#i’m trying to convince myself

[mysticpenguincreation]

God I love Draco Malfoy.

Specifically the fanfiction one. The one who has been changing his views after 4th year, during 6th or 7th year, even the one who started to change after the war.

The endearingly pathetic one who has to take a LOT of time to stand up to his father or to break himself down. The one who has been rebellious from the school years as soon as he realized his bigotry. The soft and vulnerable one, both with the sneer and without it (looking at most 8th year and Post War pieces), although Draco without sneer and sarcasm is not entire Draco to me. The dark and morally grey and grating but still good to his core (looking at The Fallout, Manacled, Happy pills (i think it’s the name?), Rights and Wrongs series). Absolutely vile and dark and unhinged but still good and not entirely evil (Breath Mints/Battle Scars, For your protection). There are so many more but these are the ones I can name of the top off my head.

I love his character, I sympathize with his character. I still want to cry about how much more JK could have done with him in the books. I’m still angry about the deleted wand throwing scene. Give me fucking something, I will go for any crumbs you give me.

The only reasons why i’m not displeased with the supposed HBO reboot, which we haven’t heard about in a long while (which is usually not a good thing), is because i hope they would be able to DO something GOOD about him.

This would have been such a tremendous redemption arc. Instead he turned out mediocre and I guess that’s fine when you think “Well, that’s kind of realistic”. But I done want this from Draco fucking Malfoy character. Literally anyone but him.

God, i’m so thankful to fanfiction. This is my canon and you can’t change my mind.

[alexiraphale]

guys be honest do you think max and charles are just not fighting for lead bc they don’t wanna be on the podium without each other

[royaltea000]

Hmmmm…monkey

[polarsirens]

some thoughts continuing from this modern au looks

[reroscherries]

Looking for ufos (with a side of stargazing and maybe not entirely doing any of those things)

Bonus scribbles ☆彡

[faeriemarie]

did you dream about your dr OR did you shift while your dr self was sleeping and dreaming about their own life? food for thought

[sefynarose]

No one talk to me or my bank account for the next few months 🥲 BUT IT WAS WORTH IT!!!!!

[mtndw-whteout]

TEEBUS !!! god damn is this guy traumatized !!!!

Also moar lore

[nite-puff]

The danganronpa writers really created a character who was the complete antithesis to hope’s peak and some major characters in later games only to pretty much play him for laughs and then kill him off early.

silly little man. representing the very thing the evil organization stood against and actively tried to prove wrong. and yet was still invited to be a part of their school. only to die. silly taka.

[mars-ipan]

Hi, it's me again. I decided to follow your advice and try to seek out your 'actually serious' analysis, which led me to your komahina bible, the most easy to find compilation of this supposed analysis. Here are my thoughts-

1) Overview

- Most of this 'analysis' isn't analysis but a summary/overview of the game. It's not so much a 'bible' as a children's book summary of the bible, which at that point it would be better to play the actual game itself. It's clear it was made for a presentation on the 'uninitiated' if you will, but if that's the case, you shouldn't be advertising it as the literal bible on the subject.

- When you are not regurgitating points from the game beat by beat, the screen is halfway filled with either manga panels or fanart. My gripes with manga panels are, that even though they do depict the events of the game, the way they can be depicted by the artist can be pretty subjective due to the freedom of the medium in comparison to sprites, and that the role of one character can differ depending on whose pov manga it is (chiaki vs nagito). Fan art therefore should be scrutinized even more since it fully depicts abstracted and even the fandomified version of events, leading to situations where it's either unclear what is actually happening or betrays your more shallow view of the characters (i talk abt this later.)

- When you do use pictures directly from the game it's either a possible screenshot from a memorable moment or dialog from the wiki, limited almost exclusively to the freetime events. This leads me to believe that you haven't actually played the game(there are other factors hinting towards this) or watched a Let's Play of it, but going off of merely information that's already widely known and circulating within the fandom, and easy to search on the wiki.

2) Incorrect/Questionable information

Here I'll compile a lot of information that's either plainly wrong or baffling to having come to that conclusion , leading more credence to the theory that you either haven't actually played the game or your memory of it isnt as good as you think.

-"if Nagito's plan went off of without a hitch, he would have killed anyone that was closes to him at the time" plainly wrong. Komaeda's goal from the start was to make himself the victim, so by dying this way his death could have meaning and help the others. For somebody that keeps talking about Komaeda's "Martyr complex" this is truly a weird take to have.

