#i'd say he cant hate messes because he is one but we all know he's the thedas world champ at self-loathing

[vultures-and-scavengers]

everyone who calls cullen rutherford meticulously neat and tidy has never seen that mans desk, office, or bedroom. there's rubble, trees, and papers all over and you want me to read this fanfic and think he has a proper place for everything.

[lizaluvsthis]

SPOILER FOR THE NEW EPISODE! CHRISTMAS WARS! SCROLL OUT IF YOU HAVENT WATCHED IT YET!!!!

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"Hey Liz how'd that new christmas episo-"

*ME BREATHING HEAVILY*

Consider on Smg3 having a good point for hosting his own party (why cant he just throw a party with the dead memes? Like invite them in his cafe right aw-) thats exactly why. Dead memes cant re-enter the living realm. (Also the reason what happened during the 10th year anniversary episode because we DONT want that mess again?

So instead of dead memes he literally chose to host it WITH his new friends this time. Smg4's crew.

"But why tho? Didn't he hated them?" YES. but at the same time. Please dont forget his mere messages during IGBP on the line he says "But I've met your friends man..." again. Ask me WHY theres another reason he moved in next to four's castle?

(He doesn't want to feel alone again not only four was the reason but his friends too)

Okay but when after the castle and three's coffee shop got burned down by santa clause, where do you see that bright explanation from the crew.

AND LITERALLY. SMG3 IS ON TSUNDERE MODE ACTIVATION WHERE HE- BLUSHED- I mean its okay- its totally fine its perfectly normal.

Not for three. He never celebrated christmas in the early 2020 not even after the arc but four was kind enough to invite three in the recent years to make him have to experience whats special about it.

But three was too embarrassed from four's crew because they've shown alot of kindness towards him that he'd never experienced at all and this was his first time hearing it all out on them.

After he says "f-friends?!" He continues on playing "I'd rather die than have you guys as friends"

Which also meant he did. Almost. Die. Saving four.

Did you notice smg4 in this scene? Did you see the way he looked at three? Did you SEE how he giggled and laughed just by seeing his expression?

Heart tingles you know? And this IS also the first time he's done that.

Wait for it...

WAIT FOR IT...

WOW SMG4 THAT BACK HOLD AT THREE WAS SUPER SMOOTH I'M OBVIOUSLY BLIND TO MYSELF THAT I CANT "SEE" WITH MY OWN EYES.

And NOT ONLY THAT- EVERYONE'S REACTION WERE THE SAME PLACE EXCEPT WHO? MARIO.

WHO'S MOUTH IS OPEN AND MAKING A HAPPY EXPRESSION (that also means... HE HAD JUST WITNESSED FOUR BEING A F-KING FRUIT AGAIN-) (MARIO BEING A REAL SMG34 SHIPPER IS SO REAL)

Not only was it delicious- Three too was smiling at four, supporting his idea and not even LEAVING by his side. (Like have you noticed right after both of their places got destroyed- these two completely HAVE NEVER SEPARATED AND STUCK CLOSE TOGETHER?)

This also provens he's on the right role after all. His character development did improve his changing around his friends even after 2020th - 2022nd

Who knows that maybe four's crew knew that three wasn't so bad after all? That he was just in need of friends because he'd been so alone from time to time?

Still. He smiles. Not just for the holiday spirit, but to his new friends, and four to have on. (Mention of mario makes turkey for upcoming xmas episode four convinced EVERYONE from the crew including three, BUT HE NEVER LEFT BY HIS SIDE. Literally the moon is stuck with the sun)

Four and three? They both contacted atleast EVERYONE from town they know. (Even three never considered belle, whimpu, or the so called fake-other-versions of theirs who became his crew during 2020th wotfi he still has a heart to consider them all as being in part of his life.)

We never get a mistletoe scene sadly but we had a precious smg34 collection here...

Even after this hand taking, Three and Four looked at eachother together before they start to sway and celebrate the christmas holiday.

"Liz it's just two of them looking whats so important from that?"

You dont see these fruits being like that often, so its a very rare one in the new episodes. (Considered again. Three has gone soft. TOO soft for being with four's crew and being with... smg4...)

He wasnt even angry or done with this bs he still had that christmas spirit and all that matters is celebrating it with four and his other new friends.

OKAY THERE IM DONE I'M EVEN GONNA BE MORE ILL-

*insert audio losing pulse*

[missn00tson]

Am I the only person that hated s4 of tua?

Look, i am a big fan of the series, and I was so happy when the new season came out.

And s3 was a bit long for me, in the sense that some scenes were boring, so I wasnt too unhappy with a shorter season.

But what was this

Spoilers for The umbrella Academy season 4!

First of all, the whole Five and Lila relationship.

They are platonic friends, like siblings. Who thought it would be a fun idea to make them romantic all of a sudden?

"Oh, but they got stuck in time for 7 years its only natural"

You have to be shitting me.

I've been celibate for over 7 years, you think I'd date my brothers WIFE if we spend time tgt for those years? No. Fuck no.

It doesnt even seem to click with Five's personality, because he's so insanely loyal and caring towards his family. He would not do that, if we were to follow his personality from s1 to 3.

This brings me to Ben.

I have never been the biggest sparrow Ben fan, I'll admit that. I've always been an umbrella Ben fan and sometimes I wished sparrow Ben was more like him.

So you can imagine, I was happy when he started to appear more caring for Jeniffer.

Until they totally switched up his character.

Yes, he was influenced by the bond (which reminds me of the whole nesting situation of the last episode, which I must admit was very entertaining) which made him more loving yadaydaydaya. But everyone shows their love in a different way, sparrow Ben' type of loving is in no way shape or form sweettalking and grossly cutesy forms of affaction.

You might think so (the writers apparently did) but I surely disagree.

So his personality was, as you might guess, also out of the window.

His talking brings me to my next point. The dialogue.

I'm not sure if its just me, but it was so.goddamn.messy.

It was no dialogue, it was just a bomb of one liners aiming for nothing.

It had no feeling, no personality. Its as if the writers saw the one liners we liked, pasted them into an ai engine, and let it spit out 100 new ones to fill the movie.

I would like to give specific examples, but it happened all.the.time. If you dont believe me, watch the last episode. The only in character person was Victor (even though he's not my bestie, I loved that they stayed true to his character) with wanting to save his siblings, standing up to their father, wanting to keep his peace but always choosing to help his siblings no matter how much they hurt him in the past.

He was the only one who felt like the same person as the other season. Even Reggie was a goddamn mess (and thats something to say about that uptight bastard)

Now this part is purely personal. But the plot? The scenes? The entire construction was such a mess.

First of all. 7 years in that station? 7years? Youre telling me that super smart old man Five didnt think to look at those lines first before stepping in that train? You think "I must know everything and enything about everything and anything" Five didnt look up, took a good glance at those letters and knew. "Mhmm. Thats that weird writing my father used. How bout I try to TRANSLATE it BEFORE i step on this mystery train?"

If you think him stepping on a random train, not even looking at the map he picked up is in charcater? Sincerely, quit shitting my dick cuz no way you think that.

And then him giving up on finding his siblings? He was in an apocalypse for what? 50 years? And he always kept the stupid eye, thinking it might save his siblings. And now, here he is, giving up on them cuz he' a lil lost in daddy's train station?

