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Aaahhh fracture. What an amazing fic. Kinda embarrassing to say but i keep going back to that one to try to squeeze out more clues about osamu's thoughts... he's just as fucked up as he's hot lol but also very enigmatic. (Spoilers ahead)
We know he probably wasn't very happy about reader distancing herself from him and the sister, but did he know it was to give them space as a couple? if the sister hadn't threatened him with divorce, what would he have done to get the reader? was he going to conform to watch her from afar while he was married to her sister? what if reader got a bf/gf? during the end, he also says things along the line of "i know you want this too" is it pure gaslighting or did he delude himself a little?
Sorry if these questions are annoying, i just love your miya twins fics... scar tissue was amazing too, i wonder how he's gonna deal with reader now </3
have a good day, rhi!
the reader was always going to spend her summer break with her sister and osamu, and osamu was always planning on using those weeks together to make his move; the only difference would've been that if her sister was still alive, he'd have used her against the reader, threatening to tell – and that would break her poor sister's heart, wouldn't it?
and while the reader knows her sister loves her, deep down there'd be that flickering doubt that if osamu went to her and said she'd come onto him while she claimed he'd raped her, her sister might take her husband's side, and that would destroy her.
now osamu didn't go into the relationship with an intention of using the reader's sister to get with her instead. he truly liked his girlfriend, possibly even loved her – in the beginning. he fought with the burgeoning attraction, which quickly gave way to obsession. he tried to convince himself that the feelings the reader brought out of him were a product of his happiness in his relationship with her sister, which is easy enough when they're spending near on every weekend together. ofc when she started drifting away and spending less time with him them, that became more difficult, and that's when the cracks started forming in his relationship.
the distance drives him nuts. dealing with a failing relationship without having her around to take the edge off drives him nuts. it gets to the point where he's fucking his fiancee and the only way he can get off is by closing his eyes and imagining that it's her moaning beneath him.
so yes, they're both aware that the reader – oblivious to the growing disconnect and with the best of intentions – is trying to give them space. unfortunately, her pulling away only drives a wedge further between the two of them.
as for how osamu would react to the news of a romantic partner, he's not going to be thrilled about it, but he also doesn't necessarily view it as competition either. some college punk ain't really gonna hold a candle to him – he's older, better looking, knows how to take care of her, plus, she's basically his anyway. has been for a long while.
he's not delusional delusional. he knows that the reader doesn't want this, but he's playing into her insecurities and fears. he's already planted the seeds of doubt and she's already on the edge after dealing with so much over the past few months. he's not going to give her another option – they're family, and she's always loved him. maybe not in the way he wants her to, but she can't pretend that there hasn't always been something between them, that connection that drew him in.
#rhi shut the fuck up challenge#hfjdksdjhfjds#i'm sorry i tried to answer the question#rhi answers#fic asks#fracture
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– Chen Chen // x . x . x . x . x . x . x
#i think this is how sid and geno should answer interview questions about their aging decrepit bodies dealing with the season#through love we will live forever etc#sidgeo#my edits#hockey poetry#web weaving#i am not immune to text over images#also there are 80 kiss hims in this poem so i tried to keep that many I think I did it but i'm sorry if i missed one
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Following up on uncle Kiri, what's your take on kiri and others becoming parents before bk, and his attitude towards all that? I imagine it's super conflicting being """"left behind"""" but also the questions around self worth and if he's "__ enough' to become a parent?
(obligatory disclaimer that these are all my personal opinions/feelings as someone that wants willow sprouts, and if that doesn't align with someone else's desires/beliefs — that's okay !!! we all write for the ones we love in different ways, and it doesn't make any opinion less valid or worthy of respect ✨️)
OOOOH HMM !! you know, i will write about dad bakugou all day, every day bc that's what i like to read and write but !! i do think he would have a hard time deciding if that's what he wanted ?? i don't think he thinks about it for a while, and then i think he tells himself he shouldn't have them, for a few reasons. mainly bc of his career and all that it entails, and also — bc he must wonder if he would be a good parent !!! he'll tell himself this for a bit, and he'll brush the topic off if it's ever brought up because he "doesn't think it's a good idea for him" but it's never explicitly bc he doesn't want them, if that makes sense ?? tbh i think it would take a very supportive partner for him to openly tell himself that's what he wants. like, someone loving and trusting him enough to be a father would help ease some of his worries, i think.
