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crawling back to you II leah williamson x reader
warnings: toxic, hidden relationship, jealousy, angst
summary: After hiding their relationship for years because Leah was still in the closet, they eventually broke up. Yet, they always found their way back into each others lives.
wc: 1,3k I based on this request
"it´s been two years, Leah. Why are you still referring to me as your best friend and roommate to your teammates? You didn´t even tell Keira about me?! She's your best friend!" I yelled at Leah, more out of frustration than anger. I'm so tired of hiding this relationship, of hiding myself behind the 'best friend´ label.
leah being in the cloest was never a problem for me - for us. But since rumours about her dating her male best friend were a thing it as hard to keep everything private. Growing up in milton keynes it was hard to be openly gay.
"Y/n you know its hard for me to tell everyone we are dating. We both know how they reacted after Keira came out to them. She still suffers from it and i dont wanna experience it please undertstand that." leah tries to explain her situation to me and i wish i could understand her the way i want to. But im too hurt.
"I should understand you? Have you ever tried to understand me? I can't do this anymore, Leah. You deserve someone who can handle this - but I can't. I'm sorry, Lee. It's for the best if we break up."
I say the words with tears in my eyes, my voice barely holding steady. It's a hard decision, but itt's one I have to make.
Being with Leah from the time I was 14 to now, at 17, has meant everything to me. I'm so grateful for the past three years, but I just can't do this anymore.
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"Y/N, I BOUGHT US TICKETS FOR THE NEXT GAME AT JOIE STADIUM!"
My girlfriend's excited voice echoes through our shared apartment. It's been seven months since I moved to Manchester and three months since we started living together.
"I'm already excited!" I shout back while checking who City's opponent is. Of course - it's Arsenal.
It feels strange to be thinking about football again, especially after breaking up with Leah almost a year ago. But maybe she's not even playing anymore.
Little did I know, she's been captaining the squad for the past year.
Our seats are incredible, giving us a perfect view of the pitch. As the teams walk out, my eyes immediately land on the captain's armband wrapped around Leah's arm. A strange sense of pride swells in my chest. Playing for the Gunners - leading them - had been her dream since she joined the club so many years ago. Seeing her live that dream now brings an unshakable smile to my face.
My thoughts are interrupted when my girlfriend starts chanting loudly, her passion for the game contagious. For a moment, I forget my ex is even on the pitch.
I never told Sarah about my past with a certain blonde Arsenal player.
I could feel Leah's eyes on me the entire game.
A part of me wanted to tease her, so every time she came over to take a corner, I laughed extra loud at whatever Sarah said or kissed her deeply-just to make a point.
I wanted her to see what it felt like to be in a relationship that didn't have to be hidden. To know how beautiful it is to be loved loudly and openly.
Later that evening, my phone buzzed.
leahwilliamson wants to send you a message. My heart started racing. My eyes widened as I read her message.
'Cute little show you put on earlier today.'
I had no idea how to respond to that, so I just sent back a few question marks. It didn't take long for her to reply.
'The way you laughed extra loud at whatever that girl said. The way you kissed her while checking to see if I was watching. I don't care, Y/N' . My blood starts to boil.
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"Y/N!!"
I snap out of my thoughts as my coworker calls my name. I hurry over to the counter, my eyes widening.
'Can you serve them? I need to make a quick call.'
I manage a nod, but then I notice here - Leah. Sitting in my cafe. With another girl.
I take a deep breath, forcing a polite smile. "Hey, what can I get for you?" I ask, keeping my tone professional.
Leah smirks. "ll have a matcha latte. And what about you, babe-?" She turns to the girl beside her. "A flat white, please. Thank you" the girl says with a warm smile.
I already don't like her.
"Give me one second"
I know exactly why Leah is here - to get under my skin. And it's working. But beneath the teasing, beneath the smug attitude, it just hurts.
Seeing her be so open, so affectionate with someone else. calling her pet names, touching her without hesitation - it stings in a way I can't ignore.
Whenever we were out together, she barely even said my name, let alone held my hand. Now, she's making sure I see how different things are.
Every time I glance at their table, Leah is already looking at me, eyes filled with something I can't quite place. But I do notice how touchy she is, how overly flirty she's being.
And it makes my blood boil. I text her 'now we are even'. Her eyes darkened as she read the message.
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The club was alive with loud music, the clink of glasses, and the smell of sweaty bodies. It was my best friend's 25th birthday, and we decided to celebrate it in our hometown, London. I was also hoping it would serve as a distraction from my recent breakup. After two years of dating Sarah, she ended things last weekend because I couldn't bring myself to tell her I loved her. It's not that I didn't care about her or that I wasn't in love, but things felt different. The only woman I will ever truly love is Leah. Forever.
Suddenly, someone bumped into me, spilling their drink all over my shirt. "Oh god, I'm sorry!" They said as I looked up, meeting their eyes. It was Leah. Who else could it be?
"I didn't know you were here" she said, sounding surprised.
"Yeah, it's Anna's birthday today, and I thought Id come back to London for the occasion" I replied. "What about you?"
Leah seemed taken aback by how easily I kept the conversation going. "Actually, we won the league today. It was the last game of the season against Aston Villa, and we won."
The conversation flowed naturally, and then, unexpectedly, she asked THE question.
"So, is your girlfriend here?" she asked.
"No,â⏠I said "we are not together anymore." "Oh, really? Im sorry to hear that. Funny enough, my girlfriend broke up with me two weeks ago" she replied, a look of surprise crossing her face. I was stunned, my eyes widening in disbelief. The tension between us shifted, and an unfamiliar but unmistakable feeling of missing her washed over me.
After that, we kept texting and even FaceTimed a few times. The vibe was strange but oddly familiar, as though we had never stopped talking, despite having broken up over 3.5 years ago. Nothing had really changed.
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"Happy one year, baby!" Leah greeted me with breakfast in bed and the most beautiful bouquet of red roses. I couldn't have been happier with her by my side.
Even though she had a game on our anniversary , it didn't make the day any less special. I cheered her on from the 'Friends and Family' section, proudly wearing her name on the back of my Arsenal jersey. When she scored the winning goal, she celebrated by making a special gesture just for me.
Right person, right time.
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the demon of your dreams
pairing: soft!dark incubus!andy barber x female reader
summary: you catch the attention of an incubus on the day before valentine's dayâand it turns out your fates are more intertwined than either of you expected.
warnings: 18+ content (minors dni!!!), true mates, dubcon/noncon (in this fic an incubus requires consent for certain things but it technically starts off as noncon), somnophilia, teratophilia/monsterfucking, smut, masturbation (m), fingering (f receiving), finger sucking, piv sex, unprotected sex, creampie, come play, cock warming, choking, breath play, biting/marking, thigh fucking, some overstimulation, dirty talk, praise kink, very brief degradation, pet names (sweet thing/sweet girl), aftercare, referenced marathon sex, happy ending
word count: 5.5k
a/n: thank you, Aspen, for letting me flail at you because i had SO many ideas for this particular character + prompt combination. what i love about Andy is that he can fit into a super fluffy or soft dark or super dark story very easily. (i mean, that's true of a lot of characters, but i feel like i usually lean one way or the other with most characters and with Andy, i'm never quite sure where i want to go.) anyway, this one might require a bit more suspension of disbelief than normal and sorry if the ending is a bit rushed, work was BRUTAL today đŤ thank you for playing my sweethearts game, i hope you enjoy this filthy little fic!! âĄâĄ
For an incubus like Andy Barber, Valentineâs Day was his favorite day of the year.
There was something particularly decadent about the yearning he sensed among lonely, single women on Valentineâs Day, and he always fed well in the days leading up to the actual holiday. Though the demon had to be careful not to feed too much on any one woman, he never failed to gorge himself on the offerings in the city.
But then he came across you in a coffee shop on the morning before Valentineâs Day, and he hadnât sensed yearning quite so exquisite as yours in all his many years walking the earth. Watching you from across the shop, he knew you would make an especially delectable meal, his eyes following you closely as he sipped on his Americano.Â
You hid your emotions well, Andy noticed, keeping them masked beneath a friendly exterior, a welcoming smile on your pretty face while you chatted with the barista making your drink. To all the world, you looked like anyone else with a charmingâif tiredâdisposition, but to the incubus, you were churning with all the emotions that made you a meal.Â
The demon could sense the sadness lurking beneath your smile from the moment youâd stepped into the establishment, and he could practically taste the desperate longing clinging to your soul like a drop of hot chocolate caught on the corner of your lip.Â
You wanted, more than anything, to be the object of someoneâs lust, to find someone you felt safe enough with that you could be turned into the lustful creature you yearned to be. You wanted someone to lick the chocolate from your lips and sate your desire.
