#i'm very glad to have found passion for art again

[pixlpawz]

you deserve to love yourself🤍

[lit3rallyll0yd]

Hey I just wanted to say I love your writing so much it's just 😼😍 if Ykyk and feel free to ignore this request but if you want to could you do ninjago character is basically a rich aunt and grew up with the ninja go character (plus harumi up to you) sorry if I'm not that detailed

have a good day 😼🐮

ninjago x reader: them with a reader who is their rich aunt. ft. ninjas<3 (≧ᗜ≦)

characters: lloyd, kai & nya, jay, cole, and zane

synopsis: basically the reader is the ninjas rich aunts, who they haven't seen in a while.

a/n: tbh i was struggling to understand this request, nothing against you anon, im just bad at reading n understanding, lol. so we ended up with this idea<3

i would add harumi, however my poor fingers hurt so much😞

short, headcanon format, female reader

artist cr: min-play

☆ LLOYD.

. you are misako's sister. she knew the second lloyd was born you were going to spoil this kid like crazy.

. before he was even born you already bought him things. new sets of clothing, baby toys, even some baby food you might know if he'll even like.

. when lloyd was born you swore to protect him no matter what. that was until you found out from your sister he was the green ninja?

. the kid is now at least 11 and his own mother enrolls him in the Darkly School for Bad Boys?

. she told you she left him for a good reason, and it will all make sense in the future.

. you decided to take her word for it, and years passed. you haven't seen your sister nor your nephew since.

. large timeskip, lloyd has aged, he has found his true family in the ninja. sure he reconnected with his mother but he still doesnt trust her much...until he heard her side of this whole story.

. lloyd and her have gotten closer once more, and misako decided to bring you up.

. lloyd had no idea how to react. he barely remembers you, however you remember him. he kinda feels guilty.

. you squish his cheeks together when finally seeing him again, "Oh, look at you!! you've grown up so much~ i remember when you were just a little babyyy! i can see where you got the looks from~"

. it takes a while, just like how lloyd was with his mother, but he glad to have met you once again.

. he asks you both about his father, and you have alot to say about that man.

. even at his age, you still spoil him much to his mothers liking. but who listens to their siblings anyways?

☆ KAI & NYA

. you were ray's sister, and maya loved you. she the first to tell you she was pregnant with the two, and you. went. bananas.

. when both kai and nya were born, you fell in love with them immediately.

. while they were kids you would come visit them, kai was extra excited for your visits because you always had a present for the two.

. ray and Maya just enjoyed your company, although nya was really shy around you first.

. she was a mama's baby, qnd loved to be in her mother's arms so everytime you come over she's in her mama's arms, hiding her face in her chest.

. the more you visit, the more she starts to trust you. ray and maya were surprised when nya started to cry when you had to go home one evening

. seeing them again after many years was very emotional for you, not them, though.

. "im sorry, who are you?" kai asked, seeing a random lady hug his little sister.

. "silly, im your auntie. your father's sister, to be specific, i never did really like labels!"

. "our...huh?"

. it's mostly like the relationship misako and lloyd have, but just you and the smith siblings.

. nya tries to be as kind as possible toward you, kai of course as well, however you and nya seem to have more of a bond.

☆ COLE

. your lou's sister. you never had a passion for singing like your brother, but you were pretty successful in the arts department.

. you were a pretty famous artist, almost everyone in ninjago knows your name.

. your art is seen from lou's dining room, to the ninjagos art museum.

. lou was the one who told you lily, his wife was pregnant. you asked many questions, but the big question was the gender.

. when finding out, because lily wanted to know the gender before birth, you started buying anything "baby boy" related.

. blue. that's what you first think of when a baby boy is coming, right?

. timeskip, yahoo, cole is born and sadly you've had to move away for a business emergency.

. you had a feeling cole wouldn't remember who you were, he was only just born when you had to move.

. before his mothers passing, lily tried to best to keep memory of you around the house, hopefully so little cole could remember some fragments of you.

. he..he didn't, lmao.

. you visit lou one day, and surprisingly, his son, cole, who is now a teenager, also seems to be visiting his father with you, who assumed his friends.

. you pinch his cheeks after hugging him and kissing him all over. cole was beyond uncomfortable and confused.

. "y/n, please, take it easy-"

. "you try not seeing your nephew for years and suddenly seeing him randomly out of no where, lou!"

. "...i...i did, however in this case he is my son."

. you, lou, and cole have had some time to discuss about who you are and coles eyes lit up.

. "you were my mother's best friend? could you maybe, tell me more about her?"

. you smiled, "let's start off with, your mother was the kindest and sweetest soul in the world."

☆ JAY

. let's make this simple. your edna's long time best friend. so you pretty much the same age as her.

. obviously ed and edna are jay's adopted parents, you found out by visiting the junkyard one day and seeing...baby...in Edna's arms.

. she was feeding him a bottle. he was so small, he hits perfectly in your sister's arms.

. "now i may be old, but i ain't stupid, sista'. why didn't you tell me you adopted?"

. edna laughed, "oh dear, no, this little one showed up on our doorstep last night. we couldn't just leave the poor thing there, we had to take him in. and we don't have the guts to let him go just yet so...ed is figuring out the adoption papers..."

. ever since that day, you have been coming around more often to help the elders take care of jay.

. jay was homeschooled, of course when he was old enough; ed taught him the abc's and 123's.

. you would help of course. you would spoil this boy to your full extent.

. he wanted this toy? it's his. wants mcdonalds? one happy meal please. is upset? two tickets to the mega monster amusement park!

. of course, you had a life of your own. you've barely had time to see ed, edna and jay anymore because of your work.

. so one day, ed and edna mailed you a letter, saying they will visit iay and invited you to come. maybe jay will remember you?

. timeskip to them pulling up to the bounty and jay's confused face.

. "ma, who is that?" jay asked looking at you with a confused look.

. yall had the talk about who you are and jay felt terrible for not remembering you. he always assumed his "dad" was taking him to all the amusement parks.

. he tried to catch up with you, wanting to know more of your life and your work placement.

. little does he know, ed and edna have been telling you mall the embarrassing stories he's gone through as a kid; your favorite being his kissing pillow?

. didn't you buy him that pillow?

☆ ZANE

. your dr. juliens younger sister.

. you were astonished at his latest "creation", zane. you were there when zane came fully online, and was "alive".

