#i’m just very passionate about this big lizard idk

[kdooblee]

i saw this post on twitter today and i have to say something about it because it’s the most dogshit take i’ve ever seen about godzilla in my life

godzilla, historically, has teamed up with many MANY fellow kaiju in the japanese films. it was japanese media that paved the way for him teaming up with other monsters. he REGULARLY teamed up with mothra, his best friend is anguirus, he teams up with jet jaguar, hell he even teams up with rodan.

do i agree that movies where godzilla is left alone to be a destructive force and moral lesson to humanity are better? of course, that’s what he was made for. do i also agree we could use less americanized remakes of foreign films? definitely. however, this dudes take and the arguments he makes in the comments don’t make sense.

godzilla has changed a lot since the 50s. he can be very silly and goofy and also very scary. do your research before making shitty takes, i guess.

[firemanwhenthefloodsrollback]

Who Saved The Day? Season Two

time for instalment 2 of my eight part series Who saved the day? where I will be counting up who saves the day in each buffy episode. we all know who's gonna come in first but I am genuinely unsure who'll place after that in the final leaderboard.

at the end of season 1 the totals were:

Buffy: 10

Angel: 1

Sid: 1

season two is longer, more complex and more emotional than season 1 though I don't think anyone is coming for Buffy's top spot. while I don't think anyone is likely to argue with me about my calls for season 1, season 2 might get more controversial. let's see!

1. When She Was Bad: Buffy

A strong argument could be made for Buffy causing all of the problems in this episode, but she also solves them, and no one else arrives with a sledgehammer to kill the master's minions and grind his bones, so she gets the point.

2. Some Assembly Required: Chris

Another supporting character getting a point, which I'm finding quite exciting whenever it happens. Chris stops Daryl killing Buffy, and Daryl follows up by destroying himself for her.

3. School Hard: Buffy

I would love, love, love, love to the moon and back to give the point to Spike for killing the anointed one. I would love it more than you will ever understand but alas I have rules to follow. Buffy for saving Joyce and the other parents at the school I suppose.

4. Inca Mummy Girl: Buffy

A big part of me wanted to give the point to Xander, because I feel like Ampata getting so weak she turned back into a mummy only really happened because she hesitated over killing Xander and he put himself in her way knowing that was what could happen, but Buffy actually fought her, so I can't give Xander the point.

5. Reptile Boy: Buffy

Nice and straightforward. Awesome work killing the frat lizard.

6. Halloween: Giles

Yes Buffy fights Spike and wins the fight there but the real issue in the episode was the curse on the town and Giles solves that in an immensely stylish way. Giles' first point!

7. Lie To Me: Buffy

Holding my darling Drusilla hostage and letting the cult weirdos get away.

8. The Dark Age: Angel

Another point for Angel. Letting Eyghon into his body so that the two demons could fight was an unexpected and clever ending to a dark and excellent episode.

9. What's My Line 1: Giles (?)

The day is literally not saved here. This episode makes me regret my commitment to needing to pick someone for each episode because it... just doesn't work here. I'm giving it to Giles for working out what was going on? I suppose? I thought about giving it to Buffy for fighting Kendra but she didn't save or win anything so I didn't think it counted. Idk. Comment or message to change my mind and I'm fully ready to change it.

10. What's My Line 2: Buffy

I'd have preferred to give Kendra the point because I think my gorgeous, wonderful, underserved by the plot girl deserves one, but Buffy gets Angel out so it's got to be her.

11. Ted: Buffy

You go girl, end that dodgy episode by whacking the monster with a saucepan.

12. Bad Eggs: Buffy

Using a pick axe to hack the mother creature to death from the inside out: ingenious and also icky.

13. Surprise: Buffy (?)

Man I don't know. She gets the arm in the box and escapes the vampires at the dock and... no one else gets the point. This just wasn't a day-saving episode.

14. Innocence: Buffy

Nothing ever has or ever will make me feel as happy as Buffy kicking Angel in the balls here. Never.

15. Phases: Willow

First point for my heart's darling! Shooting wolf Oz with the tranquilliser gun is a big victory for my brave girl. Buffy bends the werewolf hunter's gun and sends him packing, but Willow saves everyone from the wolf demon and earns the point.

16. Bewitched, Bothered and Bewildered: Giles

Giles and Amy both lift the spell, but it was Giles' idea, he had to force Amy to take part and only one person can have the point.

17. Passion: Buffy

I spent a good twenty seconds staring into the space above my laptop feeling my pain when I remembered this episode. I go to a world of pain when I think about Passion, Willow's crying and Buffy's face through the window at the end. Buffy rescues Giles from being tortured but it's a hollow point for this one.

18. Killed By Death: Buffy

A straightforward monster-killing of a straightforward monster of the week.

19. I Only Have Eyes For You: Angel

Angel breaks the cycle and makes the speech that Grace needed to hear. Everyone learns a lesson about forgiveness and is saved from demonic ghost bees (I interpreted the buzzing cloud as ghost bees?).

20. Go Fish: Xander

Xander's first point! I wasn't really sure here as Xander and Buffy fight the coach together, but Xander knocks him on the head when stuff isn't looking good for Buffy so I think he gets a point for that.

21. Becoming 1: Kendra

Feels a bit ghoulish giving Kendra her only point in the episode where she dies, but there wasn't a lot of competition in this episode where everything that can go wrong does go wrong and she does arrive with new knowledge and a magic sword.

22. Becoming 2: Buffy

I would have loved to give Willow the point because she was awe-inspiring doing magic from the hospital bed in this episode. But Buffy closes the portal to the hell dimension and I can't argue with that.

Totals

So at the end of season 2 the cumulative totals stand at

Buffy: 23

Angel: 3

Giles: 3

Chris: 1

Kendra: 1

Sid: 1

Willow: 1

Xander: 1

All the scoobies and angel have at least one point now, and we have a few more for non-regulars as well. I'm imagining that as the seasons go on we'll get more points for characters who aren't Buffy but I imagine she'll end up with more than a hundred episodes by the end, unless something very major that I've forgotten about changes.

We had a few 'no one really won here' episodes which I think we'll get more of with time, and a few 'dramatic speech' savings of the day which I think will increase with time too.

in season 3 I anticipate things only getting more complex and weirder. I'm excited to get there soon!

Read the rest of the series: my intro post, Season 1, Season 3, Season 4, Season 5, Season 6, Season 7

[mxdotombra]

Bloom! So I am indeed rewriting season 1 and honestly Bloom is one of the more changed aspects so to suit her I changed her style! This is not set in stone at all, well her fairy form at least.

More notes on outfits and how I’m portraying her under the cut! 

Bloom is a very flat character to me, or season 1 really. While yes she is a good character, she seems to respond to situations weirdly to me, her whole returning home and just abandoning school comes out of nowhere to me and I literally had to read about her tendency to run away from the wiki. As well, hobbies are mentioned in ep 1 and a little in ep 2 and completely abandoned! Like?? My rewrite is sticking to the plot, so I changed her to make it make more sense.

Bloom is incredibly family oriented, its her everything, especially in a town that slowly began to turn against her for how strange she seemed to become over the years. She’s anxious but curious, willing to face the world yet is seated deep in a pit of fear and only willing to open up to those she trusts. Even than, she is compassionate and protective of her friends, and can grow angry and emotional when those she cares for is threatened. She’s also incredibly stubborn to a fault, strong willed and willingly to get angry if she trully thinks its whats best for her family, friends, or herself though is often strangely a mediator between friends. She’s a fish out of water and afraid of the world of fairies, largely due to her obsession with traditional folklore and belief of them being like traditional fae, and as well, she’s afraid of herself. 

Still, she’s an artist true and true and adores her strange little friend who looks like a rabbit but acts to smart to really be one. She once preferred to spend her time in the woods drawing where the people of her town who hated her wouldn’t find her, yet now she just adores being with her friends, who, while she is deathly homesick, become her home away from home.

Bloom is based in issues of identity and family connections.

ALRIGHT SO AS A NOTE: Bloom is a bit tanner because she spends more time outside in my Fanon! She also has a bunch of freckles because of this! Also she has lizard eyes, and I’m not going into detail with this cause spoilers for ch. 1 lol though its not big. Her hair is still long and that red thats so shocking into almost impossible, I like to think it moves like fire in the sun. She’s also got sharp teeth! She isn’t very used to them and bites her tongue a lot and its just generally annoying in general. I think this is also pretty obvious, but I have a big issue with the original body types of the characters/how they’re drawn. Now, I won’t go into it today (I may one day because reasons), so I’ll go into the reason for her specific type? I like to think fairies are generally lighter in order to keep airborne and have less strain on magic, BUT I also think that their kind of magical attacks can affect their body type. Bloom is large shocks of power and getting away. She also draws a lot, bikes, helps in her mom’s shop so she is also active but apparently she also really likes baking? So idk. She needs to get hit a lot but I also wanted to display that and her having a softer frame, obviously having meat on her bones, especially one who isn’t acrobatic or working out constantly. I hope that makes sense?

Her outfits reflect her past really, she isn’t the richest of families so her clothes are supposed to be interchangeable yet still comfortable. She just likes feeling safe. 

Outfit 1 is what I wanted for ep 1 really, the sweater is handmade from her grandmother and yes she wears it in the summer. The little hair pin I like to think is from Stella who decided it matched Bloom’s eyes. Mainly I like Bloom wearing pants because she literally bikes everywhere in my fanon and chases Kiko in the woods. 

Outfit 2 is just what I wanted for fun! Her favorite colors are white, blue, and pink and gosh dangit she can wear her favorite colors! The locket (not that you can see it lol) says Daphne as a small nod and honestly I just like baggy shirts.

Fairy Form? I had no idea what the fuck I was doing with this. I wanted a more armored princess effect with shorts because. She. Is. In. The. Air! Gosh dangit! She also has scales (thanks fuz!) because dragon motif, they offer armored resistance because she hits hard and takes hard hits, she’s a tank basically. I wanted to keep a few key points, the jem on the chest, the crown (symbolism lol), and arm pieces, but I altered them a bit and darkened the colors because it looked weird originally on my design. Her wings are meant to mimic the bones ones of dragons and I like to think they’re stronger than an average fairies but she can’t fly as quick with them. She gains a bit more gold in her eyes. 

A few fun facts?:

-She runs at a hotter temperature and isnt affected by hot temperatures, as well cold doesn’t bother her as bad. 

-She can’t see auras but she is an empath. 

-She’s bisexual in this, because my friend likes the alliteration of Bisexual Bloom.

-She has a few hobbies! Drawing and reading mainly though appreciates baking.

-She likes the little magic creatures around Alfea that are more like the traditional folklore, even if they are a bit more cutesy and strange. She’s friends with the brownies and little sprites and such!

-She and Sky would break up Season 2 fight me. They also wouldn’t bond with pixies because I hate them with a passion.