And Andy Barber knew he was the demon for the job.Â
In generations past, Andy mightâve used his magic to slip into your dreams, seducing you with images of lust until he received the acquiescence he required to join with you and feed on your soul. But, as the incubusâs years had worn on, heâd found he enjoyed a more physical approach.
There was something so much more satisfying about touching a woman with his fingers, feeling the warmth of her body and breathing in the scent of her skin. He enjoyed the feeling of a womanâs soft curves beneath his palms, groping her and learning what made her gasp gently in her sleep.Â
Then, the demon would use her slumberous, disoriented mind and her aching, needy body against her to get what he neededâthat permission that allowed him to sink into her body and feed on her soul.Â
It was so much more satisfying, and so much more fun, too.Â
Of course, that didnât mean Andy didnât use his magic to get into your apartment. He unlocked your door with a wave of his fingers, closing and locking it behind him before he masked the footfalls of his shoes as he made his way to your bedroom.Â
There, he paused in the doorway and took a moment to look at you, appreciate you while you slept, completely unaware that there was a demon in your room.
A smile curled Andyâs mouth when he discovered that you were far from an elegant sleeper, your body sprawled across your bed beneath the blankets, one leg hiked up while the other curled around a pillow clutched close to your chest. Your face was buried in another pillow, your indelicate snores muffled by its softness.Â
And yetâŚyou were cute. Precious even.
Andy felt something fluttery deep in his chest, somewhere in the vicinity of his black heart. Instead of looking too closely at the feeling, he ignored the sensation, chalking it up to the excitement he felt knowing you were going to make for a particularly delicious meal. Â
The demon slunk into your room, clinging to the shadows as he moved around to the side of the bed where you lay and tried to gauge whether you were a light sleeper. You didnât stir when he deliberately stepped on a squeaky floorboard, so he decided to ease closer, his fingertips trailing up your body over the blankets piled on top of you.Â
When he pulled them carefully from your slumbering body, a little whimper slipped from your lips, a shiver wracking your shoulders as the cold licked against your skin. Andy quickly used his magic to warm up your room, making it a much more comfortable temperature for your nearly naked form.Â
He watched you settle, his eyes roving over the curves of your body. Hungrily, he took in the dip of your waist and the flare of your hips, the way your thin nightshirt had ridden up to tease a glimpse of your perfectly rounded ass. Your thighs were parted, and Andy could just glimpse a hint of your panties, hiding your pretty pussy from sight.
His cock hardened behind his zipper and he nearly groaned at the sinful way your body called to his. Even if the yearning in your soul hadnât been so enticing, Andy knew he wouldâve been drawn to you by the desire you inspired just by existing.Â
Once he was sure you were comfortable and had fallen back into a deep slumber, Andy finally allowed himself to touch you.Â
His fingers trailed gently over your arms, skimming along your skin before smoothing down your side to your hips and thighs. There, he resisted the urge to dip between your legs just yet, instead learning the curves of your calves and the delicate contours of your ankles.Â
All the while, Andy watched your face, monitoring your breathing to make sure you didnât stir again.Â
As he observed you, he noticed you relaxing even further, as if his touch soothed you. He felt another flutter in the proximity of his black heart, and, that time, he couldnât ignore the way it started beating slightly faster.Â
The organ often felt cold and dull in his chest, especially when he was in need of feeding, but it felt like it was coming to life in a way heâd never experienced before, not even after a satisfying meal. And it was all because of the way your body was instinctively relaxing into his touch.Â
The demon could almost pretend it was him specifically you were melting for, that even though you hadnât woken and hadnât seen his face, he was the only one whose touch could have that effect on your body.Â
Andy deliberately ignored the fact that, in all likelihood, you wouldâve been soothed by a gentle touch from any man who might share your bed, because that thought inspired a concerning level of rage in him. No, he refused to think of anyone else in your bed but him. You were his.
For the night, at least, he reminded himself, pushing his possessive thoughts to the back of his mind to analyze later. He had much more important things to attend to with your warm body, which would soon be willing, splayed out in front of him like the most tempting meal.Â
Finally, Andy allowed his fingers to slip beneath your nightshirt, tugging off your panties and nearly groaning when your hips raised instinctively to allow him to ease them down your thighs. He pulled them off and slipped them into his pocket, thinking nothing of the fact that heâd never taken a souvenir before.Â
He was too busy focusing on the feel of your body beneath his fingertips. His hand slipped eagerly between your thighs, and he was surprised to find your soft pussy was already drenched. It felt fated that your body would have such a reaction to him since Andyâs cock was straining painfully against his zipper, aching to sink inside your perfect cunt.
The demon cupped your pussy in his palm, a ferocious possessiveness tearing through his chest as he felt you drip into his hand. You were his. His. His.Â
His heart beat harder in his chest, the feeling of yearning in his own black soul so all-consuming, he didnât have the wherewithal to notice it was completely out of character.Â
After all, an incubus like Andy Barber didnât get attached to his meals. He didnât feel possessive or territorial over the women he fed on, like a wolf who might tear into anything that threatened to take his most precious lifeline away.Â
But the demon could feel himself falling willingly into an obsession with you that wouldnât be sated from just one night. He just didnât know it yet.
Acting on instinct more than his typical intention of easing a woman into what he had planned, Andy freed his cock from the confines of his pants, taking himself in his palm while the fingers of his other hand explored your wet, warm pussy.
You were so soft, so hot, and so responsive when Andy sank a finger into your tight hole, a breathy moan slipping from your mouth. The demon felt the newly-familiar beating of his heart in his chest, and he suddenly craved even more of your sounds of pleasure, he wanted them to fill his ears for all eternity.Â
Andy stroked his cock dispassionately, needing to take some of the edge off his arousal, but he made sure to squeeze the base tightly to ensure he didnât cum too soon. All the while, he teased your body open with his deft fingers, preparing you to take his thick length.
When he slipped a second finger into your pussy and saw how easily you took him, he had to bite back a groan. His cock was leaking precum all over his fingers, as if it knew there was a warm hole to push inside and was begging Andy to finally put himself out of his misery by sinking into your sweet, pliant body.
The demon had to force himself to make sure you were ready, Andy carefully pushing a third finger into your pussy, and letting out a restrained growl at the sight of you taking three of his fingers.Â
His mouth filled with drool as he watched you take him, the sudden desire to feast on your pussy nearly overwhelming him. He wanted to make you cum on his tongue and mouth for being such a good girl and taking everything he gave you.Â
But he told himself that could come laterâafter he got the answer he needed to give you everything you deserved.
To tide himself over, Andy eased his fingers from your pussy and licked your juices from where they dripped down his hand, savoring the sweet taste of your arousal. You tasted so fucking good, better than anything Andy had ever tasted in his long, long life.Â
His groan was so loud in the quiet room that he nearly missed the little whimper of need you let out, your hips shifting like your body was seeking the intrusion that had been filling your tight hole. The sound reached Andyâs ears and his cock jumped in his hand, the amount of blood rushing to his dick nearly making him light-headed.
FinallyâfinallyâAndy joined you in your bed, gently shifting your body into the center of the mattress so he could fit behind you. Your nightshirt was rucked up around our waist, and his cock slipped between your thighs like it was sliding home. The stiff length rubbed against your dripping slit while he pressed flush to your back, his arms gently curling around your body and pulling you into his chest.
A soft, sleepy moan spilled from your mouth and Andy wanted so badly to kiss the sound from your lips, to drink it down and feel it fill his lungs.Â
Soon, he told himself. Soon he could kiss the moans from your lips and devour your mouth and ravage every inch of your body until you were well and truly his. But first he needed to get your acquiescence, and he needed to be careful with you until he got it.Â
Youâd already been laying mostly on your belly, and Andy shifted, covering your body with his own, rocking his hips gently to fuck your soft thighs. His cock dragged against your leaking slit with every smooth thrust, coating himself in your desire and making his heart beat furiously in his chest with the need to push inside your cunt, to claim you, to feed on you until he was more sated than heâd ever felt in his life.
