#i’m like 1 pull away from a guaranteed 4 star tho i want it so badddd

[mars-ipan]

i have a fucking problem with the pjsk gacha addiction it is BAD

[oertendahlii]

So, a looooong time ago, longer now than it seems, I was tagged by both @stolligaseptember and @aprilskyforever to do the 11 questions tag.

And tonight I have less things to do than I’ve had in a long, long time, so I’m taking some time to finally do it!

The Game: Answer the questions, create your own 11 questions, and tag 11 people!

The Questions

So, since I’m doing 11x2 questions, I’ll continue down below

These are the ones from the lovely September: 1. What’s the first thing you do in the morning? There isn’t really something I do by routine the first thing in the morning, it differs. But if I manage to go up before all of my alarms gone off then the first thing I do is turn them off. Other than that, I’d say I drink water.  2. Describe the latest photo on your phone? It’s a photo of the cake I made for father’s day! It’s a cake with pale orange buttercream, chocolate drippel and lots of edible rocks I made some time ago for another cake. Oh and sprinkled orange zest! Not my finest creation, but I had little to work with and not a lot of time to spare, so under the circumstances I’d say it looks kinda pretty. 3. A book everyone should read I don’t really feel like any of the books I’ve read “qualifies” as a book     everyone should read? What even makes a book qualify as something everyone should read? But I’d say the closest one to earn the “title” is “Britt-Marie var här” (Britt-Marie was here) by Fredrik Backman. It’s just such a lovely book. At least I could say that everyone that has read “A man called Ove” and liked it should read Britt-Marie was here. Or maybe I’d say Mio, my son because I love Astrid Lindgren and there’s really something about that book that enchants me.   4. What would you say is your best talent? I have no idea? Like I’ve been staring at this question and just!?!? I don’t know. So I googled “talent” and it said: “Talent is the natural ability to do something well.” And!? I’m sorry but I don’t have a natural ability to do something well (that I can think of, at least). Like I’m not particularly good at anything (like really, I’m not), and the few things I’d say I’m alright at didn’t come natural (I think). I’m  content with being just kinda good at (some) stuff, tho :)   5. Favorite subject in school? You know what, I take the previous answer back. My talent is that I’m not able to make up my mind about things. I rarely have one favourite. And concerning this, I can’t really remember having a favourite subject? And many times I’ve liked a class not necessary because of the subject, but rather because of the teacher or my classmates. But I can mention some of the subjects I’ve liked at some point throughout my “academic life”:   - Art, math, baking (we’re talking kid age)  - History, civics, geography, chemistry, physics, math, art (12-15 years     old)  - History, math, science, TV-production (16-18)    After that I studied at a higher vocational education programme about     environment where my favourite subjects was geology, environmental     pollutions and a course in sustainable development (mostly because it     included some ecology).    This question made me remember that I didn’t like biology when I had it in school (which was when I was 12-15), which is kinda ironic because guess who just started studying a biology programme!?! Although I guess it kinda makes sense because the biology we had then was pretty much focused on the human body and I’m all about nature.      Since I pretty much just started with named programme, I can’t really pick a favourite yet. But I’m looking so much forward to ecology and conservation biology! Like I could probably say my favourite subject is ecology, but!?!? I’ve never actually had ecology as a school subject (yet!) so I can’t answer that.  6. Favorite holiday? Now that we’ve settled that I can’t pick just one favourite, I’d say Lucia, Valborg and Midsummer. Although I haven’t actually celebrated any of them for real in years, so that’s a shame. Oh and I really like Christmas as well! 7. Song stuck in your head at the moment? None! I don’t really get songs stuck in my head? Like that doesn’t happen? I don’t really understand the concept actually?   8. Favorite comfort food? Honestly I’d say it depends on the mood and the weather and the season and the time of the day. But like vegetable soup and bread is a win win most times. 9. Have you witnessed something truly incredible? Well I’ve seen some meteor rain and I think those are incredible! So spectacular and beautiful!     10. Best childhood memory? There’s not really a specific memory I’d call “the best childhood memory”.  Like I don’t remember a lot? It’s just small fragments with meanings long forgotten and I can’t really call any of them anything special and definitely not the best. And I can’t really sit down and just remember things? Most of my memories just flash by when they feel like it, I can’t really pull them out of nowhere and just remember things. I’d say my strongest memory, one of the rare I can actually recall without any form of provocation, is when I dropped a red rose on my grandfather’s coffin when I was like 4 or 5. But I’d certainly wouldn’t call that the best one. If I actually could remember my grandfather, I’d probably pick a memory with him because even if I don’t remember why I liked him so much I do remember that I did. 

