#i wont mind if they do romance later but letting the characters stand on their own first is so nice

[melancholiaenthroned]

orvs cast is two guys in the worlds most convoluted situationship some random kids and then some of the most complex and well written female characters in the genre with unique powersets, insane complexes, and different motivations to commit to murder (all of them are murderers). and lee hyunsung is there too :-)

[swtki]

HP Boys: Surprise Pregnancy Head Cannons

Summary: The HP boys and their reaction to their s/o (afab) being pregnant when its not planned.

A/N: This takes place post Hogwarts so all characters are 18+, though no real smut happens in this so its not an 18+ fic.

WARNINGS: UNPLANNED PREGNANCY, MENTIONS OF PRO CHOICE OPINIONS, MENTIONS OF SEX IN LITE TERMS, SWEARING, FLUFF, MENTIONS OF ALCOHOL, ALSO THIS IS SUPER LONG SORRY LOL

Draco

So everything is going great for the happy couple, you two just moved into a flat together and are working normal jobs, drinking wine like adults.

And sure, Draco knows he wants to marry you, but he knows you’re not ready to settle down like that so he just plans and dreams.

Due to poor choices, when you’re late by two weeks, you know what it probably is.

Draco doesn’t even notice that you ran out to the store and came back and hid in the bathroom for 10 minutes. CEO of minding his own business ig

You just kinda...walk up to him and hand him all 3 tests while your eyes fill with tears because what if he demands you get an abortion?

Or what if he fucks off to god knows where?

But instead he just looks at you with the most un-draco like smile. Like his face was soft and it looked like he could cry any moment.

“Oh my god,” He says, putting his hand on your belly, “I can be ready for this, but if you aren’t then we can you know...”

“No, I want it” then both of you rejoice bc yay baby!

Cut to 6 months later when your feet hurt so bad you have to lay down and watch while Draco fails to put a crib together.

He eventually gets it done tho.

And when the time comes, he’s built and arranged everything for your bundle of joy.

Harry

So you guys are probably already married, but with everything at the ministry going on, it makes Harry less than a family man.

You both agree that it’s probably better to wait so you can be home and yk...raise it.

Well smart man Harry forgets that to not have a kid you need to use protection.

So of course when your period is late you don’t think about it, until its four weeks late.

That night, you and Harry are laying in bed, and thats when you tell him.

“Harry..I’m late.”

“Late for what?” headass.

You: 😳😐

Him: 👁👁😲😲

He’s hesitant to say anything, because he knows its ultimitley up to you what happens with it until its out.

“I think I want to keep it...you know it wont remember much for the first year and a half so if things are stressful it will be okay and-“

“Love...Its going to be perfect”

Mf built the crib in like 45 minutes I swear.

And of course he forced you to keep up with your vitamins, pre natal care, and appointments.

Swear tho you’re about to kill him because cofFeE

But the way he holds your baby 🥺 its his most valued thing ever now.

Ron

Ron is iffy on the kid thing sometimes.

He does want them, but only later when you guys have lived and travled.

So no, you two haven’t planned nor is it even in the picture when your wedding roles around.

It’s in the early days of the marriage when you see his family at the burrow on the way back from the honeymoon.

And of course Molly knows

Because Weasleys are hyperfertile I swear.

She takes you into the kitchen and puts her hands on your arms, shes got that big Mrs.Weasley smile on too.

“I knew it!” She says and pulls you in for a hug, “How far dear??”

You’re just standing there like🧍🏻

“I can see it by the way you glow! Oh my you and my Ron must be so happy!” This woman doesn’t notice that you’re confused.

“Wait what? Mrs. Weasley what are you-?” Then you count the days, “Oh. Well I guess I just found out for myself”

Her face falls slightly, but then she tells you can make you a potion that will tell you if you are or not, stan.

The stupid potion turns green when you spit into it, so everything is confirmed.

That night, you and Ron are getting ready for bed in the guest room and you decide to tell him.

“Ron, sweetie. We need to talk.” He looks like he’s gonna start crying but sits next to you on the bed.

“Y/N...I know its scary but please, we just got married I don’t want to divorce quite just yet 🥺🥺”

“Ron I-“ you start smiling, “I’m pregnant you dufus.”

He just freezes, for a while. Not saying anything, he just looks at the wall with his mouth ajar.

So you get up and go to Ginny.

“Gin, I broke him.”

“Ew, I don’t want to know about how you and him”

“No, I told him that I’m pregnant.”

“Oh, yeah that would do it. Just I don’t know... Give him a minute?”

You give him several, getting a glass of water then heading back up to the room.

Ginny was right, he needed a minute.

“I don’t...I wasn’t...you were.?”

“You don’t have to stay, but I think we can do it. Plus, you would disapoint your mom if you left so...”

“Okay...we’ll do it. I’ll be the best damn Father you have ever seen.” He says, talking to your womb.

Well...he’s a father I’ll give him that.

Pro of having a Weasley baby: free crib thats already put together.

Even if it looks like a death trap.

“We’ll put some blankets over it don’t worry”

You know how some Dads hold their parters hand during the delivery? Yeah he got sick and was moral support from the outside.

To be fair, you weren’t screaming in pleasure by any means.

Scary. But beautiful.

He shows the kid to everyone, he might be more in love with the baby than he is with you.

Ron see’s the appeal of having kids now.

Neville

Moving in with your boyfriend is always fun, right up until you guys go at it so much you forget protection more than once.

You think about it, then move on with your day.

Until the doctor calls, then “oh fuck”

Romance Neville bf

“Why aren’t you having any wine? I thought it was your favorite?”

“I don’t think fetal alcohol syndrome is my favorite.” BRO HE SPAT

But he looks up with tears in his eyes, and runs over to you to grasp you in a hug.

“Oh my god! You’re pregnant! Oh my - We’re gonna be parents!! Oh my god we’re gonna be parents oh-“ Que you petting his hair till he’s calm again.

Lets be honest, this man probably swapped the herbology books for the parenting guides.

“Well I mean I’m just wondering if we should go with this color or this one”

“Nev, it doesn’t matter. Our baby will not care.”

“I read in my book that Infants actually can recognize mood in-“

He won’t let you do anything during your pregnancy.

Gotta love a man who cries because he loves you so much and you’re having his kid.

“I never had a father, what if I do it wrong? What if the baby hates me and runs away at seven?”

“We’ve got quite a lot of time before then.”

He was there during delivery, letting you crush his hand like a champ.

You can’t help but cry when you see him sleeping on the floor next to the crib, its so sweet.

Fred

You two most likely already had two kids, so you decided to wait a bit so your hands weren’t quite full.

Well...your body decided not to wait.

A test provides the two lines, another wild child.

The two toddlers already run around like thing one and thing two, only with red hair.

I think Fred would gladly make the family dinner, and wear an apron. He’d own it, as he should.

But mf gotta not drop the salad bowl when you tell him of the fetus inside you.

“Fred we are going to have a bee-ay-bee-why.”

Your five year old has just begun to spell 😐

He’s happy tho.

Like over the fuckin moon.

He buys the two kids big brother/sister shirts too 🥺🥺

He knows the drill pretty well, so he isn’t too worried about the future.

But its funny that he still freaks out about the crib and feeding chair since he gave it away, you know because you guys werent having another kid.

He packed a hospital bag and kept it in the trunk, counting down the days.

Hours of delivery (He just sat back and held your hand) only to end up with a room full of 7 Weasley family members.

Fred always said that 3 was his lucky number :)

George

You guys were taking it slow, no marriage until you both felt it was time. And certainly no children before that.

Well you know...things changed when the test was positive.

You slid it over on the table, tears pooling in your eyes. He was stunned and quiet, which made you burst out sobbing because you knew that neither of you planned on having a baby.

But to your surprise he starts to smile.

“I want whatever you want, I’m staying by your side no matter what.”

“I mean...would it really be so bad? A house, a kid, a dog?” He holds your hand as you think aloud.

You both give it a week to think it over and the virdict is to keep it.

Thats when he decides he has to marry you, asap because he loves you and will never let you go especially now.

He loves to gush about the carrier of his child, to him you are a godess.

He’s the Dad with a predestination complex.

“Y/N, I just see him being a star quiditch player”

“George, we don’t know if it’s a him.”

He rolls his eyes “Okay then I can see her being a star-“

He made Hermione take you out for a movie date so he could rearrange your bedroom, since you only had a single bedroom flat.

You come back to a new set up including a cot.

Damn pregnancy hormones make brain go 🥺😭😭

He freaks when your water breaks lol

ceo of driving like a maniac to the hospital.

He can’t hold your hand, he’s pacing back and forth, sweating and maybe crying though he’ll never admit to it.

You get the joy of watching him cuddle the baby while refusing to give your child to you.

“George I’d like to hold-“

“No, you need your sleep honey, don’t worry”

Hogging the child.

Cedric

Its no secret that Cedric wants a baby someday.

And he makes it clear your wedding will be spectacular too.

However, finding out you’re pregnant the week of your dream wedding was a shock.

A shock that made you bang your head into the wall because how could you be so stupid?? We had a plan??

So you decide to wait until after the wedding, that way it wont add onto the stress (happy stress) of the wedding.

Cedric keeps trying to fill your glass at the reception, to which you kindly refuse saying you want to remember the night entirely.

Yeah he’s like 🤨 mhm okay.

You can only pick at the dinner because ew salmon doesn’t sound like an option if you want to keep the contents of your stomach.

As everyone waves goodbye to the car, and you both set off into married life, he leans over.

“I may be out of my mind, but are you...?”

“Pregnant.” His face lights up, pulling you into a hug.

Finally, your car pulls up to a small cottage with lush garden scapes all around, putting a hand out, he walks you both from the car to the door.

“Ced, where are we?”

“Home.”

Somehow it was perfect with Cedric, even when it was rushed.

He loved talking to your womb, even if it was weird that he was talking about the babies future brothers and sisters.

“Cedric, slow down. We haven’t even had this one yet”

Basically he is father of the year before he’s a full father.

He’s there while you deliver, holding your hand and telling you how great you’re doing.

He doesn’t even complain when you insult him <3.

He updates you on everything.

If his eyes aren’t on that child, he’s either asleep or dead.

I think Cedric was meant to be a family man, because he loves everything about being one.

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[chimswae]

BTS Caretaker CH39

Summary: She may think she has Bangtan Sonyeondan wrapped around her fingers. She may think it is easy to love the members equally without hurting any soul. She may think the boys wont fall head over heels for her. She assumes it is okay to show a little love and affection towards the boys, what if she gets it all wrong? What if it only brings more complication to her already complicated life? Can she survive their charms? Will she be able to resist them? What if they just wont let her go?

- Pairing: BTS x Oc ( Yoongi x OC, Jungkook x OC)

- Genre: Fluff, Slight Angst, Romance, Idol!au

- Word Count: 3,161

- Author Note: Sorry again for late update, i just finished my quarantine so now i am pretty caught up with my final exams! ^^ i will try to post another one on time next monday~ for those that have read Untold, a character from the fic made a crossover appearance here. 

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Chapter 39

Thirty minutes before they wrapped up the promotion, the boys were interacting diligently with fellow Armys and enjoyed the remaining time left before they bid a real goodbye. God knows when will they be having their comeback again? Months from now maybe?

There were few fans left in the line waiting for their albums to be signed and as usual Bangtan Sonyeondan gave all their best until the end like they usually did. Jin and Hoseok chirpy voice diverted Jimin attention to those two whom sat three seats away from him.

He glanced at the fan stood straight in from of them with an obvious bulgy stomach. A pregnant young lady that looked like in his early 20’s was having a lively conversation with the two pranksters. They were basically asking her about the baby inside her stomach while Hoseok made an attempt to poke her belly, Jin swatted his hand away claiming that he’s being rude.

The beautiful young lady laughed at their silliness and bowed slightly, before inching slowly towards Yoongi side. Jungkook looked amused and didn’t wait for her to move to his side, joining Yoongi with the conversation.

Jimin tore his gaze from them and smiled sweetly at the fans knelt before him. As usual, Jimin listened to the girl story attentively and even teased her making the girl blushed in process. The staff had ordered the fan to move as time was running out, and the fan earlier was soon replaced by the pregnant lady.

“It is Jimin! Hi!” she said excitedly, placing the album on the table.

Jimin flinched at her friendliness and nodded with a smile “Hi. What is your name?”

“Na Yeoul!” her chirpy but soft voice was addictive.

“Are you here alone Yeoul-ssi? How many months pregnant are you?” Yeoul took a deep breath, getting tired over a simple conversation that she had with previous members. She took a moment to respond to his question. Jimin looked concern and offered her to take a seat, with that he called out one of the staffs to bring a chair for her to sit.

The female staff assisted Yeoul to sit down and she thanked her before answering his question, “I come here alone and 37 weeks pregnant” his brows knitted, thinking intently.

“Yeoul-ssi, shouldn’t you be staying home or hospital? It is your critical stage, right?” Jimin freaked out knowing the risk that she took just to meet them.

She nodded in agreement “Yes. However, my baby told me that he is craving to see Bangtan Sonyeondan ” she stroked her belly, smiling softly.

“What type of craving is that? I thought it only meant for food..So, it is a he? Do you have a name for him?” her lips curled into a smile.

Pursing her lips into a pout, Yeoul hummed softly “Not yet. I will think of a name soon. It feels good to see your face before my due, thank you for making it happen” he was smiling from ear to ear while signing her albums before handing it back to her.

“But it is your due, 37 weeks”

“I am the one carrying the baby not you” she blinked.

He let out a small chuckle “I pray that you will deliver this beautiful baby safely. Visit us again with your baby in the future okay?” Yeoul hugged the album closed to her chest and stood up slowly. Seeing her struggle, Jimin took her arms and helped the pregnant lady to stand.

“Thank you Jimin-ssi”

“See you again Yeoul-ssi”  as she was about to move to next member, Yeoul felt a surge of pain around her lower abdomen. She bit her lower lips, feeling the cramps worsening that panicked Namjoon and Taehyung.

“Are you alright?” Namjoon scrutinized her dark expression and realized something was off. Jimin quickly went to her side turning the hall into a dead silent for few minutes as everyone’s attention were on the pregnant lady on stage.

Other members, followed by the staff moved to inspect the scene and like a cue they heard Yeoul’s soft scream “OH MY GOD” everyone started to panic.

“Her water broke!” the audience gasped in horror.

Yeoul squished Jimin’s hand, breathing heavily as she could no longer withstand the pain. The staffs had spread out, calling the ambulance and some were looking for a comfortable seat for her while waiting for help.

“Calm your breathing. Do not panic” Jimin massaged her arms with the help of one of the female staff.

“How can I calm down when I am about to deliver my baby on this stage! OH MY GOD” she said dramatically. Even in situation like this, she was acting like a drama queen which amused Jimin. Do all women acted like Yeoul?

“The ambulance will be here soon, don’t worry Yeoul-ssi” Hoseok stared at her in horror. The image of a woman giving birth on stage in an unprotected environment scared him to the core. The pure baby need to be protected at all cost.

Yeoul let out another small shriek, while steadying her breathing “If I give birth here, my baby better be the next Bangtan Sonyeondan” she blurted out of the blue earning chuckles from the floor. Jimin wiped off the bead of sweat that started to trickle down from her forehead using his sleeves.

“OH MY GOD I CAN FEEL IT” Yeoul shrieked again louder than before.

“Yah don’t give birth here! Hold the baby in” Jin panicked.

“Are you crazy?! How can I hold the baby? It is not a friggin faeces. It is a real huma-SHIT IT IS COMING” the crowd was horrified to hear Yeoul voice. She was groaning in pain and trashing some random shits not caring whether it is Bangtan Sonyeondan or heard by many Armys whom attended the event.

The staffs have assisted all the fans to leave the venue and the members apologized to those who didn’t manage to get their albums signed. However, the company promised to compensate them later on. They have an important thing to settle at the moment.

“The ambulance is here!” one of the staffs hollered, as he sprinted inside sending a wave of relief. Manager Sejin helped to move Yeoul on the stretcher with the help of Jungkook, Namjoon and the two crews.  

‘Please be alright’ Jimin stood there frozen watching her body being moved safely inside the ambulance.

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BTS’s Baby made it to major headlines and became a hot topic among the netizen. Everyone was excited upon hearing the news. They were referring the baby as BTS’s baby because of the incident took place during their fansign.

The members of Bangtan paid Yeoul a visit after their schedule ended and the rumours previous night died down for a moment to commemorate the newborn baby. Little did they know the members were already knocked down by Yeoul bluntness, more like every word that she spouted sent them off the grid.

“I am naming my son Minyeol. Jimin plus Yeoul, Minyeol!” she chortled, batting her eyelashes innocently at Jimin causing the latter to blush in his stance.

“Shouldn’t you be naming him after your husband’s name? Why are you dragging me in? That makes me feel uncomfortable” he mumbled lowly.

“Yeoul-ssi, what about your husband?” Jin tilted his head  

“What about him?”

“Urm… you are combining your name and my name, for your son. I don’t want to cause any misunderstanding” he chewed his lips, glancing at others for help. Namjoon shrugged with a teasing smile, he enjoyed watching Jimin being tamed by a girl.

Yeoul puckered her lower lips, expelling a long sigh “There is no husband. I don’t need anyone’s approval” the revelation made their eyes flung open. They didn’t expect a woman at this age to lose her husband tragically and gave birth to a child alone. Yeah, the boys really assumed her husband was dead. Bangtan were scrutinizing her expression to catch any sign of sadness, but she remained stoic and calm.

That didn’t last long when the pale lady opened her mouth. “That piece of shit, after planting his fucking seeds in me, he ran away with some bitch to Japan. Ugh, a mere thought of him angered me to the fucking core” the words flown like flying bullets ripped their innocent ears.

