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hmm what if i ended constellations where it is and made the epilogue into it's own thing.... like a separate fic entirely with each section being a chapter...
it's not really an epilogue then, but it'll be much easier to read.... 🤔
#i'm at 30k that's why im thinking about this#one part is 7k#in order to prevent another chapter 5 split i might have to do that#problem is#people are subscribed to constellations and not necessarily to /me/#so they won't get notified#ughghghggh
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skyward sword dash board simulator! only like three months late to this trend
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hey guys can someone remind me the wing ceremony is in like two hours. im just gonna take a quick nap
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link the wing ceremony is happening
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LINK THE WING CEREMONY
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skyloft heritage post
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I made this two hours ago???
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SHIT THE WING CEREMONY
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I'm trying to prove a point
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I think you're the only person having this problem
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does anyone know if you can get addicted to stamina potions?
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what happened to normal, good natured usernames. now it seems like everyone is named something like pumpkinplower or remlitgirldick
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I'm just trying to find someone to help me out on the farm :(
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KINA IM SORRY I DIDNT MEAN YOU
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she skyward on my sword till I strike
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blocked.
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Hey guys I didn't want to do this but this is a call out post for @/sword-of-a-big-deal. It started like two weeks ago when that weird tornado happened. @/knittinggoddess can back me up she has screenshots (she didn't deactivate she's just been gone for a while)
~keep reading~
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IMPORTANT impr1s0n3d changed its username to bringer-of-demise!! plz block it don't engage
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umm his pronouns are he/him now please stop using it/its :/ and the rumors he was the one that got the Sealed Temple site shut down are literally false???
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how about you suck my DICK
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dude she didn't block you for your weird ass parasocial relationship she blocked you because you killed people
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💌 night-in-armor
she liked my post about how the wing ceremony was rigged this year... should I message her...
#personal post #vent #vent post #vagueblogging #don't reblog
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til that remlits attack you at night because of their proximity to demonic energy. Which means there must be a demon on Skyloft. Sleep well!
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This is false. Remlits are hostile at night because they're predators and do the majority of their hunting then. There are no demons on skyloft
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net zero information. love this site
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Idk what @/bats-and-cats is talking about. Remlits have been proven to be more hostile when exposed to demonic energy, ESPECIALLY at night. normally they're very docile and only attack if provoked, which prolonged exposure to demonic energy can cause
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So there's a demon on Skyloft?
🌅skychild
yeah at ur mom's house lol
#prev you're one to talk #or was that bruise on your neck from 'falling down the stairs' again?
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I READ THE ANGEL KAMES FIC …. ough 😭 such a shame it’s unfinished. the fact that all of that went on in the span of 5 days kinda blew my mind like you’re telling me 100k+ words and it hasn’t even been a week? this is the slowest burn to ever burn. anyways do you have anymore fic recs 🫶
HI HIIII im so glad you like it yessssss!!!!!! and literally the way they make you wait saur long for them to even like eachother in any capacity had me climbing the walls that night...... and the WINGS bro......bro what if i wanted you to keep me safe and warm in a cocoon of your own flesh forever.. haha i mean-
and i doooo :) i've been saving this ask because i wanted to do a thorough list from my laptop, but i'll rec some of my favorites so far right now, and maybe some i've been meaning to read, but haven't yet
i have read and rec:
We could take it to the highway by skyline
kendall has to go back to minnesota and james offers to travel with him through the states. REALLY nice i loved skyline's writing and depiction of the boys' inner struggles. very grounded to the show's pillars and their dynamic really hit with me. i rec this to everyone who will listen because i liked it a lot lol <3
How to stop a haunting also by skyline
supernatural universe kames baybayyy. honestly all of skyline's works are so worth it, i still have a few of theirs to read but i strongly recommend the author in general (i rec more fics of their below but there's way more, i don't want to make the list too long hehe)
Lost without you by mintrosy
ANOTHER instant fav author. the guys suffer a shipwreck and kendall gets badly hurt. and they have to cauterize the wound and so on. very nice and sweet despite that description i just gave skdjsh
mintrosy also has a kames omegaverse series, lost bets (porn lol, kendall in lacy and james going apeshit), Sharing is caring, Dude (short and sweet fic about the four of them sharing outfits <3). honestly they have a tonn of fics so you can go to their profile and go bananas
Never did run smooth by ItsyRoyal
the first btr fic i read this year i think? so it has a special place in my heart <3 pinning kendall and oblivious james, very in-canon
Patrón on ice by skyline
james/camille/kendall because jamille is my guilty pleasure lol. very funny, james has a date with two beauts and doesn't know what to do with himself.
now for fics i haven't read yet but intend to:
Sweet people by xAnimaniac (50k words)
Kendall is a lawyer, always determined to stick to business. And even after losing his husband three years ago, he's not looking for any kind of relationship. Then he meets his new client James, who is a druggie accused of murder, rude and flirty and absolutely everything Kendall never thought he'd be into. So why does he like him so much?
I tell you I'm lost here (awaiting reply) by jaded_jane (30k words)
Gustavo allows James a second attempt at an audition and offers to make him a star when he likes what he hears. James jumps at the chance, and once he's gone to L.A., Kendall's left to hold everything and everyone together. As days go by, Kendall forces James a little further back in his mind, especially as contact goes from limited to non-existent and promises aren't kept. It's only then that Kendall realizes that the people he loves, leave him and never look back.
It's so hard to breathe by skyline (11k words)
“So you let Dak Zevon fuck you,” James says, and this time he doesn’t bother amending his word choice. “Interesting decision.”
right now im rummaging through EpicallyObsessed's ffn page but haven't read anything yet. they have a looot of long kames fics, mostly AUs.
Same with RainbowDiamonds, the author of the angel kames fic in question <3
hope this helps!! if you want let me know if you end up reading any of these ♥️
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𝗚𝗘𝗧 𝗧𝗢 𝗞𝗡𝗢𝗪 𝗠𝗘 𝗕𝗘𝗧𝗧𝗘𝗥.