Andy could sense the yearning in your soul deepening as your desire ratcheted up, even while you slept. Your swirling emotions thickened in the air around the bed until the demon felt nearly drunk on you.Â
Your yearning, your soulâyou yourselfâwere headier than anything Andy had ever experienced and it took all his self-control not to lose himself and rut you like the beast he was.Â
First, he needed your permission. An incubus could only fuck and feed on a willing woman, and Andy needed you to be willing more than heâd needed anything else in his entire life.Â
âGive yourself to me, sweet thing,â Andy murmured in your ear, the words coming easily after so many eons as an incubusâthough the pet name was new. âLet me sink inside your divine cunt and let me drink on the longing in your heart. Let me feed on the lust in your soul and Iâll reward you with pleasure beyond your imagination.â
The demon could feel you stir beneath him, and his heart thudded painfully in his chest with a desperation he couldnât remember ever feeling before. But it only pushed him to rock his hips faster, to grip your hip possessively while he fucked between your thighs, dragging the fat length of his cock against every inch of your dripping pussy.
Because of the rules of his kind, Andy needed your permission before he could push inside your body, but he could use every trick at his disposal to tempt you into giving him your acquiescence. An incubus wasnât above using magic or trickery and though Andy preferred to seduce you with just his touch and his words, he would resort to magic if he needed to.Â
But something told him he wouldnât need to with you. Something told Andy that you were his, and he just needed to ask you sweet enough and youâd grant him the privilege of owning your body and soul for the rest of your natural life.
âPlease, my sweet girl,â he rumbled in your ear, letting you hear how badly he wanted you, needed you. âSay yes.â
Thankfully for the demon, you hadnât roused enough for your mind to wonder why there was a strange man in your bed begging to fuck you. It was clear from your soft, sleepy whimpers that you were still asleep enough to think it was simply a very real-feeling dream.Â
Your hand reached back clumsily, your fingers curling around the back of Andyâs neck, using your hold to arch your spine and push your ass deeper into the demonâs lap. A keening sound spilled from your lips, your pussy gushing around the thick cock wedged between your thighs, and you finally gave your answer on a drowsy moan.
âYes.âÂ
The word falling from your lips tipped you over the line from sleeping to waking, and you finally realized that what you were feeling wasnât a dream. It was really happening. There was a man in your bed and, for some reason, youâd given him permission to be there.Â
Andy could feel the change in your body, the way your body tensed in fear and confusion. It was natural, of course, and the demon had expected it. But what surprised him were the intricacies of your reactionâthe way you still instinctively pulled him closer, your nails digging into the back of his neck, your legs squeezing together and trapping his cock against your pussy with your plush thighs.Â
You wanted him, Andy was sure of it, even if your mind was struggling to come to the same conclusion your body had already reached. Oddly, Andy found himself wanting to soothe you, his hand skimming down your side like he was attempting to calm a wild animal.
âShh, sweet thing, itâs alright, youâre alright,â Andy purred, feeling your muscles slowly relax beneath his hands.Â
Every caress of his palm and sweet stroke of his fingers had you softening further, your body surrendering to his soothing touch. Soon, you were even letting your thighs fall open again and Andy rewarded you with a pleased rumbling sound and a kiss brushed to your cheek.Â
He shifted his hips back, moving until the tip of his cock was pressed against your tight little hole. That made the muscles of your thighs go taut again, but the demon also heard the way your breath hitched in your throat, like youâd sucked in a gasp of anticipation, not fear.Â
Andy gently kneaded your hip, his mouth grazing against the shell of your ear and tickling your skin with his beard. âLet me in, my sweet girl,â he cooed, prodding at your dripping cunt with his leaking tip. âIâll make you feel so good, pretty thing.â
The soft, whispered pleas and praise from Andyâs lips had you relaxing again, your thighs spreading and your hips lifting in wordless offering. It was too perfectâyou were too perfect. The demon couldnât wait any longer.Â
Andy pushed inside your wet heat, letting out a grunt of pleasure when he felt your tightness wrapping around his stiff length. You felt so good, your pussy clinging to his cock and sucking him deeper into the warm depths of your body. He slid home until he was buried to the hilt.
As soon as he was inside you, the world tipped violently on its axis, spinning around the demon in a vicious dizzying swirl that he knew was all in his head.Â
It lasted only a second and by the time your bedroom came back into focus, Andy instinctively recognized that his entire universe had realigned, with youâyour delicate human body and your fragile beating heart and your precious glowing soulâat the center of it. Â
âYouâre mineâmine,â Andy growled, his voice preternaturally deep and dark, his arms closing so tightly around your body that he heard the breathe exhale from your lungs and felt your heart beating against your ribcage.
A startled squeak fell from your lips and Andy suddenly realized he was holding you much too tightly, and that he was no doubt scaring you. His grip loosened, his hands moving to comfort you, kneading your soft flesh and groping your curves until you let out a soft, happy sigh.Â
âIâll take such good care of you, sweet thing,â the demon vowed in a husky voice filled with warmth. He nuzzled his face into your cheek, pressing sweet kisses to your jaw and neck, listening to your breathy little giggles at the rasp of his beard. âI only want to make you feel good, I wonât ever hurt you.â
âYouâŚâ Your voice was raspy with sleep, giving out on you before you could say what you wanted to say. Andy waited patiently while you swallowed and tried again. âYou promise?âÂ
Andy could feel your pulse fluttering wildly beneath his lips and he smiled into your skin. You were human, so you hadnât felt what Andy had when your bodies had joined, the fusing of your spirits, and if you needed reassurance with words that he would cherish you and protect you for the rest of your days, then he would happily give it to you.
âOf course, my sweet girl, I swear it.â
The last of the tension that had been lingering in your muscles finally drained out of you, and Andyâs cock pushed another inch deeper, the tip brushing against a spot inside you that had your walls clenching down hard on his length.Â
The demon groaned in pleasure, pulling his hips back and sliding into you again, muffling a groan into the crook of your neck when you squeezed him so exquisitely.Â
âYou feel so good, sweet girl, so perfect,â he murmured into your skin, fucking you in short, rocking thrusts that had you gasping and whimpering softly. âYouâre taking me so fucking well, such a good fucking girl.â
Out of the corner of his eye, Andy caught the pleased smile that curled the edges of your mouth at his praise. But then you were turning your face into your pillow and muffling your moans into its softness.Â
Andy didnât like that one bit. He wanted to hear all of your sounds of pleasureâthey were his, just like the rest of youâso he wrapped his hand around the front of your throat. Gently enough so he he didnât hurt you, he lifted your head from the pillow, rumbling a pleased sound in his chest when he could hear every whimper and moan that fell from your lips.
âGood girl, let me hear youâlet me hear how good Iâm making you feel,â Andy urged, rocking his hips harder into you, his cock spearing deep into your tight cunt with every thrust.Â
The tips of his fingers dug a little deeper into the sides of your neck and you moaned even louder, your cunt clutching at the demonâs cock like a vise while the rest of your body melted further into his hold. It was like youâd been waiting for him to come along and take control of you, of your very breathing, and it sent Andy reeling once again.
You were perfect. Perfect. So perfect that even that word didnât feel like enough. It felt like youâd been made for Andy, and heâd been made for you. A perfect match. A true mate.
âOh god, wh-who are you?â you asked, your breathy, pleasure-soaked voice pulling Andy back into the moment.Â
The demon nearly chuckled at the question. It was a little late for you to be asking such a thing when his cock was buried to the hilt in your cunt and every thrust of his hips pushed you closer and closer to the edge of your release. But he didnât want you to take offense, so he wracked his lust-drunk brain for an answer, finally settling on something close enough to the truth.
âIâm the demon of your dreams, sweet thing,â he rumbled in your ear, picking up the pace of his thrusts. âThe one you conjured with the desperate longing in your soulâthe yearning to be fucked, to be taken, to be owned, thoroughly and fully.â
âI didnât, I didnât conjure anythingâI swear,â you babbled, but Andyâs fingers tightened around the sides of your throat, cutting off your protests. The way he choked you only made your cunt gush and flutter between your thighs, and Andy reveled in the feeling of your slick channel gripping his hard cock.
âYou donât have to pretend with me, sweetheart, I know exactly what your soul yearns for, and Iâm more than happy to oblige,â Andy purred, raking his teeth down your cheek before nipping at your jaw.Â
He was holding onto your neck too tightly for you to make a sound, but he felt your throat work against his palm and your pussy spasm around his cock at his filthy words. He choked you a little harder and sank his teeth into your shoulder through your nightshirt, going crosseyed and nearly cumming when you clenched down hard around him.
