#i'm putting off the new tattoos and piercings i want because i always do that and then i get sad that i don't have them yet
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the-casbah-way · 1 year ago
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i'm not doing anything !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm not fucking doing anything !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just sit and rot and worry and yearn whilst other people are out there living and feeling and breathing and experiencing and still i just do nothing !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#'you're young there's still time' you do not understand#i don't do things because i'm unwell. chronically. it won't ever go away !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#that doesn't mean it can't get better i'm sure it will one day#but it will never be what i want it to be#i get so overwhelmed by all the things i'm not doing#i need to stop watching videos and films about people living the lives i want#been procrastinating my hrt shit for ages now even though all i have to do is send two emails and ask my friend for one link#i'm putting off the new tattoos and piercings i want because i always do that and then i get sad that i don't have them yet#i'm putting off my assignments for a degree that i actually enjoy and want to do well in and i do not know why#i'm just WAITING. what am i WAITING FOR. the change is INSIDE OF ME. why am i waiting#i guess i am holding onto safety and predictability because it's the only thing i have control over#i bounce between that and the image of a future me that is completely unattainable#and i tell myself there is no possible middle ground so i just give up#i can't be all the things i want to be. i will never been seen the way i want to be#but that doesn't mean i have to stay stuck like this forever wasting my life feeling miserable about everything#but i still choose to keep doing it every day anyway because i don't know how to stop#is it too much to ask to be a beautiful man who is not technically a man but is perceived as one and gets silly about it#is it too much to ask to be nice and well and attractive and successful#i don't want to be normal. i don't want to be cis. but i would like to be myself in a way that feels right#but i am not brave enough to start doing anything about it
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soffpisces · 11 months ago
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enhypen’s reaction to your new piercing!!
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enhypen hyung!line x gf!reader
warnings: needles, piercings duh, suggestive for jake’s and hoon’s, kissing, ungodly amount of pet names, uhh touching?, mdni
masterlist
heeseung- lip piercing
“okay baby, close your eyes,” you say to his sitting form on the bed whilst peaking from behind his door. you had called him before arriving at the dorm saying you had a surprise for him, and now here you two were.
he closes his eyes and gives a nervous laugh. “should I be scared right now?”
“maybe!” you tease, giggling while you make your way into the room. “okay. now pucker your lips…”
he makes an unsure face but does it anyway, knowing you wouldn’t do anything to hurt him.
you slowly bring your face closer to his and softly kiss his lips. the ring hugging your lip feels cold as it presses between the two of you.
he audibly gasps at the feeling of something that’s not usually there when he kisses you. pulling away, he takes your jaw and pulls you back so he can get a good look at your piercing.
“baby! is this real?!” you weren’t sure how he would react, but he didn’t seem like he disliked it, at least.
running your tongue over it, you giggle, “yes, silly! it’s not a prank.”
"did it hurt, baby doll?" he's instantly concerned as he thoroughly inspects your bottom lip, lightly pressing on it as he does.
"nah, not really," you mumble whilst he curiously brushes over the ring. "do you think it's cool?"
"oh baby, you're the coolest," he tells you with stars in his eyes and a gentle kiss on your lips.
jake-belly button
to put it lightly, jake was probably more excited than you for your piercing appointment. when you first told him you were planning to get your belly button pierced, he almost bounced off the walls with excitement.
"what do you think about me getting my belly pierced?" you ask him randomly one day, just chilling in his room. he instantly perks up at this, looking up from his phone and looking at you excitedly. you swear you could see his tail wagging behind him.
"baby. i would probably come in my pants." you have never seen him this serious about something... ever.
so, this is how you're here at the piercer/tattoo shop. clenching jake's fist in a death grip, as you lie down on the table.
"i feel so vulnerable right now," you say looking up at him, giggling nervously.
"it's okay, i'm here doll." needless to say, he's not very happy that the piercer is a guy and touchin' on his girl's navel (albeit professionally), but he only glares a few times before focusing on you.
“okay deep breath. 1, 2, 3- and you’re done!” the piercer is already expertly securing the jewelry in place when you realize it’s over.
“oh ouchie- you okay baby girl?” you see Jake’s worried face and notice it’s drained of color. he helps you sit up, and your breath hitches at the subtle pain as your torso moves and the sight of the pretty jewelry in the mirror.
“wow, i love it! i didn’t even feel it!” you say excitedly, admiring your new piercing in the mirror.
the grip jake had on your hand slowly loosens, and you look back to see him almost collapsing onto the piercing bench, looking like he just saw a ghost.
“holy shit, babe. you look so hot”- he says faintly, taking a shaky breath, “but i shouldn’t have watched.”
jay-conch
as jay’s girlfriend, of course you had to get the iconic conch piercing. he was actually the one that wanted you to get it first, though. you had immediately agreed because- what a cute couple activity!
“should i be expecting to pass out from the pain?” you ask him in the car as he drives to the location. your hands fiddled with a random straw wrapper, trying to keep yourself from being too nervous.
“stop looking at pain levels on reddit,” he jokingly scolds you. “you’re just gonna freak yourself out, doll.”
“what if i pee myself or like throw up on the piercer??” you knew you wouldn’t actually, but thinking of the worst case scenarios always takes the edge off.
he laughs at you and pats your leg gently. “if you do, i’m getting it on video.”
for the rest of the ride he placates your whines of worry with loud singing to “highway to hell” by ac/dc… quickly, you regret coming.
the piercer turned out to be a really cool-looking 20-something girl who smelled like weed and strawberries (you digged it). safe to say, you were in good hands, and your nerves calmed down as you all joked with each other.
“alright so, it could bleed a little so i’m just gonna put this cloth over your shirt,” she starts getting the equipment ready, “remember deep breaths and 1,2,3!”
it took every bit of two seconds to get the needle through since the cartilage is so thick, and the whole time you’re squeezing the life out of jay’s hand.
“that’s my tough girl! hurts real good right?” and goddamn, it hurt worse than you thought.
“fuck jay, why’d you put me through that,” you joke to him, letting out your breath.
the mirror is handed to you as she finishes putting the back on, and your eyes light up at the new addition. it looks actually so cute.
“yea, hurts like a bitch,” she starts, “you want me to snap a picture for you two?”
you both nod eagerly and thank her for the piercing and the picture of your two ears side-by-side. the matching jewelry was a perfect idea.
“my little mini-me looks so cute,” he coos, kissing your cheek as you both leave the shop.
sunghoon- back dermals
you honestly felt like hot shit getting these piercings and couldn’t wait to show hoon. although, you weren’t the type to boast about things like this, so you decided to nonchalantly soft-launch your new piercings hoping to get a surprised reaction from him.
for your outfit, you landed on low-waisted fold-over leggings and a slightly cropped shirt. this way, you could be comfortable just going to his dorm but also feel confident he would pay extra attention to your figure.
“so i was thinking we could just play smash bros and whoever loses has to make ramen or we could up the stakes”- there’s an audible pause in his explanation as you both walk to his room. he’s catching you by your hips before you’ve even made it through the door.
“wait- what are these?” his thumbs start caressing the skin around the jewels as he inspects your lower back.
“oh, those? i got them the other day,” you giggle, “you like them?”
“baby. you’re so”- he cuts himself off before he embarrasses himself. does he like them? what a fucking question. he’s going to ruin you!
“you don’t like them?” you pretend to pout at him. of course you knew he was actually popping a boner right now.
“if you don’t get in this room right now, i am going to take you right here, in this hallway.” pfft. does he like them. what a stupid question.
ermmm slowly becoming a hyung!line writer sorry:3 lmk if there’s any warnings i missed!!!
status: geeked and hoping u like this post❤️‍🔥
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littleplushyprincess · 14 days ago
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I'm 21. She/her. Bisexual 🏳️‍🌈. Lover girl. Virgin </3. Mostly a sub. l like it gross :) I don't tag individual posts but general warning on my blog for fauxcest, (mostly soft) cnc, age play-ish. I also reblog/post personal + random sfw stuff. New to this side of tumblr, still figuring things out. ❣️ (Much) more about my likes and dislikes below!
Put your age on your profile ! Minors DO NOT interact. Misogynists DO NOT interact and kys instead.
Back-up is @happytrail-enthusiast ❗️
Very happy to receive pervy asks (or just friendly ones lol), especially from older guys 🩷 I’m happy to make mutuals, both as friends or something else :)
I don’t reply to dms if you don’t even follow me, you aren’t respectful or if your blog is empty. (If you’re messaging from a sideblog just lmk.) More dm rules below ⬇️
(a lot) more about me:
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name: you can call me kiddo, kid, bunny, puppy, sweetheart, princess, angel etc — you get the idea 🤭 also adding ‘little’ in front of it is always something i like 🙂‍↕️ unless you just wanna be friends then i can give you an actual name in dms :)
instructions: i’m a sub and i require lots of attention and validation with a daily dose of nasty asks 🦋 handle with care!
what i’m doing when i’m not touching my pussy to your posts:
i’m an English literature and linguistics master’s student (with very good marks so please be proud of me <3 i think i deserve a reward?)
i’m a yapper first and foremost
i’m from the UK but live in Germany (CET)
a few random interests of mine are: marvel (deadpool, wolvie and spiderman are my favs), challengers, linkin park, silly pop punk from the 2000s, ACNH & sims 4 (wicked whims and me 🤝), i collect funko pops and plushies 🧸 i love the colour pink 🩷
i love Game of Thrones & House of the Dragon (and not just cause of the !ncest)
also i’m probably autistic lmfao
if you wanna know anything else about me just ask :)
what to imagine when you’re jerking off to me/ what i look like:
i’m 5’2/159cm
i’m slim but not skinny, with D-cup boobs (DD when I’m on my period), and my legs are my fav body part on myself <3
i have pretty, curly hair and cute nose piercings and a few tattoos and i def want more!!
i’m quite girly but half of the time i live in my comfy pyjamas that usually consist of some oversized graphic tee and cute panties and socks 💖
my type:
i don’t have a specific type in men but i do like em tall (and i’m short so that’s easy)
i prefer older guys (up to ~55 y/o as long as you’re attractive) but my age is definitely good too and younger works sometimes :)
i go insane over big (natural) muscles but don’t mind skinny or slightly chubby guys at all :)
i loove body hair on guys but i like the hair on the head mostly short
i like confident (not cocky!!) guys but i’m also into shy, awkward nerds
so all in all i’m just very into guys in general lol
intelligence in men is so sexy to me (because frankly there aren’t that many of you </3) but i can’t lie I’d let a himbo fuck me silly...