- A lot of her clothes have burns on them and she refuses to let anyone magically repair them, especially her favorite sweater which she’s waiting to get her grandma to get.

Oh and you should know in my rewrite she somehow becomes really attached to Tecna? Like they bond a lot? And I’m so down because its Stella, Bloom, and Tecna and its an odd dynamic but I adore it. 

[shelf-care]

Get to know the writer

This ended up taking longer than I wanted to, but I'm okay with that. It's a good warm-up.

Age: 22

Gender: Female

Status: Single

Zodiac Sign: Capricorn

Where I’m From: Texas

Favorite Color: White, gold, forest green

Does writing energize or exhaust you?

It does a little bit of both, I save up ideas to the point that when I actually sit down to write them I become so concentrated on them that when my brain is finished I get tired, but I get excited about the project since there's progress being made.

What’s your writing kryptonite?

The blank page is a big one. Or having more than one idea for a story and trying to make it cohesive and it's just not coming together.

Do you use your real name or a pseudo?

kind of both. I have my real first name attached to my writing but I don't use my real last name because it just doesn't ring or roll off the tongue like it should.

Do you tend to write what you want, or what your readers want?

100% of the time I write what I want, only when someone requests something specific do I do what others want. (Which I'm open to).

What other writers are you friends with?

I would say I'm friends (or at the very least) mutuals with @rainydaydream-gal18 and @fizzyxcustard @fromthedeskoftheraven

Their writing can always brighten my day without a doubt.

Do you prefer to write one-shots or series?

I wish I could write engaging series, I tend to lean towards one-shots or standalone stories the most.

If you could tell your younger self anything, what would it be?

Writing isn't like the movies. It's a cutthroat industry and if you are passionate and want it enough, don't be afraid to take risks. It doesn't matter if people like your work if you like it that's enough.

What’s your favorite under-appreciated novel?

Probably Circe. No one talks about that book at all. It's strange to me since HBO is developing a TV series based on the book too.

What’s your writing spirit animal?

A lizard. I say that because I take everything in spurts.

How many unpublished and half-finished books do you have?

I have two. I have one book that is so close to being done. The other I just have ideas here and there and I write the scenes as they come. Idk if it'll ever see the light of day, but who knows.

How many hours a day do you write? Days per week?

I try to write every day. Though it's hard when writing isn't your full-time job. on a good day, I write for about three hours. I'll do this about three days out of the week considering I have the time to commit to it.

How do you select the names of your characters?

Pinterest. Thats one of the only sites I use. I also use "Fantasy name generator" if I want something out of this world or just weird.

Are you primarily a writer? Or do you consider it a second career?

I would love nothing more than to be a writer full-time. (I'm doing my best to take on freelancing and editing for my full-time gig.) At this very moment in time, it's on the back burner and most definitely secondary.

Do you hide secrets/easter eggs in your books?

I try to, but unless it's fan fiction, I like sticking to my own world and writing.

What types of scenes are hardest for you to write?

Pain. Physical pain and parts where the character is in inhuman amounts of pain are really hard for me to write without it coming off as a William Shatner scene.

What’s your biggest writing flaw?

Grammar and punctuation. Just, no matter how many times I proofread. There's always something to correct.

Do you have a specific process for writing?

I have to be completely undistracted. I have to have a hot beverage by me. (Tea, coffee, cider.) I have to have music on most of the time. But the music has to be instrumental or something I've heard a million times, or else I'll get distracted.

What’s your writing setup like?

It's simple. Either my bed next to my bookshelf so I have all my references near me or my desk where I try to pound out as much as I possibly can. There are some days you can find me at the dining table writing away in the kitchen where I can refill my coffee or get something to eat and sit right back down.

How long does it take you to finish your first draft?

Depends on the project. An article takes me maybe an afternoon after all the research and writing and fact-checking. A book takes me about a year to two years. It's kinda ridiculous.

Do you believe in writer’s block?

I'm suffering from it right now. Of course, there's such thing as writer's block! I think most of it has to do with the aforementioned "Blank page." If it's not that, it's getting in the correct headspace to actually write what you want.

Do you want to be/are you professionally published or self-published?

At the moment I want to be traditionally published so I can get my name out there, but I don't want to have to check a bunch of story boxes so I can make it. I'll probably be going the self-published route.

How would you feel if your story turned into a movie?

Like any other writer, I'd be ecstatic! But I'd be worry about how a studio would take my story and rewrite it for the screen. It can't be avoided. It's the way someone does it and how it's edited is how it matters. Also, I'd want to be involved with the scriptwriting process.

Are you a planner or a pantser? Or somewhere in between?

Oh, I'm a pantser. I've tried to have an outline for any of my projects. It just never works for me personally. I know where I want my story to go and that's about all I got.

What inspires you as a writer?

J.R.R. Tolkien, John Favreau, and Dave Filoni are my biggest inspirations. they all do so much and put their hearts into the projects. they think about the story and how it will affect people not only emotionally but mentally as well. I can only dream of making people feel something from my writing. Their narratives are always relevant and inspiring.

Are your characters based off of people you know? Yourself? Or no one at all?

I'd rather not base my characters off of people I know. There's maybe one character that I have in one of my books that was based on the worst co-worker I ever had. But that's about it.

What made you decide to write your story?

There's always been something in me to do anything in the realm of storytelling. I just didn't know it until I was about fifteen. I think I have some stories to tell. I just hope people find comfort and escape in them.

If any of you want to do this I highly recommend it. It really makes you think about who you are and why you are writing.

[tev-the-random]

What it Ursa took her children with her? - Pt.2

As we were saying:

Little over year has passed since the family arrived in Hira’a, and fateful news gets to them: Ozai remarried. His new wife is someone who is honoured to marry the Firelord and doesn’t mind the fact that his head is so deep up his own arse- anyway, and they are expecting a child, who is to be the Firelord’s legitimate heir.

Azula’s hopes and dreams are shattered. At age ten, she is quite literally being replaced in her beloved father’s life. It’s like she’s never even existed, and she can’t help but wonder what she did wrong.

Zuko is also upset, of course. All those years when Ozai told him he was unfit and worthless come flooding back. But somehow, he already expected things to turn out like this. Unlike Azula, he wasn’t so deeply feeding on hopes that things would go back to normal. He sees it more as a situation that was out of everyone’s control.

He convinces Azula it’s not her fault, and these kids will still be trying to understand and defend their father later down the road. There must be a reason for all of this, right? They start thinking of a reasonable scenario…

Ursa just feels sorry for the poor woman who has to deal with Ozai now.

So we get a timeskip: about three years came and went. Zuko and Azula – treated as kids and not as weapons – lead a peaceful and happy life whenever they’re not thinking of their father and everything they could be doing out there.

They have become known local troublemakers in their spare time. Kids know better than to challenge them, people know not to leave flammable goods out in the open – a strict policy regarding fireworks has been established after a chaotic incident – and failure to keep an eye on them this one time led to… well, let’s just say that the town is still unsure of whether or not they’re is being haunted by evil spirits.

They aren’t allowed anywhere near Forgetful Valley, but bold of you to assume they never tried. In-jokes arise.

‘No, I’m serious: that tree’s face looked exactly like yours, Zuzu. You really should befriend it,’ Azula mocks, remembering a particularly ugly tree they encountered in their adventure.

‘Sorry, I wasn’t looking at it. I was busy looking for whoever it was that asked you,’ Zuko retorts. ‘Since Forgetful Valley has all the kinds of crazy stuff.’

‘Maybe we should go back and look for your impulse control, then.’

‘None of you are going back in there,’ Ursa reprehends. ‘It was very irresponsible of you. Forgetful Valley is a dangerous place, you could have gotten hurt!’

‘Your mother is right, you know?’ Noren comments. ‘I’ve been to that jungle before, and it’s definitely not a playground. But I swear…’ He makes a dramatic pause. ‘I once saw Ursa’s sense of humour in there.’

The kids burst out laughing while Ursa sighs. ‘Since you can find such amazing things in the valley, dear, why don’t you go back there and find yourself actual funny jokes? I’m sure my sense of humour will be around the same corner.’

*More laughter*

(IDK, I write crappy comedy, ok?)

They still have a bit of a hard time making friends. I wouldn’t say they are shy, but they definitely have a talent to say the wrong things at the wrong times, and it’s hard to make deep connections. Sure, they would play with other kids from time to time, but in the end, Zuko and Azula are each other’s best friend.

They’ve cleared an area by the beach that any Hira’a resident knows to stay away from when they’re training.

Azula discovered a great passion for theatre. Not only are her acting skills fantastic, she also seems to be naturally aware of what makes a good scene. People say she’s Noren’s Little Assistant.

She hates being called Noren’s Little Assistant. She would much rather be called Ursa’s Little Star, because goddamn is she a good actress and she needs everyone to know that.

Zuko is more of a plant-lover guy. Unfortunately, he hasn’t inherited his grandmother’s green thumb, and despite Ursa’s best efforts to teach him, it seems like everything he touches dies.

He has grown to show a way with animals, however. Any variety of frogs and toads love him; lizards of all kinds are attracted to him like he’s a magnet; furry animals big and small adore him and any type of bird-like creature seems to think he is the best human being in existence. But his favourite animals are still the turtleducks.

Back in the palace, Iroh eventually learns of Ozai’s bullshit and how he got the throne in the first place. And you know what? The time has come for Iroh to draw a line in the sand. He confronts his little brother, who confronts him back by telling him that, should he try to tell anyone in the Fire Nation the truth – that Ozai was a top-grade traitor who actually had no right to the throne –, no one would believe him. Since his brother won’t be sensible, Iroh decides that’s it: he’s fucking out.

Now a fugitive from the Fire Nation, he somehow winds up owning a lovely traveling tea shop called the Jasmin Dragon. Most people don’t even suspect he is the fearful Dragon of the West, because he’s just so nice?

You can bet he serves blends of tea from all across the nations.

The tea shop is also a good cover up for his exchanges with the Order of the White Lotus. He gives and receives information, and does his best to help villages to either defend themselves or evacuate during Fire Nation attacks.

One day a member of the White Lotus travels to Hira’a for one reason or another and finds Zuko and Azula. This person then sends a letter to Iroh.

Iroh comes to Hira’a to visit the family. He’s glad to see they’re ok, even if he can’t stay for too long. But long enough for some Quality Time – these kids have grown so much!

Iroh doesn’t know of Ursa’s part in Azulon’s assassination, and only assumes she knew of Ozai’s plan. But now, it’s time that her children learned a couple of things, and he is willing to teach them, so that when the time arrives for them to meet their destiny, they should be able to choose wisely and face whatever comes their way. So he asks the children to accompany him in his travels.

Ursa doesn’t want to let them go. They’re children, they should be here living a peaceful life, not meeting some grand, dangerous destiny! What if something horrible happened to them?

