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vaguely-concerned · 12 days ago
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returnal and deathloop have such a beautifully 🤝 take on the timeloop theme of like... hell is empty and all the devils are here. working on their linked in profiles because as it turns out the human mind given eternity to work with will naturally birth fresh new levels of hell of its own making that a poor devil could never even dream of, and then, grotesquely, perversely, make a home out of that hell. except returnal is doing that extremely well but played very straight, and deathloop is doing it like (looney tunes connotations). and I love it so much for that.
#never has a game been more willing to let you pick up a lit stick of dynamite like 'huh. wonder what this is about' as deathloop is#I also found returnal very funny but I think that's down to a flaw in my personality more than an intended artistic choice lol#deathloop#returnal#these are two incredible and I think desperately underappreciated games btw. people should check both of them out#I think deathloop in particular is due a reexamination and renaissance it's Doing Some Shit!!!!#it took me a while to get into the gameplay loop of it but now that I have I'm starting to get the feel for what it's doing#and the ludonarrative resonance is off the fucking charts in this game in ways rarely seen#and a lot of that is helped by its slant towards dark comedy. the way you get inured to killing so quickly is SO on theme#where I think uncharted (beloved by me but with its flaws) is a poster child and originator for the ludonarrative dissonance debate#deathloop may be the extreme other end of that. like yeah you keep murdering people. it doesn't matter AND it's awful. and funny#it's unfortunately also very very funny a lot of the time#that and the slow way you build familiarity with the characters along with colt because uh. he forgor. he forgor them#(...except that he liked it here in frank's house. which. okay. I'll just cry about it a bit and come back to you)#and side comments that's just nonsense when you start out slowly become funnier or sadder or more touching not by having changed#but you returning to it with new context. IT'S GOOD WRITING BRENT!!! it's unorthodox narrative but it's incredibly interesting#if you're willing to engage with it!!!!#(I sadly think this may be another of those 'you have to let go of the game you thought it would be to love the game it *is*' situations#and what I am starting to learn is that people are not always willing to give that process a fair shot)#selene vassos and colt vahn would have a lot to talk about if they hung out but I don't think they'd get along hahaha#colt not even here for THAT good of a time but I'll give anything a shot vahn vs. selene queen of utter joylessness vassos (affectionate)#voice acting in both: fucking impeccable needless to say#ALSO last but not least: two of the most visually striking and beautiful games ever made. art direction off the charts both of them
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klutzytomb · 1 month ago
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if I ever mysteriously disappear one day with my account deleted, becoming the missing mutual, rest assured that it'll probably be because I have continually lied about myself IRL and find this account to be attached to that mentality. I will one day return
#I still like this username but I might abandon it. might return to it too though#just a solid reset on my online presence#idk if I'll go through with it but I'm acknowledging it here just in case#andy rambles#btw I love to use the shitty phrasing of calling myself a pathological liar but I'm just gonna explain that real quick#I'm pretty open about how my main OCD obsession is emotional contamination#long story short I have continually distanced myself from anything about myself that I share with others#(“I can only be what you're not”)#where I have met a lot of people and whatnot#it used to not affect me much until I turned 13 when it began to spiral out of control#I stopped engaging in almost anything I actually enjoyed (I'm drawn to people who like the same things as me (unfortunately))#I started to latch onto anything that I could possibly enjoy and “claim” it as my own w/out fear on infection#(another persons soul infecting my own authenticity has been a deep rooted fear of mine)#(that if I am ever even vaguely influenced by someone else I am going to become them and therefore be inauthentic)#(which is in my eyes the worst crime a human can commit)#pair that with yearly-ish “emotional rebrands” (ie. doing whatever I can to distance myself from a past version of myself I hate)#and you get a recipe for “this guy isn't who he says he is”#I refused to engage in my own interests -- get new interests -- do just about anything#I say refused like its past-tense but this is still happening#this has actively ruined my life & ability to connect with people#I have a lot of personal moral shit (OCD obsessions are rarely one-man shows) against lying to people#(its a display of inauthenticity which is the worst crime of man)#so I've decided to refer to myself as a pathological liar as this pattern is in practice a series of lies that have done nothing but stack#rn I'm doing my best to decipher what about myself is truly me vs. distancing myself from others out of fear of infection#big ones I've realized is that I'm not into dudes. at all.#I consistently identified as a lesbian for 3 years before I met other people who were also lesbians#then I didn't and I am certain it was out of fear that I'd become them somehow#(don't we love magical thinking?)#anyways that's the short of it#if that makes sense at all
