#i've been sitting on this one for soooo long because it just doesn't feel quite right

[madamescarlette]

JUNE 2024 (days in the in-between)

Molly Brodak / Pierpaolo Rovero / Janes Hirshfield / Anna Harley / Mary Szybist / Chen Chen / Charlotte Sorapure / Jenny Xie / Madeleine Jubilee Saito / Amy Gerstler / Heikala / AURORA / Carin Bengts / Barbara Crooker / Solavey / girl in red

[k2ntoss]

im quite literally in class rn but the jason brain rot is going so strong, so all i can think of is trying to convince Jay to stay home from patrol for just one(1) night because he's working too hard

like you barely see him anymore cuz he's either out running around as Red Hood or passed the fuck out in bed throughout the day, and just having enough of it and just like, getting down and giving him the absolute best head of his life to convince him to stay in (and he does, but only because he's literally physically unable to afterwards, like legs shaky and eyes glazed over, maybe just a little bit subby too?) ughhh god i need him so baddd 😭

- your friendly neighbourhood 🦊

after too many days i'm back, i've been too low on inspiration and i hate that but i read again this today while i was at work and i GIGGLED TOO HARD, 🦊 noonie i'm gonna find you (and kiss your brain) soooo as an apology for being off a few days, here we have a slightly long smutty thing with my sweet pretty boy jay <3

it's been probably over a month since jason only came back home to pass out on the bed, he barely woke up to eat something and do one or another stuff, even bruce was a bit worried about his health but he didn't pushed on it further.

once again night falls and jay is getting all geared up on your room, tactical pants, boots and that black compression shirt that always made your mouth water on when you came in, a small pout on your lips at the sight of your too tired boyfriend "jay... you look like you could use a night off" your voice is soft and so tempting for jason, because the idea of cuddling next to you and rest seemed to be what he needed more than anything.

"princess, you know i can't do that" jason sighs, there's a glimpse of want on his eyes and it's everything your brain needs to come up with a method to convince him and you are 90% sure it will work so it takes you less than a second to walk to him, letting yourself fall to the floor right between his legs.

the sight from that point is even more encouraging because jason looks so much intimidating like that, even when he frowns totally confused at your actions "but you work way too much, jay" and he knows what you're up too so his look changes from questioning to warning and oh, if it doesn't turn you on more because you know that you have the power to turn him into a puddle "you can stay home tonight, i can call dick to tell him you're sick and that you need to rest" your head lays on his thigh as one of your hand traces softly his stomach, fingers trailing over his abs while your eyes look into his.

"sweetheart, i can't do that–" jason starts, he sounds like he's having the hardest time of his life trying to tell you 'no' and it is as your fingers start to undo the buttons of his pants and his belt, caressing him over his boxers and feeling him reacting to your touch. there's a soft growl that escapes his lips, making you sit properly on your knees and looking up at your boyfriend for him to give into your (and his) needs just for him to move so you can pull his pants down enough to see his cock grow harder under your subtle strokes.

"you need to rest, at least one night" there's that pout on your lips again and that innocent tone that he doesn't buy because how could he when you start to slide your hand under his boxers and smile when his hard shaft is completely at your mercy, hand going up and down before you lean in to press a playful kiss on his tip, it sends a jolt through his spine and he can't help the low moan that slips past his lips when your tongue traces his length before taking the head between your lips.

it's always easy for jason to get lost on how good you make him feel, even when it comes to the times he needs to do something important so here he is, one of his hands on the back of your head while you suck slowly on him not taking in too much, your hand traces the veins on the bottom of his cock before stroking it "god damn, baby... you look so good on your knees for me" his voice is hoarse and he tries to pull you down on him just to be met with a playful look from you.

"c'mon, let me do this by myself" you speak, your lips shiny as you smile at jason, his dick pressed against your cheek and he nods "that's a good boy" and the way he swallows hard makes you chuckle before your mouth wraps around his shaft. jason keeps his hands next to his legs, the way you called him a good boy made him feel like he could cum just with your touch but it would have been pretty pathetic so he holds back. his eyes are fixed on the way your head bobs, the lewd noises your mouth makes everytime his head touches your throat and he has to resist the urge to fuck your face.

there's a pop that comes out of your lips when you let go of his cock, hand still fisted around him while you pull down the front of your sleeveless top, tits spilling out for him to look. the moan that escapes his lips is unholy when you put his dick between your breasts, tongue playing with his slit while you stroke him like that and he feels in heaven "you look so good like that, baby..." your words are sweet, he loves the way it feels because he could melt right there and it's what he needs to forget about anything else. he whimpers at the second you smirk, pulling away to grab hold of him and spitting on his shaft before taking it into your mouth again, this time sucking and licking on it with more urge.

you can feel him throb on your tongue, making you pull away again "such a pretty boy, aren't you? need to cum, baby? go ahead, good boys deserve to be rewarded" you coo him right before your mouth is wrapping him again and he can't help it this time, thrusting into your throat in a needy move before you can feel him shooting his load in a whiny moan, he looks so pretty like that and it makes you want to keep making him squirm.

it takes you nothing to stand up and go sit on his lap, his body trembles under your touch and the load you've been holding on your mouth falls over your tits when you open your mouth and stick your tongue out before you pull his head towards your breasts "feel better now, baby?" you ask with a small smirk when jason hums in response, his mouth too busy on one of your nipples as he sucks while looking at you from under his eyelashes, pretty green eyes glazed as he whines softly "wanna stay home for tonight?"

"yes, mommy..." he can barely speak without sounding too slurred from how tired he felt from all the extra work and the head you just gave him.

"fine, i'll call dick to tell him you're sick"

[slaaverin]

I feel like we’ve collectively moved on too fast from ‘Are you Sure’?!. Maybe we’re too overwhelmed?

Just wondered what your favourite part was? What shocked you? And what you would have changed ?

Jikookers have always had a tendency to move on from absolutely everything at tremedous speed which baffles me. There are still moments from years ago that still shock me to this day. I think it's because we've always been spoiled rotten by jikook 😂

I'm actually glad to get your ask.

A favorite part is soooo hard to choose, but I think what I liked the most was seeing their general happiness in Sapporo. They were SO happy and SO excited and played in the snow like children, it was quite beautiful to see. It's the trip that meant the most to them and it showed. But I also liked the chaos of Connecticut 😂

I was shocked many times. First with this:

THIS MOMENT.

I was gobsmacked. A slap in my face. Because this statement right there is irrevocably romantic. You can't spin it any other way. There is no blurred lines. There is no alternative. There is no other reason his heart is fluttering. Jungkook right there confessed to the world he is in love with Jimin. AND PEOLPLE DISMISS IT LIKE IT NEVER HAPPENED. I'm????? People really see what they want to see. There, he said it. He said Jimin simply holding his shirt is evoking romantic feelings in him. He is attracted to Jimin. And he said it in a very calm collected tone like this is another tuesday. Like this is a known, accepted, normal fact that would not surprise Jimin. He's just informing him. But this is not shocking news. IT TELLS EVERYTHING WE NEED TO KNOW.

Thank you for coming to my ted talk but moving on:

This whole segment was very shocking to me, not because they were particularly close (they are a couple so it's expected) but I was shocked to see they did this in front of a whole group of staff sitting in front of them who would be wondering what the f is happening. To show this level of closeness to a bunch of people you need to have such a high level of trust in each other and in the relationship. They are comfortable enough to show physical closeness and not be bothered one bit with anyone watching them which in itself is very disconcerting because that is not usually the case even in normal people long-term relationships, at least not to this level

The simple "This is see-through" phrase from Jungkook to a Jimin with a devilish smile ready to do mischief was very shocking to me. What was he about to do that deserved this warning? The only explanation would be that Jimin was about to get too close to him physically in the pool. But why would he do this as friends? Friends playing around would not have warranted such a warning. Because no one would have even thought about anything in particular.

But JK needed to warn him anyway. Only reason? If they are a couple and Jimin was about to get *CLOSE* like couples do in the pool. Which he was about to do looking at his devious smile. He was about to do something at least. Something that could not pass as friendship otherwise Jungkook would have said nothing. Much to think about.

He blurted it. Like it just came out so naturally. Jungkook has no chill whatsoever. This man is flirting blatantly in front of the entire world. While Tae was there. How could beautiful clouds even compare to Jimin. Jungkook only sees Jimin and he doesn't care for anyone to know about it. It's just what it is. Jimin or nothing. Everybody else can go home. Thank you Jungkook.

Of course one of the most shocking:

I already made a quick post about it but this was...this was....I have no words to this day. Can you believe we saw this? THE LEVEL OF INTIMACY. THE QUIETNESS OF THE MOMENT. THE KNOWING.

They knew. We knew. No one said a word. We were all intruding. I was frozen and holding my breath, my mouth wide open with shock and my heart was beating in my chest and I had to pause afterwards because this was jawdropping.

And I've seen many people that did not get it. But with everything we know about jikook thus far, everything they have been through, the growth, the ever expanding love, this moment was incredibly special and in a way quite emotional to witness.

This is their normalcy. Sharing a bed and intimacy and physical and emotional closeness.

AND THEY LET US SEE IT? CAN YOU BELIEVE? THIS IS ABSOLUTELY INSANE!

If you told me in 2018 we would witness this, I would not have believed you. This is beyond my wildest imagination. This is not even about the fucking butt-slap. It's the whole mood of the scene. It's the tenderness. I was on the floor.

I think this is the most shocking thing I've seen as a jikooker including MMA 2018.

This was shocking. Not the act itself. The shock was in the hesitancy of Jungkook. Of Jungkook allowing himself to share this tender moment with Jimin in a train full of people in Japan (of all places, where people don't show intimacy in public) but this moment was too important for Jungkook to pass it up and he almost didn't do it but then he thought fuck it and let himself go completely. What a beautiful and meaningful moment. How special and precious 💜😭

This was a really insane moment too. Jikook being tangled together god knows how in this car and Jungkook looking drunk on love showing off Jimin like a proud and posessive boyfriend. Just wow. I certainly didn't expect this but I can't say I'm not happy 🙊 They couldn't look more like a couple here

I'll finish with this picture that really shook me. Jimin's name on JK's chest. I don't know what else to say. If people wanted them to spell it out, well this is spelled out, literally. It's all here.

There were so many great moments and I feel we could talk about it for hours but I'm gonna wrap it up.

My last answer is probably gonna pin me as a hater but honestly I don't really care I know where I stand. What I would have changed to AYS would have been Tae not coming to Jeju. Look, I love Tae, I have no issues with Tae, and jikook were fine with it so this was fine, but I felt sometimes uncomfortable because I felt his presence was a bit misplaced, and you could feel it in jikook's behaviour too, so Jeju had a bit of an uneasy feeling to it. I think Tae didn't add anything more to the show. I would love to see more of Tae in any other setting, I love him in group settings in general, but I simply felt it was a bit of a wrong place wrong time situation. But I still enjoyed Jeju a lot it was just not my favorite.

Otherwise there would be nothing I would have changed to AYS. (Maybe Jimin not suffering this much? 😂)

Anyway thanks for your ask I had fun and take care anon 💜

[thalassomania]

what is “what happens next” about if you don’t mind me asking? :)

i've been sitting on this ask for a while now because WHERE! DO I! BEGIN!!!!

ok. so. what happens next is a currently ongoing webcomic by max graves, beginning late in 2021. it is a story told in multiple chapters about multiple characters, but one could argue that its protagonist is milo holliday. milo is a trans man, pastel blogger, toy customizer... and accomplice to a murder.

one of the first panels of the comic is a screenshot of the dni page on milo's tumblr, which got me IMMEDIATELY interested in the comic because it's such a unique way of storytelling:

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and we get a lot more pages like this that are screenshots of websites, social media profiles, and the like. the comic is a mixture of in-person interactions, online communication, and occasional flashbacks, all of which are important pieces of the story.

so when they were teenagers, milo's best friend griffin petty killed two people, and milo helped mutilate one of the bodies. while griffin was sent to prison, milo spent years in a psychiatric institution that stunted his emotional growth and forever altered his view of the world. a drawing he makes while institutionalized provides a window into milo's perceptions of the event:

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the whole comic is an uncomfortably accurate reflection of mid-2010s tumblr culture, right down to the sanrio traumacore and crytyping. milo's suffering is multifaceted: in reference to the people harassing him online, he says "it doesn't feel like they hate me for what i did... it feels like they hate me for the way i am," referring to his being an autistic trans man. and given that many of his detractors seem to come from sites like kiwifarms (notorious for its transphobia and ableism), he isn't entirely wrong! but at the same time, his relentless depictions of himself as the victim erase his contributions to haylie's death and the ways he's made himself and others' problems worse.

not every part of the comic is about milo, though! i'm only scratching the surface of it here: all of those pages and links are for the first part, titled "dog names." in the second part, "someone else," we're introduced to gage ludemann, a gore blogger and true crime fan who has entered a long-distance relationship with griffin, and once again, screenshots are used to masterful effect:

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but screenshots and characters' drawings are one thing, and max's art is another. starting in the third part, "no matter what," panels are shown in full color, and his color choices are great. what i really love, though, is the amount of detail max puts into character design and facial expressions. i could show you so many different panels that i think show off max's art, but i'll try to narrow it down to one:

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soooo yeah!! i have SO MANY THOUGHTS about this webcomic and i keep trying to get close friends to read it, haha. i've read a lot of webcomics and i can say with certainty that there is NOTHING out there quite like what happens next. it's a story about true crime fanaticism, psychological trauma, social media presences, existing as a transgender person, and so much more. the comic is currently on its fifth part, "you'll all be sorry," which seems to be about the characters vikki escamilla and xandra blumberg. if you decide to check it out please feel free to tell me all about it! i'm not connected to the comic at all, but i really love it and i think everything about it is just fascinating.

and max graves, if you're somehow reading this... hiiiiii i'm a huge fan!!! love your work!!! i hope i've represented it at least somewhat accurately here!

@kukai

[malwaredykes]

To: LUCKY 38 PRESIDENTIAL SUITE TERMINAL

From: Leigh Stasik

Subject: BIG DAMN BUGS

Hi there everybody!

