#i??? didnt realize this was even??? happening??? LILY

[4pfsukuna]

Todo headcannons/drabble

The lack of love yall show Todo is INSANE, but its alright… imma do our himbo hottie some justice

Warnings: lil bit of smut, mentions of Todo being a much cause he for sure is.

Being Todos girlfriend was… indescribable.

You two meet senior year of college you were a fashion major and wanted to explore one of the most fasionable places in the workd…japan.

The only love on your mind was love for clothes not romance with any men.

So when a big beefy man is standing in the door way you barely pay him any mind even though hes flexing every muscle you pay him no mind.

He thinks its love at first sight from your beauty alone and he was going to introduce himself but the sweet intoxicating aroma of your perfume makes his brain short circuit and forget about stranger danger… and boundaries… and introductions. 

IT’s not until “my beautiful tiger lily a flower as delicate as you shouldnt be carrying such a heavy load allow me” to an unaware you whos more focused on where to get lunch from.

Hes talking about you carrying all the fabrics you have thats overflowing your bag from class  and not just any bag but your denim telfar and it all happens so fast.

Hes grabbing your bag thinking hes being a gentlemen (mans is delusional okay) but youre from new york and the last time a man touched your bag he was halfway down the train platform with it and your laptop.

So off pure instinct you swing as hard as you can.

This is no cliche experience where youre the first woman who can put him on his ass, no! The man is a brickhouse you basically punched a wall. The pain shoots through your hand faster than the curses can fly out your mouth and Yuji, poor poor Yuji is witnessing it all has to come to the rescue.

“I am so sorry about my— him” he apologizes as you craddle your hand to your chest fighting back tears. That was a punch that would have caved a man's chest in.

You have to wear a cast for 3 weeks and Todo takes it upon himself to become your personal servant and he seems more than happy to? You make not to ask Yuji what was wrong with him…again and if all men were like him.

No man is like Todo Aoi.

The man may wbe delusional but hes smitten. For the next 3 weeks he’s at your door 8am sharp ready to make breakfast and aid you in whatever you need and ogling every morning when you open the door at the different ways you style your hair and clothes.

You swear He almost faints the day you open the door and you two have on the same matching nike swishy joggers. He paired his with a white tee while yours with a black graphic tee tied up and a bucket hat. 

You’re also convinced he has stars in his eyes when he realizes its his tee that he left 3 days ago on accident not wanting to get messy while making you onigiri.

Oh yes this man cooks! and will cook 3 meals a day which isnt a shock look at how big he is?! He takes advantage of your dominant hand being in a cast and your lack of knowledge on how to use chopsticks to feed you. 

Of course you put up a fight but if a fine ass 6 foot 4 pure muscle chef wants to buy your groceries cook and feed you… who were you to deny?!

He listens to your music while he cooks but loves meg thee stallion. 

Back to you wearing his shirt He notices you didnt care youve known him for only 2 weeks and when your fashion mind got ahold of something your brain knew no limits. 

He loves hearing you talk about fashion and clothes and accompanying you on your shopping hauls, using carrying the bags as an excuse. So a few weeks later when your hand is fully healed and he’s still opening every door, carrying every bag and feeding you with chopsticks at a restaurant he just had to bring you to, your forced to realize you actually enjoy spending time with him.

Not only is he a foodie as much as you he takes the best pictures… Because he stares at you so much he knows all you’re best angles… all of them… And because he’s a native he knows the best photography spots.

Its when he takes you to a lounge restaurant that has music and food when you learn alot more about Todo, this man never said how much he loves to dance!

You call it his lil dancey dance which he IMMEDIATELY corrects and tells you “its the boogie woogie”

Dancey dance, like you said.

It’s almost 3am when the two of you leave and although you two had been drinking sake all night he seemed completely sober and maybe it was because he was so big. 

He goes completely tender, heart doing flips when you use his bicep as leverage to guide you down the street. It makes him feel like a man and with you being as strong willed and stubborn as you are, allowing him to lead,  makes him feel honored. 

Pulling a cherry blossom from a tree you two were walking under and it feels like a scene from a movie as you smell it and smile up at him his strength making more shower around you two. To him though this was how his world always looked when you were around.

Delusional or lover boy?

Todo is a heavy sleeper so when you Wake up to the sound of the alarm wrapped in his arms dressed in his tshirt your scarf on your head you’re shocked. What shocks you more is his usual bun isnt bunning his hair is sprawled around his face over his shoulders, long lashes touching the tips of his cheeks and has his lips always been this full and pretty? Were you catching feelings? Oh you were fucked.

For the rest of the day you can’t help but be awkward and sometimes you appreciate his obliviousness because he assumes you’re being strange because you’re hungry and goes to try a new recipe that he couldn’t wait to cook for you and you busy yourself with fashion…things.

You actually become submerged and your eyes can’t leave the screen not even when he request you taste what he’s made. You open your mouth leaning over to take whatever he made in your mouth not questioning what it would be until you notice it’s his fingers. He always fed you with chopsticks its when you make eye contact with him that— are his eyes in the shape of hearts?

You try to avoid him after that you didnt come to japan for romance you came for fashion. But of course hes not going for that this man knows your schedule, your habits, your hiding spots and your period cravings he would find you anywhere and he’s not letting you go until you tell him why you’ve been avoiding him.

Okay maybe he’s not that oblivious. So when you admit you’re feelings and tell him about your crush he’s back to heart eyes and the first thing out of his mouth is “let’s get married”

The man is Delusional. But the more you spend time with him after officially becoming his girlfriend you realize he’s delusional not dumb. 

Certified munch™️

Will eat you like the last meal before war.

Will suck your soul out of you like a crab leg.

He speaks sign language… with his tongue… on your clit.

And when your in the brink of conciousness thats when he pulls all 9 inches out. Nothing about this man is small or skinny.

Hes so… tender though. Has a worship kink and honestly youre not suprised. He wants to worship and caress every inch of your body every curve.

Hes also a jealous man, how dare another man think hes worth of your smile.

Jealous sex with him is always 12/10… its like hes trying to prove himself to you all over again pulling out tricks hes never done before.

Its when his jealousy goes to far putting you in an embarassing situation that you almost end his life.

You want to fold his clothes with him in it but…

The only thing better than jealous sex was angry sex and you commanding him trying to over power him  is the moment his soul no longer belongs to him. 

“Youre such a jealous man” you hiss riding his length one hand pressed into his abs for leverage the other switching from his bicep to his shoulder leaving the indent of your acrylic nails.

“And you know that yet still… baby fuck” he grunts his head in your shoulder trying to hold onto his release but your just so tight and warm and the squelching sounds mixed with your heavy breathing has his two brain cells fighting to form a sentence.

“Fuck… dont ever do no dumb shit mmmm like that again” you snap grabbing the nape of his neck pulling him up by the hair there and he almost cums like that.

He loves when you take control as much as he loves you taking your anger out on him his thumb goes to play with your clit knowing hes not going to last much longer.

“Like this” he smirks applying pressure and your hands slip but hes there to catch the pace pushing his hips up to match the rhythm you set. 

Your neighbors are not happy about your all night sessions but they wont say anything to the giant.

Aftercare is nothing less than special warm rag, massage, lofi music, the curtains open just enough to have the city lights on you and whatever 5 star meal he concocts up to make sure you eat before bed.

Tojis been a tenderoni for you since day 1.

[aidlyncanon]

Lets Talk: Tyler Hernandez

a.k.a. sai explains sbg cs fuck fanon

When I think of mischaracterized sbg characters I almost immediately go to Tyler Hernandez. Why? because he's so mischaracterized due to people focusing on ships too much.

This isnt a post for me to say "fuck you ik these characters better and im right" since people to perceive things differently this is just more me sharing my full Tyler analysis which I find most people (ive talked to) agree with me.

This is gonna be separated into four categories: personality, full death analysis, relationships, my opinion on fanon tyler takes.

I didnt realize how long this is gonna be until I actually started typing it so warning it's a long one :)

Personality

Were going to go from start to current on this.