Iroh understands the pain of losing a child. He doesn’t want to make Ursa spend her time worrying about losing two, so he respects her decision and soon leaves the town.

But the siblings are not about to just sit here when they know they’re destined for something greater. What incredible knowledge did their uncle hold? Did their father have something to do with this? They always knew there was more to their fate than just living in Hira’a for the rest of their lives, and this is their chance; it’s now or never.

Zuko and Azula are about to sneak out and follow Iroh when Noren spots them. But instead of trying to stop them – he is well aware that he can’t – he gives them two masks and some advice about never forgetting who they were.

Why yes, I am saying that they eventually take the masks and become partners in crime, Zuko as the Blue Spirit and Azula as the Red Spirit, because parallels.

They catch up with their uncle and adventures and shenanigans issue as Zuko, Azula and Iroh cross the Earth Kingdom.

Now imagine this trio: two of the most awkward firebending teenagers travelling with their old tea-loving uncle, who spits proverbs like he’s made of them. The possibilities for both hilarious and heart-warming moments are endless.

Iroh thinks himself a matchmaker. Whenever he thinks he sees some romance going on, he encourages his nephew or niece to make a move. His flaming cupid arrows do more damage than good, yet he only has good intentions at heart. Teens all around the kingdom encourage you to stop, sir.

Their new life is even more humbling than in Hira’a, since they are constantly travelling. But they manage, and they know their uncle is nothing but wise… even if Azula is still quite arrogant and manipulative, and Zuko is impatient and hot-headed, which can lead to a lot of conflict.

Iroh teaches them both how to create and redirect lightning. Zuko is better at redirecting than Azula. Creating it, on the other hand, is a bit more complicated, and both of them get their fair share of explosions while learning. Neither of them really gets a hang of it – although Azula is better at it than Zuko, that’s not saying much – for they still have a lot of identity-related turmoil inside them that won’t let them grasp the energy.

Guess who else teaches them? Other members of the White Lotus. Both Zuko and Azula get some swordsmanship Skills™ from Piandao, some different (and somewhat unwillingly taught) firebending technics from Jeong-Jeong and a lot of things from Bumi, including but not limited to: creative thinking, the art of patience, strategic planning, dealing with pirates and a surprising amount of rocks-related knowledge.

Bumi adopted Zuko and Azula and gave himself the role of Second Uncle. You cannot convince me otherwise.

So one day, little over a year after the siblings joined Iroh, they wind up in a city where this big circus is performing. Uncle Iroh decides to take his niece and nephew to see it. And oh, aren’t they surprised by who they see performing?

Even though Ty Lee was essentially the only one between her sisters to befriend Azula – and consequentially, the only one to periodically spend time in the palace with her –, Zuko and Iroh still have a hard time distinguishing her from the six other girls who look exactly like her, uncertainly calling her all different names before Azula snaps ‘you idiots, that’s Ty Lee!’.

The acrobat is so glad to see her friend again, because damn: it’s been nearly four years since they last saw or even heard from each other! And Zuko, I thought you were dead? This is such a neat reunion, there’s so much for them to talk about! And sure, the circus has to leave soon and so do the siblings, but Ty Lee reassures them that, if they ever needed her, she wasn’t hard to find. This isn’t the last we’ll see of Ty Lee.

Azula doesn’t let it show, but she resents Ty Lee a little bit for choosing to abandon her noble life. She really wishes she could have had a choice.

Uncle Iroh tells the siblings stories about the war that would have some day mesmerized them. But now, his opinions about those events and what he did as a prince general have changed; that, along with what the family sees in their journey – all the horrors brought to innocent people – gives Zuko and Azula a new perspective on what they used to think was a greater good. It will still take a while for Azula to understand that no, these people are no lesser than her and for Zuko to understand why any of that matters.

Iroh eventually tells them the truth about Azulon’s death. Or at least, what he knows of it: their father killed Azulon, banished them, took the throne by force and planned to gain more power at the expense of everyone. This is a lot to take in, and the siblings don’t quite believe it.

After four years thinking about it, Zuko and Azula decided to take their mother’s early words – they went to Hira’a to be safe – and formulate what for them was a reasonable scenario. They believe that Ozai never actually wanted any of this to happen. The whole family had to have been in danger, be it due to some political, social or personal threat, and Ozai wanted to take it all by himself to protect them. So he sent his wife and children away, concocted a plan with Azulon to cover for them and, once Azulon died and left him the throne, remarried to keep appearances. To Zuko and Azula, this makes perfect sense. And they thoroughly convince themselves of that.

They initiate an argument, thinking that Iroh is jealous of Ozai.

Their uncle sees these children are starting to stray from their path, but he knows this is a necessary journey for them. They will never be able to deal with reality unless they face it.

The siblings leave Iroh, planning to head straight to the Fire Nation capital and find out what really happened. Maybe now that they are older, it would be a perfect time to come back home; they surely could defend themselves from any threats.

Of course, they’ll be very disappointed to know that Ozai was just a bitch and never actually cared for any of them.

I don’t have a full formed idea about how their reencounter with their father would go down, but I say Ozai would officially banish both his children from the Fire Nation for trying to cause a commotion – which could easily be perceived as a threat. Not only that, but Zuko and Azula are the children of a traitor; cue for Ozai revealing what happened that night four years ago, confirming that he was the one to kill Azulon with Ursa’s help.

I also think that, after that day, the Firelord would have discreetly helped spread rumours about Ursa that would drag her name through the mud in the Capital – was she cheating on Ozai? Was she selling Fire Nation information to the Earth Kingdom? Was she planning a coup against the Firelord? Her crimes change from mouth to mouth. In the end, no one would take Zuko or Azula back unless Ozai wanted it. But he doesn’t. Not now, at least…

But Ozai also decides to play with his options: he plants a seed of doubt in his children’s minds; should they prove themselves useful later on, it would only take pulling a few strings for them to come crawling back to him. So he tells them that they needed to prove themselves for everyone to see that they weren’t traitors like their mother. They needed to prove their worth so that he could accept them.

Ozai goes a step further with Azula and tells her that, before his demise, Firelord Azulon had a plan. A plan to bring her back and put her in the leading, prestigious role she was always meant to get. But they needed to wait for the right time. There is a right time, Princess Azula. Your hopes were right all along, they will come for you eventually if you prove yourself.

The siblings have a lot to think about while they’re leaving the Fire Nation. They idolized Ozai so much all these years. But the undeniable truth came crashing down on their heads, spoken by the man himself. What would they do now? They didn’t think it possible, but their harsh actions made things so much worse: they couldn’t come back to their mother, they didn’t have many hopes of running into Iroh again, they can’t even set foot in their homeland anymore; Zuko and Azula are all on their own.

Maybe it’s time to turn a new leaf. It starts with them being fairly neutral, not completely loyal to either the Fire Nation or to the rest of the world. During this period, they would argue a lot about what to do or where to go next, getting separated and going their own ways before destiny makes them stick together again, over and over.

They manage to get a few deals and own a few favours here and there, become known thieves as the Spirits, and maybe meet up with Ty Lee’s circus every now and again. Life is hard.

But there is one thing that is about to be a beacon in their darkness…

Time to catch up to the show. Oh, you thought I wouldn’t go there?

Part 3 coming right up!

(I know I said this would be a two-parter, but it got ridiculously long, so I split it again. Three-parter now.)

[the-rawr-ster]

Words for Proheroes, UA staff, and All For One

Warning: lots of cursing, minor spoilers, mentions of abuse, harsh words, and lots of yelling, and also mentions of suicide, depression, ptsd, ect.

Any of the characters I mention, I say I hate but I don’t and understand they’re human so they make mistakes. I also know they already know that I’m right and probably feel super shitty. I still want to put my two sense in.

So I made a post and some comments on tik tok about hero society in MHA. I didn’t get everything I wanted to say so here’s just a ranting dump about several characters and groups.

The only heroes actually can respect are Miruko Hawks. Let me explain why. Hawks literally called out the heros on their BS speeches. Which I really admire. He’s blunt, which is an extremely respectable trait to me in most cases. And he’s very passionate about the work he does. He cares about people but unfortunately because of how he was brought up (manga spoilers here stop before you spoil it for yourselves). Just like many of 1-A, but also very different, he was quite literally raised to be a tool used by the military for their bullshit. And I think this might have changed based on who saved him. As many of you might know, Hawks grew up in an extremely toxic environment, I won’t get into the nitty gritty deets. The one that got him out of that was Endeavor, his favorite hero. He was his favorite hero growing up. But that only goes so far. Hawks respect for Endeavor (like many of his fans) was because he wasn’t fake, he didn’t pretend to like people, he didn’t pretend to smile. Endeavor was very different from many of the other heroes (horrible father and husband though (an okay hero though, which I think is part of why Stain hadn’t killed Endeavor even though he had plenty of opportunities)). Now we haven’t seen much of Miruko as far as I know, but just from her couple of minutes on screen in the anime, we can already guess that she respected Hawks. She likes how Hawks rolls. He’s confident, laid back, and he’s not a bullshitter. And just for that I can respect her. I also think Bakugō should be the number one hero but that’s a story for another time. I also have respect for Sir Night Eye and I’m sure I don’t have to tell you why because you can figure it out.

Now let’s get down to why I fucking hate hero society. Let’s just start off with the fact that it’s almost identical to how it would be if superpowers existed. There would be quirk discrimination, there would be people that abused their powers, ect. Ect. But most of all, heros get away with anything (much like cops irl). They use violence to stop violence, which goes completely against what heroes say. And we see this with All might a lot. Heros with flashy powers get noticed more than others. YOU SENT CHILDREN TO WAR!!!! THAT IS IN NO WAY SHAPE OR FORM OKAY!!! THOSE CHILDREN ARE FOREVER GOING TO BE TRAUMATIZED BY THAT SHIT! And I understand that at some point they’d have experienced something, but when they chose to be heroes it was a time of piece, but then for whatever reason everything went south. Regardless, these kids brains are still developing, idk how but this will definitely change the way their brain develops. Honestly I’d be surprised if none of them ended up commiting. I don’t want them to but in their mental state they’d at least be thinking about it. I actually wrote a fic about a pro-hero commiting. I could write an essay on why heroes suck balls, but that’ll be done another time).

As much as I’d like to talk about each individual hero, I really want to talk about UA students and Staff, and why the staff sucks potato juice.