relationship status / a slut in theory but not (yet) in practice: i’m single and i’ve never been in a relationship or dated (or had sex 💔) because i’m shy and introverted and there are only gay guys in my degree anyway (who i love sm but i can’t fuck them)
dm rules 💌:
dms are open and nsfw is fine (but don’t send pics without asking first or messaging at least a little bit)
practise proper communication and consent
i hate having to text first 🥺 and i get shy sometimes so pls help me out <3
i know we’re all here for the same reason but don’t reduce me to something purely sexual. At least pretend to give a bit of a shit about me lol and be respectful
fast replies and double texting make me happy :) and i need a lot of encouragement from you pls <3
i’m not looking for a relationship on here but i do prefer to get comfortable with you first and dm more than just a single time :)
i find texting non-sexually super fun too
i don’t like when people take themselves too seriously so even if we have a nsfw convo we can still talk normally lol <3
if you just write ‘hi’ and nothing else when you’re messaging me for the first time i probably won’t know how to respond
it’s fine if you’re busy but please just let me know if you (suddenly) have to be MIA for a bit and it’s all good <3
that being said i try not to be on here too early in the day (haven’t ever managed to stay away so far but maybe one day i’ll get discipline!) so if i’m not replying to your dms that might be why (i’m in CET 🕰️ )
all i ask is that you have more than one braincell and can actually hold a conversation 🙏🏼
also i will probably think you hate me if you use no emojis at all :(
if you ask nicely before sending them then i’ll probably go feral and drool over your 🍆 pics (or less explicit pics too)🤍 (but pls don’t be delusional, no need to ruin the fantasy if you’re ugly because i will not continue the convo)
asking me to send pics after i’ve already said no gets you blocked
obviously i have the right to not reply to you or stop replying if i feel uncomfortable but as long as you’re nice that shouldn’t happen :)
i get jealous so don’t mention other women? (that should go without saying but apparently not)(i’m not expecting to be the only woman you’re talking to on here and that’s fine but keep it to yourself)
i like girls too but that’s not what i’m on tumblr for but i’d love to make girl mutuals/friends 🥰
i’m into:
fauxcest fauxcest fauxest!!! pls someone be my dad or big brother i’m begging, praise (makes my heart and pussy go 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫), dd/lg, being a liittle bit of a brat, being lightly slapped, piss (slightly), being spanked (ass & pussy), creampies and everything to do with cum and sweat and spit, (fake) breeding, primal play, mmf threesomes or a bf watching me and another man have sex and liking it, this sounds obvious but i love dicks and balls so so so much i will die over them i love nothing more than watching men jerk off in all types of ways 🩵 i also like mlm/mxm stuff and like to imagine being one of the guys (don’t ask me what that says about my gender identity because i don’t know)
bsdm test:
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quite vanilla i think🍦 but i’m addicted to ¡ncest fantasies 😋🤤
❌ i don’t like:
mom x daughter fauxcest, toilet stuff, nappies/diapers, feet, the word ‘cunnie/y’?, choking, genuine violence, rough degradation without any praise, master/slave dynamic (compared to general dom/sub stuff which i obsess over), traditional gender roles beyond sex, bondage, actual pregnancy, c*rpse stuff, anything beyond a few drops of blood although period blood is fine, food/weight stuff
(i don’t mind if you like any of these things pls still feel free to interact but these kinks are not for me and understand that i might not follow back if you post about them <3)
💕 if you read this entire post you’re legally required to send me any type of ask or dm, ask me something about myself, tell me something about you etc etc 🤭
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shot-kickers · 3 months ago
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All the future episodes make me sad and like everyone else I'm not immune to making my own Teen AU in order to let the Simpsons kids have some fun! This teen AU ends up going into a college one too but we can talk about that one later for now here's some silly teen designs for Bart and his friend group.
Season 30's 'E My Sports' put these guys on a team together and then never did anything with them as a group ever again but I liked the idea of them all being a rag tag group of friends when they got to high school so the Evergreen Terrors team name lives on!
Design notes are under the keep reading because I like to yap!
Bart is the leader of this operation and still the top school prankster whose shenanigans always end up on the front page of the school's newspaper (Partly because they're an inconvenience to the students and staff but also partly because he has men on the inside and by that I mean Rodd and Todd Flanders run the school paper together!) Design wise I just went mostly off of what he wears in the future episodes, mostly Future Drama and Barthood since they take place in teen timelines more than the others, as well as looking at old skating magazines I had saved for personal projects that I thought would be a nice nod to his skater boy vibe. You'll see with Lisa and Maggie later but the number of piercings the kids have are the same as the order they are in the family, Bart has one, Lisa has two and Maggie has three! He and Milhouse have matching Itchy and Scratchy tattoos since in this AU they'd be 18, Bart doesn't bother hiding his tattoo from Homer and Marge even if they disapprove of it but Milhouse tries (and fails) to hide his from Luanne and Kirk for as long as he possibly can.
Milhouse is still unfortunately Milhouse so he's still a bit insecure about himself and his parents won't let him dress 'cool' so he makes do with what he can like buying his belts from Hot Topic and layering his clothing, even if he has to tuck his shirt in so the belts can be seen by his peers. He has a silly little nerd bag and he got new glasses for moving up to high school but alas, some things never change and bullies ended up breaking them but he taped them up to look cooler instead of getting new ones. I wanted to give him like starter emo hair where he's just started growing it out like the cool kids but it doesn't make him look cool he just looks like a nerd instead. I'm not the biggest fan of beefy teen Milhouse I think it's more fun if he's still just a bit of a nerd. His badges and stickers on his trumpet case are references to Space Mutants, Life in Hell, Fall Out Boy, Radioactive Man and his dad's Can I Borrow A Feeling?
Nelson took to hanging out with Bart and Milhouse after Jimbo, Dolph and Kearney graduated and at the point this AU takes place he considers them close friends (not that you'd catch him telling them that though but I'm sure they've picked up on it over the years) He and Lisa have been on a few more dates over the years but whether or not they stay together at any point well who really is to say right now, but they are still close friends! I also like to think that Nelson's gotten pretty good at his guitar playing by this point, his singing though maybe not so much. Design wise I fear I was in the dark canon wise since they don't feature teen nelson a lot in the teen timelines so I just went with the vest TM and made it more of a battle jacket since my mum had one and hers was covered in all sorts of patches and pen doodles from her friends and the metal bands she used to listen to. I thought that since the vest in canon is clearly used to symbolize Nelson's relationships with people (Bart getting sentimental over it at the end of the episode where he and Nelson were friends, him giving it to Lisa when she was cold at the end of When Nelson Met Lisa/Lisa wearing it at the end of Barthood when the two are going out together) that eventually he lets his friends add things to the jacket within reason since it still has to look cool after all, nothing cutesy just heavy metal and wicked cool motifs. Because of this Bart gets to doodle on it, Milhouse has accidentally stained it with bleach during a prank at school and Martin and Sophie have given him some cool patches and buttons they find while out and about. The ONE uncool patch that stays on the jacket however is the recycling one, gifted of course by Lisa during their relationship at some point and he cares a bit too much to remove it after the break up. You can't see it in this image but the back of the jacket has a whole flannel panel sewn into the back of it from one of his dad's old flannels, something about having a piece of someone close to you with you despite them no longer being present in your life. I also let him grow out his hair because I imagine that at some point Mrs Muntz was able to afford a fancy barber to cut Nelson's hair for school and he fucked it up so bad that Nelson vowed to never cut his hair again!
Martin is struggling due to pushing himself so hard in order to meet the crazy high exceptions his family have for his future and he still remains the school's biggest teacher's pet as a result. He's leader of the mathletes and is trusted by almost every member of staff as he has quite the reputation of being one of the school's most important over achievers, alongside Lisa and Allison Taylor of course. However since he's a friend of Bart's at this point, he's also not above being mischievous in order to let off steam and Bart, Milhouse and Nelson all take great joy in getting goody two shoes Martin in trouble with them, even if he can use his reputation with the teachers to get out of the detention the others land themselves in. Springfield's school system already has a low turn out of top student alumni so I imagine that they get their top students out of trouble when they do things wrong in order to produce a more impressive track record to outsiders. Design wise I just went for big nerd but I also wanted small hints that as much as he tries to keep up his usual silly and whimsical appearances he's still mega stressed underneath, like his socks not being evenly pulled up and his little head hairs being a bit frazzled. I also had to keep his little chest pocket where he stores his pens cause it's a fun part of his usual design. I also gave him a big backpack he uses to carry every textbook under the sun which often would get him picked on by bullies like usual.
Sophie kept hanging out with Bart as the years went on and over time eventually she was considered to be a part of the gang, especially once the kids got to high school. She's still an avid gamer and I imagine she plays just about anything from survival horror to farm simulators. Her Skyrim mods go crazy I bet. Outside of that though her passion is still classical music as she practices her violin religiously and also helps out with her dad's live music on The Krusty Show as a part time job outside of school hours. She's also in the school marching band along with Milhouse, Lisa and Allison and is equally as passionate about that as she is with her violin practice. Design wise I thought she could be vaguely tomboyish but with a bit of a girly flair to it, the one future episode she is in she's getting married to Jimbo so figuring out what she'd wear was pretty hard since there wasn't a lot to go off of (Her necklace is from that episode because her neck looked too bare without something around it)
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satancopilotsmytardis · 1 year ago
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semi-public sex maybe with vampire shig and that possessive dynamic?
Pairing: ShigaDabi
Contents: Semi-Public Sex, Blood Drinking/Kink, Possessive Behaviors, Anal Fingering, Anal Sex, Cum Eating
He has never been a fan of doing work out of places like Pulse, but unfortunately, the number of vampires in the PLF is dismal. They need the supernatural element in their army if they want to keep pace against the heroes, and once he has access to all of All For One, he'll be able to give quirks and copies of quirks freely. Something that will only benefit them to the fullest effect if their soldiers don't start losing their minds to the extras. Something only nomu and vampires can do. So more vampires in their numbers are needed. And the best place to find vampires are in clubs like Pulse, which cater to their needs. Tomura can't help but wonder how many of the humans here are thralls, how many are tourists in over their heads, how many are just looking to get turned, but there are more humans than there are vampires which is generally what's preferred in places like this. Because more humans means that everyone can feed to their heart's content without the bodies starting to pile up. 
He hates doing business with other vampires, especially since Dabi is sitting at his elbow. Especially, especially since he hasn't had reason to give Dabi any of his blood lately, hasn't tasted the other man's tears in weeks between work and his training to use All For One. Which means that Dabi is an unclaimed human in the club and he's been turning down drinks and other offers since they walked in. Tomura is well-aware that this is a hell of his own making. That he's the one who has been avoiding having any kind of serious conversation about making Dabi his, hasn't wanted to do that because it can make his firefly more susceptible to suggestions from him. Values Dabi's independence and mind, doesn't want to risk turning him into a thrall, not sure he has enough control yet to keep from slipping. However, he also hasn't wanted to tell Dabi that. The League, the rest of the PLF, all seem to be under the impression he's a born vampire and it's an illusion that there's value in him keeping if he wants more vampires in their numbers.
But if one more person tries to get his firefly's attention--
"Dabi?" He and the arsonist look up from the conversation they were having with the head of a family that he's hoping will join. 
His firefly blinks, and then he grins at the lanky dark blue haired vampire who spoke. His style is similar to Dabi's, leather, mesh, a smattering of piercings across his features, and a large tattoo wrapping around his neck, marred in the place where he was turned. "Simon? Shit, long time no see." 
Yuto Kunimoto's brow lifts, looking a little more interested than he was a moment ago. "You know this one, Simon?" Can smell the blood between the two of them. Simon must have been sired by Kunimoto. 
"Yeah, Dabi and I go way back. Used to use him for demo on some of your odd jobs, before he disappeared to join up with, well, you." Simon gestures at him. "Forgive me for not shaking your hand, Shun Okuma or Simon Says if you'd prefer." 
