#i’m having so much fun with this lol I didn’t mean to update to soon

[clockwork-ashes]

Something Lonesome - Part I (again)

Read also on Ao3 :)

Summary: Elain dies when she’s thrown into the cauldron, but she doesn’t stay dead for long. Over and over, again and again, something brings her back, and every time she finds her way to Lucien.

Note: This is a romance, but it’s also just a story about Elain. There will be a happy ending <3 Also, completely dedicated to the lovely @nocasdatsgay because I have so many ideas and every time I yell them into the tumblr void (the tags) she has something nice to say <3

The water in the Cauldron was dark, unnaturally so, pitch black despite the flickering torches that lined the walls of the large space. It reflected nothing, only absorbed light and colour until it looked endless. 

The sight was enough to make Elain pause, familiarity making her tense. It flooded her senses, whirling until she was dizzy. Constant like the sound of crickets at dusk, she felt a memory just at the back of her mind, unreachable and yet there. 

Elain even recognised the ancient object in front of her, the deep grey iron surface of the bowl both uneven and smooth. It had a wide mouth and was filled to the brim, waves nearly spilling like there was a current, ripples being made on a phantom wind. It took her a moment to realise where she’d seen it before. 

In her dreams. 

Elain only tore her gaze away from the mesmerising waters when rough hands lifted her effortlessly into the air. The gag in her mouth tasted bitter and made her tongue dry. Each word she tried to utter was muffled, so she’d decided to keep silent earlier in the night. She was certain there were tracks cutting across her cheeks from all the tears she’d cried, but she admired Nesta’s bravery, her insistence on fighting tooth and nail until they had tied her hands and feet together. 

Elain could feel the cool metal of her engagement ring cutting into the skin of her finger. It was sharp, the knuckle curled in a way that made it hurt. She wondered if she was bleeding, but the sweat of her palms had her feeling unsure. 

Grayson’s pretty blue eyes flashed in her mind, clear as the sky in Spring. She didn’t want to think about him, about her life being cut so short before they could marry. She pushed the image of him aside, aching. 

Elain was hardly courageous, and she knew it. She hoped Feyre would forgive her, if not for anything else, at least for giving up so easily. Her younger sister held herself like a warrior, all grown up, and still, Elain thought of her as little. She figured that would always be the case, no matter how many years passed, time flowed like a river and most things stayed the same. 

“Please,” Feyre begged, a tightness to her voice that Elain had learned meant she was close to sobbing. 

Someone Elain could not see must have indicated to the men holding her. She was tugged gracelessly closer to the Cauldron. If she’d pointed her toes, her pale skin would have touched the water. She instead bent her knees up towards her chest, prolonging the inevitable. She felt more than heard the terrified moan escape through the corners of her gag. She couldn’t look at the water without wanting to shriek, so she turned her head, shifting her attention to anything else.

Almost like the pull of a magnet, her dark eyes fell instantly to a mismatched pair. 

Sunlight. 

The unknown man had sunshine in his gaze, golden and bright. The colour of his one eye was so lovely and rich, devastating. He looked unbelievably guilty. There was a miserable tightness to his auburn brows, a mournful expression tugging on the corners of his full lips. 

He had a hand on the sword at his belt, like he would have fought for her. He stayed in his place, a stoic faerie knight from the stories only told above the wall. 

Beautiful.

Elain felt something crack inside her chest, the pain unbearable. It was like someone had grabbed onto her rib and twisted until it broke, cleaving in two. Her eyes widened in shock, a silent plea for help. 

The red-haired man staggered forward, his mouth falling open in the smallest of gasps. Elain wished she had heard his voice, could imagine the low timber of it clear as glass. She guessed what he might whisper. 

Stay.  

Elain did not have the chance to shout, barely had the chance to blink. Eager hands casually threw her into the depthless waters of the Cauldron. Even then, the loss of contact had her noticing just how very alone she was.  

Elain felt each stab of ice slowly crawl along her spine, the single pearl from her ring shattering as the tiny pieces floated like shimmering snowflakes to the surface. She tried to watch them, could see their reflection mirrored like stars above her. Each spark of light winked out of existence, taking turns. The sharp taste of copper lingered, blood dancing on her tongue.

Darkness came again, and Elain let it take her without a fight.

[cokoweee]

Okay last one I think…lovely stuff as always, I’m just juggling another brainrot right now, but I was itching to make some remarks. First off I’m glad midwesternvibes mentioned the text thing in the most recent update, because I was tickled to see that too! Probably the first time he had color since before their “spat” in the kitchen. As much as I know it’s still a roadblock in his recovery, I’m glad to see the voices coming back for Donnie. I kinda get this feeling they are hanging out with him until they know he’s going to be “okay”. And I have this little idea to myself, that when Donnie is able to start healing and processing his trauma, he stops hiding from them and is no longer afraid to see them. Of course that would be when they would start to slip away. (And that would be so rough for Donnie) Grief is kinda like that too. Sometimes you can be okay for a long time and you’ll have bouts where you still miss that person(s) even when you know you have accepted and moved on.

So I’m curious what is the situation that Donnie is on a watch. Is it just Draxum’s concern? Is it in case Donnie gets catatonic again? Is it in case he gets violent again? Is it to save his liver (those supersoldier genes only thing keeping it from failing)?

Also Draxum fixing Donnie’s sweater like a dad (only for Donnie to have his femme fatale shoulder thing as soon as the door is closed)

I’m a little surprised that this is the first time Kendra has seen Draxum do his mystic vine magic…or… he just hasn’t had too…or…all the mystic stuff happening lately has made Kendra more aware to it…or… but whatever the reason…appropriate reaction, lol

So something I have noticed that has me enticed is Donnie has been wearing his hand prosthesis more often.

Before the trauma induced episode, the only time we ever saw Donnie wearing it was when he was out or in “mission mode”. It makes sense, he needs to be able to save his ninpo for more than just temporary fingers. So why now… I was gonna suggest he is on edge, but I also remembered, as I was writing this, that you mentioned him having a slight disconnect to his ninpo…so yeah fingies is not a luxury he can afford right now. In any case…. Hmm…Donnnie….you know…if you didn’t shut your second dad outside…he mighta told ya that Kendra went out…ya know…? Also not sure if it’s just clueing us into Kendra still being sick or that trope of “if you sneeze three times it means someone is talking behind your back.” ? (I quote this one when I sneeze a lot, I’ll go “okay who’s trash talking me?!”)

