#i'm not even gonna tag bm

[pinkrabit]

Hi I saw another post basically saying "how can you stand jiang cheng" and there are literally so many reasons in my humble opinion but I'm gonna attach ss of other people reasoning why (aka I can't be bothered to rewrite it when someone else already did it right)

He was a fucking boy thrown into politics and was hurt. If he hated wwx sm and was so selfish why didn't he land the final blow to wwx. Either at the BM or on the edge???

He had multiple chances to kill wwx after reincarnation too. Mo Xuanyu's body wouldn't have been able to defend well against Jiang Cheng.

As far as just killing demonic cultivators, I'm pretty sure we lack direct characterization with that claim. It's hearsay at beat, if I remember correctly.

Yeah he was an asshole for taking anger out on other people. But it's also not like he found a random person and went "you're the current whipping boy tysm"

Some people are just assholes, I can't really defend him here.

Of course, there are reasons. Despite how flimsy wwx's status was, Jiang cheng was given an inferiority complex because of his parents comparing him to wwx. He went through a fucking war. Where he, at one point, was ready to die because he trusted wwx to take care of jyl. (Special mention of the core transfer and then wwx making the wen brat eat his own skin. That was fucked, but creative. WWX would definitely be a theatre kid)

If he was so awful, how could JL defend him so readily and earnestly?? Why would he spend so long w/o assistance to get wwx out of the cave, knowing he might have been dead???

Thank you for coming to my random tedtalk about how even though JC did some kinda shit things from wwx pov, he wasn't free to do what he wanted. (I wish I had the ao3 comment name) (sorry for not tagging the tumblr users, but you did get credit)

[ikamigami]

I watched that episode where Sun hallucinated Old Moon and Bloodmoon once again.

(read warnings in tags)

You don't even know how I felt when I guessed almost every line hallucinations had said to Sun. And "guess" isn't even the best word to describe it. I just f-ing knew how Sun was feeling about himself deep down for a really long time.

And you may think that what I'm gonna say is a stretch or that I'm just imagining things. But in the parts where Sun tried to retort to his hallucinations with reason, for me it sounded as if he tried to convince himself that what he was saying is truth but deep down he believes that hallucinations are telling the truth. Just like Old Moon's hallucination said. And just like Bloodmoon's hallucination said they will always come back whenever Sun will doubt himself. And doubt won't ever end. Because that's not a normal doubt everyone face from time to time. After all Sun has freaking hallucinations!

I was dealing with really deep self-hatred. I had very low self-esteem and I was blaming myself for almost everything. I truly believed that I'm evil. But I at least didn't have hallucinations. So I can only imagine how much worse is this for Sun.

Because we shouldn't forget that Sun said that he wanted to be good for once. I think that the rationalising part of why Sun killed BM and that was all he could do then came from what Earth told Sun when she witnessed him hallucinating BM. I think that Sun would like for Earth to be right but I think that he really doesn't believe those words. He never tried hard enough to help, to fix things, to find another way. He only makes himself excuses. He fears that he really enjoyed the feel of rush, enjoyed killing Bloodmoon that's why he was repeating to himself that he didn't enjoy it, that he didn't like anything about all of it. For me it really sounded as if Sun was struggling to believe in his own words.

And before I jumped to what Sun said at the end of the episode, I'll get back to Old Moon's hallucination. Because his words about Sun "trying to help but failing" wasn't only about Sun destroying Moon's magic mana pool. It was about everything. About the times when they were still sharing the body and Sun tried to stop Moon from killing innocents. About the times when they separated and Sun tried to comfort Moon. When Sun tried to help to deal with Eclipse, Bloodmoon and Kill Code. But his help was only getting in the way, he was only making things worse.

But Sun retorted to Old Moon's hallucination. He knew that wasn't his Moon. Because his Moon loved him, cared about him. But Sun was asking himself why he saw Old Moon. This hallucination was new. I think it's because Sun is conflicted on his own feelings towards the Old Moon. Because he see how New Moon acts towards him. New Moon is different. He's kinder, nicer, more caring. But it doesn't mean that Old Moon didn't care, didn't love him, right?

But when Sun said that he loved Old Moon, he really did.. it really sounded as if he tried to convince himself there. And you must to understand that I'm not saying that Sun didn't love Moon, no. What I mean is that Sun deep down feels like he didn't truly love Moon if caused him so much pain and harm. Because who cause so much pain and harm to their loved ones? Definitely not someone who truly loves and cares about that person. That's how, I believe, Sun thinks. I really thinks that Sun feels like he's evil.. even though he might not grasp that fully yet. But feelings are really weird thing because you can feel them even if you don't know what are those feelings or why you feel them. And I think that Sun's feeling of being evil is so deeply rooted in him that it'll be hard to help him.

You may think that I'm projecting onto Sun my own issues but don't you think that's a little bit weird how many times I guessed what Sun thinks, how he feels about himself etc.? Because I think that would be a hella weird coincidence. And there's also this whole thing with Sun's hallucinations which ain't normal. Even for someone with PTSD. The most common hallucinations are the auditory ones (which I believe Old Moon was dealing with). And we know that Sun has depression which is often accompanied by low self-esteem and anxiety. Both things Sun has too. We also know that Sun is deeply traumatised by many things and pretty much from the beginning of his existence. He definitely has PTSD from all those killings Moon did in his body and then July 16th and all those things Eclipse did.