. he was almost like a human, he had human emotions of course he didn't know that yet. he was basically just born.

. upon hearing of your brothers death, you were deeply affected. you left ninjago for a little while, forgetting the world but never forgetting zane.

. you regret leaving him alone. but you weren't in the condition to be taking care if someone. you have to take care of yourself first.

. timeskip, years passed and you have received a letter from an old friend, inviting you to come back to ninjago and visit you.

. he mentioned zane, so you of course agreed.

. the address lead you to a monestary. you were a bit confused buy you knocked on the large doors.

. moments later, the doors open wide to revel a figure dressed in a white ninja gi, who looked back at you twice as confused as you.

. "good morning, stranger. what brings you to the monestary?" he asked and you felt your heart drop.

. "zane?"

. he tilt his head to the side, "yes...that is my name...how do you know my name?"

. other male voice cuts you off, "yo, zane- who's there?"

. eventually, your old friend who invited you here in the first place appeared beside zane and with a smile invited inside their home.

. insert the other three boys, jay, cole, and kai confused and asking each other questions while zane, master wu, and you spoke in a separate room.

. "so...your my father sister?"

. you smiled and nodded, "i never thought i would see you again!" you hugged the boy who froze at your touch, but politely hugged you back.

. you are family after all.

. you feel so bad for leaving zane all alone, possibly confused and lost until he found sensei wu and the other ninja, but that doesn't stol you from spoiling the heck out of the four boys.

. "but...y/n, i have already forgiven you. we do not need your-"

. jay covered zane's mouth, laughing sheepishly as kai spoke up, holding a bunch of video games you have given to them..

. "oh nono- please, we are more then happy to receive these gifts. your more then kind."

. cole nods in agreement.

. you smile and leave their gaming room, only to have master wu smack each of the boys, beside zane, on the heads

☆ i think i went a bit overbored 😭

[aet-tsu]

What do you mean I'm obsessed with Mammon 👁️👁️?

I have a passion to do a lot of doodles of the demons. I made a note where I wrote every demons I already drew. Anyway here's a post filler cause we enter a new arc. The "art block" episodes. Hope you are ready for me being absent for a while 😎 love on yall.

Post scriptum : Thank you deeply for all you support from my last post. I really appreciate it and I have no words to tell you how it helps me.

Sometimes it happens that an art you did really wasn't the one you expect to do. So I was very disappointed by the results.

I'm glad that from another perspective. People seemed to like and send me that much support. I don't usually talk knowing some will read. So I really mean you all were helpful. Thank you again for all your support. I'm glad I found in whb a community I feel good. I wish to keep going in those silly demons (and angels) drawings.

[yersang-dreams]

How would Gon and Killua react to finding out their girlfriend is being bullied, and she didn't tell them about it.

Some girls in my painting class are teasing and mocking me and my friends almost every day, and I need some comfort 😔

Awhh, I'm sorry, I really adore artists whether they are small or big. I would love to paint but I can't do it since I have very shaky hands and I'm clumsy (⁠•⁠ ⁠▽⁠ ⁠•⁠;⁠). I don't know if you wanted Poly or separate but I went with poly! I hope you will be fine with it! Anyhow! Here you go!

AU: None

Characters: Poly!Killua Zoldyck & Gon Freecss

OS/HCS/IMG: Head-Cannons

Genre: Fluff and Comfort!

You are an artist who loves to paint landscapes and maybe animals that represent your lovely boyfriends!

Unfortunately later on during your art classes, a group of girls started bullying you and saying mean things towards you

For example "Wow your art is so ugly! Like you!" and more, they would hit you or mess your art materials before class and walk away snickering

You wanted to tell Killua and Gon about the bullying but since they're both usually busy with training or missions cause they are Hunters, you didn't want to burden them

Although of course they notice your change in behavior later on, they would see you laying down in your shared bed instead of painting

They knew painting was your passion and your favorite thing to do even in the apartment

Killua was the first to notice that your art materials like paint, brushes, and the color palette? Messed up and some brushes went missing along with a few missing paints

As for Gon well— He's a little bit naïve that Killua has to point it out for him

And everyday you come back from art classes, you immediately go straight to your shared room while Killua and Gon saw you run

Killua immediately opted the idea of spying on you in your art classes to see why your behavior has changed and why your materials are going missing

...

Well- Killua is fuming and Gon is a little little mad— They now found out that you have been being bullied by those...blond ass girls who thinks their art are beautiful when it's ugly

That's their opinion not mine

When you finally finish with your classes, the girls come back again but this time they are planning to kick you down the floor but unfortunately for them your boyfriends were there to save the day!

They immediately rushed to you before the girls could do anything to you, Killua glared at them while Gon hugged you. A rather very tight hug.

Killua told them off to the art professor and the principal by using his name as the Zoldycks, while you cried at Gon's chest

You were glad that you had them both, a fierce protector and a sweet boy who loves you very dearly

When the three of you came back home to your apartment, they immediately started cuddling you and whispering comforting words

"Your art is amazing [Name], don't let those girls stop you or let your artistic skills go down!"

"Gon is right, your art are indeed pretty, so if they ever try to do that again. I can grantee you that they are getting expelled."

In the end you three fell asleep cuddling, while Killua and Gon hugged you on both sides. You happily fell asleep with a small smile in your face

Such sweet and adorable bois<3

[megadoomingir]

Hello, I'm a big fan of Stop Me and I just wanted to tell you how much I love your story. I saw all of the drama with Seeking going on and I am so so sorry the spammer is being awful and stealing your ideas. Stop Me is the fic that got me into writing in the first place and I still often go back and re-read it. There are very few fics I revisit, but yet I keep finding myself going back to Stop Me because it's SO good. Thank you so much for writing it, it really is a huge inspiration!

You sent this back on Oct. 1, 2020. 8C I am so sorry it’s taken me this long to respond.

I’m shocked and honored that MY writing inspired YOU to write! Fan art, I could understand, but you write for yourself- Because I was writing for myself- That’s a high honor. It really is. I’m glad you’ve found a passion for writing and are creating your own stories, too. :3

As for the Seeking stuff… I’m hopeful that’s all over. I’ve kept my distance though and have no clue what’s going on concerning all that now. And I have no excess comments on it either.