“Heol..” Namjoon took a deep breath, gawking at the weak girl on the bed as though she had just committed the biggest crime of the century.

“YOU!” she yelled angrily directing towards Jimin. The latter flinched at the sudden attack, as he watched she waggled her finger while recollecting her thoughts. “I will keep that name, Minyeol” “What?” stupefied, he cursed in his head judging this bipolar lady before him.

“Are you Jimin hyung fan?” the maknae finally spoke up after keeping his mouth shut for hours.

With zero hesitation, Yeoul shook her head “I am your fan. For an add reason, these days I am more to Jimin. No offense though, I am sure that is part of my craving” Jungkook scrunched his nose in confusion.

“Hey so I am just a substitute?” way to add more salt to his wound.

“Arent you guys tired? Thank you for checking on me but I am fine. Have a good rest so I can start teaching Minyeol to call Jimin daddy” she teased.

“Yah! Don’t ruin his innocent mind”

“Minyeol is my son. I can do what I want. Why are you so nosy?” she snickered sarcastically.

Jimin batted it away with a roll of his eye “Not when you just dissed me openly”

Amused, Yoongi mouthed everyone to leave the room giving the space for the two to banter until their energy drained. He had no energy to listen to their endless bicker from the moment they arrived there until now. Yoongi had enough.

They made their way out quietly, minding their own business whilst Jimin tried to reclaim his throne as Yeoul’s bias from Jungkook. More like fixing his reputation.

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As night falls, Jungkook put on his casual outfits to go out. He had been waiting for these days to come since forever. Now that their promotion ended, he needed to hear it from Seul directly before conforming to reality.

“Are you sure you can do this alone?” Jimin glanced at his way.

“Yes. This is the only way. I promise to come back home after meeting Seul-ie” he smiled in assurance, grabbing his beanie and mask. “Thank you hyung, for everything” Jimin walked up to him, patting his back as an acknowledgment.  

“You can do this. Call me when you are done. Be careful” Jungkook’s genuine smile put his heart at ease. With one final glance, the golden maknae exited his room with determination. It was the right time to face Seul before Yoongi made the first move. He didnt want to prolong this unrequited love any longer.  

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“Seul! Seul!” dashing from the kitchen to the front using last ounce of her energy as though time is running out for her. She panted heavily, with one palm up seeking for a minute before she could break the news to Seul.

Seul raised one of her brows in amusement “What is wrong with you?”

“Okay. Remember I told you about the rumours from Namjoon’s Vlive a week ago?” Seul nodded briefly, and mentally judging her best friend. “The rumour resurfaces again!” she squealed in the most annoying way.

She clasped her ears to quell the sound from damaging her eardrums. BTS members told her about the rumours and how it trended on twitter and naver, however they assured her everything would be alright since it was only a mere assumption from the fans. Seul thought the rumours died upon the news about an Army almost giving birth at their fansign caused an uproar among the fans.

So, it came back again. This world is scary.

“You don’t need to squeal in my ears. For goodness’ sake. I thought their fans are only playing detective, and no one talked about that anymore”

Hwasa rolled her eyes “This time it is not the Armys. Dispatch spilled a tea. Someone tipped them off about Yoongi’s unusual activities in his studio. They said the reason why Yoongi had his studios secured with passwords and high-quality door because he brought women to his studio and slept with them” frowning deeply, Seul turned to her friend dropping everything that she did.

“Since when you trust words coming from dispatch? Yoongi wouldn’t do such thing” she defended.

“Hear me out before you get angry. I swear this is big and real. So, this anonymous claimed that Yoongi owns a personal Instagram and he usually updated his story there. This person sent a screenshot of ‘Yoongi’ Instagram story to Dispatch. In that Instagram story, Yoongi wrote “I have a lot of pussy lately”. That man is bragging how much he and his girl friend have sex. If this is true, I cant see Yoongi the way I am seeing him now. It is gross, he doesn’t need to announce it to the whole world that he got some pussy that week” Seul’s expression darkened as her heart was racing madly. She didn’t know how to react to this, since she was never a fan of dispatch or other medias. The only thing that they did all these years were to smear shits on BTS’s names.

Noticing the air inside the room thickened, Hwasa stopped talking and examined Seul’s face “Yah..Are you alright? You are scaring me!”

Gritting her teeth together, she sighed “Show me the article, now!” her voice sounded demanding and harsh.

“Seul-ie.. I am not done, there is more. Are you sure you want to read it by your own?” “Yes. Now Hwasa. Give it to me” her brows pinched together, trying to surpass her anger.

Slowly, she handed her phone to Seul which she took it without uttering any words. Seul scanned the screen with beating heart, even though she wasn’t that ready to read whatever written in the article.

Breaking: BTS’s Suga flaunting his sex life with his alleged girlfriend

Following up the rumours a week ago pertaining to a suspicious shadow from BTS’s leader RM studios door during his vlive, this time Dispatch had finally come up with a proof to answer the mysterious shadows.

Dispatch claimed that an anonymous had sent a screen shot of what they believed to be Suga’s personal Instagram. A short Instagram story with captions “I have a lot of pussy lately” was posted by Suga indicating he’s having frequent sex with his girl friend these days.

They believed the mysterious shadow caught in RM’s Vlive was Suga and his girlfriend. The image of the mysterious shadow spread like wildfire a week ago within the fans community and some were assuming one of the members are in a serious relationship.

Fans are debating the possible members that fits the criteria even though, it is hard to tell whether it is the member of BTS or staffs, fans are still open to any possibility. Many fans demanded an official statement from Big Hit to stop the rumours from circulating around and injured BTS image even more especially Suga.  

“That is the first article, if you scroll below..You will find the second article” Hwasa’s voice sounded unsure and shaky. “Seul.. I hope you will be okay after reading the second article” Seul paid no attention to Hwasa as she returned to read the second part.

 Breaking: Underground rapper Stephanie claims she’s one of BTS Suga many exes?

Within 24 hours, the news of BTS Suga once again shook the industry. This time around, like many rumours being pointed towards a rising star like BTS, someone from the past finally stepped out from her shadows to unravel the truth. Bitter truth!

Stephanie, a Korean-Canadian underground rapper claims that she’s one of BTS Suga many exes in her recent Instagram post. And what seems to attract everyone’s attention was her caption directed towards the star, accusing him as a playboy.

“Why I am not surprised? Kekeke Yes, he always gets many pussies in a week because that’s what he only good at. I hope his current girlfriend realizes it sooner, that she is only another person from many girls that he fucked. Thankfully, I was out from the game earlier kekekee Good luck”

 Armys are enraged with her Instagram post and demanded the rapper to pull down the post and apologized to Suga. It seems like Bighit owes another explanation to clear this mess.

 Seul stood there silently making no move as she dissolved into tears upon reading the article. Like those days when her heart broke after learning the truth about her real father, she could feel the pain returned scaring her already fragile heart.

“Seul-ah…” taking a step towards Seul, Hwasa embraced the broken girl an attempt to clam her down. “Hey..Are you alright?” Seul shook her head in defeat, clutching onto Hwasa’s arm for support.

“If I were you, I would wait for his explanation. A moment ago you have a lot of faith in him, so you should keep that faith until you talk to him” she stroked her hair, sighing softly.

“I know..I don’t know why I am crying. It is not like we are in a relationship. Its hurt so badly” sniffling a little, she tried not to sob yet she failed to control her emotion.

Smiling meekly, Hwasa retorted “You love him, Yoongi. You are hurt because you love him. Don’t you realize that?” blinking away her tears, Seul pulled away from the hug with a wary look.

“I am not sure now if that is love”

“It is love. You are stupid”

Seul wanted to protest but a voice boomed across the room garnered their attention “Jungkook?” surprised by his sudden appearance there, Hwasa whispered softly “Go talk to him. I can close the shop alone” she insisted giving Seul no chance but to agree on her so-called order.

“Seul, did you read the article?” nodding weakly, Seul’s gaze fixated on the ground. Jungkook rushed to her workplace as soon as he received a text on their kakaotalk group in relation to Yoongi’s article. Everyone was panicking, and they were summoned to the company in an hour for an emergency meeting.

He couldn’t leave Seul alone when he was sure this girl might already come across the article. The tears evident on her cheeks was enough to tell him that she’s affected by the rumours. Indeed, Jungkook took the right decision by giving up on Seul.

Jungkook held her wrist, sending chills down her spin. Her lower lip quivered fighting with her own tears, she was not supposed to be seen this weak in front of him. He mumbled lowly “Follow me. I owe you an answer” she looked up looking a little confuse.

Jungkook is trustworthy, she must give him a chance.

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[andoqin]

C-Novel Rec

So, I have a Deep Abiding Love for Chinese Webnovels, but not often do I get one that actually gets me deep in my heart in a way where I think about it after I’m done and so I wanted to talk about it a little here.

The novel I want to talk about is called Rebirth of a Star General (重生之女将星) , by Qian Shan Cha Ke (千山茶客). If you’ve read (hetero) c-novels, you might know her name, since she also wrote the novel Rebirth of the Malicious Empress of Military Lineage, which is almost a classic in this kind of rebirth genre. 

This Rec/Review/overlong essay is going to contain spoilers, so if you’re completely allergic to those I’ll just give you my TL;DR here: I preferred it a lot over RMEML.

Now to my endless wall of words:

Rebirth of the Star General is pretty much what it says on the tin, main character He Yan, is a famous general in her own right, but no one knows about it because she was only the stand-in for her sickly brother. When her brother grew up and was no longer sick, the family decided that he should receive the military honors she had earned and she would be married off. This was possible thanks to the fact she had always worn a mask, so as not to be discovered.<o:p></o:p>

He Yan was not entirely happy with this decision, but she thought she would make the best of it. Of course, it gets worse because not even a year into her marriage she is first poisoned and then blind as a result and later murdered by her cousin, a concubine of her husband.

She gets reborn as He Yan, beloved and spoiled daughter of a city guard and vows revenge, both on her former husband and on her family, but most of all she longs to become a general again, but this time under her own name and with acknowledgement of her being a female general. 

If you want your rebirth novels to include lots of face slapping or intricate revenge plotting, this is not the novel for you, since soon after she is reborn, she kills a guy out of self-defense and when his family and the city guard are after her she uses this chance to enlist in the army, disguised as a man. 

This is where she meets her arch-rival in her previous life, a man so gorgeous, once again entire paragraphs are filled trying to describe his magnificent beauty - a hallmark of this author if I ever saw one. She decides she will use this chance anyway, her knowledge of military tactics and her knowledge of her rival (and former classmate) possibly being beneficial in this case. 

The author makes it a point to emphasise that He Yan struggles initially to keep up with the military training, since she is now inhabiting the body of a woman who does not have experience with hard work and that she has to work twice as hard to be even mediocre, in the beginning. Obviously mediocrity does not lead to quick military advancement, so her getting incredibly fit very quickly anyway is not very realistic, but even before she had enlisted, He Yan had trained her new body and she has many years of experience as to how to get better and fighting experience, so I gave the novel a pass on that one. 

Up to this point the novel was entertaining, but it didn’t really grip me too hard, although I was impatient enough to MTL it, but as the story goes along He Yan really developed into one of my favourite c-novel heroines ever. So often in novels like this, the female character is treated as exceptional and all other women are dumb bitches, often just in the way of our main couple and dispatched accordingly. But He Yan does not treat other women like this and over the course of the novel builds lasting connections with all sorts of women.

And then there is the scene that made me go: okay yeah, this is going right up the favourite list.

He Yan meets up with the Second Male Lead (who never really is a serious threat to the OTP, He Yan only ever sees him as a friend and somewhat nice guy) and he tries the “oh you’re so unique and special, no other woman is like you” speech, but He Yan stops him and rips into him and the patriarchy in such a beautiful way, that even MTL doesn’t hamper:

   "A-He is very different from ordinary women."

     He Yan looked at her, "What's different?"

     Chu Zhao continued to walk forward, his voice still soft: "Most women, even though they are faced with such a predicament, are already numb and indifferent, and do not think as much as Ah He does. If A-He is thinking about them now, it is very likely that they wont enjoy it, and they will even complain that you are meddling in their affairs."

     He laughed: "This sounds a bit condescending."

     Chu Zhao smiled, "Why do you say that?"

     "The court is a man's court, the world's affairs are a man's world affairs, even when studying in the battlefield, it is men who are the only ones who have the grace. It is so unreasonable that men take advantage of the world, but in turn blame women for being numb-minded and unmotivated, what is this if not superiority?"

     "Brother Chu thinks that I am different from ordinary women because I have studied, I have left the house, and I even went to the military camp. But if you let those women be like me, who have seen the snow of Liangzhou Wei, the water of Jiyang City, the long moon of the desert, the rivers and mountains, do you think they would still be willing to be trapped in a jealous mansion, would they still be complacent and numb and foolish?"

     She smiled a little bit like Xiao Jue, "I think the men in the world are worried about this, so they have set up many ridiculous rules to bind women, breaking their wings with the three rules and five rules, and using those unwarranted 'virtuous wives and beautiful women' to judge them. The more foolish they are, the more reassured the men are, and the more they say, 'See, the women are shallow', when they are the ones who caused it!"

     "Because they also know that once women are given the chance to 'choose', they will never become a vase in the harem with their hands outstretched waiting to be fed by their husbands. Those good women would become generals, chivalrous men, scribes, staff, and compete with them for the grace of the world, and they, in turn, might not win."

     The girl's eyes were as clear as the water in the springtime of Ji Yang City, transparent and clear, seeing clearly and distinctly, as if they could reflect the most splendid daylight.

     He was always able to speak well and would not bring the atmosphere to an awkward point, but at this moment he did not know what to say. It was as if there was nothing he could say to refute the person in front of him. It was clearly a ridiculous, insouciant, naive and annoyingly righteous statement, but it shone out the shadow of a human being, with nothing to hide.

    He was also uneven in his heart.

     Although pretending to be "He Ru Fei" had brought her a lot of pain in her life, it had also taught her to see sights that many women would never see in their lifetime. If she hadn't pretended to be "He Ru Fei", she would not have known that men could do so much more than women. If you were talented in literature, you could be a bachelor with a full belly, if you were skilled, you could be a general with a good war record. Even if you were mediocre at everything, you could still be the most ordinary man on the street. To put it mildly, even at the Raketongzhuang, women were gambling prostitutes and men were gamblers.

    It was only because she later became "Madam Xu" and worked as both a man and a woman that she realised that the world treats men and women so differently, that it is not that men do not suffer, but their suffering can be the basis for judging themselves. The women, on the other hand, spend their lives waiting for the men's affirmation of their hardships.

    It is obvious that they are both born as human beings, but who is more noble than the other? It is ridiculous that some men still look down on girls from the bottom of their hearts, which makes people speechless.

and this is when the author pretty much states why He Yan would never be with SML 

   Chu Zhao and Xiao Jue were, after all, not the same. With women, they both considered them weak and unable to protect themselves. But the former's judgement had a hint of negativity and condescension in it, while the latter, as evidenced by the treatment of the female corpse in the Sun family's backyard in Liangzhou City, had more to do with pity.

And I loved that so much??? Yes, both the ML and SML have patriarchical attitudes towards women, but for He Yan there is a subtle and important difference. And this continues to be a theme throughout the book. One woman later keeps telling her son “Don’t underestimate women!” to later add, after He Yan has become a female general in her own right, under her own name, that He Yan might not be the only female general, there will be two, three or even more.

The romance is of the very, very slow variety and the main couple doesn’t even get together until the last quarter of the novel, officially, but before that we have all sorts of delicious fake relationship, cohabitation and other delightful tropey shenanigans.

The slow romance and relatively easy way the revenge is dealt out might mean this is not for everyone, but if you’re into a nice novel about a woman realising her goals, with a man who will always support her by her side, this might be for you.

And yes, she continues to lead armies after they are married :D

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In love with my best friend 💗 - PH-1 chapter 4

Genre: Everything (angst/fluff/ romance/etc)

Main characters: Y/N (reader), PH-1/ Harry

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Back home before Harry left for university, Harry and I would always go to the theatres to watch movies. He bought tickets for us to watch “Bad boys for life” at 4:30pm but its 4pm and Kimberly is still at Harry’s house. I wouldn’t mind her being here and going to the movies with us if she was at least nice to me, but she isn’t. When me and harry would talk to each other, she makes sure that the conversation shifts to her, its like she really doesn’t want me to be here and it’s making me feel uncomfortable. I just wish that Harry could see that. Time is up and we decide to leave for the movies. Harry offered to drive us in his car, but I insist to drive instead because I knew Kimberley was going to be making remarks like “the girlfriend should always sit in the passenger seat, next to her boyfriend” and quite frankly, I didn’t want to hear it. As soon as she looks at my car, she already had something to say.

-          “So, this is the car that you want us to ride in? Jesus Christ, we should have just called an Uber” she torts out loud and obnoxiously

-          “Why don’t we ride in your car then, since mine isn’t good enough for you.” I defend myself and my car.

-          “Y/N, Kimberley doesn’t have a car. She doesn’t even have a license yet” Harry says silently as he nudges me to be quiet.

I laugh silently when I heard that. My car has 5 doors and 4 wheels and its not a crappy car so what’s the matter with that? Even if it was a crappy car, it does what it needs to do and takes me to places so what’s the issue? I unlock my car and I get in. Just when harry is about to open the door to sit in the passenger seat, Kimberly rushes to harry and pulls him to the back so that they could sit together. I know I said this already but I’m really Harry’s uber driver, aren’t I? first I deliver his food, and now this? Laughable. We get to the movies and Kimberley begs harry to buy her a ticket. Finally, we get into the theatre and I was thinking that because me and Kimberley don’t know each other AND she just hates me off rip, it would be sensible for Harry to sit in between us but nope, Kimberley decided to let a group of four find seats before her and Harry. While all of this was happening, I thought that both Harry and Kimberley were behind me and because of that, I end up sitting by myself and have 5 strangers (including Kimberley) sit between me and harry. I didn’t even get to watch the movie properly because all I could think about was the fun me and Harry could have had. I even started to question why I even took time off from work to come here.

