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smol-stardust · 1 year

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Whispers of Solace

Chuuya x Reader Fluff (ao3 link) Chuuya is faced with a night of restlessness and spends some time with y/n Warnings: N/A except potential grammar errors

Darkness greeted the eyes as Chuuya lay sleeplessly on the futon. The clock struck midnight, yet sleep eluded Chuuya. Outside, cicadas buzzed, and the whirring of the fan became incessantly intrusive the longer he remained plagued by sleeplessness. Tossing and turning in his futon, he finally gave up and quietly slipped out of his room. Restless, he wandered the darkened hallways, trying to shake off the thoughts that haunted him. His mind was burdened with the weight of the Sheep's dangerous endeavours. No solace was to be found in the familiar confines of his room, where he was sure to be greeted with a harrowingly bleak dreamless slumber. The faint numbness of not remembering and questioning his very being that came with the darkness of night certainly didn't help.

In the silence of the night, Chuuya made his way to the kitchen, hoping a glass of water would soothe his restless mind. Noticing a faint light, Chuuya entered the kitchen, smiling when he noticed Y/N preparing tea. As she prepared the tea Y/N noticed Chuuya, her eyes met Chuuya's weary ones.

"Hey, can't sleep either?" she asked gently, setting the kettle aside. Her intuition told her that something troubled Chuuya. His eyes seemed to carry a more immense burden than usual on this night.

Chuuya nodded wearily. "Guess so…"

Nodding thoughtfully, Y/N pulled up a chair for him and smiled gently. "How bout some chamomile tea? It'll relax you a bit. Maybe that'll help?" She murmurs.

"Isn't it too hot for tea?" Chuuya grumbled tiredly. "But yeah, tea actually does sound nice… thank you."

Within a few moments, Y/N sets two cups of tea on the table and sits beside Chuuya. The two sip their tea in silence for a while.

"Thanks, this is alright," Chuuya mumbled weakly as he sipped the tea.

Y/N nodded and offered a smile. "Ne, Chuuya, I'm here, you know… if you need anything."

Chuuya peered at Y/N, and he offered a slight smirk, "I'm fine… I'm…."

His eyes met Y/N's gentle eyes as she looked at him tenderly with kindness. Unable to hide his vulnerability in his tired and restless state, Chuuya lowered his guard and let out a side of him only a few had seen.

"I just can't stop thinking about everything that's going on, you know? Sometimes it feels like I'm in over my head." Chuuya mumbled, his eyes filled with a deep pool of tiredness. "I can't stop thinking about everything that's going on, the Sheep… everyone's safety and the mafia. I guess I feel like I'm carrying the weight of the world. And it's keeping me up at night. Especially with how everything seems temporary, the dreamless sleep doesn't help." Chuuya rambled. He craved comfort, relief… something, anything, if only to be at peace for a minute.

Y/N listened carefully and timidly wrapped her arms around him in a comforting embrace. "You're not alone, Chuuya. You do so much for us, and I'm not sure I can understand the burden you must carry for our sake," Y/N pauses and squeezes his hands gently. "I'm here for you no matter what happens. And you don't have to bear everything on your own. I'll always listen and help when I can."

A faint smile crossed Chuuya's face as he leaned against Y/N's soothing embrace. "Thank you… for always being here and being the sweet, caring person you are."

"Mm, thank you, too, for giving me a place to call home. You've always been here, so I'll always be here for you, too," she assured him, rubbing circles into his back. "Even if it's just to talk to you til the sun comes up, I'm always here."

Chuuya wrapped his arms around her and nodded against her embrace. He allowed himself to indulge in this moment between the two of them. Where he can just be Chuuya and not 'the King of the Sheep' or a boy with no past, he could be himself, if only for a moment.

"Thank you," he whispers.

Suddenly, an idea struck Y/N. "Ne, Chuuya? Why don't you come by the corner where my futon is set up? I'll read to you, and maybe it'll be easier to relax and fall asleep, yeah?" She murmurs gently as she continues to hold him in her arms.

Chuuya hesitated, but finding peace in Y/N's presence was undeniably refreshing. He nodded, and they quietly went to her futon, trying not to disturb the others in the hideout as Y/N led him by the hand to her futon.

"I'll read you a story until you fall asleep. Maybe that'll help take your mind off things." Y/N murmured as she held his hand tenderly.

Chuuya shrugged, feeling grateful for the gesture. "Sure, that sounds nice."

The corner where the futon was set up was quiet and secluded, some books beside the futon in a neat stack. Y/N settled on the futon and patted the space beside her, inviting Chuuya to join. Hesitantly, Chuuya finally lay beside Y/N as she reached for a book. Carefully cracking the book open, Y/N begins to read in a soft, soothing voice. The story swept them away to a different world, far from the troubles that plagued them. Chuuya's eyes grew heavy as Y/N's words lulled him into a peaceful state. As the story unfolded, Chuuya listened intently, slowly feeling the weight of his worries easing. Y/N's voice was like a soothing melody, and their presence beside him was a balm to his soul.

In the quiet moments that followed, Y/N noticed that Chuuya had fallen asleep, his head resting on her shoulder. Gently, she shifted, allowing him to lay more comfortably on her futon. Y/N wrapped her arms around him protectively, and soon, she too succumbed to sleep, the book still in her hands. Chuuya nestled against Y/N, feeling a sense of comfort and safety that he hadn't felt in a long time. As the two of them drifted off to sleep together, Y/N's presence helped chase away the dark hollowness that often plagued Chuuya's restless nights.

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The morning light filtered through the curtains, and the room slowly brightened. Shirase walked by Y/N's futon as he looked for Chuuya. He scoffed when he saw them sleeping together, cuddled in the futon.

Unable to contain his emotions, Shirase gave an irritated huff and raised his voice. "Hey, wake up, you two! We have things to do!"

Startled awake, Y/N and Chuuya blinked at Shirase, who was now standing before them, a scowl on his face.

"... What…" Y/N mumbled, still groggy from sleep. Her face flushed a little as she registered that her limbs were still entangled with Chuuya's.

Feeling a mixture of embarrassment and annoyance at being interrupted, Chuuya glared at Shirase. "Can't a guy get some rest around here?"

Shirase crossed his arms, looking away. "Whatever. Don't make a habit of this. You have a gang to run."

As he left the room with a grumble, Y/N and Chuuya exchanged glances, suppressing a smile.

"How'd you sleep?" Y/N asked timidly.

"Better than I have in a while," Chuuya replied earnestly. "Thank you, Y/N."

Y/N smiled at Chuuya reassuringly. "Remember, I'm always here for you, Chuuya. You don't have to go through this alone."

Chuuya nodded, grateful for Y/N's support. He caressed her hair and pressed a gentle kiss against her forehead. The two peer at each other with a blush. Chuuya cleared his throat awkwardly and gave Y/N a small awkward smile before running off, unsure what to say after he slipped up and gave her a forehead kiss. The new day was like any other day for the Sheep, but if one looked closely, they'd see that Chuuya sported a rare small smile whilst Y/N seemed to smile just a bit brighter than usual.

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From that day forward, whenever Chuuya found himself unable to sleep, he knew he could count on Y/N to lend a comforting presence and a good story. The nights they spent cuddling together in the futon became a cherished ritual, a reminder that even in the darkest of times, there was a glimmer of light and warmth waiting for them both in the small futon they shared in the corner.

#chuuya x reader #chuuya nakahara x reader #bsd chuuya #nakahara chuuya #bsd fanfic #bsd x reader #fluff #✎sparky.writes✐

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kisses-for-you · 9 months

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Ill - Kory Anders

Kory Anders X Fem!Reader

Summary: You've been diagnosed with a serious illness that Kory is about to find out about.

Word Count: 1,099

⚠️ Warnings: Cancer.

You snuggle comfortably into Kory's warm embrace, feeling the gentle rise and fall of her chest. Kory wraps her arms protectively around you, creating a cosy cocoon of affection. As you lay entwined, you listen to the sound of Kory's soothing heartbeat that syncs in perfect harmony with your own. In that peaceful moment, time seems to slow, and the world outside your embrace fades away.

As you lay there, you notice Kory starting to slowly doze off. You loved moments like this. Just you and your girlfriend with not a care in the world. But that's where you're wrong. There's one thing you haven't been able to stop thinking about. Your cancer.

You got diagnosed with it around a month ago, pancreatic cancer. Unfortunately for you, it's already spread and it's in its advanced stages, which means it can't be treated. Or rather it can but it's highly unlikely that it'll work. So why bother? You should've noticed the signs, maybe then you wouldn't be in this situation, worrying about how long you have left with your girlfriend, wondering what your last moments with her will be. But then again - the doctors did say your specific type of cancer is hard to detect in its early stages. So is it really your fault that you didn't notice?

Maybe you didn't notice but Kory did. Of course, she still doesn't know about the cancer. You just don't have the guts to tell her. However, she noticed the constant tiredness and the sudden weight loss. You did try to convince her it was just exhaustion from how hard you were working but she knew better. She knew you were lying and she knows you still are, no matter how much you try to convince her otherwise.

Your thoughts come to an end when you hear Kory's light snores coming from behind you, telling you she's asleep. As carefully as you can, you slip out of her grasp and leave your room. You head to the kitchen for a glass of water, your mind starting to race with thoughts of your illness once again. The sound of footsteps approaching snaps you out of your train of thought.

"Y/N, is everything okay?" Kory asks.

You turn around to find Kory standing in the doorway to the kitchen, concern etched across her face. You force a smile, trying to hide the weight of your secret.

"Yeah, everything's fine. Just couldn't sleep, you know?" you reply, attempting to sound casual. Kory narrows her eyes slightly, sensing that you're lying to her yet again.

"Y/N, don't lie to me," she says softly, stepping closer. "You've changed, you know? You're always tired and you've lost so much weight in such a short amount of time - Y/N, just talk to me, please."

Your forced smile wavers as Kory's genuine concern pierces through your attempts to conceal the truth. You take a deep breath, trying to choose your best words very carefully.

"Kory, it's just... I've been feeling a bit off lately," you admit, still covering up the full truth. "But it's just stress from how much I've been working. I just need a small break and I'll be fine, really."

Kory studies your face, her eyes searching for reassurance. Despite your attempt to downplay it, she knows there's still more than you're telling her. "Y/N, I know you better than anyone. This isn't just stress. Please, talk to me. I want to help."

The lump in your throat grows heavier, but you manage to respond, "Look, Kory, I'm not going to burden you with my problems so let's just enjoy the moments we have together, okay?"

Kory's slowly getting tired of your bullshit and it shows when she accidentally snaps with a slightly raised voice, "Well I can't really enjoy the moments we have together if all I can think about is how my girlfriend keeps lying to my face and I can't stop worrying about what's wrong with her."

Your heart pounds as Kory's words hang in the air, her frustration palpable. You take another deep breath, realizing that you can't keep evading the truth any longer.

"Kory, I..." Your voice falters, and you lock eyes with her, vulnerability laid bare. "I didn't want to tell you because I didn't want you to worry, but it's more than just stress. I've got cancer, and it's... I'm not getting treated. It's too advanced and it's already spread. The doctors said I've got about a year left at best."

Kory's eyes widen, her initial frustration replaced by shock and concern. She takes a step closer, the gravity of your words sinking in. "Y/N, why didn't you tell me? How long have you known?" Her voice trembles with a mix of emotions.

You hesitate before responding quietly, your voice barely above a whisper, "Like a month.."

"A month? And you didn't even think to tell me?!" Kory exclaims before falling silent, her gaze shifting between disbelief and sorrow.

"I didn't want whatever time I had left with you to be spent grieving someone who's still alive!" you say, your voice breaking as tears well up in your eyes.

She reaches out to gently hold your hands. "Y/N, I get that you were just trying to spare me the pain, but keeping such a big secret from me hurt me more. We're in this together, no matter what. I want to be here for you," Kory says, her voice filled with sincerity and love.

You try to speak but your words are cut short by the sound of your sobs. Tears stream down your cheeks as Kory pulls you into a tight hug, her arms wrapping around you, allowing you to feel safe and protected as if nothing else matters. She holds you close, and you can feel her heart beating against yours.

You lean your head on her shoulder, your tears staining her shirt. Yet she doesn't seem to mind. She's just glad she can be there for you in some way. In that moment of vulnerability, Kory holds you tighter, the room filling with your quiet sobs.

"I'm so sorry, Y/N," Kory whispers, her voice calm and soothing as she continues to embrace you. "I wish this hadn't happened to you. I wish you didn't have to go through this."

Your tears eventually come to an end and you look up at Kory, your eyes still red and puffy. "I love you so much, Kory," you say. She responds, a sad smile on her face, "I love you too, Y/N,"

#kory anders #starfire #kory anders x reader #dc titans #imagine

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hinatastinygiant · 1 year

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3 | Undercover Ring

Pairing: Mikey x Fem!Reader

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You wake up suddenly, sweating and feeling hot all over. Your heart is pounding as if you were trying to escape from a scary dream. The loud alarm blasts through your room, snapping you back into relation. Confused and disoriented, you struggle to turn off the noisy alarm while the lingering images from your dream continue to haunt your thoughts.

Gathering your wits, you shake off the remnants of sleep, summoning the strength to face another day. With a heavy sigh, you rise from the comfort of bed, tugging on the frayed threads of determination that keep you going. The weight of responsibility settles upon your shoulders as you step into your role as caretaker.

Navigating your way through the cramped kitchen, you prepare a meager breakfast for your younger sister and brother. The stove hisses to life, casting flickering shadows against the chipped walls, a stark reminder of the humble dwelling you call home. The aroma of simple sustenance fills the air, a comforting embrace despite the hardships that surround you.

Plate in hand, you place the modest meal of oatmeal before them, a silent gesture of love and protection. Their tired eyes meet yours, their unspoken gratitude evident in their gaze.

"Morning, guys," you say as you place your bowl of oatmeal on the table. The plain, yet filling breakfast is all you can afford right now.

Yuzuha takes a spoonful and quickly remarks, "Hmm, not as exciting as your usual Friday morning breakfast, sis."

Hakkai, still rubbing his eyes, grumbles, "Yeah, but it's better than nothing. Also known as our Monday morning breakfast."

You sigh and take a sip of water. "Hakkai, how was school yesterday?" you ask, changing the subject.

He shrugs and mutters, "Same old, same old. Just tryin' to get through the rest of the semester."

