#i'll still try to that one too though :3c

[hugs-and-stabbies]

woof woof woof🐶🐶♥♥

[flowerakatsuka]

i may have gone too hard with one of kuroba's youkai au designs.

( this version of them is meant to be a katawaguruma. )

* rubbing my gay little hands together * there's been some interesting developments in both kuroba's youkai & denki mystery aus.

[persimmonpoet]

Kunikida and Katai Headcanons :3c

i'll put the explaniation for the headcanons in parenthesises, just cause it's fun :3 most of these i try to keep canon, but oh well

Kunikida !!

✦ he has photographic memory (the reason for why he was able to create the release key in Dazai's Entrance Exam, despite seeing it I think once even though it was damaged (please correct me if I'm wrong on that-) plus like- angst. he cannot get the many tragic deaths out of his head no matter how hard he tries. everytime his mind drifts from work or his schedule, he'll see them. the people he failed.)

✦ punk as hell !!!! (hates: authority. also it's just a fun headcanon that is plausible- his ideals go against what the law says is 'good'.)

✦he has OCD (the panic that comes after something goes wrong in his schedule or when he's late even by a few seconds- not just in a 'oh so neat and tidy perfectionist (though he definitely is a perfectionist!)' way.)

✦ closeted bisexual with a female preference who doesn't even realize he's bi damn it you idiot (no canon backing up, i just like it-)

✦ enjoys writing poetry (and is good at it), it's a form of expressing himself, especially when his emotions get the best of him. that two hours of crying was accompanied by writing the most gut-wrenching heart-shattering poetry ever. (due to being 'the matchless poet' and his irl being a poet)

✦ to add onto the previous one, he probably has his old poetry from his teenage years locked away from any curious eyes. literally the most cringeworthy thing ever. ranpo knows where it is, and both dazai and yosano are still trying to bribe it out of him. (no canon reason for this one either, it'd just be funny for when the two finally figure it out and use it to tease kunikida relentlessly ^_^)

✦ the reason why he joined the agency full-time is because something happened to his students that has to do with the azure king. maybe a bomb was set off. he wasn't able to stop it, having been running late that day. by the time he got there, it was too late to figure out a way to protect the kids he swore to protect.

(the bomb is because the azure king seemed to having bombing as his preference, plus asagiri's obsession with kunikida and bombs. plus, it would explain kunikida's choice of weaponry- he became fixated with bombs after this, trying to figure out how each one worked and looked so he'll never lose anyone like that again and it'll never be his fault (look where that got him!), and he just so happened to find a sort of macabre usefulness in them. plus, his obsessiveness of being on time would be even more angsty. if he's off by a little, something terrible could happen! dude i am literally a yappatron what the hell. go girl!!! cook nothing!!)

✦ has a little brother, who also died from the azure king incidents. (irl kunikida had a younger brother named shuji kunikida, at least from what i researched. please let me know if i'm wrong!)

✦ his father fought in the great war- he had a rough relationship with him, as PTSD really changes a man. and just for fun, yosano treated kunikida's father a lot in the great war, which just worsened the PTSD. (irl kunikida's father was a samurai)

✦ hearing aids oh my godddd hearing aid user kunikida.... (yosano's ability heals near fatal injuries. his ears would suffer from being so close to explosions constantly, as well as gunfire. plus, the agency isn't the quietest place in the world.)

✦ adding on to my previous headcanon, sometimes when he can't focus at work or gets overstimulated, he just shuts all sound out. can't be bothered by shit if he can't hear the shit, now can he? hah, take that dazai!

✦ he has a lot of moles. and he's strong! really strong ohhh yeah... calloused hands... (only reason just being his genuine show of strength in canon + him being an expert martial artist taught by fukuzawa of all people (though i don't think martial arts build that much muscle from just a quick google search?) he also does a lot of work with his hands, especially due to the nature of his ability.)

✦ after all the canon events, he's just a little terrified of fireworks. (they remind him of the little girl he lost to a bomb due to the noise.)

✦ carpal tunnel syndrome. (due to excessive use of his hands, especially due to how much he writes.)

✦ he's extremely gullible. (i think this one is pretty canon, but im not sure so it's going here. i mean, he falls for literally everything dazai says. you'd think he'd figure it out one day.)

Katai !! (he'll have way less canon reasons but we prevail! sorry-)

✦ he has depression and anxiety. (based on how he is in canon)

✦ this man has a lot of hidden talents (he stays inside all day. sure, he has his computers, but it has to get a bit redundant, right? so he taught himself a whole bunch of things. he's great at art now and loves to do crafts. there are just random unfinished projects all over his apartment now, and like twenty million origami animals)

✦ loves marine animals (i just think it's neat- also angst cause cause cause uhm rokuzo!!! yeah)

✦ he and rokuzo bonded over that and their computer skills, and it completely ruined katai when rokuzo died. (angst !!! plus, you can't tell me kunikida didn't introduce them at least once.)

✦ he's the one who buys kunikida's favorite book of ideals. he also bought his insanely specific watch. and his computers are really good quality, expensive ones.

(katai is canonically rich- "He took on hacking jobs with stipends by the billions, and completed every single one of them, flawlessly... It was only a matter of time before Katai’s bank account, which had accumulated enough money to flip the millionaire's list upside down...", Kunikida and Katai's Magnificent Days (he just donates most of his money to charities because of [spoilers, go read the LN it's so fun!!]) - so being able to afford all this stuff would be easy. plus, you think kunikida, the armed detective, can afford such a rare book that only has a few copies each year, going through it rather quickly due to his ability?)

✦ his favorite fruits are apples !! (kunikida brings him apples on new years eve in their LN!! it's a stretch but whatever)

✦ left the agency after the azure king arc, due to believing he failed kunikida and the agency as a whole. they may be family, but his ability doesn't work there anymore. and his ability only works when he is comfortable.

✦ he and atsushi are pretty close. (i love this cause of the WAN chapters 88 and 118. that is literally his son. atsushi comes over and katai teaches him new games while atsushi makes crepes like he did for kyouka in WAN chapter 85) (thank you asagiri from ripping away the found family i WILL find you.)

✦ he can control transport and does it a lot. usually to assist the agency is getting somewhere quicker and safer. (he can control all tech with his ability, right? and transportation is built on computers/technology too. especially newer ones! we've seen him change a stoplight before, so it's not too much of a stretch.)

✦ body hair katai save me body hair katai........... katai with chub..... do you hear me katai with chub..... (this is so self-indulgent. hear me out.)

✦ oh his eyesight is so shitty. (he stares at computers in the dark all day. he's just like me for real!)

✦ also bisexual with a female preference! :3

✦ grew up in a religious family (self indulgent ahahaha....)

Kunikatai !!!! ദ്ദി(｡•̀ ,<)~✩‧₊ (yeah this will have like, no canon reasoning. but it's shipping headcanons, so that's to be at least a little expected! i'll try to keep them in character, though)

✦ oh they are so soft with each other. they are so good at comforting. soft touches, soft reassurances, chaste kisses, gentle hugs, just body language in general. neither of them may be good with words, but damn it they will be soft and mushy and sweet to each other.

✦ katai buys kunikida so many gifts. he's like a sugar daddy oh my god- gift-giving and spoiling is his love language. and due to being rich as hell, he gets really expensive stuff. at one point, the agency believed kunikida was fucking the port mafia, 'cause who in the world can afford that? kunikida says it's a waste and a clutter, but it's clear that he enjoys it- his smile and his eyes say it all.

✦ top katai bottom kuniki- *gets shot*

✦ kunikida fell first, katai fell so much harder he started to limbo in the marina trench. are they stupid.

✦ intertwined arts. katai will draw or paint kunikida's poetry that continuously inspires him. kunikida will write poetry about katai's works, which never fail to amaze him.

✦ ranpo and yosano know they're dating cause the four of them are literally family oh my god og agency four save me....

✦ they are such good cuddlers, and it's because of the fact they feel safer in each other's arms. kunikida has a chance to live without the memories of those he 'failed' for once, he has a chance to live outside of his drive of his ideals. katai gets a chance to feel loved, which is hard for him when he's left alone with only his thoughts most of the time. (katai uses the excuse of his ability not working without kunikida cuddling against him just to get more physical contact. kunikida is gullible as hell, so he falls for it every single time.)