ALIAS / NAME: i'm Nero everywhere. Jay if you wanna get rly up close and personal. i may scream and skitter off like a cat tho, fair warning
BIRTHDAY: October 9th
ZODIAC SIGN: a quintessential libra tbh, complete with the indecisiveness and empty brain
HEIGHT: 5"2-3 if i stand very straight. I'm holding onto that 1 inch like my life depends on it
HOBBIES: doomscrolling, video games, drawing, writing, plants
FAVORITE COLOR: green and believe it or not, beige
CURRENT BOOK: i'm in the process of reading all the fics put out by the last exchange event i participated in. there's at least 3 30k fics included and 23 smaller ones. i'm counting them all as 1 giant book idc
LAST SONG: does it count as a song if it's a 1 hour long mashup of 80's bollywood tracks? im a little filmi
LAST FILM / SHOW: movie- Dunki (do not recommend) last show- Severance (so good)
INSPIRATION: anything I watch/ read/ see, as in art. real life experiences
BEHIND URL: Nanami says it one time is2g. It was like my 7th choice. ratioed was taken =/
FUN FACT ABOUT ME: i have 200+ plants. mostly hoya but i have a good few philos in there. I picked up urdu while growing up and watching bollywood movies??? my muslim, bangladeshi parents, raising me in posh, central london really thought, why not add some more cultural confusion into the mix??? what could possibly go wrong??? i had an identity crisis, mum
TAGGED BY: @antishaman my beloved
TAGGING: i think most people i would've tagged have been tagged already? if not, consider this my tag <3
#[ooc]#me @myself#nero stop typing#stop typing now#no one needs to know#most of this#akhakjfhaklhfsl#listening to a bolly mashup rn#kya khoob lagte ho#bari sundar dikte ho
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15, 21, 23?
15. something you learned this year
i don't know if i can say i learned a new skill as such. but one thing is like... i really enjoyed making three card stud. and it really opened my eyes to like, how much of what i like about the practice of fanfiction is the meticulous remixing/reinterpretation of canon. there's a way in which the AMV is a more... analytical art form than the fanfic, because you are literally forced by the constraints of the medium to keep to the text. all you have are song lyrics and the kuleshov effect to convince your audience to take the new meaning you intend to convey from stuff already in the show. and i brought that ethos to three card stud even though i did add stuff. in a lot of ways three card stud was just me listing off things from canon i think a lot about and saying eh? eh? like. hoping the context would make it clear *why* this stuff makes me crazy. and i think that was a lot of the motivation behind the fic i'm currently working on, which is about dean and cas getting caught by the police. that fic at this point is mostly lists of things that have happened in spn episodes, placed in a new context by baffled feds and cops. which is the fun part. so like basically i learned that this is really fun, listing off canon facts in a new context
21. most memorable comment/review
so the most memorable traditional comment as such i got was probably this one, on i fold in half so easily (ifihse tends to generate the best comments because it's extremely dark without the ways in which it is dark being obviously flagged. so people are more shocked and more forced to think). "Cas: no officer i am very happy please dont tell dean im emotionally complex" is so funny and true that's literally what happens in that fic.
another top contender is this one, on getting serious, which generates good comments for the same reason ifihse does, though it's a lot less intense.
but in terms of my favorite *response to my work,* it was the breastfeeding anon saga (in chronological order here) which was a response to my fic smorgasbord.
and then i wrote a fic based on those anons, and then i got these very funny tags on my fic post:
23. fics you wanted to write but didn’t
when i tell you about the 120k deanvictor fic which is literally 90k of victor henriksen hunting down a serial killer dean winchester while becoming a little (sexually) obsessed with him and then 30k of victor knowing about the supernatural and moonlighting as a hunter while he and dean suck each others dicks so much.
and also it's about victor's relationship with his two ex wives and his former stepdaughter who he is still emotionally a parent to even though they have no legal relationship and the coworker he had an emotional affair with who he doesn't speak to anymore and how he feels trapped in his life and his job and dean represents this escape for him this total freedom. just living in his car on the road and not having to worry about what your boss thinks or needing to quit smoking. while for dean victor represents this stability and adulthood dean can never achieve. and dean leaves three spare pairs of underwear in victor's divorcé bachelor pad as a kind of little... fantasy. of what life could be like.
anyway the most compelling scene from that, IN MY MIND, is a scene where victor STILL thinks dean is a serial killer. and now he has him in custody. and against his will he's... charmed. by dean. because dean is charming and pathetic, shaking and sweating from mild alcohol withdrawal but still cracking jokes and being friendly and observant and extremely young-feeling, for 28. and earnest in a way he didn't expect. and they're forced to work together against a demon siege, a spin on jus in bello where victor still doesn't find out about the supernatural he's just protecting himself and a prisoner from a threat. and he has the uncomfortable realization that he's attracted to dean winchester (serial killer) (guy he is trying to take down) (has killed so so many people). and he's like well. we can table that for later. and then dean escapes.
so i've been trying to figure out a way to scoop out just that scene and turn it into its own fic because that's actually manageable for me.
the dean and cas pursued by the cops idea also comes a bit from frustration that i can't write this, though the feds in that one are ocs bc it's later.
from here
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HI IDK IF U REMEMBER ME IM THE ANON WHO GOT INTO CSM BC OF SELFISH AND BLUEBIRD AND. i just read bluebirds latest chapter and seriously, i cannot believe how you think this is your worst writing genuinely. its really late where i am and i am maybe half delirious as i type this but bluebird has always been my favorite writing from u bc of how profound it feels. the setting feels so real, every cancellable topic you tackle is handled in such a realistic way, in a way that i straight up cannot find in any other sort of fic. especially with your characterization?!?! there isnt too much known about what akis childhood was like but ur writing genuinely feels like canon to me like yes. this is what happened this is why he acts the way he does it just makes SENSE. and ur sense of repetition.. consistently leaving me in awe. the way that a certain sentence/phrase will reappear but even just a simple different context can transform the meaning entirely!! makes me wanna open my computer and start writing fr. i know bluebird is a really long project but i am willing to wait till year 3000 and sponsor a million words to see where it goes. please dont ever doubt yourself because your writing has, at least for me, had such an emotional impact on me and i have never felt so strongly towards any sort of media like i have with this
ik this probably makes no sense whatsoever im evidently going a little crazy 😞💔 but tldr: i love your writing i love bluebird if u ever continue this series i will be the #1 fan of every chapter thank u for existing 🩷🩷
OHHHH ANON U WILL MAKE ME CRY FR 😭 thank you so much for reading bluebird and saying such kind things about it ALLDFJALFJS this truly made me feel so much better about that chapter and about my writing overall !!! "makes me wanna open my computer and start writing fr" STOP THAT IS SUCH A HUGE COMPLIMENT FLFJSJFDJ TJANK YOU SO MUCH? I also really appreciate your feedback re: characterization LMFAO I really did just take the crumbs that csm canon gave me and hallucinate 30k words of backstory and world building for aki 💀 so I'm super glad it all makes sense to you and feels canon!!! and I am also so incredibly happy to know how emotional you found the writing 🥺 bc achieving that emotionality was one of the biggest goals in the fic (that I felt I might have been failing at HAHAH) !!
"year 3000 and sponsor a million words" PLEAAASE u are so funny and sweet! I think I need to wrap up my current ffg projects before I can add a new WIP chapter to my ffg list. but hopefully I can find the bandwidth & brain cells to continue this fic when the time comes!!! because I truly would love to tell the entirety of aki & mc's story!
THANK U!