And I truly believe that when Sun killed Bloodmoon it triggered him and he had psychotic episode which effects he still feels. I really think that Sun has depressive psychosis which would explain many things including the most important thing - visual hallucinations. And also it may explain Sun's deeply rooted belief that he's evil. Because it's a part of his delusional belief. Which is something you can't do anything about. Depressive Psychosis can be treated but if it'll continue to go unnoticed then it'll be harder to help Sun. He won't be able to get better on his own. And the worst thing is that he won't say anything to others. (Same was for me, I never told anyone about my darkest thoughts and that I wanted to end it all. I only started opening up about those things when I got better!) He doesn't want to burden them and worry them even more than he already did.

And now let's talk about that line: "Sometimes I wish that I was dead" ooof... I knew that Sun was su*c*dal for quite some time.. (not that I projected that again but it's still weird that I was right again!) And when he said that Moon had a reset and doesn't have to deal with all this shit Sun has to deal with... It's very obvious that Sun is tired of everything. But most importantly I think that he doesn't want to constantly ruin everything. Even if this feeling is deep in his consciousness and his not fully aware of it, I believe that he would love to stop making things worse and ruining everything. And then Sun stopped himself from going further with those thoughts because he knows that he can't do that to Moon, to Earth, to others. He must to keep going. And I also believe that he doesn't want to die. That's why he expressed jealousy over Moon's losing his memories. Because it would be like a new life to Sun if he also could lose his own memories. Which is extremely sad if you think about it.

And I almost forgot about that part about family. Sun said to BM's hallucination that he would love to have another brother, someone he could play with etc. And oh boy, that was extremely sad, because I think this is what Sun wanted for the longest time from Old Moon.. and I also think that this part might be about Lunar. That's why I think that BM said that there will be other hallucinations because I think that Sun will hallucinate Lunar probably in the near future. (That's why I'm so scared of this whole Eclipse's plan with "false hope" jsbsksnsbks)

And another thing that I wanted to mention is that Sun's apology to Bloodmoon was genuine. He wished he could apologize to BM in person but he can't. I unfortunately think that Sun is far from getting better. Because he doesn't believe in himself. He doesn't believe that he's good.

[theorist-influencer-untitled]

10.24.24 Thursday --Murder but crime was happened yesterday... Not on sexual thing but smashing my pride and ego...

12:44 am

Still,have windblow...

Waiting for HR for the clearance of the fakers Disney+...

It is somehow unfair in my part, as a right of an employee to get something for cutting my right and copying me then smashing me...People of Church of Christ here in Teleperformance Molino!!!

At 2m the HR here of "Church Of Christ" will open it was my old fucking-less religion...My traitor group as always...

I already bought my own coffee, I stopped getting their free coffee here coz I'm no longer part of this fake people...

One hour and 5 minutes to go... Then, I will wait for the sunrise... I'm supposed to be a vampire...

Is someone insecure on me angels? A repetitive insecurities on me??? My fake followers,everywhere just to damage my entire life even these fucking-less "INC OR CHURCH OF CHRIST"...

Even in fucking-less USA Fucking less Americans! Fakers Disney+!!!

Fuck yah! They will be killed here,go home!!!

That fucking less John Javne said that I was not real, he shouted at me and I never talked back...

I only want my american cousin-white...

Fakers Americans!!!

1:29 am

Still,have windblow...

Hmm... I talked to HR already they said I still have salary on those days that I was here in this fakers Disney+... I asked for a "separation pay" coz it is my right as an employee to get a "final pay" and "separation pay".... Why?

Final Pay-- are days that I attended here in fakers Disney+ of americans!

Separation Pay-- The right of an employee to have a good starter money coz they cut us off even the job is learnable as day goes by...

Plus, all of the call centers are like that...

I feel bullshit! Why, people in call center are fakers even in Disney+ and here in Teleperformance Molino!!!

I need to apply again,angels...

Crazy fucking-less call centers!!! They hated me...

They keep on copying me and removing me!!!

My rehire are decisions of probably fakers Sir Matthew,Kate,Rona,Bianca and most specially Miss Anj! ACCORDING TO THE HR HERE..

2:35 am

Still,have windblow...

I don't like the group of beh-beh... I'm gonna be on Araneta'z group... Here in house already...

It is scary outside,super windy!

I walked outside it was super windy....Around 9pm I went to lawson and Task Us, when I crossed the street and walked going to Task Us, the wind was so strong that could carried my body on the wind.... I was scared that I bended my upper body while walking coz I was somehow losing my balance coz of the strong wind.

I'm seeing some roof are being detached to the house or some signage fell down on the street... It is a weird windblow, super strong!!!

8:25 am

Still,have windblow...

I feel bad that I don't have a job again... There are weird people that claiming probably good people but really not deep within...

Like this crazy customer of fakers Disney+ this Michelle Duplantis who told me that I don't know what I'am doing coz she wanted a "Transfer of Entitlement" but she couldn't verify her mail address that she is the real owner of that account.

Verification is to know if you are talking to the account holder. Like asking the mail address and the last 4 digits of their card. If the customer can't provide these things meaning they are not verified or they are not the one who owned this account.

Yesterday,Daniel went out for no reason at all, during late afternoon....Daniel is our workforce... I think the one who is a judge to kill or no to kill anyone there...