A few hours later, the movie ended. Harry planned that we go bowling and to a pizza place, but Kimberley didn’t want to do that. She had other plans instead, so we went back home. Harry and started to feel very hungry and so we went into the fridge and took out the food that auntie made. Harry happened to have ingredients that should be eaten with the side dishes that his mother made, so he asked Kimberley if she could wash and make the rice while he fried eggs and peeled some potatoes.

-          “I’m not your maid for you to be asking me to wash the rice. Do it yourself.” she says while folding her arms with a ferocious expression spread across her face.

-          “Kim, just help me this once. I’m already peeling potatoes and will fry the rice. Please? We’re all going to eat this anyway, so you might as well help. Plus, its quicker too.” Harry conveys to Kimberley.

-          “I don’t want to eat whatever this atrocious food is. It smells horrible. Ew, is that seaweed? Yeah, I don’t like whatever this nonsense is. Who made this?” Kimberley viciously says while directly making eye contact with me.

While she is pretending to gag at the food, me and Harry make eye contact and just shake our heads. I decide to walk into the kitchen area where Harry was peeling potatoes.

-          “I’ll help since I don’t want to wait too long for the food to be ready” I say with a smile.

-          “Thanks Y/N. but you’re the guest. I wanted me and Kimberley to show off our cooking skills.” He says.

-          “No worries. I’m just really hungry” I wash my hands and g straight to where the containers full of side dishes are and open it and put it in my mouth. “mmm, Harry. Your mom did a really good job at making these. This is delicious.” I then turn around and start washing the rice.

When Kimberley heard that, her eyes widened up. She looked like she messed up. No, she did mess up. She thought that I was the one that cooked for Harry, so she thought that it was okay for her to be rude. Childish.

Harry takes his phone out and makes a phone call. He orders a Pepperoni pizza. I already knew that the pizza wasn’t for me or him, we both hate pepperoni, so I knew he ordered it for Kimberley.

-          “P, why are you ordering pizza?” Kimberley says, confused.

-          “I ordered it for you, Kim. Since you don’t like my mom’s food, or Korean food.” Harry says with his head down, peeling the potatoes.

-          “No, that’s not what I meant.” She says with an apologetic voice.

Harry slams the potato peeler on the counter and looks up at her. He’s angry.

-          “then what did you mean?” he voiced, while being exasperated.

-          “I meant to say-“

-          “Oh, you meant to say that it’s because you don’t like my mom’s cooking? Said it because you don’t like Korean food, Korean culture or me being Korean? Or did you say it because you thought that Y/N cooked it?” Harry snaps with anger in his eyes.

-     ��    “ I didn’t-“ Kimberley says silently.

-          “The pizza is coming soon anyway, so it’s not like I can cancel it. Just eat it when it comes.”

-          “Guys, that’s enough!” I eventually shout at them. “please stop this. It’s a happy evening, let’s not ruin the mood here now. Okay?” I say while looking at them both with a serious yet gentle expression. I lied, the evening was not great, neither was the day, but I just wanted everyone to get along.

20 minutes go bye in silence. Everybody seems to be upset, but me and Harry managed to complete our cooking amidst the silence. All I could do was just stand in the kitchen with my hands on my back, because of how awkward it was, while Harry set the table.

-          “Let’s eat, Y/N”

I noticed that Harry had only set the table for two. He completely ignored Kimberley.

-          “Kimberley, come eat.” I say, as the peace maker.

-          “Nah, she’s good” Harry says, while pouring me some water.

-          Are you sure Harry? Because-“

-          “Just eat Y/N. jal meoggessseubnida” He says before he starts eating.

15 minutes later, me and harry had finally finished eating. His mom did a great job with the food and so did Harry. It brought back memories on when we used to cook together and rate each other’s cooking skills. I missed it. Harry gets up to wash the plates, but I insist to wash them instead because the air was filled with awkwardness still and I just didn’t want to be involved. Harry didn’t want me to wash the plates because he keeps considering me as a guest, but in the end, he gave in.

A few minutes later, Harry’s phone rings. It’s the pizza man telling him to get the delivery from the garage downstairs. He puts his phone on his coffee table and puts on his hoody. Just as he is turning the door handle, Kimberley runs up to him.

-          “P, where are you going?” she says worriedly.

-          “Your pizza is here” he says while half ignoring her, face on the ground. “Y/N, Ill be right back.” He says while quickly glancing at me and then closing the door behind him.

Kimberley then goes to the coffee table and grabs Harry’s phone. She seemed like she was going through his phone, while muttering things under her breath. I finish washing the dishes and notice that there’s nothing for me to dry my hands with.

-          “Hey, Kimberley, do you know where Harry keeps his hand towels? I gently ask.

-          “Shut your mouth. You’re the reason why PH-1 is angry at me. How dare you try and act high and mighty in this house. I wish you never came here. Stupid bitch.”

-          “I beg your pardon?” I say, with confusion and shock written all over my face.

-          “You heard me, bitch. I said, I wish you never came here.”

-          “What’s wrong with you? You’ve been rude to me ever since I got here. Can we just get along, for Harry’s sake?”

-          “What if I don’t want to get along with you?” she says with a mean expression on her face.

Just as Kimberley is walking up to me, assuming to slap me, the keys unlock the door from the outside and Kimberley gets shocked and makes an extremely fast U-turn into Harry’s room. Leaving me standing in the living room area alone. Like an idiot. The door opens, Harry looks around the living room and kitchen area and sees no signs of Kimberley.

-          “Hey, where is she?” Harry asks, curiously, with a pizza box in his hands.

-          “She just rushed into your room.” I say, while being tired of the day, even though its only 8pm.

-          “Oh okay, thanks Y/N. Also, I’m sorry about my behaviour earlier. I- I- I just lost it at that moment.” Harry says with disappointment spread on his face.

-          “Hey, its okay, Harry. Go in there, she’s probably waiting for you” I say with a smile on my face.

-          “Thanks, Y/N. You’re a good friend” he says. Then quickly grabs his phone from the coffee table in the living room and heads to his bedroom.

Its been about an hour since Harry and Kimberley where in his room eating pizza. I got tired so I tried going into his roommate’s bedroom, but it had happened to be locked. I message Harry to ask him how about the sleeping arrangements, but my messages seem to not go through. 2 hours go by and Harry still wont answer his messages. I even call him and its also not going through. As much as I can’t stand Kimberley, I don’t want both herself and Harry to be arguing. So, I end up going to stand Infront of the bedroom, just to hear about what’s going on and I’m hearing giggling. I hear them both giggling because Harry is tickling Kimberley. I even hear Harry ask Kimberley for a kiss, and that’s when I knew that it was time for me to leave. Harry had left my bag on the couch, so I just took it, put on my coat and shoes, then I left. I just sat in my car because I didn’t know where to go and I was just thinking about today. Out of all the days that I have spent with Harry, this one has to be number 1 on the list for the worst. In fact, we barely spent time. Only time we “spent time was while we ate together. I was angry and I was also sad. “What did I do to this girl? Why can’t Harry see that she’s a bad person? Why is Harry making love to this girl why he’s left me all alone for 2 hours, in the living room? Why won’t he reply to my messages or calls? Why is he giving me mixed signs?” That was all that was running through my mind.

I search for hotels that are nearby the highway, that I will be taking to leave this city tomorrow. I find a good hotel and drive to it. I check in and sleep. I wake up the next day and check out. Still, there’s no reply and no calls from Harry. I sigh at the sight of my phone and I just drive off. The car ride home was horrible, it started pouring rain.

Is Harry ever going to text or call me back?

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Which ships do you believe are the most likely for Ruby at this point or do you think its likely she wont have a love interest? I love Rosegarden but this episode made me worry for them :(

Well technically I only believein the one Ruby ship I actually like and loyally follow and that is RoseGarden. If we’re talkingships in terms of friendship then I can picture Whiterose and Rosebuds being pretty strong and close friendship dynamics forRuby this season. 

But if we’re talking romantic partners, my money is primarilyon Oscar becoming Ruby’slove interest in the future since theCRWBY are setting up somethingbetween then and I’d love to think it’s the wholeshebang---a closefriendship and a romance. I think Ruby and Oscar being friends at first andslowly falling in love with each other sounds lovely. 

A romance between our two smaller, more honest souls is a RWBYlove story this squigglemeister is ready to follow if it’s in the cards.

Oscar Pine currently stands as my favourite RWBY character of all time in and sinceRuby Rose is looking to be the apple of hiseye, it makes me very excited to see where theirbond goes and if romance is something the CRWBY Writers have planned for themin the long run, then it’ll be sweet to see.

Regarding today’s episode. I know V6 C5 dropped some Whiterose on us today.While disappointing for me who was hoping for more Rosebud moments, I willadmit this. As much as I love RoseGarden and strongly desire for Ruby and Oscar’sfriendship to blossom this volume since it’s a season that’s been teased todraw more focus on Oscar, I have to take into consideration that Weiss Schnee has known Ruby longer thanOscar.

I also have to take into consideration thatthis is the first volume that Team RWBY have been together since V3. So naturally, as much as I want more Rosebuds bondingmoments, I have to expect the reality of some of it potentially being overshadowed by Team RWBY’s reunion with more moments going to Whiterose in the realm of Rubysince Weiss is Ruby’s confirmed best friend and was the teammate she was closestto her back in the Beacon Days. That hasn’t changed.

However, just like in the past seasons, I don’tassume any moments shared between Ruby and Weiss to automatically imply anypotential romance between them. Well…not unless it’s reallyhammered in by the plot which so far I honestly haven’tseen.

I never gotten the impression that Weiss andRuby harboured anything between them that transcended a strong friendship and sense of family. Despite theirstruggles and triumphs, Team RWBY is a sisterhood---a family, particularly to Weiss whose upbringing wasn’t so favourable.�� 

Often times I saw Weiss’ closeness to Ruby remindingher of the sisterly bond she shared with Winter. I didn’t assume a romancebetween Weiss and Ruby when they first met and after six seasons, my impressionof them hasn’t changed. Unlike Blake and Yang, Weiss and Ruby don’t send thosesignals to me. But this is just myopinion as a non-Whiterose shipper. I hope my views on this pairing don’ttrigger anyone.

Before Oscar came into the fray, I honestly hadno ship for Ruby. All of Ruby’s primary armadas at the time---Whiterose, Lancaster and Nuts and Dolts, Imostly saw them all as platonic ships. I liked them since I liked Ruby’srelationship with the respective characters in those ships however I never gotthe vibe that Ruby was romantically interested in any of them or anyone forthat matter at the time.

Before I wasn’t even certain if romance was somethingthe writers had in mind for our little rose since up until now, Ruby has been excused from anypossibly romantic partners unlike her teammates. Weiss had Jaune, Neptune and HenryMarigold. Blake with her harem of Sun, Adam, Ilia and essentially Yang.

Yang---well technically Yang had no suitors atthe time (unless you count Yang) but I do take into account the male charactersthat showed an attraction to her.

Once again, unlike her teammates, Ruby wasomitted from that kind of interaction. It’s why I was drawn in by theRoseGarden pairing since Oscar was the first male character to actually reactto Ruby in the manner of a teenage boy admiring a girl he found attractive. Andat the same time, the same could be said of Ruby with her mutual intrigue inOscar.

I do want to stand by my hunch that Ruby andOscar will become important to one another in the long run. I don’t want to dispelany hope for their future connection. I understand that the V6 opening teased alot of cute WhiteRose-esque shots however I mostly took that as a sign that their friendshipis going to resume where it left off since V3.

The V6poster told me a differentstory. The V6 poster told me of Oscar’s developmentand focus this chapter with Ruby filling in the role as his protector andpossible closest confidant among the heroes.

I’m still holding out for their friendship toblossom further this season. Doesn’t matter if it’s mixed in with some Whiterose. As a matterof fact, I expect V6 to bring a lot more character growthfor Ruby as a whole so I wouldn’t be surprised if herrelationship with of all of her teammates matures this season, including herbond to Professor Ozpin.

Heck if I’m lucky, every Tom, Dick, Harry andJane will adopt Oscar by the end of this volume so Ruby will have some steady competition fromher peers who will all come to care for the precious freckled farm as much as shehas. #EverybodyAdoptsOscar

That being said, as a fellow Rosegardener, I understand thisepisode might have concerned you anon-chan however…I wouldn’t worry about it. Let’s not be toohasty to forget the carefully dropped hints of the Rosebudfriendship these past few episodes. Remember, in C1, Ruby defended Oscar whenthe group began antagonizing Ozpin for keeping secrets about the Relic. Shealso looked out for him during the train battle and even helped him out in hisone on one against the Manticore.

In C2, Oscar came to Ruby’s aidwhen he intervened to stop Ozpin from forcibly taking back the Relic from her.I actually hope that Ruby brings this up to Oscar and thanks him for lookingout for her back then after the heroes settle into the Brunswick Estate for thenight.

While nothing happened in C3 because that was the big reveal episode which focused more on Ozpin and Salem’s sharedhistory, we did get Ruby looking out for Oscar again in C4. Despite her disappointmentin Ozpin, Ruby didn’t allow that to cloud her opinion of Oscar. 

Ruby does care about Oscar asshe was seen trying to comfort him last episode. She’s the only one who steppedforward to make sure he was okay after Qrow decked Ozpin into a tree and Oscar resumedcontrol.

Not to mention that she wasalso the only one to help him out by bringing him the Oz-cane while kindlyoffering him some much needed words of reassurance. Ruby didn’t have to comfortOscar. She could have done like everyone else and strayed away from him but shedidn’t.  She made the willing choice toshow him sympathy because she cared.

I’ll admit that part of my disappointment forV6 C5 was due to the lack of interaction between Ruby and Oscar. Again this ismy biased Rosegardening side talking here but I was disappointed that Ruby didn’tcontinue her supportive nature towards Oscar this episode. Then again, in Ruby’sdefence, Oscar didn’t seek her comfort either. Both more or less deviated fromone another.

I’m wondering if what Qrow said to them had any. Likeperhaps his words lingered heavily in both their thoughts especially Oscarsince we didn’t see the two approach each other after that. Though we did get anice bit of Oscar being supportive of Ruby’s plan to go scouting for supplies, chimingin with his own idea about finding a car. I thought that was a nice bit atleast.

Rather than debunking the possibility ofRoseGarden, this episode made me ponder something curious. If Oscar had goneafter Ruby, looking all scared and afraid to be alone instead of Weiss, wouldRuby’s reaction been the same? I’d like to think that it would. But Oscar neverwent after Ruby. He just stayed kept to himself back in the study and ended upstaying with Maria out of the two being the only ones left without anobjective.

I really hope being in the Brunswick Estateand on a farm in general will spark some memoriesof home for Oscar. As a Pinehead, it will be sad if it doesn’t. There are literally family photos of theBrunswick Family hanging on the walls so surely this is bound to remind Oscarof his aunt’s house. I’m hoping this will lead into Ruby asking him about hispast and him sharing it with her.

Also since Oscar was the one to mention acar, I wonder if this will lead into him actually assisting the group in wiring up their transport. Yang mentioned hooking Bumblebeeup to something to get it running. I would love it if Oscar is revealed to havesome knowledge of mechanics and how to work/repair machinery due to his farming background and thepossible fact that one of his former relatives (his father or uncle perhaps)was a specialist in the field and taught Oscar everything he knew.

I don’t think the V6 opening featuring Oscarreading a magazine on Atlesian mechanics was a coincidence. The boy must secretly possess a hidden talent for it or…at least a knowhow.

Again, I’m praying this is another thing thatgets addressed in the later episodes as the team stay on Brunswick Farms. Butthis is just my hunch for now.

~LittleMissSquiggles (2018)

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Hate me, Date me

Word count: 6.8K

Characters: Wonho x OC

Genres: Romance, comedy, smut

Warnings: 18+, rough sex, spanking, choking, anal sex, public sex, daddy kink

Hoseok was always the person I hated the most, but once he accidentally found out what my kinks are, our terms drastically changed.

Arguin was my profession, you tell me one word and I’ll tell you two. It’s like that since I was a child, starting with my parents, but it never ended so well. I was always ending up with a slap from my mother and scream like HOW DARE YOU and then she would scream on my father to scream on me and yeah, ta daaa show time.

But my parents weren’t the problem for me, oh not at all, those were just small family fights. The problems started with high school, when a fresh ignorant new teacher got a job, she was just a perfect preview of a youngster that got a job because of some connections. Well, since math wasn’t my stronger side, I often decided to cheat on exams and it actually went very well until she saw it and yeah, a big fat FAIL happened. I couldn’t keep my words to myself, so I was shooting arguments at her every class and so, guess who failed again and again ?

But not even that was a huge problem for me.

My biggest problem was and will always be, Shin Hoseok.

Maybe you wonder why.. but don’t worry. I’ll explain everything.

My first day in school, I was so happy and excited to start with school, I always thought that school is one beautiful heaven on earth. Yes, stupido from childhood, till today.

From the very first moment I got in the school, my vision of heaven turned to hell, when I saw that the neighbor who was always taking my doll from me, was going to the very same school. Bullying from the very first second, taking my sweets and food away from me, throwing paper balls on me, taking my supplies and so on. Shin Hoseok managed to do all of that. Every break, he bullied me. What made the things even worse was the fact that our parents were actually really good to each other, so it was a win-win situation for him.