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Psst Royal
Do you wanna rant about anymore soul horizon lore? I would like to hear about soul horizon lore if you wanna ramble :D
Also would you like to read the essay I wrote about llkau Pearl's psychological truama and manipulation from her mother?
yes I am always down to rant about soul horizon lore. also YES I WANT PEARLS PSYCHOLOGICAL TRAUMA HEHEHEHEHEHEH
Anyways hello. I am normal sized again wow.
Okay so personally--FUCK I HAVE A MEGA STUPID ASSIGNMENT IM GONNA NEED TO DEAL WITH THAT IN SOME AMOUNT OF TIME--i have recently been obsessed with soul horizon divorcée quartet.
THEYRE. SO FUCKING SPECIAL TO ME. BECAUSE THEYRE LOSERS
OMG OMG I NEED TO EXPLAIN THE EEP
WE DONT CARE ABOUT THE EEP WE CARE ABOUT SCOTT AND CLEO AND PEARL AND MARTYN
Scott and Cleo are canonically married. why did I do this, you may ask? tax benefits. and they were living with each other anyways. and also idk how marriage licenses work but it makes the pay a whole lot like even-er because Scott's a doctor and Cleo's a teacher
Well they're a college professor. idk how much more college professors get paid and I am too lazy to google it
hold on actually
ok so according to the first results: 96k to 300k per year which makes the second result so fucking sad like. the second result is 30k-97k a year. like. rip
compared to high school teachers: 45k-100k per year. Jesus Christ. and then the second result is 38k-46k.
rip teachers honestly
AYY SCOTT IS LOADED. I THINK. I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH SHIT COSTS I HAVE NO LIFE EXPERIENCE I AM A BLOB FLOATING IN THE WIND DESPERATELY CLINGING TO LIFE
330k-630k. Yahoo. scott has it good. he's a surgeon because... I said so. he's like a surgeon but also a doctor. I think. mostly a surgeon tho but I am going to call him a doctor for the rest of this because in my mind he wears the coats. like a lab person. with cyan hair
SO. WHERE DO WE ACTUALLY BEGIN WITH THE LORE.
Well. It starts in elementary school. I... don't actually have lore for Cleo and Scott for this part but I do for Pearl and Martyn! So Pearl and Martyn are the same age, and they went to Evolution Elementary and Middle. They're in the same building. People just call it Evo
Also Jimmy barely made it through that school bc the year after he graduated it got shut down bc it was hosting cult activities. hmmm. weird
All the Evo gang went to Evo Elementary. shocker. And Lizzie.
And then they graduated, and they went to Hermit High Academy. Which I love. All the Hermits are there, except for Joel and Skizz (THEY WEREN'T HERMITS WHEN THIS STARTED AND ID ALREADY DONE THIS BACKSTORY), Cleo (she was at EEP), Gem, and Scar.
Also EEP stands for Empires Education Program. I love the EEP. All Empires people went there.
The two significant years-
hold on hold on hold on. okay. so.
Year order. we need this
also my sibling once told me that I text like someone with ADHD and I cannot help but feel like that's relevant here.
hello it is now a completely different day and place (I'm at the kitchen table and it is midnight)
(It has been thirty minutes I'm in my bed again and I am going to fall asleep. I need to take my meds. I have now taken my meds. now if I wanted to I could just fall asleep. I'm gonna keep talking here.)
In the Empires Education Program (which is referred to by people who want to mock it and also the attendees of it as the eep. Others say Empires or E E P (separated letters)) there are two years of people attending that we care about.
Everyone that was in Empires or SOS, minus False, Pearl, Jimmy, and Gem is part of the EEP.
The secondary year we care about (the grade below) has Oli, Owen, Mog, Eloise, and a few others unnamed (prolly from Witchcraft) because I refuse to make this class smaller than Magic School Bus's.
Everyone (minus Pearl, Jimmy, and Gem) in Empires S1 is in the first year of EEP. The second year has everyone else (minus False) that was in Empires S2 and SOS.
The primary year we care about (the most plot relevant people are here) has Scott, Cleo, Lizzie, Joel, Shelby, Katherine, fWhip, Pix, Sausage, and Joey. You might notice that Cleo is in here, and they are not part of this group. Cleo is in here because I said so. Also I needed a place for her to be besties with Scott. And Cleo would be a great addition to this crew, just saying.
... genuinely it is a completely different day and I am in a separate building and I have no idea what my ultimatum here was
Anyways. Martyn is a vigilante, Pearl's a villain, Scott's a doctor, and Cleo's a professor.
The funny thing that I'm absolutely in love with is how they semi get along. but mostly don't.
see. Scott and Pearl had that whole scene where Pearl literally ran out of magic and started ripping it out of Scott's soul. Magic is part of your soul, so it comes from a similar place as your soulbond.
And so Scott and Pearl have a well justified rivalry. And also after they broke the soulbond -- OH I JUST REMEMBERED THE REALLY FUNNY SHIT -- they both became Worthy, Scott significantly earlier than Pearl.
I still gotta explain the Worthy thing dammit
Anyways the really funny shit is that normally, when you reject your soulbond, you essentially function exactly the same as a person without a soulbond except you've got a weird tattoo, and you will die at the same moment that they do.
EXCEPT the divorce quartet are part of the Eighteen (which irl are just the life series members), and this means that the rejection doesn't work. It works at first, and Pearl and Scott have silent minds for the first time ever, and then they hear the slight whisper of the other one's voice and just. they're suffering.
It's funny as fuck, imo, because I'm the sadist author that makes the characters suffer. hehe
essentially, the telepathy hurts more after they rejected it than before. And also they also have the normal consequence of "if the one dies, then the other one dies too" which normal soulmates don't have.
But because of the rejection not working, the four of them realized that they're Winners. And they all figure out that they're Winners because Pearl believes that Mortality mythology (aka life series canon events) is real.
And Martyn was like "hah Pearl you're crazy"
and Pearl straight up goes "Jimmy's the Canary"
and the three of them stare at Pearl
because EVERYONE has heard the legend of the canary. It doesn't fucking matter who you are.
And Cleo's straight up like "holy shit"
And Scott knew the entire time bc he shares a brain with Pearl except he semi didn't believe it but he knew that Pearl believed it
But now they figure out that Scott is the Stars (2nd winner), Pearl is the Moon (3rd winner), Martyn is Mars/water/The Tower (4th winner), and Cleo is Pluto/fire/Death (6th winner).
And then perhaps Grian just walks out of the house and is like what're y'all talking about.
And then Pearl just stares at him. because she remembers what his soulmark is.
