#i wish i was method so bad i wish i was method so bad i WISH I WAS METHOD SO BAD

[starconstruction]

Tattered Evidence

Yandere Xinyu + Julie + Wonyoung x Male Reader (SFW)

Word Count:2837

The wise detective slumped over his trusty desk, once one of the most prolific in their field now is much more resigned. Taking on small cases, this one would be no exception. A disappearance, collage student. Just up and vanished.

The police force instantly closed it, citing it as a classic runaway case, the detective had a gut feeling that was only half the story. Gathering all the evidence the police had collected, which laid disorderly on the desk. Nothing much, but more than enough.

A phone, adorned in a cerulean case,. Bright as the ocean, tiny little decorations painted on the back. The screen was fractured. A harsh impact judging by the way the crack formed, directly in the middle.

The battery laid depleted, plugged into the detectives personal charger. His hand anxiously tapping the mahogany table, feeling the blemishes and definitions under his chipped nails.

A notebook, beige in colour and tattered. The pages dingy and well used, a testament to a personal connection. The detective took a sip of the bitter coffee on his desk, feeling it creep down the throat. This was going to be a long shift.

The final piece of evidence was the most intriguing, a printed picture of their room moments after the reported incident. The room was dishevelled, pillows laid strewn on the floor in chaos. Blanket thrown in the ground, coiled peculiarly. But the weird thing was how ordered the desk was, neat and punctual.

This couldn't have been a run away, was the conclusion the detective came to. But he needed some more evidence, taking the scrappy book in his rough hands. Scrolling through the pages, useless revision resources. Math, English, Art. There had to be something.

He flipped to the back, seeing the tail end of a promising scripture. Rushing through each and every page until he found the beginning of these notes.

"Ahaha!" The detective let out, beginning to read from the beginning.

"September 7th - 2024

Oh my god! I actually got into it, Solemn University! Not the most cheerful name, but God! I'm so proud, I wanna try a new method this year. Writing down all my thoughts, heard on Instagram that it was helpful for the mind. We'll see, or well. I'll see, I'm the only one reading this, but I'm excited! None of my friends got in with me, but that's okay! I will just socialise. I'll report back next time I'm thinking." The first passage read, the detective readjusted his glasses. Reading the next page.

" September 15th - 2024

Wow, making friends is harder than I thought. People have been blowing me off left right and centre, but I'm not deterred! Classes are starting up and the teachers seem cool, especially my art teacher. But it is quite exhausting, oh well. Until next time, future me."

The detective kept reading, the cheerful nature of these notes didn't seem to match a runaway case.

" November 12th - 2024

God I am so bad at remembering to note things down, but I remembered today atleast. I finally found a friend! Xinyu, she's so nice. She came to me, I was just sitting there writing down notes and she sat next to me! Atleast I have someone, until next time, wish I had more to write about."

Xinyu. The detectives lips curved, a first potential suspect. He kept reading.

"November 18th - 2024

Xinyu and I have really been close together, she's really nice. A great friend, our first examinations were looming, she handed me most of her notes. Pretty cool, it's nice to have some friends for once, been feeling a lot better these days. Until next time, future me."

"December 3rd - 2024

Xinyu introduced me to the rest of her friend group, they seem nice. If not reserved, Juile said very little, giving courteous remarks. And Wonyoung gave not much more than a quick nod, Xinyu said not to think much of it. But it stung a lil, eh, too much school work to worry. Bye for now, future me."

More names, more suspects. The detective checked the phone. 5%. A bit longer before it could be checked. Another page.

"December 18th - 2024

I think Xinyu was right! The other 2 seem to be more willing to talk now, me and Wonyoung went rollerskating, that was pretty neat! It's nearly time to go home for the winter break, well most people. I won't be, but I hope everyone else enjoys. I did really well in my exams, time to grab a celebratory drink."

"December 23rd - 2024

Yesterday was really nice, I met someone new and I really think we hit it off. Her name is Yena, we met in the hallways after I accidentally walked into her, well shit happens. Anyways, she and I got talking and she invited me inside her room, we just hung out for a bit. Watched a movie, drank a bit, good stuff."

The detective chuckled, licking his finger to turn the flimsy paper.

