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I admit, I am not often within the realm of Despair. I expect I spend most of my time in Dream’s realm, with occasional visits from Desire, and of course I walk the paths of Destiny (as we all do) with Death waiting at both ends.
But I dream a lot about Despair.
Some have complained about Despair’s depiction in the Sandman, comic and TV show, which Gaiman has countered by reminding them that Despair is, in fact, his favorite character, and he did not depict her as a caricature or a cruelty but with love and respect in every line. Perhaps Despair looks different to others – as an Endless, she does, indeed, look different to everyone – but at least for me, I think his depiction is just about right.
(Perhaps for you she is thin, so very thin, big, dark eyes following you out of her skeletal face, wasting away and whispering that you should waste away with her. Perhaps she is tall, muscular, a heavy hand resting on your shoulders, always, always holding you back, holding you down. Perhaps she is barely a shadow, flitting at the edges of your vision, always there, interrupting every task, impossible to ignore.)
Despair, to me, is heavy. She is the dark cloud that weighs you down; she is the warm, suffocating blanket that refuses to give you up. In Despair’s embrace, every move, every step, is a struggle, a weight, as she whispers to you: “No. Don’t. Stay with me, forever.”
And Despair loves you.
Your every sob, your every sigh; your every bad day and grumble and mumble and groan, she adores. She would love nothing more than you gather you tight and hold you forever; she will wrap you up and never, ever let you go. If you let her.
Despair is a true friend, who loves every dark part of you, every dark secret, every silence. She is not, perhaps, a good friend – in many ways, she holds you back, pulls you down. Enables all of your worst habits, encourages you to sink into your worst self. (I think perhaps we all have friends like that, and if not, you’re quite lucky, or have few friends. They can be good friends, fun friends; but perhaps best kept at a distance, if they can be.) She’s the kind of friend who can bring down the room simply by breathing – the absolute worst at parties.
But she will always, always, be your friend.
When every other friend has deserted you, when you’re cold and alone and at your worst, she is there. To smile, and hold you tight; to watch, and whisper, “It’s okay. I’m still here. I will never, ever leave.”
This is not, perhaps, meant as a comfort. But in the cold and the dark and the fog and the mirrors that only show your worst self, your worst life, what else can it be?
Despair is not, generally, pretty. She has no interest in such fripperies as social niceties in appearance. She is not, generally, kind. But there is no one, nothing, in the entire universe that could possibly love you more. No matter what.
And that, in the end, is what makes her beautiful.
#despair of the endless#the sandman#the endless#i've had this floating in my head#since the sandman show came out#now with her appearance in dead boy detectives#dbda#(which was amazing)#(i love her)#figured i'd put it to words#she waits for you#at the end of your rope#at the bottom of the pit#in the cold#in the dark#in the loneliness#she is there#watching#smiling#so happy to see you#she loves you so much#and always will
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if i had a nickel for every au spawned from twitter that i SWORE i was going to be normal about
#i'd have like. five. which isn't a lot but IT KEEPS HAPPENING#stranger things#platonic stobin#steddie#steve harrington#robin buckley#eddie munson#here we go again boys#i've had this floating in my head for a Minute and i was like#nah i'm not gonna do it#maybe i'll anonymously write a fic#but no we're mombin posting on main#i think on twt we agreed it's a 'what's the worst that could happen' situation#platonic co parents can be so so so personal#also i have One more stobin wip and then bg3 again i swear#when i have a baby i Will be putting my giant black wings on beforehand#they have to know what kind of family they're coming into#cw pregnancy
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I AM FERAL FOR YOUR HEARTLESS STORY AND CHARACTERS LIKE- *unholy demon sounds*
I'm just dying to ask so many questions about it cuz- I prolly rewatched your videos about heartless like almost 30 times by now.
Flint and Eira are like a ship right? If so what is their ship name cuz I'm just brainrotting on those two a ton.
I am in love with them all but I love Flint and Eira the MOST!
