#i’m actually so upset why tf did i just ASSUME i would have enough story keys

[the-ragbros-are-okay]

i actually feel as though i am going insane bc i need to do TOMORROWS commissions to get the last story key for kaeya’s story quest because i was an IDIOT and and DIDNT

and now i feel like i’m full of BEES

PLUS. IM GOING ON A TRIP.TOMORROW

so i’m waking up early and doing my commissions and then a story quest bc i’ll be damned if i have to wait three more fucking days to see my favorite traumatized blue haired man

[twdmusicboxmystery]

TWD 11x03: Hunted - Details

Okay, let's talk details. At the beginning, nearly everyone gets hurt and then gets separated.

 ***As always, spoilers abound below for episode 11x03: Hunted. Don’t read until you’ve watched!***

I noticed that in the opening credits, we now see the two rows of hanging bodies to represent the Reapers.

Maggie:

Elijah tries to help Maggie but is yanked backward and disappears. We don’t see him the rest of the episode. I really hope he’s okay. ☹

When Maggie is walking around alone, we see a car with an open door that's emphasized. It reminds me very much of this shot from 5x09.

@wdway​ also noticed some chevron symbols in the parking lot. (Chevron Theory)

She passes the dumpster before she actually gets into the mall building. That might be called back to Glenn. She also uses glass alcohol bottles as a warning system. I'm sure I don't have to explain the parallels there.

There's definitely a rat thing going on here, which is important because of 10x21, but I can tell you that we see (hear) it in episode 11x04 as well. I just noticed the subtitles tell us that there are rats squeaking quite a lot. After finding Negan and Alden, Negan pushes for Alden to be left behind. He doesn’t like being on the road. He says the plan is bad and unsafe.

Then they hear screaming and run toward Agatha. Duncan is hurt and clearly not going to make it. He says, "We were good. We were lucky." Both Beth lines. Maggie puts him down after promising to get Agatha home.

Now, that’s interesting to me. I said yesterday that we’re seeing a replay of Beth through many of these story lines, and I focused on Alden as a proxy. But I think Agatha is one, too. Just the fact that they talk about getting her “home,” makes her a proxy. Meanwhile, she doesn’t make it “home.” She’s bitten by a walker and left behind…in a mob of walkers. This is also where Negan drags Maggie away while she screams, “no!” Maybe indicative of her emotional response (not to mention her screaming in the parking lot of Grady) over losing Beth?

Jumping back a bit, before Agatha’s death, Maggie’s group travels through the woods. Negan and Maggie have an interesting exchange. Negan says of himself, "people change." Maggie says that no they don't.

So once again, it's called back to Beth dialogue, but Maggie is specifically harboring a belief that was the opposite of Beth's. That people don't and can't change. It's obvious that Maggie is on a very destructive path right now. She doesn’t really have faith in people, or faith that everything will work out okay. We can't be sure where this is going, but it's interesting. As I've said before, I'm sure this attitude of hers will probably end up causing drama down the road.

They happen upon a burnt walker that's tied to a tree with the sign that says Judas over his head. This super interesting. I know I have a lot of asks about this in my inbox. My first reaction is that we can tie it to the burnt walkers from 6x06, which was bursting with Beth symbolism. Since it’s obviously the CRM who was responsible for those burnt walkers, you have to wonder if there's a CRM tie here. 

We might also be able to tie this to the Governor’s episodes in 4a, where he found several decapitated corpses wearing military attire that also had signs near them like ‘murderer’ and ‘rapist.’ If nothing else, this shows that someone in the area is actually burning people for betrayal and labeling them as Judas. Doesn't exactly bode well for our group. But we don't know whether this was the Reapers or somebody else.

***Update: I wrote most of this post before seeing episode 11x04. I still think we can tie this burnt walker thematically to 6x06 and the CRM, but in terms of what is literally happening in this season, let’s just say this burnt walker will make a lot more sense after watching 11x04. I don’t want to give spoilers beyond that.***

Just before Maggie's group reaches the chapel they end up leaving Alden at, they pass green car. I don't think it's a Gremlin, like the one we saw in 7x05, but it's the same shade of green. 

And of course, we see the cross outside the church. Beth was wearing a cross bracelet in the hallway of Grady when she was shot. There are plenty of holes in the roof of the church (Hole in the Roof Theory.) At one point, Alden even says, "I'm dead weight." That was the name of 4x07, the Governor episode where they found the decapitated corpses.

At the chapel, we caught an interesting snippet of dialogue from Negan. He tells Maggie “the sun is going down” and that she’ll have to make a decision. We’ve always thought Beth would return with a dawn theme, which might mean literally that we’ll see her with a sunrise or something. So, it made me wonder if the “night” will be them fighting the conflict with the Reapers and then will return with the new “dawn.” Something like that. It might be literal or just thematic. We’ll just have to wait and see, though.

Maggie finally agrees to leave him behind, but she struggles with it mightily. They even have this really on the nose line where she says, "you better be here when I come back." And he answers, "you better come back." Think about how that would relate to Beth's arc.

Carol:

We see Carol and Kelly returning to Alexandria together. They have this whole thing where Magna thinks Carol is giving Kelly falls hope and wants her stop.

They also seem to be setting up something with Carol and Aaron. I'm not sure what it is. They're kind of at odds in this episode because he wants her to help with the walls and she wants to go track the horses. I thought it was interesting that Angela Kang, during the Inside Look bit, went out of her way to say that Carol and Aaron are not enemies. They're still good friends but they have different ideas about how to deal with the current crisis. I feel like they're setting up an arc with the two of them together.

When Carol was out looking for the horses, she finds Rosita. Rosita is scavenging MUSHROOMS. This part was super interesting because Carol tells her not to pick a certain type of mushroom unless she accidentally wants to make baby cocoa high for about a week. This is meant to be a joke, but it fits into the hallucination theory. I've noticed several mushroom mentions throughout the seasons. It’s an ongoing theme that I think ties into things not being as they seem, or a character to misunderstands or is deceived by something.

As I told my fellow theorists, I sat and thought about this for a minute. It's a little bit odd to me that they included Rosita’s response. When Carol says the mushrooms will make them high, Rosita answers, "yeah, but only for about a week, right?" It's meant to be a funny of course, and it is, but why put in a timeframe for the hallucination?

The only thing I can think of is that maybe it's a hint that the hallucinations or misconceptions people have been laboring under are about to fall away. That includes Daryl and Leah, but we can also extend it to Beth. If she lived, as we think she did, and TF think she died, then their belief in her death fits into the hallucination theory. Just thought that was interesting.

Rosita joins Carol in searching for the horses. At one point, she tells Carol about some dreams she's been having. (Kind of interesting to mention hallucinatory mushrooms and then talk about significant dreams, no?) Apparently, she's been dreaming about Abraham. She says he's trying to tell her something, something she supposed to do, something about Alexandria. But she can't actually hear what he's saying. (Hear no evil.) And just when she gets close enough to hear him in the dream, he gets shot in the head.

This is interesting on so many levels. First of all, dreams. We had the episode 6x12 of FTWD, titles, In Dreams. Abraham is a man Rosita once loved, and has lost. Most obviously, Abraham didn't die of a gunshot to the head. He died when Negan killed him. So, it feels like an excuse to mention someone being shot in the head. And of course Abraham was often a proxy to Beth. I’m definitely side eyeing this.

The other thing about this is that I've been noticing for a while that they have some big arc for Rosita coming up. They’ve done several sequences where she’s searching for weapons but is unable to find them for a time. She usually eventually finds them and uses them to somehow save the day or turn the tide of the conflict. 

We saw this in S7, and the weapon she found was Dwight, who defected and helped them win the war. We saw it during the warehouse sequence in S8 where she and Michonne were trying to stop the singing truck from going to the Sanctuary, and Rosita ended up with the rocket launcher. It’s a pattern that’s been happening for a while. I don't know how this dream of Abraham ties into that, but I’m wondering if this arc they’ve foreshadowed for several seasons is about to start playing out.

I don’t have a whole lot more to say about Carol tracking the horses, as I went over the most important stuff yesterday. I'm assuming that in this episode, that Kelly is equating the dead horses with Connie, and that's what upsets her so much.

After we see the horse run away from them, Kelly says, “fourth time’s the charm,” which means that was the third time they’d attempted it. (Rule of Threes).

When they get back to Alexandria, Carol cuts one of the horse’s throats to slaughter it for food. Aaron comes to help her, and he looks at her very compassionately.

This is also where we get the shot from inside the church with the broken window. We see Kelly come out and hug Magna, but then still go with Carol. Just really interesting symbolism there about her not giving up hope of finding her sister. I can't help but wonder if Kelly will go with Carol to look for Connie and end up finding Beth. That would be super interesting.

It also reminded me of something that happened during S9. There was an episode where Kelly got lost in the woods and Daryl and Connie went to find her. They had this really weird before-the-opening-credits sequence where we saw what was clearly a Whisperer, rather than a normal walker, coming up behind Kelly and reaching out for her, as though she was about to get kidnapped or taken prisoner. But that didn’t actually happen.

When Daryl and Connie find her, she's on her own in the woods and just dehydrated. There's definitely hallucination quality to that sequence, but I’ve always suspected it was a foreshadow of something in the future. Anyway, this is just conjecture and I'm just rambling, but these are some of the thoughts I had while watching the episode.

The kids:

There couple of charming scenes of all the kids playing together. We see them play a card game—Slap Jack, I think—at the kitchen table. Many people have noticed that this kitchen table looks a lot like the one in Alone that we saw in the funeral home. And no, it’s not the same. It doesn’t have a diamond on it, but the material and pattern look similar. Which is kind of interesting.

Actually, to me, the design looks a little reminiscent of the All-Seeing Eye, which is often seen on paper currency. So, it could be part of that theme.

Most of these are just cute scenes and Angela Kang says that part of the reason for them is that they wanted to have Judith and Herschel interact a little bit. People have also pointed out to me that when Herschel asks if any of them have ever been on the road like he was with Maggie, Judith says no, “Not like that.” Actually, she has been, but she was just too little to remember it. But this may have been a subtle reminder of 5x12.

Herschel is clearly worried about his mom and the adults who keep leaving. Judith does her best to console him. Not sure what to make of these conversations in terms of what they foreshadow. Maybe nothing. But I did enjoy watching the scenes.

Father Gabriel:

The man Gabriel kills is named Nichols. (Got that from the subtitles.) We hear him reciting the Lord's prayer as Gabe approaches. I also noticed that his shoes are not on. They are on the ground on the other side of the tree from where he’s sitting. Which might be part of the Lost Shoe/Foot symbolism.

He has an arrow in his stomach (it looks like Daryl’s) and he’s bleeding from the neck. The neck wounds are interesting because Father Gabriel got one too. It's almost as if these two mirror one another.

I mentioned this yesterday, but Gabriel says, "God is not here anymore." Just wanted to mention it again because it will be important to remember for next week when we get into 11x04.

Okay, I think that's all I have in terms of details. Anything I missed?

[staliasjeronica]

Riverdale S5 Ep11 Thoughts *Spoilers*

thoughts under cut to keep tag from being cluttered :)

- Oh yeah I forgot that Chad was blackmailing Veronica about the dirty dealings in her company even though it’s not her at all (unless it’s just been so long and I’ve forgotten but she’s my baby and I feel like I would’ve remembered but-

- Hiram and this dumb prison is one of the worst things for this show it’s a constant plot of people escaping and it’s so annoying like sure Hiram owns it and he was in the jail but no one has, like, taken him back to jail…??? Hiram is a fucking disease smh

- “back to remote learning” why didn’t you just stay that way though… like even right now in covid schools are opening back up and kids are complaining because it’s still not safe so like… just… go back to it??? I’m so not built for this world fasdhfkahf

- Veronica and Smithers 🥺🥺💞💞

- the way Veronica hugs Archie is so cute bc she’s so tiny but like she always gives her all and Archie is just 😐 never giving anything ahjfsdfsh it’s quite sad you can tell how done KJ is with Varchie lol

- “I really hate that I’m dragging you through this.” … what about constantly pulling him into your mob boss father mess that the writers refuse to allow you to escape from?

- “until you and Chad are officially done, I think we should keep our distance.” Varchie bones!!! you just KNOW that Archie has been looking forward to this because that man is whole heartedly in love with Betty and has been since forever and that while Chad prolongs the divorce papers, Archie will not be waiting for Veronica considering he doesn’t want her. Varchie = bones we love to see it!

- now who tf would join Penelope Blossom’s ministry… no one, realistically.

- can Cheryl stop being given the craziest and usually most boring plots ever please...

- Not someone holding a gun to Tabitha literally don’t hurt Riverdale’s best girl weirdo

- these bitches really haven’t aged huh…. poor Veronica though being robbed but like they stole some watches or something and the opal like that’s all you take..?? okay-

- Fangs 💞💞💞💞💞 also rip to him having to work with his ex tho

- STOP HAVING ARCHIE GO TO HIRAM WE’RE TIRED

- You know considering the whole reason why Hiram is still here as the villain and ruining Veronica’s life/growth to keep her in his plots al because Mark is a big soap opera celeb and apparently brings in money, you’d assume they would give him GOOD shit instead of everything he’s gotten. If they hadn’t of hired Mark can you imagine how much better off the show would be if they didn’t have to keep him around bc of his status????? God why-

- Reggie’s always there for Veronica muah…. oh fuck me I guess fjasjkdf

- “I work for one Lodge and it’s not you.” lmao okay??? you acting like that’s a flex, and that you’re working for the better Lodge who literally left you to die after the Serpents thought you shot Fangs so-

- MARTY BEING WHY REGGIE IS WORKING FOR HIRAM…….. YOUR DAD IS ABUSIVE LET HIM HANDLE HIS OWN DEBT??? God both Veronica and Reggie are always fucked over when it comes to their parents huh

- don’t you just love when they make characters act ooc for a plot ahhhhhh it’s totally fun to watch and totally not frustratingly annoying

- “FOR OLD TIMES SAKE.” 💞💞💞 we love Veggie even though they made Veronica act ooc and hurt him back then and they weren’t given an actual chance.

- “don’t be such a Betty” now why is Betty so surprised she only ever had fun when she was with Archie, when she’s with Jughead all she did was do what she wanted and order him around so likeefjhakdfh

- “he shouldn’t really be my problem anymore.” BUGHEAD BONES YASSSSS

- I know it was just a sound they used but like that squish sound when Darla kicked Tom’s face… did she like smash his face in damn what is this The Walking Dead?

- see the problem with them randomly bringing characters/parents in when they need them is that they’re never around so like no one really cares… like they could have utilized the parents so much (and Skeet and Marisol never would have left) and it would have been so much better than random appearances that make them look incompetent and awful parents because they’re never there during all the other times their kids need them. but we have to see the two toxic parents that won’t go away constantly??? literally what the fuck

- Betty calling Jughead’s writing cringey wbk she’s never liked his writing she was just stroking his ego bc she was his gf and had to be supportive lmaoo

- why are these 60+ year old men beating up Jughead like for why???

- so they just forgot that Tom was checking in on the convict huh gotta love dumbing down characters for plot!

- Fangs with his switchblade muah

- jealous Tabitha muahhh over a password

- “wait THE BETTY?"

- Cheryl looks so good

- Find meaning in his death… girl didn’t you not care that your husband killed your son over the illegal maple stuff I forgot the plot but it was something illegal and dumb

- “drain the vein” …...

- Reggie helping muah

- Why is Archie acting like an ass? like sure he doesn’t know that Chad is abusive and toxic but c’mon fucker you cheated on her and never apologized and you don’t even wanna be with her in the first place so why are you acting like you’re personally hurt sit down

- God Archie really hates Veronica huh… I don’t even blame him considering the shit she’s brought him into time and time again.

- Jughead was kicked like maybe five times yet he was fine falling out of a two story window and the serpent imitation but now he needs antibiotics..? plot convenience!

- literally don’t remember anything about Doc tbh or him talking to Donna and Bret like—

- ever since Negan people are obsessed with bats with barbed wire.

- also! yes please kill Hiram <3 I know they end up saving him bc of the opal but c'mon

- they searched basically nothing for five seconds wow such great detective work you guys!

- we know you just want his manuscript Jessica

- Cheryl with her rainbow skirt how cute!

- “daddykins” girl you’re like 25

- Veronica acting like she cares about Hiram fjsadhkfhas these guys thinking that they’d kill Hiram even though they need him lol

- bad bitch Ronnie we love her even though she’s gonna have to save her father to save others and get her opal </3

- not Veronica calling Archie first and not Kevin considering Kevin’s dad is there…. this is the pandering va fan service bs we have bc it makes no sense and it’s so forced

- Fangs knowing Archie rides with tools in his truck mmhm that’s a little sus idk how but archiefangs agenda coming through!

- no one would actually believe that Jessica ashkjdfsj and they take this bait…??? you gotta be joking lmao

- Jug got to help doc this time 🥺😭

- …. tell me why when he said boyfriend I immediately thought of Reggie I hate myself for wishing fahsdjkfsafj

- okay as cheesy and corny and awful the fight scene is since they posted a clip of it, them working together is so refreshing and nice we love leader!Veronica bc she’s so good at it. but the show only cares for Betty which is funny since she’s an awful detective fbahsdjfj

- my god enough with Jason’s body!!!!!!!!! you burned his body please let him stay dead let his body rest

- okay but the back and forth from Betty and Jessica is so good like I wish we could get that kind of rivalry drama type stuff all the time. too bad they refuse to let Veronica act like a normal person and get angry at being cheated on and such :/ when will Veronica slap the fuck out of Betty

- he’s not a blameless victim but Betty take responsibility for how awful a person you are PLEASE

- THE VOICEMAILLLLLLL Jughead only speaks the truth! it’s weird that he only realized what we all knew about Betty after but whatever, finally he gets upset like damn. also jeronica crumb he’s the only one to ever include Veronica smh ALSO Cole acted the fuck outta this voice mail muah

- the way Betty just sits there uncaring… she really is a freak huh god when will someone punch her in the face and take her ego down a million notches she’s so annoying

- “that’s darkness.” …?? what?

- the way bh’s relationship parallels jughead’s with Jessica though. the unhealthy habits, the bad energy, etc. except Jessica left it and Betty didn’t and it turned Betty into whatever the fuck this is. I miss s1 Betty :/

- so when will they sue Jessica for drugging them? mmhm probably never

- poor Tabitha being the only one who cares about jughead tho

- oh no I forgot there was a random musical number…

- you’re gonna have Betty and Tabitha act like THAT and not put them together so rude

- when will Cheryl be free from her mom. is was like turned on by abuse or something sigh why do the toxic (and most boring!) parents get plots and screen time and everyone else doesn’t...

- Veronica would be able to do Moree than pepper spray but whatever only Betty is allowed be “badass"

- fangs being fangs ugh so sexy my babyyyyy

- Trevor Stines is so attractive it’s a shame they only bring him back for five seconds to traumatize Cheryl over and over again though </3

- wow varchie in a pop’s booth what season is this again??

