#i'm just chronically online cus i am..

[funkycrabturtle]

meow meow mf, kitty cat regret. miku in the house

she's definitely doing this for more profit from her concerts (..maybe even opening up a pop-up cafe at HC Icecream too)

pros ➟ every time someone throws a tomato at her, she'll just eat it instead (mm, yummy in my tummy!! :p)

..helicopter helicopter tail mode activate

cons ➟ eww pickles. SHE HATES EVERYTHING INCLUDING ONIONS, LOUD MUSIC & WILL SCRATCH YOU IF SHE HAS TO!!!!!!

also she'll just straight up start yapping like "i am sitting on your bed cus i'm a cat in minecraaaaft" but she's just basically speaks like a minecraft cat now..

also, great news! HIT IT CUZZ (a thousand miles instrumental starts playing) 🎹🎼

Making my way downtown,

With my Mac,

STAT & miku comics are gonna be out the hat!!

DUDUDUDUN DUDUDUDUDUD-

[crielumin]

Looking for online friends? I'm here!!

Haii!! My name is crielumin but you can just call me Ciel (I'm a girl btw). To start things off, I am a minor. I am here to find friends because I cannot physically interact with anyone besides my friends irl and family :(( I will not specify my age because I'm uncomfortable with sharing it on Tumblr :D!

If you're interested in being by friend, here's some of my interests that might intrigue you even more ＼⁠(⁠^⁠o⁠^⁠)⁠／

- i rlly like talking about anime and video games, specifically, genshin, hsr, persona, obey me, visual novels, twisted wonderland, omori, etc.

- I can be unintentionally cringe sometimes cus I am chronically online sometimes ;;..

- My fav animes are; Kuro(black butler), demon slayer, Blue spring ride, my happy marriage, undead girl murder farce(?), ouran highschool ost club, tbhk, madoka magical, and many others that I cannot remember at the moment!!

- I'm also low-key interested in kpop songs n groups like; seventeen (jeonghan my love), (g)-idle, aespa, new jeans, enhypen!

- My hobbies are listening to music, reading and sometimes writing (I only write drabbles bc i do NOT have the motivation to fully finish an actual fic ;;).

- I have many more interests that I cannot list off my mind (⁠ ⁠･ั⁠﹏⁠･ั⁠) I'm so sorry ^^"

- I swear a lot whenever I get comfortable with someone unfortunately.. /pos

- Fortunately! I have a discord where we could chat more! (This looks so unprofessional I'm so sorry idk how shit works???)

→⁠_⁠→ Discord: crielumin

[stalking-fictional-characters]

People often don't believe I'm autistic because I have a lot of less obvious traits and basically was able to figure out masking pretty well during highschool.

I'm always hesitant and afraid to bring up my autism even if I want to because I'm afraid I'm "not autistic enough" or "maybe I somehow 'cured' it as a teen".

I have academically done very well and am now in law school. Just hearing I'm in law school seems to be enough for people to be skeptical. But I'm so fucking autistic and law school is so fucking hard and hell and the worst decision I've ever gone along with.

I don't view most of the reading the same way as others or think of the "correct" interpretation.

I have extreme difficulty socializing or interacting with others and the atmosphere in law school has made me feel extremely ostracized and alone and like a black sheep. I'm pretty sure I've cause some significant mental decline with how fucking isolated I have been. I have barely spoken with anyone outside my family for 3 years.

My memory recall and ability to learn is actually quite poor. I have a good short term memory and very good problem solving skills so I've been able to pass tests and hence my classes. But I can never recall info when asked in class and wouldn't be able to basically anytime if people did talk to me. I don't remember any of my classmates names and it bothers me how so many seem to know mine.

On the slim chance I actually know the info asked of me I am terrible with processing info when asked suddenly (cold called) and so I stutter and give a jumbled response cus I can't think so fast.

I can't drive due to slow processing speed and anxiety (and it took so long for me to acknowledge and accept that me not driving wasn't due to me "not wanting to" or "overreacting" but that actually it is due to legit medical reasons that make it unsafe for me and others)

I have low heat tolerance/baro-sensitive sensory disorder so for most of the year I wear shorts and sleeveless shirts. Which makes me stick out at school.

I wear a bra to school cuz it's expected but it causes me discomfort (they are the correct size and I got extenders) so I don't wear them outside of school and it has definitely caused other to judge.

I have Keychains of my hyperfixation on my backpack and still own several graphic tees which makes me "childish".

My anxiety and poor fine motor control gives me a accommodation to use my laptop which makes me stick out in some classes and I've gotten stares.

(Also should state the law profession is extremely ableist and a teacher implied once I couldn't be autistic cuz I make it past the first year of school)

I dislike being near others and have found a isolated spot in the library. It throws me off when someone gets there before me and I have trouble doing work anywhere else in the library. Also this spot is the only place in the school I can feel relaxed due to no one seeing me and hence not being under pressure to follow whatever social norms or cues I feel all the time I am missing.

I have very poor auditory learning and processing of auditory information. Which means most classes I teach myself using the PowerPoint slides (if there are any) and by looking up outlines online.

I have poor sleep management/ some kind of chronic fatigue so I fall asleep in classes alot which is very difficult to hide from the teacher.

There is more things but I felt like pointing out law school based issues.

