sylveon fusion that was recently-added iirc)! Next time will be... ???

#pokemon #pokegraphic #pokemon infinite fusion #leafeon #vaporeon #umbreon #glaceon #sylveon #meganium #articuno #suicune #stantler #greenie art #sorry for the massive gap in art lately I've just been exhausted from work

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moregraceful · 4 days ago

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EVERYBODY SHUT UP!!!!!! PAT SIELOFF IS PREGNANT!!!!!

1. Birthday cake from Sierra and Kelly; 2. Gritty soft serve ice cream cup; 3. Sign for Erik Johnson's 1k celebration; 4. Jersey Devil Christmas tree ornament.

#just got taken very off guard by a big room remix of mozart's lacrimosa and the experience did NOT spark joy #horrible. i keep going back to the playlist it was on and listening to 30 seconds and getting mad all over again #not bc i believe in the sanctity of lacrimosa but bc i don't like it #ko and sierra aren't responding to my messages probably because they are spending quality time with family!!#but EYE do not have quality time with family. and my brain is swiss cheese from too much church #please god let him be a girl dad do not let him have a boy to put into hockey #i mean you can put the girl in hockey but we do NOT need pat sieloff jr (boy) into hockey #pat sieloff continuing proof that every single bone in your body can be broken and you have like negative muscle ligaments #but you can still be so so so so cute and happy with your wife in pictures announcing baby sieloff 🥰🥰#the weather is making me UNWELL. like physically i was not built for this weather i was built for heat not cold #BUT mentally also. please explain to me why i outlined an entire advent liturgy -- all four sundays -- based around hockey #LIKE NOBODY NEEDS A PRAYER OF CONFESSION AROUND HOCKEY #and it fucking WHIPS is the worst part. it was only an outline but if i spent more than 3 hours on it. well someone should a do wellness ch #ck is what should happen. we don't need hockey liturgy no one needs that #the thing is i am so fucking burnt out and just exhausted by all of it (<- what christmas/advent will do to a mfer) but i love #writing liturgy. it's so fun. it's like creative nonfiction #so then i was like well what if i did lent and baseball. which tracks much better yk ending the darkness and the coming light #and then i was like. interesting. what urgent tasks am i avoiding by doing all this. what medication am i not taking #white knuckling it ONE DAY LEFT OF CHURCH NONSENSE AND THEN I CAN ROT IN MY LIVING ROOM FOR THE REST OF THE YEAR #oh my god is it past midnight already i've been working on this post for like two hours and keep getting distracted #if the classical music station played ''mozart's final rave (lacrimosa)'' by oliver heldens at 7am i would certainly get out of bed :/#fresno oilers.txt

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hwanwooyoung · 15 days ago

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I hate work

#igm.talk #chey is back in depression mode!!! we cheered #depression mode means i have no energy to do anything 👍🏻#tmr im going to the beach with my best friends after work for a picnic and when we planned this a month ago i was so excited #and now i dont want to get out of bed tmr #bc the thought of having to go to work and then fake a smile all throughout the night is exhausting #but rescheduling also isnt an option bc the perks of adulthood is having maybe 1 day every 7 months where everyone is able to meet #but anyways about work - it sucks being the new kid and it sucks even worse when im younger than everyone else #when everyone else chats they'll talk about their kids and stuff and im here single and childless so ofc idk how to relate to them #and 90% of the staff are chinese and they all ignore me bc i look like a different race (we can all speak english tho so idk whats the issue #but when i speak to them in chinese they suddenly make a 180 and are SOOOOOOO nice to me?? complimenting me and shit??#and this has been a thing in every fucking job I've ever had like the racism is so obvious #i hate it so much #like between the racism and the loneliness and being underpaid im genuinely considering quitting #but at the same time i dont wanna be that kid who quit after 2 weeks... like i cant commit or something #and the company is 20mins away from my house and it's a 4.5 day work week so there are those perks...#but i legitimately dont know how long i can keep this up #pls can they hire another young person or at least treat me like a human being and not a statue or smtg...#im sorry for the rant i just really needed an outlet and i dont have anyone to go to irl 😞

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thatfukawagirl · 1 month ago

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dont you get money from what you write? i mean couldnt you just pay yourself some villa and get out of there or is that not how it works

I'm not sure how finance is controlled at the moment. The entire Togami company felt to ruin, after all... It's the least of my concerns at the moment.

They've found a way to draw out our repressed memories. They've planning on working with us on that in the following days. The past few days have been focused on recovery, honestly. I think everything hit us once we had a stable place to allow it. The human body can be quite resilient at times.

#asks #in character #ask blog #danganronpa #danganronpa ask blog #danganronpa trigger happy havoc #trigger happy havoc #dr thh #touko fukawa #toko fukawa #ooc: yeah im here I've just been exhausted from work

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skyward-floored · 2 months ago

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y'all I am soooo tired I think the rest of the fics are going to be very much late 😔

#this morning I was like 'yeah! I can do this!'#and then I went out and had an appointment and I've basically been exhausted ever since #had a brief perk up when my nephew was here but besides that??? nope #I'm just not keeping up with these like I usually do ough #how dare like three things go wrong this month that sap my writing energy rather than fuel it 😤#maybe I need another depressive episode sometimes those actually kick me into writer gear for some reason #...I'm kidding dw #but it did kinda work last october...#KIDDING #rambles from the floor

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skunkes · 2 months ago

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my issue is that 2 weeks ago I was flip flopping on what decision to make while being very convinced that I wanted to try to leave and that doing so would make me happy and no matter how difficult it was it would be worth it. Just like how i wanted my surgery but was still wracked with guilt leading up to it. Now im stressed and obsessively thinking about it while being convinced that leaving would not make me happy at all and would not be worth it. which is a lot harder...