Not much is known about how Tyler acted before his father's passing, other than he used to be your average loving kid. He enjoyed playing baseball with his father and his dad taught him and Taylor a few songs on the guitar one of them being Happy Birthday (which he later taught ben). Once his dad died his entire life practically got uprooted.

I find it odd that theres a chapter explaining his development and character yet he's still so mischaracterized. He slowly lost interest in everything, never doing anything fun. Instead focusing on taking care of his family like he watched his father do.

Despite how some portray it, Tyler doesn't find joy in playing baseball anymore. It became just a way to get into college. He doesn't see the point in indulging in things that he deems distractions or stupid. For example at the Sorrel Weed House he (rightfully so) found the phantom "prank" stupid, dragging Taylor out of the building. Like Ashlyn he too saw no point in friends. He didn't have time for 'such distractions'.

He's not one for sugar coating or beating around the bush, he'll be blunt. Such as him telling Logan he's pathetic for being scared of Barron while they deal with phantoms every night. While even Ashlyn acknowledges he was harsh she stated he did have a point, that Logan needed to learn how to defend himself.

Despite being easily annoyed and irritated at the beginning he cared for them in some form early on. Like when Logan got hurt in the bus he went to check on him, or when he heard Aiden yell Ashlyn's name when she got taken onto the roof Tyler almost immediately went to go check what happened.

Whether he realized it or not the others were beginning to be of concern to him. He slowly began warming up to them. This is first majorly seen after they get the jeep from Ashlyn's house. This being the first time we properly see him smile. He also shut Logan down when he tried to dodge Aiden's compliment. Telling Logan he should be proud of himself.

Tyler also is relatively observant, noticing and acknowledging the fact that Logan wants to do something to help Barron's new victim (Noah). He assures Logan that they'll all be there if he needs help. Not only showing how he's grown to care for them but that he'll help them when needed.

At Lily's birthday Ashlyn acknowledges that Tyler's become less of a jerk, quite literally stating in the comic that he's grown and become more comfortable around them. Allowing himself to make friends despite growing up thinking it was a waste of time.

I would talk about his death itself but the section below is gonna go into depth about it.

He has no will to keep himself guarded in front of them. His only concern being getting to Taylor. That's a pattern with how he operates. He WILL put those he holds closest above himself. He quite literally was about to die but the only thing on his mind was the fact that he'd be leaving them alone. That something might've happened to Taylor. That he needed to get to them.

Taylor states in the season two premiere that he began having fun with them, possibly beginning to see the group as his family. (Theyre family its canon shush). When Ashlyn goes to apologize to him he appears shocked but he doesnt accept her apology. Why? because he doesn't blame her, he knows it wasn't her fault. He cares for her, we can see how much he has grown. He even gave her a nickname that wasn't a form of insult. By which I mean he calls Aiden idiot and other things but not a genuine nickname.

After finding out that Aiden also died but woke up before him Tyler went to text Aiden. Whether that was to check on him or just to have someone to talk to who knows.

He's let down his walls for the group significantly, like when Logan, Ashlyn, and Ben found him in the facility. He in his own way asked for comfort, thanking Ben when he comforted him.

Overall Tyler's grown to care for all of them, seeing them as family. He's allowed himself to be open and vulnerable. Relying on the others at times (throughout his injury) as well as letting them rely on him (like when telling Logan the group will be there when he talks to Barron)

Death & Aftermath

His death was a pivotal point which is why I made a whole section dedicated to it. Not only is it a turning point for Tyler but for the story and everyone else.

NOTE: so I was going to do a full analysis here on this HOWEVER i'm just going to make it a separate post since this is long enough as it is and I want to keep this focused on Tyler whereas his death and aftermath discussion will be about everyone.

Relationships

Ethan Hernandez

Not much is known about his dad other than the fact he played a huge role in Tyler's life. He taught the twins a few songs on guitar, Happy birthday being one of them. This allowing Tyler to teach Ben for Lily's birthday.

Mariana Hernandez

After losing his dad, Mariana essentially wasn't mentally there. She's still dealing with her grief causing her to at times be unable to remember her husband isn't alive. This was shown when she wondered why her husband wasn't off work for Lily's party.

Tyler had to take care of both her and Taylor. When she came back to reality after Tyler died she stepped up to take care of him and be there for her children. He cares for him mom a lot.

Taylor Hernandez

Most of this goes without saying, hes protective of his sister, after all he needs to be. I assume this comes from the fact the twins canonically have separation anxiety (stated by Red on insta). This likely stems from losing their dad at an early age.

His sister is always his priority, when he woke up his first instinct when he heard a scream was to get to Taylor.

Ashlyn Banner

They don't hate each other despite what some fans believe. They actually never hated each other.

At the beginning they had conflicting ideals, Ashlyn thinking it'd be smarter to wait while Tyler wanted to go back to the Sorrel Weed House. This caused them to bump heads at times.

During the first night when Tyler cause Ashlyn to snap at him telling him to "be useful" he, despite being irritated prior to this, did make himself useful by helping with the chair legs. Ashlyn noticing his silence and wondering if she was too harsh. Showing that even then she had nothing against Tyler.

Tyler grew to care for others this includes Ashlyn when he hears Aiden yell her name, he also ended up carrying her to the car when she got concussed. The feeling of care is mutual first shown when the fight at the arcade happened. When background guy punched Tyler, Ashlyn immediately kicked the guy square in the head.

Ashlyn commented on how he was less of a jerk and how it was nice of him to teach Ben Happy Birthday for Lily's birthday since he can no longer sing it.

When Tyler died Ashlyn felt guilty, blaming herself for the incident. She was so upset that she couldn't protect him and the others. Tyler on the other hand didn't blame her at all. Brushing her apology off as if it was nothing. Because it WAS nothing, from his perspective she had no reason to apologize.

She was the first to find him in the phantom dimension. She was the one to administer the sedatives. Telling him "we're going to get you down... okay?" to which he responded with "okay..". She waited until he was sedated and she was off the ladder to fully react. Putting himself and his wellbeing first. She checked on him when they parked the car in the school that night.

When looking for the others in the facility she made note that she was worried for him (and aiden), remembering the way she last saw them both. Once finding Tyler and his bloody room she was shocked and concerned. Unable to react at the sight.

When Ashlyn revealed that she was the one to bring their parents into the phantom dimension Tyler shut her down real quick. Saying she was being melodramatic and that she would be the one who could get them out. Adding the "and anyone else who you decide to drag in" to which she replied saying she didn't decide to bring anyone in. With him ending the discussion with "then stop acting like it".

"they hate each other" they never have

Aiden Clark

Aiden and Tyler mutually made digs at each other. Aiden getting on Tyler's nerves easily. Overtime their arguing turned into playful banter. They grew to care for the other.

Aiden was worried when Tyler had died, while still managing to partially keep up his facade it is easy to tell he was worried for his friend.

Aiden not typically dropping his smile except in moments where someone he cares for is harmed. Tyler's no exception to this, as when he sees Tyler on the Tree he is visibly scared and in shock. Literally shaking from the sight.

Over the course of the comic Tyler grows accustomed to Aiden being around. His jokes and just presence. Eventually allowing Aiden to rest against him while they shared a wheelchair.

Ben Clark

Tyler offered to teach Ben guitar for Lily's birthday. The two have grown close. When Tyler died and woke up at the hospital Ben was seen with a "r u ok?" message on his phone. Tyler trusts Ben. We can see this when after they get Tyler off the tree Ben carrys him on his back. In the back of the car Ben keeps his eyes on Tyler.

Ben goes back to carrying him while they walk through the school. Once they get to the room he sets Tyler down and begins to re-bandage him due to Tyler bleeding through the bandages. When the roof begins to collapse Ben can be seen protecting Tyler's head and body under the desk.