I got light sensitivity, problem processing sacrcasm/jokes sometimes, hunger cues issues, and executive disfunction and choice paralysis. But those mostly are at home.

To the average person I know how to be polite, I hold eye contact (kinda excessively but I've learned to make myself look away), I am educated and in what people assume is a very difficult field (it's not for school) that isn't accommodating, and I can carry a conversation a socially acceptable amount.

So I don't seem autistic to them.

But guys I am. I'm so fucking autistic. I haven't had friends for 6 years cuz i cant socialize, and I spend all free time reading fanfiction for a fandom I've been hyperfixated on for 7 years and 9 months

fuck it. shout out to "high functioning" neurodivergents

the ones who can mask easily, the ones who can get social cues, the ones who have managed to go most of their life not even knowing they were ND because they didn't present as the stereotypical ND person.

the ones who can pay attention in class, understand social etiquette, who understand societial expectations

the ones who don't feel neurodivergent enough bc they don't struggle in the same ways/areas a lot of NDs do, or they can't relate to other NDs' experiences because they always understood these things easily

the ones with high empathy, the ones who DO get the joke, the ones who are constantly told that they can't possibly be neurodivergent because they don't act like what you'd expect a neurodivergent person to act like.

you are neurodivergent enough. you are valid, and so are your experiences. not struggling as much as others do in some places doesn't mean you dont struggle at all. your condition and diagnosis is valid. your symptoms are valid. YOU ARE VALID. not checking all the supposed boxes doesn't mean you aren't neurodivergent. you are enough. you are valid. you are loved. you are valued. you matter. you belong in neurodivergent spaces, you deserve to use whatever resources are available to you, you are allowed to take up space in these communities. and i am so, so proud of you.

feel free to, and actually, i encourage you to reblog this with your experiences. we belong in this community as much as anyone else. please also tag this w/ any neurodivergent conditions i may have forgotten 💙

[infinitejourneysinfiniteworlds]

Just felt like posting a little bit about my DRs!

Better CR-- Shady Oak Lane. I am basically me, but I have a healthy body (I'm chronically ill/disabled in my OR), I'm a successful freelance artist, I'm financially stable, I have a lovely house in the foothills of the Berkshires in Massachusetts, and I'm well on my way to writing and publishing my own illustrated urban fantasy series, which will also be successful. I have wonderful friends both in person and online, some of whom I consider to be like family. My childhood in this reality was basically the same as my childhood here, and my young adult years had some similarity to those years here, though there were quite a few things that diverged in adulthood as well. I've scripted a lot of different entertainment options, such as TV adaptations of my favorite books and comic book runs with my favorite artists and writers at the helm. I am also an active reality shifter in this reality.

Magical Found Family DR-- Seacrest Lane. This is an original DR and would take a bit to explain because there's a big history to it. But basically, there are eight of us, and we live all over the world (except for one, who lives in the other realm). We all have keys that, when used in any door in the mundane world, will open the doorway that leads to Starpath Manor, which exists in another realm that is a part of the same universe but on a different plane of existence. We all have some sort of connection to Starpath. Six of us have reincarnated into human bodies, one is a functionally immortal Dragon shapeshifter (half human), and one is Sidhe. This DR does have some excitement and intrigue, but it's also very well balanced with mundane life, and is quite cozy most of the time. In the mundane world, I live in an old Victorian farmhouse in Maine, by the ocean, currently on my own, but I've scripted that the Dragon shapeshifter and I will end up together eventually if it's right for us. Seacrest Lane is the name of the road I live on in the mundane world.

D*resden F*iles. I have yet to meet anyone else who wants to shift there, but it's been one of my main DRs for a long time. The script is based on the books, not the show (which sucks in this universe). I've basically got a similar backstory to what I've got in the magical found family DR, though I haven't discovered my magic or Starpath yet. I'm actually skeptical and agnostic, and living in the upstairs apartment of the building H*arry D*resden also lives in. When I figure out that magic is real, it's going to be interesting. I've toned down the danger/potential trauma elements quite a bit from the series, but it's still going to be pretty intense, so I've scripted a lot of safety things for this DR. I live in Chicago in this DR, only because that's where the series takes place and I wanted a somewhat more "authentic" DR for this.

My Waystation (Waiting Room). I recycled Starpath Manor for this again, but scripted some differences too. It's geared more for entertainment, with access to every TV show, movie, book, etc. in the multiverse, a Holodeck, a food station that creates any kind of food I want, and the ability to shift with pinpoint accuracy to whatever DR I script. I have a nice house in the mundane world in this reality too, just because I know I will start to feel ungrounded living full time in Starpath.

I have a few other DRs that I'm toying with-- a few in the M*CU and some X-*Men/m*utant-related DRs, a Doctor Who DR, and some cozy and safe DRs that I share with my comfort characters. Currently, I've been focusing pretty much solely on 1 and 4, with the intention of shifting to 2 and 3 from either my Better CR or my Waystation.

[deltarelics]

Website code commissioning? Damn no wonder you're chronically online no offense tho Im taking a wild guess on your major, it's BsIT right?

hahsha sorry but am i? it's just bc i study and work And write using my pc so i can't help but check twt too from time to time cus coding is shit but hey, i'm graduating. also no i don't major in bsit but good guess though