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[bixels]

Those gaza gfms are not verified as real. I wish you'd plug actual verified sources instead of blindly trusting bot spread asks. Gaza is so important and they pollute and divert money from confirmed non scam causes

Halaelhissi was verified (#182) by el-shab-hussein. Aymanayyad82's GoFundMe was verified (#144) by nabulsi. Ahmedalnabih was verified (#218) by el-shab-hussein. Basel-1995 is verified (#214) on the Vetted Gaza Fundraiser List.

[glorious-blackout]

What's your Hogwarts house??

With all due respect anon, I don't have one. Any interest I had in that series died when its author decided to become a notorious bigot 🤷‍♀️

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

I think people who are mad at Fyodor and saying he underestimates Chuuya forget something though - Chuuya's capable of all these impressive physical feats and stuff, but at the end of the day, he's not particularly smart. He's always easily manipulated by Dazai, Ranpo was able to trap him in a book by simply goading him, Mori is able to keep him in line despite Chuuya being way more powerful, etc. Idk I think the fandom put Chuuya on a pedestal for some reason but he has weaknesses too.

"people who say he underestimates Chuuya" as if... I am not one of those people...? I made a whole analysis on this anon??? I'm a bit confused why you sent this to me...

I'm going to assume this was sent in good faith and that you haven't read the light novels, because it becomes very clear from those that Chuuya is actually perfectly intelligent. I'd say probably above average, if I'm being honest - he picks up new skills very quickly with no formal education and he's really quite intuitive. It's just that the poor guy is constantly surrounded by strategic geniuses, and due to his hot-headedness, he comes across as less intelligent by comparison.

If he's so smart, why then is he always tricked by Dazai? Well, everyone is tricked by Dazai. It's kind of Dazai's whole thing. He runs circles around most people. He pranks and torments Kunikida, Atsushi, Sigma, and the list goes on. This has little bearing on Chuuya's intelligence, and is much more to do with Dazai's intelligence. Besides, this kind of becomes a moot point when their plans are very much a team effort, made and carried out with barely any verbal communication whatsoever. When it's time to get serious, Dazai is far from leading Chuuya - they're in step with each other. Chuuya keeps up with Dazai, and is capable of challenging him. That's why the partnership works.

Why was Ranpo able to trap him in Poe's book? Let's take a step back and think to the build up of that. Firstly, this is during Cannibalism arc, where each side had two days to save the lives of their respective leaders. Chuuya's family is under threat, and so he's already under a lot of stress. Second, Ranpo is well-known for being an intentionally irritating little toad and he knew just what to say to make Chuuya lose it - ordinarily, Chuuya is actually capable of keeping it together, but Dazai makes him angry enough to explode. Finally, I sincerely doubt Chuuya expected to get sucked into a book. There's no way he didn't think the goading was a trap, but really? He couldn't have known that and likely assumed his ability was strong enough to handle anything Ranpo threw at him.

So, there's a weakness of sorts, and it's actually highlighted by Hirotsu in Fifteen. Chuuya tends to jump into things because he expects he will just be able to "handle things", which is a consequence of growing up with a powerful ability. Hirotsu warns that people who overly rely on their abilities end up in trouble. This scene was likely a form of payoff for that warning. Either way, I'd expect he won't make that same mistake twice.

Why is Mori able to keep him in line? He isn't, because he doesn't have to. Chuuya serves under Mori because he sees Mori as the successful leader that he wasn't. To Chuuya, Mori has what he doesn't - he respects him and thinks he can learn from him. Chuuya sees the Sheep's betrayal as his own personal failure as their leader. This has nothing to do with intelligence, one way or the other.

Moreover, I think it needs to be said that Chuuya is often well aware when he's being manipulated. He's not oblivious, it's just that there's often nothing he can really do about it. For instance, he is very aware that Fyodor's intention in Cannibalism is to make the agency and mafia fight each other, but as they only have two days before Mori dies and that isn't enough time, he opts for the most direct and immediate course of action.

So, there's another weakness - Chuuya's really not a long-term strategist. He doesn't play the long game like Mori, Dazai or Fyodor - he prefers to sort things out as quickly as possible. However, I need to stress that this does not make him unintelligent or never strategic in the short term.

And that is all that is needed to turn the tables on Fyodor - Fyodor devalues everything about Chuuya other than his ability, but it is always Chuuya who wields that ability, not Dazai. I don't think anyone expects Chuuya to come up with a master plan to completely destroy Fyodor's plans for good... but I fully expect Chuuya to clothesline the guy after the way he continues to refer to him like he's little more than a tool. He's done it before.

Actually, I think I'm just going to wrap this up with a quick list of moments I can think of off the top of my head that demonstrate Chuuya's intelligence.

Every piece of media: Chuuya near immediately pieces Dazai's manipulations together in retrospect, from start to finish.

Main manga: Chuuya is sent to negotiate with the Agency, implying he learned negotiation well from Kouyou.

Fifteen: Chuuya awkwardly tries to shift the investigative focus away from Arahabaki and onto the Old Boss. While this doesn't change Dazai's focus, Dazai ends up entirely unsuspicious of him because he thinks Chuuya just wants to beat people up.

Fifteen: Chuuya expressly warned the Sheep against venturing into Mafia territory to avoid extra aggression.

Fifteen: Chuuya knew the entire time that Randou was the culprit and was gauging how much Dazai knew about his own connection to the Arahabaki situation.

