#i’m sorry i’m just overly annoyed with people criticizing writing choices

[hypermania]

“armand doesn’t care enough about humanity to choose his victims like that” has it occurred to you that maybe it’s part of the role he’s playing for louis? or even just that all the info you got about how/why he chooses his victims was filtered through louis and you don’t have the full picture yet?

[dear-wormwoods]

I'm just curious can you list the losers club from your favorite to least favorite and explain why

Ohhh this is so hard and here’s why: Richie and Eddie are constantly rotating who is in the top spot depending on like... my mood, or what I’m thinking or writing about the most. I know that probably comes as a surprise given that most of my meta is so Eddie focused? But god I just love Richie so much. It’s a head vs. heart thing with them, honestly. A year ago I would’ve absolutely said Eddie first because I was constantly churning out meta about him, but RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT the order is:

1. Richie. Gonna go with my heart on this one - I have a big giant weakness for funny-charming characters/people, so Richie has always been like, the “if I was gonna marry one of the Losers” choice since I first read the book in high school. And Richie has so much depth, but you have to really read between the lines to find it, so his chapters are fun in that way, too. I love him for the same reasons Eddie does - his “sometimes enchanting, sometimes exhausting charm”, his ambition, his willingness to go with the flow, his devotion to his friends, his intelligence, his fascination with music and theatrics, and also the way he’s just sort of an enigma. And then obviously Bill Hader, a long-time celebrity crush, had to come along and fulfill my wildest dreams by taking the role and pouring his soul into it. Lastly, in terms of writing, I have the most fun writing Richie. I write Eddie’s POV a lot more (on the rare occasions I write fic) because it comes more naturally, but I actually get the most fulfillment from writing Richie.

2. Eddie. If my heart belongs to Richie, my brain belongs to Eddie. I have spent countless hours analyzing every god damn word in his chapters and I think about him nearly constantly. He’s always been the Loser I relate to the most, but not because of his home life or anything (my parents are actually a lot like Richie’s - my dad is hilarious and my mom is just great, but as a kid/teen they didn’t get me at all because I turned out way weirder and more annoying than they anticipated and it was a Struggle to communicate lmao). Anyway, I relate to Eddie’s personality a lot, and just how his brain works. I too am always stuck in my own head, emotional and overly self-critical, historically reluctant to take risks because it’s safer to be stagnant, will bend over backwards to take care of other people to the point of not doing anything for myself because of codependent tendencies, etc etc. Analyzing Eddie gives me a lot of intellectual fulfillment and also helps me reflect on myself. This is why I refuse to baby him and try to explore and examine his flaws and mistakes. He’s the most complex character in the story and inherently so Brave and Good. (sidenote: I hate saying really positive things right after saying that I relate to him because it feels arrogant and like I’m saying that about myself, too, which I’m definitely not. Does anyone else get like that? Like, you relate to a character and openly praise them, but then feel like a giant asshole because you inadvertently said something nice about yourself by loving on a character you relate to?)

3. Ben. I love reading Ben’s chapters so much, he’s such a well-developed character and I feel his chapters are almost on par with Eddie’s in terms of being a joy to read and having a very distinct tone. If Eddie’s the guiding light of the group, Ben is the engineer. He has this sort of deep and natural self-confidence that I love. He’s got his hobbies, his books, and he’s just chillin’. He’s very self conscious about his body, but he’s SO confident about his mind and his heart. I’ve always found it fascinating that Ben’s IT manifestations are so impersonal and very typical movie-monster type shit, and I think it’s because he really doesn’t fear much. He doesn’t need to. He knows what he’s capable of and he doesn’t stop to ruminate about it, he just fucking does it. IT can’t really touch that. Also, as Richie’s mirror, he automatically gets a high spot on the list - we stan wildly successful but deeply lonely guys who spent their youth pining in secret.

4. Mike. I know a lot of people find the Derry Interludes boring, but I really love being able to dive into Mike’s stream of consciousness journal keeping. He’s truly the lighthouse keeper, and that’s a rough fucking gig. His love of lore and history is so relatable, though. And I love his relationship with his parents, especially with Will, and it’s great to have a prominent example of positive parenting to combat against the likes of Sonia, Alvin, and Butch Bowers. Mike really loves his parents and the Losers, and he’s so smart and sensitive and GOOD, even in the face of near-constant racism and 27 years of exhausting and lonely detective work. My only wish for him is to fucking leave Derry and finally relax.

5. Bev. I really love Bev, but she’s lower on the list because I find her to be a pretty underdeveloped character in the novel. This is mostly because Stephen King truly sucks at writing women, but knowing that doesn’t stop me from just not feeling super engaged with her chapters. In theory, Bev is great - and she was/will be great in the movies, too. She’s Eddie’s mirror, so admittedly a lot of my affection for her stems from that and the joy I get from examining their parallels (particularly in terms of how IT targets them both with their sexuality and dirtiness/cleanliness).

6. Bill. I have never really been super invested in Bill. It’s just like... too glaringly obvious that he’s a self-insert for Stephen King, so he falls flat a lot of the time, for me. Sometimes I like to think that’s intentional, because we get so much of seeing Bill through the Losers’ eyes with all their idolization and projection, so the “real Bill” never really stood a chance of living up to that image. Other times all I see is a self-insert. But I do really love the way his guilt over Georgie’s death is explored and how that guilt leads him to be selfishly single-minded in his quest for vengeance. I just wish more time was spent on that in his adult chapters and less on that cringey hotel sex scene.

7. Stan. Stan is last but I certainly don’t dislike him. It’s just... I’m really sorry but I think Stan is a super overrated character. I love his scene with the Standpipe and the drowned kids, and I think his friendships with Eddie and Bev are not given enough attention, and I love Stanpat, but overall... I just don’t think about him all that much. I’m really only able to get invested in Stan if it’s in relation to Patty. They just wanted a baby and a happy life, Mike.

This turned into such a fucking ramble. Hopefully it’s what you were looking for! 😬

[kyouxa]

Amnesia Later: Translation (Part 01)

This is basically just for myself and my friend @saitoswife, but maybe someone else needs it too since I couldnt find any translations. If you know someone, please write me. (Last update: 25.07.2019)

Monologue

This is the story of a certain girl from a certain country in a certain world.

August 1st.

When the girl woke up, all of her memories were lost.

Nearby was a strange boy, Orion, who called himself a spirit.

The spirit Orion said, it was his fault she had lost her memories.

While taking advice from Orion, who declared he'd support her in regaining her memories,  the girl started going through her personal belongings…

After awhile, the relationships of the girl started to become clearer.

And thus, the complexly intertwined motives behind the true reason she had lost her memories began to appear.

Orion had realized it, “I see, so the reason she lost her memories wasn’t because of our collision!”

A human from the organization appeared before the girl struggling to comprehend everything.

The outstretched hand of a demon.

Will her memories ever return completely?

What‘s the reason behind her memory loss?

Is Orion able to protect and save her?

What‘s the destiny holding for Orion and this girl-!?

…

August 10th

Place: Apartment — Your room

Orion: Wouldn’t it be nice if it was that sort of story!

Hey, good morning (y/n). Are you awake?

Hm? Are you still sleepy?

That’s probably because you stayed up late last night for our strategy meeting, huh~

But saying 'Who are you?’ right after you woke up was a pretty severe case of being half-asleep, don’t you think?

You looked out of it so I tried to summarize your current situation simply.

What I just showed you was an outline from August 1st up to today. I’m the sprit Orion. You remember that, right?

What’s with that face?

Some of that wasn’t true? Huh, really? I think everything was pretty accurate.

…

Yes, it was a lie. I‘m sorry.

All the stuff about the hand of a demon and any organization or there being a ’real truth’ behind your amnesia — it was a lie.

It was just an accident.

It was my fault.

Your memories disappeared out of your head because I bumped into your soul.

What I just said, was secretly my wish.

Ahh, it’d be nice if there really was a different reason behind it.

I’d fight to protect you if there was anything from your background that causes trouble.

I’ll guide you with my wisdom, bravery and save you from anything evil!

I can’t touch human things. I can’t be seen by anyone other than you and I can’t talk to anyone either, but…

Ah, a pursuer-! Orion, save me!

…Just kidding.

Well, in actuality, all I can do is investigate around you.

Hah… reality is cruel.

Choices

1) — I’m counting on you. 2) — It’d be nice if you could speak with people, too.

— I’m counting on you

Orion: Ahhh, thanks!

I may not have been much help up until now, but I’m really, really gonna give it my best!

— It’d be nice if you could speak with people, too

Right!

If that was the case, I could gather information for you and go to risky places.

And I could possess those guys who are after you!

end Choices

Orion: Well, I’ve gotta try to do something other than just lamenting about.

What I can do now is support you so you can live safely.

Hey, look at this, it’s the person correlation chart we made yesterday.

After you went to sleep last night I was looking at this by myself and did some thinking.

Yesterday we just took in the situation and got a rough idea of what your relationships are.

Orion: Your parents are somewhere far away and thus absent. You’re living alone, and you don’t have a boyfriend.

You’re especially close with your two childhood friends and your four colleagues from work.

You’re not in the midst of dealing with being injured from an incident. You’re not being bullied by a group of malicious girls.

It doesn’t look like you’ve got a guy with a tragic fate keeping an eye on your life either.

I’ve got a suggestion. How about you pick someone reliable and tell them about your amnesia?

I think that would be the best shortcut to regaining your memories and living a peaceful, normal life.

Anyway, you got work today. I hope you can meet the people you’re close with well enough.

Try to think about who is the most dependable while you’re talking with everyone.

And then you can explain your situation to whoever you think 'That’s the one!’

Ah, but we don’t know if there’s anything going on so we’ll carefully look at the whole state of affairs.

How about it? Do you think it’s risky? Well, take your time thinking it over while you’re working.

All right, change your clothes and let’s gooo!

???: ...Hm?

???: Anyway, I’m sure you went back to sleep after you woke up. You need to fix that. It’s annoying when you’re late to appointments and the like.

Orion: Gee, thanks for the harsh words first thing in the morning.

I’m sure you know, but I’ll explain just in case. This is Shin. He’s your childhood friend.

He’s blunt but he really does worry after you a lot. …Even if he is strict.

I think he’s a trustworthy companion in his own way, so it’d probably be fine if you confided in him.

Shin: What are you staring into space for? You’re worse than usual, not even answering me. Are you still half asleep?

Orion: We’re not really half asleep! We slept very well~

Shin: I wonder why you’ve been acting airheaded around my neighborhood a lot.

You’re such a handful. …You always need to be looked after.

Orion: Hm? That’s a troubling way of saying it.

Is something wrong? Or is he just grumbling about you?

Choices

1) — I’m sorry for acting stupid

2) — What’s wrong?

