#i've had discord for a while now but haven't been active on it since like 2021...until now that is

[carbonbasedmatter]

having instagram, tiktok and discord all at once because of friends as someone who's had tumblr as their only form of social media for years now feels so wrong. I have betrayed my own values one has to go. I need reconnect with my true self and let tumblr consume me again.

[dark-bakura1]

Okay lovelies, now that the year is almost over and there are only a few hours left, I have to use this time to get something off my chest. It's just been on my mind for a while and I want to end the year with a few nice words.

When I found my way into the DCA fandom by coincidence last year, I never expected to find a digital place where I feel so comfortable - besides various communities in the horse art role play game, in which I have been more or less active for years. I never expected to start REALLY enjoying drawing again, but these two characters just made that happen. For years I've been drawing just thinking about how many points I can get out of leveling my horses, how much effort I have to put into an event picture to have a chance at one of the top three places and somewhere along the way I totally forgot to have fun with this hobby. Fun has turned into a compulsion to always aim for the best possible result. I started to overthink pictures for so long and wanted to create something so complex that I ended up not starting at all: Because I could never have realized it the way it looked in my head.

But since I stumbled into the DCA fandom myself - by pure coincidence, I'd like to say again - and started being active on Tumbr, I've found my way back to the 'origin' for myself: Having fun with what you do. This fandom has captivated me so much that I started reading English fanfiction about our two beloved robots - something I NEVER thought would happen. Simply because my concentration is totally limited and it's hard enough for me to read and understand texts in German. For me, it was never even conceivable that I would read something in a language that is not my mother tongue: And now here I am, doing it more often than I thought. Not only that, I've even started writing again myself, have an account on ao3 and upload stories there myself. I take the trouble to write, translate, proofread and upload things… and some people even think it's really great :3

And do you know why? Because behind the DCA fandom there is an incredibly large group of people like me: Who carry around a lot of problems themselves and seek refuge with two fictional characters in a fandom that is incredibly cozy, understanding, lovable and friendly. Of course, I could also create things in a fandom that isn't that… but for me it makes an incredible difference. I have an anxiety disorder around people. Even the monthly supermarket shop is a huge challenge for me. Every trip out the door is exhausting and I don't really have contact with anyone in RL. I have my mother and grandma. I go to the doctors, to Ergo therapy and I have BEWO people on hand to support and help me… but I don't have any friends. Not because I don't want to, but because friendships are incredibly stressful for me. I can't maintain them. I haven't said a word to the person I would most likely call a 'friend' in a year - because I simply don't have the strength. Talking, listening, reacting… it's all incredibly exhausting for me. But as soon as I open Tumblr and especially Discord, I see a bunch of great people. I can join in if I can and want to, but I don't have to. And to top it all off, I see so much self-insert stuff that makes me think, 'Man, you're not so alone after all' - and on top of that, even more people who also think it's good and can relate. I know that not everyone in the DCA fandom is so nice either, but the ones I've had the privilege of getting to know are just balm for my soul.

If someone had told me at the beginning of 2023 that I would find my way into a great fandom with even better people at the end of the same year, I would have declared them crazy. I don't have it in for people and since I've almost exclusively had really shitty experiences so far, they're welcome to stay far away from me. Most of them have expectations: Expectations that I can hardly, if at all, fulfill. But there are so many great people behind Sun and Moon who are simply supportive. Not toxic, not mean, not patronizing. No. They are people who are super wholesome. I don't need someone who pushes me, teaches me, corrects me or otherwise wants to educate me with phrases that they themselves don't live by. I don't want someone who puts even more pressure on me. I want people with whom I feel safe and comfortable. people with whom I can get what other people don't want to give me. When I think that I didn't like Sun or Moon in the game, I find it amazing that they are now my refuge and straighten me out mentally so many times a day. And thanks to them, I found you. Yep - YOU. Anyone who wants to may now feel addressed. Even if we've certainly never had any contact with each other: You are part of the community that I have come to love and that I am addressing here. There is so much hate, I love a Safespace that simply has love for everything and everyone. I've been here for a year now… and I hope for MANY more years with one of the greatest communities I've ever been a part of.

Hugs to ALL of you, lots of love goes out to everyone. Happy New Year, stay healthy and I wish you and your loved ones all the happiness in the world. Thank you for existing and just being amazing people. please keep that forever <3

[justanoval]

Life Updates

Hey Tumblr gang!

If you've noticed I've been active less on platforms like Patreon, Twitch, Discord, and even a little less frequent with my YouTube uploads, this post will address that.

The biggest reason is that I simply do not have enough energy to delegate anymore. With my health issues progressing, I've been slowly losing my energy to give out to different areas, and I've had to decrease my focus.

My main focuses are now animations, music, merchandise, and Creeper County.

That's the jist. If you want more specifics, you can keep reading further.

Twitch

I really really struggle to have any energy for streaming. I can't keep up the hype and I feel like I am not doing anything by just being live. I want to have the freedom to do other things whenever I want, and I don't want to feel like I am being judged with every creative decision I make. A few decisions of mine revolving around how I built my audience is what lead me here, so while there's ways I can see myself coming back to Twitch, I just don't have the energy for it at the moment.

Discord

Discord was my biggest strategy to help grow my Twitch channel--and it worked fantastically. But now that I'm inactive on Twitch, I've decided to delegate the energy used on Discord for something else.