Babes, you cant be serious.

Im aware that this post is very opinionated, and perhaps negative, but thats just how itll be. But if you feel offended by anything here, I do apologise. I love the series aswell, but his season, felt more like a 12 year old' followup story of season 3 (and that is not to say that 12 yo' cant write, cuz some of them r amazing, but you get the idea) and I cant believe they actually funded this.

And that is not to start about the decisions they made. Ben making them drink the marigold? Five not just going back to that moment if he could time travel (which he coulve bcz him and Lila went back to the "present" which is 7 years earlier than when they were stuck). Then stop them from drinking the Sake/Marigold. Merging the marigold with Jennifer and everything is fixed? Bcz they didnt have their powers anymore?

Either way

I might follow up on this, I might not.

But I do hope that some share my opinion, even if many dont.

Bye loves!

[actualbird]

//cn spoilers

been watching and playing billiards a lot recently and i have to say: ARTEM FUCKING WING WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING RESPECT THE GAME I'M SO PISSED-

https://twitter.com/nxx_eun_03/status/1672893389510176768

The only situation where he might be on the table like this is if he can't hit the q ball (white one) but from the positioning, HE CAN HIT IT JUST FINE WITHOUT GETTING ON THE TABLE LIKE THIS.

Next and my biggest issue: What the actual fuck is that arm positioning. Congrats Artem, I hate it.

If he's going to hit like that it messes up aim. he might hit the ball too low or it might not even hit the balls he wanted to. In the video, he did hit too low, and maybe with a bit too much force. The ball is going to bounce and completely miss the ball he's trying to hit if it's anywhere near the q ball, but even if it didn't bounce it's going to completely fuck up his shot.

IN FACT HE SHOULDN'T EVEN BE IN THAT POSITION TO START WITH. The only time when you have the pole raised higher than barely above the table is when you have a ball near the q ball and you're trying to avoid touching it by accident (that's a foul). THERE'S LITERALLY NOTHING HE MIGHT ACTUALLY HIT SO ARTEM IS MESSING UP HIS SHOT FOR NO REASON WHAT IS HE DOING

AAAAAAAAAYAPAYPAOTAOTARIR --having a meltdown

hi rose! and jhVKJHAFHASFHSAKJFAHAHAHAHAA I SAW THE ARTEM CARD YESTERDAY YEAH BUT OMG IM LOSING IT AT HIS POSTURE BEING PRAGMATICALLY HORRIBLE

i dont know anything about billiards but when i first saw this, my thought process was first "WOW, HOT"

and then "...sir is the leg on the table really necessary?"

now with ur professional opinion that it is Not necessary, this card cg is making me laugh a lot more kjHVKSJHFVJSHDF. like do not get me wrong he is still So Very Hot, but artem. my man. u r gonna mess up this shot and also pull a muscle or something LMAO

the only possible reason i can see for doing this is for sheer Attractiveness Intimidation towards the other player. i mean, if i was going against a hot guy like this and he posed so bombastically uhhhhh Like This, i'd be so flabbergasted and flustered that i'd mess up my next shot easily. JKHVSKJFHVAKHFAK

that or its fanservice (it's most definitely fanservice) and i cant complain about that because as a fan....i am Definitely served

funny thing, i wasnt looking much at his leg personally. i was uh. looking at his hand. uh. i made one (1) very not safe 4 work tweet about his hand on twt and then i decided to stop looking at the card altogether because i wld become increasingly More unhinged if i continued

sidenote: i adore the name of this event "Cue of the Champions" it's so dang clever!!

sidenote 2: im excited because didnt the first series of Alternate Activities/Occupations Solo SSR Events finish already (tailor marius, perfumer vyn, firefighter luke, racecar artem)? is this a SECOND series of Alternate Activities/Occupations Solo SSR Events???? and given how artem's is our first and is of a much more formal aesthetic than the racecar one, am i correct in assuming (i.e. HOPING) that this 2nd series will follow the pattern of artem and luke having a more formal activity (since in the 1st one they had the more 'rugged' activities) this time around, and then marius and vyn getting a more rugged activity to complete the reversal??????

sidenote 3: doES THAT MEAN WE MIGHT GET LUKE IN A SUIT FOR HIS SOLO SSR IN THIS SERIES????????? AAAAAAAA PLEASE PLEASE PLEAAAAASSEEE

sidenote 4: sorry this ask about artem ended up with me thinking about luke. my neural pathways lead back to luke like how all roads lead to rome. jhvJHVKJDFVJKDSF

[nerves-nebula]

I feel so bad because your neglected turtles remind me of all the kids I used to feed throughout school. I split my lunches with so many people in elementary school because I knew what it felt like to hurt. I was not neglected but I had a mentally ill mother that made it hard even though we had more than enough money. I may be autistic or I may be just messed up and could not make friends easily, but somehow all the neglected and abused kids and I formed a pack of nervous, estranged wolves and it was stressful because they were always fighting and no one liked each other but they saw me as a parent figure or something. One of them died because of his neglectful mother and I feel so guilty. Others just lost touch when I went on to middle school and left them behind. My middle school was GREAT at feeding everybody for free which was awesome. My high school not so much but there were too many people to feed by myself so I just always had snacks and slices of bread and gave them whenever someone said they were hungry or looked too skinny. My parents never knew I was taking extra food, they never found out because I was super sneaky. I sometimes skipped my own lunch in order to keep it a secret from them. I made another estranged nervous friend who definitely was neglected by a parent that struggled with depression. Everyone had just accepted that he "didn't need lunch" which was absolute bullshit. It was a fight to get him to accept food every day and it almost became a game because I had to find ways to slip food into his backpack or coat or find his next class before he got there. He was sneaky back and sometimes succeeded in sneaking food BACK into my bag like an asshole. I think I really pissed him off. I don't blame him for cutting contact after graduating, we were kind of estranged and distant and we were not really friends, he probably hated me for having to accept food. I would definitely feed your turtles every day if I knew them. They remind me of everyone I that I couldn't feed in high school. I know they're not real. I just want to feed them though.

Yknow something sorta similar happened to me, though not to the same extreme. I ended up hanging out with a group of queer/autistic kids during lunch at my first high school, and I was constantly eating their extra apples, milk, celery, etc. if they didn’t want it. It’s actually a bit funny, because I was researching signs of abuse/neglect for one of my stories and I noticed one that was like “asks for other kids food/hoards food at school” and I was like "lol same" so I started to catalog the symptoms I related to and I kept them as a screenshot on my desktop for the longest time.

but also, as a person with a shit history with food, i'd prolly be pissed if someone kept sneaking food into my bag too hahh. cuz i cant just eat anything i'm given so if i say no to food and someone makes me take it anyway it annoys me. and i'd feel violated if someone like, touched my stuff without me knowing. but it sucks that that kid didn't have food and everyone just accepted that.

as for my turtles, they'll be fine, they make sure each other eats enough when they're older

[yuridovewing]

I know we'll never actually get it from these writers, but I genuinely love Curlfeather as a character and a bit of a villain.

Like to say she "never loved Frostpaw" is just downright false, she threw herself to the dogs to save her and we know that that is a painful and terrifying way to die.