Of course we were children, so I shouldn’t mind that. Years passed, things changed. I learned to stand for myself and I learnt how to argue everyone and put everyone, who was irritating me or getting on my way, down. In high school things drastically changed and somehow I was one of the popular girls in there. Not too popular, but everyone knew about me and I actually had a lot of friends.

But some things never change and in this case the so called thing is Hoseok. What I hated the most was that nothing could stop him from doing it, not even my arguments or anything on this world.

Even if everyone was fine with me, Hoseok never stopped bullying me. We didn’t go to the same school back then, but every time he saw me outside he would come to me and bully me, cracking some sick perverted jokes trying to make his friends laugh or something.

BUT, of course we were teenagers, puberty was hitting him hard.

Now, we are university students, my first and his last year. The normal excuse of him being an asshole to me can’t be found.

,, Breakfast is readyyyy’’ I heard my mother screaming, probably thinking that I was asleep, while I was just scrolling down on my instagram. I slowly stood up and made my way downstairs, hoping that she wont brag about how long I sleep, how there is always so much work and no one is helping her at all.

,, Eat fast and go with your father in shop, we need a lot of stuff for tonight’’ my mother said reminding me on the tonight’s bbq they were planning to make. I honestly never cared so much about it because it’s always the same. They always call close friends and mans are outside working on meat and womens are inside gossiping. At the end when the meat is done they would all get inside and eat and drink wine together.

My mother was making a list for me and my father, while I was choking myself with a toast, trying to put the whole toast in my mouth and my father was looking at me in disbelief. When I couldn’t eat anymore, I cleaned everything up and made my way to my room to change fast.

,, Hurry up, we don’t have so much time’’ I heard my dad yelling from the hallway, so I just wore my grey hoodie and put my hair in messy bun. The whole ride was just casual, I was trying to hit high notes and my father was rolling his eyes every second.

Shop wasn’t so far away from our home, so my solo concert didn’t last so long sadly.

,, You can grab the snacks and fruits and I will go buy the meat and drinks. ‘’ my father said and I nodded my head in agreement.

,, Good morning Mr. Park, hey Miryo’’ I heard the very familiar voice coming from some direction making me shiver immediately. My blood was boiling, he was acting so nice in front of my father.

,, Oh hey Hoseok, what brings you so early here ?’’ my father asked him friendly since he doesn’t see Hoseok in grocery shopping so oft, while I only ignored him

,, My mother needs some stuff for lunch, so she sent me early to buy it all’’ he said and smiled lightly.

,, Okay, tell them to be at our place before everyone else arrives.’’ My father said and smiled back at Hoseok.

,, Of course, see ya later Mr. Park. Bye’’ he said and made his way to pasta section leaving me and my father alone there. Of course they will be there, our first and best neighbors.

,, I don’t understand why do you hate this guy. Such a nice kid’’ my father said shaking his head and he made his way to buy the meat.

I stood there totally pissed off, wanting to go there to him and break his fucking neck. But somehow I managed to calm down and I just went to pick the snacks for tonight. Most of the time I was picking snacks for myself, because I planned to make a movie night. Then I took some snacks that were on list.

,, Oww’’ I yelped in pain and surprise when something hit my head. I turned around and saw Hoseok laughing at me. That fucker just threw a fucking pack of backing powder on me.

I just ignored him and made my way to fruits, I didn’t want to make any scene while my father was still somewhere in the store.

,, Do you want to tickle my pickle ?’’I heard his deep voice once again, only this time extremely close to my ear. I turned around and pushed him away, while he just started to laugh out loud with a cucumber in his hand.

,, Or you rather want to have my seeds?’’ he said taking the sunflower seeds in his hand.

,, You are so fucking disgusting’’ I said putting some bananas in my bag. He started to laugh once again, I don’t know how did I manage to stay calm and not to take that freaking cucumber and choke him with it.

Hoseok was trying to make some more jokes, but I just ignored him and found my father before we went and paid our stuf. Once again, Hoseok greeted us and waved us goodbye and then we separated our ways.

My father noticed how pissed off I was, so he just let me be.

I didn’t have to do much about the bbq, usually my parents spend time preparing the meat and salad and everything, my work is only to bring the plates and bread outside. After that, I just eat and let them be. I mean, what else do I have to do ? Chit chat with my parent’s friends ? hell to the no.

What I hate the most is when some of their friends brings their child and I have to babysit them. I HATE IT and then the child is jumping on my head wanting to do something and play

Shut up and paint on the paper I gave you

What do they think that I am a toy industry ? ugh

When they all arrived, I wasn’t surprised to see that Hoseok wasn’t there, he usually says he’ll come if my parents ask and then he uses some lame ass excuse, but I like it that way. I don’t need him around eating my food and being annoying as always

I made sure I was full, I told my mother that I’m going inside and that she can call me if someone needs something. So, before going to my room I went in kitchen to get some water, I put some cucumbers, lemons, lime and mint leaves in my water thinking it was fancy to take a photo and post it on insta. Yes, I’m that kind of freak

Taking some snacks I went upstairs and lied down on my bed, looking for some movie on Netflix. It was always hard to find something since I almost watched everything good there. But most of the time, I just let some movie play in the background and then I am on my phone.

Since I didn’t have anything to do, I turned on my laptop and started surfing on my tumblr. Tumblr and twitter were like my two secret worlds. One for fangirling and another one for all my kinks.

I lied down on my stomach and started looking for some smut on tumblr, it was a long time since I found some good smut and it was about time for me to find one.

,, Mom, I think I told you about knocking before getting in’’ I said closing my laptop without turning it off.

,, You got a fucking salad in your water’’

I turned around and saw Hoseok standing there with his arms crossed on his chest. He was half smirking and just in second my mood changed, from calmed down I felt like I could jump and slap this bitch in half.

,, The fuck you doing here?’’ I hissed as I sat on my bed.

,, Your mother told me to come here’’ He said not moving a inch or changing his expression.

,, Why did you even come?’’ I said as I stood up.

,, Your parents invited me, remember?’’ he said as he sat on my bed comfortably.

,, I think that you know very well that you are not welcome here, especially here in my room. ‘’ I said standing up.

,, Just get lost’’ I said pointing on the door. Hoseok was about to say something but then I heard my mother calling my name.

,, I’m not done’’ I said and I made my way downstairs.

,, Did you ask Hoseok what will he drink ? Bring some snacks upstairs’’ My mom said nicely. I never understood how could they like a person who is bullying their daughter ? They were seriously sucking his act up, believing that it’s his random behavior.

I nodded my head lying and went back to get him finally out of my room somehow. At my surprise I found Hoseok lying on my bed with my laptop on his lap.

,, What are you doing ? Give me that ‘’ I screamed on him and grabbed my laptop from him. Hoseok looked unbothered, only having a smirk on his face.

,, How did you get in?’’ I hissed on him when I realized that he was literally scrolling on my tumblr.

,, You didn’t even turn off your laptop, you dumbass’’ he said as he made himself comfortable on my bed. Just for a second I prayed that he didn’t find anything on my tumblr.

,, So, Netflix and chill?’’ he asked me and he placed his hands under his head.

,, Try again’’ I hissed.

,, Imax and climax ? Amazon prime and sexy time ?’’ he said with a smirk on his face.

,, More like pornhub and cry yourself to sleep’’ I said and turned off the tv, giving him a sign that he won’t do shit here and that it’s time for him to leave.

,, Come on, don’t be a bad girl, daddy will have to punish you’’ he said and he stood up. I froze when he said that, if he saw that daddy kink shit on my tumblr, how much did he see then ?

,, get out ‘’ I said again seriously, I wanted to burry myself alive, I felt so ashamed. How could I be so reckless and not turn off my laptop whit him in my room.

,, Well anyway, you gotta find yourself another daddy, I already have a girlfriend and she is my world’’ he said nodding his head.

,, This is your fourth ‘world’ in one month, are you building a solar system?’’ I asked him sarcastically.  I was trying to act it cool, like it didn’t bother me that he actually saw it.

,, Anyway, it’ time for you to leave, go to your world’’ I said as I opened the door for him. He just nodded his head and he got out of the room.

,, Don’t wanna interrupt your evening smut time’’ he said before I just closed the door in front of his face.

I felt so lost, I didn’t know what to do all of sudden, Hoseok bullying me wasn’t something I  couldn’t deal with, but now when he knows something I kept as a secret form everyone, it could turn even worse.

Next few days I was trying to avoid Hoseok as much as possible. Of course he didn’t give a shit and every time I would pass by, he would call me some weird names and crack some jokes as usual. But what surprised me, he didn’t crack some daddy jokes in front of everyone and honestly I didn’t expect that. He only sometimes got to me when I was alone to ask me if I found myself a daddy and so.

It was Thursday my parents told me that they bought some cheap tickets for Paris and that I will be alone few days, and honestly I couldn’t hide how happy I was. Not that my parents bother me, but I really liked having freedom and whole house for myself.

I was planning to be lazy on Friday, just to ready fanfictions and so, but of course my best friend Daehyun had some other plans for me. She wanted us to go on some house party, but how she explained, it won’t really be a house party, only few people. So in short, a small house party.

Honestly, I didn’t want to go at all, but looking at her so disappointed and sad, not willing to go alone changed my mind.

I didn’t want to wear anything special, so I wore my black skirt, pastel pink shirt and I took one simple choker.

On our way to the house, Daehyun told me that there will be some people I know and of course her long time crush Jooheon will also be there.

And she was right, I did know almost everyone there and even tho I expected a boring night, I actually had fun, we were drinking and joking all the time and since there weren’t so many people, the atmosphere was really cool.

,, Hoseok my man’’ Hyungwon yelled jumping form his place.

,, Oh, oh, look what we got here’’ I heard Hoseok saying and I knew immediately that he was talking to me.

,, You again’’ I said already annoyed by his present.

,, you attract what you fear’’ Hoseok said as he sat on the sofa beside Shownu.

,, Well, I’m so scared of 10 Billion €, but I don’t see them anywhere around’’ I said and Daehyun slapped my arm lightly while holding back her laughter, hoping I will stop arguing with Hoseok. I didn’t want to ruin the night so I just ignored his reply and continued drinking.

I didn’t have any plan in getting drunk, but me and Hyungwon were drinking way too fast and in very short time we were getting tipsy.

,, We should do something ‘’ Jooheon said as he took a sip of his drink.

,, Why don’t we play 7 minutes in heaven ?’’ Minhyuk said and everyone else cheered. I wasn’t so excited about it, but I also didn’t give a fuck since I was kind of drunk.

Minhyuk took a bottle and started spinning it, the first couple the bottle picked were Haera and Changkyun. They weren’t shy or anything, they immediately stood up and went in another room.

I took a sip from my drink and leaned back in sofa. Hyungwon placed his one arm around me and I could feel him rubbing his hand on my thigh. We were usually so close, so no one didn’t mind us.

After short time, Changkyun and Haera came back and the next couple to go were Daehyun and Jooheon, and of course it ended like that because Minhyup spin the bottle so lightly so it just had to end up on Daehyun.

I could notice that she was a little bit uncomfortable, but not that much to back off. Being honest, I didn’t expect that much will happen in another room, but once they were back, you could definitely see that they had some wild season in there.

,, No way, I’m not doing it’’ I said looking Hoseok directly in eyes. I couldn’t believe that we were the next couple and that no one didn’t want to change a thing even if they all knew that we hate each other.

,, You gotta be drunk off your ass if you think that I’m going to do it with this pompous dickhead’’ I added fast.

,, Of course you are not doing it, you are a coward’’ Hoseok smirked as he stood up, ready to go in another room.

,, Come on, don’t act like that’’ Hyungwon said tapping my ass a little bit as I stood up. Coward? I wasn’t a coward for sure and that dickhead didn’t have any right to hurt my pride.

I took a shot of tequila and made my way toward the room, not saying anything anymore and since I could hear others whistling, I knew that Hoseok followed me immediately.

Just when I was about to turn on the light, I was pushed against the wall and my hands were pinned above my head.

,, You are really playing a game with me ‘’ Hoseok whispered. I knew that his face was really close to mine, because of his breathing.

,, Why ? Did I do something wrong ?’’ I asked, I wanted to push him away, but my pride didn’t let it happen, I wanted to show him that I’m not a coward and that I can also win in this game.

,, You are trying the whole night to embarrass me, plus, letting Hyungwon touch you in front of everyone. Daddy doesn’t like that’’ Hoseok said using my weak spot.

,, I’m sorry daddy’’ I simply said and I could feel that Hoseok was taken aback, he probably thought that I would freak out, but since I was already drunk and I didn’t want to back off and be the coward he called me.

,, Fuck’’ he hissed and just in second I felt his lips on mine. He pushed me up, making me wrap my legs around him and his hands were on my butt squeezing it roughly.

I pulled my head back, leaning it on the wall and Hoseok took that as opportunity and attacked my neck immediately, making me moan quietly.

Hoseok was about to kiss me again but someone was knocking on the door giving us a sign that those 7 minutes are done.

,, Get away from me you freak’’ I said going back to my old self somehow, Hoseok looked at me surprised and he was about to say something but I was already out making my way back to others.

,, And ?’’ Hyungwon asked me wiggling his eyebrows.

,, Nothing’’ I said and sat beside him again, taking one shot of tequila.

,, Nothing ? You went in room without any marks on your neck and now you are having one’’ he said and I almost choked on my drink. I totally forgot that he was kissing my neck. I looked at Hoseok and he just smirked at me.

,, I need some water’’ I said to Hyungwon trying to avoid the topic and honestly I really needed some water, choking on drink strong as tequila isn’t something nice.

,, You and your water’’ Hyungwon said rolling his eyes at me. I could notice that Hoseok’s attention was all on us, not giving a shit who was next to go in the room anymore.

,, I’m a slut for water, an h2hoe if you want’’ I said making Hyungwon laugh a little bit.

,, Go, go, I’ll make you another cocktail, tequila is hitting you way too much’’ Hyungwon said still laughing and I just ignored his comment and went to kitchen to drink some water.

I took one cigarette, giving myself a little bit time away from others. I couldn’t stop thinking about what happened inside the room. Every time I had sex with someone it was vanilla, even tho I always liked kinky stuff, but I never trusted someone so much to ask for more. And there was Hoseok.. we didn’t even do much, it was only a small make out season, but he was so dominant, so rough.

When I was done I made my way back and thanks god Hyungwon was already done with my cocktail. I was already totally drunk and drinking the cocktail he made for me wasn’t such a great idea, but I did it anyway.

,, Are you alright ?’’ Hyungwon asked me when I finished the drink.

,, Si, esta bien’’ I said and lied on the sofa totally done. I didn’t feel like vomiting, but damn galileo was right, the earth is really turning around.

,, You are so drunk’’ Hyungwon said, smiling at me. He looked at Daehyun, but he saw that she was drunk as much as I was, if not even more.

,, Let’s get you home’’ Hyungwon said rubbing my back lightly, I just nodded my head and tried to stand up somehow.

,, I can get her home, we are neighbors anyway.’’ Hoseok said with serious look at his face.

,, I am going home right now anyway, no need to go earlier because of it’’ Hyungwon said with serious look too and honestly I didn’t understand shit, I just wanted to go home.

,, Well I’m going home too, so it’s alright’’ Hoseok said and smiled a little bit.

,, Okay then.’’ Hyungwon said, placing his arm around me helping me walk a little bit.

,, We are leaving then’’ Hoseok said while Hyungwon was helping me wear my nike shoes. We made our way toward Hoseok’s car and Hyungwon opened the door making me sit in the back.

I immediately made myself comfortable and lied down, while Hyungwon was greeting Hoseok. He told me to text him when I arrive and then he closed the door and went to his car.

The ride was weirdly so silent, none of us talked until he hit his brakes.

,,The fuck are you doing ? Who gave you the driving licence ?’’

,, There was some animal on road’’ He simply said before driving normally again.

,, Oh sure, I would also say that’’ I hissed on him.

,, After all why did you stop Hyungwon to drive me home, you are not sober’’ I added being mad without any actual reason.

,, Can’t you just shut up and be grateful? I am nice enough to drive you home and after all Hyungwon is also drunk as fuck, what makes you think he would drive better then me ?’’ he was talking madly fast, I guess I was pissing him off slowly.

,, You think being nice one will make up for all the year you bullied me ?’’ I hissed once again.

,, I’m not bullying you, you just can’t take a joke’’ he said.

,, Guess we don’t have same sense of humor ‘’ I said slowly. I didn’t even realize that Hoseok parked his car somewhere, until he managed somehow to get from front seat to the back.

It happened fast, in just one second Hoseok was hovering over me while I was trying to get away from him.

,, What do you think you are doing ?’’ I yelled at him trying to push him away. But it wasn’t so successful, he took my wrists with his hand and he placed his one leg over mine, stopping all my moves. He was heavy and strong, I wasn’t able to do shit anymore.

,, You are always making it always so hard for me’’ he said and I just gave him one confusing look, honestly I didn’t understand him at all.

,, The way you always fight back makes me like you more and more’’ he said making his grip around my hands stronger.

,, I tried billion times talking normally with you, but you always pushed me away. Your answers makes you bigger bully then me’’ he said and smirked.

,, You never tried to talk to me normally, all you ever did was just trying to embarrass me and make fun of me.’’ I said trying to calm myself a little bit, but it was so hard with him over me.

,, Because you always saw me like I was nothing, like I’m some piece of shit. That was the only way you kept your attention on me and pay you back ‘’

,, Because you are piece of shit’’ I hissed and all of sudden Hoseok’s hand was grabbing my hair and pulling it harshly, making me yelp in pain.