Anyway please take care! Also p.s. if you do start to play Minecraft I hope you have fun. (I tried to play it but my laptop is too old and it crashes, so I can’t give much advice on it) also p.p.s I found a WIP of a thing I started writing for this AU in July, and I kinda…forgot I had it. It’s gonna be so out of place if I ever finish it, so just heads up for whatever was the hot topic then… <_<

GAHH I ANSWERED THIS BUT THE APP CRASHED AUGHHH. Let’s see if I remember what I said

I think I showed it a few times that despite Donnie constantly wanting said voices to stop, whenever they actually do, he feels uneasy. It’s quiet and he feels alone. I don’t write every single voice he hears all the time but just ones that feel right to show. There’s a lot he hears. The good the bad and the horrible.

Dancin a bit in that prosthetic part it’s a bit of a ref to sumthin y’all like to tickle a good bit sometimes lol

DRAXUM! A man not meant to be a father but ended up being a guardian. He hasn’t used his mystics cause there’s no need! Also Draxums reasoning for putting pickle boy on watch isn’t just his!

Casey is one that enforced it so harshly. That episode at the farmhouse was technically the first time she’s EVER seen Doobie in that state. Literally witnessed him break down, almost wipe out a farm and try to tear apart his own body. Both want no risk of not being able to get to Dibble so keeping him out of the lab that he can lockdown is a must for them

OOF THIS IS LONG HOPEFULLY I MADE SENSE. Cause I forgot a bit of what I said before

[chosotallgf]

DOUBLE IDENTITY #1 - TOJI FUSHIGURO

next chapter 🔜

SYNOPSIS | y/n is a third year college student who is about to intern for the top business company in Japan in a week, what happens when she unknowingly cross paths with her future boss not knowing he’s hiding a secret.

WARNING | mafiaboss toji x fém!reader, geto x fém!reader, alcohol, moderate au, sexual activity, criminal activity & behavior, naoya is his own warning, angst & fluff (not really lol) not proof read

p.s my work is only on A03 & tumblr!

it was finally the weekend which means you and your girls can turn up in club after your lectures. I mean what is a Friday night if you are not clubbing in your 20s? you have 1 year left before you graduate from university & is interning at one of the top businesses in japan in a week.

you been waiting for this opportunity since you hear a new ceo was appointed not so long ago, you also hear gossip that he always looks detached / laidback but he’s also very wealthy so it’s fine right? what could possibly go wrong?

Rushing up your apartment stairs to get ready & nearly falling to get to your closet. you promised your two best friends shoko & utahime to be dress by midnight and it was well past 10pm. destroying your closet wasn’t enough you needed to find the perfect outfit for tonight, it didn’t help that you also had to take a bath & do your makeup which all together was about an hour.

as you were searching you spot your off the shoulder tight mesh top that push up your boobs up good. “yeah this top will do for now” you thought as you pair it with a black mini skirt.

Half way getting ready, you hear a loud ass banging nose against your door “y/n you better hurry tf up I wanna make sure we get a good section at the club” utahime shouts. “hold on give me a min” you huff out as you struggle to get your last pair of heels on.

Finally all done you walk downstairs to find them snooping thru your fridge “if your hungry their barely anything in there, I haven’t gone shopping yet” “I can tell I only see this half ate pie left” shoko says as she grabs a fork. “So who the lucky guy that’s been taking you out to dinner Mhm?” Utahime grins says crossing her arms.

“No one” I roll my eyes. “I been so busy & tried that all I been eating is takeout, between classes and getting ready for this new internship it’s hell” my face clearly showing that I’m stressed, utahime pulls me into a hug saying “don’t put too much pressure on your self you need to relax you already got the intern whats more to worry about?” Puffing out “I don’t know what if I somehow mess this up? I been pulling so much into my classes to get good grades but it will be all for nothing if I can’t even get working for a company correctly”

“see their you go again worry about the future, just have fun in the moment, right shoko?” she gesture towards me at Vivi to get her to agree. I mean she’s right but I saw so many reviews online about how the company is strict and isn’t afraid to disposition anyone. “utahime right, plus we are suppose to clubbing right having fun and this isn’t let’s goo” shoko wraps her arms around me and utahime shoulders as she pulls us to the door with kisses on our cheek. if only y/n knew this was the first step leading down a dangerous road….

author note: I already wrote like half of the beginning of this fic so give me time to post chapter 2 soon :)

also lmk if you wanna be tagged when 2nd chapter is posted! remember to like and reblog

update chapter 2 is posted

[belli5]

Things fall apart — Niko Omilana

Genre/warnings: angst, trust issues, reader is from Brazil in this story.

Summary: Niko constantly coming home late, never spending time with you anymore, makes you question if the relationship can move forward.

A/n: im so sorry for not updating, I’m not in my home country so also the Wifi is expensive asf 😭 sorry if there’s mistakes, rn I’m too lazy to read it through but once I’m not gonna be, I’ll read it through 😭

Masterlist

Niko constantly came home late, these past few weeks, you understood that he has a YouTube career with the beta squad and it’s completely fine, you loved all of them like they were almost your brothers.

You were also sometimes spending your time with them, it was so much fun. But when Niko started coming home late, you refused to believe that they were filming everyday and SO LATE.

You were fine by it the first days, maybe he did have to film late or something, but not everyday.

You had confronted him about it and he didn’t see it as a big deal. Today was a day he only came earlier than he always NOW did.

“It’s exactly what I mean. We haven’t spent a lot of time together, we haven’t made love, you haven’t took me out.”

“Niko, don’t you think we haven’t spent a lot of time together lately?” You ask him, as he watches the tv on the couch.

“What do you mean?”

“Well if you want I can take you out this weekend!”

“I don’t want you to take me out because I want to,” you sigh “I want you to take me out because you want to”

“I promise you, I wanna take you out. I will pick you up at 7pm, Saturday, if you’d like that?” He promises, his promises now meant nothing to you, but you atleast hoped he meant it this time.

“I’d like that.” You smiled at him

When Saturday finally came, you just prayed he wouldn’t cancel on you once again, it was now 5:30pm you started to do your hair, make up, and finally clothes.