Fifteen: Chuuya goes back to investigate the arcade, suspecting Dazai of having tampered with the game, and was correct in his assumption.

Stormbringer: Chuuya escapes Adam by entering a dark tunnel then hiding to give the illusion that he ran all the way through it. It works and Adam runs right past him.

Stormbringer: Chuuya fakes out Verlaine into thinking he's going to attack N while gearing up to attack Verlaine instead.

Stormbringer: Chuuya fakes out Verlaine again so Adam can launch a surprise attack with an anesthetic.

Dead Apple prologue: Chuuya pieces together Dazai's clue from a single piece of dialogue.

Dead Apple: Chuuya near instantly predicts the course of an incoming grenade while on his motorcycle in motion to ride the shockwave and avoid getting hit.

Also, I think it's important to note that Chuuya's ability is gravity manipulation, not telekinesis. He's not moving whatever he touches - he's manipulating one of the forces acting on it. This means he needs to adjust in the moment to other forces acting on the objects in his surroundings, which can and do change - my first thought was of wind affecting resistance. Either way, he's actually having to juggle a lot of sensory information in the heat of a single moment and that's very difficult to do.

If anyone wants to add any "Chuuya is not dumb" moments that I have missed, please feel free to in the tags or the comments.

Anyways, I hope this answered the initial question, anon!

[shalom-iamcominghome]

Hi Shalom, I am the anon who sent an ask about calling a shul last week. Before giving updates I would like to apologise for vomiting my anxiety all over the ask. We're strangers and you didn't ask for the job of calming my anxieties. I apologise for that.

Also, thank you for your faith in me, it gave me strength, because I did go to the shul. I was incredulous at myself, but I did do it. I had to go back to my home during the day as I had forgotten my ID but I still went back instead of giving up (the journey was one hour and a half total, next time I will remember).

The security literally used interrogator techniques on me, which I realised only later. I totally understand, I didn't know anyone there, I was not Jewish by my own confession, I could have been anyone. Anyway, I said if I shouldn't be here that evening it was fine (I didn't want to pose a security risk) he said "No! You can go tonight we talked about you."

What can I say about the experience but that it was- so much better than I expected. First, everyone was so opened and relaxed. I talked with two women behind me. I said it was my first time and asked some questions, and one of them was so nice. Said she couldn't read either the first time, that she had learned. Turns out she was a convert. I hesitated to tell her I wasn't Jewish, but I did. One thing I want to be is honest. Those people are literally putting themselves in danger, opening their space to a stranger, I owe them at least three time my honesty.

At one point during the office, I got teary eyes. The emotion of being there, honestly it surprised me, I don't really now what got me so emotional. Another moment, I felt like I was flying, wrapped in the singing of everyone around me.

Another thing is I was finally hearing people say Hashem, and Shma Israel and Shabbat Shalom and talking about the destruction of the Temple. It was as if I had finally found the correct dimension, you know?

It was so good. At the end the lady gave me her number told me I could text and we could drink coffee this week so that she could answer my questions.

The guy at the entrance told me to call the secretary to begin the procedure of conversion. I never said I wanted to, but apparently me wanting to assist to an office count as wanting to convert.

So, this has been a wonderful experience. I still I'm not sure if I want to convert or not. I will contact the lady. What I know is I want to learn everything, I want to go back to shul. What I don't know is, what level of observance can I sustain realistically over the term of my life? am I ready to confront my relatives reaction to this? And am I ready to put my children in danger over my calling to Judaism?

I will reflect and ask questions and think.

Thank you for reading, have a great day!

I want to start with: I am, genuinely, very proud of you. It might sound odd, but it is such an intimidating first step to take, and I can empathize with how scary it is. Additionally, I understand where you were coming from, and understood that these anxieties are hard to talk about with, really, anyone, but they need to go somewhere. Every step of the conversion process is a community project, even questioning if judaism is right will take a community to address. We can't survive alone in this, and I think part of exploring conversion is learning how to be in community. I think many of us grew up in hyper-individualistic communities to the point where we internalize shame by "stooping down" to seeking help. I don't want to assume what your situation is, but it's definitely been something I personally have had to contend with (and frankly, I still am contending with). So I truly understand why you went about your feelings the way you did - you didn't cause harm to me, I didn't feel like a therapist, and you it seemed like you needed community. That's nothing to be ashamed or guilty for. So long as we all remember that I am not an expert, I think we can at least have a heart-to-heart. My overall point is: I don't want for you to feel ashamed of needing community and asking for support, and I hope you don't feel that way. I'm glad you contacted me, and feel honored that you chose me to speak about it with. That's crazy to think about (in a good way, of course)!

