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mindless-existence1 · 2 days ago
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Mha Valentines
Bakugo, Izuku, Denki, and Tokoyami x reader headcannons/mini fics for Valentines day!
(Sorry this is a bit late right before I posted this it got deleted so I had to re write the whole thing whoops)
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♡Bakugo♡
~For past relationships (if he was in anyone but that's a topic for another day) he wouldn't make a big fuss about valentines day.
~He doesn't hate valentines days he just...hates valentines day.
~That being said I think he just never got the appeal before he got in a serious relationship with you
~All the sudden he sees a stuffed animal that reminds him of you and he cant just leave the store without it. So he goes up to the counter and awkwardly buys the plushie.
~After buying that for you, and keeping it hidden from you, about a week before valentines day he finds your favorite candy that normally is out of stock.
~So yeah sue him when he buys it for you. You'd get fussy if he didn't.
~But all the sudden he has a lot of gifts for you without even trying. So in the privateness of his dorm he gets out the multitude of gifts and your left stunned. Because just a week before Bakugo had made it clear he wasn't doing anything for valentines day.
~Before you can even say anything he blurts out "Jist shut up and accept it dumbass. And don't go run your mouth about it I don't want anyone thinking I'm getting soft."
~Despite his tough guy act yiu don't miss the brightness of his ears.
♡Izuku♡
~Of course the idea, the concept, of Valentines day was amazing to him. But actually execution was terrible for him.
~What was he supposed to do! Make a grand display? Huge fireworks and a large bouquet??
~OK yeah absolutely not he couldn't do that. But something small he could do. Like a dinner or a peice of jewelry.
~He'd spend a long time writing in his notebook the perfect way to ask you out and anything and everything that could go 'wrong'
~Acting like you aren't already together and he hasn't asked you out before and it's worked.
~Day of Valentines, good old February 14 rolls around and with his amazing luck almost everything goes wrong. The store he had a reservation over booked and the delivery service lost your jewelry in the mail.
~Luckily for him you rescue him from his sulking with the suggestion of a picnic. During said picnic the two of you make eachother flower crowns and all he can think is 'this is the most perfect day ever, what did I do to deserve this?'
♡Denki♡
~Very firm believer he loves being over the top.
~Firm believer that he's a form believer no matter how long you've been together you need to re ask to be your partners valentines every year. (Just to make sure of course)
~So he plans and plans and it's really the only thing he's ever truly thought out.
~Learns your favorite flowers (if he didn't already know), makes a big sign with some sort of electricity pun to ask you to be his valentines.
~Forces Gets Sero, Kirishima, and Mina (bakugo would refuse) to keep you out of your dorm so he can prepare it for you and when you finally see all he set up its perfect every year
~One of those guys who gets like a gigantic bouquet just because
~Honestly just he's the opposite of nonchalant, he's a chalant king
~He set up a dinner date and a night in the dorm lego date or smth cute like that, just for the two of u.
♡Tokoyami♡
~This beautiful man doesn't really know what to do.
~To him Valentines day is so funky
~In my mind he's a gift giver and has a love langue of acts of service and quality time man so when valentines comes around he's like....this is what I do all the time?
~Buuuuuuutttttt he'd write a poem for you. I've said before he likes writing stuff about you but this time he actually give it to you
~He writes it all fancy and on some nice paper and gets all flustered when he hands it to you.
~The amount of love he puts into that note nearly bring you to tears.
~Jewelry. He's a bird obviously he likes jewelry. No fr he'd take you to a bead store and you guys get the colors of eachothers eyes.
~So you can go home with your favorite snacks and make bracelets for each other. Yours with a F and his with the first letter of your name.
~OK so dark Shadow might get a little in the way of the date but it's kinda just like if you had your little siblings tag along or smth
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kyndahot · 17 hours ago
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AVOIDANT SEER OBSCURA BC.. it feels right!
They still go to their little meetings with Morgan but they don’t linger to chat with him like they used to. They stop bringing their lunch to eat with him, but they’ll drop off his usual plate. Their texting suddenly becomes as dry as they had been when they first exchanged numbers, and they no longer seek his company in the dead of a hard night. Most importantly, they go from being able to maintain eye contact to avoiding looking at his face altogether. And, of course, that’s the first thing he notices when it starts. Because the Seer Obscura he knows does not do that normally.
