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monster-noises · 3 months ago

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Anyone out there got a solution for when you're feeling really stuck with your art and everyone and their mother tells you the solution is to do studies and figure drawings and other such things but even just thinking about doing those things makes you Spiral and want to Kill Yourself?

#monster noises #it's 1am no one will see this it's fine #it's a genuine problem though i Wish i could be aotherfucker who found it engaging and satisfying to do figure drawing #but i both A) had some bad experiences with this type of learning in highschool that i guess kinda make them triggering for me i guess?#and B) my brain doesn't seem to be able to like.. Learn Things.... That Way.... or at least not Obviously #i mean obviously i've improved as an artist over time in general #and i won't lie and say i've Never done figure drawing or studies or anything #but i never leave those situations feeling like i've Learned anything #mostly i've just sat for several hours growing increasinglyore frustrated #at my limitations and inability to achieve what i feel should come to me intuatively #and even if i Did feel like i've learned something i can seemingly never turn around and then apply it to something else #my brain does not make those lateral connections #it's why i can't do word problems in math.#and plus i also find stuff like figure drawing especially Rarely helps me make progress on the parts of my work i Actually want to improve #fluidity/mobility/stylization and surrealism #and only reinforces practices i want to pull away from #realism/'correctness'#all this combined leaves me just kinda stuck because i really can't power through my fear of these practicing methods #because i also don't find them useful #but i have no alternatives because it's like.. the only thing anyone suggests because theoretically is Does Work #but just not when you're Specifically Busted like I'm Busted #and so I just continue to stagnate until idk.. i find something else that can abruptly and suddenly launch me forward again?.#augh.. being an artist is The Most Enjoyable (_=<=)_

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