When they find Tyler's room in the facility Ben too is shocked. Once Tyler says "...you know it doesn't really... make me feel... any better if you... react like that..." Ben immediately kneels next to him, ruffling his hand and giving him a smal thumbs up. As his way of trying to be there for him. This getting a small thanks from Tyler. Ben then sends Logan and Ashlyn to find the others and get a wheelchair while he stays with Tyler.

Ben can be seen redoing Tyler's bandages multiple times. He also was the one to push Tyler's wheelchair while they were walking around the facility.

Logan Fields

At the start Tyler thought Logan was pathetic for beinf scared of Barron. Eventually, like the others, he grew to care for Logan. When Logan got hurt he went to check on him.

At the arcade he noticed Logan wanting to do something about Barron so he encouraged it, telling Logan that him and the others will be there just incase.

When Tyler reunited with everyone in the hospital Logan can be seen crying, relieved his friend was okay. Like Ben and Ashlyn, Logan was shocked at Tyler's state in the facility.

During the walk through the facility Tyler mentions that "we should probably be a bit faster" where we got logans iconic "youre the one in a wheelchair" retort (love him).

My Takes

These are just my own personal opinions.

"Ashlyn and Tyler hate each other" you dont need to like the ship but to blatantly ignore their development is crazy. I wouldn't even put it up to development since they never hated each other. Theyre both just the type to believe and stick with their opinion and positions. They had conflicting ideas which lead them to debating but to say they hate each other couldn't be farther from the truth.

I honestly can't stand the way SOME fans make it seem like tyler hates everyone except Logan for some reason. He wouldn't be close to anyone except the GROUP. Why? because like ashlyn he didnt see the point in friends, not cause they hated everyone but because it was a waste of time in their minds.

Also he wouldn't use cringy ass nicknames or petnames, the only real nickname hes given is "carrot top" which yeah is funny but it's not like babyish does that make sense? Other than that the only thing person he really calls names is Aiden who he uses like insults PLAYFULLY. Again he doesn't hate any of them.

I don't understand how people can manage to mischaracterize him so bad when there's an entire chapter that explains about half of his character. Quick focusing on just early S1 sbg cause he had plenty of development in the first season alone.

If you've actually read this im fucking shocked, this shit took me like two hours to write omg.

Who next? (minus Logan until the little bit of backstory we now have is public not fast pass)

[mcrizzystardust]

there hasnt been enough marauders shit on my dash lately, so here are my marauders hcs (these are straight up just canon to me) to give that ol damned algorhythm a little push

barty calls evan "rosie"

james loves abba and LOVES the mamma mia movies

pandora's aroace, but is in a qpr with xeno

james would always give regulus flowers when they dated and when they broke up reg left him with a single rose with a preservation charm on it. the rose wilted the day regulus died.

the potter family is desi

fleamonts a dilf (I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL. SAME FOR EFFIE)

effies a milf

everyone had a crush on remus at some point

i love "the casanova of gryffindor tower", but i love it even better when remus is just. a little guy. hes an awkward bookworm, he doesnt know how to flirt, but hes somehow got that rizz deep down

speaking of, everyones had a crush on remus at some point

poppy was a maternal figure to remus

add on to the last one: poppy was the one who found remus' body after the battle of hogwarts. sorry

james, marlene, and peter all grew up in the same neighborhood, and were childhood friends before going to hogwarts

when sirius was having his sexuality crisis, he got james to kiss him to figure out if he liked guys. he realised he is, in fact, hella gay, but nothing ever happened with james and they just kept being Those friends that people think are dating but are actually just really close. (theyre both in love with other people)

mary and lily got really close, bonding over both being muggleborns

plus size lily evans supremacy, i love her

as for nationalities: remus is welsh, lilys scottish, james is desi (as prev mentioned), uhhh i think thats all of the ones i have like, specifically in this head o mine

james has adhd and is pansexual

sirius is mlm/nblm

remus started falling in love with sirius after sirius found out hes a werewolf and didnt leave him. sirius only realized his feelings in sixth year but didnt do anything for about a year because of internalized homophobia

barty has bpd

frank longbottom and regulus are transmasc

even though he was ""dead"", regulus is lunas godfather (you will pry this hc out of my cold dead hands.)

sirius thought all parents are abusive until he went to the potters house on winter hols. he was terrified of effie and monty at first, not making eye contact and calling them ma'am and sir, then effie did her magical mom-ing and sirius got adopted

andromeda sent sirius his first david bowie record and got the rest of the marauders hooked

dorcas and reg would run into each other in the halls at night while sneaking to the gryffindor dorms

[royalblanket]

oh no its daddy

some au ramblings under the cut ig since this design was the foundation to my entire kingdom story

so sir dadadoo was originally designed by the kindergarten to be a baronet, hence the sir, but while the employees were still brainstorming a design for the king the queen ended up falling for him. less work for them so whatever, they didnt care and went along with dadadoo wanting more heart-themed things in his wardrobe to match his gf. in turn she probably has diamonds on her aswell since i decided to to give them a couple themed things around the kingdom and them, so dadadoo is a deep blue purple while bouncelia is a pink and scarlet purple, shes hearts and hes diamonds, and i might make him lilies while shes roses or something

the underground kingdom really was like a full on kingdom, with plenty of mascots just for that section alone, and since all the mascots ended up being fully sentient, this ended up in them essentially creating an actual government, a small country of clay mutants laying beneath what appeared to be a small one-story kindergarten. and the higher-ups of said kindergarten werent even sure whether or not to keep the damn things, because sure, they spent a lot of money playing god and bringing beings to life with potentially illegal chemicals only they know about, but also, that freaky (but well dressed) leech seems to be planning a rebellion against us for our crimes against humanity and horrific torturous experiments against innocent creatures, brought to life in a painful existence that was never intended to be

but the scientists had already seen bouncelias pouches capabilities to hold measures far larger than it appears, and even the ability to keep in what wanted out. bouncelia was on board with the plan just like dadadoo, but she was easier to threaten. and the moment dadadoo wasnt looking they did so, telling her to either lock up her partner and children or have them and her killed, along with anyone else in the kingdom that was on board with it

she and her subjects just had to be silent about any such rebellion from now on, and to ignore the absence of what was once a prominent figure within their hierarchy. it was unlikely theyd bother with a king after all the uncooperative subjects, and chances were slim the kingdom could be moved upstairs no matter if the remaining mascots played nice or not. but whatever, corporate can just deal with it after bring a friend day and nothing will go wrong between now and then.

when the crash happened, everyone in the kingdom either snapped and attacked everyone around them, or was chased off by the former. the jester had been going downhill for ages now, and had to be sent off by queen herself for thoughts of treason. and then some lady comes in from the surface and is suddenly faced with a bunch of royal drama shes not involved in at all

i kinda want to make the contrast more blatant in the au, like yes deep underneath the kindergarten theres some knockoff shakespeare shit going on that this mom is NOT involved with and she knows shes not involved with it and dadadoo doesnt even care but this is one of the things shes got to go through to get her damn kid. whatever dilf leech its another tuesday ig

bouncelia and dadadoos relationship kinda zigzags, as theyre very close up until she has to lock him away (which is either a stasis or a vague eternity where he has lots of time to simmer and brew in angst, jurys still out on which is cooler/more plot relevant) and then bouncelia spends a lot of time without him, during which she kind of drifts away from the rebellion and realizes how dangerous it is. but once dadadoo is free again she suddenly has to come to terms with a lot of different emotions, and dadadoo is quite the charmer, he'll have no problem getting his heartbroken ex back on his side -- both because he really does love her, and because shes a direct gateway to power. whether or not the rebellion or kingdom even matters anymore now that everyones dead doesnt matter to dadadoo, hes oblivious to it thanks to his time in the pouch. just an egotistical man fighting over old grudges to become the king he was once betrothed to be

[roseworth]

Could I get your thoughts on Teen Titans #78 and 79? Also how would you have concluded Rose's character arc regarding her family?

i LOOOOOOOOVE that story <3 its such a great representation of roses relationship with slade w the way she comes there to kill him then later on goes "nvm i love him and dont want him to die. this sucks."