"Tomura Shigaraki." He greets, doing his best not to let his lip curl or his smell sour when Simon can't quite keep his eyes off Dabi, when there's a faint tang of arousal in the air between them that tells him very clearly that they didn't just work together. 
Kunimoto clocks it too, "Well, why don't you two catch up? I'm sure we're more than capable of continuing our business?"
And because work always comes first, Tomura swallows his possessiveness and glances at Dabi. But he's clocked how much more susceptible their contact has gotten in this moment as well, and he shrugs lightly, getting up from the table. "Sure, find me when you're finished?" As if he would do anything else. 
It's a fresh form of torture, a new hell, when he has to watch Dabi melt into the crowd with Simon. But he stays put. Work first. 
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Kunimoto is on board. Great. That is an objective win for them tonight, and arguably the most important ally they needed to secure. He is desperately trying to let that thought keep him grounded as he moves from their private VIP room overlooking the rest of the club, down to the main bar and dance floor where Dabi is. Can't see him yet through the crush of bodies, but he knows his firefly's scent anywhere, knows the smell of his arousal too and that nearly has his fangs dropping. He finds he and Simon at the bar, the vampire's shot glass being filled by one of the bartenders on tap for the night, and Dabi with two fingers of whiskey. He can't hear their conversation, white noise filling the air under the heavy base of the music to keep all of the vampires present from overhearing every conversation inside of the building, but Dabi is laughing and Simon has a sly smile. Can smell his interest even stronger too. 
Definitely makes his voice a little clipped when he moves over to them, "Dabi," 
And the laughter dies, Dabi's eyes going sharper and a brow raising. "Oh, duty calls, it was good seeing you again." 
"Yeah, you too, know you changed yours, but my number's still the same. Hit me up if you ever want to get together again." 
"Sure, I'll keep that in mind," But Dabi just finishes his drink and slips from his stool. Tomura hopes his eyes aren't glowing as his fingers twitch, wanting to wrap them around Simon's neck until he's nothing but dust. "See you, man." 
He smells the other vampire's lust as Dabi starts to walk away, knows he's staring at his firefly's ass, and nearly snarls. Ends up wrapping his hand around Dabi's arm, grip a little too tight, one finger still away from his skin, and pulling him along to one of the private alcoves. 
Smells Dabi's worry very clearly as they get tucked into the small, dark space away from the rest of the crowds. "Negotiations go that badly?" 
He's not thinking clearly enough to actually respond, instead is pushing Dabi up against the curved wall. His human's scent spikes with his surprise, doesn't normally manhandle him when they're not in the bedroom, doesn't normally touch him when they're not in private. Can't help himself now. Needs his claim on Dabi's skin, sunk into his veins. Needs everyone to know that Dabi is his. Spirals into a much headier scent of arousal when he brings their bodies together into a tight line and starts by claiming the arsonist's mouth for himself. Smoke and whiskey on his tongue, the heady tang of his blood humming just under the surface. The way that Dabi melts into the rough kiss satisfies something primal inside of him as his human gets his hands in the collar of his shirt and tries to pull him even closer. 
The alcove fills with the smell of his arousal, knows his own is tangling into it as well, knows that these hidey-holes were made for this exact purpose, but they shouldn't be utilizing them. They should be more responsible, smarter, they are two of the most wanted criminals in Japan with reputations to protect. Tomura can't give a single fuck about any of that as he lets his hands drag down Dabi's sides. Mesh top with his jacket thrown over top, leaving more of him on display than he ever usually shows anyone but him these days. Shirt so thin he doesn't even need to get his fingers underneath it before Dabi's shivering from his lower temperature even as he pulls him closer as he licks into his mouth. Always likes to tease his tongue along his fangs, always tempting him, daring him to bite. He never does, never has, which is why he thinks it comes as such a surprise to them both when there is blood suddenly filling their mouths. Dabi yelps, pulling away sharply, hand going to his mouth, eyes a little wide. Tomura needs to apologize, but he's never had his firefly's blood straight from the vein before, and as he swallows that taste, he finds himself opening his mouth to lick the traces of that heady tangled flavor of snow, ash, and molten metal from his lips instead. 
And Dabi's scent isn't distressed, it's thick with his desire. Doesn't say anything before he's tangling his hands into his hair and pulling him back in, presses the blood that pooled on his tongue past his lips with a needy moan. The nip to his tongue only bleeds for a little while, only long enough to make him absolutely desperate for more. Tries to distract himself from his growing hunger by dragging his fingers along Dabi's seams, along the sensitive places where he loves to be touched and that turn his human into a mess of pleasure and want. When the first weak moan slips out of him, Dabi pulls away again, distracts him again because there is blood pooling bright and tempting across the unscarred sections of his cheeks. 
"Duster," fuck. He tries to reign in his instincts. The rest of the League don't even know about them, should really not be about to fuck him with nothing but a curtain separating them and a club full of hundreds. Smells a touch of Dabi's nervousness and starts to force himself to move back. Not expecting his firefly to hold a little tighter on his collar. He's not strong enough to pull him closer, not if Tomura doesn't want to move, but he stills. Blue eyes flick to the curtain, and then don't meet his, his face going even hotter with his blush as his arousal grows more insistent. "Here?" And the word isn't a question, it's a plea. 
A plea that strips any self-restraint he was barely clinging to because the next moment he's pressing Dabi up against the wall harder, hooking his hands under his legs and lifting. His firefly knows this well enough, immediately wraps his legs around his hips to help hold himself up as their mouths meet in another frantic kiss. With Dabi's legs spread, with their bodies pressed so closely together, he can immediately feel how hard the other man is against him. Tomura nearly purrs as his mouth moves along his jaw and down the side of his neck, his hands now shifting to his firefly's belt. More than used to the thick accessory by now, manages it swiftly with one hand as the other returns to his seams. Is sucking and licking at his pulse point when he gets it loose and shifts attention to the clasp of his pants as well. He never gives Dabi's neck this much attention. Normally stays away from it, from the temptation of any major veins or arteries so that he doesn't lose control, but he can't pull himself away as he gets his hand around his firefly's cock. Dabi moans, makes his blood smell so much hotter with his arousal and embarrassment, and shoves his knuckles between his teeth. That won't do. 
Forces himself to stop worrying at his neck and reaches for Dabi's wrist, forcing his hand away from his mouth. "Let them hear. I want everyone to know not to touch you, I want them all to know that you're mine." 
"Tomura," his name escapes Dabi on a moan, trying to rock his hips up into his touch. Rewards his eagerness by rubbing along his piercings the way he always likes. Dabi rolls his hips forward, hand fumbling to reach into his pocket and Tomura pulls him away from the wall enough to help him. Knows his eyes are definitely glowing when he produces a packet of lube and pushes it into one of his hands. 
"Planning on getting fucked tonight?" His voice a furious snarl, hand supporting his weight tightening enough he knows he's close to bruising his firefly's skin. 
Dabi's embarrassment is such a distinct smell, one he's gotten so familiar with since they started doing this and he discovered how much the human likes humiliation mixed into their play. "...Wanted you to fuck me like this. Was hoping," and he hears Dabi's heartbeat go a little faster, hears the nervous way he swallows before he barely manages to whisper, "that you would bite me tonight." 
Tomura is pretty sure whatever last tattered shred of his sanity he had finally snaps. 
He usually doesn't use his vampiric speed unless he's in a fight, never uses it in bed with Dabi, but he's definitely going faster than the human can even process when he gets his hands in his waistband and eases them down his thighs low enough for him to give them both with they want, slicing the packet of lube open with a claw and retracting them as he dribbles it over his human's cock before the rest is smeared over his fingers. Dabi lets out another sound of surprise that is quickly lost in a desperate moan as his hand goes back to his cock, and the other goes to start to press inside of his tight hole. 
He's never going to get over how hot Dabi is inside. How he feels like an inferno just waiting to burst free and how fucking good that is around his fingers, around his cock, when he's inside of the arsonist. He's wondered if Dabi's blood will be that hot too against his tongue if he ever took directly from a vein, and he's never let himself before. But Dabi wants it, came here knowing that all of the other vampires, that the constant feeding that is happening in Pulse, and the heady smell of that pressing in on his senses was going to make his thirst so much worse. Came here hoping that Tomura would claim him. He has never been able to deny Dabi anything before, can't help giving him exactly what he wants now. 
Normally he would spend more time getting Dabi's body ready for his cock, doesn't want to hurt the human unnecessarily, But Dabi always wants to move faster and tonight, Tomura lets himself be rushed. He's aching for the human as badly as Dabi is for him, and as soon as he's pulling his fingers out, Dabi's making a pleased sound and reaching for his belt and button too. Has his blunt teeth sunk into his throat as he gets his hand inside of his pants and wraps it around his cock. Doesn't know if he's ever wanted the arsonist as badly as he wants him right now, and he uses his strength to get Dabi back into the position he wants. Doesn't get any protests from his firefly when that means that soon his head is pressing against his wet, twitching hole, but it does earn him his favorite needy little whimpers as Dabi tries to grind against him, to get him inside even faster. But he's willing to wait to ensure,
"You're sure about this? Be mine until my blood is out of your system."
And that does make Dabi hesitate too, his face flushed and his heart beating a little louder. It makes the smell of his blood fill the air even more and Tomura's fangs are aching with the desire to be buried into his throat. "Want you. Please, sir?" Forces himself away from his neck so that he can give his firefly a kiss instead as he starts to press inside, swallowing the loud moan that he knows would have escaped him otherwise. Gives himself a moment to revel in the heat of his firefly's body, in the tight wet clench of his muscles around him, before he starts to move. 
He's never been a particularly loud partner, but Dabi is. And for as much as he seems to have wanted this, was prepared for what being fucked in a semi-public space would entail, he's filling the alcove with the tangled scent of his arousal and humiliation as he tries to bite back his moans and whimpers as Tomura sets them to the fast, rough pace that he knows only works up his firefly more. He keeps one hand to help support Dabi's weight but the other moves back to his cock, stroking in time with his thrusts and making Dabi's moans go louder as his head falls back against the wall, his own hands bunching into the fabric of his shirt desperately as he tries to hold on. Gives him complete access to his throat and he can't wait any longer. 
Tomura has never bitten someone while they're fucking. He likes to be in control during his sexual encounters and he never feels as out of control as he does when he's feeding. Took him two years after being turned to stop binging. Maybe there's a part of him that had kept turning down even the implications of feeding on Dabi because he was scared he would have a drop of his blood and risk killing or turning Dabi because he couldn't stop himself from overindulging. But that fear is gone in an instant as his fangs sink into his neck. Dabi's blood bursts over his tongue, hot with his quirk and so addictive in its flavor, but rich. Just the first swallow is filling his gut with the heavy warmth of a good meal. He couldn't drain Dabi even if he wanted to, would be so drunk on his blood that he might sleep for the first time in years. 
"Tomura, Tomura, ah, ah--" can taste the pleasure building in Dabi's veins as they keep moving together. His thrusts are getting faster, harder, as he feeds, as he tastes how badly Dabi wants him. Tomura thinks he might burn his tongue on the next swallow of the arsonist's blood as he keeps feeding as he chases more of that pleasure in his veins. The carnal enjoyment of their flesh together, the satisfaction of his hunger being quelled so deeply for the first time in years, the way that Dabi's pleasure is becoming his own, all of it makes Tomura suddenly understand why so many of his kind like to fuck while feeding. Sips at Dabi's veins as they build and build their pleasure, his hand moving over his cock faster as his firefly's moans go even louder, his thighs trembling around his hips. Can taste that he's not going to last much longer. Wants to know how much hotter his blood will get when he goes over the edge. 