One day, Morgan asks that they stay behind a little longer after their appointment to have a chat. Seer Obscura just nods numbly, and it doesn't escape him the way their leg bounces as they sit in his office. "How well do you think I know you?" The question makes their brow furrow and look up to meet his gaze for just a second before looking past him again. "Do you want me to be honest?" "I would appreciate it if you were. But, even if you weren't, I could tell that you were lying anyway." "Ok. I don't think you know me very well." "In what ways?" "You don't know my birthday. Or my favorite color. My favorite animal. Things of that nature." Morgan hums, "You haven't shared those things with me." "I haven't." "Are those types of facts about you something you wish for me to know?" "I.. I don't think I care if you know them or not?" "What are things you'd care for me to know?" Seer Obscura bites the inside of their lip. "I don't understand where this is going." Morgan smiles, but it doesn't meet his eyes the way it usually does. He looks tired, maybe a little defeated. "Just humor me for a second." Seer Obscura thinks for a moment before meeting his gaze another time. "What are things you know about me now?" "Would me telling you what I know help you understand yourself better?" "It would." "Hm... well you take your time with things you say--though, that's something you've expressed to me before. You're unafraid of maintaining eye contact with people, which is why I noticed when you stopped. You haven't been sleeping lately, you've yawned all throughout our session today, and the ones we've had earlier this week, another bout of insomnia?" They nod. "Right. You don't like to be in your apartment when you're stressed. You enjoy eating foods that are salty and sweet, which means you gravitate to a lot of Asian cuisine. You like to wear chains on your glasses so you can take them off for a long time." Morgan smiles more genuinely at the last one. "That one, I don't entirely understand why. Can you tell me?" Seer Obscura taps their fingers on his desk before responding. "I like the way lights look when they're blurry. It's round and soft. If I focus on it hard enough, I can see the little rainbow effect in the shapes. Kind of like bokeh effects in photography." Morgan smiles wider at their response. "I see, I'll have to try it out sometime." Seer Obscura tilts their head to the side and hums. “I’ve decided I would appreciate it if you knew those small things about me– but I don’t expect you to know them if I don’t tell you. I also find the things you currently know about me to be more meaningful. Thank you for noticing them.” He sighs and pushes up his glasses. “It’s hardly anything to thank me for…I guess I’ll tell you what the point of this was.”
"I bring all of this up because I know that you're avoiding me. You're trying to be subtle about it, and I can appreciate the effort in that, but I suppose I'm a little confused by it." His eyes look down at his desk, the smile on his face becoming strained once more. "Truthfully, I'm a little hurt about it. You don't have to tell me every single detail about what you're going through-- but I would at least like to know if it's something I can help you with." Seer Obscura frowns, their bouncing leg stopping abruptly. "I... I've realized something about myself that I'm not ready to confront. Mostly because it's something I've never felt before, so I have no idea how to navigate it." He hums. "Have I done something to offend you?" "No. You're very considerate about what you say and I would tell you otherwise. That’s something I know how to navigate." "I'm glad to hear it. Can I ask you something else?" "Yes." "If I asked you honestly about your feelings, would you tell me?" "I would lie to you. It would be easier for me to try and lie to you." "Why is that?" "Because you said you can tell when I'm lying. I feel more comfortable telling you a lie that way." He sputters out a laugh at their honesty. Seer Obscura smiles shakily in tandem. "I guess it's really serious then." "It is. Can you ask me now? I’m quickly losing my courage." He gives them another quiet nod. It takes him a minute before asking. “Do you have feelings for me? Romantic, I mean.” "Ugh, it's still hard even when I want to lie." Seer Obscura groans, bringing their hands to cover their face. "Take your time." They can hear the smile in his voice when he says it. There's a shakiness to his voice too. A minute passes. Then two, then another three.