- god it’s so upsetting how amazing varchie would have been as just friends…

- the way he smiled at Veronica was so contradicting to the blank, “please don’t” expression when she was telling him she was gonna get divorced as fast as possible. why can’t he just admit he doesn’t want to be with her!!!!!! my god they’ve put off barchie long enough just let them be together so their characters can finally act in character and stop being so awful and annoying

- “this cause” what cause you fucking weirdo

- not Hiram threatening the mayor he could literally be your downfall if we had good writers fjasdkjfasf

- jughead how would you have killed him with a small wooden basket

- I like doc so much but I know we’ll never see him again until we randomly need him seasons from noow

- Betty wasn’t hit by the drugs until after the message though… how would she not remember? it didn’t seem to be doing anything to Betty until the bunker

- hopefully since they’re friends now Tabitha can make Betty act like a decent human being <3

- the way Tabitha looked at Betty please stop doing this to me...

- maybe we can finish that dance!!!!!!!!!!!!!! jabitha rising bughead dying we love to see it!

wow that episode felt like it was two hours long but thankfully I finally finished it… don’t have many actual thoughts but anyways hope you enjoyed my live blog of my thoughts!

[currentlyreadingmanga]

Toilet-bound Hanako-kun Chapter 21: The Tea Party (Part 1)

Previously: we went on a very stressful and very emotional trip. We finally learned Hanako’s brother’s name: Tsukasa and he continued to unsettled me like he does every single time he appears. Mitsuba actually passed away, this time for good, it seemed and it made me tear up a bit ngl. After that, the chapter decided I hadn’t suffered enough so it punched me while I was down and showed us how Hanako feels about the existence of the dead as ghosts in general and how that reflects in his own sense of self. We also got another glimpse of the mermaid and she said some real ominous shit :)))) if anything happens to Nene istg :)))))) Sigh And last but not least, Natsuhiko went to see Nene at her classroom and I’m,,,,concerned,,,,

Now onto the next chapter!

Personal update for the 50 (holy shit?) of you that still follow this blog: Well…..hi there, it’s been a while ^^;; Looking back on it, quarantine really hit me like a bag of bricks and burned me out. It’s not the first time that has happened, and what it means to me is that I just can’t bring myself to consume new content; I might have loved it so far but my brain is like “nope, we’re not doing that today” and well, this time it happened for almost two months. Also, one of my cats went missing for a little over a week (he’s home now, thankfully) and that just added to the general distress I was feeling. But over the last week I actually wrote small fics for another fandom and it finally pushed me back into a creative state, so I went back to re-read the last couple of recaps I did for JSHK and it made me realise that I miss my babies and I really want to know where the story goes, so here I am c:

Ohhhh that’s right, we’re starting a new volume with this chapter! Our main trio is front and center and judging by the colorful pastries and the tea, it is a reference to the tea party that was alluded to in the preview of the last chapter. Also, I see the ropes are back again, but this time Kou also has some around him! Nene and Hanako seem to be tied together with pink, blue and yellow ropes, Nene and Kou seem to be tied together with an orange rope and both Hanako and Kou seem to have another rope each that it’s not connected to neither Nene nor each other. Hanako’s is red and considering the way in which we’ve seen him tied up before, I would guess this represents his connection to Tsukasa. Kou’s is pink and considering everything that just happened, could his rope represent his connection with Mitsuba? Like, I know he’s dead dead now and their actual friendship was short-lived but I would also like to think that even though he’s gone, his memory will live forever with Kou, hence the rope. But I’m speculating and I already went on a long enough tangent for the cover page so let’s move on.

The next color page has the main trio again as the central focus in what seems to be the inside of a place that has a clockwork-like mechanism. On the corners of the page we have who I assume will be important character during the following arc(s): Aoi, Akane, Yamabuki and Teru (the latter one worries me slightly ngl). 

Ohhhh okay, the content page says that one of the arcs is called “the three clock keepers” so the art on that page now makes more sense.

……….I really don’t trust him hhhhh please be careful, Nene, please don’t let your weakness for pretty boys cloud your judgement.

Ohhh it could be because of Nene’s dress and the bunny ears (and the twins) but the title page gives me strong Alice in Wonderland vibes. It’s a cute picture but Tsukasa is there and Nene is tearing up so I’m,,,concerned 

Okay so Nene followed Natsuhiko outside and 

Are you reciting her your dating profile or something? also “call me Natsuhiko-senpai ♡” omfg he’s one of those, huh? Like, it could all be an act but he’s looking less and less threatening by the minute lol

Nene, bless her, has the common sense of asking him why he wanted to talk to her all of the sudden and he says it’s because “someone wants to meet her”. Gee, I wonder who that could be :)))))

…………….oh, oh no. Nene, sweetie, I need you to run and to run fast because this boy is up to no good and you’re not gonna  like what’s gonna happen. (Edit note: also this brings up a question: how did the chaotic trio know that Nene turns into a fish when she touches water? Like, I know they had been keeping tracks on her and Hanako for some time, so maybe they found out that way? Oh, maybe they use the Mokke? Because the Mokke were there in Yako’s boundary when Hanako pushed Nene down the waterfall)

Hhhhhhh and to the surprise of no one, there’s Tsukasa here to make Nene’s day more difficult.

asdasgdjash please do not make my daughter share the same fate as the puffer fish, she doesn’t deserve it (ﾟдﾟ；) (ﾟдﾟ；)

Nene fainted (can’t say I blame her jfc) and now she’s waking up in what seems to be the tea party and the floor is wet! so she thinks she could be on another boundary. Interesting, I wonder which number would this one be? Because the boundaries are assigned to the seven mysteries, right? So one of them should be in control of this place. Could Tsukasa be in control of this one? But that wouldn’t make much sense because he managed to get his “physical” form only recently, right? However, Hanako also spoke of a traitor that was changing rumors and we know that these three are responsible, so if they’re not the owners of the boundary maybe they somehow managed to manipulate the mystery that does control it? Oooor it could also be that there’s another boundary that managed to go under the radar and in turn the other mysteries don’t know about it.

sjdgjjasd she’s so done with them lol I know I call them the chaotic trio but it’s really the chaotic duo + Sakura. I’m so curious about how this whole *gestures wildly towards them* arrangement came to be.

Ohhhh this great! So Sakura got everything under control and from her introduction to Nene we now know that she’s a third year and we have confirmation that she became Tsukasa’s assistant in the same way that Nene did, in exchange for a wish. B U T, again, that brings up even more questions because Tsukasa said that while Amane granted the wishes of the living, he granted the wishes of the dead. So like (⚆.⚆) what’s up with that?? Is she an exception? Is she dead? Another supernatural? Or, maybe, even though it should be impossible considering what we know so far, could her wish have something to do with her being ‘alive’ in the school right now? Mhmmmm…...suspicious.

Okay but like, I actually really want to know how he fits in all of this because okay, Sakura and Tsukasa are linked together by the wish she made, but why is Natsuhiko here? Who is he? How did he end up working with these two?  He seems silly and completely whipped for Sakura, so maybe they knew each other before she made her “contract” with Tsukasa?  Hhhhh idk let’s keep reading.

Sakura says that she wanted to meet Nene because they’re in similar positions and she thought they could be good friends. And like, that’s a fair point…...but I don’t trust like that, no sir. Even if she didn’t want the boys to be so rough when they brought Nene here, the fact remains that they still kidnapped her so if this was just a friendly meeting, why would they need to do it in such a convoluted way?

Okay good, Nene is suspicious because of their methods and the amount of knowledge they have about her.

………………...sigh, I shouldn’t be surprised but bby no please don’t trust them so easily. She’s venting to Sakura about Hanako’s unpredictable behaviour and Sakura says that she can empathize with most of her struggles while Tsukasa is sitting on top of her shoulders and wrapping his arms and legs around here…...I can definitely see why she said he was cat-like because my cats do things like that when I’m sit down to write at my desk. But again, I know he’s technically a kid but I really need him to stop acting so cute because it unsettles me a lot.

Even he can see the romantic chemistry between those two. Well, thinking about it, that’s probably why they dragged her here, because she’s important to Hanako.

(;;⚆.⚆) NOPE, no, no thank you, I need you to back tf up please jfc

Nene snaps out of it and realizes that she let herself be drawn in by girl talk. She thankfully knows it was a stupid thing to do but she was just relieved and happy to have found someone who seems to understand what she’s going through, so I’ll cut her some slack. And she mentions that they don’t look like bad people but like I did, if they had innocent intentions, they wouldn’t have had to bring her by force.

………………...I feel like I’ve mentioned this before but I really hate it when either of them does this fucking face, it’s so creepy >n< also, Nene, sweetie, once again I’m asking you to run, run far and don’t look back because that look doesn’t spell anything good, especially paired with Sakura’s scared/resinged look (which makes me think that maybe her own intentions had been more innocent that I had originally given her credit for)

Hmmm. This is concerning; like, yes, Nene has to help Hanako with whatever he needs as his assistant as part of their deal and he does threaten to turn her into a fish when she pouts but I never got the feeling that it was malicious. On the other hand, Sakura’s wording (especially calling Tsukasa “Master” and saying she “can’t” disobey) and the look Tsukasa gave her make it seem like her punishment for not following his orders would be much more severe. hhhhh I really don’t like where this is going

Σ(ﾟДﾟ|||) Σ(ﾟДﾟ|||) Σ(ﾟДﾟ|||)  WHAT THE HELL THIS THAT THING WHAT THE EVER LOVING FUCK OH MY GO D

“We’re gonna have you disappear now” okay so, yeah, he’s doing this specifically to upset his brother. the room is fucking sinking though and omfg what even is this room?? is it really a boundary? Since this happened at this very moment, it looks like they do control it so my questions from before remain, the biggest one being “how”. Also I’ve just noticed that the eyes all over the place are very similar to the ones in the broadcasting room and now this tells me that those weren’t an artistic choice and that is terrifying.

…………………..excuse me, w h a t??? why? hello??? “she’s like this sometimes” ????? Sakura what???? I have….so many questions, the main one being why do you let her treat you like this??

……………………………………...oh…..y’know, I hate the term simp with a passion because I feel like it’s been memed to death but wow.

Hhhhhhhh it looks like she can’t stop sinking and that (and the fucking eyes) tell me that this is not normal water (since she would have turned into a fish already). She’s yelling out for Hanako and that’s how the chapter ends. I’m still :)))))) concerned :))))))))

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May we have a recap, please? :)

**spoilers for panic at the art show and home for the holidays**

OK people. I actually don’t have a ton of commentary on these two so I’m gonna try and keep it (relatively) short and sweet [Edit from Future Me: Failed Step 1].

Also, iirc, this is the week Dropout starts streaming new Fantasy High eps on Wednesdays which is very dope and I am very excited for. I probably won’t do full on recaps like I do for normal eps because, lbr, I don’t strictly have the time to be recapping these eps at all and it’s pure stubbornness that keeps me from making wiser time management decisions. But, rest assured, if I have an Opinion, you will hear it whether you want to or not. 

Anyway, on with the show. 

Last recap, I mentioned that this ep was giving me Aelwen house party vibes and now it reminds me of that ep in another way: Everyone rolled like TRASH almost the entire ep. It was so frustrating! They barely got any hits in until like halfway through the ep.

(Aw man, I just realized I’m gonna have to remember which spelling of Aelwen is correct again now that FH is coming back.)

I love how Murph is immediately like, “I need to make sure my wife doesn’t die during this fight avenging her fictional husband.”

Isabella also has Aelwen’s trick of poofing around the battlefield which is annoying as hell (ha) for the group.

Siobhan hilariously casts fear on Priya just to be spiteful. I thought she was doing it to help the evac process but no. It was a purely spiteful action. Bless. 

When Kug turns into an ape he, of course, turns into *the* NY ape, King Kong. 

“I roll a nat 20 on an epic shit.”

When Brennan was describing Kingston’s spectral New Yorker Guardians I was already thinking about that one part of Spiderman 2 (the OG Toby Mac version) and then he straight up said, “You mess with one of us, you mess with all of us,” and I lost it.

“Deny the stairs the pleasure of my feet.” Emily is a poet.

I want to know what makes a pigeon spicy more than anything. 

The fact that Brennan killed Ox AGAIN and then immediately looked into the camera and let the audience know the dog was fine because he clearly Oracle stared into the future between eps and saw the entire internet sharpening their pitchforks  was so funny. 

About midway through the ep, Pete tries and fails to send Isabella back to hell and Isabella starts monologing about her plans and connection with Robert Moses (she stole the list from Santa and is/was gonna marry Moses apparently). I wonder if Brennan was like, “These players are for sure gonna murder her without getting any useful info out of her unless she goes full Bond Villain right now.”

And, proving my point, Emily immediately does 56 points of damage, royally f-ing Isabella up. 

This is a really civilian heavy fight which feels weird in a way the FH fights never did. Like, these aren’t even civilians who live in an adventuring town in a fantasy world. These are just normal ass civilians in the wrong place at the wrong time. 

Pete fails a wild magic roll after failing to teleport into the building and then gets a choice of getting really strong (which prob would have let him bust down the door) or to teleport in (which is what he does and exactly what he wanted). Very clutch when the dice rolls play into the story like that.

Kingston lightning bolts Isabella’s hair off which is just malicious but also totally called for.

On her next turn, Sophie gets hurt on purpose to get low enough to activate her ring, lets her hair burn for long enough to shorten it to a cute bob, insults Isabella, then knocks her tf out. 

I love that Emily took one of her teeth (a seemingly crazy move) and when called out by Lou was like, “It’s a link to Robert Moses” (a completely reasonable answer). That’s the Axford one-two punch.  

I didn’t mention it before but, Willie the golem is here, first immobile but then brought back by Misty. Post fight, he says he was somehow brought here by one of the evil factions of the city and says they’ll talk about it later. Also, Misty makes out with him (DON’T KINKSHAME HER).

With a high insight roll, Kingston is able to deduce that the group was ambushed (though not by Priya) and that their victory was a really important one for the fate of the city. 

(Sidenote: The amount that Pete is Over Priya in this ep is so funny.)

Back at Wally’s (which is where Kug is now staying) Wally has gotten Kug a dog bed to sleep in and fancy charcuterie cheese because he and Ricky are the only pure-hearted people in NYC. 

At the same time, Pete and Kingston have a very sweet heart to heart and then settle down at Kingston’s place to chill and listen to jazz. Idk how else we expected this to resolve, considering this is a Brennan Lee Mulligan DM’d show where the sacred pillars are Teamwork, Friendship, Communication, and Making up an NPC on the Fly Because One of Your PC’s Decided to do an Insane Thing. 

Next up is the Christmas ep and Brennan, Emily, and Zac are in sweaters for the occasion. 

Well,actually it’s the 21st and Emily immediately clocks that that’s the solstice. 

Are cookies the good carb?/Absolutely not. But have fun with your life. (I love Ricky’s soft jock energy.)

“I run deliveries,” Pete says to Kingston’s parents, not technically lying but also not being completely truthful. Misty would be proud. 

Going over to Misty, it seems pretty clear at this point (and it’s confirmed in the promo for next ep) that Misty’s fairy business is some kind of de-aging/reincarnation for herself. I wonder how many of these she’s done so far. She said she’s been around for, what? 200, 300 years? Assuming she’s been doing then reincarnations at about 65-70 years old and she reincarnates to around 25? Maybe 6 times? Idk. Just spitballing. 

Saucer of milk to keep the faeries from stealing her (non-existing) children. Faerie lore is wild y'all. 

Did you take another level of warlock?/Yeah bitch.

The fact that since Sophie has joined a monastery, she’s only taken Warlock levels and no Monk levels is very funny from a story perspective. It’s like, she finally comes to this sacred place to be trained to her full potential and she’s just spending what should be her sparring time playing with her cat in exchange for spells. Wild. 

Emily’s cat-like, self-satisfied grin when Brennan is like, “So you just jerry-rigged yourself clairvoyance powers, huh?” is so good. 

And she did it on the fly because Emily Axford is winning D&D. There are no points but she’s winning.

So, uh, Emily does, two things, very in character right after the other:

Thing number one: She send her unseen servant to spy on her family. Her dad seems hardline, “F, Dale. Whatever. Family first. She needs to get over it.” On the other side of the spectrum is her mom who is very upset about the whole affair with her siblings falling in the middle. 

The second thing she does, very casually I might add, is have her unseen servant BURN DOWN HER HOUSE SO SHE CAN COMMIT INSURANCE FRAUD.

EMILY

Everyone loses their minds and rightfully so. What a wild-ass swing that no one could have seen coming. I love it. 

“I look in my backpack which is now my home[…]" 

I almost forgot that Ricky was a fire fighter who would not abide that nonsense until Brennan decided to cut to him. 

Ricky just dolphin swims across the Hudson in 2.5 mins to go put out the fire that Sophie set. Amazing. 

Ally mocking Emily/Sophie: Truthfully, I don’t know what happened.

"I love John McClane, because he loves his wife.” WALLY

Wally: Oh we’re gonna tell a lie on Christmas.

“This is what winning looks like.”

I would really like to know what trace stuff what on the drugs Pete got from 7 but Ally rolled too low to figure it out.

“I disassociate fully." 

Well it took him a long ass time but glad to have Pete on the selling drugs to kids is bad train. Choo-choo, dude. 

7 saying you can hack in real life in reference to his AK-47 has the same energy as Hardison using the word hack in literally any semi-weird episode of Leverage. 

SOCIAL MEDIA IS VOLUNTARY PANOPTICON

So Kug goes with Wally to David’s house disguised as a dog and, despite that, blurts out that he’s his dad immediately. Well, he tries to. The Umbral Arcana stops him, unfortunately. 

"I lick my son’s face.” KUUUUG. 

Sophie showing up with a raw goose and hellish rebuking it is so metal and it’s a shame no one got to appreciate it. 

Me when Sophie’s Mom changes into black top in solidarity for Sophie’s mourning: F EVERY OTHER NON-SOPHIE BICICLETA. I RESPECT YOU. 

Kingston is hustling very hard to get his man Pete a job which is a very Kingston move. That’s how guys like that show affection. 

Didn’t mention it before but Kingston’s parents and Mom specifically adopting Pete is very cute. 

Sidenote: Idk what 7 was talking about Pete trying to stay low profile. He wears a cowboy hat (now a ZEBRA STRIPED one, courtesy of Kingston). I think the subtlety train has sailed my guy. 

Esther shows up at the firehouse, carrying presents for her mom and grandma and looking for Ricky. The says that she’s kinda dealing with something and it feels good to be around him (beat) magically speaking. Sure. I’m gonna keep my Hercules soundtrack on hand just in case anyway. 

I think Ricky is the only person who, with no pretense, could give his crush a sexy calendar featuring him.

Anyway, turns out Esther’s mom and grandma are the furies of Tompkins Square and she’s fated to join them or something. 

