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thelifelessgirl · 1 year

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Everyone gets tired of me at some point.

Then eventually they’ll leave.

They all do.

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dreamdirector · 2 years

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Still thinking of you… how beautiful your soul is and I miss you still. Everyday. 💔

#sad #heartbreak #i miss you #i feel empty #i still love you #dead inside #lonely #broken heart #brokenheart #just wish my heart would stop #depressing thoughts #i miss you every second #i am empty #still in love #fuckeveryone #loneliness #i want to disappear #i'm so tired #soulmates

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cartoonghosts · 2 months

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not vibing i feel like my depression has been sneaking up on me like I thought I was good for so long and this isn't even sudden and I'm genuinely considering death I don't know what's going in, I'm enjoying life and things are good but fuck I don't want to do this anymore. The trees aren't as beautiful as they used to be. I think it's ending.

#Tw sh #tw suicide mention #Tw si #Tw suicidal ideation #Tw depression #Tw mental health #I feel like everyone I love is either disappearing from my life or I'm falling out of love with them #I keep telling myself I can't die bc one of my best friends needs me alive but once I'm dead her being gone won't hurt me #This way she'll be alive for my whole life #Wouldn't it be nice to never grieve #I don't know what's going on and I'm scared and I literally just want to go find my best friend and cry for a bit #But he isn't answering my texts and I think that he's getting over me #Ig I do need to wait out this week and then ask my dnd group if they'd be super disappointed if I was gone for the campaign #There's not much more I can contribute #I'm already fully burnt out at 15 #And I'm losing more and more control over my public image which means that people are migrating away from me and falling out of love with m #I just don't know what to do and I'm so tired #I can't walk very well because of my knees and my mom's solution is 'walk more' like dude why do you think they hurt #I just think my body is dying without me anyways it wouldn't hurt for it to be on my terms at least #I just need someone to talk to

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howwnowbrowncoww · 4 months

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god i want to fucking cry

i had an appointment with a neurologist like 3 weeks ago and i've been calling back since then trying to get anyone to give me some goddamn answers about my MRI and apparently each time my request was being denied and nobody was bothering to call and let me know?? And now i have to meet with another doctor to discuss my request in-person but i have to wait an entire month for the appointment.

i just want to fix my fucking migraines, why does the health system suck so bad

#my first appt wasn't even with the actual doctir i was supposed to see!#i was stuck with some loser who wasn't answering any of my questions and was dead set on putting me on anti depressants #i'm just so tired of hurting all the time #it makes me want to cry but that just makes my head hurt 10x worse #howw talks

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fenharael · 1 year

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The next 5 days are going to suck incredible ass but it will only be 5 days and then I'll be home

#when life pelts lemons at your head repeatedly #I was supposed to have fun with my friends this week :|#but now thousands of people are dying and my uncle is dead and I have to fly out of town and I have to make a last min work presentation #and AI bullshit is continuing to creep into my workplace and all these people got fired and I'm starting a higher dose of prozac and #I'm depressed and tired and frustrated and sad and angry and and and and and ans ajsnansndnsjskwjwkdksjaaaasssaaaaaahhhhhhh #I just don't care anymore I'm tired #I'm just really tired and depressed and I'm tired of trying to be positive and happy and not make people worried and not be a burden #yeah I have a therapist and I'm working on it #I'm just tired and stressed out and I have to walk my mom through her trauma and all I want is to stay home #I'm not trying to get attention and I'm fine I just need to vent bc I can't sleep

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daz4i · 1 year

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i am so angry about being alive it's not even funny anymore

#what's the point in any of this 😐 i will literally never be okay. i never have been okay. I've had debilitating anxiety since birth #it's not going to go away it's literally getting worse as i grow older and so is my depression #hate to hear ppl say it gets better when I've been gradually getting worse since i was like 13 #which is extremely funny. bc when i was 13 is when most of my suicide attempts took place #at least i was active and took initiative back then 🙄 i only became too tired to keep trying since #i don't want to kill myself i just want to be dead. I'm tired. I'm angry. I'm always feeling awful. nothing is worth it #even when i feel good it's like 1% of how bad i always feel. and it's not like there's much good to go around anyway #i don't understand now people don't constantly feel like losing their mind over how shit life is truly #there's this line in nlh actually. where yozo asks how come ppl don't constantly want to kill themselves. and yeah felt #i can barely distract myself anymore bc nothing is stimulating enough esp when I'm alone #and i don't. care enough. about anything. to want to stay alive. like i said nothing is worth it. idc if ppl would be sad sorry #i don't even know what I'm saying anymore man. idk why I'm doing so bad rn. it's been a tough week ig.#nothing actually happened but everything is just. less than average. a little worse than neutral. just enough to be grating #i don't want to kill myself but i wish i could #wish i wasn't a coward wish i didn't fear permanent damage or hospitals or even just pain i have no control over #nothing happened but everything sucks. existence is disappointing. i would like to stop #vent #suicide //#negative //#ask to tag #i genuinely don't know what to do now. i can't distract myself. i probably shouldn't fall asleep when I'm like that #(at least if i don't want to have nightmares like i did all week and for tomorrow to be even worse)#tbh i doubt i even COULD fall asleep like that lol my brain's working too fast as usual 😐#sigh. sorry for the vent. trying to clear some of the dirt off my psyche