-"Nagito...got the nurse for sure sick" is there any proof that specifically points to Komaeda for this? I believe the takeaway should've been that Mikan got sick because she was around all of them AND she overworked herself trying to take care of them. Is this just an awkwardly phrased attempt to make more of a connection between Tsumiki and Komaeda? I don't think you needed more than the ones that already existed.

- "he helps Junko brainwash a bunch of students" Kamukura at neither point in the anime or Danganronpa 0 was ever specifically implicated in the brainwashing. He never 'helps' Junko, especially in that way. If you meant, participates in the student council killing game, you should've said that, but even then his agency and influence is limited.

-"they found the Remnants and captured them!"...no, they didn't. The Remnants presented themselves as survivors and the Foundation took them in. They handed themselves over willingly. It was a pretty big piece of the final part of the game...

3) Komaeda and Komahina

- "Nagito's habit of putting people on pedestals" Where. Sure, he certainly parrots the belief that the "Ultimates" as a unit are at the top of the food chain and should be prioritised, but its clear that doesn't exactly carry over to his classmates like teruteru, Kuzuryu and even Souda sometimes. Just because of a few positive comments refering to them as Ultimates and the trial which he literally breaks down in, this is a hard position to support.

-"Nagito manipulates Hajime into playing the game" How. He literally just told him to play it. How is that manipulation. Also, isn't it a bit unfair to put the blame on Koizumi's death to him as well? I think they were multiple factors playing into this, but sure, how else are you gonna convince people that Komaeda is a twisted fucking cyclepath that loves leading people to their deaths.

-The way that you say the Kuzuryu/Pekoyama relationship mirrors Komahina as 'I will give up my agency for you/ I just want you' is also confusing. Unless of course you mirror Peko's struggle with her agency and harmful beliefs the clan enforced on her with Komaeda's own belief system, in which case, idk man, i feel like you are giving a bit too much credit to the supposed severity of Komaeda's views and trying too hard to make Hinata the 'rational' and 'grounding' one in the relationship.

- Again, the amount of times you refer to Komaeda as a freak for doing something 'weird' or even being drawn weirdly doing it , mostly in the manga, makes me belief this isn't just an affectionate tongue in cheek joke as you claim, but an actual way in which your interpretation of Komaeda is colored.

-"it doesn't excuse his nonchalance towards tragedy and murder but explains it" what needs to be excused here exactly? Komaeda doesn't need to immediately bawl his eyes out when someone gets killed or else he's suspicious and...bad? I am confused with what you mean by this. If you mean that Komeada shouldn't be so nonchalant about murder because he's constantly trying to kill someone else, that is plainly incorrect and i explained above why.

-Posturing about Komaeda's 'black and white thinking' while in the next exact slide you show fanart of him smugly explaining he has Borderline. First, i want you to explain to me the black and white thinking in a way that isn't "oh, the friends and classmates i previously liked turned out to be fucking terrorists". I think that's a pretty justifiable situation for your thinking to go from white to black. Also, if that is enough credence to assign Komaeda BPD, you really don't know how BPD works, especially since you assigned it to the one character you constantly talk about being a freak (and also lust...pseudo lust? after).

- The insistence with Hinata not really understanding Komaeda and running away, even if he wants to understands him is pretty suspect, especially when compared to the game. Hinata is confused and overwhelmed yes, but it's not just that he wants to understand Komaeda but that he still feels fondness for him, he still follows his advice and puts his faith in him and the way he mourns him in Chapter 5 is also pretty indicative of this. It's just another part in the pattern in you making Hinata the confused, rational, 'morally pure' man that's 'tempted' by 'corrupted' manic pixie mentally ill demon Komaeda. Something tells me your priest AU isn't so much playing with dolls as much as...what you actually believe these characters dynamic is.

- The whole page where Servant is basically made into a joke about how hot and sexy and freaky he is doesn't help your point either.

-The most damning evidence of course is a drawing in the second to last slide, wherein Komaeda is supposed to be analogous to 'guy who has something wrong with him' (distorted, freak, mentally ill) and Hinata is analogous to the guy that 'is the only one that understands them' (the rational one, the relationship of understanding doesn't go both ways).