It's torture to take his teeth from his throat, but Tomura knows his firefly, knows that he needs more than the physical touches to send him over the edge. Does more for him than he's even expecting to see his bite mark bleeding on Dabi's neck. His arsonist is hazy, but manages to pull him into a kiss, blue eyes foggy with his lust, and grip weak from blood loss and his venom. Didn't think he could get any more aroused when he already feels so good with Dabi's body hot and tight around his cock, but it turns into a more aching, insistent need when he sees his claim on his skin. Tomura tries to give him his kiss, but Dabi pulls away quickly, making an unhappy sound when his mouth is immediately smeared with his own blood. He gives a soft chuckle, moving to murmur in his ear, 
"You don't like how you taste, firefly? That's a shame, I've never had someone I wanted as badly as I do you." Feels Dabi's cock twitch against his palm, more pre dripping out of him as he strokes. Always likes knowing how much Tomura wants him. Sees him bite his lip, trying to stifle his sounds again, "What did I say about hiding, baby boy?" Tightens his grip to hold him steady as he snaps his hips forward on the next thrust hard enough that his firefly is going to have bruises just the way he likes. Is immediately rewarded when the next moan tears out of him loud and with a sob. "There, much better. I want everyone to hear those pretty sounds, precious. I want them to smell your blood and wonder how good you taste, I want them to be growling and snarling, wishing that they were the ones buried inside of your tight, needy hole getting you to make those noises." Drags his tongue up the side of his neck, catching the blood that's spilled out from his bite as he keeps moving his hips at that same rough pace, making sure he's hitting his firefly's prostate with every movement. 
Tomura knows the sound of his heart, the sharp little gasps for breath, and the way his muscles twitch and flutter around his cock, knows every sign that his firefly is about to go over the edge again. Can't help purring, "That's it, baby boy, let me taste your pleasure," before he's sinking his fangs back into his skin on the unmarred side of his neck, if only for the pulse of pleasure he gets from feeling his scarred skin break beneath his teeth. Bites him at exactly the right moment, because no sooner is the blood hitting his tongue as his cum is splashing against his palm. He didn't think that Dabi could taste any better, but the flavor of his pleasure is electric. It makes his whole body feel alive in a way it hasn't been in years and now he's taking deep pulls off of his veins as his thrusts grow more erratic as Dabi's body clenches and trembles around him, making his own pleasure so sharp--
He manages to stop feeding only because he can't smother his groan as his orgasm crashes through him and he fills Dabi's pliant body with his cum. Tomura doesn't need to catch his breath, doesn't need to breathe for anything other than smelling or speaking, but it still takes him a minute to reboot his brain when his afterglow hasn't ever felt this good before. But Dabi's heartbeat is slowing and he's slumped against the wall with his eyes shut, breaths getting a little shallow as both sides of his neck bleed sluggishly. Tomura licks away the cum on his palm before sinking his teeth into his own wrist. His own blood doesn't taste any different to him than it did before he turned, and he wasn't fond of the taste then and he still isn't now. But he brings his bleeding wrist to Dabi's mouth and the arsonist blinks his eyes open dazedly. Not confused though, opens his mouth and latches on, sipping at his offered blood with a soft moan of his own because, unfortunately, he's not the first vampire Dabi's slept with. Not the first time he's been drained during sex either, apparently. 
He lets Dabi drink until the wounds on the sides of his neck are closed, licks away the traces of his blood from his skin, and his heartbeat is strong again, a little faster too. Then he takes his wrist from Dabi's lips. The wound closes up immediately, but he barely gets a chance to notice before Dabi's fingers are tangling in his hair again and he's pulling him in for another kiss, much less reluctant about the blood mingling between their lips. Smells Dabi's arousal starting to waft out of his veins again, smells himself sitting inside of them. His claim written into his body. It has Tomura kissing him back just as desperately, as if they hadn't just had each other a few minutes ago. 
Dabi gives voice to both of their need, "Again?" 
Really probably shouldn't. Going to have them both high and drunk on each other's blood if they keep sharing it, but as long as Dabi's heart never stops--
They have more work to do, but he texts coordinates, and a moment later they're both coughing away the sludge of the teleport, alone in the stark quiet of his bedroom. Hasn't even pulled out of his firefly, doesn't plan to as he catches him in another kiss as he carries him over to his bed to overindulge a bit more. Until Dabi's veins are so filled with his claim he'll be able to taste himself for months every time he sinks his teeth into him again. 
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edgessunflower · 2 years ago
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⚓Can I have a ship from Harry Potter, Pirates of the Caribbean & The Walking Dead, please?
I'm pansexual, she/her pronouns. I don't mind being shipped with either gender!
𝑭𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒆𝒔: I'm about 5'5, pale skin, blue/grey eyes, and brown hair. I have many many piercings, and I'm covered in tattoos. I'm curvy/plus size and am body positive.
𝑯𝒐𝒃𝒃𝒊𝒆𝒔: Reading, writing, collecting rings, journaling, tarot. I'm also collecting as many books as I can because I want to have my own library where people can take whichever book they wish.
𝑷𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚: INFJ, Chaotic Good, Gryffindor, Aquarius Sun, Capricorn Moon, Aries Rising, Pisces Venus (this last one might help with the match especially). I'm a passionate person and have strong opinions. I will always stand up for what I believe in, no matter how scared I feel. I think I'm quite witty and intelligent, although I do get overwhelmed quite easily. I'm incredibly open-minded and progressive. I love to laugh and make others laugh too. I'm sensitive, and intuitive and can pick up on other people very easily. I have strong gut-feelings and kinda … understand a person's vibe? Like I can sense someone's aura but not see their colour.
𝑨𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒄: I love cottagecore, I'm very witchy but also a little grunge and gothic at the same time.
𝑳𝒊𝒌𝒆𝒔: Learning - especially witchcraft, watching tv, day-dreaming, listening and discovering new music, I love being at home, writing and then taking a reading break. I adore baths and constantly buy items from Lush.
𝑫𝒊𝒔𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆𝒔: (other than the usual injustices of sexism, racism, and homophobia), I strongly dislike spiders and will scream whenever I see one. I don't like close-minded people, or those who make fun of others. I hate passive-aggressiveness, large crowds and loud sudden noises.
𝑳𝒊𝒍 𝒇𝒖𝒏 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒕𝒔 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒎𝒆:
・Have shaved my head. Asked my stepdad for his clippers and went into the bathroom and …hacked at my hair. It was very liberating, I think every woman should do it at least once in her lifetime
・I adore animals - I have a cat and dog! I want more but my cat is too much of a princess and won't allow any other animal in the house
・Bought a tattoo gun from the internet and I tattoo myself. I do the majority of my own piercings as well. I like to learn how to do things like that. I've kinda learned how to do hair and do mine, my mum's and my nunna's.
Sorry if this was too much, it's hard to describe oneself in a post. Thank you very much, I hope you have a wonderful day x
Omg absolutely (and also it is liberating hacking your hair off!) 🩷 (Minor swearing)
First I ship you with Cedric Diggory! 💛
He likes all your tattoos taking time and care to trace, look at, and kiss each and every single one on you even when they are close together or bunched up together
Anytime he finds a book whether he got it from his house, a bookshop, his father, a friend, or even amongst the books the library gives to students for free every 5 months of the year he always gives you a new book when he sees you and can
He makes sure if there are loud noises of any kind he always makes sure to either cover your ears or take you out of the room even putting headphones over your head one time when someone was misbehaving and knocked down a shelf in the hallway
He always watches in awe when you practice wand work and spells in front of him captivated by how natural and truly talented you are never saying anything until you take a break or done practicing
Whenever you are having muscle pains he always makes you a hot bath full of bubbles and bath bombs to help relax you staying and talking with you until the water runs cold and you feel much better
He loves seeing you with animals always smiling and feeling his heart flutter by it and it slowly made him fall in love with you even more than he already was
Next I ship you with Jack Sparrow 🖤
He doesn't mind whether your hair is long or short always feeling your hair when it's short and if you grow it out he will always take a chance to run his fingers through it
He always gets you rings whether in a chest with treasure or from a shop on land he always find a different kind of ring for you to wear on your fingers or even around your neck so you can wear a lot at once
He never admits it but he likes how passionate you are for the people you care about and who you wanna be even yelling and pushing Barbossa one time while in a fight with him which surprised jack of how you didn't take any type of shit from anyone
He likes seeing you wearing his button up or hat when everyone is just sailing the seas not fighting or running away from another crew or the royal navy enjoying how you just make him feel like a normal but good man as well
He likes how you always keep him going even when he feels low wondering if he was a true pirate, whether he should be dead, and that he deserved the people around him but you always remind him that you needed him and couldn't love anyone else as much as him
He likes to give you rum even if you don't drink it always laughing at the faces you make realizing that instead of water or anything else you drink whenever you're on your and weren't slowly drink the things you take from land he would give you a small cup of rum but quickly apologizes giving you a cup with water, coconut milk, or goat milk you got from land or one of the many islands you visit
And finally I ship you with Rosita Espinosa! 🧡
She finds and brings you gifts from runs for supplies getting many things from books, jewlery, clean clothes that were your size, and makeup to nail polish, tampons, face masks, and soaps to use in bubble baths
She likes joining you in bubble baths gently washing and caressing your skin relaxing in the water and bubbles with your head leaned on your chest
She likes to read what you write even if it's a note for a supply run she is smiling sweetly looking at the small note or reading a quote you remembered or heard of writing it down to remember it
She likes to dance with you but she loves slow dancing with you just enjoying the feeling of love and the contact with each other with your foreheads connected the whole time
She likes watching and hearing you read especially a long chapter book you slowly read turning a rosy pink when you look up to see her in the door way or sitting above you smiling sweetly
She likes watching you tattoo yourself even doing three little ones on her the first being an infinity symbol behind her ear, followed by a daisy on her wrist, and the last one being a quote in spanish "Per sempre luce mia" meaning "forever my light" on her chest just above her heart
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tarmac-rat · 1 year ago
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Then and Now
I saw a few people in the fandom doing this and I was a bit hesitant to put this together because I started screenshotting comparably late through my timeline-- I didn't have the confidence to attempt it until 1.5, and in some cases I still am a bit resistant to sharing-- but I thought "meh, I haven't talked about Riley and I still have all my old files, let's go back in time". So here's a bit more of an in-depth look into my V's evolution from launch until now:
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Version 1-- V1.0 - 1.2
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This is probably the most radically different version of Riley I've made. I used different scarring, different facial cyberware, and different eye makeup, though I believe her body, eye, freckle, and earring presets have always been the same. Her chin is squarer and her face is a bit more angled, but back in the day I really enjoyed what I had come up with even if I never took her out for photographing.
The blue hair was darker than I really wanted it to be, but back in 1.0 it was pretty much the only option for light blue so I stuck with it lol. I ended up using the bob solely because I didn't really like 95% of the hairstyles and this was one of the only ones I could tolerate, but I honestly grew to dislike it for her after a while. I hated that it covered up her ears and I never found it really photographed that well because it hung in her eyes.