You wore a tube top short summer dress in yellow (lol sorry if you don’t like, I thought it was cute asf) you wanted to look good.

When you got ready it was already 6:50pm, he said he’d be there at 7pm so, you didn’t worry at first. When it came to 7:10pm, you decided to text him, because if he isn’t taking me serious and always late, what’s the point of anything?

Neeeko 🤭💗

Where are you?

Are you coming to pick me up?

7:11pm

Yes, soon.

7:20pm

When?

You’re already 20 minutes late..

7:21pm

I know. Something just came up.

7:22pm

What came up so suddenly?

7:22pm

Niko, do you even take me seriously?

7:23pm

Of course I do.

Why do you think I don’t?

7:23pm

I wonder why.

7:23pm

Don’t be like that please.

We’ll talk once I get home.

7:26pm

I left him on read, he’s literally not taking me serious. I don’t even wanna see him anymore, he promised to take me out, he lied once again. I don’t even wanna know what he’s been doing that he comes home so late.

If he thinks that coming home late is normal and not even telling me why he’s been doing it, and doesn’t even care that he has a gf waiting back home, then why am I even here?

Niko came home at 8:15pm, I already changed back into black Nike wide leg sweatpants and into a simple oversized shirt to be comfortable.

When he walked into the living room and saw me into sweatpants, he questioned “didn’t you wanna go out?”

“Before yes. Now? I don’t want to.”

“Why?” He asks, he even had the audacity to ask.

“I don’t know. Maybe you wanna go and take out the people you’ve been hanging out with since you’ve been coming home so late always.” I say out of pettiness.

“What’s this all about?” He asks, “I’ve been busy with the beta squad.”

“Oh and you were so busy today, when you promised to take me out. And exactly today you also had to be late?”

“I’m here now. I still have the reservation.”

“You can stick the reservation up you ass,” I argued, “I don’t wanna go out with you anymore.”

“Come on,” he says, coming over to me “I’m sorry I came home so late.”

“A sorry isn’t gonna change anything.” You said, he came over trying to hug you, “Niko, don’t touch me.”

You went over to your computer searching in, Britishairways.com going to look for the soonest flight to Brasilia, back home.

“What are you doing?” Niko asks seeing that you’re searching for a flight to Brazil. Niko has been to Brazil with you to meet your family.

“I think it’s gonna be better for now.” You say, booking the ticket, the soonest one was at 10:20pm, which meant you had almost 2 hours more. You called an uber so you won’t miss the flight.

“What do you mean better?” He asks following you to y’all’s bedroom where you started packing everything you needed for the time you’re gonna be away. “Running away from our problem isn’t the answer.”

“It isn’t. But we need a break from each other. I’ll be back in 2 or 3 weeks, I don’t see us going forward right now.”

“I’m really sorry Y/N. I wanna fix this.”

“You should’ve thought about this, when I gave you signs that you coming home late is bothering me.” You said getting up closing the luggage.

He helped you carry the luggage down, “I promise once you get back, I’ll fix this..” you didn’t even know if you could trust him on this one, he’s promised so many times and that meant nothing. But if he really wants us to work out, he’ll keep his promise.

“That’s fine.”

“I love you Y/n, tell me if you need anything.”

[anidrawsfanart]

I just watched Glitch X !!!! It was so much fun!!! The Gaslight district sounds interesting…..anyways, we just got a sneak peek into episodes 7 and 8!!! I would like to take the time to dissect it! (Heads up: I’m not the best at analyzing/dissecting things)

So the teaser opens up with what seems to be after the elevator drops???

It’s honestly kinda hard to make out…

Next we see N and Uzi hugging eachother and then UZI CRIES?????? HOLY SHIT

You know shit is about to go down when a character that literally never cries on screen before ACTUALLY cries on screen

I think that’s when N told Uzi that she eventually has to die soon….and I can’t tell where they exactly are

Next we see N getting forcefully dragged away, and in the behind him is a bunch of hands

At first I was kinda confused….but then I remembered all the way back in episode 2 where Uzi, N and Thad went back to the colony where they saw a human hand crawling towards them

Leading it to be revealed to be eldritch J

Which means…..V didn’t make it. The very thing that’s pulling N away could be eldritch V

Although, why does it have multiple hands instead of one?? Could there be the other disassembly drones clones that died??? I don’t really know

Next we got the sentinels with chains and it looks like they might be outside of the manor (UPDATE: I just realized that this is a cathedral and not the manor, somebody also reblogged this and point it out. I was pretty tired when I made this lol)

This could probably be a flash back

Then we get this shot

NORI’S ROOM????? WERE GONNA LEARN MORE ABOUT NORI??? NORI FLASHBACK???? IS THAT TESSA’S HAND???? OR IS THAT SOMEONE ELSE’S????

I think they might have found Nori’s old room where she was being experimented at the time (???)…maybe this isn’t a flashback, also it looks like Nori had a similar personality to Uzi, like mother like daughter lol

Then we see N and Uzi hearing something from behind them

Because of the similar background from the second pic and the shade of red on them, I think this could be moments before N gets taken away by eldritch V or whatever eldritch(es) it could be

Finally we get this

@bigtittiecomitte pointed out that Uzi seems to be holding a cross on her other hand….maybe they are in a church???

Also N intertwining his hand with Uzi’s looking like he’s trying to calm her down, only for cyn (taking over Uzi) to hurt him

I’m VERY excited for the season finale!!!!

[storiesofsvu]

Bruh… I had to pause 911 right as a bridge collapsed with the entire 118 on it, tonight’s eps better be good LOL.

Also don’t blame me if I have minimal notes tonight I’m watching while detangling my mess of a hair (don’t be like me and throw your still damp, naturally wavy hair into a bun and then keep it in buns all week for two weeks back to back, it isn’t fun.) (updated: it was not as bad nor did it take as long as i expected lol)

Damn. That was a quick opening…

“sprinkles on top” was a very dinozzo delivered line… classy

This husband has definitely been on svu before

My firestick remote is fucking fucked… i either need to replace it or it got wet or something. It stopped working yesterday, I swapped the batteries and it was fine until just now when it crapped out again. I fucked around and moved the batteries back and forth and it started working again but like wtf…

Man… people are fucking stupid. If you’re going to be caught on camera breaking a law… maybe don’t wear something that is labelled with a company/sports team/brand/etc that can be traced back to you… (then again, people are literally recording themselves committing crimes and posting them on tik tok so… I dunno what I expected LOL)

Why not get the KID out rather than try and take the bag outside?

