#i'm literally just existing and wasting space at this point in my life

[lemotmo]

They really are watching an entirely different show. But this is hilarious 🤣🤣

Q. I cannot believe you enjoyed last night? They literally said 'all these people want me to be in love with my straight best friend but that's not the case'. They literally mentioned your ship to kill it dead. How do you people not get that? You with your we're getting Buck's feelings realization. Yeah you did, and his feelings don't exist for Eddie. Truly embarrassed for you.

A. Oh sweetie, we basically did get his feelings confirmation. I understand that the only card you all have left to play is denial. It's literally the last one in your deck. So you clutching onto it for dear life makes perfect sense. So feel free to clutch it hard while I answer this. I'm going to make it flash card simple for you.

*Buck can't sleep in the house

*Buck can't bring himself to unpack anything

* Maddie tells Buck to make new friends

* Ravi gets recruited to be Buck's new friend. Only Buck can't talk about anything other than Eddie (shout out to the confirmation that Buck took Eddie to the Lakers game. And shout out to rebel competent Eddie that Buck is thoroughly impressed by and will defend to the death)

*Ravi, in a desperate attempt to escape the Eddie fest, spots Tommy and sees an escape route

* Tommy goes to the table (side note: how did he look worse than he did before? How did he get even less attractive? Wild)

*Tommy asks Buck how he is. Buck info dumps about Maddie and trying to adjust to Eddie being gone.

* This is news to Tommy who tells Buck that Eddie stopped talking to him after they broke up (Eddie is the biggest Buck stan in the world so of course he did)

*Camera cuts to the little smile that appears on Buck's face when he learns this.

*Only after Tommy learned that Eddie moved out of the state does he decide to flirt (I'm assuming that was flirting but the actor sucks ass so Oliver and the audience had to do the heavy lifting)

*They go back to EDDIE'S house to hook up on a sheet less mattress on the literal floor

* Buck wakes up alone on the mattress (literally no one wanted to see the alternative so bless you Aisha) and finds Tommy in the kitchen where he has cooked breakfast

* Buck tells him last night was fun but he understands that nothing's changed. But, BIG SHOCK, Tommy is suddenly no longer concerned about Buck breaking his heart (but how can that be you may ask)

* Tommy attempting to sound jokey (again the actor is terrible so we can only assume he was going for lighthearted) tells Buck he's not too worried about it now that his competition has moved out of the state. This confirms that Tommy knows Eddie is competition where Buck is concerned.

* This confuses Buck because what competition could he possibly be referring to? Tommy responds by saying come on Even (his name is Buck you plot device piece of wasted space) don't make me say it out loud

* Buck then realizes that he is talking about Eddie. And his immediate response is to say Eddie is straight (the word straight becomes Buck's best friend for the remainder of the episode)

* Tommy, the GAY character, audibly scoffs at this declaration and says 'Okay' (at this point the GA would have gone...wait a minute the gay character doesn't think Eddie is straight hmmm probably something to ponder) look at the good little plot device plot devicing

* then Buck Buckley says with his entire chest out 'I DON'T NEED TO SLEEP WITH EVERYONE I HAVE FEELINGS FOR (opps accidental truth bomb) AND I DON'T HAVE FEELINGS FOR EVERYONE I SLEEP WITH (this was Buck basically telling Tommy he never really caught feelings for him, it was just physical so oops another accidental truth bomb.)

*Cut to our strongest soldier Maddie Han fresh from having her throat slit open (she looked SO good) trying her best not to lose her damn mind with how stupid her baby brother is

* Buck, and his new best friend, his declaration of Eddie's straightness, tell Maddie that he is not in love with Eddie BECAUSE Eddie is straight (good time to remind you that neither Tommy or Maddie ever said the word love. That was all Buck. Buck is the one who said love, and each time he did he denied it by saying Eddie is straight) The way he denied it was an admission. Hope that helps. Eddie being straight is the ONLY reason Buck gave as to why he's not in love with him. That's not a reason. Also, fun media literacy fact, any time a character is referred to as straight that many times generally means that character is not in fact straight.

* Then Buck admits that he only slept with Tommy to distract himself from the fact that he was missing Eddie. Maddie then tells him that's not a good reason to get back together with someone. Buck says he should probably call him at least and apologize (Tim later admits in an interview that Buck did not call him 'because he got busy with other things). So it's canon that Buck didn't care enough to call him.

In conclusion, anon, the plot device returned to tell the general audience there's a good chance Eddie is not straight, and might in fact be someone Buck is allowed to be in love with. Because the character the audience knows as gay is a better narrator for Eddie's sexuality at the moment than Buck is. Also the show cannot have Buck explicitly admit and realize he's in love with Eddie until the audience knows for sure that Eddie is an option for Buck. Episodes 9, 10 and 11 were all for the general audience. They were telling the audience to start thinking about their relationship differently. And not a single episode has been difficult to follow. They have made this very, very easy for everyone. Please feel free to keep clutching your denial cards, that's your right, but everyone else, including the general audience has moved on. They have opened the Buddie box and there's no going back now.

Thank you Nonny!

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[jessequinnfirstofhername]

So... Safe Space? anonymous Hazbin hotel?? Hot take? people might try and burn me alive about it.

Lucifer is so utterly and completely annoying, a waste of air.

like I only have so much patience for oh No Sad woobie Lucifer trope.(thanks Paradise Lost)

but even as is..... bleh. blah.

Kill it. fun singing, fun designs, duckies are good jokes but KILL IT.

let Charlie rule in hell after Father is slain, it be alot of fun!

Also will someone deal with the whole Charlie never did direct sin so might as a half angel/human spirit/demon? just be able to live in Heaven.

gimme that Charlie angst that SHE is free and clear to enjoy paradise if she actually forsakes them a little, with a helping of meeting the Sinners victims in life, actually seeing the consequences.

Charlies facing her sheer power, prosperity and that SHE could be in a comfortable bubbly of safety and literal Paradise but still CHOSES the no I WILL help to Sinners even AFTER confronting what they actually did.

gimme little Charlie all bruised up by life that still got some grit in her eye and is going to WORK at it.

cracked head canon hazbin hotel. no one to disprove is so cannon functionally about to put the thanks I hate it in ya life, I apologize but must share. get it out. only grace is think Doylist, think Doylist. but if Watsonian..... have we considered the fact that Lucifer might be the literal First Groomer/pedophile depending on the Garden? like from first principles the ancient immortal, super powerful being mucking about with the first born people, literally the youngest, weakest, stupidest creatures in all of existence at that time. Literally could not create a bigger age gap from anyone at that time. So that. but also like comparatively, the barest grace is literally hoping the immortal was not messing around with like, teenager, Lord knows a Child (the FIRST teenagers the horror.) also like, did god have to tell them what Sex was, did sex exist yet at that time, did angels have to teach the little humans the first ABC talk. So that. these are dumbass thoughts that keep me up at night. And no one CONSIDERS it which drive me NUTS. Lucifer should be THE scummy person, literally wrote the first book on it but oh no duckies! blegh. this has been my Ted talk on Kill Lucifer let Charlie Reign my little Sunshine.

My confessional is here for all the hot takes, no matter how controversial, no matter how much I may disagree with them.

Obviously I'm going to disagree with that. I think that Hazbin Hotel's Lucifer is a perfectly likable, fun character. Also, it's just plain hilarious to see an interpretation of The Devil who's such a dork.

(That being said, the 'oh no sad woobie Lucifer trope' is a great name for all those versions of Lucifer who spend all their time moping around about how God was super unfair to them)

Your point about Charlie, however, is very interesting. It would be fascinating and add so much depth to Charlie's character if she was actually eligible for eternal paradise... all she has to do is forsake the very people she swore to help to get there.