I don't expect myself to like, delete my Discord, but it's just something I am fine with being there primarily for announcements right now.

I'm focusing more on creating a smaller, more intimate community with Creeper County. This is what I've always wanted in building a community.

Patreon

I've made an announcement there already if you're interested in reading. The jist is that it isn't a reliable income source for me to dedicate that much time to it. It's just going to sorta stay as a donation platform for the time being. Not that that's bad (it's what most people tend to do), but I think it's still reasonable for me to make clear.

YouTube

I wouldn't say I'm too inactive here, I just don't upload as often. It's like, as opposed to once every 4-7 days, it's once every 7-10 days maybe now.

Big reason here is, of course the energy, but also I'm just exploring many different art forms right now. Had a dip in motivation with main channel animations and needed to figure out why. For the most part, I have figured out why, but there's still some direction I need to find.

Though you can look forward to a shrimp miku video coming soon.

Postmortem in Nuuspace

This isn't one I have really been inactive in, since I never promised an activity level. But still figured I can address that I am planning out a much larger story that will be based in this universe, which is why my current writing rhythm will be quite sporadic.

Not to say this will ever be finished, or published, or whatever (it might idk), but it's just what I am doing.

I know I didn't have to make this post, but it gives me some closure! I didn't want to leave anyone in the dark, and this way I know that I haven't (unless people don't read this, but that ain't on me).

In the future, I honestly expect that most of my energy will come down to video game development. It's like, all of these little things I am doing will just point towards one massive thing. And given my experience with Godot engine, making music, writing, 3d art, pixel art, animation... you see where this is going.

So, stay tuned.

[yawnderu]

TW: Mentions of suicidal thoughts and mental health, depression.

Hi! I'm sorry I haven't been active here, I've been struggling for a few months now and everything was building up to a breaking point so these past 2 weeks have been just awful.

Thank you so much to everyone who wished me a happy birthday! I really really appreciate it, and I'm very thankful for every single person who has interacted with me and my blog. ^^

I don't know if I'll keep writing or if I'll use this blog/Tumblr much, quite honestly I got into writing when I was pretty motivated and had a serotonin surge after getting out of an abusive relationship and I was pretty much the happiest I've ever been despite struggling with my mental health since middle school.

Sadly, that didn't last long and it came crashing down harder than ever. Don't worry, I'm not going to kill or harm myself, I simply wanted to apologize for not being active, not replying to dms and comments much, and generally just being way less active than what I used to be.

Thank you to all of you, I made really awesome friends here and just know that if you ever interacted with my content, I see you, and I appreciate you more than you could ever think. This blog is what kept me going for a very long time, so thank you a lot for that as well!<3

Now this isn't a farewell, just an explanation. It's likely I'll come here to leave posts every once in a while once I'm doing a bit better, and I'm active daily on Discord in case any of my mutuals want to add me there.

I play MW3 quite a lot too, so if any of my followers would like to play, we can do that as well!<3

[suckmybearings]

ooc —

Thank you to all of my current mutuals who've reached out through my interest checker (and the little discord call), and I continue to welcome those who haven't done so, but someday may want to! Something came up not that long ago, when I inadvertently tripped a mutual's RSD (god, I'm still very sorry for it). More than ever, I feel that I need to give a little bit of IRL info.

I am, first and foremost, a workaholic. Please, please, please understand this. I work 3rd Shift (graveyard shift hours). I get up at 8:20PM, clock in at 10:30PM, and then clock out at 6:30AM, five days a week. This schedule, though, is new. Before this, for two months, I was straddling 3rd Shift (4:00AM) and 1st Shift (12:00PM) to help cover for another coworker while she was out for maternity leave. Even though I was supposed to leave at 12PM, I wouldn't actually clock out until 4-6PM every day for two months, because there's just so much to do. On top of this, I'm cross-trained in different departments; I keep all four departments in my room, across all three shifts, on the same page of communication involving management, the quality team, and other departments not in the room; I'm available when someone has a question or needs direction; I am in a consistent state of training someone into my primary department. (And when my factory manager is feeling extra generous, he'll 'volunteer' me for company-paid business courses when they crop up, so I have to split my time away from factory production to be in those classes.) It is only because I've taken on the responsibility, two weeks ago, of picking up a coworker and then dropping her off after work that I've been able to clock out on time (because I have no choice now lol). And even though I am working strictly 8hrs now, I feel more exhausted than ever. Maybe my body is trying to catch up on all the lost sleep and stress? I don't know. When I get home, I have about a 10-20min window before I'm nodding off at the computer. My only real free time is on the weekend (if I'm not volunteering to work a Saturday), but I still have responsibilities. I have a wonderful, patient, and (all things considered) forgiving man who takes care of me, our cat, and our apartment, and I try to spend time with him as much as I can. I also have my 10-year-long friend and writing partner, Katie, over at in @deceitfulcharmer. We've been developing, plotting, writing a massive original scifi/romance story together for years, and we've only really started roleplaying them this year(?), so that story will always take priority for me; it's our baby. <3 And then to top it all off: I am deeply introverted and private, and so my batteries for interacting directly with people are usually depleted before I ever get back from work. With that all being said— I'm here and I want to be here. I want to interact and roleplay Wheeljack, a muse that I've been in love with since I first watched TFP in 2012. (Factoid, it was TFP that even introduced me to the Tumblr roleplaying scene itself. And even though I loved Wheeljack, I came into the community as Megatronus/Megatron.) I explained to Katie that I have never played such a dauntingly sociable, go-getter muse like this, lol. Even when I'm exhausted and stressed, it doesn't influence him or his moods. He's literally just, "You done over there? Good. Let's go." 'Cause he's got people to see, people to talk to; he's not going to be held up by my shit. TL;DR Did you send Wheeljack an ask or prompt for a meme? Did you message me in Tumblr DM? Have you been dropping messages in our Discord? Did you create a starter for Wheeljack because I liked your starter call? Have you been seeing me active through Wheeljack or posting music/wreckerisms? Does it show me online in Discord? But no response from me to you? I promise that I've seen it; I promise that I have it drafted. ;-; I'm just an overworked, exhausted scumbag who has never had such an outgoing muse that has simultaneously attracted so many people to him. It's just going to be slow. So damn slow. But I will get to you. <3