So, it's day 5, and Joshua Graham continues to get on my nerves. I've received a lot of clear signals that the feeling is, of course, mutual. I don't think he's very happy about what I've been doing—or, more accurately, what I haven't been doing. Because he really, really wants to put me to work, in the sense that I'm to run errands for him, and I don't wanna do that. He doesn't agree to help me find a way back home, though, until I help him resolve his business. This, indeed, is a very unsatisfactory situation, as I am essentially being held hostage by the man, and I'm not pleased about him trying to act all kind and compassionate about it. I think he thinks he's doing me a great favor by “humoring” my “condition” (hahaha!) insofar as he hasn't gotten outwardly mean or violent about it. He's a hateful little man, quite homogeneously so with the Legion past of his that he claims he has long since abandoned and healed from. I in turn feel rather hateful whenever I have to listen to him go on and on about the love burning within and without him… Love for what? Vapid goof. Disgusting. I'd mess with him more, but I don't want to upset people here. But oh, how I want to mess with him. At least I know that if he tries to harm me, he won't last very long. I sure do love to hurt those who think themselves indestructible. Am I right? Who's with me?

I went out into the valley with Waking Cloud today, to disarm some traps set up by the White Legs on one of the bridges. She's so sweet! Not going to lie, I'm still a little surprised I managed to make friends here; it's not like I was going out of my way, as I had my own tasks to tend to, and didn't want to bother anyone.

But, anyway. Around noon the sun got reeeeaally harsh, so we decided to sit in the shade for a little while, right by the river, dipping our legs in the water. There's something about the smell of fresh flowing water, right above its surface, when the sun and the heat pull vapor out of it. We talked about a bunch of things. I think I've mentioned this already, but she's a midwife; we discuss medicine a lot, which is fun. She's taught me a lot about local herbs, their properties, and how to get the best results when preparing them. I told her about my hopes for cultivating some of Zion's plants and fungi back in the Mojave. In the end, she asked if perhaps I could stay in Zion. Gosh… What a touching suggestion. But I have family at home! I've got a dog and an eyebot to put through college! But I will return one day, I'm sure. I hope so. Maybe any of y'all wish to come along?

Soooo… We pressed onwards and then I saw them. A small pack of cazadores, nothing unusual for me, though their wings had a yellow tint to it, much paler than the bright orange I'm used to. Cloud was shocked by my nonchalant reaction, how I just pulled out my rifle and got ready to dispatch the creatures if needed, and I didn't understand until one got a little closer. That thing was huge! At least twice the size of the cazadores you'd see in the Mojave! And its chitin was a lot thicker, so it didn't go down with one or two shots. That was crazy. We did manage to hunt down a few, and the two that remained fled. Upon closer inspection, everything about these cazadores was bigger and more messed up. The stinger, the poison glands… Geeze. I wonder if the increased size comes from better air quality. Higher oxygen levels in the atmosphere did cause bugs to evolve larger in prehistoric times. I kinda want to try and make turbo out of these, but I don't think that's wise. I don't have the proper equipment with me to test the precise contents of this venom, and I can't exactly do a taste test. Oh well.

Ronnie-honey, aside from the surprise gift I can't wait to show you, I have a few mechanical tchotchkes for you to take a look at when I get back. You might be able to make sense of them, because I sure can't. I pulled one of them out of this airplane wreck I stumbled across. Well, you'll see.

Raul, Cloud gave me this recipe for agave candy that she makes for her kids. It takes time to prepare, but it's genius. I am so making it for you. And that's final. No ifs or buts. I mean, I'm gonna make it for everyone, but especially you.

Anyway. I need to get a good night's sleep this time. So, write to you later! Love you all! Take care!

Leigh

[tuttle-4077]

Can I rant for a second? Just a little rant?

I'm staying with my in-laws for the weekend. My kiddos got to trick-or-treat with their granddad which was nice for them (they usually go with their other grandpa, 'Papa'). Today and tomorrow I'm hunting with my FIL while MIL watches the kids which is also super nice.

BUT! my FIL is toxically generous. I'm not sure that's actually a thing but it kind of feels like it should be a thing. What I mean is he'll snag some sort of deal (clearance, garage sale) and then he'll say, "I got this. Want it?"

"No thanks, I don't need it," I'll say (or my husband, or my dad, or whomever he's talking to).

"What, you're not even going to try it on?" (the thing today was a toque).

"No I don't need it. I've got a hat. I'll be good."

"Come on, try it on."

"No, really."

"You'll look so good in it!"

"Seriously, I'm good."

"Well, it's there if you need it."

"👍"

Oi, it's exhausting!

And, oi. My MIL cannot cook. I mean, she can. Everyone can cook. And it's edible. But it's... not good. She browns her hamburger in the microwave which means little to no seasoning. And it's game meat so it needs seasoning. And it ends up with big chunks. And she doesn't even add seasoning to her sauce either. Maybe some salt. (When I first got him, I had to teach my husband that food was supposed to have flavour. He's quite the cook now.) I'm glad I came back to the house and there was food ready but... I guess I'm spoiled.

But the other thing is food safety. I'm fanatical about food safety (took foods in school and worked in restaurants through my teens and 20s). I never know how long food has been sitting out before I get to eat it. Has it been sitting in the stove (element off) for an hour? Longer? How long were these leftovers sitting out before you got around to putting them in the fridge? How old are these leftovers you're offering me? I put the food away tonight after I had a bowl because if I didn't, it would still be on the stove until she put it away before she went to bed. And it's not a big deal for me to put the food away-- I know where the Tupperware is-- but if I didn't then, like I said, it would still be out and she would still expect me to eat it tomorrow.

And then there's just all the stuff at their house. You can barely walk through the basement it's so full. And the upstairs is cluttered, but liveable. So every time we visit I get overwhelmed because one day I know I'm the one who's going to have to go through most of it because I'm the only one who's unemployed and has the time. Oi, yoi, yoi. I get a little overwhelmed by all of it.

And my MIL is the most knowledgeable mom there is because she's always giving me advice. And it's. Just. So... Nice of her... Soooo great. The best. When she gives advice it's not a suggestion it's a "You should" kind of thing. Because it worked for her and her kids. It'll work for everyone. She dispenses this advice to anyone she meets with children even if she only met them five minutes ago. So generous with her advice.

Okay. I'm a whiner. Sorry. And I lapsed into sarcasm. Had to scream this out into the void though.

[christianconfessions]

Hello, it's Wannabe Globe Trotter again! lol

Honestly, that did encourage me; I don't believe I'd actually met anyone else who'd gone as long as me being consistently single. And you're right, out of eight billion people, surely there's a counterpart for me. I did actually hear that aforementioned pastor say, "he'll love you for who you are," so he must have been picking up on my general vibe of, "now, who in the world would consider that type of relationship with me?" even in the moment (in addition to what I wrote earlier, admittedly, I am quite poor with verbalizing affection, and rarely touch anyone past a handshake, which I figured would also make me even less desirable). I guess I shouldn't rule out that there's one guy sitting in his room in Anywhere, Earth thinking, "if only I could meet a Christian woman who actually doesn't want to settle down traditionally." And I agree, being different is the fun of life! I'm someone who has a bold, unique sense of style, so I don't exactly shy away from just being myself. I guess where it got somewhat complicated in my head was the fact that I'm a pretty recent convert (about a year ago), so there's this feeling of, "am I actually doing this wrong?" Given that I have 0 role models/representation of the lifestyle I want to lead, it's easy to fall into this sort of thinking.

Regarding that side note, I'm flattered; I've actually wanted to be an author since I was a child! (I have this frustrating inability to actually commit to a single project as opposed to starting and abandoning numerous things, but that's a whole other can of worms... lol) I'm glad to hear there's a certain quality to my speech that would translate well to fiction.

And, of course, thank you for taking the time to reply! God bless you, as well!

Hey! I'm glad that encouraged you! I know there isn't a ton of people like us out here, but we're definitely not the only ones haha! I see it as...we've avoided boyfriend heartbreak so that's a good thing! I'm kinda awkward with physical touch (and awkward in general looool) soooo I think I get you. I do feel that there's multiple guys who are on the same page as you tbh! It may not be easy to come across them, but I'm sure they're out there! And I get you about the role model thing. Maybe you're just one of those people that's gotta draw up a blueprint and become the first role model!

That's cool you've wanted to be an author. I can definitely see it! I have a thing where I start one project and leave it to start another one LOL so I think I can understand. It's like a gift because yesssss the creativity is flowing...but also not so great because things be going unfinished lol...You could start off writing a bunch of short stories whenever you get the time to and overtime you'd have a whole book! You're very welcome!! You seem like a cool person!!

*If you want, feel free to message me on my main blog @relentless-for-jesus if you ever want someone to talk to. I know what it feels like to feel like a misfit and how lonely it can be at times. I'd be glad to help you in your walk with Jesus or just chat with ya!! I promise I'm nice haha! If you don't feel comfortable with that, it's totally fine!

[scribble-dribble-writes]

@ineedsomesleeptoday asked if I would be doing an analysis on Ramonda, so here I go haha!

Her character is another one of my favorites!!! She's rooted and grounded in her traditions which I find admirable. The first scene, we see Shuri absolutely restless, trying to find a way to stop it, not wanting to admit that her brother could pass, not sitting with him. But we see Ramonda at the end of that long shot, she's broken but at peace. She's accepted it, that the king is no more, her son is gone.

The UN scene was soooo powerful 😩😩 The whole world is trying to take a dig at Wakanda now because they're vulnerable, they don't have a king. But she shows up in the most gobstopping dress I've ever seen and narrates how they don't have a protector but are still well capable to handle stuff and if they strike her off she will react differently. To me, that is the common ground she and Namor shares. She's more diplomatic I'll give her that but if the other parts of the world were going to invade Wakanda, she would all out go to war with them. But she's dealing with all these by keeping an open ear and being on the look out.

Now the scene with her and Shuri I believe gives us more insight into how they differ. I love that cause is some cases the mother x daughter relationship can be quite strained too. Ramonda is a lady of the past, she believes AI will take over the world, Shuri should try to move one, I got the feeling she was hovering over Shuri's shoulder. Which I would say is the aftermath of losing her son. She's doing everything from a place of love but I reckon it's too fast for Shuri, who has now become numb to the pain, she's grieving differently. Ramonda takes her to the bush and asks if Shuri's mental construct is giving her comfort or torment? Which such a stunning question to pose to intellectuals. I often feel women get portrayed as being overtly emotional, but not all of us are like that. I grieve in a similar way to how Shuri and Katniss do, so that scene comforts me a lot.

But it takes a turn when she reveals her true intention of the ritual which we can see that Shuri isn't ok with, she needs more time and thank the heavens Namor disrupted that moment because I feel like she was on the verge of telling Shuri about Toussaint. That would have been the worst moment. Shuri is enraged, wants to burn the world, prior to that scene she does not pick up Nakiya's call, coming to know her brother had a child would have been a lot to handle while she hasn't yet let him go.

Shuri buries herself in her work, in her lab, she keeps her mind busy so she doesn't have to sit and think about her pain. Now Ramonda actually does not know how to get her to stop and feel, she trying to do so in the means and methods in which she knows but its not working. But when Okoye notices the same thing and suggest to take her out, Ramonda gets protective. She's wants Shuri to be here because she's working through her own trauma, she wants no harm to come to Shuri at all costs, I understand that. There's also a tension between Ramonda and Okoye in that scene, Okoye tells her she'll be with me, but I get the feeling that Ramonda isn't as trusting of Okoye like in the first movie, I understand that because of the whole killmonger plotline.

Shuri gets taken to Talokan and when Ramonda gets to know, all the defenses she's held up so far crumbles. She's acting out. She's not being rational. And these aren't flaws, I'm just pointing out how her actions are changing. She's a mother bear whose lost her only cub. So even as she banishes Okoye, a few of the elders feel it's unfair. She's trying to reach out to Shuri but gets a hold of Everett and tells him to keep her updated if the States were going to 'take action' on Wakanda. Now she goes back to Nakiya, who I feel like wants to be away from all this because of her situation. She says those were the days of her past, because Toussaint is playing in front of them. But Ramonda is helpless, she needs someone she can trust and comes up with the plan of Nakiya tracking Shuri down while she distracted Namor.

Now her character is fearless but sometimes fear is good. She meets alone with Namor and this man is contemplating a whole invasion. So the ideal route would have been to play into her strength of diplomacy but she doesn't. She starts strong, asking him how Shuri is and if there's anything she can exchange for her daughter. His response breaks her patience and in that moment out right threatens him of leaking his secret to his face. We see Namor's mannerisms change to, he was cool in the beginning but after that sentence, he's tense. He would have left in the thought that Shuri was going to be there and that he could have worked something out through her? I don't know. But I'm sure he's not handling it well, he would have become paranoid.

My personal take is Ramonda should not have threatened him when he has clearly told them he's got more warrior than Wakanda has blades of grass.

The other thing that goes wrong is the whole infiltration. Nakiya does it without any sensitivity. She just wants the princess back upon orders by the queen but she's not thinking about the consequences of her actions. She threading fragile ground. I feel like she could have just stunned the two guards instead of killing them. Namor would have let that slide, but instead she lethally wounds them in a way they cannot heal themselves again. The warriors Okoye stabbed got back up, so with body wounds I think they do regenerate.

This plan is a choppy disaster. But Ramonda gets Shuri back and everyone's happy only for a short time, before the invasion happens. The other scene that is strikingly scary is when Ramonda faces Namor. She's waiting for him? She's unprotected and tells Riri to run. I think she herself knew that this would have been the end. She's fearless and comes to terms with it. I don't see her panic. She faces him head on even when she knows she doesn't stand a chance. It's possible that was because she knew her threat will not be received kindly? I have to see the film again to piece it all together. But her defiance to run from Namor speaks volumes but at what cost.

She was noble, selfless, fearless, loving and diplomatic but she's absolutely human when she mixes it all up and gets it wrong.

