#i’m going to cry

[leoreadss]

Omg omg omg.

They liked it 😱

Someone tagged Michael Sheen and I swear if he ends up liking the post or saying something I’m going to dye 🫣🫣🫣

Fuck! I’m so proud of myself!

[mattluvr]

dad!matt, a concept.

best read in dark mode ⏾

🧸 part ii — the labour. . .

ᡣ𐭩 october 22nd. 6am. exactly one day late, and yours and matt’s daughter is on the way.

you’re nervous, naturally, the mere sight of the soaked bedsheets from where your waters broke moments ago making your chest feel tight; it hadn’t really sunk in that you’d actually have to give birth eventually, the pain slowly creeping its way through your body planting reality in place. even more so when the first contraction grips you.

you move towards matt, seeking comfort in his hold as the pain ripples through you. “fuck, i didn’t think it would hurt this bad.” you mutter through gritted teeth, nails clamping onto matt’s shoulders.

he sighs, rubbing the small of your back in soft circles as his eyebrows draw together. he’s concerned, obviously, but the contraction passes quickly, and he seizes the opportunity to grab your hospital bag and pack you up into the car.

after you did your hair and makeup of course.

ᡣ𐭩 the journey to the hospital is more dangerous than the one from your labour scare a month ago; matt drives faster with only one hand on the wheel, the other clutched in yours as you use it to ground you through each contraction.

they’re more often and closer together, which you know from the endless pregnancy books you read is a telltale sign of your cervix dilating, and you silently start to pray this also means that the rest of pregnancy goes smoothly, complication free.

although, judging by the death grip matt has on your hand, you’re not sure whether you can rule out the prospect of your boyfriend fainting from pure stress.

he pulls into the hospital’s parking lot in a record time of 10 minutes, at least five speeding tickets with his name written all over them, but does not stop to give either of you time to breathe, a whirlwind as he rushes round to your side, hospital bag from the trunk already resting in the crook of his arm.

you laugh, accepting matt’s outstretched hand as you amble towards the entrance to the hospital. “i’ve never seen you move you fast.”

ᡣ𐭩 you and matt check in at reception, with only one contraction marring your words, and the midwives are quick to find you a room and gown.

you change in the bathroom, trying your very best to ignore how the contractions make you double over each time, the green pattern on the hospital gown making your eyes hurt alongside the baby. you settle down in the bed and your midwife introduces herself to you and matt as she hooks you up to a monitor, the name betty suiting her grey curls and soft smile perfectly.

although you like betty less when she tells you that you’re only 3cm dilated. out of 10. matt swears your expression could curdle milk in that moment and he chuckles, pressing a soft kiss to the top of your head.

“you’ve got to remember that each birth is different, so this could take a long time or a short time.” betty reassures you as she props the pillows up behind you. “you can help the labour pass by moving around. we can bring in a yoga ball if you’d like?”

matt answers for you anyways. “absolutely.”

ᡣ𐭩 betty comes in throughout the day to check in on you; she brings you the yoga ball at 8am when you finally dilate one centimetre, helping you lower down onto the contraption, with matt by your side the second a sliver of pain crosses your face.

he rubs those soft circles into your back, and you rest your head on his torso when you bounce up and down. which obviously makes matt laugh, a mindless comment about how this is a familiar sight passing his lips, causing you to glare in turn, claiming that he’s making your contractions worse. that shuts him up.

ᡣ𐭩 at 10am, you’re 6cm dilated, the yoga ball long abandoned in the corner of the room; you now find yourself on all fours on the hospital bed, rocking back and forth slowly. in your head it’s helping with the pain, but the real soother is matt’s constant presence next to you, the simple sound of his breathes calming you.

he’s already made the respective phone calls to his parents and brothers, nick audibly crying from joy over the phone whilst chris whooped and cheered.

“I’M GOING TO HAVE A NIECE BY THE END OF THE DAY!”

“would you calm the fuck down?” matt had hissed. “we’re in a hospital right now.”

“i wish they could see my death glare.” you had piped up, easing your rocking to look over at matt. he offers you an apologetic glance, hushing a see you later to the boys on the phone before hanging up.

you don’t even let matt apologise, babbling out words before your next contraction hits you. “can you call my mom?”

he doesn’t even hesitate. and that’s why you love him.

ᡣ𐭩 the next hour flies by, a centimetre passing every 20 minutes, marking you at 9cm dilated by 11am and crying from how badly it hurts.

the midwives have moved you back to a flat position, your legs now in stirrups to give them easier access for checkups. matt is crouched down by your side, pushing your hair out of your face as you blubber in agony.

“i don’t think i can do this, matt.”

“are you kidding me?” matt squeezes your hand, his expression soft as he moves forward to peck your forehead. “you are the strongest, prettiest, most powerful girl i know. i love you and this baby, and i know you can do this.”

the tears from that point onwards are mixed with joy, comforted by matt’s presence beside you.