I hope you have been well and I hope your writing has taken you on some fantastic journeys. As I come closer to the end of Stop Me, I hope it has retained that ‘Read Again’ quality you’ve found in it. :)

[choicesficwriterscreations]

January Creator of the Month: Jerzwriter

Each month, CFWC highlights one of our talented fanfic writers or artists, and this month’s creator of the month is CFWC's own @jerzwriter.  The writer is selected at random. More info can be found on the navigation page.

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Elsa

More below...

1- When did you start playing Choices? What was the first book you played? 

It was sometime in 2017, and the first book I ever played was The Royal Romance, Book 1.

2- When and why did you join Choices fandom?

I joined a couple Facebook groups in 2019. I just wanted to discuss stories with others who were interested, as no one in my real life reads Choices. I didn't even know I was entering a fandom. lol I started reading fanfic on Tumblr the following year, but I found Tumblr intimidating, so I was mostly a silent reader. I didn’t start writing and contributing until May 2021, mostly because Open Heart was ending and I was in denial. 🙂

3- How did you pick your blog name? 

It’s pretty boring, actually. I’m from NJ, and I write. I wanted it to be JerZwriter, so people would know it is Jer-ZEE-Writer, but that wasn’t doable, so it’s Jerzwriter, and most think it is Jerz-Writer. Oh, well!  

4- Pull up the first and last posts in your archive, and tell us about them!  

My first post was the first chapter of my Ethan x Casey x Tobias love triangle, Delaying the Inevitable (OH).  It was my very first fanfic and I really didn't think I'd write anything beyond that.  I was so green back then, not only to fanfic but to the fandom as well. I’m really glad that I was naive because I don’t think I would have had the courage to post it if I had, but I’m glad that I did. 

My last post was Falling for You, a little drabble I wrote for Tobias x Casey (OH), and it featured a commission by the talented artist @weetlebeetle. It was a light, fun piece that took place early in Tobias and Casey's relationship, and it shows Tobias at his absolute simpiest. Lol 

5- Do you write fanfiction, create fan art, or are you one of those really gifted people who do both? 

Oh, how I wish I could draw, but I can't.  So, I’m strictly a writer. I may try giving drawing a go again, but I don't expect much to come of it. lol

6- How long have you been creating for Choices and for any other fandoms?

Choices was the first fandom I ever wrote for, and I started in May of 2021.  So, just over two and a half years. I have written a little bit for some other fandoms since that time, but I primarily write for Choices.

7- What is your favorite Choices book, and what is your favorite Choices book to create for?

Tough question.  I write for Open Heart, Crimes of Passion, and Wake the Dead, and they are three of my favorite stories. I also loved Desire & Decorum, but I never wrote for it.  Though, I’m planning a re-read, and you never know. 🙂

8- Share your first Choices fanfic or fan art that you posted with us. Do you still like it, or would you change it if you were creating it today?

It was the first chapter of Delaying the Inevitable. I was so green when I started that series that I’m sure there are things I would change, but I’m still very proud of it.  That series will always have a special place in my heart.  I’d like to revisit it one day to “clean it up”, it could use some condensing. But I would never change the storyline.

9- What is your favorite piece of fiction or art that you created? 

This is such an unfair question. lol The Delaying the Inevitable Series definitely comes to mind, but I’m also very proud of my Eli Sipes prequel stories, A Mother’s Journal, Coming Up Blank, and The End of the World. But Tobias and Casey are my favorite pairing, and I simply love the world I created for them. And while my headcanon for them is my favorite, I cannot pick just one fic for them, and I'm not going to! lol But, I've also written a bunch of AUs for them, and Friends* is one of my favorites.

10- Do you have a fic/art that you didn’t expect to be well received, but it was? What about one you expected to do well but found it could use a little more love?

Yes, to both! The fandom is much smaller today, but back when we were more active, I learned you couldn't predict how a fic would be received.  There are too many to name, but I will say whenever my smut does well (and quite a few of them have), I’m always astounded. lol 

11-  If you could write only angst, fluff, or smut for the rest of your writing life, which would it be and why? 

This is such a difficult question because I believe the best stories incorporate a little of each, and, as a writer, exploring all three helps spur creativity. Also, my absolute favorite is angst with a happy ending, so there is definitely some fluff in there (and I'm never mad at a little smut being thrown in!) But if I were forced to choose, it would probably be angst.  I think that's where I am strongest, and I just love raw emotion. I think that’s where character development really occurs. I have not written as much angst recently, and I miss it.  Perhaps I need a change in 2024. 

12 - Do you ever recognize yourself in any of your MCs or in your writing?

There are definitely parts of me in my MCs and OCs, but I do my best to prevent them from becoming self-inserts.  I'm not as cool as any of them, that's for sure! lol That said, I do find inspiration for my fics in real life, so there is bound to be a little crossover. When using real-life inspiration, I try to change details so that the fiction is not a carbon copy of the real-life event. Normally, by the time I'm done, they're hardly recognizable.

13 - What element of writing/art do you struggle with most? Where do you feel you are strongest?

I struggle most with setting a scene. Dialogue is my strong suit, and that just flows for me. It flows so much that sometimes I forget to describe what's going on around the conversation. I think this is particularly easy to do in fanfiction because so much of the "world" has already been provided for us, so I recognize this more when I'm writing original works.

The other thing I struggle with? Brevity. I know I can go on, and on, and on. lol I've gotten much better at this, but there is still room for improvement.

14 - Do you have any neglected work you really want to finish?

(Elsa leaves the room, quietly crawls under her desk, and hides…) YES!!! Far, far too many, and no matter how much I share those posts that say, "You don't have to finish! If you're not feeling it, move on!" I don't believe it! lol I really want to make wrapping them up a priority in 2024.  But I also know writing - particularly good writing - cannot be forced.  So, it's a goal, but I'll only do it if I feel it’s right. 

15 - If someone you know in real life (who isn’t involved in fandoms) asked to see your work, would you let them? If yes, what would you show them first? 

It would depend on who asked.  I’m not ashamed of writing fanfic at all, but if I believed the person would be judgemental, I wouldn't be willing to share.  A few of my friends have read select pieces of my fanfic, and I’ve always received positive feedback from them. I wouldn’t be opposed to sharing more.  What I'd share would depend greatly on the person asking.

16 - Are there any writers (published authors and/or fanfic writers) who influenced your writing or art? Are there any artists that influence you?