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aluria-sevhex · 19 days ago
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>makes biggest ongoing project tied to a piece of media with a high barrier to entry that most of my irl friends don't give a shit about
>don't want to share all (i do share some) of the proper writing for it with online friends until it's time for the actual project to actually exist
>share with irl friends and my boyfriend
>lack of response from most people
>it's not even been 24 hours since sharing
>starts having A Big Fucking Moment over it
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#aluria.txt#and i KNOWWWW i'm being selfish here#i have trouble keeping track of irl friends' OCs and there are things my irl friends care about that idgaf about#I KNOW I'M BEING A HYPOCRITE HERE#IT'S NOT LIKE ANYBODY'S BEEN FORCING ME TO SPEND OVER A YEAR OF MY LIFE ON THIS#i do this for fun i don't need external validation this is intrisically rewarding except idk would still be nice to get more confirmation-#-that Yes I Am Doing A Good Job#and for some fucking reason instead of actually talking about it i'm melting down on Tumblr at 11:30 PM#i fucking notice who engages with my OCs when i talk about them in a server with irl friends i fucking notice who gives a shit about-#-something i'm very passionate about. but again like i already said I DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT TO COMPLAIN I'M JUST BEING AN ANNOYING SHIT!!!#awwww is somebody mad that not everybody gives a shit about the same things as him? shall we throw a fucking party?#IDK WOULD BE NICE TO FEEL LIKE I COULD EXPRESS MY INTERESTS WITHOUT FEELING LIKE I'M BEING ANNOYING#I USE ONLINE SPACES A LOT FOR A REASON#it's probably nothing i'll be fine tomorrow morning after sleeping (lying. it's more likely i'll just go back to bottling it up)#or once the actual comic starts serialization and then over time i can watch people go nuts over the good shit i've been hiding#I'M FUCKING FIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNEEEEEEEE just selfish#none of the people i'm complaining about here use Tumblr often enough to be likely to see this and even if they do and i acknowledge this-#-rant is objectively a bad idea that i might regret later but what-fucking-ever idgaf about anybody else rn
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moonchild-in-blue · 1 year ago
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Happy 1 year anniversary of me discovering Sleep Token and listening to The Summoning for the 1st time 🥹
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Shout out to that annoying ass-dude that kept appearing on my Instagram's fy page with That Part of The Summoning for months prior. If it weren't for your slightly-pretentious, male-targeted videos about ceiling mirrors and waterproof blankets and whatever else, I would've never listened to them 🙏
I kept a little journal while going through their discography, and from June to September I did a track by track first impressions review of every album/ep lol.
Here some of my favourite entries from the first week of TMBTE listening / ST tumblr engagement 🥺
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"[...] They are so babygirl. I've made some friends on tumblr simply because of them, how cool is that? What a [lovely community.]" (continued on second page)
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"[...] BRO. I'm struggling over here. That video lives in my head rent free. Brain rot. Head empty, only Sleep Token thoughts. [...]" (will give you a smooch if you guess the video)
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"4 - Aqua Regia: JAZZ PIANO SO SEXY AND FOR WHAT. *That* chord progression?? WIG. Frothing (hehe)"
And at last, my favourite:
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"I get it, his teeth are very sexy"
(this was about Vore)
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torchickentacos · 5 months ago
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The pokemon anime subreddit fascinates and frustrates me on equally deep levels
#smiling and blinking innocently. long tags ahead :) being normal :)🌸☀️☘️✌️💐#i'm such a 'minding my own business' person in fandom. i feel like my usual reaction to seeing takes I disagree with is#'well. people probably hate some of my takes so whatever'. perhaps even the ones i'm about to share#but. man.#it's like a portal to 2010 forum discourse but goh and serena are there this time.#deeply fascinated by the repetition of old ship wars too????#what do you mean we're still having legitimate 'but drew and gary are mean' discourse 😭#i mean by all means they should keep arguing because mostly i'm just glad that the wider pokeani sphere remembers drew at all#but that being said i wonder what kind of rivalry these people would have wanted instead?????#because there's other rivalries we could point to where they weren't air-quotes 'mean'. but we have those and people ignore them lol#because they're-imo- usually less engaging and dynamic. except for dawn and zoey who have never done anything wrong in their lives.