One time I went to Daniel coz my onmi aux or our schedule tagging were suddenly off or mismatch with the nice aux ( Tagging if you will go on chat live or call live with customer )... Plus, someone locked my system and I couldn't go inside my tools like BMS where you punch log-in or log-out and break. I couldn't open my salesforce and my Disney Okta including my help center ( where you can walk-through your customer )and my mind touch where you can find your articles or documents to answer customer's inquiry but not a friendly system.

So, Daniel gave me the phone in the work force, told me that I should talked to the person to fix my log-ins. When I got the phone from him, there was a background music coz I'm waiting for the person on the phone, who is as well Teleperformance employee to fix my log-ins. Then, the background music is somehow a goosebumps on me,it is like a "death march" the music sounded like a sad song that you have to accept but a bit marching beat or it sounds like someone will die... If you are seating on the workforce, these are located in-front of production. It looked like that they were the 12 or 13 judge who will put a verdict on anyone to kill or to let them live... If you will sit there in-front, you can really see everything and see everyone...

Then, when someone talked to me over the phone I was really surprised that the foreigner employee was indian ( indiano which I somehow avoiding coz I love arabs over them ) and I'm having a hard time understanding her words coz her pronounciation was really indian not yet americanize.

There are strange things in call center even in Teleperformance... I wanna sit beside Daniel for some reason supposed to be but I don't know if he got what I meant everytime I waved him and said "hi Daniel".... But of course I have to be professional and still I was focusing there to work. Meaning waving at you saying "hi Daniel" can we have a thing or something like that??? I wanna stay to work coz I needed money. I wanna have a thing but don't you dare tie me...

Then, I saw a shorty guy,having a white-smooth skinned making his duty that time yesterday, same on our schedule. I was still looking for someone, a hunt to kill for something, an access to have some stuff here on earth but I don't want a tying of knot but simply an entanglement of friendship or somehow a bf gf thing and will just sing supposed to be like with Daniel supposed to be...

I didn't know what actually happened yesterday??? We log-in, log-out... We made some task and we did go on training... Review some articles then all of a sudden these unfair things happened. Nang got 88% , Mars got 85% , Darlene got 85%, Shane got 87%,and Yuki got 89% and I got 92%.... We are the 6 people who were being killed yesterday...

I don't like Seed or Sid for being stronger than me. Yvon and Cheerena got 100% I don't like them as well... The rest coz I think we are the 6 people who were chosen to be killed yesterday.

It is really hard to get 100% but in reality it is just "JUST A CUSTOMER SATISFACTION" it is somehow IW! But you need to work for the money!!! If I can just lick the balls of John Jevne or Mike Tragedelta and lick Michelle Duplantis' vagina probably just to stay on my job... But can I ask help from a guy friend on licking someone's peanuts? It is somehow a long time licking...

Miss Anj sent them message on viber that they should be on "DRESS DOWN" from this day onwards...

I therefore conclude that "probably"2x Miss Anj is with Seed or Sid and a showtime event for Ms Anj and Yvon Ely Wagner... The tandems inside???

I feel bitterish... I really wanna see my group someone who can speak taglish and English in real life like me... I wanna see Rocky, my x and my brotherhood... I wanna see my actual genuine cousin-white having a percentage of my blood... I feel bitterish!!!

I can't get a bf that I like now, I can't meet anyone...

I still hate "Church Of Christ or that fakers INC"... I can sense them...

If I can only get my crushes on youtube but it is impossible... I want a pretty face and I want vanities... I want a handsome bf...

I feel bitterish... I hate it the super tagalog men and I hate fucking some americans here they should send home now...

I feel bitterish...

I will diet again... I feel bitter, I don't have a job angels! I have no money!I wanna be skinny angels...

I wanna get a breast implant, I wanna speak English, I wanna find the right one, the handsome guy. The one who will treat me like a baby!

I don't like a man who can't talk English or Taglish and I don't like some americans here send them go back in USA coz they hated me!!!

Send back the americans here in the Philippines going back there in USA or they will be killed like the others!!! SEND THEM AWAY COZ THEY WILL GET WOMEN FROM THE PROVINCE AND THEY WILL BE KILLED LIKE AN ORDER!

I wanna fuck my own flesh and blood my first cousin on my Aunt Ten2x/Tin2x...

I wanna fuck my flesh and blood,I wanna fuck my cousins....

Mitch is the favorite one??? Mitch is the american girl? WHERE IS MITCH? Did she give me these batteries???

4:49 pm

I wanna my own blood my cousin-white...

Aiming to be skinny...

6:07 pm

Still,have windblow...

I wanna still get my vanities... I want my blood back... My cousins I'm gonna fuck my blood cousins...

I wanna be on Araneta's group where the blood still intact and vital in their existence...

But I still wanna see Mitch...

For my male cousins, I feel bitterish for the fakers men and americans get me after my male cousin drink my blood.

I wanna drink the blood of my cousin's... My mental state is royalty... My existence my blood is vital to let my cousin drink my blood...

Why, I have windblow!

Araneta's existence is this way...

The existence of a truly beautiful blood and soul... So,that fakers who are trapping me can't destroy the existence of my family!

6:47 pm

Still,have windblow...

I feel betrayed by the family of Glen Castillio... My blood is the real one, I want the blood of my cousin first...