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magentagalaxies · 1 year

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#scrolling through tumblr first thing in the morning and seeing nothing but news/activism is uhhhh kind of exhausting rn #like obviously i'm glad people are spreading awareness and i agree with most of these stances #but jfc how does this not make everyone else tired and depressed???#like i'm scrolling through tumblr and it's like. scotus protected someone's right to hypothetically discriminate against gay people #stabbing in a gender studies class. tourists decimating the economy of barcelona. presidential candidate advocating trans genocide #and that's not even counting the super long posts i just didn't have the mental energy to read. or the joke-y ones #(like ''every time you reblog this capybara a terf/antisemite dies''. well obviously it's not true bc it's not the fucking death note.#and ik wishing death upon bigots is a good way to make sure those bigots aren't following you but also #it just forces me to remember there are bigots who would probably want me dead if reblogging posts could kill trans people)#idk this isn't me telling people to stop posting politics. bc honestly i admire people who have the energy to spread awareness #and i don't want to just like. blacklist anything remotely political and live in a bubble as the world's ending #but idk i just wish my scrolling didn't immediately turn into doomscrolling this morning

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halfdeadfriedrice · 1 year

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the thing about the office environment is that i can feel my brain leaking out of my ears. the thing about an office environment is that the lights are too much. the thing about an office environment is that i think i would be better at my job if i could take a moment to belt DELTA DAWN WHATS THAT FLOWER YOU HAVE ON when the spirit moves me. the thing about the office environment is that sometimes you get a new boss who hangs up motivational posters. the thing about an office environment is how are you supposed to sit here and cope when you read "defense of children's innocence" act is going through your state government. the thing about an office environment is that if you aren't there your new boss thinks you're sitting at home jerking off and couldn't possibly commit emails because you are so busy refusing to work. the thing about an office environment is that you bought a heated mouse because your desk is freezing. the thing about an office environment is that anyone is looking at your screen at any given moment. the thing about an office environment is that people come in and bring it all back to jesus in the end and you aren't particularly about that life.

#god fuck #half dead fried life #i'm depressed for other unrelated reasons too not least the ol 'ive got approximately 2 hours to finalize packing for dcon and i'm so tired #and 'i can't believe my best friend just moved 3 hours away :('#BUT #staring at #of doing do u do it #is doing nothing for me

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deadtower · 1 year

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i’m just so tired. and hurt. and upset. and it wasn’t even my fault this time

#suicide tw in tags /#i'm just so fucking tired of being a failure #i'm so tired of twisting myself into knots trying to satisfy people and make myself who they're idealizing #i'm sick of being mistreated i'm sick of not having money i'm sick of everything that'shappened this past year #i was in shock this entire afternoon and then i was delirious with laughter #and now i'm just in the fucking valley of depression. i don't see the point in trying #if someone hates me working at their store so much that they go to the manager #and tell them that i used a swear word in front of them #and the manager fires me for it while telling me i'm a perfect employee otherwise #then like. why even fucking try. if everyone's just going to have a problem with me #for being nice and enthusiastic #should i just become a bitter miserable person too? bc those are the only people #that seem to get ahead lmfao.#i don't know. i'm hurt and angry and i feel dead inside #i'm really really done with everything. i just wanna stop it all #i thought i was scared of death but man... if it will give me even a fucking second of peace #and get me away from these people who hate me and want me to be destitute with no income.#then.

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thelifelessgirl · 1 year

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You hate when people see you cry because you want to be that strong person.

At the same time, though, you hate how nobody notices how torn apart and broken you are.

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dreamdirector · 2 years

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Missing you, everyday still.