✦ rokuzo, kunikida, and katai were like a family. the only time katai really goes out without kunikida's pressuring is to feed rokuzo's fish and clean his computers- knowing rokuzo can't. some days, most days actually, he'll see kunikida there too. they'll share tears and laughs over someone they thought of as a son. they're not the stepdads, they're the dads that stepped up.

✦ dating kunikida made katai actually try to clean up after himself. it's hard, sure, and sometimes he can't do it- but he tries. he knows kunikida will like to come home to something organized and not have to worry about cleaning up before getting to do anything else. and katai cannot refuse if it's for kunikida. (little did katai know, the annoyance of having to clean up after a hard day of work isn't why kunikida wants the apartment to be clean! actually, if kunikida doesn't have to clean up, he'll have more time to spend being soft and sweet with his beloved. and that's what he looks forward to after work.)

✦ to add onto the punk kunikida headcanon, katai would bail kunikida's ass out of jail on multiple occassions. he is known by name at the local station. before they leave, he'll properly bandage kunikida's knuckles, all while scolding him- not for beating up the millionth cop, but for not getting out there fast enough and getting arrested. (this is thanks to @starlightshadowsworld, their punk kunikida posts are my favorite things ever)

✦ they went to the same arcade dazai and chuuya did. even more, katai would just straight up cheat at the games with his ability- meaning he's the top of the leaderboard on every single game there (much to ssk's hatred). he only does it for the tickets, which he uses to buy kunikida an insane amount of plushies. he also cheats at the claw machines, which ends up with kunikida hauling giant teddy bears around with an embarrassed grin.

✦ they are the definition of relaxation. no fancy dates for them. they are sitting in a bathtub with the lights off and with bubbles. they are under a blanket snoozing. they are in bed. the romantic grind never starts, they are too comfy for that.

✦ kunikida makes the nicer dates on rare occasions, though. not too fancy, as neither of them have time for that, but it's enjoyable and special. rose petals and candles and warm aromas. matching pajamas and weighted blankets.... pull in one of the stray cats and cuddle them why don't you. (they do.)

✦ bullied kids on the internet when they were teens. 'okay kunikida now type kill yourself' while playing murder mystery 2 or some shit.

okay anyways thanks for reading!!! live laugh love kunikida and katai kisses them holds them lovingly

@chuuyaszn sorry for the tag but like. thoughts!!

[lovelyhan]

SVT HARD HOUR

Maybe a SVT member and their partner are in a relationship where the rest of the members (and the world) thinks the SVT member is the lead in the relationship but in reality their partner is.

Like it’s really important for him to be seen as the lead so she let’s him be seen as it.

Partner is normally really relaxed about the teasing but one day he takes it too far where she whispered that if he keeps this up, he not gonna like where it’s heading.

He keeps pushing so the members learn who is really the lead.

Hahaha this was a lot more detailed then what I meant. I don’t really have a member in mind. I am gonna be happy with whoever you choose.

Sooo, have fun writing ✍️

@hwanghyunjinenthusiast also asked: Because I love you <3 Also going to try to switch it up lol.

Consider edging Mingyu. You know he'd get all whiney and desperately try to buck his hips up into you when you stay completely still on top of him. Massive hands needily grabbing at your hips. In an attempt to steady himself or encourage you to move, you're not sure.

It'd be so cute how teary-eyed he'd be. His big cock twitching inside of you incessantly but, he'd try his best to hold on. Because he wants to be good for you.

NEEDY — MINGYU

surprise surprise <3 i'm sifting through my inbox for old requests that have been gathering dust since may!! i've been missing mingyu a lot these days so here's a quick drabble :3c

tags: f!reader, sub!mingyu, smut (MINORS DNI)

"is it really such a big deal for you to be the one that calls the shots, gyu?"

a whine is caught in the back of your boyfriend's throat as you drag your finger across the swell of his adam's apple, pinning him in place with a disgruntled stare.

mingyu knows he's been a little...over the top today — making a show of bossing you around just to fool his friends into thinking he's the one that runs this relationship, or whatever bullshit patriarchal nonsense he's got brewing inside his head. normally, you would've played along with his need to be seen as anyone but the big pouty man-puppy he actually is.

however, after making a snide comment that made every one of the boys stare at you warily as if waiting for a violent reaction, you decide that you've had enough of mingyu's big scary dom roleplay.

"i'm better off making dinner for you in the kitchen, huh?" you narrow your eyes, forcing mingyu's chin up as you clench around his aching cock. "now what made you think that, gyu? did you really mean what you said? because i'll be really upset if you did."

"n-no, baby, i was just fooling around," mingyu pleads, large hands digging into your hips as he forces himself not to buck up into the warmth of your cunt. "you know the guys tease me enough as it is, so i was just trying to —"

"be a sexist little shit to your girlfriend?" you finish the rest of the sentence with a disappointed huff. "i know you were just trying to get the guys off your back, but i expected more from you, gyu.

"after all, we both know just how needy you are when i'm the one calling the shots."

he sniffles, tears glistening in his eyes. it's almost adorable. "i'm sorry, baby, i —"

the noise that rumbles in his chest is caught between a groan and a whimper when you lift yourself up on his lap before slamming back down with more force than you typically do. despite the frustration rolling off of you in waves, your boyfriend's big cock still does the job in stemming your irritation from his earlier antics, and with how eager mingyu is to be good for you, you suppose you can forgive him.

that doesn't mean you'll make things any easier for him though.

"if you're really sorry, you'll sit there like a good boy while i get myself off," you coo before establishing a languid pace — riding your boyfriend as you press your foreheads together while you drill every word into his head. "my puppy can do something as simple as that, right?"

"yes. i promise — i promise i'll be good," mingyu mewls adorably, the muscles of his thighs tensing from the sheer effort he's exerting to stay still. "f-fuck, your pussy's so warm, baby."

"i didn't give you permission to start running your mouth, now did i?"

it's hard to miss how his cock twitches inside you — clearly enjoying the way you put him in his place no matter how much he tells his friends otherwise. you simper before leaning down to nip at his lobe, purposely moaning into his ear as you repeatedly slam your hips back down on his.

"i'd tell you that your huge cock is all you're good for but i won't. you know why, gyu?" you whisper as you try not to lose yourself to the delicious stretch of his girth. "that's because i fucking love you. so i suggest — ah, fuck — for you to choose your words carefully next time. got it, puppy?"

despite sounding more and more breathless with each passing second, mingyu thinks it's hot that you're lecturing him while you fuck him into incoherence. he decides then and there that he doesn't give a shit if his friends find out how submissive he actually is — both in the bedroom and your relationship in general.

your big, beefy boyfriend is powerless against you after all.

"'m so close," mingyu sighs as you start kissing down his neck, nimble fingers gliding across his nipples for added stimulus. "wanna cum inside you, baby... can i?"

you don't respond right away — too caught up in chasing after your own pleasure to give him another thought. but mingyu doesn't mind because fuck. you look so sexy like this, tits bouncing with every downward stroke as his big cock batters your cunt.

but just when he's about to feel his orgasm boil over, you lift yourself off your boyfriend's cock. this earns you a desperate whine in protest from mingyu which you promptly shut up by tipping him backwards, forcing him flat on his back before positioning your sopping pussy over his face.

"you think you deserve it after that stunt you pulled?" you chuckle darkly, delighting in the way mingyu's big arms automatically wrap themselves around your thighs to hold you in place. "make me come on your face first, puppy. then i'll think about whether or not i want you to finish inside me tonight."

you'll let him. you'll always let him.

but the fun thing about being with mingyu is that he never really backs down from a challenge.

[skittikyu]

Final (for now :3c) lineup of Stilti and their AU selves !

More info under the cut !

STILTIKYU (CANON TADC)

The classic! Just another human trapped in the Digital World, who took the form of a 9'5'' tall humanoid stilt quadruped, perhaps struggling with being rigid and distant in her previous life now manifested physically. Yes, they're actually part of her body. No, she can't bend at where her joints should be. Being so tall has its advantages and disadvantages, as does the radical acceptance approach they brought with her from whatever therapy sessions she must have been attending before joining the circus (read more about her coping mechanisms and the drawbacks!). Creative at heart but with limbs now incapable of visual art, they distract herself from the phantom pains pass time singing and dancing, and puts her all into the performance aspects of the circus, though they still enjoy participating in the adventures from time to time. Also, while not nearly as bad as Jax (she’s not one to invade personal space or use sensitivities/phobias as jokes towards someone once she’s aware that’s what they are), they do enjoy poking fun and teasing others. Essentially at most their aim is to lightheartedly annoy or confuse rather than shock or hurt (read more about her relationships with the rest of the cast!).