I feel bitterish for 17 years... Before taking me in, allow me to drink my first cousin's blood but I like my first cousin most,the one on my Aunt Ten2x/ Tin2x... But I want Gelo, I want J.I Iver these are my cousin in blood and my other first cousin and 2nd cousins and my 3rd cousins... If other men will not take me,well then it is fine...

I feel jealous on Mitch they drank her blood and I will be the one who will be murdered in flesh...

Mitch is the all time favorite,the american girl perhaps of some particar group!

7:02 pm

Still,have windblow...

I feel betrayed even my women cousin's who took my other male cousin ahead of me...

I'm the real one, I mean I was the spoiled one here... I hate being replaced!

[saintbobtail]

Ok I’m fired up about this last Black Mirror episode I just saw. Crocodile was a terrible episode and I wish I hadn’t wasted my time watching it, so I’ll vent here instead so at least I’ll feel like I got SOMETHING (a good vent sesh) out of it.

1) Psychologically, the character development doesn’t make sense. Mia is introduced as a normal person with a conscience (”fifteen years of shame, fifteen years of guilt”). She kills Rob out of panic, understandable. But after that, she just keeps killing, long after she could realistically get away with the crimes, and long after someone with a conscience would’ve had a breakdown. I get that she’s not thinking, but the slide was just too fast to be believable. At one point a person’s gonna say screw it I’m already fucked and just give themselves up or kill themselves.

2) There were a lot of plot holes. For example, how did she get into Shazia’s house? Did she try all the keys on the key ring, and miraculously, no one heard? How did she miss the fact that Shazia’s car couldn’t be moved from her property, and obviously link her to the crime? At that point it’s not even desperation, it’s stupidity. I just can’t believe that any real person would be stupid enough to miss a car parked on their driveway and not worry about how to get rid of it. That’s too much suspension of disbelief required.

3) That is NOT how memories work. Just...no. Like if you think of a memory you have. You only remember certain things about it. Not everything that was going on at the time. Your brain doesn’t log everything going on around you at any given time, just the parts that stand out to you. And even then, it only records your perceptions, not your exact sensations (sensation =/= perception). There’s just no way any memory is detailed enough to give you the exact facial features of someone you passed on the road, let alone someone who was standing in a window across the street. Do you remember the face of the last person you passed on the sidewalk? No. Do you remember what sounds you heard when you last passed a person on the sidewalk? No.

4) Incredibly unrealistic that anyone could extract a visual memory from a guinea pig. Humans are pretty well-known for being much more visually-oriented than other species. Rodents are pretty well-known for their reliance on their sense of smell. Can you remember the smell of the last person who entered your room? Then why would a guinea pig remember the look of the last person who entered its room? To be fair I don’t know much about guinea pigs, but considering that even humans have famously fallible visual memories DESPITE our vision being much better than most animals, can you imagine how much worse a guinea pig’s visual memory would be? It’s a pet peeve of mine when people assume that other animals experience the world the same way we do...

5) It was just so predictable. No twists. Nothing surprising. Dumb murder bitch goes murdering, that’s the entire plot. There was so much foreshadowing before each murder, too. Like panning to the knife set in the kitchen? Yup Shazia’s gonna die. Seeing Shazia’s husband on the recaller? Yup he’s gonna die. Tbh I feel like the reason a lot of people found it omg so brutal is since they’re used to feeling sympathetic towards little white women, and this episode gives them a strong sense of dissonance because it does NOT allow that.

6) It didn’t make me think. I loved White Bear because it really made me think about some hard questions - should justice really be about retribution, no matter how satisfying it is to see a child killer be terrorized? is a criminal who’s had their memories wiped even the same person as they were when they committed the crime? Even past episodes that didn’t necessarily have ethical dilemmas at least still had fun social commentary - Nosedive, for example. Crocodile offers NOTHING. Just the shock value of “smol white girl is willing to kill!” which is not that shocking.

7) Again, that fucking guinea pig. Was that meant to be a twist? Why was it even included? Guinea pig or no, she would’ve been caught, easily. Police find husband and baby dead. Where’s the mom? Why can’t we contact her? HMM. Mom’s an insurance investigator, maybe she’s out investigating someone. Who could it be? Who comes up as her last search? HMM. Oh yeah that architect’s house matches up with where mom’s phone was last located. HMM. Oh shit mom’s car is at this architect lady’s house, with its window broken. HMM. “Ma’am we’re gonna have to stick your temple” BAM. She would’ve been caught no matter what. Including the guinea pig as the star witness (lol) is honestly just a gimmicky OMG TWISTZZ.

[bangchanswolfpelt]

🎃Kinktober 2021👻

hey y'all, i'm gonna try to do Kinktober this year!

seeing Kinktober over the years going from kind of a solitary thing to something people take requests for has been really cool, and i'm nightmarishly indecisive, so i'm opening up requests for it this year! the goal is going to be at least a drabble per day, just to keep the bar low enough to clear everyday, but we're probably gonna go longer for a few of these, because i'm incredibly bad at knowing when to stop.