Esther causally: I defy you, I defy the prophecy.

The fury thing would explain why Esther’s mom would have cursed Kug. They are famously magical punishers.  

Ricky is a magically certified Good Boy but we been knew.

Zac’s restraint to respect Esther’s personal boundaries in lieu of getting a lore drop to stay true to Ricky’s character is amazing. Mad props.

So we slide over to Misty’s Christmas party which Stephen Sondhein is attending and him having a character card kinda killed me. 

There’s a post on tumblr somewhere about playing faerie  incapability for impoliteness against a vampires need to be invited in and that’s what I thought about when Moses and his vamp friends showed up at Misty’s house.

Robert tries to talk Misty into striking a deal with him for protection from Titania. She’s very much not having it.  

“You know Robert, I love a comedy and I love a farce. I’d like to remind you of who it is that started this and it’s not me and it’s not my friends but I can assure you Robert Moses that we will be the ones to end it if you do not. Do you understand me?” Damn. That’s a mic drop from Misty. 

[As I’m editing this, I’m realizing I somehow lost a BIG chunk of text. I’m not gonna write it all up again but the Cliffnotes are as follows:

Between the Solstice and Christmas, the gang goes Grand Central Station to see the clockwork gnomes that live there because trouble is apparently afoot. Some size changing nonsense happens and Pete shoots a dog (with mini bullets, the dog is fine). Lou is enchanted even though Kingston is not (a common theme with him). Ally and Emily are on the same nonsense wavelength (as usual). 

There are dope magical dragon trains under Grand Central Station that go to the shadow realm which is a place I’d like to know about. Kingston has never seen these trains before even though you’d really think he would have.  

Murph says Gnome Rights which is wild if you know what Naddpod is like. 

Anyway, the high priestess of the gnomes passed out the other day and they figure out it was due to pixie magic which is suspicious. They also know they pixies have access to a “time stone” which leads me to believe that it’s Brennan and not Aguefort who thinks that Chronomancy is the most powerful magic of all. 

Sophie and Jackson go to Dale’s grave on Christmas. Jackson explains that the Order of the Concrete Fist is basically a literal school of hard knocks. A counterbalance to all the reach for the stars dreaminess that comes with NYC.

Dale was their chosen one who was supposed to stop the monastery from falling when some unspecified badness crossed over to this side, but when he went to the place where he was supposed to get guidance, there was no one there (clearly tying in to what Dale said to Sophie last time they talked. I wonder what she needs to get to the top of? Empire State maybe?).

Watching Murph watching Emily, his real life spouse, play at grief for her fictional husband and do some truly insane things is so funny because you can clearly see him thinking, “I am married to this woman,” which, in fairness, is probably the main thing he’s thinking when he’s playing D&D with Emily.

I’m probably missing something but that’s all I remember. Back to post-Christmas!]

So it’s opening night at Misty’s show and, somehow, Ricky’s first show ever. 

I love that Don Confetti is there because of Siobhan’s offhanded comment for a handful of eps ago about him being a supporter of the arts.

Anyway, everything is going great until the second act when Titania busts in through the mirror which is *not* is storage as Misty requested but on stage. It’s a theater fight, y'all! And not the West Side Story kind although if that doesn’t come up I will be very surprised. 

“Let’s kill Titania!” –Misty in the promo

Just going straight to 11, huh Misty?

See y'all then!

[only-negativity]

I'm okay.

Alrighty. Update on my relationship status matter. To sum it up, I feel perfectly fine now. And instead of getting all upset when that guy that liked my best friend while we were dating tries to talk to me, I act civil, even though I deeply want to shank him. Then if he says something stupid, I block him. Simple. I've gotten to the point where I've completely gotten over the sadness he's caused me for the past half a year (including the time we were together). But I'll explain the whole situation that I went through. I'm not complaining or saying it because I want to sound like an attention whore. I just want to make what happened clear as a crystal.

So, we started dating last year. And he, (my most recent ex) made it seem like he was obsessed with me. Tricked me into falling for him. He was my friend for about a month or two and I somewhat trusted him. The first time we met, I was dating my first boyfriend, and we were in a group chat with everyone in our friend group. He was asking about my best friend. And he asked me, "are you her sister?" And, we (my best friend and I) tell everyone that we're sister's because it's annoying when people ask.

Anyway. I didn't know him at the time and assumed that he was a friend of someone's in the group chat because he was really charismatic, and accepted his friend request on Instagram (At the time I didn't like him because I didn't know him, so I accepted it because he was a friend of a friend).

After that, he was bothering me left and right. Asking for my Snapchat because he, "doesn't use Instagram a lot". I said no, because that would be too much, and my boyfriend at the time had a problem with his girlfriend's cheating on him. So I kept denying every time. Until I was so annoyed that I gave him it. Stupid. Fucking. Decision. Next thing I knew, he kept asking to video call. I didn't want to video chat with him because of how my boyfriend felt. I genuinely respected his feelings, and I didn't want him to get upset about it. He would call without asking, and it kind of annoyed me, but I thought that if I accepted it he would leave me alone. Nope.

One call lead to another and my boyfriend didn't like it. He started assuming that I had feelings for this guy, but I honestly didn't. My boyfriend got more and more distant, and I tried my hardest to make him feel better about what's been going on, because, I cared about him. I didn't care about how ridiculous this was. He would ask the guy if I was cheating on him, but he would say no. I got kind of annoyed by how my boyfriend was acting, so I distanced myself as well. Emotionally. Not physically. He would get butthurt if I did that.

He had wrestling practice everyday, so I used that opportunity to hang out with my friends at the park. The guy (most recent ex that my boyfriend thought I was cheating with) was there too most of the time. That made things a WHOLE lot worse in my situation. I didn't talk to him in person, but he would always bother me. Eventually, I started to become friends with the guy, but I didn't have feelings for him. And my boyfriend didn't like it at all. We talked about it, and I explained that nothing was going on. I was being completely honest.

Anyway. One day the guy said that he was going to do a flip off of a tall thing at the park, so I said "no. Don't. You'll get hurt." And my boyfriend took it the wrong way. He started walking away and actually started to cry. I genuinely felt bad for him because I made him cry just by saying a few words to the wrong person. But then again, I was getting angry because we talked about this and he still thinks that I'm cheating on him.

I walked him back to the school because he needed to go to wrestling practice. I remembered that I left my drink and chips at the park so I went back after I dropped him off. The guy kept telling me to break up with him because I felt like a horrible person while I was with him (boyfriend).

I left after that.

A few weeks pass and I've been feeling more and more horrible about myself because I haven't done anything, yet my boyfriend was pushing the "are you cheating on me?" Question on me every single day and he was freaking out by me just talking to my guy friends. That I knew before I met him. He asked the guy if I was cheating on him once again and he said yes(I assume out of annoyance). But I wasn't. And my boyfriend started breaking down and crying because he got "confirmation" that I was "cheating" on him when I WASN'T. LITERALLY ALL I DO IS TALK TO MY FRIENDS. THAT'S. IT.

We broke up a few weeks later, and he started flirting with other girls in less than a week. I felt horrible because that fucker told my boyfriend that I was cheating on him and expected me to be okay with it. He quite literally ruined my relationship and acted as if nothing happened.

To make things worse, my (now ex) boyfriend starts to date one of my closest friends that are girls.

A month has passed and I feel better ( a little). And I forgave the guy for telling my (ex) boyfriend that I was cheating. At this point, he dated at least 6 girls, so I told people that I "never really loved him" (which was a lie). I know. Fucked up. But, he never really loved me either, because he got over our relationship in 6 days.

The guy gave me a lot of attention, and I started to gain feelings for him. Soon enough, he got his friends to tell me that he likes me. I waited for him to ask if I'd be his girlfriend. That didn't happen. He got onto Snapchat and said "i like u a lot will u be mine?" Which I though was really cute at the time and really alluring. So I said yes.

He would subtly ask me who my best friend liked, so I said that she liked his brother. (Which was a lie because who tf would tell their boyfriend of not even a week who their best friend likes?) And he had this disappointed look in his eye. Very small, but still there. As if he was trying to hide how he felt. "Really?" He asked. "Why are you so concerned about it?" I looked at him a little annoyed. He looked away and changed the subject.

He would glance at her. Every few minutes. I barely noticed it but I knew that he did. I didn't think much of it, because I trusted him. But a few weeks into the relationship, he would do it more frequently. He wouldn't talk to her, but he would look at her a lot. He was always in a good mood (which I assumed because I was his "first girlfriend").

I was in good mental health at the time. The weights of my last boyfriend's mental issues and horrible anxiety problems have been long since been lifted. I was... Genuinely happy. A boyfriend who would pay a lot of attention to me, friends that would be nice enough to be by my side all the time. That period of time was amazing.

Then, my best friend got into a love triangle with my first boyfriend and a junior that I was friends with. I automatically got into a mood for a bit because my best friend was dating my first ex boyfriend. Who does that?

Anyway. I wasn't the only one in a mood. My best friends relationship worked out for a couple of months. I got over the fact that she was with my ex, though it was still awkward when I talked to her. BUT, my boyfriend at the time was always sour.

He started to take his anger out on me, by telling me that I'm not acting how he wants me to. That he "just wants someone to hold him and not act like an anime girl every two seconds". What the fuck kind of an insult was that? I act like an anime girl? All I do is smile when he hugs me and talk a lot to him because I adored him.

This happened a lot, And soon I felt horrible again. I couldn't even talk back to him anymore. All I could say was "sorry" when he yelled at me. I felt useless for nothing. For doing nothing. For being myself. I was scared to break up with him because I've seen him hit one of my guy friends for sticking up for himself when my (at the time) boyfriend said something rude about his mom.

He broke my friends tooth.

It was almost every night that he would tell me how much he hates me. One day, when my cousin came home from the army, my (at the time) boyfriend posted something on his story. Explaining his "crush". This struck me as odd, because he explained things that didn't happen between us. He wrote such sweet things about them and at the end, it said "send a ♥️ to get someone to describe"

But before I could send one, I got a text from him. I sent it really fast and then saw what he said. He sent me his story and said "do you want me to do you?" I got confused. And told him how I thought that it WAS about me. He said "oh yeah it was, my bad😂" I could tell that he was lying. He only sends that emoji when he lies.

At that moment I had a strong feeling that he was cheating on me, but I didn't bring it up. I was too scared to.

About two weeks later, I went to his house for the first time to go swimming with my friends, but I couldnt. I was expirencing girl problems.. It was hot outside, and I wanted to stay in his house for a bit because it was nice and cold in there. We decided to stay while my friends went to the pool. Not only was I having those problems, but I was cramping too. So I kind of wanted to cuddle on the couch to hopefully take my pain away.

That's not how he saw it.

He started to get really handsy and was kissing me a lot. At this point I was getting really uncomfortable. He pulled my shirt up along with my bra but I kept telling him to stop. I even tried to get away from him and tell him how uncomfortable I was with my body, but he wouldn't listen. I knew I couldn't do anything so I sat there trying to hold back tears. I was hopeless because he easily overpowered me when I tried to get away.

He wasn't satisfied with what he saw but pretended like he was. I understood what he felt, but I kept trying to make him stop.

During this whole thing I was scared. Once he was done doing what he was doing, he threw my cardigan at me (i took it off when I first came in with all of my friends) and told me that we're going to the pool. He went outside and I was trying to pull my thoughts together. To hold back all of the tears that were about to fall out of my eyes. I put my cardigan back on and went outside. We didn't talk at all the whole time that we walked to the pool.

When we got there, he acted like he hadn't seen his friends in ages. He took off his shirt and jumped into the pool. I didn't know how scared I looked until one of the people that were at the pool asked if I was okay. Of course I said I was, and acted as if I was happy.

When I was off my period, I went to the pool again. Because he wanted me to. I was swimming in my gym outfit, because I didn't have any swim suits. I called my mom before I got into the pool to come pick me up, because I knew that my boyfriend would be putting my legs around his waist and kissing my neck.

When my mom finally got there, she tried to meet my boyfriend, but he acted as if he didn't know that she was there. My mom's really stubborn when she wants to do something, so she didn't give up until he shook her hand and introduced himself. I was outside the gate, waiting for my mom to leave. Then he came and hugged me, But he looked angry.

He was yelling at me later that night, but it was worse than before. I said sorry and told him good night. I could barely sleep that night. I finally had enough of him. I had enough of feeling like a worthless piece of shit that can be used then thrown away. I tried breaking up with him, but he started crying and telling me all these sweet things that he used to tell me when we first started dating. I ignored him for a bit, but he replied to my story, tried to call me, and texted me over and over on all of my social medias. To shut him up, I took him back, but I think I did it out of fear. I didn't do it in person, so in person, his reaction would be different. I started thinking about the things he'd do to me.

That week, he acted as if I was a precious gem that needed to be kept safe. But that didn't last. That week my best friend broke up with my ex and he was in a good mood again. Really good mood. I wasn't a gem anymore. I was a trashbag. I think I explained what happened at this point in a different post.

Well he broke up with me for my best friend that didn't even want him. Two months later, (current time) he starts talking to me again. He kept sending me friend requests and it was getting annoying to decline them all. So I accepted one, And told him that I'll block him if he says something stupid. We had a normal conversation until he started acting like he did before we started dating. He sent me a picture of himself and told me to "snap back", but I said that I'd rather not. And sent him a screenshot of me saying that I'll block him if he says something stupid. Before the screenshot fully sent, he said "fuck you biiiiissshhhh suck my dick biisshh". I read it, but didn't reply.

The screenshot fully sent and he tried covering up what he said by asking "have you not seen that video?😂". Obviously not. I blocked him. That's the last time I'll even think hes being mature for once. I can't be near him without feeling scared. (It's summer still and he doesn't know where I live, so I'm not scared for right now) at school, I can't be in the same room as him without freaking out. I can't be near him this year. I won't.

Anyway, this experience has ruined dating for me. Maybe sometime in the future, I can get over this and try again. But not right now, and people don't understand that. I've been flirted with a few times in the past two months, and I explain that I'm not ready to be in a relationship yet, but they get angry.

Thanks for reading this. If something like this happens to you, tell someone right away. I didn't tell anyone with authority and I regret it.

[brandxspandex]

TF IDW reread: Monstrosity

I recall Monstrosity was my favourite instalment of the Autocracy-Monstrosity-Primacy trilogy, and upon rereading it I think that is going to remain the case. It’s a fun story featuring batshit crazy Decepticons, swarms of beastly monsters, dire and deathly places, and Megatron being a BAMF. Watching Megatron transform into Garbage King of Trash Planet and go on a quest of self-discovery with his riddle-spewing pet Quintesson in tow was quite entertaining, and it was the kind of setting and storyline where Livio Ramondelli’s artwork is quite appropriate. The Quintesson, Pentius, was a fun character, even if there was pretty much no explanation for any single thing that he said or did. He was like some sort of spirit-guide/sensei character who guides another character on a journey towards enlightenment, only instead of guiding Megatron towards enlightenment he guides him towards a greater clarity of evil…which I guess is enlightenment from some people’s point of view. There is no clear reason why he does this, although he is a historian, and some of the cryptic things he says are somewhat reminiscent of Metroplex’s comments to Optimus about the cyclic nature of history and Optimus’s role as a recurring player in it. Maybe Pentius recognised Megatron as another one of those major players and wanted to see him fulfil his destined role, or maybe he just gets his kicks out of encouraging people to be evil, who knows.

Quintessons are also established as having (green) sparks in this series, which raises questions about the nature of Quintesson life and their connection to the Transformers in the IDW continuity. If I recall there are some continuities in which the Quintessons are descendants/creations of Quintus Prime, so maybe that is true of this continuity as well. The fact that the end of the IDW continuity means we’re going to miss out on the opportunity to properly explore this version of the Quintessons is one of the many things about the reboot that makes me thoroughly upset.

The current Optimus Prime series established that Junkion was blown up in the war between the Autobots and Decepticons at some point after this, but turns out that at this point Junkion was just a goddamn shard anyway, so not much of a loss really.

Autocracy made Megatron look like a little bit of a chump (and the Decepticons clearly agreed, given their decision to get rid of him), but Monstrosity quite pointedly reaffirms his terrifying badassitude, while making him look outright sane and heroic next to the nutcase that is Scorponok. It could be said that Megatron (somewhat thinly) veiled his desire for endless violence behind a motive of social change, but Scorponok didn’t make the slightest effort to disguise what he was after, and took it WAY up to 11. Scorponok basically wanted to turn Cybertron into what Junkion already was, and after getting banished there Megatron seemed to decide that he’d had quite enough of that. I guess that what Monstrosity ultimately establishes is that while Megatron has most definitely fallen to his bloodlust (energon-lust?), he hasn’t gone completely loopy; he still has goals beyond simply killing things, or at least still believes he does. I find it kinda weird that Megatron’s character arc on Junkion is meant to be about becoming truly monstrous, yet the whole story is also about establishing him as a much better alternative to Scorponok. In fact he seems less villainous and nutty when he gets back from Junkion than before.

Then again, Megatron’s “revelation” on Junkion is that what he truly wants is dominance, “the only truth in existence”. Perhaps the contrast that the story was trying to establish between Megatron and Scorponok is that while Scorponok was basically “chaotic evil” and wanted to create a primordial wasteland where only the strongest survive, Megatron wanted to establish a more ordered evil, with himself at the top. That being said, I can’t believe that Megatron wasn’t to some extent driven by the same sort of lust for violence that seemed to motivate Scorponok, as there are several moments throughout the continuity that heavily imply/basically outright state that Megatron was more interested in killing than actually winning the war. However, I guess that while Scorponok was nothing but that lust for violence and twisted might makes right philosophy, those elements of Megatron’s character were somewhat tempered by other aspects, such as his desire for absolute dominance. I do wonder how much of Megatron’s desire for dominance stemmed from the moments he had felt helpless, like on Trepan’s table, which spawned the desire to never feel that way again.

We saw Starscream being pretty damn critical of and fed up with Megatron in Autocracy, which seems to culminate in him helping overthrow Megs here. That being said, it’s not made clear how much say Starscream actually had in the coup – whether he was one of the first people calling for Megatron’s blood, or if he watched Scorponok blow the heads off anyone defending Megatron before deciding to play along. Either way, it doesn’t take him long to start hitting Scorponok with the same sort of criticism he had recently been levelling at Megs, although he also offers some pretty valid advice, and even tries to break up in-fighting between the Cons. It just seems like he earnestly wanted the Decepticons to be successful in doing what they set out to do, but unfortunately for him Scorponok was everything he seemed to hate about Megatron concentrated and amplified.

I guess we don’t actually know for sure if Starscream was Megatron’s SiC at this point, though his interactions with Megatron certainly made him seem as much, but either way it’s interesting that he just lets Scorponok take command. It comes across as though he initially wasn’t actually that interested in being the leader at this point in history, but rather preferred an advisory role from behind the scenes. Unfortunately none of the leaders he gave advice to were interested in listening to him. While I think there are a number of factors underlying Starscream’s eventual ambition for leadership, I tend to think that one of the most major factors was the fact that all the other leaders he followed continuously let him down. He was fucked over by the Senate, Megatron, Scorponok, until eventually he thought “fuck it, I’ll do it myself”.