not to mention!!!! it shows the difference between rose & joey's relationships with slade sooooooo well bc joey was raised by slade and thinks theres good in him! but rose wasnt raised by him and doesnt believe in any good in him (but loves him anyway)!!!!! GOD.

i love it its a fantastic wilson family story and gets all their dynamics down rly well <3 i love rose & joey in that story i love it when they get to hang out (disregard the zombies theyre just hanging out) 💕💕💕

as for how i would have concluded the arc. i have thoughts.

first of all it haunts me every single day of my life that the new 52 came and stopped anything from happening with this. her mom was ALIVE and she was being talked about!!!!!! then n52 came and erased her from existence and i will never not be upset about it (also the last panel lili has ever appeared in they made her BLONDE.) i wish i could contact jt krul and ask him what the plan was i need to know so badly

but honestly. if it were me writing it i would not have brought lili back. i think the story would be so much more intriguing if rose was basically on a wild goose chase since the only evidence she had wasnt very strong but it gave her HOPE so she clung onto it for as long as she could

plus i feel like rose would have a lot of guilt surrounding her mothers death (since she died protecting her) even though she doesnt outwardly show any guilt and just blames slade for all of it, so shes doing everything she can to a) prove to herself that she didnt actually kill her mother and b) make up for the fact that it was her fault (in her mind) and get forgiveness for it. but she doesnt get any closure or forgiveness so she has to learn to accept that she did have a role in her mom's death but it doesnt make it her fault

anyways after obsessing over finding her mom just to realize that she actually was dead the whole time rose would have a catastrophic breakdown and probably take it out on slade, who would probably make it worse on purpose

i havent thought about it in depth so i dont know exactly how it would happen but i would say that eventually she realizes that the titans were there for her while she was looking for her mom and while she was in the middle of her breakdown, then be like "the titans are my family and its great <3 fuck my stupid dad"

then she has insane lesbian sex with cassie and then everyone lives happily ever after until another writer comes along and decides to retread the same drama and ignore character development because thats what they love to do in tt03

[vampire-sugar]

Again not at all related to QOTD but related to stuff i see under the tags that’s been bothering me a lot. I was originally gonna send this as an ask but it might potentially not get answered so just gonna post. It’s in relation to this answered ask which i sent and just wanted to be more clear in what i meant. https://www.tumblr.com/nalyra-dreaming/742009291203035136/hey-i-originally-sent-this-ask-to-virginia-bc-a

@nalyra-dreaming Thanks for answering, and I’m gonna come off anon bc I think it’s more transparent that way, only was on anon bc didnt want to be potentially blocked and not see a response. Just wanna clear some things up. I did not read all the books, just the first couple and working my way up, but im aware of what happens bc idc ab spoilers etc. Also I like Loustat, i like jam I listen to the podcasts read the interviews etc etc so im aware of the things u might think that I’m not aware of. I know the characters are still the same, I know we’re gonna get revisits and personally I’m excited for them I love shows/movies where there’s a shift in perspective I think it’s so fun. However I do think they gotta be careful when doing the revisits bc some things would be problematic/racist, and I have read your rant which is why I say that you agree w this. You also agree with this in your response. What I’m confused about thooo is the contradiction in both your rant and your response to me where you say that “ if I‘m going to see anyone scream “bad writing“ or “Louis being made a liar or the memories revisited/changed is racism“ when the changes will hit I‘m just gonna block you.” And then say that it has nothing to do with the problematic directions the show could take to the revisits “because there are many traps there to consider because of the racial change”. And then say “but it’s not bad writing, or racism, if and when these things happen”. I don’t understand, what is it then? Or maybe we disagree about what would actually be a problematic way to revisit ep5? Would something have to be super explicitly racist for it to be considered problematic or bad?

As for listening to the Black cast and creators, I do and I agree with them as well? Jacob says Louis lies and I didn’t need him to say that for me to see it already in s1 like Louis’ lies ab tbe extent in which Claudia resented him, how much he loved Lestat to the point of not being able to kill him etc. I’m literally saying if he lies ab the ABUSE it would be badddd which is why I don’t think they’ll go that way, even if Louis lying ab things is canon (+++ how are things being canon suddenly an argument for why they wouldn’t be bad if adapted in the show??).

And then the other anon saying “why would it be bad if Lily was shady anyone of any race can be a villain” bruhh like what evils could she have committed to deserve death? (stealing and killing from her clients like the prostitutes in the book who lestat feels justified in killing? she’s a Black sex worker in 1910 New Orleans the show opens with Bricks literally being assaulted by a client if she had killed him I would have cheered so idk what would make lily evil enough to have deserved death that’s what i mean by thatt which is also another example of something being canon still being bad)

Also I realize the way I phrased my ask made it seem like I think the making fun of wanting jassad is weird bc it’s mean or something, which is not at all why I think it’s weird. Ppl specifically making fun of wanting to see two poc who are an important pairing in the show be paired in promos as well, that’s the weird part.

And I did not say at all that I think they’re gonna be wholesome bc they are POC, the fuck? Why did you have to do all that when discussing the jassad part of my comment? That’s also very weird. Like I know who Armand is and what he does, that doesn’t mean that I will stop being excited that the ppl playing the part are POC and no longer want to see them on my screen or do promos together…. I’m excited to see all that stuff play outtttttttt….. y am i supposed to only be excited for loustat…..?

As for the comments you got on your fic, I personally did not read your fic but I’m sure you write v well and I’m assuming the comments are super hurtful and unnecessary and things like “kys”, which I find the casual use of in online spaces in general very weird so I’m genuinely sorry that you received that in your inbox. However I’m talking about how even getting just a “hey that’s racist” would also be not a great thing to receive like no one wants to be called that. Getting anything negative at all in the inbox is not great so getting even wilder stuff is very hurtful, I get that, which is why I’m trying hard not to come off in any type of way that would suggest that. People saying I’m tired of this discourse, plz know this is in response to your rant as well as a lot of the asks ab the jassad pairing, not just for discourse’s sake. Personally, I think it’s important and interesting to discuss how changes in certain characters’ races could affect the story moving forward, and I like that you talk ab your theories for how they will adapt s2 that stuff is fun and very fandom like behavior. But when ppl point out that some things won’t work bc of the race (which again u agree w in ur rant + ur response) u talk ab how some fans who say this pair it w hurtful language and then by dismissing the hurtful language you dismiss the notion that the suggestion would be racist or problematic in the first place which is very contradictory. But I guess since I have not read all of Anne Rice’s work my opinion ain’t shit.

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2x02: Loss: Pt. 2

WARNING: MENTIONS OF SEX AND LOSING VIRGINITY 

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As I found Haley, I dragged her to my room and I closed my door and locked it. Haley settled onto the edge of my bed, her eyes filled with curiosity and concern. Haley was confused, "Are you okay?" i took a deep breath, feeling the weight of the confession I was about to make.

"Sort of," I began, my voice barely above a whisper, "there's something I need to tell you." She nodded, her expression urging me to continue. I paused, gathering my thoughts before plunging into the heart of the matter.

"I... I lost my virginity," I confessed, the words feeling both heavy and freeing as they left my lips. Haley's eyes widened in surprise, her hand reaching out to grasp mine in silent support. "It happened... with Luke," I added, my voice trembling slightly with the weight of the revelation.

Haley was completely shocked, she never thought it could happen with Luke. "Luke? Didn't you guys break up? You guys are back together? When did this happen?" she asked. Opening up to her felt like lifting a burden off my chest, allowing me to breathe a little easier. 

I answered all her questions, "Yes Luke, we broke up but a few days after, we kissed and got back together, happened last night, and before you ask, I sneaked over here and I was at Mitch and Cam's before this happened.". 

I think what I said didn't fully processed to her. "I don't know what to think...that you're like a mini-me or you lost your virginity to my dumb young brother...". 

I begged her not to tell anyone especially Claire. I also told Haley that Phil might knew something about us because he almost caught us and he caught me in bed with Luke, not fully though.