— I’m sorry for acting stupid

Shin: Why are you apologizing all of a sudden? I don’t get it.

Orion: Huh!? Wasn’t your tone criticizing her just now! No?

Shin: I wasn’t really complaining so you don’t have to apologize.

You’ve always been a handful so don’t worry about it.

Orion: Not a good follow-up to that follow-up hmm…

Shin: Anyway, go already. You won’t make it in time if you don’t.

Orion: Oh, right.

— What’s wrong?

Shin: As soon as I woke up this morning my mom said she was panicking because she forgot to buy rice and bread.

Rice is heavy so she said she thought she’d ask me and then she said the store she usually gets bread from is closed today.

And she said it’s embarrassing to do first thing in the morning so I had to go buy bread.

But of course the convenience store is no good, so she directed me to a place on this street. She said she has points saved up.

Why would you burden others with your own mistakes? I’m going to go where she said anyway.

Orion: Hmm… What do you think?

Even though he’s making that disapproving face, he listened to all that so he’s probably nice, right?

Shin: Why are you and my mom such airheads? Isn’t that inconvenient for yourself?

Orion: … He says too much.

Shin: This isn’t the time for you to just stand around talking. You should go already. You don’t have much time, right?

Orion: Ah, that’s right.”

end Choices

Shin: Later. Take your job seriously.

Orion: Yeah, that too, but we’ve got to work hard at gathering information!”

Place: Maid‘s Sheep — Entrance

Hah, we barely made it, just like Shin said. You were a bit sloppy changing into your uniform.

???: Good morning, (y/n).

We’ve met up at the shop a lot recently. It’s already been what, 6 days in a row? You’re really giving it your all.

I think your fatigue is piling up, though. Look. 

Your headdress is crooked, but it seems like you didn’t even notice. Mind if I fix it?

Orion: Hey now! Don’t try to get close to her all smooth like first thing in the morning!

This perv is your superior here at work and a college senior, Ikki.

This guy is so incredibly popular with girls that he even has a fan club. It’s so bad it seems like a joke.

Anyway, he’s closing in on you fast so react-!

Choices

1) — I’ll fix it myself

2) — Please fix it for me

— I’ll fix it myself

Ikki: You don’t want me to touch your hair? I wouldn’t try and do something else to you under the cover of that, you know?

Orion: That remark itself is dangerous!

— Please fix it for me 

Orion: Heeeey!?

Ikki: …How unexpected. I thought you’d get embarrassed and run away. Is this because you aren’t really aware of me?

Hmm… That’s too bad if so. Oh well.

You have such beautiful hair, I’ve always wanted to touch it…

end Choices

???: That’s enough, Ikkyu.

Orion: That voice is-!

???: Dont get any closer to her than that. The manager wont permit sexual harrassment in the sanctity of the workplace and neither will I.

Ikki: And out comes the Statistics Wonder, mad Kent!

Orion: That’s not right!

This is Kent. He’s your superior at work and a graduate student at Seichi University.

Ikki called him the 'statistics wonder’, but he actually does have that impression. This guy seems like a personification of numerals and theories.

Kent: I won’t allow you to act so shamelessly under my watch, Ikkyu!

Ikki: Hmm? And what right do you have to get in my way?

Kent: I do have that right. The reason being that I was the winner of the 500th mathematics puzzle held the other day

The defeated must obey the winner. That has been proven as a standard throughout history. Therefore, I have the right to interrupt you.

Ikki: Huh… No way, were the results so awful that you’d go that far to declare victory?

Kent: You scored 68 points. Though I feel I may have overly raised the difficulty to commemorate our 500th time.

Let’s make the next one simpler. It’s inevitable that I gave out an unsolvable puzzle for you.

Ikki: Stop that. I’ll wither away if you go easy on me. You really need to come at me seriously.

Kent: Oh, so you say. Well then, for the 501st, I will craft the highest difficulty puzzle as of yet.

Ikki: Likewise, I’m going to ambush you with my full force. I won’t just go along with getting destroyed.

Orion: …500 puzzles produced and returned between these two. They never give up.

As you can see, Ikki and Kent are really good friends.

Both of them aren’t quite normal in some ways, but I don’t think that they’re not trustworthy.

There’s a trick to discussing it with these two. If you did, it might be better to speak with them as a set instead of just one…

Ikki: By the way, (y/n) , what are you going to do about your headdress?

Ikki: Shall I fix it? Or would you like Kent to fix it for you?

Orion: We’re back to talking about that!? Wait, those are your two options!?

Choices

1) — Ikki should do it

2) — Kent should do it

— Ikki should do it 

Ikki: Understood. All right, come here.

Is this the first time I’ve gotten to gaze at you from point blank range?

I’d be happy if you became my captive after this but… How is it? Still not effective?

Orion: HEY- he’s just fixing your headdress, right!?

Kent: You have poor taste, (y/n).

Why would you willingly throw yourself into the tiger’s den?

— Kent should do it

Kent: …What? You want me to fix a girl’s hair ornament? That’s impossible for me. I refuse.

Orion: He would say that…

Ikki: She went to the trouble of naming you personally, so why don’t you just do it? She picked you over me.

Orion: This one’s pouting!

Kent: Generally, touching the hair of a person of the opposite gender can come off as an act of sexual harassment. You’re not agreeable to having me touch you, are you not?

Ikki: Of course she agrees, she asked you to do it, right? Or is it you that doesn’t want to, Ken?

Kent: N-no… That’s not it, I just...

end Choices

???: Looking riled up today.

Ikki: Good morning, Waka.

Kent: Good morning.

Waka: Good morning. Is this everyone for today? Its great  to have everyone present on time.

…Hm? Your headdress is slightly off, (y/n).

You should go fix it at the mirror inside the office so we can continue this conversation.

Orion: Well then, let’s go, (y/n)!

Orion; And~? Did we fix it? ...Yes we did. Ok, let’s go!

The person you just saw, is the manager of this shop.

Everyone, just calls him store manager or they call him by his real name. He’s basically a good person too but...

... what’s his reason for caring a bamboo sword in the first place?

Waka: Hurry up everyone. We can continue chatting later.

I’ll be in the kitchen. Is it okay if you two are the waitresses today, Ikki, (y/n) ?

Ikki: No problem. I think it’s fair if the two of us are working here.

Waka: Also, Kent. I need you in the kitchen. It seems that you’ve came in early and prepared everything already.

Kent: That’s right, store manager. But, I think we got a problem here.

Waka: What is it?

Kent: A large amount of dried basil has arrived instead of fresh basil which was ordered from you.

Fresh basil is out of our kitchen ingredients since yesterday. Which means, today's pasta genovese can’t be made. 

Waka: What... ! Dried basil instead of raw basil... !?

Kent: A similar scenario happened last Monday, but you should’ve been apologizing for your mistake last time already.

It doesn't matter where you’re in charge, but it's painful that you made the same mistake twice in a row. 

If you go to buy fresh basil from now, I want you to at least open it 5 minutes after buying. Therefore I’d like to ask for judgment on this matter.

Waka: ...

...Ngh...

Ikki: ...Manager?

Waka: I really did... the same mistake as two weeks ago ...!

I can’t... I can’t accept that!

Im an unforgivable blunder as a manager of this store ... take this bamboo sword and cut off my bully, as an apology for my behavior!

Orion: He what!?

Ikki: Hold on, manager! I can’t cut off your stomach with a bamboo sword, I’d be in trouble if I did that. 

Kent: Good grief. Sometimes you can’t believe that you’re our manager. But, why aren’t you just apologizing for your mistake?

Waka: Because, there is a shame rankings between the mistakes of the employees or the manager!

I’m the owner of this store, this is unforgivable... ! 

Ikki: But, that’s why this store is popular in Japan. Because we’re a different store. We’re neither a boring coffee store nor a normal maid cafe.

So please stop the habit of trying to cut off your stomach already, oh my.

Kent: Anyway, I’d like to replace today's pasta with another one. It’s reasonable to use less peperoncino in this one.

I could finish the preparation without hesitation. It’s not a big deal. How does that sound, manager?

Waka: ... I can’t fight anymore. I’m trying to be greatly obliged.

Ikki: Since that problem is solved ... Let's open the store for our customers.

Orion: Okay, 6th table got its order!

Ahh, It's hard when they ask for "Today's pot". The clay pot is hot and pretty heavy.

Ikki said he’ll carry them if he has an open hand, but he can’t help us every time.

... but at a coffee shop, why are you offering "today’s pot” anyway? Isn’t this a cafe?

*someone enters*

Orion: Oh, another customer entered! Welcome back ma... huh

??? : Good afternoon. How are you doing?

??? : Heyy! So you and Ikki were in charge of the waitressing today.

??? : Good afternoon, Senpai. I’d like to have a seat at the window.

Orion: Huh. That’s, That’s a more unusual combination ...

I think you remember but it's just a supplement. This...

??? : What’s wrong? You’re so quiet. Are you getting any hypotensions again?

Because you live alone, it probably makes a rough life. I always regret I catch a cold in my apartment.

Orion: This guy is called Toma. He‘s a pretty nice guy who always takes care of you.

Toma is one of your childhood friends. It seems like Shin, you and Toma grew up like brother and sister.

So. Here...

??? : Is this your real experience Toma? 

I often say that the first barrier of living alone is that youre going to bed with any illness.

Orion: This girl is Sawa. She’s the same age as you, she’s like a friend to go out with on any holidays.

My memories are a little messy but I think she‘s a good girl.

??? : Eh, but Toma's family lives so close to his apartment.

If it’s cold, I‘d pick up my stuff and go home.

Orion: This girl is called Mine. You‘re in the third grade of high school and she’s one under you, but I think I can say that she’s an honest person.

All three of them are also working in this shop here. So basically everyone in this shop is somehow connected.

So, conversely, it's difficult to choose one person to trust with your secret ...

Toma: It‘s impossible to catch a cold and then just go home. My parents would never allow me such things, sadly.

It’s a self-responsibility, including colds, because I need to prove that I can live alone so that I’m independently.

Sawa: Ahh~ ... That‘s really tough.

Mine: Well then, your parents don‘t interfere with your actions at all?

Toma: Exactly. Unless I have to do lot a lot of thing, they‘d leave me alone...

Well, let’s not interrupt the business anymore.  Shall we order something?

Mine: Yes, but i‘ll pick the place to sit ~

Sawa: This is going to be a long story, so let's go go!

Mine: Lets just sit down already~.... 

Orion: A long story? ...They came here to talk about that?

Ikki: Thank you.

Orion: Ikki. Seems like he needs to serve the customers over there.

Ikki: Somehow, this is a really weird combination. It’s not usually that Toma comes here with two girls together.