He doesn’t seem quite at that point yet however, as he doesn’t use Scorponok’s raging incompetence and unpopularity as an opportunity to seize control of the Cons himself, and he looks outright delighted when Megatron shows up again to take power back from Scorponok, which is a great scene by the way:

I love how Megatron’s silhouette makes him look like fricking Dracula or something in that panel.

Anyway, Megatron is understandably upset with Starscream after this, and promises him that they would discuss his role in the coup, which is something we never get to see. I find this really frustrating given that Megatron and Starscream’s relationship is made up of many more questions than answers, and this seems like it would have been a major turning point between them assuming this was Starscream’s first major betrayal. I have to wonder what went down between them after this so that Starscream not only survived, but maintained his major ranking in the Cons. I could imagine Starscream arguing/pleading to Megatron that Megs had constantly reiterated that the leader of the Decepticons must be strong and indomitable, so by discarding Megatron in favour of another leader after his defeat, Starscream was only following the doctrine Megatron wanted him to follow. If Megatron was won over by this argument, I wonder if this could have been the beginning of their dynamic of Megatron keeping Starscream around to challenge him and so give him the opportunity to reaffirm his dominance as leader. I also wonder if this is around the time their relationship turned violent.

Assuming Starscream’s initial loyalty to and idolisation of Megatron was genuine, and I’m inclined to say it was, it would seem that this initial “positive” stage of their relationship was over by this point in time. But was their relationship as simple as an initial, relatively short positive period in which Starscream was loyal, followed by a really long, horrible period in which Starscream was treacherous? I’m inclined to think it was more complicated than that. Starscream may have welcomed Megatron back in Monstrosity just because he could be used to get rid of Scorponok, but I wouldn’t be surprised if Megatron’s strength and determination in returning from Junkion and reclaiming the Decepticons had restored some of Starscream’s eroded faith in him. I could imagine Starscream going through another period of loyalty to Megatron after this, although it probably wouldn’t be as strong as his initial loyalty, and their relationship would be tainted from that point on by Starscream’s betrayal. I bet their relationship would have gone through a number of such phases of Starscream warming back up to Megatron to some extent before souring to him again and trying to get rid of him, but with an overall downwards trend as their relationship for the most part deteriorated. In fact, we kind of saw another instance of this at the end of All Hail Megatron, if I recall, with Starscream saving Megatron’s life shortly after he had attempted a coup.

Also Scorponok noted that Megatron had apparently kept Starscream at arm’s length (something Starscream puts down to Megatron not having much trust for politicians, an explanation that makes a lot more sense now that we know Starscream used to be a senator even before the Decepticons), but this seems like a kinda odd thing to say given that Megatron apparently made Starscream his SiC, trusted him with a number of important duties, and had him alone by his side several times. If Starscream’s early passionate fixation on Megatron hadn’t just been for show, then maybe he wanted to be emotionally close to him as well (not necessarily in a romantic way if that’s what you assume I mean…although also maybe that) but Megatron kept his distance in that respect. If that were so, I wonder if that could have been a contributing factor towards Starscream’s attitude towards Megatron going sour.

Meanwhile poor Optimus Prime has been contending with Dai Atlas’s bitching, and to be fair I guess he kinda has a point; Cybertron was a bit of a shitshow so perhaps packing up and leaving was a reasonable thing to do. On the other hand, if your solution to all your problems is to pack up and run off to someplace else and start over, you’re never going to achieve much. The vision of unity that The Matrix granted Optimus when they bonded makes him pretty insistent that Cybertronians ought to all stick together. I imagine that Optimus would have felt that Cybertronians leaving the planet and scattering would have also amounted to them abandoning each other, and he didn’t want to leave anyone behind, as illustrated by his refusal to give up on the Dynobots and their monstrous predicament.

Optimus does however wonder if he’s just jealous of all the people leaving Cybertron’s problems behind while he’s stuck there dealing with it all, which is really sad because that’s pretty much the same sort of sentiment of frustration with his position of responsibility that he expresses 4 million years later in The Death of Optimus Prime. So Optimus was done with the position of Prime from more or less the day he got it, and he’s probably been sick of it for the entirety of the 4 million year war. Honestly when the continuity ends I really hope he gets to survive and quit all his responsibilities and go and live somewhere way out of the way of any drama and just like…garden or some shit.

Seems kinda weird that the Dynobots were trying to avoid getting too riled up to stop hulking out into their monstrous alt-modes, but had also been involved with the Decepticons via the gladiatorial death-matches; surely gladiatorial death-matches would be a sure-fire ticket to hulking out. Maybe that’s why they didn’t go through with joining the Decepticons; if death-matches weren’t gonna do it, a revolution just might. On the other hand, given that The Dynobots joined in Optimus’s uprising against Megatron, and that Scorponok pointed out that Grimlock’s “fatal weakness” is compassion, maybe the Dynobots left the Decepticons because they noticed that the movement had got a bit shit. The dynamic between the Dynobots is pretty endearing; they’re like a bickering but incredibly loyal and loving family.

So Trypticon was manufacturing monsters in his innards…doesn’t that kinda make them his babies? Certainly seems to be further evidence that Titans can produce life of their own. Also, what’s the deal with Trypticon and babies? In his first appearance he’s making all these monster babies, then in his more recent appearances he’s adopted a bunch of babies. Is that just IDW Trypticon’s thing? Everyone views him as this horrible, terrifying monster that does nothing but wreck death and destruction, but in actual fact his just wants to have a bunch of babies and see them grow up strong and healthy with pack lunches and name labels on all their stationary.

On a final note, let’s all laugh/cry at the first panel of the series:

[maxattack-powell]

Chapter 13-15: His Decision (Chris's POV)

***This is an original fic of Chris’s POV that matches Chapters 13-15 of my TF Adaptation Series (listed as 1-15a in my masterlist)***

Masterlist - go here for other chapters and related original fics

Disclaimer: The following are fics (adaptations from actual game chapters AND original works) to Choices: The Freshman and The Sophomore stories. It is a fictional adaptation. I do not work for Pixelberry Studios, the game developer or own the rights to the characters Chris Powell, Nicole or any other IN GAME character. All of the ORIGINAL characters, storylines and events were developed for my adaptation of The Freshman story.

Comments: I enjoyed playing Choices The Freshman… and then I found this awesome group of people and their works - I’ve loved it all, very much so. Deciding that I wanted more interaction than the options allowed, I’ve gone through the first book, chapter by chapter (omg painfully slow) to follow the story (95-99% I’d say) and add to it as I felt would benefit. Now I am doing the same to Book 2 as well.

Basically, I wanted to include certain things that weren’t really full fic worthy, adding more substance to the story. However, I did add some full size fic moments also… some are included in cannon chapters and some are their own full chapters in between. I wanted to see MC and Chris through their freshman year… with more angst, fluff, sweetness, real life and overall detail. So, if you like that pairing then you’ll be satisfied, otherwise sorry James & Kaitlyn fans lol. I even added some parts from Chris’s POV, so that we have a chance to see what he’s thinking, knowing what she experienced.

NSFW moments in future chapters - Mature Readers Only Please

Paring: MC x Chris

POV: ~Chris~

Chris’s POV - Picks up after Enough Is Enough (covers 2 days/48 hrs almost exactly)

*****Chapter 13*****

~Chris~

“Chris…“ She lightly gasps, clearly still asleep but somehow also aware.

He lets out a small sad groan. “You’re killing me. Do you know that…” He whispers as he tucks more of her hair behind the other ear. “You win, MC. If you want me around, I’ll be be here. I’m not going to fight anymore.”

She snuggles closer to him at the words, making him wonder if the action was related. He effortlessly stands with her in his arms, her entire body wrapped securely in her blanket and his arms. Chris takes his time crossing the roof, examining the trauma to her face, frowning as he takes it all in. As he creeps down the stairs he holds her tight, not wanting to let anything happen if he misses a step.

When he enters the living room he finds it empty still, letting out a sigh of relief. He doesn’t want anyone to see her like this, worried it would upset her more. Not that he was ashamed of her emotions, her cries, but he knows she’s tapped out and probably unable to handle anything else tonight.

It’s pitch in the hall, but he follows the same path as he did before, turning into her room and softly closing the door with his long leg as his hands remain solid around his precious cargo. He pauses for a moment, letting his eyes adjust to the darkness, the room illuminated only by the moonlight bleeding through the window. Once he moves towards her bed, he leans over and smoothly lowers her onto the mattress. He notices that the bed isn’t made, and she was already in some type of PJ pants. “You tried to sleep but had to run a little more first, didn’t you…”

As she unconsciously adjusts to laying on her bed, he reaches for the covers, pulling them up to cover her exposed legs before he sits down behind her on the edge of the bed. He turns at his waist, reaching over her shoulders to softly grasp her hair, once again tucking it behind an ear. He studies her face in detail, this time delicately running his fingers across her cheek, stroking the swollen flesh.

After a few minutes of studiously searching her closed eyes he turns away from her, his body slumping slightly as he sits there, reflecting. His eyes shift around the room slowly, taking in everything MC. His eyes land on her lamp, and even in the dark he can see two faded, extinguished glow bracelets. He reaches over and grabs them, knowing that the tiny chain is half his. A small smile crosses his lips as he spins them between his fingers.

After a few moments he quietly stands, making sure not to disturb her. He places the bracelet chain back on the lamp where he found it and turns to check that she’s tucked in before he heads to the door. As he opens it and turns to leave, he glances back at her one last time and whispers. “Don’t give up on me MC.”

Chris enters his room and strips, his undershirt and boxer briefs damp with sweat from all the running he did earlier while he searched for MC. He pulls open his top dresser drawer and digs for a new pair. Before he closes the drawer he pushes some of his underwear to the side and pulls an item out to inspect it.

A sad smile crosses his face as his hand spins two different faded glow bracelets, also linked together, around and around in his hand.

The Next Morning……

Chris is laying flat on his bed, his eyes trained to the ceiling, studying the shadows that are slowly creeping across the dim surface. He turns his head and looks at the alarm clock on his bedside table. It’s 5:30 a.m. He sighs.

He has been awake since he left MC in her room a few hours before. He can’t get what she said outside the hospital out of his head. She blames herself for everything. For ruining their friendship, for ruining his friendships with the rest of the suite, for falling for him.

At least that's what it sounded like she was implying while not actually saying it. She told him that she missed him, automatically assuming that he didn't miss her in return.

“She has no idea…” His chest tightens as he groans.

When he thinks of last night, his stomach clenches. He feels sick. She wouldn't let him speak, not that he really knew what to say. Chris pinches his eyes shut with his fingers as he remembers how he didn't say much, that he locked up. He reached for her, doing the only thing he could think of at the time, and she jerked away from him, as if his touch would burn her. He can still see her face when he tried to touch her everytime he closes his eyes.

There was a point before, where she clearly wanted him to touch her, and he felt euphoric when he did. Then everything got… weird. He gets it now though, but the feeling in his stomach makes him worry that it might be too late. His mind keeps running through that short period of time, trying to decipher what happened. What it all means.

He thinks he heard her ask for ‘mercy’ at one point, the memory making his chest ache even now. In fact, he was sure he heard it, as he recalls the song she was listening to on repeat when he found her on the roof. He sighs again.

When she took off into the dark, Chris was screaming internally. He knew he didn't want her to go, was worried about her leaving like that, but he just… let her go. But only because she asked, no, begged him to leave her be… for mercy. Chris clutches his chest as his face turns down in a grimace. He sits up and reaches for his water bottle, hoping somehow that a drink of water will ease the pain in his chest, but he knows. There’s only one thing that can help him, and he has no right to it. Especially now.

He recalls searching for her for over an hour and how anxious he became. He has had his fair share of anxiety, especially over the last year and a half, but this was different. Chris had never been this worried about another person, not before last night. He thinks he knows why.

He grabs his phone and looks at the unanswered texts he had sent just a few hours prior. Knowing that MC won’t see them until tomorrow. He wonders how that will go over.

‘Hey’ 'Where did you go? Let me give you a ride home’ 'MC? Please answer.’ 'Are you still in the park?’ 'I’m here, please tell me where you are…’ 'Okay, I’ll shut up. Just let me take you home.’ 'MC, you’re making me worry…’ 'I get it. I know I screwed up. You can make me pay for it tomorrow, okay? You love your friends, don’t make them worry anymore. Let me take you home?’ 'I assume you’re not going to respond at this point… I just want you to know that I’m sorry. We all care about you. Please be safe. I’m still in the park. Near the gazebo if you need me’

Then the final text.

'I’ve been burning, yes, I’ve been burning Such a burden, this flame on my chest No insurance, to pay for the damage Yeah, I’ve been burning up since you left’

The last text was a piece of lyrics. Chris remembers searching for it as he sat on a bench, surrendering to his worry. It was from Sam Smith's Burning. It described how he was feeling perfectly. He rubs his chest as he reads the words again.

He puts his phone down and stands, walking to his door. He quietly opens it and looks across the hall, verifying that her door was still shut and secure, just like he left it. After standing there for at least 5 minutes, Chris closes his door, but not all the way. He leaves it pushed to, cracked just enough so he can hear when the door across from him opens. He shuffles back to his bed, dropping on it with all of his weight face first.

Chris actually starts to fall asleep but it is quickly ruined. He doesn't get deep enough before he’s abruptly woken by an all too familiar nightmare. He’s in a black space with only a single illuminating light. His feet are bare and cold once again, and as he runs he sees a figure in the distance. He calls but the person never turns. The ground transforms beneath him, sucking him down into the abyss. As he reaches towards the figure and it, no she turns.

For the first time since he’s started having this dream many, many years ago, the figure has a face. MC turns and looks at him with deep sadness. He claws at the thick, wet sand that threatens to swallow him whole. He digs his hands into the ground, finding it now more like glue. But he manages to get closer to her, yet she turns her melancholy gaze away from him before she fades completely, leaving him in total darkness. He lurches up from his spot on the bed, his body covered with a thin layer of sweat. Chris focuses on breathing for a few minutes, the same way he always has after having one of these nightmares, before finally laying back down on his pillow.

Sleep never comes.

It’s now 7:17 a.m. Chris leans up, glancing towards his door as he hears noise in the hall. He waits, listening for any identifying sounds. A cough. Tyler. Chris rolls onto his back.

Another 30 minutes or so passes, he thinks, before he hears someone else. The door is too far away from his tho, and he can tell from the ‘hey’ Tyler softly says from the living room that its Abbie. He rolls onto his side and stares at the door. It’s not long before he hears Zack stirring next door, opening his own door soon enough. He can hear as Zack hesitates outside Chris and MC’s doors tho, making him wonder if Zack was going to knock on one of them. His curly haired friend moves on though after a moment, joining the other two in the common space for a few minutes before they all leave. Chris thinks he hears them mumble something about coffee before hearing the suite door open and close.

Irritated, Chris sits up on the edge of his bed. He tries to decide what he's going to do if she does come out, suddenly realizing he’s sitting there in nothing but boxer briefs. He frowns and stands up to dig a shirt out of his dresser. As he pulls it on, he thinks he hears a door opening, so he pauses, the shirt halfway over his head, the neck stuck on his ears. When he hears soft footsteps he yanks the shirt down quickly and moves towards his door, listening intently. He recognizes the bathroom door closing softly and he sighs. It’s her. It has to be.

He opens his door and peeks his head out, looking down the hall towards the bathroom. He hesitates until he hears the shower start. After a minute of standing in his doorway, Chris walks towards the front of the suite, pausing at the bathroom door. He hears music start to play faintly. She must have taken her phone with her, making him wonder if she read the messages yet. The music is slightly upbeat, nothing like what she was listening to hours before on the roof.

Chris stands there for a moment, just listening to the song, trying to identify it. It hits him suddenly. Her shampoo. He leans both hands on either side of the doorframe, closing his eyes and breathing deeply. He lets out a slow breath of air as he finally feels calm for the first time since leaving the hospital. She's okay, she's going to be okay.

‘If you stop screwing with her…’ He chides himself.

He shakes his head and removes his hands from the doorframe. Taking one last deep breath, he turns back to his room. As he closes the door behind him, Chris suddenly feels very tired. He turns and falls backwards onto his bed, not even bothering with the covers as he feels very warm once again as he drifts of to sleep with images of MC shuffling through his mind.

That afternoon, Chris, MC and the rest of Kaitlyn’s suitemates return to the hospital and check with the receptionist. Brandon was able to swing by and pick up Zack and Tyler in his car and Chris had offered to take Abbie and MC in his Jeep. He studies MC’s face as she contemplates his proposal, apparently not fully comfortable being in such close quarters with him now. He tries to hide his frown.

Thankfully Abbie is interested in going with him though, having never been in a Jeep before. She calls shotgun and jumps in the front as MC silently and with some apprehension, climbs in the back. As they drive to the hospital, Chris and Abbie chat about school and the quickly approaching Winter Break. His eyes are mostly on the road, but any other time they are on his rear view mirror, searching MC’s face.

She shows little expression during the entire trip, her head stays turned and looking outside as they drive. He takes a deep breath and slowly sighs, trying not to draw Abbie’s attention if at all possible. They finally make it to the hospital parking lot with Brandon pulling into the next spot over right behind them. MC jumps out before Chris even manages to put his Jeep into park, making him clench his jaw as he frowns a little at her hasty exit.

A few minutes later, a nurse fetches Kaitlyn from her room on the overnight ward. She meets them in the waiting room, looking bashful but healthy.

Zack bounces up from his seat. “Kaitlyn!”

Abbie gives her a warm smile. “Long time no see.”

Kaitlyn blushes and looks at her feet momentarily. “Hey, guys…”

She gives them a small wave before she walks over to MC. The others turn away to give them some space. Chris glances over to them once, his eyes searching MC’s face, making sure she's going to be okay. They talk privately for a while, so Chris keeps his attention focused on the rest of his friends, joining in on the conversation of what they could do this afternoon and evening. The idea was a full on suite hangout. Strength in numbers.

He glances back over once more when he sees the other two move towards the group and hears Kaitlyn speak. “Let’s go.”

The pair rejoins Chris and the others, discussing how to get home and their options for the day. Chris’s eyes flicker towards MC often, feeling the need to check on her frequently, but not wanting to get caught staring and make her uncomfortable. When the group gets outside they discuss who goes in which car. Chris watches as MC tries to figure out a way to get herself into Brandon’s, but Kaitlyn ruins her plans by running towards Chris’s Jeep.

Kaitlyn was beyond excited to get in, having always wanted one herself. She calls out to MC, telling her to hurry up and climb in with her in the back seat. She hesitates but only for a second, as he knows she will do anything for her friend. During that moment however, her eyes meet his. For the first time since she ran off last night.