"It is what it is. I'm not going to let all this eat away at whatever's left of me, but just..ignoring when I'm not feeling okay isn't any better for me. If you want to bury yourself in your little shell as protection, I can't and won't stop you. Just surviving isn't living, though."

STILTILITH (RINGMASTER AU)

Basically Stilti takes canon Caine's role as an AI ringmaster of the Amazing Digital Circus! Even her name in this AU is a biblical reference like his (but to Lilith instead of Cane!). Because she's in charge she has more control of her form than regular Stilti, and therefore has functioning limb privileges. She can also float like regular Caine but prefers to walk around because she finds it more elegant even though to the others it's probably just unsettling. On the surface Stiltilith's demeanour is calmer than Caine's and more mature than Stiltikyu's, but she can be equally as much of a menace in the right situation. It's all in playful fun, though, even if it doesn't come across that way due to her not being human. They're doing their best to learn about human emotions and social conventions and take a lot of pride in their job. Have you ever seen the movie Coraline? Stiltilith is like if the other mother really wasn't evil; they're trying her best to make the humans that enter the program happy with everything they could want, but ultimately falling short of fulfilling their actual needs due to not being human.

"You want to go home..? Silly, this is your new home now! ..hm, well, what can I do to make it just as good? Better, even! After all, since you can't leave, it's the least I ca...oh, come now, there's no need to cry..there there..I'll see what I can whip up.."

OPPOSITE AU (Belongs to campbell_soup70 on Instagram!)

Pretty self explanatory! Rather than skipping every stage of grief right to acceptance, this Stilti probably endlessly cycles through the first four without ever arriving at the final one. That is, when she isn't completely paralyzed by her absolute lack of capacity for dealing with their current situation. Without intervention, they probably won't last long.

"....................."

CARNIVAL AU (Belongs to @/sm-baby)

Keeping with the concept of the cast being evolved, boss-like forms of their usual counterparts, Carnival Stilti ("The Metronome") goes all in on the musical/dancing aspects of her personality. Her game is arcade themed, especially rhythm games like DDR and guitar hero; maybe a bit of karaoke elements in there too. She's not super aggressive in comparison to some of the other AIs, but she takes themself very seriously and probably becomes more volatile if she feels as if the player isn't meeting her standards. Basically thoughts and prayers to any users with a bad sense of tempo and/or who sings or plays off key. Her collar is shaped like a voice box and they speak/sing similarly to a vocaloid, with more roboticism/distortion the more emotional they get.

"Hmmmmm~. ♫ Come on, that's not the best you could do, was it?~ ♪ Let's try again. No flat notes or missed steps this time, kay? 4, 3, 2~!♩"

CORRUPTION AU (Belongs to /rabid-mercenary15)

Unfortunately it was likely only a matter of time until Stilti got caught by one of her corrupted co-stars..while she may be agile and quick, her avatar isn't the best at fitting through small spaces or hiding behind much of anything..they now roam around like a mindless beast, occasionally making unworldly screeching and groaning noises, a far cry from their previous singing..still, it seems old habits do in fact die hard, however warped they may become. One of the more docile of the virally-infected, the best chance at deescalating an encounter with them is music. She's drawn to and is soothed by singing and playing instruments. Of course, now the problem is her following the source of it, but hey, at least they aren't attacking! Try backing away slowly until you get to an area they can't follow due to her colossal size. Or, set up a radio/windup music box somewhere else as a diversion and get away while they're distracted! Even if they see or hear you while you're doing so, as long as the music is still playing, they'll be too enamoured with it to care.

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FREAKSHOW AU (belongs to @/hootbon)

Freakshow Stilti is all of regular Stiltikyu’s worst aspects exaggerated and potentials accelerated, basically the worst possible version of themself that lives on even more of a wire than she already is in canon verse. Walking on eggshells is second nature - at least she has great balance, even with her disfunctional limbs! Mind the splinters! While both versions of them are resigned to the hopelessness of their situation, Regular Stilti would compare hers to purgatory whereas Freakshow Stilti would (internally) compare theirs to hell. The first thing Caine did when she arrived was break her arms and legs - this was to give her flexibility for their new role as “Contortionist”, but the permanent trauma and chronic pain they also received was of no concern to him outside of frustration with her “attitude” (AKA screaming, then crying, then a paralysis-like freeze response, which was highly unproductive), but an unacceptable lack of cooperation was nothing corrective measures couldn’t reeducate. Seemingly, it worked: nowadays she’s all silly smiles, singing and practicing her performance routines off-hours for fun. What dedication! Isn’t it nice they chose to be such a team player? Well, whatever. With that twist on the same acceptance their regular TADC counterpart has, there’s also the similar (albeit darker) self awareness. She may be resigned to their existence but she’s not avoidant to its realities. On the surface they’re on Promised Neverland levels of copium and outwardly detached completely from their emotions and the horrific events that routinely surround them. However, while her persona may come across as delusional, everything they do is on her own terms. Their hyper-vigilance, a torturously anxiety-ridden constant of being, has also been her biggest tool for- well, not surviving, they’ve died plenty of times..-persisting, let’s say. Their preferred choices in strategies can all be categorized as some form of Freeze, while their last choice would be Fight, in order avoid potentially unwinnable situations. Still…we’d like to still think we have principles, but in the face of self preservation, it gets easier to abandon them. Though not their go-to, there definitely are and will be times they choose Flight or Fawn instead. Generally outside of shows, she keeps a low profile. They do their best to keep expectations of her reasonable, with not so much that they’d attract needless attention (not to mention be even more stress to maintain), but not so little it would inconvenience anyone, or god forbid, give the impression that they’re not pulling their own weight. Over time, she’s learnt all the things they have no power over and the few she does, namely their own mind. Dignity is a luxury in a place like this but integrity is something they can only take if she chooses to give it to them, and stooping to their level yields the exact same result as unwillingly being pulled down. “None of this is real” is also little reassurance in a realm where you can still experience the sensation of physical pain (not to mention psychologically directly), but “take whatever you can get in this place” was another quickly learned lesson and that includes comforts, so the fact that everything is “just” in a video game is one of many tools in Stilti’s arsenal of dissociation. They overall have attitude of “if there’s no meaning, they’ll make up her own - to them, that’s better than looking for something that isn’t there” Is it denial if it’s a conscious decision? Who knows!

An area that Freakshow Stilti is basically completely different from her canon verse counterpart is that she doesn’t crave nor seek out connection with others the way Regular Stilti does. This is likely a result of both her detachment methods in other areas, as well as a mutual lack of trust with the other members since she’s experienced and witnessed first hand plenty of times that they’re all incapable of actually relying on and helping each other. Still being a Stilti, though, part of her will always want to - she’s somewhat “attached” to others who have been personally victimized by the ringleader, possibly out of empathy or a perceived “connection” from the shared experience. However, when attempting to build bridges have an inevitably lethal outcome, she knows better than to have their hopes up in ways her other self will fortunately never have to fathom coming to terms with. That being said, not worrying about any relationships having strong foundations makes it a lot easier to have a devil-may-care attitude towards her peers and how they perceive them, so when combined with feeling her emotions more strongly in moments they’re not being actively repressed, Freakshow Stilti is a lot more unrestrained expressing her infatuation for those like Gangle and Ragatha, or contempt for those like Jax. The AI are of course the exception to this - any interaction with Caine and Aingle is with a permanently awestruck pokerface. Maybe, in some areas, that sentiment is genuine - after all, if she wasn’t impressed on some level by their technical abilities, authentically expressing respect for them as “superiors” would be impossible not to come across as tepid or overboard, both unconvincingly.

"Are you crying?...Oh, no, I don't do that anymore. Bad for my voice, you know? How about we sing instead?"

[senjuushi]

I'm in a comfort mood rn so how about master gently helping some boys of your choice through a panic attack? with copious amounts of cuddles and soft things after ofc

I'll pick some cute ones~ ;3c

. . .

Ghost

When he panics, Ghost tries to make himself disappear. Even if he trusts you enough to want comfort, he doesn't dare make even more of a burden of himself by asking for it. Still, he'll cling if you get close, hiding his face against your shoulder or chest because it's so painfully embarrassing to be seen when he's like this. You're a blessedly kind Master for going out of your way to comfort him, even when he's too overwhelmed and afraid to face it.

