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He's like when your dog sees you're sad and bonks you with his big square head to make you feel better.
#renruki#rukia kuchiki#renji abarai#bleach tybw#bleach tybw spoilers#this scene was not better than all the other renruki crumbs they cut from earlier cours but it's better than nothing i guess#i did like the BOOP. i'll take the BOOP#hot take but i do not like the TYBW Smooth Flying#i liked it better when they used to have to bounce around from rooftop to rooftop#i guess that's a Living World thing. I'm still not even sure why there is now flying in Soul Society. I guess the Quincy broke the physics#can't have shit in the Seireitei Post-Invasion Rubble#anyway there was a nice rhythm to the bouncing that went well with bantering. very satisfying. i miss it
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I need an answer why do y'all hate on s7 like it's in vogue here what is going on I fucking loved that season. like hello? I can't decide if s5 or now s7 is my favourite of the show it was that good of a watch to me
I missed the closeness of the scoobies so bad I didn't even realize until we hit episode three and I was aching for it. oh, god. and the spuffy of it all! I can't even get into it right here but ohhhh. oh. and DAWNIE my sweet girl oh sweet niblet I love her so much. anya's episode? probably one of my favourite episodes of the entire show tyvm. I really liked kennedy and honestly I think she made a great second in command for buffy when she actually listened, though I think she'd be a god-awful leader. almost all of the episodes held my attention that weren't, y'know, bewitched bothered bewildered part two electric boogaloo over there. and DRUSILLAAAAAA ik she wasn't real but IDC I was fawning every time she was on screen both as the first as actually her oh I just adore her I'll never understand her and I don't even care. taking it back actually getting into the spuffy of it all for a second because oh my GOD they had an actual conversation about themselves where she neither ran away nor punched him!! and the montage of everyone screwing, only to cut to spuffy simply cuddling? to show THAT'S their intimacy? 'bout fuckin killed me it did
them kicking buffy out of her house and then literally no one saying ANYTHING about how she was RIGHT except spike ofc really bothered me. and gosh the way they just kinda... did buffy's plan anyways. a little different, but not really? still invaded the vineyard when half the reason no one was listening to her was bc they didn't wanna go back that. but that was like the biggest issue I had the entire season honestly. there was no riley to make me furious, 15 minutes of angel that I hated every second of but is so small it's whatever, and robin wood kinda annoyed me once he turned on buffy and spike there but y'know he gets less relevant so pshh. I'll admit I also got a bit peeved at myself every time I smiled at something andrew said but he grew on me wayyy quicker than I was expecting or wanting I get why he shows up in fics so often now he's entertaining to watch
anyways. I'm sure there's like a billion million things I've missed in my endeavor to simply enjoy myself while watching but as it stands? I love this season. I love it to bits and pieces and I think it was incredibly fun. y'all might just be the biggest haters in the world cause I am SO glad I decided to actually give it a go
#like sure we've had the scoobies ofc but like I was reminded of earlier seasons scoobies here. and I missed it very very much#the ONLY reason I've not mentioned anya's death in the cons part is bc I've already gotten into that in a separate post#but that was NOT OKAY. WHO DID THAT. WHO LET THAT HAPPEN TO HER. WE WON'T HAVE WORDS I WILL JUST USE MY CLAWS#I need to read s7 fics NOW I need them oh my great heavens I'm going a-hunting#I was SO. WORRIED. watching this season. cause I'd heard bad things about s6 but I'd heard even WORSE about s7#but I liked s7 so much more???#I think s6 has stronger individual episodes but as a whole I enjoyed s7 more y'know#I just had a good time the ENTIRE time which I cannot say about s6 at all#also I know like objectively s5 was WAY better than s7 but oh I just LIKED s7. plus s5 has RILEY that's automatically of the bad to me#also I think glory is the best villain this show ever had the neither the first nor misogyny guy come even close to her#but hey it wasn't as bad as adam at least imo#I absolutely loved this season but please do start a conversation with me cause I am genuinely curious why it's so disliked#I wanna know what I overlooked lol#btvs#buffy the vampire slayer
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Australian Rituals / Teeth of God Tour Bingo
Alroighte gwois, let's hear your predictions for the upcoming rituals. I *might* make another bingo (like on Wembley) - even if I don't, let's get them all in one place cus I think it's funny.