Chris feels butterflies in his stomach, but only for an instant before it bottoms out, making him feel a little nauseous when she quickly looks away. He knew she might be awkward around him after last night, but this was way worse than he thought it was going to be.

Everyone climbs in and Chris backs out once he hears that all buckles have clicked. He takes his time backing out, using the moment in the rear view mirror to see her face once more. MC has been turned talking to Kaitlyn but happens to look up then, locking eyes with Chris in the mirror.

He doesn’t break eye contact as he tries to convey his feelings with only his eyes. It seems to work for a moment, but then she turns back towards Kaitlyn as if nothing happened. Chris stays quiet the entire trip home, his mind rolling through many things as he chews on the inside of his cheek.

Back at the suite, everyone helps Kaitlyn through the door and leads her to the sofa.

Kaitlyn had been trying to fight them but was now just about to give up. “Guys, I can walk, you know…”

Abbie gives her a peculiar look. “We know! We just… we were so worried about you, that’s all.”

“Aww, Abbie…” Kaitlyn smiles.

MC closes the door and joins the others. Kaitlyn and Zack microwave a big bag of popcorn for everyone.

“So, what’s the plan?” MC asks the group. Chris studies her as she walks into the room, closer to him.

“Horror movie marathon, duuuuuh.” Kaitlyn laughs as she takes a seat on the sofa with a huge bowl of popcorn.

Chris looks at her cautiously from his spot on the old armchair. “Shouldn’t you be taking it easy? A horror marathon sounds pretty stressful.”

Abbie quickly nods from her seat next to Kaitlyn. “Yeah, why don’t we do something more relaxing?”

Kaitlyn laughs at them all, patting Abbie on the shoulder. “This is how I relax!”

Tyler’s face goes blank, with a mild hint of creeped out as he walks in from the kitchen with a handful of sodas and water bottles, handing them out before settling in the beanbag chair. “Now that’s scary…”

MC smirks at Kaitlyn from her other side, the end of the sofa closest to Chris’s chair. “Can I just say that this is going to be the best night ever?”

A smile creeps across Chris’s face as he watches her. Her smirk makes him smile. He remains quiet as they banter back and forth, just enjoying being with them all. He feels relaxed and content. He’s really missed this. Connecting with friends. His mind briefly wonders what his friends Ryan and Ethan, his best friends from Cherryfield, are doing right now.

Kaitlyn bounces in her seat, clapping her hands with each word for emphasis. “I know! I love love LOVE horror movies!”

“Whyyyy?! there the worst!” Abbie cries out as she slumps back into the sofa, clutching a pillow tight.

Tyler looks at Abbie sympathetically from his spot on the ground near her legs. “Yeah, can we vote on this?”

Kaitlyn snorts at them both. “Hey, it’s kinda still my birthday. I make the rules!” She laughs maniacally.

Abbie barely suppresses a shudder. “Fiiiiiiine.”

One and a half movies and three bowls of popcorn in, Tyler and Abbie watch through their fingers while a cheerleader creeps through an empty locker room on the screen. MC and Kaitlyn are almost grinning at the screen, apparently enjoying the horrible horror movie.

Chris is grinning too, but not because of the movie. He hasn't been watching the screen much at all actually. He’s grinning because of the expressions that flash across MC’s face. They have been very entertaining as she and Kaitlyn have been cheering at the villians for their creativity and jeering the victims for their extraordinarily bad choices. His cheeks are starting to hurt from being in the same cheerful position for so long. He doesn't care.

Tyler tries reasoning with the character again. “Please don’t go in there… just go outside and call 911 or something! No, no, no, no–”

Just then Chris’s phone rings, making Tyler jump out of his skin. “Ahhh! Silence that thing, dude! You almost gave me a heart attack!”

Chris swallows hard, trying to calm himself, being more startled than anyone else. Not only was the phone in his pocket and he had forgotten all about it, he also forgot about any previously planned obligations. Really, he had forgotten about everything else besides this moment. Well, not everything. Chris looks around the room apologetically, his eyes lingering on MC’s as he begins to get up from his spot.

“Sorry, sorry… it’s Becca. I’d better take this.” He inwardly groans. He had completely forgotten about Becca. His irritation was growing at being interrupted. Moments ago he was very happy hanging out with his friends. More importantly, hanging out with MC. Now, that serenity has been destroyed.

Abbie bites her lower lip, immediately feeling the tension. “Should we pause the movie?”

Chris steps into the kitchen to talk to Becca before hearing Abbie’s question, his voice hushed as he answers his phone.

“Hey Becca. What’s up? Uh, yeah…” He almost sighs.

“I’m on my way.” He glances back towards the group of friends, all trying not to listen. He feels his chest tighten when he locks eyes momentarily with MC and involuntarily reaches up to rub his sternum.

“Yeah, I’m sorry. I got caught up. The roommates and I are watching a movie.” His eyes trail over MC’s once more and she looks away quickly. Becca asks him a direct question. “Yeah, everyone’s here… okay, okay. I’ll be there soon.”

This is not at all what he wants to do right now. Or… ever. He instantly realizes.

He sighs deeply as he hangs up, walking back into the living room. “Sorry guys, Becca needs me. I gotta go.”

Zack awkwardly meets his gaze and then looks down at the popcorn bowl in his hands. “Uh, okay. Bye, Chris.”

Chris gives them all a small apologetic smile while he stifles his true reaction to this interruption. “See you all later. Feel better, okay Kaitlyn?”

Kaitlyn picks at the blanket in her lap. “Yeah… sure.”

Chris turns and heads out the door, softly closing it behind him. As soon as he hears the click he just stops and stands there, his arms straight down by his sides, fists clenched so tightly his knuckles turn white. He closes his eyes for a moment before he comes to a decision. He quickly runs down the stairs and heads to his Jeep. He’s ready to get this over with.

Once he pulls up to the Kappa Phi Sigma house Chris lets out a huge rush of air. It wasn't a long drive across campus, but it didn't need to be. He knows what he is going to do, what he is going to say. He just has to actually do it.

He sits in his Jeep for a few minutes as past memories from his senior year run through his head, letting Chris question himself. He wonders if he is doing the same thing he did senior year. If he was about to turn Becca into another… He immediately stops his train of thought before he digs himself into a hole. He’s worked too hard to remove himself from mess he left back at home.

Chris shakes his head and mumbles to himself. “No… This is not the same.”

He always knew he didn't like Becca like… like that. But Becca knew it too, he had made sure of it. They had talked many times and he explicitly told her he wasn't looking for more. It didn't stop her from trying though, but she knew. So many times he corrected her, corrected the girls at the Kappa House, corrected Kaitlyn, even MC. But he let it go too far, for too long.

He takes in a deep breath. It’s time to fix everything. He just hopes he’s not too late.

He gets out of the Jeep and heads inside. Chris hasn’t had to knock to enter the Kappa House in a long time, and that thought alone makes him frown. He’s become too comfortable here. That's why everyone started making assumptions. He shakes his head and walks into the living room. Some of the Kappa girls wave at him and grin. They immediately tell him Becca is in her room so he thanks them and heads upstairs.

Once he reaches her door, the double white doors with the jewel encrusted ‘B’, he pauses. He knows Becca will be fine, that she can handle it. Eventually. He knows how she feels about him, or at least how she appears to feel about him, but he's made himself clear since he arrived at Hartefeld that he did not reciprocate the feelings. He never confided in her like he did his suitemates, but she knew he was still fresh out of a relationship, and not interested in starting another yet.

He takes a deep breath and knocks on the door. It only takes seconds before the door flies open, Becca standing on the other side.

“Chris! Finally… I thought you forgot all about me.” She flashes him her trademark smile and grabs his arm, pulling him into her room before she shuts and locks her door. He doesn't miss that last part and sighs.

He tries to start right away, like ripping off a bandaid. “Becca, look we need to--”

But she immediately cuts him off, in typical Becca fashion. “Okay, we need to hurry. We only have what… two days.” She sighs dramatically and lets out a huge huff of air.

“We should have done this sooner. But with Kaitlyn and all…” She stops and frowns before looking at Chris, seeing his face. “I’m sorry... How’s she doing?”

Chris looks down and nods. “She's alright. Good even, I think. They are all keeping an eye on her right now. MC won't let anything happen to her.”

At the mention of MC, Becca stiffens. He can see it without even looking directly at her.

“MC…” She mumbles.

“Yeah. Becca…” He takes a deep breath and looks her in the eye. “We need to talk.”

She spins around and her eyes narrow as she looks at him. “No. You’re not going to do this, not now. Not two days before the formal.”

He closes his eyes and shakes his head. “Becca, listen. You knew what this was. You knew how I felt… about you.” He opens his eyes and looks at her as her face twists into a deep scowl. “And about MC… you've always known.”

He lets out a weak laugh as he drops down on her small antique sofa. “Probably better than I ever did...”

Becca crosses her arms and turns away from Chris. “You can’t do this.”

“Becca, I’m sorry.” He runs his hand through his hair. “I never wanted you to get hurt or anything. I’ve tried to tell you multiple times that--”

She scoffs and spins around on him. “Who says I’m hurt?” She narrows her eyes at him, daring him to say otherwise.

He frowns as he looks into her eyes, but he doesn't call her bluff. This is her defense mechanism. He’s learned this much about her over the quarter. “Okay. What do you want me to say?”

“Nothing. I want you to leave. Now.” She walks to her door and quickly unlocks it before holding the door open and pointing her perfectly manicured finger out into the hall, accompanied by her glare.

Chris frowns and slowly stands. He turns and walks towards the door, hesitating for a moment to see if she will look at him. When she doesn't he sighs as he walks out. She barely waits for him to cross the threshold before slamming the door behind him, so close that the hair on the back of his neck stands up in alarm.

He blinks as he tries to calm his body’s natural reaction to the close call. “If only Ethan were at Hartfeld… He would have never let me be such a dumbass.” He hisses before letting out a weak chuckle as he heads downstairs.

It is later now, dark even. Chris isn't sure where to go, he just knows he isn't ready to go back and face his suitemates yet. He is sure that he will want to talk to MC immediately, and that everyone will question why he's back so soon. Neither of which he is prepared to deal with yet. He needs time to think. Time to plan.

Chris gets in his Jeep and drives. He doesn't know where he's going at first, but he doesn't really care. He just drives, eventually ending up two-thirds of the way to Boston before he notices the signs. He laughs to himself. Chris was driving towards Ethan, one of his two best friends from high school, without even realizing it. He contemplates turning around and going back, not wanting to drop in unannounced, but instead calls Ethan instead.

His friend answers the call on the second ring, making Chris smile at his devotion to their brotherhood. “Hey Chris! What’s up man? Getting ready for Winter Break?”

Chris laughs. “Hell yeah, you ready to whip those guys into shape?”

“Yeah, I can't wait to run some freshmeat around.” Ethan laughs deeply into the phone, making Chris smile even wider. “That's not really why you called though, is it?”

Chris shakes his head. He is always amazed at how intune Ethan is with him and their other best friend, Ryan. Ethan is always aware of what was going on, how they are feeling, what they need, everything. Not that he or Ryan didn’t return the sentiment, but Ethan always knows.

“Actually, I’m just outside of Boston…” Chris fades out, hating to just drop in on his friend like this.

“No shit. Hell man, lets get something to eat. I’m wasting away.” He laughs, knowing thats total crap since he never stops eating.

Chris calls him on it. “Right, Ethan ‘the human vacuum’ Clark, is starving…”

He hears his friend snort on the other side of the line making him laugh. “We all know that’s Ryan’s M-O, don’t saddle me with that.”

“Alright, alright. I’ll be there in probably… 20 minutes.”

They say bye and hang up. Chris feels instant relief. Ethan will help him figure this all out, then he can go back to Hartfeld and fix everything.

Hours later Chris finally arrives back on campus. It is now a little after 1:30 a.m. and he is exhausted. Between the talk with Becca, the drive to and from Boston, and the time he spent with Ethan, Chris is drained. But he has a plan… or at least part of one. The rest depends on MC.

Chris parks near the dorm and gets out, deciding to take a walk around the quad to relax a little before heading up. That and when he pulls up he checks the windows of their suite for lights, and MC’s is still on. He stands there for a few minutes, hoping it will turn off, but instead he sees movement inside. Shadows dance across her sheer curtains, indicating she is still awake.

So he take a walk.

He goes the long way around the quad, then cuts through the center, pausing for a moment at a very familiar statue. As he stands there looking at it, he recalls his first day at Hartfeld. The first day he met MC. Or the first day she knocked him on his ass rather. He starts laughing then, suddenly remembering something Ethan had said to him just over a year prior.

“How does he always know…” Chris mumbles to himself as he starts walking again, shoving his hands into his jean pockets.

He walks around the football field, then the administration buildings, hoping that the extra mileage would give everyone time to go to sleep. When he gets closer to the dorm he looks up at their suite again. This time her light is off, her window dark. He takes a deep breath of relief and heads towards the stairs.

When he enters the suite he notices some shapes on the sofa. He carefully steps closer, finally able to make out Abbie, Tyler and Zack all curled up on the sofa together. They have blankets draped over them, but there is no MC or Kaitlyn around. A small smile crosses his face, knowing that they probably covered the others and went to bed. So he does the same, silently creeping down the hall and into his room, hoping no one hears him as he softly shuts his door.

The next morning….

Even though he came in late, Chris is up early the next morning. The suite is quiet, as he expects at such an early hour. He changes into a pair of shorts and one of his Hartfeld team shirts before slipping his running shoes on. Even after all the talk with Ethan last night, and time to think during the drive, Chris’s mind was still reeling. He needs to go for a run.

He makes quick work of it, taking the same path around campus that he has so many times before. The same path he took with MC so many months ago. He smiles as he recalls the memory. The way she easily beat him with her long legs, the way he made up some god awful story about a bee attack to scoop her up and steal her victory. Then when they were against the building… her taste when he kissed her. Chris shakes his head and turns back towards the dorm. He has work to do, hoping he can refresh his memories of MC with new ones before too long.

He rinses off and gets dressed, noticing many of his roommate's doors are open, but they are nowhere to be found. Everyone except for one that is. He grabs some fruit from the bowl on the kitchen counter and picks up one of his school books before taking a seat on the sofa. He has a plan, but it does no good if he never actually sees MC.

After a while Chris hears some movement down the hall. MC enters the shared space and her eyes find his almost immediately. He looks up from his textbook, his beautiful blues peering through his bangs as his head is still tilted towards the book in his lap. She quickly turns her head away and moves towards the kitchen to fix herself some cereal. Once she has her food she strides through the room and up to the roof, avoiding the burning gaze Chris was staring into her back.

He sighs, accepting that moment as a failure. Chris waits, knowing she will have to come back down eventually. After a while he decides he needs another one of his text books and runs down the hall to his room, not wanting to miss her. It takes him longer than he thought to dig out the correct book from the pile on his desk. When he makes his way back towards the common space he hears someone in the kitchen. He knows who it is before he looks up.

MC enters the kitchen, beginning to load the dishwasher with dishes from the overflowing sink. Just as she turns to place another plate into the dishwasher a warm calloused hand takes it from her, the fingers softly running across hers before gripping the plate.

Chris stands there as she looks up, directly into his eyes, a small chagrin smile crossing his lips. “I’ll load, just hand them to me after you rinse.” He offers.

She stares at him for a moment, making his chest tighten, but he holds her gaze, unwavering in his assistance. He reminds himself that he has a plan, as she narrows her eyes and looks away for a moment. Chris almost gives up but she suddenly rinses another plate and hands it over to him. He lets out a small sigh of relief, finally feeling like he might have a shot at this afterall.

They work together in silence like this until the job is done. As he closes and starts the dishwasher, MC wipes off the counter, removing the splashed water. He throws away some trash on the counter and decides to leave her be as he goes back to his abandoned textbook. He didn't want to push her, knowing that she has limited interest in hanging out with him right now.

Chris lowers himself to the sofa and flips through his book, his eyes flicking to her so quickly that it's unidentifiable, before his focus goes completely on the subject in hand. He tries not to watch, but does exactly that as she shakes her head and walks towards the table, opening her own textbook. He notices that it’s the same one he himself has open.

The pair stays in the shared space together for over an hour before their quiet is disrupted. Kaitlyn, Abbie and Zack enter the suite door, laughing about something. When they see MC and Chris studying they apologize and head up to the roof. Chris occasionally glances over towards MC, just to verify that she is still there as she is being extremely quiet. He shakes his head and tells himself to focus on the pages in front of him.

Eventually the three come back downstairs, ready for some lunch. Kaitlyn and Abbie convince MC to join them for lunch, a girls day in a way. Chris watches as they laugh and plan what they want to eat, the possibility of shopping or something after. He can’t help the smile that slowly creeps across his lips. She was happy again, something he wishes he could see all the time. He hears a quiet clearing of the throat and slowly turns his head to face the chair next to him, the opposite direction of the girls in the dining area.

He swallows, realizing he has been caught staring at the girls. As he turns to face his accuser, he finds Zack eyeing him suspiciously. Chris shakes his head and looks down, a surrendering smile across his lips as he sighs. He knows what Zack isn’t saying, and he agrees. What is he waiting for….

The girls head out and the idea hits him. He turns to Zack. “Wheres Tyler? We should go out for some lunch too… get out of here for a while.”

Zack gives him a warm smile as he tilts his head. “Not a bad idea.”

Chris smiles. He’s definitely missed his friends.

The pair heads out and meets up with Tyler, who just finished a gaming session with his group at the library. They walk off campus and find a nearby sub shop to eat and hangout for a while. They talk about a lot of things Chris has missed over the quarter from all the time he spent away. It’s awkward at first, but eventually they falls into the familiar rhythm that they used to have, his friends accepting him back as if he never left them.

*****Chapter 14*****

Later that afternoon….

When the guys get back to the suite they only beat the girls arrial by ten minutes. Chris goes back to his spot on the sofa before they arrive. Zack joins him while Tyler goes to his room. When the suite door opens he can’t stop his eyes from shooting up and searching for hers. She never looks in his direction though, and he frowns when she disappears down the hall. Abbie and Kaitlyn shut themselves in their rooms as well, leaving Zack alone with Chris.

After a few minutes MC reappears, but only briefly before she grabs her things and heads out the door without a goodbye to either of them. Zack notices and sighs.

Chris picks up on it and looks at his smaller friend. “Whats up?”

Zack shrugs. “ It’s just…nothing. Nevermind.” He grumbles.

Chris frowns, knowing Zack is keeping something from him. “Come on Zack, what is it? Is it MC? What has she told you? Tell me.”

Zack snaps is head towards Chris. “Look, Chris. I like you, a lot. But we’re reaching my limits here. I love MC. I adore her. You have no right to demand anything of her, or any of us for that matter...” He sighs, shoulders slumping from embarrassment at his reaction.

Chris’s shoulders fall as well before he slowly nods his head and speaks softly. “I know.”