ᡣ𐭩 at 11:30am, you’re ready to have your baby girl. biologically, maybe not mentally, your chest tightening as betty tells you with a soft smile that you’re now ready to start the process of pushing. but on the other hand, you’ve gone through at least 20 years worth of pain in the space of 5 hours and want nothing more than to get this baby out of you. so you reluctantly agree.

with matt’s hand clutched in yours, you lean forwards into each push, ungodly screams leaving your mouth in an attempt to cancel out the pain gripping you.

“good work, keep going!” betty spurs you on, her scrubs confined by an apron as she waits in anticipation. “the head’s almost there, a few more pushes!”

you exhale, turning to matt who gives you an encouraging nod despite his pale complexion, the boy about three minutes away from fainting. which almost pushes you on, now desperate to get your daughter out into the world before her dad passes out. you sit up on your elbows once more, vision blurred as you start the final stretch.

the head is out before you know it, and with one more weak push, the rest of your daughter is out into the world, sobs spilling out of your mouth as betty brings her up to nestle by you.

her lungs are full, both your cries mixed together in the thick atmosphere of the hospital room, matt’s own tears hidden as he leans over to observe his baby, shaky fingers reaching out to caress her skin.

he moves back to press another kiss to your forehead. “i told you you could do it.”

ᡣ𐭩 october 22nd, at 11:33am, your daughter arrives into the world, and you and matt’s lives are about to be changed in the best ways possible.

taglist. . .

( @aelinslegend, @mattslolita, @emely9274, @conspiracy-ash, @chrissturniolossidehoe, @mattbrainrot ) is open!

[fuckassphannie]

If only he knew…

[zenderstorm]

how it feels to be the mining couple ever

[justkillingthyme]

[racewinnerlandonorris]

GUYS NO 🥹🥹🥹 LOOK AT LANDOS GRANDPA LOOKING DOWN AT THEM ALL TAKING THE TEAM PHOTO

[keelifallen]

[fruitbythefoot7]

mike wheeler likes boys!!!!

[amid-fandoms]

the scariest thing that could have happened is happening. they’re hard launching (completely agreeing with couple coded memes and questions and being obvious about having a bondage bar) without acknowledging it at all

[sundaynightlive]

if I could draw it would just be Pacifica Northwest in every outfit Sabrina Carpenter has ever worn

[dolly-is-cool]

okay. the thing about tpp is i don’t WANT a ‘bittersweet’ or a ‘hopeful’ or a ‘realistic’ ending. i want juno steel to be damseled, nureyev (and rita, hopeful arinko crime family) to rescue him, i want audio-only kisses and an the-owl-house/alice-isnt-dead style time skip where they are happy and safe and together. i want an apology WITH TEARS for what this podcast has PUT ME THROUGH. is that rlly to much to ask Kevin Vibert and Harley Takagi Kaner??? IS IT??

[sagecielle]

I deleted my social everything but since I’m back - my favourite piece!!

[hdusa]

Had a dream I was Zoro trying to talk to Sanji and also trying to slice a car in half fuck I wish I had a sword in my mouth 😭😭😭😭😭😭

[the-apology-dance]

THE MOST PAINFUL PARALLEL

Ghostfuckers / Just Look My Way

JUST PUNCH ME.

[kittyt-hexxed]

I, too, will be like Vi when Season Two comes around.

Because my heart is absolutely breaking for her. It has been since season one. I’ve been studying her character, because I fell in love with her. It only further as I was plotting things out for my Hexxed series. I know this upcoming season isn’t going to be kind to her. I know it’s going to utterly destroy her inside.

She’s lost everything. And no, she doesn’t have Caitlyn. I refuse to accept that she has Caitlyn to support her. Caitlyn has her own agenda and doesn’t understand what Vi has going on in her heart. In her mind. They’re going to clash so hard what tentative relationship they build shatters. That’s how we end up with Pit Fighter Vi. She’s searching for something. Anything to give her meaning. And the only thing she knows is fighting.

And then she runs into this mural? I can’t begin to imagine the heartache. The grief. The… longing. Her adoptive father and little sister are side by side. They’re the symbols of the Undercity. Of Zaun. Of it’s Freedom. It’s guiding light. And where’s Vi?

“I should be there.” Is what she’s thinking. “I should be on that wall.” But she’s not. She’s nothing to the city. Nothing to her family. Nothing to anyone.

I don’t even want to begin to think about this. So I’m going to pack it away in a box for later <3

But the fact that this is the final season? And it’s Vi’s season? We get to delve into her trauma, her struggles. I’m going to bawl my eyes out. This character means more to me than I could admit. We’re going to watch a strong, caring, loving character shatter. And have to climb out of it. This show has had me in a chokehold since it came out. And we’re finally getting this.

The fight they teased in the opening of season one.

I’m not ready. But I’m ready.

[kruemel8]

They are trying to kill me, aren’t they?!