[a-sip-of-milo]

Things I've done to get attention without realising

On this blog, I aim to create a safe space for people to talk about uncomfortable things and the qualities about themselves that they don't like/aren't proud of. To do so, I also need to be able to face the things that I'm not proud of/don't like about myself and my behaviour as a result of craving attention is definitely one of them.

Made really vague custom discord statuses.

Shared stuff to my feed/stories that indicate that I'm in a bad place, even if I'm not.

Put on a sad/angry act so the people around me will put their attention on me.

Gone completely silent (not answering phone calls/messages, manually turning my activity status off, etc.) to make people fret.

When people have asked me if I'm okay, I've instantly reacted by taking on the role of someone who isn't okay so I can say no.

Rolled up my sleeves so my self-harm scars are visible. Now, when I say this, I mean that was the goal in having my sleeves up. There is a big difference between that and just having your sleeves up for the sake of it.

Apologised for things I had no part in so I'll get the "no no, it wasn't your fault" speech.

Made up stories that didn't happen/fabricated stories that did happen to make them seem more dramatic.

Sent myself fake hate anons (haven't done this in over a year, thankfully LOL)

Participated in bullying (also something I haven't done in years, and i'd like to assure you that the few people I've ever done this to have received verbal, sincere apologies since.)

Participated in arguments while out in public.

Not responded when people think I'm angry at them so they'll think they're right.

Not a lot of topics cause discomfort/embarrassment for me, but I am deeply ashamed of a lot of this. The fact that it's been so hard is exactly why it needs to be talked about.

[cassiaratheslytherpuff]

2024 - year in review

Thank you @snarky-magpie and @lovelymasks for the tag!

I probably should have done this when it was still 2024, but better late than never. 2024 was a year. In a lot of ways it was a really good one - I joined and became more active in various Discord servers which allowed me to meet some really lovely people and make writing less of a lonely hobby (through things like Write-a-Thons and sprinting). I fell deeper in love with some old favourite pairings (like Prongsfoot) and fell head-first into a new fandom (911). I moved (which was a lot of work, but has ultimately been really good for me) and have become more settled in my job. On the flipside I've spent a lot of the year trying to find a balance of meds that work for my bipolar brain which has lead to some interesting (bad) side-effects and I struggled with some sort of inflamation in my wrist that made it hard to write. I've also been diagnosed with dyslexia, which was a surprise to exactly no-one who knows me offline and which makes my choice of hobby a bit ironic. Still, I love writing and thanks to spellcheck and beta-readers I like to think what I put out there is still readable.

My ao3 stats are a bit off this year since I finished my longfic that I spent most of 2023 working on in 2024 (so it all gets counted in 2024) but I think I posted about 133k across 6 stories. I signed up for way too many fests so 5/6 stories are for fests. 2024 was my first time doing a Reverse Bang, and I had a lot of fun writing something for a piece of art! I wrote for 3 pairings; Prongsfoot, Jegulus and Drarry. 2/6 fics were vampire fics, which probably says something about me (but I don't think I want to know what).

My most popular fic in 2024 was A Violent Kind of Spin (jegulus) which makes sense given that it's been posting for half of 2023 as well. If we exclude that then All We Want Is Danger (drarry) is most popular by kudos, hits and bookmarks while You Learn to Fall Asleep Alone (prongsfoot WIP) is the one with the most comments. I think my personal favourite was Dissolving Like the Setting Sun (prongsfoot), probably just because of how much hair I pulled trying to complete it.

Goals for 2025

I kinda burnt out towards the end of 2024 and haven't really been online much for a month or two now, so with that in mind I'm trying to keep my goals managable and flexible.

Finish my prongsfoot WIP You Learn to Fall Asleep Alone

Write something for drarry, ronarry and buddie (911)

Get caught up on reading all the Prongsfoot fics I've been neglecting because I struggle to write and read for ships at the same time.

Sign up for fewer fests

Since I'm pretty sure I'm late doing this I'm not tagging anyone, but if you haven't already and want to do it please consider yourself tagged by me! I love being tagged and seeing ppls thoughts!

[madfantasy]

Dear blogging

Wish you peace, always. Considering all, it been extra rough. My guardians were sick, and my fragile of a stability was about to break— but it okay now, and the pendulum of consciousness returned swaying in my head.

