#i've been awake for 24+ hours

[aiscapades]

so mhin hates vere and ais because they're monsters, and monsters are bad and only seek to use humans in some way. yet mhin is fond of kuras, even knowing to some degree about his special healing abilities. also mhin is in some capacity a monster themself.

so mhin has a clear prejudice against monsters that look like monsters. horns, tails, slitted pupils? mhin hates you.

supernatural abilities, otherworldly presence, no need to consume food or drink, but appearing pretty much like a regular guy? mhin can get behind that.

and leander—the guy who oozes poisonous vibes despite all his charm, the guy we labelled from DAY ONE as dangerous in some way—mhin actually sorta likes him? like they blush when talking about him! they call him annoying, sure, but that's it.

they admire kuras and think he's doing the lord's work (haha) and also have this ongoing crush on leander from afar...

but they hate monsters!!!

mhin obviously doesn't like the fact they are a monster, too, even if they appear pretty human to others. because they know what's inside them. they know their monstrous form. of the monstrosities they have committed or could possibly commit if they let it take control.

but for some reason they give others a pass, a lenience they don't even allow for themself.

have they ever even stopped to consider kuras is as monstrous as vere? that leander is in any way like ais?

do they give human-like monsters the benefit of doubt as a way to not fully give up on themself?

because if leander is an evil monster, and kuras is an evil monster... mhin is also an evil monster, and that becomes an inescapable fact.

[torra-and-the-toons]

Okay hear me out hear me out

Wally painstakingly learning Japanese and the only thing he's learned so far is the word "himé", which means "princess", and it refers to Kuki obviously

AWE this is so adorable I love it so much! XD

I could totally see him learning it on accident too

Despite this, he still uses it when it's just the two of them to see her smile :>

[sealrock]

temptation.

[hope-ur-ok]

I didn't sleep last night so I might just go to bed

[chicago-geniza]

I stayed up all night again because I couldn't stop thinking about vampires for long enough to fall asleep. In related news I have an appointment at the adult neurodevelopmental disabilities clinic this morning,

[weskie]

hysto consult and 20 dollars worth of taco bell later and I feel like I just scratched an itch 🚬😩

[heartshattering]

Dad was throwing stuff and when I said it made me nervous he said "I don't care, you're always nervous" :) wow Dad it's so cool to hear how I haven't made any progress at all in trying to improve my anxiety, I'll always be jittery and anxious, no one ever thinks of my anxiety as anything but an annoyance and an inconvenience to them! <3 No one sees how hard I'm trying and when they do stuff to make it worse (like... literally throwing shit around me?????) who cares since I'm "always nervous" anyway? :')

I'm just a bother who no one wants to deal with, I truly am too nervous to handle life, I should be locked away somewhere. There's no point in fucking trying when it's just impossible for me to make progress. Meds, hospitals, failed therapy attempts, trying to cope using both healthy and unhealthy strategies... none of it matters! None of it fucking matters because my brain is too messed up to ever be 'normal' and I shouldn't even exist!!!

[iracundiias]

ignoring my feelings from ep 8 by doing what i do best: writing smut

more sol x reader since everyone seems to be liking turbulent waters, which i was not expecting 🥺 might make it like a part 2 of turbulent waters, not sure. perhaps some riding, who knows 🤭

[wetbananapeel]

I witnessed a death a few days ago and was helpless in altering the outcome even though I tried everything at my disposal. The sound of pure animalistic distress is haunting my thoughts and keeping me up tonight. I'm not sure I will ever get that sound out of my head; it's so vivid.

[cold-open]

i'm too tired to finish the game so i have to do the last bit i have left tomorrow, and it's fucking killing me to still play Spoiler Dodger. i guess one good thing about not really interacting with fandoms for things much is being less likely to get flattened full force by an untagged spoiler post, lol.

[ff14hermes]

always a good sign when 75% of the posts on your dash are variations of "please don't kill yourself"

[yesthefandomfreakblr]

I crave deeply to redraw my old shitty TUC memes/comics

[bunny-lily]

IM FINALLY DONE WRITING, FUCK

I can FINALLY proof-read tomorrow, then Tether Me's last chapter will be posted ♥

part 1 is already proof-read and ready (10k words), part 2 is mostly okay (15k ish words), I just gotta clean up the smut and consult my beloved thesaurus

I'm going the hell to bed. I'll let you lovies know when Tether Me will be going up ♥

[somethingmissingthiswaycomes]

I love accomplishing things. It is time for bed now, and I'm hoping this will accomplish a rested mind for tomorrow.

[abyssalpriest]

fucking hate making a comment about Lev seeming to be coming back under the name Poseidon (insert all my comments before about how he seems to be hard to get a long-term hold of, how people who work w Poseidon seem to always disappear and quit, how even though he absolutely shows up like that that name has been an energetic absence) the day before flight rising starts the storyline to bring back the Tidelord after. how many years of his absence??

I ssay "feels like he's coming back" and we get the Tidelord coming back????? Ok

[sorairoknife]

It always feels so right to reblog pictures of Arcueid. Here's the Arcueid blog with the Arcueid icon and the Arcueid post. Complete set