BUT ANYWAY. regarding kirishima, i actually had this perfect vision of them at a bbq, of course, except kiri's got his FOUR KIDS running around LOL and one of them coming up to bakugou and he's just looking at it like 🤨🤨🤨 akfbdjsja and aww, wouldn't it be cute if, once bakugou is expecting a child, kirishima lets him come over and learn how to change diapers ?? 🥺 let him practice burping and how to swaddle them up when they're so squirmy 🥺🥺🥺 CUTE !!
i think — his feelings in the situation of being around his friends that have children would really depend on whether he has a partner or not he feels comfortable with, tbh. like if it’s just him, i feel like he's non-stop looking at all these kids and his peers and telling himself, "yup, just not in the cards for me", almost like he's trying to convince himself he's fine with being without, though i definitely think he would, deep down, feel like ".......but why not me ?? 🥺" WAAAHHHH but !! on the fun, flip side, if he was with someone, i think he would honestly try to be more observant of how kids are ?? if that makes sense ?? LOL like he's watching them run around and trying to gauge what yaomomo says to her brats to get them to eat their vegetables PFFT. just storing it away for later.
tbh, it's hard for me to imagine not having this conversation with him BUT in the event that yall haven't discussed children yet, i don't think he's going to be the one to push it. like he's not coming back from the bbq asking when it's yall's turn, and i say that bc he's on the fence about it for so long. so i think he takes you not bringing it up as like......okay maybe it really isn't a good idea 🥺 but if years go by and nothing is said, then i think he might bite the bullet and force himself to ask LOL WAAHHH HE'S SO COMPLICATED
#ty for asking !!! 🥺🥺🥺#i feel like — none of this made sense and didnt answer your question at all LOL SO I'M SORRY#i feel like for most of his young life he tries to convince himself that he doesnt want them bc he doesnt think he should have them#almost like he's a little embarrassed TO want them ?? bc he knows how he is and how he can be and how others perceive him#and he knows that if he voices that desire then people might be like WHAAATT ??? YOU ????#🥺🥺🥺🥺#and he also isn't sure he's ever gonna be lucky enough to find someone to have them with#it's all very up in the air for him and he doesn't want to be honest about wanting something he might never have#if that makes sense skfbdusak#but if he does have someone thst loves and supports him and wants to have little katsukis then he feels very 🥺👉🏼👈🏼 LOL AAWWW#this was interesting to think about thank you !!!!#cw children#✿ ask willow#✿ theme: dad bakugou
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Why are you telling people to vote for the guy committing genocide :/
because voting is not an endorsement it's harm reduction.
Trump is going to be at best doing the same as Biden and likely much worse for Palestinians and all the countries suffering from American Imperialism than Biden is.
Republicans want to bring back child labor and get rid of social security, medicare, Medicaid. As someone who is surviving on Medicaid and social security I don't want those taken away. The Republican majority house already put a lot of limits on food stamps in this past term and I don't think we'll still have food stamps if we get a republican Congress and a Republican president.
They've made it pretty clear that if they get a republican Congress and a Republican president they're going to enact project 2025 and call a conference of states and try and take our rights back to the days when only wealthy white men had any rights when women and racial minorities had no rights, they want to make it illegal for LGBT+ folks to safely exist in public and get lifesaving healthcare.
In short
Do I support every single thing Biden has done as president?
No.
Do I like him?
Not particularly. But I'm still voting for him because apathy is not a choice.
Do I think that Joe Biden having another term means that we can actually make more progress for labor rights, trans healthcare, abortion access, advancement of the rights and protections for disabled people and so much more?
Yes absolutely.
Do I think that the genocide in Gaza needs to end and the United States needs to stop sending weapons to israel?
Yes, I think that un restricted flow of humanitarian aid into Palestine needs to happen, the siege needs to stop, and the country of Israel and the United States need to be held accountable at an international level. I think that the soldiers of the IDF/IOF need to be held accountable for their war crimes and pillaging that they continuously post evidence of on social medias. I'm trying to put a read more here so ce I've put a few linked articles and quotes from them.
A quote from the article below:
"While our map focuses solely on high school aged youth (age 13-17), some states, such as Oklahoma, Texas, and South Carolina, have considered banning care for transgender people up to 26 years of age. "
I've seen lawmakers in some states try to make it felony punishable by life in prison to get your trans child healthcare to keep them alive because they want to make it illegal for us to exist and a legal for anyone who helps us exist.