Let’s start with the obvious one, Nezu. HOW DO DOZENS OF VILLAINS INFILTRATE ONE OF THE MOST PRESTIGIOUS SCHOOLS? THAT DOESNT MAKE SENSE, obviously your security system fucking sucks. NOT ONLY THAT BUT YOU ONLY HIRED ALL MIGHT BECAUSE OF HIS STATUS AS A HERO!!!! HES A HORRIBLE TEACHER!!!! AND NOT ONLY THAT BUT YOU ALLOWED ALL OF YOUR STUDENTS TO BE PUT ON BLAST FOR MILLIONS TO SEE, talkin bout some “We HaVe SoMe Of ThE bEsT heRoeS.” THATS bullshit because y’all lost an entire child to a lizard, a magician that puts people in marbles, and a musty old man with blue flames. If y’all produce the best heroes, y’all wouldn’t have lost Bakugō in the first place. AND WHY DO YOU LET MIDNIGHT WALK AROUND WITH SEX TOYS????! And you put all of your students in one place for all the LoV to have access to them. Yes there’s security, BUT SERIOUSLY? WILL YOU EVER LEARN?????

Next, is Present Mike, I love you man but HOW DID YOU FEEL COMFORTABLE TELLING EVERYBODY AND THEY MAMA THE NAMES AND QUIRKS OF THE STUDENTS???!!!! Like Nezu may have enabled it but you could have chosen to not do it.

Aizawa, OH SIR DO I HAVE WORDS FOR YOU. I’m sure you might already know this, but you should know I know. You’re one of the worst teachers, coming to a close second to last place on my list of horrible UA staff. First of all, you hardly taught your students proper combat training. That’s one of the most basic skills every hero needs. You’re slacking dawg (sorry for the disrespect Hound dog). Secondly, HOW DO YOU CONSISTENTLY LOSE YOUR STUDENTS? HOW DO THEY ALWAYS END UP OUT OF YOUR SIGHT? Like you’re really good at hero’s stuff but you’re slacking as a teacher. And why? Why haven’t you punished Mineta yet? It’s literally as clear as a sunny day that he’s a pervert. He is consistently making inappropriate comments and sexually harassed/assaulted several of your other students, and this is outside the LoV attacks, while you were on duty. Oh and let’s not forget about you emotionally manipulating your students!!! YOUR STUDENTS!!!!!! Needless to say I have a hate love relationship because I know he cares for his students and is not prone to favoring, unlike some *cough cough* all might.

MIDNIGHT, I respect your drip and your feminism. I just hate how you were written. YOU LITERALLY WALK AROUND WITH SEX TOYS!!! What do you even do? Like what’s your job at UA? I see you so often but like, what is your purpose? I love you though, and I wish you’d step on me.

ALL MIGHT, OMG I HATE YOU ALMOST AS MUCH AS I HATE ENDEAVOR!! FAVORITISM FAVORITISM FAVORITISM!!!! OMG IT IS SO PREVELANT IN YOUR “teaching.” You treat Deku so differently from the way you treat Bakugō. And I understand that they’re different so they have to be taught differently, by HOLY HELL! You borderline cheered for Deku when he fought with Bakugō. AND YOURE A SHITTY HERO FOR THE WAY YOU TALKED TO DEKU WHEN YOU FIRST MET HIM!! What if he didn’t grab onto you? What if he did what Bakugō said and jumped? You’d be responsible for that in a sense, because you made him feel worse than he already did. I respect you for being upfront with him, and that’s not what the issue here is. Deku was clearly emotionally unstable!!! You didn’t even teach him how to use his quirk, HES BARELY EVEN 16, how does that make sense to you? Anyways moving on to my biggest pet peeve with you, YOU PUT MY BOY IN CHAINS AND A MUZZLE KNOWING DAMN WELL THAT HE WAS FUCKING TRAUMATIZE, WAY TO GOT MR.NO.1 HERO!!! WAY TO FUCKING GO!!! AND THEN EVERYONE JUST SAT THERE AND WATCHED!!!! YOU COULD HAVE HANDLED THE SITUATION BETTER!!!!! HE WAS CLEARLY NOT OKAY WITH IT!!!! DO BETTER! YOU HUMILIATED HIM IN FRONT OF MILLIONS OF VIEWERS!!! THE LoV treated him better and they didn’t even know about his trauma!!!! I have so much to say about all might, and some of them are positive too but I’ll probably do a post on that next Wednesday, but for now we’ll be critiquing. HOW DID YOU EVEN BECOME A TEACHER? I feel like there should be more qualifications than being a good hero. BUT ANYWAYS, YAK my whole deal with this man.

Those are all the UA staff I really have beef with, but I also love their characters and how they were written. Now onto my beef with some of these parents.

Mistuki: You’re really the only parent I hate. I understand Bakugō tried to hit you, but where the fuck do you think he got it from? He didn’t become violent and aggressive out of the blue. He got that shit from you. And will you please get your son some hearing aides, my ears bleed every time I have to listen to him scream. And you should’ve been more reluctant to let Bakugō stay in the dorms. And your yelling is not helping Bakugō. Ask yourself why he hates being around you? I understand that you care about him, but punishing your child by hitting them is not okay, period, wether it’s just a slap or not.

I ko: I LOVE YOU TO PIECES! I can’t hate you. I have so much respect for you, but you shouldn’t have let Deku stay in the dorms. I know you wanted him to be able to experience his dreams, and that you felt so guilty about him growing up without a quirk, but Inko, it’s not worth losing your baby over. You were right to be upset with All Might, PERIOD.

ALL FOR ONE!! I HATE YOU WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING!!!! YOU TOOK ADVANTAGE OF SHIGIRAKI IN A VULNERABLY STATE AND GROOMED HIM TO BE A VILLAIN!!! AND YOU KILLED HIS GRANDMA!!!! HOW DARE YOU!!!! HOW DARE YOU!!!! HE WAS A CHILD!!! HE WAS GRIEVING!!!! HE WAS UNSTABLE AND YOU TOOK ADVANTAGE OF THAT!!! YOU DISGUST ME!!!!

And a big Fuck you to hero society for turning children into soldiers. A big fuck you for letting these children experience traum on that scale! A big fuck you for not saving Shigiraki! A big fuck you for being so full of shit!!!! A big fuck you for making people feel less than for being without a quirk! A big fuck your for being an overall piece of shit society!!

If you’ve made it this far, I apologize for yelling and cursing. Thank you for reading.

[paradise-creator]

Okayyyy. Seatbelt on, space cadet! I'm gonna take you on a loooong journey ✨

First of all hello again! I'm here to request for a Haikyuu romantic Haven Box if there's still a spot left. Take your time tho, I'm good at waiting 🙌🏻

here we gooo. so I'm an 159cm pansexual asian girl. I'm a little bit on the chubby side. I got long black wavy hair and I always let it down. People say I look rude and cold so they are afraid to befriend me at first (some even hate me for no reason.) I mean its not my fault that I borned with this resting bih face 😭💔 I love wearing dark colored clothes, high waisted jeans and Sneakers.

I do wear makeup, and my favorite lipstick color is red. Like a really bold red. That's like my trademark.

for personality, I'm an enfp, taurus, gryffindor (big yikes!); I think I'm a pretty openminded person. I'm not afraid to speak up and I will fight (both using words and fists) for what I believe in. People see me as someone confident and to look up to; Tho honestly I'm pretty insecure with myself. Like I find nothing good about me and got depressed easily. Its like I have this happy clown persona everytime I'm outside my house and once I go back to my bedroom by myself its all the sad clown hours haha. ooh- this is getting kinda heavy. 😵 But anyway I care about my family and friends a lot. Their happiness is actually more important than my own. So I'd do anything to help and protect all of them.

My hobbies are sleeping, singing and watching horror movies/true crime documentaries; and yes I got scared after watching those stuff so I ended up searching for some broadway musical 😂😂 I also love to play games; otome games, cause my love life sucks *coughs*

Some facts about me!!

I believe in soulmate. Just the thought that we all have someone created specifically for us is making me happy 🥺❤

I'm a touch starved person. So I like doing skinship and PDA. I just love being spoiled and showered with love I guess 👉🏻👈🏻

I hate spicy foods, cause it really burns my throat. and I also hate lizards. They are gross and weird 😭😭

I believe ghosts are real and I'd definitely want to speak to them someday. Just asking them how does it feel to be a ghost? Is there a way to help em stop being a ghost? (Only with the nice ghost of course) 👻💕

My favorite song is Helpless by Phillipa Soo and if that doesn't show how much of a Hopeless romantic I am then idk 😂😂

I love watching tarot cards reading.

I'm a sucker for enemies to lovers trope and I can't stop this addiction. Like aaaaa its cliche but I love em so much ashdjflgl

Okay thats it! I need to stop talking before my ask give you some real headache 😂 I wish all this information helps you write a little bit and not bother you in one way or another!! Have a great day and stay healthy in this pandemic situation 🙌🏻✨ see yaaaaa~☆

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Hello and Welcome my Starlight!

The Haven box includes:

- Match up

- Sun drop

- Old habits die hard

-  No matter what

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I'd match you up with

Oikawa Tooru, The Grand King

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- Okay, when I read your description Oikawa popped in my head. So on to the great king we go!

- I also had an Oikawa brain rot when I decided to do your request but either way, I still think you two would look cute!

- Oikawa is the most realistic character in Haikyuu and I believe you two would definitely match

- You feel insecure? No worries, Oikawa already saw it coming and is going to give you compliments and gifts

- He may not look like it, but he is really observant

- You can't hide your feelings from this man cause he has been through that

- You both were deemed the power couple of the school

- He would ALWAYS always remind you to take care of yourself

- Both of you seem confident and really out going but in reality, you both are really insecure

- You both would understand each other

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Old habits die hard

- He almost NEVER calls you by common nicknames, except for Queen and princess

- Your nickname can be something weird like my little Alien or smth

- Whenever you watch a game, he alsyws gives you his extra jersey or his jacket

- He would randomly say I love you and if you don't respond, he'll pout

- You gave him a plushie and he named it after you

- Stargazing (Alien hunting) is his favorite type of date

- Study dates almost always ends up with one of you dead asleep before starting anything

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No matter what

Oikawa Tooru is the grand king of Seijoh. He was handsome, smart, and all that. He was very athletic and observant. He gets along with everyone and anyone. He could get any girl to swoon to him but he is only loyal to volleyball and Iwaizumi. And that’s what people thought, but this king has fallen off his throne. He, has fallen in love and doesn’t know what to do. It started with the little things like seeing how she loves skinship or how she hates spicy food. He thought it was normal, he was observant after all. But as time passes, he realized that he might be falling. He tried and tried to avoid it, knowing that it might just hurt him in the end anyway. He knew that he wasn’t going to be able to fulfil what was in her heart because he would always choose volleyball. Oikawa had a girlfriend once, she left him because he wasn’t good enough, and he didn’t give her enough of his time.

Oikawa did not want that to happen again. He didn’t want his heart torn into pieces yet again. But still, he fell deep into the rabbit hole called love. And he hated her for it, becoming her enemy for no reason at all. But, fate seemed to be in his side. Soon enough the “mortal nemesis” relationship faded away and love soon blossomed. It wasn’t as smooth as most people would say but it’s still a beautiful sight to behold. The way Oikawa looks at her with so much love and passion, it’s breathtaking. The way that she would cheer for him no matter what, it’s alluring. A love so pure that it seems surreal and impossible. From then on, the great king knew that she was thee one. He knew that even if he was too busy, she would understand. He knew that she would always be by his side no matter what the cost is.