,, See, you are literally asking for it.’’ He said gripping my hair stronger. ,, You’ve been a bad girl the whole time, I think it’s time for daddy to punish you’’ he added.

I would lie if I say that I wasn’t turned on, with him on top of me, being all that dominant, I was probably already wet. Maybe if I was sober, I would push him away, but after he told me that he actually likes me and with him calling himself daddy, it was impossible.

,, Let me show you how much I care about you’’ he said as his let my hair and he slowly placed his thumb on my lips, slowly pulling it down along my bottom lip.

,, Open your mouth babe’’ he said, I don’t know what took over me, alcohol or Hoseok’s dominance, but I did open my mouth making him smirk a little bit. I don’t know what did I expect when he placed two fingers inside my mouth.

,, Suck’’ he simply said, playing with my tongue and it took me a second before I did as I was told. I closed my lips and started sucking his fingers , without breaking the eye contact with him. His smirk was now gone and I could see that his eyes were getting darker. Hoseok’s another hand let go of my wrists and he pulled the part of my hair behind my ear before he started moving his finger in and out of my mouth, literally finger fucking my mouth.

,, Good girl’’ he said as he pulled his fingers out of my mouth.

Hoseok changed his position, allowing me to put my legs around him and then he slowly gave me a small peck on my lips. I thought it was sweet for a second, but then he grabbed my chin making giving me a sign to open my mouth again, then he kissed me roughly, he slipped his tongue inside my mouth and deepened the kiss.

While sucking the air out of me, his hands were all over my body, pushing my shirt up and squeezing my boob with his right hand. I moaned into the kiss and he shortly pulled away smirking, before he attacked my neck.

,, They know whit whom you went home’’ Hoseok breathed while kissing my neck, leaving wet marks on it.

,, So?’’ I moaned, when he pushed my bra up and pinched my nipple roughly.

,, They’ll know now to whom you belong’’ he said while kissing and biting my neck.

,, I don’t care’’ I breathed out while Hoseok was making his way down, kissing my chest, leaving marks all the times.

Hoseok got up, checking me out while breathing heavily. He slowly took my skirt and pushed it up, he placed his hand on my tight and slowly rubbed it one time before his hand made its way toward my clothed pussy.

He slowly started to rub his index finger up and down my clit, while staring at me. I just threw my head back and moaned quietly, wanting more and more.

,, You want daddy to make you feel good ?’’ He asked me, still rubbing my pussy very slow, only this time doing circular moves.

,, Yes daddy’’ I said, holding back my moans.

,, Beg for it babe’’ he said and his fingers stopped moving.

,, Please daddy’’ I begged without hesitation.

,, Good girl’’ he said and he pulled my panties to the side. ,, You are so wet for me’’ he  mumbled, before he spread the wetness all over my core with the help of his fingers before he slammed two fingers inside my core, moving them fast and rough. He was pulling his fingers out and slamming them harshly back in all over again.

Then he suddenly stopped, making me whine because of the empty feeling. Hoseok didn’t waste any time, he pulled my black panties down and positioned himself between my legs. I could feel his hot breath and then without any word or warning, he pressed his tongue against my slit, licking it and sucking it aggressively.

I moaned loudly and grabbed his head as he gave my core one long and pleasurable lick. Hoseok’s one hand reached for my breast, squeezing it roughly while his tongue continued to pleasure me.

I let out a loud moan when he suddenly inserted his two fingers inside my core again thrusting them faster and deeper then before while his tongue continued flicking my clit. I started moving my hips trying to get more of him, but he placed his hands on my hips stopping me from doing anything.

He curled his finger upwards hitting my g-spot while his tongue continued assaulting on my clit, flicking it fast.

,, I could do this all day’’ Hoseok said adding third finger. He didn’t wait for me to adjust or anything, he immediately started to slam this fingers in and out incredibly fast, curling them sometimes, making me moan loudly.

Hoseok moaned too and the vibrations shoot my body up, cursing through my veins as he sucked harshly on my clit.

,, Oh God’’ I moaned loudly as I released on his tongue. He licked me fast, collecting all my  wetness. He slowly pulled his fingers out and smirked at me while squeezing my thighs as I tried to come to myself after the strong orgasm.

He sat beside me and pulled me up, before giving me one sloppy kiss.

,, Now be a good girl and suck daddy off’’ he said rubbing my neck gently. I didn’t have to pull his pants down, he already did it on his own. His  hand was around his dick, which was painfully hard.

He didn’t need to tell me twice, I positioned myself lower and placed the tip of his dick inside my mouth while he was jerking himself off. He moaned loudly and let go of his dick, letting me do the work.

I took as much as I could, until I felt his tip hit where my throat started. I started bobbing my head up and down, while my hand was pumping the rest of his length that I couldn’t fit easily in my mouth.

Hoseok slowly placed a strand of my hair behind my ear and for a moment I thought that was really cute of him, until he gathered my hair into a ponytail and grabbed a hold of it, pulled it down making me take every inch of his dick in my mouth.

I was literally choking on his dick and he just moaned loudly. He let go of my head for a second, letting me get some air before he placed his hands back and held my head still, while moving his hips up and down, fucking my mouth.

,, Babygirl, you take my dick so well’’  he moaned while thrust in my mouth, making me start to deep throat him. Hoseok was getting louder and then with one deep thrust I could feel thick ropes of cum being shot down my throat

,, Swallow it’’ Hoseok said as he took his length out of my mouth. I nodded my head and did as he told me, then I opened my mouth and pulled my tongue out, showing him that I swallowed it all.

,, Good girl’’ he said slowly patting my head. He pulled me up and lied me down on the back seat, slowly taking of my skirt and telling me to take off my shirt for him.

Once we were completely naked, he hovered over me once again and started rubbing his cock on my pussy, teasing me.

,, Now listen babygril, you can scream and try to push me away as much as you want, but I’m  not stopping.’’ He said while still rubbing his dick over my clit and core.

,, I’m going to fuck you however I want until you pass out. But don’t think that I’ll be done with you, you’ll wake up with my face between your thighs ready to fuck you again and again’’ he said and then he roughly he pushed his whole dick inside me.

Hoseok had absolutely no mercy, he was pounding into me like no one ever before, repeatedly hitting my g-spot. I arched my back and moaned loudly, I couldn’t control my moans at all.

,, Oh God, daddy’’ I moaned while Hoseok was rocking his hips, getting deeper and deeper.

,, You like having daddy’s cock inside ?’’ He asked and he placed his hand around my neck,  squeezing it before thrusting back in me.

,, Yes’’ I cried out somehow, fighting for air as he kept ramming in and out of me at a super fast pace.

,, Tell me, who’s your daddy’’ he commanded as he held my chin tighter while fucking me roughly.

,, You. You are my daddy, Hoseok’’ I breathed out. Hoseok’s fingers grip a little tighter around my neck and I opened my mouth as he pushed himself deep inside me looking into my face.

His moves were getting stronger and deeper and his grip was getting tighter. He didn’t have any mercy at all, I wasn’t even sure if he liked me or if it was some hate fuck, getting out on me for all these years. But I didn’t mind, I loved every bit of it.

Hoseok’s let go of my neck, giving me a chance to breath normally, but he didn’t stop moving fast, he didn’t stop, not even for a second.

,, I’m so close’’ he moaned while his hand got back around my neck. ,, Daddy’s gonna cum inside you’’ he added and that was it, I couldn’t hold it anymore with his hand on my neck and his dick tearing my pussy apart. He didn’t stop fucking me fast until he finally came, then he pulled slowly out of me and pushed it all back in roughly filling my core with his sperm.

We were both breathing heavily trying to come to ourselves. When I was somehow alright, I tried to grab my bra under the seat, but at my surprise Hoseok stopped me.

,, You think I’m done with you?’’ He hissed as he grabbed my hand stopping me. He sat beside me, while I was still lying on my back, breathing heavily.

,, Touch yourself’’ he simply said, his voice was so deep and every time he told me to do something, I did it without thinking twice. He sounded just so dangerous and it turned me on even more.

I slowly started to play with my self, spreading our sperm all over my pussy. Our mixed sperm made me much wetter then I already was and once I started fingering myself there was a sound that obviously drove Hoseok crazy. He was jerking himself off while looking at me, his breathing even heavier then mine.

,, Hands and knees. Now.’’ he said and he stood up. Once I was on all fours, a harsh slap landed on my ass. Hoseok started spanking me, giving me the reasons why I was spanked. For ignoring him, for fighting him back, for flirting with Hyungwon and so on.

,,I love your  ass baby girl’’ Hoseok said while he played with my ass, he was squeezing it, pushing it together, pulling it apart.

,, Daddys dirty little slut, do you want your ass fucked?’’ I felt another smack. ,, You want daddy to fuck your ass?’’ He asked me with a nother smack.

,, Yes daddy, please’’ I said pushing my ass further up into the air and he slapped my ass again, then he pulled my ass cheeks apart and licked up to my hole spreading all the wetness around. I felt like I could cum right there again when he pulled his tongue away and pushed one finger in.

,, Such a tight ass’’ he said slowly adding a second finger, stretching me out a little bit. He pulled his fingers out and once again slapped my ass.

He gave my ass one last smack before slowly pushing his head in.

,, You good babe?’’ he asked making sure I was alright and I just moaned in response, trying to nod my head somehow.

Hoseok pushed the rest of the way in and I didn’t even think it would feel so good. His dick was even three times bigger while being in my ass.

He grabbed ahold of my hips and slowly started to thrust in and out of me. Hoseok didn’t waste any time, he started thrusting into me faster hitting all of the right spots.

,, So tight’’ he moaned before smacking my ass again. I felt his cock twitch inside me and I could tell that he was close. Hoseok reached down in front of me and started to rub tight circles on my clit. I started shaking and my vision started to blur before I felt myself release again. I arched my cack and road out my high.

Few seconds later I felt Hoseok’s hot cum inside of me, he grabbed my hips and pulled deep inside before he released himself inside of me.

We both fall on the back seat, breathless and tired from what just happened. Hoseok changed our positions, making my back rest on his chest and his arms wrapped around me.

,, You feeling ok ?’’ he said as he placed his lips on my shoulder.

,, I feel amazing’’ I said still breathing heavily.

,, Sorry if I was too rough, I just wanted to fulfil your tumblr needs’’ he said and I could feel him smiling. ,, Didn’t know you were into choking, daddy kink and all that’’ he added.

,, Are you not ?’’ I asked surprised.

,, I am, but I was surprised when I found out that you also are’’ he said as he kissed my neck once again.

,, Yeah, I was also surprised when I found out that you like me’’ I said looking at him. ,, You could simply just tell me, you know ? I mean, who does that ? How could I know ?’’ I said making a face at him. Hoseok took my chink gently and placed his lips on mine, making me shut up.

,, You do now’’

I’ll edit it some other time

 time for sleeping now lmao

Requests are open 

love ya all

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On Kamen Rider Faiz: Between Being the Most Perfect Series and Mere Chaos

When i started watching kamen rider faiz series, i initially thought it was potentially better than my all time favourite kamen rider kabuto. I was like, where have i been? Why all this time i only watched kabuto, which besides the overall good story, isnt as complex or realistic as faiz? So i got excited in both watching it and finishing it. But as i got to the end of the series and i finished it, my stagnant reaction was like: no😐 this is nothing better than kabuto. It is even worse than common childish unlikeable rider series. Which is very questionnable, cause it started off as superb!

To understand why faiz is perfect and disappointing at the same time it has to start with the contents itself.

Takumi Inui

Before i watched faiz every time i came accross it and saw this person i always thought he was a nice guy with justice heart or something, like a hero, but after i started watching everyone knows how my perception surely changed. The word gangster suits his outter personality more. Hes rude and doesnt care about most things. On top of that, we dont see his thoughts much, or life, which makes it as if hes.. well.. mysterious?—besides the fact hes the main figure?

Anyhow i still liked this character portrayed cause its fitting to the story and the plot, his character is enjoyable to watch cause it adds dimension and his flow is realistic. And this doesnt just happen in the start of him being unheroic hearted person, it continues throughout the series until the end, that he is nothing but dimensional character.

Sonoda Mari

I like this girls personality since first time she appeared. I truly dont like woman character that is just there just to be protected and become romance partner of the hero (typical western superheroes) and at same time i dont like woman character that is too much strong as if shes not in need of any help (typical feministic western superheroes). The thing about this girl is that shes just there—shes neither a standout nor is she a complementary. Shes just another character to make the story flows, her character is made so sincerely and realistically. I mean, shes just a girl. Shes not magical girl who is stronger than men or happens to be hero’s romance. With that kind of realistic character, shes truly likable. Her personality and portrayal is consistent throughout the series.

Yuji Kiba

Hes my favorite character in the series. I wont say if im him i will be like him, but surely he is what most humans are. He represents humans. It might not seem like that for other people, but throughout the series hes the sanest one with cold head, no dilemma, no contemplation, only determined turns. I feel like while watching i sometimes thought like “why is this character doing this? Why is that character doing that?” And yuji kiba was the only characted i never criticized—any decision he has is unquestionnable cause its always sane decision. Even to the end. Hes the only character i stanced whatever decision.

Except when in the end he fought with faiz and then what—he stanced human? Unacceptable.

Kusaka Masato

I can write thousand words essays on this guy on why i hate him so much (as a character :) ). I really liked the Kaixa form but because of this guy i cant again. Its not even just about his annoying, hateful personality (he needs mental help), its also about how the maker of the series actually decided to just put him NOT as secondary character—but in position of almost as same as main character. Sonoda Mari and Yuji Kiba? Just forget them, his position is same as Faiz in the series from the starting of his appearance. He started off as someone we think oh wow. I mean he goes to college (none other of them go to college), he is presidents of clubs, and moreover hes the chosen Kaixa? Wow. He must be something. Yes, he is something, the story starts to collapse by the time he appeared.

It raises question why he is placed almost as main character, but the simple answer would be that the story plot makes it like that. The maker somehow has to place him there, cause he is the maker’s inner dilemma.

Orphenocs

Orphenocs are the monsters, the ones that are not humans. They are said to be result of unknown rapid evolution of human being, but they dont look like human being. They look like monsters and they have powers that humans dont have, but they can turn into human forms.

The Story

To start it off, Faiz series is weird in ways that are.. well.. unique. We expect Rider gear to choose one person and just stick to that one person, instead of being able to be used by many people. That is the concept of rider gear we want to see, cause we want to see someone being the chosen one and admire them, or hate them in the case theyre the villain. Rider gears on faiz series are not like that, theyre mere killer tools instead of tool that determines “chosen one”. Anyone—humans or orphenocs—can just take the belt and wear them, become kamen rider, and thats it. Then whos the hero?

That is a very good question, cause faiz series contemplates about that throughout the series. Thats why we see characters that have very complex changes revealed time by time. So let me start.

The story started off with Takumi coming accross Sonoda Mari and they then met orphenocs, and Takumi happened to be able to transform to Faiz, and with that they just came back to each other again and again. This is a very good start, both have strong leads of the story that it makes you think probably they will dominate the whole story and they will eventually become together. This is what the story more or less indicated, and so we keep that in mind. Other figures started appearing and this far it was nice, Keitarou is the type that has justice and kind heart, Yuji Kiba as a sane person, Yuka as someone we would have empathy for, Kadoya which is unlikable both in personality and necessity of character in general; but hes there as a flawed complementary and the maker feels he must be “important” in the end of the series, the powerful Smart Brain. As long as it circles around the trio figures (Takumi, Mari, Keitarou) of orphenocs killer solving what is going on and discovering Smart Brain’s doings, it is all enjoyable and good.

The most uninteresting part about the story is Mari’s kindergarten past life. It must be because it was not introduced since start so we get excited upon whats happening now instead of minding Mari’s kindergarten people. I mean, in agito series the Akatsuki Gou was always something that makes us curious and when it was revealed, we finally feel fulfilled (i rate agito 6.5/10), but in this series even when it was revealed about her kindergarten people, theyre very uninteresting people with some of them having psycopathic tendency towards their own “kindergarten friends”. More than they are characters that are fresh and we can consider to stance and look forward to, theyre all dull, boring, and naturally have no good aura. And when i say it, i mean ALL of them. It was nice that many of them just vanished fast. The one that lasted was i think Delta, which is really really disappointing. It would be better if they dont starre Delta at all. I like Gatack as “strongest rider but not main figure” but Delta is just a pure no. No one wants to see lifeless Mari’s kindergarten people.

But instead of just get over them, we got imposed all the time by this kindergarten stuff by having Kusaka suddenly becoming someone that is starred the whole time. He is a very hateful, twisted character, and also smart. He standsout from Takumi in the way that Kusaka is trying to solve the problem from the very root, he is just smart. Takumi doesnt care about these stuffs. With that, started the era of the series having two main figures.

Nothing is wrong with two main figures, but Kusaka has very bad personality that it honestly is frustrating to watch him. He gets in the way of Takumi and Mari, he gets in the way of Takumi in general, he is just.. a main figure with bad personality. Who likes that? But that is not just it. Its not that Kusaka appeared and then Takumi looks neglected. Takumi was, in fact, neglected, because Kusaka would stand out everytime doing the whole stuff (in his annoying way) while Takumi most of the time just stayed silent. He didnt talk back when Kusaka said anything, he didnt do anything to support himself, he is just being there. He was no longer someone with thoughts, he hid his thoughts from the audience to extent we dont even know again what he thinks. He becomes so soft like a cat.

Why is this two main figures importat? Because Takumi turned out to be orphenoch.

I have suspicion that the maker is in fact, confused himself. I mean for me myself i dont mind about orphenocs. I dont think humans are any better than orphenocs, nor that orphenocs are any better than human. Its not about coexisting, its about if orphenocs win then orphenocs win, if humans win then humans win. This is the main reason i like yuji kiba. Will tell more later.