Then again, wouldn't abandoning her people to literally rot in Hell be a black mark against Charlie's soul? This is a fascinating line of thinking...

Also, it would be interesting to see Charlie meet the victims of the people she's sworn to help. How would that make her feel? Would it cause her conviction in her mission to waver?

From what we've seen, Adam, Lilith, and Eve came into existence as fully-formed adults. So no, Lucifer is not a predator. There are certainly a lot of questions to be raised about how moral it was for Lucifer to fool around with such (at the time) innocent people, however.

Hey, the duckies are adorable, they make us willing to overlook a lot!

I don't agree with your viewpoint, but you have a lot of interesting ideas, Anon!

Thanks for the confession!

-Jesse xx

[fractualized]

hi I sent that last ask and I appreciate you so much. I love how chill you are. I love that you speak up and aren't afraid of others people's opinions of you -- because you talking about that helps me realize exactly what you were talking about about.

my critical online space that shaped my brain was Tumblr growing up, much in the same way reddit or 4chan or anything else was for others, and as positive as it was and as much as I stay here, there were some HEAVY years of thought policing and performing perfectly at all times and I really think it fucked with my head!

not to trauma dump, but the way it related to starting off by policing each other in fandom just happened to spill into every other aspect of my life too. every thing is black and white. every interaction is perfect or you are flawed and not worth anything at all. people literally judging you off stupid fandom shit behind a fake name dressed up in sparkles and curiosity was enough to call you a monster who deserved to be alone. the fuck??

from fandom cops telling me that portrayals of fictional characters in my head were an actual meter that we can base if we're deserving of human connection made me think about what ELSE could be important. aren't there things a little more pressing than fictional characters?? the words I use. the way I behave. move my face. micro express, leave pauses in sentences, judged by everything! I've been taught that the LITTLEST OF INDICATIONS OF HUMANITY were going to be the death of me. I couldn't exist. all because of fictional themes that creators are allowed to make, but fans are not allowed to enjoy unless it's the "right way". even though the people CREATING it are also exploring it. rules for thee but not for me.

it's gross. I felt like a monster and when the only other people who are kind to you are monsters, it really makes you wonder why fandom cops find themselves so much morally superior to others 👹

People have told me I'm chill before and I'm always like, "excellent, they can't tell I'm yelling on the inside." 😂

Sometimes I wonder if I would be different if the show Heroes hadn't ended as such a clusterfuck. And by that I mean that my experience with that show ended on such a sour note, I wound up drifting away from fandom for 5-ish years. And it wasn't because of the Heroes fandom itself! It was because by the end I was hate-watching the show, and that kind of headspace is just no good. I wasted too much energy being mad at something that wasn't going to improve, and my other fandom interests weren't strong enough for fic, etc. I still lurked here and there, but otherwise I focused on life stuff.

At the point I left, tumblr was popular but I was still a livejournal (and journalfen) holdout. As a result, I was simply absent during the most intense tumblr years. I have a general idea of what it was like from everyone's descriptions, but from my point of view, five years passed, Telltale Batman: the Enemy Within came a-calling, I started writing fic again, and uhhhhh things sure were different.

Not entirely for the worse. For one thing, as someone who unavoidably grew older, yeah, I do keep in mind that there are children running around these parts. The increased focus on tagging your work is also good, so people can avoid what they don't want to see. And it's just always been a good general rule to be mindful when getting into sensitive topics, and I was seeing more of that.

Buuuuuuuut yeah, with that it seemed like "don't like; don't read" was out, and witch hunting was in. Some slight mistake might indicate you were actually one of the Bad Ones all the long! And everyone must know! I mean, there's always been fandom police, but fandom's mainstreamification definitely made it worse for a host of reasons. And I actually was unnerved by it for a while, even though the Enemy Within finale had me indulging in fluff. I was probably safe-- but then again who knows what blunder or improper deference to a sensitive subject could bring a swarm of strangers!

But eventually I was fluffed out, and chatting batjokes with people was giving me new ideas that would have me explore and indulge in (gasp) darker ideas. And by that point I was just like, I'm a freaking adult. I tag my shit. I'm here to have a good time with people I like, not worry about a bunch of randos who probably get as much anxiety making a cold call as I do. And yeah, why are fans supposed to be judged on a different metric than the creators?? I'm going to do what I want!

And with that rallying cry… I mean, nothing ever happened. 😂 Not the first time I've built up worries in my head for nothing.

I can see it taking me longer to get to that point if I'd fully marinated in the thought policing, though. I think people get that instinct because of the age-old lack of control elsewhere in life (especially nowadays, with all the… everything). Surely if someone can get everyone in their orbit to behave in just this way, then at least things there will be okay. Nothing bad will happen! (It's not as if rigid mindsets hurt people and their relationships, or performatively good people still do atrocious things. No, surely not.)

I don't have a good closing, so here's an Reno 911 icon from the old days:

[acti-veg]

Every time I see nonvegans calling us racist and saying we value non human animals over humans and talking about how indigenous people are often in situations where they need to hunt to survive (despite most of the people making this argument not being indigenous themselves), I think about this video we watched in my freshwater ecology class in uni that talked about the impacts of animal agriculture on freshwater systems and the disproportionate impacts it has on indigenous communities. This video had real indigenous people talking about the real life impacts nearby animal farms have on them and their community. In it they talked about how they feared for their health, how they were seeing how the pollution animal ag. caused deteriorated their quality of life, how they would beg the farmers to not spread their animals waste on certain days and how they would catch the farmers doing so purposefully on those days.

It just makes me feel so sick seeing this primarily nonindigenous audience so self assuredly talk over indigenous voices about their own issues and pat themselves on the backs while doing things that actively support and contribute to the issue. I'm white and I would never dream of trying to have a voice in the vegan debate in indigenous spaces because it's just not my place, and yet nonvegans feel so entitled to do so and think they are fighting against racism in bulldozing over actual indigenous people.

So many of these people talk about indigenous culture and lives in such an abstract way too. It reminds me of how health teachers in schools talk about LGBT+ people. Talking about them like their existence is theoretical and purely for the sake of discussion rather than a group of real living people. It's just so dehumanizing. And yet we are the ones who don't care. Literally all I want in life is for people to care about one another and for everyone do try and do their best to live in a way that is kind to others and minimalizes harm to all living things. But the people calling that wish racist won't do the bare minimum and listen to the people saying that this industry is actively hurting them.

The really important thing to avoid getting really angry over stuff like this is to remember that it's actually just an elaborate show for them. Nobody who has done even a cursory amount of research into the biggest threats to indigenous communities would be defending animal agriculture and blaming it on vegans; its all just a performative sham.

What it comes down to is the fact that they can't deal with our argument so they try to make us somehow Problematic so that they can cloak their discomfort in the language of social justice. It's the most banal and predictable response that it's not even worth getting annoyed over. They don't actually care about indigenous people, or quinoa farmers, or whatever else is their talking point of the week; they're just playing dress-up.

The indigenous people, the farmers, the 'children picking our crops' are not real people to them, they're just pawns. Sometimes they are literally made up, as happened with the quinoa argument, which somehow evolved from a clickbait article about Peruvian farmers being priced out due to western demand, to quinoa being picked by child slaves - which was never even the claim of the original (now widely debunked) article. They actually, frequently make up slaves to get mad over rather than discussing recognising any of the real victims of animal agriculture. That is the level of cognitive disonance that we are dealing with.