I truly have so much faith in your path, and I found myself relating heavily in what you've expressed. I absolutely don't want to tell you what you ought to do, but I really hope you continue this journey no matter where it leads you. Keep asking those big questions - learning about what your needs are is so important. I can't answer them for you, and I don't want to assume that you want me to answer those for me, but if you ever want to talk, know that this blog is an option if you want it to be. All of this is a community effort. Chase the happiness. You deserve that, literally, at the very least

[ghoulphile]

to the recent anon about blocking a certain account:

hey there, i'm going to assume this was asked in good faith so i'll respond in good faith.

i had an incident over the weekend with another blog that was interacting with my fics - and myself personally via dm - who i suspected of being a minor. they answered an ask about their age on their blog and gave a range of 17-21.

this made me uncomfortable and i blocked them but not before they had a chance to reach out. i stated that i'm not angry or upset but that i do not interact with minors or let minors knowingly engage with my fics. they said it was a typo and that they were actually 18-21.

while i appreciated the explanation it still made me extremely uncomfortable, and i chose to err on the side of caution, which i told them so. they did not take this well and some things were said. i'm not into entertaining drama so i wished them well, and blocked them.

and now over the last few days, i have had new accounts that have very similar usernames/names to theirs, and very very similar aesthetics, follow me/try to engage with me/send me asks.

one even sent in an ask about blogs complaining that i've blocked them... when the only blogs i blocked are theirs. at the time of checking, they made no such posts so i can only assume it was someone who knows them, or it was themselves trying to reach out.

another commented on my post asking for clarification about my 18+ rule immediately after i received that ask, and said they were 17 but they'll be 18 in a few months and have been reading smut for a long time. they were also blocked, as was their main blog.

now the blog you are asking about has far too many similarities for my comfort, and so they were blocked as i cannot be sure they are not a minor.

it's not meant in ill will, but as a means to protect myself. i'm sorry they're upset - it truly is nothing personal. while i know i can't stop every minor from engaging with my account and fics, if i become aware of them, then i will block as this is, has been, and always will be 18+ only.

this is the first, last, and only time i'm going to talk about this. i'm not into drama nor do i want any. i've been worried something like this would come up, and have taken the necessary steps and screenshots should it escalate as i've tried to handle this privately thus far.

please do not go bother them. i'm trying to do my best to keep their identity private, as well as what i suspect to be their other blogs. i only wish that if they are minors, and they are the same person, they can respect my wishes.

[sometimesanalice]

I can't help but notice it seems like you're poaching story details from other authors in the fandom...is that intentional? I ask because once is coincidence, but I'm seeing it more and more in your fics, so it's feeling more and more purposeful...

And I can’t help but notice it feels like you’re trying to stir up issues where there aren’t any?

Our community is small and this kind of energy is not appreciated or welcomed. Especially when you can easily come talk to me directly and OFF anon.

My DMs are open, if you had actual concerns, or if any author had genuine concerns, it’s so easy to reach out for a chat.

But you didn’t and neither has anyone else. Because that’s something that I don’t do.

Accusing me on anon of “poaching” other people’s stories without providing any kind of context does not sit well with me. And the way you’ve chosen to write this makes it more than clear that this was not sent in good faith.

Based on the fact you sent this to me after I posted my newest fic, I’m going to go ahead and assume (and give you the benefit of the doubt) that you didn’t read Oh, Christmas Tree, my Christmas story posted last year on 12/23/2022 where Bradley surprises Reader with a pink Christmas tree.

I did it last year and I brought I back this year with the same characters. The only person I’m “poaching” ideas from is myself 💁🏼‍♀️ And if other people want to write about pink trees or any other colorful Christmas, they are welcome to! Because you can’t lay claim to details. Details add to the story, but it’s the over all plot that matters.

This is a fandom. We all feed off of tropes. People can have similar details and tell a completely different story. The issue comes when entire dialogues or entire storylines are taken and claimed as original.

I try to be kind and supportive to everyone on here and will continue to do so. I hope you’ll rethink how you choose to approach others.

[tommykinard]

Serious question, no hate or anything but why are so many people convinced that Ryan and Oliver would love for buddie to happen? Because everything they said sounds quite like the opposite, especially from Ryan. He said the same thing since 2019, he wants to portray this vulnerable, close, platonic friendship/bromance without it turning romantic. He also said he doesn’t even see or play Eddie as gay. And Oliver also said he doesn’t even know if he would actually want it to happen. Which means he doesn’t even think about it actually happening. Sure they love the (non toxic) fans and their love for the characters but I really don’t think they’re dying for buddie to happen. They always say they’re open to it if that’s what Tim decides and if it doesn’t come off as fanservice. But they know exactly it could never be anything but fanservice if it happens. And even if they absolutely wouldn’t want it to happen, they couldn’t say it or else they get called homophobic. So what is it that makes people believe they want Buddie to be canon?

Okay so I'm gonna answer assuming this was sent in good faith, but I really don't like the putting of words in people's mouths and also this extremism re: :they never said that", "this will never happen", etc.

I can only speak for myself, not for anyone else in fandom and definitely not for Ryan or Oliver since I don't know these people personally and I can only assume that you don't either. And as much as we joke about them being unhinged and out of PR jail and whatever, we have to remember these people are professionals who have been in the industry a long time and know how to interact with journalists and press because it's their job. They're never going to outright confirm or deny anything, they can only speak to what material they're given in the moment. As of right now, buddie is a vulnerable, close, platonic friendship. Neither of them have any reason to suggest otherwise. Also please remember that they are actors, they don't write for the show, yes they can offer input into the storylines but they cannot definitively change the trajectory of the show. Sorry anon, but Ryan and Oliver saying that they don't know the future of buddie does not mean they "don't even think about it happening". You don't know what they think, I don't know what they think, so let's stop with these extreme assumptions.

Also "they're not dying for buddie to happen"? I never said that they were. I said that from everything I've seen, I can tell that Ryan and Oliver know their characters and love their characters better than anyone in this fandom ever could. And understanding and loving Eddie means knowing the full depth of how much he loves Buck, whether that be platonic or romantic or some secret third thing. Same goes for Buck. I think if it goes the romantic route, Ryan and Oliver would have a blast getting to explore and portray another aspect to the buddie dynamic. If it doesn't go there, I think they would still knock it out of the park with how they portray a very important relationship in these characters lives, and I think they would still have a blast with it, like they've been doing this whole time. But again, I don't know them and I could be wrong, I'm just going off of the bare minimum info I have.