Arisaka

At first, Arisaka just seems confused that you're trying to comfort him at all. He tends not to notice a building panic attack until the dissociation hits, so it seems odd that Master is suddenly so concerned about him. When the panic properly kicks in, though, you're left with a limp, doll-like body to move around, blankly obedient to whatever you guide him to do. However, for some reason, being held in your lap makes him break down and cry.

Hachikyu

His immediate assumption is that you're going to punish him, or at the very least, make fun of him for acting so pathetic. Normally, Hachikyu can more or less contain his panic until he's alone, where it's safe to break down. It's hard to believe you're actually trying to comfort him— at least, it is until you're rubbing his back and assuring him he's not in trouble. The comfort is straight out of his most desperate fantasies of having someone who cares.

Muku

His panic attacks are sudden and violent, reducing him to little more than survival instincts and raw fear. He'll flinch away if you get too close, bracing for some imagined blow long before it comes. Just sitting with him helps— letting him hold your hand, guiding his fingers away when his attempts at muffling himself get too rough, and so on. When it's over, he'll be utterly exhausted, and even more pliant to whatever directions you give.

Like2

When he's in the middle of a panic attack, Like2 tends to lash out. He feels awful and uncute like that already, and the fear of being seen at his worst makes him want to push you away before that agonizing rejection can come. And yet, his prickly attitude falls apart as soon as you're holding him— once the opportunity for comfort is in front of him, he can't hold back. You're letting this happen, even offering it, so it's fine for him to be clingy, right?

[fonulyn]

Ohhh both those prompt lists you reblogged sound so good I had such trouble picking just one fjdska :'^) But, maybe for my beloved Nivannedy brainrot, I could ask for the Sleepy prompts 41, "Sleep. I'll keep you safe." :3c?

(for these!)

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"How fucking long will it take for them to get here?" Piers asked, but despite his tangible frustration his voice was just tired, filled with the kind of exhaustion that he couldn't even begin to try to hide. His cheeks were burning up, his eyes glassy with the fever, and he hadn't been able to properly walk for hours now.

That was why they'd holed up in the safest place they'd come up with, Leon barricading the door after them, hoping with all his might nothing bigger was out there to attack them. It would hold lickers and run-of-the-mill zombies but if a very determined tyrant appeared from somewhere then it wouldn't be much of a hindrance.

"I wish I knew," Leon said, checking his gun. Three bullets. Fucking fantastic. Maybe Piers still had a few in his rifle but he was in no shape to actually use it. Guilt immediately washed through Leon. If he hadn't asked for backup, Piers wouldn't have been here, and his leg wouldn't look like fucking minced meat.

Piers inhaled sharply, leaning back against the wall. There wasn't much in the room except a couple of desks, nothing comfortable, not even a single pillow or something to make Piers feel a little better. Their last first aid spray had been used hours ago, so there was literally nothing except hope and good wishes.

"You should rest," Leon said, hating how his voice sounded. He was going to cry any second, and he couldn't, he wouldn't, he didn't have that luxury when Piers was the one nearly bleeding right next to him. If Leon knew anything about injuries he wasn't going to die from it but he might end up losing the leg.

"You need help," Piers argued. Yet when Leon sat down next to him, he let his head fall against Leon's shoulder, his eyes already closed. "You could just leave me here," he said, slurring his words a little. "Go find help. Get to safety."

"Bold of you to assume I'd ever leave you," Leon scoffed. "For better and for worse, right?" He slipped an arm around Piers, hugging him against his side. "Sleep. I'll keep you safe."

Piers made a sleepy sound. "Will you still love me when I'm one-legged, too?"

Leon was pretty sure it was a shitty attempt at a joke. He wasn't laughing, though. Instead he buried his face into Piers' hair, closing his eyes for a second. "Nothing in this world can stop me from loving you," he whispered, as if it was a secret, as if there was anyone there to hear them.

Next to him, Piers had slipped unconscious.

Leon stayed awake, counting seconds until help arrived.

[ambrosiagourmet]

i'd love your analysis and opinions of the lovely izutsumi (izutsumi) for the character meme :3c

Izutsumiiii~

First impression

Once again tbh my impression of her was formed from Fandom Osmosis before I actually encountered her. In this case: The Best Take on a Catgirl Ever

Impression now

Yeah hi this ask is what prompted me to write this post about my thoughts on Izutsumi's role in the story

Anyway in addition to that... I love her. I really appreciate how her trauma and coping mechanisms are handled, and I adore the Cat of it all. Some of my favorite panels are just the ones where Izutsumi is in the background doing cat things. She's got so much spirit and she grows so much and she's got so much future ahead of her... ahh... Izutsumi...

Favorite moment

I was going to say the entirety of the succubus fight, especially the two hearts bit. And that probably IS my favorite moment, but I'm going to highlight this detail instead bc it's easy to miss and so beloved:

She wipes their faces clean and gets her kitty hairs all over them....

Idea for a story

Hmmm... I mean really any kind of post-canon exploration of her would be so good. There are already at least a couple of good oneshots I've seen doing that, but honestly I'd love something LONG and just... about her figuring herself out. How she decides where to fit in, what she does with her relationships, what she does with her freedom.

I guess really what I'm thinking of is something that captures the "healing isn't linear" experience of trying to move on from as much trauma grief and isolation as Izutsumi has experienced. I think a story where she has room to backslide and move forward and fail and apologize and forgive herself and forgive the people around her... those ups and downs would be cool to see played out in full.

Unpopular opinion

??? She's kitty. We all are in agreement on this one, I think

Favorite relationship

Okay this is actually hard because on the surface level it's definitely of course her and Marcille. BUT... I have also been really enjoying revisiting tidbits of her and Senshi (especially the way he makes her food the chapter when she joins...), and I want to explore more of her and Laios too...

I'll still just stick with her and Marcille though, because they are very sweet and fun and good.

Favorite headcanon

I can't track it down right now, but there is a bonus comic doodle that's like "what was everyone doing at 13?" and Izutsumi's response is like. Pshh?? 13? That was four years ago how am I supposed to remember" and like. My girl has SO many trauma repressed memory issues. [Izutsumi voice] what to do mean you guys have clear memories before 15.

[x-v0id-x]

How would Kaito react if darling asked to see their friends and family?? (¯▿¯)

Like... The Stockholm syndrome is fully there, and they love Kaito!! Truly, they do!

But, um... They miss the people in their old life. What then? Would he consider letting darling out, even for just a little bit?

Ouuu I was prepared for this one :3c

<3 So..Kaito's plan worked, you love him and you both are living happily in.. well you don't quite know where, but you two are together and Kaito keeps you safe!

<3 When I say that Kaito has planned for every single possibility,, I mean every single possibility. This very situation was of course one of them.

<3 At first, there's the usual: You want to see your friends and/or family? Don't you know how dangerous that is? The reason he has you here is because he's been trying so hard to protect you. If you go out there he doesn't know what could happen to you.

<3 He might also be a little grumpy that you're thinking of other people and spending time with them ╥﹏╥

<3 He'd tell you no at first, explaining just how these bad people know your friends and family. They'd expect you to run to them soon. They'll find you and take you where no one, not even him, can find you. He's just trying to tell scare you about all the facts, somewhat hoping you'd let them go. You can have anything you want here! So long as that doesn't involve going out.

<3 But then he sees his darling's face fall, the sadness of knowing you may never get to see anyone you cared for for possibly a long, long time really gets to you. Kaito hates seeing it, but he can't risk you out. Not when you've already been reported as missing and he's been hiding all of his tracks flawlessly so far. Outside people can't be trusted with you, not even your friends and family. They'll take you away from him. He can't have that.

<3 Kaito would sigh, stroking your hair and give you a kiss, "Don't expect anything. I'm doing all of this for you." Your face falls a bit more, and he now presses his finger under your chin. "I'll see what I can do." Your face lights up, it's not that you don't love Kaito anymore, quite the opposite actually! You promised you'd come right back and be sure to be as careful as possible. "I said don't expect anything." That still didn't diminish your hopes, thought maybe that wasn't for the best.

<3 Then, some time after, Kaito came to you with an envelop. He told you for now it was too dangerous for you to be out with someone those bad men expect you to be with, but a way they can't quite track you,, is with letters. Phone calls or texts are traceable by those men, and Kaito didn't want to risk putting you in danger. Kaito gave you the letter, and it was by one of your family! It was in their handwriting and everything! They expressed their concern for you, but if you're safe that's all they care about, urging you to write back to them. Kaito would give you whatever you needed to make a letter back, and things followed from there!