It's the sun and the earth. which is the missing duo of winners.
and Pearl is like. Grian. You're a winner.
and Grian's like "wtf are you on"
"like of mortality mythology"
"wat"
Scott: so is he the sun or the earth
Pearl: probably the sun. have you seen that face
Grian: wtf
Martyn: welcome to divorce club, Grian
Pearl: Martyn stfu
Martyn: yeah I'm scared of you so I will actually do that
Also Martyn and Pearl are besties
also I gotta write the scene where they divorce bc it's actually rly cute. not like Scott&Pearl and Martyn&Cleo but like. Scott and Martyn are cute. And Pearl and Cleo are cute. And Cleo and Scott<3 and Martyn and Pearl are like besties. so.
yeah
they. them. they're the perfect combination of like. a lot of shit. because all of them are morally gray.
hey that's almost my name
My name is actually a play on the phrase "morally gray", fun fact
Since Pearl is literally a villain. Martyn is a more hero aligned vigilante. Scott and Cleo, while being civilians, do actively help Pearl by giving her potions and shit since she and Martyn can go to the Nether to get the ingredients, and Scott and Cleo have a permit to brew potions.
Like. Scott and Cleo are like passive and will not get outed in the grand scheme, but technically they break the law daily. And I love them so much for that. Like. They know WAYYY too much to be civilians. Not even JOEL knows as much, and he's the motherfucking husband of Riptide, who is the sister of Scarlet AND Sparrow. AND the Canary.
Anyways. Um. If you want to ask any clarifying questions, I would be more than happy to answer those.
This was rly incoherent and I'm sorry abt that but y'know :D
THANK YOU PERI @periwinklepaint FOR THE ASK :D :D
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"2k is long" is also nonsense i'm so sorry 😭 2k is barely anything if you're trying to introduce an AU and actually flesh in a setting and especially if you're trying to show different personality traits 😭 your fic are mostly AUs with really well thought out lore, and it needs the word count to breathe and establish everything. if someone's attention span is too short to read more than - what - 2 pages? that's their problem, not yours! fwiw, my fic lengths range with the shortest starting at around 5k and the longest getting close to 30k and i have never had anyone leave a complaint about the length! people are more than willing to sit through 10k+ just to get to the smutty stuff, and they usually end up enjoying the rest of the fic as well. do not worry about it! you're doing just fine 🩷
I don't often look at the length of a fic unless im updating someone on how long its getting. My shortest wip is 100 words. And. Ive posted it to here bcs i feel it'll never be finished.
If it does get finished eventually then i will post it as a fic but. Until then it sits in my drafts.
My fics almost always include worldbuilding to at least 3k now. Though not all of them were like that.
Do you want in on a secret? I don't think out the world for my aus. It fleshes itself out. I think on what may happen n go from there. The story writes itself. I am just a vessel for the words and visions.
I am absolutely terrible at worldbuilding if im doing it consciously.
Its why i have visible headcanons for idols. But i just can't put them into words haha.
The most i think through is 'what sort of details would enhance this and make it better to read'
And then thats where i go from!
Siren!ivan was originally supposed to be more non-con than it is rn. The consent is not proper consent tho but thats bcs. Well. Siren wants what he wants and he will convince dann to give it to him.
Though. Thats a little bit of a spoiler. It is going to be tagged accordingly. Don't worry ill tag fics right.
The fic i thought through the most, probably is one ive not even started wtiting. The dissection fic. I gotta do all sorts of research so i can make sure its accurate and well done.
Which unfortunately means i gotta look at anatomy from a more medical standpoint. Need to go find a book for that..
The first fic i put out actually has a very strong plot hole. That i told myself id patch before posting it but. I didn't.
That plot hole was the reasoning as to why ivan was doing that to hwon. It has a very weak reason and i could absolutely fix it now. But. Not this year.
I write ab 5k minimum most of the time haha. I prefer letting the story fill itself out n then helping fine tune details. Its why i really can't tell you how long a fic may be.
So far my longest fic is 16k words. Published. Theres more unpublished. That's for the abandoned but not orphaned one.
I may return to it eventually. That's why i didn't wanna orphan it.
All of my fics stop at a point they organically would have stopped at. When i feel it can't really take another scene. I end it. That usually leaves spaces for part twos to them as well!
But i like exploring aus as i write them.
Fun fact! I write aus bcs im worried that if i do anything else i may accidentally copy someone else's idea.
I do get inspired by the other kd writers. Oh gods do i get inspired.
Lee, lunar, eve, even erin, who encourages the hwonicide. They all inspire me in their own ways. Does that usually come in the form of a prompt to note down asap? Yeah.
But other ways are helping with details for fics. And they are all very welcome to chat ab fics w me. I don't steal ideas. Not without permission and changing it to be my own.
I have a prompt that is inspired by eve's fic Clear My Mind (eve is karmacumover btw!)
But it is different. I may show her the prompt itself if she wants to see it haha.
But i love working on fics. Even if I can't be proud of them as a 'look i made this!' i can still look at the work and go 'yeah. Thats good.'
Thank you lee for helping me figure out how to do that. It was amazing to be able to step back and go 'thats a good story' if i removed myself from it.
The lee im referring to here is intenselysalmon. So she knows who im referring to.
One day. One day my goal is to be proud of how much I've written. Of what I've written.
Its a goal i think is far away. But the more i talk to other writers. The more i realize.
Im not as bad at writing as i think i am.
Honestly id never even considered myself a good writer, until i asked writers like lee and erin their feedback on my works. And they both said i write well. Maybe a little dialogue heavy but. Thats fine i can work on it.
Im doing my best. And im trying to ensure i continue getting better.
The more i talk to other writers and see how they talk ab my writing. The more i go. 'maybe im too harsh on myself' but. As they say, you are your own worst critic.
Honestly i never even considered my work good enough to do much with. But. Lunar still offered to possibly do a collab or fic trade. And i keep thinking on it. Maybe.
It makes me think they find me a better writer than i find myself to be.
Then i see eve, reacting to some of the xlips of airen!ivan ive put out. And she's reacting as i would for any of lee's clips. I find lee an amazing writer. It seems eve thinks of me that way too.
Im trying to wrap my head around it. But the reason i am so harsh on myself is. Anxiety and self doubt. And i need to work through them.
Thats the first time ive admitted that.
I will work through my weaknesses, and be better than before. Slowly. It takes time. I have to be patient.
One day. One day i will be able to proudly say 'im a good writer'
Its not today. But. It will be an eventuality.