This performance is mostly directed at themselves and each other, rather than us, because what we advocate for presents a challenge to their identity as good people, as social justice advocates, as leftists, as animal lovers. It's why we see so much applause for bizarre and blatantly untrue claims circulated here every week, and so much aggression over seemingly obvious, basic facts when presented by vegans. If you can understand that it is just for show then you can put it in the proper context and find it pitiable rather than infuriating.

[aq2003]

it is literally canon that Martha stayed with Ten even though she knew he didn’t love her back. she stayed because she was in love with him. you can think whatever you want in fan spaces, but staying with him for love is exactly what she did. Ten was an ass to Martha in so many ways during this season, I think he coped with being the object of her desire (and even bragged about it to Donna).

sorry i'm putting my foot down here. anon we are watching different shows because in the very first episode ten is uncomfortable and shuts her down the minute he catches that martha has an interest in him. he (as stated by david tennant) spends nearly the entire season unaware of her crush. "i don't think he's [aware of her feelings for him]. i don't think he'd do that otherwise. i think he gets aware as the season rumbles on" — but even then, he still has that line in sound of drums where he goes "it's like when you fancy someone and they don't know you exist" to her. you could interpret this in either one of two ways, either he's trying his hardest to ignore her crush and is acting like it doesn't exist, or he honest to god still does not know. and when we're talking about a character that has a famously long history of being not involved in romance or being unaware of standard romantic conventions, the fact that he isn't aware of how she feels (however long that may be, but we know it extends over a majority of their time together) makes much more sense than... i dont even know. going out of your way to make someone fall in love with you but the moment you think she's in love with you you go "what the fuck! don't do that! back off!". like??!? and as someone who has been the object of an unrequited crush from one of my close friends before, it's difficult to look back on this person without thinking about it or feeling guilty over it. this is exactly what the scene with ten and donna reads like to me; they're talking about the relationship ten and martha had and he brings it up bc it's been directly on his mind (he's fucking tactless about it but being tactless is like one of his primary personality traits!). it's one of the reasons she left him! it's the reason why he rejects donna initially before finding out she wasn't interested in him! i'm not trying to say that their relationship was healthy or that s3 ten did nothing wrong or whatever but god will you all kill him for the crimes he actually committed

as for martha, i feel like you're misunderstanding the point i was making about her and i already got into arguments in two separate posts over it so i'll just leave it at "if you think her crush is her only personality trait and the only reason she chooses to stay with ten is /thinking he'll eventually fall in love with her back/ then please get well soon". look at shakespeare code when after ten compares her to rose and says he'll take her back home she sarcastically goes "great!" or at the beginning of gridlock when she goes "ever heard of the word 'rebound'?" (i could write another long post about this line but that's not the point rn) - she isn't having a good time! she knows ten isn't treating her very well! but the reason she doesn't want it to be "just one trip" isn't bc she's romantically pursuing him (which is the point i specifically took issue with) or even bc of her crush, it's bc she knows ten is grieving—he lost his home planet, his people, his kind-of-girlfriend and just needs someone with him and SHE KNOWS THAT! BETTER THAN HE DOES! look at family of blood: she's asked why she's his companion and she answers "because he's lonely". she KNOWS he needs her and as a character established from day 1 to be someone learning to save people for a living i don't think it's a massive stretch to say that she's not 100% in it for herself. if you take the show at face value, it's saying that martha is straight up wasting the years of her life and isn't getting nearly as much out of her friendship with ten the way he is with her. this extends to multiple areas of their relationship. and forgive me if i'm being too fucking bold but "thinking whatever you want in fan spaces" is a mentality you treat shipping with, not "analyzing the character writing of a writer first and foremost known and praised for his character writing"

[frost-eyed-autumn]

♚ How many people don't like you?

⚜ How many people do you not like?

the salty af munday meme

{--HAH. You want a list? (/joke)

The answer to both of those questions is "a lot". The two are usually mutually exclusive.

Most of the people who don't like me, I don't like in return, and there's usually plenty of reason behind that. Honestly though, most people I just feel neutral towards until they give me reason to stop being neutral, and most of the people I actively dislike its because they're abusive and refuse to change or make things right. I get the feeling there are plenty of people who don't like me that I don't feel any particular way for or barely even know exist.

It's whatever either way and I'm pretty used to not being liked, whether its because I didn't come from the "correct" demographic or social class, because I didn't fit whatever arbitrary scale of what makes someone "popular", because I have a difficult personality, because I called them out on their shit and they didn't like that, or even if someone has a legitimate reason not to like me or just thinks I'm an asshole... which, fair.

I am an asshole sometimes and I'm not going to pretend that I'm not. What you see is what you get, I don't really see a point in trying to mask what kind of person I am and moreover I don't have the time and energy to waste doing so. Nothing worthwhile comes out of being fake.

There's actually a video on this topic that I really like and I think everyone should watch, called "How I Got My Confidence Back" because it really gets deep into how I feel on the subject. This in particular...

Is being authentic - although people praise it, "just be authentic, be yourself" - is it peachy? No. Not necessarily. Especially if you've been acting like a [Lion King] bug eater your entire life. Some of you are like "haha, hey everyone, I'm a lion!" Aaaah! They run off. Literally. Even your closest relationships, your closest friendships, it might stir things up, and they might leave you. They might not be okay with you being a lion. But here's the thing. Even though externally, they might abandon you, leave you, reject you, here's the most important part: internally, you stop doing that to you. Because right now, by not claiming you're a lion, you're ultimately disowning and abandoning yourself. You're pretending to be someone you're not. And although yes, externally things might seem fine and peachy, its never worth it. This is when you create what I call a golden prison. Where at the surface, everything seems fine. You're not honoring you. Its not worth sacrificing what's "in here" for what's out there. And even in terms of feeling safe and secure in life, by the way, its not about designing an external situation or a safe space where you're like "Okay, if I just control everything, I have my friends, I have this, everything's safe, right? I just need to control things to go my way." that'll never lead you to true safety and security. True safety and security, true confidence even, is knowing that no matter what happens out there, I'm okay. I can honor me, be me, and if everyone leaves, that's okay cuz I got me. And then it gives you the platform to build real friendships, real relationships, not who resonates with the front, the person you've been pretending to be, the bug eater, but who resonate truly with you. And this is a harsh truth where, hey, if you're really willing to change, its confronting your inner demons but also confronting what we call the Destruction Phase of transformation. Meaning… you changed, great, but now everything "out here" is gonna change too. Anyone who resonated with the "old you"? Gone. They're not gonna like it. They're not gonna accept you. Even close friends, close relationships, that might fade away too, and you have to be willing to sacrifice that. There's a price to pay for everything. There's a price to pay for authenticity. The price of authenticity is you have to let go of anything and everything in your life that is inauthentic.

Like me or hate me -- totally fine by me either way -- but like me or hate me for who I actually am, not for whatever illusion of me you've (general you) painted, whether that be a positive illusion or a negative one.

But I think not being liked by a lot of people goes for everyone really. People like to find reasons to not like each other. I don't think I'm particularly special in that regard, but I don't let it bother me too much. There are only a few people in the world whose disapproval means anything to me, everyone else is about as consequential as an NPC.

That's not to say I don't accept constructive critique, so long as the criticism is based in reality and in good faith. It doesn't necessarily mean that I'm going to agree with the criticism, but I'm not going to bite someone's head off about it or go scorched earth on their ass, again so long as its genuinely well-intentioned and the other person isn't trying to bite my head off first if I don't agree with them. People are allowed to have their opinions about me, even negative ones. Just don't lie about me and paint me as something I'm not and we're good.