"December 26th - 2024

Me and Yena spent yesterday together, grabbing some cheap chicken and a bit of beer and threw on a movie, she looked captivating. Her hairs so nice, I hope I don't come off cringy to myself. But, okay. The night got a bit steamy at the end, she caught my lips in hers. Just a small kiss, but I remember it vividly. Cherry lingering on my lips as she imparted her lip gloss on mine. That's all for now."

Scorned ex? Wouldn't be the first. He kept reading.

"January 3rd - 2025

The other girls arrived back, but I didn't spend much time with them. Me and Yena were spending most of our time these days, watching movies, going out on walks and just hanging out. Xinyu walked past us once, eyeing Yena with a disgust? Maybe I misinterpreted it. Classes were going to start soon, guess the grind never stops."

" January 6th - 2025

I don't know what I did, Yena suddenly started avoiding me? Why, what did I do? She just stopped talking to me, running off every time I tried to make conservation, her voice was super pale. She looked petrified, I hope I didn't hurt her. I would never hurt someone."

The detectives heart throbbed, remembering times like that, young love was a bitch.

" January 14th - 2025

Something felt different about the three girls, they seemed to be wanting to hang out much more than usual, casual touches lingering for moments far too long. I don't know why but I'm uncomfortable, it's all too much. But for now I'll handle it. "

"January 18th - 2025

Yena cornered me in the library today, face white with fear. She pulled me into a private room and showed me her phone, the messages made my skin crawl.

Xinyu, Wonyoung, Julie. All of them, they all sent horrendous messages. Insults, threats, pictures of her. They were blackmailing Yena. I can't believe this, I remember her words. 'I'm sorry, but I can't ever talk to you again...' I don't know what to do, I think I'll avoid them for now."

The detective was invested, he may have just solved it.

"February 1st - 2025

I'm shaking, they came in. They grabbed a kitchen knife, forcing me to my bed. I was trapped. They made it very clear if I avoided them any longer I'd regret it. Wonyoung warned if I dared to talk to anyone else she'd kill them, I am so scared. So scared. But, what will they do if I report them? They are fucking insane."

"February 4th - 2025

Its getting worse, way way worse. Theres always atleast one of them around me, when I'm in class. When I eat, when I shower, when I sleep! I can't do this... I need to think of a way out of here, before it's too late. They are getting more and more... I don't fucking know! But I need to go, I can't handle this. I can't keep writing these escapes in stolen moments! I need to act."

" February 8th - 2025

I tried to run, pack my stuff up and go. But Xinyu was just, waiting there! Knife in hand. God, what do I do??? Shit... They have stayed even closer, no free time. No moments to myself, I think they may be planning something, I keep hearing whispers. Snickers, everything is too much. Maybe I just run, leave my stuff behind."

That was all the pages. The detective rubbed his stubble, pondering the words. The answer was clear, he just had to find out where the student was trapped.

-

You came to your senses, head pounding, groggy as it awoke to the ashy basement. They trapped you down here, ankle torn and wounded. Skin severed as it leaked sanguine liquid, the metallic scent of blood overshadowed everything else, it's a miracle hadn't caught an infection.

You were alone, will broken and shattered. Clothes torn up, skin exposed to the elements. Nausea crept at you, resisting the urge to hurl, it'd only make your situation worse. The light in the middle of the room laid dim, flickering a washed white. Crusty ropes wrapped around your legs, thick tawny imprisoning binds that didn't let up.

The jingling of keys caused your eyes to dart, dread creeping up in your spine, watching the metallic door. It was Xinyu, visually a complete juxtaposition to you. Pale fair skin, smooth, flawless. You envied it in a strange way, given how she ripped your appearance from you.

"Morning sweetheart, are you going to be better for us today?" She asked, voice laced with sweetness, hands carrying some large box object.

"Fuck, you." Your voice was laboured, choking out each syllables as the pain pumped through you, head falling back against the plastic chair.

Tension hung in the air, palpable and thick. Her brows furrowed, eyes narrowing, tempting you to act up. Your hands gripped the seat, fear becoming stronger. Like an insufferable darkness trying to choke you out.

"Sweetie, is this really the route you want to go? I have medicine, bandages, the pain can stop. You just have to comply." She said.

Stop.

The thought made you think, is being defiant worth the agony?

Your thoughts were interrupted by Xinyu speaking again, "How about this, I'll clean you up, and you'll be good. Otherwise the pains just going to get worse, worse and worse. You want that? You want to suffer? Or do you wanna be good?" Her frequent questions made your head spin, the pain eliciting a grunt.