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HII RID 🦆🥨 so…. i have a confession to make!! i have been traveling around so i havent been able to leave any kind of message for cmi11 — and thank GOD i havenT 🤣🤣 bc the first feedback i wanna give u was “omg that wasnt 30+k words?!! it was so fast?!” lmao… since i read this on an airplane i copy pasted it into my notes to ensure the link wont close etc 🥹✌️
so color me surprised (lmao get it) when i keep on reading ur response to other asks & feedbacks about the ending… and im like??? the ending was like whatever? lmao (u know what i mean, it was a cliffhanger and really nothing to write home ab bc we dont know what it is— the “holy shit” line after going into the room) but i still didnt register that there was a SECOND PART to cmi11 bc i missed ur notes at the bottom 💀💀💀 im a clown truly LMFAO but I READ IT LAST NIGHT I FOUGHT THRU THE JETLAG 🤡🤡 and goodnesssss meeeeeweeeeee
just to start…… i love that theres so many scenes!!!!! i get so giddy when i know u can end the chapter on a particular scene and u didnt (HAHA i would scroll a little just to see if i have more to read 🙃)
the meeting w jk’s mom 🥹🥹 how is she that precious (what are u even saying munchhhkinnn — lives literally rent free in my head!!!! idk why munchkin can make me blush even more than angel does but if theres anyone who can do it, its certainly u & jk 💓) and i love their playfulness throughout the whole chapter, i really miss this ab them 😢😢 the past few i think oc has been too sad, or timid and also just blushing at jk’s advances ☹️☹️ WHEN his mom caught him looking at her?!!! when he unconsciously plays w the ends of her hair?? damn kill me now idk ahhhhh i alr re-read that scene like 4 times
regarding the l word scene, HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA mfer saying he cant put his feelings to word and did better than shakespeare 😡😢
AH HELLO YOUUU!! it's so cute that you read this on the plane like fkjhsdkfa i'm glad you found something to kill the time!! also 30k+ passing fast is always the biggest compliment ever 😭 NOT YOU MISSING THE REST OF THE CHAPTER LMAOOOO oh my god i can imagine the confusion upon reading the asks, bc the "holy shit" truly was not the ✨ magnificent ending ✨ everyone spoke of 🤣
yes, i think this wasn't just the longest chapter wc wise, but had the most scenes, too!! like legit 10+, idk what i was on :') where am i ending the chapter.. always an unpredictable affair 😂 hope you liked how it ended after all!! yes his mom is… literally now we know where he got his all his kindness and his good heart from!! i'm so happy you liked the scene (and the nickname, bc munchkin is ABSOLUTELY growing on me :')) you're so right. they were so sad the past few chapters that i couldn't quite capture their bicker and their playful personalities, but that's what they are – dorky and sweet and enthusiastic about everything 🥺
thank you so much for reading and mentioning all the key scenesssss! you might not know, but messages like these leave me feeling so giddy and warm <3
#*cmi spoiler#LOL SHAKESPEARE INDEED LIKE… he always says he doesn't know what to say and then BOOM heart palpitations#notes for rid 🌹#heytherejjk#fic: colour me in
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Why are all the Primarchs so fucked up mentally other than the Khan and Guilliman
i mean shit various reasons not in the least the fact that in warhammer 40k humanity itself has been traumatized
like, ok imagine for a minute suddenly hard borders erupted around the earth encasing the entire surface in blocks of, i dont know 200km. to give you an arbitrary range. no one can get through these barriers you cant even communicate through them you cant even see people through them. youre just stuck there. no contact with friends or family or any loved ones outside the cube. maybe you werent even from those 200km but you are now! you gotta! youre gonna live the rest of your life in that place!
& you can technically live an entire life within a 200km by 200km by 200km cube but like, all grids you modernly know of will go kaput, unless youre lucky enough to get to live in a cube with all the energy plants and water treatment plants and fucking banana plantations needed to continue your previous normal daily life
this is what happened to humanity in 30k when slaanesh was born and ruptured ftl. that's textual. that's horrific. they had no way of knowing this would happen. we don't even know how common interplanetary travel was prior to the great collapse. fucked up!
so, a couple hundred thousand societies broken by being forcibly separated from everything & likely a lot of them doomed to a slow death due to not having the basic resources to maintain its population. this is traumatic as shit. this is an unspeakable tragedy, obviously. there's nothing stopping these societies from going to complete shit and basically all of them do (yes i'm counting even macragge because idk much about macragge but it being a monarchy is already dystopic. all monarchies are dystopian and that includes the uk lmao).
and these twenty eighteen complete miracle children are launched alone each into a different one. that's the biggest goddamn recipe for disaster i've ever heard. doubly so given why they were made, what they were made to do... in the immortal words of benny gecko, "from where you're kneeling it must seem like an 18-carat run of bad luck... truth is, the game was rigged from the start"
like, they're all of these brilliant goddamn geniuses and perfect tools of conquest... every stupid tyrant hated them, any smart one coveted them and/or used them, but all tyrants feared them, because the primarchs were custom made to be better tyrants and brighter tyrants and more convincing tyrants and more convinced of their own righteousness. perfect tools for a person who built himself as tyrant above tyrants, and now they're to be raised by squabbling feudal lords?
recipe for COMPLETE disaster. COMPLETE disaster
like, at the best of times you can fuck up raising a child, much less raising a goddamn orbital laser with delusions of grandeur with a supernatural ability to instill belief in the divine right of kings in passersby, only a couple millennia after the literal greatest tragedy humanity has ever experienced and likely ever will (surpassing by twelve hundred thousand magnitudes the horus heresy, easy). and that's if you've got their best intentions in mind, which like, considering how valuable a primarch baby is...
then after that its a significantly more individual thing. there's common threads, but if i start talking about them im going to go on an unhinged rant about tragedy and ARCHIMEDES and i dont think anyone cares for even more new vegas references or my enthusiastic ranting about that jacob geller video i saw the other day
that said if you DO want me to speculate on the brain trajectory of any specific given primarchs just give me one or two at a time and i'll handle them. or tell me to run through all of them actually i think i could probably do it. it'd be a goddamn monstrosity of a post and i'd stick most of it under a cut and i'd probably fuck up a couple primarchs but i'll do it, idgaf
anyway if this is unintelligible my bad i'm hungry as fuck. i'm gonna go order mickey ds if anyone wants anything lmk
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*sighs* ryen ryen ryen…
WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT OMG 🤕😮💨🤧
- ok so first of all i must be a bit 3tan-brainrotted because tell me why i woke at 6am sharp and the first thing that came in my mind was the new chapter:&,!/‘d 🥴
- jk has a fucking audacity like…i get he’s desperate and full of remorse but reader has move on/start to finally move on and he’s throwing her back into those old memories :((( idk i don’t think that’s fair towards them
- besides i don’t think he still love them in the same way he loved them during their teenage years like they broke up before their twenties and those are the years where you change and grow the most…i think his love is the same way as reader described with the worned jeans parallel etc etc
- i was really touched by bro :(((
- im glad the backstory for bro and reader was developed during this chapter like the dynamic between them is much more understandable, have you always have that kind of family problem in mind for their personal story when you started to develop the characters?