Her death is significant, it pushes Shuri to recreate the heart shaped herb. She wasn't willing to do so till Ramonda was there. She knew that her kingdom was vulnerable but the black panther had to come back. It pushes her from girlhood to womanhood.

Quite similar to when:

Peter parker loses aunt May

Hiccup loses his dad

Katniss losing Primrose

It's a character arc for the hero to set up. That's my take on it.

[zoeykallus]

Hey there! This isn't a request or anything, I was just thinking a lot about a request you got not long ago asking which body parts the Bad Batchers would like and I think the requester thought Tech was a boob man or whatever.

Anyway, that's not really important. What I want to talk about is you mentioned that you didn't feel comfortable writing it because you didn't want anyone to feel upset or offended.

I just want to tell you that is not your fault. It is not on you.

Your writing has been taking off and I am so happy for you, I am so happy that more people are finding your talent. But with having more readers, there's a chance that people will want to "police" you and you don't deserve it. It's a reader's responsibility to know what they're reading and to understand that if something were to upset them, it's not okay to take it out on a writer. Headcanons are different from person to person and so are preferences and that shouldn't be a reason to fight in fandom. You have every right to write whatever you want and whoever doesn't like it can just go touch grass.

You're a writer, not a babysitter. You have the right to enjoy what you write and to write according to your own headcanons and interpretations and if someone gets offended or tries to call you out for that, it's not your fault and they're big poopieheads.

Plus you are literally not problematic. SW fandom loooooves to point fingers at problematic people, and you're not one of them. You're a light in this fandom, you gift us with beautiful writing, and we love you.

You are wonderful and don't you forget it!

-🍄

Thank you very much! This was very enlightening, enjoyable and encouraging. I must honestly say that so far I have been lucky not to be criticized too much or often, so far the fandom has been really very welcoming and loving.

I'm always very critical of myself and cautious, if only because English is not my first language and I never really learned it, but taught myself for the most part. Much of what I want to write, I often can not express as I would like to.

You're right, I'm not babysitting anyone, but in today's society everyone is so cautious and oversensitive and puts far too much on the gold scale that when I write it sometimes feels like I have to perform complicated acrobatic acts.

To be honest I still feel new to the "gender game", for example, a bigger trigger for some people, it never cocerned me personally and I still have to really find out what all of it means for some people. There are soooo many new triggers compared to ten years ago.

Most of the time I still write the way I feel, sometimes soft, sometimes hot, sometimes very sad or even desperate or sometimes uplifting, comforting. I've found that I just can't work through my projects on a schedule anymore, not even always in the same order, because sometimes you just don't feel sexy, or happy, or dark enough for what's ahead in that story or request. However, I always try to answer sad asks who need comfort a little faster than others, but even that is sometimes not that easy. So at the moment everything is a bit messed up and I took three days off because I experienced a private low and I couldn't concentrate.

Now I continue to write. I just hope that I am forgiven that my rhythm these days is different and not quite as accurately ordered as it once was.

There are so many people who welcome you with open arms and who openly show their joy. And there are those who just sit and wait to criticize something, and these people I find exhausting. So far, I've rarely experienced this, but I've seen it in the comments of other writers and silently thought to myself, "Why is this a problem? Let people write the way they want".

In the end, everything is fiction anyway and everyone has their own idea of how certain things should be, or how certain characters behave, what personal traits they have. You can never really make everyone happy. If you want to write in a balanced way, I think you really have to get out of the habit of trying to make everyone happy.

The reason I didn't write those HC's was of course because I would write something like that completely out of how I feel about this, there's no other way to do it at all. I am who I am and I can't and don't want to write anything generic just to make everyone happy, because I wouldn't be happy with that (as egoistic as it may be). I also have no desire to deal with the exhausting people who would certainly put each word individually on the gold scale. Part of me thinks though as I said in the reply then, some people might be sad, they wouldn't complain but feel let down in some ways.

Meanwhile I have almost 1.5k followers and somehow I already have the feeling that I have a certain responsibility or, a different relationship to the fandom as before, I'm suddenly in the middle of it and suddenly have a few people who sometimes comfort themselves with what I write. I had people contacting me, telling me how much reading this or that meant to them. It is beyond any explainable feeling.

To read your message was very pleasant, has given me courage and showed me that I probably do something right (sometimes ;) ) Thank you again. You have brightened my day.

[cinnamonest]

Daily Life - Yandere Childe, Zhongli, Xiao

A continuation of the earlier post about Kaeya and Diluc

Content Warnings: n/s/f//w mentions/themes/stuff (but not like, explicit detail), fem reader, normal yandere stuff

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Childe's a busy guy. He wakes you up every morning, usually pretty sweetly. He'll nuzzle up against your face, mumbling a "good morning" into your ear. He's sweet, but, you gotta get up when he tells you to. And you have to be the one to make food, he likes watching you walk around.

If he's gone, he is again one to give darling a surprising amount of freedom. He has the highest quality of security available and all, so he allows some roaming. That and, in a sorta terrifying thought, he's one hundred percent confident that even if you got away, he could find you, so he's not even too worried about escaping. He's so confident that you'll never truly escape him, which frankly is pretty intimidating for darling to realize. He'll get you things you like and stuff to do, stimulate your mind and all that, probably as time goes on will leave you chore lists and things you're required to do for him or else.

When he gets back, he's very tired usually, will expect you to make him food and be sweet and greet him at the door when he comes back, preferably on your knees. If you're not, he'll get irritated, especially if you're trying to hide. If you're just asleep or something, he might excuse it and find it cute. But he does a lot for you, you know, the least you can do is this one little thing. If he's had a particularly bad day, he'll be extra irritated, so it's wise to follow this command, and be ready to have all of his irritation taken out on you the moment he gets back. You're his favorite little stress ball to stuff and squeeze.

For days off, as I've said before he's one of the few that will willingly take you outside, and unlike Kaeya from the last routine post he's not in a bad mood about it either. He likes to show you off, likes walking in public holding hands or with his arm around you so that people can see, it gives him a sort of pride, and honestly he likes mimicking a "normal" relationship. But just know you're on a tight leash. Not literally of course... yet. He lays it out very clearly exactly how you are to behave when going outside, not speaking to others and not going out of his sight. Any attempts to make a scene, try to get a stranger to help etc will be dealt with fairly harshly. And don't think about pulling some covert, sneaky shit like trying to look at a stranger with the "help me" facial expression or trying to silently mouth something, slip a written message to a waitress etc -- he'll be watching you closely enough to pick up on any of that, and honestly that will set him off more than blatantly trying to make a scene. You will be immediately headed home to get an attitude adjustment since you can't behave.

Later on, he'll want you to accompany him to his work sometimes, on those days that whatever he has to do involved more sitting down than fighting - paperwork, important meetings, etc. He likes your presence, of course, you make the time pass more quickly. But really this is, more than anything, because he's an arrogant show-off. He'll give you something to fiddle with but will just sit you on his lap throughout the whole time, gently stroking your thigh or resting his head on your shoulder, making you wear embarrassingly revealing things and making sure everyone sees, be it the entire group in a wide meeting hall or some subordinate come to have a one-on-one talk, or even his superiors, thanking them for them letting him bring his pet to work. It even allows him to get in some good de-stressing during the middle of the day when no one else is around. Expect lots of bring-your-fucktoy-to-work days like that.

Of course, not every day is spent out, though. He also has days he'd rather just stay at home. These days are usually after a long period of difficult work and late nights, so he's exhausted. Expect lots of naps, just cuddles and an arm wrapped around your waist (with a solid iron grip, of course). May or may not progress to slow cuddlefucking, who knows (yes it always does). He gets all whiny and demanding because he's soooo tired, so he'll make you get on top after a few rounds.

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Honestly we all envy my Zhongli's darling already, but God he's the best to wake up to. He just softly kisses the side of your face, running his hands down your sides. He can't let you sleep in too much, it's bad for your health! You can probably beg for a few minutes extra. And God, is it the best to wake up to. He's already got someone (probably one of the other adepti, a person, who knows) to make you food, and it's never skimping out either, it's always tons of food and your favorite things, too. Within limits, of course, can't have you eating nothing but things that are bad for you. He's also one that will get you tons of things to do throughout the day, virtually anything you ask for, he'll pay for (well... someone will, but you'll think he did, at least). He actually might also give you a list of very simple tasks to do, just to give you some motivation, since even if you have a lot to do, having no tasks and only play can get depressing without the sense of accomplishment. But he's much more lenient on your completion of all of them.

He's always reluctant to leave and gives you a lot of headpats and kisses before finally heading out for  the day, always taking time to contemplate whether or not he can just take the day off. During the day you'll stay in the confinements of your cage, be that an abode or a building somewhere, making sure you stand zero chance of ever getting out. If you force his hand (read: multiple escape attempts), he'll reluctantly have to limit your roaming abilities, but once you're confined to a smaller cage and have some privileges taken away, he's certain you'll be on your best behavior to get out again, and maybe be a little more grateful and understanding in the future. Once he gets back, it's generally a very nice time, he likes to lead a quiet life and will want to hear all about your day, what you did, see the progress on all those little projects you've been working on for art or music or whatever hobby you've taken up to pass the time. If he's had a bad day, he'll probably tell you about it, but you know, put it in terms simple enough for you to understand, since you wouldn't normally get such complicated matters.

On very very rare occasions, not nearly as often as Childe, he might take you to on his day with him, probably not during normal workdays, but for some kind of special day -- a large meeting, or the opposite, a day where he has nothing to do but slow paperwork alone in an office. The sunlight is good for you, and he'll bring stuff for you to do too. To be honest, it's not as obvious nor as obnoxiously vocal about it as Childe, but he also does enjoy having your presence in front of others, letting them see you. The things you'll have to wear aren't nearly as obscenely lewd as Childe's either, but they're not entirely wholesome either.

He really likes having off days. On those days, he'll probably want to take you somewhere, generally will do whatever you want to do. He's incredibly knowledgeable on everything in the area, and would probably also really like going out somewhere secluded in nature, rather than in the city, like a nice view from the nearby mountains or the like, and just spend a day there. It's nice, and far away from prying eyes that can't recognize your face off the missing person posters or witness the obscene things that may or may not take place up there.

 Spending time home is always nice too, though, just quietly going about the day and doing whatever you want, although inevitably taking breaks for much-needed... displays of physical affection. And he tries so hard to be gentle, but he also has a lot of stress pent up that may just come out and result in being a bit rougher than usual, but he's always apologetic afterward, making sure you're alright. He's also pretty strict about the time you go to bed. Making sure you get enough sleep and all that.

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Xiao's poor, poor darling. You always wake up to him shaking you awake. He's impatient. Once he feels you've had enough sleep, he'll get you up like that. Don't try to get more sleep-in time, he's not very gracious on that, will simply huff and yank you up. Otherwise, the mornings can be... Sweet. It's not like he's trying to be so cold all the time; if you're well behaved he can be pretty loving, even if he doesn't quite know how to be gentle. He just has... Low tolerance.

Xiao is very quiet for the most part, and the mornings have a sort of silent peacefulness provided it's one of your days that you don't choose to be difficult. He likes to watch you go about the morning. It's a little creepy to be honest? He just sits there nearby and watches you move around, make food, brush your hair or teeth or whatever. He'll eat whatever you make him, even if it's not one of his extremely limited liked items. He might complain, though.

During the times he IS gone, well, it's extremely boring for poor darling. Early on, or if you've done something to warrant it (read: literally the slightest word of disagreement, a tone of voice he doesn't like, even a facial expression he deems defiant) you'll be bound to the bed, hand and foot. Nothing to do whatsoever but stare at the ceiling. It's your own fault, if you were good maybe it wouldn't be like this, he says. When you are good, and have a nice long-time record of being extremely pleasant and sweet to him - and I mean a LONG time - he might - might - finally let you be unbound aside from a long anklet chain connecting you to the bed. Not like you have much else to do, though. Maybe he'll get you books if you ask nicely and grovel at his feet. But that's it. He doesn't like the thought of giving you too much entertainment. If being alone is mind-numbingly boring, well, you'll enjoy time with him that much more. Eventually you'll reach a point where you're begging him not to leave, he hopes, even if he would never admit to that. So what he'll do is balance it, give you just enough to keep your whining down, but keep making sure you're miserable when alone. He only allows you "activities" (read: a book) on certain days of the week, or every other day, every third day, something like that. And you can only get a new book once a month or so. And it's whatever he finds, not just what you want, so he'll start dropping you with encyclopedias and textbooks and other dull things. You can't complain, after all he IS giving you something to do. If you're gonna complain, well, how would you like to have the reading privilege revoked entirely? And that shuts you up. So, really, poor darling's days are very very bleak, dull, and empty, when alone.

He doesn't really have a "end of the day." His "job" is more or less a 24/7 thing, he goes when he's needed and when he's not needed he'll be with you. Usually it's a semi normal schedule but it can lead to odd intervals - you may have times he's gone for a full day or so, and then times where he's there for a whole day, etc. Spending time together is quiet, but he's surprisingly fond of physical affection. He spends a lot of time just... alone with his thoughts. Spacing out and thinking, looking up at the sky, except, well, now it's him, his thoughts, and you. You'll spend it with him too, iron grip locked around your waist so you can't pull away from his lap. He's also one to need to get out the... frustrations of life through physical activity at night.

Days he's there, again, it's pretty quiet, he's not much one for extensive conversation, of course. If you talk, he'll listen, but don't expect him to say much back. He likes the sound of your voice, one of the only people he doesn't prefer silence to, so long as you're not whining about wanting to leave. He doesn't really have a lot of sitting-down type of work to do, so if he's spending a whole day time with you, it means he's specifically worked it out so that he's able to do so for that purpose. He'll probably prompt you to speak, it's super awkward really. An awkward comment about this or that that he clearly wants you to start talking about, and he'll talk back just a little bit, with his own brand of harsh pessimism -- but that's just the only way he really knows how to communicate, he's not actually trying to shut you down when he responds to everything negatively. It's the most bizarre bonding time, but bonding nonetheless. He also likes to watch you do tasks -- to make food, even if it's just for yourself, to clean and walk around doing your little tasks. He may or may not eventually discover a fondness for forcing you to walk around naked, poor darling.