Have you finished ordering? Not yet? Well then, I'd like to continue with those three people which just arrived.

Female customer: I‘m sorry, we‘d like to order something.

Ikki: ...Oh, my... Theres another customer who wants to order something.

I'm sorry, I’ll greet them immediately. Welcome back, madame.  Could you just wait a second, young lady?

Orion: Well then, let's go taking the orders.  I also care about the content of this long story.

Sawa: After all I think that's on a riverside.

Mine: Is there no pond or pear? It would be helpful.

Sawa: I think its just a basic river.

Mine: You were the one who went there last year right? Because, I don‘t know about it I never went there.

Sawa: That was... because uhm... I probably forgot.

Toma: It was a promenade. But, because it has been renounced since then, you might really forgot.

Sawa: Eh, is that so?

Toma: It seems that they thoroughly cleaned the inside and the way around the river when the sand was itchy after heavy rain.

I have no idea what I can expect this year, because the environment has changed.

Mine: Then how about that. Why aren’t we visiting the mountains for once?

Sawa: I love this idea! The lodge! Camping! Barbecue! Wait a minute, curry would be hard to throw away.

Mine: Seems like Sawa senpai‘s purpose changed already.

Sawa: You can enjoy it in any way. I‘m sure everyone would enjoy it.

Mine: Ahh~... but I think Shin doesn’t like this sort of thing. He’d probably not enjoy a barbecue in the mountains.

Toma: I think it looks like individualism, I think he’d get along.

He doesn‘t actively participate in conversations, but he likes being around a group of friends for sure.

But the mountains are pretty dangerous. We wouldn’t be able to return home quickly.

Mine: Eh~ what’s wrong with that?

Toma: You are a high school student and not a normal student. See you next year.

Mine: ...Toma is as rude as always.

Toma: I’m not rude or anything, I’m just telling you the facts.

I am not the kind person to begin with anyway.

Sawa: Uahh, to say such thing about yourself. ... well this time we should just keep talking about this day trip.

Orion: Are they, planing on traveling somewhere? I wonder if they‘re planning to go out, somewhere on a day trip maybe ....

Toma: Okay, sorry but, (y/n), we’d like to order something.

I’d like to have the Blend... no wait I want the Cafe-AU. What do you two want?

Mine: I’d take a cinnamon roll and milk tea.

Sawa: Kent is in the kitchen today, right? If that’s so, I want a green tea with latte.

Mine: Why are you asking for him?

Sawa: Because Kent‘s tea is the best. Shin and the manager praise his cooking skills so well.

Toma: Oh, you‘re talking about the mix ratio of matcha and milk which is made in perfect temperature because of his form theory?

Orion: Form theory...?

Mine: ... I see. Hey, senpai. Where would you want to go as a senior?

Orion: ... Eh? Why is she asking us about that?

Sawa: Ah, that’s right. Because you got the leading role, you can choose it for yourself.

Orion: Leading role!? (Y/n), you also planned on participating!? And then the leading role... for real!?

I didn’t know about that! W-What should we do...!?

Choices

1) — Anywhere is fine

2) — Toma should decide 

— anywhere is fine 

Mine: Anywhere she says...

Toma: Well, we might have troubled (y/n) for just asking her out of the blue.

— let Toma decide

Mine: Eh ~ why is that? I guess you really trust and care about Toma.

Sawa: But, if that’s her decision? She says they used to be like brother and sister since ancient times.

Toma: So you really want me, to decide where we‘re supposed to go... is that really okay for everyone?

Orion: If he’d do that, it will be helpful... right? (Y/n)

Toma: Well, why don’t we check it in the web? If I acted by my own presence, I might get in trouble.

It would be a pity if I‘d just take a place and everyone would be disappointed.

Mine: Wow, Toma-san‘s pretty sweet. Even though we didn’t even decide where to go, we just asked "Where would you prefer to go?".

Toma: Thanks to Shin, I am deeply absorbed by (y/n) and I even had some privat business about it.

But since I was asked for my opinion, your big brother will do his best.

— end Choices

Toma: If you're didnt plan on looking around in this area, why not going out, that would be fine, right? 

Did everyone save money for the upcoming trip? Because it would cost a few thousand yen to sleep in a mountain hotel.

Sawa: We'll be okay! ... I guess

Mine: That's fine. I’ll do my best to save money until then.

Toma: (Y/n) also seems to be okay with my decision. I told the manager last month that we‘d put in extra bytes.

Orion: Eh, is that so!? I thought there were just a lot of shifts, but seems like that's the reason behind it!?

I'm honestly fine with going out, but there seems to be some purpose, I wonder what it is... ?

Place: Apartment — Your room

Orion: I’m so tired, but you did good work today!

I also did my best today! That's why, we should rest for today because we had a hard day.

For some reason, we had a full member meeting in the shop today. 

I think, you could trust everyone of them.

Im sure everyone would help you if they knew about your memory loss. They’re all very good people.

...However, you should only choose one person to tell them your secret...

But, let's go for a quick morning meeting tomorrow or something. You can’t remember them because you have no memory. So this might be troublesome...

Ah, but it was good to see why you were in a lot of shifts.

You can try to chat with the members like this way more, maybe you also could visit some places together with them? 

Well, Ikki and Kent weren't included in todays member meeting, maybe they won't join us at all?

Because, Toma was the one saying he had the "Supervision" about himself? 

If you asked me, many of the seniors in the group do have the supervison.

If they won't join, there really won't be any men who are older than Toma.

Ikki or Kent, let's not say the store manager. Maybe you should tell them about your secret?

Well, even if I shouldn't think so deeply about it, I think that Ikki and Toma would actually be the best people to tell.

I'm also surprised because they are a more unusual combination. I wouldn't be surprised if you were actually going out with one of them.

Hmm... ... but where should we go and what should we do ...

.......

... I should stop overthinking. Let‘s just rest for this evening.

It's still early so why aren’t you going for a bath or dinner, i‘ll watch TV while you do whatever you want.

If you see the weather forecast, the weather seems to be clear, let's  buy a futon before going to your part-time job tomorrow.

Even tho your bed really is fluffy... huh? What’s coming up in the news now?

Caster: So, this year's anomaly is that the relationship with the climate is unclear.

Female caster: That means, you can see fireflies in a wide range, not just in some areas like last year. 

Caster: I agree. It looks like the summer tradition can be enjoyed all over the country this year.

Female caster: But, is there any fear that the ecosystem will be weird as a result of the abnormal occurrence? 

Caster: The animals that occurred this year have been confirmed to have very weak fertility, so there is no particular impact.  

Female Caster: That also seems pretty strange. I wonder if that mystery will be ever solved?

Caster: Then, please look at the earlier cast again.

We showed an image of the firefly taken around Shinano Station last year.

(Y/n): ......

...last...

...year...

Orion: Eh... Heh!?

— Last year...

— I promised, to see them with someone...

Orion: Agh... huh, ngh... !

Oh, I'm sorry! I suddenly felt unstable, like you were falling from somewhere!

But, yes. One of your memories returned. What do you think does it mean?

Someone told you to look forward to it next year, but was it really something about the fireflies? 

Because they were talking about it on the TV right now? Isn't that what you remember when you saw it? 

So you promised to see the fireflies with someone.

But, who was it... ?

…Ah! Hey, could it be that you promised it to Toma on this other party?

Because I heard him talking about, "The pond", "The River", "Mountains" and so on, it would be an environment for the fireflies, right?

OK, then let's check out if our guess is right tomorrow!

If you see the fireflies with the person you promised it, your memory may come back more vigorously!

Let's focus on asking Toma for now! Yes!

[valkyrieelysia18]

“If you don’t like it, don’t watch it” - My Thoughts

Hi everyone! Sorry if it’s been a while, I’ve been dealing with some things on my end. The Branwen Tribe Addendum to the Raven Branwen post is coming, but a post that Barbara Dunkelman said a while back I’ve turning over in my mind. I think you all know which one I’m referring to.

The reason it’s been bothering me is because I said the same thing in an author’s note in a fan fiction I’ve been writing. And given the reaction to that post, I’ve been wondering if whether what I was wrong in saying something like that and I should issue an apology. Then I considered the situation and I realized that the phrase is significantly different there than coming from someone associated with an official work for three reasons

1. This is a hobby, not a job.

While there are many people in the fan fiction community looking to improve their writing so they could pursue a career with their own work, there are others who just write for the fun of it myself included. While I may not write that much anymore, I still view it as something I do for fun. That’s not the case with someone working on an official project, where they are accountable to not just themselves for their words and actions.

Now it does get kind of annoying when I get reviews that are essentially overly long critiques of my work that I didn’t ask for, but that’s another story.

2. I am under no obligation to deliver a quality product.

As I said, writing is a hobby for me, not a job. I’m not getting paid for any of this, I’m not contractually obligated to deliver a certain amount of content over a set amount of time. What I write may not be great by certain standards, but I’m not being scrutinized by a significantly sizeable fan base who WILL call me out on my actions. A phrase I heard that summarizes this quite well is this: “Fan Fiction is not made for you, it’s shared with you.”

This is not case with a very popular series which is dependent on people watching it for people working on it to get paid. And considering how much Rooster Teeth’s quality has dropped and the reports of how badly they’ve been treating their regularly employees, you think they’d try to keep as much money as they can. But given their far from professional past behavior, it’s not that much of a surprise.

3. There’s a difference between “It’s bad” and “It’s not my thing.”

I think any person who is a fan of anything realizes that there are just certain things that they personally can not enjoy. For example, I am not a horror fan and I avoid the genre like the plague. There are genuinely good horror movies that may be universally acclaimed, but I just wouldn’t be able to get into it.

If someone does not like a certain fan fic, that person can easily leave the story behind and find something that’s more to their taste (though that might be easier for some depending on the size of that fandom’s archive). Their enjoyment is not dependent on that particular story.

This isn’t the case with the official work.

Barbara’s phrasing seems to be imply that we are viewing RWBY like it’s not our thing when it couldn’t be any further than the truth.

We LOVED RWBY. From the beginning trailers to the first couple Volumes, we loved this series. Despite the technical limitations, the subpar world building, and the questionable choices in terms of story and character writing (looking at you Jaune); we felt the passion and style from it’s creator that we were wiling to forgive its weaker aspects. And when Monty died and the team’s new direction went against the things that we loved about this series, our patience and good will dried up. I had enough in Volume 6 because I realized that I can’t keep hoping for this series to change only to be disappointed again and again.

Final Thoughts

As I’ve said before, I was not a fan who got into the series because of Monty, but I respect what he created. It was by no means perfect, but it at least it made a conscious decision to have style over substance. Now RWBY doesn’t even have that.