It's enough for me that despite there are plenty of people in the world who I don't like and who don't like me, there are also a lot of people I do like and who like me back, and we like and respect each other for all the right fundamental reasons and for my authentic self. Isn't that just what anyone wants in life anyway?--}

[beautifulpersonpeach]

I've noticed that PJMs REALLY hate jikook and jkkrs, I've literally even seen some of them parrot taekook narratives and rhetoric about Jungkook not liking Jimin and such (which is crazy to me, why would they ever believe anything tkkrs of all people have to say about something related to JM!). Even though JJK1 was just announced, I've seen a whole portion of them raging about jkkrs suddenly today. They're also saying most of them are JK biased, but I'm pretty confident the majority of jkkrs are JM biased actually, and I thought that was well known. Do you think there's a specific reason it's like this? I feel like a lot of KTHs and JJKs are tkkrs, or at least have gotten along with them. But it's definitely not the same with PJMs and jkkrs.

***

Hi Anon,

Just as a general rule, I'm incapable of taking solo stans of any member seriously. There are some groups in k-pop where it makes sense to be a solo stan. But for a group like BTS, to be a solo stan is an automatic failed IQ and EQ test, in my opinion. And PJMs are no exception.

So, I kinda don't want to waste any time on this ask given the subject is PJMs / solo stans, but you sent this ask a while ago and I'm in a mood... I'll take a gander at it.

Why do PJMs hate Jungkook, jikook, and jokers?

The self-inserts who recognize that Jungkook is a real and constant presence in Jimin's life, and likely will always be. Jungkook is a person who many times occupies the space many imagine a spouse or significant other would take with Jimin. A lot of people in the fandom see this, including PJMs, and for the solo stans who love Jimin a little too much, Jungkook's very existence is a thorn in their side.

The psychos with zero sense of boundaries who have deluded themselves into thinking they get a say in determining what is best for Jimin. Some PJMs don't think Jungkook is a good friend to Jimin, much less a good spouse/partner. They find him inadequate of being paired with their god, Jimin, by their personal arbitrary standards. JK doesn't shower Jimin with enough attention, affection, deference, reverence, etc, by their own standards. They hold every slight or minor disagreement jikook have ever had, against Jungkook in perpetuity, because how dare he act like a teenage boy talking back to Jimin (or whatever) when he should be glad the mighty Jimin breathed in his direction?

The overprotective mother hens who feel powerless to hold Jimin antis responsible in their stan environments, so they transfer the blame to Jungkook. Some JJKs suffer from the above two mental ailments plaguing PJMs, and are objectively disgusting towards Jimin. Of course none of that is Jungkook's fault, but some PJMs choose to blame him for their behaviour anyway. This faction of solo stans (and shippers) who act like this are so pathetic, I won't waste any more time getting into it.

Jikookers get heat from PJMs because they celebrate a relationship that most PJMs view through the lens of the above three points. Jokers are automatically bad for wanting Jimin in a relationship that is obviously bad (see above), and what's worse is jokers don't really support Jimin enough (based on the standards set by solo stans...).

Some shippers (and jikookers) are vile fetishizers, and are legitimately hated by anyone with half a working brain, at least, and so like a broken clock that's right twice a day, PJMs sometimes sniff out the jikookers who honestly belong in a jail cell. Here, I say the hate is justified. But again, that's more the exception to the rule.

In terms of bias splits with jikookers, what I've observed is most are double biased with Jimin and Jungkook. Taekookers however swing more fully to being majority Tae-biased, and the fall out from the Taennie reveal more or less confirms that for me. The JJKs who get along with KTHs are able to do that better than with PJMs, because I doubt any of them see Taehyung as real competition to Jungkook. To be blunt. Jimin has always pulled in significant attention for his unusual tone and feather-light vocals, his dancing ability is peerless, and his personality endears him to everyone who comes across BTS. Jimin reigned supreme in Korea and internationally in terms of popularity since debut, and in the last 5 years, has shared this more with Jungkook, and to a lesser degree with Taehyung. With Tae, it's only since 2017 I saw an uptick in his popularity within the fandom and outside it, and his Chinese fanbase since 2018 has been a big reason for this, actively working to match his status with Jimin and Jungkook. But even then, at least in Korea, Jungkook's only real competition in BTS is Jimin, and so his solo stans have a harder time getting along with PJMs, than with KTHs. This isn't something I usually pay attention to because I'm not nearly as sensitive to it as solo stans are, but I've got eyes and can see.

Anyway...

With a group like BTS, there are certain people who are guaranteed to always be angry and/or miserable for as long as the group is active - and yes BTS as a group is still active in Chapter 2. These types of people include homophobes; the mantis who believe they know how to manage BTS better than BigHit; people who don't like ARMY or don't like BTS mentioning ARMY; and solo stans of every variety; among others. Anyone with any of these inclinations is bound to either stop following BTS and k-pop completely, or will end up as a full blown anti who spirals further into degeneracy.

I'd ignore them if I were you, though in Chapter 2 I can understand why this could be difficult to do.

[lorynna]

white woman tears anon from earlier - that's actually fair & i agree with what you said about "white women don't need ass kissing," i think its come to a point where any "defense" of white women (i'm white let me clarify) i feel like i need to clarify that i do not think white privilege *doesn't* exist, i guess that in itself shows the problem. it will already be assumed that whatever i say is white women tears so i need to give a disclaimer that i am not victimizing myself for being a white woman. it makes me feel whiny before even speaking, having an opinion or thoughts is "whining and crying". the self flagellation isn't necessary but i feel obligated to say so otherwise be assumed racist/"karen." i've seen arguments of "don't speak then/we don't need your opinion then" which just turns into an echo chamber and you can't have an actual conversation about anything without it getting shut down immediately. and have women not been told to shut up since literally forever? idk, not the best at describing this because it feels taboo to discuss but hopefully this makes some sense. i'm also not fully versed in the Imane/Angela situation but the hate i've been seeing online is insane, seeing men say "im glad that white girl got hit" like 🫤 is this not just misogyny? men (and many women disappointingly) don't give a shit about women's sports they want to see her get hit because she cried. she cried "white women tears" and she should be hurt for that. this is not giving other women a sour taste in their mouth??

Hello again anon - I'm glad you didn't take my reply negatively - I was worried you might have!

And yes, I totally relate to what you mean about feeling the need to clearly state that you do believe in white privilege before defending any white woman - I did so aswell in my reply to you previously.

Maybe this is more of an online-forum-problem, than when you're talking to someone directly irl. I often find it tiring to have discussions on here because there are so many people not even trying to have a good faith conversation but more so aiming to knock of their daily-life frustrations by twisting or laying words in your mouth you haven't said, just to make it seem like a cheap win when all they did was jump to thoughtless assumptions. - so logically you try to minimize every potential possibility for them to accuse you of anything by thoroughly elaborating on all of your beliefs beforehand.

I myself notice how I care less and less about arguing with people online. If it's a healthy conversation where I feel like I am being respected and I can learn smth from it - then sure but I won't waste my time on engaging in a debate where the whole point is to insult each other and where both are not ready to start with good faith.

In the end it doesn't benefit me and prioritizing one's mental health always goes first. So instead of trying to change people's minds (like i tried when I was younger and more patient and naive) I no longer see any shame in just deleting a person's comment from my blog if they have no constructive criticism but only insults etc. This is my space and if someone violates my boundaries I delete it and be done with it, even though sometimes the desire of sending a snappy reply overtakes.

Don't worry - I get what you're saying.

And thanks for writing again ❤️

[unhingedhearties]

I'm Not Even Supposed to Be Here Today

I should be getting ready for a big family event (that of course has to happen while the new season airs. Good thing there's space on the TV to record the rest of the season) but then THIS catches my eye, and I can't not share it:

I see the name Writer Janine so I know this is going to be good.