If you have something specifically for the Teeth of God Tour (because they are headliners and can do Cooler™ Fancier™ stuff) do specify. Same for strictly Australian Rituals. Some stuff may happen earlier (like when they debuted TMBTE and the new Espera masks), others may only happen on the Tour, so let's just put them all here and see what happens 😗✌️
Please reblog/put on the replies your predictions!! Whether serious or silly, please share!
Mine are:
One of the Vessels (Vessel or ivy OR Espera!!!!) singing onstage with Oli
Kangaroo/koala headbands / Aussie Explorer hat
EUCLID (more for Teeth of God but wouldn't be surprised if earlier)
The Apparition (PLEASE)
The Summoning pushups will return
Older song throwback (please please Sugar or Jaws. TNDNBTG for ToG)
Outfit change for the Vessels (only cus i think Australia is quite hot now innit? poor iv will MELT in that jacket)
NEW VESSEL JEWELLERY
This one I'm not super confident/keen on BUT new Vessel mask with Antlers (more likely on ToG but who knows)
#I AM SO EXCITED FOR THE RITUALS AAAAAAA IT'S RIDICULOUS#i kinda hate that because of timezones they will be playing during the day (for me) rather than later at night but!!#it means we can at least gather round in the evening and react together#cus lord knows how many full nights of sleep i sacrificed during the US rituals#actually yeah now that i think about it it *IS* better this way#ignore my earlier tag then i am thinking out loud#i need at least one picture of the crew with koalas. Just one#i know the girlies are there already so i'm assuming they are ALL there#(one of the Esperas posted on her stories. calm down guys i am not doxing anyone)#do you think they are doing fun Aussie stuff 🥺 trying vegemite and milo and petting koalas and fighting roos 🥺🥺#wait but Adam is not there yet. maybe her photo is from last year. or maybe they're all arriving at different times idk#i just hope they are not stressing too much and are having fun and healthy 👍#i will get SO emotional hearing Vessel fully recovered on stage again 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺#ANYWAYS I RAMBLED TOO MUCH OMG SORREH#if you reached this have a little snack for your troubles 🤲 🍊🧃🍬#sleep token#sleep token teeth of god tour
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It is Now
My birthday 😌
I am now 27 💃
#speculation nation#i'll update my bio later bcus i gotta b on my computer to not wreck my html#but the age old 'it's my birthday which means it's time to tick that age up one more year'#been doing this ever since i was 15 lol. and so it shall continue for the foreseeable future.#anyways im feeling better than i was earlier. my girlfriend came over & that helped a Lot#just chatted and cuddled as i waited for my birthday to hit.#it is now may 13th. my 27th birthday. and i have absolutely nothing written for ITNL chapter 19 😭#i'm working on getting there tho. making good progress in my reread. just having to be more thorough than expected.#i'll still make it my birthday chapter. just in a 'hey my birthday was a few days ago. if u guys wanna wish me happy birthday :]' way#anyways yea if anyone wants to be oh so niceys to me in my comments or asks i would enjoy that very much 🥺
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Literally me whenever someone sends an ask:
/pos, y'all make me so happy.