Like I imagine her motivation for manipulating Frost was "I've seen Riverclan fall apart, I've seen what poor leadership can do to a clan. I need to do this so my kits never have to feel that way ." Like motivations similar enough to Berryheart's but less outwardly hateful of others.

Also like what if toxic Yuri between the moms, I'd dig it. And then her death throws a wrench into Berry's plans and she decides to mess with Splashtail's plans and make his leadership hell. Not to help Riverclan, but just to spite him. (Splashtail annoys me and I really don't like how he's portrayed as both super tyrannical and also cunning and manipulative. Pick one, Erins.)

But yeah to act like Curl never loved Frostpaw, I think it's wrong

YEAH i do still need to read asc for myself but the excerpts ive seen with her are genuinely interesting. i love flawed parent figures (when handled well) and think in a better book series that she'd be a really fascinating character. but because mom figures cant be deeper than a puddle, everyone has to say that shes an abusive bitch even though she... really isnt? shes a flawed mother, shes not a great person, she did treat frostpaw like a pawn, but that doesn't mean you have to see her as a one dimensional bitch who never loved her children at all (also ppl saying she "groomed" splashtail?????!? like jesus i know they mean "trained to be a murderer" but thats a loaded statement)

but also like.... isnt it BORING to just say "no she never loved her children she just girlbossed til she flopped"? isnt it much less interesting for her to just love kicking babies? isnt it more compelling that she did love frostpaw but was willing to use her as a pawn anyways as a "the ends justify the means" scheme? isnt it more compelling that in her most desperate moment, her first instinct was to save her daughter? how she shuts splashtail down when he insults her? like she made a mistake and it cost her her life and her daughter's innocence? why do yall wanna neuter her so bad to just rainflower again??????

[wishchthumblr]

ive made a lot of self-inserty ocs in my time, and if you'd look at them all you'll see most of the time theyre the child/little sister of one of the characters. one of the characters who is kind. who cares. who loves. who wont leave her or hurt her or lie to her or hate her. who is stong and will protect her. im realizing all those inserts are just because the connections and relationships i give to her is what i desperately wish for.

i just want someone to see my pain and take me into their arms and let me crawl onto their lap and hide in the crook of their neck. i want someone to gently pet my hair and let me cry on their shoulders. i want someone to see me, all of me, all my flaws and cuts and marks and failures and faults and all my ugliness and mistakes and all the mean things ive done, and i want them to say that its ok. that they love me anyway and that im only human and that its ok to hurt sometimes. i want someone to see my cuts and my bruises and hold me gently anyway, i want someone who'll get a warm towel and clean my wounds and tell me im still beautiful. that im not ruined. that i still have worth.

i want to be able to put down the masks and the pretend in front of another person and still feel safe. i dont want to feel like i have to run away whenever the tears come because im scared they'll see me as weak and useless and pathetic and dumb and annoying and a waste.

i want someone i can trust to tell the truth tell me im pretty, and that despite how much ive been hurt i can still be kind, and that im still loved and that its not to late for me to be a better person, that im not already a horrible person. that im just a kid who made a lot of mistakes. i want someone to hold me and let me cry and tell me that it wasnt my fault, that i was just a child and that it shouldn't have been my responsibility in the first place.

i just want to able to be the small one, the young one, the one who is comforted instead of always having to comfort others. i just want a family where i can act like the youngest, because thats what i am, instead of being forced to be the adult.

i just want a father who cares about me, that i dont have to constantly fear is going to come back into my life and hurt me again, that didnt tell me how awful and ugly and pathetic i am over and over and over and over until i had no choice but to believe him, that didnt hate me. that didnt leave me. that didnt make it very clear that he would always put the needs and wants of himself and his girlfriend before the needs of his child. i wish i didnt know what being unwanted felt like at 7 years old.

i want a mother who that i can cry on without having to be aware of how she's feeling, that i can talk to without feeling like i have to constantly censor myself to not give away just how much she messed me up, that i can hug and be comforted by instead of feeling like my skin is burning every time she touches me. i dont want to be forced to be a therapist to my own mother, hearing all the things i have in common with my father and how all those qualities make a person terrible. i wish i didnt know how to stop crying on command, how to be numb and empty at 12 years old.

i want a big brother who will protect me instead of hurt me, i want to be able to look at my brother and know he'll chase all the monsters away instead of being the monster. i wish i wasnt forced to have this specific room because its the only room where the door opens in, so that he cant open it if he wants to hurt me. i dont want to have to think about what i'd do if he stops pulling his punches one day and kills my mother. or if he kills my dog. or if he kills me. I dont want to be forced to hide all the fragile things because he might break them. i dont want to live in a house where we have to hide the knives because you never know what he'll do. i wish i didnt know how to quickly hide the fragile and valuable things and how to take the hits and hide the pain and hide the fear at seeing my mother on the floor after being beaten by my big brother at 10 years old.

i wish i lived a life where im not scared that everyone i love will hurt me. i wish i had a family who are the reason i wake up in the morning instead of being the reason i want to go back to sleep.

i wish i had a family i could look at and honestly and truthfully say, "i know they would mourn me if i killed myself."

but i cant say that. because i genuinely dont know if they would.

and i think the most terrible thing of all, is that i dont know if i would mourn them either

and that thought is terrifying to me

[calkale]

I'd love to hear more of your thoughts in re mi7, cause most of the responses to the movie that I've come across have been positive (which clashes with the way I see it....) and I really agree about the negatives you mentioned (stunts being underwhelming even though they're the trademark of the series, the literal main character being neglected in favor of someone who's appearing in the series for the first time and whose biggest credit is that fuckass cgi disaster excuse for a multiverse movie- fr I had to look Hayley Atwell up to see what she'd even been in- and the long-standing supporting cast including luther, who'd been there since the beginning, just being discarded by the script like litter out of a car window). also it'd be cool to hear about smaller details cause often something is really off about a script and it kinda ruins the whole thing but you don't really know what it was till afterwards, and with new releases you can't rewatch or discuss it with much of anyone else (again, all there is are column reviews and stuff and they're mostly the same and very general on account of staying spoiler-free ).

Okay gonna be honest i havent looked at a single review or post about this movie other than the ilsa one i reblogged this morning cause im still so upset over it. Thank you for sending this ask cause i felt so alone lmao im glad someone agrees with my thoughts.

I hate them for making hayley the main character, if these are the last two movies, which it feel like they are, ethan and luther should really be the main characters along with benji and ilsa, not some new character. All for adding new characters and hayley couldve been in the start of the movie she had a place there she was the thief but after that she literally just took ilsas spot as the “woman of the team” as well as ethans spot in the spotlight.

This movie also seems to go against a lot of things ive heard mcq say in interviews, i cant source them cause i dont remember which ones theyre from but he’s talked about not over explaining things in movies and hes talked about not not wanting a strong female lead thats exactly like what hayelys character is in this movie. The over explaining thing happens SO FUCKING MUCH in this movie i was so bored and it just made me more lost because there was all this information i was taking in CONSTANTLY and i was trying to remember what character was doing what and who they were and it was just too much. I get this movie is probably more of a set up for part two but now we have all this shit we need to remember for part two and i dont even really wanna see it if im being honest, i will but if its anything like part one i know im gonna be disappointed again especially if its going in the direction i think its going.