"No, I haven't developed feelings for you. It hasn't been something that I've been struggling with. I'm not afraid of what that means for our future. Our status as obscura has no weight on how deeply afraid I would be if I did have feelings for you." Morgan lets out a deep shaky sigh, as if he had been holding his breath the whole time. "Okay." Seer Obscura hides their face once more, the lump in their throat growing bigger. "I feel the same way." They pause before uncovering their face completely. “Wait, what?” Morgan sputters at their confusion. “I mean like– uh… I reciprocate your feelings? In the way you’re struggling to say honestly. ” He laughs and slides a hand down his face. “Oh, God, we’ve made this so complicated. What I mean is…I would like to be in a romantic relationship with you–If it’s something you’re interested in.” Seer Obscura stares at him wide-eyed for a minute. Their unwavering stare returning in full force.
“I want to tell the truth now.”
Morgan gulps but maintains a smile, nervous as it may be, “Feel free.”
“I would like that too.” . .
. . . "Your favorite color is purple, your favorite animal is the moon jellyfish, and I know your birthday was last Monday, by the way." "Pft, I should've known you knew all along. In hindsight, you never confirmed to me that you didn't." "What can I say? I'm sneaky that way."
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randomthionksithought · 1 year ago
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I keep pushing everyone away to build my walls and then question why they're all gone and I can't see people trying to get to know me
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prismatiger · 6 months ago
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Homunculus
#codacheetah#my art#pokemon#pkmn#vulpix#fennekin#ok so#idk preface i'm not a modern pokemon design hater this is not hater art#but i do think. the style shift progression of pokemon has been fascinating to watch.#a lot of early pokemon particularly the first mmmmm two generations were relatively sensible proportionally#a lot of pokemon that feel like animals but to the left.#and as time has worn on pokemon i think have kind of shifted away from 'balanced' design towards 'cartoon' design#like fennekin. ridiculously huge head with big huge eyes and dramatic fur tufts and tiny little neck and body#compare to vulpix which is also a ridiculous chibi animal mind you. but its proportions are more grounded in reality#head that's only Mildly too big for its body and smaller eyes and visible paws (vs. fennekin's stumps)#i've always felt like fennekin and vulpix is like the kind of microcosm of pokemon designs shifting to be sleeker and more exagerrated#where it's so apparent since they have the same basic design idea#hell you can kind of see it with alolan vulpix. slimmer neck smaller body bigger eyes#this post is kind of meaningless i've just been thinking abt it lately#pokemon no longer has a consistent artstyle. there are many galarian and paldean pokemon that i dont think ever would have made it in rby#and many early gen pokemon look visibly different to the new because they are more simplistic and understated#this is not a bad thing it is just a Thing. it's the natural growth of a franchise where they have to reach further with ideas and designs#with each generation. because there's 1000 of these fuckers. we are long past Basic Fox and Basic Bird and Basic Bug#every pokemon has to be uniquely charismatic and recognizable when they have so much competition#anyways all this to say i think vulpix and fennekin look ridiculous standing next to each other but in a vacuum? both designs are nice
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silusvesuius · 8 months ago
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this tree from my new drawing looking goated afffffff 👑👑
#yes this is a nel/vas drawing get off me���#text#i wanted everyone to see it but also since i draw on paper in total silence i think a lot about everything so i wanted to voice some -#- thoughts too's. tbh i've been veeery self indulgent lately#actually i'm happy that n*lv*s is getting actual hits out of me that i like looking at#especially on-paper stuff that i can recall being fun for me to draw. all traditional art is fun to draw#and digital has turned into an actual task for me (only sometimes tho maybe i;m lying.. mspaint we're still bffs)#i think i just don't see the joy in trying to scrap up a ''' finished ''' piece in an art program .. pencil i love you and i love the -#- feeling of it scratching along the paper....sigh............ Rabu#i don't want my blog or thoughts to turn into traditional art suck-off ventures bc ik not everyone can get into it for many possible -#- reasons but if u feel like it U can ok? do it for Pencil✏️ and for me? for silusvesuius? 𝖎 𝖜𝖎𝖑𝖑 𝖕𝖗𝖔𝖙𝖊𝖈𝖙 𝖞𝖔𝖚#but Lord i hope i don't also come off as one of those people that r like 'to improve in art just draw that one fictional character u -#- rly like 😂😂' bruh gtfo my face with that.#i'm noticing 'improvement' in my stuff mainly...i think... because i'm always striving to impress#not so much other people that are here just for my art but more so myself#i have a very huge ego (Mind Battle)#also it makes me sad to think about how big egos or genuine (not obnoxious) flauntiness are looked down on#and i can tell bc i used to look down on people that would express the things i'm expressing now#especially in art focused spaces. now i'd rather be in a circle of artists that love to J*rk off their own brain for it's ideas -#-and talent than be w/ very self-conscious artists that are never expressing pride about any of their work#worse if it's to the point where they actively start to fish for compliments bc of it#fishing for compliments is always OK i just wish it didn't stem from insecurity in that context if that makes sense#but maybe that's very easy for me to say and admit bc i did develop a very big ego around my art and ... Creativity? like it's a sims skill#not that i still don't seek out 'attention' or compliments from others to soothe myself but hmmmmmm i hope u feel me.#it just turns me into a very competitive person#who am i competing with? Myself#i'm always in 'you can do better Because you're YOU' mode#which is much better i believe than comparing yourself 2 other artists#i don't think a lot of people read my tag ramblings but if u do i wonder how one feels about a very pompous artist#like me .......(?)
