#i'm in a fucking rage rn

[datshitrandom]

How was to be in a gay relationship (klaine) on screen?

“It was fucking awesome man. I mean the main thing here, like not because I’m trying to be blasé about the obvious thing in this question because we are saying that this is a gay relationship, nowadays, we just call it a relationship on tv, but to contextualize it, a gay relationship on mainstream Fox Network, that’s a pretty cool thing to be a part of. I often equate my relationship to that whole experience to Slumdog Millionaire which is, if you are familiar with Slumdog Millionaire is a kid that gets ask a bunch of questions and he just so happens to have the experience to answer this very specific things, now being cisgender straight kid you go 'oh oh what? are you going to allow this guy to talk gay shit?', I’ve been so culturally queer my whole life, not because I’m trying you know, actually, I was gonna say not because I’m trying to be cool but I’m gonna erase that, is because I am trying to be cool. All the sh— in my life that I have tried to emulate, learn from and be inspired by are one hundred percent queer as f—. It was in queer communities that I’ve found people that I idolize, that I want to be, to learn something from. And I’d say that’s a gross generalization, that’s a lot of things and a lot of people. But I grew up in San Francisco in the ’90s. I watched men die. There was an awareness of the gay experience that was not a foreign concept to me. So, it was a narrative that I cared deeply about. I wasn’t like a f— saint or like 'I’m the man for the job', they hired me and they said, 'You’re the guy,' and I said, 'Okay, I’m the guy I will do my best, I will do my best to talk about it in the way I believe and a way that I’m passionate about'. So in many ways I’m glad that it was me because it was a thing that I really like showing up for and it meant a great deal to me that it meant a great deal to other people. Because when people say they were affected by that show or that relationship, it’s not because of me, it’s because of that relationship on a TV and the risks that people took to put that on TV and most important of all it took the people watching it to have the "aptitude" for seeing beyond what was maybe given to them in other avenues of culture. People of all ages, all spectrums of awareness say, 'I didn’t grow up with a show like that and it was a really meaningful thing for me to see,’ and I go ‘I didn’t grow up with a show like that’ and that would’ve been very meaningful for me too, you know?, regardless of the fact that I’m a straight kid. That has value. For anyone who’s been an underdog, we all know, in any shape or form — sexual, religious, biological, whatever — it has value because there’s going to be a lot of people who see that and go, 'Okay, I can now understand this in a context that maybe I wasn’t able to before'. So short story long, what was it like? It was a fucking privilege and I love talking about it and I’m so grateful I got to do it." - Darren Criss at the Chicago Comic & Entertainment Expo Q&A | April 27th, 2024 

[utilitycaster]

I've gotten a couple replies of "and that's terrifying" on this post about the more stable members of Bells Hells, and, to be honest, hate that, so let's talk about it.

There's a couple reasons. The first that I still don't know who the fuck thought the Issylra half of the party split would be Team Levelheaded and not Team Abandonment Issues, because, well, it's the latter. The second is that there's been a near constant undercurrent from quite early in the campaign of "oh Orym...he's going to break...he's a powder keg" and while he's decidedly not a powder keg, we did get him finally breaking a bit, and suddenly everyone's like "HORRIFYING that the guy I kept claiming was uniquely angsty is now having a harder time with the party split than the other characters whose equally tragic backstories I've consistently ignored, diminished, and dismissed."

All three of the Bells Hells characters in Team Issylra have issues related to loneliness and being left behind, which is a common thread through the party, but notably, Fearne, FCG, and Chetney being more stable should not be surprising nor scary. Resilience isn't tied to whether or not you're somewhat chaotic, or have mechanically-induced loss of control, and that's what we're talking about here. The reason why Team Issylra is having a rough time of it - and specifically why Laudna and Orym are falling apart whereas Ashton is doing comparatively well - is because they've been constantly pretending things are okay. Chetney, meanwhile, genuinely does think the worst thing that happened to him fucking rules, and has the age and perspective and sheer survival instincts to pull through; FCG has, within the story, had to face some horrifying realizations about himself and so has some tools for this kind of situation; and Fearne is to be honest still learning that consequences are a thing that happens, but she has dealt with a few profound disappointments and is sitting with them - she openly admitted she's not terribly impressed by her parents.

On the other hand, I think Orym has worked through the earlier stages of grief, to be sure, but he's put a brave face on over it and tried to look at the bright side. Which isn't the worst idea, but it means when the things he's built that idea of a bright side upon - Keyleth's infallibility, his relationships within the Crown Keepers - are nowhere to be found, he doesn't have anything to take hold of. He adjusted to one devastating change by clinging to the constants, and now that many of the constants are gone too, he has no mechanism to process the change in their absence.

And this is Laudna's whole deal, right? I do in fact agree that her initial death was still the worst thing that's happened to her so far, but that doesn't mean she can't still be incredibly upset by major events. It's comforting to know you've survived worse, but it doesn't necessarily help you actually get through a slightly less terrible (but still pretty terrible) situation. She says she can't stop compartmentalizing or she'll cry - but like, she'd probably feel better if she'd just spent the second watch crying. Like Orym, Laudna's developed this idea that she can will things into being okay, and in the end, she can't. Leaning into the "Today SUCKS" attitude would, honestly, help her, and I'm hoping she does so.

Ashton meanwhile doesn't have healthy coping mechanisms, but they do have coping mechanisms that work in this situation (namely, drinking and hitting things). He also, more importantly, has no investment in pretending things are okay. Ashton thinks the world is full of utter bullshit that will fuck you over, and the point is to get through it, and sure, it's a very cynical mindset, but there's a reason why toxic positivity is, well, toxic.