As for "they know it could never be anything but fanservice", did they tell you that? I've seen time and time again how this show surpasses expectations, I for one did not want an Eddie cheating with Shannon's doppleganger arc when it was speculation, but the show surprised me with how much I liked the way they did it. Same goes for buddie, if you think it can only ever be fanservice, just give them a chance to maybe surprise you. Ryan and Oliver are gonna get shit on no matter what they say in interviews. If they talk about buddie too much and hint about it being romantic, they're going to get accused of queerbaiting. If they don't talk about buddie at all or keep emphasizing that buddie is platonic, they're going to be called homophobic. It's a lose lose situation.

And another thing? Interviews are not word of god. This fandom (and any fandom) needs to stop placing so much weight on them. They're a fun behind the scenes look into the conversations and decisions surrounding different scenes and storylines, but that's it. Personally, I don't care what Ryan or Oliver might feel about buddie. It's fun seeing them be supportive of it, sure, but they could outright say that it was never going to happen and I wouldn't care, because they're not the writers or showrunners, what they say in an interview has no impact on the show. A lot of people weren't there or have forgotten when Tim made comments about how much he loved Taylor Kelly and wanted to pursue more journalist storylines, or when he said Eddie would have no PTSD after the shooting. So even if Tim confirmed or denied buddie in an interview? It means nothing bc it didn't occur in the show. We'll all find out whether Ryan and Oliver wanted buddie to happen or not if/when it does happen, or when the show ends. Until then just stay along for the ride or hop off if you're not having a good time.

[knightobreath]

I am once again reminded you are a real human being

My bad gang I’m sorry

Do not let them get to you

compiling these 3 specifically because theyre all probably about the fact that i said i was tired of getting intentionally trollish asks, so let me explain myself a bit more xP. its a lot because i love to talk

you guys shouldnt be too sorry! i did intentionally encourage these a few times, especially during the #mod 🫒's purgatory thing. because well, as a part of what i do on my blogs and streams I am a clown. i intentionally play as a sort of over-exaggerated feed-the-trolls fool because i think it makes me funnier. but the main issue is that I didn't set a proper boundary between intentionally goofy oliver and genuine human being oliver. This is a direct consequence of having everything be on my personal blog and not relegated to sperate spaces.

the sheer volume of asks ive been getting lately has made keeping up difficult and well. guys im kind of tired of answering nonsense or trollish asks. i'm not witty enough! i'm out of jokes! i've been riffing off of anons every day for like a month! and it is my fault for not just deleting stuff but i do appreciate when you guys want to joke around with me

okay. uh here is the part that is the Straws that Broke the Camel's Back. I can't tell when you guys are joking anymore. I can't gauge how much of the anon "hate" is jokes and how much of it is genuine. I can only tell for sure if it's like my friend saying it. If it isn't clear to me that a friend sent in an ask, it reads as if a stranger sent it. And I can't tell if a stranger is being genuine or not because I don't know you. a key example is the person who said something along the lines of "of course you're a skeleton if you're a vegetarian" which didn't read as a friendly jab but rather a stranger making assumptions about my diet to blame me for my body issues. i assume the anon just saw that those were both things the funny ask answering guy was talking about so they were free game for making fun of. kind of my fault though because as i said, there isnt enough of a boundary between when im being comedic and when i'm being genuine.

so like. tldr in conclusion i love receiving and answering asks and I did sort of have this policy of responding to Every Single One that I just can't do anymore and now I'm suffering from the horrible affliction that is "Bit That's Gone On For Way To Long" with a side effect of not wanting to go back on my word. and now that i actually want to be Real on Main people are going to try and bring it back to jokingly antagonizing me not realizing that it just becomes actual antagonizing when it's not about something i consider a joke. so im just gonna place down some boundaries

streams are a good time to send in silly asks, im in bit mode for that

i also dont take anything seriously on the oscc but please dont bother the other mods about it

im not responding to every ask anymore. Lol. if i cant think of anything funny its going into the void

might also start blocking anons who say shit that is Weird ! no more taking literally everything in good faith

you guys can still send silly asks i just want you to like. roll it back on the whole jokingly being mean to me thing. friends are exempt of course just make it clear that its YOU and not Internet Stranger #66951284

anyways love yall but also i dont know yall. or. most of yall. i accept the anon's apology👍

[iced-coffee-jesus]

https://www.tumblr.com/iced-coffee-jesus/764635901861281792/so-no-sighting-of-tommy-nor-did-he-get?source=share

Sorry to intrude but this post just popped up for me, and I had to come here and say that this is going to change this week... Oh, I fear that BTs are gonna have a field day (no matter how the episode goes - it's gonna feature their fave!) because they knew all along that the show had just been "economic" and "strategic" with him xD

*sigh*

Hey anon, I'm going to assume you sent this on good faith, but that post is from Thursday night when 8x04 aired. If you look at my blog, I've made and shared several posts about the first Screen Rant article. I know he's going to be in it, I still think it's loud to not even mention him for three straight episodes.