- SO HERE COMES THE GUILT AND PAIN :D sobbing crying throwing up right fucking now like when reader understands what yoongi represents to bro im just…jfc..this is going to get ugly so fast when their relation is out… i appreciated the moment of clarity by reader when she’s like « oh if yoongi can do all of these for me when we’re not even together then i can’t even imagine for my brother during college»
- THREE FUCKING MONTHS KDKFKD no wonder they trashed the desk after such a long time lmaoommg’fnf
- the aftercare, sobbing crying screaming AND throwing up again the whole speech by reader in the car about how she missed him…yoongi snapping up omg’fkd and the whole cuddling and humming and shedding tears im just 🥺🥺 my babies 🥺🥺🥺 just wanna build a bubble or shelter for them to live in in peace 😞
- BTW HOW DARE YOU GIVING US PUBLIC DISPLAY OF AFFECTION AND A FUCKING KISS AGAINST HIS CAR WHEN THEY’RE OUT ⚰️
- you know what i thought of when i read the last part about oc coming home and bro waiting for them ? that damn spoiler about someone/bro (??) telling « it’s about yoongi. isn’t it. » DDBSKDKDKDK ryen gdi
- and now i think i should’ve voted for the whole story with the 30k etc like i’m addicted i think and i cannot wait to see the following for this damn cliffhanger once again how dare you
i’ll probably reread this a dozen times more during the weekend except sunday because i have a second date with that same person ☺️
rest well and hope to read more soon 🫶
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CD PLSSSSSS oh my goodness, love. thank you so much for this wonderful commentary! i got my own things to say under the cut so let's gooooo
WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT OMG 🤕😮💨🤧
LMFAO
ok so first of all i must be a bit 3tan-brainrotted because tell me why i woke at 6am sharp and the first thing that came in my mind was the new chapter:&,!/‘d 🥴
nooooo way. wait really?! that's too much for me to handle i'm biting my fcking fist dsklfjdskljf what an honor!
jk has a fucking audacity like…i get he’s desperate and full of remorse but reader has move on/start to finally move on and he’s throwing her back into those old memories :((( idk i don’t think that’s fair towards them besides i don’t think he still love them in the same way he loved them during their teenage years like they broke up before their twenties and those are the years where you change and grow the most…i think his love is the same way as reader described with the worned jeans parallel etc etc
love these commentaries on jk and reader! it's so hard to have something like that happen.. especially if it happened when they both were far from mature enough to handle it. you have a great ass point about the formative years, too! wow i actually really like how you approached that whole section. this shit is why i love hearing from y'all forreal!
i was really touched by bro :(((
man i love that man.
im glad the backstory for bro and reader was developed during this chapter like the dynamic between them is much more understandable, have you always have that kind of family problem in mind for their personal story when you started to develop the characters?
YES! i'm so happy you liked their backstory build. it was necessary to flesh out so that we could understand where they're both coming from, as painful as that was to finally say. this was my plan for awhile, but gosh it was still hard to really write.
SO HERE COMES THE GUILT AND PAIN :D sobbing crying throwing up right fucking now like when reader understands what yoongi represents to bro im just…jfc..this is going to get ugly so fast when their relation is out… i appreciated the moment of clarity by reader when she’s like « oh if yoongi can do all of these for me when we’re not even together then i can’t even imagine for my brother during college»
GOD I KNOWWWW like damn. yoongi's choice was so jarring at first, but when we get this background on bro? it makes sense and brings a whole new wave of guilt. it isn't just "we don't wanna get between them" anymore, it's more like "shit... we could potentially destroy something much bigger than we thought." and like,, knowing what we know about yoongi? he hasn't had the best time before reader showed up..... so.... yeah.
THREE FUCKING MONTHS KDKFKD no wonder they trashed the desk after such a long time lmaoommg’fnf
LMFAOOOOO YEAH I WOULDVE BEEN THE SAME.
the aftercare, sobbing crying screaming AND throwing up again the whole speech by reader in the car about how she missed him…yoongi snapping up omg’fkd and the whole cuddling and humming and shedding tears im just 🥺🥺 my babies 🥺🥺🥺 just wanna build a bubble or shelter for them to live in in peace 😞
the way i want the gd same! the aftercare scenes were some of my absolute favorites to write, and i even saved them for last so that i could finally breathe after working on the rest lol. they're as much of a relief for me as the writer as they are for y'all and the characters. i'm so proud of reader for the car thing! bc we've seen them finally say something in basketball, but i think this was even better.
BTW HOW DARE YOU GIVING US PUBLIC DISPLAY OF AFFECTION AND A FUCKING KISS AGAINST HIS CAR WHEN THEY’RE OUT ⚰️
LMFAOOOOO i meeeean yoongi was pretty far around the corner if it took seven minutes to get to him, but YEAH. MWAHAHA.
you know what i thought of when i read the last part about oc coming home and bro waiting for them ? that damn spoiler about someone/bro (??) telling « it’s about yoongi. isn’t it. » DDBSKDKDKDK ryen gdi
I AM SAYING NOTHING!!!!! i can't believe you remembered that though omg??
and now i think i should’ve voted for the whole story with the 30k etc like i’m addicted i think and i cannot wait to see the following for this damn cliffhanger once again how dare you i’ll probably reread this a dozen times more during the weekend except sunday because i have a second date with that same person ☺️rest well and hope to read more soon 🫶
thank you so damn much! nahhhh the 30k would've taken me all the way out lmfao. this would've taken SO much longer if we waited. i think this gives everyone time to breathe! an intermission of sorts, or like when an episode ends on a cliffhanger ahahah.
read as many times as you want to! thank you so much for reading so soon, and i hope the second date goes/went very very well :D happy to hear about it, too!
#i shall rest very well thank you!#📀 anon#asks:3tan#3tan10#lovely people#*ryenfictalk#mailbox💌#3tan spoilers#long post
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for the wip ask game. 7 and 11 and 17 x
7. do you outline before writing? if so, what’s your outlining process like?
i have honestly got out of the habit of outlining which is very bad, this is why i keep struggling and getting stuck because i am someone who NEEDS an outline, but instead i've been just coming up with random scenes on the fly which works fine until i run out and then i end up sitting there like the fish in bags from finding nemo like 'now what, genius'
but my outlining process is basically just 'sit down and brainstorm, stare at various different beat sheets and story methods and try not to go insane'
also i have to outline by hand, that is very important. don't know why but it all has to be hand written.
11. are there some wips that you just don’t think you’ll ever finish?
much as i hate to admit it, and prefer to live in denial land where i'm convinced that every wip will one day get the ending it deserves, there are plenty of them that will more than likely never see the light of day 😭 the most notable one that comes to mind is that at one point i was planning to do another sequel to aftermath, that giant 500k s1 rewrite i did where barry and len were dating from before barry even became the flash. i have maybe 20-30k of a direct sequel to that that's basically a mashup of s5 and s6, where barry vanishes in crisis and then in a moment of desperation and poor decision making, len sends their adopted son back to try and prevent crisis from ever happening, only for them to discover that him travelling back is what causes crisis in the first place.
i genuinely LOVE that fic and what i wrote for it, but i feel like i've kind of moved on from those versions of the characters and grown so much as a writer and there are just so many things i don't like about the original fic that spawned it that i just. don't see myself ever finishing it, unfortunately. i feel like aftermath is a very stark contrast in my writing journey bc it was basically the last thing i wrote before doing my writing degree so there's such a huge difference in how i wrote and the whole vibe of it. i'll always be fond of aftermath but also im moderately embarrassed by it as well, so yeah. but maybe i will post snippets one day or something, because i genuinely LOVED the dynamic i wrote between michael and len, it was so fucking fun.
also i once wrote a fic where coldflash get whammied by a meta and, under the effects of what is essentially a metahuman love spell, decide to literally run off to vegas and get married and team flash have to hunt them down and try to stop it. this one feels like a crime because i have like 90% of it written so i would just have to finish and then edit it BUT i wrote it so long ago (we're talking like 2017) that to get it to a state i'd be happy with, i'd probably have to rewrite it in its entirety, so. never say never though cos now i'm thinking about it...