âWhat your soul yearns for is a good hard fucking,â Andy rasped when he pulled his teeth away from your shoulder, moving back to murmur in your ear. âNow, take it like a good slut and Iâll let you thank me later.â
Andy picked up the pace of his hips, pounding harder into you. The demon fucked you into the mattress while he choked the breath from your lungs, giving you only enough air to remain conscious while he savaged your soft, warm cunt with his brutal cock.
It wasnât long before he felt you reaching the edge of your release, and he dug his other hand beneath your body, pinning you to the bed with his hips while he fucked you ferociously and rubbed your clit. You were helpless when the demon demanded you give him your pleasure.
âCum for me, my sweet thing, cum for your demon,â Andy urged.
You shattered apart on a silent scream, your mouth wide open and eyes rolling back into your head while your pleasure consumed you. Your body shook beneath Andyâs larger form, your tight pussy strangling his cock and dragging him over the edge right after you.
Andy buried his face in the curve of your neck, groaning his release loudly into your skin while his hips stuttered and finally pressed flush to your ass. He buried his cock in your pussy and spilled his cum into the depths of your womb, flooding your body with his seed while he fed on your soul.Â
Out of habit, he was careful not to take too much, but he could sense that there was no such thing when it came to you. That realization made him groan all over again, another spurt of cum spilling into your cunt while he gorged himself on you until he was sated, your pussy still fluttering with the aftershocks of your release.
For a long moment, the two of you caught your breath together, Andyâs hand having loosened around your neck, though he still held you with your back pinned against his chest. He almost tightened his hold again when he felt your head moving, but you only turned your head to nuzzle your face into his beard and he rumbled a pleased sound in his chest, a smile curving his mouth.Â
With a gentleness heâd never known himself to possess, Andy eased his softening cock from your pussy, enjoying the way your combined releases spilled across your thighs.Â
He paused, scooping up his cum with his fingers and pushing it back into your hole, making you shudder and whine at the overstimulation. The demon shushed you softly, pressing kisses to your cheek and the edge of your jaw until he was done.Â
Then, he rolled onto his back and tugged you with him, tucking you under his arm and propping his head up with the other hand. You still wore your nightshirt, and he was still clad in most of his clothes, his pants only opened enough for his cock, but he wanted to hold you a little bit longer before he forced himself to move from the bed.
You lifted your head and looked at the demon, the two of you hanging in a suspended silence while you regarded each other.Â
For the first time since heâd slunk into your bedroom, Andy got a good look at your face, and his heart thumped heavily in his chest at the beauty of you. The slope of your nose, the curve of your mouth, and the intelligence in your eyesâit was all gorgeous to the demon.
As he stared at you, you looked at him in return, your eyes darting over his face while you took in his featuresâhis crystal blue eyes and straight nose and the dark beard framing his soft mouth. Your expression was unreadable, but then a small smile curved the edges of your soft mouth, and your eyes warmed. You didnât seem to hate what you saw, at least.Â
âIâll answer all your questions,â Andy promised, his gaze falling to your lips, the desire to kiss you gripping him and refusing to let go. âBut firstâŚâ He trailed off, dragging you up his body while his hand cradled your head, moving you so he could slant his mouth to yours.Â
The incubus kissed you gently at first, with just a brush of his lips, as if he was asking for your permission all over again. When you sighed happily and melted into him, your fingers curling in the short hair at the nape of his neck, he knew you were giving yourself to him willingly, gladly, wholly.Â
Andy kissed you harder then, tracing his tongue along the seam of your lips and seeking entrance that you eagerly gave him. He slid into your mouth, groaning at your sweet taste, and explored you thoroughly while you clung to him and kissed him back.
When your hips began to rock greedily against Andyâs thigh, your slick pussy leaving a wet spot on his pants, he finally pulled away and gave you a wolfish grin.
âDoes my sweet girl need her demonâs cock again?â he teased playfully before nipping at your lip and drinking down your moan while he soothed it with his tongue.Â
âYes, please,â you murmured sweetly, making Andy chuckle.Â
But the demon wasnât about to let your plea go unanswered. He rolled you onto your back and took the opportunity to kick his pants off his legs before sliding home with one thrust. The slick of your combined releases made it easy and you both groaned as he filled you up.
âGood,â he growled, clutching you tight beneath his body and encouraging your arms and legs to wrap around his broad, muscular form. âBecause I need to be buried in your cunt for the rest of my fucking life.â His voice was a low rumble that sent a shiver down your spine and made you clutch him tighter, meeting every thrust with your hips while he fucked you into the mattress.
It wasnât until the sky began to lighten from a midnight blue to a softer shade of sapphire, the sun dawning on the morning of Valentineâs Day, that the two of you were finally sated enough for you to ask all the questions that had been rattling around in your head since you woke up to the demon in your bed.
Andy answered you with the truthâevery bit of itânot even questioning that he didnât have it in him to lie to you. He told you about what he was and how heâd been drawn to you from the moment heâd sensed you.Â
You were skeptical at first, of course, but when he flashed you a look at his true eyesâdark pools of inky blackness like the pits of hellâand showed you a glimpse of his tail, he could tell that you started to believe him. It surprised him how much he wanted you to believe him, so it was a relief when you finally did.
Then, Andy told you about the stories of an incubusâs true mate. He hadnât believed them until heâd met you, he explained, but a true mate was the one person in all the world that an incubus could feed on and never harm. They were literally made to be together.
Gently, as if worrying that it would be the part you couldnât accept, he told you that he believed you were hisâhis true mate, the one person meant for him.
It took you a long moment to process that information, but once you did, you laughed wildly, happily, and pulled him in for a kiss. You were smiling too much to deepen it, so you settled for brushing butterfly kisses all over Andyâs face, making him smile, then grin, then laugh along with you.Â
âYâknow, I would find out my soulmate is a demon on Valentineâs Day,â you said, giggling and falling back down against Andyâs chest. You curled into his side, pressing your face into his sternum and brushing another kiss over where his heart was beating in his chest.
Your comment reminded Andy of what day it was and he squeezed you in his arms. âBe my valentine?â he asked playfully, pressing a smile into the crown of your head. But he couldnât wait for your answer, urging you, âSay yes, sweet girl, say yes.âÂ
âYes, of course, my sweet demon,â you purred, throwing a leg over Andyâs body and sliding on top of him.Â
Andyâs cock, which heâd thought for sure needed at least a few more hours of rest after the long night of fucking, valiantly stirred to life between your thighs. You reached between your bodies, slipping his half-hard length into your warm pussy and settling down on his chest, breathing a soft sigh of contentment.Â
The two of you fell asleep like that, your soft, perfect body keeping Andyâs cock warm while you held each other close. As he drifted off, the demon felt a sense of peace and satisfaction that heâd never even dreamed he could achieve in his long, long life of walking the earth.
From that day on, Andyâs life was never the same. It was happier and more fulfilling and he never wanted for anything, not while you were in his lifeâand in his arms and in his bed. Together, you celebrated holidays and birthdays and life achievements as you grew together, but one day was still the most special.
For an incubus like Andy Barber, Valentineâs Day was his favorite day of the year. Not because of all the lonely, single women in the world, but because it was the day heâd found his true mate, the love of his lifeâit was the day heâd found you.
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you looked at all the books and notes spread out in front of you, and the painfully waiting cursor of the blank document, as if urging you to start the assignment. but it felt⌠all too much, too overwhelming for you to even think about your pending works.
and before you knew it, a tear dropped down on the page, staining your messy handwriting. good here it goes again. you were tired of feeling tensed and worried about your studies.
your thoughts were interrupted by the sound of rapid knocks and the bell. you turned to look at the time, 11pm. who could it even be at this late hour?
sighing, you got up to open the door before the person could ring the bell once more, only to be met with a very familiar face.
âjay...? what are you doing here at this hour?â you asked, unsure of how to approach the fact that your boyfriend was in front of your apartment at near midnight. the said boy who was standing quite tensed your doorstep, visibly frowned upon seeing you
âyn, i was worried tensed! why did you not pick up my calls? you even left me on seen?! do you know how stressful that was? wait, are youâŚâ he trailed, finally getting a proper look at your face.
oh shit you had forgotten that your tears hadn't dried yet and he was met with a red and blotchy face.
jay quickly stepped into the apartment, his hands going up to your face, softly holding them.