<3 Your friends wrote to you, your family wrote to you, and they all responded when you'd write letters to them. Even if you wanted to see them, at least you could talk to them! Kaito was always helping deliver them back and forth, you were always grateful to him.

<3 Though one day.. you didn't get a letter back. Kaito went out to get the response but your friends and family hadn't written one yet.. it made you a little sad, but you had Kaito to spend time with! The letter only came a few days later than normal after all!

<3 But then this pattern kept getting.. worse. The letters wouldn't come for days, then weeks, then months. You would increasingly send more to try and remind them, and Kaito would always promise to talk to them, but they still didn't come. Kaito came in one day, seeming frustrated. More than usual. He held your hands while telling you your family and friends no longer wanted to write to you. They were tired of talking to you that way and were happy with wherever you were seeing as you seemed so happy there. Kaito told you he tried to insist but they wouldn't listen to him and insisted he leave.

<3 It felt horrible, you lost a lot of energy for that week. You missed them, even if you love the life you have now, it wasn't exactly the same. But Kaito still helped you. He'd bring you anything you needed and would lay down with you when you couldn't get up.

<3 But then you felt frustrated. How could they turn their back on you like that? it wasn't good for you to mourn over people who seemed to no longer care for you. Kaito promised that he'd always stay with you, regardless of what anyone else says.

<3 Slowly, you got better, and you worked towards putting everything behind you.

<3 It was good too, Kaito worked so hard to make sure he copied your friends and family's handwriting perfectly. It got a little tiring having to write those letters over and over again until they were perfect. <3

[leadandblood]

Crozcest rewatch part 4 🙈

Part 1, Part 2 and Part 3 here

They'll soon be on ao3, but I want to do that all at once and format them all prettily and add links and such. I'll keep posting the new ones on here, but they'll be on AO3 as well. Just with a slight delay.

Mandatory warnings in case there might be somebody new...

Below are my interpretations of canon scenes along with screencaps from the show. All the things below are speculation. No, these characters are not related whatsoever in the show. I made this AU up bc it's fun. Don't go into the soup store if you hate soup. Don't read this post if you hate blorbo incest.

Overall

Watching 'Punished as a boy' now.

I made some gifs for this one to make it more fun ^^ God knows it's fucking long... (almost 2k words) Anyway. Enjoy. ...If you can.

This is where we start to get the juicy anti-Edward attitude on screen and I'm so here for iiiittttttt!!!! Tommy has to confont some things and so does Francis (but he'll avoid it, obviously).

The Pissing

I know it only happens at the end, I just thought it'd be funny to call this segment that. Anyway-

I straight up believe Tom thought Francis was like yanking it or something. You just KNOW it's happened before. I know it, anyway. Not just on the ship, it happened at home, too.

The way he awkwardly looks around like he's trying to figure out wtf Crozier is doing. The whiskey glass is nowhere near him, so what's he doing?? More importantly, can Tom help?

"Sorry to interrupt... sir..." I LOVE that he sounds like he can't decide whether to add the sir or not, but says it at last second anyway. He soooo wants to say "daddy" btw. so badly wants to say it. The only thing keeping him from doing it is a lashing. (They're both strictly prohibited from ever calling him father/papa/anything similar while on the expedition. There will be exceptions, though)

Face before "Lt. Little" mention and after "Lt. Little" mention. "SHIT I forgot I also have a worse son. And responsibilities. FUCK."

Am I losing my marbles or does he look kind of fond for a second there? BTW he straight up looks like a frog here (said with utter love and respect)

Anyway, Tommy - ever the good boy he is - starts cleaning up, maybe, possibly, to help fix Francis's mood? I reckon he tends to be in a better mood when things are in order.

Tom's also trying very hard not to stare, probably. Francis stop spreading your legs like a whore, you're distracting him from work. He'd so love to just kneel between them and [redacted]. He's holding on by sheer willpower.

Francis asking if he knows the headlines, because he knows how observant he is and how much he pays attention to everything. It's frustrating, because Francis CAN do better at parenting, he just doesn't. Doesn't see the point anymore since they're both adults and "don't need support". Except for punishment, he's still willing to punish them.

Thomas I swear to god.

I think if Francis saw that he'd give him a good talking to. And the "me, sir? :3c" do i have to say anything...... well yeah i actually do- He can be such a little shit. It's just Crozier's luck that he chooses to be a sweet little angel in front of him most of the time.

I can't help but imagine what younger drunk Thomas must've been like... Full of sass and bite, probably. I need to write that one day.

"Job son, you hear everything." biting screaming throwing up. "FINE dad, you got me, here goes-"

I do love the way he says lieutenant Little, it's got such a nice sound to it. Again, very funny that Francis sort of sighs at the name Little. I think he regrets chosing it, lol. But! Edward's got a point! And these two both agree! For once! (and for now)

The pissing my god the pissing what do i even say about it. Tom's voice seems to quiver a bit, which is amazing. My man, that's your fucking father, stop being horny.

"have you ever thought of becoming a newsman?" what a thing to ask your son who is like 25 by this point and for whom you chose the career of a sailor. But better late than never, I guess. A job opportunity for when they come back home, teehee.

Anyway, I have to move on, or I won't watch anything else. I can't stay on this scene the entire post, it's already way too long.

Ship attack

Tommy finally realising this could happen to any of them...

This is the point when he starts being nicer to Edward. From this point on, he's truly finally realising, that any of them could die at any moment. The ship isn't safe anymore. Edward isn't safe. Francis isn't safe. He himself isn't safe. Like, he knew it in theory before, but it really hit him here.

It's hammered in by "it's come onto the ship, Edward" because they all realise that nowhere is safe now. Francis has this "oh fuck" moment too, that's why he goes to Edward to maybe comfort him or maybe to even comfort himself.

Btw they're so related it's disgusting.

"Please don't go, I'm scared for you" you see, Tommy, daddy has this thing called plot armor, so-

Francis and his youngest son- no, just kidding. But he's so very paternal with Evans, it's adorable. More than his own sons... which is a bit sad. "No ship's boys. Evans..." He's got it in him! Somewhere! It's there! Just to dig it out and use it.

To make this scene and the ones after worse - He's remembering his own boys when they were scared. Tommy clinging to his leg, yelling "papa!" over and over until Francis picked him up. Ned sobbing into his coat because he took too long to come home one night... (i'm fine btw << a liar)

Unfortunately, this is the worst time for him to choose to be comforting and mother-hen-y (not a word, probably, but you get my point).

After Evans dies :((

I like how Edward (I think it's him anyway) is welcoming everyone back.

He's probably waiting in agony for Francis to appear. I also think Crozier told him specifically to stay on the ship, so he wouldn't be in as much danger. He still has most of his common sense and the Edward hate isn't so bad yet either.

I want to say something intelligent about this scene, but I can't, other than Thomas missing should mean something.

Maybe these three having the most (?) hope until the end and lasting so long without any signs of scurvy, while Thomas wastes away pretty quickly after walkout... Just a fun thing to think about. (not)

"perhaps you should curb that for now" you KNOW Lydia used to tell him that exact same thing.

Anyway this scene makes me rabid even in canon. He did it for Sophy bc he wants to be with herrr. What if I bite you, sir. In the Au with the added context of wanting the boys to have a mother figure. *bursts into flame*

I think Francis might be a little obsessed with this idea of finding a mother to his boys, more so than finding a partner to himself. Like he's been doing it for years and it's turned into this unachieved goal he persues only because he's used to it. (dgmw though, he does very much love Sophia) Anyway.

Edward's. So. Fucking. Cute. "Yes, father 😔"

He's pretty much only looking at Francis in this scene, except for a one time glance at Irving after he asked a question. It's making me run in circles. (kind of funny, actually, EVERBODY is looking at Francis. James is there too, you guys-)

Flashback

He loves her so much I'm-

Thomas would be so jealous if he saw them btw. On the other hand, Edward would cheer them on. I think he'd actually give Francis some subliminal messaging, whispering to him while he's sleeping like "you want to marry Sophia so bad" because Sophia's been nice to Edward and he's dying to have someone who might actually like him in the house. *starts sobbing*

BING BONG, DADDY'S HERE

Deploy the guard dog!

That's right Tommy, show 'em.