ETA: Kinktober fills for this year will be linked here, but can also be found collected under the kinktober 2021 tag or here on AO3.

how we're gonna do this:

requests are going to be first come, first serve (but even if your request isn't filled for kinktober, i might keep in my back pocket for later 👀)

struckthrough kinks are kinks i will not be writing

ETA: i don't write member/member, i only write reader fic (tho i do write poly)

each number on the list is for the corresponding day of October; the kinks beside it are the kinks available to request for that day (you can ask for additional kinks to be included—i'm actively encouraging detailed requests!—but the kinks available for that day are meant to be the main feature of sorts)

you can request one day per message (i'm not gonna say one day per person 'cause like. you can just get on anon and i really don't care that much. go fuckin nuts if the spirit moves you, babes)

feel free to request as many kinks as there are per day, but if you request more than one, please let me know which you'd prefer to be prioritized if i can't work them all in

feel free to request multiple people per day, but as above, please let me know if there's someone you'd prefer to be prioritized

i usually try to stay away from gendered pronouns/petnames, but i do tend to write readers with breasts/vulvas; if you'd prefer more vague descriptions or no focus on the reader's genitals at all, feel free to request that, too!

if you feel like it, please be specific about what you'd like to see out of your requests, especially re: kinks—there are a lot of kinks on this list i am very into and am very comfortable with, but there's a few i'm less familiar with but still wanna try writing—don't be afraid to give me a little direction!

do NOT be afraid to get too weird with your requests—it's the season to be spooky, babes, i'm ready for anything ;]

who to request:

i can confidently write for every member of BTS, Seventeen, Mamamoo, Stray Kids, TXT; Jay Park; Jessi; Taemin; BM from KARD; Wonho; Jae from Day6

i cannot write Ateez or BTOB with any confidence at all, but that has not stopped me from writing 5racha/Mayfly

to make my roommate laugh, please request GOT7

kinktober 2021 prompt list

Peach Jam: Yeonjun // Rimming // neutral!reader, new sub!Yeonjun, praise kink~

Hands Down: Yeonjun // Spanking // teasing dom!Yeonjun, ass/tit/thigh/pussy spanking, spit, sweet aftercare

Adorn You: Chan's birthday!! || Chan // Body Worship // taking care of overworked Chan<3

Pretty Please: Hyunsik // Bimbofication, Cockwarming, Collaring || With a Bow on It: Jeonghan's birthday!

Peanut Butter Vibes: Joshua // Foodplay

One of the Rotten Ones: Felix // Overstimulation // hard dom!Felix/bratty!reader

Pillow Talk: Wheein // Somnophilia // shy embarrassed Wheein

How You Fill Me Up: Seokmin // Breeding, Sensory Deprivation

Forgot All the Rules: Taehyun // Humiliation

Swimmin' in a Mirror: Soobin // Clones/Selfcest // too much cum >:D

When the Wolf Comes Home: Beomgyu // Incest, Exhibitionism/Voyeurism // jealous, mean dom!Gyu

Nothing I Won't Do: Soobin // Size Difference // sweet dom!Soobs

Show the World to Me: Soobin //Omorashi // pervy!Soobs, subby, embarrassed reader

Sanguine Addiction: Minho + Seungmin // Free Use, Bloodplay, Stockings // vampire au, competitive fucking

Cherry Bomb: Beomgyu // Crossdressing, Praise Kink // subby Gyu

Beating Heart Baby: Soobin // Medical Play // subby Dr. Soobs

Up’s the Only Direction I See: Yeonjun + Soobn // Three(or more)some // oops, all switches

Jessi // Mommy Kink, Orgasm Denial

Soobin + Beomgyu // Double Penetration (1 hole) // cute subby SooGyu

Big Matty's birthday! || Distention/Cockbulge // Scissoring // Role Reversal

Minho // Titfucking

Fuck Around, Feel My Heartbeat: Jisung // Shotgunning // makeouts and spit kink~

Beomgyu // Watersports, Knifeplay // mean dom!Gyu

Beomgyu // Pregnancy, Formal Wear // cum, dirty talk, praise, Gyu gets baby fever at a wedding >:]

Minho's birthday! || Soobin // Lactation

Beomgyu // Waxplay

Hongjoong // Pegging<3

Beomgyu // Facesitting // overstimulation, dirty talk/praise, sweat/olfactophilia

Yeonjun // Dacryphilia // subby!Junnie, tied up and overstimulated

Soobin // Prostitution // subby virgin!Soobin/prostitute!reader

Wonho // Halloween breeding 🎃

[thatboxylady]

i dont even know what sd gundam force is and at this point i'm too scared to ask? that person is taking it way too seriously though. the stuff you write for beast machines seems pretty good so i'm gonna assume they're being weird for no reason lmfao

SDGF has actual human characters in it, though. So, this person calling me out for having "misanthropic" fanfic or headcanons like it's poisoning another author/the rest of the fandom/someone's enjoyment of said fandom is what this all seems to have boiled down to. Which is not cool.

Also, the original ''Thing'' that started this was done in a place where I was guaranteed to see it eventually, so... (shrug) I just come here after work to hopefully talk about robots with my neat friends and reblog fresh memes, man. I said what I said in my original vent post because of its relevancy to that other post about bad fandom etiquette. The same sentiment still stands in the ideology of "liking a show is supposed to be fun" and "don't be strange about someone else's very-specific-fanon you don't adhere to, please keep walking."

I don't really want to talk about it anymore unless the person wants to open a dialogue that's not just yelling at me in a fandom tag, tbh. Other people are trying to enjoy the space and I want to respect that. It's a small fandom but it's still active!