The fact remains is that when you put something out there for people, you’re going to be criticized, especially if the work is subpar to your previous entries. And if you’re a creator of a very profitable and successful series, you should be listening and taking notes on the criticism you get. Rooster Teeth is acting like it’s still a small indie company when that couldn’t be further from the truth. That they ignore criticisms from the very fans that got them to where they are today just shows how lacking in awareness they are.

Luckily, we do have plenty of RWBY inspired creations to indulge ourselves in as well as the pretty promising Shounen manga adaptation by Bunta Kinami, but we’ll always look back at old RWBY and shake our hands at where it all went wrong.

[meggtheegg]

ooh would love to hear you elaborate on autistic!evan please? :))

Okay yes!So. Basically:Throughout the play, Evan shows many symptoms of autism (specifically Asperger’s.) The level of those symptoms varies by actor but there is evidence in just the script that backs my point up.

First, obviously, there’s his social anxiety. Now, of course, social anxiety can be its own thing, but it often goes hand-in-hand with autism, because people on the spectrum have trouble knowing how to behave in a socially acceptable way and often face criticism and backlash for things they didn’t realize were issues.

Then, there’s another big one: his fixation on trees. He brings them up almost constantly, sometimes at points where there’s no obvious reason to bring them up. He writes himself talking about them, unprompted, in Sincerely Me, with the assumption that looking at cool pictures of trees will help someone feel better. And he probably does this a lot in the fake emails we don’t see, considering that Alana becomes convinced that Connor is obsessed with trees. Jared uses it to make a point to Evan about how much he’s pushed Connor out of the narrative. (”If there’s one thing about Connor, the guy loved trees. No, wait. You love trees.”) This is exactly how a lot of autistic people treat their special interests. Wanting to talk about them all the time, changing the subject to turn an unrelated conversation into one about those special interests, becoming an “expert” on them and assuming that other people will get excited about them, too. 

Now, with those two things out of the way, there’s the slightly more subtextual stuff.Evan is very black-and-white in the way he thinks about things. And he takes a lot at face value. When Jared jokes that he broke his arm by jerking off too much, he reacts as if people will believe that he did, even though it’s obviously a joke. He believes Jared and Alana’s very thin facades, and that leads to him falling out with both of them, because he assumes that Jared won’t care if he cuts him out and that Alana isn’t emotionally invested in the Connor Project. He believes Heidi thinks he’s broken because she put him on meds (which, if he’s misdiagnosed and on the spectrum, probably don’t work anyway, but more on that later) and decides that she sees him as a burden. He thinks she won’t mind that he’s at the Murphys’ house instead of at Jared’s because he’s out either way, so why does it matter where he is? He sees all the bad parts of his mom, but all the good parts of the Murphys, not noticing their better-concealed but pretty major problems. He thinks that because they dote on him and don’t push him to get help that they like him more than his mom does. They show more obvious, outward signs of affection, and that is very clear. No interpretation needed. Heidi is trying her best and definitely loves him, but to an autistic kid, that’s a lot harder to see. 

He misunderstands people’s intentions all the time, like with Alana and Jared, with his assumption that Connor took the note in order to bully him with it, thinking that Zoe was breaking up with him when she came over, etc.

He doesn’t connect the dots with social expectations. He’s taken aback at the idea that he’d be expected to give a speech at the kickoff event for the Connor Project, even though it should be obvious. He doesn’t initially realize that the Murphys are going to want to see him again after that first dinner, and that they’ll want to see the supposed “emails.” (And he fails to notice the pretty gay implications of his story until Jared points it out, after which he goes noticeably far to try to shake that idea off.) And that lack of social awareness leads to him doing things he shouldn’t. He gets pulled into the lie and lets it spiral out of control, unaware of how wrong it is and how he’s making it worse. He brushes Jared and Heidi off and replaces them, then is taken aback when they’re upset about it. He kisses Zoe without realizing how wildly inappropriate it is. 

He tends to talk too much, going off on tangents to try to clarify what he’s saying even if clarification isn’t needed. (”I love jazz. Well, not all jazz, but definitely like, jazz-band-jazz, that’s so weird, I’m sorry.” “Well, sometimes. If he brought it up. I never brought it up. Obviously. Why would I have brought it up?”)

He seems to have sensory issues, too. A lot of his worst decisions are made in a desperate attempt to make the people around him stop yelling. That was what caused him to not tell the truth about the note in the first place. He’s also always very aware of how sweaty his hands are, and he often stops to just touch and feel things to ground himself. A lot of actors have him often messing with his clothes, especially his collar, as if he’s bothered by how it’s brushing against his skin.

He has trouble in social situations where he doesn’t have a general planned idea of what to say. He always starts his description of breaking his arm with “I fell out of a tree, actually…” and clearly has the way he’ll tell the story clearly planned out in his head. His interactions with his mom generally seem kind of wooden and practiced. When forced into situations with the Murphys that he doesn’t have a script for, he gets panicked and escalates things. He has a panic attack when he drops his notecards. He’s also very repetitive and clings onto things he’s used to and comfortable with. He repeats the lie in the same way so many times that Alana gets annoyed with him, saying something like “Yes, I know the story, Evan. We’ve all heard the story. You’re like a broken freaking record about it.” Zoe has to ask him to stop talking about the Connor Project. Also, based on the book, he sticks very closely to a routine. He has the same lunch every single day (and sits in the same spot, I believe.) He describes his letter-writing process in a very step-by-step, planned out, repetitive way. There are probably more examples but I haven’t read the book in a while and I think I’ve made my point.

Also, a lot of this is down to acting choices, but most actors I’ve seen play Evan with a lot of “tics” and fidgeting, ie. stimming, and a tendency to avoid eye contact. Some of them give him issues with volume control. At one point my brother noticed that Michael Lee Brown even went for some subtle echolalia. He also sometimes squeaks a lot or makes other noises and gestures that seem to have no clear purpose.

What really seals the deal for me is the whole medication/feeling broken thing. It was almost definitely not Steven Levenson’s intent but hey, death of the author. I interpret the text, not the intention. A major criticism of the show is that Evan goes off his meds and is totally fine afterwards. That is not a good message to send and seems poorly thought out for a show that seems to have thought of a lot. But, if he was misdiagnosed with an anxiety disorder, depression, etc, medication wouldn’t do what it was supposed to. It obviously wouldn’t make him less autistic, and could actually make him feel worse because they’re supposed to “fix” him and aren’t doing that. Autism isn’t a treatable thing, especially not with pills. Maybe the meds alleviated the anxiety, but his social struggles didn’t go away. And that convinces him that there is something inherently wrong, or broken about him. (”I’d rather pretend I’m something better than these broken parts / Pretend I’m something other than this mess that I am.”) He’s being treated for the wrong disorder, so of course it’s not working. Of course stopping them doesn’t really make a difference. If the causes of his anxiety were lessened, it could be possible that by the time he stopped, they were doing nothing at all for him, anyway.

Writing affirmation letters and taking anxiety medication doesn’t take away sensory issues or difficulty with social cues. It doesn’t stop special interests from being the only thing you want to talk about. It doesn’t stop the desperate desire to fit in and no idea how to. And in Evan’s specific case, it didn’t stop him from being constantly berated by his overly honest only friend over things he didn’t realize were socially unacceptable. It didn’t stop his mom from acting like he wasn’t trying. It didn’t stop the rest of the school from ostracizing him. 

That’s what made him cling onto the Murphys. They made him feel like he wasn’t broken. Zoe treated his struggles and quirks like they were endearing instead of annoying. Larry and Cynthia never acted like he was different and encouraged him to go out of his comfort zone, but not to the point that it felt like they were pushing. They treated him the way they treated anyone else. And that was all he wanted. 

[rosefyrefyre]

Sorry to give you negativity here, I really enjoy your fics and the time you put into such thoughtful stories. I just think in unhinged, if Katniss was truly dealing with that kind of trauma where she can't even look at Darius's uniform without having a reaction then she would do absolutely anything to not be forced to repeat the tramatic event. She wouldn't be thinking she didn't want to hurt Darius, she would take his offer or a counter offer.

(2) I get that you want her in a tough spot but there’s a miss here. I too have suffered a traumatic experience and in that moment of panic, thinking it could happen again I would do ANYTHING not to have to put myself in a similar situation ever again.

(3) She needs time to heal but she wouldn’t actually start healing fully until she was taken out of the potential situation again. She would be defensive, On high alert and overly paranoid for Prim and herself. I’m sorry I’m bringing this up, I don’t mean to be annoying, i just think you miss a few elements of trauma. Thank you for your time.

One of these messages came through not anon, but out of respect for what the intent was, we’ve removed the name and simply replied to the anon.

Thank you for your critical review of Damaged, Broken, and Unhinged.  We understand this couldn’t have been easy for you as a survivor of sexual abuse.

Trigger warning: behind the cut there is a lot of discussion of sexual assault and trauma.  If you don’t feel comfortable reading, please do not.

So this is where I, Rose, need to level with you.  I have no experience with this.  That being said, I’ve shared the ask with FanficAllergy, who does, but doesn’t have a tumblr.  So what you’re about to read is her response.

So, each person reacts to trauma and stress differently.  Katniss’s reactions to things are how I reacted when this happened to me.  Here’s a little backstory.  When I was fourteen, the first guy I officially dated stalked me and attempted to rape me.  The only reason he didn’t succeed in raping me was because I got a lucky kick in. (I was later raped by a different boyfriend [I woke up to him having sex with me - which he thought was sexy and I really disagreed because I didn’t consent to that ahead of time], but that circumstance was very different and not nearly as violent or traumatic. By that point, I had coping mechanisms. And I was in a different place socially.)

Mike was popular.  I wasn’t.  Mike had power in the school.  I didn’t.  When I informed the school of what happened, the school social worker asked me “Why don’t you like Mike?  Don’t you think he’s cute?”

Mike was Donaldson.  Mike’s violence escalated to the point where his parents had him committed because he was harming himself and harming others.  I was blamed for that by the popular kids at school.  Even after he was committed, his stalking didn’t cease.  He’d call me regularly from the center, leaving voicemails, including “I used to love you.  I wanted to marry you.  But now I don’t want to do that.  I just want to fuck you.”

About a month after Mike’s commitment, he escaped from the private center for troubled people he was confined at.  This place was on the other end of town.  I remember being woken up by the cops banging on our door to tell us that Mike had escaped.  Apparently he’d made threats against me.  When they caught him, he was less than a block from my house.

While all of this was going on, two other guys came into my life.  Nick and Bill.  Nick was like Darius; he too was a popular kid in school.  He even was on the shortlist for Homecoming court.  He had power.  He wanted to date me.  Nick and Mike looked a lot alike. Both were track athletes. Nick was considered cute. Nick was also part of the drama club. Bill?  He was sweet and patient and kind.  He was part of the nerd trust.  Everybody liked him, but he wasn’t really popular or unpopular.  Bill was stocky. Overweight. Both of them wanted to date me.  Both of them, in their own way, liked me/loved me.

