#i'm not built for this chat

[greeneyeofenvy]

remebering

that i have an empty broken spray bottle full of water that's been there for at least 4 months, I'm tempted to drink it.

[shalom-iamcominghome]

Part of the reason I'm working out: I must become a golem

Second, secret reason I'm working out: what if I'm carrying the Torah scroll and I drop it because I have noodle arms............

[sysig]

My fourth wall OCs! ♥ (Patreon)

I tried to put everything in the tags but ended up being too long-winded lol, so here it is instead!

For this year’s big behind-the-scenes project, I realized I haven’t given colour references to a lot of my 4th Wall characters! There are...a surprising proportion of femboys who are aware of their existence here now that I look at it lol - I mean technically only Cory and Mint count there but that's still 2/8 - a fourth is kind of a lot! Their sizing is pretty funny to me as well, Cory’s proportions make everyone else look tiny by comparison, he’s just got a very large eye! Set right next to Gijat too, Vortians are so compact - he’s fully grown he’s an adult he’s just small!

Okay, for actuals now, starting left-to-right - while they’re obviously organized by height, it's funny because Cure is also the oldest by creation date. She's front of the line on everything! How silly. She's larger than your average plush bear but only by a little - just enough to be like Mildly intimidating if she approached haha. Puntable - and yet unpuntable lol. It's not just her being the oldest of the lot that makes her more powerful (although that is a contributing factor - she’s aware of her status both in and out of character!). It's not just Kids Rules either since she was made such a long time ago - y'know like ''Oh yeah well my character is [very powerful for X reasons]'' - although yes Also That lol. She's a Fourth Wall OC down to her roots, always intended that way - not everyone here can say that!

Tala also has that edge! Though in a very different way haha - she's also the only one here with a physical counterpart, which is fun :D Means she can go on “actual” adventures and bring that knowledge back with her cartoon versions - both are as real as the other! I keep forgotting her bow, agh, I need to take some more pictures of her sometime so my mental picture of her is more up to date haha

I guess my blankslate HF expression kind of counts?? Lol, it’s mostly for funsies, they’re more like a Concept As Person so?? Sure lol, With Accessories of course lol - haven’t been fighting it much lately so that’s all for now ♪ I wonder if they’ll stay so lucky in the near future hmmm

Gijat! ♥ He ended up being an accidental fourth wall character actually haha, he wasn’t designed with that in mind! He's not meant to know such things, but he did fairly well with it while he was part of the main rotation :) He was designed to be a story character but he ended up being my favourite comfort character so he got a few glimpses out <3 He hasn't for a while though! He's been retired for a long while actually - he's the second oldest character in the lineup after Cure but she had more staying power, sorry Gi <3 I did draw his fairy version not all That long ago tho! It’s hard to let go of anyone for Too long haha

Cory ♥ My sweet special boy <3 He's also the third oldest here! He was the first one to assert himself as a fourth wall OC haha ♪ Cure didn't really congeal into an OC for a long time - she stayed a concept and Gijat was on accident - whereas Cory purposefully and clearly looked outward from the start. He Has a story but it's never been all That developed - he has some non-4th Wall character-friends but his main focus is other, unrelated characters. He's always been very interested in other OCs, a lot of which stems from Bar actually haha - he and Bar are near-contemporaries - they're both featured here for a reason haha

Mint >:| He's...fine. He was inspired from a weird source and has therefore always Been weird - and also asserted himself like Cory. Same story - he has canon story elements but for the most part he's interested in others! Usually in a Pursuit kind of way, and not just limited to my OCs >:/ He needs to behave himself is what - he also has like 1000 outfits and they rarely repeat, ugh, pick one! I wasn’t familiar with the eGirl aesthetic at the time I made him, but he 100% fits it, look at him in his elf ears and heterochromatic contacts smh. I don’t actually know his real eye colour, or hair colour! He wears contacts and dyes his hair and won’t tell me, he even started dating a non-4th wall character without asking! He’s a real wild card