some quotes from the article above:
"Led by the long-established Heritage Foundation think tank and fueled by former Trump administration officials, the far-reaching effort is essentially a government-in-waiting for the former president’s second term — or any candidate who aligns with their ideals and can defeat President Joe Biden in 2024. With a nearly 1,000-page “Project 2025” handbook and an “army” of Americans, the idea is to have the civic infrastructure in place on Day One to commandeer, reshape and do away with what Republicans deride as the “deep state” bureaucracy, in part by firing as many as 50,000 federal workers. “We need to flood the zone with conservatives,” said Paul Dans, director of the 2025 Presidential Transition Project and a former Trump administration official who speaks with historical flourish about the undertaking. “This is a clarion call to come to Washington,” he said. “People need to lay down their tools, and step aside from their professional life and say, ‘This is my lifetime moment to serve.’” The unprecedented effort is being orchestrated with dozens of right-flank organizations, many new to Washington, and represents a changed approach from conservatives, who traditionally have sought to limit the federal government by cutting federal taxes and slashing federal spending. Instead, Trump-era conservatives want to gut the “administrative state” from within, by ousting federal employees they believe are standing in the way of the president’s agenda and replacing them with like-minded officials more eager to fulfill a new executive’s approach to governing. The goal is to avoid the pitfalls of Trump’s first years in office, when the Republican president’s team was ill-prepared, his Cabinet nominees had trouble winning Senate confirmation and policies were met with resistance — by lawmakers, government workers and even Trump’s own appointees who refused to bend or break protocol, or in some cases violate laws, to achieve his goals. While many of the Project 2025 proposals are inspired by Trump, they are being echoed by GOP rivals Ron DeSantis and Vivek Ramaswamy and are gaining prominence among other Republicans. And if Trump wins a second term, the work from the Heritage coalition ensures the president will have the personnel to carry forward his unfinished White House business. “The president Day One will be a wrecking ball for the administrative state,” said Russ Vought, a former Trump administration official involved in the effort who is now president at the conservative Center for Renewing America. Much of the new president’s agenda would be accomplished by reinstating what’s called Schedule F — a Trump-era executive order that would reclassify tens of thousands of the 2 million federal employees as essentially at-will workers who could more easily be fired. Biden had rescinded the executive order upon taking office in 2021, but Trump — and other presidential hopefuls — now vow to reinstate it."
"There’s a “top to bottom overhaul” of the Department of Justice, particularly curbing its independence and ending FBI efforts to combat the spread of misinformation. It calls for stepped-up prosecution of anyone providing or distributing abortion pills by mail."
Personally I think that voting for Joe Biden is better than someone who wants to enact this stuff on day one. It's like they read handmaid's tale and want to make that the reality of this country.
"Chapter by chapter, the pages offer a how-to manual for the next president, similar to one Heritage produced 50 years ago, ahead of the Ronald Reagan administration. Authored by some of today’s most prominent thinkers in the conservative movement, it’s often sprinkled with apocalyptic language." Ronald Reagan is a big reason we have a lot of problems we have today with our economy and with a lot more things. The people that supported Ronald Reagan do not need another term in office.
A quote from the article linked below:
"Trump has given no indication that he would be more sympathetic to Palestinian claims, nor that he would place more pressure on Israel to agree to a ceasefire. “The approach of the United States would be that Israel needs to win this war, it was attacked brutally,” Trump’s ambassador to Israel, David Friedman, told the Jewish Telegraphic Agency, describing how Trump would act. Friedman is now a campaign surrogate for Trump."
Personally I think Trump telling Israel to finish the job is indicators that another Trump presidency doesn't mean that weapons would stop being sent to Israel from United States
I fail to see how another term of Donald trump will be any better for the victims of the ongoing genocide in Palestine than President Joe Biden.
i think our system is absolutely messed up and broken but I don't think abstaining from voting is going to actually help.
#I don't support the genocide happening but I don't think that a republican will improve the situation happening in Gaza#I think that there needs to be a lot more grassroots effort for any third party candidate to be viable on the presidential level#We have two choices this election another term of Biden or another trump term#(if by some miracle the republicans managed to elect anyone else for their party nomination I still don't believe that a republican will#Improve the situation of Gaza or anything the United States is doing in the international level)#Asks#Mutuals#Im open to having further discussion about this#Also since this wasn't a DM or marked for private response I'm assuming you're fine with me posting my answer publicly.#I tried to pick out decent articles to link sorry if there not the best#None of my responses above are me trying to be hostile or combative#I'm genuinely trying to answer this question and I am not great at proofreading before posting but I did try here#vote blue no matter who#vote biden#vote democrat#vote blue#voting#us elections#election 2024#trump 2024#2024 election#biden 2024#biden administration#president biden#joe biden#2024 elections#kamala harris#palestine#Israel
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Is there anything you could say to yabureme to get him seriously distressed immediately?
images moments before disaster
#boku no hero academia fanart#eraser head#nomu aizawa#Yabureme Aizawa AU#shouta aizawa#it's mic talking btw#I took this a bit literally and chose an actual comic moment from way in the future#so...#Yabureme Spoilers#the first morning Yabureme wakes up in Tartarus (second capture) after intake and he's alone in his cell with Mic#who tries to (gently) explain to him why his eye hurts more than it did before#pal... my dude... my amnesia husband.... Dabi literally destroyed your eye and it had to come out I'm sorry#and Yabureme immediately realizes that he can no longer protect Shigaraki at full capacity#even though it's arguable that that part of his life is over... the programming won't let him acknowledge it yet#so he panics#and reacts badly#tw eye strain#but basically the short answer to this question is... implying that he can't fulfill his duty#it's not even a conscious distress but a... survival one?#like. your whole self realizing that your purpose cannot be fulfilled before your brain does. so your body reacts faster#panic attacks? lashing out? yeah...#first session of therapy starts a few days after this incident SKDFGKSDFG
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Hello, hope you're doing well. I read through your Chrollo works and really enjoyed the way you portrait him! I wanted to ask: how do you think Chrollo would react if he was confronted about how his past changed him from the kid he used to be and his lack of understanding himself as well as the lack of a proper identity without the Troupe. Sorry if it's worded wrong or weirdly, English isn't my first language. Thankyou!