And he knew that no matter what happens, he would always love her. Volleyball may be his priority, but he will soon get out of it. Slowly but surely, the walls he built was crumbling away. Slowly but surely, his distant exterior grows into an attached and close koala. Oikawa’s train of thought was then shattered as he heard someone calling out to him. “Oi Shittykawa, why the hell is your face like that?” Iwaizumi said as he cringed at the sight. “Geez Iwa-chan, can’t a guy think about his soulmate in peace?” He then responded as he glared at the shorter male. “We have a game to play, Stupidkawa. And if you miss her so bad, why don’t you go to her at the stands and talk to her?” Iwaizumi said as he glared intently at his best friend. “I have a better idea,” Oikawa said as he stood up. His eyes wandered around the bleachers to find his one and only. And soon enough, he was able to see her long black wavy hair and her beautiful eyes. “Princess!” He yelled.

The female then smiled and waved at the player adorning the cyan colors with the number one. “Yes, my prince?” She yelled back. “Oh! My darling Princess! I love you with all my heart and know that no matter what, I’ll still be in love with you,” He yelled. The stadium awed at the interaction. Oikawa now found his one and only, his soulmate. And he would never let go, no matter what.

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Author's note

Hello there! I'm so sorry for doing this quite late. Since exams and school and all that.

I hope you enjoy this matchup nonetheless! And I also made sure that the drabble was a bit different and unique to make up for it. Since I decided to try out a new way of writing.

[olddragonsnot]

ok who wants 25 puff facts/random things regarding puff

i am bored n wanna write about my son

1. puff’s full name is...get this: Captain Puff Dwight Birdsworth III. his name came to me in a vision & that’s all i can say on the matter

2. puff doesn’t know what the sky is

3. puff’s favorite things include flowers and waxworms

4. the flower thing is no joke; this kid REALLY loves flowers:

5. his passion in floristry will be supported by me

6. i, a lot of the time, address him as “lizard boy” & i greet him with a “waaaaowwww!!! look at you” :) skdkfggghgs

7. u can tell he needs to poop if he starts to get really hyper and running all around - idk why but an analogy that came to mind when i typed that is when paul revere rode on horseback in the middle of the night to warn everyone that “the british are coming!” of course, that’s not how the actual event went down, but like....we all know that fabricated story about good ‘ol revere ya know? anyway, that should give u a good visual of how puff acts before he defecates :) nnnsjjfkg

8. he has a tongue

9. when we’re outside n someone passes by, he’ll tense up OR he’ll find solace in my hand that i’ve cupped around him (if he hasn’t already crawled into my hair lmao)

10. puff enjoys going outside! i can tell he wants to go out when he glass surfs in the early afternoon & once we get back from the walk, he is very tired lol

11. if puff & i received a million dollars for every time we’ve been asked by strangers, “is that an iguana?” we’d have like 20 million dollars - so i’m not annoyed by it, but it’s a thing

12. puff coughed ONCE out of the blue n i took him to the vet the very next day to only find out .....he’s perfectly healthy. i got temporarily dropped from my class bc taking him to the vet was more important than going to class

13. u know that vine with the rat?? “‘SZZZKAHH!!’ ‘is it - is it real?’” well once, i was in rite-aid w puff on my shoulder & a lady asked me if puff was real n i said yes, he is; she shook her head “no” in a very convinced & serious nod: “no...it isn’t real.” lady, he just moved his head while obviously inhaling/exhaling oxygen & other elements during this entire conversation - WHAT MORE PROOF DO YA NEED????

14. hornworms ....that’s it

15. i’ve never seen him head bob or wave n i’m kinda sad over it

16. i have pics of his mom & dad....wanna see?

(pics from celebritydragons.com)

17. it didn’t take long for me to spot puff at the reptile expo & know that he’d be the lizard i’d raise :’) that’s so cheesy hsjfkkgh

18. every night, i have him lay on my chest with his blanket on top of him so he can fall asleep n we do this for at least 4 hours lmao we have a CLOSE bond ok we GET each other. no but really, it’s the best feeling to know that he feels safe & comfortable enough to fall asleep on me ❤️

19. he has many weegles (wiggles, but it’s funnier to pronounce it “weegles”)

20. not a big fan of vegetables/fruits AT ALL n it is VERY FRUSTRATING lol

21. ive never given puff crickets bc i think roaches are so much better.

22. ive upgraded puff’s enclosure before to an animal plastics T8 (a $200+ enclosure) & he HATED it. he was constantly stressed out & had temper tantrums in the enclosure at least once a week

23. he smells....*takes a sec to smell him skdkfkgg* good...idk how to describe it but i LIKE it

24. my favorite parts of puff’s body is his stomach & the fat part of his tail on the bottom .....they’re both really squishy what can i say

25. i took him to my geology class for a presentation on the dimetrodon for the sole purpose of splayed-legs & to calm my nerves a bit bc there is absolutely no relation between bearded dragons & the dimetrodon BUT i got an A & everyone loved puff ❤️

[allthatwehear]

so i don’t forget.

I don’t really want to be writing this. In fact, I’m pretty mad about it; I’m mad at him, frustrated at him, but I know there were a lot of self-growing moments, and it would be nice to document them for future-Sarah to read. Because though it was brief, that briefness was filled with laughs, and late-night drives & swims, and boos, and feeling good about my body, and cigarette smoke and listening to his friends play their guitars and sing. And it felt like a glorious little dip into summer; like someone opened a portal, just for a quick moment, and I got sucked in & felt deliriously unlike myself but so, so happy for the difference of it. Of course it spat me back out; I think things that are too good to be true often are, too good to be true (or last). And so I am writing this feeling a bit reluctant, a bit melancholy (a lot, melancholy, actually) but after I have all the details out, I can choose when or not I want to look at this again/think about it again.

It all started at a march. a busy weekend - now that I’m remembering, it was a few days before, I was talking on the phone with my mom, I think telling her how badly I was doing with depressive thoughts, and it made her happy to hear that I was going to Sonja’s for the weekend (probably going to ride some horses), on my way to Marta’s house for 4th of July. Sonja and I were going to go to a protest on the capitol, Olympia, on the 4th of July & I just thought that was so cool. I saw Jonny running around and being all cool; he was part of the protest team, literally, and even Sonja’s grandpa gave a speech. Jonny came up and said hi to us; I was wearing a black, long summerdress, which reflecting on feels really stupid because you don’t exactly like, dress nice in a march: more of dress practically. My big ol’ flower mask. I didn’t think too much of Jonny, my eyes mostly distracted by the fucking BABE in the wheelchair (you know who dat is), but Jonny constantly caught my eye, too. He was wearing red suspenders. And long black pants. And damn. The suspenders made his butt look so good. And he longish blond hair in a scrunchy -- a scrunchy -- and in a way that was kinda nerdy and very Gundersen-esque. So no I didn’t think he was sexy; but I thought he was artistic, and farm-ey, and very, very passionate. I think he looked at me a few times. Knowing now, Luke was there too, and he looked at me a few times too. Later in the day, Sonja encouraged me to reach out to Jonny because he is very involved with protests “in Seattle, too” and I immediately found him on Instagram. I asked if he’d like to go to some protests some time. 

I think just two days went by and this guy, was already asking to call me (mind you, I’m running on grief-fumes which basically means nothing -- and I’m like, a fucking phone call with a stranger..? you’ve got to be kidding me..) I was out on a run, so I was like, why not. He talked to me as he was driving home from his parents home, in Bellingham. We talked and it was super natural; he was lighthearted and fun. And we tried to brainstorm a protest for that night. But in the end he asked me to go get beers at a park/by the water. And I declined, and hungout with Shannon & Hannah cause that’s what I preferred. I sent him a pic of Shannon’s lizard though, BirdLady, for fun. 

We finally met up at Gas Works on a super hella busy beautiful evening. He was sitting there with his bike. I was not attracted to him at all. He had this bushy blond mustache and I was like, haha I don’t think I could ever be attracted to someone with a mustache. So I decided that night he’d just be a sweet friend. And we kept talking and had alllll these similarities. He grew up homeschooled (what the??), in the church, pretty sheltered, had a big family, had some family issues. He is an artist; he went on tour with his brother, Noah Gundersen, instead of going to college & sometimes that was something he felt inferior about. Sometimes he thinks about going to college? But he read a lot & we agreed that honestly, with our homeschooled upbringing, we’re pretty damn good at just self-teaching. He is Sonja’s cousin, so he knew her farm well. He said he was almost gonna be there the day I bucked hay with Sonja’s family, and I thought how funny that would be, if he had been there. He was really sweet. And sort of invited me to come hangout later at his place, but I was so deadbeat tired from just socializing -- I was still a drained little kiddo. 

And things sort of flourished from there. We met up at some actual protests and that was a fucking blast. It was for ICE, the second one, and I watched them all on their bikes be complete badasses. And people started to break windows at the courthouse or something and Kenzi & the girls I was with were scared. But I got this huge push & fuel in me and I wanted to keep going, so essentially I dragged the girls to join bike brigade with me and we tailed them around. Jonny was still in suspenders and he still had his hair tied back. I wondered what he would look like without his hair tied back, with it loose, and without his mustache. 

Things were really rocky and weird at first with Jonny -- perhaps that’s why this hurts even more, because I eventually overcame the uncomfortability and kept trying -- until I did feel super good and super happy -- and then all of that effort, for it to come to a halt. I don’t think anyone understands how hard that was for me, to push myself in such different angles to be Jonny’s friend, to be a part of his world and life. But Sonja told me last night not to change for people -- because if you do, “how far are you going to go?”, and I think that was true. It rang through my head, “would it mean I would literally make myself polyamarous for him? Am I seriously fucking considering that -- would I consider that?” Jonny never said he was looking for a relationship. We actually never defined anything at all. But we spent so much time together; like literally, almost every other day, I’d wait out on things until he texted me that afternoon, and it was off to Seward Park to dip and drink and talk, or to Niah & Luke’s house where they made us an incredible salmon dinner and sang us some of their songs, or it was a barbecue and a few firepits at Jonny’s house.. 