I've mentioned before that his drive is reactive - it gets heavier when he's with you. So really, your day will be filled with little fun intervals of very spontaneous fucking. Like, he has no sense of mood or timing. It's completely random, very forceful, will just loop his hands under your arms and scoop you up and carry you over to bed at any random moment, interrupting your speech even. Or, sometimes the bed is too far, and just bending you over is easier. And then, he'll just carry on like nothing happened.

He's not one to rant and rave about his day by default, and especially not early on. In the later stages, though, once he's comfortable with you, you might find him slipping out a frustration here or there, a passing comment about something upsetting that happened, and if you pry at it, he'll end up talking, much more than usual. He kind of doesn't even realize he's starting to ramble a bit, and if he catches himself he'll stop and mutter something about it being unimportant anyway.

Bonus little hc: He asks you how your day was. Every day that he's not with you. It's a routine - he started doing it because from his limited knowledge of human relationships, it's the "normal," so he tries to emulate what he feels like is normal in a relationship. It's kind of funny, well, not for poor darling, it feels mocking. Like, how do you think my day was, Xiao? All tied up and left only to stare at the ceiling? If you get all sarcastic with him like that, though, he might see it as grounds for punishment, so, be snarky at your own risk.

[snzunii]

Hi, can I ask for a scenario with Gojo Satoru and a female s/o who is born and raised in a strict, traditional Japanese family, like a very proper lady. Gojo's known to have zero respect for customs so im really curious to see how he would act in a relationship like this. Would he try to find common ground or bend her completely to his will? Tysmmm

TURN ME AROUND.

He turned you around. He turned your dull and boring life and made it bright. He made you do things that you didn't know you could do. Gojo Satoru is the arch of colors formed in the sky in your otherwise rainy and dark life.

+ pairings. gojo satoru x f!reader.

+ tags. romance, fluff, slight angst, hurt/comfort, modern au, established relationship, parental issues, toxic parenting traits, mentions of mental health, just fluffy gojo satoru cos aaaaa <3

+ word count. 3.6k

+ note. hellooooo hi, im very very sorry if this took soooo long for me to post. i swear i have been writing this for days 😭 to be honest, this is a quite challenging request that i've received since i'm not familiar to the norms of traditional japanese families. soooo, i would not base the reader's family to a certain ethnicity but the strict family (well, father) and a bit of traditional (traditional, like, how reader's ancestors raised children in their family) are still a main factor to the story, not to upset anyone incase i might get it wrong. sorry 🥺 hope u like this! <3

The night is going well.

Or is it?

Well, at first it definitely was going well. If it wasn't for your father who was constantly going on and on about how you should focus on training for you to take over your family business— how you are the one who would continue and make his empire grow.

Which is putting a lot of pressure on you and something about it doesn't sit well with your boyfriend.

Gojo Satoru has known you and loved you for quite some time now. He knows things about you. He knows what you want and what dreams you hold dearly to your heart.

He knows that you don't want to take over your family's business.

Seeing that you now live in a modern society, the old-age beliefs are still instilled in your family— in fact, most families.

Gojo is aware to the fact that you grew up in such household and he tried in the uttermost part of his heart to respect that. He knows that you grew up not to defy your elder's rules.

This dinner was supposed to go well. Its purpose is for Satoru to get on the good side of your parents. To get on the good side of your father above all.

"Well, I think that she should be able to do what she wants. I would not hold her back from doing what she really wishes to achieve."

You might see this as your boyfriend standing up for you. However, to your father—  this is just blatant disrespect to his point of view.

"I appreciate you expressing your opinion but I know what my daughter wants and she definitely wants this. I am not holding her back if that is what you are implying."

Gojo hummed and laid his back on the chair, sitting comfortably as he stare at your father with his daunting blue eyes while a grin is plastered on his face, "May I ask one thing, sir? Have you asked her what she wants or you just assumed that's what she wants without even talking to her?"

You avoided your father's gaze. You don't actually know what to say. You can't defend Gojo because your father might think that you are disrespecting him but you can't defend your father as well.

Seeing that Satoru might think that you are siding with your father because you were hoping not to take sides.

You can feel the tension in the table— your boyfriend and your father throwing daggers at each other as if they are going to kill one another with their looks.

"Alright! I think we should call it a night."

Thank goodness for your mother. You chuckled awkwardly and squeezed Satoru's hand softly under the table. He looked at you and gave you his smile that was always warming your pure heart.

"It was nice meeting you, Satoru." your mother said as your parents' stand up.

You both did the same, Gojo smiled to your mother. "It was very nice to meet you as well."

"Sir." Satoru then turned to your father and laid his hand for your father's hand to shake it but he just gave him a disapproving hum.

You sighed, this wasn't the meeting that you pictured. Satoru promised you that he'd be in his best behavior and that he did, what just ticked him off is your strict father.

Controlling is what he is in Satoru's mind.

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"I'm sorry." you felt a warm pair of arms wrapping around your waist, "Your father is just..."

"I know but you promised me." you sighed as you turn to face your boyfriend, "How am I supposed to fix that now? You know we can't do what we planned if I can't get my father to like you."

"I know." he gave you a quick peck on the forehead, you just scrunched your nose at him and gave him a kiss on the lips. "But you are freaking twenty five, you don't need your father to decide everything for you and you know that."

You gave him a bitter laugh, thinking that if it's that easy then you would not be having this conversation with him. "Do you think that I don't know that? Do you think that I'm glad that I had to run my every decisions past them?"

For heaven's sake, you have been with Satoru for three years but they just met him last night. You don't need your father doing a background check on your boyfriend.

The motive last night was for him to get on the good side of your parents— in that way, when you tell your parents that you want to move out and live with your boyfriend, they would at least think about it.

Now, you think that your father would just say no without thinking twice.

You know that it is far-fetched— moving out. The rule is, unless you have a ring on your finger, that is the only time that you get to leave your household.

Regardless, even if Satoru proposes to you now you don't think your father would approve of the marriage given how your boyfriend acted last night. You know your father, he wants everyone wrapped around his finger.

He doesn't want people disrespecting and opposing him. Plus, you aren't ready. Yes, you love him. You love Satoru so much that you feel like your chest would explode due to happiness whenever you see him.

But you aren't there yet. Moving in with him is a big step but you want to take big steps slowly.

"Then how about telling your mother first?" he smiled, "I think she would approve. I can see that she liked me. She liked me, right? Right?"

You just chuckled and messed with his hair a bit, "No. She was just being polite to you."

But your mother really did like him, you just said that to mess with him. He gave you a disbelief look and then he laughed afterwards, tightening his arms to your waist a bit to pull you a little closer, "Okay. If you say so."

"I'm not kidding. She doesn't like you."

"Okay, little miss liar."

You squealed for a bit when he carried you in a way that the groom carries his bride as he went to his couch and settles you on his lap, "You know if I married you I would carry you just like this once we enter our new house."

"Oh, really?" you grinned , "Then what the hell are you waiting for?"

"Really?" you laughed when you saw how his face brightened up, "Then will you marry-"

You cut him off by smacking his head lightly, "Satoru, you dumbass."

He just chuckled at you and snuggled his face onto your neck. You heard him whispered the three words that always makes your heart beat in an instant. You just leaned your head to his and you both fell into a comfortable silence.

"Aren't you tired?"

Satoru pulled his head up to look at you, he placed his hands on each side of your cheeks to make you face him. "Why? I'm not. Why would I be tired? Are you? Are you getting tired of us?"

You did the same and cupped his face, "I'm not. I just think that we hid our relationship to my parents for three years and now we still have to walk on eggshells even though they know you already. I know you hate people like my father.."

"I don't hate your father I just don't like how conventional he is. Like, damn. It's the 21st century now. Keep up, old man." you just rolled your eyes at him jokingly, he smiled and tucked the strands of your hair behind your ear, "And he's probably the one who hates me but I love his daughter. I love you."

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You woke up because of the loud sound filling the four corners of your bedroom. You reached for your phone, eyes half-opened. "What?"

"Hi baby." you heard your boyfriend's voice on the other line, "You sleeping?"

"What do you think, Satoru?" you lazily answered, looking at the clock that says 1:30 am with a frown on your forehead. "It's one in the morning, babe. What do you want?"

You heard him chuckle, you swear you can see his billion-dollar smile in your mind. You can see him holding the phone in his hand while his head slightly tilted as he talk to you. "I'm outside your house."

You didn't have any time to process what he said, you abruptly stood up from your bed and peeked outside the window. You can see him standing outside your house, he waved his hand at you once he saw you. "You look really sexy in that sleepwear, babe."

You scoffed and closed your curtains once again, "What are you doing in here this late? Are you crazy?"

"I'm taking you out on a date. Twenty minutes, is that enough? I'll wait here. Love you."

"Satoru-" before you could even protest, he dropped the call.

You know Satoru can be spontaneous sometimes but you just didn't expect that he would call you up at midnight knowing that your father might catch you two.

You sighed and fixed yourself anyways. You just wore your casual clothes and quietly sneaked out of your room. You feel like a teenager sneaking out. Well, you are really sneaking out but you aren't a teenager anymore.

You shouldn't be doing these kind of things but you guess you really don't have any choice but to do this. You really are not used to do things like this because you grew up really disciplined.

But ever since you met Satoru, you do things that you haven't experienced in your teenage years and it was fun.

He turned you around. He turned your dull and boring life and made it bright. He made you do things that you didn't know you could do. Gojo Satoru is the arch of colors formed in the sky in your otherwise rainy and dark life.

Your sneaking was a success not until you heard a familiar voice that belonged to your mother. "Where are you heading to, young lady?"

You slowly turned around to face the woman. "Mother. I was just... I just want some fresh air?"

She just looked at you, not saying anything. She knows that you are lying, she gave birth to you. She knows every look and gestures that you were making. Hell, she taught you not to lie and be respectful and such.

Of course, she knows you are lying. You sighed and gave her your pleading eyes, "Satoru's outside and we're just going out for a bit. Is that okay? You won't tell dad, right?"

She sighed and gave you a smile after that which calmed you. "Of course not. You are an adult already."

You embraced your mother. If only your father could think like this then you wouldn't have any problem.

After your mother gave you a reminder and such. You walked out of your house and saw your boyfriend standing outside. "You really are unbelievable, Gojo Satoru."

"Whatever. Get inside, darling." he gave you a playful smile and opened the car door for you.

You just snickered at his ridiculously adorable endearments and got inside his car.

Satoru brought you to a hillside after you went to a drive thru, and from there you can see the amazing lights from the tall buildings in the city. But no matter how soft and dazzling they are to your eyes, Satoru's beauty and effulgence would always beat them in your sight.

You really are besotted with him and he is the same with you, maybe even more. He loves you more than you love him.

After a lot of laughs and a lot of picture taken together using your instant camera, you both silently lay your backs on the hood of his car, your fingers are interlocked as you both stare at the stars.

He tilted his head a bit to look at you, a wide smile forming in his face— stricken by the way you look under the soft and slightly wavering light of the moon and stars.

...

"Satoru! I'm very glad that you came." your mother greeted your boyfriend with a welcoming smile plastered on her face which he reciprocated with his usual smile.

"Thank you for inviting me."

It's your father's 53rd birthday and you figured that this is your chance to redeem your boyfriend to your father.

It is a big party, different business magnates are in your house. Your father can't snap if your boyfriend pisses him off again, which Satoru promised you that he would not again.

You went on your designated table with Satoru, waiting for a chance to swoop in once your father finishes talking to his business associates.

You turned to Gojo and smiled at him, you held his hand and caressed the back of his hand using your thumb. "Are you nervous?"

He just snickered at you and you saw the confidence in his face and a bit of arrogance, "Why would I be? I already met him and I know how he is."

You just assented and looked at your father who is now free, you need to go to him now or he would talk to someone again. You gestured Satoru to follow you.

"Dad!" your father smiled at you but then it faded when he saw the tall white-haired man behind you. "Satoru's here."

Satoru saw the same look of disapproval he received when you had dinner with your parents. Regardless, he greeted your father with a smile on his face even though he doesn't like how your father looks at him.

He promised you that he would try and he would.

And so, the night begins.

You never really had the chance to get your father to talk to you and your boyfriend because he was always occupied in talking to his business partners not until he gestured you to go to him.

You left your boyfriend on your table and went to your father. "Dad. Can I talk to you?"

You are getting nervous. Never in your life you had the guts to confront your father about something that you don't like. Satoru's the only one who made you want to stand up to your father.

"Can you do that later? I'm going to-"

"No, Dad." you said firmly but deep inside you were shaking. Oh god. Your father frowned at you, "I have been trying all night to get you to talk to Satoru but you are ignoring us."

He gave you a particular smile before he leaned on your ear, "I don't care about your boyfriend. Now, fix yourself."

You just sighed and followed your father. "Mr. Hara, this is my one and only daughter."

You smiled and bowed to show politeness. "What a very charming lady."

You let out a smile, a bit uncomfortable smile at that, "Thank you, Mr. Hara."

You have a bad feeling about this.

"I believe you brought your son with you, why don't we introduce them?" your father said, causing for you to look at him with a hint of disbelief in your eyes.

You literally have your boyfriend with you.

"Dad-"

"There he is!" Mr. Hara said as he gestured his son to go to your direction, "We'll leave you be."

You were left with no choice but to talk to this young man because your father gave you a terrifying look. He stretched his hand out for you, "Hi. I'm Kenji."

Not long, you felt an arm wrap around your shoulder, you looked up to your six foot three inches boyfriend— smiling at the man and reaching out for his hand in your stead, "And hi to you as well, I'm Satoru."

"I believe I'm talking to her. Not you."

Gojo chuckled in a contemptuous manner, "That's cute, you are talking to my girlfriend. Will excuse us? Thanks."

You walked back to your table with your boyfriend but there's a part in you that wanted to go back there, not because you wanted to talk to Mr. Hara's son, but because you know your father would be fuming once he knew that you just left him there.