âwhat⌠happened?â his voice was laced with concern. âuh, you were worried, for me?â you refused to meet his eyes.
âof course, babe! you are usually so active and present but all i have got are just a few messages and no calls, i thought you were sick!â and his eyes held this earnest look, that almost made you want to start sobbing again.
as if sensing your emotions, he engulfed you in a hug and before you knew it, you were in his arms, tearing up yet again, your forehead resting on his shoulder.
âi⌠iâ i am sick, of this work and study andâŚâ you spoke through your tears, âjay, i don't think i can do this anymore, i feel so-so tired, it'sâŚâ you could feel him rub small soothing circles on your back, nodding to your every word and never interrupting you, as if you could vent out all the frustration and pressure you had building in you.
the steady rhythm of his heartbeat, slowly calmed you down as you broke apart to look up at him, with a small pout. you mumbled a small sorry.
jay broke out in a smile, caressing your cheek, âit's okay, yn, you've been so strong and dedicated. itâs okay to let yourself catch a break, hm? it's okay to feel sad and unmotivated sometimes, right? because i know you can do it.â
âb-but iâ âssh, i trust you.â and maybe that was all you needed to hear.
you could feel a small smile form on your face, heart a lot lighter than it had been a few minutes ago. and you couldn't thank jay enough for it.
âokayyy now let's see how my girlfriend is doing, secluding herself like a saint, tell me the last time you had eaten, yn?â he questioned you in a serious tone. you knew how serious he could get if you neglected your meals.
âeh, yesterday i thinkâŚ?â âi'm pretty sure it was ramen.â you guiltily nodded.
jay shook his head, not surprised but placed a firm kiss on your forehead. âok, so, you, my girl, are going to sit down and relax while i make you something healthy and edible to eat. okay?â he said, more like commanded.
you blushed at his actions before following him to the kitchen.
it was a common routine you both had fallen into, jay would cook, you would, well⌠try to assist.
and even though, jay protested about you helping him, you shrugged him off, just happy to spend time with your boyfriend.
âand from now on, yn, please don't ghost me like this. i'm always here for you, loveâ, whispered close to your ears, pressing another small kiss to your cheek.
NOTES. hi i wrote this down cuz of the high level of procrastination and unproductivity ive been having despite my finals starting in a month :( it isnt the best feeling and i for anyone else who's going through the same, don't worry we'll get through this rough patch together >< tysm for reading this
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Using Google Translate here, sorry if something doesn't make sense
I love the angst plot about the neglected reader; and don't get me wrong, I love it more when the batfamily grovels for forgiveness from the "forgotten child"
But then...nothing happens, and I'm left...And now?
They either crumble under the obsession, or fight in an endless cycle, or give up and succumb to Stockholm syndrome. I love reading them, but I always wanted something...more.
And here I leave my contribution.
Reader Wayne -biological to follow tradition- abandoned LEADER of a underworld.
Stay with me;
Tired of being invisible and insignificant before the wonderful talents of Bruce's chosen children (not father, he never was), not even being a priority for Alfred (admittedly, he abandoned his daughter in favor of the Waynes, I think It is more credible that we go to the fifth plane for him) What do you do with free time, selfishness disguised as empathy and a lot of money at your fingertips? You open a brothel first.
You attract all kinds of people; drug addicts who would do anything for easy money and easier drugs, people in need of jobs and guidance, the low and forgotten of Gotham, the women (touching on the subject with all the respect it deserves) who have nothing to lose or with some extra mouths to feed. In short, everything that the city abandoned by God leaves aside.
Little by little, in silence and discretion, we become recognized; Deals here, influences there, and in a moment, we ruled the underworld. We offer all kinds of services to the villains of Gotham, alliances and protection, secrets and methods of elimination, lust and accompaniment, everything in a bit.
Do you remember that loan we took out when we left? Maybe Bruce or Tim found the charge on a document, and the purchase was...a house outside of Gotham? Who bought it? Dick? Jason? Maybe Cassandra or Stephenie? Well, whoever it was, it's a piece of junk about to fall down, so what difference does it make?
There is something more important to do. (There is always that with them, right?) Maybe it's too complicated a mission even for all of them together, or they just need that piece of the puzzle to win once again, whatever they need takes them to Gotham's underworld, takes them to Sanctuary.
How fun! New pieces have joined the board, and what pieces...In the style of his good friend Edward (The Riddler), leaves little clues that bring them closer to the reader, the Savior, to whom they all owe something and serve him.
Inevitably our ego (perhaps a savior complex or a degree of narcissism) makes us want to reveal ourselves to them, and we meet them at the suburban house they left aside.
Surprise! The unknown child is now the most influential crime boss of his generation! Aren't you proud? Of course, business and family don't mix.
All help is given with the Savior (us) in exchange for something clear, the profits do not come alone, and all he asks for is...Time together?...Of course.
Coffee chats with Bruce (the press mistakes them for a new conquest, disgusting), gymnastics with Richard (since when can you contort like that?!) reading with Jason (they have the same tastes apparently) playing video games with Tim (and hack a few government accounts) taking care of animals with Damian (You have a whole zoo with exotic rescued animals!) shopping with your sisters or just staying silent with Cassandra, even Duke gets his quality time! (Why they accepted him immediately, what does he have that I don't)
It makes them realize something they lost, the funny thing is they never had it in the first place, and knowing that hurts more than any wound.
We know that, and we use it (like everything) to our advantage. And in the end, with the service done and the day saved, we don't need any more of them, The door is over there!
Only that the sinner has already tasted God's forgiveness, why would he want to leave him?
So they keep coming back, trying to get you to leave that evil path (according to them) and come home, safe, to them. But not out of love (there is no such thing as love for a Wayne), but out of guilt, which becomes a need, which becomes an obsession.
And while we should be careful with that...it's more entertaining to be the puppeteer than the puppet. There is no compassion, there is no empathy, there is no affection or pity; There's ambition, there's status, there's power, and in a world like Gotham, that's all that matters.
And the bat family knows it; They are not stupid, they know that you are using them, like a dog waiting for a caress, a rope to be pulled to open the door, salvation itself...maybe it is their fault acting on them, but they will not let go of the crumbs that are given to them we give.
There is no happy ending, only an unhealthy relationship between the two; the most powerful playing, we know that if we keep pushing, a prison will be a more merciful destiny.
But we don't care anymore, not now that we have the world in our hands.
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Valentine prompt for Lacey with "rewatching wedding video"
You and Lacey rewatching your wedding video
Valentine's prompt #17
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Pairing:lacey x gn reader
A/n:I might be tired and out of it because of school, but nothing will stop me from giving lacey all the love she needs
Your wedding was definitely Lacey's favorite day, only rivaled by the day she met you and the day you accepted her confession.
It was the day she was you two were forever bound to each other, the day when she finally let the entirety of her past behind to stay with you, you were her everything and from that day on she could say it with the utmost confidence in her words.
Which is why she loved rewatching it with you every year on your anniversary and on Valentine's Day, surroundings by all the flowers, chocolates, and hundreds of other gifts you gave her that she didn't think she deserved, of course she wouldn't say that to you as that would lead to even more gifts and kisses and reassurances of love, but she still loved them, just like she loved you.
"You looked beautiful, not that you don't now, that day was just special"
"T-thank you"
You had complimented her so many times but every time you said something about her wedding dress it was special, because she had made it herself, with how much she loved fashion you encouraged her to do it and even with how insecure she was about it all of your compliments made her feel confident about it ans about herself, she felt beautiful all because of your words
".......really.....thank you"
Lacey smiled and nuzzled into your chest. You loved seeing her so happy and comfortable. Now that you were married, your desire to see her happy and keep her safe increased even more. She was your wife now, and she deserved nothing but pure happiness forever
"For what?"
"For giving me this"
She raised her right hand and flashed you her ring, the one that you got for her and that she cried about when she saw for the first time
"It's nothing, I already told you I'd do anything for you"
The video continued now with lacey walking down the aisle. She did so alone, of course. You two didn't even leave enough chairs for her "family" not that she minded at all. It felt really nice to be alone in that moment. It felt like she had control in her life and by going up to you alone she was choosing to marry you.