“You need to be honest with her, with yourself.”

“I know… I’m trying, but she wont--”

“Then you're not trying hard enough, Chris.” Zack interrupts him, his own blue eyes fixed on Chris’s.

“What do you mean?” Chris’s brow furrows as he thinks about everything he's done, what he's doing now.

“You’ll figure it out. You're a smart guy, just listen.”

Chris looks at him for a moment, trying to fully understand the meaning behind his friends words, before finally looking down at his hands and nodding. He has to figure this out. The two eventually split up and head to their individual rooms. Chris paces in his room for a while, thinking again about Zack’s words.

He lets out a huff of air in frustration and turns towards his guitar. Snatching it up he turns back to his bed, setting the instrument across his lap as he sits down. He absentmindedly plays different songs that he's learned over the years but eventually stops on one particular song by the Eagles. He begins to play the intro chords before softly singing the lyrics to himself.

“Every night I'm lying in bed Holdin' you close in my dreams Thinkin' about all the things that we said And comin' apart at the seams We try to talk it over But the words come out too rough I know you were tryin' To give me the best of your love”

Chris grimaces, knowing how true those words really are. He pauses to take a slow deep breath before he continues.

“Beautiful faces Loud empty places Look at the way that we live Wastin' our time On cheap talk and wine Left us so little to give”

He kicks his shoes off and leans back on his bed, still lightly strumming the chords of the song.

“The same old crowd Was like a cold dark cloud That we could never rise above But here in my heart I give you the best of my love”

Chris shakes his head slightly, feeling a slight prickling at the corner of his eyes. He clears his throat and continues.

“Oh, sweet darlin' You get the best of my love ….You get the best of my love Oh, sweet darlin' You get the best of my love ….You get the best of my love”

He stops playing all together for a moment, raising his right hand to run through his hair as he stares up at the ceiling. His jaw clenches a few times as he thinks back over the quarter. He starts singing softly without playing.

“I'm goin' back in time And it's a sweet dream It was a quiet night And I would be alright If I could go on sleeping”

Chris places his hands back on the guitar and gently strums the strings.

“But every morning' I wake up and worry What's gonna happen today You see it your way And I see it mine But we both see it slippin' away”

He stops himself before finishing the last part of the song, his fingers falling from the strings, making an awful sound in the room. Chris lays there for a while, his eyes focused past the ceiling, past the roof, into the sky he can't actually see.

When he hears noise outside his room, Chris leans his head up, his ears focused on the sounds. It was coming from the living room, which meant she was back. He quickly and quietly gets up and drops his guitar on the bed before moving towards the door. He hesitates as he listens, making sure he wasn't hearing things.

Chris is sure its her when he hears the soft footsteps hesitate down towards their doors and pause in front of them. He reaches for the handle and yanks the door open instantly, causing the vision in front of him to turn at the noise.

He stands in his bedroom doorway, a small weak smile on his lips. “Hey, MC.” He searches her face as she stands there silently for a moment, like a deer caught in headlights.

She blinks and gathers her thoughts, realizing she isn’t saying anything, making the interaction very awkward. “Uh, hey… Chris.” She gives a small wave and quickly turns into her room, trying not to meet his eyes again as she shuts the door, missing his face fall in disappointment.

He stands there for a moment, his hand still on the door, now gripping it tight. Chris looks down at the floor, clenching and unclenching his jaw. Everything he’s trying isn’t working. She doesn't want anything to do with him.

Slowly he turns, leaving his door open this time, knowing that she's just across the hall. He returns to his bed and picks up his guitar. He stands there with it, gently playing with the strings as he looks out his window wistfully. He closes his eyes as he continues to play, determination setting in. He's not going to give up. Not now, not after everything that's happened. He knows he’s screwed up, possibly costing him the best thing in his life, but he's not giving up.

Coach Madison taught him that. Last year when he was struggling with everything, Coach jerked him back to reality. His friends and family had helped also, but Coach was the sting he needed to get his focus back, and he hasn't forgotten. Zack’s words run through his mind again.

“Not trying hard enough…” He mumbles to himself.

Chris turns and sits on the edge of his bed facing his open door, slowly playing with the strings on his guitar, his ears and eyes trained towards her closed door across the hall. He’s not done trying. Not even close.

After a few minutes her door opens, and much to Chris’s surprise Zack appears, holding the door open for MC. He quickly forgets seeing Zack in her room, the question of why fading as his eyes search for MC’s. She glances up, finding Chris’s door open. Her eyes drift further into his room, seeing him sitting on his bed, his guitar across his lap. As her eyes continue their journey, they find his. Chris is watching her, his head lifted in her direction since the moment the door opened. She quickly breaks the connection and turns down the hall with Zack. Chris doesn't miss the empathetic look Zack briefly throws his way before he disappears down the hall too.

Chris stays there for quite a while after hearing the suite door close behind them. His eyes are focused off into some far distance as he strums the strings randomly. His mind is elsewhere as he absentmindedly plays.

Some time later….

MC and Zack are gushing about something as they enter the suite. She’s totally distracted with her conversation with their curly headed friend to notice Chris in the living room. He sits up straight from his relaxed position on the sofa as he watches her pass through. He immediately sees that she has a long dress bag in her arms. It’s mostly opaque, but part of the dress is peeking out under the bottom edge. He tries to get a better look at it as he watches the pair cut through the suite.

Chris’s mind goes into overdrive, searching his memories for anything he may have missed that would clue him in about the new dress. He knows the Hartfeld Formal is coming up and he swallows, it hitting him for the first time that the dress may be for the dance. And that MC probably has been asked to the formal by someone, possibly someone he knows. His chest tightens at the thought, turmoil swirling inside him.

He stays in the living room for a while, hoping his other roommates would join him at some point. He’s finally rewarded with Tyler’s presence, giving him a friendly nod as he joins Chris on the sofa. They hang out for a while, watching TV and joking about different things they see in commercials. Chris realizes how much he missed doing this. How much he missed his new  friends.

At five thirty, there is a knock at the door. Chris stands to answer it after he and Tyler shrug at each other, obviously clueless at who it could be. However, before he can take a step towards the door, Zack comes flying out of the hallway and quickly opens it first. From his position in the living room, Chris can’t see who it is. Tyler leans over, trying to get a better view, but he too cannot see around the open door.

Zack grins at the guest and turns towards the hallway, yelling towards the bedrooms. “MC! Your date is here!”

Chris blinks, stunned at Zacks statement. Tyler looks from Zack to Chris, a question across his face, receiving only a shrug and a shaking head from the quarterback. Chris’s face turns pensive as he stares at the door, the anticipating building.

Zack steps aside and gestures for someone to enter. Chris’s eyes focus sharply on her ‘date’ as they enter. Much to Chris’s surprise, James Ashton steps inside. He’s dressed in a nice formal suit, holding a bouquet of roses in his hands.

MC enters the living room moments later, her eyes trained to James as she crosses the room, unaware of the other occupants. Chris slowly lowers himself back to the sofa, his eyes appraising her dress as she floats towards the door. He feels a lump in his throat as he thinks about how beautiful she looks, knowing she’s about to go on a date. With James. He slumps back onto the sofa, his eyes still watching, now laced with a sadness… and something else. He realizes what it is after a moment. Jealousy.

MC smiles at James and gestures to the flowers. “What are these for?”

James shakes his head slightly, pretending to be put out. “Can’t I do something nice for my 'fiancée’?”

Tyler raises an eyebrow and slowly looks at Chris, whose face is twisted in confusion. He immediately wonders what all this 'fiancée’ business is about. Zack watches his tall muscular friend from his spot in the kitchen, his eyes boring into Chris’s. Feeling the hole being burned into him, Chris finds Zack’s gaze and holds it for a moment. He sighs and shrinks back, turning his eyes from everyone, focusing on the TV. He tries to ignore their conversation, but their proximity in the small suite makes it impossible. He clenches his jaw as he watches her out of the corner of his eye.

She scrunches up her nose and taps her chin with a single finger. “Hmmm…”

“They’re a thank-you. For agreeing to do this for me.” James hands the flowers to her.

“They’re beautiful.” She gladly accepts and turns to the kitchen, handing them to Zack as he reaches for them to put them in water.

“So are you.” James pauses, a startled look crossing his face at the sudden admission. “…er, that is to say, you look very nice.”

Chris shifts uncomfortably from his spot on the sofa. He couldn't agree more with what James just said. But the fact that James is saying it, and not himself is slightly alarming to him. He starts to wonder if he’s too late. He searches MC’s face for any helpful information that would let him know.

MC tries not to blush, or make eye contact with Chris, finally realizing that he and Tyler were on the sofa, become increasingly interested in her interaction with James. “James, was that a compliment?”

“It was just an observation.” He smirks.

“Come on, admit it. What do you say? Youuuuu think I’m prettyyyy. You wish we were engaged for real.” She tries not to laugh as his normal composure fractures from her playful ribbing.

His eyes widen as he chokes on his words. “What, I–”

MC lets out a soft laugh at his flustered reaction. “Relax, I’m teasing you.”

James shakes his head. “In all honesty, MC, you are breathtaking.” He gives a small smile before looking a way briefly.

Chris feels his stomach bottom out as he hears James’s words. James wasn't lying, but that only made Chris feel worse.

“And I’m sure my parents will be very impressed.” James holds out his arm. “Shall we go?”

Chris watches her smile at his compliment. As they head out the door his shoulders slump as he falls further into the sofa, his frown deepening. He glares into the TV, but notices movement near the door again, causing his eyes to flick up. He finds Zack looking at him as he shifts the flowers around. Chris’s lips become a thin tight line as he stews.

He only sits there for a minute before suddenly jumping up, causing Tyler to jump next to him, before he speeds to his room and slams his door. He rips his shirt over his head and tosses it on the bed before unzipping and yanking his jeans off as well. He throws them blindly behind him as he digs through his dresser, finding a pair of Hartfeld athletic shorts and one of his compression tees. He quickly dresses and snatches up his sneakers, not spending the time to even put them on. He has to get out of here. He needs to run. Now.

He flies down the hall, passing a confused Zack and Tyler as he yanks on the door, hearing it finally shut after he's many steps down the stairs. It takes only seconds for him to reach the ground floor, moving through the double doors as if he was blocking an attack on the field. He starts running barefoot until he gets a little distance between himself and the dorm.

Chris finally slows and eventually stops as he approaches a bench. Sitting down, he swiftly pulls on his socks and shoes, needing to continue his run. He can feel the pressure building inside and needs to get it out before he’s no longer in control. The moment he ties the last lace he bolts from the bench. Chris runs multiple laps around his usual path, adrenaline pumping through his body. He knows he's going to be sore from it, but he doesn't care. His lungs burn as he forces himself to run further and harder.

After many laps Chris is still struggling. It’s never taken him this long to calm down when he runs. He shakes his head as he staggers, his legs starting to turn into jello after an hour of abuse. As he passes the dark football field he takes a sharp turn and heads inside. The gates are locked but he knows how to get in.

He finds his usual thinking seat in the stands and drops into it with an exhausted “Oomph”. He stretches back, filling his lungs with as much air as possible over and over again, until his breathing finally slows. He runs his hand through his hair and rubs the back of his neck, believing he finally has leveled out again. Chris bends over at the hips, resting his chin on his hands as he folds them across his knees, staring at his shoes.

He briefly looks at the time on his FitBit, wondering how long MC would be out tonight. He forces his eyes shut as he pinches them between his fingers, suddenly realizing that she might not come back. He quickly shakes his head, knowing that couldn't be true. She wouldn't do that, even if she liked James, she wasnt that type of girl. Chris knows this.

Sure, she kissed him back on the very first night of the quarter. “But that was different…” He mumbles to himself as he sits back straight, looking into the dark field.

He wrings his hands together, gripping them tightly, one then the other. Rinse. Repeat. He shakes his head again. Yes, even though they had kissed after only knowing each other for a few hours. No, he knows that she feels differently about him. Or at least she did. He feels the pit that is forms in his stomach when he starts to wonder if she really has moved on.

Chris closes his eyes and takes a long, slow, deep breath, concentrating on not letting the dark anxiety creep back in. The memories are still there, this situation similar enough to drag them up to the surface. He stays there for what feels like hours.

Eventually he stands. Still looking out into the dark field, he flexes his neck down, facing the ground to try and relieve the tension that has built up with a slow stretch. He takes his time walking back to the dorm. Once he enters he finds everyone else in the living room, so he collapses on the single arm chair to distract himself from his own thoughts. Thankfully they leave him alone for the most part. It has been a very anxious evening for him as he tries to pretend otherwise around his friends as they hang out in the suite together.

One by one they all go to bed, Zack being the last to leave him alone with his thoughts. He doesn't miss the way Zack has been staring at him all night either. He’s thankful for the new solitude as he heads to his room to grab a clean set of clothes before shutting himself into the bathroom.

Once he finishes rinsing off, Chris drags himself into the kitchen. He reaches into the fridge for a gatorade, already feeling how sore he is, making him laugh softly to himself as he sits on one of the barstools. The closest seat to the suite door.

*****Chapter15*****

It’s late, making his mind run through multiple scenarios as to why MC had not yet returned. He can’t make himself go to sleep. Not until he knows she’s back, until she is home. His mind shuffles through all the possible scenarios for her night. Some were of her having the best night of her life, leaving with James and not coming back to the suite, making his stomach turn at the thought. The scenarios range from that, all the way to something more ominous occurring.

Before he can travel further down that dark path, he hears something at the door. Recognizing the sound of keys Chris jumps up. He takes a breath, collecting himself before gently opening the door faster than she can point the key at the lock. Her eyes widen with surprise as they slowly rise to see what force is at work. Her hazel eyes meet piercing blues once again. Chris doesn’t say anything, his face displaying raw relief as they look at each other. He steps back, giving her room to enter as he gestures for her to come inside.

“Oh, Chris…” MC starts as she stands there stunned for a moment. “I thought everyone would be asleep” She says softly as she finally enters the suite.

He gives her a small smile, feeling his body finally relax for the first time since James knocked on the door hours before. “I uh, I couldn’t sleep I guess. Just been watching some TV.”

“Sorry, I was trying to be quiet when I came back.” She frowns as if she has failed.

As he quietly shuts and locks the door behind her, Chris turns to watch her as she leans in and smells the flowers James had brought her earlier. He just stands there, studying her face as she closes her eyes and enjoys the smell of the roses. A small smile creeps across her face, causing him to grow a small one too, his chest becoming tight at the same time.

He takes a few steps into the living space, moving slightly closer to her by doing so. MC finally opens her eyes, blinking a few times like she has become lost for a moment. She turns and faces him, suddenly remembering that she isn't alone.

Chris looks deeply into her eyes, unmoving as he speaks, his hands jammed into his jean pockets. “James was right.”

She looks at him confused, prompting him to continue, his voice even softer this time. “What he said earlier, about you looking breathtaking tonight…”

He sees MC suck in a breath and lean back on her heels, somewhat stunned by his words. Chris lets out a small laugh, almost mockingly towards himself as he turns his eyes away from her and starts moving towards the hallway. As he passes her, he speaks again, his head down slightly, his eyes are kind and attentive as he quickly looks to her’s again.

“Yeah… he was right.” He clears his throat as he tears his eyes away, still moving towards the dark hallway. “I hope you had a good time. Goodnight, MC.”

He quickly shuffles down the dark hallway and into his room, trying to swallow the thick feeling in his throat while pushing back the burning sensation behind his eyes as he closes his door.

The next morning…

Chris has another restless night. The nightmare returns. This time the same as the last, with MC in the place of he previously unidentifiable person. He wakes often, making himself go through he routine of calming down and eventually falling asleep. It’s like this for most of the night, making him more exhausted than all the running. Eventually he gives up and just lays there awake.

He turns his head and looks at the time. Everyone would be walking soon if they weren't already, so he decides to get up and get dressed as well. He isn't going to be getting any rest if he lays there anyways. When he open his bedroom door he finds the one across the hall still shut. Luckily for him, it opens almost instantly.

Chris watches MC as she floats out of her room, her eyes never looking in his direction, making his heart fall a little. She looks beautiful, even wearing a casual tank top, button down combination thrown over a pair of worn in jeans. He wants to reach out and wrap his arms around her, to smell her hair, but he resists as he hovers inside his room. His eyes look at her with a little bit of hope, but a lot of regret and sadness as she heads towards the kitchen.

He steps out of his room and watches as she grabs an apple, quickly washing it before she collects her things. She moves so quickly that Chris doesn't have had enough time to join her in the living room before she’s out the door. His gaze still focused on her as she slips through the threshold.

Chris figures she's on her way to Professor Vasquez office as he frequently wants something from her, usually keeping her fairly busy and stressed all the time. He hates that. Watching her have to struggle to stay at Hartfeld when she has worked so hard to get here. He’s always been shocked that she did not received a scholarship for her running ability. She was quick, and she had stamina, making her unstoppable.

His mind wanders through past memories and images. Her long legs and her even breathing as she focuses down the path. The determination in her eyes as she crushes anyone who tries to keep up with her.

He smiles. The first genuine smile to cross his face in days.

He decides then, the moment she comes back from Professor Vasquez’s office, he's going to tell her everything. He was being honest when he told her weeks before that he was falling for her. No more hiding, no more waiting. Zack was right. Chris is listening now.

Unfortunately for him though, she doesn't return anytime soon. He spends the entire day hanging out in the suite or on the roof. He realizes after a few hours that she either didn't go to see the professor, or she did and is now doing something else. With someone else. His thoughts drift to James, the tall, dark, and handsome senior that she had started hanging out with more an more over the quarter.

He frowns, knowing this is all his fault.

It’s finally becomes dark out and everyone goes to their rooms for the night. Chris can admit that he had a good time hanging out with the rest of his suitemates, but they never had his full focus. His thought were always on MC, wondering what she was doing, if she was okay, and when she would return. He doesn't give up though, once again lingering near the suite door for over an hour or more.

He doesn't hear the key as it enters the lock, his eyes focused directly on the ground as he paces. MC pushes the door open, her entire person exhausted. She immediately stops after taking only a few steps inside, finding Chris close by with an anxious expression as he takes a few more steps, unaware of her presence just yet.

She softly clears her throat, trying not to startle him as she attempts to quickly pass by. He looks up instantly, his eyes latching onto hers. “MC…”

Startled by his close proximity as she walks further in to shut the door, she takes a step back. “Chris!” She looks at him, noticing something isn’t quite right. “Are you alright?”

His brow furrows as he runs his hand through his hair, taking a slow breath as he gains the courage to speak.

“I…” He swallows hard, keeping his eyes on hers. “I ended things with Becca.” He pauses for a moment, gauging her reaction to his admission. “Whatever that was… It’s over.”

He watches as she blinks a few times, trying to process what is happening. He knows he's caught her off guard this late at night, but he can’t wait any longer. She is about to slip through his fingers and he has to do something. Now.

“You did?!” She shakes her head and looks at him with confusion.

