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this fuckass goatee got me feelin things i ain't never felt before

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dad!matt, a concept.

best read in dark mode ⏾

🧸 part i — the pregnancy. . .

ᡣ𐭩 when you and your boyfriend of two years find out you’re pregnant, you’re both scared, naturally; young and only freshly moved into your first apartment together, this big step in life is not one you’re prepared to take.

but, when matt cradles your stomach from the second he saw that lethal second line on the pregnancy test, soft eyebrows and tears pricking his waterline, you start to consider the possibility of raising a kid with him. maybe he’ll be a good father, nurturing your child with his whole heart. it’s only something you can picture, but at the image, something within you lights up with sunshine. so you decide to keep the baby.

you want this with matt; in fact, as you share happy tears with the boy pressing you into his chest in a hug, you realise that you don’t think you’d want to do it with anybody else.

ᡣ𐭩 you announce it to your family first, more accepting than you thought about the situation, and your mom, despite her strict parenting style growing up and her imprinted frown lines across her forehead, even pulls you aside to tell you that you have her full support and availability if anything was to go wrong. which makes you cry. obviously; you’re fucking pregnant.

matt’s family are also just as accepting, but that’s no surprise; his parents have always loved you, certain that you’re made for each other, and his triplet brothers are simply pumped to be uncles. especially nick, who, ever the sensitive person, bursts into tears at the announcement.

chris elbows him in the side. “you big crybaby. this is meant to be something to celebrate.”

“i am happy. just have dust in my eye, that’s all.” nick shoots back, and you giggle. you can’t wait for the fun uncle this pregnancy is going to bring out in both brothers.

ᡣ𐭩 the first few weeks are rocky, the toilet bowl your best friend as morning sickness lines your stomach. but, with matt’s constant presence by your side, a reassuring hand pressed into the small of your back, it feels manageable. his lips, softer than you ever remember are forever attached to yours, whispering praise into your mouth. you swear the love for your boyfriend has doubled since you fell pregnant with his baby.

then, suddenly, it’s your first scan, and the sonogram has made you cry for the umpteenth time in the past week. the picture is a simple white blob against a black background, but it’s still the prettiest you’ve ever seen. you want to hang it up on every wall in your apartment, tattoo it on your heart. it suddenly feels overwhelmingly real, but still manageable. after all, matt is clasping your hand by your side, silently sobbing.

“it’s tiny.” he whispers, pointing to what is the assumed baby’s head.

you smile, squeezing his hand as you meet his watery gaze. “it’s ours.”

and the love triples.

ᡣ𐭩 you find out the gender at the next scan, and decide to surprise matt with one of those cake reveals you’ve been seeing all over your tiktok. it’s just you and him in the house, an all white, three tiered cake sat between you on the kitchen counter. matt’s nervous, his hands shaking as he moves to cut a slice out, but you’re over the moon. you can already anticipate his excitement over the pink inside.

although it is orange when matt pulls the slice out, and you both look at one another, bursting out laughing. “it’s meant to be pink.” you say with a smile, and matt nods, pulling you into his side.

“yeah i gathered.” then it sinks in for the boy, his eyes widening. “holy shit. we’re having a baby girl.”

you laugh and then cry. it’s all you seem to be able to do recently. “we’re having a fucking girl.”

and as you sob even harder, matt kisses your temple in a soothing manner, smiling. “you’re gonna be the best mom ever, baby.”

ᡣ𐭩 the morning sickness wears off after your first trimester, but brings with it bouts of tiredness and a showing bump. the latter you don’t mind in the slightest, even convincing matt to do a soft launch of the pregnancy on your instagram story. the feedback on the mirror selfie, matt positioned behind you, arms gently caressing your bump, is insane, and suddenly you find yourself in one of the car videos he films for his youtube, talking about the pregnancy to the camera on the dashboard.

“HOW BIG?!” nick is shouting, shocked when you tell him you have to be dilated the size of a ben and jerry’s ice cream tub lid before you can push your daughter out.

“10 centimetres, nick. i might die.”

“oh my god, don’t say that.” matt suddenly looks worried, reaching back to grab your hand. “i’ll have a panic attack.”

you roll your eyes and squeeze his hand, your special way of grounding him. “i’ll try and not die for you, babe.”

“‘preciate it.”

chris interrupts, brow furrowed. “but you’re gonna have painkillers whilst you do it, right? so it shouldn’t hurt that much…”

“actually, i want to try and do it without any medication. completely natural.”

all three boys look shocked. “WHAT?!”

ᡣ𐭩 your second trimester is uneventful, and your bump is growing bigger by the day. by the time you’re 30 weeks along, you’re sick and tired, wanting nothing more than the baby to just free itself. matt is working harder than ever, on his brand and with his brothers on his youtube channel, and there are days where you don’t see him until the late evening, when you’re so wiped out you can barely keep your eyes open for more than 20 seconds.

so, to make it up to you, matt comes home every night with a new piece of clothing for your daughter. the other night was one of your favourites, the eeyore fleece he’d found in the thrift so small and so adorable that you bolted wide awake and insisted on putting it in the nursery.

you’d already painted and built the furniture for the baby’s room, completed a few weeks back, so now it was simply the case of organising everything into closets and mounting pictures onto walls, including that first ultrasound.