One of the second times he wanted to see me, it was like a movie. I was taking a dreary walk to Fred Meyer & back. Not sure who I talked to on the phone on the way (as is my custom), but probably like my mom. I was feeling fucking depressed. I’d say that if I go on walks to Fred Meyer it tends to be cause I’m fucking sad and I just need to like, walk, but then sometimes the walk makes me more depressed. Anyways. Jonny was sort of buggin’ to hangout. He did that a lot; bug to hangout. But at first the hangouts felt pretty sexually-driven; often offers to “come over and watch something”, some ish. I’m not kidding, I was hella scared and intimidated by him -- yet I didn’t leave..? Idk. Something got me, I guess. I spent more time with him and fell for him; how it goes, I guess. But I remember this night. I just couldn’t do it. I couldn’t get myself to fucking try any new hangout with a new person today. So I told him, straight up, that I was sorry for my flakyness but I’ve lost my sibling recently. And it was a flood of sympathetic, very kind messages; offers to bring ice cream, to watch parks and rec, to bring something uplifting and sweet. And we talked/joked back and forth a bit about some things. And he was rapid-fire responding. And it was really really sweet. I felt comforted by his kindness, in that moment. And some of the other times I’ve seen him, by the fire, when he is telling me about his older brother and the sexual assault allegations that were unraveling, he expressed that I could tell him things about grief if I wanted. That he wanted to know about it because he didn’t know much about it. 

And I think I just started to fall for this guys heart. I got through the initial INSANE worries of “oh shit he just wants to sleep with me” “damn he’s moving really fast; asking me to stay the night after the first fireplace hang cause he’s ‘very attracted to me’”, him telling me openly about his sexuality (or, like, his sexual rhthyms/patterns I guess..? thank god, he doesn’t just jump right into sex,” but it seemed to make him think for a bit “what he actually wants”, and I had to send some messages to him and communicate a lot. And reflecting on it, I don’t know exactly how I got whipped into comfortability/those hesitancies I had before didn’t apply anymore -- it just kind of, happened. And we moved slow & we did things outside his room - date things; things that I agree would appear relationship-like to ANY person experiencing them. 

His musician boys fell in love with me. And I sort of felt like this queen. Being in the presence of and hanging out with this legitimate rockstar - 

I learned to like the fucking dark moles on his back. And I found and listened to his music on Spotfiy; and I fell in love with “Paste” and he told me it was about a girl from awhile ago. And he said he was messin’ around with non-monogamy because he often gets lost in his relationships, like sort of codependent & I just thought that meant that he falls/loves too hard, and that that was similar to me and I told him, driving to South Park to visit Niah & Luke for the first time. And I felt like I swooned whenever he took out that reddish/velvet scrunchie, cause his hair would come down and I could smooth my fingers through it. And there was legit the second night we spent in his bed together, that after kissing/just sort of being together for a bit, he just looked at me for the looongest time with slightly slanted eyes & I got so uncomfortable, I said “what?” and giggled & felt hella awkward, but he was just looking.

And there was the night I sat at the teach-in, recorded-speech evening at Jimi Hendrix park with ATIYEH. & I walked up the steps to see Jonny & his gang, hanging out and drinking and I remember being annoyed that they brought drinks to an educational event and I mentally questioned his true allyship. And he was wearing suspenders, and a low (LOL, purposeful, eh?) button-down shirt and I felt soooo attracted. And I was wearing an oversized blue tee with my hippie pants on that make my butt look fucking FINE. Oh, and I was with Atiyeh. Think I was slightly pissy at Jonny that day for some reason. I think it was because we had that morning/night where he had to “question” what he wanted (whether he wanted to be with me?) because I had told him I didn’t want to have sex yet/that’s complicated & I don’t know what I was looking for -- just to have fun, sort of, but I am also going through hella shit. And it felt like that was a barrier for him and I hated that and thought that I should be important enough not to have to be physical with. So I showed up with Atiyeh. And we both stayed & talked to an artist for awhile. But I was feeling fucking ansty and like I wanted to go into some fucking water or do some crazy shit so I pulled up with them at  nude beach in seattle and oh my goooooooood, I legitimately almost fucking left, like turned around and left. then I found them, some chica totally naked and Jonny standing, dressed (for me, lol) with toes in the water. I bonded with Niah that night and he called me a water-rat because I stayed out and swam under the moonlight for awhillleeee (they’re pussies, smh) and we kidded about overalls. and conversation was really fluid with Jonny & we actually talked just, a lot. about what it’s like to be a woman & the fear of running/walking around at night, near-death experiences we’ve had before. We talked about our favorite seasons and I said Fall, and Jonny asked if I’ve ever made homemade apple cider and I said no, and then he said “we should go to the Olympia farm this fall and do that” & I didn’t realize that he was thinking of me this way. what kind of non-monogamy shit was this? talkin bout something to do together in the fall? Surprised that I’d never been to Bainbridge and said “we gotta go”? Texting me in colorado, while I’m at home with my family, thinking of me & saying that we should go kayaking when I get back -- that he wanted to take me kayaking when I got back? 

And I can’t really fathom how quickly/how strangely it all sort of.. fell apart. And how even still, it doesn’t feel like it’s fallen apart, and most nights I’m waiting for him to get off work to text me & ask me to go somewhere/do something with him.. and the conversation just kind of got less & less.. And once I sort of called him out on him getting back together with his ex (or “seeing” about it) and when on earth was he going to tell me.. I think I just, lost his interest or something. I wasn’t his taste anymore. What, cause I wasn’t being a “cool girl” about it? I don’t even fucking know. but i didn’t see any of this coming & I thought things were just going down a really fun, really cool path, and I was gonna have these people around for awhile longer. like it was all only just beginning. That of course, with the way Jonny had been treating me/been so kind/legit inviting me everywhere to everywhere with all his friends, that meant I was something special, right? Something significant? 

His friends literally call me part of their “pod”! They text me how am I! They call Jonny and I “cuties” & thank us for staying the night! What! The actual! God damn! Fuck! 

You want to hope that things will make a drastic shift for the better; that in a couple days, or in a few weeks, maybe he’ll text me and tell me he realized how stupid this all was & wished he hadn’t hurt me this way. that little doe she know, two of his closest musician friends told me they “are now equally mine”, and maybe sometimes when he shows up at their house, I’ll be sittin on their porch lookin pretty, sippin wine and maybe smoking a few cigarettes. there is that part of me, as I’m sitting home alone tonight instead of at golden gardens, with those hilarious, sweet boy goobs, that Jonny is going to call tonight or text me, or maybe the boys will usher him to come talk to me. There is that hope that I will be chosen; that there was a reason for all the places he took me and times he hung out with me -- that it wasn’t only truly going to lead to heartbreak like this? That there will be an outcome, and it will be good.. there is a hope. that is wasn’t for nothing. it wasn’t just for me, sitting here crying. or spacing out on the floor. not wanting to move. to breathe. just playing music. I’d like to think that he made a mistake. And he’ll try to reach out to talk to me, any minute now. 

But there’s a wedding this weekend and what are the odds that he brings his ex. But there’s a trip to Montana he’s going on and what are the odds he’ll fly her there, too. But I’m not there tonight even though I suggested I might be and he calls her up instead, to come on over. What are the odds this was just meant to end like this and I was a stupid fool. A grieving, mourning, stupid fool. 

Last night I imagined what I would say if he showed up. Or if maybe he did tonight, at my door. If he tried to talk to me or apologize. That I would say “you fucked with the wrong person,” no really, you fucked with the wrong person. I’m barely holding on. I’ve gone through way more shit then you even fucking know about, and you just added more to my plate. You just added more pain then to what I am already fucking experiencing. You fucked with the wrong person. You should’ve been gentler. You should’ve taken the hint. i told you even before we had three “dates” what the fuck’s been going on. You’ve seen it on my instagram. You fucked with, the wrong, girl, at the wrong, time. You shouldn’t have done this. 

But this is the fucking reality of it. This is reality, bitch. I wish I had one of those on/off emotion switches they talk about in Vampire Diaries. I was just whispering to myself, “off, off, turn it off” -- turn of those damn fucking emotions. Stop. Feeling. Stop. Fucking. Feeling. Them. Right now. 

[goddamnitdazai]