Ive been trying to remember a lot of the smaller details that i noticed when watching it but a lot of them were part of bigger issues anyway so i just kinda grouped them together. Ill talk about the plot tho cause i knew i was gonna hate it but i didnt know id hate it for this reason. In other mi movies theyre doing the things they do because they have no other choice, in this movie it felt like there were so many choices that couldve been made and they didnt even talk about them it was just we’re doing this and thats it. Like on the train there were definitely better ways of doing that and i get there were short on time but that was almost exactly like the burj khalifa scene. Short on time, cant make a mask, need to meet with someone to make a deal. I just feel like there was so much more that they couldve done with that and the cliff jumping stunt and they just didnt do anything it was so underwhelming.

Going off of that a lot of things in this movie just didnt make sense to me and/or didnt need to be there, the ai villain?? Honestly couldve been cut completely, yes it was creepy but it didnt like actually do anything? everything it did couldve easily just been garbiel messing with the team and that wouldve also given paris more screen time (which i really would’ve liked i loved her character). As much as i loved briggs and degas they also didnt really need to be there? Dont get me wrong they were one of the things i really loved about this movie especially degas but there was really no point in them being there.

The main focus of the movie should have just been getting the keys and destroying them so no one can use the weapon that was on the sub, the ai did not need to be a part of it, someone couldve found the untraceable sub because this is fucking mission impossible!! Thats what happens in these movies!! The impossible!! Im grabbing tom cruise by the shoulders and shaking him nothing impossible happened in this movie

The submarine scene at the start also bothered me. I was fully expecting that to be the big stunt at the start of the movie i was really excited i was constantly like omg wheres ethan, i thought the torpedo or missile they saw on the radar was ethan and that was him entering the sub and something was gonna happen but no, not even close. Not a bad opening just not what i expected and that kinda made it bad.

This is an absolute mess of a post my apologies i have much more to say but i need to get back to drawing benji

[lovedistrict]

this is a follow-up ask. i was the one who lashed out at her boyfriend and told him "i hate you" out of anger and then regretted it. this is an update here.

so, we talked for a while, i apologized again in person, as sincerely as i could. he said he would forgive me, under 4 conditons:

i promise to never do that again (done)

go see a therapist about why i get angry easily (doing that, have an appointment booked for next week)

prove through my actions that i meant my apology (doing that, will try my best to do it)

get him a FUCK TON of noodles from that restaurant he likes (will hopefully do some time soon)

but, i still can't help but think: i fucking hate myself for it. i should be happy with the fact that he's even forgiven me (i'd expect someone like him to break up w/ me and then block my phone number, given his past experiences).

but i constantly feel like i ruined our relationship and broke his trust. someone said you always remember the bad things over the good ones.

i could say sorry to him 10 more times, i could tell him "i love you" every day, but he'd still probably remember that day. and he'd think "no, she's just pretending. she secretly hates me". but i really don't. not at all. he's the best fucking thing that happened to me. i've still been sad about it. ik there's people who have done worse than me to their partner, but i feel like the worst person on earth even now.

Ok. My opinion on this is firstly that he shouldn’t demand anything in order to forgive you. The only thing that one should actually demand (if so) it’s for the other one to be actually sorry for his/her actions. And ask for forgiveness. Even though sometimes we have to forgive people who don’t recognize their mistakes in order to free ourselves from them. But that’s not the case.

So let’s work on you. You did say I’m sorry a couple of times now. He’s made all these demands which you’re willing to do and you are already doing. The noodle part seemed like a joke, but even that one, you’re willing to make. What else does he want from you? Sorry but you’re being to hard on yourself. It was a mistake, I know, but that’s what we do. Sometimes we fuck things up and to be in a relationship you have to be resilient in a lot of ways. He’s probably frustrated because it reminded him of his last relationships so that shows that he also needs to work on that.

You can’t live your life afraid to messing up again. I’m sure he also messes up things sometimes because no one’s perfect.

And no. We shouldn’t remember the bad things over good ones. That’s such a shitty way of living haha.

So if I was in your shoes I’d have a conversation with him and ask him if he’s truly able to forgive me because I do feel bad about it but I don’t want to live my life as if I’m always on debt with him. You know? When we truly forgive someone, the pain should also be set free and disappear from our hearts. And we shouldn’t hold grudges. Especially in your case which wasn’t a life or death situation or anything really truly serious. So I’d figure out if he’s willing to forgive me or not. And if he wasn’t, I’d have to walk away.

That’s what I’d do.

Maybe this whole situation happened to help you guys. So the both of you can work on yourselves. Do therapy. Maybe since he’s been so hurt in the past, he cant deal with the fact that everybody’s gonna hurt us sometimes. So he pushes away and overreacts.

But that’s just the truth. Intentionally or not. That’s just life.

Hope I was able to help you!

[diariesofanalmostdoctor]

9th September 2019

Excerpt from personal diary, aged 15 - Sat in English lesson where we were told to just write what we were thinking to get our #creative juices# flowing

I am trying to write. I have no words and soon all my words will be one big mess, all because I don't know what I want to write. I don't want to write. I'm listening to my brain. He's saying "write about the gay" and I'm saying "no" because I don't want to be like that; because as soon as there is structure or something specific to write about, I'm out. My hand hurts. Displacement sucks. 9/11 today. I hate this task but weeks ago I loved it. Maybe it's because I have to perform it in front of my class. It's hard to write inside. I have to have something natural to help me think and maybe a nice vintage typewriter, and a DVD player and someone to think for me. I want to burn all my letters, all of them; I don't need them. Maybe organise a bonfire on the beach and burn them or set them free in the ocean or just get rid of them because I don't need them anymore. If anyone reads them while we're there I can say they're scrap paper, blank out all the names with sharpie and pray to god that nobody guesses. I'll talk to [friend] about it. Sometime in November probably, around my birthday maybe? I don't know? A Saturday? And have a sausage sizzle and marshmallows and smores and swim and rock climbing and trying to not let people drown because knowing him, he'd pretend to and knowing me, I'd dive in and he'd laugh and I'd call him an idiot and we'd be fine. And I want to be fine cause god damnit if im not. Maybe invite [friend] and [redacted] and [redacted] and show [redacted] what he's really missing out on cause fuck it I'm still mad.

In sport today he was looking at me and I don't know if its good or bad but he was and I can't remember what I was doing but he was looking and I cant stop thinking about it....

.... I don't like PE because he's there and I can't believe I'd be so stupid as to think he'd like me

[anothersuicidesunday]

Well let's see, I think I survived 8 weeks PP without post natal depression. Though is post natal anxiety a thing?

Here goes..

So I got induced 2 weeks early and the doctor was fine with me trying a vaginal birth. I got an epidural. But you cant feel anything after so I dont think I did well at pushing, she did however get stuck, go into distress and I had an emergency c section.

Should I have just done that as advised anyway? Maybe.. but I've never had a baby before so I had no idea what to expect of anything. All I knew was recovery times were drastically different. My personal takeaway is this..

I'd happily be one and done with children still. I HATED pregnancy, birth is unpredictable and I got a really good baby. Why mess with perfection. Also though I got an easier baby than some I still have my share of mental load capacity which I need some venting space on.