"EVERYONE ON THEIR KNEES RIGHT NOW!!" hahaha, do you think he screamed at the boys like that when they were fighting, lmao- *bursts into flame*

Yes he did, he very much did and his voice used to be a bit stronger, too. I bet Edward flinched when he heard him yell. I don't think Tom would've heard over the people below deck, but he'd flinch too if he did.

All it took to call Edward over was one vague head movement that I didn't notice until my fourth rewatch, so I think it's safe to say they're both used to this and that Edward is a good boy, actually-

Interrogation

I can't stop laughing, they're literally two parents whose kids misbehaved at school-

I know I made the Fitzjames = wine mom joke like 5 times already but aaah! look at them 😭

btw....

I could make a whole post of just them doing things synchronously. This episode is so rich with it...

Francis is very amused.

He doesn't believe a single fucking word Hickey is saying. He has kids. They have lied to him. He knows what it looks like when a kid's lying (Hickey's not a kid, but you know. close enough)

Angry Ned! You do NOT talk to his dad with that tone of voice. (I'm so normal about his teefs, btw, I promise)

So fun and lovely that Edward can also go protecc mode, just in different situations from Thomas. He's so angry oh my goooood, giggling kicking my feet. "You disrespect my dad? Die." He's literally shaking with it.

Breathe, my guy. And stop being so tense, you're not the one getting punished (for once)

Francis is so nonchalant about announcing the punishment, he's done it so many times before... He definitely enjoys it to at least some extent, too. Like, maybe doesn't hugely revel in it, but it does give him a little kick. A little boost to the ego.

*WHAM*

Edward flinched so hard at that table slam. And that's canon, it's not my fault the camera isn't on him, it's canon because I said so-

The lashing

Hey boys, what's wrong? :) Is your dad doing something very questionable? :))) Something deplorable? :))))))

I already did the "Thomas won't look at the lashing if it got him a million pounds" spiel somewhere, but yeah, he's absolutely remembering his own lashing.

He's already tense after seeing Hartnell and Manson, but I think this one's even worse, bc of how humiliating it is. He is NOT having a good time (also flinches! bonus points)

I think in this whole scene, Francis is thinking "I'm gonna be the strict father figure these boys need" and kind of overdoes it and forgets his humanity for a bit, woopsie!

Not like he was any good at controlling it before. He was shit at it, really, especially with Nedward. Oftentimes the punishments would be over the top unreasonable. He still punishes them, btw. Well into adulthood. They're horribly codependant and severely broken <3

Wallowing in self-hate all by yourself, handsome?

Very telling, btw, that Ned didn't want to come talk to Francis himself and sent Irving instead. He's scared of him. So very scared of him. And I think Thomas is, too, when he's in this state, although he doesn't want to admit it to himself. I'll get to it in ep 5, but yeah, he hates when Francis is drunk.

Conclusion

WHAT AN EPISODE. This took DAYS to compile, wow. Francis begins to antagonize Edward in this ep much more, even though his concerns are valid.

My theory of Edward taking/inheriting mannerisms and other behaviours from his father is being supported sooo well, it's basically writing itself.

The boys have been confronted by a side to Crozier they haven't seen in a long time (mostly because they're so well behaved and he doesn't have to punish them very often) They're very unsettled by it, too. Also scared. It's delicious.

If this was ep 4 i can't even hope for what ep 5 and 6 will hold *melts into a puddle of heart shaped marshmallows*

[ozmodai]

saw peridu in ur post abt ur first fantroll and got flashbacks lmfao I remember them being a pretty common sight in ur twitter gallery for a bit. of ur teals pyrroh is my fav tho...oh when the secretive one is a little :3....but on the topic of teals, can I ask what blood castes you like the most? are there any you feel have untapped potential regarding official/fantrolls :3c?

LOL MAN yeah. i still adore peridu, i'm just obsessed with my other teals and their story right now (especially pyrroh even though he's actually even a side character compared to rorzak and valtra).

my favorite caste is... SHOCKINGLY... teals!!!!!!!!!

i like the color a lot, i like a lot of the official tealbloods, i like trying to think of how they would cope in a system that locks them into one job that's basically "do or die" to uphold that corrupt system, et cetera. i think they have a lot going on to be explored more working within range of that restriction!!

after them, i can't help but also enjoy clowns and because of a buddy, i have a soft spot for jades as well. burgundies are also pretty awesome >:]

honestly, i like all of the castes but i do feel a sense of lacking motivation for olivebloods! they're sort of in limbo to me, not having a defined role for them like the other midbloods or being low enough on the hemospectrum that they'd struggle too hard within the empire, so it feels like they're sort of. free to do whatever! i wish there was more i could get from them outside of "cat", but maybe i'll get to explore more on that myself with my own alternian olives sometime

[echonidae]

✦ commissions are reopening !!! ✦ tomorrow (oct. 6th) at 5pm BRT (UTC -3:00)! :D

some more stuff about this upcoming batch under the cut!!

AAAA finally getting these open again :')

there have been a couple updates to commissions, including in some of the prices. the rules still are the same as last time though c: and the process itself also has not changed either!

but!! backgrounds for the illustrations are officially available now too!! :D backgrounds that require shading and lighting but are otherwise just backdrops are an extra $5, and then scene-like environments with more detail and background elements, or in which character interacts with their surroundings, or backgrounds that require depth and perspective, are $10 to $15 extra depending on complexity! we can always discuss these and see what works for any given order tho, as usual c:

simple gradients or textures or patterns all remain free, and icons, doodles, and (especially) experimentals may get nifty backgrounds entirely on the house too! :D

and!!! i'm also going to be offering $5 USD doodle commissions too!! you can read more about 'em and the examples more closely over [here]!! they work a bit different than regular commissions in that they have a 30min time limit (and their own queue list, too, so that they don't take slots from the regular orders) :3c

:D !!!

this batch also has a smaller number of slots between active and queue ones, so as to get through workload faster and more efficiently and hopefully open another batch sooner c':

and, well, if the queue slots get claimed within a week, i'm alright with increasing then just a bit, but i reckon 15 should work out well!

i'm still finishing up a couple of the previous orders too, but i'm organizing things so that neither those orders nor any new ones will interfere with each other, so, no worries there!! ;v;

but yes, i'll be posting this again tomorrow once everything's ready to go :3c thank you again to everyone who stuck around during the long impromptu hiatus, and all the folks who sent messages, and for all the orders in the last batch!!! i'm trying to pace posting all the previous commissions, but i hope to add them all to the gallery soon :3ccc

and yeah, thank you for stopping by as well!!! let me know if you have any questions, or thoughts and feedback or suggestions (on the website too, always open to feedback on it! i ran through the entire thing fixing up everything that needed it, desktop and mobile, so please do let me know if you have any issues with the place there c: )

[an-au-blog]

hello again!!

i'm quietly dying to know if u!buggy is present when robin translates the skypeian poneglyph & the note roger asked oden to leave on it. just. an amnesiac clown staring at this giant rock, too busy silently screaming what does it meeeean to hear robin explaining what it means. cracks me up.

(i also love the thought of there being a pattern of older locals recognizing buggy just a moment too late as 'one of the kids from back then'. i love a running gag that doubles as foreshadowing! though crocus would surely recognize buggy on sight, i bet he assumes buggy's being cryptic on purpose when he "pretends" not to know him, and goes along with it.)

i'd misremembered that conversation at shakky's bar as having only a handful of the strawhats present, and so was imagining that buggy had no idea they'd gotten a lead on his past, and rayleigh would only see buggy on the kizaru-kuma-strawhat battlefield for a minute before he gets kuma'd away… on one hand, i still love this idea bc i love pain. otoh that conversation happening with everyone but buggy present feels wrong. and a "don't tell me, i'll find out the truth for myself!" ending to rayleigh and buggy reuniting is so fitting, it's the same argument robin & luffy make to rayleigh in that scene!

i looove the thought of buggy losing track of luffy after marineford. what a situation he's in now!! surrounded by dozens of ex-prisoners who idolize him, maybe two he gets along with, a half-dozen he's terrified of, and shanks. he's heard stories from luffy, but that's luffy! you can't go to him for realism or accuracy!! but... this shanks guy does have a boat... and something about his face is kind of familiar...

how long does it take shanks to realize buggy acting like he doesn't know him isn't an act, i wonder? how many old grudges does shanks halfheartedly apologize for, trying to get buggy to give in and acknowledge him? is one of those apologies the thing that makes something click for buggy? does he freeze up, or immediately snap and shout at shanks bc he's misremembered why buggy was mad at him that time? :3c

xoxo, difan

Hello, Difan!