While all of this was going on, I could barely stand to be touched.  I couldn’t handle anybody coming up behind me - I still don’t do well with it.  I feared the sound of the telephone, because every call (just like in Damaged, Broken, and Unhinged, every knock of the door) was my stalker until proven otherwise.  It didn’t stop after Mike was sent away out of state.  It didn’t stop after I ran into him just three years ago at my church, right around the time when we started writing Damaged, Broken, and Unhinged. Mike still haunts me, but I refuse to let him dictate my life and my feelings.

I’ve often stated Katniss is me, and for those people who know me well, they agree.  But Damaged, Broken, and Unhinged Katniss?  She is me.  Her reactions to Darius’s uniforms were my reactions to Nick and his expectations of dating, which were more in line with what Darius expected. He wanted to kiss me. I wasn’t ready for that. He wanted to fool around. He let it be known that sex was on the table. Nick was a sweet guy, but he took the lead in the relationship like Darius did. If I had met Nick before I met Mike, this would be a very different story. And in a very real way, Nick saved me, just like Darius saved Katniss.  In order to escape from Mike before he got committed, I weirdly ended up involved in the drama club.  As I mentioned before, Nick was part of the drama club.  Nick rallied the drama club seniors and juniors into protecting me.  They gave me rides home from school, they looked out for me in between classes, they made Mike go away and didn’t let him follow me.  As a random note, one of the people who helped protect me was the guy who went on to write American Pie.  So the people from American Pie?  The guys and girls you see them partying with and doing stuff with?  Those were the kids who were, at the same time, protecting me, a low unpopular freshman, from my stalker.  Much like the other Peacekeepers that Darius rallies to protect Katniss.

But back to Katniss and Damaged, Broken, and Unhinged.  Her reactions to Peeta were my reactions to Bill.  It’s thanks to Bill that I didn’t die, and I’m not using hyperbole.  It’s thanks to Bill that I had the strength to let Nick down while still remaining a friend.  And we did remain friends, all the way up until he graduated.  I still think of Nick with a smile on my face.

I completely agree with you that Katniss needs time to heal.  Bill gave me that time, while at the same time letting me know that I was desirable and wanted, but also safe with him.  He let me set the pace of our relationship, and let me tell you, I burned hot and cold with him.  For about a year and a half, until he graduated, I burned hot and cold with Bill, and if circumstances had been different, Bill and I could have ended up together.  Long distance relationships suck, yo.  Especially when you’re sixteen and living in the early 90s.

I didn’t have a choice about putting myself back into a similar situation ever again.  Where my attempted rape took place was literally only a couple of houses away from my own home.  My high school was one giant trigger.  There was the stairway where Mike cornered me and one of my friends had to physically extricate me from his grasp.  There were the lockers that people used to throw other kids into me at.  There were the classrooms that Mike used to hang out in, waiting, coming closer and closer just to catch a glimpse of me.  Changing schools wasn’t an option, not in this location.  So I had to learn how to deal.  I had to learn how to survive.

I understand your point about being hypervigilant, and Katniss certainly is.  If you’re not seeing that, it’s because for me to describe what it’s like to be hypervigilant is actually traumatic.  Because I have to relive what it’s like to go through that in order to describe it.  And I don’t think any fanfic is worth my mental health.  So I’m doing my best.

One thing about Katniss and myself is that both of us have the extreme ability to compartmentalize our life.  When we’re in the middle of a crisis - which Katniss is right now, do not think otherwise, what with her mother and the food situation - what both Katniss and I do is we focus on the immediate, on what’s needed to survive the next minute, the next hour, the next day.  And then after will we allow ourselves to break down.  Katniss has not had the opportunity to break down.  I didn’t fully break down until I was out of high school, because high school was essentially one giant crisis for me that I couldn’t escape.  Every time I reached out for help - to my psychologist, to the school - I got told that Mike, and then later the bullies that made my life miserable, were more important than I was.  I lived essentially on high alert and in trauma until I graduated.  Let’s just say that my freshman year of college was a complete and utter disaster.

So if we’re not showing the trauma, it’s because I, FanficAllergy as one of the authors, can only show so much before I can’t deal with it.  And that’s the way it’s going to be.

Rose mentioned this as we were typing this up, but in a very real way, I use fanfic as a form of therapy.  Damaged, Broken, and Unhinged is my therapy for running into Mike again at my church and essentially being forced to relive everything that happened to me in high school.  I’ve written other fics that are essentially therapy for when something bad happens.  A good example is The Parting Glass, which was me dealing with the very sudden death of one my longtime friends, Big Danny T.

I really appreciate that you like our works, and I really appreciate you having the bravery to speak up.  But on this instance, I am going to put my foot down.  This is a fanfic.  This is something I do for fun.  For free.  I don’t owe anyone my trauma, and no one has the right to expect me to go through and relive what was essentially the worst time in my life beyond which I’m willing to share.  And that includes my emotions and reactions of that time.

Thank you for understanding this, and I’m really sorry that my experience doesn’t jive with your experience.  But it’s something my psychologist said: each person reacts to trauma differently.  Each person’s emotions and reactions are going to be different.  What one person goes through is not going to be what another person goes through.  If you want to see this in action, I really recommend you check out I Am Evidence, an HBO documentary about the untested rape kits and how law enforcement treats rape victims.  It might open your eyes.

Note from Rose: while I agree that Katniss will do a hell of a lot to avoid rape happening again, a hell of a lot isn’t anything.  And while Darius can protect her from everyone else, the one person Darius can’t protect her from… is Darius.  She’s seeing his similarities to Donaldson as much as his differences, and he’s making it clear he wants sex eventually.  She’s not ready or willing.  It has to be on her terms at this point.  So she’s saying no.  It���s the choice she has to make for her sanity and to be able to continue to function and not let herself die.  It’s the choice FanficAllergy made with Nick - not to be with him, as nice as he was, because she couldn’t divorce herself from the similarities.  

We hope our readers understand.

And we respectfully request that you not reblog this post.  Thank you.

[knightofbalance-13]

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Heh, even you try apologizing, you still look fucking obnoxious.

Baseless statements. Right. Like the fact that Jaune had more lines that Yang or Weiss was nothing more than a lie. The fact that there are people who are still upset over Pyrrha’s death has no base.

A. OP outright says “This, of course, isn’t a perfect way to measure how much dialogue a  character has. Shorter lines such as Weiss saying “Hey!” end up counting the same as a longer lines from Ruby.” So your point there is in fact a lie by omission.

B. Yeah...said person si also a manipulator and tried silencing me whne I speak out against him then faked being suicidal then tried to use it to enforce an echo chamber. I’m pretty sure he doesn’t count. Meanwhile, said reviews of Volume 3 have shown that people agree it was the best so far and most people enjoyed Volume 4 (https://fullmetalnarcissist.com/2017/06/24/my-review-of-rwby-volume-4/)

So you still have no base in saying your universal statements as fact when you are just a very loud minority

Let me break it down for you: Nobody is asking Miles to kill himself. They’re just asking when he’s going to die or leave.

I’ll address this all later. I will say that telling someone to kill themselves and asking when they are gonna die are two different things. One is more frontal and direct while the other is more passive aggressive. It really depends on the person which is worse.

Next up, “Properly write minorities.” Look, Miles is the HEAD WRITER. He has more power than Kerry. If someone has that link to the Buzzfeed interview where it was stated that Miles overstepped Kerry about the whole “Silver Eyes” thing, I’d appreciate it.

Which means you have no proof and considering your shown bias against Miles here: No one is gonna believe you. Next!

Also, can you re-word that whole “Trying desperately to get her not to fight Phyrrah” thing? I don’t know what you’re talking about. Are you talking about how he failed to even TRY to help Ruby when she was about to be attacked by Tyrian when she was cornered? Y’know, after he had just complained about “Being tired of losing people.”? Look, Jaune is allowed to mourn Pyrrha, but the fact that he’s the ONLY one mourning her is just annoying.

A. Help Ruby. Against the Scorpion Fanaus. One of Salem’s Elite. That through thrashed RNJR not ten minutes ago. While beig several feet away. Here’s a simulation of such an event: https://youtu.be/Up6o9r92PPk?t=10m37s

B. Ah yes because Jaune is never allowed to complain about losing the one person who believed in him after seeing some hope that they’ll make it to mistral while watching a live operson die in front of them. Because Jaune must be a sociopath.

C. Um...Volume 4, Episode 2. Volume 4 episode 11. Also: Ruby barely knew Pyrrha, Renand Nora were far off from her when she died and had bigger problems and Pyrrha just kind of denied him any chance of not getting suvivor’s guilt.

Yeah, wanna explain to me how your argument is valid again?

- Up until we only saw just Jaune mourning Pyrrha, Pyrrha’s death was like Schrodinger’s Cat. She wasn’t killed for manpain until we only saw Jaune bemoaning he loss of life. And remember how Ozpin said to Call Glynda? Why did Jaune call Weiss instead? If he really wanted to help, he should’ve followed his teacher’s instructions.

Except Ruby showed Trama at Pyrrha’s death first in Episode 2 so Pyrrha would be “woman-pain.” Also: Thanks for showing that you think no male characters should be allowed to mourn detah at all lest it be “man pain”: Guess if Qrow or Taiyang, the two teammates of SUmmer who actually cared about her, mourned it’d be man pain but if sociopathic bitch Raven did its suddenly fine huh? Get your msiandric ass out of here.

Yeah I do...I also remember he told PYRRHA that, not Jaune. In fact, Jaune was recovering from Cinder whooping his ass. (https://youtu.be/pT1XiUbJu_Y?t=15m28s) So...How you gonna twist that about being Jaune’s fault?

Look, Jaune acts as if Qrow was the entire reason why Pyrrha got into that pod. The narrative is set up as if we were supposed to side with Jaune, but it gets muddled when we, the audience, are more aware that it was Ozpin that had a bigger influence of pushing Pyrrha into the pod than Qrow. So no. Our criticism of Jaune isn’t baseless. Unlike your baseless claims that that one asshole is the voice of the entire rwde tag.

And Qrow was one of the people who gave Pyrrha, a person who is selfless to a fault (literally, its a character flaw of hers), a decision that could destroy the world. Playing on one’s psychological flaws is basically the same as holding a gun to their head: You don’t really have a choice at that point.

And if you were to pay attention to the narrative you’d notice two things: A. Jaune didn’t know that. he was onbly around for the parts where a girl died and Pyrrha screaming and Pyrrha rocketing to her death. And B. JAUNE WAS ALSO WRONG! Just because Qrow was getting called out doesn’t mean Jaune was right. The narrative portrayed him as going too far and being overly hostile as no one backed him up. That’s just the narrative you call canon in your head.