"Yes, Xinyu please. Just, make it stop." You muttered.

It was like a shift went off in her brain, aggressive posture turning into a sweet smile. Doe eyes gentle as she got close, the scent of her orange body wash cutting through the iron.

"Okay, that's a good boy... First let's clean your wounds, then shower, you smell awful..." She said.

-

The detective rushed into the police department, hands shaking with anticipation. "Ah ha!" He bellowed, slamming the evidence down. The room fell silent, listening to the wisened man.

"I've got a lead, his notebook. He noted his school day!" He waved his arms around, the officers looking with intrigue.

"Three girls, their names are Xinyu, Wonyoung and Julie. Solemn University, he talks about what they did. This is such a free case!" He said.

"Okay, but what do we do?" A police officer spoke up.

"It's simple, we try to track them down." The detective said.

-

Your wounds were patched up, thick gauze enveloping the injuries. Medicine numbing the burning sensation just a bit, Xinyu had taken you upstairs, laying on the plush, black couch.

Her arms draped over you, you didn't dare complain. Shuddering at the thought of what they would do to you, their wrath was unrelenting. "Hmm, you are being great, they should be home soon." She whispered, hands raking your hair.

"Oh god." You muttered under your breath, petrified. Xinyu was by far the nicest of the three, the only one to show remorse.

"Hey hey hey." She shushed, kissing your head. "Just be good and they'll be nice, you can do that right?"

You were groggy, exhausted, the first comfort you've had since you got here, eyes half lidded as you savored her soft embrace. A brief respite, even if you despised her. "It's okay, hate me all you want, just sleep for now..." She serenaded.

-

Your eyes opened slowly, still firmly pressed into Xinyu's chest. You chose not to move, praying to whatever spirit above they would notice.

"He's been good today, not a word of complaint!" Xinyu lied, overlooking the earlier insult.

"That's great, I wish he'd wake up already..." Wonyoung whined with impatience.

"Yeah, his breathing isn't as loud..." Julie mentioned, shit.

"Hm, that is strange..." A sudden burst of light hit your eyes, painful, the two girls in front of you. Xinyu was back hugging you.

"Oh, good morning." Wonyoung said, her voice uncomforting despite it's sugariness. It felt rotten, fake, sickening.

"Hello." You said bluntly, trying to hide your disgust.

She got closer, hand touching your rough cheek. The touch felt like a mockery, slimy, nails scraping against your skin.

"Hmm, you are still resisting me..." She remarked, "But no worry. You'll break."

Julie sensed the tension, "Hey?? Let's watch a movie, let's not spoil this moment."

-

The weeks went on, they didn't relent. Xinyu acted as the reasonable one, tending to your wounds. Wonyoung the judge, jury and executioner. Anything she deemed as out of line came down with the force of the sun, Julie acted as a mimic, taking the mannerisms of the one they were with.

The police actually did their job, working day and night to get any trace of the mysterious kidnappers.

The night came, four officers coming to save the victim.

A loud crash woke you up, head whipping up as all groggyness had faded. Fighting against the restraints, loud chatter could be heard. The basement door is definitely locked, they are always paranoid.

"Freeze!" A voice could be heard, it's unknown, foreign to you. Is this salvation?

"Move and we will use our taser!" Another voice, you panicked a bit. But this could be your freedom, you started to scream.

"HELP!!!!! I'M DOWN IN THE BASEMENT!" You yelled, throat rippling screams ripping through you.

"Keys! Now." A loud crash was heard, every noise harsh and disturbing. The air was leaving your lungs, deep, short, long. It was all irregular, unable to compose yourself. Hyperventilating against the rope.

"Shit!" A deafening yell was hard, thumps. Things falling over, your legs kicked against the restraints. Desperate to get it undone, shake, shake. It started to unravel, come on!

"Shit! Requesting back up requesting back up!" A shrill scream could be heard, the words filled you with suffocating dread. The restraints fell on the ground, jumping off the chair.

You grabbed the handle, aggressively pulling it up and down. Pounding your fist against the metal "Let me out! Fuck!"

"Baby! It's almost over, stay calm!" Julie yelled back, no... This couldn't be happening, it was futile.

"Shit!" A guard shouted, a deafening yelp being heard.