Chris’s shoulders are tense as he clenches and unclenches his fists. “I made a mistake, MC… I thought I was protecting you by staying away.” He looks down and closes his eyes before he continues.

“But I only ended hurting us both. I’m just hoping it’s not too late to make things right.” He runs his hand through his hair again, this time stopping at the nape of his neck, rubbing nervously.

“So… I’m here asking if you’ll take me back. For good this time.” He raises his handsome blue eyes back to hers, waiting. Hopeful.

[herestheteaig]

What should I do??

Hi, I don’t really know if anyone will see this but I'm gonna try, just incase. If you do choose to respond, you can be as brutally honest & unbiased as you’d like, I’m not easily offended.

I am f19, and have been in a relationship with m18 for almost 6 years. For the sake of his privacy lets call him Joe.

lets call me Mina.

Backstory:

- Joe & I have been together since we were 13, we went to the same secondary school & college (for Americans, same middle school & high school)

- we had been close friends since we were like 11, very visibly super close friends in school.

- when we started dating at the end of our second year, we spent the entire summer together.

- when we got back he just... pretended I didn't exist????

- like tf?

- anyway, we were still hanging out outside of school, but my school separate the year based on grades in third year, so I was placed in X and he was placed in Y, therefore we had 0 classes together

- though, in the corridors, at lunch, at break, etc, he’d pretend I didn't exist???

- he also told me not to tell anyone we were dating???

- this lasted maybe 2 years? until I got really mad and he started acknowledging me in our final year of secondary school & people knew we were dating.

- his mum ended up convincing me to apply to the same college as him, we did different courses so rarely saw each other, but occasionally took the train together on one of our mutual starting times.

- now, I go to university about 2 hours away from our hometown and live there, he doesn’t go to university at all.

the catfish:

- of course the initial: “don’t tell anyone we’re dating”

- when I was still 13, I did something SUPER childish, though no regrets and made a fake iMessage account so he’d think someone was texting him.

- I used Loren Gray’s picture because this boy had NO social medias, he was SO anti it.

- anyway, pretended I had gotten his number on Facebook, and that I had seen him at athletics (he’s an athlete) and I thought he was attractive and asked if he had a girlfriend

- then we went through this long “no I don't” “jk I do” back and forth bullshit. 

- oh he also didn't tell me about her until I said she had messaged me, but whatever idc but that's the first piece of info. 

Sabrina:

- next, I must've been 15?? idk exactly how old I am

- I do not and have NEVER cared who my boyfriend talks to, girl, boy, non-binary, whatever, I don't give a shit. 

- so I'm on his phone, taking snapchats to save to his memories and I kept seeing this girls name pop up. 

- let’s call her Sabrina.

- I had noticed he talks to her a LOT, but he never had mentioned her, but eh its whatever... probably just one of his friends, right?

- I used to just message his friends on his phone so I went onto her chat intending to be like “heyyyy bro, nice to meet you my name is Mina, do you wanna be friends?”

- but I'm seeing messages talking about: “what age would you have sex?”

- side note: he and I both lost our virginities when we were 15, later this year but at this point we had both been “handsy” down there??? 

- anyway she says “18″, he says “you know its legal at 16 tho right?

- “yeah, but still 18″

- “why not 16″

- whatever I don't remember the entire convo.

- so I was like hmm this is a bit sus and scrolled up to see their messages. 

- “do you have a girlfriend” “no” “actually yes” “im joking, no.”

- so im like wait what???

- anyway, I don't mention it for like 7 months? he denies it before saying what he said was innocent and he was just curious in a friendly way. 

- I let it go.

Kendall:

- I was probably 16 or almost 17 at this point 

- again, for privacy, we’ll call this girl Kendall.

- Kendall and I have a mutual friend, we’ll call her Tiana.

- Tiana and I were best friends.

- One day, Tiana messaged me and said hey, my friend Kendall was speaking to  Joe & realised wait isn't that Mina’s boyfriend and sent me these screenshots as soon as she realised.

- I had probably seen her name in his recent chats but didn't care enough to ask about it.

- anyway, the screenshots were just him being super flirty with emojis? like sounds childish but you know what I mean.

- and he was joking about “go to bed its past your bed time” and she was like “no why are you chatting, you’re up too”

- then. THEN. THIS BOI HAS THE AUDACITY.

- “shush and listen to your daddy”

- wHAT.

- I immediately confront him and he denies knowing anyone of that name at first, before saying oh I didn't mean it like that, it was like a mum/ dad joke we have

- so again, I let it go

Adrien:

- back in school, my maths teacher sent myself and this boy to the study area which is an open space in the school, visible from all levels.

- lets call him Adrien.

- note: adrien and I were both quite smart and in top set for most classes, our surnames are next to eachother on the register so were often seated beside each other. 

- we were very very close FRIENDS

- so we’re doing work, chatting a bit- whatever

- at some point, he jokingly pushes my head away, idk what I said, I do not remember. 

- note: the entire school is IN CLASS.

- a few seconds later, I feel my phone vibrate, sneak it out of my pocket to see a text from Joe: “why is Adrien touching your face?”

- I look around and no ones there, anyway he still gets mad about it now.

Other stuff:

- he used to threaten to kill himself if i broke up with him

- or if we were arguing he’d say he can do this anymore, imply suicide, the leave his phone for ages and get super mad if I contacted his sister or mum to find out if he was safe.

- sometimes i’d see him joking around on his sisters snapchat story when I'm panicking because he said he’d kill himself.

- I'm not materialistic, but the fact that he rarely would get me bday/xmas presents was kinda upsetting. (he has a lot of money, my family is broke but I make the BIGGEST deal out of xmas and his bday and everything)

- would work extra hours so he’d feel so so spoiled on xmas and his bday. 

- once he got me just a xmas themed toilet roll on Christmas, last year he gave me a small jar of vegan candies.

- I think he acknowledged valentines day twice in our relationship? 

- which was sad because pre-relationship, valentines was my fave day of the year & I'd hand out heart shaped chocolates to everyone at school.

- often blames his mental health on me.

- will cut me off and then act like I'm the one not listening to HIS problems. 

- if another guy has a crush on ME, then he gets mad at me?

- every boy in my college class admitted to having a crush on me at some point, awkward but my course was reliant on group projects so I couldn't just block them??? they all knew I had a bf

Extra:

- I have never orgasmed ONCE in my entire life... rip

- when I say he is ACTUALLY jealous, I mean like ACTUALLY jealous of me having a crush on like... cartoon characters?? (& also anime characters)

- has said sexist and transphobic things, that I DRAGGED him for.

- I think he's very manipulative and also immature. 

- hates that I'm smart

- HATES that my love language is acts of service. like HATES it.

- there's more but I won't bore you.

mini story:

- we went to Paris for my 18th birthday. 

- he tried to break up with me right before because “he feels like shit compared to other guys”

- I was crying down the phone (I never ever cry) begging him to reconsider

- we went to Paris, it was nice. 

- note: we also had sex there

- and then we get back and he says: “I hated you the entire time” and other stuff but I don't remember

this is according to him:

- I think I'm right all the time and think im little miss perfect

- I put in no effort

- I do not listen

- I just need to realise that all my male friends are only my friends because they want to fuck me.

- I do not care about anything

- I assume things 

- I compare him to other guys????

- I make him feel like shit 

(his words, though I disagree)

- we have been in a relationship for almost 6 years

- he’s my friend

- I love his family so much, I've watched his nephew grow up and I text his sister and I just love them.

- though he isn’t my type on paper, I do find him attractive 

- we have somewhat similar kinks

- my family seem to like him

- not gonna lie, we’d make cute babies.

- we both enjoy sports and also he sometimes plays video games with me (I'm an avid gamer, I twitch stream and play PC, PS4 & Switch, he sometimes will play fortnite or Mario kart with me)

- we have this cute cheerleader/ athlete thing which I like

- oh, right, pls don't judge this but its important to me to raise my children plant-based until they're old enough to decide for themselves- he isn't plant-based but is 100% onboard which is very important to me.

- has done cute things for me before like turn up at my house with my fave candy or buy an extra pack of gum/ drink for me.

- this sounds irrelevant, but I DO love to party/rave but I do not drink alcohol, I actually have a weird phobia of it, though I would 100% get high

- Joe and I both do not drink and although that's not something id look for in a s/o, it made me feel like I wasn't the only one lmao. 

- my first & only relationship

ANWYAY, we’ve been arguing for months, if you see this what do you think I should do? would it be overreacting to break up? I would still wanna be his friend because I care but I dunno what to do

[searching4paradise23]

July 10,2020

Sorry I never finished elaborating on my ex boyfriend, but now I;m forced to give a bit of a summary because this story pertains to him. 

     We met at a party but didn’t start talking until months later when me and my then husband decided to go our separate ways. First two months were awesome, even took me to six flags and booked a pretty luxurious hotel for us during fourth of July weekend and it basically was the best time ever. A week after that weekend, we went out of a friend’s birthday and since no one knew we were dating, he got extremely upset that I was going around our group of friends and talking to everyone as to not show favoritism. This led to him having a meltdown where he tried to drag me out of the club to go home. Later he called stating he got out of an uber and was thinking of jumping off the highway bridge. Fast forward a bit into that night where he ended up hospitalized and when I went in to see him, he said he had zero respect for me and that everything that happened was my fault and topped it off by spitting on me. Later on throughout the relationship (yes I stayed, I know) things were pretty chill except I would get the occasional comment about why don’t I dress differently or “If you don’t do this for me, then I’ll call my other girlfriend to do it” type of comments. Those always left me feeling terrible about myself to the point that I contemplated suicide one day because I felt as I can never make a relationship work. One day after about six months in, I found out that he was snooping through my phone to see if I was texting anyone or looking for a way out of the relationship. This prompted me to snoop and I found out he was talking to some girl for about three months. This led to a huge argument and I was trying to kick him out of the house but somehow he talked me into not breaking up. This phase didn’t last long because he started making more and more comments about my appearance or my actions, specially calling me a terrible mother. One day back in March, he started to openly speak ill in regards to the father of my child and I fought back because NOBODY speaks ill about the father of my child. SPECIALLY after her dad was soo accommodating when it came to shifting our visitation schedules due to emergencies or trips he always suggested. That night ended with him putting a loaded gun to his head in my closet and me having to talk him out of doing anything, then me taking apart the gun and hiding pieces around my house. All of this happened while my then 2 year old was asleep in her room. Safe to say, a restraining order came into play and well I thought that was it.

WRONG!!!!!!!!!!

   My dumbass texted him a month into the restraining order because I was having an issue with my car tires and I wanted to see if he remembered which ones I recently bought. One thing led to another and we were hanging out in secret. A ton of emotions flooded me because I was feeling so good while we were separated and I though I was grown enough to handle bullshit and help him out. The arguing started up again, this time it was more like on a weekly basis and I do have to take responsibility because most of the shit started because I though I still cared for him romantically but I actually didn’t so I kept kinda breaking his heart until he legit broke. After me explaining and apologizing time and time again and stating that I think it’s better if we just never talk to each other, the switch in his brain got set to revenge. He wanted me to feel as shitty as he did so he would threaten me saying that he would tell m kid’s dad that him and I are talking so that way my ex could take full custody. He would force me to hang out when I really didn’t want to and would throw a huge fit when I said I didn’t want to be intimate.  

      Point is, we kept going back and forth being nice and cordial to him throwing a tantrum because I wouldn’t act as I was in love with him. But July 10th....went to a different level...

      The plan for that day was that I was to go to his place to eat, play the switch, shave some body hair in prep for our massages the next day, and just take it easy. I knew something bad was going to happen the minute I walked in because he forcefully grabbed me and kissed me. After that awkward entrance, I pretended to act as if it didn’t bother me and we talked about our work life. We ordered food and were about to go and pick it up when he said he heard a rumor that I was sleeping around with my coworkers and said “you can say whatever you want about what I heard, I wont believe you.” So please, anyone tell me, how would you react if you hear such accusations and then are told that whatever you say it’s a lie. So I got upset and said that those rumors are false and I can’t believe he would say that out of nowhere and assume it was true. So in true me fashion I tried to keep quiet as to not make matters worse. We got n the car to go pick up food and he was purposefully driving like a maniac to scare me. He wouldn’t listen to anything I had to say and while he was getting angrier he kept saying it was all MY fault. I didn’t want to stay quiet after hearing that and that was when he lost complete control.

      We were five minutes away from his apartment and he’s still yelling at me and out of nowhere, he punched me straight on my jaw. Immediately I froze and started to tear up. I never thought I could break someone to this point. All I could think of was of him saying how much he loved me but yet he straight up punched me in the face. Keep in mind, I’m 5′1 and 130 pounds, hes 5′10 and about 185 who lifts a decent amount so that punch was rough. We pulled up to the parking lot and he kept yelling and I didn’t want to cause a scene so I said lets just go inside and started to get out of the car when he grabbed my arm and dragged me back into the car, hitting my head on the car on the way in. I was scared at this point. I had to make a choice, either I stay quiet and not do anything and just see what happens, or do I try and fight back in some way shape or form the next time he goes for a hit just in case it escalates to the point where a coroner is in there determining time of death, they can at least say I died fighting for my life. So we’re inside eating and I’m not eating as much because my face hurts from getting punched and it hurt to chew. To be 100% honest, I don’t remember exactly what our exchange of words were. It might have been something along the lines of me saying that I don’t ever want to be in a relationship with him and that I do not love him , but that was enough for him to slap me..repeatedly. Then I kept saying how I wanted to just leave before things got worse, so he hid my car keys and my phone. This made me mad so I repeated my statement on how I don’t love him and I would rather be at home. That is when he first started to choke me....

     I always knew that strangling someone takes a ton of time and effort so its usually committed by a very passionate person. He was feeling extremely passionate that day because I have never feared for my life before. I can still remember the feeling of him grabbing my throat and squeezing until I could barely move. Obviously, I freaked and started asking why tf would he do this if he claims to love me. His reason is because I’ve hurt him so many times and he couldn’t contain his anger anymore so he wanted to take it out. After that answer, I knew I needed to leave so I walked out and tried to get away as fast as possible but I wasn’t successful and he got me back. I was so scared and mentally prepared to fight back that at one point I said I started feeling repulsed by him after the last time I stayed the night and I said I didn’t want to have ex, yet as I was falling asleep, he grabbed me and decided he would take care of his business anyways. Yup....so because I called him out on it, ie called him a rapist, that led to another, longer rampage. This time started by him cutting up my sweatshirt, then he pushed me on the bed and was commanding me to get him ready for sex. Since I refused, he grabbed me, pushed and pulled me against the walls and when I eventually landed on the floor, he climbed on me and started choking me again. This time harder and longer. and when he let me go, the first thing I said was “now your a rapist and a woman beater, good job expanding your resume”. He then grabbed some scissors, cut up my shirt, then stepped on my abdomen instead of stepping around me, oh yeah then he wanted to show me what a “real rapist” would do. We wrestled and he managed to pull my pants down to my ankles, he then grabbed by underwear and ripped it off of me. He was clearly doing everything as a power move so I knew he wasn’t going to try and penetrate me, but I was wrong. Instead he let his hands do the work. I was mortified. 

      He then tossed me back on his bed and I desperately tried to cover myself so I didn’t feel so exposed. Instead he pinned me down, spread my shirt wide open and talked about how disgusting I am. Again, this is coming from someone who “loves me”. He kinda calmed down after that but I kept demanding for my stuff so I could just leave and so things wouldn’t continue to escalate. But that wasn’t the case. I noticed that he choked me so hard that I was bruising. All  could say to myself at that moment was that I need to fight, I need to yell, I need to run or else next time it just won’t be a bruise. I tried to manged to thread a lil lighter, but still demand that I would be let out because this was excessive. He then would push me into the bath tub and turn the water on and demanded I’d shower under his supervision. I stood my ground and said no until he left me alone for a few seconds. I could tell he was exhausted but was still upset and all I wanted was to find my car keys and go home. Point it, similar events repeated, mostly it was more grabbing and throwing and slapping. At one point he was begging me to hit him, and I refused. After a couple of attempts to grab a phone and lock myself in a bathroom failed, he choked me again and said next time, he would grab a knife. After some negotiation, he let me go into a bathroom to pee and i locked the doors against his wishes. He broke into one of the doors with a knife in his hand. I was petrified and told myself that I had to make a run for it. He was sitting there and I said I would take a shower in that bathroom, but i needed my toiletry bag. He didn’t follow me out so I casually grabbed my wallet (since its all I could find) and ran out the door as fast as I could. I didn’t go too far because I figured he would find me if I was walking the streets, so i hid behind a stairwell. After I stood there for about 10 minutes, I knew I had to find a way to contact someone. I was too afraid to go knocking on random people’s doors because we’ve all heard stories about people who pretend theyre hurt and then rob you. Instead I sat on the stairs on the second floor until a female tenant walked out and asked if I was okay. I told her I was hiding from someone and she kindly let me in and helped me calm down and bandaged a couple of wounds I didn’t know I had. We talked for a good 30 minutes or so until I decided to call my own phone to be able to get my stuff back. She said I could go,and gave me a taser on my way out.

     Once I went back to his place, he was completely enraged because he had been looking everywhere for me and I just demanded to get my stuff back. He refused and I was so sick of everything that the minute he turned his back to me, i tased him and he barely reacted....that scared me soo much because I knew he could easily over power me and take it. Which he did. He tased my arm and my neck....

I think that was the last of the physical abuse. We calmed down enough to where he gave my stuff back and I went home to try and feel safer. 

[televinita]

Zoo, 3.03 (super late)

Once upon a time I posted one short Feeling Explosion in the middle of this episode, then forced myself to stop and deal with a work-nado, and before I could claw my way back I heard "Welcome to the O.C., bitch," and that's the last thing I remember before waking up from my coma 6 weeks later. That's my story and I’m sticking to it. Claims that I may have woken up briefly to comment on bits of episodes 4 and 8 are unsubstantiated because officially, until last night I had not yet finished episode 3. (and that is the actual truth. I technically got to the end and a bit beyond, but only because I tore both apart for Mitch/Jamie content just like I feared I would and left the rest to spoil. Guilt may have played a part in my inability to come out of the coma.)

As I am Very Stubborn about not watching the next episode of anything until I have thoroughly spun the last one around in my head, dissected my feelings about it and processed them into text product, and I struggled with what to say, I got stuck in Zoo purgatory. But after an hour of freewriting, I think I have enough babble to feel content. This is mostly for me, but perhaps you’ll enjoy following my journey.

Originally Planned Opening Statement: Hey, remember when this show was was about weird mutant animals and not bizarre government conspiracies to abduct and experiment on children? Because I do. This is not the show I signed up for and it makes my soul feel gross.