There are many published writers that I admire, but I don’t think they've influenced my writing here. Within the fandom, there are many writers who have inspired me in different ways. There is no way I can ever name them all. But I'd like to give a shout-out to some.

@jamespotterthefirst and @bex-la-get were among the first writers I read when I joined Tumblr. I found their passion for both canon and the worlds they created inspiring, especially as Open Heart was nearing its end and all of us addicts needed our fill. Reading their works helped keep the story alive for me and so many others, and it inspired me to try my hand at it as well. To my shock, they were both so encouraging and supportive of me when I arrived, and I'm forever grateful. Back then, I thought they were rockstars - and they are! But now, they're also friends. I wasn't familiar with @alwaysmychoices from the start, but when I came across their work, I was just blown away.  Weekend with Dr. Ramsey will live rent-free in my head forever, and that headcanon about Charlie calling Ethan the night before she marries someone else. (I faint.) Ohhh, the delicious angst! The way she made me feel what Charlie felt was just mind-boggling, and it encouraged me to really dig into my character's emotions and bring them to life in a more meaningful way.

Early on, I read @utterlyinevitable, and the thing that impressed me the most was how Dom was willing to "write stories that “went "go there.”  They tackled issues that others wouldn't touch.  In their world, everything wasn’t perfect, including the characters themselves. I admired that vision and, frankly, bravery, and it definitely encouraged me to write what I wanted to and not what I felt was expected of me.

More recently, @mydemonsdrivealimo inspired me to explore parts of my MCs that I have not delved into in the past.  In particular, Casey's bisexuality. It can be challenging to represent a bisexual character when they are in a straight-presenting relationship, and you risk alienating readers no matter what you do (looking at all readers here.) So it becomes easier to be lazy and ignore it. But that's a disservice to the character as much as it's a disservice to people living similar situations in real life... like I have many times. Through MJ's writing and our conversations, they've helped me become more aware and do a better job in this regard, and I'm not even sure if they know this - it may totally be news to them lol - but I'm eternally grateful. Now, I feel my girl Casey is free, and OMG, how I love our characters playing together in HC now!

Then there are @lilyoffandoms and @storyofmychoices, who bring joy to all that they touch. Who knew when Lily created a little drabble putting our characters in a new world together, it would end up being one of the brightest fandom spots of 2023? Who knew that so much more would stem from that one work? Seriously, it's been one of the highlights of my fandom experience this year, and it's helped me to find inspiration at times when I felt like it was lost. Thank you both - I am so lucky to have you both here!

There are so many more I could mention, but I'd still forget people and feel horrible, so I want to take the chance to thank every writer in the fandom for sharing their gifts with us. Each of you is an inspiration in your own way; each of you can give someone an idea, and you have no idea where that spark will lead. So, never stop sharing!

17-  Which one of your stories would you most like to see as a movie/series? 

Delaying the Inevitable, Friends*, All in the Past, and the WIP What’s Forever For. I also think some of my Ethan x Tobias works would have made for a good sitcom, and how I wish my Tobias x Casey friendship with Bryce x Jensen would be an epic sitcom. The world needs it! lol   (Jensen belongs to @mydemonsdrivealimo.)

19- Do you write original fiction or create non-fandom art? 

I do. Mostly shorter stories that will never see the light of day, but also some more substantive works... which will also never see the light of day! lol I wrote a novel-length political thriller some time ago. It would need a ton of work to bring it up to 2024, as the political landscape has changed so much. I also have two original WIPs I've been writing. One is an angsty story about a friendship that's loosely based on a childhood friend I lost to cancer a few years ago.  The other is a polyamorous romance about two best friends who fall for the same person. It's really a beautiful, emotional story. If I like the end result, maybe I'll let it see the light of day... maybe. lol

20-  What other hobbies do you have?

I enjoy theater, and I'm lucky enough to live in the best part of the world to partake in that.  I go to a lot of Broadway, Off-Broadway, and local theater productions. I also love going to concerts - they’re like group therapy! Trust me, I got more out of seeing Noah Kahan and Hozier in 2023 than I did from the entirety of sessions with my therapist - and I loved my therapist. lol

Prior to 2020, I did a fair amount of traveling, and I hope to start doing a little more this year.  But I have to admit, since the lockdown, I’ve become more of a homebody, and I like it, so we’ll see how that goes! 

I used to be very involved with activism and advocacy for women’s, lgbtq+, and mental health issues. I still am, but in a different capacity than I was in the past. These issues require people fighting for them, and doing so has always been a huge part of who I am, but it can be draining, and burnout is real. I really reached the end of my rope. So, nowadays, I work as a volunteer for a couple local organizations that really mean a lot to me. I'm not involved in grassroots efforts or taking trips to talk to legislators as often, but I'm helping people on a smaller scale, and that still goes a long, long way.

22: BONUS - tell us anything you’d like (if you want to).

As most of you know, I’m one of the mods here at CFWC, so it was a little weird when my the wheel landed on my name.  But, honestly, it’s happened before, and I've just spun again, even though I am eligible. But this time around, I decided to do it. This fandom really means a lot to me, and I wanted to share a little more about myself and my crazy pixelated people.

I'm truly grateful to everyone in the fandom who does their part to make this a place that many, like me, still see as a place they want to be. We're smaller, it's imperfect, it has plenty of problems, but I am choosing to focus on the good... because there is much more of that than there is bad. So, thank you to each of you... and I hope we all have a wonderful 2024! xo

PS... My header... I know Tobias wasn't technically an LI... which was truly criminal. So, that's what fandom is for, fixing what canon effed up. lol My favorite canon LI is Trystan Thorne (COP). I tried adding their picture to the header alongside Tobias, but it looked terrible, so here I am. :)

Thanks for taking the time to read this, and I can't wait to highlight more of you in 2024! :)

[xoxoemynn]

Em!!

Hello lovely, I know I wrote you a lovely letter recently during your own love fest but I still wanted to pop in and say hi and spread some more love and give some hugs.

So, just to reiterate what I’ve said a million times before:

Thank you so much for sharing your work with us and for being so awesome and supportive. It’s so beautiful to have people like you in our fandom who do so much to help uplift others and stay positive. Honestly, idk how you do it sometimes, this world can be so nasty and whenever things kinda go sideways you’re always there with the just right thing to say to bring that little spark of hope back. For me at least.