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californiaquail · 1 month ago
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anyone else feeling fundamentally incapable of adjusting to society. also just discovered there's a 30 tag limit which i can't believe i've never hit before
#like it was one thing when i was in high school and college like wasn't socialized as a child due to not receiving schooling and growing up#sda blah blah whatever but like i'm almost 27 and i am barely functioning lol like i feel like i'm struggling to have a normal conversation#even more than i used to and i think my speech cadence is noticably off which i don't think it always has been#some of it is definitely from chronic exhaustion from having to get up too early and the stress of having a frequently panic inducing boss#but like. come on now. i can't even drive despite finally having a license because i'm too scared/distractible/poor reaction time#over a dozen antidepressants have not worked. adderall is not working great either#i'm SO much dumber than i used to be and it's driving me quite literally insane#i don't even think it's from getting covid in july because i was noticing it before although it definitely became way more noticeable after#i got this job. i've never been this bad at a job in my life and it's something anyone who knows me would assume i'd be good at#it's embarrassing. i cannot fucking remember anything i struggle to do the most basic of arithmetic to fill prescriptions i make the same#silly mistakes multiple times i am constantly asking stupid questions and still somehow fucking up all the time#it's not as bad as it was a couple months ago and frankly i'm shocked i haven't gotten fired i keep thinking that's going to happen#of course i wanted to quit this job four months ago but now i'm at like a sunk cost fallacy point unfortunately#this is obviously not like any kind of career position for many reasons but i don't know what else to do unless i move across the country#again. i'm not even qualified for anything besides animal related things and summer camp which are fine obviously but not great if you want#things like benefits or paid leave or not to get burned out as hell lmao#i don't even feel like i could do any customer service jobs because i literally struggle to put a coherent sentence together on the spot#everything is so slow. soooo slow i'm literally losing my mind which is catastrophic because my mind is all i've ever had going for me#and i'm having kind of a horrible existence lately which is exacerbating all my problems except the problems make it mostly impossible to d#anything to fix it. ok going out and doing some fun stuff for a day makes me feel better that's great. except then i need a day after that#to recover from doing things the previous day. so the only feasible day for doing things would be saturday. except on saturdays i'm#recovering from working. i literally only work 4 days and barely over 30 hours it's Not that crazy. i mean the boss is crazy and the job ca#also be crazy obviously but 30 hours a week is minimal compared to other work schedules i've maintained before#anyway but the most i can do after work is go to the store if i need to but i almost never have energy for anything fun#and the fucking bus doesn't run on sundays and walking miles to get literally anywhere takes a lot of energy i don't have#i'm about to move next weekend and i'm dreading it because it's going to be so much work and i'm so fucking tired#and i don't have any friends to help me with cleaning i might be able to get help moving my stuff but i'm not even confident about that#i might have to rent a uhaul but i would honestly rather pay somebody to help because i'm that scared of driving even for one 30 min trip#whatever....sorry i had to feel bad for myself in the tumblr dot edu tags again i'm not in therapy rn#(<- guy who should be in therapy)
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ave-immaculata · 7 months ago
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sincere question: how do you guys think Catholic women ought to interact with men who aren't their husband/family? how is it the same as or different than women?