Oh! It's been a post or two since I've explained it, so here's a refresher for those who don't know who Writer Janine is. Writer Janine is the Heartie who wasted no time calling Lucabeth breaking up a massacre right after a real world massacre happened and when asked to rethink her choice of words since it was grossly inappropriate, doubled down because the slaughter of innocent people half a world over means nothing to her.

Never. Ever. Forget. That.

So this is what this brilliant mind wrote:

You'll notice a lot of the same words get reused. Hmm... I feel like I've pointed this out before 🤔

Wow, it's almost like Mei and Mike are in love or something. It's almost like Mei's only ever been in an abusive relationship and Mike's in his first real relationship and they're both nervous and happy about it. But other people (real or fictional) can't be happy. That's not allowed! Not when Team Lucas fans are still hurting 7 freaking months after their soap opera didn't end the way they wanted.

Bill Avery... lousy inspector *literally travels to the scene of the crime & figures out Pike's testimony doesn't add up with nothing more than a stopwatch and his own 2 feet.*

😂 This woman watched WCTH, believes this and actually thinks she's a writer. It's like a dog thinking it's people.

disloyal, disloyal, disloyal etc...

Janine, this show doesn't take place on Kashyyyk and the cast isn't made up of Wookiees. No one has a life debt to Lucas. Especially when they've known Elizabeth far longer. And yes, Lucas is a fraud, a crook and con. I'm sorry him being interesting triggers you this much. We like us some bad boys here, not neutered down tea sippers. It's time for him to dip into the whiskey and have a real drink like a man's man.

Little Jack easily transfers affections from his dad for half his life to mom's new guy.

Okay, I've got to say this first. White Americans have the weirdest relationship with the concept of "community". You all claim to want it, you cry about how it apparently doesn't exist anymore, you idolize some long-gone concept of community from "the good old days", but when you actually see what a loving, supportive community of people is (usually from *gasp* large immigrant families) you fall apart. Community isn't going to your mega church once a week to gossip about which families looked at you the wrong way or aren't raising their children in a way you approve of. It's family and friends you trust pitching in, going out of your way to lend your time and help when someone needs it instead of just sending "thoughts and prayers", and doing what you can to create a positive environment not just for your kids, but all the kids around you. Especially with kids that are experiencing difficult circumstances like, I don't know, one parent leaving or dying. Like Elizabeth and LJ.

I remember 30 years ago when people were quoting the phrase "It Takes A Village To Raise A Child" like they were profound scholars, but never put it into practice because the reality of what that means sent them into a tizzy. That's why I love Faith looking after Lilly and the whole Daycare Center plot. Everyone pitches in to help the kids and community grow.

A four year old boy having several positive male role models in his life isn't going to harm him. Lucas wasn't LJ's "dad" for half his life, he was his buddy. And his buddy is still a positive influence in his life. And if it surprises you that LJ has affection for the Mountie that's kind to him and shares the same job as his biological father, I don't know what to tell you (besides that you're a shit writer if you didn't see that coming).

Anyway, how about some of the responses:

Oh Lynne, you sweet summer child. I wish I had your optimism.

Oh my God, we're still doing this!?

Team Lucas Stop Deflecting And Actually Address The Horrible Behavior From Your Side Challenge: Impossible.

Stop. You do not want to be this kind of person. You need to stop ignoring when a handful of people you agree with do awful things and you need to stop bring up the awful behavior of the handful of lunatics from the side you hate as deflection. If you live your life like this, it will come back to bite you in the ass. If you really want to keep acting like this though, I have no problem pinning the reprehensible behavior of people like Janine and Liz onto all Lucas fans. If you want to be this way, I can start saying all Lucas fans think the massacres in the middle east aren't that big of a deal and that Ben Rosenbaum raising money to fight MS really pisses them off. The choice is yours.

"talks down on her ex's love language"

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH! I've ranted enough on this post and don't have time to go into this, so I'll leave it up to people who have said it before and better than I could: Love Language is bullshit part 1

Love Language is bullshit part 2

Love Language is bullshit part 3

Love Language is bullshit part Just Go Here

[comfreyhollywings]

there's a tarot reading i did the other day when i talked about you. there's rose incense i'm currently burning. its fragrance hits the back of my throat, and it's welcoming to me. this is a ritual i have always done whenever i want to dedicate my time, space, and energy for you.

the keywords of that reading is: the weight of the world is on your shoulders and i want you to know something.

you are my anchor and have always been it. you know me just as much as i know you; every single side of me. manic, calm, spiraling, or absolutely overjoyed.

you can tell me if i'm overstepping, and feel free to tell me to stop. but here's what i've observed: the world is me. i'm your world.

you haven't said it through words in particular, but you have told me through your actions. i speak prayers and you always answer. every single time without fail. and when i told you i wanted to move towards the next stage in my work and love life, you immediately moved me to a position where i could receive it.

my boyfriend is the month of august, and i am a behavioral technician. as someone still studying the law as an undergraduate, i'm still learning the reigns and that is okay. i pressure myself to be in a position to pay more bills. i'm learning self-care as i order from door dash. i cook more often. sometimes i go manic and immerse myself in scenarios still. i'm seriously considering a second job as a community assistant for a government job.

i joke about my joints popping. the economy of the world. the concept of the self. bam, i get mistaken as someone who's older than i actually am. whether i'm in my thirties or mid twenties.

i'm twenty.

 odd. if it was someone else, i would've thought the world was as their fingertips. the thing is that i've never felt more inadequate before in my life. this inadequacy stains my cheeks and desecrates the stupid part of my brain always craving 'worth'. i have to be worth something.

what i'm really afraid of is not living up to everybody's expectations. but they're not my expectations, are they?

knowing that's me is.. shocking. what /is/ the concept of me??

you had once described me as someone 'aquarian-themed', detached and solitary, but still so loving. dreamy and almost out of this world. remote. you had accurately described what i was like as a person, and i couldn't help but crack a smile. like we were telling an inside joke. it's true i had aquarius placements in my natal chart, but i hadn't thought too much about it until you brought it up.

but the thing is, when you brought it up—you made me realize a key point about myself: i am deathly and deeply afraid. i am scared of human connection. this is why i isolate. and you are reeling me out of this foggy forest, chanting:

'no love however brief is wasted.

no love however brief is wasted.

no love however brief is wasted.'

figuratively, i am kicking and screaming while you drag me out. a part of me wishes it stayed stuck in that forest. except, i know that's just the familiarity talking. isolation is addicting but it makes you a husk of a person; a mere observer as a husk of a person. you don't interact; but that's not the same with others. you'd watch others interact with anything.

so okay, here's what i think. i think you're.. a lot.

not in a way where someone so much as looks at a person and thinks, 'oh, they're a lot!' as a way to otherwise tell them that there's no space in their lives; that they should water themselves down.

love is naturally, a lot. love is the most terrifying, brutal force in existence asides from genuine war. love is what makes you buckle down onto your goddamned country after being bombed, and holding on for dear life while you attempt to protect your citizens. love will naturally correlate with war; and it has always been that way. manic love will either blindside you to the worse, or uplift you in bliss.

there's a literal goddess of love looking out for me; being able to pin me down on the dot while i stare like a deer in headlights.

essentially what i'm trying to say is: being vulnerable has made me realize i don't have to work for love.

isn't that terrifying?

[aprillikesthings]

Now that I've spent a good day thinking about how hot it is when Catra is a terrible person corrupted by setting off a portal, I'm ready to go back to (re)watching her try to be Good lolol

well okay more than one day.