So if we go back to the birth, I had my uninvited mother barge into the hallway, freaking out and pissing off nurses that took my birthing partner away from me to deal with. Upset 1.

Upset 2 however was that said birthing partner made me feel like it was my fault the baby got stuck. Which i was assured by the midwife was in fact beyond my control. There was nothing actually wrong with the vaginal delievery except that the baby wedged herself into my pelvis. Which is not where the doctor thought she'd get stuck. So that was the hospital upsets.

Being home is a journey. As the mum you care more about things. Like when she is in pain and crying, i want to find ways to fix the problems. I wouldnt care if i had to change the formula 10 times if that was the problem. He gets annoyed at me. So now I feel like I'm suffering with her because I feel as though I'm not allowed to try.

I'm not usually the kind of person who cares what people think but it's becoming really overwhelming to be constantly told you are doing something wrong. I'm not concerned with developmental milestones. I just want her to be healthy. Plus how do you expect her to achieve developmental milestones if her little body isnt functioning the way it should be?? In my head if we addressed her stomach pains she would be more comfortable and then be more willing to do tummy time or even sleep alone. But hey what do I know....

Even though I chose not to breast feed due to my touching aversion it's funny how you still feel touched out because even though he'll argue he took 8 weeks off work you still do 90% of the childcare. Especially since she started sleeping 7-8 hours overnight. I just feel mostly overwhelmed and it makes me feel even more so like I can't leave her.

He wants a physical relationship and things on his terms and I dont think he ever really considers how I might feel. And I dont say anything because I know he's just going to tell me he's been home for 8 weeks therefore my feelings are irrelevant.

[mosviqu]

IT PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH AND I HATE ALL OF THE THINGS I GOT TO KNOW ABOUT THIS ERA THEIR HARD WORK IS NOT APPRECIATED ENOUGH WAHHH

i didn't even have the motivation to check out the last song from them ngl💔💔very sad about them but maybe i will like it after watching music shows lmao i wont give up (fully) on the 03liners💔 WAITTTT TRUE HOW DID I FORGET ABOUT INTAK WHAT THE HECK I WAS SO HAPPY ABOUT HIM (and same i saw that they are having a cb and i was like:o i forgot about u guys:o) AN AMAZING CREW!!!! also would selfishly add enhypen sunoo he is a lovely 03 liner as well🥹 (idk know mcnd☹️☹️ i heard like 2-3 of their songs but i never checked them out☹️ BUT IM HAPPY THERE IS AN 03 LINER IN THERE!!!)

IT IS IMPORTANT BUT IM STILL NOT SURE IF ITS 100% TRUE😭 i love keeho so much like that was the point where i was like yeah u are going to be my fav from here!! seeing the screenshots of it still makes me laugh so much

i can imagine that😭 my sister was in the exact same situation as u💀

IT WAS!!!! dino is lovely and i would love to see u being his body guard ngl🤣 I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY THEY DIDNT DO IT💔💔just such a big heartbreak💔💔ALSO TALKING ABOUT TREASURE DID U HEAR THE SNIPPET HE POSTED OF A SONG??? it sounds very great imo

I CAN SO RELATE TO THAT!!! english is so hard without english classes i never realized that till now💔 i only talk in english with my sister but it's a mess i even just struggle to put together sentences now😭 writing my replies takes so much brain cells from me so i always just pray that u will get what i'm trying to say even if it's not correct lmao🥸 RECORDING VLOGS IS SO MUCH FUN!! i did it for a while and it was so amazing so i recommend it only sent them to my bestie but it was actually so funny😭 THE BRITISH PEOPLE GOT US REAL HARD💔

(AHHH THANK U SO MUCH;-; I APPRECIATE IT!!! HANBIN!!! I HOPE U WILL HAVE MORE MOMENTS OVER HIM LMAO HE IS VERY GREAT😌 although be careful with asking me about zbone members cuz idk three of them;-; but working on it🤞 and u can tag me or message me ofc i dont mind🥹💕) (liebestraum anon🥳💕)

LITERALLYYYY i saw a tiktok where it compared all the other dances where its a member x woman (ten or baek) and it said "so this is okay, but this isnt?" showing enha and the comments were like "we are the problem" LMAO so at least they are self-aware.

no because i was really disappointed too >:(( but the title track still slaps i said what i said. watched them perform it too and they have cute bubbly vibes i am heartbroken for the lack of interest from my side. NO BC WHEN I STARTED BIASING INTAK AND REALISED HE WAS A 03 LINER I HAD A MENTAL BREAKDOWN. ((still am a jiung girlie at heart tho). i am really excited for their cb tho it sounds amazing!!! HOW DID I FORGET ABOUT SUNOO WHAT THE FUCK AAAAAAAAAA IM SO SORRY he's my fav 03 liner. ((there are actually 2 03 liners in mcnd but i forgot the other one LMAO i honestly cant remember their names anymore but i had a very short mcnd phase lol. all i know is that i'd die for minjae thats all)

i would honestly be a good bodyguard bc i have a lot of rage in me. like i could fully fight someone if i was mad enough LMAOO. everything for dino baby <3 I DID SEE THE SNIPPET I LOST MY SHIT LOWKEY HIGHKEY I AM SO EXCITED AAAAAAA

i mean english isnt really hard for me if we are talking abt writing and stuff but speaking out loud is more difficult if you don't regularly do it >:( dont worry we are on the same wavelength i always know what u mean w your replies AHAH sometimes i speak in eng w my roommate bc she is an english major (she only picked the major bc of me and then i ended up doing psychology so i owe her this bc her english isnt as good as mine) I USED TO RECORD VLOGS W MY BROTHER but we never posted them thank god. i'm still down to do it honestly its so fun LMAO

hanbin.......i looked up his name on tiktok once and now my fyp is filled with him and im so in love he's so cute and adorable and sweet like i saw clips of ppl giving him letters and how much he loves getting them and even asked if anyone has letters for him please zb1 fans give him letters!!!!!! no bc i only know ricky, hanbin, zhang hao and matthew :,) but the more i see them on my fyp the more i am convinced to stan once they debut like i legit debated on watching boys planet yesterday bc i lowkey like survival shows but when i found out the eps are 2 hours long i decided to just....not...do that...

also a small update on the tbz recs i did some progress and i really liked diamond life and survive the night :p i have like 11 songs left from the ones u recommended LMAO but yeah i loved those two

[oliviamillss]

understanding my own chart

(no sugarcoating)

sun in aries, 27 degrees, 8th house: i've never really thought of myself as an aries person, and i suppose that's what put me off astrology for a while. i think it makes sense that it's in a gemini degree, i tend to follow the gemini stereotypes. my sun in 8th house was not a shock to me. i'm a person who's extremely open and comfortable about anything taboo, and it all fascinates me, especially cults. i also have major trust issues, which also ties in within the 8h culture. i suppose the 8h'ness' is emphasised with my sun trine pluto

moon in sagittarius, 13 degrees, 4th house: i always try to make myself seem perfectly fine and happy, and wash over all my negative emotions with positive ones. i also would say my emotions are a lot, and something i find really difficult to deal with. i am the soppiest person out there, and get extremely attached to people, objects and places within a second. i numb my emotions down when they all get too much, however the slightest bit affects it.