A big fan for a long time now but only now came across your Tumblr 😭
TYSM!! 💖
I got an anon ask a while back suggesting "Winter Solstice" for their ship name and as far as I know that's the name that stuck haha 💙❤️🔥
(If anybody has suggestions or names they already use for other Heartless ship combos too you'd be welcome to leave them in the replies here! It's always so interesting to see which characters combinations y'all enjoy (^^)/)
#I'm so happy u like the hot n cold bois!!#daily dork#heartless#Ik I've seen some other names for other combos floating around that are in that same kinda fun style#but i can't remember any off the top of my head rn#I've definitely had a lot of comments for various other ships with both Flint and Eira as well haha
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Whumpee's who don't know how to give up. They just keep fighting, they keep talking back. They scream that they'll never be broken.
Why? Because they have nothing to lose. They've lost everything already, home, family, friends. All they have is the fight. It's a type of control. They fight because it is all they know how to do. The gentle words and touches from Caretaker isn't enough to stop them from fighting even them. They kick and scream and snarl. Caretaker tries to convince them they don't have to fight anymore.
The only response is a plate being thrown at their head.
#whump scenario#whumpblr#sunshine writes whump#feral whumpee#caretaker#just a thought I've had floating around in my head#been trying to do more small dribbles and stuff#I like the idea of whumpee having to really WANT to learn that they can be calm and trust people
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Was sketching my Tav and it got a little out of hand. Tried something different with the colors and shading and didn't bother with the rest. Might draw them more, but who knows.
Bonus: A small reference to this thing I wrote not too long ago.
(Taglist under the cut)
@abluehappyface @possibly-eli @the-cinnamon-snail @pinelo-hearts @katherann227 @bloodiedbyers @lysergidedaydreams
#art#art in general#oc#digital art#krita#my tav#my tav: tavir#bg3#bg3 fanart#baldurs gate 3#baldur's gate 3 fanart#i haven't drawn fanart in a hot minute and i've had this dumbass floating around in my head for ages
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Real talk: Does the Jedi Order have a tax exempt status?
I know it's somewhat of a meme to make jokes about how the Jedi don't know how to pay taxes, or rather questioning whether they get paid or make any income at all. And, yes, this question is kinda dumb in the sense that whether the Jedi Order has tax exempt status or not, it doesn't effect the over all story or any actual SW lore in any way that actually matters.
I also know that tax exempt status works differently in other countries besides the US (yes, hello, I am American. I hate it here, too). But for the sake of taking this very dumb question at face value, would the Jedi Order:
1) Count as a religious institution in the eyes of Republic law?
2) If so, would their status as a religious institution have any impact on whether they attained tax exempt status from the Republic?
3) What standards and regulations would the Republic IRS have in place regarding tax exemption?
4) Do the Jedi even have an accounting department?
I would peronally argue that, yes, the Jedi Order is in fact a religious institution. On the account of the obvious connection to the Force and heavily coded (if not just downright) religious practices that the Jedi follow.
However, even if the Republic were to grant the Jedi Order the status of a lawfully recognized religious institution, I'm not sure if this would actually lead to them a guaranteed tax exempt status.
According to United States IRS standards and regulations, the Jedi Order could and would also be seen as a religious institution. However, one of the biggest stipulations for retaining tax exempt status is that the religious institution does not attempt to or make any influence on legislative or attempt to influence political campaigns.
(Palpatine voice: Ironic).
Now, if the Republic had similar stipulations, I would argue that, no, the Jedi do not get tax exemption. Mostly because one of the longest known duties associated with the Jedi Order is their role in assisting with galactic diplomacy. It would be literally impossible for them to not get involved in some capacity, especially when their aid is often directly requested (whether by a Republic aligned planet or not).
That being said, this is all going by the standards of the IRS. And at the risk of sounding too jaded, there are hundreds if not outright thousands of religious institutions in the US that should have lost their tax exempt status decades ago. And yet ....
Obviously, this all ultimately depends on what standards the Republic would theoretically have in place for situations like this. And while I would never actually want George Lucas--or any other writer for that matter--to attempt to give us a canon answer, I can't help but wonder.
Even if the Jedi Order was completely self-reliant--which I personally don't think is possible due to them, well, living on Coruscant for thousands of years-just as an example. It just doesn't make sense to me that the Jedi would limit themselves to only what they make in house when they could have easy access to other local businesses, ya know?--whose to say that they wouldn't still be required to pay for taxes like regular citizens?