I actually still really like this facial build-- it doesn't suit Riley but I like how mean it looks, like a built in RBF-- and honestly I would probably try to reuse it for a different OC if I ever made one.
Version 2-- V1.2 - 1.4
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This was the new version I built for another run-through on 1.2 and serves as the bridge between the original Riley and the current Riley. I switched the scars and the facial cyberware out to what I would eventually end up sticking with, but I still stubbornly stuck with the bob and somehow I made her face....softer? That wasn't my intention but her whole face has lost the bite it originally had-- I always refer to this version as my "Valley Girl" preset because idk I just always imagine that drawl coming out of this face.
Looking back on it I hate her lip preset on this face. IDK why they look so pink bc I don't have lip makeup on (I literally checked when taking the photos) but UGH they're just not a good fit for her they make her look too...is it mean of me to say "too happy"?
Yeah this one in hindsight is my least favorite it just doesn't look good on her based on what was I going for. Feel like I missed the mark big time.
I don't know why I added that neck tattoo lol it was spur of the moment.
Version 3-- V1.5 - 1.6
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Current Riley! Remade during 1.5 when 1) I wanted to finally make a V I could screenshot and 2) we got the new cosmetics and finally got light electric-blue hair I always envisioned her having.
Finally buckled down and spent more than 15 minutes in the character creator. oven so I could properly sculpt her face. Got rid of the softness, gave her a bit more angles and a bigger nose, lightened her freckles a bit, gave her thicker eyebrows. AND I DITCHED THE BOB. BYE BOB GET OUTTA HERE.
Also finally got the chance to show off her ears-- bronze was another new preset added into 1.5 so that's what I chose, but I believe before that update all her piercings had been silver.
The one thing I wished I had done was give her a bit of a broader nose, but overall I'm pretty happy with this design and I've used it for over a year now.
I've always claimed that my V is about 55-60% accurate to how I imagined her because there's just so much I can't add in vanilla basegame, but this is probably as close as we can get with what I've been given haha.
Bonus: Below are first ever photos I took when I finally mustered the confidence to use my XBone screenshotter around the 1.5 drop. Vanilla definitely has it's limits, but I can at least say I've improved from my starting point-- definitely enough to know what decent lighting is:
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socialbunny · 1 year ago
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🖊️ and 🤔 for skip!
🖊️ BALLPOINT PEN — does your oc have any tattoos? do they want any (more) tattoos?
Of course he does, what would Skip be without his trashy white man tattoos he would just be maxis skippy, and i have no respect for his bland ass look.
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Here's the tattoos I have on Skip currently. There's one I want him to have with Dustin's deadname either one his shoulder or somewhere along his forearm, but I'm not sold on either of them so it doesn't exist on his model. His 'Brandi' tattoo originally was supposed to be a portrait of her face actually, but that would look soooo bad if I did it myself so it's not present either but just IMAGINE bc it's so real.
Answering the second part, of course he'd want to get more more. It's like his piercings (which he also has a lot of ;) , they're both some of his most favorite impulse things to do. Please keep this man away from needles and tattoo guns 🙄
🤔 THINKING FACE — what are some of your oc's quirks/mannerisms?
THESE ARE PROBABLY MORE LIKE CHARACTER TRAITS and not really like. quirks or mannerisms I guess, but whatever.
shitty ass liar, can't front for too long, not even to save his own life. not because of any moral reasonings; he can lie, but never feels a reason too. considers himself a "blunt motherfucker" which really just means he's a dickhead with no filter
picks up new habits easily, but drops them just as quick; he got brandi hooked on smoking and hard drugs, but he himself can live without doing it. very much a stress smoker, but doesn't drink at all actually
incredibly impulsive for someone who calls himself 'level-headed' and 'mature' — which i guess i just an addendum to the thing i put above, but in a different sense. jumps to get married to brandi after she tells him that she's pregnant, especially because getting she gets so much shit for getting pregnant like it fucks up her social and family life so he feels so guilty and obligated to do that for her. has sex with don because he's depressed abt getting married and don keeps coming onto him and skip's like whatever. fuck it. and makes the third most terrible decision in his life. he leads on this guy he's been technicallllyyyyyy on and off dating since he was 15, and acts like one day they're gonna be together and start and family, but he ends up doing all this shit with his Actual wife and acts like he just needs time to work thru it and leave her. but then skip steals so much money and supplies from him and ghosting his ass entirely <3
really i think skip is just bad at interpersonal relationships. he never wanted to be tied down so early with no money and no stability like his parents, and it's fucking up his mental state. even though his parents were technically happy up until they died, skip always saw himself doing more and being Better than that and the past failings of his family. he craves independence but wants to feel connected to people, but he can't handle that with the way he lives and moves.
BACKTO THE ACTUAL QUESTION. actually. hes so rough with is hands. has callused ass knuckles and rubs them a lot. and he pops his joints all the time, and that shit's loud as fuck
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katxwarren · 1 year ago
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tracy spiridakos. thirty seven. cisfemale. she/her. » there’s katherine warren who’s been living in ashford for fifteen years. the diligent currently works as a detective and they’re known for being inquisitive but also competitive at times. rumor around town is that they grew up in foster care as a child. i overheard they disapprove of the changes happening in ashford because stubbornness to change. tw: abandonment, foster care
>> full name: katherine natalie warren >> age: thirty seven. >> birthday: january 11th >> zodiac: capricorn >> gender: cis female >> sexuality: hetrosexual >> place of birth: detroit, mi >> hobbies: >> tattoos: a tiny bird on her wrist >> piercings: both ears.
katherine was born on a bitter cold detriot winter morning and it was only the very next that the tiny blonde baby girl was dropped off at the local fire station, the hospital blanket wrapped around her. a quick and short note with the words 'i'm sorry, i couldn't' attached to the run down car seat kat was placed in. very quickly with no information on who left her, where she came from, and no signs that anyone was coming back for her katherine was placed into the city's foster care system. kat doesn't have many memories of being a young girl just small snippets of different homes decor. by the time she was eight the young girl had given up any childlike hope that her birth parents were ever going to come back and whisk her away. it was the year of her eighth birthday that she decided to stop wishing for them to come back every time she blew out her candles on her cake. she bounced around a decent amount, by the time the she turned ten years old she had already lived in a handful of homes. some times she would be placed in a tiny home filled with way too many kids smushed together in one room. it wouldn't be too long before she was picked up again and placed into another home, usually more chaos and instability than the last. the only consistency that kat truly had was the sweet police officer who would pick her up, offering her a sympathetic smile and a dessert at the local diner before dropping her off at her new temporary residence.
it was by the time kat had turned fourteen when she had made the decision that when she was old enough to be fully on her own she was going to leave the foster program behind and become an officer of some sort. just like the sweet lady officer who would always make sure even if the midst of the constant inconsistency that she was still cared for. she was going to make it her mission that she too was going to have the job where she could help others. doing her very best to work her way through school she enrolled into the police academy by the time she had just turned twenty years old. she worked dead end jobs and did everything she could to put herself through the duration of her police training. her goal of helping others and provide a safe place her driving force. she put everything she had into her school and work and it had shown to others that she came off a bit as an overachiever.
once she had graduated she had been recruited for a police department in ashford, mass and packed her few belongings and made the move, leaving her past behind her in detroit. that move was fifteen years ago and working her way up in the police department, owns a quaint little townhome, even adopting a stray cat and created the life she has always wanted for herself. however, by putting her job first she has neglected, maybe intentionally, the romantic part of her life.
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lacontroller1991 · 2 years ago
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Hello! I'm not sure if you're doing ships/matchups, so disregard this message if you aren't!
𝑭𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒐𝒎𝒔: The Walking Dead & Marvel
I'm pansexual, she/her pronouns. I don't mind being shipped with either gender!
𝑭𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒆𝒔: I'm about 5'5, pale skin, blue/grey eyes, blonde around my face and brown then black at the ends of my hair. I have many many piercings, and I'm covered in tattoos. I'm curvy/plus size and am body positive.
𝑯𝒐𝒃𝒃𝒊𝒆𝒔: Reading, writing, collecting rings, journaling, tarot. I'm also collecting as many books as I can because I want to have my own library where people can take whichever book they wish.
𝑷𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚: INFJ, Chaotic Good, Gryffindor, Aquarius Sun, Capricorn Moon, Aries Rising, Pisces Venus (this last one might help with the match especially). I'm a passionate person and have strong opinions. I will always stand up for what I believe in, no matter how scared I feel. I think I'm quite witty and intelligent, although I do get overwhelmed quite easily. I'm incredibly open-minded and progressive. I love to laugh and make others laugh too. I'm sensitive, and intuitive and can pick up on other people very easily. I have strong gut-feelings and kinda ... understand a person's vibe? Like I can sense someone's aura but not see their colour.
𝑨𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒄: I love cottagecore, I'm very witchy but also a little grunge and gothic at the same time.
𝑳𝒊𝒌𝒆𝒔: Learning - especially witchcraft, watching tv, day-dreaming, listening and discovering new music, I love being at home, writing and then taking a reading break. I adore baths and constantly buy items from Lush.
𝑫𝒊𝒔𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆𝒔: (other than the usual injustices of sexism, racism, and homophobia), I strongly dislike spiders and will scream whenever I see one. I don't like close-minded people, or those who make fun of others. I hate passive-aggressiveness, large crowds and loud sudden noises.
𝑳𝒊𝒍 𝒇𝒖𝒏 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒕𝒔 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒎𝒆:
・Have shaved my head. Asked my stepdad for his clippers and went into the bathroom and ...hacked at my hair. It was very liberating, I think every woman should do it at least once in her lifetime
・I adore animals - I have a cat and dog! I want more but my cat is too much of a princess and won't allow any other animal in the house
・Bought a tattoo gun from the internet and I tattoo myself. I do the majority of my own piercings as well. I like to learn how to do things like that. I've kinda learned how to do hair and do mine, my mum's and my nunna's.
Sorry if this was too much, it's hard to describe oneself in a post. Thank you very much, I hope you have a wonderful day x
Hey love!!! Thank you for sending this in!!!
For The Walking Dead I can honestly see you with Tara
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(I'm going to preface this by saying I don't know how old you are, but assuming you're over at least 18, then I think Tara would be a good match).
Once you and Tara meet, I think the two of you would become fast friends, easily making jokes with each other and thus your relationship will bloom. I also think you and Tara probably share the same set of beliefs in which you both are very opinionated and out spoken, a trait that maybe not everyone will appreciate, but fuck them.
With your reading, I can see her and you sneaking off camp to find a library and sitting for hours on end just reading various things off the shelf and trying to remember the old days where libraries weren't full of dead, rotting corpses.
I also think she would be super open to let you practice tattoos on her (if she's not then just ask Daryl, he 1000000000% has done his own tattoos and grows his own tobacco (we love to see it)) and she's also SUPER protective of you, if anyone or anything tries to hurt you, you best believe that she will put her life on the line for you.
For Marvel I can see you with Ned (hear me out)
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You'd probably meet Ned in class and be automatically enraptured by his sense of humor, however you probably wouldn't feel comfortable talking to him while MJ and Peter are there (I mean I wouldn't feel comfortable living in the presence of our queen Zendaya), however I think you would seek him out and talk to him, which would definitely catch his attention.