Yuzuha interjects, "We can still find a way to make things even better, right, Y/N?"

You give her a reassuring smile, yet you're really not sure how you can make things better when Frank pays you like shit and Yuzuha isn't able to hold onto a job for longer than a week. "Of course. We'll figure it out together. We're a pretty good team, I think."

After you finish your breakfast, Yuzuha offers to take care of the cleaning today. "Don't worry about it," she tells you. "You have work and Hakkai has school. I'll manage here."

You smile gratefully at her. "Thanks, Yuzuha. I appreciate it. Take care of yourself while I'm gone."

You then turn to Hakkai and cheerfully tell him, "Have a good day at school!" before getting ready to leave.

Your two siblings exchange a quick glance, but you don't notice. You are still completely oblivious, despite the obvious clues, that Hakkai dropped out of school a while ago. But instead, you just bid them farewell and head out the door.

Little do you know that your siblings share a secret, their eyes filled with concern for your well-being. They understand the weight you carry to keep the household afloat, but they also worry about the toll it's taking on you. Somehow, they just want to make your burdens a little bit lighter.

As you descend upon the underground fighting ring, the atmosphere crackles with tension. The place is dimly lit, filled with the sounds of heavy footsteps, hushed conversations, and occasional cheers from the crowd.

Tough-looking fighters with tattoos of all shapes and sizes lurk in the shadows, their presence both intimidating and captivating.

Your boss, Frank, approaches you- a man with thinning hair and a big grin, smelling like cheap booze and old cigarettes as he draws near. There's a dangerous glint in his eyes as he gets closer.

"Well if it isn't my star attraction," he slurs, his breath reeking for alcohol. "Got a special offer for you tonight, sweetheart. Step into the ring, give 'em a good show, and I'll pay you double for the week. But if you chicken out, well, you can kiss that paycheck goodbye."

You stare back at him, a flicker of defiance burning in your eyes. Deep down you know this isn't what you signed up for, but the threat of losing a week's worth of wages hangs over you like a dark cloud. You clench your fists, resolving to endure whatever that asshole sends your way.

"Fine," you grumble through your teeth, your voice dripping with hatred for your boss. "You've got a deal. But remember, double pay better be worth my time!"

With a smirk, Frank slaps you on the shoulder. "That's my girl! Go out there and make 'em scream, kid!"

Late at night, your fight begins. From the start, it was a blur- a battle of adrenaline, pain, and survival. You exchange blows with an opponent who was about twice your size. The crowd's excited cheers blend with the pounding of your heartbeat. Each strike and dodge feels like a dance between life and death.

In the chaotic frenzy of the fight, among the storm of fists and thunderous clash of bodies, an unexpected strike found its mark. You got hit hard in the face, and it hurt a lot. Your cheek started bleeding, and the sweat mixed with the blood. The people watching gasp in surprise and fear. They make loud noises, cheering and gasping, because of how intense the fight was.

As the fights continued, your body shows the signs of the intense battle. But you don't let the pain stop you. You keep going, even though it's hard. You have bruises all over, like big dark marks on your skin. But the most noticeable is the deep cut on your cheek- a rough, uneven scar that stands out against your skin as a constant reminder of the pain from your fight.

Stumbling out of the ring, your body aches. You attempt to navigate your way home, through the dimly lit streets on unsteady feet. The world around you seems hazy and distant as you fumble for your phone, fingers trembling.

Dailing Hakkai's number, you lean against a lamppost, your breath coming in ragged gasps. When he answers, his voice laced with concern, you struggle to convey the severity of the situation, your words punctuated by pained grunts.

"Hakkai... I need... help," you manage to say between breaths. "Can't... make it home..."

Hakkai's voice crackles with barely suppressed anger. "Damn it, Y/N! I told you this was a bad idea. I'll come to get you, but I don't know where Frank is. Keep your phone on so I can find your location!"

Minutes stretch into an eternity as you stand there, your body still throbbing with the remnants of the fight. Finally, Hakkai appears, his expression a mixture of concern and frustration.

"You're a freaking idiot, you know that?" Hakkai mutters, his eyes scanning your battered face. "I can't believe you let Frank do this to you!"

"Yeah, I know," you respond.

You lean on Hakkai for support as he helps you stay steady on your feet, the weight of the world momentarily lifts as you stumble towards the comfort of your home.

The journey back is filled with a mix of silence and muttered apologies. But you crossed the threshold of your modest apartment, you know that no matter what happened, your younger sister and brother will be there to take care of you.

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calicoheartz · 5 months

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overworked reader and paige forcing her to go to bed🙏🙏 need some hurt/comfort

Anchored Affection ; Paige Bueckers ♡﹕

꣑୧ — summary | overworked & anxious reader , paige comforting reader :) happy ending yay

wc ; 709

— warnings | hurt & angst , mature themes + topics , fluff at the end

my master list ㇀♡

a/n : this hit waaaay too close to home , tried my best to accurately represent mental health while giving you guys some angst with a happy ending ! Enjoy ◡̈

The ambient lighting in your room helped you feel a little bit at ease, the light reflecting onto the scattered books sprawled out on top of your desk, as your eyes darted across your computer screen.

You had always been a high achiever, always pushing yourself to excel in every aspect of your life. Whether it was constantly studying for exams, or finishing your homework wayyy in advance, you always centered your life around academics.

You had struggled with anxiety since you were a kid, often struggling to express your feelings, and having a tendency of bottling everything up. With the pressure to succeed, to meet the expectations of others, weighed heavily on their shoulders, a burden that seemed to grow heavier with each passing day.

Paige had started to notice your habits were starting to take a toll on your mental health, but as much as she tried to support you and be there for you, it felt like she was helplessly watching you slip deeper and deeper into the darkness of your own mind.

The clock on the wall ticks, the lines of exhaustion etched into your face were unmistakable, a silent testament to the toll your overworked schedule was taking.

Your girlfriend Paige on the other hand, was already in bed. She knew you had work that had to be finished, but once it passed a certain time, she knew she had to drag you into bed with her.

The blonde simply sighed, slowly getting up from your shared bed and made her way to the living room, where she discovered you sprawled out against the floor, with papers scattered in every direction around you.

"y/n, it's past midnight," Paige's voice was gentle but firm, cutting through the silence of the room. "You need to rest. You've been pushing yourself too hard lately."

But you simply waved off her concern with a tired smile, their eyes fixed on the glowing screen in front of them. "I just need to finish this one thing," you insisted, your voice strained with fatigue.

Paige's heart ached at the sight of your stubborn resolve, knowing all too well the dangers of neglecting one's own well-being in pursuit of perfection. With a sigh, she approached you and gently closed the laptop, ignoring your whines of protest.

"y/n, listen to me," Paige's voice was soft but unwavering as she took your hands in hers, her eyes searching yours with an intensity born of love and concern. "I know you have a lot on your plate, but you can't keep burning yourself out like this. You need to take care of yourself, okay? You're important to me, and I hate seeing you like this."

You felt the weight of Paige's words settle over them like a comforting blanket, warming them from the inside out. Tears pricked at the corners of their eyes as they finally allowed themselves to release the pent-up tension they had been carrying for so long.

"I'm sorry, Paige," your voice slightly cracked with emotion as you buried your face in Paige's shoulder, allowing yourself to be held in her comforting embrace. "I just...I'm so afraid of letting people down. I feel like I have to be perfect all the time, and I'm so tired of it."

Paige's heart broke at the raw vulnerability in your voice, the weight of your shared struggles hanging heavy in the air between them. But she also felt a surge of determination, a fierce desire to protect you from the relentless pressure of their own expectations.

"You don't have to be perfect, baby," Paige whispered, her arms tightening around them in a gesture of unwavering support. "You're already more than enough, just the way you are. And I'll be here every step of the way, cheering you on and reminding you to take care of yourself."

With Paige's words echoing in their ears, you finally allowed yourself to surrender to the sweet embrace of sleep, their weary body finding solace in the warmth of Paige's love. And as they drifted off into dreams, they knew that no matter what challenges the future may hold, they would face them together, hand in hand, bound by a love that could weather any storm.

tbh idk how to feel about this yet. I’m trying to put out the best content while also writing fast enough to finish all the reqs. As always , tysm for reading ❤️

#wlw #wlw imagine #wcbb #paige bueckers #headcannons #my hcs #wcbb x reader #paige buckets #paige bueckers x reader #uconn vs iowa #uconn wbb #uconn women’s basketball #uconn huskies #angst with a happy ending #mental health #positive mental attitude #anxitey #i love you

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chrisevansdaughter · 2 years

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Hi darling,

I have a request. So basically Chris Evans x Teen!Reader where they are cast mates. Teen!Reader has a chronic illness and Chris helps her. She also developed depression due to the pain. I have depression caused by Ehlers Danlos Syndrome. You don’t have to use EDS though.

I hope you are doing alright x

Elle

Low on spoons

Summary: On set Chris as y/n’s 'father figure' she is struggling with a chronic flare up day so Chris steps in to help as always because he knows how depressed it makes her feel

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Warnings of feeding tubes, medical equipment, chronic illness, anxiety, family abandonment?, depression mentioned, burden

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Paring: Chris Evans x Teen! Reader

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Y/n's POV

It was another day on set whilst filming the third Captain America movie: Captain America Civil War. Today started a bit different to any other day on set since I have a chronic illness, Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome that affects my eating and getting the nutrients and hydration I need to be healthy to still be able to work in a job I wouldn't change for the world. Among joint pain, dislocations, fatigue and dizziness are the biggest symptoms I have to deal with.

Unfortunately, the only way we can guarantee that I'm still healthy to work is that my doctor to place a feeding tube that goes into my stomach that can deliver everything I need; which was the last resort due to recent flareups.

So it was one of those days where I had less energy than usual, my joints were on fire so I had to use splints to ease some of the pain that I had, coupled with the mass amount of dizziness that was happening that was disorientating; and it showed because of this flare up I had to take it really slow on set but was more chilled than usual for good reason which I was thankful for.

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I was meeting everyone on set to start little shoots we needed to do for certain scenes so I had Chris come help me set up everything I needed for today since it was 'less energy day' today as I'd like to call it. The only downside other than the tube keeps me healthy is I'm really self-conscious about everything that comes with my chronic illness, even though everyone is used to it; Chris more than anyone because he is like a dad to me helping me though it even when it leaves me depressed or just really low on everything. Still just with the added support he helps massively because I don't feel alone and isolated with this massive weight on my shoulders - Chris as a fatherly figure helped elevates some of my heartaches, he makes me happy in the darker times that no one talks about when you're young having a chronic illness, especially in this industry; people admire me for what I do for people like me and how I've bought diversity to all movies I'm in.

Chris' POV

Today was one of Y/n's lesser energy days as she called where she just needed a little bit more help because of her flare-up with her chronic illness which was not the best watch and try to help her through when she's so down and anxious about everything from being self-conscious about what she looks like with the medical equipment she'd need to use on these days or just in general.

But she knows everyone is there to help her and doesn't bat an eyelid or look at her weird because of it.

Chris was coming out of the trailer bathroom since we shared on set as it was 10x easier for days like this, to come and help me get ready to go on to set.

Currently, she was getting all her meds ready to put through her tube with the water flushes for afterwards, with the braces she'd needed for today as well, there is so much care put into this but we all know it's what's the best for her right now rather than being in the hospital.

"Honey, you doing okay?" I asked whilst coming in to set up her feeds for today

"I'm tired but okay, for now, I've done all my meds I just need to chill because I feel a bit dizzy and sick" she replied sitting down sounding out of breath

"Lay down it might help, I'll get you some anti-nausea medicine sweetpea." I said after she whispered a small thank you whilst sitting next to Dodger who was keeping you company after Chris helped set up your feed.

Y/n's POV

I had made it out of bed with a great struggle I just knew today wasn't a good day with my health issues so Chris was always there to help or just comfort me because it was physically and emotionally draining for me.

I was on my first feed of the day after meds, honestly, sometimes I feel like I could do it with my eyes closed I've dealt with it for so long that I feel like a burden.

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Chris' POV:

Y/n was laying down slightly since she mentioned she felt sick and dizzy which was once again a common thing for her. It's hard to see her like this but I know she's strong.

"Bubs you okay, feeling a bit better now?" I asked after 30 minutes after setting up her feed and giving her the medication she needed.

"Yeah Chrissie I'm okay now, I think I'm ready to go to set if everything's done." She replied wanted to leave everything in the trailer since she was self-conscious of all the medical supplies she needed so she was adamant that everything needed to be finished before we left even though no one mind on set with all the medical stuff. Everyone was aware of her condition but no one minded, they helped when she need it and comforted her too.

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****TIME SKIP****

Y/n's POV

We'd been on set for about 5 hours now and I had been on a couple of breaks to pace myself since I wasn't 100 % still.

I had to put more of my meds down my tube since they had to be taken at certain times, not only that because my joints were definitely due to pop out I could just feel it, but I went off to the comfy area to do that because I was still scared of what everyone would think.

It was almost time for another feed but I couldn't go back to the trailer and do it because Chris wasn't free till lunch so I'd have to do it whilst they were all eating because I need someone with me just in case anything happens.

This makes me anxious and feels like more of a burden so I had to relax and take some deep breaths so I didn't have a panic attack whilst I was alone since the pressure on my chest could do more harm than good.

Chris came to find me about 10 minutes later to check on me because I was taking a while and he'd walked in whilst I was trying to calm down.

Chris' POV

We'd just finished our scene with team cap so I went to go find y/n since she's been a while doing her meds. I found her trying to calm down since I'm guessing she got in her head about having to do her feeds later in front of everyone not only that but I know she can get in her head about how much she relies on people and she hates it.

"Sweetheart you're alright, you're safe" I reassured her whilst kneeling down to have her focus on me whilst rubbing the length of her arms gently knowing she was in pain.

"Yeh I know I'm just anxious about everyone judging me," she says trying not to cry but tears brim her eyes threatening to spill...

I whispered sweet nothings into her ear whilst hugging her tell her she has nothing to worry about.

Once she'd calmed down it was time for lunch so we all sat and I helped her with the feeds she needed to set up since she needed an extra one with a liquid iv in for hydration.

****TIME SKIP****

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Y/n had an hour left on her feeds and this is the one she can't stop then restart since it will mess with her stomach and cause her to be sick so she had to keep it connected in the backpack that keeps it in and working whilst we finished filming.