(more evidence for the “why I had trouble moving forward” file, I think) Television Parents Council So we're three episodes in and I am really feeling like dramatic anguish is not Alyssa Diaz's strong suit in the acting department. It all feels kind of strained and forced? But hang on, I gotta go be way more outraged about her character's choices, as seen in this live reaction note: "WHAT IN THE FRICKITING FRACK DARIELA WTF. Is this* why you got divorced last time, 'cause I'm gonna have to assume it is seeing's as we literally never got any other reasoning for that random-ass info drop last year and I keep waiting for an explanation." *cheating on her husband

(and oh man, for the first time I am so glad it's these two who got the kid and not Mitch and Jamie, because can you imagine if I had to hear Jamie had cheated on Mitch with Logan and wrecked their relationship that bad? I would perform brain surgery on everyone with a power drill.) (nobody talk at me about the almost as distasteful thing that happened with them)

To be fair to Dariela, she and Abe mostly bonded over having a kid right after they met; I can't really say it feels like she betrayed an epic soulmate bond. I can muster up some sympathy for her feeling lonely and abandoned.)

Except that's not even her last horrible reveal of the episode*. What are you trying to do, run this character I miraculously chose to accept into the ground??

*possibly selling out Clementine to rescue her own kid from a sketchy situation. I will make a lot of allowances for putting yourself and your family's comfort and safety over the needs of strangers, but this does not fall under that header.

But, um, other than that, Papa Lion Abe is intense and amazing and I thought the whole desperate chase-after-the-military-convoy aspect was really well done.

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Television Parents Council Pt. II Live Reaction Note: "Mitch is a testy bitch in this episode and I love him." (I remember this being debated, but part of the reason I love his Testy Bitch self is what you see at the end of the episode. If he doesn't wrap himself in defensive anger, cling to it like a buoy, the pain of confronting everything he lost and missed will win.) I really love Mitch's two seconds of happiness when he thinks Jamie raised Clem in her fancy penthouse and they ended up thick as thieves. I am less fond of the reality that Max took her away when she turned 14, so the only solace I can take away, before I spiral into that "who TF invited Logan to this party" post we started with is "SWEET HALLELUJAH AT LEAST JAMIE GOT OVER THREE YEARS TO BOND WITH HER." Also, Jamie is so the adult who gives the kids beer to supervise them. I still think it's hilarious that Mitch assumed any adult gave her a beer at 14, because don't most teenagers just have friends who come up with it? I mean, I couldn't even find alcohol on my college campus so I am not the authority on this by any means, but that is the impression I get from books. My point being, I like to think that even in the happy world where 2x12 is the series finale and they had a life together after, this would still have happened and he and Jamie would have had more than one clash regarding her blurring the line between parental authority and friend, and it would have sounded exactly like this, so...thanks Zoo, for accidentally fulfilling my Domestic AU interests in the weirdest possible way! Awww @ Mitch's impatient little "hey" when Clem casts doubt on Jamie's ability to perform brain surgery with a power drill, and then uses that particular tone of voice to tell her it's going to be fine. Awww @ Clem sticking up for Jamie's parenting skills. You know what, just assume that I loved any and everything else that happened when these three were on screen. And I maintain that Jamie, while willing to stop him if he gets too far out of line, also remembers very well what it's like to wake up with missing time where everything's changed and gone wrong, and that means he gets the time and space he needs, within reason, to lash out and come to terms with it while she waits for the worst of the storm to pass. She does point out when Clem's upset, and she checks him with "she turned out okay," but never once do I get the sense that she takes any criticism he lobs at her personally.

(I might have said this before. I tagged wrong and can’t find it.)

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JKras and Emily Blunt's Alt Reality Doppelgangers (shhh just go with it)

Guess what I started shipping exactly two seconds before we went with the "slapping men across the face isn't domestic violence" trope on top of the "this one piece of information that is not about how you assaulted or killed someone in cold blood invalidates absolutely everything I love about you" trope. It's a two-fer of ship torpedoing. (How do you say no to that face! Look how tragic and sad it is on top of its normal rugged handsomeness and love for helping people! Also, guess who is probably gonna quit shippin' it and throw the lady right back out the door if/when she returns and eliminates Jackson's need to talk to the people I care about. That's just how I unfairly do. The Chloe-shaped hole in my heart won't heal, it's weird.) --------------- I LOVE YOU, MAN

And then this episode ends with Jackson's face lighting up at the sight of Alive!Mitch and glomping on him in a bear hug, and everything is right with the world now that my two faves are together again. ---------------

Yet More Thoughts

-Live reaction note: “I am glad to see that Mitch has shaved the beard and subsequently restored his powers of snark to full glory. They must have been suffocating under that thing.” -I loved Clem's montage of practicing how to tell her dad she's pregnant. These are useful sound bites for alternate takes.

-”Everything went wrong. The world went wrong.” This is somehow the most poetic thing I have ever heard on Zoo? Between the writing and her specific cadence, it sounds like something you'd hear in an award-winning speech, dressed up in voiceovers for trailers; IDK, I just really love it.

-Who even are you Abigail; your name and your hair make me want to get to know you but everything else (including my fandom girl-bros reacting to you with all the love they had for Logan last year and essentially forming a rousing chorus of "Don't need another You Part 2"), very much makes me want to not. -LOOK AT THESE GIANT UGLY WORM TUNNELING DINO-VULTURES, I LOVE THEM. -Mitch's JAMIE WHAT THE FUCK reaction to her stabbing her prisoner through the hand was pretty amazing. -In case you were wondering how appropriate for polite company my reaction to Jackson hotly threatening "I am gonna find you, and I am gonna stop you" is, the answer is "not very." -Quick question: how did Mitch's sacrifice save the world, exactly? I'm fuzzy on this. I wasn't tracking plot very well after Mitch "died" last year, but I thought it was a very personal sacrifice meant to save Clem alone.

-Well. That ending sounds like a fun little sophie's choice of "death vs. memory loss." Looking forward to seeing what episode 12 or 13 does with that. (If you kill him again, all the protection of "reality" in the world won't save you from the worm dino vulture pack I will summon to come after you.)

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I need an SR22 but my parents insurance company (Allstate) is saying I must go somewhere else or my payments are going to sky rocket. I only need the SR22 for two months so I figured I'd just get a second policy for two months, stay on my parents' as well, then just cancel the second policy when I don't need the SR22 any more so I can avoid losing the great rates I have on my parents'. Would my current insurance company find out if I got a second policy and cause me to have to reevaluate our current policy (which is the main thing I'm trying to avoid). And lastly, if you can't have two policies on one car could I leave my name on both and just take the car off my parents without having to reevaluate our current Allstate policy?""

Where can I find cheap auto insurance?

I have a spotless driving record and pay my premiums on time every month. I signed up for AMICA insurance a few years ago because they only cared about your driving record so my premiums were low. Two years later they decide to do a credit check on all of their customers and they saw I have a wage earner. Regardless of my spotless driving record and my dependability on making all of my premiums on time they upped my premiums substantially because of bad credit. Its not fair. When I signed up they did not do credit checks and went solely on your record. Where can I find an insurance that charges you fair premiums based on safe driving record?

Question on buying new insurance policy with previous insurance company?

Recently I was involved in a collision where the other driver was at fault and their insurance company paid out for my written off vehicle. Now I have 7 days to find another car before my courtesy car gets taken away, so after using money supermarket website the cheapest quote that came up is with my current insurance company. But the issue that makes me concerned is that I recently also go a renewal quote as my insurance is about to run out and the quote was ridicously HIGH but why it is so much cheaper if I go through the comparison website? so does this mean they will make me pay that high fee of I'm not joking 29,509.43 even though the other insurance company paid out and I was not at fault? On the website the quote is 1,454 for the year which is a bit more than what I paid last year but I don't mind but I'm just worried if I bought that online would they later ask me a different price that I must pay.""

Stopped for no car insurance but we do have insurance car seized not fair?

11.30pm last night pulled over said no insurance.Did not have insurance document in the car,just the license.Because of the time they seized the car because they could not phone the insurance company.Told them only way i can get proof is bank statement as i was 20 miles from home,but that was still not good enough.I have paid insurance by direct debit for the last 2 years and no problems.so i am well cheesed off this has happened. Have produced the lenience at local station,and shown them documents,they phoned the insurance company and have now give released papers to pick up the car.I am very unhappy with this whole situation and now out of pocket. Is there anyway of claiming the costs from police or insurance company,whoever it is to blame,as there is no way i can be liable for something i am paying for,and to pay 30in taxi fares another 20 to get to the car compound and another 170 to release the car.There must be a way i claim this money back as i feel i am in the right.plus have to fight the 200 fine and 6points also totally unfair and messed up situation this is. I just can't except the inconvenience and the costs that i have to pay when i am legit on the road.surely i can claim if anyone knows""

What's the cheapest option for car insurance for a teen?

I just recently passed my driving test and I'm completely taken away by the prices I've saw for car insurance on my parents Astra, I'm getting prices up at 7K. I've decided to go out and buy a category 1 insurance car (or any that's a low category) so it will be cheaper to run but the only problem is, I don't have a job at the moment so only have savings. It wouldn't bother me not taking out my own policy because I understand that can be more expensive but is there an alternative for me until I get a job and earn money to get the policy so I can collect NCD's? One of my friends use to have his own policy on his family car, a big car like ours, until he had an accident and the price shot up. Now because he can't afford the monthly costs he just takes out 1 weeks insurance at a top when needed and this costs him around 40. What I don't understand though is that he's 18, the same age as me, and I thought you werent able to do short term insurance as a new driver? Although I think he somehow takes it under his parents policy? I'v no idea how this works if someone could shine a light on it? Another friend also had a Nissan Micra and was paying around 80-90 per month which I thought was very cheap (also the same age as me) for an insurance which makes me wonder if he is on his own policy? My dad will be getting insured on my own car also and be using it for work at nights. If anyone could come up with some solutions for me that would be great!! :) Thanks""

How do insurance companies insure replica cars?

i am looking to buy a replica lamborghini because i don't have an extra 200,000 dollars layin around. but i know that insurance is a ***** if you own a lambo. The one i am looking at has a bmw V12 engine. so would it be considered a bmw or...?""

""What happens if you have health insurance through your job, then have to get new health insurance?""

If you have health insurance with your employer then quit, how can you get new health insurance with your new employer because aren't they going to see all your pre-existing history from your old insurance company?""

Gorum Louisiana Cheap car insurance quotes zip 71434

Gorum Louisiana Cheap car insurance quotes zip 71434

Insurance for a mobility scooter?

Would anyone be able to recommend a UK company who can provide insurance for a mobility scooter, preferably payable monthly via direct debit? All I can find is companies that want immediate full payment, which is not an option for my 70 year old mum.""

Functions of life insurance?

what is the functions of life insurance

Which way is the cheapest for car insurance?

Im 17 in december and once i pass my test im gonna buy a small car 1.1/1.2 etc. I have heard that if i put my mum as the primary driver and me as my secondary driver it is very cheap (with directline this is) Is there any other cheaper ways?

Where can I get a cheap-ish car insurance quote online?

Where can I get a cheap-ish car insurance quote online?

Getting a ticket for no insurance?

how much does it cost for getting a ticket for no insurance in california ?

About how much is Valet parking insurance in FL?

garage liability insurance

Low income health insurance?

One of my friends recently came to US from a different country. She sold whatever she had and came to US with 25000$. Recently since she was sick she had to go to emergency room for three days. The problem is she did not have any kind of health insurance. Somebody in the hospital told her that she might be eligible for special kind of low income insurance. Her salary is 900$ per month and she get some help from her brother to be able to pay for rent and living costs. Here is my question: does having 25000$ in the bank account disqualify her for this low income insurance? Do they expect that she pay nearly all these 25000$ for the cost of her visit to emergency room? She was asked to provide all the documents regarding her bank accounts, rent she pays and documents showing her income. She is living in Bay area.""

Why can't I get car insurance?

I passed my driving test on the 11/10/12 I am not the registered owner on the V5 Log Book, my father is already insured on the vehicle that will be handed over to me as a shared car yet, I can't get my own insurance because I had one claim as a provisional license back in 2010, would it be better to go as an additional driver on my fathers policy or somehow resolve the problem as be the policy holder myself. Also my father admits he will be no longer needing the car when the insurance expires, but what do I do? just to be able to drive my car as I've only recently passed and want to go out for a drive!!!! Will the log book eventually need to be in my name so I can insure it? Also I'm having great difficulty with the claims, I can't seemed to be insured just because of a motorcycle accident claim that wasn't even my fault! thanks.""

Motorcycle insurance for 16 year old?

Just wondering, how much would motorcycle insurance be monthly for a 16 year old, living in NY, say with a 500-600 cc engine bike?""

My dentist wants me to pay up front and have my insurance company reimburse ME?

I just went to the dentist today and had a filling. I have dental insurance, but the dentist wanted payment up front for the services. The receptionist said they require payment in full for the services on the day of service, and then they will send the insurance claim in to the company and eventually I will receive a reimbursement check. Isn't that what INSURANCE IS FOR??? So you DON'T have to pay????? I don't handle the cash in my family, so after much arguing about requiring payment up front, the receptionist agreed to let me walk out withouth paying, but expects me to have my husband pay by tomorrow. It just doesn't seem right that the dentist gets cash up front for the work, and then makes ME wait to get reimbursed by the insurance company... what the heck?""

How much would car insurance be for an 18 year old male?

I currently am under my mom's car insurance and I have a 2000 Ford Focus. I plan on trading that in for a 2012 Ford Focus, and I was just wondering how much it would cost for me to insure that car. My monthly insurance payments aren't that expensive. I just don't want to be paying more than I can afford.""

How much would a personal health insurance policy cost for a family of 5?

My friend is thinking about quitting his job to play poker for a living. I abolutely don't think it's a good idea because he has three kids, so you don't have to tell me that... Although over the past month of doing that in AC, he is averaging $450/day, and he is smart about how much he risks and an amazing player. Anyway he had a union job with great medical insurance; but if he did this for a living at $450/day... he'd still be making like three times what he did/year. His medical insurance would have to be purchased individually now. I was wondering if anyone knew what that could cost for a family of 5? I'm thinking like 6-10K per year... that sound about right?""

How much on average is car insurance for young drivers in florida?

i'm a 20 yr old female just trying to budget to figure out how much i need to save for when I get my car. I plan on spending about 2000$ on a used car, but am trying to add in the price of tags, tax, insurance all those up front prices so I figure out how much i need to save up and how many hours i absolutely need to have per week. So, just a rough estimate like $100...$150...something like that. Don't feel like doing price check to price check online with the quotes since I have no clue on the car yet..don't want it to be anything under maybe a '95""

Car Insurance help please?

I'm 19 year old male. I got my license for the first time (1 month ago) in NC. I was added to my moms insurance (i don't have a car) and first they told me it was $300 every 2 months for me, now they are saying its $445. I am trying to save up for a car to buy in January and I don't drive my moms car. I asked the insurance company can I be taken off the policy and they said Turn your license back in or show proof of insurance with another company... I rent a car about once a week from ZipCar (Insurance included) and I don't want to turn my license back in. Anyone have any experience?""

Aetna student health insurance cover accutane?

Does anyone know whether Aetna STUDENT health insurance cover accutane? I don't know whether regular Aetna and Aetna Student are the same. also, for guys who have taken accutane, do we take the ipledge too? if so, how long do we have to wait before taking our first pill?""

Aircraft insurance rates with DUI/DWI?

If one is a partner in a small airplane, what effect would a potential DUI/DWI have on current insurance rates?""

Where can I find affordable health insurance?

Where can I find affordable health insurance without a deductible that makes it pointless to have insurance? We live in Nampa Idaho. We are on a tight budget but I can probably make room for a couple hundred dollars. I would need family coverage for myself, husband and 2 year old daughter. I have tried looking around online and all of the insurance plans are about $400+ a month and still have a deductible of $2500+ per person. I have looked into welfare and their income limit is $317 a month, and they have no options for paying a monthly premium for people that can't afford the other plans. I just wanted to see if anybody had any recommendations for something that might be a little affordable. We have chronic health conditions so we do tend to use a lot of medical services.""

Car Insurance quote suddenly disappeared?!?

I've just been obtaining quotes for a couple of cars I may buy - I'm 19 and looking to buy my first car. I was on moneysupermarket.com and noticed Admiral were consistently the cheapest company - so I kept changing some details to make the quote lower if possible, just messing around really. After around 10 quotes or so (with them being the lowest each time) I noticed that admiral was no longer displaying a quote and was now in the section shown as no quotes produced along with around 60 other companies. Why is this? Have I broken a limit of some kind? But why would the other companies still be there displaying quotes (albeit they're higher which isn't to my liking!). It's confusing and frustrating, can someone tell me why this has happened? I think I've told you as much info as possible but I'll add more detail if asked. Thanks.""

What is the cheapest car insurance in Florida?

I wand to know what is the cheapest car insurance in tampa FL this is my first car insurance and i am 23 what is the avrage for people in my same age pay for thier insuranse and i have a clean record the car will be Acura 2.2 CL 1997 2doors

On average how much would a body kit raise insurance?

Like on a mustang! Thank you for your time and may God bless you :)<3

How do you get car insurance?

I am on my mom's car insurance with Geico but it is no cost because I had my permit. I just got my license like 2 days ago. Will I have to notify them? I'm going to get a car next week probably, so you have to have car insurance to actually buy a car don't you? Could someone explain the process to me? Thx =]""

""Lowest insurance with DUI, California?""

I just need to find out from real life members I did some checking around with the big companies and found out that Nationwide was cheaper Me 38 with the DUI my insurance went from $70 bucks to $89 a month. I think that is high and I only have the state minimum, which in California the department of motor vehicles pounds you. Anyone else can recommend someone cheaper. Before I checked with Geico, Allstate, Farmers, AAA, and Progressive, 21st century all liars. Also I know what happen Im taking responsibility so NO NAZI MADD responses.""

How much would insurance cost. The car is a 2000 Lincoln Continental.?

How much would it cost I would mostlikely be put on my parents policy. Just wondering how much it would cost. Im 16.

California unemployment insurance?

Can I still receive unemployment benefits if I return to school? I know you have to be available to work full time. What if I don't tell them I'm going back to school? I know they have job training but I'd like to go to a fully accredited school. Please help. Thank you

Isn't the real problem causing a health care crisis in USA that cost of healthcare/insurance is too high?

Health care costs are out of control and so is the cost to insure. Because of the high cost of insurance many employers no longer offer what used to be a very common employee benefit. So now we millions of americans who are uninsured because they cant afford to go out and pay 600, 700,800, 900 dollars a month for private health insurance coverage. The rich and the fortunate ones with group insurance are taken care of. The ones who dont work and are on medicaid are taken care of, but the ones who are above the poverty line and work but are struggling as it is to make ends meet cannot afford the high insurance premiums and are left uninsured. We need to find a way to make health insurance and health care more affordable ..this is how people will get insurance on their own and the government will not have to tax us more to provide more free health care.""

Gorum Louisiana Cheap car insurance quotes zip 71434

Gorum Louisiana Cheap car insurance quotes zip 71434

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