Kamen rider stories always center around fight of humans and monsters, and they always have to give reason as to why we should stance humans. On kabuto, humans are portrayed as nice, and so it happens on agito, and monsters are portaryed as inevitable evil. But on faiz, orphenocs are evoluted humans, they think like humans, they are in fact humans. With this kind of plot to begin with, there is really no solution to the story, and that is why the story is just a bunch of realistic events being put, about figures that change from this to that, about emotion of the figures being told. I really like this part of the story. I dont like how Takumi is silent, but I really like how he is actually an orphenoch, no, its not just a plot twist. Its just a story!

With the annoying changes happening from interesting story to dull kindergarten people appearance, from the fierce Takumi with harsh mouth to quiet Takumi which all the time gives the look of “it will really be better if i just vanish from this world”, from interesting adventure of the Trio with dynamic characteristics to story circling around disturbing Kusaka, the only consistent figure is Yuji Kiba. He had always stanced humans since he became orphenocs, he always believed that orphenocs and humans can coexist. Of course this is what common humans will think once they become orphenocs, unless you have unexplainable grudge towards humans like Yuka or Kadoya. But in general Yuji Kiba is what a sane human usually will be. But the part i like the most isnt him being sane despite of whats happening, it is the fact that the story has to somehow show him being hurt by humans, to prove humans are not as nice as he thought they are. Coexisting? What a joke. And in that instance, he changed. The whole time stancing the humans immediately turned into him leading the orphenocs. I just love that, hes not hopeless like Takumi nor he is disturbingly and unreasonably hateful like Kusaka. He keeps in mind what is fact and acts accordingly. Very plausable. I cant even blame him for hating on humans.

But besides the Yuji Kiba consistency, nothing left is to be liked out of the rest of the plot. It couldve ended goodly by portraying Takumi more and we could follow him to the end, but no, its just Kusaka and Kusaka until Yuji Kiba killed him. Such useless character no one wants to see, but in the same time he justifies the makers dilemma cause if Kusaka character didnt exist, it would seem like the maker was stancing for orphenocs. No, you dont do that in kamen rider series. But until the end i dont understand the makers true intention. I feel like for this level of series it requires a very smart person to write it, so is he trying to say that even humans can be annoying and orphenocs can be nice, or does he somehow have to make character that no matter what always stances human for no reason?

Kamen rider faiz is very realistic and complex and full of emotions and events, its not boring at all, but its inability to make the story continuously intriguing by serving what people will want to see (professionally! Not marketly or like this) it instead just serves what they want to serve, even if it means frustrating the audience and twisting the story as they want as such is switching the main figure.

Kamen rider faiz is, for its professionality (that beats other Kamen Rider series including Kabuto), 10/10. But for the rest of the thing. 5/10!

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Ocs for my Main f\os

You guys can request which one I use during asks-I’ll oblige.

The main one I write with is Emilia Harima-Nickname Emi.

She looks like this Picrew: https://picrew.me/image_maker/43383-Only imagine a scar over the right side of her forehead over her eye down to her chin, and past her lips in a scarred mock smile.

Shes 5′3 with light blue eyes and a heavy lower lip shape. Her hair is blond and curly-As well as cut to be just around her midneck (Couldnt make the picture have it the right length).   Her chest is rather small chest size but a fuller bottom. Its not overly so-However she does have a small amount of pride for it.

Emi is known to be a humorous girl. To most people she is a teasing and lighthearted girl-Openly Bisexual and flirts with any attractive man\woman she comes across.

However once she is dating someone-She is loyal and overly protective to a fault. She will defend her partner even when they are in the wrong and will go as far as to physically attack the offender if she feels it is necessary. 

Her past is dark-And it differs from which ever universe you are to put her in. She is not necessarily haunted by it-But it does leave its mental and emotional scars.

Emi is known to cruse and speak in shortened wordings (’cause, gonna, wanna) and is usually very informal-However she does show respect to certain people-Those she admires she will be very formal to.

A  rough fighter-She usually will use her physical strength and anything she can find nearby as a weapon when she fights. She doesnt care about pain-it doesnt really effect her at all.

Emi can get sadistic if she lets herself-She may not even show much care afterwards. But she usually tries to let it be under control-For shes trying to move past it.

Emi has a tendency of letting her emotions rule over her head-So if she gets angry at someone she may call them out of their bullshit is a brutally honest manor.

Dont ever allow her to cook-She will burn it, ruin it, or freeze it somehow. The worst cook you’ll ever meet.

She absolutely hates any sort of girly clothing and makeup-its a trigger for her. She cant stand wearing it and it will cause all sorts of trauma for her if you force it on her.

So normally she wears mens clothing or large hoodies.

A cat is very similar thing-Its also a big issue for her to see one in long terms. However despite this-People tend to say she has cat like tendencies because  of her mischievous nature and playful personality. 

Due to circumstances of her past-She has sever Aquaphobia (The phobia of Water). It causes her to freeze up and have cases of a anxiety attack. Because of this she avoids any body of water-Including bathtubs. She has poor hygiene because of this.

She is holding a blue rose simply because blue is the color I associate with her!

Akio\Manami is a newer character so I havnt gotten the hang of her yet-So I may be less frequint in writing her alone:

Manami\Akio is a 4′9 tan skinned girl. She has a normal chest size-Nothing out of the ordinary and normal body. Long silver hair, that is pulled into high pigtails and  dark green eyes.  Her lips are full and she had little freakles littered across her face and shoulders. (Couldnt get it in picture sadly.) Her eyesight is horrible and she wears half rimmed black glasses.

She is someone who has Multiple Personality Disorder-And the two personalities clash with one another very much.

Akio is very shy and extremely anxious around other people. Often times she’ll cling to one person and hide behind the ‘safety blanket’ she has in them. Not very social and prefers quiet places she is known to be a loner.

Places that are to loud often scare her-And people that are to touchy and get in her personal bubble intimidate her.

However she does have a more dark-side (as all my Ocs do)-She is creepily perceptive and can easily tell what your feeling or where your weaknesses lay. She will mentally write everything down and never forget it-Just in case its needed for later. (And if push comes to shove she will use it with a creepily innocent air around her)

She is also not afraid to get physical-However she is more into katanas with precise aim-and poisons.

Akio-despite her abilities-is also very naive and wont understand it if someone was to flirt with her-Taking it either to litteral or not getting it at all.

Her nievity extends to most other areas of her life-Including cooking and relationships with people.

Her cooking skills are questionable but not nearly as bad as Emis-She just doesnt understand what to do with most of the cooking tools. 

Manami on the other hand is loud and easily angered. She is not above making rude remarks if she has too-And is feircly protective over anybody in her friend circle.

It takes a lot to get her to open up-And she will try to push you away. But once you do she is caring and very sisterly. 

Manami will probably keep her loved ones wants and needs in her mind for most of the decisions she makes that would somehow effect them. But would never admit it-She would deny it with all she has.

Would protect you with her life-She has 0 cares about her own safety when if comes down to yours.

While Akio would normally take the role of the ‘protected’ Manami takes the role of the ‘protector’. 

Her harshness may cause friction with certain people however-And she wont care one bit.

Manami-Like Akio-is partial to blades. However poisen is a 50\50 chance for her to use.

Also Manamis humor is very sarcastic and almost dry-Although she can have a mischievous side if she is with the right person.

Manami and Akio both wear traditionally feminine cloathing.

They co-exist with each other pretty fine. Manami considers Akio a part of her-Her only perminate friend. And Akio seems to find comfort and safty from Manami.

Both will take over if they feel the other needs it.

Akio has Autophobia due to the past she and Manami share-And will have a sever physical reaction if she feels she will be abandoned. (The phobia of being abandoned)

I picture both Manami and Akio as Demisexual and Romantic-So it will take a strong emotional bond to make her want to do any sort of romance with you as well as sexual acts.

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THE "NO"MANCE OF NOCTIS AND LUNAFREYA AND TABATA'S DISASTROUS ENDING

Okay, here we go. I didn't expect this to get this long, but Tabata must be exposed!

NOCTIS AND LUNA ARE NOT IN LOVE

This may come as a surprise to some people, but Noctis and Luna are not lovers in FF XV. Repeat, they are NOT in love. Many fans, including myself, were really disappointed about how their "romance" was handled in the game FINAL FANTASY XV and it's sister productions, FFXV BROTHERHOOD and FFXV KINGSGLAIVE. The story builds strongly off of the platonic relationship of Noct and Luna. But the bizarre lack of communication, a 22 year time-gap and a cringe-worthy conclusion to their "love" story makes Noctis and Luna the crumbiest FINAL FANTASY couple in a long list of crumby FINAL FANTASY  couples.

Without further ado, let's just get to the evidence.

ARRANGED MARRIAGE

To begin with, their marriage is officially arranged by the Niflheim Empire, namely Ardyn. (Who is the main bad guy.) There's no telling if any wedding would ever have taken place between them under other circumstances, and furthermore, no evidence. So we're off to a bad start. (Btw, have we cracked why Ardyn even planned this?)

TWELVE YEAR TIME GAP

Twelve years is a long time to have zero verbal communication with your potential lover. Even longer given that they were kids at the time, and any real romantic connection would have been highly unlikely. (Not to mention creepy) And while it's hard to say how long they were together even then, it wasn't long enough to make much of an impression on young Noct as we see throughout the story. (The only thing that made an impression on him about his time in Tenebrae were the snack cakes he had!) And while exchanging dog mail (You've heard of snail mail? Same thing, but with dogs) might be enough to keep a childhood friendship going, there's no plausible reason it would ever blossom into love. The fact that the writers push that cheesy, head-over-heels, fake true love on them after the credits just came off as insulting. (Fake true love? My bad.)

Moving on.

PLATONIC LOVE

Those are the key words here. Before the game's release Hijime Tabata described Noctis and Lunafreya's relationship as "platonic". (NOT the Romeo and Juliet thing he had planned for Versus XIII) A description he should have stuck to, but decided to change it to Romeo and Juliet  at the last second. The VERY last second. Like literally the LAST second of the game. And, man! Did the whole thing ever get screwed up large! It became a major, MAJOR weak point in the story.

Evidence time!

-They have NO adult scenes together.

You heard me. Lunafreya and Noctis don't appear as adults together ONCE in the game, the anime, or the movie. Nor  have they EVER met as as adults. They never exchange ONE spoken word. In fact the story goes out of it's way to show them together as children, reinforcing the platonic nature of this relationship. -Even in the children scenes there is no foray into a romantic relationship between them. -Even in the scene which could have been interpreted as romantic when Noct says: "All I wanted was to save you." he is again a child. This is deliberately platonic.

And to counter all this platonic love and reluctance to commit is:

-A creepy afterlife wedding scene complete with a dutiful-looking kiss. -Luna crying. (I'm not saying love couldn't have survived twelve years, but for crying out loud, they were children! The way she cries over him and bemoans their fate is purely ridiculous. And quite unlike her character in KINGSGLAIVE, but let's not open that wound.) -Noctis crying. (Although he's crying more for himself.) -And even more dog mail! But with stickers this time?

I for one, wouldn't have minded a platonic romance between them. I think it would have been not only more realistic and believable, but would have stood a lot stronger chance of working with these two characters. But even that was rather botched in the final version of the story. Lookin' at you Tabata.

AGE DIFFERENCE

I'm not going to go too deep about age difference. Luna being the elder by four years is not a large enough gap to make a difference if these two had any real feelings for each other. But it is worthy of taking note that Lunafreya's age WAS changed for the final game... Coincidence? Maybe. It DOES reinforce a sibling-like relationship when taken with all the other evidence. Just sayin'.

NOCTIS DOES NOT WANT TO MARRY LUNA

Noctis voices his opinion on the matter many times throughout the game  Even though he never comes right out and says "Sucks to the wedding!", we kinda get what he means... Take a look at these quotes:

1. -Cindy: "Congrats on yer weddin'!" Noct: (unenthusiastically) "Not hitched just yet..."

2. -Ignis: "Her Ladyship (Luna) seems amenable to the prospect." (of getting married) Gladio: "And Noct here likes the idea." Noct: "Ehh..." Prompto: "What's that? 'I do'?" Noct: "Buzz off."

3. -Iris: "...Besides, you already have Lady Lunafreya." (speaking of being Noct's girlfriend.) Noct: "..."

4. -Prompto: "You must be so psyched to see her!" Noctis: "Luna?" (Yeah, idiot, who do you think he means :p) Prompto: "Yeah." Noct: "Well, we need to make sure she's alright before anything else..."

5. -Ignis: "Wont be much longer now Noct." (speaking of getting to Altissia and Luna) Noct: "Yeah..."

6. -Prompto: "I'm real glad for you (Noctis) that Luna's safe and sound." ☺ Noctis: "Yeah..."

7. -Gladio: "That's it! You gotta marry her! After this, we'll see about the ceremony." Noct: "Uh, yeah. I'll think about it." (Seriously, I'm not making this up! This is real dialogue from the game! )

8. -Girl: "Were you excited to marry Lady Lunafreya? Because she was excited to marry you." Noct: "Thank you."

9. Prompto: "I wonder how Luna's doing?" Noct: "Who knows." Prompto: "Who knows? You don't know????!" Ignis: "Of course he does. Noctis is more concerned about her than anyone." Noctis: "Going to bed now." (No love or affection is EVER mentioned. He even shows a lack of concern over her situation and even her general wellbeing! The bros care more about her!)

-In the first scene with Regis, Noctis seems grumpy and bitter and doesn't make any promises about watching his manners around his "bride-to-be". -Overall he is gloomy and quiet when it comes to his imminent nuptials. -In BROTHERHOOD Ignis has to all but force Noct to "Write back to Lady Lunafreya."

(And we never get to see what Luna and Noct say to each other because they never talk, sorry.)

Okay, I get that Noct isn't an over-exuberant kid, but honestly, he never shows one once of enthusiasm! Quite the opposite as we see.

LUNA DOES NOT WANT TO MARRY NOCT

Absolutely she doesn't. Every time she talks about him it's about when they were kids together. She misses those times, but never says anything about missing Noct himself. Or loving him for that matter. Her affection for him is all platonic and stems from the time she spent with him when they are children. But don't take it from me. Let's look at the evidence. -Luna: "I wish we could laugh together as we did when we were children." -Luna: "I do not wish to guide him. Merely to stand beside him." -Her farewell "Dear Noctis" is the first (and last) time she says something endearing to him. But, yeah... talking to the eight year old again.

-In FF KINGSGLAIVE she is especially indifferent to him. She shows minimal interest in seeing Noctis. -Is very reluctant to comply with Niflheims's wishes concerning the arranged marriage. "What cause does the Empire have to see me wed to Noctis?" -Has this look on her face like "Do I have to?" when discussing the arrangement with King Regis in his throne room. -Makes it abundantly clear that she is only here because of her duty and destiny. Not once does she say she even likes Noctis, let alone wants to marry him. -In BROTHERHOOD we learn that Luna knows very little about Noctis. Just that he's too busy to play with his schoolmates. She doesn't even know that Prompto isn't Noct's bestie at the time. -Absolutely nothing of a romantic nature.

And seeing as our main heroine of FFXV said only 849 words over 90 sentences in the game, (253 of them as baby!Luna) there's not much support coming from her section.

NO ENTHUSIASM OR MENTION OF THE WEDDING

Not from either of them. They are both stiffly formal through the dog letters and neither says ONE word about the wedding, let alone being happy or excited about it. There's honestly not ONE part where either of them shows enthusiasm! There is nothing in their dog notes but stiff formality. (Seriously, are they even friends? I'm starting to wonder...) It's called the "Lover's Notebook " in the description, but no words of love are ever written in it. Even in the most favorable of the answer choices. (Luna is surprisingly more vague than Noct!)

Luna: "My prayers are with you Noct." Noct: "I received it Luna, thanks!"

Luna: "I just left Tenebrae." Noct: "Finally gonna see you after all these years." (At least Noct acknowledges that they haven't seen each other in a while. Hmph!)

Luna: "I await you in Altissia." Noct: "See you there."

(And I haven't tracked down the exact words for all their notebook exchanges, but there's certainly no mention of the wedding or love... things.) -And absolutely NO mention to each other about the little fact that THEY'RE ENGAGED!! Like literally neither even hedges at it. -The wedding dress scene in Altissia is a bust. Noctis is all hands in pockets and grunts. -In Luna's speech she bursts the crowd's bubble by announcing she's here to summon the Hydrean and not wed Noct. :p

ALL ROMANTIC BONDING SCENES CUT (THEIR BONDS WERE CUT!)

(And given to other characters I might add, but that's a discussion for another time.) Such as the few scenes we had with him meeting Stella, who later became Luna, and the whole Romeo/Juliet romance that was set to take place in VERSUS XIII.

Following stats courtesy of fellow blogger @rsasai : (Read her in depth analysis of Luna and Noct's relationship here)

-Ray Chase (Noctis voice actor) says zero words to Luna. Zero. None. Not even ONE. -Noctis says... 92 words to Lunafreya in the entire FFXV game. Total. That's 18 sentences. All of them baby!Noctis. -Lunafreya (who was grossly cut out of the game; discusion for another time) says less than 900 words in the entire FFXV game. -Only 242 of them to Noctis. -Over 3 scenes. (Yeah.) -700-775 words about her duty and destiny as oracle. -The two of the have only 3 minutes of screen time together. (That's 180 SECONDS!!!!!!) All of it spent as babies or in flashbacks.