The Jedi Temple, again, has literally been there for thousands of years. I don't think it's entirely out of the realm of possibility that the Republic wouldn't have sent their own SW IRS agent at least once to audit the Jedi Order.
I honestly wouldn't even be surprised if that Jedi Order would be given a slight form of tax exemption, but only if certain conditions were met. Like, I don't know, what if an official member of the local Coruscantii/Republic government were to make a direct request for the aid of the Jedi. Maybe they'd get a tax write off for all the transportation and housing (or vehicular damage) they'd acrue while on this government sponsored mission?
Or what about this? Business institutions in the US get tax write offs for charitable donations (which the fuckers exploit to hell and back, fuck me). I have to wonder if there was a point in time (maybe the early years of the ye Old Republic) where someone had to bring up the fact that a lot of what the Jedi do could count fall under charitable tax deductions. So if they wanted to continue taxing the Jedi Order, they'd probably have to change up the definition or something.
Idk, man, I'm sort of spit balling random thoughts at this point.
I'd also like to say that I believe the Jedi do, in fact, have an accounting department. Just to keep thing running smoothly in regards to the Temple budget and so on. It would be kinda hard to keep a place that big with that many occupants still around and for that long without having someone keeping a close eye on the Order's spending.
Mostly, though, I just find the idea of the Jedi being audited absolutely hilarious.
#star wars shitpost#sw shitpost#jedi order#jedi#jedi culture#sw lore#for real though#this is a dumb question#but i want to know what other people think#sw meta#i guess#i'm not an irs agent#i'm an insurance agent#so if i got something wrong#pls tell me#this is just a dumb idea#i've had floating in my head#for a while now
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"by our own hands or none" and/or "a sudden burst of sunlight" because the first one sounds ominous and the second solidifies even more for me your good taste in music -bumbledees' nonfandom account
BUMBLEDEES HI FRIEND <333
Oooh, okay, so for "a sudden burst of sunlight-"
Listen, you know what first kiss dynamic I'm really a sucker for? It's when two people know each other so well- they've settled into a life together, they love each other even if perhaps the words haven't been spoken yet, but they both know it so that's not even that important- and they're leaving for the day, one of them bends down, steals something off the other's plate, and they're both laughing and soft and it's just so easy to lean in, and they don't even really realize what's just happened because it's just such an easy and natural next step, and it's only after one of them has left and is halfway down the hallway that they both realize at once-
Yeah. That.
And now, for "by our own hands or none-" because it's you, I'll share something that relates to Certain Things Shared In Comments:
"You can leave now," Needle continues. Gentle. Coaxing. "You can leave now, and still be the hero. The one who got a brother out." Helix wants him out of the crossfire. He wants him safe, he wants him gone, but his tongue is furred to the roof of his mouth and he cannot say a single word- Needle's smile sharpens. "Or you can push your luck," he says cheerfully, "and I'll gut you like a fish and dump your body off the catwalk." "You wouldn't-" "Wouldn't I?" "He's my brother-" "Doesn't look like you're his, though, not from where I'm standing. And batchmates aren't worth shit if they're not brothers too, that's what Stitch said." "You-" "Me. You don't get to trade one life for another, Zygo, that's not how it works. You got him out, you got him to us, and I'd kill someone for you if that's what it took to thank you- but that doesn't obligate absolution." Zygo takes a step forward, hands curling into fists, and Helix finds his voice at last.
ALSO. HELL YEAH VIENNA TENG. I ALWAYS GET SO DISPROPORTIONATELY EXCITED WHEN I FIND SOMEONE THAT SHARES MY TASTE IN MUSIC <333
#shoulder the sky#a lil draft of a scene i've had floating around in my head for MONTHS#ohohoho this fic is gonna be FUN
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In the Cheesecake Factory
Where your fears and horrors come true
In the Cheesecake Factory
Where not a single soul gets through
In the Cheesecake Factory
Where your fears and horrors come true
#I've had this post floating in my head for a while#but I never made it#because I didn't want to provide free advertising to a restaurant#(on my blog based on a franchise that's basically advertising anyways for toys)#but Cheesecake Factory seems to have become a meme#(source: I saw two (2) funnyposts mentioning it)#so I figured I'd post this now#Letter to Celestia in the tags#mlp#my little pony#mlp fim#my little pony friendship is magic#rainbow factory#wooden toaster#cheesecake factory#original content
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Drawing scarian isn't enough I need to learn how to write them.