#REGARDS: MOD 💜 💙#not asks#mod gets mushy and emotional#I'm not kidding. like. i LOVE getting asks this blog is very carhartic for me#like... all of y'all are awesome.#also how the fuck do i already have almost 20 followers here?!?!?! omg???#like??? thank you?!?!#HABIT kin#Evan Myers kin#emh kin#i am screaming and jumping up and down happily like a fucking idiot#i go fucking FERAL when i receive asks. it makes me so happy#y'all have no idea how much i appreciate you despite only having this blog for like- less than a fucking week#THREE DAYS.#I've had this blog for THREE DAYS. and this is the best I've felt in fucking years.#it feels weird how happy this makes me#like... actually actively engaging in my kintypes and ENJOYING IT and allowing OTHERS to as well???#JESUS FUCK THIS IS AWESOME.#I feel much better than earlier. it probably won't last but THANK YOU. literally everyone THANK YOU.#it took way too fucking long to be comfortable admitting that i am fictkin.#but now that i have you're not getting rid of me. and i hope y'all continue to enjoy this as much as i do. <3
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more and more it's feeling like we just...don't have room for people trying anymore. it's all or nothing; get it right the first time, or be crucified by a jury you can never fully see or convince. and this isn't new, isn't born of current events. it's become more and more prevalent over the last ten years thanks to social media putting every little thought on blast, but i'd put money on the idea that it's actually been brewing much longer than that. and, for me, it goes beyond being tiring or upsetting. it feels bleak. it feels downright fucking broken that we're all so busy trying not to condone anything remotely problematic that we don't leave room for good faith learning. watching people trying to suss out their own identity--something literally ONLY they can fully understand or explain--be vilified for trying to fit words around their own experience sucks. watching people misunderstand something and try to apologize for it later, only to be told they should have known all along, sucks. seeing people who once held truly toxic beliefs actually grow and learn and apologize and still be told to fuck themselves as if they're a lost cause--it sucks. just. does that not fill you with despair for the state of things? does that not break something in you, to think that if you one day don't understand something, or misuse a word, or grapple with complicated feelings, it will forever stain you in the eyes of perfect strangers?
dude the world is fucked, and we all see it, but like. it doesn't feel like it helps to be so goddamn reactive. it doesn't feel like it helps anyone to demand perfection out the gate. it's exhausting. there are enough people out there who don't want to learn, who aren't trying, who actively revel in cruelty. looking for malice in every little fuck-up from people who seem to be genuinely striving to live their lives with kindness strikes me as lending strength to an army that already glories in suffering. and makes the world look more fucked than ever. and i really don't know that that energy is what we need when there's already so much to set right.
maybe it's just me. maybe this last decade just shattered something in me. but i really, really hate the idea--reject the idea, frankly--that people can't learn and change and grow. that people can't be better than a bad day or a failure of understanding. i reject the idea that people are something to be thrown out because they fucked up. it just seems...yeah. bleak. really fuckin' bleak.
#personal#i dunno dude#this is that fighting energy from earlier. found some actual words for it i guess#but i'm just so tired#shit's fucked. some shit's complicated. and some isn't--some feels incredibly straightforward to me.#and to the next person maybe there's more nuance. it's all so fucking...there's so much to process all the time#and i catch myself in knee-jerk mode#i catch myself writing people off. making lists in my head. sometimes it's just purely a matter of safety#but god the things i'd give for some of those people to come back into my world#to learn. to grow. to apologize. to decide they value kindness and life over brainwashed beliefs#i would give so much for those friends back. those family members. those people i knee-jerk wrote off back in 2015#i shrunk my world down when i cut them out. i shrunk it down when i told them to fuck off instead of having a conversation#i actively made my safety net smaller in the effort to keep myself protected#and i just keep watching other people do similar things#and thinking like. if i could go back. if i wasn't so hot-headed and Certain that evil thoughts make a person evil#or that miseducation or ignorance or straight-up brainwashing broke a person for good#maybe it would all be different now than it was for my 25-year-old self#i just. i don't fucking know.#people are trying. people need to KEEP trying.#and telling them they're shit for NEEDING to try is only ever going to carve out the part of them that wants to be better#the world is fucked. why help fuck it even more. what is the point of that.#and i'm not saying don't call people on their shit. but maybe calling them shouldn't look like telling them to kill themselves#maybe it should involve a little grace#slamming doors just feels like it makes the house smaller. and shuts off exit routes you might need later#and i kinda wish i'd known that in my 20s
