#i'm sharing because i want to scream

[theminecraftbee]

okay now that i'm no longer trying to keep a project secret from certain people i can complain publicly about a thing i've been losing my mind about:

why the fuck is the evo wiki like that.

listen. i know. i know fandom wikis being decent entirely relies on whether there are people who both want to obsessively categorize things enough to fill out the wiki, with the free time to do that kind of obsessive categorization, and the desire to manage it all as a wiki. believe me, i know. but please i'm just trying to do research please, please at least bigb's page was just Entirely Empty so i knew i had useless information and just left. why the fuck did the mafia's page, by contrast, have this:

a sentence that is actively LESS USEFUL THAN IF IT WERE NOT THERE.

and then grian's page - GRIAN'S. GRIAN'S. THE ONE PAGE I THOUGHT MIGHT HAVE A SHOT OF BEING FILLED OUT. JOKE'S ON ME I GUESS.

BECAUSE IT HAS THIS????? I'M LOSING MY MIND. WHY ON EARTH IS THE WIKI LIKE THIS. WHY IS IT THIS BAD. PLEASE I'M JUST TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT EVERYONE'S RELATIONSHIPS WITH JIMMY AND MARTYN WERE PLEASE,

anyway thankfully i had friends who could help me with their own knowledge and who also found the evo recap but in conclusion i have been being driven mad by this for weeks, thank you for coming to my ted talk.

[another-tevinter-heist]

OKAY OKAY OKAY

So below is a screenshot of my tags on this post courtesy of @dreadfutures and I didn't want to steal the post from it's original point BUT I JUST REALIZED.

Think of all the characters in each of these games that is telling the story of our character that is getting some variation of devoured by the narrative or their role. I've just nearly finished my first full playthrough of 2 and Varric is and has woven this story about Hawke for Cassandra to protect his friend. Is it a true story? Is the Hawke I'm playing even the same as the Hawke that went through these events? How close is the story to representing the Champion of Kirkwall? How is it different to the Tale of the Champion? Varric tries to preserve Hawke through artistry.

Artistry that Solas uses to preserve the Inquisitor.

But the CONTRAST in that! They're already somewhat opposed on what to do with Cole, right? Physicality or spirit? But Varric tries to protect Hawke from the world by telling this larger than life story about his dear friend. Sure it's based on truths, but Hawke was given a spot to hide in that narrative from loving hands. Varric knows the world will take what they want and damn the rest, so may as well hand them something you know they'll take so you can have some control, right? But Solas. Oh, Solas has had this happen to him, as the previous post says! And he must, more than anything, want to have the core of him remembered because has he not lost himself on this hero's path he set himself on? If only there were a depiction, a memory of him, a spirit left who remembered Solas as he was.

So he must paint. He must give the Inquisitor something to remember themselves and their path with. And he carves the Inquisitor out a spot with duty in mind. The kind of duty he hates the Grey Wardens for. The kind of duty he hates himself for. But duty can be corrupted and forgotten, can't it? The Grey Wardens have been led astray, haven't they? But the Inquisitor is still lost to the narrative and weight of their title and their task of stopping him and the things he's done. And what is the Inquisitor left with? Next to nothing but a lonely spot on a lonely hill looking down on a lonely path walked by The Dread Wolf himself.

I'm rambling but I'm pacing over how good Varric and Solas are. Of course it has to be Varric who tries to talk down Solas. Of course it must be. If anyone could carve that spot of love and safety out of this story for the Dread Wolf, who better than Varric fucking Tethras? It's what he fucking does.

[queerdiazs]

wip wednesday

hi frens <3 have a lil eddie and bobby scene while they're in the waiting room at the er because i've written 15k in the last few days and somehow STILL have nothing to share