#like we COULD give everyone the supportive happy rival experience a la may and grace or whatever but that's just not the SAME#and augh. taking psychic damage and trying to be normal but that's the THINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG OKAY#are Gary and Drew needlessly mean in early episodes? yeah lmao. i'm not arguing on that. they suck ❤️ completely insufferable.#b u t#there's that line. right. the line where it slowly slides into backhanded compliments too and giving that motivation-#-for their rival to work harder and the fact that they want that reaction and attention from this one person so badly.#like shipping aside I really do think that the friction of the Gary/Ash and May/Drew rivalries is what made them GOOD.#and yeah sometimes it was out of line but also that's just how the dub is as a whole tbh. they just said whatever shit they could 😭#AND BACK TO THE BEING NICE THING. Ash and May both got growth from their nice rivalries but not what they got from Gary/Drew.#it's different types of growth and lessons and they needed both kinds from different sources. I'd argue the rougher rivalries taught more?#regardless of your opinions on the characters themselves you can't deny that Gary/Paul/Drew/Harley/etc- the rivals that pushed A&M-#had the biggest impact on their growth over the rivals that didn't push. note that 'friends' and 'rivals' are different categories for this#I'm pitting. like. gary and paul against morrison and ritchie and not against dawn or pikachu or brock or whatever. different convo.#but it was growth out of spite to be better than the jackass rival at first and then that CHANGED INTO MUTUAL BETTERMENT#AND WANTING TO BE BETTER ✨FOR✨ AND ✨WITH✨ THEIR RIVAL. OKAY. (re: gary and drew specifically)#and as a result of all of this. drew and gary did get better to be fair!#well gary did kind of just start picking on goh instead gjkhsdkfj (joking) but ykwim.#DAMN IT I'M OUT OF ROOM AND IT DELETED A WHOLE ASS PART 2 THAT I HAD TYPED OUT#fine. i'll make this its own post at some point because i yearn to yap on about it
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Hey, I don't normally make my own posts about this, but.
Do not argue with an anti on their own terms.
Don't get me wrong, I get it. You see the hypocrisy. You see the way they take aim at your favorite ships or characters or tropes while enjoying something similar. And you think "if I can point out to them just how hypocritical and idiotic they look right now, everyone will see our argument, they'll see that the anti is wrong and a hypocrite, and then maybe more people will stop harassing the people who like my thing. Maybe the anti will see the light and stop being a hypocrite."
But it will not work. It will not work.
There is an extremely high chance one of two things will occur:
They will double down on their argument, and ignore what you've said. (Ex. They might say "This relationship has an age gap. That's p3dophi1ia. That's dangerous." And you might say "well you ship something with the same age gap. Is it not p3dophi1ia and dangerous when you do it?" And they will just double down and say "This ship is dangerous. The shippers are grasping at straws to make their p3d0 ship normal.")
They will agree with you, but in the worst way possible. (Ex. Someone says "Ew your ship are basically siblings because they're childhood friends and grew up together. 1nc3st apologist." And you might respond "And yet we allow our most popular ship in this fandom to be popular? They grew up together as childhood friends and were inseparable. Why is that not inc3st?" because you think they'll gain a sense of perspective here. But then that person responds "People who ship that popular ship are freaks too then." Maybe they believed that before the convo or maybe they didn't, but the point now is that (while not your intention or fault by any means) some people have gone on to harass shippers of a ship that aren't doing anything wrong. What you think will bring clarity ends up raising tensions between shippers instead)
Do not meet them where they're at on their preconceived notions. You will not make them believe that they are wrong or hypocrites. Do not concede to their heavy assertions of abuse, p3dophi1ia, 1nc3st, etc levied against the thing you like for the sake of arguing that they are a hypocrite, or with intent to make them feel dumb for inadvertently labeling 80% of a fandom with said labels. They will not "see the light". The best thing you can do, if you have to say anything, is double down with "I'm not hurting anyone and it's fiction. I can do whatever I want" or "I don't give a shit what harmless things people like as long as it's tagged and I can filter out what I dislike" (especially if this is your stance). Then block and move on.
Antis, like trolls, thrive on engagement. They want you to argue so they can continue to point at you or lie about you or make you look bad.
It is in your best interest to pick your battles, and to try to sus out the difference between a friendly argument or standing up for yourself versus feeding the trolls. You won't make the right choice every time, all of us are human after all, but I promise you that ignoring and blocking bad faith actors, deleting their hate anons, etc, is not the coward's way out. Sometimes you don't need to fight. Sometimes keeping yourself from platforming bad faith actors and giving them nothing to go on will do the job (because there are more antis that are just small blogs with little power to do anything than you think, the kinds of people whose inflammatory posts will die if no one touches them).