And in regards to BT shippers, I mean they have a field day no matter what. Some were theorizing that Buck is wearing Tommy's clothes lately, and yes, others are on a high that they are being 'economical' with Lou's time. He isn't a big name celebrity, if they wanted to sign him for more episodes they could have; they didn't, though. Yes, I'm sure they will be thrilled to see their man, but it's looking more and more likely that we are going to see BT break up before the mid-season finale. Don't stress too much.

I'm at work rn, but I will answer more anons when I get home.

[siriuslysatorusimping]

*rummaging rummaging rummaging* Holy crap HII Kiko! Idk if you remember me or not but it's me, 🐬 anon! I feel bad for not saying anything for so long but I have been SO caught up in life recently (*ﾟﾛﾟ) also I just don't find interest in JJK or anime that much anymore m(_ _)m That being said I have gotten into different fandoms!! Recently I've been liking roblox Pressure, which I'm gonna guess you don't know about lol but it's fun! (Of course I shouldn't assume you don't but I am😭) anywho, has it really already been like a whole year since chapter 236 was released? Gojo has been dead for a year already? That's nuts!!

Enough sad stuff tho 😭 I hope you've been doing good!! Even if life may seem hard, if you push through your struggles (and this is what I believe but you might not believe the same thing!) and pray to God and ask Him for help, I'm sure you'll be able to get through them!! (Not trying to force religion or anything, that's just how I get through stuff and it always helps!!)

I have virtually NO IDEA whats new in the JJK community and I dont plan on finding out because that will take FOREVER. I just thought I'd come say hi, I was looking they my following list and saw you!!

So yeah, I hope you've been doing well, and I believe in you! You've got this, just have faith in yourself!!

Have an awesome day!! -🐬

AHHHHH. ITS ONLY BEEN TWO WEEKS SINCE YOU SENT THIS 😭😭

I’m so sorry. I’m a mess. I’ve been telling myself to respond to this for days and I keep forgetting 😓

For one, of course I remember you! I hope you’re well! No need to apologize for not saying anything. Life gets busy and things get chaotic, so it’s no worries!!

I don’t blame you for not knowing what’s going on in the JJKverse, it’s been a bit of a wild ride since it ended.

Thank you for your sweet words! I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day. And I’m sorry for taking so long to respond 😭

💕

[illfoandillfie]

Im so sorry about the last ask i did, didnt mean to sound mean or that i demand you to write. Im hoping everything will go fine for you soon🙏🙏

Firstly, apologies if my response before was kinda harsh, I'd had to deal with some very annoying students that afternoon and was kinda at the end of my tether.

Thank you for apologising and clarifying the tone of the ask. I'm about to go on a little rant, please know that whilst your ask has precipitated this response, you are by no means the only person i'm talking to.

I love when you guys talk to me, and honestly i do kinda miss when this fandom was super active and everyone was always sending asks and stuff, it was heaps of fun. And I definitely love getting messages about how much you enjoy something i've written, it makes me very happy to know you like what I do or that you're looking forward to reading what i'm working on!

But I also think that sometimes it is easy to forget that we are not friends. I don't know you, I don't know what your sense of humour is like or the intention behind an ask. Even if we talked every day, the second you turn on anon, you are a random person that i have never interacted with. You wouldn't walk up to a stranger on the street and jokingly tell them to fuck off because they had a cat on their shirt and not a dog. That would be rude. If your fave author or artist was hanging out at a cafe you wouldnt approach them and badger them about how long their next project is taking. Again, that would be rude.

So why do you feel comfortable doing it to a stranger on the internet? Why is it suddenly okay to send messages that are demanding or mean or even at worst abusive to someone else online? Why does it become cute and quirky and just being silly when the message is going to another blog or instagram comments or whatever the case may be.

This is a conversation that I've seen a number of blogs with larger follower counts/blogs that post original fandom content having recently. It's also something that more and more celebrities and professional creators are acknowledging. And I think it's worth talking about here too. The people who create things are still people with full on lives that don't revolve around silly internet hobbies.

If I get a message calling me a bitch for writing an angsty fic then I have to decide if the ask was sent in good faith (ie joking on the internet) or not (just being an asshole). And if you're anon or someone I do not recognise from notes on my posts, I'm much more likely to assume the second. However, if you spend a bit longer crafting a message that tells me you enjoyed the fic even tho it made you sad, then i know you're not a dick! All it takes is thinking about what you're sending someone for more than 2 seconds! Write it, read it as if you have no context, and ask yourself if you sound like a dick. And if you do, rethink it.

Anyway, rant over. Thankfully I don't have this problem very often (party because i am not very consistent in my posting lmao) but this is worth keeping mind with every online interaction you have.

[ewanmitchellcrumbs]

Whenever I come back after a while, there’s always something going up in flames here 😔 I miss the old days when people could just coexist with different opinions and having a differing opinions wasn’t a personal attack.

But I think that requires a certain amount of detachment and maturity that takes time to develop. I’m going to assume in good faith, that a lot of people picking fights here are really young, or don’t understand nuance or are just not as conversational with the turns of phrase used. To purposely distort someone’s words and pick on them is not nice at all.