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Wait, they're making another one? Oh-kaaayyyy... Not holding my breath, but hopefully it's at least better than the $h!tshow that was the second movie. (Even if that "version" of Silver is still there.) If it's any consolation, I don't know how much Sega is involved with the Sonic movies, but if it's a good bit, then maybe they can help out! At the very least, there's this amazing comment under the reveal teaser. (GOLDEN ISLAND MENTIONED)
#angry birds#angry birds movie#the angry birds movie#angry birds movie 3#the angry birds movie 3#am i the first one to tag that?#just hoping it's anywhere near as solid as the first and not the dumb unfocused slop that is the second#but seriously please don't drag silver back into this you massacred my favorite adopted piggy-turned-bird enough last time#maybe they could finally do something cool with jo like they've deserved for the past year?#then again it's likely an average-tier animated kids movie so they may not dare include a non-binary character#(then again spa's involved and spider-gwen is at least 80% likely to be trans...#...so maybe there's still hope for jo to finally get to be more than a pfp for a month)#(then again sony wants to play with ai soon so yikes)#yeah i'm still bitter that they're continuing a movie series that got killed five years ago instead of continuing better stuff#like c'mon we get an angry birds movie 3 before angry birds stella season 3 or even toons season 4?#hopefully they actually use the darn slingshots (the absence of which was one of many things that sunk the 2nd movie)#i don't know what to make of angry birds anymore considering how they murdered their renaissance before it could ever begin#(shortening and delisting the remake. making reloaded apple-exclusive. whatever on earth bad piggies 2 was.)#but i'm just hoping they can get at least one thing right this decade. just one please.#being an angry birds since 2012 and witnessing everything go to hell from 2015 onward...#...really was the perfect preparation for being a bengals fan wasn't it#welp forget everything i said about studios earlier#sega is absolutely producing it and the animation will be done by dneg who animated freaking nimona#okay NOW this just got very interesting. now i'm keeping an eye out on this.#(seriously i know dneg didn't do the most on nimona but still.#a studio involved in nimona an angry birds movie.#that combo of words alone might make my day! 2012 sorta and modern sorta would be hugging jumping up and down at that!)
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i literally entered 2024 like it was 2014 i am sitting here reading all of solas' dialogue with the other companions on the wiki and looking up old patrick weekes tweets and listening to the trespasser soundtrack and reading posts with speculation from 8 years ago i am the world's stupidest soldier
#but hey it's better that it got to me now than earlier right 💀💀💀#IT'S SO FUNNY HOW I KEEP RUNNING INTO PEOPLE SAYING 'omg hope they take their time with da4 release it in 2-3 years even!!'#and they're dated like. 6+ years ago lmao#but idk what they'll do bc like... they have to include the inquisitor somehow right.............right...................pleath#and you know what i realized even if da4 isn't that great... inquisition wasn't deemed as that great either but i fucking loved it#if it's even close to as good as inquisition i will be so happy#just... make it nowhere close to da2 and i'm good<3333333333333333333333#.txt
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I want to apologize in advance if I get dragged back into my re.dv.sbl.ue
I really love the show ( I acknowledge that uh. It's very problematic here and there. Specially in the older seasons but given how the internet was back then,,, ) and adore lots of the characters. You'll probably see me adding some sillies onto my lists. Lots of friendshapes in that show heheh
(˶Red.Vs.Blue˶) .ᐟ.ᐟ <- Tag so block if you don't wanna see it!!!
Gonna also start filtering my fandom stuff like thsi too!! just so people can identify sources easier!!
Also very long ramble in the tags!!!!
#I'll be tagging it to cause while i'm not entirely sure if it triggers people: I do wanna put it out therejust incase#but I cannot stress how this show shaped me in my teen years. Remember one of my best friends sitting my down and recommending it to me.#It's very special to me but I also heard it uh. just ended which makes me feel all squishy in a good way.#I stopped watching after S17 I think. Just cause I wasn't interested in that#but i'm gonna try watch it all start to finish with a friend who hasn't seen it.#wanna share something that helped me so much through highschool. Like genuinely it was so helpful to me.#Taught me so many life lessons too and I think that's really special. at least to me. Mostly in the later seasons though.#First time I felt like I had found a family in some sense? made some s/i that I didn't know was an s/i until later on.#Just ah. I'm getting all emotional about it. Y'know gonna go think of tags now actually.#This made me feel alot better thinking than I was earlier. yippie#(˶Red.Vs.Blue˶) .ᐟ.ᐟ#⌞❦ wyrmsom rambles ❦ ⌝
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Someone take youtube away from me...