I mean I literally spent the last four? five? days listening to songs off The Downward Spiral over and over while thinking about Catra and practicing my makeup for my Catra cosplay and ordering more of the things I need for it; like literally just staring off into space at work between phone calls thinking about Catra

I'm totally a well-adjusted middle-aged adult, thanks for asking!

Shit where did I even leave off

Oh right

SO HEY if you're new here, I've been rewatching all of the 2018 She-Ra, and I started doing it for fic-writing reasons but predictably I have become deeply obsessed. Anyway these posts sometimes have a lot of asides and commentary and references to other stuff and dumb jokes among a ton of screenshots, also (and it feels odd saying it this close to the end of the show) it's a RE-watch, so there's often spoilers for later bits of the story, also I keep trying NOT to just describe the entire plots of the episodes but I keep failing lol

s5 ep7 Perils of Peekablue

Adora's trying to become She-Ra (without an immanent threat) and then Bow and Glimmer distract her, and then the door opens on Catra and

I literally did a YES YES YESSSS AHAHAH out loud bc this is the point at which Catra just starts OPENLY FLIRTING, as opposed to just uhhhh flirtatiously taunting I suppose lol

like you're SITTING IN HER LAP

Also while rewinding it to watch again I paused it at the most hilarious moment

look at Catra's FACE

help I can't stop laughing but also look at Bow's expression

Glimmer: omg I'm gonna get to see my dad Catra: *gets up and leaves*

But also I make this face when a cat leaves my lap before I wanted them to:

Anyway they're a day out from arriving at Etheria

Adora's trying so hard

BACK ON ETHERIA

YAY IT'S THIS ONE

the intro finally changed!! I can't get a good screenshot but now when Catra (with short hair) and Adora (in She-Ra's new get-up) are fighting they stop much faster and they're both smiling omgggg

and there she is!! with everyone else!!

okay I'm going to take way less screenshots etc of the underwater speakeasy thing because let's be honest: that part of the plot isn't what I'm here for lol

But yeah they're going to the speakeasy thing to get Prince Peekablue who can see to the edges of the galaxy and can maybe tell them where Adora and the others are because they don't know what happened

Oh also Spinarella is chipped and Netossa is realizing something is off/weird about her but doesn't know what

Oh hey! You used to work for Huntara in the Crimson Wastes

Sea Hawk has pissed off approximately half the people in the room it seems (by lighting their ships on fire at some point)

Scorpia and Perfuma are the cutest and I can absolutely see how they end up together

In my fic I originally had Adora talking to some kind of therapist but I wasn't sure they existed on Etheria, and last week I edited that bit so Adora is talking to these two (which makes the conversation more fun AND easier to write anyway)

Perfuma: "Scorpia. You should do things not because you're good at them, but because they make you happy." THAT IS ONE OF MY LIFE PHILOSOPHIES thank you Perfuma you're 100% correct and I tell people this ALL THE TIME

Mermista: "I might've set their boat on fire. Just to see what it felt like."

Sea Hawk:

lolol

YESSSS I love this scene

Perfuma makes a flower, throws it to Scorpia as she sings, and she blushes and tucks it into her hair, these two are so sweet and cute

oh god I forgot that when "Prince Peekablue" get stung by Scorpia they go through the last half-dozen shapeshifts before turning into a (passed-out) Double Trouble.

lolol instead of "cash cow" it's an insult to poor Catra

Anyway they have the info the Rebellion wanted!

Horde Prime is pissed and has blockaded the planet, also half the people at the speakeasy were chipped....and now so is Mermista, though nobody realizes that yet

But also the phrasing of "She-ra stole his little kitten away" is just amazing

But also the last they heard, Adora and Bow and Entrapta had left to rescue Glimmer, do they think Double Trouble is talking about Glimmer here or what

(which. they did. they just also went back for Catra.)

Netossa realizes her wife (and most of the people around them) are chipped D:

And a chipped Mermista is gonna drown them all

oh shit Micah is also chipped

Entrapta gets the comms working!

"The Rebellion's been compromised! Horde Prime has them! We lost, I'm so sorry! We lost them!" --and then the comms go to static

AND CREDITS!

[practicingbushiho]

FFXIV DISCOURSE (CSA ment, sorry)

So, when I first noticed this fandom's bizarre sexualization of Yotsuyu, I tried to ignore it. It was just people being silly, and 'step on me' jokes were cringe, but I didn't make any noise about it because I just concluded that they were responding for japes. I need to talk about the way this fandom interacts with Yotsuyu as a character. And this will be the one post I allow myself to do so.

Recently, a blog was made to poll the 'fuckable' status of characters in the FF series; and it got to the point where Yotsuyu became a candidate. I, and maybe two others that I could see, were pretty unkosher with that; because Yotsuyu in the context of her canon was a tragic woman who was killed after a life of abuse and sex trafficking; and that happens to people IRL literally every day.

I was willing to accept that they would maybe just ignore people's remarks about that-- because at the end of it, most fandom wants to forget about narrative contexts so that they can have fun and not have to examine any behaviors that might make them feel guilty or uncomfortable. I'd have been alright with just being ignored completely.

I made the mistake of thinking that perhaps if they were called on it by more than just myself, that there would be some genuine reflection and thought discourse about the complexities of how being forced into sex work really damages your psyche and the way you interact with sex and sexuality. As someone who was put to survival-based sex work for a couple of years, I'd have been willing to weigh in with a legitimate conversation in good faith, if I felt I would be received with any seriousness.

But instead, they doubled down and insisted that whatever trauma they may or may not have endured themselves could be compared to being a victim of sex trafficking that eventually ended in actual murder, and in doing so missed the point in its entirety. I personally can't accept that.

So, I unfollowed the blog, and I gotta be real; if you agree with the sentiment that it's okay to flippantly sexualize Yotsuyu as a character simply because she is a fictional character that MAY have in another existence reclaimed her sexual agency in a way that wasn't horrifically self-destructive...block me. I'm so serious.

This is going to be the last I speak on her as a character publicly within fandom spaces. I need people to understand that having an abusive relationship, or being assaulted in childhood is awful; but it does not make you qualified to play armchair psychologist about people who have endured decades of sex trafficking, an industry in which so few escape alive.

Further, weaponizing your personal trauma as an explanation to absolve yourself of the guilt of sexualizing a character that in their OWN canon would revile you for doing so by saying it is people trying to punish "thought crimes" is integrally lazy and doesn't at all examine the criticism being made.

Nobody said that former abuse victims don't seek or desire acceptance. Nobody said that former abuse victims don't heal and eventually enjoy being sexualized. I for one am both of those things, and I am happily horny and unhinged in spite of a childhood of abuse and CSA.

It is more that it is a character assassination to blindly sexualize a character that would not want to be objectified. And in her canon, she never reaches a point where we can even hope to conceptualize that journey of self-acceptance within her. And because they are fictional, you think those feelings exist in a vacuum; but they do not.

If you are honestly using Yotsuyu to understand the abuse you endured in your personal life; I think that is a good thing. I think that privately or in small groups, character dialogues like hers are actually incredibly important to consider on an intimate level!

I do not think it is a good thing to put her in a fuckability poll for the fun of it. And those two things are not comparable to me at all. I'm not going to waste my time trying to get what I view as inexperienced children to understand the difference. What they are doing is what I see to be bad faith acting, and I'm not going to bite directly; but I did want to say how I felt about the decision personally, because what happened to her is something I have witnessed, and in many cases experienced when I was young.

And I would not want my sexual agency to be viewed through the lens of someone else's self-actualization for a fucking joke poll. The fucking end.