17. what do you do to motivate yourself to write?
i honestly have been struggling with this forever BUT im doing camp nanowrimo right now and it's actually been so motivating. i'm fighting for my life here bc i lost the last three nano events i did, capping out at like 35k each, after a previously unbroken streak of almost a decade, but this time i was like COME HELL OR HIGH WATER I REFUSE TO FAIL THIS TIME. i'm like 3k behind, but it's fine, probably... rocks back and forth in a dark room
thank youu!
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Personal stuff under the cut.
So February is always a bad month. Anniversary of some deaths and my dad going to jail; weather here is typically cold and the days are short so I struggle. But March picked up, things were OK, and suddenly I got a new hyperfixation.
That usually happens when my brain goes bad.
Anyway, the Batman hyperfixation kicked in (I've been reading batman off and on my whole life, but I haven't collected comics since I stopped working at a bookstore) and I started getting anxiety attacks. All the time. Work, home. Didn't matter. Some fanfic descriptions also trigger it but I have no idea why. (There’s a Jason Todd-centric one called Something in the Static, I think, which is a non-Robin Jason Lives AU, sounds fantastic, I have it open in a tab,and As soon as I look at it I start shaking. No fucking clue.) I was thinking maybe this is trauma from growing up in a home with an emotionally and verbally abusive dad leaking out by proxy, but if I haven't read the story yet, how come it's hitting like that? Either way, trust me to have an awful, uncontrollable hyperfixation that also presses on all my sharp edges until my psyche bleeds. Very on brand.
Another sign of bad brain is that I started getting fanfic ideas and also the urge to actually write. I haven't written a fic in over 5 years. And I've never written more than 9,000 words.
Except my current story is well over 30K words in only a couple weeks.
I've had some periods of gender dysphoria in the past, but it's been over 5 years since the last bout of really distressing feelings. And they're back now. And more insistent than ever. I've started buying some clothing to try and alleviate it. I also have body dysmorphia, and that's a longstanding issue, and they're feeding into each other. If I wasn't convinced I'd look fatter, I would be booking a haircut for the weekend because I can't look at myself any more. Not that I ever really did, but even reflections in elevators are uncomfortable.
I used fitbit so I can see where the endless anxiety kicked in (April 4). My resting heart rate has spiked up by 7 points and my sleep has dropped to under 4 hours a night. I'm struggling to eat, let alone eat healthily.
I have rolling anxiety attacks all day long, but I can breathe through them. But the only thing I want to do is read fanfic and scroll tumblr, so I've been doing that while on the clock at work and I can't stop. Very fucking poor coping mechanisms that will come back to bite me in the ass and I know it and I can't stop. It does help with the anxiety because the brain shuts off whatever is churning in it. I've tried listening to music and it makes it worse. Podcasts actually seem to work the way a tumblr scroll does but then I risk typing what im hearing and that's also not great.
Anyway, I'm an absolute hot mess right now. I don't have anyone I can vent to about this in real life so I'm putting it here. I have an appointment with my counselor tomorrow night, and I think im going to talk about the gender stuff... I feel like that's probably what's percolating the most because it's the least safe topic for me to talk about. But that's also terrifying for me.
Im married to someone who I've never discussed these feelings with. I've never said the words out loud. And it's beyond scary to contemplate. I don't know what I'm going to do.
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Im gonna finish this in 2 days who knows how. Then my reward will be reading Can Ci Pin or Sha Po Lang (or both) for a week or two straight. (And maybe my also book Weird Tales of Vampires).
Fun facts: 1. I read like half a million words over the past week (absolutely lost myself in fanfic, prior week I read like 300k words).
2. I wrote 15k words in the past week and, barring sudden hyperfocus, I'm slated to finish this novel draft either by January 15 (at 2k words a day and 60k finished words) or by the end of january (if the novel gets longer than I intend and therefore requires more words from me ToT). Because I'm averaging about 2k words a day. Although I know if I hyperfocus Im capable of 8-10k words a day and you know thats like roughly 140k words in 2 weeks (aka thats how I finished writing half of what makes monsters stop devouring in 2 weeks somehow). O can occasionally do 15k words in a day but thats... thats pushing it. That usually burns me out so no more writing for weeks. But like. It is marginally possible. I crank out 30k words in the next 48 hours and either finish my novel draft or get damn close. Whats more likely... is i get to 50k words somehow in 48 hours and then horrifically discover the novel's going to need 90-100k words for the plot. Which would happen, knowing me -.- Then again, it's more likely I only crank out 8-10k words in the next 48 hours. Which is still hefty and will put me at 40k total words complete. But would only be half of the plot to 3/4, which means yeah I'm probably hitting the end of the draft in a couple more weeks of 2k ish words a day on average. Not bad, given its only a little past my self imposed deadline. Irritated though that I could not get motivated until staring down ny timeline's end (in my defense, the indulgent break to just read whatever nonstop felt good to my brain and did shake off the writer's block by reaffirming what I like about my own writing, dislike about some other writing styles, and what I aspire to). Anyway... all that to say I'd bet there's still like a 5% chance I crank out the full rest of the draft in 48 hours somehow then my brain feels fried and I dont touch it to edit for at least 2 weeks ToT (its unlikely... but it is remotely possible). In retrospect I wish I could read Saye faster than my glacial chinese reading speed, because I think it's plot and style in particular would help me with contemplating writing issue decisions.