Your post about the show yesterday really hit me hard bc I was feeling pretty low and it’s just nice to know that we have such passionate fans who are willing to stick around and keep this fandom running, even if we don’t get our show back.

Thank you again 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼 I hope you have a lovely rest of your sunday evening. 💜

Awwww lovely, this is so extremely kind of you to say. And I'm glad you found comfort in that post. Truthfully, I do still circle through all the stages of grief in losing OFMD. Some days are better than others. I know everyone handles it differently — some people go full clown, others prefer to accept that it's over for good. We've all got to do whatever is best for our mental health. For me, that does mean keeping a bit of hope alive. That spark, no matter how faint it may be at times, is what keeps me going. I lose hope, I'm just straight into the abyss.

But hope doesn't just happen. You do have to nurture it. I've gotten much more protective of my fandom space since the cancellation. We live in a reality where it's very likely we will never get more canonical content for this show. Fandom is the only guarantee we have left, and even that will only last so long as we tend to it with love.

Because of that, it's just not fun to me to be a hater, or to spend time dwelling on the parts of the show/fandom that I dislike or wish would be different. It's just not interesting to me and, frankly, I think nearly every round of discourse we get is just a weak rehash of discourse we've been through a dozen times already and that's very boring to me. So I just don't engage. I block and filter liberally. If shit starts getting to me, I log off and come back when I'm ready.

I prefer to spend my time celebrating all the art and fic and meta that comes out of this fandom, or sharing fun head canons, or laughing at shitposts. And I have very selfish reasons for doing that because usually that inspires people to do MORE of it, so I get to enjoy it even MORE, even when I'm busy or emotionally drained and can't offer much myself.

It's a common phrase that you get out of fandom what you put into it, and I do think that's true, but I also think it's only half of the equation. I think you also get out of fandom what you take out of it. And so that's why I spend my time in places and with people that spark joy and creativity and love, because that fuels my own, and that's what keeps my spark of hope burning. That's what encourages me to continue sharing my love for the show and all the fans, because I see it in so many others. And if anybody or anything gets in the way of that? Fuck'em. They serve no purpose to me and are in fact counterproductive to the reason I'm in this fandom at all. Fare thee well.

And so when I see you going around spreading kindness, and dropping these really thoughtful notes in people's inboxes, and reaching out to people who are struggling, and leaving really sweet replies on posts and the BEST comments on fics? That's IT. That's what fandom is. That's the whole heart of it. That's what gives me hope. That's what keeps me going. That's what keeps me out of the abyss.

So thank YOU for all that you do, thank you for showing your love for the show, thank you for showing your love to the fans. That's why we're still here. And that's the only way we'll continue to be here years upon years after the Revenge sets sail for the final time. 💕

[c6760h10447n1743o2010s32]

I know that our mediums are different, yours being painting and mine writing, but I've had the same feeling before - thinking that others are so far ahead of you in one way or another.

Something that I found helpful is creating for the sake of creating, to enjoy the process and to do it for ourselves. If we post for the sake of getting notes on our works, then it's far too easy for us to never feel satisfied. We might always have that "I can be better" mentality, which in the context of art has the possibility of being fairly toxic.

At the end of the day, your works are yours and yours alone. Your thought process, your choice of colors, stories you choose, your style: it is what makes you stand apart from others. Art is a very personal relationship between the artist and the canvas, and although it's easy to compare yourself to others, your canvas paints a story that others cannot mimic.

I feel very passionate about things like this, so sorry if that was too long. I hope you have a lovely day/night. 💜💜

Thanks for your message.

You are one of my emotional supporters.

I know that the most important thing is to enjoy the creation itself, but I can't help comparing myself to others.

Why can't I be like them?

I keep painting because I want to meet someone's expectations, and I keep trying so hard that if they don't even look at my work, it's the end of me, and then I fall into self-loathing and decide never to paint again, and then time passes and I start painting again.

Not a good thought.

But I'm saved by the people who send me messages like this.

It's the only thing that keeps me going.

If I hadn't started tumblr, I would have gone under.

I'm glad there are people like you out there.

Sorry for spewing out some not-so-good thoughts.

But maybe I can't create just for myself

If only someone saw it, if only someone told me they liked it, if only someone told me they liked it

I'll keep drawing for them

I can't work hard just for myself

It's only because of people like you I thank you from the bottom of my heart

Have a good day.

[the-other-art-blog]

Benophie wish list: Benedict and Anthony (PART 2: The Academy fiasco)

If you haven't read Part 1: Benophie wish list: Benedict and Anthony (PART 1)

This is such a complex plot, and I find myself going back and forth, like this:

I feel for Benedict because he really wanted to get into the Academy on his own merit. He wanted it to be HIS thing. And he was so happy, high as a kite, but genuinely happy.

I get Anthony was trying to help. I do. This was a pre-Kate Anthony, emotionally detached, traumatized, and closed off. He thought he was doing the right thing by ensuring his brother's happiness. I imagine him fist-pumping secretly when he heard the news and saw how excited Ben was. Can you imagine if he heard Benedict screaming at night? More to his credit, he never flaunted his donation to anyone, he was happy knowing Benedict got what he wanted.

However, Anthony helped Benedict secretly while he mocked him publicly. Calling Ben's sketches "doodling" and "pretty pictures" demeans his work. There's also this scene:

From Benedict's pov, his brother does not appreciate nor care for his passion and talent.

This may have been normal sibling teasing, except that Anthony's personality and attitude didn't make the jokes land as such. When Ben teases, everyone knows he's being silly, he's not trying to hurt anyone. Anthony only sounds mean.

HOWEVER, I can see how frustrating it must be for Anthony to see Ben wasting his life. He's 26 YEARS OLD, acting like a 20yo. Anthony only sees Ben drinking and getting high in s2, which is why he is shocked when Ben recites the "What is it to admire a woman?" poem. This is the first time Anthony realizes the level of talent Ben has. At that moment, he understood, Ben is not a pretender, he genuinely believes poetry is truth. When Ant says "you should apply yourself more," he means it. Anthony is desperate to see his brother find a purpose and grow up.

The problem, again, is that this is the only time he showed admiration for Ben, and he exploited it. So, when he tries to convince Ben to stay at the academy, Ben doesn't believe him. Why would he? He paid his way in because his "pretty pictures" were not enough.