If someone states their opinion online (where none of us really know each other) and it’s not something you agree with, and even if it’s wrong. What is the point in starting beef over it? 🤔🤔

The person with the different opinion isn’t god? No one’s holding a gun to your head, you can just log out of tumblr and ignore it and live your actual life? Or only look at blogs that align with your personal opinion? It’s not that deep, chill. 😕😕😕

Anyway, see ya Ange ♥️ take care, get some rest

I thought that stepping away would help to calm things down, but things seem to have spiralled since then. People I had considered friends, people I've always seemed to have gotten along with have all taken massive issue with the opinions expressed, and instead of having a mature conversation about it with me or Em (in-a-mountain-pool) they have taken to airing their grievances very publicly.

That is their right, I suppose, and if friendships are fragile enough to be broken by the expression of a difference in opinion then I guess they aren't really friendships at all. I'm just a little bewildered, as the reaction seems disproportionate to the opinions expressed.

I see posts all the time from mutuals complaining about the formatting of fics and the unrealistic depiction of sex. No one takes issue with that, despite the fact that it could easily offend the authors it concerns, but when I do it it's suddenly the worst crime imaginable.

It is what it is. Em (in-a-mountain-pool) has handled every anon sent her way with maturity and explained herself very well, and I'll continue to support her.

For now, I am going to continue to keep a safe distance, because this is exhausting.

Thank you for checking in and hope you're well <3

I am not back, just clearing through asks.

[thirdeyeblue]

Hey I just read your recent post The one about the fandom hyper fixation and then your entry in the tags. And I'm not sure if this helps anything, But I feel like it needs to be said, I am so sorry that you are feeling under confident right now, and I hope dearly and truly that it's just a dark cloud overhead. Because I'm someone who does not know you personally, I am truly disheartened to hear you're having a rough time with something you love You spend time and energy and emotions writing these fics for free—not only just you but dozens of authors in this specific fandom we call doctor who— and it must be rough seeing the discourse, (I'm only assuming it's about the purpose of a reprose if I'm wrong just ignore this little rant. That I honestly find a bit annoying because if you don't like the fic do to the ship, back out. If you do, don't use it as an excuse to be toxic and harsh. It's petty and childish.) And the campaign falling through (quite frankly I wish I could punch whoever made Ninex"the doctor's wife" a "canonical" thing, I find the actual shipname a curse in this house and you know who I mean. Like even if you couldn't get Billie back, Just make cool Nine adventures! Also tell us what the heck Mia comes from, I love it I do, but context!) and anything else you might be going through personally. I'm sorry that you're not exactly feeling the motivation right that you use too.

I hope that you know however long this break last, you're an amazing writer and more than likely there is someone jumping into this fandom who—like me— fell in love with tentoo based on your Fics. Even if it might not seem like much books like your brighten up someone's day, and that's one of the best things you can do in the world. Make someone happy. So take your time, ride this wave out, and I hope you have something out there brightening up your life like to do ours!

Jesus, I'm sorry that I'm only just now responding to this lovely ask! It's been buried beneath someone else's novel-length piece of nonsense I've neglected to read for ages/only just now got around to deleting.

I actually quite needed to see something like this today, so even though you sent it months ago, it's serendipitous to have found it again now!

(See below for my long af reply-turned-diary-entry, I'm sorry—I just drank a C4 Smart Energy and my brain is a-going)

I appreciate you for reaching out with all of this love! It's difficult to concentrate when you're already not particularly kind to yourself, but I'm trying—and good god, stuff like this is so helpful.

I'm also so honored and happy to have changed your opinion of Tentoo AND to have brightened up your life in ANY way. You're wonderful 🥹💖

As for the Repose stuff, thank you, fam. Of course that discourse is annoying, but I've recovered from it by now (I'm also close to updating that fic again soon)!

To be honest, it's more upsetting that some people I consider(ed) friends started treating me differently because of shipping (including one not-so-stealthy ""anon"")—but I've made my peace with that. The real ones+incredible readers+actual friends will be with you no matter what.

(Honestly, with the amount of critical thinking that led me to appreciate that ship in a nuanced way [while still actively shipping TentooRose, mind], it's silly for anyone to lump me in with all of the worst opinions present in the T/M fandom—that'd be like lumping me in with the people who think Ten and Rose were fucking (we are not the same)—but people are insane. Still, I've since made separate accounts for my T/M stuff to improve my quality of life as an unpaid content creator. And it's been great! But people can still be weird. Suppose that's the price of engaging with fandom in the first place.)

Regarding the campaign thing: I'm not too concerned about that! I'm the one who made the terrible decision to try and get a petition going around the 60th... It didn't occur to me until after the fact (AKA after RTD obliterated my faith) that I should have based the entire petition around Big Finish/Titan Comics/etc to begin with. I've since come up with a way better idea, I just haven't deployed it yet — but keep an eye out if you're interested! It's going to be the last attempt I make, but I've discussed it with several like-minded friends, and I think it'll be brilliant 💖

But yes. Dear god. That shit they pulled with River and Nine... I don't even wanna talk about it. Hopefully this plan I'm working on will make up for it. Maybe. Who knows.

And thank you again for being lovely. Sorry for the wall of text!

[sams-venting]

I need to get this off my chest before I blow up at somebody 

But I know I did not just fucking watch someone try to say a fictional incest ship is worse than several real-life people getting groomed. Are you fucking serious. You are so lucky your ass was on anon motherfucker I would've hard blocked and reported your snide ass

I don't give a shit which 'side' you're on. I don't care what you think about whatever drama of the week is going on. I know my ass, who has actively had to report CSEM photos to National Center for Missing and Exploited Children Cyber Tipline, did not just fucking watch you compare a disgusting ship, to actual teens being sexually coerced

I can't fucking believe you. We out here really prioritizing fictional characters over real breathing human beings

Get this, I am completely against pro shipping. I am just as repulsed by people looking at siblings or parents and deciding they should fuck for the silly dynamics of it as the next guy, it's fucking despicable. But I know I did not just your ass saying it's more harmful and creepy than your friend over there diddling real people almost half his age. Are you fcuking kidding me. 