Somehow in the middle of everything, I was starting to feel okay and accept that this is the best it can get for this non verbal Mani. I honestly I stopped living as if there was tomorrow maybe the majority of 2023, zero drive or hopefulness, and lately started to accept that there's no denying that I'm not made to survive this life, and dropped all pretence that I'm able, set a 5 years counter. Because if mere looking at people's faces distress me so much that I blank out &/or go mute, since childhood, no amount of me forcing myself to watch videos/ pictures over and over can fix that. That's simply how I'm made and I know that now, and in a way it's bringing me peace.

Because I thought I'm bratting when I wore my headphones to cancel out noise that were literally going to drive me insane, or when I couldn't respond to messages knowing that I can articulate deeply in writing but ignoring all the endless times when I simply couldn't, and have forced myself to eat many things that set me days in nausea and abdominal pain while I only enjoy liquids more and get high off of fruits, I love them so much half my OCs are named after some.. and drew.. drew even before I spoke because it was my only outlit to express because how much I'm told I'm like a robot, I'm so expressionless and non reactive and disgustingly literal, even when they actively beat me black Nd blue to stop drawing, I couldn't.. where do you free those emotions when U can, i needed emotion displays and heartfelt trimmers, thrilling or killing, I needed to do them as if my life depended on it, and I haven't realised it back then, but my life was dependent on them, even when I had 'no talent ' , as I have always been told.

(commissioned by precious Julia ♥️🖤)

And besides drawing my needs, I actually, physically, started to feel better when I didn't do what my body said it literally can't do, all my life:

-Walked away from my guardians arguments, my chest stabbing pains became less frequent.

Stopped "practicing" my voice &/or facial expressions, I talk for 2 minutes, immediately my whole face muscles hurt, voice is cracking and gone, I don't feel like my eyebrows hurt as much. I'm okay being the monotone no expresso train c:

-stopped eating what I "don't like" (I mean it's not like I have much choice, but stopped feeling guilty over refusing it cuz food be tight) Nd now I can actually drink more water, and my tummy aches are on lower levels now

-i stopped dealing with Discord, or group chats in general cuz I don't expect accommodation over things I can't deal with. Stopped stressing over doing engaging material that no body seems to care about, cuz I'm not a good judge of demand, or stressing over either I should be thanking everyone who spams me with likes or not, (while I appreciate it to the moon) 90% of the time they don't respond Nd Im forced to think like I've done something wrong. I'm now at more ease with posting — (literally I have to fight the urges to delete my socials daily) just with interacting with who addresses me (I lov U guys sm) and I've been more relaxed from it.

I returned to "speaking in riddles" cuz if I don't use the words my brain spews no matter how weird they R, a tire will pop somewhere on the other side of an AU- idk lo'

-i rock, hum and laugh OUT my maniacal laugh, hard and strong, continued loving and talking to my plushies as I used to do, the easiest thing I could do to feel calmer again. As everyone should do

.. I stopped saying the word sorry. It's a naughty Mani era.

Accepting these facts and many, even with having no will to live had me saner than I ever been, at least I hope so.

I just know that I have a few to be grateful of: that I'm still here somehow, even with my dwindling income, Nd my internet not worth costing 120$± I'm always grateful for the sudden one or two commissions that keeps me here and buys me coffee and pumpkins seeds..

I still struggle horrindously with sleep. But I'm grateful at least I'm at pure ease playing games. Games been my go to media for knowing basically all based on books they were made about, like Severus and Tintin, I still play their ps1 games! Tho I got stuck on this game & their sleep has given me so much ease lo

I'm at my happy place rn, heh.

Bonus panel: ye they R hungry for that SHI- lo 🙈

And an honorary appearance of my OC with Tintin hehe

Stay safe, don't feed the overconsumption machine, don't give up on your heartstrings's stringers, don't worry— there are people who think and feel like you always between the crowds, and I'm thankful that I share the same timeline with you♥️🖤

Sweet dreams 🌃 19.2.2024

[puzzledmemories]

((hello everyone! again! it's been like. a month. again.))

((work was making me super anxious. we had this ongoing situation with a client where, to keep things brief and anonymous, the rest of my team was getting harassed by this client, and i was the only person they would come to for like, assistance or any sort of communication that didn't end sour. i'm not even assigned to this client and there was like, stuff going on where my one co-worker probably should've straight up called the police... it was really bad, and i was both stressed out about being the only person who this client would interact positively (or even neutrally) with, and the possibility that this client would turn on me, i'd start getting harassed, and all bridges between this client and my team would be burned when like, we have to offer this guy services because of how the program i work for works. the client randomly complimented me one day on a day we didn't even interact otherwise in a way that made me feel really...weird, because of the specific situation. it's been weighing on me super heavily. things are just finally calming down and things seem to be okay now, but, i'm still kinda recovering from it.))

((on top of that, at home we've had constant issues with our septic system and even had an issue with our washing machine at the same time.))

((i was so stressed out all the time and just constantly socially burnt out that i've basically been unable to do any non-essential communication. i get anxious about communication to begin with, but it's just been too much for me to handle. i have been trying to push myself to get back on here for weeks. this is me. uh. trying to come back again. take 3! ever since i got super sick that one time i haven't been able to keep up my rhythm here, and i feel so bad about it. everyone here is so nice and welcoming and fun to interact with, and i want to be here so bad, and i don't want to make anyone feel bad by the fact that i haven't been here because it's not personal or purposeful by any means, but i've basically been at my limit of what i can emotionally and mentally handle. now that things at work are, uh, calming down... i think i can start to breathe, and i think i can start to push myself to get back on here more again, if you all will have me still.))