Then again, Anthony found him smoking and drinking at the Academy. How frustrating for him to see that Ben is not taking this chance seriously.

I also believe Ben was sabotaging himself. Anthony gave him the easy way out before he needed to prove himself and commit (Ben's commitment issues are not only about a romantic partner). Ben is using Anthony as a scapegoat in a sense, someone to blame for his failure.

Of course we did not see any resolution to this in s3, as expected. This is something that needs to be address during Benedict's season. I am so glad the writers understood that we needed a season where Benedict stayed as far away from art as possible. I didn't want to see him holding a pencil, not even seeing a painting.

Instead, we saw him helping Anthony.

Maybe this post is all over the place, but so are siblings' relationships.

Of course, Ben helps Anthony. Not only is it his responsibility as the spare to step in during A's absence, but they're brothers. He can't really escape that relationship, especially in a structure like Regency aristocratic society. So, he does the job (very well according to Anthony), fills his time with work, and pushes painting aside.

I think s3!Benedict was trying his best not to think about art and pretend he was fine without it. Meanwhile, Anthony was enjoying his honeymoon period and perhaps he was relieved that Ben seemed fine. I don't think either of them has forgotten the s2 finale though, but they're trying to delay a confrontation and a spill of feelings (men!).

I'm confident s4 will address the matter. I'm not sure how much of Anthony we'll see but I'm sure by the end of the season, the Academy fiasco will be addressed and Ben will be a successful, confident artist thanks to Sophie.

I'm not done with Benedict and Anthony. I need to talk about my hope for Anthony's involvement in Benophie and the ghost of Sienna.

If you haven't read Part 1: Benophie wish list: Benedict and Anthony (PART 1)

[allastoredeer]

I didn't realize we could just drop in and say "hello"! Hello! I just wanna say that I legit haven't been so deep in any kind of fandom since the Harry Potter days and I'm SO GLAD that I came across "Just Kiss Already" a couple of weeks ago. It's been like a domino effect ever since. Firstly, I watched the show and was like "Okay that was really good but I need more! I wonder if people still write fanfiction?" I went my my old stomping grounds, fanfiction.net, but there was only like 1K HH stories there. Clearly there's another place. Thankfully I discovered AO3 and omg.. the OPTIONS it had! So I found your story, LOVED it, then found your tumblr, looked though it and found all the awesome fanart, made my own tumblr and now I'm drawing fanart again for like the first time in almost 20 years! I just wanted to let you know that you are such an AMAZING writer and I feel like I'm fortunate to have discovered your work as early as I did. The show alone, I might have lost interest already but because of fantastic people like you, you've made me so much more interested in the characters, their personalities and their possible stories.

It's going to be a painfully long wait for season 2 you make the wait more bearable. Please don't stop writing. You have an astonishing understanding of the characters and I check every day for new updates! Thank you!

HI! Hahah, I love it when people pop in to say hello, so feel free to do so whenever!

Ah, when that hyperfixation sets in deep and won't let you go. Oh man, I feel you. When you mentioned fanfiction.net you sent me ZOOMING into the past when that was my old stomping ground too XD I've since moved to AO3 and despite still having fics on FF.net I hardly go there anymore. So, welcome!! AO3 is a goldmine of fics, so I hope you're eating your fill!

AhhhhhhhhH! ♥‿♥ It's so awesome to see people getting creative and writing their own fics & making their own fan-art! TBH it's been a while since I've been in a fandom THIS active (actually, I don't think I've EVER been in a fandom this active), so interacting with so many awesome people with shared interests is just hhhhhhhhhh it's been amazing.

And thank you so much (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) I absolutely LOVE writing. It is a passion of mine. Storytelling and character analysis brings me so much joy, and to hear that it brings other people just as much joy makes me just

I love sharing stuff with you guys 🥺 and I love that you love it in turn. It's a cycle of love and appreciation and it's beautiful. I have a lot of Hazbin thoughts and prompts squirreled away, not just for my RadioApple series ;) and I'm very excited to get into them!

Thank you so much for dropping by to say hi! 😍

[mara-ganger]

Hey! I recently found your channel with the weird art mixed media vid and the recent nekojiru one. Its honestly a breath of fresh air seeing hour long videos that are more than just surface level discussions that could've been a 20-30 minute vid. That being said your most recent Nekojiru vid re-sparked a creative desire that's been clouded for months and im slowly getting back into it. Im curently juggling two video scripts, both on things I'm very into and passionate about wanting to talk about. Though I'm a little nervous that I'm gonna do what i always do and either burn myself out or half way through, realize its shit or just flat out not finish it. Again ive always wanted to make vids talking about shit i like but its putting my thoughts into writing and getting through that hurdle that i struggle with the most.

I just wanted to ask how you go about writing scripts for your vids and if there's anything you do to push yourself to, at the very least, getting the writing portion done since that's the area i have the most trouble in. Or just in general managing to translate your brain soup words into something coherent

Sorry for the majorly long ass ask, hope your having a good day :D

glad my stuff resonated with you so i'm extra sorry ahead of time, but you prolly picked the worst person to ask this lmao. there's no real secret to the method or anything, i tend to just hit my head against the desk day in day out and write with the hopes that what i got in the end isn't shit. typically stuff takes me a few months on average but the two vids you mentioned took me six and five months respectively, tho that's counting editing and recording and all that shit. when it comes to getting words out on paper, it's kind of an uphill battle for me and p. much every creator out there, it's just a matter of being bullheaded enough to stick with it and making sure you see it through all the way. i think a lot of people tend to be very particularly about their writing methods but for me it's just stream of consciousness, emotion-based more so than anything factually logical. sorry again for not being able to offer like meaningful advice but you've got this, i'm sure

[writing-with-sophia]

Hello dear,

I recently found your page. Thank you so much for inspiring us! Glad I found ur account.

I thought of asking you....

I started to write 5 years ago. From last year may I started to put my work online.

Now, I feel like emotions arent flowing like they used to flow( I m experiencing burnout , seeking help as well)

Writing is only thing I have which helps me to understand and feel. I feel like I have to feel first to write about it.

Can you give me any advice how I can slowly get back to writing again. I started to feel like me and words now lives on parallel lines waiting for reunion.