moon square uranus, moon square venus and moon square ascendant: oh my god you can really tell one of my life's lessons is to do with emotions, cant you? these moon squares are really negative and affecting my life majorly. can we talk about moon square uranus for a second, because jesus christ my emotional unstability!! i literally don't know how i feel at a given moment and even then, it changes so incredibly quickly. im super sensitive to any emotion and it affects everything. moon square venus is messing everything up, my needs within a relationship vs my wants dont match up at allll. this aspect also doesn't help at all with me getting attatched so easily, it's like i literally need them to keep me alive. and onto moon square ascendant, why tf am i so scared of people knowing i have emotions??? im so terrified to express them, even happy emotions. i hate people seeing me have emotions, and feel extremely uncomfortable when anyone can see through the wall i create.

virgo ascendant, 9 degrees: i am the biggest perfectionist ever, with everything. i literally cannot show that i'm interested, or doing something until i'm absolutely perfect at it. i want people to view me as a smart person, and i tend to surround myself with smart people. i care about my looks so much, wanting to look so perfect, that i literally cannot do anything about them because i'm never going to be happy. having an exact lilith conjunct ascendant is helpful,, in a way, i guess the sexualisation of me increases my confidence? i told my friend that and he thought it was weird af. i saw a post the other day, so this is me confirming it, but i am so good at like faking innocence to get what i want from certain people, i fake submission to them, and i do it for the dumbest stuff, like being 1 person higher in the queue.

aries mercury, 1 degree, 8th house: i wouldn't necissarily think im the aries mercury stereotype, but i think my mars being in cancer, and mercury in 8th makes the difference. i do have quick thoughts though, it's like in a way keywords that have like huge sentences attatched? a significant amount of what i talk and think about is majorly taboo things, i'd say a significant amount of my life is about taboo things.

i also have a fuck ton of mercury aspects but i'm too tired to go into detail on these

pisces venus, 12 degrees, 7th house: i am the biggest romantic/idealist. if i love someone i sugarcoat everything, and make come up for excuses for every single red flag. if i fall for someone i am so incredibly in love with them, and all i can think about is them. i need constant attention and i need to feel loved, and im the biggest overthinker and clearly a lot of work lmao. i tend to see my crushes/partners as perfect, and 'out of a movie'. i also love being babied in a way, nothing weird, just i like being treated in a way that means i don't have as much responsibility as i feel like i do in the real world. my venus conjunct uranus makes everything difficult af. i struggle to get into a relationship, i prefer situationships, and the chase, rather than being fully committed to another.

cancer mars, 10th house, 2 degrees: when i'm angry, everyone knows it. not in a way that i express it physically, i just go silent af. literally its somehow deafening. sometimes i fake being okay, people can see through that though. i cry when im angry too, a lot lol. i'm also extremely competitive, i hate guessing games in case im wrong lol. i also have a need to know where i stand, and others stand in society. with mars square north node, i go significantly out of my way to spite people. also when i feel like im the best at something, i thrive in that situation, but if i think just 1 person is better, i hate myself for it

[sunarintoes]

Pretty Setter Squad Boyfriend Headcanons

part one can be found here II wc: 2.4k II includes: kageyama, suga, kenma, akaashi, semi and oikawa II atsumu and shirabu 

rewriting because i cringe at the old hcs 😭

✗ Kagggggsss

✗ The emotionally constipated blueberry <3 oh yeahh 😎

✗ Okay well first off he can barely process his emotions (*cough* evidently *cough*)

✗ When you two first started going out he was quite shy and unsure of what to do so you may have had to guide him a bit, but if youre equally shy then it just would have taken longer to get to where you are now; oh and if that was the case it probably took some random burst of energy/confidence from either one of you to make the first move. 

✗ He will buy you milk but uf you hate it (like me 🤢) he will buy you another drink - like juice :D

✗ I dont think he will be the most affectionate, it’s not his love language - and neither are words haHAH. His love language is most likely quality time and gift giving.

✗ He does like to cuddle though 😳

✗ In fact he really likes to :D his favourite is when youre sitting in his lap while he watches a volleyball game (at home - he hates pda). 

✗ This brings us to our next, short point. Kageyama absolutely despises pda, he just thinks its something meant for closed doors and he does not believe that he has to display his relationship for the whole world to ogle at. The most he will do is light hand holding - mostly just linking your pinkies though.

✗ When it comes to height he does not care if you're smaller or taller than him ← but bb, please don't tease him about his height if he’s shorter because he will blow a fuse.

✗ He alternates between small spoon and big spoon, kinda depending on his mood. 

✗ BOY O BOY does he get jealous. Uh please reign in your setter >:( 

✗ Its mostly due to the fact that he’s insecure about himself - he thinks you will leave him like everyone else (in middle school - yes, he is still traumatised from it.)

✗ When he does get jealous he might be snappy to the other person and glare at them or be snappy at you and glare at you. When this happens please give him space because he needs it to clear his head. When he feels better he will come up to you and hug you into his chest so that he can’t see your face and you cant see his, then he will mumble an apology.

✗ Ever since you two began to date he has practiced apologising and getting better at apologising, this is because his inability to admit to his own mistakes was a sour patch in your relationship that almost ended it but he really did not want to lose you so he sucked up his pride and worked on what he had to; of course you also worked in what you had to. God I love character development 😩

✗ Dates are mostly at home dates or dates revolving around volleyball. If you're not into volleyball, Kageyama would not date you, it's something he is so passionate about and loves with every breath he takes (like you) and he refuses to compromise one love for the other. 

✗ ooooh he likes arcade dates a well! He thrives in a competitive environment. If you're not competitive and don't want to compete against him then he’ll compete for you - against the machines lol. Of course you play as well! But i doubt youre as competitive as this blueberry, and if you are - well i guess at the end of the day youll both be stacked in tokens 🤠

✗ Sugawara my beloved <33

✗ He. Is. So. Affectionate! 

✗ Mans loves skin on skin contact ykwim?

✗ He is down for pda and does not care what others think - only what you think <3. 

✗ I mean he might make out with you in public if you ask nicely 

✗ Dates are very fun with him, he’ll take you to cafes, to amusement parks, to carnivals, to movies and all the like. He’s a cliche lover and he’s proud of it.

✗ Your first kiss happened on New Years Eve/Day. The two of you sat on the roof of his house and watched as the fireworks lit up the starry sky of Miyagi and chanted the count down together. The second ‘one’ left your lips he grabbed your face (softly!!) and pulled you in to crash his lips against yours. 

✗ Suga loves to cuddle, preferably face to face because he just thinks you're the most beautiful person in the world. 

✗ He is not the most jealous person, he definitely does get jealous but never of strangers. It's more when his close friends or your close friends get a bit too comfortable if that makes sense? He normally plays it off with humour and messes around because he acknowledges that he is insecure and that it is most likely him thinking of the worst case scenario; however if he really does start to worry and get jealous then he will sit you down and talk about it with you. To him, communication is key. 

✗ Ngl Kenma is definitely in my top 3 favourites. 

✗ I may or may not be a Kenma kinnie 😳🙈

✗ i love my non-toxic gamer boy <33 anywho: no matter what ANYONE says, kenma is definitely affectionate. In fact I'd say he’s one of the most affectionate boyfriends. As we all know, he is shy and introverted but he likes to hang around and spend time with people he likes. He also talks a lot to them. So I hc that he’s a bit of a chatterbox with you and it makes him really happy when you let him talk about a game or a theory he has. He’s a great listener so you can count on him to pay attention to what you say.