"Your vows were beautiful"
"Yours too, I just put all the love I had for you and how thankful I am on paper and that came out"
You giggled a bit when you saw her almost crying from reading her vows
"H-hey, don't laugh. It was very emotional"
"I know, sorry, I'm just so happy you cried from happiness for once"
"I....kinda do that a lot since I met you.....and I'm actually really glad for that"
"Don't mention it"
Finally, the video reached the moment of the kiss, and you could see Lacey's eyes sparkle at that, your kisses were always wonderful but that one felt like she was on top of the world, like all of the pain she went through was worth it all for one kiss.
You sensed how she was feeling and held her hand tighter, happy to see no reaction from her, you then got closer and asked her
"Could I kiss you now too?"
"I would never say no"
You got even closer and kissed her lips, she reciprocated, and you two stayed like this, lost in each other's lips, for a while before breaking the kiss and looking at each other with so much pure love
"I am so proud of how comfortable you've become with my touch, I love you so much"
"There is nothing that you do that will ever make me uncomfortable, we're married now and I want to stay with you forever, your affection is one of the many things I want to feel in our marriage"
".......I love you so much, my wife"
"I love you too, so so much, thank you, for everything and especially for marrying me"
#lacey's flash games#lacey x reader#lacey games#lacey's wardrobe#lacey's diner#lacey's games x reader#lacey's games#lacey's flash games x reader#x reader#lacey#gn reader#lacey's petshop
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7 - Would they ever consider a sexual relationship with someone they arenât attracted to? Under which circumstances? 5 - Do they care about their gender identity âmatchingâ their presentation in the way their society expects? Why or why not? 12 - Does their society impose gender roles on people? How has this impacted them? 13 - How is transness viewed in their society?
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bc i'm being abnormal about azelie and sjaak i'm going to do this for them. crazed about them even.
this wip is heavy so i'm gonna put tw for just.... heavy subject matter regarding sex, transness and body modification. and stick it under a cut.
5 - Do they care about their gender identity âmatchingâ their presentation in the way their society expects? Why or why not?
azelie -> not really; she's quite masc. though she does wear dresses, she keeps her hair cut short and somewhat 'boyish' (for the time) and much of this has to do with being on the fringes of society (vampirism) but also wanting to differentiate herself from rosita and matrixell, who are very very traditionally feminine.
sjaak -> yes, i suppose, but not in a way where he thinks about it? in his mind he is and always will be a man, he's never thought about being anything other than. the intersection of being biracial (he's black/white) in 17-1800s is definitely going to cause somewhat of a gender cognitive dissonance because of his struggles with feeling like he's even human (and being a werewolf doesn't help) but he's never felt like. trans/nb basically.
7 - Would they ever consider a sexual relationship with someone they arenât attracted to? Under which circumstances?
azelie -> yes, and she already has in some ways; she's not really attracted to sjaak but the two of them sleep together around the time they first meet. and she's definitely not interested in silvano but đŹ she did what she needed to do to protect biscella. because she's ageless (a vampire) and was born in such a way that is traumatic (vampire birth is oof in this wip) she has actually very little mental connection to her own body and only sees it as a vessel to further her goals. romance and mental attraction is more sacred to her in many ways.
sjaak -> hahaha he's literally so in the closet its funny. generally speaking though no. esp given the time period (late 17-early 1800s) he's AGGRESSIVELY attracted to women to the point of self detriment (re: this whole story) and he wouldn't ever sleep with a man... unless we remove ourselves from the main wip and i think about multidues of later in history land since he's also virtually immortal so take of that what you will.
12 - Does their society impose gender roles on people? How has this impacted them?
in general yes--i mean this is a historical supernatural fic so it IS actually for once set in an identifiable historical time period and you Know that europeans were extrememly rigid about gender presentation
when i think about their respective 'alternative' societies outside of the real world sphere, vampires are more uptight than werewolves--at least in the coven that azelie is currently apart of with the rest of the casavantes. the reason for this being is that essentially, their coven is a cult. luis (the father figure) defected from the main cult that he was apart of who saw humans as a source of food, with his half-sister-wife matrixell and created his own MUCH smaller coven wherein he took away her and their daughter rosita's ability to reproduce on their own (bc vampiric women can its a whole thing) and that plays into the role of what he believes a 'proper woman' is, and something that rosita and matrixell buy into. azelie however, doesn't. and she hasn't let herself be defanged, nor has she bent to the whims of their new cult which in a way is like not performing womanhood in their eyes correctly. its a loooooot of nonsense going on in this wip.
when it comes to werewolves, there's actually more of a lax structure of gender when it comes to the actual people who are turned; as anyone can become a werewolf by consuming moonstone, and so everything is not broken up by gender man/woman but more like breeders/wolves. breeders are those in the pack who haven't turned because their goal is to procreate with broodmothers and bring up more warriors into the fold. because true wolves who hunt vampires (like sjaak) are infertile, there isn't the whole dichotomy of being a right or wrong man/woman because the real value is being strong to slay vampires. this is why dalal has such revere in the pack DESPITE being a woman because she's extremely strong and has slain hundreds of vampires. if any of this makes sense. ik its not very traditional way of thinking about it, but that's what makes sense to me to explain this pff. but, for sjaak, this causes a lot of internal conflict. he was raised in yknow, regular society before he was turned into a wolf so his already complex struggles with being a biracial (black) man in relation to gender is OOF. but now he can't even do the parts of being a man that he was taught all this time were important: provide (apart of the pack now he can't work traditional labor jobs for a myriad of reasons) or sire children (infertile). so aside from everything else going on in this wip, something else is that sjaak struggles in a cis way about not feeling man enough, but also in a trans-adjacent way because of not having a choice of being who he is now (werewolf tm) and somehow liking who he is becoming despite it all (which is a stretch of a metaphor, i know, but it kind of describes how Eye feel regarding being a man/man adjacent in queer society when sooooo many alphabet mafia people hate men. its a lot of commentary in this wip ok).
and speaking of transness--
13 - How is transness viewed in their society?
if we ignore the real world and just stick to the world of vampires and werewolves: overall vampires are very accepting of a variation of 'transness'. vampire women have the capability of creating life on their own without men (no dick needed but cool if you got one in my book, in practice... its 1700 something you tell me), and the reason i consider it trans (in a way) is because even though vampires are an alternative and trangressive society, there is still the backdrop of the real world behind it and how vampire women behave is certainly not how all of women behave irl during this time. however, there are some like luis who aren't a fan, and yknow, we essentially genetially mutilating people (defanging) becuse of it. so yike. but luis is an outlier in vamp society.
similarly, werewolves with their whole anyone can become a wolf thing, transness in a way is acceptable if i think about it through that lens. not all women have to become broodmothers and bear/sire children, they can become werewolves instead. it is still... misogynistic though because more women become broodmothers and bedwarmers to the pack than men do, but in a way, becoming a werewolf as a woman is a form of transness in a way.
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I don't believe liking immoral and downright evil characters says anything about you as a person, but I think acting like this definitely does.
"The HH fanbase will defend Valentinoto the moon and back" this and "Val is praised by a majority of the fandom" that, except said majority of the fandom fucking HATES that moth and fans have been harassed, had their art scribbled on to "fix" it, repeatedly called "rapist apologists" and "abuse romanticisers", get questioned or accused about condoning him irl, received graphic death/rape threats and are in general mistreated by the fandom. A Val cosplayer was mistreated and had a gun pulled on them IN REAL LIFE not even a year ago. Even the VA got repeatedly asked or assumed to be like the character he plays because "why else would he want to voice a rapist??" and told they deserve for choosing that role (fucking WILD btw). People that like Valentino as a character are the minority of the fandom, and even there NO ONE defends him. We all realise he's a disgusting individual whose actions shouldn't be defended in any capacity. What kinda bullshit lie is that?
I'm also in the Mouthwashing fandom, and it too has a bunch of issues. Infantilising Curly and minimising his actions, making Swansea to be better than he actually is and ignoring that he knew of the SA, people still debating or not realising that Jimmy raped Anya in the first place, shipping Jimmy and Curly (which isn't even a bad thing or a real problem but this person would see it that way), ect. But sure, conveniently don't bring that up. Anything for the Hazbin Hotel hate, right đ
These next comments especially piss me off (nevermind how they're talking about an abuse survivor which is gross already). This might be a hot take and I don't care if that's the case, but I think people refusing to call Jimmy by name and excluding him from the cast is not show of a "good" fandom, actually. Jimmy has a lot more to him besides being a rapist. Rape culture, toxic masculinity, capitalistic exploitation, misogyny, male dominance-- there's sooo much more to explore and discuss about his character besides him being a rapist. And he's an incredibly disturbing character in a fucking horror game. If you can only refer to him by some stupid nickname (which takes away the seriousness of his character imo), ignore the significance of his role and themes in the story and the rest of his character and reduce him to a single trait that's BAD. That's not a good thing, and in fact, probably makes you worse than the people that do like his character because they can at least separate fiction and reality and not scrap well written disturbing characters for the sake of "comfort" or moral standing (again, in a horror game of all things). People shouldn't feel bad for liking Jimmy because he's a very good character, and ignoring that completely and acting like there aren't people who could like him... kinda sucks?