11. If animals could talk, which would be the rudest?  I first answered this question with like a long rant about humanity (as an argument for choosing the species closest related to us) because     apparently I can’t talk about anything concerning zoology or ecology     without getting upset with humanity and the fact that we endanger literary all species upon this earth    But instead of doing that (I kinda just did that anyway didn’t I?) I’ll say deer fly (Lipoptena cervi). I just can’t imagine that they wouldn’t be rude because I feel like their entire existence is rude (which of course isn’t fair of me – but since I do get personally attacked by them I don’t feel that bad about verbally attacking them). Or like, maybe ticks, for the same reason. 

So that was Septembers questions, thank you dear! : )  

Now it’s time for the sweet @aprilskyforevers  questions! 1. would you rather live in a two story penthouse in a city of your choice (but it’s never really quiet and the elevator is broken when you move in), or in a mansion on the country side where the wi-fi sometimes is dodgy and the nearest large city is a two hour drive away? I’m a small-towner to the bone, I don’t even think I could live for a long time in a city where there’s even such a thing as a two story penthouse. So the mansion it is! Just think about all the trees I could plant and all the vegetables I could grow! And all the flowers! I could grow a meadow! And plant a lot of bushes. The ones that bees and butterflies like. And roses! And I could build some creotopes. Maybe even a little pond. I could make my yard a little paradise for bees and butterflies, endangered plants and flowers (I’m just going to assume that the mansion comes with a big yard).

And I mean with a mansion I would be able to offer rooms to friends and other people in need? Like how amazing wouldn’t it be if a friend needed somewhere to live for a while and you could just go YOU CAN STAY IN MY MANSION, HERE YOU GO YOU CAN HAVE THE SECOND LEVEL. ALL BY YOURSELF (although I can’t guarantee that my cats, because yes there will be cats, won’t trespass because it’s their mansion first and foremost). Come stay at my mansion! I’ll cook soup with vegetables fresh from the yard and bake a lot of bread. And cookies. And cakes. And buns of course. Come taste all my apples! And all the other fruits and berries! Look at the pretty butterflies! LET’S RUN AROUND LIKE FOOLS IN MY MEADOW AND MAKE SOME FLOWERCROWNS. Oh and in the winter we could go ice skating on my little pond. And drink hot chocolate AND GAZE AT THE STARS. I mean my mansion is far from large cities so there won’t be a lot of light pollutions, do you realize how clear the sky will be in the winter? Crisp air, hot chocolate and endless of stars.  

Sjidhudhudh. Can someone just give me a mansion. Or a little cabin. Or a tree house. mdlemdffji. I just want to plant trees, grow vegetables, save the bees, adopt cats, bake stuff and make. people. happy. 

2. favourite dessert? Oh, this is so hard! It really depends? Especially on what season it is, I think? And probably on my mood, the weather and what time of the day it is. But these or some of the things I really like: cinnamon buns, blueberry pie, carrot cake, soft gingerbread cake, gingerbread thins, apple cake, chocolate mud cake, chocolate balls, snickers cake, Swedish raspberry caves (?), chocolate mousse and ice cream. Oh and also I really like desserts I haven’t made myself? Like eating someone else’s stuff really makes it more special? Might be because I make pretty much all the sweet things we eat in my family, so whenever it’s something else it feels special.