✗ if you didn't already have one, he bought you a switch. He loves video game dates especially when he can't see you in person (*cough* lockdown *cough*) 

✗ he loves when you sit on his lap when he plays video games. I know everyone talks about sitting on their partner’s lap as some sexual thing and yeah that can happen but most of the time he’s really soft with you and just enjoys being close to you. Loves when you cuddle into him while he plays so that he can place his head on yours or your shoulder. 

✗ i think he is a bit shy when it comes to kisses but definitely warms up after a while. He absolutely refuses to sleep if he doesnt get your goodnight kisses. He loves to kiss you on your nose and your cheeks the most. He loves when you kiss him on the forehead and the nose <3

✗ kenma is not one for pda, it's just not his vibe. He prefers intimacy and privacy; his relationship is not a movie for the world to watch and gawk at. Especially timeskip!kenma. Though that does not mean he wont ever show you skinship in public, occasionally he will softly hold your hand and maybe press a light kiss to your cheek. 

✗ in terms of jealousy, he is moderate. Kenma, as we all know, has incredible people reading skills, so he understands the situation pretty clearly and knows when you’re uncomfortable/what you think of the situation. Most of the time you can deal with the unwanted attention and he doesnt get jealous, but he does get insecure. He shows this by going quiet and looking away when you look at him, you can cure this by giving him hugs when you get home. 

✗ Akaashi my beloved <3 he’s so pretty i can't even-

✗ ugh! Just imagine him in a dark/light academia aesthetic. 

✗ perfection. 

✗ akaashi is the sweetest most attentive boyfriend, he loves you to pieces and never fails to let you know. He tells you he loves you every morning and every night. He probably makes meals for you and leaves notes in that have a sweet comment like “i love you, you're the best <3” 

✗ he love back hugging you BUT also receiving back hugs 🥺✨

✗ akaashi is a booknerd and an introvert. Please cuddle up to him and let him read his book to you. 

✗ there are only 2 things that can restore his social battery: sleeping and you.

✗ which means he wants cuddles when he’s tired 😊

✗ he is not jealous. He just doesn't get jealous, maybe annoyed if the third party is being a bit too pushy and you're clearly uncomfortable, but he just never feels jealous. No matter how hard you may try to make him jealous (plz dont cause that's kinda toxic imo) he just won't feel that way.

✗ definitely the ‘mom/dad’ as he carries sinister, pads, bandaids → a whole first aid kit basically, everywhere. Bb must be prepared. 

✗ dates are so sweet with him, cute niche cafes and dimly lit libraries. Maybe the occasional abandoned building. He loves spending time with you, so really he's happiest whenever he’s with you; having coffee at McDonalds or a niche cafe won't change anything. 

✗ he’s hard to pinpoint for pda. I feel like he’s indifferent about it. He probably prefers to keep it indoors or to just small and sweet gestures (no making out in public sorry-). It definitely comes down to your preferences, if you don't like it then he won't and vice versa.

✗ semi semi semi semi semi semi

✗ omg mr musician 

✗ he definitely plays guitar - lead guitar and bass guitar. 

✗ skilled fingies for sure 😗

✗ boy why are musicians so hot???? 😫😫😫💦💦

✗ he writes songs about you. Semsem has a bit of trouble saying exactly how he feels, so he writes it and sings it to you with a small little smile and eyes full of love. 

✗ off topic but Semu has the best music taste in haikyuu

✗ he loves hugs so much <33 please hug and cuddle with him 24/7

✗ very affectionate, he’s always touching you someway. Loves kissing your forehead. 

✗ he is jealous. Yeah definitely. He writes songs about being jealous 🗿 not that you mind of course ‘cause they're bangers. I think he might get snappy when he’s jealous, not directly at you but at the other person. He definitely gets a bit bitchy. Sometimes he acts that way to you so you've just gotta slap some sense into him. Say something like “what's your problem?” or “tell me what your problem is so i can help fix it.” ← that's probably the best thing to say. 

✗ afterwards he’ll just snuggle with you until he feels better. 

✗ he asks for your opinion about his songs all the time, please be honest (but also praise them if you like them lol)

✗ he takes you to niche spots he finds, like hidden concerts and stuff. Loves when you come to his gigs <3 oh and when you scream for him (in more ways than one). 

✗ dates are cute and fun. Mostly walking around together → carnivals, main street, farmers market. Those kind of things. 

✗ when it comes to pda he loves it. Loves being able to show the world who his s/o is. If you don't like it then he will tone it down and only do what you’re comfortable with. If you're also into pda then he will happily make out with you anywhere (you're one of THOSE couples 🤢 /j) 

✗ all round best boyfie <3

✗ oikawa 😳 have i told y'all how much i love him? Oikawa is the best written character, no cap, he is so complex and real it's crazy. It's so fun to write about him because you can pick him apart, you know his flaws, his weaknesses, his nightmares but also his strengths and dreams. Anywho i'll stop ranting now but i just love writing for such a perfectly imperfect character-

✗ he puts up a cocky exterior but thats all false. He's as scared as you are, he's scared that you'll leave him like his exes because of how obsessed and focused he is on volleyball. However he is a changed man, he's learned to balance his priorities. If you ever feel like you're being sidelined please communicate with him. 

✗ he values communication above all else and wants nothing more in a partner than for them to also value communication.

✗ back to the point → if you feel insecure of your relationship and that volleyball is taking too much of his attention let him know. He will change that. To an extent → he may have an important game coming up which is why he is focusing more, but he will always find time for you. 

✗ he never forgets to text you good morning and good night. He also sends you wholesome memes and makes sure you're taking care of yourself - they're like reminders for him to also take care of himself. 

✗ he is both jealous and insecure. Everyone who gets too close to you or spends a lot of time with you, he is jealous of. Jealous because he wishes he could spend more time with you but he knows he can't - not without jeopardising his volleyball career. He's also insecure, because he knows you could just leave him for a more fulfilling, more attentive, more balanced relationship. You know that too, I mean, of course you could leave him but no one would be as good as him. No one could match up to your beautifully flawed boyfriend.

✗ he is affectionate, very, very affectionate. He loves you so much. And because he spends so much time on volleyball, anytime with you he's touching you - memorizing every dint, every curve, everything about you so that he won't ever forget. 

✗ Oikawa has trouble sleeping unless he's with you, he wants to sling to you in his sleep and be grounded and remember that he is loved and cherished and appreciated y'know?

✗ pda is not an issue for him. He doesn't care what anyone else says or thinks :P in this relationship the only opinions that matter are his and your’s. Tell him you're uncomfortable with something and he won't do it, and vice versa. But otherwise, like Semi, he won't mind having a good makeout session with you in the middle of the street ;)

[https-sen]

Haikyuu Insecure Boyfriend HC's

Recommend to listen while reading!!

Yamaguchi, Suna, and Atsumu x gn!reader

Masterlist

Yamaguchi:

He loves you so much but thing is that he's so insecure that you'd leave him for someone better. Of course you could never do that because he's your pretty boy and you'd stay with him till the end of time.