((my queue's run dry, i see, so i'll have to work to refill it... but it's late tonight, and i've been trying to just sike myself up to get on here and apologize for being absent for hours. i'm going to make this push tomorrow. a new month for a fresh start, i suppose! i'll be trying to go through my activity and find replies i owe, and reply to dms i've been sent. feel free to reach out to me, whether we've dmed before or not, if you have a reply i owe you want to make sure i don't miss, if you just wanna chat, or any reason really. feel free to ask for my discord, too. i've missed you all so so much and i wish i could be better about being on here again for you all. i want to try to be because i miss getting on here every day and interacting with everyone, and it's not that i haven't had the time, it's been an issue of energy and work stress. once i'm caught up on activity and i'm in a good groove for dms, i'll work on replies.))

((i'm very sorry, again, about disappearing, again. everyone here has been so cool and nice to me and fun, but my extra stress just made it hard to just, be here. or on tumblr at all, because for a long while i couldn't even touch my personal blog. i am going to try very hard to be the kind of person you all deserve to have around. it's a lot to live up to. but, i'm gonna do my best!))

((starting tomorrow, i will be trying my best!))

[quickdeaths]

mun meme

𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐔𝐍!

★  NAME:  Bryn

★  PRONOUNS:  she/her.

★  BEST EXPERIENCE: Meeting my girlfriend through RP has to be at the top of the list, and meeting some really great friends too. Just talking about the IC stuff, idk, I'm pretty happy with how things have been going recently?

★  PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION: IMs are okay but discord is best! I am very chatty on discord sometimes, and the search function is really helpful for me when it comes to going back and finding old things. I'm also just on discord basically all day in some capacity, so I rarely miss things for long.

★  MOST ACTIVE MUSE: I can basically write any of my DR OCs at the drop of a hat, although Shinobu is the one who I am currently writing most, and have the easiest time writing because of that. I think for me, though, it's more "do I have energy/creativity to write right now at all" rather than if I have muse for a specific character or not - it's not usually the case that I struggle with a specific character at a time when I'm otherwise writing easily.

★  EXPERIENCE / HOW MANY YEARS: I started off on a forum in maybe 2006 or 2007, did some stuff on livejournal, had a cup of coffee at Gaia Online, and settled on Tumblr in maybe... 2012? 2013? I've done some things on discord (don't love it for RP) and google docs (it's okay) since then, and a handful of other places, but I think I'm just Here Now, like furniture.

★  RP PET PEEVES:  

I have talked about these all so many times so I'll try to keep it brief hahaha.

People who repeatedly drop threads without reaching out to say anything (this is my #1 pet peeve), and people who generally cycle "taking on too many asks/drafts, then dropping all of them, repeat."

People who habitually archive/delete and remake their blogs, especially if they don't make any changes to how they run things, who they interact with, etc. I see it as, like "bringing your bed to your new apartment and being confused as to why you still have bedbugs."

People who post tons of OOCs, as well as things like memes, starter calls, ship calls, etc. while having a massive backlog of drafts and inbox things already.

People who treat OCs/female characters/female OCs dismissively, or as stepping stone interactions.

★   PLOTS OR MEMES: Plots. I honestly don't like memes very much since I feel like they seldom lead to the kind of long-term interactions I like the most, but they're so entrenched on tumblr that I just kinda have to accept them. I would much rather talk to people and plot out loose thread ideas than send in a dialogue prompt from a movie I haven't seen and hope it gets answered and hope that that answer feels like something I can respond to and hope that my reply gets replied to and it's actually a thread. I like doing stuff that develops across multiple threads too, and plotting is much better for that.

★  ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S)?: Not really, I don't think. There are pieces of me in all of my characters, of course, and there are superficial similarities sometimes in terms of like, hobbies or interests, but I think the characters who feel like they got more of me mixed into them are like, D&D characters, or characters from my other blogs.

tagged by: @more-than-a-princess also tagging because tumblr is a functional website and perhaps putting things on a new line is the only fix: @timesunder @shishigirls @saburaito @sunbreathr

tagging: @lunaetis @guidedhearts @amaidol @infintasmal @corrpse also tagging myself since that seems to be the only way to not have it break someone else's tag very cool: @quickdeaths

[luguangs]

hi, I was going through my archive and stumbled upon that post of yours about getting suspended by staff for having "too many sideblogs" that I had reblogged to spread awareness.

someone I follow got suspended in october also for having too many sideblogs, staff asked them to delete some and only then did they get their account back.

now I'm worried about the amount of sideblogs I have. how many blogs did you have at the time staff suspended you, including the ones you are just a member of? like is it more than 10 or would staff do this randomly to users who have 4-5 blogs including their main?

it's totally bullshit that they do this to active users when many inactives (who won't ever return to tumblr) still have all their blogs and sideblogs and bots are taking up urls one after the other and bothering actual users. I'm sorry they did this to you.

thank you <3 i appreciate your words, it really was a super stressful time for me not knowing whether this blog i've poured my heart into for over a decade was going to get terminated out of nowhere 😭 and in a lot of ways i feel like i still haven't caught up to everything i missed while i was gone, and the backlog just keeps getting bigger

i can't remember exactly how many sideblogs i had back then, but it was definitely more than 10. it seems kind of arbitrary though because i know of people with like 30+ urls and they've been fine?