Y/n's POV

Finally, after 10 hours on set, we'd finished for the day and I'm not going to lie I'm proud of myself because I finally did what I was scared of being judged for and I was okay; Chris was right no one really took notice of what I was doing and how I was picking at little snack to try and help a little bit because I can snack on little bits I just have to be careful. Apple sauce is the go-to that I've found is okay for me.

Chris came and found me back in our trailer to come to say how proud he was of me because it definitely wasn't easy today and he could see that.

"I'm proud of you bubs, today you did amazing even though it was hard I knew you'd be okay and you know you've always got me, I'm so proud of you peanut." he said whilst giving me a hug using the nickname he'd called me for years.

“Thank you, Chrissie, I love you. You're the dad figure anyone could ask for. Forever and always" I replied using his nickname and our saying that became a thing after the first time I had been admitted to hospital whilst my health was a little unmanageable. he was there for me during these times more than my own family which made our relationship even more special and built on trust and love.

After that long day that we had on set and the facetime catch-up we had with Chris' brother Scott who I called 'uncle,' we had cuddles before turning in with a movie.

Chris' POV

It was now about 11:30pm and to say we were both tired was an understatement y/n more than me which was understandable. We'd gotten ready for bed and I helped y/n get everything for overnight with her tube. Making sure she was as comfortable as she could be depending on her joints.

Once that was all set both cuddled in our beds falling asleep to Cars 2 because it's a classic that is an amazing film that we both loved

Y/n started to drift off in my embrace that she'd like to fall asleep every night because of the sense of security my arms gave her, so I cuddled her up to my chest and said " go to sleep sweetheart, I love you." She murmured a love you too da- and she was out for the night.

I followed soon after making sure everything in the trailer was locked and all good.

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She said dad could there be a part 2 to see how their relationship develops more because y/n mentioned her family is never there for her when it gets really tough. could Chris file to adopt on the ground of medical neglect who knows...

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I loved writing this so thank you so much Elle for this ask lovely, I hope you like it everyone and please do point out any inconsistency with this. It was done with research involved ❤️

Also a possibility for part 2 who know I want to see if you guys want to see a part 2 💕

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marchtothefuckingsea · 3 years

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Overworked - Ten (Doctor Who)

Ayee another doctor who fic! I really enjoy writing for this fandom currently, so definitely expect to see more!

My Masterlist, if you're interested! I currently only have one other Ten fic up, but I have some other stuff that might catch your eye :)

Enjoy!

bit of angst, hurt/comfort, fluff, no usage of y/n, x gender neutral reader. I think I proofread this.

Word count: 1.7k

Warnings: brief but undetailed mention towards injury, reader passes out.

Summary: Reader has been losing sleep, not eating regular meals, etc trying to keep up with the doctor. They end up collapsing on a mission, and Ten has a talk with them (but it's fluffy don't worry :).

"You look awfully tired. Maybe this isn't a good idea."

"I'm fine." I insisted for the umpteenth time in the past fifteen minutes. "It's just one night of broken sleep, really, it's not that bad. A little coffee or something and I'll be good to go!"

"Are you sure? It can wait, y'know the whole timelord thing. We can always go back and-" He cut himself off when I gave him a pointed look, sighing. "Fine, fine. Alright. We're going."

"Good, because I was about to just go down there and save the planet myself."

He snorted. "You don't even know how to land the TARDIS."

"I'd figure it out." I huffed out a laugh as he smiled, turning back to fiddle with the control panel.

The truth was, it hadn't been just a night of missed sleep. It hadn't even been a week of missed sleep. It had been months of missed sleep, missed meals and just plain missing basic human things that I should not have been missing.

But, of course, all that got tossed to the side, traveling with the doctor. His need for food and rest was much lesser, almost non-existent compared to a human. I didn't want to slow him down or be a burden, so I didn't exactly carve out time for regular meals or sleep. I attained those things in between everything else, whenever I could.

That meant maybe a single decent meal a day, some quick snacks in between, and often going days or even weeks without a full eight hours of sleep. Sometimes going without sleep completely, for days on end.

Short term, this would have been fine. Not the healthiest thing exactly, but as long as I could have time to eventually take care of myself and recover, it wouldn't be a problem. But after months of this with no real recovery, it was only a matter of time before I crashed completely, whether I liked it or not. I only hoped it didn't happen in front of the Doctor.

I noticed the changes in me too, as I'm quite sure he did, with his concerned glances. I had lost quite a bit of weight which, with my previous insecurities, had been just fine to me. But it had made it to the point where I, and he, could now see how worryingly thin I was.

I panted as we came to a stop. We had to run for our lives from the aliens invading the planet. It was no use, there was nothing we could do. There were too many of them, not to mention the locals had acted less than friendly and cooperative towards us. We had no help.

I clung to the corner of the building as I desperately gasped for precious air. Spots danced across my vision; I felt weak and lightheaded, leaning heavily against the building.

"Wait." I gasped out, squeezing my eyes shut to try and get rid of the dots.

I heard his sneaker clad footsteps pause before they grew closer.

"Are you alright? What's wrong?" His voice was full of worry.

"I'm- I'm fine." I panted. "Just. Out of breath. Haven't ran like this in, in a long time y'know?"

I glanced up at him only to see a skeptical look on his face. He was frowning.

He bent down to my level, his hands on his knees as he met my eyes. His gaze was soft with concern.

I attempted a small smile at him. "I'm fine, really." I reassured him.

To prove my point, I tried to straighten up to my full height.

As soon as I did, a wave of exhaustion and dizziness overtook me and I staggered forward weakly.

My vision went hazy as I felt his arms around me, instead of the hard ground, and heard his frantic voice repeating my name over and over again.

I groaned, forcing my eyes open in an attempt to not fall unconscious again. The light in the room was anything but bright, but it made my head pound painfully regardless. My entire body felt like a bruise.

"You're awake." He stated, his voice was guarded.

My gaze trailed over to meet his, he was sitting in a chair that I didn't remember having by my bedside.

His eyes, however, were far from guarded. They were full of concern.

I weakly propped myself up on my forearms, attempting to lean against the wall behind me. I clenched my teeth as my arm brushed against a particularly tender spot on my side.

He sat silently and watched me. That was the part that worried me the most, I knew he was furious.

"So," He started, his voice a falsely upbeat tone. He clasped his hands together and leant forward. "What was that?" He asked lowly, his tone switching in a heartbeat.

I sucked in a breath, wincing when I felt a pang in my side, likely another bruise.

"I didn't sleep very well, I was tired and I overestimated what I could do. I'm sorry." I apologized, though it was an automated apology. There was no way I would or even could tell him why I had collapsed in a potentially dangerous situation like that. If he knew, he'd send me home. I couldn't risk that, traveling with him had become my life now, my entire and only reason for existing. If he sent me home, I didn't think I would be able to cope.

I could see it plainly on his face, he wasn't buying my sorry excuse of an apology at all. He sighed, leaning further forward in the chair and resting his elbows on his knees.

"The real reason." He said flatly.

The hesitation was evident on my face, I knew. I didn't even try to hide it. When I finally spoke, my voice was quiet.

"If I tell you, you'll send me home." I whispered.

His features softened. "I won't." He promised, reaching forward and gently taking my hand in his. "I'll never make you stop traveling with me, not unless you want to."

"No, never."

"So why?" He persisted.

"It's kind of difficult trying to keep up with you." I managed a small smile, trying to lighten the mood. He frowned as I continued.

"You don't need to eat as often as a human, you don't need to rest or sleep as much. I don't- I don't want to be a burden. I don't want to weigh you down with my bothersome human needs." I admitted quietly, looking down at our intertwined hands.

This was, at this point, almost too much for me. I had always thought of him as a friend, and he thought of me as his companion. Up until recently, that's how it had been. Until my feelings developed and became more complicated.

Dare I say, I loved him. But I was nothing more than a traveling companion to him, a partner in crime. He was an immortal being, he was probably used to not forming strong attachments to his mortal companions after all this time. I was temporary to him. Replaceable.

This moment we shared, right now, was too much for my aching heart to handle.

To him, all he was doing was comforting a companion.

His soft voice drew me out of my thoughts.

"Love, oh, love, you will never be a burden to me. You're human, and that's what's beautiful about you. It's not the weakness you think it is." His voice was low and velvet as he comforted me.

"I would never leave you behind." He continued, his thumb now rubbing gentle circles on the back of my hand. I sighed contentedly, leaning back into the pillows.

"I need you to promise me something."

I glanced back up at him, questioning.

"Promise me you'll tell me if you're tired, hungry, anything. Don't push your needs aside for me, we can stop, get a bite to eat or proper sleep, whatever you need. If you need, we can take as much time as you want away from traveling so you can rest up properly and get back on your feet."

"I just can't have you exhausting yourself. I can't have you collapsing on me like you did this last time." He sucked in a shaky breath. "If that was in a more dangerous situation- not that it wasn't already- that would have cost me you. I can't let that happen. I can't let you get hurt or lose your life over me. Too many have already, I can't bear to see the same happen to you." He admitted softly.

I blinked hard, trying to clear away the unexpected tears that had formed in my eyes, catching me off guard.

He noticed this, and leaned forward to hug me. I sighed, resting my chin on his shoulder and reveling in the feeling of his arms around me. I felt so safe. I felt loved.

I stopped my mind at that. I wasn't going to wander that path.

His hands rested on the small of my back, tracing aimless, thoughtless patterns. He shifted to sit on the bed with me and I relaxed into him even more, nestling my head into his chest as he rested his chin on the top of my head, pulling me closer.

"I care about you, perhaps too much." He mumbled into my hair.

"I care 'bout you too. Way too much." I admitted tiredly. I wasn't really thinking straight as my eyes fluttered open and shut, trying to stay awake. His warmth was too comforting.

He noticed the way I struggled to stay awake.

"How about a bit more rest, then I'll make us something to eat, how does that sound?" He asked, pulling away to meet my tired eyes.

I nodded slightly, uttering a "mhm" in agreement.

With that, he leaned back onto the mattress, pulling me down with him and tucking me against him. I now realized he hadn't been wearing his normal attire this whole time, instead he now wore a t-shirt and sweatpants like a normal person. It was an odd sight, but one that I drank in gratefully.

As the sound of his dual heartbeats lulled me to sleep, I felt him press a gentle kiss to my hair.

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madammonkie · 2 years

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Am I not Good Enough?

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Summary: XiaoTian is began to doubting himself

Content warning: PTSD, Self Depreciation stuff, child neglect

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It was a Peaceful night at Pigsy's noodle shop. Both the Pig man and his sole employee, is closing up for the day. Pigsy handling with the kitchen clean up, while XiaoTian handle the eating area.

XiaoTian mindlessly mopping up the floor, as if he's moving on autopilot his mind keep wandering off.

"...pick the wrong successor..."

The Bone Spirit's word kept replaying in his head, and no matter how much he tries to get his mind to think something else or just focus on his works. Its always whispers back as if it has a mind of its own kept pushing away other thoughts he try to bury it with.

He was so distracted that he trip over the mop and fell on the dirty mop water bucket, making the once almost clean floor covered in murky water. Add him to the filthy list too.

Pigsy rushes out of the kitchen to check out what with the commotion, both out of concern for his shop and XiaoTian. Only to find a panicking XiaoTian trying his best to clean up the mess in a frantic. Pigsy, who were originally going to yelled at him, stopped before he even open his mouth.

Something about The kid that had him worried, he has something on his mind and its not the usual mundane distraction.

It was something more severe.

XiaoTian couldn't hold back his tears, as he tried to fix the result of his carelessness. He was too focused on it that he hadn't noticed Pigsy approaching him.

" ...why can't I do anything right..." he mumbled to himself. Tiny sobs escape his lips despite him trying his best not to let them.

Maybe this is why Monkey King left him, maybe Monkey King realized that XiaoTian was the wrong choice and he was off to find a better one.

Maybe his lessons was just a charade to keep XiaoTian busy while he look for a better one.

A better Student

A better Employee

A better Son

If only he could be at least one of that. his parents were right he could never amount to anything. A Weight, a burden, a failure.

An accident.

A pair of arm gently pulls XiaoTian away from the mop that he hadn't notice was already broken from his tight grip.

He doesn't need to look to know who it was.

It was the same warm arm that comforted him back when he was tossed on the street by his Birthgivers.

Pigsy took the broken mop away, "Why don't you go home early tonight? I'll take care the rest"

Panic appears in the young man's eyes, "N-No- I Can handle it! I promise! I'm not Useless I swear- I-I- Can be good enough" he said as he reaches for the broken mop that is now in Pigsy's hand

Before XiaoTian can reach it, Pigsy pull it out of his reach. "It's okay, XiaoTian, You're just tired, You've been working all day, now go upstairs and rest"

"But-"

"No buts"

XiaoTian couldn't argue more, and just complied with Pigsy's instructions. He know Pigsy means well and sending him away out of concern for his wellbeing. But it couldn't help but making his anxiety worsen.

He can't even mop right and he has been doing it for yesrs.

Pigsy noticed his sullen look on his employee's expression. He can't bear seeing him like this. Before XiaoTian leave through the door, Pigsy called out without looking at XiaoTian

"You're good enough for us, Don't you ever forget that, Monkie Kid"

XiaoTian was silent for a good minute, until a small sob escape from his lips again.

"T-thanks Pigsy"

And with that, XiaoTian went upstairs to his apartment.

Maybe.. even if he's not good enough for the big world, he at least knows that he's good enough for his small world of friends.

#lego monkie kid #monkie kid #lmk #lego monkie kid mk #lmk xiao tian #lego monkie kid pigsy #lmk pigsy #my writting #not proofread #angst comfort #cw: child neglect #cw: self deprecating #cw: ptsd

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greenygreenland · 4 years

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Dream A Little Dream Of Me: Norman x Reader

-MANGA SPOILERS! READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!

-NOTE: YOU’RE BOTH AGED UP SO DON’T START TELLING ME FBI’S GONNA COME TO MY DOOR 😂😂

-THE TIMELINE IS A BIT MESSED UP SO JUST IGNORE IT COMPLETELY AND DON'T ASK ME LOL

-also, is it just me or do thick eyebrows look really cute??? Norman has pretty thick brows compared everyone else and I think they're cute

WARNINGS: Kissing lol

Summary: You finally see Norman again.