3. tell me about your relation to the sea. have you ever seen the ocean? been on a boat? ferry? do you know how to swim? I don’t live close to the sea, so I don’t have a particularly strong relation to the sea. I don’t think I’ve seen the ocean? I have been on ferries a couple of times and I do know how to swim, I’ve never bathed in the sea however. When I was younger, an annual 5-day orienteer competition I competed in was hosted in Gothenburg one year, and then we lived in a camping place rather close to the sea. I spent the evenings jumping on rocks by the shore and got to see jellyfish for the first time. One evening I actually fell into the sea, that was the first and only time I’ve ever been in the sea. Since the stay in Gothenburg I hadn’t really seen the sea except when I’ve been on ferries, until this year. Just some months ago I stayed a week by the sea as a part of a marine excursion and went out with a research vessel some times and saw lots of animals I’ve never knew of before. And I found out that I don’t get sea sick even on a very stormy sea, which is very surprising since I get car sickness very easily. Oh, and I really like stormy seas? The movements and the sounds! And I like picking shells on the shores.

So I think my relation to the sea is somewhat stronger now. But I’m more of a forest kind of person, if that makes sense. I sure like the sea, but I can’t see myself living close to the sea. I can say I prefer to travel with a boat on the sea rather than a ferry. But the thing I like most about the sea is the sea as an ecosystem and all its fascinating inhabitants.

4. what’s the best trip you’ve done in your life so far? I don’t really know (when do I ever), mostly because I have trouble remembering things, even good things. But this summer while being on the same 5-day orienteer competition I’ve mention before, this time hosted in Örnsköldsvik, me and my sister took a trip to a cave. There where ladders in the cave and a line to follow and we could borrow some cave helmets with lamps. We got to climb up and down several hundred of meters through this dark cave and it was so so fun! So that’s at least one of the best trips I’ve done so far! 5. what do you rather do in the mountains; hike or ski? I’ve never been hiking or skiing (in the mountains at least) so I don’t know? Like I prefer cross country skiing and not downhill, and like I could see the enjoyment in hiking but I’m not a huge fan of wandering? Idk I get restless in some way? Like most times I feel it’s to slow and that I’d rather run.  The only time I really enjoy wandering is in forests, where I can look at the plants, the moss, the fungi, the lichens and the fauna. I guess there might be some of that in the mountains? So hiking maybe? But like skiing in the mountains sounds pretty fun too I guess? So skiing in the winter, hiking the other seasons? Sorry, I just can’t give you a straight answer. I would probably need to try both things out to be able to pick one or the other.

6. favourite decade for music before 2000? That’s hard, most of my favourites are active now! But I think I’d say 1990s because that’s the decade of Kristina från Duvemåla and the prime decade of trallpunk. Also Nordman was active around that time and some of my favourite metal bands had their debut then. Oh and let’s not forget the stars of my childhood – Markoolio and Rednex started out in the 90s!  

7. have you/do you want to move away from the city where you grew up? why/why not? No, not really? Like I could find myself living in another small town somewhere, but like, my life is here? So no, not at the moment. I’d like to temporary move to other small towns around Sweden, but I think I would  always return to my roots.  I’m too sentimental, I would miss my family, my friends, the nature, the landscapes , the geology and so much more.  

8. what would you name your kids if you had any? Well, I’ve never wanted any kids so I’ve never thought about it, and honestly I can’t imagine what I would name any kids because I can’t imagine myself having any kids. But, I sure like naming things! I can tell you that I would name future cats Mumrik and Mymlan. I have two adorable little fir trees I’ve named Harald and Hilding. I call one of my plants Arabella Nicodemus. I’ve had hamsters named Lilje and Freja. I also like the names Fenja, John and Karl. But I don’t think I would give any of those names to kids? For kids I’d say Hugo. I don’t know what I would name a girl!?! While we’re on the subject of Hugo, here’s an unnecessary fact:   I once had an idea of writing a small story about ecology / biodiversity with a bumblebee called Hugo (Hugo humla och den försvunna ängen – en berättelse om ekologi och biologisk mångfald / Hugo the bumblebee and the lost meadow – a story about ecology and biodiversity) 

9. name three guilty pleasure songs: I think I can just say most songs with Ronny and Ragge instead. I mean what even are those songs but also, the nostalgia? And also, so catchy?