Hey! If you're the same BM anon that's been lurking, I really hope this hasn't turned you off from watching SD Gundam Force! It has a lot of similar themes to Beast Machines while having a completely different vibe. BM is dark and mean while SDGF is canonically much more lighthearted... a little like Beast Wars! It goes into Eldritch Nightmare territory later on that would make Megatron piss himself, though. It's fine. You might like it! <3

(Grappler Gouf and Jetstorm would hate each other but are on the same spectrum of something that I don't have a word for.)

[rnegitsune]

Ok so I thought I'd put together some horror stories from my time as a babymetal fan bc of how drastic the shift in the fandom has been the past year or so. For context I got into babymetal in like june of 2014 (all 3 girls were still underage at the time, I was 22; when I first got into them I thought I would be considered an older fan lmao the naivete, the innocence of new fan me wow I know now I'm not at all in the older half of the fandom esp considering I was born the same decade as su and moa), and I made this blog in I think may of 2015.

I've had people say I should compile men being gross into a post and I just couldn't do that out of fear for my own mental health but this will be pretty close. These are all my experiences with this fandom over the years; I'm definitely missing some but what I do remember should do well to cover most of how this fandom used to be vs now. It's gonna be a lot and tw for men being gross about minors.

Back in my first year or so of this blog I on multiple occasions got dms from men asking to be friends. At the time my bio only said my name and my pronouns. I've always been cautious of dms so I'd ask their age and every single one was considerably older than me. I wouldn't usually answer after that bc no thanks but they would generally try to continue convos til I blocked. The only one I still had was this one

After I put my age in my bio, which was 23 at the time, I never got a dm like that again; take from that what you will. But if you're young please be wary of this hell fandom even now. And if you're an older fan and esp an older male fan reading this, don't dm people trying to be friends. I was over 18 and it still creeped me out to no end.

One of my real first men in this fandom are disgusting moments was a blog back in like 2015 or 2016 who I had some contact with due to common interests; he was a huge yui stan and made bm content. He was like 28 or 29 at the time and I eventually noticed he would tag idols, mostly kpop girls, by their body parts (legs, butt, etc) which is disgusting enough as it is but then I saw him do the same for literal minors, like tzuyu from twice. I messaged him asking what the hell he was doing objectifying women but also actual children and he blocked me lmao. He later unblocked me to let me know that's just how he tagged things and it was my fault he had anxiety and then he blocked me again.

Back before the tumblr purge this fandom was repulsive to a degree I cannot even begin to describe. Someone would reblog something from me, I'd go to their blog and it would be underage jpop idols and japanese p*rn all the way down. I even stumbled upon a man editing underage su into p*rn gifs. Obviously no proof of that but I did go find my initial reaction to it

The number of times I'd get a follow from someone then go to their blog and it would be as mentioned above or their bio would be the most misogynistic trash I'd ever read was staggering. I genuinely considered giving up and deleting this blog so many times bc i felt oberwhelmed and outnumbered by these gross old dudes; and so the fact that this fandom has evolved into a bunch of chaotic wlw?? Amazing, I could cry.

Fun phenomenon of women running bm blogs was men sending messages asking if we liked babymetal. No joke. I think this happened to me two or three times but I spoke w other female creators at the time and it had happened to them as well. My entire blog is babymetal, and yet???

He said the weird guy idk bc he sent some random ass messages vaguely insulting me and when I responded coldly, he acted confused so I said you're some guy idk, hence the above message starting as such. Also that pic and the one up above that has my current pfp bc I just took those screenshots. Like I said I typically blocked weird dms but I guess these passed me by so I still had the messages.

Most people know the sub reddit is the worst and don't need me to tell you but it's a hellscape and I highly recommend avoiding it. A short list of things I've had to see as a result of going there: men discussing at length kano and momoko's appearances and how they look in costume vs in normal clothes. Men discussing at length the hope that the girls would marry men who aren't Japanese, a thread that was from when all 3 girls were underage. They aren't gonna marry you dude they're really not.

The insulting of billie Eilish, a 17 year old at the time, was horrible too. Su and moa got to meet her, something they were extremely excited for, and they posted a pic; the comments were disgusting as you can imagine. The yui rumors were terrible too, fatshaming, slutshaming etc all based on nothing. Some man saying the rumors about yui leaving bc, no joke this was a real rumor, she "got too fat" couldn't be true bc "look at saya." Saya being a barely 18 yo back up dancer who covered the third spot after yui left but before the avengers. Not to mention the upskirt shots from when they were minors, the constant editing of their faces onto explicit photoshoots etc. I remember being a new fan looking for a su pic on google and being horrified at the fact that one of the top suggested results after her name was “bikini;” she was 16 at the time. Also, the uptick in massively creepy posts and messages sent to bm blogs as each girl, but esp moa and yui, approached 18 was disgusting.

Now for some personal nonsense. A big reason why I haven't touched my youtube channel in months is bc I got tired of dealing with the men of this fandom. I poke fun at metal and get told I deserve to die. I say ped*philes and creepy men are gross and get a swarm of middle aged men cursing at me. Had a guy cry about how men are shamed for liking bm and then he turned around and said some gross shit about wlw. Had a guy call me racist for liking a band he also likes (and despite him having no way of knowing my own race) and tell me the babymetal fandom doesn't need my kpop feminist bullshit, which is honestly a great description and I thought about putting it in my yt about lmao. Had a middle aged man unironically say he'd never seen a man be creepy towards bm but fans su and moa's ages calling them hot was creepy. The disillusionment....the level of unawareness is astounding. If you want to see screenshots of some of these comments they are fairly recent in my don't mind me tag; I don't want to see them anymore tho bc they're infuriating so I'm not going to look at them to post here.