Life had to be the scariest thing you'd ever faced. It threw the bad, the good, the everything your way until you could barely stand. Until you were left broken and mangled and shattered. Life was scary. It was cruel. Yet somehow, today was different.

You thought it was a dream. After all, how could it be reality when the boy in front of you died a year and some months ago? He had been shipped out, left for dead because it was a part of his stupid escape plan.

So how was it he stood before you? Breathing? Smiling? Living?

The office door closed behind you with a soft click. It bathed the room in silence, as if for a moment, the world decided to give you a second to breathe. A second to take in the wonderous sight before you.

The boy's name stuck in your throat. He had changed, not only in height, but stature and appearance. Norman was older, and he grew up to be more handsome than any runway model could ever be.

"(Y/n)," he gently said. "I'm glad you're well."

That was all it took. One sentence and you tackled him in the tightest hug your trembling arms could muster. "Norman...!" To have his arms around you, to hear the beating of his heart--it was a relief. A miracle sent by the gods. "You’re so stupid!"

No, he was more than stupid. He had to be the dumbest boy alive to think that it was okay to sacrifice himself for the sake of your family. You all were supposed to escape together just like Emma said. No one was supposed to be left behind, yet Norman--bless his heart--acted on his own.

You hugged him as if he would disappear if you let go. "We were all supposed to leave together. But you--I thought you--shipped out--and then--!" You chocked on your words. What more could you say anyway?

You buried your face in the crook of his neck. The muffled sob that ripped through your throat was more than Norman could handle. His knees went weak and you both slowly sunk to the floor in a heap.

"I'm here." he gently said. "I'm not going anywhere (Y/n)."

Despite the steadiness in Norman's voice, his shoulders hitched, and he sniffled. "I'm here." he repeated. "I-I'm here." It sounded like he were reassuring himself that he wouldn't leave you so soon, as if he were scared too. Not for the way you sobbed and sobbed, but for the ache in his heart that seemed to beat in sync with yours.

Slowly, your sobs turned to quiet sniffles, which then silenced into nothing but tiny hiccups. You basked in Norman's warm embrace. He didn't hold you too tightly, as if he were afraid it would shatter you to pieces. Instead, he pulled you close to his side and leaned on his desk behind.

You rested your head on his chest, taking the time to memorise his scent. Parchment, the woods, and old books. You liked that, it was comforting to know he still smelled the same. On the other hand, his voice wasn’t as smooth or rounded as it once was. It was icy. No one seemed to notice that tiny sharpness that hit the end of each note he spoke. You wondered what could've made his kind heart harden.

Sure, Norman was still the same Norman you remembered, but something about the way he acted seemed off. He was clingy, much more than he ever was. Maybe he just missed you? No, that couldn't be right. Norman acted as if he were running out of time. He held you close and gently, as if these would be the last moments you'd see each other again. As if there wouldn't be a tomorrow.

You slowly pulled away to get a good look at Norman's face. His chin was slightly pointier, his cheeks less chubby and full. His lips twitched upwards into a comforting smile. It didn't quite reach his eyes because he looked so overwhelmingly tired. Your poor boy probably worked day and night to keep the hideout on its feet. It must be hard on him, you thought. Especially since he was revered as a god.

Norman's brows raised. "What's wrong?"

You took his thin hands in your own and gave them a good squeeze. "It's nothing. What about you?"

Ah yes, small talk. The perfect way to avoid any question thrown your way. Norman knew you well, sometimes even more than himself. When you asked simple questions such as these, that meant your mind laid elsewhere in a land he could never reach. Norman took that as a hint to drop the subject.

For now.

He wondered what invisible weight laid on your shoulders. Was it something as heavy as his? Perhaps your weight was worse and it ate away at you. Norman wished he could take that weight away and relieve you of that pain. He'd carry it all if he could, and it didn't matter to him if he'd die trying. This was you he was thinking about. He'd do anything for you.

"I've been okay," Norman vaguely responded. "But I have been busy, so I find it difficult to sleep sometimes.”

Norman liked to be honest, but you knew it was because that helped him figure out what was wrong with you. It was a game of tag. In this case being 'it' meant figuring out each others' worries through a back-and-forth match.

"You haven't been sleeping enough?" Your voice came out rather quiet as you traced invisible circles over the back of his hands. "Is that because you have so much work? Or do you refuse to get help?" Norman sat in a still silence and you sighed.

Of course.

This was your Norman after all. He always shouldered a burden too big for his shoulders to carry. It was always something so heavy, so terribly hard to balance by himself. If that burden grew any bigger, it would collapse, and that would be his downfall. But you wouldn't let that happen to your Norman. No, no, no. You'd take that burden from him, steal it if you had to, and be his crutch.

"What have you been doing here?" you quickly added. "As 'William Minerva', I mean?"

Norman looked unbearably uncomfortable. That little frown tugging at the edge of his lips was a tell-tale sign. “I’ve been getting a lot done." he carefully said. "In fact, I’ve figured out a way to end this. Once and for all.”

Norman began by explaining the first phase of his plan. The first phase had long been in motion. It started with the indiscriminate burning of cattle facilities, then the gathering of information, and continued on to pave the way for all the other phases you didn’t care to hear about.

The first few steps weren't too bad, but the final act in Norman's plan made your skin crawl. You half-wished you hadn’t asked him anything to begin with. Maybe it would have spared your appetite. Your grip on his thin hands loosened and loosened until your hands rested on your lap.

Norman wasn't so little anymore. He had grown up just a bit, but not in the way you wished to see. How could he think of something so cold-hearted and cruel? The extermination of all demons in Neverland was an act of genocide. If you re-called correctly, it was also considered a war crime.

Norman was smarter than that. He understood the consequence he'd have to face if that were the path he walked right? He understood that there were still other options right? Maybe you heard him wrong.

No.

You had to have heard him wrong. Norman wasn't ruthless like that. He was a ball of sunshine that made you smile whenever you were together.

"I see..." You tightly smiled. "So that's your plan on freeing everyone?" Norman nodded with a seriousness that took you back to the time he left everything to you and Ray and Emma.

You weren't mistaken then. Norman truly meant everything he said.

"Yes, that is my plan. It's been taking me a little longer than expected to set it in motion. I've decided to officially start tomorrow."

Tomorrow?

Your breath hitched. "Don't you think that's a bit hasty? What if...what if something goes wrong?" Norman smiled. It was hollow and wry and everything that he wasn't. "Don't worry. Fortunately, I've always been pretty good at getting what I want." You didn't return the smile, and you didn't want to say why.

Norman was quick to catch on. But of course he would catch on so quickly, this was Norman. Your Norman.

"Do you have a problem with my plan?" he inquired. You shook your head. "No, it's...it's not that." Yes, it was that. Your plan is dangerous even if it is good, you thought. Innocent lives wouldn't be spared, and that would spell an unfair fate for the demons who ate to survive.

You wanted to tell Norman why his plan was wrong, and why he didn't have to be so unforgiving about it. But then what? Why would he listen when you didn't have any better ideas? He seemed to have his mind set anyway, so no half-baked ideas would make a difference. And besides, he was the smartest person you knew. Maybe that was the only way out of the terrible fate all you cattle children faced.

"If you're okay with my plan," Norman said, "then what's bothering you (Y/n)?"

"It's still a lot for me to take in," you admitted with a plastic smile. "I guess I'm just shocked that you're, well, here." Norman smiled, this time with a genuine warmth. "I understand." He leaned down and placed a gentle kiss on your lips. "I'll see you at dinner."

Your cheeks burned. How bold of him. "Y-yeah, I'll see you at dinner." Norman let out a cute little chuckle that made your heart beat a little louder than it was supposed to. You hauled yourself off the floor and made your way to the door. Norman followed.

You flashed him a nervous smile, one that mixed in with your muddled worry and anxiousness. You glanced at his bright eyes. For a moment, they seemed to dim like the setting sun. It reminded you of Mama. When no one looked at her, she didn’t smile. She always looked so sad when she sat by herself, and maybe that was because she was.

"(Y/n)?"

Your fingers brushed against the doorknob. “Hm?”

"I want nothing more than to protect you and our family. I know you don't fully agree with me," his expression darkened. "But this is the way--the only way we can save everyone without spilling a single drop of blood."

For a moment, you forgot who you were speaking to. This wasn't the same boy you begged to run away with before he got shipped out. This wasn't the same boy who gently tucked a piece of hair behind your ear and sweetly complimented you. This boy--did you truly still know him? Was he still the Norman you grew up with and fell head-over-heels for?

You blinked and that dark look washed itself off his face. He strode up to you and placed a hand on your cheek--just like the day he was supposed to be harvested. Norman’s eyes were soft, softer than any blanket, and his lips pursed into a gentle frown. With his thumb, he wiped a stray tear away.

Why were you crying?

"Norman..." You couldn’t find the right words. There were none that could explain the suffering you endured in silence. You worried, not only for Norman, but your family and all those other people in the world you didn’t know about. Norman’s plan--oh how stupid it was--had it changed him? Had it forced him to guard his heart to keep a still mind?

You wondered what he endured while you went on your crazy adventures. At least you had your family, and Yuugo, Lucas, and all your friends. But Norman? He didn’t have anyone but himself. He carried the whole world. Alone. Had he been scared? Worried? Angry that no one came for him? Your heart clenched at the thought.

"Smile,” Norman said. “It’s okay, I promise. I'm here." He gathered you in his arms and you didn’t have the heart to protest. “How?” you whispered. “How were you able to do all this on your own?” Norman helplessly shrugged. “You could say I have connections, either that or I’m just lucky.”

“What will you do after this is all over?”

Norman went still again, as if he couldn’t answer your question. You heaved in a shaky breath. If Norman wasn’t going to give you a straight answer, then you’d squeeze it out of him. “Did anything else happen to you? I’m sure there’s a catch, isn’t there?”

It was like someone flipped a switch. One moment, you were a mess of tears, sorrow, and anguish. Now, something menacing laid in your voice. It was almost threatening, as if you were indirectly telling Norman to dare avoid the question. “I don’t want you dying trying to be everything at once,” you said. “Here you’re revered as a god, and if I know you, then it’s plain that you set yourself up like that. Don’t tell me you plan to die on us again.”

He stiffened.

“I know you Norman, don’t forget that. And because I love you, I don’t want to see you destroy yourself. I admit, I don’t know why you act like you’re going to leave again, but I’ll do everything in my power to stop you.” You pulled away and took his hands in yours. A small smile of reassurance made its way up your lips, but Norman didn’t return it.

No, he couldn’t. And despite all he did, he couldn’t lie straight to your face. Not like this.

Dinner cheered you up. The smiles and laughter that your family shared with Norman made you feel just a little bit better. But how long would it last? And how long would those smiles stay present? All the questions swarming in your mind made you feel sick to your stomach. There was too much to think about, and too little time to answer them.

You forced down the last of your food with a sigh and brought the plate to its respectful place. Everyone was too busy chatting and catching up to notice, but that was fine. It was better that way.

You made your way to a secluded walkway. It was in one of the calmer areas of the hideout that overlooked the lower levels. It was quiet, save for the distant chatter of Hayato and his friends. He let out a bright laugh that echoed through the vacant walkways. What a shame it would be to hear that disappear.

“So this is where you went.”

“I told you she’d be here.”

You whipped around in alarm. “Ray, Emma!”

Ray sharply looked you up and down. He raised a brow and you squirmed under his gaze. He gently bumped shoulders with you. “What’s wrong with you?”

You absentmindedly shrugged. “Nothing.”

“That’s what someone who’s not okay would say.” Emma noted. She settled by your side on the railing and flashed a bright smile. “You were so quiet at dinner today.”

You shook your head. Que another absentminded shrug and plastic smile. “I guess I just wanted to make sure everyone was okay.”

Ray sighed. “Everyone but you?” He leaned against the railing next to you. “Did you and Norman talk at all?”

You froze. ‘Yes’, was what you wanted to say, but no sound came out. The image of Norman’s matured face, the way his his soft lips hit your own, and his stupidly tall build crossed your mind.

Emma let out a gasp and slapped a hand over her mouth. “Ah!” she cried. “You’re all red!” You covered your hands with your face, ignoring Ray’s curious stare.

“What did you two talk about in his office anyway? Or should I say, do?” The glint in Ray’s eyes had subtext you didn’t want to recite out loud. “Rayyyyy,” you grumbled, “shut up.” He sent you a teasing grin as Emma frowned in confusion. “I don’t get it.”

“You’ll understand when you’re older.”

“Yeah, it’s grown up stuff.”

You ignored the warmth spreading to your cheeks and elbowed Ray. “Don’t say it like ‘that’! Now you make it sound like something else!”

He daringly raised a brow. “Like what?” You ran a hand over your scorching face. It was a miracle you weren’t on fire. “No, no, I’m not answering you!”

You shared a good laugh and a comfortable silence began to settle, blanketing your shoulders in a lightness that you hadn’t felt in a while.

Emma softly smiled. “I’m glad we found you.” she admitted. “You looked really sad all by yourself out here.” Ray nodded with a small snort. “Yeah, talk about depressing. But seriously though, did something..?”

Of course these two would see through your façade. Of course they’d understand something was wrong. They were your family, and they didn’t deserve your silence. Your smile shattered. “I don’t know if Norman told you about his plan yet, but it’s...it’s bad. Sure, the demons have done some terrible things to us, but that doesn’t mean all of them are guilty. I want to stop him, but I don’t know how.”

Emma nodded in agreement. “He told us earlier and I don’t like it either.” she firmly said. “Ray and I talked it over and we have a plan, but it’s risky. Like, really risky. It has to do with the Seven Walls and...”

You held on to every word Emma and Ray spoke. Risky was your middle name. Well, not actually, but it was something that became your friend. You and your family looked death in the face too many times to count. What would be another?

By the end of it, you were sure this new plan would change Norman’s mind, or at least convince him to give up the whole ‘genocide’ thing. It was decided by Ray that tomorrow, you’d all talk to Norman. Things seemed to be looking up. No, they had to be.

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The halls were empty and you were alone. How was it you got lost in the first place? You made sure to have every twist and turn memorised, so why did you end up in the wrong corridor twice? Ray would surely tease you for getting lost. What an absolute--

You slammed into someone’s chest. A yelp escaped your throat as the person in question lost his footing. He sucked in a sharp breath and went tumbling straight into you. Your back hit the ground as the boy threw out his arms on either side of your head to brace himself. You didn’t need a name to know who you had tumbled into. Light hair, soft eyes, fancy waistcoat and suit.