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averlym · 1 year ago
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,,, little lemmings in line...
#adamandi#needed this. idk. shameless fluff. i. sjdhdjfhfhfhfhf viewing this doodle just makes me happy ok#something silly. i feel like lately i've been a lot more earnest on this blog and it's nice!!#the imagery that the lyrics evoke.... goes so hard actually. consider this maybe an outtake of the last 'where can i run' thingy#yes i get the whole lemmings off a cliff thing but also i think taking it at face value would be cute therefore this#since basically they refer to the rest of the students as lemmings.. he's human in this one i guess.#quincent thoughts. many many. but also i have been maybe avoiding engaging with quincy on a more intense level? until i am in a better#mental state to do so. because the whole academic perfection and self harm is a Thing i would like to engage with Properly without spirals#yay on me for being healthy about media! not normal and never normal. but healthy is good i guess#... hm. family is being iffy lately because you're supposed to have good acads And not stressed but i refuse to feel guilty anymore.#after this period i'll go bonkers over him and in the meantime unfortunately they won't feature as much in the content.. :<#anyways. fun fact about lemmings is that it's not necessarily a derogatory blindly leaping to deaths thing when it comes to the actual ones#like that's the phrasing and connotation right. but apparently it's more of they leap off cliff into water below or smth to migrate and onl#the rare few die (skill issue??um) and apparently the whole association was propagated by some documentary wildlife drama thing that kind o#.... hastened the chasing of the poor things off the cliff and filmed it. a bit messed up. and like i guess what a nice metaphor for the#academic context here? or a different one at least. where only a few die so they keep doing it but also for the Average lemming following#following the system is not inherently bad.. maybe i'm projecting.#anyways peep the tiny character shorthands now.. ambrose has the jacket/ bea has the hat and gloves with strings: portia has the bow on hea#quincy has the bowtie and glasses /(beatrix also has glasses. i forgot about those until i was drawing quincy's.)#'avvy why are they standing up' you ask? because four legs looked weird with ambrose's jacket. 'why did you give lemmings glasses?' ummmmm#i guess recognisability? don't look too much into it#outtakes of this include vincent standing in a circle of lemmings. it's badly drawn and frankly hilarious because they're all tiny and#below the knee.#'avvy these don't look like realistic lemmings' you are very right. i am sorry. i looked for a crowd of lemmings on google images and all i#found were political cartoons... i Can draw animals technically i swear#anyways! emotional support adamandi doodle out. going to start work now!#oh i forgot to tag the characters... hm... i guess i'll leave out the lemmings..#?#vincent aurelius lin#.
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milkyberryjsk · 8 months ago
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i graduated ^__^
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offthewall1979 · 19 days ago
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my review of Moonwalk: hot mess. ★★★.
#i will refer to it#but oh god... it's just#1st of all. the added afterword from 2009 should have been a FOREWORD bc it gives you the context for how this book was made#so they did have a real writer put it together based on long transcripts of interviews one of the publishing people did with mj#if those tapes exist or pieces of then exist i need to find them. i think i've seen some floating around#bc ... the way it's written sounds very michael. it's not well written. so i'm surprised they even had an actual writer do it#but that makes me think maybe the writer just pulled a lot of exact wording from the tapes?#i hope that's how it happened#like the publishing lady said i Also wish michael had been devoted to this project. this could've been really good#i'm interested in anything that comes straight from michael so ultimately i'm just grateful he did a book at all#and really WAS involved in it#but it just. it's a mess. it's disorganized. it's disjointed#it just does not deliver in so many ways#there were so many times i would read a couple paragraphs and be like. wait What. that went Nowhere#there are really wonderful parts of course too#first of all i'm happy to hear him talk about parts of his life he didn't necessarily talk about that much#i find everything he says about motown and esp the mid-late j5 motown years Supremely interesting#everything written about music and dancing and performing is great. seeing the way he thinks about those things. divine. enlightening.#the thing is. the tone is extremely defensive and passive aggressive throughout the whole book#which is amusing and i mostly like it. michael jackson was one petty and spiteful mf. he loved being right and he reiterates that a lot#but bc of the press treatment of more personal things like his appearance and relationships. those parts are just. eugh#like when it comes to music/dance/performance he can defend himself no problem. concrete evidence that he's fucking awesome and he knew it#he brings up dating and stuff and it feels like he was like. floundering. maybe he just couldn't decide how much to share?