Ah yes, the classic “12 years of classic school” line drop earlier in the episode for the same cop to “identify” with the perp and talk him down during confrontation.

I’m REALLY happy with the addition of Nick and mccoy being gone. Because when it was mccoy and Nolan vs Samantha she was NEVER listened to or heard, they’d just like, scoff and ignore her/say she’s being too passionate or shit. But with nick he weighs both of their sides, explains it to the other in a way they can understand (aka talking to Nolan isn’t like talking to a wall lol) and generally backs sam and I really like that about this dynamic.

When is sam gonna be able to work a case on her own? Someone hire hugh dancy for another small gig so he needs time off lol

Woof, asking the husband to do this is a BIG thing.

This is a super intriguing and controversial case. Like, when a baby is born/killed/pregnant woman is beaten and the baby is found dead (or any of those kind of cases on svu) it’s always considered murder of the baby if they took a breath outside of the womb, meaning they’re breathing on their own. Currently the vis is NOT breathing on her own cause of machines, so the same notion should apply… (which is lowkey what they’re going for with this case)

LOL not my brain going right to Barba on the “nurse who yanks the plug on a ventilated baby and the judge says no charge”

“Dr Calhoun” the way I literally just SCREAMED. How tf did you have RITA CALHOUN on your show literally 2 weeks ago and name another character with the same last name this week. Come ON.

Im lowkey surprised Nolan didn’t lose his shit all “WHAT did you do?!” even though it was in their favour.

Oh I spoke too soon. “as long as you can sleep at night” COME ON

Ah yes, here’s the rest of the emotional backstory of the character to explain their motivations/opposing views. (as I was LITERALLY saying, “we know nothing about these characters personal lives”)

But like, ACTUALLY. We know that the one detective is married with kids, I don’t think Shaw is, we don’t know much/if anything about him. Nolan as far as I remember is single, now we know about his dad. Sam’s sister was killed and the perp never sentenced/found. We know little to nothing about Nick as of now….

Okay SVU time!

The way that scene jump was cut I literally thought that was hannah’s brother with her phone or something, or worse that THEY were texting. That was a bad editing choice.

Ewww gross this dad is terrible

“I thought we told each other everything” bruh. I’m sorry but in EVERY parent/child relationship there is ALWAYS going to be a time when you stop telling each other everything. Esp if/when it comes to sex and personal relationships…

JEEEESSSEEEE

Waiting for the time when Jesse looks to sonny and is all “so you’re not my real dad, but do you know who?”

I understand carisi wanting to go off to confront this creep, but to also leave jesse alone on a street corner in NEW YORK when she’s completely distracted with her brand new cell phone and not paying attention to her surroundings. Like… soshine, amanda will literally rip you apart with her bare hands if something happens to the girls on your watch…

Amanda’s new job keeping her travelling a lot is the perfectly lazy excuse to have her mentioned but not back on the show full time lol. Though it very much leaves it open to guest star roles so… I’m down.

As if Jesse is already NINE like that is wild (it’s wild because I didn’t watch the entire series when it aired and marathoning it lol)

WHERE THE FUCK ARE THE OTHER TWO. I swear to GOD if they’re not in this week I will fight someone

Oop. Personal fact from curry tonight too. Okay, she’s got son(s), but I don’t think she’s married?

Why are there no lights on in this house?

Woof. Dad RIGHT on there with the lawyer, that’s SUSPICIOUS. (honestly, no its not you should never talk to the cops without one lol, but in this case… suspicious…)

“there’s no Romeo and Juliet clause in new York” I’m sorry.. WHAT? How many old episodes include that clause on why it’s NOT a case?! Wtf??

“yeah…okay…” *warning glance* is classic olivia for “please shut the fuck up”

Christ… talking about the first time you’ve ever had sex not just in front of your mom but two other adult women… like I know they’re helping her, she knows they’re trying to help her but it’s still SO awkward

Yeah I think liv was right.. carisi’s a little too rough in this interview. His parents already immediately lawyered up, you need to sweeten this boy up gently and not accusatory to get him talking

“don’t allow pornography in our house” ma’am, there are ALWAYS gonna be ways around that…

My heart just MELTED (and my uterus exploded) at the way Joe said “I want them” about kids. Don’t even care if that was a tactic… (cause I do believe he wants them but I also believe it terrifies him)

IS THIS GUY SERIOUSLY TRYING TO BRIBE A FUCKING COP??? JEEEESSSSUUUSSS

Jfc joe is so fucking hot

“said he saw it online” uhm…carisi are you DEAF?! The older kids on the (rugby?) team told/showed him that girls liked it.

JEEEESUS. BAD COP JOE AND BAD COP KATE IN ONE INTERROGATION?!!! My bisexual ass CANNOT

THE DAD fucking showed him the fucking porn?!?! JESUS. Uggghhh

Why did NO one react to the “he tried to bribe me” comment. Isn’t that a fucking federal offence??

“I didn’t hear that” classic ada line. Bless you carisi.

“yeah that sucks” LOL

They cast these cousins super well cause I legit thought they were the same kid for a second

FUCK joe’s so hot

“he’s got daughter’s, any half decent father would feel the same” not carisi getting the stabler treatment in 2024

I understand the boys being held responsible, but what about the cab driver that hit her?? like a good defence lawyer of the boys could deflect it to him…

I have yelled too many times tonight… but joe in that tight white tee? PLEASE

Im sorry, no matter how much of a lawyer sonny is, he is NOT a whiskey or scotch drinker. Especially not straight up. Like, it’d be mixed with something.  (the proof is canon. We saw liv take a sip but not him)

Anyways, okay so tonight’s eps were good!!