FREE SHIPPING ON NOCTIS AND LUNA

But forget all the reasons they aren't in love. Let's look at all the reasons they ARE! Everyone in the game ships them! (Except Noct and Luna that is). Take a look:

-The bros, (who just assume and tease Noct alot): [Insert every bro-teasing-Noct moment] -Ravus, (who is obviously out of touch with his sister): "Show him (Noctis) the truth of your heart." -Glauca/Drautos, (Who doesn't know anything at all): "Pity you couldn't see your beloved Noctis." -Some hopelessly romantic random fangirl of Luna's: "Lady Lunafreya really wanted to marry you!"

Like seriously, doesn't anyone care about what Noct and Luna want???

NO CHEMISTRY

Not that something as subjective as chemistry should come into this, but I must touch on it briefly as there is some science to it. Just for myself, I find a romance falls utterly flat unless the characters in question have a realistic basis for their love and that unexplainable, unexplorable bond we call "chemistry ". There was just no chemistry between these characters. (Although it's sometimes hard to tell seeing as how they never cross paths) Yes, chemistry exists, but since it's rather unpredictable on screen, we'll just look at the things that can help it along a bit. Character history and backgrounds, for instance. If properly matched, or starkly enough contrasted, this can help form an invisible bond that the audience doesn't even realize. Which brings me to my next point.

BACKSTORIES CREATE AN EVEN GREATER DIVIDE

Luna comes from a very different background than Noctis, and we get that she has had a rough childhood at the hands of the Niflheim and her treacherous brother. We see this especially in KINGSGLAIVE where Luna has this really mature, rock solid outlook on her duty, her calling and life in general. Her mother was brutally murdered before her very eyes and her brother becomes a puppet of Niflheim. She lives in an enemy-controlled state and has obviously has had a rough time of it being loyal to Lucis and all, with no one nearby to support her. (Maybe Gentiana). On top of all that becomes the youngest Oracle in history and goes about healing the people at the risk of her own life! Seriously, this girl is as tough as nails to go through what she has and still come through as resolute as ever. She then witnesses the deaths of King Regis and Nyx Ulric, and the fall of Insomnia! Then makes the journey to Altissia with the ring, by herself awakening the Astrals as she goes, all without getting caught by the Imperials!!!! She's a very, VERY special girl. Now we have Noctis. Aside from being attacked by a Marilith when he was a smol boy, he's never had much hardship. He's always been spoiled by his father and friends, and as in BROTHERHOOD (the animated web series) we see he's kind of a brat. Not eating his veggies and sleeping in too long, stuff like that. And that's okay, Noct is a typical millennial. (or the FFXV equivalent thereof.) The point is that the differences in his and Lunafreya's separate upbringings make them all but non-compatible.

AAAND... AN EXTRA TEN-YEAR TIME GAP...

And if you thought the first twelve year time-gap which kept them apart was weird, then brace yourselves: Introducing ANOTHER time gap. This one AN ADDITIONAL TEN YEARS! Yep, it's ten more years before Noctis dies at the end of the game and he and Luna apparently meet again in the afterlife. So now it's like they haven't seen each other in TWENTY TWO YEARS! That's twenty two years of NO COMMUNICATION.

Yup! Sure, now let's get married because why not?

Okay, now this is just getting stupid.

(I'm actually laughing right now because this is just so ridiculous! LOL)

FORCED LOVE!!!

Yes, friends! The love is forced. Now that we've established the fact that Tabata was undoubtedly going for platonic love--- he goes and throws a confusing afterlife wedding scene in there, completely undoing the platonic relationship that he had just spent the entire game building up!

Okay, I get that Tabata felt bad about squeezing Noctis and Lunafreya into a purely platonic marriage, and it's not like their romance couldn't have evolved into true love along the way, if that was what this story was about, but clearly it wasn't if all the aforementioned platonic-ness is anything to go by. Seriously, make up your mind man. Their sibling-esque relationship was understandable, realistic and just what the story needed up until that point. And seeing as how the story doesn't even need them to marry to work as it should, I still cannot fathom why Tabata built up this super obvious platonic relationship only to try to introduce romance at the last second. I can't understand it... I just can't UNDERSTAND it!

IN CONCLUSION

Maybe Noctis and Lunafreya IS a better love story than TWILIGHT. After all their love survived... (and let's go through the list one last time)... an arranged marriage that neither wanted,  twelve years of no communication save for dog mail, no adult time together, having all their romance scenes given to other dudes/girls/cars, free shipping, forced love, no chemistry, Hajime Tabata's wrath, NOTHING in common backgrounds or otherwise, and additional ten year time-gap, and death itself!

If anyone has any idea what Tabata was doing, then PLEASE! COMMENT!

So, please note that this isn’t a hate blog against Noc/tuna just because I ship something else. These are real stats. This is horrible storytelling. And it’s insulting. As an audience who pays good money for our games, we have a right to better stuff.

That’s my take.

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Making It Work Chapter 1: Confessions

so this is my latest fanfic... heres the AO3 Fanfiction.net aaaand Wattpad :D

I am posting it here as well

Summary: "Cole was glad to be human again, he could finally touch water without dying, he could feel, he doesn't have to worry about disappearing

But he soon finds himself jealous about Jay and Nya

Jealous of Nya because she has someone like Jay

Jealous of Jay because he has such a beautiful girl like Nya

He realizes he has a crush on them both"

Cole had never thought that he would be in a polyamorous relationship with his best friend and his girlfriend, well, now his boyfriend and girlfriend... this was new to him and to Jay and Nya... They have to learn how to make it all work. This is going to be a bumpy ride with many adventures ahead...

Pairings: JayxNyaxCole 

Cole was glad to be human again, he could finally touch water without dying, he could feel, he doesn't have to worry about disappearing

But he soon finds himself jealous about Jay and Nya

Jealous of Nya because she has someone like Jay

Jealous of Jay because he has such a beautiful girl like Nya

He realizes he has a crush on them both...

And he's felt this way ever since they moved into Yang's temple, he's attempted to ask the old ghost for advice. But he was clueless as well. So that didn't help much...

So here he was, eating a piece of cake in the Tv room, not really paying attention to  what  was on.

Then Jay and Nya walked in and sat on action couple of bean bags that were placed on the ground

"Hey Cole, you don't mind if we play video games do you? Jay asked

"No... I wasn't paying much attention to the tv, anyways.

He was glad that he had dark skin, or else they would've seen the blush that was spreading on his face

"Are you okay...? You look a little uncomfortable" Nya asked with a concerned look on her face

"Y-Yeah, just still getting used to being human again..." he said, shrugging

Okay but that wasn't a lie, he had to remember that he couldn't walk through walls, or float, or disappear.

Not in the bad way of disappearing, just, becoming invisible... so he could get out of this awkward situation

They didn't seem convinced... but then Jay whispered something into Nya's ear and she gave a small laugh

"Bet you can't beat me in Mario Kart!" Nya grinned and turned on the gaming console abd grabbed a controller after putting the game in

"Oh, you're on!" Jay grinned and grabbed his controller

He watched as the two as they chose their characters and proceeded with the race, it was slightly entertaining seeing the both of them being so competitive against one another

He contemplated on telling the two how he felt, but he didn't want to ruin their relationship again.

So he finished the slice of cake he had and got up to go to the kitchen, the two were too focused on their game to notice that he had left ---------------

After he put his plate away, he ran into Kai

"Oh, hey cole" Kai said, but then he must've noticed something was off about the former ghost

"Hey are you okay?" He asked frowning

Cole shrugged, he didn't know how to explain how he was feeling,

"I was just gonna go train or something"

Kai didn't look entirely convinced, "yknow you can tell me anything, right?"

"Yeah..." Cole said and started to walk towards the training room, "but I'm fine..."

Kai followed him, "Cole, we've been living together for, I don't know, at least 6 or 7 years?" He said frowning, "I've learned that when any of us say that were fine, we really aren't... if you bottle up your emotions, it'll just make you feel worse" Kai paused, "trust me, it's better to talk than to keep it hidden"

Cole sighed, he was right... about both things

Living with your friends, has you learn their habits, how they hide their emotions

Bottling up your emotions never ends well either...

Kai put his hand on the black ninjas shoulder in reassurance

"Okay... but I don't know how to explain it..."

"Take your time, and how about we go to your room, that's more private than standing in the middle of the hallway

Cole nodded in agreement, and walked in silence with Kai towards his room

When they entered, Kai asked again, "what's wrong, cole?"

"I really don't know... but I think I might be jealous"

Kai raised an eyebrow, "of who? Jay and Nya?"

"Y-Yeah, I think... I don't want to ruin their relationship again! I felt really bad about it the last time..!" Cole said nervously

"Hey, Hey slow down... tell me why your jealous" Kai said reassuringly

"Okay..." Cole took a deep breath, "I'm jealous of Jay... because he has a beautiful person like Nya... I'm jealous of Nya because she has a great guy like Jay... I don't know, it's stupid..."

Kai raised an eyebrow, "so your saying your jealous of my sister and Jay, because you like the both of them?" Kai said, smirking, and raised an eyebrow

Cole felt his face go warm, "y-Yeah..."

"So that's why you've been all awkward around either one..." Kai chuckled

Cole's eyes widened, "you knew!?"

"Aw c'mon, dude, it was kinda obvious" he shrugged

"Do the others know..?"

Kai shrugged again, "Zane might, cause being a robot and all... and he has Pixal in his head, and I don't think Lloyd cares... Jay and Nya might not, but who knows"

Cole groaned, "I just don't want it to end up like last time..."

"It won't, I'll talk to the both of them.. And have them talk to you" Kai said patting my shoulder

I nodded, "thanks..."

"No problem!" Kai grinned and walked out of the room

Cole let out a deep sigh and flopped onto his bed, he didn't know how this was going to turn out, and he hoped that Kai wouldn't ruin anything...

---------------------------

He ended up lying there longer than he intended to, taking a short and unintentional nap where he lay, slightly uncomfortable, but otherwise fine... and

He looked at the clock on the nightstand next to his bed, it read to be nearly 6:30... dinner would be served soon... so he got up and walked to the Dining hall, and was surprisingly the first one there...

He pulled out his phone, finally being able to use it without it falling out of his hands, he had a bunch of notifications from his social media accounts, most were likes, and the rest were comments, reblogs, etc.

He tended to ignore certain comments...

But that didn't matter to him anymore since Jay and Nya walked in...

Sitting on either side of him

"Hi Cole..." Jay said softly

"Hey..." Cole whispered

"So Kai talked to us.." Nya said putting her head in her hands on the table, Jay followed her example

"O-Oh..." he hoped that Kai didn't mess any thing up..

"He said that you like the both of us, that you were too nervous to tell us yourself" Jay said

"He also said you didn't want to ruin our relationship with this.."

"So we talked... and we came to an agreement"

Cole held his breath, he hoped that they wouldn't say what he feared

"And... we want you to be with us..." Nya whispered

Cole's eyes widened, "R-really?"

Jay nodded, "We don't want it to end like last time either, I don't want to go through that again"

"Me neither... that's why I was so nervous about this..." Cole gave a chuckle and rubbed his arm.

Nya smiled, "well... last time was when we were all a bit younger than we are now... and hopefully more mature..." she glanced at Jay quickly, who caught her glance and his face turned a bit red from blush.

Cole grinned, he was feeling better now that he knew how the two felt about him...

"There's a smile!" Jay said grinning and wrapping an arm around his shoulders, making him sport a blush of his own

Nya smiled and placed a kiss on his cheek, resting her head on his shoulder. Jay followed her example, leaning on him as well.

Cole blushed harder, he was glad that his dark skin hid most of the blush, but he relaxed under their touches...

Dinner was served not long after their talk. They explained their newly formed relationship.

Lloyd understood, he said he'd rather have our relationship over the fights we used to have over Nya, and other little things. Though, he said not to get too mushy around him.

Lloyd still finds romance gross, like he did when he was physically younger.

Mentally, he still sometimes acts like he's 10, or around that age. It's easy to forget how old he mentally is, how mature he often acts. The poor kid needs a break.

"As long as you guys don't fight like you used to, I'm fine with it" Lloyd grinned

Zane approved, he said pixal did as well.

Wu had no comment, not sure if he approved or disapproved. Maybe he feared that it will end up with us fighting again.

Cole had no idea what Misako thought... she didn't comment comment on it either.

Kai, sent me a look, like an "I told you so" look. I rolled my eyes at him.

Other than that, dinner went well. They talked about recent events, flirted with one another a little, or attempted without falling into giggles.

Then, later that night, he thanked Kai for helping him out.

"No problem, anything for my friends" he grinned, "and please, try not to hurt my sister..." he added with a serious tone in his voice

Cole nodded, "I wont, o-or I'll try.. I'll try not to hurt either of them"

Kai nodded and walked off.

Cole sighed again and went to go find Jay and Nya.

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Criminal or scapegoat, Shakespeare’s Shylock is a reputation to celebrate

In his contemporary change of The Merchant of Venice, Howard Jacobson set out to explore Shylocks tolerating plead , not make amends for his Jewishness

If Shakespeare is the most revelatory of columnists, it is because he has infinite symbolizes at his disposal, and can find the poem of grief or disappointment where the circumstances are least poetical. Take that stage in The Merchant of Venice in which Shylock presses his co-religionist Tubal for information of his daughter Jessicas elopement, counting the cost of her “goin ” ducats. Tubal intersperses what he knows of Jessica with what he has is aware of Antonios adversities. Carefully, he divulges out presupposition and hearsay, quantifying their effects. But eventually he must let Shylock know the worst. Jessica has been heard of in Genoa, going through the money she embezzled from her father, and exchanging a reverberate, likewise stolen from him, for a monkey.

Thou torturest me, Tubal, Shylock reacts. And genuinely we dont know whether Tubal intends torture or not. Does Shylock have to be given this agonising info at all? Is Tubal well informed the rings provenance? Whether he is or he isnt, Shylock exposes it to him now, although it was tones as much as though its to himself hes talking. It was my turquoise. I had it of Leah when I was a bachelor. I would not have given it for a wilderness of monkeys.

Whatever we have been thinking of Shylock so far, the field seems to open beneath him here , not to withdraw him but to award us rare access into his history, his antecedent affections, the man he was before he became and maybe why he became the man he is now. Just the word bachelor is a shock, because although we have experienced him with his daughter we have not in so far put our thoughts to his married, let alone his widowed state.

A Jewish patriarch, yes, who realizes his home a inferno, as patriarch are inclined to do, for his restless daughter. But a patriarch brought forward by small children without a bride to help him have we thought that one through? There is no word to say his wife is dead, but we hear it unmistakably in that deceptively plain convict, I had it of Leah when I was a bachelor-at-arms. A happening indivisible from Leah, that endowment voices, an expression of simple-minded closeness that sees Portias and Bassanios ring joke later in the romp look like shallow trumpery. We sense the loss to Shylock, anyway, without his scratching the ache of it. Detecting is not, to him, that thought of elegantly wearisome flaunt it is to Antonio and Portia.

Phoebe and Jonathan Pryce as Jessica and Shylock in a 2015 make at the Globe theatre, London. Photograph: Tristram Kenton for the Guardian

For Jessica to have embezzled the ring her baby demonstrated her papa and she would surely are all aware of its significance is a most terrible betrayal. For her to have parted with it a more terrible sellout still. But to have parted with it for a ape! There have been periods when it was fashionable for a magnificent maiden to dandle a domesticated monkey on her lap or parade with it on a studded rein. Whether that was the case in Genoa the play doesnt tell. Whatever her motivating, the grossness of the transaction is of a style Jessica, the Jewish daughter of Jewish father, should have been alive to. I would not have given it for a wilderness of apes, Shylock adds. What a fine Hebraism is showed in this formulation! William Hazlitt memorandum. No doubt he sounded the Old Testament in that parole wilderness for behind the Mosaic project to civilise and codify, the wilderness was always waiting to seduce and reclaim the natural being. To a people who thoughts God as a philosophical sentiment, never to be identified or encountered, least of all to be confused with the animal deities worshipped abroad , nothing utters the antithesis to civilisation more competently than the unbridled stomach of an ape. A wilderness is a desolate target. A wilderness of apes is a flesh for the despair of the human rights mettle when faithfulness and reward have absconded it.

It is not, nonetheless, the last string of the scene. Tubal bars Shylocks sorrow with better information. But Antonio is certainly undone. And it does the maneuver. Nay, thats true-life, thats very true, Shylock refutes. Go, Tubal, fee me an officer …

So its back to the viciou business of manufacturing Antonio pay. The gambling will have its act and Shylock will have his pound of flesh.

To someone determined to read The Merchant of Venice as a Jew-hating play, this scotches any debate that Shakespeare is of Shylocks party. Yes, Shylock is awarded an illuminating instant of humanity that, after all, is what Shakespeare does: every scoundrel has his enunciate but thereafter, and by his own choose, the Jew quickly returns to the engrossing Jewish occupancy of requital.

That, however, is to say no more than that The Merchant of Venice is a gambling not a exposition, and that we would not expect Shylock to be sentimentalised. He does not become, by virtue of what we have learned, a man forgiven and illustrated. But nor, in my view of the performance, is it possible to return unchanged to all we previously thought. Our feel of who he is should always have been evolving regardless, and we cannot escape our new knowledge of him as a husband who had and lost a wife, and can now be said to have had and lost a daughter. He has been cruelly burgled in a double sense, and the sneering offenders are all indulgent the group of friends of Antonio. This nothing extenuates, but once “weve heard” Shylock narrated his losings, ducats and all, we cannot forget them unless we have our own intellects to.