#idk it just feels like. he won't outright SAY some things but he'll sort of hint at things. and i can't tell if what he's hinting at#is the real truth or him being defensive and wanting to give the impression that he was 'normal' so people would just leave him alone#i can't tell. i really can't. i wanna just believe him but i'm like. wtf do you mean. and then there'll be inconsistencies#like WHAT R U TRYING TO SAY. you might as well just tell me what you WANT me to think and what you want people to stop bothering you about#ok anyways#it definitely feels like they rushed to get it out asap#i have like 10 questions for every page. i feel like a writer/editor should've been working with him in that way
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crescentfool · 1 year ago
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beaming everyone on the dashh with good brain day vibes!!! i hope that you all can remember to extend self-compassion to yourself whenever you're feeling down about something 💙
#lizzy speaks#the human brain works in such profound ways i think#lately i've been thinking about that post that was like 'you will always be your oldest friend take care of yourself'#it's definitely a sentiment i agree with and i appreciate how it emphasizes the importance of extending compassion to yourself#you wouldn't say such hurtful things to your friends right? (or at least i'd hope so)#so why would you say it to yourself?#you are your own friend too. and i think everyone has a beautiful soul within themselves. nurture it! water it! feed it good thoughts.#basically i wish everyone a 'i hope that your brain is not your own enemy but rather a friend that you can find comfort in'#things will work themselves out with time. there's beauty in life and you will find small delights to cherish!! i am manifesting it for u!!#and for those who find it difficult to transition from a self-critical mindset to one that's more compassionate and nonjudgmental#i truly think that with time you will be able to rewire your brain to be kinder to yourself. i'm proud of you for taking any first steps :)#there are times in which it feels counterintuitive to go against habits that feel hard-wired... but brains are very malleable littel guys-#with such a wonderful capacity for changing and learning new things. so i hope everyone can learn to be their own best friend!#not to undermine the importance of a support network ofc. that's good too and im all for that!! but i hope everyone remembers to be kind-#not only to others but also to themselves!! you're going to do great out there!! i love you all!!#ive just been thinking about this a lot... i needed to get it out there. you all shine so brightly!!! we shall be fine!!! have a good week!#sorry if this is out of nowhere but if there's anything about me you should know it's that i'm the 'hey dont cry 8 billion people on earth-#ok?' post. idk i just find great joy in knowing others are out there thriving and finding a daily delight yknow i love humanity!!
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medicinemane · 3 months ago
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Sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy
You have... very very very very very very very very smart people you know, and they're say something that not only isn't true, but literally is as opposite of the truth as it's possible to be... and you'll... gently inform them "hey, it's actually a bit more like this" and then they just kinda... go on saying literally the exact same thing
I'm not sure if it's just that... I often feel like I must be very bad at communicating, or people must just not notice/ignore a lot of what I say, but... I don't know
Like dearest friend, you've said something as absurd as... I don't know, it's hard to say without saying it, but honest to god about as absurd as saying the United States was a part of the USSR, that level of completely getting it backwards
...and it just doesn't seem to matter when I try to explain it... I legit don't even know if you read what I said
Really end up feeling like I'm going nuts sometimes
#to be clear; I don't mind people disagreeing with me (though that's not what's happened here... I don't think I came into it at all)#but all I need in order to be able to work with disagreement is just... knowing you at least heard and understood me#like if it's 'I get that you think that vanilla is a good flavor of icecream; but I really prefer chocolate'... ok; this works for me#it's that... a lot of the time it honest feels more like 'what are you talking about? vanilla isn't a flavor' where... huh?#let's take a real example; not everyone needs to agree with me on nuclear#but like... someone saying 'I get that it's way safer these days; but I still worry about waste storage'... well ok then#but if it's just like 'but it's dangerous and will explode' even after I've explained about the designs now#where there's a salt plug that with melt and drain before anything can happen; and these materials don't like to run away#...and it's not like they're asking me to back up the source; it's like I never said anything at all...