Moving over, Valentino is not and has NEVER been portrayed in a positive light in the show. I can't wrap my head around people that genuinely think that. Whenever I hear people say that the arguments I always see are "he shouldn't be attractive" and "he's just a cartoon villain" and "he acts silly and quirky even tho he's a rapist" among other things, and I don't think these people realise they're spouting eugenics bullshit and demonstrating that they don't know anything about his character simultaneously. No, Valentino isn't a "positive" portrayal of a rapist because he's attractive (way to tie morality to appearance btw). No, Valentino isn't a positive portrayal of a rapist because he acts goofy and funny and silly. Those traits are intentional and important to his character. Val is the Overlord of lust and depravity, hell's most famous pimp. His beauty is how he lures in unsuspecting sinners, and his personality is how he gains their trust and gets them to sell their souls for him to exploit (notice how Angel signed his soul away willingly). He's supposed to be appealing. He's supposed to be charming. He's entire persona is meant to be disarming. If he were like Jimmy or just a one-note unlikeable guy, his position in the show and his relationships with the characters wouldn't make sense, so he isn't. That doesn't make him a more positive portrayal or anything, it just means he's more fleshed out and written more complex than you want him to be. He's a very real depiction of an abuser, of their two-faced nature and how being attractive and charming to others doesn't make you less of an abusive monster to someone else. For context, I have been abused by someone extremely similar to Val, so his depiction feels very real to me and it's extremely tiring seeing a bunch of assholes who have probably not even seen the show or have been abused act like he's "romanticised" or "unrealistic" or "bad" simply because he was written by Vivziepop (who's ALSO an SA survivor like what is wrong with you đ).
This is a broader point and not entirely related to this specific case, but we don't give people shit like this over people liking murderers and serial killers-- acting like all a sudden liking a rapist character says something negative about their writing or about the people that like them is INCREDIBLY stupid. People don't talk like this about Alastor and Vox-- who are both VERY despicable people. Both of them are also abusers among other horrible things, but they're not (or at least Alastor isn't) rapists so they're "not as bad". This is a sentiment I see all the time in both the fandom and hatedom whenever Valentino discourse comes back up, and this line of logic that rapists are a unique evil that can't be liked as characters in fiction but murderers and cannibals and serial killers are totally Ok is so dangerous and backwards. Liking evil characters says nothing about you as a person aside from the fact that you're a freak in the fun way. Liking evil characters but then going after others who do as well because you consider their character "too evil" and watering down the crimes of yours to justify liking them says a lot about you tho. Saying that the characters you like says something negative you in general does too.
We seriously need to stop bringing morality into fiction and saying that "normal" people wouldn't like certain immoral characters. We need to stop ostracising people for their "problematic" ships, proudly brag about ostracising them and justify it by calling them "weirdos". We need to stop saying villains are "badly written" because they're not written how YOU want them to be written, regardless of whether or not that opinion is valid (which in this case it isn't). We need to stop putting fandoms in some weird competition with each other about how characters are written and spit on people who actually enjoy them, are comforted by them or felt seen by them (gestures at the whole Angel dust situation barely a week ago). And honestly we need to stop giving attention to people like this, who spread a false narrative and kick others down for being fans of a media they don't like or know squat about for whatever reason. Who spread lies about the media or fandom in question in way that's blatantly in bad faith.
This crappy post is sitting a 17k while I'm typing this. The way people can just say ANYTHING about Hazbin Hotel and its fandom-- doesn't matter if it's valid or true or if they watched the show or know anything about the fandom at all, it just has to be negative-- and others will eat it up no questions asked needs to be studied at this point. We saw that in the months the show first aired. We saw that with the Angel Dust video. We're seeing this again here. I don't think we should be harassing anybody over fiction and in general (and needless to say don't harass any of these people) but calling out bad actors who pull shit like this more often and making it uncool to shittalk Hazbin Hotel and its fandom (and any fandom from unapologetically dark media where the people deal with enough bullshit already) for no reason and in bad faith is a change I'd be down with. Like, wash your mouth of its name and disappear into the shadow realm, goddamnit.
#hazbin hotel#mouthwashing#hazbin hotel valentino#jimmy mouthwashing#hazbin hotel angel dust#fandom discourse#fandom discussion#head in my fucking hands#on that note this is the straw that breaks the camel's back for me i'm going private and then on a blocking spree again#i'm so sick of seeing these people whenever their posts blow up like go away and stay gone#âhh fans defend valâ âangel dust is bad repâ âthe rape is just a fetishâ shut the FUCK up oh my god just shut up all of you đ#i'm so sick and tired of seeing that all the time if you can't fucking read for shit then say so stop making stuff up#i'm sorry for being so harsh kinda but i've seen 1000 too many people repeating that stupid drivel#what upsets me even more is that almost every val fan i've encountered is an abuse survivor themselves and they already treated so horribly#so seeing people who aren't even in the fandom lie that they âdefendâ his actions and making it easier to be shitty to them is... uggggghhh#ugh it's so gross and i hate how people just agree with them because it's hazbin hotel specifically like uugghh#i woke up to this my page and my tired ass felt petty enough to write this down as a response cuz actually fuck that noise#especially seeing the comments on that post like god i know i should love my neighbour but said neighbours are making it so difficult#does any of this even make sense i wrote this on the fly without planning it beforehand#whatever i'm really tired so pardon any grammar mistake i'll get them later maybe#momento rambles
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i respect all trans headcanons but in wolverine's case since he has a healing factor his boobs will just grow back
I mean yeah sure, but again, it's just a headcanon at the end of the day. Doesn't have to make 100% sense (at least not always)
#maybe he just cuts them off every now and then. and maybe his suit is acting like a binder too#or maybe his body knows he's trans and doesn't regenerate them or something#not everything has to make sense all tge time. sometimes you make headcanons or silly drawings just for fun without thinking too much#this was just like. one stupid thought I had that I decided to depict as a drawing is all#wouldn't it be very sad if you knew you couldn't alter your body in any way? that you can't change it to feel more comfortable? idk#too tired to draw anything for this ask but I too respect all trans headcanons even if I don't have them myself#ask#anonymous#not art#text#wolverine#I'll try to draw that one 'I'm trans' 'no not like that' meme I can't explain it more. you'll see (if I actually do it that is)#funny thing is I don't even care about trans wolverine that much. you know? like it's just kinda there coexisting with cis wolverine I gues#idk i'm just tired#sorry if I'm coming off as aggressive or anything
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y'know, i keep making a habit of swinging my bat at hornets nests, but i have to say i'm getting so, so tired of people complaining about shows not making perfect sense when they aren't even close to done. we're four episodes into this season of doctor who. we're four episodes into this season of bridgerton. and yet in both fandoms i keep seeing people whine that such and such didn't make sense or it wasn't explained all the way and by god you guys i think maybe explanations might come later in the season. this is something most viewers will recognize as being called a 'plot.'