#talkys #and its extra hard bc the surgery is the only thing in my life I've been 100% sure about.#also my brain is doing the extra steps stuff and im already exhausted especially since i once again dont really have #family on my side or excited for me #thinking about having to have them drive me up for the job interview then having to get apartment #lease and then having to organize and throw away and pack my stuff and then unpack it #while never knowing if rent is going to be way too high next year is already too much #knowing that i love being alone but would be very lonely and not have any extended time to come home and spontaneously #go to the movies or some local event with my siblings makes me sad #the only friend id have in the new location has her own life and partner and such. id just be alone and not #wanting to leave my apartment bc i hate driving #the good times here are rare but they'd be non-existent in an empty apartment #and id likely be too tired to do hobbies after work and chores and staying alive #the color rly has drained from me not even the thought of being able to transition is saving me #nothing would change for the better

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shannonsketches · 3 months ago

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ngl gang I finished both my dissociation fixation games and got a rejection letter for a job I was a shoe-in for after a month-long, three-pronged review/interview process and I am not having a great time

#finishing dredge's dlcs and dave the diver within the same week was a mistake #where am I gonna find another free chill game to dissolve into #at least daima's coming out friday that'll cure me probably #lays on the floor I am so so grateful for freelance and commissions I truly cannot overstate that #but I haven't had full-time work for what I actually do for a living in Nineteen Months because of stupid ass corporate greed #Ninteen Months of telling myself I'm still a member of this industry despite. No work.#And this rejection letter was for a fraction of what I do for a living. I got told they were very impressed and also I did not get the job.#Idk man like idek what it is I do for a living anymore bc I don't have a living anymore #I've been a member of my union for *four years* and I don't have a living anymore lol #anyway. /vent /negativity etc you get it #I've got stuff I need to work on and I'm beyond grateful for that. I'm just bummed out. I was so close to being okay again.#THIS CLOSE to having some semblance of stability.#icb I got scruffed an inch from the finish line on something that by all accounts I should've been overqualified to do #And both Ganondorf and Vegeta continue to be relatable and so real for having exhausted rage-induced breakdowns over that exact thing lol

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icewindandboringhorror · 1 year ago

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I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent

#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little #bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the #very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the #house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks #Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a #gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a #treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of #color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration #like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a #auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies #so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk #and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver #but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and #sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an #active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have #been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start #to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've #done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!'#(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks #with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm #secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool #stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers #me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or #it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for #too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been #investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely #enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed #google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj #LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!

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deoidesign · 7 months ago

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#ok finally making a post about meds #I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset #so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but #it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways #so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone #like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus #my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night #sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired #it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted #but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too #but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared #so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow #anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING #that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up #I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world #and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on #and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!

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famewolf · 4 months ago

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for so long all I wanted to do was die but now that I'm older, all I worry about is dying too soon. too soon to experience all the things I didn't give myself time for when I was young. I don't want to spend these years overthinking what time I have left

#[static]#wild how the brain shifts #i want to live i want to experience everything i can and i never thought i'd make it this long #my brain has done a 180 and it's always on the back of my mind (and sometimes the front) that i could die in the blink of an eye #im not scared of death but i am scared of not having lived #my ptsd/ocd combo has been pummeling me lately and i feel like im sometimes at a breakthrough where ive figured out a way-#-to stop being scared ... to just allow myself to live without the what ifs.#i do it in practice but the reality is that no matter how nonchallant and down to earth I appear in real life-#-my brain is picking apart the resolve i've carefully put together for myself #it's like constantly picking at a wound that's begun to heal and i cant get myself to stop #it's Exhausting having to continuously catch ones self from falling further back down the hole your younger self dug #im finally living as the person i always wanted to be and nothing can take that from me even if it were to all come crashing down tomorrow #but im still not used to the stability so that's why my brain does what it does best #what's three or four years of stability to decades of being in fight or flight ... it will take time and it's hard work #but i know with time it will be worth it and i wont remember the dread in the back of my skull every time i experience happiness #i'll just remember the days as they were ... and they are wonderful #just needed to vent for a moment! mental health is such a surly thing

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the-punforgiven · 5 months ago

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Wait the Olympics are going on rn?

Damn how long has that been going on that I just haven't noticed lol

#sorry I've been too deeply exhausted from work to notice lol #just caught up being ground to dust between the cogs of capitalism #you know how it is #I heard about that shooting competition but I didn't realize it was an OLYMPIC shooting competiton ya feel?#thats it though lol #pun's text posts

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kirby-the-gorb · 2 years ago

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#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #I had to go out and run some errands since my wife can't do them while she's in the hospital #I got it all done and I've been aggressively medicating but wow I am super tired and sick #my normal available energy in a day is 'sit uprightish on the couch' not 'walk around town for 2 hours'#she feels well enough that she would be comfortable coming home tomorrow #it's just a question of whether the weekend staff is willing to do the paperwork or not #cuz a lot of places don't do weekend discharges for her stuff #so she may be coming home monday instead.#we are working together (along with her more official types of support) to make sure this doesn't have to happen again.#(one of the people from her work wants to go visit her sunday if she's not home and offered to give me a ride)#(which will be uh. also really exhausting and painful.)#(especially with all my ~medical trauma~)#(but it would help her feel better.)

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