#what am I supposed to do here? you feel me on that? do you start to get why I feel like I'm going crazy when that's how it often feels?#no one is obliged to agree with me but... literally just active listening would fix this... say you heard me and we're good#acknowledge that I voiced something and it's been noted#honestly... honestly my who life it's felt like I must somehow actually be invisible#...to an extent maybe I'm a figment of my own imagination; I might well be a ghost that's lonely and makes you all up#...for all the impact my actions have#or maybe literally everything I say just comes out garbled... is that it?#this post is about something very specific; but it's also about something that happens a lot with a lot of different people#on a broader scale; why is it no one else seems to be able to connect the dots#and these aren't like... conspiracy theory dots; these are like russia buys drones from Iran; therefore russia and Iran are partners#that's the kind of dots I'm talking about connecting; please tell me that's not a conspiracy theory to you... it seems plain to me#I don't know... I really don't... I don't think much I say will ever have any impact anywhere on anyone#...honestly a good 90% of the time people don't even respond to what I say#not like my posts here; I mean direct in dms or whatever; I'll say stuff and it's just silence or a new subject#again; across multiple people; it's common... it's... I think it happens more often than it doesn't#I can instantly name 4 conversations with 4 different people that's happened with lately#and that's not counting the 3 where I know the reason why it's happened#I really am something unfit to live; the evidence is endless#mm tag so i can find things later
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bisexualmaedhros · 7 months ago
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transfem furries hornyposting online about the relatively niche/"out there" things they're into have inadvertently helped me accept myself more than the body positivity movement of the 2010s ever did
#this will not be rebloggable because i don't want people to get transmisogynistic in the notes#it's just something i've been thinking about lately#i hope i'm not like out of line for saying this please let me know if i say anything disrespectful#i just have a lot of love in my heart for transfems; especially those who log on to this website to be gay on my dash and do their thing#trans wlw being proud of their identities helped me come to terms with my own in a way. idk how to properly explain it but#idk. our experiences are very different - you have to fight to be seen as a woman and i have to fight not to#(though that is part of my identity in most cases people would use it to negate the rest)#(and of course none of us should Have to fight that but. i hope it's clear what i mean lol)#and idk like. womanhood is not achieved painlessly for you and yet so many of you embrace it so beautifully and in so many ways#it makes me want to accept that part of myself i thought i had to kill for so long#i am not entirely a woman but i love being a woman and loving other women-#platonically romantically sexually it doesn't matter#i'm so grateful i get to share a community with you all and read/hear/watch your thoughts and experiences and such#which goes beyond sex stuff but sex stuff is a particular personal struggle of mine and it's something i've been trying to cultivate a more#healthy relationship to lately. and i also know that unfortunately transfems get treated even worse than everyone else when it comes to#kinks or whatever. i don't mean to imply that everyone has to be open about that stuff. i just mean that i'm grateful for those who bravely#and proudly are. anyway i'm losing my train of thought bc i'm packing for a trip and i'm a little scattered atm but the point is#transfem wlw i love you dearly thank you for existing#[oh also this post isn't meant to bash body positivity stuff and i know it's not all the same. it just often felt too sanitized and forced#for me to relate to. ok bye]#finielspeaks
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coffeebanana · 2 years ago
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I love rewriting. I love it love it love it (even though i sometimes avoid it) because nothing's more satisfying than turning something that's just not quite right, something that just doesn't quite work for you, into something you LOVE
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diomedrian · 2 years ago
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It's only period thinking, he's only busy. He's leaving me on seen, it's only period thinking. If he were to leave or lose interest, he'd tell you. Trust him enough to at least say things before ending anything. If he hasn't said anything, he's not thinking about anything either. You don't buy four hard covers for someone just to leave them two days later. You don't buy four hard covers for someone you're planning on leaving. Please be nicer to him. Please be nicer to yourself.
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webonchin · 1 year ago
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I'm still alive, it's just that my mind has been quite hyperactive lately and it's hard to concentrate on one thing at a time aaaa
I'm fine just a lot of stimulation
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