[viviennevincent2]

I swear sometimes I just want to leave this blog and go start a new one from scratch. Not that I want to change my identity on here but I just feel like this blog,,, → viviennevincent2,, is just such a mess I can't stand it. Byeeee cuz it's so annoying and yes I know that I'm not as active anymore as let's say in 2023, but I don't know.. over time it's as if I stopped being passionate about things that I enjoyed and loved so much... Don't get it wrong, I am so thankful Tumblr exists because it really helped me go though some tough times and it really was a place I could go to in order get away from bad shit happening in life and it was like a digital escape. But I don't know, it's not the same.. nothing is, and maybe that's just because ppl mature.??? I don't know. Currently my head feels like it's about to explode with thoughts and it's like I can't even bring myself to journal about it like I used to or write about it on my blog here, I'm just a blob of space sitting around wasting precious time and it sucks. I don't do anything fun or intersting with my free time. I just sit around. I don't know and I have so many things coming up.. finals 'nd hs which I don't even know who I could even talk to about because I don't have anyone to talk to,,, irl..,,,,, ..irl I have no connections,,feels like torture like @ school spending 7 hours all alone while literally everyone is doing something with at their friend group or at least one person. Or going out mb Ur alone or w family and see ppl Ur age hangin out and stff, it sucks no one rlly likes me and I've come to think not even irl or online but IDK . Just thinking that there r only 3 more months and 8th grade is coming to an end and I have all these exams help it's scaring the shit out of me and Idk at this point where to even start I'm so slow at learning certain things BYE and I rlly don't think I'm ready for High School but I really wanna make a change sighs idk where and how to sort shit out it ticks me so bad

[wheelin-after-midnight]

09.

Have you ever hit an animal with your car?

Sometimes I'm really glad I can't drive, because it would tear me up for everrrr if this happened.

Favorite ride at the amusement park?

I've never been on one at an amusement park.

Do you have many followers on your Tumblr?

I only have a couple. I stopped doing surveys for a while. This isn't the same blog I used to have. I also used to have a tumblr for my poetry. I had a lot more followers on that one.

Do you tan easily?

Not really.

Are you expecting something in the mail?

Yeah, but our postal service is on strike at the moment.

Do you inspire others?

Several people have told me so, but I don't think I'm to be inspired or looked up to or anything at all.

Are you healthy?

No.

Three things you try to avoid as much as possible:

Gossip, my family's political discussions, (I'm not of the same political persuasion as they are and they're not very open to the other side or alternate points of view) and crying in front of most people.

Number of jeans in your closet:

None.

Do you follow fashion?

No.

Do you have a big butt?

It's not like, ridiculously big, it's just.... Shapely? My sister in law called it voluptuous once, lmao. My friends without butts say they wish theirs looked like that. It's one physical feature of mine I actually like, and my girlfriend says it's physically the sexiest thing about me, so. Hey! 🤷🏻‍♀️😂

Do you count how long you and your gf/bf have been together?

Yeah. We've broken up a couple times, but we just go by the day we met for anniversaries. We've known each other a whole lot longer than we've actually been together as a couple.

Rihanna or Lady GaGa?

Both.

What's your worst interior design nightmare:

No colour except white and nothing personal on the walls.

Are you one of those people that often feel sorry for yourself?

I can get really angry and sad and frustrated with my life situations, but I don't really talk about it with anyone else. I'll cry to myself before anything.

Three persons you would like to thank:

My Nan, both my best friends.

Is your closet disorganized?

No.

Do you like to cuddle with your S.O. or do you prefer your space?

CUDDLE! 😍

What TV shows do you watch on a regular basis?

I've watched Empire more than once.

Does it make someone a racist if they’re not attracted to a specific race?

No?

Do you use reusable shopping bags to reduce waste?

We have to. My country got rid of plastic bags.

Where were you going the last time you were a passenger in a car?

Family dinner.

Do your parents have a strong relationship together?

No. Neither my biological parents nor my mum and my stepfather are together anymore.

When was the last time you attended a religious service of any sort?

2017.

Do you think there are more dimensions than what we’re able to perceive?

Maybe?

Do any of your neighbors have loud children?

Nobody that lives here right now has children.

What is the hardest part of your life right now, and what is the easiest?

Hardest is coming to terms with my living situation changing drastically next year and trying to prepare for that.

Easiest is I guess existing in this apartment day to day because it's completely adapted for disabled people and I never had that before here.

What is your favorite social media platform at the moment?

I've been on this one the most, but I don't really have a favourite.

Do you have trouble forgiving people who hurt you?

Yes.

What is something that is hard for most people but is easy for you?

Having extreme empathy for other people's situations rather than being judgemental. Being nice to people.

What is something that is easy for most people but is hard for you?

Walking. I literally physically can't.

What is your favorite color, and do you own a lot of things in that color?

Blue. A decent amount.

List three things you have survived.

Assault, sexual harassment, major reconstructive surgery.

When was the last time you had someone pray with you?

Not in a really long time. I struggle with faith and religion a lot. I'm basically atheist now, but I'm literally surrounded by believers. I would like to be sure of my faith and comforted by it, and I've tried, but I'm not. Just because I'm not doesn't mean I'm gonna be an asshole to you if you are. If you start bible thumping me and preaching about how corrupt and how much of a sinner I am and tell me I'm gonna burn because I don't think or live like you, then yeah, we're gonna have some problems, but if someone tells me they want to pray with me or pray over me or whatever, I'll do it, and if they're warm and kind in the interaction I'll thank them and be the same way back.

List five of your favorite female singers.

Whitney Houston, Selena, Patsy Cline, Jennifer Nettles, Jann Arden.

When was the last time you got ice cream from an ice cream truck?

I never have. Someone may have done it for me as a kid and given it to me, but I haven't on my own.

Do you celebrate the 4th of July, and if so, how did you celebrate it this year?

My country celebrates on the 1st, but I don't do anything. Maybe have a few drinks to myself. I absolutely hate the amount of fireworks that are set off that day. Days before and after, too.

Who was the last of your friends to have a baby?

Sarina, I guess? But we haven't been close friends since she lived down the hall from me.

Have you ever been pregnant?

No.

What color was the last pair of flip-flops you wore?

Black and pink. I don't even have them anymore. I wore them to my sisters wedding bc nothing else would fit my swollen feet.

Are you happy at the moment? Why or why not? No. I don't wanna talk about why again.

What is one thing about your life you hope will never change?

How awesome my cat thinks I am, lmao. 😍

How would you describe your journey so far in your 20s?

Hahahahahah, 20s...you're hilarious. I'm almost halfway through my 30s. :/

What are some activities or hobbies that bring you joy and help you relax?

I love singing. Writing. Playing with my cat. Going on little adventures with Brittany - concerts, movies, out to eat, out to pick up a few groceries, just driving and listening to music and shit. Hanging out with my other friend's kids. Spotify jams together with my girlfriend. Watching things I really like. Reading, when I can focus on it. Sex.

What are your thoughts on marriage and starting a family? Is it something you envision for yourself?

It used to be. I can't have children though :( As much as I don't think it would be fair to bring children into this economy and political climate, I'll never really get over it.

[pollywiltse]

I was semi-reading Valiant Ambition and honestly I feel like it's indicative of something wrong with modern society that so many people seem to be treating The Character Assassination - sorry, The Execution - of John André as a reliable source and a sane and reasonable assessment of André's character by someone whose hateboner isn't visible from space. It's not even like John Evangelist Walsh is an expert on the 18th century or the Revolution or André. It's like all these people prefer the idea of André as this manipulative-except-somehow-not-when-it-counts sociopath to someone who was, in fact, just that charming even though the evidence really points to him being just that charming.