- Your slide with sources is pretty vague and unclear. Also the way that you credit "Your superior mind" before the game itself when all you've been doing is repeating and misinterpreting the plot of the game is ...ironic

So yeah, that's all I got. Feel free to 'debunk' my observations as much as you please, I just want to know if there's actual basis behind everything you just said or I should go digging for 'the actual serious analysis' yet again.

i think you forgot that fandom is meant to be fun

[ongreenergrasses]

fuck my stupid baka life

[royaltea000]

Fourth of July is so funny cuz it’s the one time every year that people decades past their hetalia phase will wake up in a cold sweat and go “there’s only one character I can draw for this day… 👁️👁️💦”

[moonrose18]

am I a Keefe hater? definitely not, I think he’s great. did I want this next book to be focused on Sophie’s growth now that Keefe’s back and is no longer a main concern in Sophie’s mind? yes. absolutely.

[transmechanicus]

Blankie time we share body warmth and the bad dreams bounce back and crash into a wall and die <3

Blankie time💙🖤

[uku-lelevillain]

i’m having feelings about agggtm again

[flowercrowngods]

it’s 2am and i can’t stop thinking about steve lying in bed with robin beside him and they’re both supposed to sleep and robin’s quiet, so steve has time to think. he doesn’t like that. he’s almost about to ask her, beg her just to ramble away again — it’s the reason she’s his person, after all. she talks so he won’t have to think. and he listens so she won’t go mad. they just work. soulmates.

though steve isn’t sure she knows that’s one of the reasons she’s his favourite. robin and dustin. always talking. always louder than his thoughts, always drowning out the three very loud songs that are stuck in his head simultaneously, layered in with questions that could be of universal interest if only steve could focus on them long enough to decipher them.

nightmares and flashbacks are only part of the reason steve sucks at sleep. only part of the reason he refuses to go even one night without dustin or robin.

everything is always so loud. and when everything is loud, steve sort of freezes. and when he freezes, he wonders what’s the point. what’s his point. beyond all this. who is he when he’s not babysitting teenagers or fighting inter-dimensional monsters?

is he even supposed to be anyone beyond that?

even before all that, he wasn’t really anyone. he wasn’t himself — but he doesn’t even know what that’s supposed to mean, so he tries not to think about that too hard. he took on a role, something that was expected of him, something that was easy. it’s not so easy now, but it’s better. but still, it feels like a role. like he’ll lose himself completely once this is all over.

the question in his head has always been, who is steve harrington to the world? but it should be, who is steve harrington to himself? and maybe that is the question. it’s just, he wouldn’t know. there are too many at once. it’s too loud. he can’t think.

so he shifts in bed and turns around to face robin — their eyes meeting in the dark. the moment he opens his mouth to ask, the words escape him.

robin takes his hand. he sort of wants to cry.

“what’s wrong?” she whispers, and he hates her a little bit for always asking, for knowing how to do that, for knowing the words, for knowing him.

he swallows and tries, closing his eyes so he can pretend he’s talking to himself. “who do you think i am?”

because who am i to you? is stupid. dingus, she would say with that smile and steve would ache too much to rephrase the question or make her believe he’s longing to be something other than dingus. or at least find out what that means to her.

and because who am i? would have freaked her out too much.

robin squeezes his hand and breathes a very soft, very gentle, “steve” that cuts into him all the same. he’s a bit tired of that name, whatever that means. or maybe he wants it to mean something.

“forget it, sorry,” he mumbles and tries to pull away his hand, but robin won’t let him. steve sighs, and it’s almost a whine, almost pained, almost a person.

“no, let me, let me think about it. it’s just, you’re… you’re steve.” and she says it like it could mean something. like maybe it does. like maybe there’s hope, at 2:13 in the morning. “you’re a fucking asshole but also the nicest person i know. the kindest. the most caring. you’re the person who always makes me laugh, who always has my back, who would… you’d die for me. you’re the person i don’t really understand because you do everything with everything you are. everything you have. and you don’t even know, i think. you’re the person i thought i hated for a while, the person who showed me who i am even when you didn’t even know i existed. you’re the person i want in my life forever. but i don’t think there’s a word for this other than steve, so you see my predicament here. you’re steve. my steve. and that’s sort of the best thing anyone can be, if you’re still asking for my humble opinion.”

oh. so it does mean something. many somethings. future somethings, too. the kind that make the noise inside steve’s head quiet down until there’s only robin and the absolute amount of love he has for her.

so he shifts once more, but this time to lay his head on her chest, his arms around her in both of their favourite position. she hugs him back immediately and steve breathes out an, “okay.” as if she didn’t just save him a little bit. as if he was just making sure.

she smiles and he can feel it in her whole body. he returns it. the night’s worries can’t touch them like that.