Erase is probably the babiest of the list despite Tala being newer and younger - everyone else was made before Erase! They’ve had had less screen time and less development than everyone else too.They're an incredibly light and oddly harmless fourth wall presence lol for all the danger They pose in Their story :0 They're fairly polite all things considered. They actually have a degree of respect for the fourth wall - unlike Some people (Mint) - probably from acknowledging The Player/Character vs. developer. If there's a hierarchy capable of being distinguished then Erase is going to place Themself in the safest spot. Y'know - to cause problems from lol. I do need to play with Them more - They're fun! But fun isn't quite enough to be full-fledged Interesting just yet, more to do, more to do

It's almost unfair to have Erase right next to Bar lol - possibly my most Interesting OC of all time. First created in 2015 quite soon after Cory, even in the same notebook! He retired in 2017, I think? 2018 at the latest - and then was revived in 2020 and has been here again since. And that's just his timeline! Not counting everything that went into him character-wise. Obviously my sonas don't count as 4th wall OCs because y'know - they're me - but Bar falls kind of unclear of the line between OC and sona, he's always been a weird one. He was initially meant to be an RP character and then over time he developed into a 4th wall OC/sona of a Kind. Nowadays he's a fully-fledged 4th wall OC by design - his change in design from his 2020 revival was meant to represent his transformation thereof - but he's always been weird! If I had to pick a character that I’d consider “overdeveloped” or put too much of myself in - even more than some of my sonas - it'd be him. He's one of my favourites because of that but it's hard to quantify how exactly I feel about him haha. I love him! It's painful! He's great! He's awful! He's very important to me and he'll never return to being what he was first created for again. I do quite like his new design <3 Paying homage to the video that sent him crashing back into relevance for me haha

It was fun to draw everyone :D And it's nice that they all have colour references now! Mint has definitely been the longest without one, everyone else has had at least Something - even Erase! And They're way newer! I did make Mint in a couple online dollmakers but that's not quite the same thing haha, he really needs his clothes hand-drawn :P

It's good to have them all :) They're a fun bunch and I like all of them <3 I think it’s kinda funny and a little strange how few crossovers they’ve had with each other though! So far it’s really only been Tala-Bar-Cory - the rest are aware of each other but haven’t really met, how strange, considering what they are!

[gingermintpepper]

I think there's something very special about coming back online to an ask detailling feelings of disgust and disillusionment with Apollo and some of the tellings of the less than savoury ways he acquired/defined his power in myths. Like, I think that's very fair and very normal and it's okay to have to grapple with whether or not you're okay with supporting such things and I'll never be upset at such a conclusion, but I do think it's something special.

Mostly because it makes me earnestly wonder after what a person's experience with gods and spirits of the earth and their stories was like before stumbling into these sorts of cultural spaces. I know people have many moral and ethical beliefs and many more people truly think that in order to admire and appreciate a figure, they must be something of a role model - or, at the very least, representative of some facet of one's beliefs/values but, to my knowledge, no god is innocent and there are none who don't have blood on their hands.

I dunno, a part of me wants to wax poetic about how gods and mythical figures are just as much representations and reflections of the state of their believers as they influence those who are under their protection but the other part of me just earnestly hopes I didn't accidentally ruin someone's view of a figure I myself hold in great esteem just because I embrace and find great beauty in his dichotomous nature while others prefer to laser focus on the aspects that bring them comfort.

Idk, it's just stuff to think about, I suppose.

[skibasyndrome]

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[incompletebasil]

Now I stand by the idea that Heart would bite a bitch for fun-

And is, in fact, the most violent of the 3, Soul being second and Mind not really caring for violence

But I also wholeheartedly believe I could take heart in a fight

I feel like he'd crumple with a good enough punch

[ghost-proofbaby]

i don't wanna post too much about it and be annoying but i will be streaming bg3 tomorrow around 5 PM MST (give or take. is az even on MST right now? it'd be 5 PM my time. GAH.)

it'll be a dark urge honor mode attempt. it'll be fun. i swear. in case any of you sweet souls might feel like poppin in and chatting for even a moment <3

i'll be posting the actual link when i go live, but also, my twitch is in my pinned now!