(Omg, omg, omg, omg, my first ask! Keep it cool, Pen. Keep it cool...) I'm also not sure if you wanted Yandere Chrollo or regular Chrollo, so I'm gonna start with the more popular Yan!Chrollo, then do regular Chrollo.
(Yan!:) Ok, well, this is a really interesting one! You see, his reaction will depend on how you do this. Are you asking him this angrily as a way to get him upset or at the very least, shut him up and get him to think for a moment? Because if so, he'd definitely think for a moment before replying. But it's not too much, though. Maybe a solid 45 seconds before he responds with him speaking in riddles as he walks off to think some more. He'll be really quite for a while, then when your trying to sleep at night, he'll provide you with a genuine answer. (Yan! Chrollo + Regular Chrollo:) If you're more nice about it, like you're genuinely curious, and you tell him you need to talk seriously and sit him down, he'd react differently. To answer his past changing him, he'd say something along the lines of, "hm...yes. My upbringing certainly did change me, but...who cannot say the same. While I used to be more innocent with a child-like wonder, we all have to mature at some point. So no mater what would have happened, I would have grown up, anyway. Fate has....a rather interesting way of doing things." He'd think a for a little, but not too long. As long as he has fate as part of an answer to a reply, he thinks deeply, but never long. "As for the lack of understanding...well, you're not wrong there. There's just...no other way of putting it, is there? Yes...I'm not sure of who, or even, what I am. The key to understanding myself was...lost many years ago. And yet, I still remember it perfectly to this day...." He stays silent for a moment before responding to the next statement. "And....true. I am nothing without the Spider. I am only the head. And no one can identify only the head of a species as small and powerful as a spider. I put everything into the Troupe. I made many sacrifices. I, perhaps even, put myself so far into the Spider that... even I cannot take some of it back. Including myself..." He speaks in riddles as usual, and doesn't really answer your concerns unless you ask him a specific question such as the why's and the how's and stuff. But later on you understand what the last part meant: He sacrificed so much that he even gave up who he was just so he could create a group whose legacy would live far beyond he would when he meets his inevitable death. Maybe that's why he's not afraid of death? Because he's already all set with the everything he's ever wanted. Or maybe it's a fate thing. Who really knows what's going on in Chrollo's brain?
#I'm so sorry but you didn't really specify any questions#you just asked what would happen if he was confronted#but that wasn't really specific#So I tried to keep the answers vague#sorry if thats not what you wanted but I tried#i write for you#chrollo#chrollo x reader#yandere chrollo#yandere chrollo x reader#writing for you
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HELP maybe this is influenced by how I'm writing this, or maybe it was supposed to be gleaned from canon and I just. Haven't fully thought about it til now. Haven't Deeply analyzed it beyond the blaring alarm bells that go off when reading this. But. Alfonse's,
Straight into.
This isn't him doubling down. This is him BACKTRACKING. This is him going, "oh fuck I think maybe I came on a little too strong maybe I was a bit too vulnerable and that's really scary. How do I fix this" and he's running through all the dialogue options in his head like Okay. Play it Cool. Keep it Casual. Proclaim your undying loyalty and devotion to your Trusted Partner (person he just told in the beginning of this conversation that he didn't intend to become friends with) by making yourself a blade and shield for them. NAILED IT 👍
#fire emblem#feh#ALFONSE. PLEASE. COME ON MAN#HUUUUUGE FUCKING EPIPHANY FOR ME THOUGH as i'm writing/drawing bc that last line i've been struggling w the most#but this. add some moe lore. I HAVE HUGE IDEAS ABOUT THE MOE LORE IN TANDEM W THE CANON IMPLICATIONS.#in short/minimal spoilers if i forget to expand on it later BUT IT'S SO HUGE TO ME. SO HUGE#but i think alfonse has Noticed. things about moe. similarities to himself. but it either#doesn't know it or refuses to acknowledge it. he isn't sure which yet. so when he says 'i hope you feel the same'#he's reaching out ala pre-skip dimitri fbs. asking moe to Consider This. AND. AND. IN TANDEM.#w the canon implications. that he doesn't think highly of himself and doesn't dare wait for an answer#AND. AND. HELP THERE'S A MOMENT THAT'S SO FUCKING FUNNY. he just commits a Blunder#that even moe's autistic ass catches him on. it all happens So quickly. in a fucking instant.#WHICH. WHICH. LED TO ME REALIZING THIS. he is trying TO CATCH HIMSELF HERE.#AND THE. ADDITION. of moe lore/the blunder why he tries to move on So quickly. please do NOT ask me questions i WILL throw up.#ALSO LIKE book 3 alfonse fresh in my mind. i did take a break after The Incident (gustav).#but like. goes so insane actually. this is really all he knows how to be. constantly in service to others. made to be a tool.#it's so fucked up bc you can see he is genuinely wired like that too. he WANTS to help. he wants to do good#but man................... i def don't have the words for it rn it's just so tragic. but i think about it All The Fucking Time.#GOD SORRY I'M HAVING ANOTHER ALEAR FB MOMENT. ALFONSE. ALFONSE.#cut off that tangent just to make a whole other post about it.#fe alfonse#moe tag#TAGGING IT. bc i rambled about it in the tags and it's MY OC I MAKE THE RULES 😤😤😤😤😤
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please tell me about the pigments i would love nothing more than to hear you talk about that one shade of red you like and the process it took too recreate it
... oh, op. you have no idea what you've unleashed.
alright. here we go.