As a sidebar, I also think that Ashton has, fascinatingly and despite their drunken talk with Laudna on the skyship, put their abandonment issues into perspective. Ashton is able to handle the current situation because, logically, they were teleported to a random location beyond their control and with no capacity to contact other people, so it's reasonable to assume the other half of the party is in the same position. No one abandoned anyone. To quote Ashton themself, actually, from episode 25, "Sometimes shit's just fucked up, and the only thing you can do because you didn't do anything fucking wrong, is get the fuck back up and do the exact same thing all over again knowing that there was nothing to learn." On the other hand, the fact that Milo saved Ashton makes that particular situation worse. If Ashton had been left to die in the street and a random uninvolved stranger picked him up? Then you can at least imagine the Nobodies had to leave, or couldn't pick them up for whatever reason, or even perished themselves. The fact that Milo was able to make this choice means the Nobodies also had the ability to make a choice, and the choice was to leave them behind, and that's what stings, and that's the unique loneliness, and that's why this situation isn't comparable.

So anyway, in summary, it's unsurprising the two people who have handled grief and tragedy by trying to quietly (in Orym's case) and not-so-quietly (in Laudna's) smooth it over are finding themselves completely unable to do so and barely holding together, whereas the people who allow themselves to be upset or, frankly, just go apeshit, are doing much better.

[deadstarsrisingsblog]

Whoever harassed @glimmerglanger to the point that they DELETED THEIR AO3 AND LEFT: count your motherfuckin days.

[wolfgirlsister]

Actually lads it's a suicidal Morning

[flagellant]

Hey, iHeart Network? Yeah, I already fucking hated your guts for other unrelated reasons, and I just gotta say, I wasn't expecting to add that you're hosting a podcast which advertises itself, as, quote verbatim: "What would you do if a secret cabal of the nation's most powerful people asked you to overthrow the government?" and like, yeah, don't worry, I get that it's actually about the 1930s FDR thing, but I really feel like doing this post-January 6th in this political climate, and by "this" I mean saying that there is an ACTUAL, VERBATIM, "SECRET CABAL" MADE UP OF "THE NATION'S MOST POWERFUL PEOPLE" WHOSE PURPOSE IS TO "OVERTHROW THE GOVERNMENT"

is just maybe the slightest bit questionable. perhaps you might want to consider this as a polite suggestion to maybe not advertise a podcast which sounds like it's about to fucking tell me about the Secrets of the Council of the Elders of Zion is actually based in historical accuracy

[insomniacs-keyboard]

Going to the dentist tomorrow 😔 gonna find out why my mouth broken

[clownprince]

Starting a collection. Please feel free to add

[laprincessadelmar]

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[partynthem]

boygenius are doing something so important for lesbians (umbrella term) rn and i just wanna thank them again and again and again

[heckling-hydrena]

I just woke up from an awful pain in my bottom lip that I at first thought was from me straight up biting down on it in my sleep full force but turns out no actually. a mosquito bit my lip !!? I'm going to fucking kill someone (the mosquito) !!!????

[moe-broey]

In the curriculum of my social services vocational class (focused on helping disabled people) we were taught to always. Always. Deep in your Soul. Believe and approach situations with, "Everyone is doing the best they can, with what they have".

I've lost way more of my own ability since then and I have forgotten A Lot but like. It's a good value to have in everyday life, but why I'm mentioning it now is it's a fascinating thing to apply to your creative projects too.

Because, to me. Even Gustav was doing his best with what he had. And when I say that, believe me, I say it with a deep, deep sense of agony and despair.

[boilingheart]

Your boy is back! And he's scruffy and depressed!

I SAW!!! I CAUGHT UP WITH THE OPENING CEREMONY A LITTLE LATE BUT HOOOOOOLY SHIT DUDE. NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I BEEN THIS EXCITED FOR WORLD OF WARCRAFT EVER NO ONE FUCKING TOUCH ME WE'RE SO BACK. NO, WE'RE MORE THAN JUST BACK. I THINK WE'VE NEVER BEEN HERE BEFORE. GENUINELY OPTIMISTIC FOR WOW'S FUTURE LIKE NEVER BEFORE!!!!

And, I'm not gonna lie, I looooove Anduin's new look. He's a fucking wreck, and I'm SO here for it. He is NOT okay bro, his hair is fully chopped, he needs a fucking shower and a weighted blanket and some lotion and neosporin bro oh my god he's so disheveled. I'm looking FORWARD to the arc they're planning for him if my hunch is right. I was getting sick of the whole priest shit Christie Golden was spinning him on. This feels more like a Shadows Rising type of anguished Anduin, this is what I've been wanting to SEE!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS WHAT I WANTED!!!

LOOOVE the new look. SO fucking happy with this decision. I'm also delighted once again that Anduin and I are still within the same age range like back in MoP, it's really fun having a character that I adore that's literally the same age as me, I've been growing up with this character and I love it. Anyone saying he looks like he's too fucking old is wrong, I've literally met 25 y/o guys in my college classes that look just like that. It's good. They did good with him. I'm so fucking excited. I'm so mad Wrathion isn't here for this someone fucking get that guy too.

Ugh. I'm so excited.

Also also also ermmmmm, did anyone else catch this or was that just me....... thought this pose looked familiar.......

[sga-owns-my-soul]

me to myself when i'm in a bad mood: do u fucking mind?????? some of us are tryna vibe and this energy Ain't Fuckin It bro. might i suggest you chill out mayhaps?

[hatake]

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[canine-teethed-sheets]

my bag is. literally a hunk of rock. holy fuck

(ignore rant in tags pretty please)

[skyborneveggie]

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