Its not any easier like you said it would be💔

#sad #heartbreak #i miss you #i feel empty #i still love you #dead inside #lonely #broken heart #brokenheart #just wish my heart would stop #depressing thoughts #i miss you every second #i am empty #still in love #fuckeveryone #loneliness #i want to disappear #i'm so tired #soulmates

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skchorpion · 2 years

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#I see yalls warm fall posts and pretty colored trees and all and I'm happy for you and your sweater season #but I'm having such a hard time romanticizing november in the baltics lol #and I AM trying to actively romanticize it bc my seasonal depression is the worst during november #and I'm trying so hard to get better at getting through it!!!#it's just that there are no more colors where I live. if you're lucky you see then sun through the mist in the morning #the trees all look dead already #and the wind is so cold it cuts through you like a knife #energy crisis makes it so that I have to wear my coat indoors when I'm at school #and whenever I get home I have to turn on the light even when it's like 2pm bc I live in a forest and the trees block the light #sometimes I get lucky with the sun. this weekend was nice. but the rest... it's fucking sad. too cold for mushrooms #I make tea every fucking day and I'm tired of the taste. I can't drink coffee but I want to stay warm #anyway. I just. need help romanticizing cold mud. dirt. and darkness I guess #november

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transguyfestersincloset · 5 months

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Here's a crappy sketch cause I'm stressed and the world is feeling hopeless.

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theood · 8 months

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Lol

#////////////////////#////#///////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////#//////////////#i feel like a waste of space and a leech on resources.#Im so fucking dumb and stupid. I don't do anything right. I have no passion. No energy. I'm lazy as can be. Can't get a job. Can't hold a #job. Can't do anything steady to save my life. I'm fucking worthless. I feel so stupid. I can't maintain friendships. There's nothing in my #eyes when I look in the mirror. I'm already dead. I'm just letting myself rot at this point #I'm jealous. I'm stupid. I can't hold a fucking conversation to save me. Im not trying hard enough. everyone else had actusl real problems.#oh you're depressed in mommy and daddys house where you pay nothing at all? fuckong grow up you bitch. that's what you are. a fuckong dumbas #s bitch Elias. Fuckinh look at yourself #i should have just gone to college *** ****** ****** like god intended me too. I've know since 4th grade I don't know why I even bothered as #i got older. it'd do my friends a whole lot.#its so fucking tempting to just delete everything and not ever talk again. Im never gping to achieve anything becuase I was fucking dumb ass #kid who didn't apply himself. boo hoo you struggled in school everyone else did too. you're mot fucking special. you don't have anything #wrong with you. you just want attention. Get hit again bitch and maybe you'd grow a fucking spine. Look at yourself. Almost 21 and you're #nothing but a fucking cesspool of waste. You're disgusting. Nobody actually wants you and you know.#im so fucking tired of it all. I should have gone several states away and never came back. There's nothing for me here. There never was and #there's never going to be because nobody wants me. not any person not any job. not anything #its a chore to be around me and everyone always makes better friends and connections that aren't me because I can't be a fucking normal #person. * ***** **** **** ** *** *“” **** **** ** ******!#none lf my relationships last because people see through my bullshit and jump fucking ship because its the right thing to do. ***'** *******#**** ****** ******!! Why bother with me. *** ******* **** *** **** ****** i know it #elias.zip #even if i get a job I'll still be fucking miserable because thats all my life will ever be. miserable. it's never going to start to get #good. ever. I'm not meant for anything. not meant for this.

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pussysidon · 1 year

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"oh lots of people feel that way" that's like saying "you broke your leg, but you don't need a cast because lots of people break their legs"

#im so tired #stop talking #medical gaslighting #fr fr ong #and also depression #that's fun too #existential despair #i had an existential crisis and am just trying to vibe through the pain both literally and physically #if you're curious #im fine #but i say that as in “I'm not dead #yet

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alisonwritesimagines · 1 month

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Second Chance ~Logan Howlett Imagine~

Summary: Logan meets you. A variant of his dead wife.

Author’s Note: I won't lie, Hugh Jackman was hotter in the early 2000s.

Part Two

Reader’s Pronouns: She/Her

Warnings: SPOILERS FOR DEADPOOL AND WOLVERINE, mentions of character deaths, mentions of sexual innuendos

Do not repost this anywhere!

A new start for Logan was just what he needed. And thanks to the TVA, Laura was able to join him in the universe Wade was originally from. So this was a new start for the two of them. And to celebrate their success in saving the universe, Wade decided to have a pizza dinner party with all his friends so Logan and Laura can get to know them.

"We are missing one more person," Wade noticed as he looked around.

"Y/n will be coming soon. She had to deal with something first," Yukio tells him.

"Thank you, Yukio," Wade smiled at her.

"Y/n?" Logan asked Wade.

"Oh you are going to love her. Everyone does," Wade tells him. "You too Mary Puppins."