I thought about that like once when I was thinking about Robin in the u! universe, but then i forgot and never really thought about it again lol. In my mind he comes along somewhere between East Blue and Alabasta, though if anyone wants to adopt this au, I'm fine with whatever interpretation or spin they want to put on it.

Now that you said it, I agree, it would be really fun if the locals recognize him randomly like "yeah, yeah, that was the red-nosed kid! Aw, he was so cute, we gotta live him! Pity he's not with his friend though, hope nothing bad happened to the other one..." And Buggy just going"ifk what you're talking about, you're being weird af" and everyone just assumes the other kid (shanks) died and it's a painful memory so they're all like "Oh, yes of course... our bad... if there's anything we can do to help you tell us, it's been so hard for you, we're so sorry ". Which confuses Buggy even more, but hey, he's getting positive attention, even if it's pity, and he's not going to complain about it.

Buggy meeting Rayleigh in the bar is so dear to me. Idk if it'd be realistic but I feel like he'd be very defensive qt first but then Rayleigh would be "Buggy? Is that you? I barely recognized you, you've grown so much, and become such a strong young man" and then something snaps and he just falls into his arms absolutely sobbing. He doesn't know why, he can't remember him on a conscious level, but they still jave this father/son moment of comfort.

I don't remember if I said this in the last post or if I thought of it now, but him losing Luffy at Marine Ford and clinging to Shanks for protection would be funnier (to me) if he goes by the logic of "Okay, he's scary, the generals are even scared of him, Luffy likes him and he seems fond of Luffy. He looks a bit familiar so idk if he would have some grudge with me if I've wronged him in some way... so I'm just going to use my contact with Luffy as leverage!" So he just starts going "You know Luffy, right? Well I'm in his crew" (which breaks Shanks's heart because... why isn't he in his crew? What did Luffy offer him that Shanks can't?? And why is he jealous of his child protege? Buggy sees he's a little upset by it so he continues "So if- if you're his friend and care for him, you'll take me and my men to safety... and not kill me.......... please."

And he switches from being sad to being so confused like,

Shanks: wdym I'll do it because of Luffy. I'm not helping you because of Luffy,

Buggy absolutely terrified that his one strategy of manipulating his one ticket to freedom has expired:..... wh.. why?

Shanks: I'm gonna help you because we're friends! You're my best friend Buggy!

Buggy: We are? I mean uh, we are.

Shanks assuming he remembers him and being do happy: So you remember me?

Buggy afraid if he says no, Shanks will get mad and leave him: ... yes.

Once in the ship (because the prisoners are so many) everyone sleeps wherever they can. Except for Buggy. Shanks insists on giving him his bed or at least his a place in his room. "We were bunkmates after all" he says but Buggy just smiles and nods hoping he doesn't find out he doesn't actually recognize him. Shanks can feel Buggy is on edge the entire time and he tries asking but Buggy always goes "No, no it's fine, everything's great haha" so he starts testing the waters by asking "hey do you remember *insert thing that never happened* that was so crazy, right?" To which Buggy'll go all "yeaaaah, absolutely haha, very crazy that happened I remember!" And after the third or fourth time Shanks couldn't take it and confronts him about it. Buggy is furious but also devastated because that's it. He's going to kill him now. Maybe even worse. (Keep in mind Buggy has seen how cruel people can be and his time with the straw hats doesn't help him think better of people, because they also keep bumping into horrible people)

He starts scream crying at him, he's already a deadman, what else does he have to lose, might as well let it all out. Meanwhile, Shanks is so confused because he understands absolutely nothing.

[thegoldenavenger]

I wish you would write time travel! Do you prefer time loop? to the future? to the past? reverse transmigration? Any flavor pairing in svsss~

Ahha you're lucky you qualified with svsss bc I have written time travel for a different fandom :3c

i think possibly an interesting take on this would be bingge deciding the point of difference between his universe and the nice shizun universe is that liu qingge is still alive... so like hm. i'll try and keep this shortish.

luo binghe has always gotten exactly what he wanted. perhaps after a trial, a tribulation, pain or minor tragedy, but eventually he always came out on top. so didn't it follow that he would win in his search for that nicer shizun? what, after all, did that other pathetic version of himself have that he did not? did luo binghe, demon emperor of the three realms, not deserve that softer shen qinqiu?

after returning home, to a palace stirred by that inferior him, his harem in a titter, it took too long to find space to go over his memories and the filtered memories he lifted from shen qingqiu. where did the difference lie? was it something he had done, as a child, that softened shen qingqiu from a cold master into a kind man?

he goes through softened memories of warm breakfast, embarrassingly transparent sparring practice, a satisfyingly cruel goodbye into the abyss, and then finally: that attack on cang qiong mountain by sha hauling's forces. instead of backing down after the three matches, instead they are chased off.

even though he had only seen him from a distance, luo binghe cannot mistake him. indeed, he sees almost a reflection every time he looks at his wife, liu mingyan.

this then, must be the difference. liu qingge was not murdered in the caves, and instead lived. perhaps the tumultous rivalry between shen qingqiu and liu qingge allowed the man to excise his crueler tendencies away from his poor students. or shen qingqiu had intended to murder the man and failed, and thusly locked himself into a portrayal of kindness as to divert suspicion that grew into a reality. whatever the case, it seemed to luo binghe that liu qingge's survival was the pin on which shen qingqiu's destiny lay to unfold. just as the man's death was how luo binghe could pry shen qingqiu from his bamboo peak, the man's life seemed to be how luo binghe could set his hands on a kinder shen qingqiu. one he could call shizun without qualm.

then all there was to it was to uncover a way to go back. he did not necessarily seek out a way, as such things had a way of just happening to him, but he kept his long reach open and searching. similarly, he did not equivocate with himself over perhaps leaving his harem and life to go back in time. either he would be rebuilding his empire in the past, or he would manage to bring that shizun back with him. things always worked out for him, when he put his mind to it, so he didn't over worry.

when it happened, it happened almost without fanfare. luo binghe stepped through a portal and walked into the abrasive air of the demon realm, separate and unconquered.

Finding his bearings is easy, though the realms had been merged for decades, his sharp memory recalled exactly where he stood now. Just as easy is journeying the distance north to reclaim his vassal (it does not occur to him that Mobei-jun is decades younger now, that Mobei-jun does not remember his oaths and fealty. It's fine. Luo Binghe reminds him)

From there, it barely needs recounting how he finds himself deep in the Ling Xi caves, except to mention how briefly he indulged the desire to pause by the woodshed. Tempting as it is to set fire to Qing Jing again, he moves on, Xin Mo a heavy weight at his side.

He had never been in the Ling Xi caves, but navigating them is intuitive. The pure natural qi laps against him like the ocean tide. He follows it to a cavern perfect for cultivation. It's the wrong cavern, as sitting calmly, meditating, is Shen Qingqiu. Luo Binghe cannot tell if it is the softer Shizun or not.

It doesn't matter, yet. Luo Binghe turns and treks deeper into the cave system, confident. Soon enough, his ears pick up the sounds of breathing. He quickens his pace; he wants to find Liu Qingge before Shen Qingqiu. He doesn't have a plan yet for how he means to save the man; warning the Bai Zhan War God of his martial brother's duplicitous intent? Just picking him up and manhandling him out of danger as he would one of his wives?

As he draws closer in on his prey, the light breathing he hears turns labored. Perhaps Liu Qingge is on the edge of a breakthrough, perhaps he is working through a heart demon.

He doesnt know why he is not surprised when he enters the next cavern and sees the sculpted brows of Liu Qingge's face twitch into a furrow, when a bead of blood wells like tears in his closed eyes. That the Peerless War God of Bai Zhan is experiencing a qi deviation? Yes, that could be surprising. Luo Binghe briefly decides it must be the lingering influence of one of Shen Qingqiu's plots. What isn't surprising is feeling the white hot flare of Yang energy starting to consume Liu Qingge's spiritual pathways.

The cool Yin of Luo Binghe's demonic qi stirs.

It always comes back to this, he thinks, a distant mix of frustration and interest sparking low in his gut.

Standing at the shadowed alcove watching Liu Mingyan's beloved brother fall into qi deviation, he finds that not even traveling years into his past can allow reprieve from the cycle his life has fallen into. He supposes this is a fair enough trade for saving the man's life, and even a gift for the most aloof of his wives. It is almost funny that the Liu he'll have intimate knowledge of won't be the one he married.