10. where is the perfect spot for a proposal, in your opinion? I don’t really have any opinions on proposal because proposals are so far away from my life like!?!? Not happening. But I guess a place with some kind of significant meaning would be a perfect spot? And it should be private! (unless you’ve discussed it beforehand at least)

11. name your favourite disney main characher, favourite side kick and favourite villain: There isn’t really any Disney character I would call my favourite? But my favourite Disney movies have always been Aristocats, Atlantis, Brother Bear and the Jungle Book. But favourite characters? That’s taugh. For main I think it could be Kenai, Milo or maybe Robin Hood. Oh or Aladdin (but honestly that’s mostly because of Peter Jöback). Favourite side kick would be Thomas O’malley, Koda, Audrey, Baloo or Bagheera. But villain, I don’t know? It’s not Shere Khan, and probably not Tiberius. I would like to say Frollo because of SOM ELDAR! DET BRINNER! SOM GLÖD IN I MITT SKIN! Hellfire but I haven’t actually seen the Hunchback of Notre Dame yet so I can’t really say that. But Jafar maybe? Or King Richard. Probably Jafar.

So that was it! Thank you dear for those questions! : ) Now, here’s my questions:

1. How was your day? 2. Favourite food to bring on a trip? 3. What would you want me to ask you about? Like if you could pick a question that I would ask, what question would that be? 4. If you did pick a question, what’s the answer to the question? If you didn’t, that’s fine, I’ve noticed that it’s very hard to come up with questions. Maybe you could post a picture of a cute animal or a pretty plant or the sky or something instead?

5. Please name three birds you find beautiful?  6. What’s three inspirational quotes/facts or similar you like?

7. What’s your favourite root vegetable(s)? 8. Share at least one new thing you’ve learned this month!

9. What’s the best advice someone has given you (or that you’ve found in some other way)?     10. Describe yourself in 10 words (don’t make sentences, just list some words). Can be personality, hobbies, aesthetic, whatever! : )

11. Let’s pretend you could visit any planet, star, comet or other thing not created by humans in our solar system. Let’s pretend you could travel there in little to no time and you could explore it without getting harmed, what would you choose to visit and why? I tag: @gottagobackintime @hippygirl14 @cookiemcfumb @askyfullofcomets @liljakonvalj @norrlandshobbit @asgoodasanyone @entidforalt  and I mean it was such a long time ago you tagged me, so I’ll throw in @stolligaseptember and @aprilskyforever as well because why not! :) I know it’s not 11 people but I don’t know who else to tag sorry

[somewhere-inthemeadow]

Hi, I just wanted to ask about Jughead. I thought he was only confirmed as asexual and the aromantic thing was to be kind of decided/expanded upon? If this isn't the case I apologize! I kind of feel as though Betty and Jughead came out of nowhere and Betty was literally head over heels for Archie one second and then this. So I think the show would make a lot of sense if they realized they misunderstood their relationship because I mean they're 15 who has hormones figured out? Have a great day!

hi anon. I hope you have a great day too. I’m gonna do a brief summary of the issue cause there’s a billion people who could explain it better than me, I can guarantee.

jughead has always been written as tho he is aroace, even in the original archie canon. in his own spinoff, jughead has come out as asexual (using that exact word) and the writer of the spinoff has confirmed that he has been writing jughead with aromantic leanings. So essentially the voice of god has deemed that jughead is aroace (Its also implied throughout the canon that jughead is touch-averse, but that’s another issue).

Its too early in the morning for me to find receipts for these, but if you want me to I definitely can, or like just google them, they are not that hard to find.