also the weird thing for me was that they included the blogs i was just a member of, so i didn't even have the power to delete them like they were asking me to. not to sound like a tumblr ancient ™ but back when we didn't have built-in dms or discord, we used to make private sideblogs with our mutuals to talk (kinda similar to the communities feature nowadays) and those were being counted as inactive as well. i'm guessing that since all the posts were private, they appeared to be inactive? because of that i ended up having to leave several of those blogs, so all of those conversations with some of my oldest friends here are now gone :(

it's just so bizarre because it feels like they're going after actual users instead of focusing on the biggest issues at hand? as you said, bots keep taking up urls every single day, and there are so many inactive users who haven't been online in years that still have their massive url hoards. for a while, tumblr used to append "-blog" to inactive urls (which imo was a great idea to free up old urls) but even then, it seemed to be completely random and only applied to very few blogs. i've literally been waiting for a canon url to free up for 9 years and it's completely blank so :/

if you only have 4-5 sideblogs i'd say you're most likely safe! but then again it's always a toss up when it comes to staff so i can also give you some advice just in case:

avoid contacting staff as much as you can

this is just speculation but after talking with the handful of other people i know that went through the same thing, it seems like most of us contacted staff for other issues before being suspended some time later. my guess is that if you pop up on their radar, you run the risk of being scrutinized more closely even for something completely unrelated to the issue you were originally seeking help for.

2. keep your sideblogs few and active

of course, if you have urls you don't really plan on using (even if they're really good) you should free them up because the fewer urls you have, the less risk you run of getting suspended one day. also they'd make a lot of other users happy. if you prefer, you can even give them to your friends or mutuals. it's better than just letting them sit there gathering digital dust.

however, if you have a handful of urls you love and actually plan on using someday, try to keep them active. give them a purpose and occasionally reblog posts, change your header and pfp, etc. (if this seems like a lot of work to you then it's probably best to release those urls)

i had to part with a few urls that i was really fond of back then so i know how hard it is </3 but trust me it's best to just not run the risk if you can avoid it.

3. back up your blog

just in case, because you never know what might happen. this post links to a google doc with several different alternatives to back up your blog. it may take some getting used to at first, but try to choose the method that's easiest for you so you can do it regularly!

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i hope any of this is helpful for you! and if you have any other questions, feel free to ask! i'd like to help as much as i can so other people don't go through what i did 😭

[fangaminghell]

So, the discord server I'm in was talking about pokemon insurgence, which reminded me of how I disliked Nora back then. Looking back, she really wasn't that bad, but I think the game still did her dirty. ESPECIALLY when she ended up having the damsel in distress in the end ( as I was told, I don't think I ever finished the game). So, after that lil convo, I decided to try and redesign Nova and rework some of her already existing aspects. Keep in mind, I haven't played the game in years, and I'm just going off memory and what I've been told. So without further ado....

Nora! Let's first discuss what I did to her story ( from what I could gather) first.

I don't believe it was ever specified when Nora was chosen by Celebi. We just assume that she has been before the player and Damian. In this version of her, she has been chosen by Celebi for a while. Long enough for her to train and try and master her abilities. Despite this, she'd rather not be the one of the prophecy. She prefers peace over conflict, and the burden and stress of being a chosen one has been on her shoulders for assumedly years. It's worse given how she thought she was the only one. The only one who could carry this burden. It was a lonely experience, even with Celebi. Though, despite this, this loneliness gave her a bit of an ego too. She's strong, smart and resourceful and is tasked with essentially saving the world. This gives her an air of self importance, even when she's trying to do the good thing. Overall, Nora is not a bad person. It's just that she gets stuck in her head sometimes, being burdened with the task at hand. She's quick to realize her faults, and actively works to rectify them.

As for her design change, I wanted to portray her as an experienced trainer. The more muted colors that Damian had I gave to her, especially since her whole thing is that she's trying not to have eyes on her. Also why she has a hat now: she wants to keep on herself hidden until she literally can't.

Because I did Nora, I decided to do Damian too!

Left ( cardigan) is pre-shaymin Damian and right is post Shaymin Damian.

I! Don't exactly have any rewrites for Damien tbh. If I ever played the game again, maybe, but for now I was focusing on his parallel to Nora. While Nora is someone who sees being chosen as a burden, but does it anyway, Damian is someone who wants to be someone important,yet lacks the skills to do so. Shaymin coming to him was the best thing that happened to him, cause it meant that he was meant for something, not just a lonely kid from Telnor.

Bc of this, I ended up giving Damian's clothes more pop to juxtapose Nora's color scheme- especially when they're color schemes are so similar. I also gave Damian some pink in his design, to tie himself more with Shaymin. I should also note that Damian looks more like Shaymin than Nora looks like Celebi. This is intentional. Nora knows that people are after her and thus doesn't want to resemble Celebi too much. The most she does is wear a necklace resembling a clock( not shown in the picrew). Damien, eager to finally mean something, is more obvious. Not completely on the nose, but if you know what you are looking for, his clothes are a red flag. Again,just wanted to show the contrast of these two.

Also yeah I have Damian freckles bc why not. Whittle guy.

Aaaand yeah, that's it lol. Hope you guys liked this ramble. I must stress I haven't played insurgence in literal years, so I'm going off what people tell me here for Nora's rewrite. Hopefully you like her well enough!