#like maybe a tiny bit of media literacy... might save you#and if you think i'm being mean like. its okay if you don't get it at first. it's okay if you don't understand the themes. but maybe#instead of stamping your feet and saying this makes no sense and i hate what they're doing and and and#maybe you could try listening to other people's interpretations of things and you'll find that what the show is trying to tell you becomes#more clear! would you look at that. wild how that happens#like im sorry you're entitled to your opinions but calling things bad writing just because you don't quite get it or it doesn't resonate#with you personally... i don't think you should just say this was shitty and worthless#the examples im using are because both resonate with me btw. 73 yards was existential horror it was hill house and bly manor#(im going to write about this in another post btw bc it compels me so)#it was about the way fear of abandonment can haunt you how mental illness can haunt you how you feel like you can drive people away#just by being yourself (the Woman was Herself what caused ruby to be abandoned was Her it's about her feeling as though she was the cause#of everyone who left her even as a baby even the people who loved her most could decide to not love her at the drop of a hat)#colin bridgerton is masking and faking a personality because it has been proven that time and time again#being Himself is Wrong that he annoys people he makes himself into what people expect of him because he's tired of being abandoned too#his family ignores and does not reply to his letters this season PEN stopped replying to his letters#his brother was cruel to him for being a romantic his friends LAUGHED AT HIM for saying sex is meaningful to him and don't they feel lonely#his Fake Rake persona makes viewers cringe because! its!! fake!!! he's faking it! HE GETS CALLED OUT ON IT TWICE IN EP ONE#if you don't understand he's faking it then that's on you at that point! i don't know! maybe take a minute to sit in the discomfort and ask#why did this show make me react this way and do you think maybe it was on purpose#''73 yards was confusing'' do you think confusion may be one of the ways ruby feels about her abandonment?#there is a theme in all of her episodes so far is it ''badly written'' unclear to you or do you just refuse to think critically about it#txtly#and im sorry for tagging this its just for my blog i kinda wish they still didnt show up in tags if i tag them all the way at the bottom#[old lady ruby voice] ''i used to be able to tag things just for myself once upon a time''#bridgerton#bridgerton spoilers#doctor who#doctor who spoilers
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Apparently that's called the 'irresistible force paradox'
#oc f/o#f/o art#fictional other#self shipping#self insert#oc#original character#they're patient with me#also I finally draw Hadri with a different form!#I want to do more with their shape shifting but I haven't made much that turns out well#small vent in tags upcoming if you don't want to read#Feeling bad about posting but I shouldn't just give up#In some way social media isn't for me because I take things too personally#but if I'm going to meet people I have some common ground with I don't know where else I'd look#common ground with something that means something to me#I want to meet people that don't suck to talk to#And actively have things they want to talk to me about that we're both interested in#Tired of being just ears.#I'm talking about my family here not anyone on the site btw#I just wish there were people who wanted to talk in the same way I want to talk#same level of energy I guess#Sorry to vent in silly drawings but it is what it is#Fun fact if you read this far...Hadri would like Evangelion#I don't know why that came to mind today but it makes total sense#They're a deity-like person so religion is interesting and they'd be drawn in by the drama#I honestly don't know how they'd examine media since their setting is basically medieval so Hadri's never really watched anything#Maybe a play?#I'd be nice to know what Hadri would think of things I like#But my tastes are very colorful... watched Ind/go Park for example and have it stuck in my head now#Popp/ playtime and Ind/go Park seem to both be going for fnaf Portal and I am feeling something
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how does one even get more traction when it comes to art
because i'm sick and tired and honestly ashamed(???) of my shitposts getting a lot of notes when i spend so much time and effort on actual fucking art. valuable things to post about
#and please don't tell me âmake more art!â because i literally spend weeks working on ONE single piece#and it kind of pisses me off that my most popular posts are shitposts that i spent less than thirty minutes on#four hundred fucking notes. for a twisted wonderland shitpost.#i'm sorry that actually infuriates me#i'm not mad at anyone really. more so myself if that makes sense?#i just want attention and i know that sounds fucking stupid (probably because it is) but i put so much effort into the things i do#and not even my irls could give a shit#and i know this is how the internet works too and if you use that as an excuse for all the work i've put in for nothing i'm done#honestly#i'm so tired#genuine question
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#Sorry but since I am on year 6 of running this blog I have little patience for people being weird at me here now#and im too tired for it and going to block you if i feel like you continuously make my blogging experience uncomfortable#I like reblogging the art and memes and seeing what's going on but not fielding the weird stuff so I'm turning asks off and also#I don't want to answer ask-like questions in private messages either but I can't turn them off completely#or else I would turn them off too... so not trying to be mean but please don't send me any more#if I didn't answer you there the last time. I'm saying this bc I like interacting w most of yall but at this moment I want it to be#not as an ask blog... but just chilling next to you as some guy looking at memes if that makes sense#I might turn asks on again sometime later on if I actually have new stuff to talk about#like when duff note finally comes out#This is not directed at most people here but just a couple btw thx!#p
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Still haven't processed the book of bill tbh
#I am so sleepy so sorry for the tupos but like.#ere the journal pages real? despite the inconsistencies?#is it a manipulation by bill or just a product of the book being unfortunately written after journal 3. maybe a bit of both?#I literally don't know how to feel about how Bill and Ford's dynamic was portrayed... or what exactly to take as canon.#like he's an abuser. and in the material itself it's like cool we have a storyline about Ford getting out of an abusive relationship yay#but what does it mean for the fandom? and like. like. what was their dynamic like exactly???#I feel like Bill wanted Ford to be obsessed with him? idk I'm to tired to reason but yeah#also. what's gonna happen next? is the soos posession just a tease? where's the website leading?#and when it comes to bill IF he's not lying or mostly not lying then niw we know he has PTSD#and isn't like a purely flat character anymore which opens a ton more questions about his characterisation and mental illnesses etc.#AND I STILL DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL ABOUT THIS LIKE. IT MAKES SENSE? BUT I nEver expected ot to happen#idk I'm probably taking this too seriously it's just a fictional triangle. I'm going to sleep. but his behaviour is still wild
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I'm scared. I'm getting more notes on things than what actually shows up. Time to play the game: have I accidentally blocked someone, is it just a private blog, has someone blocked *me* by accident, or am I being haunted?
From all circumstancial evidence, I'm gonna go with the last one
#it makes sense#the ghosts are finally all tired about me claiming to be one of them#i can almost hear them screaming 'this poser! let her feel our wrath!'#I'm sorry guys. I'm so sorry#but couldn't you take a much kinder revenge than making my precious. precious numbers not align?#the humanity....oh wait. you guys aren't human anymore. never mind#lemon duck quacks#ah how i love to be dramatic in semi public spaces#anyway probably the ducks and the vampires will be after me for posing as one of them too#if i disappear suddenly for more than a week. assume one of the three has caught me
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hey folks thanks for your requests! I'm making them buuut I'm being slow :)
#gems' talking#two really busy shifts in a row add up on the exhaustion so yeah. have to have some rest too#played a little through both control dlcs simultaneously. they're pretty hard#also heartman or however his name is spelled is low key horrifying. i know awe dls dabbles into alan wake territory which is more horror#than control so that's expected. sick creature design#anyway I'm really tired sorry if this all doesn't make sense
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thinking about frederick again (lol iâm so predictable.............) but like. him and his relationship with empathy + other people
he was never particularly socialized or taught to care about other people, and because of that he does tend to struggle with being self-centered. itâs sort of just something that doesnât... come to mind to him, almost?? like he knows that people suffer and feels bad for them when he focuses on it, but it doesnât really occur to him that he can do something about it, some of the time.
he does, however, feel very strong attachments to people whoâve actually shown they care for him, and wants to do whatever he can to help them out. this particularly applies to mary kreiburg (though i still havenât decided how i headcanon theyâre related whoops...) and maybe applied to a few others when he was younger as well, though nowadays heâs much more isolated from people.
before becoming involved in the manor games, he still struggles with self-esteem. being worthy, being deserving of anything good... he finds he feels that maybe he isnât, mostly because he canât write music like he should be able to - and if he canât do that, what use is he?? itâs not like heâs good at doing anything unrelated to music, either. after the manor games, like in verses where he escapes or whatever, i think heâd still struggle with that - but also with feeling guilty on some level that heâs not doing more for the people who saved him/who he can relate to because they suffered like he did. he wants to help them, but i think heâll always struggle with doing things for people just because heâs got so much heâs struggling with himself and getting through life for him takes up a lot of willpower and energy.
he does have his strengths too, though. he can sympathize deeply with people when they appeal to him directly, has no desire to hurt others or take advantage of them, (though he does seek praise), is honest about his intentions... and again, heâll go incredibly far for the few people he does care about.
this is all incredibly open to change and i wouldnât be surprised if i went âfuck itâ and changed it all entirely, but! this is how iâm feeling atm!
#ooc#headcanons.#i think especially kids who're kind of gloomy and remind him of himself he gravitates towards too#i have frederick brainrot atm i'm so sorry. i swear i have other muses too AJHFKHSK#i think if he did start helping people more; he'd really like the feeling of being useful?? and maybe that'd make him more inclined#to do more things for others in the future#it's just getting started on it for him. he's suffered in a lot of ways; but in other ways he's been very privileged#so he doesn't really know like. what he's doing. lol#does any of this make sense........... i am very tired :')))
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