"Satoru-"

"What? You want to go back? Do you know how uncomfortable you look out there?" he said as he sip his drink, he settled the glass on the table and looked at you, "You know you could've excused yourself. You don't have to go with every bullshit your father-"

"Not here." you said with a low firm voice, "Please. You know I do need to-"

"Need to abide to your father's illogical rules? Unreasonable fucking demands and high standards?"

You sighed and held his hand, pulling him inside your house upstairs to your room, away from the gathering in the garden. You do not want to make a big deal out of it, Gojo knows how it works inside your family but he is acting a bit differently today.

"What is wrong with you? You know how it is! I thought you understand?" you exclaimed once you shut the door.

"I'm trying to." he said a bit calm compared to you, "But you are always complaining to me about how your father is this and that but you aren't making any single damn thing about it."

"It's not easy." you sighed as you sat on your bed, "I grew up like this. They raised me like this, to always follow their rules. Not to talk back. You know all of this already!"

Gojo sat beside you and wrapped his arm around your shoulder, leaning your head on his shoulder, "They just want the best for me, Satoru. I know my father can be too much and I know sometimes it really is too much and it's suffocating but I think that's his way to show how he cares."

"By trapping you? By expecting too big of you that you are putting a lot of pressure on yourself? Is that how he care?" he pulled away from you, "That's funny. You said it yourself that it is suffocating. For fuck's sake, you don't see what's wrong there?"

It's the first that you see Satoru snap like this. He was always smiling and understanding to your situation but you can't exactly blame him. The unchanging rules set in your family was hurting your relationship with him but most importantly— it is hurting your mental well-being.

He knows your father was raised like you are and Gojo thinks that of all people, your father must understand how draining it is.

"So what do you want me to do?" you mumbled as you look down.

"No. What do you want to do? It's not up to me." he knelt in front of you, holding your chin in between his fingers as he make you look at him. He gave you a smile, "Look. I'm willing to try and understand you, you know I do but you know I just can't stand what your father is doing to you."

There's a limit in how long he can stand your father. He was being respectful at this point because that man is your father and he loves you. You know him, he don't give a rat's ass about rules.

He grew up in a similar way as you are and he parted ways with his family because he doesn't like what they were doing to him.

"I'm going to figure this out. Just trust me, okay?" you said.

It might took too long for your father to soften up and let you be but you would try with all your might.

"I know you will, baby. I trust you."

You smiled and stood up, laying your hands for him. "Come on. Let's go downstairs."

"Already? Can't we make out for just a bit?" he teasingly said as he held your hand.

You rolled your eyes at him, and pointed the wall to your left, "You see that wall? When you remove that, that's my parents room. You really want to make out in the room next to my parents'?"

Plus, you haven't really brought anyone up to your room until now. Of course, you have done stuff with him but not in your house, you don't really want to then your parents would know you have done that.

He pulled your waist close to him and gave you a short but sweet kiss on the corner of your mouth. "Fine by me. They aren't there right now anyways."

You looked at him with a smirk forming in your mouth— bending the rules hasn't been a problem for you if it's with Satoru anyways.

A giggle escaped from your mouth when he carried you to your bed, crashing your back into the gentle mattress as he get on top of you, kissing your face all over down to the supple skin of your neck as you grip his soft ivory hair.

If he could compromise in your family situation then you can deviate.

It's a win-win situation, you guess.

[kpop-dungeon-dark]

REQUEST (Nerd!Felix/Yongbok x You)

•TRIGGER WARNING•

Warning(s): Non-Con, humiliation, degradation, brat taming, watersports, breath play, rough filthy shit. Read at own risk.

"If that isn't our little Yongbokkieeee~" Felix sighed and shut his eyes tightly when he heard the familiar dreadful voice from behind, holding the straps of his school bag even tighter. "Aigoooi~ aren't you in a hurry, foreign booooy?" Her perfectly manicured hand placed on the boy's shoulder, pulling him back.

"Let go, Y/n-ah…" The boy spoke, trying his best not to snap at the little slut. She was so foolish. A fucking clown. A narrow minded little racist bitch. That's what.

"Ahhhh… your Korean is soooo adorable…" Before she moved to stand in front of him, heavy tits tightly packed in her school shirt, the first few buttons up. "What's the rush, Aussie boy? Too proud to make friends? Tsk, tsk!" Felix felt like smacking her infuriatingly cute little face.

"You know it's not like tha-"

"LISTEN UP, EVERYONE!" Y/n clapped and got everyone's attention, the whole hallway of students going home stopping to look at her. "OUR FOREIGN BOY DOESN'T WANNA BE FRIENDS~" she pouted as if it really hurt her. "HE AVOIDED ME ALL DAY IN SCHOOL TOO! HOW PROUD, TSK!" Everyone booed him, calling him names and whatnot. It was terrible.

Had he known moving to Korea was going to be like this he'd have never agreed. They made fun of his looks, his accent, the grammatical errors he made and his English name that he preferred. Even though Felix was using his English name in his documents now that he was all grown up, Y/n had somehow learnt his Korean one and she wasn't going to let him live it down.

"Aigo what a loser" splashing the juice in her hand at his shirt, the girl clicked her tongue and walked away while laughing, leaving the boy in absolute despair due to how badly it stained his shirt.

He didn't want to hurt her because she was clearly fucking naive and dumb but fuck. Y/n was making it fucking hard.

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Felix checked his room one last time to make sure it was clean and smelt nice with just the right amount of ventilation. Setting his books up on the foldable desks he'd set up on the bed, the boy opened up the other desk too. His mom had asked him if he could teach her bestfriend's child some English as they were apparently in the same year as him. The boy was happy to help and agreed so now his mom's friend was going to drop the kid off at their house that he didn't know anything about.

And who else could it be other than the one and only. How fucking cliche.

The male was unsure of how to act when he heard his mom's voice and another women's before his door was knocked, opening as Mrs. Lee along a stern looking tall and built women in a police uniform appeared.

Felix got up and respectfully bowed to the women as she greeted him back, her friendly smile really unusual for her stern features. "Hello, dear. Thank you so much for your kind gesture. I've been looking for a good teacher for quite some time now but my child is… slow." She chuckled. "Maybe it'd be easier for her if someone her age teaches her…"

"Oh, of course. No problem at all. I'd be actually very happy to help. That way I get to revise too and study from a different perspective, ma'am." He didn't know why, but he couldn't stop the smirk from appearing on his face. Oh. She was trying her best to hide behind her mother but Felix had seen the pathetic little girl.

Oh how fucking perfect.

"Ah I hope my kid can learn well from you in not just academics but manners too… Now! Y/n-ah- where…" Her mother looked for her before turning around to find her hiding, gripping her wrist and pulling her in front of the taller boy. "There you are. Now… learn well okay? Felix will take well care of you" her mother glanced at the boy and he nodded, bowing a little bit as he said of course.

Y/n was trying not to die as she was made to stand right in front of fucking Yongbok out of all! How was she so stupid?! She should have put two and two together! Oh fuck! This was bad! This was terrible for her image! Now he knew that she was looking for tuition and not all that careless about studies as she seemed to act like back in school. And she also wasn't a badass in her private life.

Fuck.

"Be good. I'll pick you up on my way back, alright?" The girl had non-existent balls to brat with her mother as she was a firm police woman and knew how to get brats going. She had gotten enough harsh punishments from her mom to even dare to try. Y/n did her best to pretend to be a good kid. Or her mom had threatened to send her off to juvi or a boarding school! "Hm?"

The girl whimpered, feeling the boy's gaze burn into her very soul. "Y- Yes, mommy." She could only whisper back, head lowered all the way.

"Good baby. Now give mommy a kiss." Y/n could die of embarrassment right now, her cheeks burning as she felt humiliated. Oh she had no idea what was coming her way. This was nothing. Her mother still treated her like a 4 year old baby and not like she was 18. It was so fucking stupid!

"Y- Yes, mommy…" There was no use hiding. Yongbok could see it all and he was quietly observing it. Standing on her tippy toes because of being much smaller than her mom, Y/n kissed her cheek. "Bye, mommy." The copper ruffled her daughter's head before leaving with Felix's mother who was also dressed for work.

Lowering her head even more when it was just the both of them, Y/n held her bag right as she didn't turn around, not wanting to face the smug boy, whimpering when he stepped forward to close his door.

"She… doesn't know, does she?" Felix's deep voice pierced through her soul as he turned around to look down at her now, grinning wide. "Tsk… look at this cute little turtleneck and long skirt… those baby shoes and these pigtails…" Y/n felt her heart starting to pound when he suddenly tugged at her twin ponytails, her cheeks feeling even hotter in pure humiliation. "If only you were actually a good babygirl like your 'mommy' thinks and not a skimpy little slutty whore ridiculing people for no fucking reason at school" clicking his tongue, the boy walked to his bed and plopped on it in a relaxed manner, well aware that he had her exactly where a bitch like her should be. "I wonder how she will react if she finds out that you are actually-"

"N- NO PLEASE!" Y/n finally found her voice and rushed to him, helplessly pleading. "PLEASE DON'T TELL M- MOMMY! I- I AM SORRY!" She struggled, not knowing what to say. This was so awkward and strange. Something she'd never thought of. Fuck.

"Ahhh so you really are an all talk whore, tsk. Acting all cool and fearless in school but actually a pathetic little mommy's baby." Felix chuckled tauntingly and shook his head, eyes cold. Months. She'd been troubling him for months simply because he was a foreigner and made mistakes in Korean. "Come here, let me see. I wouldn't be surprised if you're also wearing a nappy under that cute skirt. Do you need a change?" He teasingly went to grab her arm which caused the girl to stagger backwards.

"N- No! No, Y- Yon- Felix! I- I swear I am not! I am not wearing a-- p- please! Don't do this! I- I won't bother you again! You don't even have to tutor me! Just please don't tell mom!" Y/n hated how pathetically she had to beg him.

"Ah… so it's suddenly Felix now, huh?" The male chuckled before speaking again. "Since I am not a pathetic slut like you, I won't tell your mom but in exchange, you'll have to be good for me. If you oblige, good. If you don't, I'll have to tell her, little one. Because what you're doing will end up harming someone really bad."

The girl desperately dropped her bag, sitting in his feet and holding his knees. "Y- Yes! Yes! Alright! I'll be good! I'll do whatever you want! Just don't tell mom! I don't wanna go to juvi or boarding-" her eyes widened before she slapped her mouth shut. Oh no! She didn't just tell him that!

Felix threw his head back and laughed. "Ahhh so it's like that, I see…" He was enjoying this. Looking down at her, Felix felt something stir inside him as his eyes got darker. She looked so fucking perfect kneeling under him like this. It was getting so hard to hold back now that he had her. "Fine. If you don't want to go to boarding or juvi, you'll have to be my little fuck piggy. And when I say that, I mean it. You'll be my literal plaything and there will be no denying my orders. You'll have to obey and be good like a brainless little slave doll… You will only know what I allow. You will only do as I say. No using your own brain, not that it is very smart anyway… That is the price." He had always had… dark desires. Which was one of the reasons he'd never dated much. But when Felix had seen Y/n all those months ago in school for the first time, he had unintentionally imagined how it would feel to ruin her to the point of despair before building her back up.

And now that he was so close to having it. Fuck. The boy was going insane.

Y/n nodded slowly, tears forming in her eyes as she bit her lip. "Y- Yes, I… I agree. I- I'll be your d- doll, Felix… J- Just please d- don't tell anyone… I- I beg you… I- I don't wanna g- go to boarding or…" A sob left her, his finger catching her tear amidst of falling down.

This was so wrong. But she deserved it. Felix was absolutely disgusted by bullies.

"Don't worry. Like your mother said, I'll take goood care of you." The naive girl had no idea what she had signed herself up for or just what his words meant. "Then… why don't you prove your worth by getting up and stripping to let me see my belongings... And, get those dirty little hands off. Fuck toys don't deserve to touch Master unless allowed." Felix swatted them off.

"W- What? M- Master…? S- Strip?" Y/n was lost.

"What else did you think? Some Wattpad romance where I make you my little sidekick or something before I confess that I've liked you all along?" Raising an eyebrow he pushed her back. "Get to it."

"B- But F- Felix-!"

"It's Master!" The male firmly spoke as he glared down at her, yanking one of her pigtails. "Come on now… time's running and we don't have all day my little toy. You better start behaving before it's too late…" Her sobs and tears satisfied him so much.

Y/n slowly got up with her head lowered, trembling as she stepped out of her shoes, slowly pulling her socks off. "I- I can't believe I am doing this in front o- of you.." She whispered while struggling to not collapse on her knees, literally shivering under his firm gaze.

"I also couldn't believe a person as rotten as you existed." Before he grabbed the hem of her dress, pulling her closer and snorting when she gasped, flinching when he leaned back again. Felix's foot trailed up her shaking leg, the top of his foot rubbing against her covered core before he grabbed the waistband of her panties with his toes, pulling them down from under the skirt. "Ahh… so little girl's mommy really doesn't put her in nappies, I see…" Before he looked back up at her face, his foot resting on the underwear between her ankles now. "Skirt off now."

The girl was wiping at her tears as she shakily undid the skirt before letting it fall, her heart pounding even harder when the cold air attacked her core before he made her pull her shirt up and off, suddenly ripping her bra off which caused her to scream.

"Tsk… you sure are jumpy and scaredy for how tough you act." The boy shook his head, feeding off her misery. "Pick that underwear up." Y/n reached for it when he finally removed his foot from the top of it, stepping out of it and picking it up, even her ears red now out of humiliation. "Put it on your head." Another sob left her as he pinched and played with her breast, loving the authority he had over her.

"Fe- M- Master…" Shaking her head, she tried to back away but Felix wasn't having it.

"What did I just fucking say?!" He snapped, towering over her when the boy stood up, making her cower down before she put the smelly article over her head, biting her lips to stop her sobs from escaping. "Such a good toy…" Felix cooed this time, rubbing her head as he pulled it down and covered her eyes with the waistband, pulling her pigtails out of the sides.