Since today is my b'day, I was wondering, do you have hcs on how Dazai & Chuuya would celebrate their birthdays? With or without a s/o? :3c Thank you so much and have a wonderful day ahead~ And I absolutely love your writing~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OR LATE BIRTHDAY I SAW THIS LAST NIGHT BUT IDK WHAT YOUR TIME ZONE IS ILY DOLL (I know I’ve written for Dazai’s birthday before but I don’t see it on this blog so here’s a fresh crop of hcs)[Dazai –no s/o]•Just another day to him, and he doesn’t make much of a fuss about it unless it’sto guilt people into doing his work for him (like Atsushi). He doesn’t mentionit until he actual day because he’d rather make people feel like crap for notknowing—even Kunikida feels a bit of guilt—and Dazai wants nothing more to be alazy couch potato for the rest of the day.•Dazai’s birthdays weren’t exactly a secret in the Port Mafia, but rarely did hedo much other than go to Lupin’s and celebrate with Odasaku and Ango. There’s atwinge of hurt in his heart when he thinks of the last birthdays he spent withhis friends. Because of this his birthdays are now a bittersweet day and he’drather just nap it off than celebrate. But, if the ADA goes out of their way tobuy him a birthday cake after he’s done wailing about how everyone forgot hegraciously accepts the attention in a traditional dramatic-Dazai fashion. [Dazai- with an s/o]-NSFWish•You’d think you were fucking santa clause with the list Dazai gives you themorning of his birthday. Regardless of what you have planned for him—breakfast inbed, morning shower sex, a loving shower of presents—Dazai beats you to thepunch and hands you a very detailed list of all the naughty things he’d like tohappen throughout the day. With a smirk a mile wide Dazai lightly kisses yournose and answers any protests with “but it’smy birthday!”. He uses this day to sneak in any naughty activity you’vebeen on the fence about that he’s been dying to try. Besides, how could youdeny a man such a thing on his birthday?—He says this as he’s whipping out thefirst skimpy outfit he wants you to wear during breakfast.•“Will you love me as I wither away intoold age? Oh I see a wrinkle! ____, don’t leave me just because I’m old!”Dazai whines things like this all day if you’re giving a smidge of attention tosomeone else, even if its work related. He’s in your ear pestering you abouthis decaying body until you’re completely immersed in whatever action he wantsfrom you. A kiss, a hug, an under the desk blow job—Dazai is king today and hewants you to see only him.•Outside of wanting to slip a quick fuck in or a steamy round of oral sex allover Yokohama, Dazai is pretty lax about any other birthday plans you’ve madefor him. While he’d prefer spending the majority of the day just with you he’snot about to turn his nose up if you’ve decided to throw him a big party. Aslong the food is delicious and he doesn’t have to pay for any beer he’s a happycamper with his arm around your waist and a piece of cake in his mouth.•After any festivities Dazai sweeps you up in his arms and announces its timefor the birthday boy to ‘unwrap hisfavorite present’. Getting you to blush in public is one of his favoritepast times, and he’s even more proud of himself if you’re glaring at him as hesets you down on the side walk outside. His shit eating grin fades as he grabsyour hand and asks if you want to take a walk with him around the city.•Without mentioning it he guides you to the place he took you on your firstdate. If you’re too full from the party he merely orders a few drinks and sitssnuggled in the booth just enjoying the conversation and your company. When theearly evening fades to twilight and he senses you’re running out of energy hepeppers kisses up your neck and asks if you want to end that night at hometangled in each other’s arms. •Once you’re both in the comfort of your own home Dazai is quick to strip you ofyour clothes and toss you in bed for round he-lost-count. This session, thoughjust as heated, is threaded in passionate kisses and touches. Dazai’s handsfind every dip and curve in your body and his mouth follows the trails hisfingertips leave on your skin. He makes it a point to cover every inch of skinwith his mouth, tagging a few places like your neck and hips with deep redmarks. Even though it’s his birthday he’d rather hear you screaming his namethroughout the night. [Chuuya – no s/o]•Chuuya celebrates his birthday with the people who feels are closest to him. Aprivate dinner with Kouyou and Hirotsu followed by a small celebration at thebar with nearly all the black lizard, and he gets absolutely shit faced. Notthat its much different than when he usually drinks, but he buys himself a veryexpensive bottle of wine that gets him wasted faster than usual. Hirotsu, asusual, carries Chuuya to Tachihara’s car and ensures he gets home safely.[Chuuya—with an s/o] - NSFWish•Chuuya lets you completely plan the entire day, he figures you know him betterthan anyone else so why interfere? He does however want a blow job to start theday and if you don’t offer on a whim he makes not-so-subtle hints and usesthose sapphire blue eyes of his to bait you down below his belt. Of coursebeing the gentleman Chuuya is he’s not going to let you go unloved, and hehappily returns the favor by dragging you up and sitting you on his face. •Unless Chuuya knows ahead of time you need the whole day he goes about his workas usual, however Kouyou makes sure he has the night off to celebrate. If you’replanning something big Kouyou is 100% in for helping you plan whatever you needand offers to distract Chuuya if you’re planning something elaborate. SinceChuuya would plan something elaborate for you, in turn he would love somethinga little over the top but not necessarily huge. Even if it’s just the people he’sclose to in the mafia Chuuya would be floored by any party you managed to holdwithout his knowledge.•Chuuya makes it a priority to have lunch with you even if its homemade bentoboxes in his office. Though he truly wants to spend time with you because heloves you he’s hiding a devious intent behind his passionate kisses and little nibbleson your throat. What fun is a birthday and a big fancy office if you can’tsneak in a quickie with your beloved? Chuuya slides his gloves off nonchalantlyand lets his hands to the talking. Before you know it your underwear is hangingoff the book shelf and Chuuya’s buried between your thighs bouncing you up anddown on his office chair. • Regardlessof the size of the party—or if its just a romantic date for two—Chuuya insistson you dancing with him. Preferably to slow songs performed beautifully bystringed instruments, but if the place you’ve chosen has a DJ over a quartetChuuya isn’t going to fuss. With the lights twinkling, delicious French wineflowing, and your warm skin on his Chuuya is absolutely in heaven. His smilenever falls from his face as he dips you, spins you, and twirls you arounduntil you’re smiling just as wide as he is. • Chuuya loves ending the perfect birthday with a nighttime drive through theedges of the city. His hand stays clasped with yours, tugging it upward toplant soft kisses on the back of your hand periodically as he drives beneaththe glittering stars. After a while he pulls the car into an empty parking lotnear the beach, yanks a quilt from his trunk, and spreads it on the beach witha few more blankets he keeps tucked away in case he wants to be spontaneouslyromantic—like tonight. He holds you close and watches the waves slide throughthe sand with the moon refracting off the navy blue water. He hums softly toyou and nestles you in his lap and between gentle kisses he thanks you forgiving him such an amazing birthday. 

[simsstuffmarie]

100 Questions To Invade My Personal Life

I haven’t been tagged by anyone but I just thought I’d give it a go as I’m bored! Found this on @angelisims Simblr 😁

1. What's your middle name, and do you like it? My middle name is Marie and I do quite like it actually...it's pretty common lol

2. Are you artistic? Yeah I love doodling and just drawing random things occasionally

3. Have you had your first kiss? Duhhhhhh! I have a boyfriend!

4. What is your life goal? To be successful in my personal goals

5. Do you have any experiences with a famous person? I met Princess Diana when I was little, and a few years ago when I was doing my family tree I found out that my 5th cousin is Michael Douglas lol

6. Do you play any sports? Only if sleeping is classed as a sport?!?!

7. What's your worst fear? Being unhappy and unsuccessful....oh and spiders and heights

8. Who's your biggest inspiration? Myself....never aspire to be anybody else because it will never make you happy

9. Do you have any cool talents? Not really....I can fit my fist in my mouth! Does that count?

10. are you a morning person? HELL NO!!!

11. How do you feel about pet names? Me and Will have them....so I don’t really care. I never really call people by their proper names anyway 12. Do you like to read? Yes. But I rarely get time to sit down with a good book without being interrupted by someone 13. Name a list of shows that have changed your life. Grey's Anatomy - I’ve loved that show since episode one Band Of Brothers/ The Pacific - Just amazing True Blood - Yeassss Vampire Diaries - Ermmmmm....is their one member of that cast who isn’t hot?!

14. Do you care about your follower count?

I’m not overly obsessed with it, but it gives me a warm fuzzy feeling when I see I’ve got a new follower (love you all btw!!)

15. What's the best dream you've had?

I can’t really remember my dreams

16. Have you ever kissed someone of your same gender?

I always kiss my girlfriends....not in a passionate way, just a little peck! Especially when we’ve been out for the night haha

17. Do you have any pets?

Not personally, but I treat my boyfriends' dog like he is mine

18. Are you religious?

Nope

19. Are you a people person?

I get a bit anxious and stressed out/ short tempered if there is a lot of people around in large crowds

20. Are you considered popular?

I don't think so..............

21. What is one of your bad habits?

Self-doubt

22. What's something that makes you feel vulnerable

Being around people who “look better” and are in better physical shape than me

23. What would you name your children?

Girl - Raynor Boy - Finn

24. Who's your celebrity crush?

Tom Hardy, Kellan Lutz, Charlie Hunnam, Shemar Moore, Jamie Dornan, Henry Cavill, Tyson Beckford.....I could actually go on forever!! 

25. What's your best subject?

Human Biology, physiology and anatomy

26. Dogs or cats?

Both

27. Most-used social media besides Tumblr?

Facebook

28. Best friends name

Vikki, Hayley and Nikki

29. Who does your main family consist of?

Me, my mum and my older brother

30. Chocolate or sugar

Chocolate

31. Have you ever been on a date?

Several

32. Do you like rollercoasters?

Only if they have over-the-head supports....not just the lap bars

33. Can you swim?

Yes, but not very well

34. What would you do in the event of an apocalypse?

My boyfriend and me actually always have this discussion and have it all worked out! There's an old prison near where we live and an abandoned army base just up the hill - and the town centre is only 10min walk away! Perfect!

35. Have you struggled with any kind of mental disorder

Anxiety - increasing at the moment.

36. Are your parents together?

Nope - divorced when I was really little

37. What's your favourite colour?

Any warm colour

38. What country are you from/do you live in?

ENGLAND!!! 

39. Favourite singer?

P!NK, Adele, James Arthur

40. Do you see yourself being famous some day?

Nope

41. Do you like dresses?

Yeah, as long as it isn't too tight

42. Favourite song right now?

Thunder - Imagine Dragons Skin - Rag’n’Bone Man

43. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

No, if you’re old enough to do it, you should be mature enough to talk about it.

44. How old were you when you first got your period?

I was quite late starting. I was 15.

45. Have you ever shot a gun?

Yeah

46. Have you ever done yoga?

Yep

47. Are you a horror girl?

I don’t mind them, but they can all be quite similar

48. Are you good at giving advice?

Great at giving it. Crap at taking it!

49. Tell us a story about your childhood.

My dad used to be in the army and we lived several places. When we lived in Cyprus we used to visit the old ruins and amphitheatre and there were loads of lizards that used to hide in the cracks of the old buildings. I decided I wanted one of them to take home so I grabbed hold of its tail, but it was stuck and I kept pulling and pulling and eventually the tail actually came off of the lizard! Immediately I started crying.

One Christmas 9also when we lived in Cyprus actually) I wanted snow on the Christmas tree, but we didn't have fake snow, so I decided to use my mum's expensive face cream and smothered the tree in cream. 

The same Christmas, me and my brother woke up before my mum and dad and decided to “sneak” into the front room to open the presents. When we got to the front room door, the handle had been taken off the door and closed, so we decided to go around the back door, which was also locked. Then tried looking through the windows but they had put bin bags all over the windows and drawn the curtains. We went back in and decided to sit my the front room door until they woke up, but we fell asleep and they found us asleep by the door on the floor.

50. How are you doing today?

Yeah, I’m OK. Thanks for asking

51. Were you a cute kid?

Newborn - yea I think I was Toddler - I was cheeky Child - Scrawny Teen - awkward

52. Can you dance?

When I’ve had a drink

53. Is there anything you do that you can't remember ever not doing?

Breathing? Eating? Drinking?

54. Have you ever dyed your hair?

Yeah quite a few times actually, just not for a long long time now

55. What colour are your eyes?

They change depending on my mood - green/blue/hazel/grey

56. What's your favourite animal?

Hedgehogs - I want one

57. Have you ever made a huge fool of yourself?

All the time!!!

58. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

My mum and I are close (even though she annoys the hell out of me) But me and my dad not really because he left when I was young. We still always saw him, but it sometimes feels like I don't know him properly...IDK....

59. Do you have good friends?

The most amazing friends....

60. Are you close with anyone of the lgbtq+ group?

I know loads of different people...I don’t really label anyone. If you’re decent to me then I’m cool with you...

61. What's your favourite class?

I don’t really have class at university....

62. List all the tv shows you are watching.

Love Island, Big Brother, OITNB, Sons Of Anarchy, Prison Break, Benidorm, Grey’s Anatomy

63. Are you organised?

I try to be

64. What was the last movie you saw? Opinion?

Split....it was actually quite good

67. Which tv character do you relate to most?

I have no clue

68. What are some things that stand between you and complete happiness?

Finances

69. If you received enough money to never need to work again, what would you spend your time doing?

Travelling the world

70. What would you change about your life if you knew you would never die?

Nothing....because every decision I made before has made me who I am now

71. What would you do differently if you knew that no one was judging you?

I don’t care if nobody judges me

72. If you could start over, what would you do differently?

Nothing

73. Would you break the law to save a loved one?

Definitely

74. When was the last time you travelled somewhere new?

Today

75. When you think of your home, what immediately comes to mind?

My bed

76. What have you done to pursue your dreams lately? How about today?

I got off my arse and got myself into university

77. What did you want to be when you were a kid?

Everything! Nurse, Air Hostess, Vet, Super Model, Ballerina, Solider, Farmer, Roman, Pop Star, Barbie, Nightclub Owner, Architect, Interior Designer..... 