"Babe..?", he asked while fiddling with the string of his hoodie. You were at the park and had a nice little picnic together. Humming in reply you gave him a warm smile to assure him you're paying attention. "Well.. do you find other people more attractive than I am when I'm around you?", he was a bit surprised of your reaction though. You were shaken up that he'd actually think you're falling out of love with him when in reality you want to savour every moment, every second you get with him. "No one is more perfect than my beautiful angel sitting right infront of me! I would never compare you to anyone when I'm the happiest with you. I love you more than I could combine all my hatred for others, love.", you reassured him with a big hug as you gently stroke his back. "Really? I'm just a little scared you'd leave me for good and I just dont want that..", he tears up. "I'd give up my entire time as long as it means I can be with you more." He cries when he heard you say that. "I love you so much", he sobs into your right shoulder as you peppered him with kisses. "I love you too, darling.", you whisper back.

Suna:

He's not all that affectionate in public but behind closed doors? All he wants is to be embraced by your care and love with words of reassurance. Whenever he lashes out on you, he can't help but wonder if would you be happier with someone else who's more patient, better at anger management and softer with you who could give all he affection you deserve?

"For the last time, I was just gone for work! Well I'm sorry that you dont trust your own s/o(significant other) that's working hard to provide for the both of us.", you huffed as you took off your coat and shoes while your boyfriend quarreled with you. "Look, I had a bad day and I needed you. We could get groceries later and let you go to work like you would everyday but I really, really wanted to spend some time alone. I feel like I'd lose you to someone else who's better than I am and I just want to make every touch count!", you were shocked. He was crying in defeat as insecurity and doubt eats him up. "Baby, no no no.. I would never leave you! What would make you ever think that?", you hugged him as he shuffled closer to embrace your warmth. "I just thought that I was lashing out on you way too harshly and I became afraid that you'd get tired of my bullshit and leave so I guess became clingy..", he muffled from the crook of your neck as you kissed his collarbone to calm him down. "I can't control my anger very well and I'm just scared that I'll make you hate me so-" "I could never, ever hate you." you cut him off. "I love you from the moon and back. Baby, I'd always be around to piece you back together because I care too much to ever drop you. I cant bear the thought of ever leaving you when I can just help you right here, right now.", you told him softly as you kissed his forehead.

Atsumu:

Jokes are one thing but sometimes his words offend you and you would distance yourself a bit because of that. He can't understand you very well but he knows whenever you're hurt. He knows one day he'll say the wrong thing and you'd just pack up and go, taking your love with you.

Just as you got home from work, you started to change and make dinner for both you and Atsumu. You knew his favourite dishes by heart and you knew it would cheer him up every time practice becomes stressful for him. "I'm home!", you heard shouted across the hallway as you set everything up. "Hey, Tsum! How'd practice go?", you asked as you greeted him with a kiss on the cheek. "It was fine, darlin'! Just that I messed up a few sets and coach got pissed.", you giggled at that and dragged him to the kitchen to the heavenly feast you prepared for him as you knew he ate a lot because he loves your cooking so much. Dinner was so awkward without Atsumu's daily jokes to brighten up your day. It was pure silence and you were just staring at you plate. "Tsum, you sure you're okay? You're not acting like your usual self.", you pouted. "It's just 'm afraid I'll say something wrong and hurt ya.. that's all, angel..", he said quietly remembering your last argument that made you feel offended when he made fun of your flaws. "Tsum it was just a misunderstandment, we worked it out and we always will. I know I'm pretty sensitive but that's no reason for you to change the person I love dearly.", he smiles weakly but you could feel the warmth and you smile back. There's not a dull moment during dinner now and you're relieved and glad.

a/n: i loved how these turned out and its fun since its more than 2 characters which i would always do because im a lazy ass sojsjsb btw yamaguchi supremacy 🤳🏻 anyways, give me a follow, reblog and like if you enjoyed it! it helps out bunches and i appreciate it <3

[lacystar]

hey guys, update on my mental health: I'm doing great, but cquackity is so thought you said that you would always be in love but you're not in love no more but honey I'll be seeing you wherever I go but honey ill be seeing you down every road 'cause honey I'll come get my things but I cant let go I'm actin like I don't see every ribbon you used to tie yourself to me midnight we're fading till daylight we're jaded we know that its over in the morning you'll be dancing with all the heartache and the treason the fantasies of leavin' our rules, our dreams, we're blind blowing shit up with homemade d-d-d-dynamite a RUUUUUUUUSH at the beginning I get caught uUUUUUUUP just for a minute but lover you're the one to blame, all that you're doing, can you hear the violence? megaphone to my chest, broadcast the boom, boom, boom, boom, and make 'em all dance to it our thing progresses I call and you come through blow all my friendships to sit in hell with you baby really hurt me crying in the taxi he don't wanna know me says he made the big mistake of dancing in my storm, says it was poison, so I guess ill go home into the arms of the girl that I love, the only love I haven't screwed up she's so hard to please but she's a forest fire I do my best to meet her commands play up romance we slow dance in the living room but all that a stranger would see is one girl, standing alone, stroking her cheek cause I remember the rush when forever was us before all of the winds of regret and mistrust now we sit in your car and our love is a ghost well I guess I should go yeah I guess I should go, hard. feelings. of loooove, when the sweet words and fevers all leave us right here in the co-o-old, alone with the hard feeeeelings of looove god, I wish I'd believed you when you told me this was my home these days we kiss and we keep busy the waves come after midnight I call from underwater why even try to get right? when you've outgrown a lover the whole world knows but you it's time to let go of this endless summer afternoon three years, loved you every single day, made me weak, it was real for me, yeah, real for me now I'll fake it every single day 'till I don't need fantasy till I feel you leave, but ill still remember every thing how we'd drift buying groceries, how you'd dance for me, I'll start letting go of little things till im so far away from you, far away from you, yeah bet you wanna rip my heart out, bet you wanna skip my calls now, well guess what, I'd like that cause im gonna mess your life up gonna wanna tape my mouth shut look out lovers we're l-o-v-e-l-e-s-s generation l-o-v-e-l-e-s-s generation all fuckin with our lovers heads lights are on and they've gone home but who am I? we told you this was melodrama all the glamour and the trauma and the fucking melodrama they'll talk about us all the lovers how we kissed and killed each other break the news, you're walking out to be a good man for someone else sorry I was never good like you in my head I play a supercut of us all the magic we gave off all the love we had and lost and in my head the visions never stop these ribbons wrap me up but when I reach for you its just a supercut we keep tryin to talk about us slow motion im watching our love I'll be your quiet afternoon crush be your violent overnight rush make you crazy over my touch but its just a supercut of us cause in my head in my head I do everything right when you call when you call I forgive and not fight because ours are the moments I play in the dark we were wild and fluorescent come home to my heart and maybe all this is the party maybe the tears and the highs we breathe, maybe all this is the party maybe we just do it violently but you're not who you thought you were I hate the headlines and the weather I'm 19 and im on fire but when we're dancing I'm alright, it's just another graceless night, all of the things we're taking 'cause we are young and we're ashamed send us to perfect places all of our heroes fading now I cant stand to be alone lets go to perfect places

all the nights spent off our faces tryna find these perfect places, what the fuck are perfect places anyways?