"Fuck… you look good. Just how a dumb brainless slut should look." Fishing his phone out, he smirked. "This proves how you've no problem with being brainless. You look fucking retarded but you're doing it because Master said it. That's exactly what this is about. Obedience" before he suddenly kissed her briefly, making her gasp.

"Now~ smile wide for a picture…" Before he turned the camera on and stepped back, making sure her whole body was in frame. Fuck. Felix was so fucking painfully hard. "Come on… don't be shy" he taunted when she sobbed in protest, making him switch to video instead. "Fine, then." His taunting smile dropped to a firm expression as he approached her, placing his feet on hers before he smacked her face, catching it all on camera.

"Aigooo~" he mimicked her, smacking her other cheek, uncovering her eyes but still keeping the underwear on her head. He decided that it will be a new style for her. "Look at this whore~" Y/n's flushed cheeks now received some more slaps before he placed his hand on her nose and pushed it back, chuckling loudly. "Awww such a cute little fuck piggy we have here… she loves this doesn't she?" When she continued to cry, Felix smacked her head and pulled at the girl's ponytail. "DOESN'T SHE?"

"Y- Yes, Master! Yes!"

"Good girl" pushing her nose back to look like a pig's again, the male spat at it. "Now tell Master you're thankful. Get on your knees and be good."

"T- Thank you, M- Master…" The girl cried out, slowly getting on her knees now. "Thank you s- so much…" Felix parted her legs by his foot, cutting the footage and tossing his phone on the bed before kicking her pussy, causing Y/n to jerk forward, face banging straight into his cock.

A moan left him before he grabbed both her ponytails, wrapping them around his hands. "Now I have a present for you. I bought it all a while back and have been keeping it hidden and safe for when I get a fuck piggy. And now that you're here, I'll give you it."

Yes, Felix was pissed at her and yes, he loved destroying her but he was no asshole. She still had that cute little whore face he adored.

Crouching down in front of her, he gripped her chin and kissed her lips again, ignoring her gasp and kissing her again before spitting right on her tongue. "Swallow it and wait for Master to be back. Face down and ass up. I shouldn't have to fuckin repeat myself."

Y/n trembled as she struggled to swallow his spit, bowing down on the ground, slowly raising her nude ass back up. A few moments passed with Felix bringing stuff over and near her, fumbling with things in his closet before he finally closed it and walked to her. "Aren't you lucky? Finding an owner without even looking. There's so many pets like you who have no Master… or not a good one at least, you know…" Standing behind her, Felix rubbed the lube all over the tiny and thick piggy tail assplug. "Aren't you lucky?"

The girl knew what he wanted to hear so she nervously started, having no idea what the boy was about to do. "Y- Yes, Master… v- very luc- AHHHH!" She could only lay there and weakly cry as Felix laughed loudly at her scream because he'd pushed the plug in, tapping her ass.

"Good piggy~" the male cooed and hooked a thin chain to a small loop on top of the plug, slowly making her sit up in silence, the only sounds being her weak sobs. "Just… give in… it'll hurt less that way and you'll be happier." His eyes were trained on what he was doing, the long chain extending from down her plug having nose hooks at the other end that he plugged in her nose, chuckling when her eyes widened as she located the small cage in front of her.

"Oh, yeah. That is your new crib" Felix was clearly loving this. Kissing her stretched little piggy nose, he placed the pink piggy ears on her underwear covered head, followed by a pink collar that had a small bell attached to it. "You look so beautiful…" Kissing her lips again, Felix attached weights to her nipples, making her whine out in pain as she tried to stop his hands. "Oho~" he swatted her hands away, grabbing the piggy hands and feet before putting them on her, finally folding her limbs and binding them.

"Hmmm… that's like a good filthy little fuck pig." Before he attached a leash to her collar and gulped, feeling his balls ache now due to the masterpiece he'd made, pulling at the leash to have her crawl in the cage before he closed it, chuckling at how she kept tripping. "Clumsy pig." Before he started to take pictures, taunting and humiliating her all the while.

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When Felix was satisfied with the photoshoot, he opened the cage and walked to the bed, holding her leash and pulling her with him. "Now… the fun part." Before he tucked his aching cock out much to her horror, sitting down on the bed and pulling her in between her legs. Pumping his cock a little, the male moaned loudly as he started to piss on her face, chuckling loudly when she yelled and protested, trying to move away but only falling on her face, choking when he harshly pulled at her leash, forcefully pushing his cock in her mouth. "You better swallow that!"

Y/n started crying loudly again, wails leaving her throat as his hot piss started travelling down her throat, making her choke and gag as he loudly laughed. "What a useless piggy! Can't even be a good urinal." Before he smacked her face again, now starting to fuck her mouth fast and rough, hitting his hard tip against the back of her throat before forcefully pushing in, a trail of piss and spit hanging down her lips.

"Fuck… fuck…" Felix moaned loudly, his cock twitching inside of her and pulsating from how fucking good it felt. From her soft mouth to her tight throat, to how he could see his cock against her skin, her eyes widened when her breath supply would totally cut off from his balls getting stuffed between her lips.

"Fuck… you're no good… I'll have to train you plenty" her cries were causing shivers and vibrations up his cock as he fucked her face up and down his cock by her ponytails, kicking her pussy as he went faster and faster, his hips starting to ache from how much strength it was causing.

"What a dumb slut!" Pulling his cock out of her throat, he kicked her on her back, making her arch her back when the tail plug brushed against the floor. "I need that useless fucking pussy now. It better be worth it." Y/n felt scared and nervous for her vagina now as he warned and crawled over her now, pushing his way forcefully inside, biting down at her lip when he felt her hymen tear and lube his cock up.

"I am going to make an absolute mess out of you." He promised, his deep voice sending shivers down her sweaty body. "My mess."

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I am sorry if it was too rough sjskso you said like bullying gone wrong-

[dinosaurtsukki]

solitude | fyodor dostoevsky x gn!reader

part 3 of broken, continuation of savior

summary: for the first time in a long time, you're free of fyodor with him in prison. however, you find yourself wondering if this is what you truly want

word count: 1.1k words

contains: stockholm syndrome-ish (depending how you look at it), slight manipulation

anon: Hi ! First, I hope that you’re okay, I wanted to tell you that your work is soooo great, I really support you. Then I wanted to ask you if you could write a part 3 of « broken ». I really loved « broken » and « savior », you are very talented.

a/n: ahh i'm so flattered but thank you !! broken was actually my first fyodor fic so i'm surprised people like it and asked for a sequel. i was kind of on the fence with how to end this series because y/n and fyodor's dynamic is a bit complicated but i hope it came across here!

you're loathe to admit it, but every time you heard a doorbell ring or a knocking on the door, you hope that it's fyodor finally returning home.

it had been more than two weeks since fyodor had enacted his master plan using cannibalism to get the port mafia and armed detective agency to turn against each other. you weren't completely privy to all the details of fyodor's plan or the bigger organization he was working for, but he did let you know that being sent to jail was a part of it.

"you're free to use this space, especially since the special division and armed detective agency are cracking down on the rats of the house of the dead," fyodor told you one night.

"is that so?" you raised an eyebrow at him. "i see you're playing favorites then."

"you've only noticed my favoritism now?" fyodor chuckled. you found it almost funny in hindsight how your relationship had evolved from him manipulating you to playful banter between the two of you.

"you won't be seeing me for a long time," he hummed, absentmindedly twirling a piece of your hair with his index finger. it had become a habit of his that you didn't find entirely unwelcome. "should i leave you a little souvenir so you don't miss me?"

"you're already leaving me your place," you scoffed, waving a hand at him. "that's enough. i have to lay low for the next couple of weeks too."

"that would be advisable," fyodor nodded, letting go of your hair and sitting a little farther from you on the sofa. you hated that you almost wanted to move a little closer. "i've made sure to take care of my tracks. they shouldn't inspect this place."

"alright," you said, paused, before adding "thank you."

the next morning, he was gone before you even woke up. aside from the emptiness of the apartment, you were left with an ambiguously melancholic feeling.

now, he was gone and you had more than enough room to breathe. if you wanted to, you could even finally run away after making sure the coast was clear. but you had already established a while ago that there was more benefit to you staying with fyodor.

maybe the decision you were grappling with was whether or not you actually missed fyodor.

'impossible,' you thought, physically shaking your head as if trying to correct yourself. and despite what you told yourself, there could only be one explanation as to why you frequented fyodor's study so much and took care to wipe his cello case clean every night.

in fact, you began staying in the study more often each day. the desk was as neat as fyodor had left it with his laptop and several files and books stacked neatly on the table. one book in particular, caught your eye.

"the complete collection of t.s. eliot poems," you read aloud. suddenly, you remembered one of the first time you and fyodor had talked in the library, back when you were just a college student and he was just a handsome stranger.

of course, you could tell that the placement of this book could only be deliberate. "of course you'd leave something for me," you spoke out loud, as if he could hear. carefully, you opened the book and found a space neatly cut into the middle of the pages and a flash drive embedded inside.

...

"well, if this isn't quite ironic."

fyodor doesn't look surprised at all to see you standing in front of his jail cell. in fact, it looks as if he had been patiently waiting for you all this time. and that's because he has.

"you couldn't have left your escape plans in a more obvious place?" you sighed at him.

"but that was obvious," fyodor blinked innocently at you. "i knew you would find it at the right time."

did he know you'd be spending most of your time in his study? it was embarrassing to be known that well but you read intently through the plans he had encoded in the flash drive. you couldn't believe what fyodor was asking of you this time because surely he overestimated your abilities.

"couldn't you have asked someone else, someone more capable, to do this for you?" you asked him.

"what for? i have complete confidence in you," fyodor smiled. he was dressed in the white clothes all the other prisoners wore. you could tell that he had lost quite a bit of weight due to his stay and both of his hands were cuffed. and yet, he looked absolutely delighted at seeing you.

and that gave you a deep sense of satisfaction.

you pressed a hand to the bulletproof glass of his jail cell. "remember that night? when you broke me out of jail?"

"of course i do," fyodor hummed, leaning back and closing his eyes as he savored the memory. "that was sloppy work on your part. anyone could tell that you had an ulterior motive to get yourself caught."

"yeah, yeah. i'm aware," you rolled your eyes.

"ah, but look at you now," fyodor cocked his head. 'you've changed,' was on the tip of his tongue and you could only agree. even if fyodor wrote up the plans for his escape, you were still the one who snuck into the facility and incapacitated more than a few security guards to break him out.

who would have thought this is where you'd end up?

you keyed in the passcode on the door before stepping inside the jail cell. fyodor held his cuffed wrists out to you and you sighed and crouched down in front of him.

"you couldn't have at least picked the lock on your cuffs?"

"i'd rather you do it for me," fyodor smiled at you.

you didn't even need to be told twice. he was the one who had taught you this skill after all and your fingers worked quickly at the lock. of course, you were aware of fyodor intently staring at you and the way his fingers brushed at the inside of your wrist. finally, the lock clicked open and his metal cuffs fell away.

"finally. they tightened those a bit too much," fyodor sighed, rubbing the red marks on his wrists.

"you must have said something to offend them, like always," you emphasized.

"how was i to know they were going to be offended?" he scoffed as the two of you practically strolled out of the jail cell and into the hallway. "i assume you've been enjoying your time alone at the apartment."

"the silence was definitely a plus. although admittedly..." you trailed off and caught fyodor's glance. "i do miss the sound of your playing."

"is that so?" he chuckled amusedly and flexed his wrists. "i'm out of practice but, i think i can arrange something for you when we get home."

you nodded with a bemused smile on your face. "when we get home."

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[harryconcepts]

part 33

he would be such a fucking pest when security comes to escort him backstage he would be all "who, me? whatever she wants i guess 😌" and then so eager to please you when you finally come meet him, he just wants to show you how much he liked the show 😌then he would say "felt like such a whore when security came to get me... all "Mr styles, you've been requested backstage".... have to say i liked it though 😌"

I need to have a stranger things marathon with harry so bad ik you don't watch that show but I'm rewatching and it's suuuuch a good show to binge.... you would be staying up for days until you're both deliriously tired and laughing so hard at everything and eating so many snacks until you finally fall asleep on the couch 😭 and when you wake up you start it all over again 😌

thinking about being at a party and your crush frat harry is there so you're kind of a blushing mess all night and trying not to let him see 😌 someone gets really drunk and suggests spin the bottle and everyone agrees and harry is all 🙄 trying to act cool and like he doesn't want to play but secretly he's hoping so hard that you'll end up going into the closet with him 😌 when your friends get you to spin you're almost hoping it doesn't land on harry because you're not sure if you can handle being alone with him but then of course the bottle stops spinning when it's pointing directly at him 😌 he's smirking so hard when he slowly stands up and comes over to you and he reaches his hand out to help you up 😌 all his friends know he likes you so they're all whooping and yelling and your friends do the same just to embarrass you 😌 he says "come on then" and leads you to the pantry and your face is absolutely on fire but there's no way you're going to say no 😌 he shuts the door behind you, then turns to face you and says "that was a bit of a show, if you're uncomfortable we can just stand here for until they yell at us, we don't have to do anthing" and you shake your head a little, saying "I'm not uncomfortable... are you?" and he steps a little closer and says "no, I'm not" and he keeps stepping closer and you keep stepping back until he has you pressed up against the countertop with his hands on your hips 😌 he's leaning closer and closer until finally he presses his lips on yours 😌 after a moment he pulls back and says "I've wanted to do that for so long" and you grab the collar of his shirt and pull him back down, murmuring "don't stop then" and he goes absolutely feral 😌 he lifts you up to sit on the counter and you wrap your legs around his waist, he presses against you a little bit and groans so deep when you bite on his lip 😌 eventually you're startled apart when someone bangs on the door, yelling something like "time's up, lovebirds!" and you giggle a little bit before you push him back and hop down 😌 you make your way to the door but he catches your arm before you can get too far, he spins you around and pulls you against his chest and says "don't think I'm done with you yet... why don't we get out of here?" and you nod immediately, so he keeps your hand in his as he opens the door and leads you through the house 😌 all his friends are going crazy and yelling at him but he just ignores them because he's a man on a mission and that's to get you back to his place asap 😌 then he would be soooo cheeky about that little incident he would be like "All your friends already know about us, everyone already knows you're mine 😌"

bf harry would literally always be like "quit your job I'll take care of you 😌" and you always roll your eyes and say "I'm not doing that" and he's just like "you'll come around 😌" and then one day you come home and throw your keys down and say "ok that's it I'm quitting I can't handle my boss anymore" and he's just like 😁yay😁 now we can sleep in every day 😁

why do I feel like harry would think your little stuffed animal collection was so cute 🥹 and then also he would be so fucking annoying and say "you have to move them i can't have sex with you while they're watching me"

do you think Harry is annoying about your differences in American vs British English 😭 like he pretends to not know what you mean when you say fries and then he's like "ohhhh did you mean chips? yeah we can get some of those 😌" such a pest