“Norman?”

He hovered over you with wide eyes. His lips were inches from yours and he was just so, so close.

Thump, thump, thump.

Your heartbeat was so gosh dang loud. Could he hear it? Could he see the way your face burned red?

“Uhm--I--I--uh--”

Why wasn’t he moving? Why weren’t you moving? Why was it so hard to look him in the eyes? A nervous smile broke out across Norman’s lips. He pushed himself off of you and offered out a hand. You gingerly took it.

“Sorry.” Norman said, helping you to your feet. “I wasn’t looking where I was going. Are you okay?” Your gaze darted from his lips to his dazzling eyes and then to his cheeks dusted in red. Your heart wouldn’t stop slamming against your chest. It kept going, and going until you felt like you were about to burst.

“Sh-shouldn’t I be asking you that?” you retorted. “I’m not the one who--you know...gets sick all the time.” You weren’t sure why you said it like that, or why that made Norman smile so cutely, but he was smiling. That made your heart flutter. You glanced around the corridor a few times, and somehow, you kept finding focus on his lips.

What was wrong with you?

Norman caught on fast--like he always did. “Oh I see,” he said with a low chuckle. You swallowed. His voice really did deepen (but you kind of liked it). For a moment, you thought he caught onto your staring, but instead of commenting on it, he intertwined his hand with yours and led you through the winding halls.

“Don’t tell Ray I got lost.” you muttered. Norman laughed and it was like the sound of happiness itself. “I won’t.”

The halls all looked the exact same: cream coloured paint, nature-like decorations, and numbered wooden doors. You forgot what number your room was, so that was probably why you got lost. Norman took a sharp left where you recalled should be a right instead. “Wait isn’t it that way?”

“I have something to give you, so we’re going to make a quick detour.” Norman’s cheeks dusted pink and he looked the slightest bit nervous. “What is it you want to show me?” He flashed you a contagious smile. “It’s a surprise.”

“What kind of surprise?”

“I can’t tell you,” he said with a chuckle, “that’s why it’s called a surprise.”

When you got to his office, you were nervous. Surprises were fun, yes, but in a world where nearly getting eaten by wild demons fell into the category of ‘surprise’, you learned not to like them very much.

Norman closed the door behind you and it softly clicked shut. Okay, you thought. So he was locking the door and making his way over to his desk. Okay, that’s fine. Norman shuffled through a cabinet, that nervous look still on his face. Okay, okay, nothing wrong here. He gently shut the drawer, and as he walked out from behind his desk, you took note of the small little box he fiddled with.

Okay. Okay. Box. Nervous. Locked door. Did he not want anyone to interrupt whatever he was about to do?

Norman heaved in a deep breath. A really, really, really deep breath. “(Y/n), I have never met anyone else like you. You’re the strongest person I’ve ever met, and you’re beautiful and kind.” He sunk to one knee and opened the little box. “Will you marry me?”

“Yes!”

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You jolted awake with a start.

“Sorry,” Norman said. He scribbled a few words down in his notebook. “Did I wake you?”

Ah, that’s right. After you talked with Emma and Ray, you all met up with Norman and hung out for a bit. But when had you gotten to his office? Much less, fallen asleep? You rubbed your eyes with a shake of your head. Judging by the tired look on Norman’s face, it was way past bedtime.

The heavy cloak around your shoulders offered a welcoming warmth. It smelled like books. It smelled like parchment and ink. It smelled like Norman and it was comforting.

He glanced up from his notebook and curiously met your gaze. ��What are you smiling at?” The dream popped up in your mind and your smile grew. “I had a good dream.”

“What was it about?” he inquired without looking up.

“You.”

The scratch of the pencil froze and he met your gaze. “You had a dream about me?” Your cheeks flushed. “Yeah, and you proposed.” Norman’s back went rigid and he turned as red as an apple. “I-I pro--proposed to you?” he stammered. You snickered, a smug smile tugging on your lips. “It was really sweet. And if you’re wondering, I said yes. I was going to kiss you, but then I woke up.” You stood up with a sigh. “It was disappointing, but that’s okay.”

You let out a small laugh and neatly folded Norman’s cloak. You left it on the couch and made your way across the room. “That’s a nice notebook.” you said. “What’re you writing about?”

Norman stilled and closed the book with a smile. “It’s nothing special.” He put the pencil down ever so quietly and stood. “Do you seek my affections?” he inquired. You settled on the wall. “Don’t you have work to do?” Norman looked down at you. His fringe brushed across his eyelashes, and he loosened his tie. Slowly.

Your heart steadily drummed against your chest. “What are you doing?” The false innocence in your voice caused Norman to chuckle lowly. He caressed your cheek with a feather-light touch. “Well, you did say you were disappointed right? Why don’t I make it up to you?”

He rested an arm on the wall with a sly smirk. Your lips connected and it made your stomach flip-flop. The kiss was slow, it was sweet. You found yourself pulling him closer, running your hands through his hair and yanking him over. "Norman?" He met your gaze with half-lidded eyes. "Yes (N/n)?"

"Where did you learn how to do that?"

He smirked and it was hot. The fact that he kept his arm braced against the wall didn’t help either. "Why?" he lowly inquired. "Do you like it?" Your breath caught in your throat and you found yourself wanting more.

Knock, knock!

Norman didn't look too happy about that. He ran a hand over your cheek and gently tucked a lock of hair behind your ear, that half-lidded look of his melting into warmth and love. He made his way to the door, tightening his tie and smoothing out his hair with a quick touch.

"Hello--?" Norman fell short mid-sentence. As soon as your gaze locked with the person on the other side, you understood why. Ray stood in the threshold, just as red-faced as you and Norman, with a sheepish look on his face. “I’ll come back later.” he muttered.

Oh great. Had he been eavesdropping? You glanced at Norman and he glanced at you, then Ray, and back to you. Ray sucked his teeth and stuffed his hands in his pockets. “Don’t have too much fun.” he said, a smirk twitching onto his lips.

You made your way to the threshold with a groan. “Rayyyy!”

“Yeah, yeah, don’t worry.” he coolly replied. “Do whatever, I didn’t see anything.”

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writteninkat · 3 years

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vii - stargazing idiots

word count - 2,854

warnings - reader goes through what is caused by past trauma, mentions of death, mentions of murder

"Angels like you can't fly down hell with me. I'm everything they said I would be."

index

Right after All Might showed up, your body gave up on you and Tsuyu and Izuku had to help keep you up. Your eyelids felt heavier than ever and your head felt like it was going to burst. Your breathing is ragged and the last thing you see is Aizawa's bloodied body before darkness swallows you hole.

It's cold. So very cold.

You open your eyes only to be greeted by a never ending darkness. You feel like you're floating in water.

"Y/n." You hear his all too familiar voice. It's deep, if you could feel it it would feel like rubbing against sandpaper, it's also very cold and a sound that's void of any emotion.

"You did this to me." All of a sudden, Aizawa is standing in front of you, face bloodied and brusied, arms broken and turned to numerous directions. "Why are you so weak?!" He yells as tears begin streaming down your face.

You curl your body, placing your hand on your ears to try and block out your teacher's voice, but it's as if they're everywhere. They're around and inside you.

"I died because of you!" Aizawa yells, gis voice echoing inside your head. "The nomu didn't kill me, you did! You are a murderer! It's because you're so weak that I died!"

You scream, your body feeling immense pressure as hot tears stream down your face. "I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" You yell.

"You killed me. You can never be a hero. You are a murderer, you hear me! I murderer!" You open your eyes, your body shaking as you watch his hand about to grab you.

"I'm not a murderer!" You yell, your eyes opening to the sight of a white ceiling. "Y/n! Calm down! It's just a nightmare!" You hear his gruff voice beside you, it always managed to calm you down. As you turn your head to face him, Katsuki can't help but feel his heart break at the sight of your cheeks wet with tears and eyes red and puffy.

"Suki..." You sob, your body immediately being pulled into a warm hug as Katsuki whispers shushes into your ear. His hand strokes your hair as his arms tigten around you. "It's okay, just let it all out. Cry to me. I'm right here."

Your loud sobs and yelling fill the rooms, even alerting some of the nurses but Katsuki motions for them to leave you two alone.

Your heart feels like it's being crushed and it feel difficult to breathe. Despite this, you don't want Katsuki to let you go. You don't want his familiar warmth to leave your side, not now when you're feeling especially vulnerable.

When your sobs quiet down, Katsuki slowly pulls away, looking into your eyes. "Hey, hey, it's okay. I'm here." He shushes, wiping away your tears as his eyes analyze yours.

"You're okay. What made you cry out like that?" He asks, thumb caressing your cheek softly. You place a hand on his wrist, melting into his touch as you closed your eyes, letting your tears fall.

"Aizawa sensei... He... I killed-"

"We heard Y/n was yelling. What's wrong?!" Midnight barges in, making you immediately turn to her. Behind her she has Present Mic and someone else who's wrapped up in bandages.

Your eyes widen, "Aizawa... sensei..." You mutter, the bandaged-up person tilting his head to the side. "Yes? Are you okay, Y/n?"

Tears fill your eyes again, but this time, there's no longer weight on your shoulders or heart and it feels much easier to breathe. You start sobbing once again, Katsuki looking lost and confused as to what he's supposed to do.

"You're not dead!" You sob, "I thought I killed you- hic- because I was too weak!" You cry out, using your knuckles to wipe away your tears only for them to be replaced by new ones.

"I thought I became a murderer-hic-because I was too weak to protect you, and you died because of me!" You don't even notice Aizawa walking up to you. Despite his bandaged state and the casts he has on both arms, he pulls you into a slightly awkward hug. You wrap your arms around his torso, careful not to hurt him with it.

"Why are you carrying such a burden? Why do you have such thoughts, little girl?" Aizawa asks, his tone hurt. "I have these injuries because I chose to protect you, my students. If I ever get hurt, never, and I mean never blame yourself for it."

You bury your face onto his chest, tears rolling at his words. "Heroes go through stuff like these every time. We sacrifice ourselves to protect the weak and also to keep the peace. In your journey to becoming a hero, you will encounter many situations like these, some are even more worse. But just remember my words-" he pushes you softly, looking down at your swollen eyes. "-have courage, have faith on yourself and the people around you. Trust in them to prevail through just like how you will. Remember that we are all strong because we are heroes but that doesn't mean we have to carry all the burden by ourselves. Be good to yourself and let go if you need to. You're only sixteen, it's okay to act like a child sometimes."

You never thought you'd hear those words from your homeroom teacher who always seemed so indifferent, but at the end of the day, he truly does care about his students from the bottom of his heart.

"Good evening, visiting hours ended five minutes ago. Only miss L/n's guardian if allowed to stay with her." A nurse knocks on your open door, catching everyone's attention.

"I'll be her guardian-" Katsuki cuts off Midnight's words, "Not so fast. I'm her guardian."

"None of you are my guardians." You sigh, "It's been a tiring day and I just want you all to rest. Especially you guys, Aizawa sensei and Katsuki." You move to lay on your bed, but Katsuki raises you a questioning brow.

"What do you mean long day? You've been out for two days." Your eyes widen at his words. You turn to look at the teachers and they all giving knowing nods. "Wait- so does that mean-" You point at Katsuki who rolls his eyes, "Yes, dumbass. I've been watching over you this whole time." At the realization of his words, Katsuki turns away to hide his blush and yet again, fails to notice the red tips of his ears.

"Anyway, the doctors say that you'll be discharged tomorrow morning so you can-" You cut of Aizawa, "Finally go back to school!" You sigh, stretching your arms out and then letting out a sigh.

"I was going to say stay home and rest but if that's what you want then I won't stop you. Bakugou." Katsuki turns around, his face and ears no longer flushed and is back to it's natural scowling state. "I'm not sure how or why your parents allowed you to stay here at the hospital but I'm glad at least someone is taking care of her. There are many qualified pros scouting this area especially at night so you two can rest easy."

With one last nod, the teachers all walk away, bidding the two of you good night. The door closes and you reach over to take your phone from the bedside table, unlocking it. Your eyes widen at the sight of forty-seven missed calls from your mom and just as many number of unread text messages.

"Your mom was called by the school about your situation and assured her that you were alright, but I guess that didn't stop her from blowing up your phone." Katsuki says, eyes on the apple he's peeling.

"Sorry about that, I bet you didn't get enough sleep with all the calling." Your eyebrows knit together in cringe as you force out a smile to which Katsuki shakes his head at. "Your mom is probably the one who didn't get any sleep at all. You should call her and ensure to her that you're alright." He points the knife at your phone before returning back to peeling the apple.

You call your mother in facetime and it rings twice before she answers. "Y/n oh my god! Are you alright, baby?! No, don't answer that. I'm on my way there right now-"

"Mom, what do you mean on your way- here in Japan?" Your eyes scan her background, heart falling to your stkmach as you recognize the airport.

"Hold on! Stop, stop! Mom! You have work back there in the states, you can't come to Japan."

"But you're hurt-"

"Mom," You sigh, "Look, I'm sorry for worrying you. But I swear, I'm fine. Just a few bruises and scrapes but what's a hero without scars, am I right?"

Your mom looks like she stopped walking as she sends you a wordied expression to which you smile reassuringly at her. "I'm fine, mom. Don't worry about me. I'll be able to take care of myself."

"But who's taking care of you in the hospital? I'm going there right now and-"

"Mom, even if you did come here now, I'll be discharged by the time you get here. Plus-" you look at Katsuki who's busy slicing the apples into little slices, designing them to look like bunnies. "-Someone's already taking care of me here. I'll be fine."

Your mother sighs, defeated as you watch her turn around. "Just- stay safe okay? I don't have anyone else."

"I know, mom. I love you so much."

"I love you more, my baby girl."

The two of you pucker your lips for a kiss before ending the call. You lean your back onto your now inclined bed, looking down at the bunny slice Katsuki is offering you. He still has that glare in his eyes, but if you look into them even more, they're much more softer. You take the slice from his fingers, letting out a soft thank you before taking a bite.

"When you blamed yourself a while ago." He starts, making you flinch at the topic. "Don't do that again."

"Suki-"

He slams the knife onto the table, "Please. It's not your fault. Even the strongest people have weaknesses. Don't put all the weight on yourself, please."