Anyone know when OC’s supposed to start? Cause I miss those babies…

as usual, feel free to hit up the dm's/ask box to discuss tonights eps (or any other ones! <3)

[milaswriting]

mila, hello! ❤️

first of all, congrats again for your gradutation! it is such a big milestone in someone’s life and i hope you will have an amazing day (if it’s passed already, then i hope you had a wonderful time ❤️).

i finally found some time to read the new update and what can i say? it was like receiving a punch to the gut (in a positive way). since it’s been a while since the last time i read the story, i started from the beginning and i have to say that i was really surprised to see that you added new things (or i am just that oblivious when reading, lol). you know that B is the loml (and always will be) but, recently, P is starting to make their way through my heart, so that’s who i started playing the new update with. [little spoiler ahead] they cried. that sweet, little angel cried. i’m honestly still unwell, mila. then i read B’s route and i was literally the embodiment of that meme with the elderly man clutching their chest in pain. i know i already told you this, but your writing is so powerful that not only it made me fully immerse in the story but, when reading the ro’s pov plus the whole talking to zillah, i was on the verge of my sit (btw, i saw that lots of people chose option #3 and that’s what i did too, so i’m feeling less lonely/bad about it, lol — it was really difficult to go through with it, let me tell you). i still need to play K’s & A’s, but i know for a fact that they’re routes will be just as beautiful and gut-wrenching as the other two (love me some drama). also, can i just say that i seriously loved both lili & rhys? getting other perspectives on the supernatural world/gathering some info was really interesting (also, special mention to that speakeasy guard saying: “yeah, duh, they have the golden mark” and i was like: “dude, seriously?! lol).

you know what the cruelest thing was, though?

MENTIONING STELLA & CIRO SO CASUALLY AND NO CHANCE OF MEETING THEM AT ALL.

that was really mean, shame on you, mila (i’m joking ofc, or am i? 👀)

anyway, i think it’s better for what’s left of my reputation if i’ll just stop with this nonsensical ask, lol. congrats on the update (and, again, your graduation!) and, as always, thank you for sharing this beautiful story with all of us ❤️

i hope you’re gonna have a lovely day/night 🥰

Hii, Gia! <33 Thank you so much! Graduation is a week from now so fingers crossed it’s a fun day.

And thanks so much for reading the new update, I really appreciate it and I’m glad you had fun. The fact that you’ve played through half the routes already is fabulous <33 someone else mentioned that I didn’t introduce the mc to Stella and Ciro so obviously that needs to happen sometime soon.

I love reading nice, lengthy asks, they really warm my heart. Thank again so much for your support, it makes writing so worthwhile <33

[the-bi-space-ace]

Quick update!

First! I’m gonna start tagging posts with spoilers here on out with tbb spoilers and tbb s3 spoilers and tbb season 3. Covers all the bases, ya know?

I didn’t avoid spoilers at all for season 2 until the finale but this time I want to go into each episode with zero indication about the content. It’ll make the episodes more fun for me to watch and I want to soak up as much fun as possible.

I’m also going to speed run S1 & S2 and I have some ideas on a few posts about themes etc that I’d like to talk about! (Probably heavily focusing on Echo & Crosshair bc of course I would.) I might even throw in some hopes for S3 because ohhhhh boy am I excited.

I’m also going to really buckle down and get The World Tumbles Down ready so I can start posting it the first week of March. I’m already done with the first four chapters, which I know doesn’t seem like a lot but it’s over 30k words already and there’s still a lot left to write! It’s super plot heavy and I’m really proud of my progress so far so I hope the wait is worth it 🩵

I have quite a few fics planned for 2024 and I’m going to spend as much of this next month as I can writing which means I probably won’t post fic in February even though I was planning to - that could change but as of rn this is the plan. A lot got put on the back burner bc I started a new job in January and with the stress of moving to a new city in October plus having to find a new job I was dead tired and really low mood-wise. The sun is staying up later in the day which has helped my mood improve (thankfully). All of that was really just to say that you can expect some new stuff from me soon lol.

I’m excited for this season and I was very positively impressed with S2! Expect some chaotic ramblings from me in the next few weeks 😅

[tsukishumai]

life update!

hello! it’s maya here, checking in. i am aware i am a piece of shit for disappearing, i truly am so sorry for that hahah but the last year / year and half have been very busy!

to catch you guys up, i got ENGAGED ଘ(੭*ˊᵕˋ)੭* ̀ˋ ur gurl is a feyonce, so now I have to plan a wedding and the thought alone is giving me anxiety. my fiance and i have been talking about eloping, and tbh that sounds extremely appealing to me right now. my fiance and i have been long distance for the past two years, but crossing fingers that things will settle soon, and we’ll be moving into a house together hopefully before the year ends lol. 

my brother got married and had a child as well, so i’ve been the best sister ever of course and helping him and his wife plan everthing haha

quite a few of my friends have also either gotten engaged, married, moved into a new place, or got pregnant (note: i AM at the age where all this stuff is actually great and not something to panic about lmao) so it’s been really fun celebrating all these things with the people that matter to me the most.

i also got another dog, her name is gigi, and she’s the most precious thing to ever come into my life.

and most importantly, i FINISHED chapter 14 of love galore!!!! for the one or two people that still care, i swear it’s for you hahaha i really didn’t want to show my face here until it was done, and also no matter happens in my life, i WILL FINISH LOVE GALORE DAMN IT.

(i promised my two best friends i’ll show them this account once love galore is finished, so maybe i will prolong it a little longer lol)

anyway, i love you guys, for the people that have been checking on me despite my disappearnce, thank you so much, it really means a lot to me! I’m really sorry for falling of the face of the earth, but i’ll try to be a bit more active! at least until i finish LG (: 

thanks for reading !!!!! lmao 

[scaredpigeons]

just so you know- every night i check back for a update for sunshine, crystallize! im very excited to see where you go with it, i think it is honestly very unique in its concept and im so so so fucking happy you decided to make it a multi-chapter bc lemme tell you i will EAT IT UP!!!

im just gonna spit-ball some of my thoughts bc lemme tell you i am THINKING about this fic so hard

i wonder how reader will react when finding out zhongli /is/ rex lapis... or if any inherent adeptis will make an appearance at all. the stuff with the vision too? UGH im very excited to see that play out

i also wonder, with the reader being on the more anxious/awkward side... if we'll ever see more of her insecurities and how zhongli helps (?) with it? just a random thought, yknow

ANYWAYS. that's all for now. i may have more thoughts later, who knows. you're absolutely amazing author and i hope you're enjoying life. your work always amazes me. have a wonderful day <3

I am literally sobbing right now

Okay okay— let me breathe for a second.

I am definitely working some other characters in here, I’m about halfway through chapter two right now so it should be released relatively soon! We’ve got a scene on Mt. Aocang but reader just kind of blindly follows Zhongli and doesn’t exactly realize the significance of the place, or the reverence that others hold for the adepti.