Harry definitely hears you say some slang word and thinks it's so funny so he starts saying it constantly like "bestie come over here" and "yessss slay babe" and "iconic queen" he's so annoying i know it

harry would boop your nose and squeeze you so tight when he hugs you and you try to wiggle away but he just girls tighter and says "you're so cute just wanna squeeze you"

i think when harry is having trouble being creative he walks around naked for a while and you're like oh my god why are you naked and he goes "it fuels the creativity leave me alone" and walks away all 😠 but then like 3 seconds later he comes back and says "and actually it would really help the creative process if you were naked too"

ok this is weird but i have such a thing for harry teaching you how to defend yourself??? like I've read a million different AUs and some of them are like bodyguard harry or whatever but the idea of him being like "come on I'll show you some moves" and he tells you to try and hurt him or run away and the whole time he's teaching you different moves or maneuvers and it ofc ends with you pressed up against the wall while he kisses you bc you both got so worked up from all the touching 😋

i have a migraine and i need harry to take care of me 😔 i know he would get you an ice pack and some medicine and make sure you keep drinking water 😔 he would lay down with you even if he's not tired at all and he would rub your back 😔

the thought of harry being cheeky makes me want to k*ll myself like imagine him smacking your ass when you walk by and then you look at him and he's just like 😁

i fear harry touches you all the time and he can never keep his hands to himself 😮‍💨 whether that's having his hands on your waist when he comes up behind you in the kitchen or running his fingers over your thighs while you're on the couch together or just coming up and hugging you so tight he lifts you off the ground because he just thinks you're cute, he doesn't care he just needs to be touching you 😮‍💨

no bc when I think of harry coming home from tour or being away for any amount of time i 100% see him running up to you and hugging you so hard your feet come off the ground and he doesn't put you down until you're laughing and saying you can't breathe 🪂

thinking about how fwb harry would always be down for some good old fashioned stress relief 🫶🏻 he notices you've been a little off lately and then one day you're so snappy and basically bite his head off when he just asked a simple question so then he says "do you need me to make you cum? is that why you're being such a brat lately?" and you roll your eyes and walk towards the bedroom, and he doesn't follow bc he assumes you want some alone time but then you look back at him and say "...well?" and he's immediately like "okay 😌" and hopping up to follow you 🫶🏻 then afterwards you're being all sweet and clinging on him and he's all "ooooh so that's what it takes? good to know" and he's so smug knowing he has a way to get you to be nice to him

why do I feel like harry would be so good about you being a picky eater 😭 like this is so niche but idc i basically eat the same thing every day and restaurants stresssssss me out bc I can never find something that sounds good but I feel like he would be so chill about it 😭 he would be like "oh we're having spaghetti again? cool cool I'll grab the parmesan cheese" or if you're going out he always picks a restaurant he knows you like ☹️ he wouldn't be annoyed he would just go with it because if you're happy he's happy ☹️

feeling like a whore tn and thinking about how harry would make you beg him before he gives you what you want and he would make you say exactly what you want him to do 😌 when you don't do it at first he just teases his fingers slowly over your clit, not giving you nearly enough and he says "I can do this all night, so i guess it's up to you whether or not you get what you want" and he smirks at the way you whine 😌

i wanna take edibles with harry sooooo bad 😭 you're both just laying on the couch staring at the ceiling and you say quietly "I feel like I'm floating" and he's silent for a minute before he bursts out laughing and then you're just giggling together because everything feels weird and you just can't stop 😭 then he says "I'm hungry... are you hungry?" and you nod but neither of you make a move to get up, so then he reaches for his phone to order something 😭 then he says "you realize we're going to have to get up when they get here right" and you let out a big sigh then say "that's your job actually" and then you're both giggling again 😭 when you get the food you get cuddled back up together and he probably feeds you some ☹️ you say "I think this is the best food I've ever eaten" and he laughs and says "let me have a taste" and leans in to kiss you 😭 later you would put on a movie but you're not paying attention, just listening to each other's heartbeats and feeling each other breathe until you fall asleep 😭

I have this suuuper cute dress and the straps are ties and i feel like harry would be so annoying 😭 he would come up and slooowly pull the tie undone and then be like "oops... looks like your strap fell off 😋 might as well show me your boobs since they're right there 😋"

i have literally not stopped thinking about having a threesome with harry... I know they would both be so attentive and fighting for your attention and they both just want to make you feel good 😵‍💫 they would definitely tease you so much, talking over you and saying stuff like "i don't think she deserves to cum yet, doesn't seem near desperate enough to me" and the other would nod and agree and then they get back to teasing 😵‍💫 you can barely even focus on the feeling of one of their lips against your neck because the other is going down on you and it's just so overwhelming 😵‍💫

him saying 3 2 1 is so funny he absolutely would and then he would be such a pest saying "ohhhh you're filthy aren't you" even though he probably has way more stuff than you do, but that's not a surprise bc everyone knows he's a whore but for you it's different because you seem so innocent and you blush at the smallest thing and yet here you are with a whole box of sex toys 😌he would be so annoying I need him

I need to be mean to harry I want to say "you're such a whore for wearing that" and he would laugh and pull you close saying "you love it" and you nod kissing him and saying "it's true i do" 😌

thinking about going to a club like the box for the first time with harry and he's just watching you smirking at how you're all 😶 at everything 😌 as you're watching the dancers he's standing behind you to whisper in your ear, filthy stuff like "you like that don't you... you like seeing the girls put on a show for you" and you're just frozen watching everything that's going on 😌

right here's the thing when I'm on my period I don't want anyone to touch me but I still want to touch him okay I want to lay on top of him with both of us being shirtless and put my arms around him and let his warm body soothe my cramps 👍🏻 and he would stay completely silent and still and leave me to my own devices bc he's a good bf like that 👍🏻

harry would literally be so good when you're on your period he wouldn't get annoyed with your mood swings or if you were pissy with him he would just give you some space and bring you food after an hour or so to hopefully make you smile 😔 he doesn't ever get mad at you because he knows you're hurting and can't really help it so he just does whatever he can to be sweet to you 😔 you come to him later and hug him, apologizing for being so mean but he just kisses your head and says "it's okay baby, know you're not feeling well" and ask if you want to watch a movie 😔 he doesn't cuddle up to you like normal because he's not sure if that's what you want but you give him your hand so he can hold it because you know he likes touching you in any way he can 😔

yes let's discuss. he would love to use a vibrator on you and I fear he would blindfold you so you can't tell what he's going to do next 🫶🏻 he would run it over your nipples and collarbones and up and down your sides to make you squirm and then he would tease it gently over your hipbones because he knows it's sensitive there 🫶🏻 when you're shaking from anticipation and how bad you want him he smiles and drops it directly against your clit 🫶🏻you're moaning and trying to move away from how intense it is but he moves his arm to press down on your lower stomach and holds you in place 🫶🏻 he's murmuring such dirty words, saying "that feel good baby? I always know how to make my girl feel good, don't i" and you nod, gasping his name when he presses it a little harder against you 🫶🏻 he's rubbing it in slow circles so you feel the vibrations everywhere and when you start tensing up and he can tell you're close he says "go on, cum for me, I've got you just let go" and he praises you the whole time 🫶🏻

and you know what ... harry would sleep in the guest room if you asked him to and he would not complain 🫶🏻 he would say of course and then the next morning he would wake you up with breakfast in bed (not before 11 though) and when you're past the first few days of your period and you're feeling a little better you say "sorry for being a bitch" and he's immediately like "you weren't a bitch" and you look at him like 😒 and he goes "okay maybe a little moody... but you're allowed this week" and you thank him for being so nice 😔

I'm glad I'm not insane for loving toxicish harry 🤭 y'all aren't official but every time he sees a guy even looking at you he will literally threaten them and tell them to stay away from you 🤭 you get annoyed because he's being so possessive and he has no right to be but then he fucks you so good that it makes up for everything 😌

I'm thinking about middle of the night talks with Harry 😔 you're feeling very anxious and can't sleep so you get up to find a snack or maybe make some tea, and a few minutes later harry comes stumbling down the stairs, rubbing his tired eyes and coming to find you 😔 he wraps his arms around you from behind, resting his head on your shoulder and says "how come you're up?" with his voice all low and sleepy, you lean back against him and say "just couldn't sleep" and he nods a little bit because he knows you have bad nights like this sometimes 😔 he asks if you want to talk about it and you shake your head, just content to be there with him 😔 after you take a few sips of tea (and of course hold it to his lips so he can have some too) you say "would it be okay if we talked about it? it's okay if you're too tired right now or-" and he cuts you off to say "hey, I'm never too tired for you, of course we can talk about it" and he moves to make his own cup 😔 he sits next to you at the table, maybe he reaches over to light a candle or maybe you're only lit up by the moon, but either way it feels very cozy and intimate to be so close 😔 you tell him you've just been feeling very anxious lately and don't really know how to handle it, he listens so attentively, nodding to show he's paying attention but mostly just letting you get it all out 😔 when you're done talking he hugs you and thanks you for telling him everything, then he says "i mean it when i say you can always talk to me, ok? i want you to come to me if you're not feeling good, no matter the reason" and you nod and hug him back a little tighter 😔 I feel like you would have so many late nights together where you just talk about everything you've been thinking about lately and you always go to bed feeling a little bit lighter now that you're not holding it in anymore 😔

i want to go to a carnival with harry ☹️ he would for sure win you a teddy bear and drag you on all the rides and kiss you at the top of the ferris wheel ☹️ you would share some cotton candy and he would kiss you and tell you how sweet you taste ☹️ the whole time he has his arm over your shoulder and he's just happy to be with you ☹️

the way Harry would never make fun of you for things that are a big deal to you 😔 literally like bare minimum but so sweet anyways 😔 he knows you don't like walking through the dark hallway to use the bathroom at night so he buys a nightlight for his house without even mentioning it 😔 he thinks it's adorable that you sleep with a teddy bear or whatever and he probably has a picture of you cuddled up to it 😔 he just always wants you to be comfortable with him so he does anything he can to make you feel safe at his house 😔

i literally can't stop thinking about how sweet he would be when you're on your period ... he comes home to find you curled up in bed, he asks how your day was and you just tell him to leave you alone and he realizes what must be happening so he does, he goes in the other room and leaves you to do your thing 😔 he knocks on the door a few hours later, holding a cup of hot chocolate and says "I made this for you... do you need anything? the heating pad or some medicine?" and you shake your head, saying a soft thank you for the drink and he says of course and starts to leave again but you stop him, saying "I'm just going to take a nap, but you could stay if you wanted to" and he lights up immediately, pulling off his shirt and climbing in next to you 😔 you offer him your hand since you don't feel like fully cuddling and that's enough to make him happy 😔

you're a little nervous before your first show of the tour and he comforts you saying "nothing to be nervous about baby, you'll be amazing and I'll be there the whole time" and gives you a kiss ☹️ he says "everyone loves you, they might love you even more than they love me" and you laugh because you know it's not true but he's so sweet to say that and you know he believes it's the truth ☹️you know he's your #1 supporter and he'll be at every single show dancing his little heart out ☹️

no you say "I almost flashed u guys" and he yells "DO IT" and since it's not a huge venue everyone hears him and laughs and you're just like 🙄 bc he's such a fucking pest

like how people at harry shows yell "take off your clothes" he would definitely do that and think he's sooo funny, then that night back at the hotel he's all "well? take them off 😌"

then you say "i don't think so... you acted like such a little slut out there, what makes you think you deserve to be touched?"

please he needs to see your boobs at all times, you're just cuddling on the couch and he turns his head and says "I miss them" and pushes your shirt up to put his hands on you 😌

he would be so turned on by your little groupie routine and he doesn't even know how to put it into words but the way you boss him around a little and the power trip you get from seeing him so needy and obedient... you're both very into it and it leads to some absolutely filthy sex 😌

he motions for you to flash him and you mouth back "you first" so he pulls up his shirt to show you the hoobies ❤️ you're laughing and turning away to keep singing and he's never been happier ❤️

he would make a sign that says "i banged the singer" and he wouldn't bring it because he doesn't want to go too far but when you get back to your dressing room he shows you the picture of it and he's so proud and thinks he's so funny 😭then you tell him to bring it next time, not thinking he actually will, but the next show rolls around and he's holding it proudly above his head 😌

[hooniiverse]

𔘓⁩ the boyz reacting to you coming out !

a/n: requested by anon <3

[ something was different when you woke up today. maybe it was the fact that pride month had only just started, that gave you some newfound courage. and that's how you ended up here, in front of your boyfriend, finally coming out to him ]

⋆ ࣪. 〣 — 𔘓⁩ SANGYEON

his leader instinct is definitely showing lol

you're not even that scared to tell him because you know there's not a single cell in his body that could ever discriminate anyone

hugs you very tightly and repeatedly tells you how proud he is of you for telling him

just like you thought, he is gonna be so sweet about it, you feel like crying

read the other members' reactions under the cut !