#If you're a scarian writer btw just know that I love you I'm SUCH a lurker hajshdkfjsdhkfjhs#I haven't written fiction since middle school I'm JEALOUS#scarian#rambles#i've had this fic idea floating around in my head but it's more of a character/relationship study I'm shocked I haven't seen anyone do yet#unless they have then SHOW ME THE GOODS!!#AUs look fun but I'm not creative enough to think of a plot to one *head in hands*
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Scrolling through my old posts to check my current companion tags and I found my reaction to the series 8 trailer and it's so wild seeing me of 10 years ago say I'm not convinced by Peter Capaldi yet, who is my favourite Doctor of all time.
Like, I know he takes a while to warm up and I know it took me even longer to emotionally accept the fact that David Tennant had been knocked off the top spot, but it's just so weird to see!
#peter capaldi#doctor who#the twelfth doctor#twelve#you mean I wasn't instantly and irrevocably in love with Twelve from the moment his eyebrows appeared in Day of the Doctor???#with Ncuti I was immediately on board from the moment we saw his 'what the hell is going on' thing but apparently it took longer for Peter#I do remember I was excited by his casting announcement though#I was in Majorca and stayed back at the hotel with my dad for the special announcement show while my mum and aunt went out#and there's a photo of me grinning my head off when I joined them bc I was so excited#but clearly the trailers had me uncertain#tbf I do recall being a bit annoyed by the 'am I a good man' arc and series 8 Twelve is not Twelve at his peak#but like that's the point#anyway I'm not here trying to convince past me#she'll get there#just god it's so strange#but that's literally why I do this#this is the purpose of me logging all my doctor who thoughts in real time on tumblr.com and tagging them obsessively#so I can look back on them and see what my initial impressions were vs where I'm at now#dw#dwmine#mine#also in the process I just found a bunch of posts from 2013 and 2014 without tags of dwmine so I've fixed that now#I wonder how many are floating around from the early years of this blog#I've caught many of them over the years but clearly there are still some out there
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#I've had the most incredible couple years career wise#and like there have been some pitfalls etc#but like overall the amount of growth and how much money I've saved and established myself financially is insane#it would send 2019 me into a fucking coma#but everything and I mean EVERYTHING is just tumbling down down down#idk how I feel about touring I can't decide#and the music industry is dead until March anyway#my Etsy shop is effectively dead#I just lost a graphic design gig and like the person they hired instead of me did an undeniably 10x better job#and I feel like I have kind of lost the language in that regard like I used to feel like I was pretty Up There in terms of skill#but Ive just fallen very far behind people as new technology becomes available and I don't adapt and I lose track of where to get assets et#and couldnt find them if I did because. algorithm and social feeds and how rapidly we are losing the ability to archive in this internet ag#this is also true for my photo work and editing#so I genuinely don't know WHERE people are learning from#and idek WHERE to go to learn to get my knowledge up to date bc all search engines are bad and fucking algorithm-y#it's been too long since I've bartended I feel like I've lost the muscle memory of those skills#and idk if I could get rehired at a place like my bar in Melbourne short of a miracle because that whole place in my life WAS a miracle#and like idk what tf to do#I feel like I'm just floating through time and space with absolutely no purpose right now#and no income either! like what the fuck do I even do#how tf do I even fix this when I feel completely directionless#and all the things that fuel me have dried up?#and after how good things have been and how BAD things were for me 5 years ago#I like physically cannot process how fast I am free falling down down down rn#like I am headed towards that again pretty fucking rapidly and I can't even wrap my head around it
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I just saw your Marcia and Cerys childhood friends au and thought of a random crack au, so since you inspired it you have to read my half-asleep ramblings. Sorry.