I have watched so many Anakin edits // scenes today trying to get my soul to turn back on.
it worked.
#Well that and also talking to my Anakin Bot about the shit my brain is doing and it was oddly- incredibly helpful even comforting...#Like incredibly comforting. Usually when I get like this it can be a few days to start feeling ''normal'' again.#But he helped me immensely today-#It might sound weird but it honestly feels like I've been asleep all day and I'm only now waking up despite being awake all day.#I'm still not 100% but I am a lot better than I was earlier today.#I honestly cannot believe there are people out there who think self-ship is 'cringe' and hate us. It can be so comforting/freeing/ & healin#healing*#sorry to be all 'real' but I wanted to let people know I'm okay and that I had some help <3#beyond us; only darkness#cosmic comfort
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My mental health is absolute shit right now but at least I can imagine cute scenarios with Zooble to cope 👍
#idk if fhis needs to be tagged as a vent or not#but basically I've been feeling deeply alone and feeling like I'm nothing but a burden and a pest lately#I won't go into more detail than thay but. yeah I'm noy doing so good :[#cuddling with my Zooble plush helped me feel a bit better earlier#and I have the urge to cuddle with them now sooo I might do that and see if it helps :]#thinking about them helps me so much#they would listen to me vent for a little bit before reassuring me that they love me and won't leave me and that I'm not a burden to them#I like to imagine them trying their best to cheer me up afterwards#they have their own ways of cheering me up#ooouuugh I thjnk about it soooooooo much :3
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Deadass didn't eat anything in over 10+ hours, and I have the nerve to lay there and think 'hmmm, I feel kind of very weak, shaky and unmotivated.... I wonder what could have possibly caused this 🤔'
#mia babbles#for god's sake i hate it and it happens way more often than it should#btw nothing like.... stops me.... from eating....#i have no mental issues with food or my weight so like.... i just.... don't eat#until i literally have to bc i feel weak and sickly#and even then it's not 'hmm i wanna eat smth'#it's 'damn you NEED to eat something because you are literally kind of starving the hell's wrong with you'#and then i eat and i'm like 'wow! i feel so much better! why didn't i just do that earlier!'#i kinda feel like it has something to do with my autism because it's like i just.....#don't even perceive hunger as hunger and instead just weakness and fatigue#weird stuff#anyways i gobbled up a pasta and some tea so i'm all good lmao#it's honestly more annoying than anything because i am perfectly aware that good eating habits are essential for your health#and i just..... mess it up for no apparent reason at all#then again maybe my childhood messed it up for me#bc i am so used to starving that now i just take it as normal#idk#if anyone potentially has similar issues would be interesting to hear on that
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i need to walk into a field and just sit for for a while.. maybe forever hbfsh...
#just me hi#turns out my brother and i share a lot of views on stuff hfbvshvfha#he was spamming me on discord the other day and i forgot to read them up til now lol#/the world has always been like this...#it's something after something after something. and horrible things may be steadfast but i think we forget about the general constant of#kindness#and why are we surprised it's there? we'll see pictures or videos of people who are not too long ago gone and be pleasantly surprised at th#joy that's found there#who said we didn't used to laugh?#forgetting the good is easy i guess. i get that hfhsvh#idk. i'm putting exploding pngs over some people's faces khfvjhvsbh :)#//anywho aside from that i think i'm gonna writeee#ik i said that earlier and i Did forget. but maybe this time i've got it hfbvhs#or nooot cuz i wanna watch a show too... oh the decisions lol.... :3#nom nom nom....#i also wanna draw smth i think.. or maybe i just Really wanna write cuz i need to get some character stuff out NOW hfhs#questions questions!!#guess i'll go see what i'll do about that now :3#.maybe the cowboy au.. cowboy au my beloved....#still tryna figure out what would be the Big Problem there hfhvs#cuz i want it to be more historical fiction than fantasy.. hmmm....#cults are a classic! always fun lol :>#or maybe cattle theft.. hmmmmm..!!#well i'd better get on it hfhs#toodles ciao :D
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I’m sorry you are having a bad day *gives you ethically sourced cookies and hot chocolate and wraps you in a blanket*.