Thank you for coming to my TED Talk.
#fandom wank#I'm not perfect either. I also fall into those same reasoning traps from time to time#that's why this is meant to be a psa or friendly reminder#I know how easy it is to get frustrated#I know how easy it is to get stuck thinking about how people are being stupid or hypocritical and feeling like there must be some way you#can get through to them#I know how tempting it is to compare other relationships or other characters or other medias people like to your own as a defense in hopes#that it will make things better for everyone (and it's tempting too to believe that people who ship the popular thing or like the popular#character have no problems and never deal with antis)#But you can't fight fire with fire or your reasoning to make people who want conflict stop pushing for conflict#These days (frustrated as I am watching entire communities of people who have committed no crimes get bullied off platforms for thoughtcrim#or for not conforming to the tastes of a pearl clutchy majority who has confused fictional tastes with real crimes and activism#) I have come to the conclusion that the best way to improve things is to just...become someone who unabashedly enjoys things. For me‚ I#think that if a community grows enough publicly‚ people won't be able to do much about it than complain in the end.#It may be scary to attach your main blog or your name to your interests your peers may bully/harass you for. But even if it means making ne#accounts/blogs/emails/etc‚ it's okay to do whatever you need to enjoy something and find your community.#You're not a coward or bad for being afraid or a lurker. You have reasonable things to fear. But if you've been craving fostering a renewed#community over a ship or character‚ then this post is your sign to take that step and become an avid poster or to publicly engage with the#few people who are posting it. Community starts with us‚ the people. And I think it's better if we decided to like the harmless things we#like publicly and enjoy the life we have than to just wait and hope things will be better and less hostile one day#Things are bleak‚ but they are not hopeless. You are not alone. You don't have to make large steps or be a major player of even be a big#contributing fandom member. You don't have to be anything. But the idea that you have to be quiet and keep silent about your fandom#interests because the antis won is just simply not true. They just want you to feel that way‚ because then they can keep their mental high#of having bullied people into obscurity#Anyways sorry about this. I'll try to go back to regular fandom posting#i just be ramblin
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suddencolds · 1 year ago
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vent//
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laugtherhyena · 9 months ago
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Continuing the rant-iness of last post's notes onto this one i think (I appreciate if they're read, i think I'm too self-conscious to have them in the post itself)
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lesenbyan · 9 months ago
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yanno, for a show that seemed to always be running when i was growing up (disclaimer; I did not grow up with the channel; I only had access when visiting my mom's parents if they were even in the same state) Danny Phantom really is a short show, huh?
#personal;#I've got 7 episodes left and I could swear I remember catching bits of a good lot of them#over my cousin's shoulder or w/e#more so in the back half but not none in the front#raine watches Danny Phantom;#I did always like the show when i saw it. I can't remember if i ever finished all of Kim Possible either#I know i started once but i think ADHD deviated#maybe it'll be my next 'i don't have engagement energy' show#kids cartoons are really good for no energy#maybe I'll even watch more RECENT cartoons sometime (lol who am i kidding)#anyway Sam's a trans girl and I love her#and they manage to SOMEHOW make the Sam has a crush on Danny who has a crush on Paulina/Valerie not give me hives which is nice#(they did it by Sam not being any cattier than your average 14yo and not act like she's entitled to him and thus a girl fight)#Sam/Danny is a T4T narrative and I'll die on this hill#and Tucker is just happy to have a boyfriend AND a girlfriend after trying for so long and also his PDA is there#might still be a little manic#thought it wore off but no I'm just Big Seeby#I AM gonna take my tegretol tonight tho#I skipped it for 24hrs it's been fun but it's given me a headache (have found which med it is that makes me feel like dogshit when forgot)#.....I said am. I already did. I took my meds hours ago when i was gonna go to bed#(gf and I ended up having a talk but now it really is bedtime- I'm past the sleeby shakes)#(I'm starting to feel like that bitch in that one MAG ep and my brain is about to start buzzing again)
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neverendingford · 1 year ago
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along the same line as the whole "why do you need to know someone's autistic before you stop bullying them for their autistic traits?" thing I've seen floating around
apologizing for it once you know is meaningless. it doesn't change the fact that you deliberately mocked someone for their behavior.
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a customer mocked my stutter and I've lost all patience with that so I looked him in the eyes and said "I have a speech disability" and he immediately got all apologetic and was like "I wasn't making fun of you". Bro yes you were. you didn't realize you were making fun of a disability I've spent my entire life struggling with, but you were nonetheless.
just because you don't know you're being an asshole doesn't mean you're not being an asshole. you can apologize but I'm not going to forgive you.