Your eyes widen at how vulnerable his voice sounds right now. You reach over, placing a hand on his soft hair. You smile softly, "Alright. I'm sorry I did that. I promise to rely on you more."

Katsuki looks up at you, eyes glassy and face flushing. "I never said you needed to rely on m-"

"I wanna look at the stars." You cut him off quickly, hopping off your bed to saunter towards the window. You push the glass window open, leaning in and taking a deep breath of the cold night air, smiling. You look up at the stars, wishing you had access to the rooftop since the view would be better up there.

"You know, we are at the twenty fifth floor of the hospital." Katsuki says, folding the fluffy blanket that you didn't even realize you were using. You don't think it's yours given that you've never seen it before. Was it Katsuki's?

"What are you saying?" You ask, letting him put on a sweater on you. Again, this piece of warm clothing wasn't yours as well. But by the sweet caramel scent it gave off, you come to a conclusion that this belonged to the angry blond gremlin who is currently standing on the window why the hell is he standing on the window?!

"Bakugou! Are you crazy?! Get off the window now!" You yell, pulling at his pants. "Oh stop being a square." He pushes the warm blanket on you, pulling you with him off the window and out of the hospital room. Before you let out a scream, he uses his quirk to push you two upwards, his hand gripping your sides tightly as your feet land on the cemented rooftop of the hospital.

At the notice of you no longer in the doorstep of death, you resort to hitting Katsuki's arm, letting your mouth run as you lecture him about how dangerous that act was. He responds to your reprimanding with a loud, milky, genuine laugh. Your hand comes to a hault as well as your mouth and you just stand there, awestruck at how handsome Katsuki actually looks when he's smiling.

You place a closed hand on your chest, feeling as your heart thumps against it vigorously. Ah, there it was again. The butterflies in your stomach that made your body feel lighter than it usually felt and your drying throat as well as your sweating palms.

"Come on, I find stargazing relaxing." He says, the usual angry tone of his voice gone, catching you off guard. He wraps his hand around your wrist softly, pulling you towards the center of the rooftop. He places the soft blanket on the ground, folding it once so it isn't too thin before laying down, patting the empty space for you. You mirror his actions, laying down beside him as you gazed up at the stars.

"You ever wonder what the alternative universe us are like?" You ask, eyes staring up at the twinkling stars as Katsuki raises a brow, turning his head towards you. "You believe in that bullshit?" He chuckles, making you gasp. "Don't call it bullshit! What else are the stars for??"

Katsuki presses his lips together to stop his laughter, "I don't know~ What are they for?" He asks you, tone sarcastic and pushing you off the edge. "To tell us about the future, and to show us how many other worlds are there other than ours!"

Katsuki can no longer hold in his laughter, clutching his stomach as he laughs his heart out. You narrow your eyes at him, pouting and crossing your arms against your chest. "Let me guess, let me guess." Katsuki wipes a tear away, "You also believe in the red string of fate?"

"How could you not believe it when-" You stop yourself from continuing your words. How could you not believe it when it caused the two of us to meet?

"When what? Come on, tell me! I promise not to laugh." You turn away, sitting up. Katsuki is still laughing as he follows you, taking your hand in his. "What else do I not know about you?" He asks, curling his four fingers with yours as he stands his thumb up, preparing for a thumb wrestle. You follow his actions and the two of you start the game. "I can't swim." You start.

"I had a pet goldfish but it died after a week." Katsuki chuckles.

"I only ever had two friends growing up- they were my mother's bodyguards. Eliot and Andrew."

"I like to cook."

"I still have my stuffed toys from when I was young."

"I tried to learn how to drive but after almost running over a cat, I swore never to drive again."

"I was pretty popular in middle school."

You chuckle, "I was bullied in middle school."

Katsuki stops moving his thumb, allowing you to pin his down. Your face brightens up as you smile, "I win!" You look up at him, smile almost immediately falling at the sight of his grin expression.

His head drops, covering up his eyes. "Hey, what happened? Did I say something wrong? Come on Suki, talk to me."

"I'm- Do you hate bullies?" He asks, his head still hanging.

"Well, hate is a strong word..." You look up at the stars, as if they were going to give you the right word you were looking for. "But I dislike them. What's the point of putting down someone especially when they've done nothing wrong to you? I don't use the word hate because I don't want to use it incorrectly, but to me bullies are sometimes just misunderstood or something. They have that superiority complex and I like to think that they have it because of their past that we don't know about or the thoughts they have in their heads."

You feel him padding his thumb over your hand. "Hey, you okay?" You ask, cupping his jaw to make him look uo at you. The look in his eyes, takes you aback- he looks so sad and regretful which only stirrs up more questions in your head.

"You're so good. You're such a good person, Y/n." His words cause you to furrow your brows in confusion. What was going on inside his head?

He drops his head to your shoulder, "You're an angel, Y/n. People are so lucky to have you in their lives."

You don't even think twice before the words leave uour mouth. "Even you?"

It takes him a few moments to respond and you begin to think that you made a mistake asking him that, but you feel him nod on your shoulder. "Especially me."

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seacottons · 4 years

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reaper ; — k.hj x reader

pairing: hongjoong x reader, platonic wooyoung x reader

wc: 5k

notes: i guess this is horror? pft. idk. mild violence. set in the late 80s? early 90s? technology isn't prevalent here so- yeah. probably needs to be proofread but i'm too sleepy as of now. maybe tomorrow. also, happy hongjoong day 🤍

synopsis: after an accident leaves three of your friends dead and one in a coma, you and wooyoung struggle with living expenses and piling medical bills. in the midst of it all, you’re stalked by strangers who resemble your deceased friends.

"Bad day at the tavern, Woo?" You asked, arms wrapping around the black-haired man who stood over the stovetop. A gentle fire simmered the stew he was cooking, a thin sheen of oil and spices pooling on the surface. He nodded with a grim frown and tight jaw, shoulders tense as he stirred a ladle into the pot.

"Got in a fight with some asshole who thought he didn't have to pay for shit," he grumbled back. You frowned at the sight of a bruise on his jaw, and he caught your gaze before scoffing incredulously.

"Don't look at me like that. This is nothing," he quipped hastily, voice thin with resignation.

"I think I have some leftover ointment for that," you sighed, turning away to fetch the item. After dinner, the two of you sat in silence as you tended to his bruises and cuts, your brows furrowing into a glare as you wrapped his finger with scraps of linen you managed to find," You should be more careful with people like that."

"We need the money," he retorted gently, "Mr. Lee would've taken it out of my paycheck if I had let the guy go without paying."

"At the expense of you getting hurt?" He ignored the glare you sent his way.

"We need every silver coin and more right now, y/n," he exhaled softly, leaning back against the old headboard of your bed, "Yeosang's medical bills aren't getting cheaper, and we promised the landlord we'll pay her this month." He groaned, reaching up to massage his temple with a tight frown, "And I can't keep making you work two shifts every day. I see the toll it's having on you."

"I told you I'm fine," you gave him a hard stare, defensively crossing your arms above your chest, "We both work overtime, so it won't be fair of me to just throw all the responsibility on you."

He gave you a tired smile, eyes fluttering shut as he hummed back a reply. Bringing you into his arms, he placed a gentle kiss onto your temple, before cradling your head against his chest while laying down, "I'll always be grateful to still have you with me."

Wooyoung sleeping in your bed alongside you became a silent agreement of some sort months ago when he couldn't bear to sleep alone in the other room he and Yeosang shared. Since then, the two of you found comfort in each other's arms, so much so that it became difficult to sleep without the warmth of his arms wrapped securely around your frame every night.

You sat in a comfortable silence, eyes closed as you relaxed back in your seat while holding Yeosang's delicate hand. The occasional beep of the IV machine and other monitors filled the air of the small room. You peek one eye open to look at Wooyoung, his back turned to you as he gazes out of the window. Neither of you speak for a while.

"You really think the doctor's words are guaranteed? That he'll wake up soon?"

You watched from your spot as Wooyoung leaned over the blonde-haired male, his hands brushing the hair away from his closed eyes. He appeared to be in a very deep and peaceful slumber.

"Yeah. I'm sure–.. I know he will. Things will get better for all of us," he drawled out tiredly, a soft smile finding itself onto his visage as he turned to gaze at your hand grasping Yeosang's limp one, eyes puffy from his crying session last night, "I know it."

An hour later, a nurse peeks her head in to politely state that you two have exceeded your visiting time. The two of you bid your friend farewell and left the hospital.

"I'm actually going to run by the cemetery real quick before my shift starts," you explained while walking down the road with the other by your side, half frozen autumn leaves crunching beneath your boots.

Wooyoung pulled you into a tight hug, hand reaching up to tussle your locks, "Alright, please be careful. I'll see you later, alright?," he readjusted the scarf around your neck with his gloved hands, "We'll have fried fish tonight, your favorite. Don't overwork yourself at work again!"

Tears nearly welled in your eyes, knowing fully well behind his cheerful demeanor hid a scared and tired being. The unspeakable pain behind his eyes killed you on the inside. He overworked himself both physically and mentally, and you can only wish you can rid some of the burden off of his shoulders.

You were just as hurt by the circumstances that the both of you were in, but watching his mental health erode with each day was A lump formed in your throat, and instead of replying, you merely flashed him a smile, not trusting your voice.

You pressed a quick peck to his cheek only to laugh as he flinched away from your freezing lips, your laughter escaping as puffs of white in the frigid air. You bid him farewell and waved back as the two of you separated.

The low mist enshrouding the cemetery did very little to bring warmth in the early hours of the morning. Your hands absentmindedly brushed along the dew covered grass as your eyes fixated onto the inscription on one of the three tombstones.

Where there are flowers, there are butterflies.

"It's your birthday next month, Joong," you muse to the grave in front of you, "I'll make sure to spend the day here with you and the others when the time comes."

You adjusted your position on the grass, the gentle beams of sunlight sparkling in the beads of dew around you. Sitting cross legged, you reminisced the times you spent with the male and the other two friends that shared his fate.

"Wait— how come you get to be the flower? You should be the butterfly instead," you whined whilst poking his cheek.

With a playful quirk of his brow, he reached up to lightly flick your forehead before pulling you closer for a gentle kiss, "You're the butterfly, because you always bug me, baby."

You smiled to yourself at the memory, reaching down to admire the various flowers that have finally bloomed on Hongjoong's grave. Similar blossoms and flowering vines were planted and grown onto the other two graves to the right.

"I miss you so much."

You startled at the sight of a small butterfly fluttering over your head, only to smile once it landed on the purple blossom. You stilled your frame in fear of scaring it off, and watched as it flapped its blue wings subtly.

A small lizard peeked through the gaps of leaves, sharply and swiftly clamping its mouth onto the butterfly. It struggled to keep the bug in its mouth, its head shaking rapidly as the insect wriggled in its hold. Moments later, the bug stilled and the lizard scampered off with its prey.

You stood up, shoulders slumping as you gave the three graves a smile and a wave, "See you guys tomorrow. I love you."

You tightened the sweater around your frame as you made yourself out the gates of the cemetery, sighing in annoyance at the lingering and dense fog. It was difficult to even make out the next tree as you made your way back to town. You faintly hear the sound of a crow's caw in the distance and peer down onto the ground as you feel a tremor beneath your feet. Your head snapped up in time to have a large vehicle's headlights reflect in your wide eyes.

You somehow couldn't quite grasp what day it was, or even what happened at work earlier. Your head spun as if you had just awoken from a drunken stupor.

The sun had set and the moonlight washed the town with a silvery blue hue. Flames flickered within the numerous lampposts and pebbles crunched beneath your feet as you walked through the familiar cobblestone path back home. The streets were deserted. Many buildings were left with shattered windows, small plants and moss growing in the most delicate fissures on their walls. Plastered advertisements and papers on the walls and lampposts looked withered and aged, drooping forward and swaying with the gentle breeze. It was quite an odd sight to see. The once boisterous town strangely felt like a ghost town.

You shrugged off the ominous feeling growing in the pit of your stomach as you trudged along back home.

Along the way, you crossed the hospital where Yeosang was kept. You peeked back to glance at the building, your eyes immediately catching sight of a figure who stood behind a third story window. Furrowing your brows, you turned around to continue walking, the sight of the stranger leaving a bitter feeling in your heart.

The male had the same patch of silver hair as—

Suddenly, your feet came to a halt and you turned back frantically, but the figure was gone. In its place, the blue curtain of Yeosang's room swayed gently with the wind.

Shaking your head, you continued your path whilst rubbing your tired eyes.

"I probably just had a long day," you explained to nobody.

In the distance, there crouched a dark figure, his hands caressing the top of a stray cat's head. You met eyes with the stranger moments later, and you paused in your tracks, your heart dropping down to the floor and leaping into your throat almost simultaneously.

"San?" the figure's lips stretched into a wide grin at your acknowledgement, before he stood up straight to face you. Your legs shook and threatened to give under the sudden weight of your body, "San? Is that really you?"

"Long time no see, y/n."

He silently nodded, arm extending to beckon you forward with a small smile. You took a small step forward, brows furrowing in confusion, "But this can't be you. You're dead."

"Your eyesight is still horrible, I see," he drawled out with a roll of his eyes. You stood inches away from him, eyes widening in disbelief. He sounded like and resembled your late friend with a terrifying accuracy. With a trembling hand you reached forward to cup his cheek, eyes glassy with unshed tears.

"You're..," you trailed off, eyes briefly glancing to your right at the reflection of the store glass window. Your reflection grasped at nothing but thin air, and you quickly retracted your hand from his face, eyes wide, "You're not real, are you?"

In an instant, the bright smile vanished and his gaze hardened into a dark expression. He silently bore holes into your head as a gentle breeze swayed his ebony and silver locks over his eyes. You took two hesitant steps back, and a blur of black flew towards you at an inhumane pace, your back roughly slamming onto the cobblestones underneath you.

Your brain scrambled to process what had just happened, eyes widening as San gripped your two wrists above your head with one hand, the other reaching down to wrap his lithe fingers around the column of your neck to squeeze hard. You released a pained cry, face contorting into a harsh wince. The heel of his palm dug painfully in the middle of your clavicles.

With eyes wide as saucers, you frantically kicked at your heels, hitting his frame repeatedly in an attempt to escape his clutches. Your attempt was futile as he released a growl, eyes practically slits as he seethed down at you, his grip tightening at an unbelievable level.