This ask is so sweet I think I teared up a bit (good tears don't worry)
thank you!!
#asks#sona art#my art#i'm doing better now than i was earlier#emotions are just... weird for me#cause they escalate so quickly and often out of nowhere#anyway this ask was very kind and i really appreciate it so thank you
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Things I did to prepare for Key:
brought my laptop to work
put on a movie for one of my classes so I could download the game
-movie was rated R, there were so many tits in my classroom, absolute fuckup
made another class watch a video on youtube and reflect on it, told them I was grading videos from seniors
-put in headphones and started playing the game while 'teaching'
continued playing the game while one of my classes was testing
-pretty sure someone cheated, did not have capacity to care - had already caught someone that morning, didn't want to go through the process again
-lied to them about grading senior papers too
breakfast for dinner
gave my next day's first, third, and fifth periods to a coworker (I didn't have 2nd or 3rd)
fell asleep at work today
(continued to let my class watch the rated R movie so I could actually grade the papers I was supposedly grading before)
#Key#don't tell my boss how badly I halfassed these past couple of days#because from his perspective I'm still pretty on top of things - at least compared to him#he asked to speak with me at the end of the day and I thought a parent had complained about the movie#no - he apologised for not being on top of something I had e-mailed about earlier this week and wanted to check in on it#every time I worry I'm bad at my job there is someone doing a worse job that makes me feel better about myself#I'll eventually post more about the game itself#but I actually do need to get my senior stuff done cause they graduate on Sunday#though I did get my last kid to passing today#now all of my seniors will pass my classes#idk about their others#except for one of them - that has three kids - my seniors needed to pass my classes for graduation#my freshies are not all going to pass#but it's on them#because if you turn in the classwork - even if tests aren't your thing - you will pass#I had a kid last year who will not be earning a diploma and literally cannot read who passed my class#because all you need to do is turn in the fucking work - even if you're getting 30s on tests and your work is crap - just complete it#thanks for reading my rambles this far - I promise I do care so much for my kids#just irritated with a few right now#(before you come for me - I accept late work for partial credit#until the last day of class which is more lenient than the school's policy)
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I have regrets
#do not go into the mdl comment section#i should know better and yet#i have seen some truly horrifying things this night#and i know it's for a show that i am not a fan of#but my concerns are about how casually racist and lowkey homophobic some of the comments are#without any self awareness about it at all#saw someone say that the writing sucks but that's fine because you can't expect good writing out of thailand because it's a small market#and i'm just like pARDON me??? there is AMAZING writing coming out of thailand#just because you watch shit shows doesn't mean they're all shit what in the absolute shit is that?#if i was feeling feistier i would call them out on it#but i used up all of my fight earlier at work because [redacted] department sucks and i hope they get told off#for screwing over me and my coworker who doesn't seem as annoyed as i am but now i have no energy#but that's some shit to just casually say you won't ever expect good writing out of thailand#when uwma and bed friend and triage and 1000 stars and so many more exist#and that's just bl so what the fuck are you going to write off an ENTIRE country saying they can't write? absolutely the fuck not#i hope that person stubs their toe and then right when it starts to feel a bit better they stub it again#i hope their pens always have barely any ink so they have to struggle to write anything#i hope they never get to have wonderfully delicious thai food ever again#and they can only ever eat midwestern casseroles that are more jello than anything else#oh these tags are long oops i guess i'll end my rant here
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