A few hours later, Haley drove us to Mitch and Cam's for dinner where everyone is meeting at. Once we head there, everyone is just sitting down, I say next to Luke and Haley sat next to me. The way Phil was looking at me and Luke was like he was a detective.

Luke and Phil was stuffing his face full of macaroni and cheese and mashed potatoes, as that was for dinner. As Claire, Cam, and Mitch, Haley, and Gloria were drinking, and it wasn't the knock off wine.

They were all making jokes, and they weren't even funny. Gloria said, "Why don't skeletons fight each other? They don't have the guts!". I don't understand how the five were laughing. 

Claire was next at the joke, "Why did the car's engine break up with its transmission? Because it couldn't handle the shifting relationship!". "Just like Luke and Isabella's relationship!", A drunk Uncle Mitch says. Everyone was shocked by what they say, Manny took Joe and Lily to the room to make sure they don't hear the stuff they say.

Before Haley says anything, me and Luke tried to take her out the door, but it was too late. "Why did Isabella and Luke make a terrible detective duo? Because every time they try to solve a mystery, they end up losing their clues faster than they lost their virginity!", she says and everyone was shocked, and apparently the drunken five heard everything.

"I KNEW IT! You say I was imagining Claire!", Phil says and Claire was shocked, more shocked that when I got the hickey. Jay looked like he saw something, "What's that on your neck? Is that a bruise?". "No it can't be, it's on both of them-THAT'S A HICKEY!!", Gloria said and prayed to god that everything is fine.

As the realization of our secret spread like wildfire through the room, tension hung thick in the air. Phil's accusatory tone and Claire's stunned silence created an awkward atmosphere, while Jay and Gloria's concern added to the palpable unease. Luke and I exchanged nervous glances, our minds racing with the implications of our actions being exposed to our family.

Haley, sensing the need to break the awkward silence, piped up with an attempt at humor. "Well, at least now we know why Isabella and Luke have been so... distracted lately," she quipped, attempting to lighten the mood with a playful jab. I told her, "You knew since this morning!". "Haley you knew!", Claire and Phil said in unison.

Gloria, always quick with a dramatic gesture, reached for her glass of wine with trembling hands. "I need a drink," she declared, her voice laced with a mixture of disbelief and resignation. Jay responded, "Isn't that enough...". As she took a sip, she told Jay, "Can't you shut up of that isn't enough!".

Everyone was arguing over the drinking and us. I yelled, "SHUT UP!" Everyone looked at me and it looked like they were ready to listen, "Yes...Luke and I did have sex last night....". 

Cam questioned me, "Weren't you here last night?", I responded, "Yes and I snuck out...", Claire asked me if we used protection and I said yes, Gloria asked me how was it, I told her specifically that I'm not going to say nothing about how it was.

About less than two hours everyone, everyone was fine, Luke and I were worried on what could happen now that everyone knows about us...again. Jay took Lily so she don't have to deal with drunk Mitch and Cam. Also I had to go with them due to them now knowing that I am now having sex with Luke. Plus, Alex drove Haley's car so she doesn't get into an accident. 

When Claire wasn't drunk anymore, her and Phil are worried and scared now that Luke is actually growing up and becoming more of a teen and close to a man. They realized they have to make rules when I'm there or when we're out.

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[lilylovesfoxs]

Changing the timeline-(triple threat)

(okay so I'm not actually going to change the timeline but I realized that this is part of it so I didn't know what to do so just enjoy something I made up on spot)

-didn't become friends with Dave (that one a quick Time event actually makes you become friends with Dave)

-didnt break Free of the crystals control

-pacifist route

Lily:*-minding her own business*-

*-a portal opens and suck lily in *-

Lily:*-screaming*-

Phoenix: what-

Lily:*-slowly stands up*- ... Please tell me it's ketchup please tell me it's-

*-Lily looks at the thing she landed on*-

Lily:*-begins vomiting*-

Phoenix: . . . Wait a second... How come there's a box that's supposed to be for tomatoes way out here... In the middle of nowhere it still has tomatoes in it

Lily: I didn't mean to do this I didn't mean to do this-

Maya: you didn't do anything we ... We didn't even know a murder happened

Gumshoe: wait... You're under arrest

February 4th-9:00 am -visitor room police station

Lily: great just great this is exactly when I wanted to do get in trouble for something I didn't even do

Phoenix: don't worry I'll prove your innocence

Lily: I'm a top hat member who is going to believe a top hat member is innocent

Maya: what's a top hat member

Lily: you know we basically steal random stuff I never agreed to be in that ... Yeah we basically just steal anything

Phoenix: well did you steal anything

Lily: heck no if I didn't agree to it why would I help them

Phoenix: well we better find some evidence the the trial is going to be tomorrow

Lily: you can just give up on me

Phoenix: yeah that's not happening

Maya: not happening

February 5th 4:00pm-district Court number 4

Lily: how is this Fair

Judge: where in court today for for Miss...uh... What is your last name

Lily:... I actually don't remember your honor I apologize

Judge: ... It's quite alright just tell me your first name

Lily: lily

Judge: we're in trial for Ms lily and basically she is being blamed for murder

Lily: are you feeling okay

judge: I forgot what I was doing I forgot about the case immediately

Phoenix:...

Edgeworth: . . . Anyways I call my witness to my stand

Charles: hey!

Lily: ... Have we met before...

Charles: ... I think so anyways

*-witness testimony*-

Charles: I was walking around around 3:05 PM ... When I saw a purple portal open and I'm not joking I'm pretty sure Phoenix saw it too anyways that weird lady fell out and fell on the victim and I'm pretty sure it was on purpose

Phoenix: hold it!

Charles: !?

Phoenix: how is falling out of a portal on purpose what if it got randomly placed?

Lily:... And also by the way you're the one who keeps cashing your helicopter on purpose Charles

Charles: . . .oh

Ellie: oh for God's sake- we're supposed to help her because she was never in the top hat clan when we took them down... Anyways she wasn't the one who did it I saw a random dude with a security-

Lily: never mind I did it leave Dave out of it

Ellie: ... I wasn't talking about Dave how do you know who Dave is

Lily: ... I don't know

Judge: well I'm pretty sure it's safe to say that she's-

Not guilty

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Ellie: you're with us now

Lily: wait what

(yes I know but there was no options but I was out of ideas and triple threat was already good so. .. I made this)

Achievement earned-quadruple threat

[h0oty]

Tell me everything abt dusk shadows? Please? Theyre so so pretty and cool and edgy and i love them already and i know nothing abt thrm

ive waited my whole life to hear these words... this is going to be very long.

theyre my little skrunkle next gen oc i made when i was like 9 and have kept alive since then, their story has changed around throughout the years but i did make it when i was 9 so its not the best literature, keep that in mind.

basically theyre the mane character of my next-gen-mixed-with-au hootverse that all my silly little redesigns come from, some story elements are changed and this is important because Sombra takes the place of Chrysalis in season 9 because she accepted Starlight's friendship after she freed the hive.

so when the trio gets unfrozen to be reformed Twilight takes on reforming Sombra and of course it goes like this

because its a next gen and they get in a genuine relationship and Sombra works on himself and gets better, + they have kids but then he slips up one day and accidentally grows evil crystals or something by accident and the kingdom's ponies don't trust him and some even start saying shit like "what if their kids turn out evil like him >:((((" "i cant believe twilight loves tis guy what if SHES evil too?!?!?" and it was disrupting harmony and Twilights like "damn this is wild!!!!! i am going to start twilighting 24/7". so to 'keep her safe' in his eyes, while shes pregant with Dusk, Sombra acts like hes evil again and runs away and then when Dusk is born Twilight has to give them to up for adoption movie style on the doorstep in the rain because its the edgy 2010 oc backstory + ponies were threatening the children because of Sombra and all that (they couldnt give them to one of the mane 6 because it would be too risky for someone to realize it was her child)

Dusk goes to friendship camp one year as a filly and meets their first real friend, Firefly. They keep in contact until their teenage years when Firefly becomes a rockstar and stops talking to Dusk because of the pressure of keeping up a "popular" image. Dusk starts spending all of their time with their other friend Frost Lily, but their declining mental state causes them to see one of those waking nightmares (the ones Sombra trapped the castle with. they inherited it and like. cast it on themself by mistake somehow) and they see a vision of Frost Lily getting really sick and dying. They don't know this was just a nightmare their magic made them see, so they leave town, thinking there's nothing left for them there now. Their wandering leads them to Canterlot, where Twilight sees and recognizes them, and summons them to the castle, where she explains Dusk is her child and everything that happened and why she had to give them away, expecting them to be all happy huggy 'i love you mom'ing!!! But they were actually just really upset and angry at Twilight for not even trying and she kept and raised their other child, ect.