OKAY SO THE RED PIGMENT. pr206. my beloved. my dearest friend. it was an absolute bastard to find because there are so many of these. however many you think there are, there are MORE, and that's only if you don't count the many many scenarios where colors are known to be multi-pigment mixes, usually varying in tone/shade/intensity depending on the brand and manufacturing style. some colors are more consistent than others, but there are situations where a color can be named the same and contain the same pigments and STILL look wildly different depending on the ratio, binder, and paper you use. and that's not accounting for the way the pigment is processed. some pigments (like pv19 for example) can come in so many shades it's frankly kind of ridiculous.
anyway, my quest begins when i am, admittedly, in an edgier phase. i want a blood red, but not specifically because of that—no, i want it because it is THE IDEAL COLOR (to me) for a perfect, warm, slightly muted but still intense shade to add to a muted autumn watercolor palette. and... if you look at my whole theme, you probably know how much i love warm colors. i want to paint mushrooms. i want to dim down some of the brighter greens to make them autumnal. i want the perfect red to put as an undertone.
the search starts in earnest.
the immediate issue is this: reds (and purples and pinks) have horrifically bad lightfastness. not all of them, mind, but many are NOTORIOUS for fading under uv light, which means they will also fade if exposed to sunlight even in passing should it happen often enough. and—in especially bad cases where they're essentially working with dye and not pigment—they can even fade inside your notebook. inside of a drawer.
so not only are we working with an unfortunate pigment base (i'm simplifying here, there's way more nuance to this but shh) but we are working with one that skews heavily toward floral pinks or oranges. the red i'm searching for is warm, but not orange. dries dark but not brown. is transparent, not opaque. that last part is agonizing, because i also desperately do not want a color that will fade on me or generally destabilize, and most of the stable dark red pigments are EARTH pigments like red ochre (pr101) or the like. which, while fascinating because of their historical usage in things like pottery and even cave paintings that last to the modern day, are VERY OPAQUE. this is an issue with my preferred style of watercolor painting specifically, because opaque pigments tend to lift easier off the page and limit layering.
the search continues. pigment after pigment breaks my heart for one reason or another, drying too close to the cooler purpleish-red tint of wine at best. i think i find it in perylene maroon, but the drying shift (the difference between how a color looks wet vs after it dries on the paper) is so extreme that it loses the luminosity AND it's more opaque than most. i languish.
for a while my search turns to creation. i try and mix as many of my single pigment colors as i can into something that vaguely resembles what i'm looking for���so i take quinacridones and mix them with napthols, with nickel azos, with dashes of ultramarines and burnt sienna. everything turns out either just a bit too opaque, just a bit too muddy (that happens with multi-pigment mixtures, and is why so many people swear by single pigment colors. it's personal preference, really, great art can be made either way.)
still, nothing works. failure haunts me. i sit before a pile of used up watercolor paper that is literally covered edge to edge in nothing but similar red squares with various gradients and blooms as evidence of when i tried and failed to convince myself my efforts were close enough. i admit defeat.
in the meantime i shift my focus. i try and appreciate different color palettes and profiles, experimenting with things like fully transparent palettes (personal favroite) to fully opaque ones that function more like gouache. but despite finding appreciation for it, i still think about the damn red that i could never recreate. it kills me.
and then one day, a youtube video. a pigment is being discontinued, and the watercolor community is distressed. this happens a lot, because pigments are actually not always popular because of artists—sometimes beloved colors are put out of production because larger markets like car companies no longer find them popular enough to invest in. this time, the casualty is pr206, aka brown madder, aka quinacridone burnt scarlet.
let me tell you a little about quinacridones. they are genuinely remarkable colors. they have their own cult followings because of how bright and abnormally stable they are under uv light. they're transparent. they're luminous. they come in mostly shades of red and pink and purple, though there are a couple oranges and yellows in there. (there are no quinacridone blues, as far as i'm aware, but the phthalo blues have that category covered.) they also rewet beautifully, so you can put them on your palette and let them dry and not worry about it turning into a useless little rock of color that you can't get any pigment from anymore.
quinacridone magenta (pr122) is probably the most popular of these, the most often used besides maybe quinacridone violet (pv19). a few years prior we suffered the loss of quinacridone gold (po49) and since then people have been On Alert when it comes to losing these colors. i am one of them, because i never got the chance to even see po49 in person, and now the tubes are so stupid expensive that even the student grade versions go for Ridiculously High Prices on ebay, and the professional brands are being hoarded like (ironically) gold by anyone lucky enough to have a tube left over.