And, before you start assuming shit, I again am on 'no side'. I don't give a fuck about the entire situation outside of people once again, conveniently dragging the victims of the gore anons into more bullshit. 

I am not blind to the fact none of this would've went down had a stalker not went digging for shit. No one would've known about the original doc a year ago had a suspected gore anon not stirred the pot after the callout post that got sent to the VAs. That was purposeful manipulation. No doubt about it. They wanted to pull up anything and everything on one of the few people that was trying to defend those that were getting harassed because of the big blogs. You'd have to be either really young, or really stupid to not've seen that bigger picture 

I also don't fucking trust ANYONE that makes a callout / awareness post for ANY REASON. I don't care who you are. As a quotev veteran of 7 years, someone who watched their friend get dogpiled on by big blogs 3 years ago in the Sonic fandom bc how dare a minor be uncomfortable with public porn of minor characters on tumblr, seen kids purposely catfish adults in the MHA quotev fandom so they could frame them for pedophilia any time their advances were put to a stop, the entire Revie and Jasper situation in the FNF vs Sonic.exe corner of twitter where one adult was partially framed once again by a kid that couldn't handle being told no, meanwhile the other had legit CP on their computer come to find out and was the Actual danger in the fandom 

So imagine my reaction of trying to escape to the fnafsb fandom and to tsams. Here 👏 we 👏 fucking 👏 go 👏 again. It's like everyone was born yesterday and baby spanking new to the Internet. How has No One learned the consequences of their actions. Adults included btw, just as childish if not worse than the teens that haven't learn basic internet etiquette. What the fuck is your excuse you're in your 20s, how is your media literacy This low mf. Smh 

All I can say is thank God I've decided to grow and mature as a person. And by that, coming to the conclusion that everything is ultimately ✨none of my fucking business✨ 

Bc guess what, it ain't. Just bc people airing out the dirty laundry does not mean I need to get involved and throw myself to the drama wolves. Sometimes, I don't need to have an opinion. Sometimes, if I do have an opinion, I know to keep it to myself unless I'm asked for it by my therapist or friends (and not anons guys I am begging you to not get baited by trolls please for the love of all things holy. Assume good faith in strangers, but never in anons. They use innocent questions all the time to pull a gotcha) 

Ultimately? All sides are guilty of some level of shit, end of discussion. 1) I already had beef with with the whole 'ur pd is showing' on a personal level. I will never forgive for that. In no scenario with strangers is that ever fucking okay. 2) I ain't gonna let the little fibs slide. I've seen the screenshots in the newest doc, I've compared the posts. A liar is a liar. 3) I personally don't like nor trust em. Didn't originally, definitely don't now. But again I acknowledge that's a personal decision. 4) I did not fucking like seeing people stalk the gore anon victims once again just so they can dig up scraps to support their persecution of their past abuser. 5) I am in no way denying the abuse they did infact go through. It was horrible to see, and I can only empathize with my own trauma from abusive relationships. 6) I am also however acknowledging that trying to drive them off of social media is not a realistic solution and is infact anti-recovery. So some of you are infact a hypocrite for wanting to abolish prisons and then pulling This kind of shit. Revenge is not justice. 7) if you wanna cut someone out of your life, you have to stop talking about them and 'looking out for their potential victims' or you're just going to feed the flames of drama. Be the bigger person and put down the stick if you're tired of the burn. This goes for everyone btw. 8) for the record I would not be Nearly as on the fence as I am rn if it weren't for [redacted] having learned this behavior from also being a victim of somebody else. It is incredibly common for those that have been groomed and/or abused in the past to then continue to seek out those same types of relationships. Especially if they never learned the why or how said relationships were fucked up in the first place. 

9) it is no one's place to decide if other people are allowed to give someone a second or third chance to be a better person. Idgaf if they're a victim or not. You do not have the right to dictate who talks to who. That is red flag toxic yaoi shit my dear friend. I, do not agree with a few of my mutuals chosing to befriend or forgive them. But I also know it is not my fucking place to tell them to do different. It is not my place to control who is with who for whatever reason. I don't like it, I don't agree with it, but I ain't gonna start shit talking left and right, throwing my opinions all about, and force them to do as I do. 

This is where the maturity clarity thing comes in btw. I don't like it. I have a bad feeling about it. I don't agree with these decisions my mutuals have made. But you know what? ✨It's none of my fucking business✨ and I mean it. That means, after I'm done venting here I'm dropping the topic. That means, just bc I don't like them that I'm gonna start bad mouthing to my mutuals about their friend. You don't go to your bestie and shit talk about their boyfriend right to them, that's messed up af. And this is no different 

Also, sidenote, fuck all y'all for using stranger's posts on the internet to drag someone else's name through the mud and reposting them to a doc without consent. Which Did happen to me with the big blogs vs confessions btw. I am still, very much not okay about that and I can't believe that's happening to other ppl too but for a different call-out. 

but fucking, trying to compare a fictional ship and saying it's worse than people who got groomed?