She’s just kinda like “if zhongli says it’s fine to be here then I guess it’s fine to be here 🤷🏻‍♀️”

I haven’t exactly worked out how reader will find out about Zhongli… I’m very torn between letting her work it out on her own, (with the added turmoil of self doubt and thinking she’s just crazy for thinking such things) or having someone else kinda spell it out for her.

We are definitely going to see some healing when it comes to Zhongli spending more time with the reader.

I’m not a fan of perpetuating the stereotype that those with self worth issues and anxiety can only find their confidence through the affections of another— HOWEVER I would be lying if I said that it didn’t help.

With Zhongli, I think it’ll be more that his gentle encouragement and affections make reader realize that like… hey, she’s actually not that terrible of a person, and hey— interacting with people isn’t so hard anymore!

We already see some progress with her spending time with Madame Ping, not feeling as anxious walking through the Harbour while the morning rush is starting. It’s a slow process, but I hope to convey it through subtlety’s like that.

We are definitely going very in depth with the vision stuff, I’m having a blast incorporating the mechanics of the game into zhongli’s little geo vision 101 lecture. It’s very fun to try and translate game mechanics into logical “real world”(fic world hehe) applications.

I know that reader is going to focus on being a healer while also providing some defence. (Think Noelle’s shield, but it’s gonna be hella interesting and way cooler lol)

Anyways— enough of my rambling!!! I want to thank you so much for taking the time to send such a lovely ask, you literally made my entire day.

I cannot explain to you all how much messages like this mean to me. I’m so grateful. My heart is so full now.

[amazonworrier]

i read all of over troubled water yesterday (despite being in the middle of exam season lol) and i loved it so sooo much!!! i love when santana gets to have friends in fics and when they love her as much as she deserves. i also just love your characterisation in all your fics, 10/10 xx

since i feel like you really Get the characters i wanted to ask what your hc is around rachel and santana being friends despite brittany not really liking rachel in canon. what do you think that dynamic is? it makes me laugh when i think about it

and maybe also any other hcs around santana friendships :’)

Awww thank you. Giving Santana and the rest of the glee folk quality friendships is one of my favourite parts of writing fics so I’m glad you enjoyed it :)

I think it was in God Only Knows where I wrote an exchange between Brittany and Rachel where Britt rationalised her tolerance of Rachel by saying Santana didn’t like Lord Tubbington but looked out for him because she knew he was important to Brittany. Then Rachel was like ‘um are you comparing me to your cat?’ And yeah, that honestly sums the two of them up for me. It’s like everyone is so focused on the fact that Santana and Rachel are yelling at each other they don’t notice a) the fact that they’re holding hands while doing so and b) Brittany is quietly and contentedly setting all of Rachel’s stuff on fire somewhere in the bg. And if I had any artistic talent whatsoever I totally would’ve drawn that scenario and posted it in response to your ask instead of blabbing on and on like an idiot, but oh well.

As for other friendship headcanons, I could go on all day and probably have a few in my Santana tag already. But just for fun, and because he so rarely pops up in my fics, a fave little wildcard of mine is that Miketana actually text the most often out of any other friendship pairing. But it’s hardly ever about anything important. Mostly they just exchange super dark memes, or random videos but then sandwiched between those are random sprinkles of life updates like “I broke up with Brittany” or “Rachel and Kurt kicked me out.” So they basically always have the headline info about each others lives but rarely unpack it enough together to know the finer details because soon enough Mike will be like “anywayyys here’s this cool ramen recipe I found.” Or Santana will send a video of guy break dancing or doing something crazy with his body like ‘anywayssss is this you?’ then Mike will reply within a few hours with a video of himself doing it perfectly like ‘no but this is’ and Santana is like ‘👍.’ Then she immediately sends another message about how she’s going as an absent father to Rachel’s Halloween party because she’s 100% certain Mike will understand that means she’s not going at all and respond with “Me too 😂😂😂.” If anyone asks, they hardly know each other. But no one ever asks, so…

[onlyjaeyun]

zadie love!!!! 💗💫 i know u said to not apologize for sending in late asks but i can’t help it im sorry🥲 i’ve been so busy on my girls trip this past weekend, and i got home super late last night so i’ve been exhausted trying to fix my sleep schedule yet again while also unpacking from my recent trips BUT while i was in new york i still made sure i got to read ur updates before bed!! i thought it would be better to send in a longer ask once i got home and had more time to type it out🫶🏻🫶🏻

ONTO THE RECENT CHAPS: i looooveeedd taro & yn’s convo like they really are just two besties with absolutely no filter and i enjoyed that chap sm😭 also taro basically calling out yn saying she can’t finish bc sunghoon isn’t the one fucking her is so real like our girl needs to accept and realize it soon😓 AND HOON BEING SO OPEN ABOUT WANTING TO FUCK HER AGAIN WAS NOTTT ON MY 2024 BINGO CARD BC I WOULD THINK HE HAS TOO MUCH PRIDE TO OPENLY ADMIT SOMETHING LIKE THAT. then again he’s still a dick for saying that he wants to fuck her but still doesn’t care about her…you’re writing CH!sunghoon so well like he genuinely makes my blood boil at times. i’m glad yn is getting laid tho but she needs to be fucked good soon and i’m sensing a smut chap w/ hoon in the near future??👀👀

i saw the recent asks some anon sent in saying CH is getting boring and i truly want to know where their thought process is at bc it’s literally getting better with each chapter!!!! some people are so rude, like i get constructive criticism, but that just wasn’t it. the way you’re writing this smau is everything and more zadie, don’t let those weirdos get to you!!!! i know it’s easier said than done but remember there’s more people who love your works (me being one of them), than people who are just bored and have nothing else better to do with their days. IM AN ONLYJAEYUN DEFENDER TILL THE END‼️‼️ you’re doing amazing baby, keep your head up💓💓

wanted to share w/ you a little bit about my girls trip to nyc too!! it was my friend’s 23rd birthday so our whole friend group surprised her w/ a weekend trip to new york as a bday present!! OMG a funny story that happened on our first night there, we all went to this club to celebrate and these group of guys kept being so pushy and gross towards me and my friends. one of them insisted on buying me a drink but he just made me so uncomfy that i didn’t want to even be near him. i tried to decline nicely but he was so persistent. what was funny was that he saw my lockscreen and it was a pic of jongseong in the gym and he immediately backed off bc he thought it was my bf so thank you jay bc he was able to get me out of that situation😭😭

i got carried away with writing this ask so i hope you enjoy this novel i wrote you LOL🤭🤞🏻💞 i hope you’re doing well my baby!! i missed chatting w/ you🥹🫶🏻 ilysm 🤍🧸🎀 !!