but back to our main character. not me, the pigment. pr206. i have legitimately never heard of this one, which to be fair is probably because i try to limit the random colors i fixate on since the hobby can easily get VERY expensive if you aren't careful. but it's a quinacridone, and that catches my eye.
i open the video.
now, i'm sure any artist out there will be familiar with the fact that screens don't display color consistently. it depends on your device, but most can agree that something that looks cooler on one may be warmer on the other, it's just what happens. but i see this color being swatched, and my brain implodes.
it's almost a perfect match.
it could work. it could. years of thinking that same thought have left me bereft and mistrustful of this specific quest marker, but the thought refuses to leave me. probably because the 'discontinued' label flashes like a neon sign.
i resist for about six months, and then i cave. at this point i have genuinely been trying and failing to find this color for upwards of five years. i am desperate, and the color might not be available anymore soon anyway, and apparently i am weak to sales pitches. (note: the color IS now unavailable in some brands, but others bought a decent supply and should have it available for at least a little while, alongside po48 which is quinacridone burnt orange, a favorite of mine and probably one of the only oranges i use regularly. both are discontinued officially, but they'll still be on sale till those supplies run dry.)
the color arrives. i grab my favorite brush. i pull out my stash of paper that i save for special occasions.
it's almost perfect.
i mix it with quinacridone burnt orange.
the result is, i swear, a perfect match for what i have been searching for.
it's warm. it dries dark but not dark enough to look brown. it keeps its luminosity (thank you quinacridones). it's fully transparent (thank you quinacridones). i genuinely feel the urge to weep, but i don't because i am clinging at last to the dredges of my sanity and also salt makes watercolor pigments behave differently and i will not risk this glorious moment. finally, after all these years, bill cipher has a gun i found the goddamn COLOR.
i mix it with warm yellows and with my favorite blues. with the pinks, just to laugh. life is beautiful and i am painting its sunsets, and i do not care if they look ridiculously messy. i have won.
the moral of the story is to never give up. or maybe it's to remember you never actually know everything about even the fields you love the most, because this color totally blindsided me despite being much more common than i expected. or maybe it's that i seriously needed to chill out for a while.
but yes. that is the tale of one (1) of the colors that has taken up residence in my soul. i hope you don't regret asking now lmao.
#ney's art tips (art questions)#ney's chatter (ask answers)#so also i said that a good alternative to pr206 is pr175#but i'm actually not totally sure about that because i've never tried it myself#watercolor is an expensive hobby and that's part of why i swapped to digital orz#BUT! from comparisons i've seen they are at least similar enough to scratch the itch#ironically i think i still USE po48 more than i do pr206#but that one is also In Discontinued Limbo where you can buy it but supply is indeterminately limited lmao#still a gorgeous color though.#... wow. this was incredibly niche and probably barely coherent i am so sorry LMAO#but thank you for indulging my color madness. it was the only hobby i had for *ages*.#long post#very very long post#good god is this my longest text post? aside from maybe a hive story?
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I cared. I still do. I still think of you and I still cry over you. You were importat to me. You still are.
#I was interested. I wanted to get to know you.#I did not want validation. I only said it because you said it... I don't know why. I was susceptible.#I was blindly accepting certain things that you said about me. Judgement that you had for me.#I was under severe stress from my job at the time; while at the same time dealing with unresolved emotional trauma and very low self worth.#vent#I was burnt out. Crushed... Completely.#I didn't want attention. I did not want you to cure my depression. I though I was just letting you know me. I wasn't aware I was oversharin#I tried... SO HARD to get over the things that triggered me and hurt me but I just couldn't...#I wanted to. I did everything in my might; I took it to therapy; I looked everywhere within me; to either get over it#or completely forget about you and stop caring at all; so things were ok and normal again; but it didn't go away...#I just feel so... unsafe... at the idea of talking again#I know I wasn't the best listener and I profoundly regret that.#I was not only thinking about myself like you said and I was aware of the effort that other's put; but I was afraid/resistant to PRECISELY#that cause of past events with other people. Because in some I was the one putting that effort and ended badly for me. Looking back#that was inappropiate of you because you felt too comfortable generalizing my past relationships and why in your head they failed.#“I cant help but feel you are looking down on people who” Stay away from me if you ever make a stretch like this again.#By “experiment” I meant that you don't know how a relatioship with somebody is gonna turn out until you go and try. That's all I meant.#I didn't want things to turn out this way. I'm sorry they did.#The effort I put for you may have been shit to you. But to me it was a lot. And I'm done taking judgement.#Altho I love my friends I still keep distance. I still can't completely help that. I can go months not talking to my BF.#You were my BF during my teenage years. I remembered you fondly. I still do.#I don't feel ready to talk again having to keep to myself interest that I might have. Related to trauma. I do not feel comfortable with tha#No I do not look at your blogs.#The day I said I was abused I had a panic attack right after that. That's mainly why I had to cut contact: I didn't want another one.#I didn't tell you because I didn't trust you to not say “talk to the void” again. I didn't trust you to want to hear about it. I didnt feel#safe with you anymore. Event tho we ressumed contact I felt that way the entire time.#I wanted to answer all the questions you had; I really did; until I couldn't stand it anymore.#And the day I removed you from discord... I know you probably had an awful day that day... I'm so; so sorry...#I'd like to one day be completely unbothered by assumptions and stuff cuz I know it's not your fault... You went through stuff too...#stuff
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Hi Brandon Sanderson! I'm so curious about your writing process. How do you get all those ideas??