I have a lot of issues with riverdale in general, but I feel like bughead attacks me personally due to the I N T E N T I O N A L erasure of jughead’s aromanticism and asexuality that the writers have no plans on correcting themselves on in the future. This shows that they do not think aces are WORTHY enough to be written about, that we do not DESERVE to see ourselves on tv and that because we are aroace, we inherently cannot be part of decent arcs because of our aroaceness. And thus we end up with a jughead that feels like he has had something cut out of him as the writers rewrite his whole being and force him into situations he is super uncomfortable in. 

To Sprouse’s credit (or this may just be me holding out hope for a character that I can connect with) jughead is still played, and kinda written, as though he is a confused aroace/aroace in denial. However, bughead seeks to erase any mention of the AROace part of his identity and that’s why a lot of the community is mad.

And let us not forget how DISRESPECTFUL the riverdale fandom is. They talk about jughead without know the damage his re-writing is doing to the ace and aro communities and how bughead personally invalidates us. And their bullshit ‘alternative universe’ is bullshit because as I have said before it goes to show how aphobic this fandom and show can be just so they can force a ship that was never meant to be onto a character that literally does not need one. There is romance between other characters in the show, you do not need to attack the A R O M A N T I C A S E X U A L and force him to fit your allo romance mould. 

it also proves that IF JUGHEAD HAD BEEN ANY OTHER KIND OF QUEER WE WOULDN’T BE HAVING THESE DISCUSSIONS. people would accept jughead’s queerness and move on. how dare bughead shippers (or jarchie shippers for that matter) think they can talk over me, an aroace, about how I should be responding to a ship that personally invalidates ME! the sheer audacity you need to have to keep your hate ship going, knowing that seeing it being presented onstage is painful. What does it take you to understand that this ship tears something very important away from a character that represents a very underrepresented community and that by doing so tells us that we are not worthy of stories? that we are a lower class? and let us not forget the shippers that admit he is ace, but refuse to admit he is aro just so they can keep their ship afloat.

I am yet to write down my full thoughts on bughead, but trust me when I say a lot of the issues I have with it comes from the sheerness thickheadness of the bughead shippers and how they love to keep that aphobia coming.

Of course, riverdale in general is a shit show. There’s a reason that its only pulling a two star rating on netflix. the writing is shit and makes no sense (anyone who has ever paid any attention to my liveblog will know how I feel about this). In ep 1 betty was meant to be head over heels, irrevocably in love with archie, in ep 3 she wouldn’t have blinked if you said his name. there was also something going on with veronica and archie, but that was literally never mentioned again. and after the betty/veronica kiss in ep 1, did they ever even discuss that again?? cause I can tell you if someone kissed me and I wasn’t aware they were going to, and do it so publicly and unexpectedly, I would be flipping my shit.

Its things like that that show that riverdale was written by people who don’t really know what they are doing. And its things like the queer-baiting beronica kiss that show that river was written by non-queer writers. the way the show has handled its queer rep has been bullshit. I mean kevin says in either ep 3 or 4 that he wishes moose would just stay in the closet?? What kind of self respecting queer person would push away and further closet someone who is obviously struggling with themselves?? and do we get to know more about the snake guy from the drive in episode?? I reckon we won’t. The show is not progressive for having a gay character, and they way the have handled him is bullshit to say the least. 

And this doesn’t even begin to describe the show’s inability to deal with its own storylines. the writing is painful and I hate it but I keep holding out because jughead means a lot to me as an ace person. even without the consideration of queer rep, the plotlines in the show do not develop naturally or overlap with each other well enough to make this show any kind of Good. I mean, what was going on with the wolf masks in the fear ep?? I have written about this elsewhere but that makes no sense in writing or onstage?? This show has bitten off more than it can chew and I think it knows it.

Of course, it is reasonable that betty and jughead will break up in a few episodes, but to rectify the damage that bughead has caused, this breakup needs to be followed with jughead coming to terms with and being comfortable in his AROMANTIC ASEXUAL self. And the fandom but accept this and move on, or else continue to ship bughead in non-romantic ways. 

I am all down for this kind of arc, but something tells me that the writers do not have the guts to do something so bold.

I could rant on 5eva about bughead and riverdale in general but I’m gonna stop because it is early and I want today to be a good day