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MY ANGEL BABY IS BACK YALL WAKE UP!!!!🤭🤭🤭💗

bless your sweet soul, the fact you made time to read CH during your busy ass girls' trip means so much to me baby, i love and appreciate you with my whole heart 🥺💗

STOP YOULL ACTUALLY MAKE ME CRY NOT THE DEFENDER PART 🥺🥺🥺 thank you so much baby, ngl the comment did hurt a little but i know most of you guys are loving it as much as i do and with amazing feedback from amazing people like you snd many more i would never let those get to me to that certain point again 🥺 i love you sm

OMG NOT THE JONGIE BOYFIE PIC SAVING YOU!!!!! he really is THAT boyfriend im afraid 🤭 im sorry you had to deal with m*n like that baby and am glad you're ssfe and having fun, you deserve it so much!🥺

sending you the biggest kiss and i really hope you can get a little rest soon bc nestie you've been booked and busy but we love to see it!!!!!💗

[whoslai]

Helloooo I’m back!! I finally had time to read the new chapters of “Off the Menu” and lets j say I am v frustrated 🙂 can’t help but feel the same uneasiness that yn has expressed about heeseung like he j gives off a weird vibe and it’s uncomfy T T not talking abt ur wiring Becuz ur wiring his absolutely AMAZING that ur able to make me feel this way. Heeseung was def with someone when yn drove over cuz usually ppl would be touched but he was so oddly mad 😭😭

Yn has been nothing but understanding and yet he still says she’s asking for too much T T like is wanting to feel loved by someone u love too much 💀💀and again I do not believe heeseung has absolutely no time throughout the day, i work at a restaurant too and I have time to be on my phone and the whole bullshit abt him not texting a lot until he’s home is stupid too like if u rly cared abt yn u would text her. Like when u truly care abt someone ur willing to change and its not like she’s asking for too much T T

And our girl yn sigh, Idek what to say. I can’t even blame her cuz this is her first time and it seems she likes him more than he likes her and when u like someone that much plus the level of manipulation heeseung is doing she can’t help but be caught in this cycle. Heeseung’s truly been driving her in circles like always promising more always promising that he wants to take it further but instead it j gets worse and worse :(( I am so so mad and frustrated lol everytime heeseung is mentioned I wanna cry 🥲

The fact that he works with lots of girls isn’t even the problem like sire u might not be able to change that the problem is that he lacks the ability to give yn security and make her trust him

Honestly I was hoping she’d get with Jake and make heeseung realize that he doesn’t want her with anyone else but yn was loyal and I respect her for that j didn’t know if heeseung deserved it being the way he is 👀

Now I’m not been confident that heeseung removed Hana cuz it’s so easy to refollow and unblock like I’m so scared for yn 😭😭not ready for her to be hurt ✋🏻

I have so much to say but idk how to get it down in words💀this just how good ur writing is 😭😭if heeseung doesn’t start having his character development soon yn should break it off like girl doesn’t deserve to be treated like this 💔💔

Anyways love u girl can’t wait for the update 😚

(Intensely looking at cute heeseung rn so I stay sane😭)

OH MY GODDDDD this message literally just made my ENTIRE year 😣😣❤️❤️ thank you so so so so much for your kind words, omg, you mean the world to me. tears are falling from my eyes rn 😓😓😓

i love your interpretation of everything, you have an amazing mind. hopefully some good things happen between the both of them or else they’re both doomed 💔

i had so much fun reading this, you don’t even understandddd. got me giggling and kicking my feet reading this 😭😭 if you want, you can totally message me the rest of your thoughts, i would absolutely love to hear about it. you’ve got my mind goin.

love you smmmm and thank you for reading, you just gave me so much motivation 🙁❤️

[noirineverysense]

Ok about the fanfic I was writing? Yeah I gave up on it like I expected. I wanted to show you what I had but I don’t think I’m going to bc it’s REALLY bad, I mean, I wrote it for fun, but the logistics make no sense and the characterization is WAY off for everyone and every scene is so awkward it makes me uncomfortable to read, usually I like my own writing! I look back at old ideas and wish I had written more, but whatever happened in this fic it’s literally worse than my sixth grade creative writing project and that’s not a hyperbole 🥲.

There’s like, one chapter I like and that’s the super angsty one that’s possibly angstier than the original story despite being a lighthearted AU. Like it was a ballerina au where all the angst was gonna be reduced and they were gonna get up on stage and perform as the climax, but then I didn’t outline and there was gun violence and human trafficking and woah that’s not what I meant to do-

yeah I wrote it for fun but I’m cringing a lil too hard to even pm it to u. I might try again much later from now but I’m gonna have to start from scratch bc this is NOT it. I’m glad I made it but yeah- my peabrain got confused as soon as I was no longer writing original fiction

is this ok to put in ur ask box? It’s not a question so it’s not really what the ask box is for is there a better way I should do this? Sry I’m still pretty new to tumblr

Yeah its fine here and dw about it! If you had fun thats all that matters. It means a lot that you put so much energy into my characters so thanks for that. Im pretty curious as to what you wrote but you have absolutely no obligation to share! Im a big fan of angst and drama and sometimes stories take turns that you werent expecting and thats for sure what happened with the ACP so sounds like what you wrote was pretty in line with the story lol. In any case im glad you had fun and im sure its great and thanks for the update!

[kquil]

Hi pookie!! I just saw your post about being sick, I hope you've recovered and feel rejuvenated! ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡

my schedule has gotten a bit tighter now that l've started my classes (I started a bit late). And it's my first year so everything is just so new and I'm relearning how to do everything.  