Footsteps came towards the basement, each step feeling heavier and heavier. Walls closing in, falling to your knees.

The basement door rattled, you started to sob, freedom being ripped from you without scene being able to see it. Fuck.

"Hey baby, I see you got out the restraints?" Julie asked, stepping closer. You crawled backwards. She was adorned in a thick red liquid, coating every crevice of her clothing.

"Dont move. We need to leave now, it's not safe here." Wonyoung said, grabbing onto you.

You had to fight, adrenaline surged through your veins. Heart throbbing against your chest, one hard slap hit her cheek. Rippling through the air.

Her hand greeted your neck, squeezing it harshly. Eyes glaring straight into your soul. "Never hit me again, or I'll kill you." She growled, taking your oxygen.

Wonyoung let you go, Xinyu catching you in her bloody arms. "Wonyoung, get our stuff. I'll get him into the car!"

The minute the other two left you stared to fight against Xinyu, thrashing around in her arms, bodies bashing against each other. Hands pushing her off. "Y/N! Stop it! Unless you want a knife in your leg." She threatened.

You kept fighting, swinging around with every ounce of your being. The sounds of sirens could be heard faintly in the distance, they had to be close. Just a bit longer.

A searing pain pushed into your soft leg, head going dizzy. "Ugh, fuck... Argg." You were incoherent, still trying to fight but it was useless.

"I got our stuff! We need to leave now!" You couldn't identify who was speaking, ears ringing, head pounding, the world was slipping away.

You could feel a faint impression of a car seat, being slid in. Everything was washed out. Your grasp falling away.

".......... " The sounds of voices, completely empty.

The world went dark. Even more hopeless than before.

[vitaminseetarot]

Pick a Card: New Moon Messages 🌙

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*･ﾟ✧Masterlist | *･ﾟ✧Ko-Fi

Hey folks, I'm back for a brief pick a card reading for this new moon solar eclipse. It's snowing here too much to see the eclipse but I got good pictures from last year to remember by. So I thought I'd do a mini reading on what you may need to know for this moon month. I'll be coming out with another pick a card shortly so stay tuned!

{alsoalso: my blog just turned 2 years old! wowie!}

Pile 1 - Crystal 🖤 Pile 2 - Frost 🤍 Pile 3 - Liquid 💛

Pile 1 - Crystal 🖤

4 of Wands, XVII Star, VII Chariot; Supermoon - Emotions are running high, Retrograde - Review, Venus in Virgo - Discrimination, Limitless: "Know your worth."

Hey pile 1. Despite the usual quietude of new moons, you got the Full Supermoon card! I'm feeling a spark in your pile. I think out of all three, you are the most optimistic when it comes to the next few months after this eclipse. You are ready to engage in something special in your life that will bring expansion into your overall life. What you've been hoping or praying for may come into manifestation after this lunar cycle, and it may rock your world a little bit. This could be a graduation you're looking forward to, or a special event you've been invited to. I'm largely getting "event", that this will involve going somewhere. It will infuse you with a sense of hope and wonder.

With Retrograde, however, there may also be caveats worth looking into. As I'm writing this, we're in a retrograde, but if you're reading this at a different time it could be referencing a closer period of time for you. Retrogrades make us detach from the usual flow of tasks to think things over more thoroughly. With Venus in Virgo, this is a time to look very closely into details. Some of you may be looking into colleges. Even if you got accepted to a dream school, this is a reminder to look more gingerly into the documents you'll be signing. Feeling rushed into doing something is often a sign to refrain from acting in the moment, but during this new moon it would be good to practice precaution either way.

This isn't to say "avoid, don't do, it's bad", like in this example your dream school could very well be your ideal school. But it's important to know what you're getting into instead of believing that the tiny things will work themselves out without intervention. (If you have insurance and you don't want to get on the schools' insurance and end up paying more, you have to actually notify them!! x_X) If you're meeting someone for a date and something seems off, it's okay to reschedule the date to do a little more research or personal reflection. It's okay if you need extra time to mull big decisions right now, because these big decisions may play a big role in your life. Wishing you the best outcome, pile 1!

Pile 2 - Frost 🤍

XXI The World, Ace of Pentacles, 6 of Swords; Balsamic Moon - A Time For Healing, Pisces - Sensitize, Saturn in Aries - Risk, Self-Care: "Spoil yourself in the moonlight."