Essentially I haven't looked at my channel since may bc men are exhausting and rude and refuse to examine the fandoms they're a part of no matter what. They're told by a woman of the fandom that she's had bad experiences personally and they all start crying about how it's either a lie bc they haven't seen it or unimportant. I did stop reading comments in may and I will never read another one again probably as a result of this shit. Trash men being trash are not worth my time and I refuse to give them anymore of it. I do plan on making more videos tho and let my ~feminist kpop bullshit~ live in their minds rent free.

I will also continue to make fun of metal and the creepy men in this fandom bc it's important and I'm a spiteful asshole who likes disrupting these dudes perfect bubble of a fandom. It genuinely brings me so much joy seeing all the new fans recently (which sidenote if you got into them recently I am kinda curious as to how you found them; I've gotten tons of new followers and considering how inactive they are rn I'm curious). People sending messages about how they finally feel like they belong or that they have a safe space....like I don't even know what to say and I never feel like my responses fully convey how genuinely wonderful that is and how thrilled I am that this is where we're at now and I have had at least some part in it. As this post shows, my experiences have been negative for the most part so the shift recently is such a relief I cannot even begin to explain my gratitude.

So to anyone who read all of this and hasn't disintegrated from the male bullshit, thank you. Keep being yourself and fighting for your place in this fandom, esp if you're a young woman; keep making fun of the creeps and keep making wlw memes!! Babymetal's music is in such a huge way meant for girls and to see more and more finding their way to this previously hellish beyond belief fandom is incredible.

[charrfie]

Alright now that its officially Forzen Friday let's try this post again since it didn't show up in the tags last time-

I'M FINALLY MAKING A FORZEN HC DUMP (kinda AU-ish territory but not really idk exactly) AND NONE OF YOU CAN STOP ME

There are also a few other hcs sprinkled in here related to other characters (like Darnold and Sunkist for example) but Forzen is the main focus!! Despite him being a minor character I latched onto him and fleshed him out sm yall have no idea

Everything under the cut bc this shit is gonna be LONG (and there's also some more doodles that take up a bit of space!)

Also uhh if people like this I might take one for another hlvrai character later bc I have a lot to say about everyone!!

Forzen moved from France to the US with his parents when he was around 12 or 13 (yes, I'm aware that Scorpy and Holly are French Canadian and not France French but that doesn't mean Forzen can't be, I'm just being sure to say this now before someone says something to me about it)

He wanted to go to college and eventually become a game dev, but he didn't have the funds or the support for it (his family thought anything to do with games would amount to a career that would go nowhere).

Because of this, he instead was recruited in the US military. He originally had no intent to join, but after constantly being harrassed recommended to join and being entertained with the concept of being able to afford and pay for college, he caved (hence him telling the science team that his only goal is "to graduate").

He doesn't like his job very much if that wasn't clear.

And neither do most others that have the same job like him.

He was put on a "team" of his own, Team Nice, which was likely arranged as a guaranteed way to get Forzen in the way of danger, and with no one else fighting beside him, he would be easily dealt with- no one would have to worry about him bothering them again. However, he somehow manages to survive all of this, of course. Somehow. He likely knows the real reason he was assigned his own team (if you can even call it that), but refuses to fully acknowledge it for his own sanity, and instead pretends that he's some big, important person on a team that ranks so highly, he's the only one qualified to be in it. (I apologize ahead of time for giving one of the most shitposty and throwaway characters in hlvrai this much depth and angst, there was just potential there leave me alone)

Fast forward to the actual events of hlvrai though. This hc is a little outlandish but I really like the concept!!! So, at one point, Forzen is killed, presumably by some kind of creature that was out and about due to the RenCas. The science team + Benrey stumble across him (act 2 part 2 at around 13 min in for anyone curious), and Benrey decides to use the healing beam Sweet Voice on him. While Benrey and Forzen may not be on good terms anymore, Benrey still very begrudgingly cares about him and didn't want to see him get injured or die. Forzen wakes up a minute or so after the science team exits the room, assuming that he just passed out, nothing more, and goes along with things as normal.

He meets Darnold a while after his first (concious) run in with the science team. Darnold has recently dealt with the science team and helped them out, but is pretty bummed that he couldn't travel with them, as everything was far too scary and dangerous for him. Forzen, wanting to escape Black Mesa and the military altogether, ends up making a deal with him that he'll handle all the dangerous stuff if Darnold can show him a way out.

Now, meeting Darnold is a very new experience for him, since Darnold actually enjoys his company, and actually wants to befriend him! At first, Forzen openly tries to act as if Darnold is a huge deal to put up with- he goes along with with the whole "if you're escaping outta this hellhole with me, you better keep up" kinda deal (despite the fact that he kinda NEEDS Darnold to escape and show him the way out). His walls are still very much so raised, and he doesn't let his guard down as he's not used to others caring about him and his safety. But as time passes, he begins to realize that maybe Darnold DOES want to be his friend, and the tough guy act becomes less apparent.

To preface this next one- Sunkist sensed that something was up (he has a next-level sense of danger when it comes to Tommy's safety) and got to BM as fast as he could, searching every hallway for his boy. This is when Forzen finds him!! He figures that taking Sunkist as a hostage would be enough to get extra info out of the team that's been practically plaguing him lately.