You wheezed, mouth falling open as you choked out his name, before furiously and blindingly sending a stomp onto his crotch repeatedly, your other leg jutting high to kick at his shoulder. It loosened his grip just enough for you to wriggle away, knees buckling as you attempted to stand up, heels kicking at the floor as you scrambled up, desperately trying to create as much distance as possible.

His eyes spoke of unfathomable fury as he regained his composure, taking two big strides to reach you.

Hastily rising to your feet, you dove in an alleyway and into the dark, mind not even processing your whereabouts as you quickly attempted to flee.

Your mind was in shambles as you ducked past clothes lines and the multiple abandoned carts near one of the taverns by the tea shop you worked at.

Turning around another corner, you collided with a strong chest, and you stumbled back at the sight of San's dark eyes peering down at you with a miffed expression. You gasped, face draining of color and chest heaving as you stumbled back and away from him. His chest rose with heavy breathing, brows knitted together furiously as he scurried after you.

"Y/n, y/n," he tsked in amusement, voice chiming like he was singing a song, "Come back, I just want to talk!"

Minutes later, the sound of his heavy footsteps ceased, but you did not have the time or courage to look back to see if he was still following you. You scrambled through dark alleyways, turning around every other corner, heart beating frantically in your ears and weak legs threatening to give way under your weight.

Tears prickled your eyes, and a sob threatened to escape your throat as you practically threw yourself against the frame of your door, fingers frantically reaching down to pull out the key from your pouch. From the corner of your eye, you spotted San madly dashing out from an alleyway to reach you, his voice growling out your name.

"Why are you running away?" He mocked, brows quirking up, "I thought we were good friends?"

Your trembling hands scrambled to unlock your door, hastily clambering in and throwing your entire weight to close it shut. A heavy weight from the other side thudded against the wooden frame, and your hands shook whilst reaching up to slide the chain into place. A loud gasp left your lips as the door jerked open slightly, the thin chain straining under the weight that threatened to break it.

"I'm hurt, y/n," a laugh escaped the man from the other side as he lodged his foot in between to keep the door ajar, voice rising as he attempted to shove himself in once more, "Don't you miss me?"

"Leave me alone!"

A hand shot from the gap of the door to clamp around the chain, rattling it viciously, as his other arm bent at an awkward angle to coil his fingers around the side of your neck, "Come out, y/n. I just want to talk," he chimed.

A sudden surge of strength overtook your frame and you threw your weight forward, successfully ramming the door shut against his arms. You expected to hear a cry of pain, but a chime of laughter sent a chill down your spine. With furrowed brows, you repeated the action, slamming the door continuously onto his hands and fingers, the sounds of bones and tendons snapping making you cry out in anguish.

Your hands trembled as you quickly locked the door with the key, stumbling back onto the floor as the knob shook threateningly. The door and chain rattled under the heavy kicks the male delivered from the other side, The impact of his frame against the other side shaking the door slightly. You fell onto your bottom, wobbly knees finally giving in, hands clutching your gaping mouth, and tears silently streaming down your face. You can practically feel the smile in his words, "It's okay. You'll come out eventually."

The dark shadow of his figure disappeared moments later.

When you woke, you weren't exactly sure when or how you fell asleep. You couldn't quite grasp the memories of the night prior. Sitting up, you emit a disoriented groan before realizing you weren't in your bedroom, but rather in the waiting room in the hospital Yeosang resided in. Peering around in confusion, you took account of the night sky, brows furrowing as you scrambled to find the nearest clock. It was well past midnight and visitors weren't even allowed at this ungodly hour.

The room was vacant, and you couldn't make out any figures of the receptionists through the pebbled sliding-windows. Your hand grasped the doorknob of the entrance door, only for you to sigh in frustration after finding it locked. You turn to the other side of the room only to find the door to the main halls of the ICU left ajar ever so slightly.

You called for any doctor or nurse, but you were met with silence. After much contemplating, you decided to make your way through the long corridors of the hospital, your steps reverberating throughout the empty halls. Where are the attendants, and why is a place like the ICU empty?

If you were stuck in here, you might as well stay in your friend's room. The lights from the mounted sconces petered out against the wall and casted the hallway with a warm glow.

After much turning and walking, you reached the end of the hall, hand reaching for the doorknob when the hallway lights wavered for a second. You peered to the side in confusion, before entering the room, only to stop after a step.

The room was empty, the sheets on the bed untouched and perfectly made. A hiss of air from the corridor startled you, and just as you snapped your head back, the lightbulb above you flickered rapidly before it shattered along with the windows, showering your shocked form with glass shards.

The room was engulfed in darkness, save for the streaks of moonlight filtering past the curtains. You jostled up from where you fell from shock, legs feeling useless as you crawled back out of the room with trembling limbs. Not wanting to look back, you clutched the wall for support before hastily speeding through the endless turns of the hallway.

Corner after corner, panic settled through your system because these were definitely not the same hallway layouts you remembered and memorized like the back of your hand. They were endless and vacant, and you felt like a helpless little mouse in a vast maze. As you quickened your pace into a panicked dash, the windows and light sconces on the wall flickered and shattered with every step you took, and you hastily covered your head and face from the flying glass.

This isn't real, you thought. It can't be real.

"Y/n!"

You froze in your spot, breath caught in your throat as you clamped a hand over your mouth to swallow back a scream threatening to slip past your lips. Did you hear correctly, or was that part of your imagination?

"Y/n," the familiar voice spoke once more.

Your heart hammered against your ribcage as you daringly poked your head from the corner and into the other hallway. Blood pounded past your ears, and it took more than a second to realize there was a figure of a man at the end of the very long and dark corridor.

He took a step forward and the soft moonlight pouring from the window beside him illuminated his figure, and your breath faltered at the sight of the man's smiling face.

"Seonghwa?"

"What are you running away from, y/n?"

You couldn't properly form a reply at his remark, hands reaching up to rub at your tear pricked eyes. A sob bubbled its way up to escape your throat at the sight of your late friend who merely chuckled at your tears.

"Missed me that much, hm?" he mused, shoulders shaking with an amused chortle, "Why don't you come here and give me hug? You know I don't like seeing you cry."

You couldn't help it as a gnawing feeling of unrest settled in the pit of your stomach. A shudder traveled down your spine, goosebumps decorating your arms, and hair standing on the back of your neck. Your mind couldn't pinpoint what exactly it was that had you so disturbed, but your body displayed all the signs. His tone felt off, and you realize he's playing with you. Toying with you. A small distant voice in your head told you to get away.

A sudden thought found its ways into your mind.

Where was his shadow?

Sensing your hesitation, the friendly expression on his face soon dropped, making way for a stone-cold frown and unamused eyes.

"Y/n."

His cold voice snapped you out of your thoughts, and you take a hesitant step back, words slipping out before you even processed them, "I know you're not real."

The feral look that overtakes his expression has you reeling back, and you took off running in the opposite direction. Glass crunches beneath your shoes as you dashed from corridor to corridor, lungs burning and muscles aching from the rush of adrenaline. He called for you repeatedly, and you didn't dare turn back to see how far he's caught up with you. With every turn, his voice grew louder and closer, before a flash of black sends you flying back onto the floor. Your body skids onto the ground, shards of glass pricking at your skin. With a rush of adrenaline fueling your system, you hardly wince as you scrambled back from the towering figure, glass piercing your skin in the process.

You feel an excruciating burst of pain in your foot, and before you had the opportunity to pull your leg back, he slams his foot down onto your ankle once more, grinding the joint roughly with his boot. A loud cry of pain escapes your throat and you to struggle wildly to escape his unrelenting grip.

You glance up and through your tears, you make out the gleam of a large piece of glass in Seonghwa's hands, his threatening, blown out pupils pinning you down like trapped prey. Turning the large shard in his hand to examine it, he hums sarcastically before peering down at you with a quirked brow, "You know, I'm offended." Kneeling down to your level, he traces your cheek with a glass, watching your skin split at the action and beads of blood oozing out from the scratch, "And here I thought we were such good, close friends."

Without missing a beat, your hands flew to grasp the shard, roughly ripping it into the soft tissue of his eye and slipping past his frame to stagger to the nearest broken window. You hear a groan from behind you as he doubles over in shock, blood overflowing from his ruptured eye and spilling down his scowling face. Pain surged with every step you took, but if this was your only option to escape, you think maybe the idea of couple of broken bones doesn't sound too bad.

Hastily, you stepped over the windowsill, your arms and legs catching on the jagged teeth of glass remaining, your clothes tearing in the process. You took a sharp inhale before curiously taking a look back at Seonghwa one last time. The sight of him lunging after you has you falling forward and out of the window. It felt as if gravity had slowed the pace of your fall, and you held eye contact with Seonghwa as your frame descended down from the third story floor. Darkness fogged your eyesight, his figure vanishing within the black abyss.

The impact hit you like a truck, and you sat up with a loud intake of breath on your warm bed. Your chest heaved heavily as you took in your surroundings. You suddenly realize you're in Wooyoung and Yeosang's shared room that hasn't been occupied in months. Your eyes fall onto your feet, and your brows furrow in confusion as a sudden thought invades your head.

You faintly remember your ankle being crushed, but it seemed to feel just fine now. When you attempted to recall why you thought it had been broken, it felt like your mind was searching for a forgotten and fragmented memory. After calming your breathing and thoughts, you sit up to go and find your friend.

You called Wooyoung's name repeatedly, but the silence you were met with indicated he wasn't home.

Peering into your room, you hoped to find him sleeping, however your eyes landed on the wall, the sight of messily painted words catching your attention almost immediately.

Where there are flowers, there are butterflies.

Painted flowers and butterflies littered the wall, the excess ink dripping down into lines onto the wooden floorboards.

"Do you like it?"

You jumped at the voice behind you, swiftly turning around to meet the sight of a familiar head of blue hair. You stood there, mouth agape as you silently stared long and hard at the man that once held and loved you in his arms. A long silence followed suit, hanging in the air like the calm before a storm. A breeze hardly stirred from the open window and not a sound could be heard save for the pounding of your heartbeat in your ears.

The forbidding, subtle grin displayed on his features filled you with dread, and the mere sight of him gave your brain a debilitating shock. Your knees couldn't hold your weight any longer, and with buckling limbs, you were sent crashing down onto the floor, the look of disbelief and horror never leaving your expression.

You stared at him but it felt like you couldn't quite focus your gaze on him as he peered down at you in mock pity, a condescending smile playing on his lips. His dark gaze seared you as he crouched down to meet your eye level, hand reaching to cup your cheek as he leaned in to press numerous kisses onto your lips. The gesture was void of the warmth and care you remembered, and you sat still as he trailed fleeting kisses down your the column of your neck, his lips attaching fervently onto your clavicles.

"I missed you so much," you began, catching his attention. Pulling away from your irritated flesh, he quirked his brows at your words, hands brushing the hair out of your face as he let out a chuckle. His finely-chiseled face, illuminated by the oil lamps on the wall, broke into a fond expression. Pulling you close to his frame, he pressed your head against his chest, head dipping to kiss into your hair.

"Do you really?" Your brows furrowed slightly, eyes blinking away the tears as you wrapped your arms around his torso, head pressed against his chest. It's been too long without the feeling of your lover's arms around you. It's just been way too long for you, "If you miss me that much then-"

While nuzzling his chest, you come to realization he lacked a heartbeat, and with that thought striking your mind like lightning, you detached yourself from his form instantly. He eyed your trembling form without any sign of amusement.

"Don't look at me like that!" Cowering back against the wall, you broke into screams of despair, fingers pulling handfuls of your hair as you shook your head rapidly, "You're dead— you're not real!" you slapped the heels of your palms against your temple repeatedly, eyes scrunched shut, "Not real! Not real! This is all just my imagination!"

He released a chilling laugh that traveled down your spine and left your fingers and toes numbingly cold. A sudden gust of wind sent the crispy, autumn leaves scampering wildly into the window while also extinguishing the lamplights that illuminated the room, plunging it into darkness.

You only had a second to register his close proximity, your pupils dilating instantly, before a hand latched onto your throat, ramming your head back against the wall in the process. His vice-like, lithe fingers squeezed around your windpipe, successfully blocking your air flow as you squirmed in his relentless hold, lungs burning and diaphragm spasming.

"You'll join me so we can be together again, hm?"

The fist around your throat choked your response, and he tilted his head with a mocking smile, "I'm sorry, what was that?"

His hold only faltered ever so slightly to give you enough air to speak, "I don't want to die," your reply was a little more than a ghost of a breath.

"But, baby," his fingers coiled around your neck, pressing unforgivingly hard until your darkening vision littered with stars, "don't you realize you're already on the brink of death. Just give in, y/n. Don't keep fighting."

The silence of the atmosphere contributed to the solemnity in the air, and despite the clear blue skies and warm sun, there was a relentless chill in Wooyoung's heart. The black-haired male crouched down over the grave, gently placing a small bundle of roses onto the base of the tombstone.

"Happy birthday, Joong," he mused sadly, his puffy, tired eyes flickering over to the sides where the other tombstones lay.

"I'm so sorry for breaking my promise," he blinked rapidly to rid himself of the stinging tears threatening to spill, nose scrunching slightly as he sniffled, "I should've been there that day- shouldn't have let y/n come here alone- and.."

"You know nothing was your fault, Woo. Stop blaming yourself for something you had no control of."

A hand clutched his shoulder, and he peered with tear-filled eyes to give the blonde male a grateful smile, before turning back to the grave, "Yeosang's awake now though and- and the doctors said that y/n's case isn't as bad as his was, so we have hope."

"Y/n is a stubborn fighter," Yeosang offered the other a small smile, crouching down to rub his trembling friend's back, "Everything will be okay in due time."

"I hope so.. and I hope you'll forgive me, Hongjoong," Wooyoung murmured, watching two small butterflies flutter and chase each other around the blossoming flowers atop of Hongjoong's grave.

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callingitaday · 4 years

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Sweetness

Pairing : Fred Weasley x reader (fem)

wc: 2K+ Warnings : none.. I think

Gif owner: fgweasley

6 months. 6 months since the battle. 6 months since Lord Voldemort killed your family. 6 months of nightmares and sleepless nights. 6 months of wanting it all to end.

*flashback *

“No! No! What are you doing here? I told you to stay away” you yelled as your parents stepped onto the battlefield.

“ We’re here to help honey” your mom spoke

“We need everyone to fight. He can’t win. Everything will be alright, we love you” your dad finished.