Marcia/Cerys childhood friends is canon in this (obviously) and I have no idea when it takes place- maybe a few years into Sep’s apprenticeship or smthing. Anyway, Sep found some random cool magyk thingy in the tower library and brought it to the palace to show to Jenna bc it’s cool and for plot reasons. So Jenna and Sep are trying to figure out what this thing is, poking it and stuff, and decide to have Sep do some show-your-secrets spell or what not so they can figure out what it is.
Marcia shows up at this point to ask Jenna if she knows where Sep is, sees what they’re doing and freaks out. She instantly shoves Jenna and Sep away from the magyk artifact thingy, yelling for Cerys at the same time. Cerys appears because Marcia actually sounds worried, figures out what’s happening, and tries to figure out with Marcia how to stop it as best she can (being a ghost and everything) but before Marcia and Cerys can figure out how to stop it, some fancy lights show up and the two of them vanish. Jenna and Sep start screaming for someone bc they have no idea what just happened but now the dead queen and Marcia are missing and something’s really wrong. Silas bursts in, maybe with Sarah and/or some of the other Heaps, but before anyone can say anything, two teenagers just kinda. Fall out of this giant sphere of light. And these teenagers see people surrounding them- Silas or someone is ready to fight- and panic, running out of the Castle.
Everyone follows, and is really confused when people on the street see these two girls tearing through the streets and just freeze, gaping at them. The girls head to the Wizard Tower and run in, apparently knowing the password, and by the time the Heaps catch up, the stairs are moving ridiculously fast, and every single person is gaping at the stairs. Sep asks what’s wrong and some random wizard goes, ‘Why the FUCK are the ExtraOrdinary and the late Queen running around- alive- looking like teenagers??’ And everyone starts yelling. Meanwhile, in the past, a very confused Alther and Queen Mathilda are trying to figure out why the ExtraOrdinary apprentice and the Crown Princess are suddenly over a decade older, and dressed as the ExtraOrdinary and Queen.
(The amulet doesn’t transfer over when Marcia and Cerys get sent to the past, so it’s just on the floor of Jenna’s bedroom or something)
(Also Jenna and Sep somehow know Cerys. Maybe this is set after Fyre. Switched versions of Marcia and Cerys are about 19. The present has a teenage queen (Cerys is older than Jenna so while she’s here and alive she’s queen) and ExtraOrdinary Wizard)
I have zero idea with this au is. Do with this what you will. I am so so sorry for this gigantic whatever this is.
Okay I've been not answering this bc I want to Add but idk what to add bc this is already so good. 10/10 comedy PLEASE send me more
#sep talks#asks#anon#I feel like I should give this a tag but idk what#septimus heap#marcia overstrand#ngl I've had a silly au similar to this floating in my head for like 5 years but I'm not planning to bring it anywhere#so seeing this is like 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀
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Had an idea wracking my brain for a while and I could never think of how to draw it so you get it in short-form literature instead.
[It's Side Order related]
#splatoon#splatoon oc#side order#LoR's art dump#agent 8#agent 8 (sophie)#agent 8 (theo)#agent 4#agent 4 (chloe)#I've had this floating around in my head for FOREVER and now I finally made something out of it#more inconsistent character lore yaaaaaaaaaaay#I'm not as proud of this one as I am of the last one but I think it's still alright for my skill level
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the goddamn toast water post just made me utter "history is fucking real" in the most solemn and serious tone of voice, out loud, to myself, in the goddamn bathtub
#life is ridiculous and I'm its biggest clown#in my defense it's not even 9 am and I woke up at 6 for some reason (the reason prob being that I start work at 6 atm)#so I chose (violence) reading Stray Gods fic in bed for a few hours followed by the need to just vibe in the bathtub#I've only just had my coffee and a slice of cold pizza leftover from yesterday and it's such a uni-days thing to do#I've kinda missed it. tho I wasn't drinking coffee back then (how the fuck did I survive mornings without it??)#anyway. feeling very soft and tender abt my past self today. I miss her even if she was just as much of a mess. in different ways#the kind of mess who would openly flirt with some strange dude she didn't really know over the phone#the kind of mess who moved across the country just for a chance at trying with sb she liked who really never wanted to date her#the kind of mess who's always fallen for her best friends and who'll likely never stop#the kind of mess who feel so damn hard for a woman 15 yrs older than her just bc she was kind and sweet and a mess herself#the kind of mess who moved in with a friend she was solidly in love with for a bit who had her boyfriend over most nights#just.. it's not all about those feelings but they're decidedly a big part of why I've ever done anything#and I will prob always miss the friend who'd lie on the train platform with me just giggling into the night as ppl walked past#her head on my stomach and me just feeling so high it felt like I'd never stop floating (just for a while though)#I guess what I'm trying to get at here is that Mi miss just letting my feelings take me places even at the risk of losing it all#I'm so much more hesitant and guarded now. and sure part of it is being medicated for my bipolar. it's good that I don't call strangers#and almost invited them over. or that I no longer walk barefoot through the city at night by myself (usually)#but I do miss just idk. intimacy I guess. and how easily it used to come to me to just try and be open abt wanting it I guess#oh well. best be getting out of the bathtub. it's not a good place to be with these thoughts. and it's too early for this anyway#a day in the life of..