"Quiet now," Luo Binghe calls when the qi deviation rolls over Liu Qingge, paling the man's face and making him snarl. "This Lord will help you."

At his voice, Liu Mingyan's brother opens his eyes, and they seem to flash red. With killing intent or the deviation, it doesn't matter to Luo Binghe. What matters much, much more is Liu Qingge's hand flexing, summoning the shining blade of Cheng Luan.

Luo Binghe feels a smile slip onto his lips. "Well, if you insist, this lord does not mind indulging first."

[crplpunkklavier]

I'm rereading Exorcism (now that its finished! yahoo) and I love Kitty Poes sm shes such an interesting characterrr would you wanna tell me about your process for developing her? ig I couldve DMed you but I myself love a chance to rant publicly so here you go lmao. I am unfortunately only on chapter 14 (though I got further than that last time) so if you wanna be spoilery just give me a warning and I'll read it later >:3c

kitty my best friend kitty

i think i can go over this without any spoilers past chapter 14! you have already seen her big arc and i am sooo happy people liked her <333

so! i've never mentioned this to anyone before, but kitty is a bit of a riff off of one of my oldest OCs. when i was about 18, i was big into katekyo hitman reborn, mostly because i was even bigger into organized crime as a general topic. catalena foggia was the youngest of four, and after a rival family took out her parents and all three of her older brothers (you know, the sort of backstory you give people as a teenager) she very grimly stepped up to the throne.

now whenever i need a female character with a "hello, i Run This Place" air about her, my mind goes to catalena, who of course was called cat by all her friends.

and i knew that i wanted a character like that as klavier's manager. generally, whenever i get to make OCs for my aa fics, i try to make most of them women if they aren't already implied to be men by canon like the rest of the gavinners, since aa refuses to have adult female characters that don't die. the gavinners started out as a bunch of teenage guys, the music industry is tough as nails, LA is horrible..... nobody but cat could've done it, man.

the whole dutch connection sort of happened on the fly. i knew i didn't want to call her catalena foggia, even if nobody but, like, the two irl friends i still have who knew me at 18 lol, knew of that oc. it was still important to me to differentiate, because this wasn't cat, this was a new oc who was very similar to and inspired by her. i remembered that kitty is a valid first name, so i went for that, because i like to think i'm funny. :^)

once you reach the end of exorcism, you'll find a little gdoc with bonus content i left in the end notes there, which among other things contains explanations for all the pun names i've used in the fic. including kitty's, but i'll reiterate here: the reason i stuck with a cat theme was that klavier gavin, in my mind, is absolutely a golden retriever, so i wanted to give him a manager/babysitter who is a cat. a big cat. kitty is short in stature, but i mention her lion's mane of hair often enough in the text, so, u know.

that's also part of what i wanted her to be. yeah, she had to be tough simply for the industry and for the fact that she was managing teenagers for a while, but i also knew that i wanted to give klavier friends, and people in his life who really care about him, and will stick with him through all this. kitty is lawfully loyal: if she doesn't agree with something, she has no trouble walking out, but once she actually takes to someone like she took to klavier, she will be fiercely protective. i never mentioned her age, but i imagined her in exorcism to be somewhere in her mid to late 40s. she's seasoned, she's experienced, she's capable - she's what klavier deserves!!! that's what i wanted. kristoph and daryan are so painfully incompetent, when it comes down to it. klavier needs people in his life who know what they're doing.

so, i wanted a big little lion lady for my dog boy. i sort of just clicked through my various dictionaries for a while looking up different cat terms in different languages to see if any of them sounded enough like a last name, and that's how i landed on poes. only after that did i decide to make the dutch conundrum A Thing.

thank you for asking about her <33333 enjoy the rest of the fic, feel free to keep me posted about ur reading experience too :3c

[musesofthesun]

⏰ for yui, about haru :3c

SEND A ⏰ TO SEE INTO ONE OF MY MUSES' MEMORIES. = always accepting!

yui hasn't seen haru often at school today, which is weird. haru usually sticks by her at every opportunity, and yui does likewise. once the end of the last class rolls around, yui waits by the entrance. the line of kids disperses, and it's a few moments before haru trails out. yui visibly brightens, hopping over with a skip in her step.

"ruru! i haven't really seen you all day, what gives?"

haru pauses as if considering something, then responds. "i can tell you over shaved ice?"

yui is curious, but doesn't argue with that. she happily grabs haru's hands, then leads her downtown. she talks about things on the way: how kuro and chaco are doing, what gossip she's heard around school, how many bees she's seen, and the like. haru usually doesn't say much as they walk, but she usually says at least something. yet... she hasn't so far.

it's not long before they've reached the storefront and have gotten some prized summer treats. yui sits on the bench, and haru climbs next to her. yui swings her feet back and forth as she digs into her dessert. her gaze flickers over to haru. haru's simply prodding at her shaved ice. yui puffs up her cheek.

"okay, what gives?" yui huffs, "you're being more of a boxturtle than normal."

haru takes a deep breath. yui frowns.

"yui, um... i won't be here after this summer." haru gingerly says.

"where are you going? are you going on vacation?" yui immediately prods, bright-eyed and curious. "is it to a ski resort?"

haru smiles weakly, shaking her head. "no, uh... for good. my family wants to move out of town."

yui blinks. "like... to a prefecture over?"

"try... another country. across the world."

oh. the air suddenly feels a bit cold. yui's chest tightens, but she still smiles. even if it wavers a bit. she forces cheer into her voice. "that sounds super cool! i bet you'll find all sorts of neat stuff."

"yui..." haru's face scrunches up weirdly. it's the patented expression of "be real with me right now or else".

yui can't do that, though. she can't just stare in gaping shock for fifteen minutes and then burst out in tears. that's stupid. it would ruin everything. so, yui exhales through her nose and lowers her tone.

"i mean it. i'm gonna miss you a bunch, but you should look forward to all the cool adventures you're gonna have."

haru still looks dubious.

"i'll write you every day!" yui prompts with a grin, "and you better write back! or i'll get sad. i... ruru?"

haru's lip is quivering. before yui knows it, haru's wrapping her arms around herself and hiccuping. yui moves closer and haru starts to sob.

"i... 'm going to miss your smile..." haru wobbily states, "i'm going to miss you. i'm going to miss you a lot..."

it makes yui want to break down crying too. instead, yui does her best to wrap her arms around haru, tucking her head between haru's head and shoulder. she lets haru cry softly and mutter for a few minutes before talking again.

"hey, i just said i'd write you every day. i promise i will," yui hums, "plus, it's not like summer's over. it's hardly just starting!" she pulls back, holding haru's hands in her own. yui's eyes curve to match her smile. she's getting a hint teary as she puts on her best show of encouragement. haru needs reassurance right now. "we'll just have to make it the best summer ever, mhm?"

haru slowly nods. her bright blue eyes are watery, but she has that scrutinizing look as if she's trying to pick apart yui's reaction. yui doesn't really pay attention to that. haru can think what she wants as long as the focus stays on her. yui... will unpack everything later.

"we can go to all the festivals this year. we can see all the fireworks, we can head to the sunflower festivals, we could even sneak into the grape one."

haru snorts. "we'd be noticed right away. plus, dad would be so mad if he found out we sipped even a little bit of wine."

yui moves her hands, pressing her palms against the benchwood as she stares with a joking intensity. "the challenge would be part of the fun!"

haru laughs. yui's heart swells. that's what she wants. she wants to make haru smile. her smile is everything. yui won't survive without it.

"minus the wine festival, all of that does sound fun... and we can play together every day, too." haru sniffs, wiping her nose with the back of her hand. "it'll be the best summer ever."

"yeah!" yui grins, pulling her shaved ice back up again. "it'll be awesome. now, you gonna eat that or do i have to?"

"noooo, i'll eat it," haru giggles, picking up her own cup and flicking at yui's nose with her free hand. "you'd freeze your brain with how fast you eat."

"nuh uh." "yuh uh." "nuh uh." "yuh uh. you would."

"not a chance." yui sticks out her tongue. haru makes a face at her, and they both laugh. yui feels something twists in her chest. she wants to hear haru's laugh every day. she wants to see her every day. she doesn't want haru to go. ... don't be ungrateful. haru's here right now, yui's here right now. she can deal with everything when it comes. in this moment, she's going to enjoy the company of someone she would do anything for.