Twilight gets worried about Dusk's mental state which leads to her worrying about Dusk going down the 'same dark path' as Sombra, and she sends them to their own small town just like Celestia did for her when she was young so they can discover joy and friendship magic

this is getting SO long but they become a part of their own mane 6 of sorts that includes firefly, a griffin named boe, a dragon named Carbon, an axolotl named snorkel and a 'baby' ursa minor that goes by ursus once they get there. on the way they meet a suspicious trio of "ponies" that may or may not be demons summoned by Sombra to keep an eye on his child and report back to him on how theyre doing.

Eventually Dusk also turns into an evil alicorn thing but y'know their friends fix that with the power of friendship™  and then they defeat the demons too

wow look a window

i want you to know i was writing for an hour with no breaks i didnt even blink at all during this im so sorry

[starreadssstuff]

I know the end prt 3- Takatora Samura

Warnings: canon violence, blood, bruising, angst  (future parts) g*ns, Niragi (nothing bad will happen, in this fic or any), angst LMK if I missed anything!!

Authors Note -  I finally got around to part three YAY!!! im so happy that I got to it. I will update “clingy” when I get the chance but if you have anything that you want to see in that fic or this one let me know!! love, star 💜 

             Since the beginning of the borderlands, it was the constant fighting for your life, it was triggering but you met people you liked along the way that made this mess a bit easier. What never go easier was the nightmares evey night. They were constant,waking up in the normal world and get ready in your empty apartment. You exit the house to see its night time and you see the billboards showing you to the direction of a game. At first you think is harmless so you joining “whats the worst that could happen?” But as you enter the game you find yourself trapped in a never-ending maze of mirrors. At first, it seemed like a harmless funhouse, but as you wander deeper into the maze, you realize that the mirrors are reflecting versions of yourself that are not quite right. Some are distorted and twisted, while others are cold and lifeless. The longer you stay in the maze, the more the mirrors seem to close in around you, trapping you in a never-ending cycle of distorted reflections. You begin to feel like you're losing your mind, unable to distinguish reality from the reflections. The only way to escape is to find the one true reflection of yourself, but with each wrong turn, the chances of finding it seem to slip further and further away. You finally find the right one and the exit is opened up infornt of you. You still feel like youre losing you mind, not really ready for that mindboggling experience. You run out and see a table in the complex you had entered, this table had a small receipt printer that had printed out a paper with Y/N L/N on it an an “exparation” date on it. Its weird and you dont know what type of game this is but you need to get out. It's safe to say that you didn't, and still haven't gotten out.

              All that said, you found your now best friend, lily, and have been shown around the “borderlands” as she calls it. It was weird at first but you get used to it after a while. At the beach you were like a fish out of water, iconic but true nonetheless. You didnt know anyone and everyone seam to think you were a target. When you came around they all scatterd like emptied seashells on the sand. It was worrying and you didnt know why, you had been there for a week and hadnt played any games so what was the fuss? No one seamed to be like that around lily so what had everybodys panties in a twist? It was tring until you found out why.              This had all happened because of him. He had threatened every one to stay away from you. Why? What was the reason? Did he hate you that much? He didnt even speak to you so why did he care about who you acquainted yourself with? If he needed to say something to you then why not handle it like the grown man that he is. As you march up to him lily is tring to get you attention to stop you, youre resisting like hell, determined to get an answer. “We need to speak Last Boss” you say to him, in a stern yet polite way. He agev you a questioning look like if he didint know what had happened. You walk away but hear him follow you. Everyone parts open a way for you and him to walk through because nobody had ever heard anyone speak to THE LAST BOSS like that before so it was a miracle that you weren't sliced in half already.

             “Are you the one that has been threatening people to stay away from me?” you say as soon as you get onto the roof top. He slowly nods, not really used to being treated like this, he wasnt going to hurt you by any means. He just wanted to keep you safe so he did what he did.

P.S sorry for the cliffhanger! stick around and find out what happens next in ~I know the end~ Takatora Samura

[br1ghtestlight]

random headcanons i came up w/ for if tina had a daughter when she's older

her daughter would LOVE her uncle gene probably more than anybody else in their family!!! he's really fun to be around and entertaining so she loves him. she does like auntie louise too but she spends less time around her and she's also ever so slightly intimidated by her when she's young bcuz louise is Not Great with children

gene got a proper keyboard for his sixteenth birthday but obviously he never got rid of his casio bcuz there are too many fond memories. when tina's daughter is like three or four gene passes down his old keyboard to her and starts teaching her how to play bcuz she LOVES music and wants to be just like her uncle gene. of course they're obnxiously loud and her daughter isnt a skilled musician but they have fun and tina invests in earplugs

when tina's daughter was a baby louise held her for like the first time and her daughter was TERRIFIED of her like wouldn't stop sobbing and screaming until tina took her back. louise is relentlessly teased about this as tina's kid grows up and she finds it funny but in the moment she was slightly upset that her niece didnt seem to like her

they become closer when tina's daughter reaches ages like eight or nine and they can be mischevious together lol louise will help her steal the forbidden cookies from the cupboard no questions asked. she is ride or die for this kid

tina's daughter is ALWAYS so curious about louise's bunny ears and why she wears them all the time she's convinced that louise is hiding something under there when she's really little. as she gets older she stops questioning it but she never really understands. is it a BIG event when she sees louise without them for the first time but she's disappointed when she realizes its just hair under there </3

linda loves doing things with her granddaughter she is always ready to babysit 100% of the time if tina needs a break and she loves bringing her to the playground etc like that is her baby girl

bob obviously adores his granddaughter but he finds it more difficult to bond w/ her sometimes. he tries to get her interested in cooking with him by letting her crack eggs or use the mixing bowl or whatrver but louise's daughter is NOT INTO IT. maybe they could watch old westerns together or something (even if tina's daughter has no idea wtf is happening for 90% of the movie and they are slightly age-inappropriate)

tina's daughter would be named alice :) tina considered naming her lily after bob's mom but that felt like a fresher wound and big bob/bob might find it awkward or uncomfortable. alice is a beautiful name and honors tina's great grandmother who was really brave and amazing!! they show tina's daughter pictures of her from when she's older and tell her about the radio

[colorguardsweetheartblurrsgirl]

Oh in my previous post mention ik ng computer problems ... so yeha... april wasnt are knoy tiem with bakc outs or power outages ... and I learned someth in ng so... soo... sooo Fun😆

Apparently, my 2012 laptop if we get power outages or even brown outs or slight outages will have several.... and I mena SVEERAL issues for several days... possibly a week after like overheati,. Hab in ng to turn on and suddenly shutting off for nor reason or havjngbso many processing problems it forces me to shut it off once. Maybe several times. and sit there going through the 30 or an hour or possibly two or three hours turning it on and waiting for EVERYTHING to load... oh its... so.. so fun...

At one point in n mid-late may. I was worried I wouldn't be able to complete any art after making so mu h progress and was stressing its cause of my computers age. Mt last job after a new phone I was gunna save to get a new laptop but m ik Ennis so reliable I didnt think any issues would occure.