I think the reason the two of you would work well together is how sharp witted and humorous the two of you are. I think the banter between the two of you would go on and on for Hours, but I also think just sitting in silence with him would be great as well.
As for your hobbies, I think he would definitely take an interest in the witchcraft (given he can open a portal with Strange's sling ring) and would be open to learning about the craft more and maybe even practice some basic spells with you!
Now for your fear..... even though Ned's best friend is SPIDER man, I don't think you would know that fact unless they told you, but even then, it's not like Peter is an actual spider so you should be good!!!
Thank you for requesting a match up and I hope you enjoyed reading!!!!
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poisonsage808 · 2 years ago
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Hello! Whichever fandoms you decide to do, I most definitely will do for you too xx
𝑭𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒆𝒔: I'm about 5'5, pale skin, blue/grey eyes, blonde around my face and brown then black at the ends of my hair. I have many many piercings, and I'm covered in tattoos. I'm curvy/plus size and am body positive.
𝑯𝒐𝒃𝒃𝒊𝒆𝒔: Reading, writing, collecting rings, journaling, tarot. I'm also collecting as many books as I can because I want to have my own library where people can take whichever book they wish.
𝑷𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚: INFJ, Chaotic Good, Gryffindor, Aquarius Sun, Capricorn Moon, Aries Rising, Pisces Venus (this last one might help with the match especially). I'm a passionate person and have strong opinions. I will always stand up for what I believe in, no matter how scared I feel. I think I'm quite witty and intelligent, although I do get overwhelmed quite easily. I'm incredibly open-minded and progressive. I love to laugh and make others laugh too. I'm sensitive, and intuitive and can pick up on other people very easily. I have strong gut-feelings and kinda ... understand a person's vibe? Like I can sense someone's aura but not see their colour.
𝑨𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒄: I love cottagecore, I'm very witchy but also a little grunge and gothic at the same time.
𝑳𝒊𝒌𝒆𝒔: Learning - especially witchcraft, watching tv, day-dreaming, listening and discovering new music, I love being at home, writing and then taking a reading break. I adore baths and constantly buy items from Lush.
𝑫𝒊𝒔𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆𝒔: (other than the usual injustices of sexism, racism, and homophobia), I strongly dislike spiders and will scream whenever I see one. I don't like close-minded people, or those who make fun of others. I hate passive-aggressiveness, large crowds and loud sudden noises.
𝑳𝒊𝒍 𝒇𝒖𝒏 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒕𝒔 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒎𝒆:
・Have shaved my head. Asked my stepdad for his clippers and went into the bathroom and ...hacked at my hair. It was very liberating, I think every woman should do it at least once in her lifetime
・I adore animals - I have a cat and dog! I want more but my cat is too much of a princess and won't allow any other animal in the house
・Bought a tattoo gun from the internet and I tattoo myself. I do the majority of my own piercings as well. I like to learn how to do things like that. I've kinda learned how to do hair and do mine, my mum's and my nunna's.
the philosopher, the theorizer, (i’m very surprised to see you weren’t ravenclaw by the way) yes, you’re both but you’re also more. a dreamer is rare to find. your energy attracts many different people, something about you drives people to put their maximum efforts into things and when you deem someone worth it, you want to help them see it through. you can simultaneously create storms and calm them. you’re stronger than strong, you’re powerful.
i ship you with…!
♡ Aemond Targaryen ♡
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• Aemond also prefers to keep away from large crowds. Parties and tourneys just aren’t for him, participating or being a bystander. He’d rather slip away to the library or the beach, anywhere really that the two of you can be alone to enjoy each others company
• One of these times he takes you far past the Dragonpit, to an open field where some of the ground is charred. Your eyes go wide when you see her and realize where Aemond’s taken you. “Not afraid of dragons I hope, my ember.” He says with a bit of a smirk
• Well who wouldn’t be!? She’s. Enormous. Vhagar opens her eyes but barely lifts her head when she senses her rider drawing near, they narrow in on you. The behemoth of a beast snorts and almost blows you away but Aemond holds your waist and chuckles, “She likes you.”
• Now don’t lie, it’s as terrifying as it is exhilarating to ride a dragon. Aemond insists you sit in front of him, he secures you between his arms as he holds the reigns and looks over your head. He won’t show off or do any tricks the first time, he only wants you to be comfortable and share this experience with you. There’s plenty of time in the future to do more than soar between the clouds and hover over Blackwater Bay. Aemond’s watching where Vhagar’s going, he is, but the smile on your face is contagious and he’s stealing as many glances at you as possible
• Aemond will be curious about your hobby. His devotion to The Seven keeps him dabbling himself but if it’s apart of you he wants to know as much as possible. Aemond will look over your shoulder to peak at the book you’re reading and ask you questions. You’ll find the yourselves chatting late into the night going from questions to hypotheticals to a steady, endless flow of conversation
• If you ever needed something that wasn’t in the Red Keep or even King’s Landing, he’d go searching for it. He’ll keep your jars stocked, make sure you’re never short on candles and take great care of any books you leave around. Aemond’s one request is that you’re careful about who you tell and where you read these books. He WILL threaten to take the tongue of anyone that breathes the word witch around your name, this time period isn’t friendly to them
• Aemond would absolutely love to help you create your own library! Any trip he and Vhagar take would include him returning with a a satchel of books he thinks you would enjoy. Though, he may be wary of whoever you deem worthy to borrow said books, heavily suggesting they treat them with only the upmost care lest they wish to meet his dragon
• Yeah, you may have to put him in his place from time to time. But! Aemond is more than alright with having someone give him a metaphorical slap back to reality when his temper flares a bit too hot. In fact he’ll grow to appreciate you placing a hand on his arm, a silent indication you think he needs to breathe or take a step away from the situation
• He trusts you and your judgment, that’s a very big deal to him
• He calls you a masterpiece, enamored by your tattoos and will commission dresses to your liking so he can see them. Some you... might only be able to wear in the safety of your chambers (for his sake)
• Aemond notes you prefer the color black and you note how he stands just a tad taller when you’re beside him. He loves matching with you, a wordless claim that you’re his
i also ship you with…!
♡ Eddie Munson ♡
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• Holy shit, he thinks you’re the coolest person he’s ever met and will not shut up about it. You’re way too cool for Hawkins- too cool for him even but he’d love to move with you somewhere you’d both be appreciated
• Eddie tells the Hellfire Club about you; your piercings, tattoos, how you read his fortune, “She’s just so—“ “Cool, yeah, we get it!”
• He would try to casually throw the invite for you to watch him and his band once or twice but he won’t mope if you decide not to come
• He’s given you a plethora of private performances in his room, his van, the aisles of the grocery store. Eddie’s spontaneous, what can he say. And when he’s with you it’s all your fault cause, “You inspire me, sweetheart!”
• Eddie comes to visit you right after school with the exception of band practice and Hellfire, which he also invites you to play or at least come and watch. He’ll loiter around your job until you or your boss kicks him out. It’s usually the latter. But he’ll be back to pick you up and take you home, or wherever you want to go afterwards!
• Eddie talks a lot when he’s comfortable… and when he’s uncomfortable, but around you he finds himself content with chatting or with the silence. You have this way about you that can hype him up or wind him down, what’s up with that?
• He notices it’s not just him either but also others! You just kind of get people. You’re able to make them feel safe by being around, like they don’t have to hide. Eddie appreciates— no, he admires that about you. He wishes he had your bravery
• Eddie’s got sticky fingers but he’s got a code. He uses them in the name of love and never from mom ‘n pop shops. He’ll just occasionally swipe a ring he thinks you’ll like and he wants to pick which of your fingers it goes on
• He’s snuck into your room and put on as many rings as he could, then he pronounced himself Lord of the Rings and scoured your book collection for just that. It’s his favorite, he’ll read it to you and he does amazing voices
• Eddie compares you to a dragon with your hoard of “mystical items”, books and jewelry collection. He goes as far as to call you one, it’s as endearing as it is tooth-rottingly sweet
• Money, bribery, whatever he has to offer he will give it to you for a tattoo. Do you want him to beg!? He’ll beg! Unless you’re into that… then that’ll be his go-to method
♡ thank you for all your work, i hope you liked it! this was fun C:
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Casper gives me the chance to oc talk so I’m gonna get funny and throw my cards in too. The art is quick and shitty I had to make a reference for someone.
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Technically I've got 3 ocs, the other two just haven't been drawn but to put it playing; Soc and Greaser, secret relationship bc they're gay and different social classes. They act like they hate each other but makeout behind the bleachers /silly I'll draw them in the future and elaborate FOR NOW THOUGH!! SAM!! Lots of shit below the cut, he's the equivalent of my self-insert.
- His full name is Sam Kaiser; their grandfather (dad's side) is German (and their mom's side is Polish) but he and his parents were born in America, so he's pretty disconnected from his heritage bc his parents don't care enough about it. He was 19 during '67 - He's got an 18-year-old brother and a 26-year-old sister. Her brother's been drafted to Vietnam (which he wanted, as he had always been interested in the military ) while his sister took off to New York for college and made it big. - Born in Tulsa, when Sam and their brother were 13 and 12 their parents had a messy divorce. His father took full custody of the kids because their mother wanted nothing to do with them. Their father's pretty shit and all he really does is just pay the house bills and buy himself food or booze, he ignores them unless he needs something or if they aren't listening to him. Their older sister was looked at once for custody consideration when their father got himself into a bit of trouble but turned that shit down fast. Sam still hasn't gotten over that, it was also the last time he'd heard from her. - He/She pronouns both because nobody can figure out what the hell he was born as besides his parents, but she also doesn't know that they/them is an option. Being transgender in the 60's was already looked at negatively; god knows any other kind of gender identity was NOT something they've probably even known about. - Deeply values their freedom and acts out against their father, because although he's pretty neglectful, he still tries to hold an iron fist over him. His piercings (and tattoos) are a part of the ways he chooses to rebel and separate himself. Still wears his dad's dog tags, despite that, because he still loves his father. - Greaser, their father works with the same roofing company as Darry does but on a different team. Sam does a lot of job hopping as he's disabled and can't keep a solid job. Very financially insecure. - Wanted to go to college but their scholarship wasn't enough and couldn't justify going. He wanted to be an astronaut :( You bet your ass this mf cried watching the moon landing in 1969
- I like to imagine Sam and Darry are on friendly terms since they've both had the experience of missing out on college and a chance to escape Tulsa; and Sam also thoroughly respects Darry for stepping up, since she knows how heartbreaking it is to have family refuse you like you're nothing. (I've shipped them before bc I'm cringe and free fuck you /silly) - He's not really part of any specific Greaser gang, he just sort of shows up sometimes and lingers before dipping again. Their brother was popular amongst both socs and greasers (he's just really charming) and Sam was, sort of jealous; but they liked their alone time. They only met the gang through school and other general mischief. Huge klepto, would go on stealing sprees with Two where Sam would distract and Two would take. - While his brother and father are smart with cars, he's very car-stupid. Gave Steve a heart attack because she pulled up with a VERY flat tire and insisted that it wasn't too bad (he should've crashed on the way there) - Got the nickname "Park" because he hates being home, so he'll usually end up at the park if he doesn't want to be around anyone. Usually, he'll either be there in silence or with a little journal. - Resting bitch face galore. He's not very confrontational but has a temper and gets into fights a lot because he runs his mouth and doesn't know when to shut up. He carries a switch his brother bought him but hasn't dared to bring it out in a fight yet. - Throws himself into crime and other shit of the sort as a way to break out of the expectations people have set for him. His sister successfully left Tulsa and made it big while his brother's in the military-- has the middle child stereotype and authority figures always expected him to follow after his siblings. - Sam hates drinking due to their father but has slowly begun taking it up as a way to cope with the social pressures and his own issues. Smokes as well, but tries to do that less due to valuing their lung capacity (He likes to run) - Just a little side fun fact. If he exists in Cursed au he'd either be a Harpy (likely an owl) or invisibility. Thought about shapeshifting but it'd be funny bc the mf only ever uses it for convenience, like getting taller to reach a shelf. - Also in Cursed he'd end up being friendly with Paul bc fuck you I love Paul and so Sam can too /silly
Sorry if any of this is all over the place my brain is fried rn.