Darnold doesn't know about Forzen's plans to take Sunkist hostage, so is completely fine with traveling alongside him. At one point though, Forzen and Darnold get separated (Forzen occupies him, makes sure hes safe and then runs off to deal with Sunkist). Darnold immediately uses his surroundings to model a quick little teleporter device to get Forzen back, because, you know, the man's a genius. Idc if its logical or not just go with it shhh I've gotta fill in the plotholes with something. That's why Forzen disappears all of a sudden after he's cornered by the science team. He just pops back in front of Darnold suddenly, all confused and loopy from the whole teleportation thing.

As things begin to wind down, Darnold and Forzen make it out of BM and start making a break for it, no idea how they'll get away from BM and to safety somewhere- they didnt really think things through.

Fortunately (or unfortunately for Forzen really), however, G-man picks both of them up. He means to drop Darnold off at Tommy's party, as he observed that Darnold helped his son to safety and is grateful for it. Forzen, though, he intends to "deal with" for messing things up so badly with Tommy, Sunkist, and all of Tommy's friends. This is where Darnold finds out about everything Forzen did and frankly gets really pissed with him since he thought he only had good intentions??? Luckily though, Darnold convinces G-man to give him a second chance, let him go to Tommy's party and apologize, and try things again. G-man, for some reasons agrees- probably bc hes in a good mood, as it IS his son's birthday.

The party is pretty uncomfortable to say the least. Tommy's extremely hesitant to talk to Forzen, but he does, and they end up on neutral terms by the end of it. Uneasy, but neutral. Tommy and Darnold hit it off though, and Tommy opens the invitation to Darnold that he can visit his place anytime now that everything at BM is over with.

As everyone's getting ready to leave, Forzen mentions to Darnold that he doesn't have a place to stay, seeing as the entire military was kinda. Yknow. Wiped out. Obviously wouldn't wanna go back to check anyways. And he has no interest in going home to his parents. So Darnold agrees to let him stay with him since they've become good pals over the course of everything.

Over time, Darnold visits Tommy more and more often. He starts bringing Forzen along, which Tommy is iffy of at first, but their dynamic starts to change and become more comfortable once Tommy sees that Forzen isnt interested in being enemies anymore.

Sunkist and Forzen still don't get along for a very long time. Or, well- it's moreso that Sunkist is very wary about Forzen, despite him not doing anything to harm either Sunkist or Tommy.

Oh yeah and almost forgot to mention one of my favorite hcs (that I PROMISE you started out as a joke but then I got attached) is Sunkist can talk!! So his first spoken interaction with Forzen after Forzen comes over to visit for the first time is literally just him being all threatening and laying down the ground rules bc he doesn't want Forzen to hurt Tommy at all in any way. And of course Forzen about has a heart attack bc "HUH??????? THERE'S A DOG THAT IS SPEAKING HUMAN WORDS TO ME"

UHH I HAVE MORE (I've written out so much shit about dynamics and what I'd think would happen even after all of this) BUT I DON'T WANT THIS TO BE TOO LONG like it already is SO I SUPPOSE I'LL LEAVE IT AT THAT FOR NOW!!!! I hope this isn't too ooc either, I just have Emotions about this series and write too much so why not share it yknow

[hongism]

Hi!!!! I just saw the tag of the bm ch. 2 and it made me so so so so happy. I was kinda worried when you disappeared for a month and now this surprise aaasbdfsjkdfd I am gonna read as soon as possible, I promise you that! Thank you and keep going, even if sometimes it's hard. I love MOC and I am enjoying this one so so so much!

no worries, i'm not going anywhere, i just had to focus on irl commitments for a little while 🤧 thank you for the love and support 💗

[pinkrabit]

Hi I saw another post basically saying "how can you stand jiang cheng" and there are literally so many reasons in my humble opinion but I'm gonna attach ss of other people reasoning why (aka I can't be bothered to rewrite it when someone else already did it right)

He was a fucking boy thrown into politics and was hurt. If he hated wwx sm and was so selfish why didn't he land the final blow to wwx. Either at the BM or on the edge???

He had multiple chances to kill wwx after reincarnation too. Mo Xuanyu's body wouldn't have been able to defend well against Jiang Cheng.

As far as just killing demonic cultivators, I'm pretty sure we lack direct characterization with that claim. It's hearsay at beat, if I remember correctly.

Yeah he was an asshole for taking anger out on other people. But it's also not like he found a random person and went "you're the current whipping boy tysm"

Some people are just assholes, I can't really defend him here.

Of course, there are reasons. Despite how flimsy wwx's status was, Jiang cheng was given an inferiority complex because of his parents comparing him to wwx. He went through a fucking war. Where he, at one point, was ready to die because he trusted wwx to take care of jyl. (Special mention of the core transfer and then wwx making the wen brat eat his own skin. That was fucked, but creative. WWX would definitely be a theatre kid)

If he was so awful, how could JL defend him so readily and earnestly?? Why would he spend so long w/o assistance to get wwx out of the cave, knowing he might have been dead???

Thank you for coming to my random tedtalk about how even though JC did some kinda shit things from wwx pov, he wasn't free to do what he wanted. (I wish I had the ao3 comment name) (sorry for not tagging the tumblr users, but you did get credit)