I really want to share my work with lovely people, I dont care much about followers as long it reaches to right people who needs it. I want to explore human emotions to extent where we all shine through our scars.

Will wait for respone. Lots of love.

Take care.

First, thank you for your compliments. I'm glad to have met lovely followers like you too. I understand your situation very well right now because I have also gone through the same thing. Don't worry, this is an inevitable process in writing that I believe every writer or author has encountered at least once. In fact, there is no way I can help you, as each person is different. But, I can give you few ways I did.

Firstly, you can take a break and engage in activities that recharge you. This could include reading, spending time in nature, practicing self-care, or pursuing other hobbies that bring you joy. The more comfortable you are, the easier it will be to write. Don't put too much pressure on yourself, it will only make you more stuck.

Secondly, seek your inspiration by engage with different forms of art, such as reading books, watching movies, listening to music, or visiting exhibitions. You can also start a person journal where you can freely express your thoughts, emotions, experiences, and save new ideas.

You should start from small and set realistic writing goals for yourself. Instead of pressuring yourself to write a complete story or novel, focus on smaller writing exercises or prompts. Gradually increase the time and effort you dedicate to writing as you regain your rhythm.

Remember, the process of rediscovering your writing passion may take time. So be patient with yourself and allow yourself the space to heal and rejuvenate. Writing should be a joyful and fulfilling experience, so focus on reconnecting with your own emotions and finding your unique voice.

[nicosraf]

Hi! I unearthed this long forgotten Tumblr account to be able to gush to you about your writing. There's no need to respond but shouting this into the void of my twitter followers isn't scratching the itch.

When I read Angels Before Man (and subsequently A&M) I was so taken aback. I instantly felt like I was reading the work of a once in a lifetime author. Your writing is so incredible i'm having a hard time putting my emotions and thoughts into words. My messages to my friend (who I was buddy reading with) consisted of a lot of "I can't believe this" and "he's toooo good he's way too good who writes like this". Along with a few "I'm unwell, I'm so unwell"s in there. It feels like lame praise in the face of the masterpieces you have written. There were multiple points (every single chapter) where I was just so in awe and shock that someone could write such beautiful descriptive emotionally provocative scenes, inner monologue etc.

I really feel like it'll be years, decades, forever before i find another author who's work is so touching and laced with love and passion and true genius. You wove such a rich, beautiful tapestry with your words that I was instantly inspired to create.

While reading i had to put the book down for hours at the beginning of part 2 (a&m) because I got the most intense urge to draw the vision you created of lucifer being presented in his throne room for the first time. The details, mannerisms (my heart aching to be reunited w. my darling luci). There were many a scene I tagged to draw but this is the first time I've ever put down a book I didn't want to stop reading just to be able to sketch something. It's been years since I've encountered any kind of media that made me feel so inspired to create. Ideas were just bursting in my mind, coming to life so strongly through the poetry of your novels i can't think of anything but mortalizing them in an art piece.

Your writing style, your character building, your world building, it's all just so incredible and profound and I will be bothering all of my irls with how much I am going to be gushing about these books.

I could wax poetic about all of it for paragraphs and paragraphs but will stop myself to THANK YOU for putting your creation out into the world for us to be able to enjoy. It has touched my soul in such a powerful way and I so look forward to inhaling everything you choose to create and share in the future.

With the warmest, kindest, most heartfelt regards, Audrey :)

Ahh thank you so so much! I'm so happy you liked ABM and A&M! That genuinely means the world to me.. I wish I could bottle some of how grateful and happy this makes me to give it to you. Please tell your irls that I'm very sorry in advance for whatever these books are. But, really, thank you. I'm glad you enjoy my writing and the characters and, most importantly, that you found it touching. That's all i could ask for.

Also I'm so happy you liked that scene of Lucifer at his throne! It's one of my favorite scenes in the series :')

Thank you again! This means the world to me. Thank you for liking the angels!

[sluiba]

back when skyrim was a new game and i was on my first playthrough, i recruited a follower named jenassa. she's a gruff dunmer mercenary who has a handful of odd lines about how she considers death her "art" where other games would have inserted personality. she is accessible early in the game, requires no quest, and above all, is dirt cheap to hire.

from our very first excursion outside whiterun, it was clear something was wrong with jenassa. i don't know what was going on there, if it was something specific to my installation or a coding issue with her character, but her ai and pathfinding were deeply dysfunctional. she kept getting lost, stuck, and sidetracked way more than any other follower i've had before or since. she kept forgetting to use the superior weapons i gave her. she insisted on wearing armor she wasn't trained to use. i'd give her an item for safekeeping, and an hour later, she no longer had it. she was useless in a fight, and even more unreliable in her secondary role as a walking storage container.

it would've made sense to replace jenassa with literally any other follower, but i kept her around. one man's jank is another man's flavor, and it was amusing to me to try to imagine how her behavior might be perceived in-world by other characters. as a personal little in-joke, i decided to think of her oddities not as lackluster coding, but as in-character traits. she'd simply been struck on the head a few times too many and wasn't all there anymore, i thought, cruelly.

something funny happens when you spend a lot of time with a character, especially in a game that's as flat as your average bethesda rpg. you learn to come up with your own entertainment. your mind starts to fill in the blanks.

when jenassa first began disappearing, i was only concerned for the loot i'd left with her. over time, that worry transferred over to jenassa herself. what's she up to this time? oh no. i hope she's okay. with how much time and effort i was investing in backtracking and searching for her, i started to feel like she was the hero who went where she pleased, and i her follower. i just couldn't think of a single rational reason why my dragonborn, the fated chosen one of immeasurable power, would ever choose to follow this confused and fragile woman to the ends of nirn.

if there was no rational reason for it, i thought, perhaps there was an irrational one. perhaps love. as jenassa herself likes to point out, it is a lonely thing, facing all the dangers of skyrim by yourself.

i proposed. jenassa forgot we were getting married mid ceremony. i had to run after her and hire her again as a merc to get her to come back to the temple with me.

the more time i spent with jenassa, the more i found myself thinking of her as a proud warrior who had paid a terrible price for the years she'd spent exercising her craft. or perhaps, judging by her gaunt face, her faculties had simply been eroded by the ravages of time. i didn't need to figure out the specifics to begin to view her not as comic relief or as a liability, but as a tragic figure. here was a woman who was still passionate about her work, but was either too demented or too proud to realize she was no longer the graceful and deadly assassin she had once been.

in the swamps and tundras of skyrim, violence is life. forgetting how to fight is as much of a death sentence as forgetting how to eat. jenassa's yearning for the thrill of combat and her refusal to accept living without it were her defining traits, made her feel unique and full of life. left to her own devices, they would also be the end of her.

there's a kind of sad beauty in that.

i decided i would humor--

no.

i would protect her. from dragons and mages and falmer too, yes, but above all, from the ugly truth. let her live a beautiful lie for as long as possible. good job taking care of those bandits, jenassa. i'm glad you were here to protect me. don't worry about the quest. let's just go home.

it's okay if you don't remember where that is. if you get lost, i'll come find you.

i'll always find you.