Starting a reblog game: RB w/ your own outsiders OC!
if enough folks do, I’ll draw them together or something lol, it’ll be fun!
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So these are blatant self inserts for my sister and me
(Info & backstories under the cut because I’ve put waaaay too much thought into this)
and again, pls do reblog/tag me w/ your own Outsiders original/self insert characters! (Drawings and/or written descriptions!) Making OCs was one of my favorite things to do as a kid, so I figured it’d be fun to bring it back here lol
(And to reiterate- if enough of ya’ll do this I’ll draw ‘em all together like a greaser-sona gang! So don’t be shy ok??)
-got sent to Tulsa from Seattle in 1961 at ages 13 and 11 to live with their mildly neglectful uncle, due to their mother getting cancer and being unable to properly care for them. Their father was lost at sea when they were little, so they had no one else to go to.
-in Tulsa they go by their mother’s surname, Biondi, instead of their father’s, because interracial marriage isn’t legalized in Oklahoma until ‘67. They try to pass as just Italian. This works better for Naomi, who takes more after their mother than their father in looks.
-Naomi is good friends w/ Ponyboy- she relates to him a lot, from the dislike of fighting to the love for sunsets (legit Ponyboy reminds me of my sister so much irl) (She’s also low-key got a crush on him and Sodapop which is pretty funny)
-Jesse is closer to Two-Bit, Dally, Steve, and Soda. And he really likes fights. They’re exciting and make him feel tough. When he stops to think about it it does make him a little uneasy how much he’s grown to like them, but usually he just ignores that
-Naomi disapproves of crime. Jesse used to oppose it too, but the more time he spends without good role models and parental figures, the more his morels loosen. Tries hard to be a good example for Naomi though
-Jesse met the gang through Sodapop originally- they were thirteen and some Socs were jumping Soda, and Jesse jumped in and helped him out. Soda explained to him what the deal with Socs and greasers is, because there’s no greasers up North
-Naomi met the gang separately through being classmates with Ponyboy. They were working together on a school project, one with him writing and her drawing
-So Jess and Naomi spent a solid few months hanging out with different members of the same gang, completely unaware they had the same group. They eventually end up running into each other at the Curtis house, and both are totally shocked. Two-Bit, who knew the whole time, nearly died laughing
-Naomi is friends with both Socs and greasers, because she isn’t really either- she’s financially a greaser, but she has a crazy high GPA for someone who has ADHD and dyslexia in the 60s, and besides that, she just doesn’t like what she sees as pointless rivalry
-Jess loves pointless rivalry. At least until people start getting hurt. Then he starts to get angry.
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anothershittydiaryblog · 10 months ago
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I realized that I participate in more self harm than I thought I did.
I've been getting overwhelmed with my own feelings more often. I find that I don't really have a healthy outlet. I used to have a "few" drinks when I didn't know how to handle the thoughts in my head. Or smoke some weed, or isolate, or do nothing for hours.
When I'm hurting more than usual I eat less and drink more. I socialize more but reach out and ask for help less. I'm always high.
When I was a kid, about middle school aged, I used to play with needles when I was alone. I would stick them under the skin on my palms and fingertips. I did this very often. Somehow I saw this as different than when my friends would show me the cuts on their arms and legs. I thought because I wasn't leaving a mark I wasn't hurting myself. I thought because no one could see what I was doing I wasn't doing it.
As time moved on, (I couldn't tell you when it started.) I discovered stick and poke tattoos. It was the same thing that I had been doing just with ink. It wasn't harmful if it was art, right? I started off poking dots on my palms. Purposely poking too deep causing my hands to be sore and bleed. Then lines. Lines turned to shapes and shapes turned into little doodles that got bigger and bigger.
If you know anything about tattoos you'd know that palm tattoos don't really last, especially if you don't put the needle in too deep. I had formed a routine of experiencing a traumatic event or having thoughts too painful to want to feel, then etching cute little drawings onto my palms. Then I'd live with the pain for about a week or two then watch the ink fade. Once the ink was gone I was back into my same old cycle of etching into my palm with a needle.
By time I got tired of my routine I had made to my late teens / early college years. I had a bit more freedom and even decided to get real tattoos. My first one was a cross. As a reminder of where I came from. My second was a daisy because that's my grandmothers name. The tattoos on my chest and arms aren't the same. They don't make me feel any better. I decided I would try out a different type of needle.
It was pretty easy to find a set of tools intended for body piercing. Amazon has everything you can think of on it. The first time I tried to pierce myself I was 18 and tried to push a needle through my septum. God Damn It did it hurt. I remember getting the needle about halfway through and I stopped. Then I bled and bled. The blood was everywhere in that bathroom. At this point the needle had fallen out and I had given up on my chances of having a new piercing. I didn't want my boyfriend (at the time. We'll call him Ax.) to know what I had been doing. He'd been bothering me a ton lately about my mental health but I didn't want to listen.
Ax told me that I had been worrying him. He was, and still is, sober and couldn't bear to see me drinking every day. He was confused as to where I was even getting the alcohol from, but I had my ways. He noticed the taste of smoke on my mouth a few times even though I never admitted to him that I had been smoking weed and tobacco. He pointed out that I was usually awake when went to bed and when he woke up. I would just lie and say that I had slept just slightly less than he had. And that I wouldn't leave my dorm without the company of someone else.
I knew the bloody scene in the bathroom would have been the last straw for him so I cleaned it up as quickly as I could just in time for him to come and knock on my door.
This wasn't the last time I pushed a needle through my body. I had successfully pierced my ear one day after a sit down with Ax and Chip (Chip was a part of our poly-cule for some time). This event wasn't as dramatic and bloody and Ax didn't even notice I had a new piercing until Chip pointed it out one night in bed.
Recently, I woke up one morning and decided to etch on my palm again. I already own a tattoo machine, stencil paper, and practice skins. So this time I felt a little more professional. I chose to draw a monstera leaf because I knew I could draw one from memory and if anyone asks its temporary but still kinda cute. No harm done right?
When that needle hits my skin its like I had poked a beachball and all the air, all the pain was hissing out. I drove the needle into into my hand in that pattern over and over again. I must have done fifteen to twenty passes, deeper and deeper, over the same spot before stopped. I kept going until my hand felt numb and the other shook.
This was the moment I realized that I had just self harmed, and that every other time I had driven a needle into my own body that's what I was doing.
I'm hoping I can use this blog as an outlet rather than drink, or smoke, or starve myself, or self isolate, or drive a needle into my palm.
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bewilderedbunny · 1 year ago
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hi if you’re still doing the shipping game I’d like your expertise!
i’m 5’0 (and get reminded of it constantly by those around me) i have long black hair with a little bit of texture, lighter eyes and i’m pale as hell because i hate going outside. i’m a plus size girl who prefers a big shirt and small shorts combo, but will dress up if the occasional calls for it. i have a few tattoos and but no piercings at the moment. i am bi as well with no preference between men or women. i’m also unfortunately constantly reminded of how large my chest is.
i’m painfully shy, mostly because of my social anxiety. but once i get to know someone i’m an open book. the people i keep around me tell me i’m pretty funny but am also the mom friend when i need to be. i really only keep a few close people around me at a time because i can get overwhelmed pretty easily, mostly because I’m chronically ill and it’s hard to trust others not to get upset when i need my own time. but i also am the type to stick up for someone else because i’d rather be uncomfortable over someone else.
when i’m not working I usually spend my free time drawing or writing. i sometimes try to start new hobbies but they don’t usually go anywhere because i’ll either forget about them or i’ll keep putting them off. music is really important to me and influences a lot of my art and writing. I also love animals and have always wanted a job where i can work with them.
thank you in advance and i hope you have a wonderful day!
Hi!!! I'm actually shipping you with myself because you referred to me as having "expertise" and I've never been called an expert in anything before 💗 how does a fall wedding sound to you?
All aboard! 🚢
(On a more serious note, I'm so sorry that you deal with chronic illness. I know how painfully isolating that can be and I hope you find some relief soon 💗 and that you find a job where you can work with animals!!!)
I hope age-wise this is okay: I see Hopper being a great match for you!!! Being the mom friend who stands up for other people? He'd fall for you in an instant. And I think he'd give you the patience and love you deserve!
Imagine you start working for the Hawkins wildlife sanctuary and Hop comes in. He has a critter who is in need of extra tlc and you're the perfect person for the job! He's struck by your gentleness :( in no time you're seeing Jim on a regular basis! He finds any excuse to come in during his free time or to call. Maybe one day he calls and asks you what to do if he finds a cat stuck in a tree and when you tell him what to do and ask if the cat is okay, he tells you there's no cat right now but it's better to be safe than sorry for future instances (he really just needed an excuse to hear your voice after a long night)
After a few months, he finally works up the nerve to ask you on a date to Enzo's. While you're there, he mentions he owns a cabin on some property that could make a perfect little animal sanctuary 🥺
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hi, can i be matched with harry potter and attack on titan please? my name's lilith i'm 18, my pronouns are she/they and i'm a queerplatonic aroace, so i don't have a gender preference. i'm a stubborn, kinda bossy, brutally honest, sarcastic, clingy and person. people say i'm mature, smart and creative and yes, i agree, but i think i become a total different person when i get too comfortable. i love music and i've been singing with a vocal coach for three years by now. i like spending time at my music academy in which all the members are my second family as i grew up with my blood-related relatives fighting each others for some kind of stuff i don't know about (thank god things recently changed a little bit). i lost my grandmothers in law, my cousin abandoned me for protection as she had brain cancer and died eight months later and my dad due skin cancer. i also recently got a trauma for moving in a new house, i was actually excited at the beginning, but really it's driving me crazy. i'm 5'11", chubby, pale skin, button nose, i wear a fake septum piercing sometimes (i'm allergic to real ones :/), black slowly turning back to brown hair with undercut and bangs, dark hazelnut brown eyes and i wear black glasses. i also wear a tattoo choker and a necklace with a note shaped charm (gift from a dear friend) and i never take it off since then. i was actually scared to wear necklaces to sleep, fearing i would suffocate or accidentally hang myself, but with her necklace, i have no fear to sleep in it, actually when i have anxiety or panic attacks, i hold it so tight to remind myself she's with me, always. my aesthetic is hipster or grunge. i think that's enough. bye!!