Ten minutes later, you finally showed up.

"As an apology for coming late, I made my famous brownies!" You announced as you handed the plate with the chocolate goods to Negasonic Teenage Warhead.

Logan looked over to see that the stranger who walked in felt like a walking corpse to him. His smile drained from his face as he stared at you who was greeting the people you knew.

"Y/n! I want you to meet our new friends! Logan and Laura," Wade said. It felt like a cheesy rom com slow motion turn to Logan. But he was still enchanted by your beauty.

"It's nice to meet you both," you smiled at them.

"It's nice to meet you too," Laura said as she shook your hand.

"Please excuse me," Logan said as he walked out. Your smile fell a little as you watched the man walk out. You looked back at Wade who had a confused look as well.

"I will be right back. But here. Meet Mary Puppins," Wade said as he handed the dog over to you.

Wade rushed out of the apartment to find Logan outside.

"Hey! What was that? You just ran out on one of the best people I have ever met. She is tied with Peter and Yukio," Wade tells him.

"I didn't realize you had a version of her here," Logan tells him.

"What are you talking about?" Wade asked him.

"Y/n. She was my wife in my universe," Logan explains to him.

"No shit. You were married?" Wade asked him in shock.

"She was also killed because of me."

"This one is different."

"And how's that?" Logan asked him.

"She's a really big badass here," Wade tells him.

"She was in my universe too. But I still let her and everyone down."

"This one could be different."

"I don't know."

"Why don't you come back upstairs and have pizza and get to know her?" Wade offered.

"I think I'm gonna stay out here for a bit," Logan tells him.

"Alright."

Wade headed back upstairs, leaving Logan all alone. Not fifteen minutes later, you came outside with a plate of pizza and a brownie piece and a beer.

"You are missing the pizza and my brownies which Wade was mostly eating all of them," you tell Logan as you handed the food and drink to him.

"Thanks."

"Are you okay? Did I do something?" You asked him.

"No. It's just... you look like someone and it's bringing back some memories for me," Logan tells you.

"Oh. Do you want to talk about it? If it makes you feel better, Wade has told me weirder things and more depressing things," you tell him. Logan let out a small chuckle.

"Maybe not now. I'm sorry for running out while you were introducing yourself."

"That's okay. Let's reintroduce ourselves. I'm Y/n. It's nice to meet you," you smiled at him.

"It's nice to meet you too. I'm Logan."

"Hi Logan. So, did you have to suffer with Wade alone for a couple of days too?" You asked him. Logan laughed a little.

"Yeah. I did."

"I can tell. You have a tired look on you," you laughed a little. Logan smiled softly, hearing your laugh. It was no different from his universe's you.

"You know, the party is upstairs and we are missing it," you tell him.

"That's true. Let's go," Logan said as he followed you back upstairs.

During the party, you sat next to Vanessa as you both were catching up. Logan kept looking at you whenever he could as he talked to Laura.

"You like her," Laura tells Logan loud enough for only him to hear.

"Come on kid," Logan groaned a little.

"She's pretty. And Wade talked to her about letting me stay with her and the other X-Men," Laura tells him.

"Really?"

"Yeah. Apparently she's a good teacher both education wise and powers wise," Laura tells him.

"She always was," Logan said, looking back at you. Your eyes met Logan's, making you smile at him.

"Oh he's cute. You should totally get with him when you can," Vanessa encouraged.

"You think I should?" You asked her.

"Yes! Plus he's handsome," Vanessa nudged.

"And his abs are amazing," Wade mentioned to you. You looked at Vanessa who also had the same look of interested with you.

At the end, you grabbed your bag and jacket before saying goodbye to Blind Al and Wade.

"You ready to check out the school?" You asked Laura.

"Yeah."

"Can I actually ask you something before you leave, Y/n?" Logan asked you.

"Sure. What's up?" You asked as you walked over to him.

"Would you like to go on a date with me sometime?" Logan asked you. You felt your cheeks heat up as you smiled happily.

"Yeah. I'd like that. Here's my number," you tell him as you wrote it down really quickly for him.

"Call me."

"I will."

"Alright. I'll see you soon hopefully," you tell him.

"See you soon."

"Bye, Logan," Laura waved at him before following you out.

"So, are you two just going to adopt Laura and start a family?" Wade asked him.

"Leave it."

"Just letting you know, she likes it rough in bed."

"You and her had sex?"

"Nope. But I did overhear her and Vanessa talk about what they liked in the bed one time," Wade tells him. "And trust me. She may look sweet and innocent, but she is a bit of a masochist."

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