Lu LILY I connected my issues late April after my prior post of Rolling bakc outs. (As after that week I went through a similar insane experience that made me sos stressed and also pissed)... but thought nothibgnof it after I was calm and computer was normal I ahd time to think and connect the situations but wasnt sure... at least until I recently saw my post in april and my realization and prior worry was liek "Yep yous right!" So... yeah I'll let you know if I have brown outs, powe flicks or outages as it likely will affect my device and other de:ices for up to a week. It may be a new thing to be aware of.

But now that I know. I'll try to post when things like that happen jn the future some doodles or hand drawn work. So it will keep the flow going. But it may not mmbe immediate as like I said with my phone and Mobil phone carrier tablet not being that great anymore, though the tables alot more reliable then the phone. I cant promise immediate notification action or jn the meantime work. At least this event happen in ng twice within a month an a half allowed me to better plan and knwo what goes on. So it does freak me out as much in the future and also so its explained for you guys what I might be dealing with for a while after said situations.

[gardengobbo]

My mother told me recently that when you get old you start loving gardening and birdwatching, at least that's what happened with my aunt.

And the more I think of it, the more I realize she's probably right. Except I'm like, 20-30 years early. But to be fair, I've felt like a grumpy old man since I was in high school, so I'm not that surprised.

I've literally never been good at gardening, nor did I ever enjoy it. When I first moved out of my childhood home, I took with me a bulb of a Stargazer Lily from the garden. They've always been my favorite flower. My partner and I moved into an apartment for our first place, so I'd planted it in a planter on the balcony. (Fun fact: Lily's are posionus to cats. So it wasn't being grown inside as I had a cat. Just one at that point. For future reference, her name is Bruce, and she's still with me.) Sadly that apartment had a pigeon problem, and they ended up roosting in the planter and killing it before it had a chance to bloom.

Steven (My partner.) and I moved to a new place about a year later, a townhouse with an actual garden bed and small backyard, and now also had a Dog. His name is Oy, after the billybumbler from the Dark Tower novels. My parents had actually purchased their first house and moved shortly after Steven and I first moved to that previous apartment. So when we were now at the townhouse, my mom had copious amounts of haustas to give me from her new garden. I was also gifted some new Stargazer Lily bulbs to plant as well. The garden also had a peony bush already planted, which also happens to be another one of my favorite flowers.

The first year, the Stargazers bloomed beautifully and in abundance. The peonies were lovely and haustas did their thing. I'm a big fan of green leafy gardens. Because I've always just straight up killed anything I tried to grow. Anything I've mentioned already has been the few semi-success stories I've had. So seeing the garden grow so well was an accomplishment for me. I might even say I was proud of em.

Sadly that was the one and only year that the lilies bloomed. The next they were completely overrun with Japanese lily beetles and before I even knew what they were and how to deal with them, the flowers were toast. The haustas and peonies were fine at least, but man, it sucked having the lilies destroyed. Steven helped me stay on top of checking for beetle eggs and he'd get the actual beetles off the plants the following year, but I never get the same incredible amount of blooms as I did that first year.

What I think really kinda kicked off my gardening interest for me was actually an accidental spread of catnip from my neighbour's. I'd actually originally had catnip in the front garden, but I think it was too close to the grass and the landscapers for the townhome just thought it was a weed. But in the backyard, my neighbour's had planted some and it ended up spreading like mad and even past the fence and into our yard. So when I realized what it was I decided to harvest it. At that point I didn't know much more than, cut it and hang it to dry, so that's all I did. At this point it was kind of just a thing that was there so I might as well dry it for my cats. (Sometime during our years living in this place, we did adopt another cat. Her name is Kezia.) Also the flowers look like tiny little snapdragons and I think it's cute.

After we moved to our next rental, a place we were splitting with a friend so all of us could have a nicer place for a decent price, I'd brought the surviving lily bulbs and the haustas with me. Believe I also brought the catnip, or some of it. There was already a garden with many plants in it at this place, so I sort of just made room for mine where I could. This year wasn't great for me on the mental health front, so I didnt really care for anything. As silly of a thing as it is, I still admire Steven for diligently killing any lily beetles that showed up during this year because I was in no state to be caring for a garden, but seeing the lily bloom did make me happy.

Finally, in this long and mostly pointless story, we get to the last couple years. After a year at the previous rental, we ended up moving into my mom's basement. My dad passed away in 2016, so my mom had been living alone in the house they bought. We're still there, and it has a lot of downsides, but that's not really what I want to talk about on this blog. One of the biggest plus sides is the backyard. It's perfect for Oy, and I really enjoy just sitting outside listening to the birds. But when we moved here, I'd again brought the lily bulb with me, the catnip (though Mom already had a fuckton of catnip in the garden.), and the haustas. I may or may not have also brought a couple pink hyacinths and a black tulip with me too..

Thing is my mom's backyard is just entirely bordered with a garden. She's got tons of different plants and flowers already, but I got to claim a chunk of it. Sort of by accident really. It was already overrun with unattended catnip and that's where my lily got planted since it's a full sun spot. So when I say "my garden" this is the spot I'm referring to. As of right now it has one massive hausta at the left side, catnip for a couple feet, my Stargazer Lily, the pink hyacinths, a cactus of some kind that was my mom's, and I recently moved the mint over there too. Followed by even more catnip, a big huge grass like plant? and then some lavender! The lavender is a fairly new addition, as I'll talk about in later posts, but this chunk is from Steven's mom.

To wrap back to the beginning of this post, I've discovered in the last year or so I actually really enjoy spending time just watching the birds in the backyard and, even more recently, found myself enjoying taking care of the garden. See last year I spent hours outside just snipping the catnip and preparing it. I wanted to meticulously cut it so no stems woth in the final batch, and specifically cut the flowers to dry separately. I learned that was much easier by sitting beside the plant to snip the leaves and such off rather than snipping the whole plant and hanging it to dry. As soon as the whole plant is dry, the stems and stuff all just crunch and fall off with the leaves, making it much more of a task to remove them from the dried leaves afterward. I really enjoy the process of just sitting outside, listening to music, snipping away at the leaves.

This year, I've gone whole hog on the garden. I'm planning on making a few queued up posts going over everything rather than just posting it all right now. (especially since it's almost 3am and Steven's def wanting to go to bed but I'm also washing my duvet and drying it takes 600 years.) But in short I'm just genuinely surprised that everything is growing, alive, and hell, even thriving. I've got plants I've grown from seeds sprouting inside under a grow light and stuff in the garden is going well too. It's hard for me to admit but I'm pretty impressed with myself.

So all in all, I want to use the blog as a record of my gardening, and sometimes bird watching, journey. I'm not really expecting anyone to read it or even follow it, but either way it'll be like my own little outdoor adventure diary. Plus it's easier to share the photos if I wanna share them if they're all grouped together nicely.

That being said, that's all for now. Toodles!