Hello, Cosmereplay. I've never had any issues getting ideas, it's dealing with them once they're in there that's the problem. Ideas can come from absolutely anywhere! Taking an iron suplement can lead to thinking about eating iron and getting superpowers from it, and from that comes Allomancy. Reading a bit about music theory leads to wondering if the rules of sound can be applied to sight, and from that comes the Heightenings. I'm packed full of ideas! The issue is that each book can only hold so many of them before they start to clash. I'm sorry that this wasn't really answering your question, I tried my best.
#Hello#Cosmereplay. I've never had any issues getting ideas#it's dealing with them once they're in there that's the problem. Ideas can come from absolutely anywhere! Taking an iron suplement can lead#and from that comes Allomancy. Reading a bit about music theory leads to wondering if the rules of sound can be applied to sight#and from that comes the Heightenings.#I'm packed full of ideas! The issue is that each book can only hold so many of them before they start to clash.#I'm sorry that this wasn't really answering your question#I tried my best.
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i think bisexual culture is not having a type and watching non-bi's get unreasonably mad at you for it
#bisexual#mine#like i'm sorry i've tried my best to define a type#but my type is whoever smiles at me in a very specific way#and has hair#that's all i can tell you#that's it#don't ask me about color or size or personality#i just start falling in love with them#that's when i know#do not question the process#because there are no answers
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The KING IN BLACK, older than the mortal memory allowed, was still bound in divine form as they surveyed the warrior. Purest black suit of armor, gleaming with shades of scarlet, onyx and… hehe, and something more.
This was momentous! And sad. So very sad.
A lone hand raised in response to honored courage, the SOVEREIGN forced their shadow, their… their madness- their NOTHINGNESS to coalesce into physical form.
FELICIA.
Called back into physical prominence, reduced from her eight foot purity, back to a facsimile of humanity. They- Th... She. She took a breath, finding oxygen on her tongue once again.
❝ Is there something I can help you with, @danversiism? I'm- ❞ And then they fell. Tears down her void-stained face, running black rivers that pulled the remnants of LIFE from her too-sharp maw. ❝ -I'm in the middle of a meal. ❞
SYMBIOTE SIREN
#danversiism#ᴇᴠᴇʀʏ ᴅᴀʏ ᴡɪʟʟ ʙᴇ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀ ʜᴏʟɪᴅᴀʏ; KING IN BLACK.#i would never say 'she's going through something' and expect that to answer all questions#but shorty is going through something and it's not going well for her#i tried to keep this under 150 words i'm so sorry if the quality/context suffered for it#i'm trying not to write too much this month and it's killing me
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*crawls in and drops a lil pumpkin*
Morning Bloo! I think it's morning for you at least-
And lastly (I was staring at this view for so hecking long)
Have a good day! *Pats your lil head*
*KICKS DOWN THE DOOR- SHOVES THESE IN MY MOUTH AND RUNS*
#questions and answers#modellingispainge#I'M LATE REPLYING TO THIS I'M SORRY#this weekend was hectic ough#eats the pumpkin too thank#MAN I LOVE THESE SKY SHOTS#i saw a really pretty one too while i was out the other day#tried to take a photo BUT THE IMAGE GLITCHED OUT#didn't realise til later :(#inspiration
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Me when talking to women: [The most unhinged and explicit filth I've thought abt in the darkest hours of the night]
Me when talking to men: sex? Never heard of it. Best of luck with... whatever that is
#really disappointing for men honestly#like if they were just safer and less creepy and less prone to violence then maybe women would trust them enough to get freaky with them#but alas#literally a man tried to hit on me in a bar in quebec last week#and my ass who had just spent the whole week answering doctor's technical questions in french#had a moment of divine inspiration#so while this man was all up in my space and whispering in my ear i was like... oh haha... i don't speak french sorry...#I'm just an ignorant american who doesn't know any other languages here for the vibes idk!!!#and this man did not speak english and just fully believed me#luckily he did not overhear me ordering from the bartender in perfect french minutes earlier!!#i was shocked at how effective playing dumb turned out to be#but also: if he had respected my space and approached me politely i wouldn't have had to!!
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How would the Prime Tails polycule first date go?