ᡣ𐭩 at 35 weeks, you feel a pain like you’re never felt before, excruciating, and you’re sure your in labour. matt rushes to get the remnants of your hospital bag ready, panicking when you double over in the kitchen, hand against the counter to steady yourself.

the car ride there is scarier than the prospect of you having your baby earlier than planned, however, matt screeching round the corners and getting at least 3 tickets for speeding just to make sure that you get to the hospital in time.

for nothing, by the way. the labour is false, your baby just moving her head so that its downwards. which is a good thing, you know, but you’re not quite sure the pain was worth it. matt faces the consequences of two fines, and you’re back home within five hours, deciding to pack your hospital bag.

who knows when you might go into actual labour?

ᡣ𐭩 but, four weeks later, you’re still fucking pregnant. you’re due in exactly 7 days, and now you’re just restless, all your clothes too small and every sensation overwhelming. even matt burrowing his face into your neck when watching a movie, as he always does, sets you on edge, and you push him away, frowning.

“i’m too warm for cuddles, matt.”

“oh, sorry.” matt throws you an apologetic smile, and scoots closer. he rubs your belly, which always calms you down, moving his hands down to lift your bump up, bringing you instant relief.

“fuck, that feels really good. thank you.”

“anything for my girl.” matt mumbles, and presses a kiss to your neck. you suddenly don’t detest his closeness anymore.

ᡣ𐭩 one week later, on october 22nd, at exactly 6am in the morning, you feel a gush of liquid between your legs and sit bolt upright in bed. your waters have just broken; you’re having the fucking baby.

( author’s note. . . omfg i forgot to tag oops)

this is for my babygirls @mattslolita, @middlepartmatt and @chrissturniolossidehoe 😛🔥

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𝐍𝐨𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐚 𝐛𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐮𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐏𝐔𝐇-𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐄 𝐡𝐮𝐦𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐤? 𝐋𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐡𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐧𝐨 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐫𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐢 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧 𝐧𝐨𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐀𝐍𝐘𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐢𝐦💀 𝐋𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐢 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐄𝐗𝐓𝐑𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐋𝐘 𝐡𝐮𝐦𝐛𝐥𝐞𝐝.

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HIDE THE RAZORS FROM THIS MAN‼️🪒

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AT!! THE!! SAME!! TIME!!

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Hi, I am abd from Gaza. I hope you will donate for my family in the Gofundme account or publish the link in my account bio . Thank you for your support🙏https://gofund.me/38624345

link for anyone who can donate!!

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wooaaahh british :O thats cool

i hate it here get me to new york immediately

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okay so i have like a thing for serial killers🤗🤗 soo you should write something of matt as ghostface, i’ve barely seen any and its literally so him coded🙏🏼

i have noooo idea how i’d write ghostface!matt i don’t think im that good at placing the triplets in complete au’s 😭😭

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would like to hop on here and say that no nick has NOT been cancelled, he just needs to know that saying an ableist comment and thinking he can get away with it cus all the fans dickride the fuck out of them is a horrible attitude to take and that it is in fact okay to hold people accountable to their actions!!

i think the triplets especially need to learn that not everyone will agree with their opinions, and that hiding behind a fandom who are naive and immature is not a good look ❤️

anyways bye matt chew more gum you’re sexy

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i’ll rio his de janeiro

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for the matt x reader!gf headcannons, matt loves to act out the smutty parts of her romance books to help “visualize the story”🤭

oh for SUREEEEEE

i may have deleted these reader!headcanons after they flopped but when matt said (or chris said for him) his type is sweet book girl i literally grinned so wide… like that’s me if you even care idgaf if i don’t have a chance 😛

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yeah so i’d be deactivating ❤️

so scared for the day there’s a “reacting to tumblr fics” video

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this is in no way me yelling at you but as someone who’s really affected by the harmful thing nick said i feel the need to explain to people who don’t understand why people are upset. the term ‘stimming’ is something that is inherently a part of being neurodivergent. it’s very much associated with adhd and autism. it is a neurodivergent thing exclusively and for nick to insult that is him insulting neurodivergent people. him also choosing to say ‘stimming like a psychopath’ ads yet another layer of ablism because he’s using psychopath as an insult. which is also flat out ableist. it’s multiple layers of ableism and people writing it off as ‘they’re just siblings arguing’, no. it’s ableism, just because they’re siblings doesn’t mean it’s okay to insult neurodivergent people, especially so publicly in front of tens of thousands of people on stream. ‘he didn’t mean it that way’ it doesn’t matter how he meant it- it was ableist period. it was awful and ignorant and no ones trying to ‘cancel’ him or whatever. people have every right to be upset that he said something incredibly hateful and ableist, whether that was his intention or not doesn’t matter. again not yelling at you or anyone! just wanted to explain ❤️

thank u girlie

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this is literally me and ava if you even care

alr i'm out

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hit 900 followers???? hello???? thank u queens omfg i can’t believe my silly little oneshots have gotten me this far 🥹🥹🥹

anyhoo i’ve been planning a cowboy!matt full length fic lmk if that’s something you guys want 🙏🙏

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pink hershey shirt i love u more than life itself

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you guys don’t get it matt and coochie is MY brand

whatever genre of matt this is i need it