How's it going, pile 2. Before pulling cards I felt your vibe being sooo chill yet also warm like a cup of mint tea. This is certainly a time to give yourself the spa day and bedtime you deserve. I'm reminded of Atlas while looking at the World card here, like you've been shouldering a heavy burden for a while, and each sign represents a different responsibility or role you've had to take on in recent months. To others, you've had to play as the funny friend, the smart nerd, the dependable devotee, the cool rebel. And this new moon is bringing a time where the masks come off and these temporary illusions can be put to rest.

There's so much you've had on your plate that this time for healing is truly necessary. Spiritually and physically. It's unseen but I'm getting that there could be issues that develop later on if you try to ignore this need. I'm mainly seeing de-stressing methods, finding relaxing activities or eating food that calms your mind and muscles. I have recently found that it's easy to relieve jaw tension by snacking on something crunchy, for example, so a veggie platter may help when you're studying or working in the afternoon. There's also a spiritual component, although the nonspiritual folks in this pile may be more drawn to simple bed rest, meditation, deep art and music, or nature walks. Those here who are more religious would greatly benefit from activities that are nourishing to the soul, like reading your favorite scriptures or attending community gatherings that uplift the spirit.

The action you choose is not as important as the recovery. That is your primary message from the solar eclipse: do not bypass the need for regeneration, and with 6 of Swords, don't be afraid to move on from the masks that are falling apart. You've either passed or will be soon passing a major cycle and so you must have some kind of intermission before moving forward. It's really easy to wing it and say "I'll be fine," but if your body starts showing weird signs, listen to them! Cancel the class, talk to a doctor if need be, and get some sleep! Spring will have plenty in store for you so please be kind and respectful to your boundaries as you carry on. Take care, pile 2.

Pile 3 - Liquid 💛

6 of Cups, Queen of Wands, 5 of Swords; Blue Moon - Believe in the Impossible, Debilitated - Discomfort, Sun in Pisces - Vision, The Moon: "Take time to reflect."

Hello, pile 3. Your pile lunged itself at me as though the cards were super excited to get on with the reading. I'm feeling the urge to just get out of the old winter cave and be seen. The Queen of Wands in the center confirms that for me. You're coming into the new season with a lot of zest and momentum. You may already have an idea you wish to set in motion and can't wait to get started. However, the cards also say that you may currently feel held back in some way from being able to do so.

This sort of energy reminds me of a runner who's waiting for the marathon to start and is jumping around in place unable to contain their own nerves. Or like a flower anxious to come out of the ground even while it's still snowing outside. There's a certain amount of inconvenience or stagnancy you're having to put up with, which may come with some frustration. "When can I get this show on the road!" I hear. Despite this, the new moon's advice here is to step back and look over your future goals with care. The 5 of Swords can be about pushing something down for something else to rise, so it could be that you're being prevented from an unforeseen issue later down the road that could be costly to you. For example, a flower that pushes too fast to grow above the others may suddenly find themselves frozen over, leaving more room for other flowers to succeed in its place. In other words: "check yourself before you wreck yourself!"

The main message is to take it easy and conserve your energy for when it's finally time to bloom. When you're able to reassess your vision of the future to align it more closely with your values, instead of repeating past patterns, you may find that things will progress faster than you think once the marathon actually begins. And you'll be in a better position to handle it. You still have time to figure things out. Don't wear yourself thin before you've even gotten started, pile 3. Keep your energy tank and emotional reserves in check and the solar eclipse will usher in a beautiful and productive new season for you in the months to come. Godspeed, pile 3!

This reading has not been evaluated by the FDA to diagnose, prevent, treat, or cure any disease or infection. Please ask your physician before going online.

2025, @VitaminseeTarot ™

[olisephaa]

The leaks abt the new Viktor VGU confirming they're replacing all of his old skins and designs with the Arcane version is.... So so disappointing. I want to cry in frustration. Old Lore Viktor is self made, he and Jayce clashed over a difference in morals that were still understandable and grounded in reality. Viktor left, created his new body HIMSELF and used his ingenuity to help the people of Zaun. To replace all that with a sleek iPad version where he just gets possessed by an infected magic orb and ascends to godhood or whatever is SUCH a let down.