I'm not just saying that because I'm an André partisan - 1. I've been in fandom for years; I know what unhinged hatred because some character wronged your fave looks like (where "wronged" doesn't necessarily mean actually did something bad as opposed being the canon love interest of the other half of your OTP or being more popular among the rest of fandom than your fave); 2. John Evangelist Walsh literally makes stuff up to make André look bad. Like I can give you specific examples where he makes claims that have no supporting evidence or conflict with the evidence that exists; and 3. I think D. A. B. Ronald's André-can-do-no-wrong version is equally bad, just in the opposite direction, and I would pay money to watch them cagefight. (Unfortunately Walsh is dead and if someone develops effective necromantic technology, I'm not wasting it on some obnoxious writer. I'm bringing André back.)

Tbh I feel like it was probably a warning about life in general that the two André books I know of that were published in the 21st century are this and the batshit Ronald bio. Like Flexner and Hatch aren't without flaws, but at least you get the feeling they're trying to be intellectually honest, even though Flexner needed an ancient Roman slave whispering in his ear "Remember thou art not clairvoyant or a novelist" the entire time he was writing. (Honestly I think even Sargent was attempting to be intellectually honest. He was just, you know, Victorian. The Tillotson bio is such a non-entity I can't even remember my assessment of it.)

I realize Philbrick's degree isn't in history, so you can sort of argue he doesn't count, but Richard Welch, who did the (disappointing, insufficiently proofread) modern Tallmadge bio is a literal history professor and he seems to have uncritically accepted Walsh's assessment of André as well.

I'm also confused why Philbrick (and this is actually kind of a Ronald problem too, except in a 4-d chess conspiracy theory way) seems to think that Arnold didn't care about André getting back safely. I think it's far more likely that neither of them knew what they were doing, that Arnold didn't realize that Joshua Smith was going to leave André partway through (because I think there's at least something of a modern consensus that if Smith had been with André, Paulding et al would have recognized Smith and not stopped them, but also if Smith was still there, André probably would have been less likely to tell them that he was a British officer), and that he overestimated André's ability to make it back to British lines in disguise. (I think for two reasons - one, that André clearly wasn't stupid, and two, I kind of have this theory that Arnold would have managed to make it back, because Arnold was a good field officer, which presumably requires the ability to think on your feet, but there's not really any evidence to think that was one of André's particular skills. And people are bad at realizing when other people can't do stuff that's easy for them. Also Arnold was better at threatening people than André.)

Like 90% of military (and political) history seems to be people in over their heads flailing desperately (plus personal drama), and that's probably a low estimate.

Also, is there evidence of Arnold being the unreasonably jealous type? Because I've read significantly less about him than about André, but honestly my impression of him when it came to his wives is that he'd literally have to walk in on them having sex with a lover to believe that they were cheating and then he'd probably cry a lot and wonder what he did wrong (and maybe then shoot the boyfriend, but I'm not sure he'd be fazed enough by one of Peggy's old flames that he would risk 20000 pounds and possibly his own skin by not making sure he got back safely, especially when there's really no reason to think that Peggy was into André at this point in time).

[elizabethrobertajones]

#i have so many thoughts about how I'd conceptually redesign AST from the ground up and think it's such a wasted storytelling space#but this one thing did tickle me because it sort of looped around and answered itself#........ kinda like someone casting a timey wimey spell

Actually, I may as well just type stuff out and try and get this coherent while I'm thinking about it...

So I think the biggest missed opportunity, after literally just reblogging a post about how WHM changes in ShB, is all the stuff we don't get with AST, and most of it is just aesthetic and spell name based stuff that could easily cover existing abilities with a less one-note job (as much as the aesthetic does, of course, fuck severely).

So FIRST of all, even though we learn everything from a Sharlayan, we spend a lot more time IN Ishgard, including unavoidable MSQ interactions with Ishgardian astrologians in ARR. And we don't have a single ability we're allowed to pick up about using the Dragonstar to guide us in an unholy hybrid of the 2 arts that would SUPER get us murdered by Sharlayan assassins?? The potential to have some sort of foretelling based on that and then upgrade the spell at points by which in the MSQ we'd now have VERY different feelings about it including up to EW to get a final for now upgrade in the ability... oooughhhhh...... It could end up using Middy from Omega raid effects just as starters you know?

And then in SB we continue dogmatically learning ONLY Sharlayan astrology, STILL, while spending time learning about geomancy? It would be so fun to use THIS star, Etheirys, in our readings, and have a funny 4 ways elemental spell with idk Swallow's Compass geomancers bell sound effect to annoy a raid with >:)

And again once we're in the First or travelling beyond the bounds of the planet in EW, a spell based on the cosmological location of our home world would absolutely FUCk. Imagine the upgrade when you're assumed to be in the First, where like WHM maybe it becomes light-poisoned.

Or levelling up AST on the Moon and getting a secondary effect to a geomantic ability which adds a rotation of the moon into the spell effect because now you've added that to it and given it a little boost to potency as a result of having planted your feet on the moon and added a geomantic understanding of it to your repertoire XD

The comfort of having something based on home would also be such a The Blackest Night type emotional kick in the feels every time you use an ability named and visually based on Etheirys once you're as far as Elpis or Ultima Thule.

Thinking of which, my final rage is that the Endsinger literally throws planets at us, demonstrating the exact skillset ASTs use of tapping the aetherical signature of distant planets and stars, but amped up to 9000. The fact we can't learn something similar, or get a level 90 ability called like Endsong (again, see: Shadowbringer... *shakes fist at DRK even though once I swap jobs to it from AST it becomes a favourite :P) where we can draw a spell from Ultima Thule itself. It could even be a Dynamis spell - it's not like we don't use it in DRK and DNC pretty blatantly as at least a secondary power source to our usual aether-based spells. Imagine how cool it would be to smite people with a blast of entropy or heal your friends with raw hope? Like we even have the mysterious sunrise in the lying dying with Zenos scene vs the haggard planetary system and melting stars everywhere in UT to draw on.

*rattles the bars of my cage* Let me plaaaaaay with the life experiences we accumulate over the gaaaaaaame

[I am escorted from Sharlayan and my entry papers torn up]

Not a familiar constellation or star in sight. Frog stared at the strange spattering of stars and couldn't feel a whisper of the connection her years of training as an Astrologian had gifted her.

Then she focussed and spoke the familiar words of spells that called out to the patrons of the stars who weren't present, whose associated stars were not even in the sky. And the warmth of the celestial blessing flooded her; the gaze she felt as she drew intercession down to heal answered in the very sigils of gods who weren't even born yet.

"Maybe it's the distant connection through the Crystal Tower," she mused, still dissatisfied and confused, but with no clue where to look next.

(A malm away in  Anagnorisis, Charmion shivered and blinked, and looked around at her coworkers, seeing they'd startled too. "Did you just feel Azem channel a tiny bit of aether from you too? I wonder what that was for! Maybe the familiar is still here and she needed some more?"

They shrugged about it as Weird Azem Things, the least of which had happened that afternoon, and went back to their work)

...

Frog still trying to understand how Astrologian worked out in Elpis before Myths of the Realm answered some very pressing questions and took the mystic woo out of AST's prayer-based spells.

"Job" for FFXIV Vanilla Gpose Challenge... My favourite thing you can do in just vanilla gpose is playing with all the spells and abilities, watching them frame by frame and appreciating details that whoosh by in combat.

.... yeah that's her current AST glam; if we're not using mods I'm not buying a half dozen pots of the expensive dark blue dye to recreate her levelling gear, we're errrrrrrrrr doing a meta commentary on the limitations of vanilla gpose for storytelling. Or time is fake in Elpis. :P