A hand lands on the back of his neck, drawing him out of his mind. He lifts his face out of his hands, looks up blearily, and asks, “How’s he doing?”  “They’re getting ready to discharge him now,” Bobby answers, combing his fingers through the hair curling on Eddie’s neck. It warms him from the outside in, gentle and soothing. “They’ve got his arm in a sling and ice on his ribs. He’s being taken off the morphine drip now and finally shutting up.” Eddie’s mouth twitches. “I bet he was singing like a canary.”  Bobby winces, put-upon and exasperated. “He told me things I never needed to know,” he says, but it’s lighthearted and relieved and everything Eddie’s feeling Bobby probably is, too. “He’s going home with you?”     He nods. “Yeah.” He stands up and smooths his palm down his jeans—Buck’s jeans, the pair that’s too small but he refuses to get rid of because they fit Eddie. “I went by his place to get some things he’ll need, but he already has half his closet at my house.”  “Will you be okay with that?”  Eddie frowns. “Of course,” he says. His tight-lipped smile isn’t hiding anything—he needs Buck with him right now. He said as much to Maddie on the phone earlier. “It’s Buck.”  “Yeah, Eddie. It’s Buck.” Bobby gives him a funny look, one he can’t decipher, and then smiles and ruffles Eddie’s wispy, loose hair. “Come on. He’s asking to see you.” 

i was tagged by @shitouttabuck <3, @jeeyuns &lt;33, @disasterbuckdiaz, @wikiangela, @try-set-me-on-fire, @jesuisici33, and @fortheloveofbuddie

tagging @eddiebabygirldiaz, @eddiediaztho, @callmenewbie, @honestlydarkprincess, @thewolvesof1998, @theotherbuckley, @eowon, @exhuastedpigeon, @heartshapedvows, @loserdiaz, and whoever else wants to share 🧡

[qilingxiong]

oh the Throw Down (2004) of it all in di feisheng and li lianhua's relationship...

[gremzon]

I might have OCD actually

[housederiva]

i think that other anon meant “big name fan”, which i guess they think might mean you get special privileges for having a popular blog and precludes you from being sent a takedown notice? i can’t think of many examples of bnfs these days but i guess it’s close to like. fandom influencer-lite. those people that got to test veilguard early and tweet about it when the media embargo lifted probably count.

Oh... wow.... I'm flattered someone would think that highly of me. But I only have a couple thousand people following this blog and I've had it for 10ish years (shout out to the people who came with me when I moved blogs last year due to the bot spam i was inflicted with)

In the grand scheme of things I'm absolutely no one. I just never stop talking and I guess people think I'm funny enough for some inconceivable reason to rb from once and a while

Also! Also! Why would I be sent on a takedown notice?!? I have absolutely nothing that needs to be taken down 👁️👁️ The Hollering pdf you've all been expressly asked to ignore has absolutely nothing to do with Dragon Age!!!

[mustlovesteve]

god DAMMIT to make this spicy scene work i gotta add YET ANOTHER CHAPTER to this sequel miniseries because LOGISTICS and HEALTHY COMMUNICATION I GUESS

[cacophonylily]

I regret befriending Merrill. Girl, leave that creepy eluvian alone.

[beetlethebug]

cannot believe i am writing yet another mommy kink fic of Gale and my (male) tav, Quiltrinn'eyl. I fucking love this shit. and it's already shaping up to be longer than the first one.

[caguaydreams]

Hm... never trust how you feel about your life past 9pm or however that goes and stuff, but sometimes I do be pondering what I do on the regular and it gets to me, the silliest things

[icefire149]

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[transannabeth]

wanna make spider-jam an oc superhero because i've wanted to bring back my superhero ocs from like 8th grade especially since i've decided they're all weird and traumatized and insular and spider-jam is like fun and outgoing and cmyk colors

but like the whole thing is that she was bit by a radioactive spider. like that's the joke.

i need a new joke

[tardis--dreams]

I actually realized i hate work. Won't be putting any effort into this anymore ♡

[sherlock-is-ace]

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[musical-chick-13]

It's also just so incredibly frustrating because people will take any example of a (usually male) character being horrible as some sort of "proof" that they're mentally ill (which, hmm, interesting that your automatic explanation for "why do they choose to treat other people horribly" is "they have a mental illness that just Makes Them Act Like That"), but there is no kind of nuanced or critical discussion of media that ACTUALLY (for ill or for good) tries to depict mental illness, and you try to recommend media that handles it well (that might even be good for other, completely unrelated reasons!!) and people just ignore you.

[machidielontheway]

i want to (and did) cry out of frustration because of work and by memory it's the first time it happened

i'm so tired of people doing a bad job and making stupid decisions and having to shoulder that weight months later when it's so late to see it and scrambling to find solution