78. If you dropped everything to pursue your dreams, what would you be risking?

Nothing...because real friends and family support you no matter what.

79.When did you not speak up, when you know you really should have?

That's really personal and I don’t wanna talk about it.....sorry.....

80. Describe the next five years of your life, and your plans, in a single sentence

Finish my degree, get a job, buy my own house, get married and have children

81. What would happen if you never wasted another minute of your life, what would that look like?

Skinny

82. If you could live forever, how would you spend eternity?

Seeing new things, trying new food, living!

83. How would you spend a billion dollars?

Same as above - maybe invest half of it and buy a new house and treats for my closest

84. If you could time travel, would you go to the past or the future?

Future - there is no point in trying to change the past as it got you to the place you are now....Live and Learn

85. What motivates you to succeed?

My family, friends and boyfriend

86. What dream that you’ve had has resonated with you the most?

It was an awful nightmare - about my brother and mum being murdered in front of me

87. Would you rather live in the city or the woods? Why?

The woods - because it's peaceful

88. Do you believe in life after death

Yes

89. What teacher inspired you the most? How did they?

They all thought I’d fail. Love proving people wrong. It makes me fight for everything

90. What’s your fondest childhood memory?

Living in Cyprus

91. If you could have dinner with any one person, living or dead, who would they be and why?

My Grandad - I miss the old grumps

92. What would you have to see to cry tears of joy?

Some of these really beautiful videos about people helping in the time of need, really romantic marriage proposals, and probably my first ultrasound scan if I was pregnant

93. What is the hardest lesson you had to learn in life?

You need to make a decision for yourself. Never be pressurised into it. It may be a tough one to start with and it will probably make you cry for years and years to come. But somewhere it was the right decision for you. 

94. What do you think happens after we die?

Life carries on....

95. What would you do if you could be invisible?

Sneak into loads of celebrities houses because I’m nosey

96. What's something you can't do no matter how hard you try?

Roll my tongue and roll my R’s

97. Would you want to choose the sex and appearance of your offspring?

Nope - they'd be perfect no matter what

98. How did your first crush develop?

Not very well lol

99. Is there a feeling you are trying to ignore? What is it?

Anxiousness and regret

100. Do you live or do you just exist?

At the moment I just exist - but I’m trying to live

I’d like to nominate people, but it is actually really long, and took me forever to do. So if you fancy doing it, just tag me because I’d love to read them all.

[alexababeeee]

50 things about me:

i was tagged by my absolute favorite artist and just like person bc shes amazing if you dont follow her go follow her she is adorable and pure and everything good in the world lol @domo-tron to do this! so going off of hers, its random so lets see if i can do this: 

1. i have 3 tattoos right now and i want more 2. i never use capital letters when typing in a casual setting because it feels too formal 3. i have severely flat feet. they’re so flat that they make suction cup noises on hard surfaces like hardwood, tile, etc. 4. i’m very very very short. only 5′1.5″.  5. i’ve been going to the gym since college and it has been great. 6. i have 10 piercings currently and i’ve been debating about others. 7. i am obsessed with stationary, like pens and pencils and handwriting and binders and notebooks 8. what got me interested in video games was actually gaia online which i don’t play anymore. you can still see my account but i locked myself out of it and i can’t recover it.  bite me then is the account btw 9. my first car was a nissan xterra and her name was xena. she is my love (even though she’s broken) 10. i’m currently studying nursing with a minor in spanish at college 11. i used to play a lot of sports and i’m mad that i quit them. my favorites were gymnastics and soccer 12. i have a fairly bad southern accent. especially when talking to my grandparents or if i’m playing video games. 13. i’ve been told i can sing but i don’t believe anyone. 14. writing is my passion: stories, poems, essays, anything. 15. i hate my laugh because it changes a lot and if i laugh really hard i either start to cry or i can’t breathe....sometimes both. 16. eating is my second favorite thing to do. 17. my name is actually alexis but i’ve been called: alex, lex, lexi, alexa... lots of stuff 18. i’m actually mixed. i’m not hispanic! (woah) 19. the video games i play: league of legends, world of warcraft (but not lately), osu!, call of duty, tomb raider (only sometimes) 20. making world of warcraft characters and making stories for them has been keeping me semi-sane in my wow absence 21. i have very tiny hands. idk. if you have an iphone 6, or know how big one is, that’s the size of my hand 22. i can’t wait to travel the world. i really want to go to germany, spain, and colombia the most. 23. i like to play pranks on people. i also like jokes and pick up lines. i’ve mad a pact with myself that if someone used a pick up line on me, i’d go on a date with them. just cause. 24. i’m actually bi-curious but i have done nothing regarding it. i am vvvv intimidated but there are a few girls that i’ve found that are just. wow. love. <3 (will i ever talk to them and tell them that? probably never, no.)  25. i don’t understand twitter but i have one. who knows. 26. mexican food is my absolute favorite type of food ever. swoon.  27. peach rings are my favorite candy. ever. period. followed closely by twizzlers - i am struggling so bad with this omg how am i going to get to 50 -  28. i have a friend that i’ve been friends with for 19 years. her name is aly and i love her. 29. i had braces twice and i have a permanent retainer on my lower teeth 30. my first nephew is due in may and i can’t wait. 31. i’ve lived in georgia all my life but i kind of want to move away.... 32. i hate bad weather. a lot. 33. i probably wouldn’t still be here without my friend meredith, honestly. 34. people feel like they can confide in me. its cool up until they don’t listen to my advice. then i get mad. 35. i’m an aries and its reflected in my personality lol. whoops. 36. i can hold a grudge against someone forever. don’t try me. 37. i’ve been told that i’m scary by some people but i don’t see it. 38. i love roller coasters.  39. i think it’d be awesome to meet some of my mutuals, especially those that i’ve known for a while. - god this is impossible wtf!? -  40. i like vintage style shirt and leggings. thats my like new style.   41. i listen to all kinds of music but twenty one pilots is my absolute favorite band of all time. 42. depending on what kind of plans they are, i like to have everything ready ahead of time. but i also like spontaneous adventures and stuff so. who knows. - i am not that interesting i don’t know what else to say omg -  43. my niece has the same middle name as me because my older brother is obsessed with the name danielle but no one will let him make it the kid’s first name. lol. 44. i have 3 dogs (tiger, nacho, and spike) and then a bunny named pipsi. i love them. 45. i don’t really drink soda anymore but i am obsessed. (literally like addicted. not even kidding) to sweet tea.  46. i think kids look like lizards and most of the time i don’t actually like kids or enjoy being around them (except my niece and my future nephew) but i’m really good with them and a lot of the time they like me a lot. 47. i used to go roller skating every friday when i was in middle school and when i went recently i ended up buying my own skates (they’re very cute). skating is one of my hobbies and its a lot of fun i love it. 48. i can actually type very fast. i’ve hit 90wpm before but it was a struggle to get there and idk if i could get there again lol. 49. when i get really mad or heated or something, i get shaky. its kind of weird. and sometimes i cry when i get really mad. not cool.  - this took forever but i am proud to announce this next number -  50. in a lot of my pictures, especially those of me where i’m not the selfie taker, i chuck up a peace sign. its my thing. i couldn’t tell you why. 

for an extra tidbit about me - most just cause i just thought of it but also bc it literally took me hours to finish this - 51* since about december, i’ve decided to try to embrace my natural hair. no heat and hopefully itll start curling soon. <3  FINALLY OKAY SOOOOOO I TAG @beautifullywanderlust bc obvi duh girl struggle and alsoooo @layonhands!! and @ anyone reading this! go for it! tag me in it! so i can read about u and love u bc u are presh and adorable. all of you are. <333  xx

[kkukkung]

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31) What is one thing you love the most about each member?

shownu:

the most gentle human being idk he’s just… so Good it physically hurts me how pure and earnest he is ??? he’s always doing his best he literally never slacks and he’s just… such a sincere and gentle person and i feel like he’s simple in a nice way, rn i’m rly proud of him for doing so well on variety programs and i love that everyone is falling for him bc he is rly the most endearing person.. sof and warm

wonho:

i genuinely feel like wonho is made of love like he’s so caring and very in touch w his emotions… idk how to word this well but the way he’s strong/steadfast + knows himself/knows what he wants but also always thinking of others (sometimes to a fault) and caring for them, worrying for them, being grateful for them, the way he rly wears his heart on his sleeve and isn’t afraid to let his emotions show/isn’t ashamed of sobbing on broadcast bc he Feels So Much idk he just!! his entire heart is full of love he’s rly the best guy not to be a wonho stan but yeah it’s this… unique balance of personal integrity and emotional openness that makes me rly rly rly love him, in the simplest terms…

minhyuk: 

i think i love how affectionate he is the most! like i joke abt minhyuk’s excessive skinship being a sign of his lizard alien personage all the time but i rly love it tbh.. lmao… i like that he’s not afraid to get up close and personal w anyone else ksghf and he’s always casually touching the others + complimenting them + giving them heart-eyes + beaming and paying close attention to everything that happens;;;; he’s just a very lovable and loving person, his heart is so good u kno :( he rly just wants everyone to be happy and he does his best to make other people happy

kihyun: 

i rmbr katie once said smth abt kihyun being a nerd bc he rly can’t do anything without using his entire heart and i think that’s so true like? i’m always teasing him abt his need to Win/Triumph in every situation jdkshfg but i think this sort of… ambition mb isn’t the right word but… how driven he is? is one of my favourite things abt him like he rly wants to do everything right and he’s always striving to be better, to get better

hyungwon:

best boy… idk there’s something very pure abt hyungwon like, he’s the member i want to be friends w the most bc he’s just……….. such a good chill person w a fantastic sense of humour and a big big heart. he has this calm vibe and he’s good at quietly being there for the others and lending an ear if they have any troubles… i love that he’s always laughing at something and yeth i just feel… very cleansed very blessed by him even when he’s grinding on the floor to ppap idk if this makes sense

jooheon:

i admire jooheon a lot bc he’s so passionate abt music and rly… ridiculously good at what he does. as the sort of… mx poster boy… he does so much like he’s the one w the most solo activities and he hasn’t rested since debut promoting mx individuallly?? he works so tirelessly and wonho says even tho he does this he never complains and keeps playing w the others even when he’s definitely exhausted like… u rly have to love what u do and love who u do it with to be like that

changkyun:

my favourite thing abt changkyun is how resilient and persevering he is? he’s been through so many hardships but he keeps fighting and improving himself in response to difficult circumstances rather than stepping down from them. one of the defining ck moments for me was his message to himself in the time capsule that was like “to changkyun, even though it’s hard, you’ll do it, right?” and idk that rly… make my heart sponge up w tears ghskjdh he’s the real #fighter of monsta x