Two stages after the wilderness of apes, Shylock has animals on his head again. Thou calledst me bird-dog before thou had a crusade, he reminds Antonio, But since I am a pup, beware my fangs. So, yes, though all thats feral disheartens and demoralises him, he will put on a feral disposition in an act that is a sort of obstinacy against himself as well as Antonio. The wilful hardening of centres a reference establishing himself impervious to ground or affection, and so less human than he actually is interests Shakespeare. We see it in Coriolanus. We see it in Lady Macbeth. We even see it, although it was gloomed by clowning, in Hamlet. One human in his time gamblings numerous parts, and one of those components will be his own feeling of who he is or would like or has no choice but to be. The narration Shakespeare tells of Shylock is of a soul who diminishes into the extremely obduracy of irritation he is accused of by those who want him to be nothing else. It is a part that not every man could master, and Shylock notices the wherewithal within to participate it right enough, but being the Jew who must have his pound of flesh is still just as much a capitulation to an expected capacity as it is an expression of something invariable in his character.

I dont say this, as a fellow Jew, to save Shylock from his Jewishness. I simply recount the performance. When “its been” made publicly available by my publishers that I had hot-headedly taken up current challenges to write a contemporary romance in The Merchant of Venice, some cynics premised I would be embarking on a clean-up errand with the aim of reaching removing piquing fabric from Shakespeare, much as those who disapprove of Cecil Rhodes would eliminate his statue from wherever it stands. But I am not, as a Jew or as anything else, piqued by a word Shakespeare wrote.

Howard Jacobson at his home in Soho, London. Photograph: Richard Saker for the Observer

My Shylock, if I may employ it like that and he is the Shylock I see when I speak Shakespeares play is not intended as a post-Holocaust better on the original. Because I am deeply touched by his extending reference to his wife, I guess him in constant speech with her. The dead have much to say, just as the living have much they want to hear, and Shylock wont be the first person to have continued those discussions. Astonished by exhilaration impatient as the Wind/ I turned to share the transport Oh! with whom/ But Thee, long buried in the silent Tomb. If this is a freedom and does the participate a progressive disservice I apologise for it.( Though Wordsworth did say it was Shakespeare who opened his nature .) What I surely dont apologise for, nonetheless, is following the write when it comes to Shylocks spiritedness and wit.

So much of which is something we become of Shylock is determined by the age of the actor who draws him, the clothes he wears, the accent he is given, the inhumanity of his stare and the curvature of his nose, most of government decisions as to these being unnecessary by anything in the textbook. Last-place summertime, while making a television programme about Shylock in the Venice ghetto, I saw a relatively young actor play him. The result, in particular in the opening exchanges with Antonio and Basanio, was electrifying.

The bristling invasion with which Shylock entertains the first mention from Basanio that Antonio is looking for a loan was not softened.

Three thousand ducats, Shylock muses in that half public, half private method of his. I make I may take his bail. To which Basanio, who is never other than literal, responds Be assured you are able. Shylock deters up the maying and puns on the notion of statement. I will be assured I may. And that I may be assured, I will bethink me … If he already searches more verbally quick for Basanio on the sheet, his gratification of an encounter in which he is the lord looked inhuman, actor to actor. Is the methodology used to his assurance the pound of Antonios flesh already forming in his psyche as he jests?

With Antonios arrival, which he memo with a satirists contempt How like a fawning publican he seems! Shylocks flavours rise so far. Now he can remind, reprimand, retard, offering and disclaim and render again, while a blustering Antonio, standing on basic principles he has forefeited, can do no better than threaten to spew on Shylock again. If it is war now, it is both their doing but, when playing with youth zest, Shylock was having the better of it. When he described the proposed draft bond as a merry play he seemed joyous surely. Tell the relinquish/ Be nominated for an equal pound/ Of your fair flesh, to be cut off and taken/ In what part of your figure it pleaseth me.

Angus Wright( Shylock ), crest, and James Garnon( Antonio) in the RSCs 2008 production of The Merchant of Venice at the Courtyard theatre, Stratford on Avon. Image: Tristram Kenton for the Guardian

These wires should never be delivered anything but flirtatiously. Your fair flesh is an friendship that Antonio, had he been smarter, or less hopeless to self-assured the loan, or less egotistical about his ability to repay it, or little accustomed to flattery, might have recoiled from. Alone moments before, they had been to talk of spew. It takes person very quick on his hoofs to change the colour with such agility. Perhaps most performers, weighed down by their Jewish gabardine and the guessed peculiarity of a Jew manufactured age-old by the relic of his religion, is very hard to applied the requisite verve into this. But the young Venetian Shylock I attended didnt shy from it. For the duration of their deal Antonios flesh was exhibition as fair to Shylock, and whatever of that was derision it was up to the devil himself to find out. As for where Shylock, should Antonio are inadequate to redeem his alliance, merrily proposed to move his cut in what part of your form it pleaseth me why that selfsame devil might have blushed to hear it.

To my ear, the allusion is sex or its good-for-nothing. Interred deep in the antiJewish lores that contacted Shakespeare was a fear of Jews as castrators, and all that medieval Christianity never understood about circumcision. Did Jews eunuch themselves? Did Jewish gentlemen bleed like women? Was that why they needed the blood of Christian children, to oust the blood theyd lost? I dont remark Shakespeare was consciously mentioning all this at the moment that Shylock proposes the bond. But dark as well as comic powers are in play here, the darker, perhaps, for being comic, because what Shylock is building merry with is inchoate Christian terror. To play him as a consummate comedic provocateur, then, as I received him played by a young and juiced-up actor in Venice, is not at all to rescue him from obloquy. But it is to give him the vitality that I feel Shakespeare intended for him. And it is to suggest that the jaunt from Antonios privy parts, which might just ought to have the website please select Shylock for relinquish, to Antonios heart, is not of Shylocks picking only.

Before the idea of deliberate redoubling Shylock making a Jew of Antonio in advance of Antonios making a Christian of him I pull up short. I am not convinced that Shakespeare was ever interested in such abstract, academic mapping. But it is part of his greatness to grant unworked its importance and unsorted old material to have their road without him in a gambling. DH Lawrence wrote astutely about “whats happening in” a living production when the creator throws his finger in the wash, obliging the outcome document. It ceases to be a living design. And Shakespeare was a writer in Lawrences sense, dogma free, permitting characters to find their genuine souls in interaction with one another, and giving language do its own remembering.

It has always seemed incorrect to me to talk of The Merchant of Venice as an anti- or a pro-semitic gambling. Were it either it would be less the play it is. Those who are distressed by what the hell is see as the plays anti-Jewishness find themselves, ironically it seems to me, on the side of the individuals who glory in any anti-Jewishness they find. In both cases, Shylock scandalizes them. The former are scandalized into embarrassment Is that us? the latter into confirmation of what theyve always concluded – Yes, that is you. But for me Shylock lives, with all his human insufficiencies on evidence. We know him by his speech, his repetitions as though no thing said only once can possibly be trusted those strange stutterings in which he addresses himself in a kind of surprise, his sudden absences when he is with others that causes them to wonder whether he is taking note of them at all, his sudden revertings to lyricism, his enraged volleys of speculation , no matter that no one will accept a word of what he supposes, that draw him a kind of fucking cousin to Hamlet. No, there is never any thinking of him as other than a Jew: the Venetians playboys who spit on him one minute and ask for money from him the next will not earmark the Jew in him to be forgotten and, whether as a consequence or by preference, he will not countenance the Jew in him to be forgotten either.

Its hard work. Would he have become life easier for himself had he relented? Perhaps. Its said that finally, as he readies himself to take out Antonios heart, he is the Jew of pitiless legality, the moral antonym of passion as represented by Christians. Were Shakespeare interested in pressing this opposition to the detriment of the Jews he wouldnt have allowed the Christians to substantiate as quite so squalid. They speak of enjoy and think of money. They speak of kindness and evidence nothing. They are merely not more dangerous because they are indolent and forget to be.

In my tale I move Portias world from Belmont to Cheshires Golden Triangle, home to footballers, heiresses and Manchesters most wealthy. I planned no ailment to Cheshire by doing that. But I appear Portias moral universe of childish choices and pettish subterfuges, where protestations of fine experiencing cannot disguise materialism and malice, licenses me to satire. Shylock and Portia now Plurabelle meet again up there. Once more she isnt sure who the Jew is and who the shopkeeper. I never ensure it as my function to give Shylock a second chance. Where thoughts objective for him, they aim forever. But he does have one thing he would like to say to Portia/ Plurabelle. And I allow him to say it.

Shylock Is My Name is publicized next week by Hogarth.

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Growing Family Montage

OK, so back story time. I'm on some good medication that is giving me some interesting dreams. Very vivid and they are playing out like movies. I am also slightly obsessed with Supernatural (like most of you sinners on this site) and I had a dream that played out like a movie montage, with music and scene changes and seeing the characters speaking with out hearing them and all! it was awesome and i felt like sharing, I also apologize if this sucks, this will be my first written post with any substance, but maybe this will give the the confidence i need to start writing fan fiction. The montage will be playing to Welcome to the Black Parade by My Chemical Romance. Lyrics are written out and the actions of the characters are in ( parentheses ). Enjoy. Ps I would listen to the song after reading and imagine everything playing out. ******** Girl reader X Dean X Sam X and Cas ******** INTRO: You have joined the boys a few months back. And as the new additions on Team Free Will, you kick ass. during your ass kicking, you and Sam hit it off (obviously cause Dean and Cas are an item.... Duh). Life with the guys is great, you and Sam always side together and shut Dean down when he argues that the Harry Potter movies are better then the books. You love showing Cas all of the fandom(s) you belong to and forcing him to watch your favorite movies and TV shows since he doesn't sleep, you also give him a wider view of music that he has been limited to. Dean hates that last part. You and Dean bicker over your taste of music, while you do like the classics that Dean cant get enough of, you have a special place in your heart for your "emo music". But by Chuck, one day you will make him show some respect for Panic at the Disco, 30 Seconds to Mars, My Chemical Romance, etc. Sam is head over heels for you. After many months full of love Cas makes both of you aware that you are carrying the next Winchester inside of you. The bunker becomes the home no one thought it could be, the guys are thrilled, Sam for being a father, Uncle Dean cant wait to teach him/her all sorts of skills for being a bad ass, and Cas has sworn to be his/her guardian angel. The following months seem to fly by, the baby has a bunker across the hall from you and Sam. The two of you want to keep the gender a surprise. Y'all paint the nursery walls with wardings, and it actually looks nice, very artsy. Sam and Cas go over board during baby shopping, buying EVERYTHING in bulk. Life is good. For so long smiles come easy and laughter echos down the bunker halls. Home Sweet Home. "Check this out, there have been five deaths in the past two weeks in Seattle. The vics are found drained of all blood and are dumped in ally ways." Sam says during breakfast " If its a nest the vampires are being very sloppy, we may have a rouge one running around" Sam looks at Dean with a questioning look on his face. "Cas and I can check it out Sam, its a days drive, we stake the vamp, will be back in five days tops." Dean says with a knowing smile on his face. Cas just nods his head. "Oh no! Sam you are going" you say waddling in the dining area. You feel like a beached whale and a turtle could beat you in a race at your top speed. You take a seat next to him and catch your breath. "You have been cooped up here with me for so long and you are too stressed. Get out there kill you a vamp or two and get some energy out. If I could right now you can bet your ass I would be packing my bag now." Sam tries to argue but you hold up your hand. " The fat lady has spoken, you are going. Dean make sure he leaves with you." you say to the older Winchester. Dean just laughs and shakes his head. " Y/N what if the baby comes while we are gone? Its too close to the due date for me to be running out and going hunting." Sam says almost pleading. "I don't want anything to happen to the two of you." You grab Sam's hand " Babe, all I can do at this point is sleep, eat, piss, repeat. Literally. I don't even have the energy to make it though a movie or book with out falling asleep. Please, for me, get out there kill some vamps in a very gruesome way so that you can come home with a story so I can live vicariously through you. You need this, and I need this. The baby wont be here for another two weeks. and if anything happens I will call. We also have an angel on our side." you turn and smile at Cas. "I will fly in if anything happens Sam, you have my word" Cas says. you turn back to Sam. "I love you, you are going and you are going to enjoy it damn it!" you finish with a laugh. An hour later the guys are loading up Baby and will be leaving soon. You made sandwiches for the road and promised Dean your famous homemade apple pie if he can get them back safely in four days instead of five. "Challenge accepted!" Dean says giving you a hug, he steps back and rubs your large tummy "Stay in there a bit longer Little Bad Ass, Uncle Dean will be back soon, You be good to your mother." As if responding to his words the baby kicks his hand. Dean smiles from ear to ear. He is going to be a great Uncle. Cas comes and places his hand on you tummy. "The child is eager to arrive. Healthy at the moment. It is happy as always." he smiles, removes his hand from your stomach and places it on your head. You feel a cooling sensation flow through your body. Chills run up your arms. You sigh in relief, he sensed your back aches and tense muscles. Using his grace he eased your aches. "Thank you Cas." you say with a sigh and pull him in for a hug. You love his awkward hugs. Sam pulls you in for a kiss, it is long and soft. "Last chance to change your mind, I could stay" he says in between kisses. "Not a chance Winchester, you are going" you say taking a step back holding his hand. He raises your hand and kisses it. "I love you, we will be back soon" with that he leans down taking your belly in his hands and kisses it all over " Daddy will be home soon" the little one kicks for his father too. Sam rises and kisses you once more. then they are off. Off saving people and killing things, the good old family business. A few hours have passed, the bunker is quiet and you find yourself in the kitchen eating Dean's "secret" ice cream stash. Rubbing your tummy you start to sing your favorite song in a soft almost lullaby voice. knowing the only one who can hear you is you child. When I was a young boy My father took me into the city To see a marching band He said, "Son, when you grow up Would you be the savior of the broken The beaten and the damned?" (Cut to a view of the boys driving in Baby, Dean at the wheel, Sam shotgun, Cas in the back, they are talking casually) He said, "Will you defeat them Your demons, and all the non-believers The plans that they have made?" (Dean says something that makes Sam smile, he is relaxing) "Because one day I'll leave you A phantom to lead you in the summer To join the black parade." (cuts back to you in the bunker, humming the lines again, eating spoon fulls of rocky road) (When I was a young boy) (My father took me into the city) (To see a marching band) (He said, "Son, when you grow up) (Would you be the savior of the broken) (The beaten and the damned?") Suddenly you feel a wet sensation trickle down your legs You look down at the pool building at your feet, you feel faint, you drop the spoon and brace yourself against the counter. You mouth "holy shit!" [ MUSIC KICKS IN] Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me And other times I feel like I should go (You scramble for your phone, it fumbles in your hands as you dial the number) And through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets And when you're gone, we want you all to know (You put the phone to your ear, and you walk as fast as you can to your room) We'll carry on ( Cut to Sam: he answers the phone, his smile turns to a look of shock) We'll carry on And though you're dead and gone believe me (Dean glance over at Sam with concern) Your memory will carry on We'll carry on (Sam turns to Dean and mouths "Y/N's water broke") And in my heart I can't contain it (Sam doesnt even have to turn to see that Cas is already gone) A world that sends you reeling from decimated dreams (you are changing into clean clothes when you turn to see Cas in your door way) Your misery and hate will kill us all So paint it black and take it back (He grabs your already packed bags and leads you to the garage) Let's shout it loud and clear Defiant to the end we hear the call (seated in the car you wince at your first contraction, Cas holds your hand as he speeds off to the hospital) To carry on (cuts to you bursting through the hospital doors, your face shows you are in pain) We'll carry on And though you're dead and gone believe me (nurses put you in a wheel chair, take your bag and rush you behind large double doors) Your memory will carry on We'll carry on (Cas is stopped my a nurse from entering behind you, he stands and watches you disappear around a corner) And though you're broken and defeated (Cas pulls out his phone and takes a seat) Your weary widow marches (Sam is on the other line, worry showing on his face) On and on we carry through the fears ( you are in the hospital bed, white knuckling the sheets balled up in your hands) Oh, oh, oh Disappointed faces of your peers ( Sam is running fingers through his hair, feet tapping, he is so nervous) Oh, oh, oh Take a look at me cause I could not care at all (Dean looks over at his brother, he has a smile on his face) Do or die, you'll never make me (Sam and Dean crash through the entry doors to the hospital in a full sprint) Because the world will never take my heart Go and try, you'll never break me (Sam reaches the counter and you see him speaking to the nurse) We want it all, we wanna play this part (he turns and runs down the hall, not even looking back for Dean and Cas) I won't explain or say I'm sorry ( Cas grabs Dean's hand and they take a seat in the waiting room) I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scars (Sam runs into your room, you smile as he grabs your hand and kisses you forehead) Give a cheer for all the broken Listen here, because it's who we are (you are covered in sweat, and cry out in pain, still holding Sams hand) I'm just a man, I'm not a hero Just a boy, who had to sing this song (nurses and the Dr, surround you, you push) I'm just a man, I'm not a hero (Sam kisses your hand, brushes your hair our of your face) I don't care (you are panting, red faced) We'll carry on (Throwing your head back you cry out) We'll carry on (Sam looks at the Dr with a huge smile on his face) And though you're dead and gone believe me Your memory will carry on We'll carry on (You too look at the Dr, the bundle in his hands, you start to cry tears of joy) And though you're broken and defeated Your weary widow marches (A nurse hands you a clean baby swaddled in a blanket) Do or die, you'll never make me (Sam enters the waiting room with a smile on his face and red rimed eyes still shimmering with tears) Because the world will never take my heart Go and try, you'll never break me (Dean strides over to him and pulls him into a big hug) We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on!) Do or die, you'll never make me (Your boys enter your room, they are ecstatic when they see you holding the baby wrapped in a light pink blanket) Because the world will never take my heart Go and try, you'll never break me (Sam takes his daughter into his arms and everyone gathers around her) We want it all, we wanna play this part (this small room filled with the love of a family) Carry On