“Y/N help!” Neville yelled. Running over to help fight off a death eater when you hear your mom's screams echoing through the chaos causing you to turn around and let out a blood curdling scream. You see Voldemort killing your parents, making you drop to your knees.

“MOM” you cried out

Voldemort turns his attention to you. Immediately you stand to fight, tears clouding your sight before arms are wrapped around your waist lifting you off the ground.

“We need to go” Fred yelled as you fought against him.

*end of flash back*

Since your family was now gone, the Weasley's have taken you in as their own. Miss Weasley or Molly as she keeps reminding you ensures that everything will be okay and you always have and forever will be a part of this family. You appreciate hearing this as it helps you while transitioning into this new beginning.

Fred checks on you multiple times throughout the day, which gets annoying sometimes but you love him so it’s okay. You know he knows something is wrong but didn’t know what or why I wouldn’t tell him why. Fred was your best friend, he was a year older but I didn’t really seem to matter. You told each other everything but you couldn’t seem to tell him about the nightmares or the fact that you were completely and utterly in love with him. Which is the way you’d like to keep it.

As another nightmare penetrated your mind, you were awoken in a cold sweat and tears daring to fall. 3 AM you sigh, quietly making your way downstairs to make some tea. Leaving a smell light on as you made your way to the front porch the cool air felt very welcoming against your burning skin. As you said that you let your mind wander free. Thinking about simple things like how summer days were hot and the evenings were cool, how lively the house always was, how the house always smells like a bakery because Mrs. Weasley makes something new to try every day. But also thinking about the battle of Hogwarts. To your parents, to everyone and everything you lost.

Due to being zoned out you weren’t exactly aware of the things around you. The stairs begin to squeak under the weight of someone making their way down.

“Y/N? What are you doing? It's almost 4 in the morning” Fred's sleepy voice came from behind you.

“Couldn’t sleep” Fred came up next to you before sitting down.

“ is everything okay?”

You sat there in silence as you thought how to answer, you didn’t really know and didn’t really wanna cry anymore.

“Y/N?” Fred spoke quietly

“sorry, I’m fine” now resting your head on his shoulder

“ you’re lying come on tell me what’s going on”

“Fred…’ A silent tear falling ‘I’m sorry I can’t do that right now. Just sit with me”

“Okay but when you’re ready I’m ready” Fred pulls you into a hug kissing your forehead. He held you for a while and once he was satisfied that you would be heading back to bed too he himself headed upstairs. Soon enough you too made your way up to bed. Letting your head hit the pillow, your eyes close. As you let the tiredness take over, hoping tomorrow will be better.

It was still early when you woke back up. The girls were still sleeping and you could hear the quick chirping of the birds outside. Quietly changing into some shorts and a t-shirt before making your way downstairs. Peeking into Ron's room as you passed, both Ron and Harry were still dead asleep and Ron was snoring quite loudly causing you to giggle a bit.

Molly was starting to make breakfast “Oh! Good morning dear”

“Good morning” you spoke gently as you entered the kitchen. “Fresh tea is on the table” Molly added, you responded with a smile before taking a seat at the table.

“Morning boys”

“Morning” they said in unison. George never took his eyes off the paper they were working on but Fred looked up. He tilted his head a little, giving you a smile. You look down at your cup, taking in a deep unsteady breath before looking back up at him. Forcing a small smile while taking a sip of your tea. Molly slowly started putting breakfast on the table and yelled up the stairs that breakfast was ready. You weren't that hungry but still grabbed a biscuit.

Fred kept looking at you, a sweet but concerned look covered his features as he observed you picking at your food and tinkering with the cup of tea. Wanting to be out from under Fred's gaze you got up and dumped out the old tea to make a new cup. “Not hungry dear? Is everything okay?” Molly asked. “ eh, not really but I'm okay. Just a bit tired” you gave a reassuring smile.

“Alright, im here is you need anything”

Heading out to the front porch for some fresh air, taking a seat in one of the old rocking chairs. Not long after the screen door snapped shut and the porch squeaked just a little under the wait of the person approaching. You stayed in your own little world, never looking up from your cup. In all honestly you didn't have too, you knew who it was the second he walked through the doorway. You could smell him, he always smelt like fire embers and sweets, and to be frank it was a bit intoxicating for you. He didn’t say anything as he sat next to you. You knew what he wanted, what he was thinking. You knew he wanted to know about the nightmares but at the same time he didn't want to pry.

“ i’m sorry. I know that if I asked you, you would have listened and tried to help. I didn't want to bother anyone with my problems. Everyone that day lost someone they cared about, I'm not special because I lost my parents. This is my burden and my burden alone. But these nightmares that invade my head are slowly killing me” you paused, finally looking over at Fred. He sat with tears in his eyes, a few of your own fell down your cheek at the sight.

“Every night I watch him kill them. I watch as the light dies in their eyes. Every night I'm back at the battle. Every Night i hear the deafening screams of everyone there” shaking your head as you quickly wiped your face, taking a deep breath.

Fred grabbed your hands in his own “I’m sorry you felt like you had to go through this alone but you're being too hard on yourself. It is okay to grieve your parents and our friends. It's okay to be sad. It's all okay but what's not okay is letting these feelings destroy you. I'm here for you, everyone in this house is here for you, but I'm here whether it be at 2 in the afternoon or 2 in the morning.”

You pulled Fred into a hug and whispered a thank you as he gripped you tighter.

The summer day continued as normal. The boys decided to play little mini quidditch games while you, Ginny, Hermione and George’s (she is not my girlfriend!) girlfriend Angelina sat out sunbathing watching them play. A letter from Charlie had arrived in the afternoon insisting that he needed Molly and Aurther to come out for something very important though he didn't say what it was. This led to Molly giving us all a very stern talking about how we needed to be on our best behavior, absolutely no funny business, to not burn down the house and they would be back in a day or two.

As the evening approached Ron helped Harry set up something called a projector so that we could watch some movies outside around a fire. George had brought out some whiskey to sip on and this is where things started to get a little awkward for you. Only 4 blankets were set up. One for each couple and apparently one for you and Fred to share.

After this morning, Fred was keeping an even closer eye on you than before. Being around him on a day to day basis was hard enough but now you're just in a constant state of butterflies and embarrassment. He's caught you staring like a dozen times today and now you had to sit next to him and act like everything was fine while the couples paid more attention to each other than the movie.

You tried to make yourself comfortable but nothing was working. Even tried to lay down but your arm kept falling asleep. Eventually you gave up and just pulled your knees up to wrap your arms around them and lay your head on your knees.

“You can lay your head on me….. If- if you want too” Fred whispered, close enough that you could smell the whiskey on his breath. Hesitant at first but giving in and not moments after you laid your head in his lap that you fell asleep.

“y/n… y/n'' you jolted awake as Fred said your name. “ Hey you're okay, yeah” He talked low and slow as he tucked some hair behind your ear. Finally sitting up and looking around, the movie was still playing and only George and Angelina were gone.

“What happened?”

“You were starting to whimper and saying no over and over again and you had a pretty good grip on my - umm- my thigh”

“Oh.. Im sorry” that was all you could say, you knew it was because of the nightmare. “Its okay”

“I think I should go to bed” you blurted out

“Yeah, yeah sure I'll walk you up” Fred said as he stood and reached his hands out to help you up.

You just stood there for a moment while you stared down at your now intertwined hand before looking up at him. His lips were already formed in an admiring smile which you copied before setting your other hand just above his wrist and setting your head on his upper arm. Fred leaned down and kissed the top of your head “come on”

Fred only let go of your hand when you got to the stairs to allow you to go up first. Your courage began to build with each step up you took, finally at the top you stopped and turned on your heel to face Fred. Almost face to face with him but even with you on higher ground he was still taller. Your eyes flickering between his and his lips. Steadily bringing your hands up to his face before planting your lips on his. He was definitely taking back but quickly recovered and his hands gripped your hips and pulled you closer to him.

Both only stopping because oxygen was much needed. Slowly you open your eyes only to see Fred's got this shit eating grin plastered across his face. You laughed “what?”

“Oh nothing, you know you should just feel so lucky to have been able to kiss me”

“FRED!” you smacked his chest as he erupted in laughter before putting his hands in the arm in defense “Im kidding! Only kidding”

“Can I stay with you tonight?” you say in a hushed tone

“Of course you can sweets”

“Mhm sweets? I kinda like it”

“ oh yeah? Well I would call you that all the time if you were mine” Fred stated matter-of-factly. You set your hands on each side of his neck “Promise?”

“Promise” he repeated back to you as he lifted you up causing you to let out a yelp and wrap your legs around him. He slowly made his way to his door before opening it and stepping inside. Shutting and locking it before leaning over the bed, laying you on your back.

He gave you a few more small kisses before taking off his shirt and laying next to you and pulling you close to him.

You couldn’t believe this was happening but you were more than ecstatic. Maybe now those nightmares would stop, maybe now you wouldn't dread going to bed. Maybe now everything would be okay. Still with your head on his exposed chest you thanked him for everything and that if this was actually happening that he would always be enough for you just the way he was because he was now your sweet boy.

“Always my sweets” was the last thing spoken before sleep took both of you.

#fred weasley #fred weasly x reader #fred weasley imagine #fred weasley fic #Harry Potter #harry potter imagine #fred weasley drabble #hp imagine #hp fanfic

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hi! can i request a scenario for suna when he finds out that his s/o has anxiety and some mental health problems? like angst with happy ending. (sorry for bad English, it's my second language) have a nice day 💖

Anon, please feel hugged and loved right now. I'm sending you everything that's left from my heart, and I WOULD SELL ALL OF MY HAIKYUU MERCH TO MAKE YOU SMILE JUST ONCE!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!

But- you know that I'm bad at writing angst, but I'll still do my very best for you!

Feel free to always slide into my DM's, I'm all yours if you ever feel like talking, ranting, laughing or whatever else.

I actually read the Inarizaki match again today, to get a better insight of his character, I hope I can portray Suna in a convincing way for you!

Hope this is okay for you!

PS: Uhm, seriously, your English is perfectly fine, I don't even see a single mistake, I'm also not a native speaker, so don't worry about things like that!!

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Bad days

Suna x Reader Warnings: Slight Angst Words: 1 k

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It was too much.

Everything was too much.

From one moment to the next you could feel how an invisible weight was pushing you down, making it hard for you to breathe. You could feel the panic in your chest, and your eyes glanced in fear to the right and left, to see if someone noticed your change.

The sound of the people around you was overwhelming, making you want to press your hands against your ears to shut them off. Their gazes, the smells in the hallway, everything was so familiar, yet it felt so wrong right now.

You tighten the grip around your bag and slowly walk out of the entrance, your hands shaking, and your breath getting heavier with every second.

You sat in the bus with your bag pressed to your chest. Your tried to cover your face with your hair- the weak attempt to hide your pained expression.

You don't know how, but you made it home. You approached your apartment with heavy steps, and weakly pushed keys into the lock to open the door.

You sunk to the floor, arms clung around your legs, and your face turned down to your chest. You heart was out of control, you felt like it could explode any second. Panic attacks like this always made you feel so lonely and helpless. You didn't dare to call someone, to afraid to burden them- you always endured this all alone.

You were only able to sit on the ground. You often had these attacks, that's why you knew that you would have been doomed to wait until they are over, unable to do anything. You wished you could be in your bed, wrapping the blanket around you, and cry until you felt better- until the empty feeling inside you would finally be gone. But you couldn't stand up, so you just stayed on the cold ground, losing the feeling of time.

A noise made you look up in panic. Suddenly you can feel how the door is pushed into your back. You held your breath, and somehow manage to crawl to the side. The door swung open, and a familiar dark haired men came in.

His gaze immediately went down to you, frowning, but not saying anything.

He looked at you concerned. Your hair was messy, and your eyes widened in panic, and even your breath was out of control. The way your arms clung to your knees was heartbreaking.

He had this suspicion for a while now. Somedays when you just were too tired to get up, or when you wouldn't respond to his texts, he thought that there was more behind it.

He sometimes noticed how your breath got heavy in crowds, and how you always clung to his hands, that's when he thought you could might suffer from anxiety. Seeing you like this only confirmed what he already suspected. It was anxiety.

“Y/n”. His voice was quiet but you could hear that he was worried.

“Go-away- Rintarou” you manage to pant, still afraid to let go of your body.

Him seeing you like this- you knew how he would react. You tried your best to keep this from him, but you always felt bad when you lied to him, causing you panic attacks to get even worse.

His presence did nothing to calm you down now. You couldn't look at him- you could imagine the deprecating look on his face, he was probably disgusted by your current state. He wouldn't want to deal with a nuisance like you, why should he? He liked to take the easy way, and you were a lot, but definitely not easy to handle. Not on days like this.

You don't know how long he stands there in silence, you could only hear your loud pants, until his voice disrupts your thoughts.

“Can I stay?”

You gasp at his words, causing you to almost faint due to the lack of oxygen.

He wanted to stay?

He saw you like this and wanted to stay?

You didn't know if it was a good idea, but you were to weak to decline.

“Y-Yes.”

As soon as the words leaves your lips he takes a step in your direction and you feel something soft and warm around your shoulders. His jacket. He draped it around you, and slightly hesitates to see if his touch made it worse for you. When he saw that you didn't mind it, he kept going.

Suna got on his knees and you can feel his arms around your body when he presses you against his chest. His hand slowly rubs circles around your back and you can hear his heartbeat, slow and steady, a sound you tried to focus on, while you were suppressing your tears.

He saw you in this state. You could never make this undone. He would leave you.

“Breathe, y/n. Just breathe. You're doing good.”

Suna's voice was comforting. His calm voice seemed to remove the weight on you, and you could slowly try to steady your breath.

He was there for you, patiently waiting for your heartbeat to slow down.

“You're doing so well. Just keep on going. I promise you'll be better soon.”

His words slowly managed to calm you down. It didn't took long until you could finally look at his face.

He didn't look disgusted, he only seemed relieved to see that you were better.

“Rintarou- I'm so sorry”, your voice was quiet and you look to the ground.

Suna's hand comes to your chin and forces you to look at his face. His intense gaze seemed to analyze every single feature of your face, like he wanted to remember it forever. He quickly presses a kiss to your lips before he says the words you needed to hear the most.

“Don't apologize. You don't have to explain anything. I'm here for you no matter what.”

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