My two moods at the moment for having to readjust again (I took a gap year): "( – ⌓ – ) ദ്ദി ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ )

however it's been great studying smth I really wanted to!! so l'm excited about that ৻(  •̀ ᗜ •́  ৻)

due to my new schedule I didn't get to binge read your work BUT, I was able to read “The Pretty Nurse” timestamp. IT WAS SO CUTE I WAS BLUSHING AND GIGGLING AND KICKING MY FEET THE WHOLE TIME READING IT! James’ reaction had me squealing! Absolutely adore a smitten man  ૮꒰⸝⸝>  ̫ <⸝⸝꒱ა

I also came across your marvel account and couldn’t resist reading the first chapter of “Group Effort”. And as expected I didn’t regret it one bit. I absolutely loved it!!! I’m not sure if you plan to update it but the plot was fantastic! ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧

I also just read the preview of DOB ( I’m on a break atm) and I just wanted to say THANK U SO MUCH FOR TAKING MY SUGGESTION INTO CONSIDERATION!!! I didn’t expect you to actually do it (≧∇≦)

I’m so excited for the next week that I’ve dragged one of my close friends into reading DOB with me. 𓁹‿𓁹 (heh heh)

I’m going to try to read more of your work in my free time soon  ପ(๑•ᴗ•๑)ଓ ♡

Till then, take care of yourself pookie!!! 

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/    づ♡ 

 (Me giving you a heart)

-🌸

omg! hello darling! thank you thank you! sleeping that entire day away was the perfect remedy haha! i feel very much rejuvenated by it ( ˶ˆᗜˆ˵ )♡  

you're doing amazing! it may feel like hell at first but i just know you'll push through! uni is hard so be kind to yourself as much as possible, your health and wellbeing is so so so important -- i need you stay healthy and well, okay? if you need someone to talk to or any advice at all, i'll be here! I'm just glad you're studying something you enjoy, that's always the best <3

and awww~ don't worry, i understand what it's like. don't feel pressured to read any of my stuff, darling. i'd rather you read at your own time, that way you can enjoy it to the fullest and that's all i want for my beautiful readers. though I'm so happy you enjoyed 'the pretty nurse', james is such a sweetheart, he knows how to make every girl feel loved and special, that's why i love him soooo much hehe~  (。>\\<)♡

haha! i can't believe you stumbled on my mcu account already! i tried to be sneaky about that since it's still pretty new and i'm also very new to writing for mcu characters so i wanted to grow it a bit more before making any sort of announcement lol but i'm happy you're enjoying the 'Group Effort' series! it's gonna be largely platonic with a lot of domestic fluff kinda like DOB hehe~ of course, i plan on updating it soon for you ( ˶˘ ³˘(⋆❛ ہ ❛⋆)!♡

your idea was great, of course, i had to follow through on it hehe~ i feel silly for not having thought of it sooner, but now it just makes sense to do seeing as my updates are an entire month apart -- thank you again for the suggestion, my love, you're a doll ♡(˃͈ દ ˂͈ ༶ ) and thank you for sharing my work! haha! i hope your friend enjoys the series too!

have a fun time reading and, again, don't feel pressured to read if you can't, especially with uni, i understand how stressful it can get. i write mainly for myself and it's an honour to share with you darlings so knowing you even take the time to read my work means so much to me!

(づ๑•ᴗ•๑)づ♡ and this is me giving you my heart too! take care and stay safe, lovie! have a wonderful day!

[keggerk]

Does this app get used by anyone anymore?

If it doesn’t, cool, free place to put my thoughts.

If it does, I hope whoever’s reading is doing well.

It’s been a long time since I felt like writing anything here so here’s a little life update.

My roommate moved out about 6 months ago. I miss having him here sometimes, but I’m so happy for him and his girlfriend. I love that man like my own brother and it’s so amazing to see them doing life together.

My job has been nuts. I’ve finally reached a level in my career where I have sway, I can make a difference in my company, in others lives. I genuinely enjoy the work I’ve been doing and I’m so excited when I hear that the work we do has helped someone improve their business. A client sent me a watch as a thank you. I cried.

I’m finally getting out there and seeing the world. Granted, I’ve been limited to this country, but Portugal is coming up soon. It’s hard to believe 3 years ago I’d never been on a plane. I flew over 30,000 miles last year. Sure it was mostly for work, but it’s exciting nonetheless.

The downside with a lot of work travel: dating has been tough. There’s been a few times I genuinely thought things were going somewhere, but the timing just hasn’t been right. At the end of the day: the right thing at the wrong time is the wrong thing.

Outside of work, I’ve loved being an uncle. My niece is adorable and too smart to believe for a 4 year old. Spoiling her with gifts for Christmas and her birthday has been fun, and that smile when she says “Uncle Joey!” Takes all the stress away. I’m so glad my relationship with my sister has improved over the years. My family in general. I’ve never been closer with Tiffany, and I’m glad we’ve gotten to this point.

Same goes with Suzie, albeit to a much lesser extent. I don’t see her enough, but I think that’s mostly because she lives in the city and she’s engaged. That’s okay though. She’s actually happy and I’m so glad. Her fiance is dope and I actually like this dude a lot.

Dads good. He’s working from home, thank god. His new condo can be a pain at times, but I think he genuinely loves having a place he can truly call his own finally. When grandpa died, I was really worried. When Jeff died, I really didn’t know what was going to happen. Knowing he has a safe, comfortable, accessible place brings such peace of mind. He’s losing weight too, which is phenomenal. His aches and pains were getting to be a problem, and the fact he’s finally addressing it and taking care of himself is massive.

I’ve been reading a ton. I’ve already read 3 books this year, looking to read 30 by the end of 2024. It’s been a nice way to unwind after work. My healths been improved over the past year. I’ve been able to stop seeing the cardiologist every 3 months finally.

I play in a darts league every week on a team with my sister, brother in law, and some family friends. It’s been a nice hobby. Between that and baseball card collecting, I’ve been able to keep my hobbies safe and relatively cost-aware lol.

My friends are all in a bit of a transition period. It’s strange. If someone had told me I’d be in the most stable position of most of my friends a few years ago I wouldn’t have believed it. I’m happy to be here for support for all of them. I’m excited to see what these next chapters will be.

All in all though, I’m happy. I find myself smiling in moments to myself sometimes. It’s a nice change of pace.

“Now I am quietly waiting for the catastrophe of my personality to seem beautiful again, and interesting, and modern… It may be the coldest day of the year, what does he think of that? I mean, what do I? And if I do, perhaps I am myself again.” - Frank O’Hara