You know, I'm not quite sure what their first date as a whole group would be
Like in all honesty, their real first date is probably something like hanging out at one of Tails' labs or the Grim and just playing games before making dinner together
But if they decide to properly reveal their relationship in a bit more public manner to friends or community members, I think some people would consider their first date the date where they all go out to like a cafe or an amusement park or something.
Well, here's what I'm thinking, just for context. I don't think all of the members of the polycule are hesitant about revealing the relationship, and I can see Sails or Nine assuming that one's first date has to be something more traditionally well known as a romantic first date. Nine is a member of the polycule I can see as having to have a buffer period of getting used to all this before he can feel comfortable being clearly on a date in public, but I can see Tails as someone who doesn't subscribe to the idea of the traditional first date.
So I think because of this their real first date would be more casual. Planned, yes, but ultimately not meant to be public or exciting. And frankly, even if it is just hanging out at the lab, fixing up some stuff, making food together, playing board games or video games, while there will undoubtedly be some hiccups along the way and plans thrown out the window, I think they'll enjoy it in the end.
However, if they decide to make their public first date (when more people know about the relationship) something like going out to a restaurant? Yeah that has the potential to be a disaster. For some reason that sonic boom episode "My Fair Sticksy" comes to mind. So all I can say is that Amy probably gets them a reservation at a nice restaurant, Mangey's not dealing with the change of clothes very well (he's trying), Sails is trying his best to "act proper" and remember the "manner lessons" Amy probably gave them all, Nine is performing to the T, except he's not controlling his expressions as well as he thinks he is (so he's largely got resting bitch face. Partly because he doesn't want to be here), and Tails is trying to play damage control.
I think that kind of "first date" would end up in the group leaving early, Tails leaving a fat tip, and the polycule eating street food together under the stars instead
#sonic the hedgehog#sonic prime#saitaininegy#tailscest#tails the fox#miles tails prower#nine sonic prime#miles nine prower#nine the fox#sails sonic prime#miles sails prower#sails the fox#mangey sonic prime#miles mangey prower#mangey the fox#anon interview#sorry this one was a bit rambly#I'm not quite sure if I got this all across well‚ but they all have different ideas of romance‚ how they should make their relationship#publicly known‚ what a date is to them vs what the ideal first date should look like‚ etc#I tried to answer as best I could‚ but the truth is that I feel like they'd all disagree on what their first date really was and their#relationship will not come out publicly as planned (with certain people learning before others too)#So in reality it's all complicated and a mess#but if they had to plan out what they're calling the 'first date'‚ it probably goes more like I said in the post#And if anything‚ I think this polycule kind of started and developed over time with all of them hanging out rather than them deciding to go#on dates‚ so they really would have different ideas on what was a date and likely have technically gone on dates together before they were#officially dating (just not calling them that)#i just be ramblin#it's complicated#Thank you so much for the ask though anon!!#If you have any other questions regarding them or their relationship‚ feel free to shoot me another ask!!😊
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For the ask game: 🏳️🌈, 💎, 🧸
Thank you for asking! („• ᴗ •„)
🏳️🌈 something you wish wasn’t so common in BLs
I'll go with he shipping characters/obsessive BL enthusiast. Sometimes it feels like we are getting away from it and then one makes a surprise appearance (yes i just watched Marry Go Round and while I ended up mostly ok with her, Emmy took me by surprise) and I'm back to
ヾ(`ヘ´)ノ゙ w h y ? ? ?
Even the mildest examples (I'm thinking like Tomoyo and Sakura (...the wasted potential of not giving us a crumb about them being a couple i swear) from Senpai, danjite koidewa who were very respectful and low key about it) make me roll my eyes and sigh now. It's okay, I think we can find other ways to make "audience relatable" characters if that was the point of them.
(but I also have to agree with everyone I saw mention the sleeping kisses, that can go for good)
💎 show you wish people talked about more:
I will have to say The Miracle of Teddy Bear again yeah. I know it's a 2022 release, that it's on the longer side (17 ep of 1+ hour) and it has a polarized reputation, but I feel like it had so much to say, I was completely taken it by it, I think it had a lot of heart, and while a bit heavier than the soap opera/cheesy cheap aspects might initially suggest, it left me with a lot of hope and I haven't stopped thinking about it since I saw it in April.
🧸 friends to lovers or enemies to lovers?
That one's a no brainer for me, I'm a friends to lovers addict every day of the week. I enjoy a good enemies to lovers, I do. But there is something with a long lasting friendship that wants to turn into something else, the knowing the other, the familiarity and already loving them so much, the fear of losing what you have... yeah I am team friends to lovers all the way.
#I started saying sorry for my tMoTB constant propaganda but then I realized I was simply answering the question#- also I guess I *am* allowed to obsess on my own blog lol#so yeah I'd love it if more people tried it! and maybe talked with me about it just throwing that one out there =p#(also saw the first question and my brain blanked for so long - but catch me in two days and I'm sure i'll have three miles long list lol)#thanks again for asking! <3#the ragondin answers
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