Not that any of this matters: You’re a sexist towards and a racist towards white people Dudeblade with an admitted bias against Jaune also: Your opinion is worthless here.

I’m ware I fucked up in that regard. I know that I shouldn’t have typed it. But in my honest opinion, I want Miles fired. He writes so shittily, that I have ZERO faith in his ability to write anything that doesn’t revolve around his precious pet Jaune at all well.

Also, I wasn’t thinking straight. All I saw was someone basically claiming that the RWDE tag is a hivemind and I retaliated

Wanna know what’s missing here?

A fucking apology. 

Dudeblade admitted he was wrong but then completely missed the important part of actually saying “I’m sorry miles for defending your sucide baiting” to instead JUSTIFY his opinion without any more admission on being wrong to show he still knows what he was doing is wrong.

So considering your bias against Jaune, against Miles, against men and against white people: no dice here Dudeblade.

I don’t. That’s why I call out Knight-of-I-defend-nazis-and-am-a-pedophile-apologist all the time. I’m not deleting it though, I’m aware that it will stay up forever in the internet archives and that I’ll have to deal with it at every turn until I do something equally fucked up that will draw attention from it. I’ll live with what I said.

A. that's a lie and your own link proves that.

And more importantly, B. STILL NO APOLOGY. You talk about how you take responsibility for your actions and lord over my so-called “suicide baiting” and yet you don’t say a single word of apology and immediately, as in: in the same fucking breath, go back to your previous attitude.

So good fucking job: You just proved that you should be ejected as far away from RWBY as possible.

[undercovermcdfan]

lagom | travlyn

title: lagom

summary: he asked. she agreed. Travlyn. MCD s3.

a/n: SO. This is highkey born out of the need to write a fic about travlyn??? And this came to mind! I always always yell about the Guard academy hosting Balls (like to fund the academy? Because there’s no central government, so they must generate money somehow without hindering the alliance’s economy), so what if this fic might be a two-parter; I wanted to write them dancing but gotten side tracked lol.Also yes, Travis and Katelyn live together as roommates /eyes emoji I mean the dude been living on a mountain and she could use a roomie lmfao

warning(s): eye emojis they flirt, sweet talk

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Lagom (n.) not too little, not too much. Just right.

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She bit her tongue, averting her eyes as a laugh wanted to bubble up. But alas, even the futile attempt to save feelings and covering her mouth, Travis caught her smile.

Which was fair, because he must know how ridiculous he look.

“I can explain,” he cracked out, the sharp pitch being the last thing to break down the dam.

The house filled with her laughter, a laugh she hadn’t in a long time; it took up the space around them, aching and deep, broken by a snort as she tried to rein it in.

Honestly, life taken quite a turn the past month— and of course it would. Travis did, in fact, always had that effect in her life. Whether she admit enjoying this little fact.

Putting aside the broom, his face warmed as he wringed his hands nervously; the home was spotless, as it always was since he taken up in her spare bedroom. She slid off her bag, the heavy thud of books and reports dropping to the ground as she shook her head. “Well, I’d love to hear it,” she said, dragging her feet to the couch and plopping down it rather ungracefully. Sure, she was the headmistress of the Academy and certain amount of grace was expected from her station as well as status of a Lady. But she also was running on so few hours of rest.

Beside Travis was the last person she had to worry about holding her governmental persona in front of.

Especially, especially, while he tried desperately to explain the scene she just witnessed.

And explain he did, flustered and fidgeting, the shame of being caught battled out the embarrassment of being caught on his face, twisting grimace twinkled as he showed too much of his sharpen teeth—a nervous habit that would normally intimidated some other than her. She found the habit rather cute.

In the matte of being truthful, she must say how strange it was, letting the affectionate thoughts flow rather than stopping and berating herself all together. It was a subtle change—she can’t pin when the switch actually happened; all she knew was her weariness of calling herself out whenever words like sweet or cute supplied as adjectives of the things Travis does.

“Dancing,” she echoed back, “You don’t know how to dance? Hmm… well I’m surprised, I seen you fight.” He squinted at her. She grinned, patting the space beside her and despite his annoyed expression, he took up seat beside her. “Don’t give me that—you fight with strength but even to this day, there’s not much grace to it because your lack of formal training.” Lowblow.

He clicked his tongue. “How bad were the meetings today?”

“Terrible. That obvious?”

“You’re always overly critical when cranky—hard to miss it.”

She hummed, leaning her head against his shoulder—feeling him tensed up, patted his arm in comfort, a well understood sign of Shh, don’t question, I’m tired. Maybe a little affection to it too. “Sorry,” she said, the last of her energy sapped by that laugh, “Juggling between debating scenarios and strategies meetings on top of fussy benefactors who badgering me for a when on the Academy’s yearly Ball—I don’t mean take that out on you. You don’t deserve that.”

“I don’t but you are forgiven, Lady Firefist,” he smirked at her slight wince; after hearing the title lady all but yelled at her today, she rather good on not being called anything besides Katelyn. But she’d let it slide, rolling her eyes. “Actually, funny that you bring up that Ball. Being a source of entertainment in your life, I do request a proper apology.”

“Oh?” She sat up slight, leaning away with furrowed brows. His tone, while playful and even a little… hopeful, she could already foresee where this was going. She pursed her lips, gesturing him to continue.

“I would like to go to this Ball.”

She shrugged, “I was going to invite you soon, naturally. But it’s not for another month—”

“You didn’t let me finish,” he said, leaning back as he kicked up his feet onto the coffee table. She nudged them off with her leg and look of warning, but her expression still open. “I want to go with you. As your date.”

“As my…” she blinked. And blinked again, her cheeks pinkening—well she shouldn’t be so surprised. It was naturally to think he would ask that and even though it wasn’t a sudden shift, the mood felt… different.

“I mean. Unless some frumpity benefactor taken you up, I just… thought it was worth asking?”

“What brought this on, though?”

Now it was his turn to blink in surprise.

She narrowed her eyes. “Did you go through my things?”

“No— well, not going through, more like you left the letter there and that disaster of an office space need a good dusting. Really unhealthy not to, Katelyn,” he rambled, looking away. “By the way—that Lord Augustine or whatever, he sounds so pretentious. I would like to do you the honor, isn’t you who’s honoring that dude?”

“Travis.”

“I mean, and that handwriting? I give points for sincerity of writing it—that or he should fire whoever writing his letters.”

“Travis.” She touched his arm.

He continued to rant, “And, Irene, who asks for a date through letters? Sounds more of a business arrangement.”

She snorted. They always are. But she should stop him before he continued to drag on, she touched him again, cupping his face with beamused smile. “Don’t do that again.”

“I won’t,” he immediately deflated, flustered and sheepishness coming back, “Now I’m sorry.”

“It’s accepted,” she smiled wider, getting up off the couch, “And yes.”

There’s a pause, as she started to walk towards the kitchen—followed by the sound of him nearly tripping over himself. “W-wait, really. Just like that? You know, before I saw that damning letter, I actually was thinking of asking you and properly,” he called out, following after her, “Irene, I said that so lamely.”

“Nonetheless, I said yes. Much rather you than some Lord who want better position on the Alliance or Academy board,” she said, throwing him a smile over the shoulder and a glint in her eye, “Consider me won over by your directness, Sir Valkrum.”

“Sir…”

“Also get use to that,” she opened up the cupboard, “And people nitpicking your every move. The Academy and the village may be use to your presence but we’re talking about almost all the lords within the alliance and their families appearing; one wrong rumor would stick more than any impressive battle victory.”

Another pause. And then a softer “Oh.”

“Oh indeed,” she shut the cupboard, pulling out two tea cups and kettle, “I appreciate you asking me out—ease my journey into social hell.”

“….it can’t be that bad, can it?”

“Travis, you been living on a mountain most of your life—and this whole game been mines since… Irene, I don’t know how long. Only person who would have more experience is Garroth. So this is your chance to back out and save yourself.”

“I…” he shook his head, opening up a cabinet and handing her the baggie containing the dried tea leaves after watching her search after she set the kettle. “Thanks.” “No problem, rearranged the contents again—but, I think… I won’t be scared off. After all,” he smirked, leaning against the wall as she turned to face him, “a night with you is too good to pass up.”

“Is that so?” she mused, raising a brow, “Even if it means you taking dancing lessons—don’t give me that look.” She chuckled, “I’m sure you’ll share dancing with not just me—people are always curious about fresh faces, after all. I rather not hear complaints of stepped toes or awkward situations. Not another Liochant incident.”

“I’ll ask about that later.”

“Mm, better another time when he’s here to defend himself.”

They both laughed, she poured the tea into the cups and slide one closer to him. “But I jest, thank you for offering. Now I have something to say rather than procrastinating my choices and making replies.”

“No prob…lem. So… choices. How many letters?”

“How many single lords looking for a gain in status?”

He frowned at his cup of tea. It’s funny how jealousy showed and the small urge to tease him even more; taking a sip of much needed comforting warmth, she hummed. “Don’t look glum. I’m rather excited now—never was before.”

Like a switch, another suave grin appeared, ego starting to visibly inflate. She snorted at his “is that so?” and cocked brow, and nodded.

“Hmm… so much to do,” she murmured, but smiling, she could already feel the stress of her day melting away. “Anyways, I didn’t get a chance to ask—how was your day?”

[cloppyreads]

After The Fact: Love Stands With Pride

It’s done. The final chapter was posted on Sunday. If you haven’t read it yet, go read it , because everything I’m about to say is related to it. 

Oh boy. What a ride this has been, more of a ride than I thought it was going to be, for more than one reason. Before I get into it, I want to thank everyone who has read, upvoted, commented, followed me and most importantly, those who have shared it with others. I also want to give thanks to Drummermax64 for all of his reviews on every chapter, and for being so easy to work with on helping to get it featured on ZNN. Additionally, I want to give another big thank you to WinterBunny for making the art that inspired the story, and kenalbus for giving me the rights to use the image you’ve been seeing for months as cover art. And finally, big thanks to @steelquill for proofreading every chapter, and helping me out when I occasionally wasn’t sure what to do with the little details of the story; I don’t say it enough, but Quill’s eyes help make my story just a little bit better than they usually would have been without him taking a fresh look at them. 

With that said, I feel like there are some things I need to address with what happened with releasing the story, and the strong response it got, and not in the good way (mostly because of the first chapter, not so much because of anything following it). That said, everything below the read more line is going to be a (mostly) unfiltered rant/ramble from yours truly concerning everything that had to do with me releasing the story and the flames it generated from so many people. I’ll try to keep it PG-13 since the story itself is SFW, but like I said, the filter is pretty much coming off here. 