[turoce]

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TF2: so. TF2 huh. got into it last year. i kinda lost interest because of a tf2 discord server that i ended up leaving in bad terms + no content updates + i didn't do jackshit in the fandom. i made my robot oc blog but unfortunately that one died along with my fixation! oops.

Papa Louie: the ultimate killer of my tf2 fixation. the increasing amount of "Papa Louie lore is CRAZY!" videos in my recommended feed and the eventual release of Freezeria Deluxe drawing in streamers, and then Jerma, was what finally got me to crack and give the games a go. i don't regret it, because i finally joined a fandom that i actively (? the fandom's kiiiiinda dead aha;;) participate it, after like 2 years of wandering around! it kinda faltered around July~August, but after downloading Flashpoint, it came back double the force.

Scott Pilgrim: got the books for my birthday. read them. the graphic novels haunted me for a while because it was so.... different! from what i've read up to that point. i buried it into my subconciousness but the show dug it up again. i'm not thaaaat into it though. it's a background thought thing.

Good Omens: season 2 babyyyyyy, i wasn't as into it as i was in like.... 2021? i mean, back then i read like, a shitton of GO fanfics. i think that fandom is still my most bookmarked fandom within my fic folder. season 2 was great! heartbreaking even. but as i said, i already blew my steam back in like, 2021. i didn't really have Good Omens people to talk with anyways, not that i'm confident enough to find any.

Madness Combat: was around for the 2021 boom, but my fixation came back because of the Makeship plushie thing, fight meh ok. i wonder a little if they were worth it over the Papa Louie plushie when my fixation didn't last as long (it kiiiinda does sting i had to give him up? it would be nice to own official Papa Louie merch ;;) but whateves. they're in my arms. they're very cuddly. i'm getting off-point, anyways i love these freaks, love the action in the animations, i wanna play the game but at the same time i'm not sure how well i'm gonna be able to handle the guns and the killing. eh, i'll manage, i'll live. i guess i kinda stopped being fixated because like i said, nobody to talk to since i'm a little wary about the fandom... uh, i'm sure there are a lot of nice people, but i've had peeks at what arguments people have been having and that made me decide to just lurk.

AVA/AVM: my friend was watching it and they got into it, so i got curious and i looked into it as well. they're cute little ibbly babbles, those sticks. big fan of the Animator vs Animation series especially because awoo.... it advances so much in style in each episode. V and VI especially blow shit out of the water. love it. love it. didn't really bother to get into the fandom though. i didn't see a place to sit down, so i just walked through the merchant hall and moved on. i stare at the wares every now and then though.

HLVRAI: watched it recently. it's nice. not.... really enjoyable enough for me to be a full-blown fan, but whateves. i kinda don't know why that happened to be the thing that all my mutuals were obsessed with throughout 2021 but the only reason i didn't get into it either was because i didn't finish Hal-Life 1 and i wanted to get into the game blind due to hearing that it was "the best game ever that influenced the gaming industry forever". i wonder, that if i wasn't such a wuss, would i have watched HLVRAI earlier and enjoyed it more? we'll have to see with HL2VRAI. i haven't finished HL2 either btw... sigh.

[magicaleraser94]

Hey ya'll ^^

As some of you may have noticed, I've suddenly become very active on this account, reblogging things and posting a few peices of art (some have really blown up, tysm ^^), after being radio silent for about two years. A lot has happened in my life since I had stopped posting. Here's a post to fill you guys in :D

My YT channel hit 1k subs!

...and I haven't really posted since :|

I got into Hermitcraft, the Life Series, and Empires SMP just before DSMP kinda faded. I'm a big fan of Grian and his content, as well as Martyn Inthelittlewood and Bdubs's Hermitcraft 10 series. They've inspired my art and were there for most of my style development. They're my comfort creators.

I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. It's been kind of tough, since most of the therapists in my area are kinda shit. But I'm doing a lot better now thanks to my family, friends, and a good ol medication.

I started playing DND! It's been one of my favorite pastimes. Made a few joke characters, as well as some pretty serious ones. My usual character is Akuji, a half-orc fighter with a past as a psychotic smuggler.

(Due to action surge and a weapon she collected from fighting the dnd equivalent of Elsa, she can deal a max of eighty damage in one turn.)

I began playing Sky: Children of the Light. Made some friends. Lost some friends. The players are gentle and unique, and the community is one of the kindest that I've had the honor to be in. I also became a bit of a lore-addict, and most of my theories have been proven correct through the trailers for The Two Embers. I even created a character with my own lore :3

I became invested in Ish's State Experiments. I've become a pretty popular artist in the State Server, and I was the first to be featured in a special channel dedicated to State Art. While it's not something I should be super excited about, since our community is smaller than most, that very accomplishment has brought me into a group of kind, fellow artists, and funny content creators who I have made unforgettable connections with.

Also, meet "Blob" Soggy, the personified version of my discord username. I draw her a lot, and use her as little reaction images when I'm talking.

Found IMMENSE joy in Indie horror games, such as Bendy and the Ink Machine (and DR), the Little Nightmares Saga, Five Nights at Freddie's, Mortuary Assistant (introduced by one of the content creators in State), and quite a few more. Also, Hollow Knigth got mixed in there, even tho it's not horror

I'm in a relationship :). My boyfriend is a complete gentleman and looks kinda like a skinnier Newt Scamander. We've been going steady for 3 months.