[sometimesanequine]

hello! :D

wanted to let you know you’re very cool and i love getting to see your horses every day :)

thank you! :D have a floral pony

[wrongcaitlyn]

do you have any tips on writing fanfics or just writing in general? usually anytime i try to write anything i can't help but just think it's too poorly written to like it. the dear readerverse is genuinely such a well written series and i look up to that type of ff writing so much (sorry if that sounds weird LOL! it's meant to be a compliment)

ahhsdf thank you so much!!! this is going to sound so basic but. truly the only way you can get better, i think, is to keep writing. i KNOW that's not the answer that anyone wants, but trust me when i say dear reader verse is far from the first thing i've written - i went through all the cringy phases, all the horrible writing tropes, the stilted dialogue and bad syntax. and writing is the only way to recognize what you don't like about your writing and how to improve! we have to push through the lowkey shitty phase to get to the good stuff :)

that being said, for me, the greatest motivation to keep writing has just been to completely obsess over an idea. at that point, you love it so much that you can't stand not seeing it, and then you HAVE to write it. while writing, you'll slowly get better, you'll probably be reading at the same time and learning tips and forming your style. just keep pushing through it, i know that ive had several writers block phases where i thought everything i was writing was shitty, and then when looking back it actually turned out to be pretty decent!

and in the end, the quality of the writing isn't the most important factor, especially when it comes to fanfic - something that you're doing primarily for yourself, for free, out of your love for the canon material. it's the fact that you managed to put your thoughts and ideas onto paper in the first place! as long as you've written something, you're on the right track.

[bumblingbabooshka]

Learning Curve Hall-of-Famer right here. Tuvok making Chell clean the transporter room with the equivalent of a toothbrush as, I assume, a punishment of some sort & Harry coming out of left field with a 'You missed a spot <3' just to kick him while he's down. Harry, the man's gonna be there LITERALLY all day. Absolute bastards these Starfleet types <- said with love

[monster-noises]

Anyone out there got a solution for when you're feeling really stuck with your art and everyone and their mother tells you the solution is to do studies and figure drawings and other such things but even just thinking about doing those things makes you Spiral and want to Kill Yourself?

[fadewalking]

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[thetangibleghost]

I have pretty good emotional regulation. if I'm being honest.

[daz4i]

sometimes i try to think self ship thoughts to lift up the crumbs of self esteem i may have like "he would love me. he would think i'm hot shit" but today the crumbs are nonexistent so when i try to think self ship thoughts i'm like "who am i kidding he would think i'm annoying in a not sexy way i'm too stupid and depressed for him to like me" etc. why is this happening

[rubberduckyrye]

A little late BUT I got my 2k done for the two-hours-ago yesterday :'D I'm still on track wooo!!!

[tightjeansjavi]

I promise y’all I’m not ignoring you if you’ve tagged me in a post or a tag game!! I see them and I try to get to them but then I get distracted or start writing in the midst of working on something else! 🥺🥺

I wish tumblr had a way of making it easier to track notifications so I can start sorting through them easier but alas, I struggle 😭

Just want y’all to know that I’m never ignoring you!!

Okay, time to go watch the reunion episode for love is blind szn 6 🤭

[murdermeadow]

I am So Tired man. just everything all around me is exhausting rn and nothing's fixing it. Problems by Mother Mother etcetc I've just got so many issues piling up and zero motivation to take a stab at any of them. I just wanna live in my own fictional world and think about fictional people and pretend it's all gonna be okay because they're okay

[fuzzyunicorn]

Me as fuckin’ (burnin’) Hell when I get my summons 2 b Visenya Targaryen 

[arolesbianism]

Y'know I generally like all the sephirah core suppressions but Man I wish Binah didn't have the no pause mechanic. She was going to get it anyways later, why did she need it right next to the guy who's main meltdown mechanic involves limiting your ability to pause.

I also just feel like the fight is actually genuinely pretty fun in the way it pushes your micromanagement skills to their limits, and I feel like removing the ability to pause just makes the fight go from a fun management challenge to just kind of stupid. Maybe that's just a skill issue on my part, but still I think her suppression would be a lot less stupidly hard for no good reason and more of a fun challenge if they just removed the no pause part

[tortadecuchufli]

The academia equivalent of being annoyed at USAmericans listing their nationalities by adding up every country their great grandparents were born in is when you get annoyed when trying to look up studies for population of your continent and you get US studies instead with programs and resources and even an understanding of race and ethnicity that can't be translated here.