[tardis--dreams]

I actually realized i hate work. Won't be putting any effort into this anymore ♡

[automatonknight]

me when i play the class that medics uber and i get. ubered

[pocasu]

personally i think you would all love limbus company. so many wonderful women who are all cunty one way or another. and men catered to lesbians (well at least they are to THIS lesbian)

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

naur but i used to do the same thing 😭😭

like. "oo flour yes i will take 100 flours ty 100 rice? SURE"

LIKE I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO DO W/ ALL MY MORA 😭

EXACTLY I NEED TO KEEP MY INGREDIENTS IN STOCK

it was extremely funny that one time, because my friend was watching me play Genshin and kept begging me to stop buying out all the stores in the game (i did not stop, it was hilarious and now i have like 200 tomatoes >:)

[neriyon]

Me: oh cool Yulan got asked into fc! It even has fun name AND is on the smaller side!

Fc's discord chat: 130+ new messages in less than an hour

Me: *visibly worried*

[dbphantom]

I have been blocking so many OF/MD fans for spamming the H2O tags. It was funny the first day but now the tags are borderline unusable and it's really annoying

[ailinu]

wait hang on realizing that a player in one of my games intends their new character to be some kind of chess-genius one-of-the-smartest-people-alive type absolutely makes last session much much funnier in that context.

just. you know. you’re one of those chessmaster types. you ask if any of your new traveling companions would like to play chess. the one that takes you up on it is a tarot-reading little air genasi with bells in their hair and a big wizard hat, who professes that they ‘like games’. they’ve looked you dead in the eye and told you their name is paul. you don’t know if they’re lying. you’re pretty sure they’re telepathically linked with their traveling companion, whose runic magic is slowly turning him to stone, and who’s straight-up refused to tell you his name. this should be easy.

you sit down to play, presumably assuming that you can just completely smoke them. but then they get an early advantage. you start coming back through the midgame, but the endgame is tight, a real nail-biter. and at the end of it... you lose. your opponent sits back and gives you a big grin, and goes, ‘wow, that was fun! i don’t know if i’ve ever played that one before!’

it happens too fast to do anything: they lean forward, pick up the king they’ve just captured. they toss it to the rune-wizard. is he playing next? no. he crushes it in his hands and eats it.

[cheetour]

I wish I could pin a little banner to my discord that said, "🏳️My love language is acts of service, I am naturally very solitary, and I am extremely non-anxious, so I am never going to initiate a conversation with you, and I want you to know that it is a flaw of mine that does not reflect how much I like and want to talk to you🏳️"

I hate the idea of someone feeling unwanted by me because I never initiate contact... there are a lot of people in my life who I have drifted away from but still like & support, and it makes me sad to think they might have thought I liked them less than I did, because they were the ones putting in the effort to see/talk to me ;_;

[the-prophesied-disco-gay]

In a truck stop bathroom washing my hands today and 2 boys, looked about 5 and 9, came in with their little sister who looked maybe 2. The following whispered conversation made my entire day

"We have to wait, there's a lady in here!"

"That's not a lady, he has a mustache! We can be in here!"

"Some ladies have mustaches! And she has boobs!"

"Well some guys have boobs! Like Uncle Jake!"

"Uncle Jake is fat!"

At this point I could not contain a chuckle and both whirled around with identical looks of panic on their faces. I smiled and said "it's alright for you guys to be in here so your sister has help, don't worry. And I'm both! That's why I have boobs and a mustache. Some folks are just built that way"

(In unison) "Ooooooh!"

(older boy) "So do you use Sir or Ma'am or both?"

"Both, but I prefer Sir"

"Cool! Well thanks Sir! We have to help our sister now!"

This was in a small town country truck stop and both boys had "Murica" type stuff on and neither of them had any issue at all with these concepts. Their mom approached me while I was in line about 10 minutes later and apologized for them bothering me in the bathroom (they had told her about the interaction) and she and I had a lovely little chat too. I got to introduce her to the term "intersex" and her reply was "I think I've heard of that before! I didn't know that was the word for it. Amazing how many different ways God can make people!"

Sometimes the world is good. More often than you might think, if you give it a chance. It's not all bad loves <3