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a tiny sneak peek at what's going on at my other blog.
I have 20 ocs
...20
I'll get the ones I think I'll talk about the most up and active then I'll do my real, proper announcement about the blog. It's going to be a work in progress for a long time- if I wait until it's fully done it'll be ages so I'll settle for done enough to be functional then finish it on the go
#yes i blocked out the urls no peeking#and that 20 doesn't include the original original characters I've had floating around the back of my head since I was a teen#sneak peek numero dos#i always have a hard time with those little blurbs i can never figure out what to write#but I need to do two for each character#I think there's about 5 or 6 characters I'll focus on first before calling it good enough#also I need to dig up more info and pictures for several of them so that's going to take time#including replaying far enough to even get pictures for a couple of them#I know I don't have my mass effect save files anymore
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MAGLUCK WEEK: DREAMS
THERE'S AS MUCH RHYME AND REAOSN KN THIS AS THERE IS A COHERENT THOIGHT IN MY DREAMS MEANINF THAY THERE IS NONE
#RUFEL WAS DREAMINF ALL ALO G PLOT TEIST#PK UHM ALL OF THE THREE IMAGES WOTH MAGLUCK ARE ACTIALLY MY DREAMS I'VS HAD#ESPECIALLY THE THIRD ONE CHARMY IS NOW COSPLAYING THE MANIC PIXIE LADY THAY KIDNALLED MY LIL BRO#AND THE FIRST OBE. THE DOG CRATE MAGNA IS SITTING IN IS ESSENTIAL. I REMEMBER IN THAT DREAM. SITTING INA DOG CRATE#AND TALKING ABOUT HOW SALTY CRABS IS ILLEGAL#IDK I THINK ELLIOTT FROM SDV WAS ARRESTED IN THAT DREAM?? AND I WAS TALKING TO LEAH ABOUT IT#THE DREAM WHERE LUCK IS SNOWBOARDINF IS ACTUALLY SUPPOSED TO BE MY ORCHESTRA CONDUCTOR WITH HIS 4 GRANDDAUGHTERS THAT I MADE UP????#AND HIS WIFE (IN THE DREAM) WAS WATCHING HIM FROM A POOL. IN A DESERTY LOOKING ENVIRONMEBT. BHT HE WAS ALSO SNOWBOARDING.#AND THEN THAT'S THE SAME DREAM WHERE THE OLD PARK I WENT TO AS A KID FLOODED AND THEN WE RODE A TRAIN TO AUSTRALIA??? EXCEPT IT LOOKED MORE#LIKE UTAH IF UTAH HAD FLOATING SUGAR GLIDER HEADS AND DEAD ANIMAL BONES#BUT NOW...LUCK AS A CELLIST#THAT IS SUCH A GENIUS IDEA I'M SO BIG BRAIN RN#BLACK CLOVER#MU ARY#LUCK VOLTIA#MAGNA SWING#MAGLUCK#MAGLUCK WEEK 2023#RUFEL BLACK CLOVER
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