⋆ ࣪. 〣 — 𔘓⁩ JACOB

similar to sangyeon, you know that jacob wouldn't hurt a fly and would never be able to judge you, ever !

he was literally sooo understanding when you told him, it made you feel so so loved

jacob literally shed a tear when you told him

you were having a little moment which was more than wholesome uwu

⋆ ࣪. 〣 — 𔘓⁩ YOUNGHOON

the softest bean on planet earth™

you have been acting very weird the past days so he was quite worried when you wanted to talk to him

his instinct told him that something was off about this whole situation, the worry was written all over his precious face

you quietly sit with him on your kitchen floor which only makes him worry more

at some point, younghoon is so scared that he starts crying because he thinks you want to break up with him

you take note of that and quickly explain yourself

"omg hoonie, i'm not breaking up with you, i just wanted to tell you that i am [ insert your sexual orientation here ] ! "

cries even more because he feels so proud uwu

⋆ ࣪. 〣 — 𔘓⁩ HYUNJAE

you didn't mean for him to figure out the way that he did

you had been planning on telling him but before you could, a "friend" of yours told him

not hearing from him ever since, you thought he had turned his back on you and didn't want anything to do with you anymore

however, you didn't expect what was coming

coming home from work, you didn't expect your friends, including hyunjae to jump up and congratulate you on your coming out

mf really planned a whole coming out party

standing there stunned, you began to cry

jae is quick to hug you tight and kiss you on your nose lovingly

"the people who aren't comfortable with your honesty and you being a proud member of the lgbtq+ community, clearly aren't worth it. i am utterly proud of you"

⋆ ࣪. 〣 — 𔘓⁩ JUYEON

another soft moment uwu

you were laying in bed, cuddling and listening to the heart beat of your boyfriend

you just couldn't seem to fall asleep as this one thing has been bugging your mind for days

"ju, i've been meaning to tell you something"

already half in his slumber, he looks at you lovingly, wondering what the hell was so important that you needed to tell him at 3 am

when you told him, he lovingly stroked your hair and hugged you tighter

"your sexuality doesn't define you, you're still the same amazing person that you were before coming out, it doesn't change a thing"

⋆ ࣪. 〣 — 𔘓⁩ KEVIN

kevin had always been your safe place and you always told him everything about you

kevin has been aware for a long time that you were struggling to come to terms with your sexuality, due to people around you not showing much support towards people that aren't like the "norm"

countless of times he had to comfort you when tears were streaming down you face, asking why you had to be different from everyone else

knowing that, it is understandable that he started crying when you, for the first time, openly and proudly told him and acknowledged that you finally accepted yourself for being different, for being yourself

he is a literal mess which leads you both to cry tears of happiness and relief

"i love you so, so much"

⋆ ࣪. 〣 — 𔘓⁩ CHANHEE

you were literally soooo nervous to tell him

you were shaking and almost near tears, the words barely left your mouth

chanhee only replied with "yeah, i know. i sensed it a loooong time ago"

wow you were this nervous for what? for him to tell you that he already knew

doesn't wanna make a big deal out of it because it doesn't change who you are as a person

"take your time. tell me more about it when you're ready, i won't force you to say anything !"

⋆ ࣪. 〣 — 𔘓⁩ CHANGMIN

he overheard it when you were on a phone call with your best friend who you've just come out to

at first he thinks it was your friend that was coming out, but turns out it was you

he's gonna be a little bit confused because he doesn't quite understand

but once you officially tell him, he's so so supportive of you and does his best to educate himself about it to not say anything wrong

"love is love but i hope you still love me the most" what a cocky mf

⋆ ࣪. 〣 — 𔘓⁩ HAKNYEON

things haven't been going the best for you lately and hak was well aware of it

you had always been very insecure and trying to find yourself, your true self

seeing how much you were struggling, he thought of things he could do to make you feel better about yourself

one night he caught you crying to sleep

"i hope you realize that i won't ever be in your way and will support your decisions"

at that moment you couldn't figure out what he meant but you understood when he sent you a song via text

haknyeon really wrote a song for you, you truly were lucky to have him as your boyfriend

only then you understood that hak was well aware of your sexuality and that you didn't have to hide anymore

big big uwu

⋆ ࣪. 〣 — 𔘓⁩ SUNWOO

just like in hyunjaes case, you didn't mean for him to find out like ... this

unfortunately, your - homophobic - parents found out about your sexuality and immediately kicked you out, leaving you with no place to stay

seeing no other option than to ask your boyfriend for shelter, you ended up crashing by on sunwoos couch

crying so hard that your words were inaudible, he couldn't figure out why on earth you were crying so hard

when you finally calmed down and managed to tell him that your parents kicked you out because of your sexuality, he froze

"i'll go get all your things, you're living with me from now on, baby"

there couldn't have been a better response to your coming out

⋆ ࣪. 〣 — 𔘓⁩ ERIC

there was no need to tell him, he already knew

you had no idea that he was aware that you weren't straight

you only found out when he sent you a text at the start of pride month

"it's pride month for a reason, baby. be proud of who you are, doesn't matter if you haven't fully figured it out or told anyone yet"

you instantly broke down in tears replying with

"god, hand in the marriage papers already"

[loudestcloud]

Time for Luffy's fashion exam! Now, I'll be honest, I did skip an outfit because I decided I will be ending this whole thing with the Strawhat fashion show in Episode of Luffy. Also, sorry for the posting gap, I remembered I have other unfinished post sets. That being said, this is a very long one so let's do this!

Kid Luffy, Post-Enies Lobby & Fish-Man Island: I think it's super cute when Luffy has white t shirts with red based logos because it reminds me of the first picture. Makes him look baby plus, they can always be found in cute domestic EPs or fun, cute flashbacks. The shorts change over time and that's also kinda cute, a range of cuffs is a nice change up. It's nice to see the red contrast the blue shorts and the white is a nice color on him cos it contrast his hair!

Romance Dawn, Enies Lobby, Thriller Bark, Sabaody Archipelago, Amazon Lily, Marineford & last Dressrosa outfit: This look is the pre Luffy look. It's the pre Timeskip look everyone thinks of is cuffed shorts, Kimono sandels and sleeveless vest (and Strawhat, obviously) but have you ever seen them all in a line? It's mad. Each outfit is the same basic look bit more are more spicy each time! I like the Thriller Bark and Sabaody Archipelago looks a little bit more cos it's nice to see that jacket open and it feels like he was trying something new. I also feel that the buttons on the jacket look like the ones on Shanks' pegged ankle sailor pants when we first see him so that's cool. (it took me hours to find the name for his trousers, oh my fucking god) The last Dressrosa outfit feels like a nice callback to the rest of the line up here without being too much cos it's just a red vest top instead and I do find it funny it's like the Enies Lobby and it's used in Dressrosa because of the jokes people make about Robin and Law being so similar.

Timeskip: This is it lads, it's the one true icon itself, the post look! ☺️ When I sit back and look at it I see all the people this look is influenced by and want to cry at how masterful it really is. (Now, I do wanna say that I didn't come up with this nor am I the first to say it and I am definitely probably looking too much into this but) The yellow belt is taken from Shanks' red belt the first time we see him and the Shanks look Luffy is more familiar with. Now onto the jacket. I know it won't stand out as to why for most but it's Ace inspired! When Ace leave to become a pirate, the start of his adventure, he has his jacket open and Luffy having his jacket open also shows his scar from the ending of Ace's adventure. I also really appreciate how no one hides scars in this anime. Also, someone said that the style of the jacket and it's fancy frills could be in reference to Sabo's little jabot collar and honestly I do see it. it's quite subtle unlike Shanks' but not as hard to catch as Ace's so I enjoy thinking that it's there too. Lastly, he still has his cuffed shorts and kimono sandels because it's still Luffy's outfit at the end of the day and he is still who is is, just with a stronger appreciation of what people have done for him now. It's also his colour pallette for the pure fact he is the main character n needs his pallet. also sometimes he just has normal wooden sandels but the same outfit sometimes, it's a small detil a lot of people overlook but I prefer the sound of his Kimono sandels 😊

Dressrosa: I love this outfit cos it's stilly but also has very nice vibes. Looks ready for the beach but is really throwing hands and that's the best kind of outfit, it's a nice expectation subversion tbh. I also like how he tried to hide the Straw hat but not... All of it? And I love how the crew didn't actually question it either. It would have been super easy for one of them to just tell him to leave it behind or something but I do really love how respectful they always are of the hat. I myself have a hat that's super important to me and when I loose it I go mad.

Whole Cake Island: I love this arc for outfits! I swear if the actual content of it doesn't kill me, the act looks will 😭 it's all so magical and it knows it is! Like I said before, white is a good color on him as he has black hair but for the same reason, so is black! In this arcs outfit range, the Staw hat seems almost invisible and his outfit gets less and less 'Luffy' as the arc gose on showing this is not about him. He's not the focus of this arc and you can see that in a lot of the outfits thb. I also like the lack of blue and yellow, 2/3 of his colors as Sanji is often associated with those too as we've talked about before. Also, I like the little red strips on the white jacket with the gold buttons, idk why and I think it's nice that the last 2 outfits are so simple in general, it's a nice look for him. oh, what's that? A Pink jabot? Your killing me Lu, straight up killing me here lil' bro! Side note, is this the first time in canon Luffy has worn a suit jacket or is it the only time I've noticed? Cos DAMM!! Shits sick as fuck and I actually love that when wearing a suit jacket as such he always keep short on 😆

Spa Island, Z's Ambition & Strong World: WHOS READY FOR A RELAXING SUNNY DAAAYY!? (pun not intended but very much enjoyed) I actually adore the fact Luffy still tries to go swimming cos it was his favourite thing to do as a kid so like fuck Luffy is gonna give up on that. He's got his safety measures ready, what more do you want from him? I mean I personally want him not to swim with his hat on cos it's litrally Staw and that's not good for water but anyway Z's Ambition, am I right!? The top is so fucking cute and I just noticed those shorts are also ✨designer✨ fancy man!! Now, the pic of Zoro is the one I missed out before and it's also from Z's Ambition. I love that Luffy has the shark top but Zoro has the ocean shorts. I really love Zoro in this purple cos and thick white stripes really work with the ocean waves. It's really well put together and hes got dark brown sandels on to off set all the white but keep the purple from being a stand out color, it's cool! Than the last Luffy looks like he's at a fashion show. It looks like the shorts come from a kids set the shark top belongs to. Imagine those together, it'd be so cute. However, it isn't an ocean patten, those are clouds cos Nami has a bikini top with the same pattern in Skypiea and it's actually one of my favourites for her.

Boss Luffy Historical Special! This filler AU is so much fun, I think any it a lot. He has his hair up in that super cute and useless way that doesn't actually do much but I do have my hair like that a lot n it's just... nice? Idk, it's strange buy I like he did that. I really enjoy his Kimono more that the actual Wano one cos it's a lot more simple look. The Sai being tucked in in that way is also cool but kinda makes it look like it's stabbing him a bit 👁️👄👁️. I like the pin strips being like a faded purpleish cos if you just glance at it, it makes it look it fuzzy. The belt also looks very nice with the middle ligter bit. It really feels like the Wano one was inspired by this is a way cos of the color matches. Like, it's probably not but still.

3D2Y, Adventure of Nebulandia 😍 & Heart of Gold: Hat-less Luffy is both a sin and a blessing. Regardless, I LOVE OP BOYS IN HOODIES!! I had to show you this specific the 3D2Y because we don't see the hood and it's soooo cute cos it a paw 😍 but also 😬 cos it's like... Kuma's paw the thing that cause 3D2Y in the first place. But that's also why it's so cool at the same time and AHHHHHH 😄 Now! On to Nebulandia! I really like this movie but also in canon, how does he have that jumper? Who made it for him and can I have one? It's Usopp flag design so I guess it could be him but he doesn't seem the type. Point is I want one. Last of this set is some really cosy outfits!! "How much fur?" "Yes" am I right? Like the first one is sooooo cosy with all the fur! Plus, a funky new bamboo hat, always a good thing to have a new hat. I appreciate that you can see the zips on these too. Then the orange turtle neck one with little fluffy bits is just here cos it's so out of his usual looks, I had to at least mention it.

Strong world & Film Z: The shorts on the first one are really cute cos it's a light rosey pink with red fur and just a plain solid dark blue colour jacket works really well. Not to mention the fact he has a super cute orange and yellow flight helmet hat with goggles on under the Staw hat. The 2 bag straps also make an X which is a nice detail. The 2nd outfits in this movie are super fuckin cool ngl. It's so strange to see them all dress in black and have guns but I like the red shirt for him with the yellow highlighted parts. Makes the Straw hat actually work with the outfit instead of ignoring it. Film Z brings us the same flight helmet hat just brighter and without the goggles but also opens with this T-Shirt and Luffy being silly with it. I think that's the only reason to mention it, it's funny. Then the obligation pirate outfit, always stunning plus the meat belt.

Film: Gold & Stampede (also used in Cidre Guild): these are my top 3 Luffy outfits no matter what else I see. I love the straw cowboy hat sooooo much cos it's very Luffy. I like the balls they has as a team to choose white for all of them, considering they are all quite messy people, living for that dad shirt and I like the Golden chain around his neck but am always confused as to why it was never used against him. Like dude could and should have tried to choke him at least once, right? Anyway, the dress! Now, the dress isn't actually that good but it's my favourite because it shows how Luffy has no fucks about gendered things. On to of that, a big pink flower is wonderful and look at his confidences in it, he's so proud of it the boom, Nami told him he can't wear it! Lastly, the Stampede outfit!!! Just like the Nebulandia jumper, I have no idea who made it but it's irrelevant cos it's beautiful and I want it so badly. I like that it's white and red stripes, gives thenprefect vibes for Stampedes opening. The shirt is actually too big for him, you can see on his arms but it's actually super cute. I love the simple look of these shorts then the fact his yellow belt is replaced with white bandages and the black on the kimono sandels are now red? It's such a simple pallet and it's truly the best!

I also just wanna add, I think it's really cute when Luffy has the Straw hat on his back just cos his hair is really cute. Idk why, it's looks kinda cursed but cute at the same time

This post took 2 weeks or so to make and we made listening to the complete BNHA soundtrack, film gold OST and Sonic generations vol.1

Sanji

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