Alright, so everyone knows how blown away I was by the Zootopia movie, I don’t need to go into that story, it’s been said numerous times, same thing about how taken I was with the whole WildeHopps shipping thing and how badly I want it to be canon. For a couple months I’d been enjoying fanart SFW and NSFW alike, when out of nowhere on tumblr, I came across this. 

Do you ever come across a picture that’s not only beautiful, but also makes you think “you know what? This feels right.”? That’s what happened with this picture. I don’t think there’s a single detail out of place or that I disagree with here. The proposal is happening in the same place that Judy poured her soul out to Nick when she’d hurt him unintentionally, and she’s pouring her soul to him once again here. Judy’s the one doing the proposing, because she’s the assertive type while Nick struggles to let his emotions out. Nick’s tearing up because once that chord has been struck with him, it’s hard for him to keep himself composed. I myself have always liked Nick for a number of reasons, but one of them was because I didn’t see him as much of a masculine male. He’s got a slim build, he’s not overly courageous, and he has that emotionally frail side of his even if he keeps it hidden. With all that in mind, seeing Judy take what’s usually associated with the male’s role and proposing to him just made my heart leap, and I knew I had to write something about it.  Thing is, I didn’t want to just write a one-shot chapter and be done with it. Those are fun to write, and they can sometimes do well, but more often than not they’re appreciated for maybe a week and then forgotten forever. I didn’t want that to happen; I felt like this scene deserved to be part of something bigger and that it deserved more spotlight. So, I started thinking of a bigger story to attach it to. Something with ups and downs and some drama and some heartache only for these two to help lift the other up when they’ve been beaten down. To me, it felt like interspecies discrimination was the way to go. Yes, I know that Bucky and Pronk are technically not the same species, and there’s comics that have depicted some mammals asking other species of mammal out, so some people are saying it’s not an issue in the city. Sure, that’s a possibility; the other possibility is that some mammals are okay with it, while others aren’t, and there might not be anything the city government can do to stop interspecies couples from dating but they haven’t updated their laws to allow them to marry. So many what-if’s and loopholes and technicalities that haven’t and might not ever be answered by Disney (unless they just stun us all and make that the message of the sequel) that I thought it was a fine subject to approach. 

So, movie hype is in full swing, everybody loved the message that Zootopia had to teach about prejudice and politicians using fear to keep those in their groups united against groups they don’t like, racism is bad, yaddah yaddah yaddah. What does America do? They elect the guy who wants to build a wall across Mexico, ban Muslims from entering the U.S, and also ban transsexuals from joining the military (oh, but he’s FINE with gay marriage! Isn’t that the ONLY thing that matters???) Good job, guys. I’m sure that’s what everyone who worked on the movie was aiming for you to do. Way to go.  So yeah, that obviously upset me, and surprisingly enough, it upset a lot of other people too. So I thought to myself “hey, I’ve got this fanfic in my queue that’s about Nick and Judy overcoming prejudice to not only get what they want, but what a lot of other mammals want too. If they’re engaging in a political scuffle, it only makes sense to have a political villain at the head of it all, right?” Also I wanted to be topical, and since I was still feeling betrayed by my country, I thought I could be both topical and let off some steam by making the villain of my story be an obvious caricature of The Annoying Orange. I figured that since there are a VAST amount of people who hate Drump, that might get a laugh out of people, even if it also ticked off a lot of others. So, I spent Jan-May pouring my blood, sweat and tears into this story, which even before it was done being edited and revised into the final version, I was damn proud of. It was the longest story I’d completed (sorry Scales fans, that story is pretty much dead), and I thought I’d spun a neat little tale about conflict, the struggle to overcome it, and a happy ending, but mostly shipping moments galore. I knew I was going to get some flack for throwing the Crybaby in Chief under the bus, but I figured it’d be pretty small and not amount to much. 

The response I got?

Ho-ly-Crap. You’d have thought I cut off his head and played basketball with it, people were so angry (I mean, NOT angry, just very very vocal about how “not angry” they were xD). 

For more detail on the heated responses I got, check out “Dumb Fanfic Author Reads Salty Comments” 

Look, I get what some people are saying, that my character Remus Trunk isn’t an “accurate portrayal” of Donald Trump. I understand that, and this is going to shock some of you, but I wasn’t going for that. I had no intention of making Remus so accurate of a portrayal to Donald that you could confuse the two of them for each other. All I wanted was to throw in a few likenesses that readers could figure out who I was parodying. And given the fact that so many people responded along the lines of “hurrrrr, that’s not what DONALD TRUMP would say!” then you obviously understood who I was referencing, so mission accomplished for me! 

People acted like I was somehow hurting... something... I don’t know what... by posting this fic with a caricature of Trump. I think they forgot that we live in a country where hundreds of comedy shows constantly make their own parodies of him because they have a right to do so, and they know people enjoy it. Yeah, people on the Red side sure like to complain about how PC-liberals are taking away their free speech to the point they can’t even talk, but you say one word about their president-senpai? “Hey man, shut up! You can’t say that! That’s not fair! Ugh, you’re so mad!” Dude, your candidate won, what more do you want? You want a medal for it and a pat on the back that you made the right choice? People are going to voice that they disagree with you: get over it.  Now before everyone starts thinking I’m just lashing out at people who disagree with me, I’d like to point out there were more than a few people who voiced their criticism in a composed and level headed way. They said to me something along the lines of “I think it’s unfair that you’re not representing that there are some level headed people on the opposing side” or “I’m not really interested in reading politics in fanfiction so this isn’t up to my tastes”. And that’s fine. I’m more than okay with people voicing their disagreements with me as long as they aren’t doing it with a tone that sounds like they’re verbally flipping me off. 

Regardless, publishing this story showed me that the Zootopia fandom, like every other fandom, indeed has its dark side. Right around my first chapter being published was when I noticed that the fandom was throwing a tantrum over Borba’s comic “I Will Survive”. I mean, the lengths that people went to to trash Borba and try to discredit everything about that comic was baffling. Yeah, I read the comic, and it was very depressing, and it doesn’t line up with MY headcanon of what Nick and Judy would do in that situation (Nick actually yes, but not Judy so much) but you know what? It’s not my story, and it’s not my headcanon. And apparently it’s not Borba’s headcanon either. He’s still a wildehopps shipper, even though that one story showed them breaking up. He wrote it because he wanted to try something different. He’s not trying to make a continuing timeline or anything; he’s just writing and drawing out ideas because he wants to express them. It’s called being creative. And that’s what I did too: I had an idea, wanted to express it, and that’s what I did. I don’t think we should be crucified for bringing our ideas to the public. We can be criticized sure, it’s healthy if presented in a constructive way. But if all you’re giving us is “I don’t like it!” or “This makes me (not) angry!” then it’s just proving to us that there’s a portion of the Zootopia fandom that really needs to grow up. 

So, do I have any plans to make other fanfics with caricatures of politicians I don’t like? Nope, not that I can think of. I’ve got a TON of story outlines all piled up on one another, but none of them have anything to do with politics. But that’s just because I haven’t seen any reason to do such a thing yet. I have not been intimidated by any of the man-children who pitched a fit in my comments section trying to dissuade me from talking mean about their president-senpai, so if I happen to be stricken with an idea where some political content might help the story I’m trying to tell, I am sure gonna do that, and I’m going to feel ZERO regret for doing it. Keep in mind, I’m not some rebel trying to start a political uprising: I’m just trying to tell some stories and entertain readers, while also improving my own craft. Even though these are fanfics, I do take this craft very seriously, and I want to keep improving my storytelling abilities. I’ve been doing it for about five years now, and I have no intention of stopping anytime soon (I might have to stop writing fanfics some day in the next couple years, but I seriously want to keep writing SOMETHING for the rest of my life). 

WITH ALL THAT OUT OF THE WAY, you guys probably want to know about coming stories in the future. I was going to do a little blurb about it here, but I felt it better to give that topic its own post. To read up on what I’ve got planned for the coming months, read Plans For The Future (Ramble)

Other than that, just want to say thanks to everybody who follows me and reads my crap, hope you enjoy more of it in the future. Peace out. :) 

[alia15]

The 10 Worst Kinds of People You Can Encounter

I once read one of those blogger-advice-type-posts that said you should take some of your old content (which no one saw or likely remembers) and essentially regurgitate it and make a new one.  Good idea!  It’s a way to re-post your previous work, but also -- if I’m being honest -- it’s just less effort, writing and coming up with creative stuff for me.  So, win.  

Whenever I look back at my posts from the past five years I realize there are some pretty consistent themes, unsurprisingly.  I write about dating a lot, because...duh.  I rant.  I observe.  I write about relatable girly stuff.  But one theme I also noticed was talking about people -- different kinds of people -- and their personality traits, habits, and quirks.  Another theme I noticed?  People are annoying, y’all.

So I’ve taken the liberty of compiling excerpts from various past blog posts of mine to bring you: 

The 10 Worst Kinds of People You Can Encounter. 

Starting with:

1. NON-RECIPROCATORS.

I’m pretty sure I just made that word up.  I’m referring to the people we know who LOVE to talk about themselves.  Who love to tell you about their lives, their opinions, their plans, their feelings.  They post things online in hopes of receiving attention in the way of likes/comments or perhaps they’ll promote something that they’re working on or something they’re participating in.  The problem?  They do all of this, but they don’t reciprocate.  They never ask you how you are.  They don’t inquire how your weekend was.  They won’t engage back with you on social media or support the things that YOU’RE doing.  They’re selfish, self-absorbed and self-consumed. And they suck.

2. THE “ONE UPPER.”

A One-Upper is a person who constantly (and obnoxiously) takes a conversation that isn’t about them, MAKES IT about them, and tries to ‘trump’ the other person as if said conversation was a weird contest of some sort.

The strange thing is, these kinds of people always want to have a better story than you, even if you’re talking about something shitty.  

Oh, you had a bad day?  Well I had a WORSE day.

You’ve got a cold?  Well I have the flu.

I’m sorry your cat died; my Grandma died two months ago so that’s been rough too.

Ugh.  Stop.

With One-Upper’s, it doesn’t stop there.  They also want you to know that if something good happens to you, they have a story far superior. You went on a vacation; they went on a better one.  You bought a car; they tell you about the more expensive/fancier one they drive.  Oh, your significant other did something nice? Time to hear about how they are dating/married to the world’s most perfect and generous specimen.  

You can’t win. And the funny thing is? You weren’t trying to.  

3. NEGATIVE NANCY’S. (also known as: “Debbie Downer,” “Bitter Betty”)

We all know the type.  Overly negative, constantly complaining, that insufferable “woe-is-me” mentality.  Their stank attitude and unpleasant thoughts spread bad juju all around; bringing down everyone in their path.