I stumbled upon Dimension 20: Fantasy High, which has been so fun to watch! Brennan Lee Mulligan and his crew are hilarious. Also Riz Gukgak's the best PC and nobody can say otherwise.

And lastly.

MagicalEraser has grown into a full character. Through my friends in State, I was able to develop her past what I ever thought possible. She is what my fellow artists see me as. She's more than just a silly drawing I made based off of a Shel Silverstein poem and a half-baked minecraft skin. I am so grateful that I created her, because she's been there every step of the way.

Love you guys. Hope you enjoyed catching up! Thank you all for enjoying my art :]

[miqojak]

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Tagged by: @iron-sparrow and @dragonsongmakhali

Tagging: The few people active in my orbit have seemingly all been tagged already...so do it if you want to and haven't, yet!

Last song: While it should be some classic crooner Christmas song...it's actually Doja's Paint the Town Red, because I finally have an ounce of inspiration and a moment's respite from being ill, and I'm working on something neat with XIV animation replacements and video editing. I've...had to hear this song on loop a lot, though, while figuring things out - and while I love it, it's about time to hop on that Spotify Christmas music playlist...

Favorite color: Technically, neon green (most shades of green tbh - I enjoy a nice, calming forest green, as well). But black and red are also favorites.

Last movie/TV show: Muppet Christmas Carol, because it's that time of year. (Next up is the movie that shaped my own preference for Christmas decorating: Rankin/Bass' Rudolph.)

Sweet/Savory/Spicy: No favorites, I like them all depending on my mood! I have a sweet tooth, but I also really like sweet + salty (catch me dipping salty fries into a frosty from Wendy's). I LIVE for spicy food...but beware...as you get older, your body hates spicy food and it will destroy parts of your insides you didn't know existed, so I've been suffering and learning the hard way lately how much spicy I can still have. Meaty/umami flavors are probably my least favorite - I actually dislike the texture/taste of red meat so much in general, I had to get iron supplements, lol.

Relationship status: Complicated to explain! I guess the best way to describe it is: I live with my queer platonic partner, whom I used to date/be romantic with. But...I'm the queer one, so...idk, I guess the term still applies!

Last thing I googled: I have no idea, most of my searches lately have been within various modding Discords. But my last online search was probably also in that same vein - looking for various XIV mods/animation mods, now that I've discovered those.

Current obsession: I've been far too ill of late to engage with much...uh, I got a bit obsessed with Adventure Time after finally watching all of it, and Fionna and Cake; I went hard on the Marceline merch. But I guess I'm also kinda obsessed with trying to find new hobbies, since there's been 0 interest in RP with my characters in a couple years now, and RP was my one big hobby for like...the last decade or more. Filling the time I would be RPing with is tough, when I don't know anyone local (and love tabletop and have a campaign world already made for Pathfinder...), and my health has bounced around, so I've gotten back into cross stitch (and I'm...trying needle-felting. It's...something.)

[duhragonball]

Hey, im just wondering, do you have any other socials we can follow you on? I'v heard some forboding things about Tumblr staff layoff spelling the end of this site

You can find me on Twitter here: https://twitter.com/duhragonball

That's it, other than my AO3 account, which isn't much of a social media platform, and my decades-old livejournal, which I haven't touched in years.

I misread your message and thought you were referring to something ending Twitter, and I was all set to talk about how people have been predicting the downfall of Twitter for over a year now. I believe it will probably meet a bad end, and sooner rather than later, but the way the userbase talks Twitter already shut down six or seven times already. It still basically works when I use it. It's gotten shittier, but it was pretty shitty when I joined. It amazes me that people are nostalgic for the days when Jack Dorsey was running things.

Anyway, you said Tumblr, and I don't know anything about that site's woes. I will say that I only got active on Twitter because there was a nonzero chance of Tumblr imploding after the 2018 pr0n ban. There's still a nonzero chance, but 2018 was five years ago, and we're all still here. I'm not holding my breath.

Let me ask the question, since it's been a while since I brought it up: What's the move now with social media? Is Blue Sky any good? I could probably bum an invite from someone since lots of Twitter folks are giving them away, but I don't want to fool around with setting up a new thing and then never use it.

Same thing with Pillowfort. I was curious about it when it was announced, but I'm like the opposite of an early-adopter. I like to wait a while and see if things will stick. And there doesn't seem to be much news coming out of it. I don't know if that's a good thing or not.

I have no interest in the Facebook/Meta/Instagram mess. YouTube and Tik-tok are non-starters, since I'd have to waste a bunch of time producing videos. What else is there?

I have a discord, but I really need to sort out how I use it. A few years ago I had envisioned making a server and inviting people to join it, but I'm not sure I have the motivation for something like that anymore.

These days, I've got half a mind to just run a shitty personal website, like the one I had in 1996. Back then, you only had 10 megabytes of space to work with, and it would take all damn day to put a picture of the Emperor from Star Wars on it and get it to display correctly. But at least I knew it'd be there the next day. Wait, no I didn't.

Anyway, the internet's always been an ephemeral beast. I won't say it hasn't changed, but I can't claim it was better in the Olde Days either. I saw someone complain recently that all you can do with it now is watch videos and shop, and back in the 90's you couldn't really do either of those things easily, so you'd just read text pieces with funny pictures, and maybe download a .wav file of the Incredible Hulk theme song.

But I'm getting off track. I'm on twitter. And here, and that's about it. I'm open to suggestions.