You are on razor thin fucking ice. Pull your head out of your ass, shut up, and sit the hell down before you spout any more stupid shit for the love of God. That about pisses me off more than anything right now I'm so livid. And I've been silently seething with rage since August so that's not to be taken lightly

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[P.S. thank you to mod for being a place ppl can go to, idk what I would've done since I don't have therapy till next week. Sorry if I don't make any sense whatsoever btw, I am tired, it is 1 am, and my bpd ass is extremely emotional rn with no viable outlet except here. I am aware that reality is not what it seems past midnight as I am prone to delusion, so I'm genuinely not allowed to *talk* talk to ppl this late at night for everyone's well being, including myself. So again: thank you. Hope you're doing well, in spite of everything going on. Drinking water, petting cats, monching bread, etc, and letting the small things in life into your heart to spread wonder. Have a good night]

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[lossisyours]

LOL girl how can you reblog posts about Palestine and then say weird parasocial stuff about that meathead?

this isn't a kind way to speak to someone (me) or about someone (travis kelce). you've sent some version of this to me more than once this week, anon — i deleted it before, i considered being equally rude back another time, so i'm going to respond this time.

i hope that you'll understand where i'm coming from when i tell you this isn't the way. i'm not trying to be sanctimonious or patronising.

look, it's not like i am not aware that the chiefs — the NFL at large, in fact — are a deeply problematic organisation. i understand that travis kelce has said some concerning things in the past. i'm fairly tuned in to current events, and i try not to pour out devotion blindly, ever. in fact, i find plenty of choices taylor swift makes deeply problematic, too; it's something that has been very hard for me to grapple with this year, because she's someone whose body of work i started following more than a decade ago. in very formative years where i felt deeply alone, unseen and Too Much™, her work made me feel far less lonely. to see someone for whom i've had such a high opinion make choices i don't like, approve of, or sponsor has been awful. my opinion has altered, yes. i'm more critical, yes.

but my way of supporting palestine is by way of raising awareness and donations. it's by not looking away, when a lot of the world, somehow, is. what use would it be to the unconscionable atrocities to detest, diminish, and loudly disapprove of a popstar and her boyfriend? what you're hinting at is some hypocrisy on my part (though, correct me if i'm wrong). i don't see it. these things are not correlated in the least; in fact, i'd argue it is demeaning and disgraceful to put a horrifying genocide on the same level as a relationship between a pop culturally-relevant couple.

my appreciation for taylor and travis isn't about them as people, necessarily. i don't have to justify this to you, don't get it twisted. but i'm explaining, in good faith, that it's about seeing Big, Loud, Unapologetic Love in a time where i am mired in the dystopian reality of what israel is doing and, somehow, getting away with. it helps me keep being vocal, keep looking at the unforgivable awfulness, to have a piece of tenderness to hold.

i'm a person. so are you. so are they. and so are, i'm assuming, the other blogs you've sent a similar rendition of this vitriol to. it is so important to be socially responsible, to be involved and to advocate. only, don't you think it's counterintuitive to that very choice and point-of-view to then go and be rude to people on the side as a chaser to that? just something to think about.

[cranky-kyrati]

why do i like dark stuff?

A little while ago I received an anonymous ask that I won't be publishing, because the way it was phrased suggests it was asked in bad faith (think "Have you stopped beating your wife?"). The question essentially boiled down to "Why are you into [works featuring] a horrible thing?".

I am generally a very open person, and normally wouldn't mind waxing philosophical about why my mind is twisted the way it is, but the thing is, it doesn't actually matter.

The way I see it, what we engage with in works of fiction, both as writers and readers, is akin to roleplaying.

For instance, when I write or read stories featuring rape, that's functionally no different from playing out a force fantasy with a partner. Assuming a story has been outfitted with appropriate tags and warnings, everyone involved have given their informed consent - because the characters in the story? Those are fictional.

No actual real people are being subjected to any kind of violation or abuse in the content I enjoy.* And writing or reading about abuse does not equate to condoning it.

Now, I understand that it can be upsetting to find that the creator of something you enjoy also creates or engages with works that you find morally repugnant (or even just a bit icky). Truly! I get it. But the thing is, dealing with your feelings about what other people consent to do with one another (as writers and readers of these stories) really isn't their responsibility. It's yours.

If you find the mere existence of a certain kind of story so triggering or upsetting as to feel abused yourself, you may want to look into the many ways you can filter and hide stories from AO3 so you won't be exposed to them. People who are into darkfic of all kinds are generally extremely aware that what we enjoy is often upsetting/triggering to others, and we're good at using tags and warnings to make sure no one who doesn't want to see our work will read it by accident.

Like I said at the beginning of this post, I am not going to attempt to justify "why" I like the things I do, but I do want to say one thing on that topic: the psychology behind why people are into these kinds of things is incredibly complex, and as far as I know, science has barely begun to scratch the surface. Most people don't know why they kink the way they do. But please bear in mind that some who are into darkfic are using it as a way of processing their own traumatic experiences of abuse of various kinds. And if I were one of those people, being put on the spot with an anonymous demand that I explain and justify myself publicly would probably not help.

Finally, to the anon who sent the ask: If you are genuinely curious and did not mean to attack me - if you are prepared to actually listen to my answer - reach out to me in private and we'll talk.

* In fact, I'm so damn sensitive I can't even watch BDSM porn from reputable sources with actor interviews and all, because of the constant niggling worry that maybe, just maybe they're not into it after all.