Hello Hello thank you for the request. Oh sweet summer baby child I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I hope this matchup can bring you a bit of happiness (P.s. I only can do one fandom per request so if you could send in a second ask with the same info but for Harry Potter that would be great) (P.s.s. wasn't 100% clear on if you wanted this platonic or not but I wrote it platonic anyway so if you wanted it romantic lemme know and I’ll change it) Alright drumroll please!!!
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LEVI ACKERMEN!!!
Oh boy you two have been through a lot. From the loss of family to being forced to grow up from a young age in order to survive. Because of that shared trauma it makes it easier for you to get close to someone as prickly as Levi cause he sees a bit of himself in you.
You two have been friends since you both joined the scouts, slowly growing closer after many a life or death situation and being able to have each other’s back in battle. You’re both remarkably strong soldiers (what doesn’t kill you make you stronger as they say) and have been able to make you way to the top as captain and second command of the Levi squad.
Ever since then you’ve come to have your own little found family among the scouts (Hange being the crazy drunk aunt and Erwin being the dad). Although Levi is a still his unapologetically blunt self (to put it nicely) you know he loves everyone just as much as you do. The 4 of you have one of the best dynamics among the squads.
That’s why when you and Levi are the sole survivors of the Levi squad your world is completely shattered. No matter how hard you tried to protect everyone or how close you tried to keep them to you it seems like everyone in your life is destined to leave, but not Levi.
Levi is with you through thick and thin. From the fall of Wall Maria to the discovery of titan shifters to the learning of titans in the wall to learning your allies were traitors to being fugitives to finding that you’ve been killing humans to finally making it to the sea to Erwin and Hange’s deaths (i haven’t seen season 4 sorry) you two stick together through it all.
When things get dark you and Levi will sit and silence and drink your tea reminiscing on the memories of your fallen comrades. Sometimes Levi needs someone to pick him up despite trying to be strong and emotionless all the time and you have to remind him it’s ok to feel.
Despite being pretty hard on others yourself and others, you try to convince to be a little softer on the cadets. After having been through all they have you want them to enjoy being kids forever long they have. You two are the parents of the scouts especially after Ewin passes.
You two always look out for each other in battle while not letting your own feeling get in the way or the mission…at least until the war is over
You two are each other’s safe heaven. You look out for yourselves and each other in your own ways, and don’t plan to go dying on the other. After both losing someone you don’t want to make the other go through that pain again.
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Sorry this is short I'm now realizing I need to do more research on aot characters. Oh well lesson learned hope you enjoy anyway.
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servin-up-surveys · 2 years ago
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survey #145
New tats in your near future? I'm getting my coverup finished the 26th of this month. After that, I'm sure it'll be awhile.
How about piercings or re-piercings? Probably not, but I'd really like to.
Are there any rooms in your house that you don’t go into every day? Yeah, I don't always go into Mom's room and bathroom. I basically never go in the dining room, but it's not really a unique "room."
Who else do you know who has the same favorite color as you do? Idk off the top of my head, but pink is definitely a popular favorite color.
Have you ever had a tattoo covered up or added to? That's what's going on with the one I mentioned in the first question. I want two more coverups, though. One is just in a bad spot and I want to redesign it and put it elsewhere, but the other is another attached to a person I can't stand anymore.
Have you ever kissed someone who has previously kissed someone you hated? Once upon a time, yes; Jason's first real gf was Rachel, who I had a very hard time with in high school because she got extremely jealous of Juan pursuing me over her (she literally threatened me), and then she had stuff to say about me having a thing for her "leftovers" when Jason and I got together. I have no problem with her now, we're actually friends on Facebook that have talked and interact, she's great; people grow and I'm not going to keep her leashed to shit she did in high school.
Do you have any relatives with red hair? No, not that I know of. My maternal grandmother dyed her hair a mild red for as long as I can remember, but it wasn't naturally that color.
What is tomorrow’s weather forecasted to be like? Weather app is saying between 63-80*F with an 80% chance of thunderstorms.
[TW: SUICIDE] Have you ever known anyone who committed suicide? She was an online friend so could never verify, but I pretty fucking confidently believe she did. I know of other people.
What’s some of the worst pain you’ve ever felt? Having a very infected cyst drained, a hemorrhoid, breaking my wrist, healing from a concussion...
What’s your favorite kind of pasta? Normal spaghetti with marinara sauce, and meatballs are a good addition.
Would you rather a friend come over to your house or you go over there? Go there.
Have you ever had rabies? No. I remember doing an essay on it in high school though, so I learned a lot about it... not that I remember almost any of it, lol.
Do you know anyone who ever had to get a rabies shot? Realistically I probably do. My sister Nicole was bitten badly by a dog once, but because he was a domestic pet with vet records I don't remember if she needed one, I don't know the protocol on that.
Ever eaten deer? Duck? Squirrel? How about lamb? I feel like while in Ohio I took the teeniest bite of deer jerky, but I don't totally recall, I know I was extremely reluctant. I'm quite interested in trying lamb though, just with its reputation of being delicious.
What is your favorite parody movie? I don't really have one, I think.
What is your least favorite ice cream flavor? I hate strawberry.
Does your car have heated seats? No.
Have you ever been tempted to steal? I think there was one occasion as a kid, but I didn't do it.
Would you rather travel to Ireland or Japan? Ireland.
Does tickling turn you on? NO
If you could go over to someone’s house right now, whose and why? Girt's, just because I wanna see him and hang out, but we will tomorrow.
What is the age gap between you and your parents? My mom is older by one or two years, I forget which.
How many bathrooms does your house have? Is this enough? Two, and yes.
Have you ever video-chatted with someone you met online? No, I've always hated video chatting with people I do know.
Do you collect anything, or have you ever? I've been collecting meerkat stuff since I was young, and I also have a decent chunk of Silent Hill stuff. I'd love to collect Rammstein stuff too, but that's definitely a pricier sort of collection.
When was the last time you used Facebook? Not long ago, I tend to check it a few times a day.
How many siblings does your best friend have? He has one older sister, also named Ashley like mine.
Have you ever dated someone who was emotionally or mentally unstable? Yes.
Be honest: are you clingy? I know I am, at least to a degree. Girt has told me though that he doesn't feel so, instead appreciating that I give him "him" time whenever he wants it (we're the kind of couple that can just straight-up tell each other no to hanging out that day just because we need private time and no one's offended at all), but I still know in my core that I'm a clingy person.
Have you ever had bronchitis? No, but I watched Jason suffer with it and I have NEVER heard coughs like those ever before or since, it was awful.
Have you ever had a reptile for a pet? I've had two lizards and three snakes.
Are you afraid of the dentist? VERY FUCKING MUCH, something that only became a thing in recent times because of neglecting my teeth for so long and now I'm paying for it. Now that PT is over, I want to get my wisdom teeth extraction scheduled (the one on my right has a cavity close to the nerve, so it needs out ASAP), but I am so, so scared, because we can't afford the cost to put me under anesthesia. I don't know how the fuck I'm gonna do it.
Did you attend Sunday School as a child? Only because I was forced to.
Who was the last person you cuddled with? Girt.
How would you feel if your significant other (or possible partner) told you they dislike having sex, but do so with you to make you happy, even though they personally think it’s a chore? I have no idea how I would react to this, honestly.
Your boyfriend/girlfriend isn’t around but their phone is. Do you look through it? No, that would indicate some core problems in our relationship. I trust him.
Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? I'm pretty confident I will be, Girt and I are doing great.
Have you ever liked anyone that was in a relationship with someone else? Yeah. That was the case with my first real crush, and then with Jason after we split and he started dating someone else.
Do people ever compliment your eyes? Sometimes, mostly on pictures.
Have any of your exes ever given you roses? Jason and Tyler.
Do you think your last ex ever thinks about you? Not in a positive way.
Would you rather have salad or french fries for a side dish? Fries.
Which one of your relationships was the shortest? Juan, we dated for less than 24 hours lol, so he barely even counts.
Which was the longest? Jason, three and a half years.
Have any of your exes told you they regret breaking up with you? No.
Would you feel hurt if your last ex is in a relationship? Not at all.
Are you going to be getting any new pets soon? Very unlikely.
Do you like BBQ sauce? No, I actually hate it a lot.
What do you like to do when you’re home alone? I don't do much differently, honestly. I'll sometimes unplug my earplugs and listen to whatever without them, but that's it.
Should the guy always pay for the date? Absolutely not, I'm personally in favor of whoever planned it paying, but I also think taking turns is fair.
What kind of music calms you down? Generally my favorite songs, because they have fuller attention from me so I'm better distracted, and I also often resort to the Shadow of the Colossus or Silent Hill games soundtracks for this.
Do you know anyone who has autism? My niece does, a friend's daughter does, I'm sure a couple more, and I'm fucking FINALLY being evaluated for it myself soon.
What is your favorite way to eat eggs? I'll only eat them scrambled and very preferably with cheese, or as lil bits in fried rice.
Do you like Frozen? I've genuinely never gotten the appeal of it. The icy scenery and magic effects are cool, but that's the end of it for me.
Who is one of your heroes? My mom.
Do you enjoy hot chocolate? I do, but not when it's made with water, it's gotta be milk.
Do you use Instagram often? I browse it daily, but I don't post a lot.
If you got a kitten, what would you name it? It would depend on their gender and appearance.
Do you have a Pinterest account? Yes, it's full of photography inspo, hairdos and colors, tattoo inspo, and primarily Rammstein pictures now, lol.
Do you prefer a quiet or noisy environment? Quiet, excessive noise really stresses me out.
What is one question you don’t like being asked? What my job situation is.
Who is someone you know who is talkative? My nephew, haha. He goes a thousand miles an hour from the moment he wakes up to the moment he goes to sleep.
When was the last time you saw one of your uncles? When my grandma was on her very last leg and my Uncle Rob was driving her from Florida to New York; they stopped at a hotel for us to meet up. Now this uncle is the scum of the fucking earth that my family - even his own siblings - don't associate with anymore. His ass is going to end up in jail.
Do you know anyone who plays the violin? No, but that'd be dope.
Do your parents enjoy any of the things that you enjoy? Do you bond over these things? Both my parents (especially my mom) love metal and rock music, and my mother also enjoys writing, even though she doesn't do it a lot, though I wish she would! She wrote a poem semi-recently that she got me to look at and critique and it made me SO happy to see her creating, because she really does enjoy that, especially as crafts and crocheting. My dad likes video games, as do I.
Out of all your usernames for websites, which one is your favorite? Do you use it for more than one site? Ozzkat, which I use for a lot of places.
Have you ever spent the whole day (or multiple days) just looking up one thing on the internet (e.g., videos of your favorite band, how-to videos, quizzes, etc.)? OH, FOR SURE. This is NOT a rare occurrence.
If someone told you that we live in a society that hates women, how would you respond? I would wholeheartedly agree with you. I know a lot of it is done while completely unaware, like plenty don't think they hate women, but their actions speak otherwise, and I'm trusting actions as the true show of morals and values.
Can you remember the last thing you thought and subsequently thought, “wow, I really shouldn’t be thinking that”? I can't remember the last, but it absolutely happens seeing as I often have intrusive thoughts.
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