[authoraemoseley]

An Introduction

About A. Hello there! I'm Anna (now you know what the A. stands for). I'm a 30 something person that's previously self published two short stories and a novella. You can read more about them (and read 'em!) here. I'm currently finishing up the first book in my (darkish) YA fantasy series House of Moons (aka HoM).

I went back to school to get my Creative Writing degree and I'm finishing that up. While it's not the right choice for everyone, it's one of the best and kindest things I've done for myself.

When I'm not writing or studying, plotting how to build the best blanket/pillow fort (you are never too old to make a blanket/pillow fort), baking cookies or trying to master the art of bread. If I'm not doing those things, then I'm probably playing with some sort of animal, reading, or exploring the woods.

I'm very blessed to work in a bookstore. I absolutely love it. Not only do I get to help people get into reading again and introduce them to new authors, I get to work with amazing people who love books just as much as I do.

I'm hard of hearing (HoH) with my hearing aids and deaf without them. I'm learning ASL so that I can y'know, communicate. Also because it's fun and it makes me feel more connected to my culture. I love helping people learn about deaf/hohness so don't be afraid to ask me any questions!

"Ok, that's cool, but what do you write?"

Stuff. So. Much. Stuff. I'm a morbid soul, but I'm also a hopeful one. So I write darkly appealing stuff. I typically stick to fantasy, but toss in dark/horror elements.

My first short story "Roses for Cassandra" is about a stagehand that falls in love with a dancer. Victorian era vibes with a tinge of magic. There's a little darkness wedged in there too. I wrote it because I thought it was what people wanted to read, what I was supposed to write. While I don't think I would write it today, I'm glad I wrote it. It's brought happiness to a lot of people, and that's beautiful to me.

My Secrets of the Lion series (ongoing, currently on hold) is a historical fiction series (currently a short story and a novella), where I really chose to embrace the darkness. I also embraced my love of epistolary writing. Victorian era with secrets, letters, lions and shenanigans! I love my little Victorian era dorks. The novella, Of Secrets and Sound is the first time I wrote my disability into a story.

But my true love, the thing I am deeply passionate about is House of Moons. It's a YA fantasy series with dark elements in it, and the main character has the same sort of hearing loss I have. It's the book that I always wanted to read as a kid, (and as an adult), but I've never found a book with enough space for me. So I'm writing it. My biggest hope is that those who feel like outcasts will be able to find a bit of shelter in it.

"Cool! What is House of Moons about?"

Here, have a synopsis: Mark Featherguard should have it all. He's heir to the most powerful family of fire mages in the world and about to start high school at House of Moons, one of the most famous and prestigious magical schools in existance. To ice the proverbial cake, Mark and his best friend are going to be roommates.

Things would be going great if Mark wasn't plagued with nightmares of a world ending black phoenix. Or if his family wasn't one of the ones who lost their item of Close Power (which they were supposed to guard) years ago and now have to find it and claw their way back into their social standing in the magical community. Oh, and that roommate plan? That's not happening after all.

And then there's the problem of someone, or something, destroying magical schools around the world. Mark just wants to be able to change his hearing aid batteries and pass his classes in peace.

But it seems like the magical world, and his new found friends, might need him to do a little more than that...

TL;DR:

Anna

She/They

30 something because it's a good age to be!

I went back to school to get my degree in Creative Writing (minoring in business writing)...almost there!

I write a variety of fantasy stuff, often times tossing in horror elements

I like writing dark, but hopeful stuff (thus "an appealing darkness")

My main WIP is House of Moons: The Phoenix Mirror which is the first in an upper YA fantasy series.

Deaf/HoH #ownvoices writer because sharing is caring.

One of my back burner projects is a horror short story/screen play combo

Another back burner project is a horror short story collection

Another 'nother back burner project is a collection of short stories that go along with the HoM series.

So that's me! Welcome! As I like to say, my teeth are sharp, but I rarely bite. While I'm quite shy, I do love being tagged and asked things, so if you think something might tickle my fancy, or have a question of any sort, tag and ask away!

[omniblades-and-stars]

🍓 🥑 🥤🌻🍄

🍓 ⇢ how did you get into writing fanfiction?

I have talked about this a bit before. But I used to write little fanfiction stories when I was a young teenager, and then I just kind of did not do that at all for many, many years. I have also talked about the fact that I am bipolar quite openly. Last spring I hit one of the rare types of manic episodes that instead of making me angry at everything and everyone, or hiking my anxiety up like crazy, it seemed to unlock the old writing bug. This also coincided with me going through another Dragon Age obsession. And then I did nothing but write all day for months. At work? Writing. At home? Writing. Supposed to be sleeping? Writing. I've slowed down quite a bit, but I'm very glad that I found that old passion again!

🥑 ⇢ you accidentally killed somebody, which mutual(s) do you text for help?

I am texting @korblez for help. We're siblings from different timelines, why not also add partners in crime to that?

🥤 ⇢ recommend an author or fanfic you love

God so many of you are so fucking talented it's crazy.

Alright, go read Between a Rock and a Hard Place by my good friend @korblez. I went insane while reading it and you should too.

And then as for regular fiction, everyone stop what you're doing and read the Old Kingdom series by Garth Nix. Also read Children of Time by Adrian Tchaikovsky.

🌻 ⇢ tag someone you appreciate but don't talk to on a regular basis

Hmm, let's see @messydiabolical, I see you friend! We don't talk a lot, but I always enjoy when we do interact, and also I love your art!

🍄 ⇢ share a head canon for one of your favourite ships or pairings

I bet Thane just makes a very lovely tea for Shepard. Good at backrubs too.