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innielove · 3 months ago
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i knew things were going way too smooth lately..
#i truly fucking hate being alive when will this eeenndddddd#things were not that smooth at all but they were going up and that's never a good fucking sign for me#my job contact got extended until the end of the year and i found a nice little place to rent for a reasonable price#even got a fuckin pay raise that was unlikely and impossible as hell to happen and yet somehow it did#and now im bawling my fuckin eyes out because a friend im in love with got engaged#and i should be so fucking happy for her but I can't and i feel like pure shit because what kind of a friend am i#i fucking hate being in love it NEVER ends well i always catch feelings for the most impossible people ever#im so damn tired i want out#this past year and a half has been fuckin hell and i don't even know what's the point#im so damn tired#in barely held together by 3-5 more or less not that unhealthy coping mechanisms but they are starting to wear out and :)))#i genuinely don't know what to do to feel better. to feel fuckin anything other than being a miserable fuck#i want to enjoy my hobbies. want to enjoy anything literally but everything i do is just an obsessive distraction from my life#whatever man#i hate that i only come here to scream about my shitty life and whine about what made me cry in the past 2 weeks#i found some edits in my drafts from August might post them because why the fuck not 🤷🏻‍♀️ at least theres something skz related#but for now I'll just dip and keep wishing every night that I don't wake up in the next morning:'))#holy shit im such a whiny idiot. why. just why.#just keep ignoring my text posts please im embarrassing 😭#shut up vivien no one cares
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fisheito · 1 year ago
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hey kids! time to explain!
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pushing500 · 2 years ago
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Eva the suspected mime asked Debby to marry her!! Congrats to the happy couple. Maybe this will last longer than Debby and Brennan did, or maybe Eva will turn into a monster and eat Debby. Who knows? Anything can happen on the Rim!
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Grump is in the hospital with a bruise on her left arm (she got in a fight with Wookshys, he was completely uninjured).
I saw Irwin going in to "cheer her up", and for a moment I thought he was actually being nice, but no. He's still an asshole. <3
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I like to imagine that Jesse the tree-dude (with that accursed pink square of his) doesn't speak, and just mimes all his interactions with all the other colonists. He's the only pawn without a mouth from the facial animations mod, so I just think it would be cute if he played charades every time he wanted to say something.
And also "enthusiastically demonstrating" syringes seemed really funny.
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kakusu-shipping · 5 months ago
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do you think there's a correlation between growing up with children's shows where the protagonist talks to the camera and asks the viewer for advice and being a self inserter?
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maliciousalice · 6 months ago
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novelconcepts · 2 years ago
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i don't make resolutions, but if i did
it would be to finish this fic
(and to be kind to myself for however long it takes to actually do so)
#i'm finishing it if it kills me#i know i've been writing this makeout scene for 3 weeks but baby that can't last forever#if we want to get deep and dark and serious for a second i do think a lot of my struggles to write lately have to do with engagement#and how incredibly low engagement has been on the last few things i've written#which like. is what it is. i'm not entitled to anybody's time or comments or kudos.#but when you write stuff you're proud of and it feels like it's barely getting read it's hard to keep momentum.#this isn't intended as a woe is me or whatever it's just kind of like. there. hovering.#happens enough times you start to wonder if it's you. am i just writing for the wrong fandom/ship?#(too bad if so. they're in my bones i'm writing for them and no one can stop me.)#but yeah. if you ever wonder if authors do care or notice about hits. comments. kudos. buddy i am here to tell you#not only do we care and FLOURISH we also notice when those things drop off and readers vanish#and it is a giant bummer. and sometimes makes us wildly paranoid about why that might have happened.#so if you liked a fic today--not even one of mine. just. anybody's. share it. comment on it.#kudos at the VERY least (cuz frankly kudos is there to be an 'i got to the end and this was nice' feature.#so when you get 500 hits and only like 30 kudos? it feels like 470 of those people hated your work)#anyway. that got out of hand. lil' too raw lil' too honest. happens when you let yourself ramble at 11:30 instead of sleeping#to sum: let your local fic writer know if they've made you happy#and as we go into 2024 i am swearing to myself that this fic (and probably several others) are getting finished#come hell. high water. or dishearteningly low engagement numbers.#(and then maybe we...actually work on something original. cuz why not. new year same old me but i'll do my best.)
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