Listen, life can suck sometimes!  Awful and unfair stuff happens, people die, weather is bad, we may hate our jobs, days can be horrible, we get sick, things can be generally stressful.  And I think we’re all entitled to have our moments of pure frustration and our need to vent about anything that’s currently weighing on us.

But guess what?  There’s a grace period, and after a certain amount of time, that shit’s gotta stop.  You cannot wallow in your misery and project this negative energy into the world forever, because guess what?  If you’re ALWAYS negative and miserable, people will pick up on it and won’t want to be around you.

4. THE OVERLY CHEERFUL. 

Hypocritical to the point above?  Maybe.  But just like most of us don’t want to be around some Doom-and-Gloom type attitude, most of us don’t wanna be around a constant Susie F*&king Sunshine, either.  It’s too much!  The smiling, the laughing, the over-the-top positivity, the perma-good mood, the jolly demeanor, the friendliness... when does it end?!  

If you’re ALWAYS cheerful, just know I am very suspicious of you.  It’s weird.

5. THE UNRELIABLE.

Every group of friends and every family has one of these.  It’s the person who says they’re gonna do something or attend something and then just... flakes.  I have zero patience for this and get totally annoyed when someone continuously backs out of plans.  If I can’t rely on you and am never sure if you’re gonna do what you say you’re gonna do – well, you’re the worst.

6. THE RUDE/INCONSIDERATE.

Not polite, not respectful, has no manners, doesn’t think of others, doesn’t say ‘please’ or ‘thank you’ and treats others like dog shit.  Get outta my face.

7. PERSONAL SPACE INVADERS.

I’m really big on personal space, and cannot take it when a person – whether it’s a stranger or not – is a “space invader."

Have you ever been on a line somewhere -- the bank, grocery store, mall, etc., and actually FELT the person standing on line behind you?  If I can feel you breathing on my neck…that’s a pretty good sign that you’re too close.  

Better yet, do you know someone in your life that’s just a general close-talker?  You back up to give yourself the amount of space you personally require in social situations, and they still move in closer.

Can’t we all take a lesson from one of my favorite 80s movies of all time, ‘Dirty Dancing’?  Johnny and Baby are practicing their routine when he famously tells her, ”This is my dance space. This is your dance space. I don’t go into yours, you don’t go into mine.“

YES!  This doesn’t apply to strictly dancing scenarios, this is great advice for LIFE.  Back up, please.

8. THE JUDGE.

Unless your name is Judy, I’m not particularly interested in being judged by you.  Unsolicited opinions and advice, overly critical comments, disapproving looks... NO THANKS.  We’re all just doing our best here, okay?  I didn’t sign up for this judgmental bullshit and quite frankly I don’t really care if you don’t approve of my choices, my outfit, my actions, my decisions, or um, anything, really.  The best part?  These Judgy McJudgersons are usually farrrrrrrrr from perfect themselves.  Funny how that works.

9. CHICKEN LITTLES.

Who remembers the classic folktale “Chicken Little?”  You know, the melodramatic chicken who runs around town proclaiming that the sky is falling just because a measly acorn fell on his head?  Folktales/fables like this one typically have a moral to their stories; a lesson to be learned to the reader.  So what’s the lesson in “Chicken Little?"

STOP FREAKING OUT SO DAMN MUCH.

You know people like this: they are incessantly worried, stressed, panicked and causing mass hysteria around them.  They always think the worst-case-scenario, they get all worked up and try to bring others down in their self-destructive path.  I’ve worked with a LOT of people like this in the past; ones who try to incite some sort of riot over every insignificant thing.  KNOCK IT OFF, CRAZIES.

10.  LIAR, LIAR, PANTS ON FIRE.

You know at least one.  They embellish, they misspeak, they exaggerate, they lie like a rug. You can’t trust a single thing they say and you’re constantly catching their white lies, their blatant lies and their big little lies (great show).  Why are people like this??  I’d hate knowing I was the girl who spoke and everyone around me was just like:

  That’s it!  That’s my 10 worst!  Who’s on your list? 

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yousana secret santa again! wow, that light exhibition sounds lovely!! I'm sure you had a great time. so a little q/a, I'm good with fanvideos or fanfics, is there any preference for one or the other for you? also do you like soft songs or something a bit high tempo? and lastly, totally unrelated but I see you watch kdramas from your blog, so many of my friends have been wanting me to watch them, which one would you recommend?

hello dear secret santa, hope you’re doing well!!!

oh I very very rarely watch fanvideos (i don’t really know why tbh? I have friends who’ve made some and I’ve loved them, I think it’s just that I’ve never really searched for it) but I do read fanfiction and I think I prefer reading about scenes/moments/dialogue that can’t be found in canon

that song question is very tricky because although I listen to a lot of soft songs, I’ve recently come to enjoy different styles so I think it depends why I’m listening to music for (in the street, while working on writing or on designing, while reading, just listening..) - not a very clear answer I’m sorry!

oooh nice question!!! i’ve started watching kdramas less than a year ago now so I’ve mainly watched shows that came out a few years ago and few that came out this year, I only followed one in real time but that means all the ones I recommend are easily found online with english subtitles!

recommendations are quite tricky because I’ve watched some very different genres so I guess it also kind of depends on what you like? but still here are some of the ones I’ve enjoyed the most/that touched me the most (oh there’s always a love story more or less important to the plot):

- just between lovers (quite sad because it deals with a lot of trauma and survivor’s guilt but in a way I found very respectful and not too “drama and tragedy for the sake of it” and the dynamic between the two leads was really good! despite the pain the characters go through you finish it feeling soft)

- catch the ghost (not the best plot and pacing for a crime show let’s be honest but the characters and their dynamics were so great and made up for it!! I loooved the two leads so much each individually as well as their pairing - my blog’s been full of them lately lol there’s so much care and understanding between them and aslo the show can be really really funny)

- her private life (a very, very, very nice rom-com, just enough tropes and new twists on fake dating and hidden identities, well crafted-well written-complex main characters!! I coul’ve done without a few stuffs but overall it was a really great and sweet show -without being too sweet!)

- 100 days my prince (the only historical drama I’ve watched so far and I like the balance between the romance and the political/court plot, one of the lead has amnesia for a long part of the show which can be a tricky subject but I thought the show dealt with it well and the use of tropes (romantic or dramatic) didn’t bother me as I liked the characters)

- Weightlifting fairy kim bok-joo (the first one I watch so it’s special to me, it’s a very nice and soft one even if it’s not always super happy, but it has a great “ennemy-quickly friends-to-lovers” relationship and great representation of friendship and what it’s like to go through college)

- fight for my way ( this one has a great childhood-friends-to-lovers relationship without it being the center of development for the characters as I felt it mostly dealt with young adults trying to figure out how to live out their dreams and to make choices for their lives and career in today’s world)

- miss hammurabi (didn’t really think I would like this one at first as it’s set in court, it’s set in a group of judges dealing with civil cases when a new young female judge full of empathy and desire to change things start working there, the issues that they dealt with in their cases and the debate over the ethics of their work were super interesting and touching and felt very contemporary, the intrigue of the court behind-the-scenes and the power of the hierarchy were sometimes shocking but very well discussed and if I remember well it was written by an ex-judge, the romance is quite low-key in this one but the relationship between the different judges and the court personnel is very rich and I was touched by a lot of cases they dealt with. The only thing I’m uncomfortable with in this drama, is that in the 1st episode when trying to prove a point about how women should not be criticized for what they wear the lead female character wears a burqa and one of the judges get overly scared of her but it’s never dealt with)

- healer (from what I understand it’s a classic even if it’s not really old but it’s got everything!!! great heros, some good, some more morally grays but all well written and touching and going through a learning/self-discovery curve, great balance of the plot between action-journalistic investigation-romance-team building, there are a lot of flashbacks as it often deals with the outcome of the actions of a group of people in the 80′s and there are great relationships developped over the generations and between characters that can seem too different but work well together, i really liked the main pairing!! and the main team was really great)

- my id is gangnam beauty (the synopsis intrigued me as it tells the story of a young girl starting university after having a full facial surgery, she still has issues with her self-esteem and how she views herself and when she enters college thinking no one will recognize her, a boy does. It deals with some serious themes over the expectations put on women to look a certain way and the behaviour they adopt because of it while also dealing with a first love experience (really like the pairing and the way the relationship developed) and getting into college)

- one spring night (it’s one that felt very “grown-up” to me without being too heavy, the story can seem quite simple - a woman who already has a boyfriend that she doesn’t really get along with anymore and whom she doesn’t plan on marrying meets ayoung pharmacist who is a single father. From there the relationship is explored in a very delicate way even if they face many obstacles from the “ex”-boyfriend and the family - just wanted to slap them sometimes- and I loved the production and the directing, the characters aren’t tropes)

- age of youth (i’ve only watched the first season -it’s evry rare that kdramas have more than 1- and I loved it but the second season changed the casting for one of the main character and it put me off since she’s the one who starts the story- it’s about 5 girls living in a shared house in seoul -most of them are college students and they all have very different lives and issues to deal with but a certain camaradery and care is built between them as they live together and support each other, it’s got a bit of everything and none of the girls felt like tropes of clichés to me and all were very interesting)

- coffee prince (this one is a real classic from the 2000′s and it deals with the story of a young woman who pretends to be a man for her job, problem is her boss and her develop a very special connection and she doesn’t want to reveal she’s a woman while he questions himself, it’s also about how they work togetehr and with a team to create a new coffee place and the bond between the team members and how their relationship affects that - it’s very well acted and despite the touchy subject it never feels like it’s too much, it’s always very touching and it’s very angsty!)

- father is strange (this one is a loooong one, most kdramas last 16 episodes, this ones has 52 I think? I definitely didn’t bing that one but I highly recommend it. It’s a great story about family - both blood family, living with your relatives and growing up to see your parents as people and not just your heroes and found family, what makes a family? a young actor goes looking for his father and the man he finds has a family and 4 grown children - one of his daughter being the actor’s assistant- he starts living in with them only he doesn’t know the man isn’t actually his father. You follow the story of each daughter and the actor as well as the parents dilemmas over revealing their identity or taking care of the actor. Each relationship is well crafted and goes through highs-and-lows - there’s one very annoying couple, the in-laws of one of the daughter- and despite the lenght I never felt bored because each character was well taken care of and well written)

I can’t make short lists and short presentations I’m sorry, I tried in the beginning but kind of gave up by the end! I hope you’ve found something to watch in these recommendations, if you want more infos on some of these shows or want to know about the others I’ve watched (I might’ve forgotten a good one that I liked and that would fit you more) don’t hesitate to ask! and if you start watching one of these, please let me know what you think!!