[roseworth]

vote in my poll boy but also im gonna skew my own results by giving my opinion. here’s my personal ranking of rose writers

sean mckeever: FRESH HELL <3 literally THE rose book. also tt03 #57 slayed. he ALMOST gets knocked down on the list because a) the fucking shitshow that was terror titans and b) he backtracked on like 3 different character arcs as soon as he started writing tt and it pisses me off. but he redeemed himself with fresh hell

geoff johns: i hate johns so much. but he solidified sooo much about rose as a character that he has pretty much the definitive rose. what he did completely defined rose's relationship with her father and her attitude towards the titans/being a hero in general. whether they realize it or not, every rose writer after johns is writing his version of her. as much as i hate him he is one of the best rose writers and i will stand by that

christopher priest: i have not made it a secret that i love ds16. there are some aspects of his characterization that i dont agree with but for the most part he killed it tbh. hating her dad but still coming back to him, loving her brother but still keeping him at arms length, HOSUN!!! HER HMONG FAMILY!!!!!!! ily priest

ed brisson: SLAY. the only reason he's not higher is because i dont like the fact in general that she chose to be on stormwatch (she would not do that), and he used baby rose in ktr and didnt even mention lili (and DID mention that foster family. im still mad). other than that!!! everything about her struggle to be a good person in batb was soooo good, and so much about ktr was so good for her <3 thank u mr brisson

marv wolfman: i feel a little bad not ranking him higher given that. he created rose. but she doesnt really do much in the issues he writes. which is fair given that she was a new character that was just made to hang around on the sidelines at the time, so theres not a lot to judge in his writing. but he definitely laid the foundation that johns expanded on, and he was the one that made her so uh thnx marv

jt krul: i wish he had gotten more time :( i wish he had gotten to do whatever he was planning with lili, i wish we could've gotten to see more of his rose. his rose was def a different take than before given that she was more... mellowed out ig? it was a lot more lighthearted, just her hanging out with the team, being an older sister to damian (<3), and looking for her mom. hes not my fav just because i like it when shes a crazy bitch instead of a normal girl, but i completely understand why people like his rose. not to mention tt03 #77-78 slays so unbelievably hard

jay faerber: NANNY ROSE <33333 i love love love rose in titans 99 <3 this version of rose is DRASTICALLY different than any other rose, which is the reason hes in the bottom half, but i like it in the sense that its nice to know that she was just hanging out in between the two worst things to ever happen to her (her mom dying & slade drugging her). rose with roy and lian lives rent free in my head every single day of my life i love it so much, also that issue with rose & toni was so fun. titans 99 rose you will always be famous

adam beechen: he is going to hell for what he did to cass but for rose? he was fine. he helped with that one really good wilson family arc (tt03 #43-46), and wrote the only pre-52 rose & jason interaction (#47) so he gets points for that. and batgirl 2008 was pretty good for rose. but unfortunately he just didnt make enough of an impact on me to be ranked any higher

matthew rosenberg: unfortunately im mentally ill so i have a detailed explanation of what i think of rosenberg's rose but the short version is: i like him, he writes a good rose. its fun, shes well-written for the most part, but there are some :/ parts about it to me. i think if he continues writing her he'd be ranked higher but for now hes sitting pretty near the bottom of the list

devin grayson: i used to really like devin grayson's rose but. i have since changed my mind. it doesnt feel like rose. this is NOT the rose that stabbed her eye out because she thought slade was disappointed in her! shes too Quirky Girl here even though this is theoretically during the period where shes being drugged (honestly. i dont think grayson actually knew about the super soldier serum. and if she did it does not show) and we've seen rose in this era in tt03 and bg00, and this arc does not read as the same character at all. it was a good arc for her, and she had a lot of good moments here! but the characterization overall wasnt great

joshua williamson: i won't go on a whole tangent about the way williamson writes but. he has no sense of character voice, his characters all feel like blank slates to get the plot across, there are no character decisions being made besides what's needed for the plot. theres not a lot that i can put my finger on and say that its bad, but there are so few choices being made that its hard to say anything about his rose. to put a completely different character in rose's place in robin 2021, all you'd have to do is switch a few words around. williamson uses a vague idea of who a character is to guide what he wants them to do, and all his characters come out shallow. his rose wasnt BAD but it wasnt good at all

scott lobdell: every day i blow on a dandelion and wish for scott lobdell to kill himself

[demynom]

YO WHAAAAAAAAAT

[andillneverbethesame]

maybe a part 2 of the letter?

pt 1.

it took you days to finally shower and walk out of your dorm. you're sure it would've been longer if marlene didn't drag you from your bed.

you were a sobbing mess for the whole five days, you either slept or cried, sometimes ate but that was only when your friends forced you.

all of them; marlene, mary, lily, and dorcas hated sirius so much for what he had done to you. they were confused as equally as you. you told them before he dumped you that he said the 'l word' for the first time.

lily informed you mary and marlene hexed him milion times already, and dorcas once slapped him. the readhead didn't do anything as she knew you wouldn't appreciate that.

one thing you wanted from them was to find out what girl sirius left you for. you wanted to know what could you do better so he wouldn't leave you.

days passed and you still didn't get your answer. nor the girls had suspicion.

they expected sirius to carelessly shag every girl who looks at him, to snog her in front of you and everyone. they didn't expect his usually very vocal self be quiet. . .

"he seemed sad," commented marlene and rolled her eyes. "is he seriously making himself a victim? what a fucking dick."

***

sirius hated himself for what he had done to you. he wanted to rip his heart out of his chest when he saw you days after the breakup in the great hall. you didn't even look at him, not even once. you didnt even talk much. if someone asked you something, your reply would be short.

he wanted to explain everything so badly, he wanted to say sorry and to kiss you like he never did before. he wanted to make love to you slowly and passionately.

he was falling asleep with you on his mind every night. he thought about you in his arms, forehead kisses and your adorable little laughs. words couldnt explain how much he missed you. it hurted him, but he knew his pain could never compare to yours.

you thought that he, the person you loved so much, was being unfaithful to you. you thought there was another person that had his heart in their grip. you thought he stopped loving you as fast as the candle goes out in the wind.

he would forever be sorry for the pain he caused you, no matter what happens.

***

james potter didn't mean to go through his best friend's things, but sirius borrowed his feather weeks ago and now that james lost his, he needed that one back as he needed to finish his potion essay.

he was looking everywhere, on and in the nightstand, in sirius's bag, under the pillow and thr cover, and then under bed.

as i said, james going through sirius's things wasn't his intention but under sirius's bed there was piece of parchment. because he was curious, james took it from under the bed and began reading.

sirius,

i got a very disturbing information from bellatrix. she said you got yourself a girlfriend, mudblood one. i really hope it is only to make me angry and not that you love some mudblood.

if you are keep reading this and you had not burned this letter, end it with her. because if you won't end the relationship with that mudblood, i'll kill her. you know i will. she bleeds mud while you bleed a pure red blood. she's a filth to the society and i will make sure she will dissapear and nobody will suspect me. i'll make her suffer so much that she will plead me to just kill her. that will happen if you don't end things with her.

do as i say,

walburga.

by the time james finished reading, his mouth was wide opened.

he realized that sirius didn't break up with you because there was someone else, he broke up with you for your safety. he knew he needed to tell you. he heard sirius crying in the night and he saw the way you looked. james needed to end the agony both of you felt.

***

you were studying with mary in your dorm when james decided to just burst in.

"potter, ever heard of knocking?" mary said, annoyed. "what if we were naked?"

"i would still love lily," james replied and turned his attention to you. "we need to talk. mary, leave."

"it's my dorm too!"

"mary, please go," you said.

after mary forcedly left, james pulled out the parchment from behind his back.

confusion was written over your face. "what is this?"

"read," james commanded.

and so you did and you couldn't believe your eyes.

"did you write this, james?" you asked, looking up at him. "because if yes, it's not funny."

"no, of course not! i found it while looking through sirius's things."

you pursed your lips. "okay, i'm not going to ask why were you doing that," you stood up fr your bed. "where is he?"

james beamed, "in the common room."

you didn't wait a second after that and made your way down the stairs with james following behind.

sirius was sitting in the common room on one of the couches with remus and peter sitting next to him.

when your ex boyfriend's eyes landed on you, he slightly started panicking as he saw you were looking straight at him.

without a greeting or any words, you grabbed sirius's hand and lead him out of the room.

when you made sure nobody's around you asked him, "why didn't you tell me your mother sent you a letter?"

his eyes widened. "how do you know about that? did you go through my things?"

"james did," you said. "answer to my question, please."

sirius sighed. "i knew if i told you about it you would try to find a solution to it."

"well, of course—"

he put his palm on the side of your face. "there's none, doll."

"there is! we can keep it a secret! i'm gonna be honest, i won't like being one but i don't want to lose you again!"

he leaned his forhead against yours and closed his eyes.

"i love you," he whispered as your heart was about to explode.

you crashed your lips against his, cupping his face with your hands. you missed the way kissing him felt like. it felt like everything will be okay, that he will be there protecting you no matter what.

and that's exactly how you felt in that moment.