3. Reading so much stuff in a short period kind of made me realize... well first of all, I'm for the most part going to write worse than I hoped I would but better than I feared. For all that my writing often doesn't hit my expectations, it still has a lot in it that I personally love and it irritates me when it's absent in other stories (reading fucking like 30 fanfics this week made me realize I have no patience for flat characterization, for too general plots, for certain writing styles, for plots that lean too much in one genre without playfully utilizing more at least once in a while, and I'm drawn to stuff with strong character pov voices and thoughts and attitudes you feel when you read, with movie like scenes, with playing around with what's real or a thought, with ridiculousness sprinkled in serious matter so its not always epic stakes or heavy). Like... yeah maybe I can't think of the perfect words I want to use, but I can remember plot threads very well and thread them into minor details. I plan my stories out, which is more than some authors I admire do (and is probably why Ive got the flexibility to foreshadow so much the way I like to). I may not always pick the best presentation of a scene compared to what I desire in retrospect, but I make characters you feel and see from inside which I do love and prefer to read. Like... I'm not going to be as bad as I fear, but I also gotta just accept that if I come up with something else I prefer later... I can always write a story again. But in the meantime, as the meme I saved says: write it badly, but write it. Because it doesn't exist until its written down, putting it out there is the hardest initial hurdle. Once thats done, at least it exists in some form. At least a real thing cqn be edited, or even rethought and rewritten. But critiquing an idea, a theoretical way of writing when its not even actually written down? Thats just procrastination at a certain point...
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Letter ask: the word PHANTOM
jesus christ mina youre going to kill me lmao
P - Invent a random AU for any fandom (we always need more ideas).
HMMM i have a couple weird ones, because im me, but i think the weirdest would be the one where i just slap ashton into the whole situation i have going on with my job where they get hired to be reception (somehow??? he's baffled too honestly) and then ends up taking over bookkeeping because he has some level of prior experience due to all the temping hes done while trying to get out of manual labor work to save their increasingly fucked up body at least a little, and then revolves around him navigating getting his health under control and the fact that hes like... financially stable and almost well off???? for the first time in their entire life, with added bonus of the IT guy they deal with most for getting all the stuff set up to do bookkeeping is fucking cute as hell and they keep running into each other at the gym and then maybe something about taking care of both fcg and milo (even tho milo hates it) because finally ashton has money to meaningfully contribute to the well being of his friends. i will eventually write it because i think it'd be fun to put ashton into Situations in an entirely benign office setting when he's defintely not the sort youd think to be there, especially not in some sort of management situation, i just haven't figured out the rest of the cast lmao
H - What is your favorite source text for fandom stuff (e.g., TV shows, movies, books, anime, Western animation, etc.)?
broadly, it really depends. i am all over the map with where inspo comes from and just because i find inspo in one particular piece of media does not mean i'll latch onto something in the same vein even if you'd expect me to. even beyond format or indie vs mainstream, i'm wildly unpredictable when it comes to things like how fleshed out the characters i claim as mine are in source material and like even the kind of characters i find inspo in a lot of the time. like, ive written (but not finished) fic for crime procedurals so like...... my mileage certainly varies lmao
probably the trends are like: indie media or cult classics, things with found family, and things with characters who either have a solid base of unique traits to extrapoliate into a good personality or characters that are very well fleshed out and very unique
A N T answered here!!
O answered here!! but i'll answer it again because its fun lmao
O - Choose a song at random. Which ship or character does it remind you of?
this one is very much on repeat when i work on the 30k+ ashrym character exploration pwp i have been writing off and on for like 10 months lmao
M - Name a character that you’d like to have for a friend.
okay so like, cherry was absolutely BAFFLED by my fmk answer for cr between my Big Three blorbos here because its absolutely fuck caleb, marry ashton, kill essek
BUT HEAR ME OUT so like ashton right?? we're both abrasive assholes who have a lot of things in common (brawling, punk diy, not touching people) so you'd think we'd butt heads a lot but i can absolutely see them being the sort to plainly state if i'm being annoying and how, and i also see him being the sort to respond well to the same. i think we'd vibe well because we just kinda get a lot of the bullshit we each go through and also have a similar enough way of communicating frustrations that there wouldn't really be hard feelings from frustrations. 10/10 good buddy, roommate, or husband material in my books
essek is the exact opposite. i would punch that wizard in the face like IMMEDIATELY lmao
caleb physically is aggressively my type (which is why i write so much porn from essek's pov lmao) but he would frustrate the hell out of me irl with the way he manages his trauma so id divorce him in like a year BUT the dick would be bomb so fwb but more benefits and less friends because i do not want to be someone's therapist i have been there
anyway.
there are several other letters in this ask game u can ask me bles it is very fun
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I completely agree those are great points, I'm hoping he won't be a sadboy the entire time because that can be really exhausting, but I won't lie my primary motivation for wanting to read the book is I really want to know more about Thorn, I think he's really interesting and I'm hoping the story will focus more on their bond and Thorn healing from being magically forced to grow. It sounds like it's pretty soon after the end of inheritance
YOOO OKAY. you have SUCH a good point actually. we havent gotten Fuck All about thorn. its been too long since i read brisingr and i only ever read inheritance once or twice so i may not remember, but do we even *ever* get a pov from him or murtagh communicating with him and showing his internal landscape at all? bc i dont think we do, at least not one with any real insight into him or his mind
YEAH !!!!!! gd like the thing of thorn being forced to grow and hatch is so insane is the thing and i do actually really want to see what that really means for him. because i remember like.. i think it wouldve been a quote from brom or oromis probably about shruikan, where they say how shruikan grew dark and twisted internally bc of it all. but i cant remember if theres a quote like that about thorn, i feel there might be?
and this concept of like. the dragon hatching and the eldunari is all really cool on its own but like that dragons are sentient pre-hatch and that thorn iirc was forced to hatch for murtagh and then forced to grow as well, and this discussion of a twisted broken mind re: dragons under galbys control... it introduces this concept of thorn being "born broken" in a sense. like hes already been abused before he was even hatched and then all hes ever known is that and has only ever been able to take comfort in the (forced) connection to murtagh. and murtagh connecting to this bc of his childhood abuse etc but that thorn is like. it goes even deeper for thorn bc it was pre-hatching, but also that it raises consideration for what murtaghs childhood fully looked like outside of the little we do know, and it just AWOOOOO its a really good concept and ur actually so right i might have to read it just to see what thorn is like and what goes on there
thats honestly too part of why im wary about canon murtagh stuff - because his character touches on/brings up a lot of *really fucking interesting and complex* questions and issues about abuse and mind control and trauma that i dont know if i would trust anyone outside of like, some random ao3 author with a 30k slowburn backstory fic to have the chops to really do justice, yknow?
like as long as we're talking about old fandoms i was deeeep in that mcu back when the 2012 avengers came out and i got hooked into clint/hawkeye particularly the fanon version and theres some really good fics exploring like, post-avengers (2012) what that would look like for clint in recovery from mind control esp one where he was aware of everything he was doing but was powerless to stop himself from it (or, some interpretations consider, if his mind was warped into truly being happy/relishing it/wanting to do it) - esp if he had been abused as a child and still had that trauma to reckon with. and theres only a few fics that i really would say "THATS a Good Fucking Job writing it" and thats in a fandom with like hundreds to thousands to who knows how many fans + massive fanon pushing that type of longfic into popularity and giving lots of diff takes on it
#anompolili#and im like 'team eragon' if anything but murtagh is so literarily INTERESTING i cant not stan him
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