#i wish i have money to buy their art maybe in the future but i hope at least sharing this helps in the meantime

[savebylou]

your top 5 favourite fan artists in the fandom. go!

Hi anon, oh I can't choose. I think all of them bring something different and special to the fandom. Here they are in not particular order, is how they appear in my tags.

I love the art of @yimmysart their drawings are so gorgeous and sometimes they look so real, I recommend to follow them on instagram because they share more art there. They have a shop as well.

I love the art of @moon-sun-thyme is just so beautiful and they usually share some drawing that is related of the current events of the fandom.

@specklelouis art is always so cute and adorable, they do larry comics or solo fanart. I always have a smile on my face with their art.

I love the art of @lebesyej especially the Louis' drawings are always so stuning and cool (I will keep manifesting Louis with a piercing earing like their drawing) they share sometimes like video animations and do commisions as well.

I love the art of @lonelychicago she draws Louis beautiful and with different ways they also do 911 fanart in case you watch that show (I haven't yet) check their art here. Buy her a ko-fi here.

I love the art of @evenasyoungastheyare is just so stuning the drawings and they also have a shop here & here.

I love the art of @enchantedlandcoffee is so adorable and makes me smile.

@theeliampayne makes gorgeous fanart, they look like a paiting.

@dxnny-art has beautiful fanart and this one will also make you smile.

@twopoppies has gorgeous fanart and I always love that she complements the art with a quote, makes it more impactful the combination of both. Here is their shop.

@bidamonalbarn has gorgeous fanart, they share of Louis and other fandoms as well.

@biathecreature has beautiful fanart, they also make video animations. Their ko-fi here.

@28goldens has beautiful fanart, they also have a shop.

@harryshandbag has gorgeous fanart, is so impressive.

@justanothershadeofblue has beautiful fanart.

@lemelous does beautiful fanart of Louis and for others fandoms, they do commisions, have a shop here and here, and a ko-fi.

I love the art of @burberryhat is so gorgeous.

@rainbowbeanstyles have a side blog @rainowbenstyls where they share their art. I stll need to check more of their posts but my favorite is Louis with the mexican flag.

@jelyrvia has beautiful art too, they have a shop here and here and do comissions.

@thetriangletattoo has gorgeous art here and here, they also have a ko-fi.

@ialwaysknewyouwerepunk has beautiful fanart and for other fandoms as well.

@bluewinnerangel has gorgeous fanart, is so unique.

@369sec has gorgeous fanart of Louis.

@tommos also has beautiful fanart.

@glourry has beautiful fanart.

@we-mustbe-fireproof they have this beautiful art I hope to see more from them in case they want to share.

I also want to mention some people that make beautiful edits: @wendersfive because their edits for me is art, it's so gorgeous, @louisgayvodka their edits are so impressive and beautiful, @punkpillowprincess I love their edits, they are so pretty & @tangerinequeen19 has awesome edits of Louis.

Another one of my favorites is @lapollypocket-detianguis they are not active on tumblr but they are on instagram and have a shop.

Sorry anon that I didn't choose and instead I list all of them but I really think they are so talented and amazing. I hope this post will make you or anyone interested to follow them, check their art and reblog it and if you can also buy/support their art. This will also help me as well to check old posts that I haven't see.

I'm always thankful for their art that they have share, we are lucky to have so many talented people in the fandom. Thanks for sharing your art and talent with us.

[cieloclercs]

what would you say (if i told you i love you)? — charles leclerc

PART: 2/? (read part 1 here)

summary. in which childhood best friends blur the lines between what they’ve always known, and something more

warnings. swearing, reader and charles cuteness but also obliviousness again, mentions of f*rerrai, arthur and joris being sarcastic bc they’re also sick of charles and y/n being oblivious

pairings. charles leclerc x artsy!reader

face claim. tara michelle

author’s note. took a few creative liberties with this one in terms of the auction (especially the price, i have no idea what modern art sells for) but we’re going to overlook that ☺️

charles_leclerc

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pierregasly 😉 joris_trouche simp behaviour ↳ charles_leclerc tais toi / shut up arthur_leclerc so that’s where you were this morning! 😃 yourusername thank you for taking me 😊 c’était parfait / it was perfect ↳ charles_leclerc any time :)

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y/nsart study: reflection & refraction. inspired by a morning swim on monaco beach (which charles woke me up at 4am for 🙄)

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charles_leclerc you loved it really 😉

y/nsart 🙃

charles_leclerc your talent never ceases to amaze me, chérie

y/nsart thank you char 🥰

leclerc_pascale Vraiment magnifique! / truly magnificent

y/nsart ❤️

username i’m speechless. imagine being this talented

username telling my kids this is da vinci

arthur_leclerc i swear you only went last week?? how long did it take you to paint these?

y/nsart they’re only small so not that long!

charles_leclerc she’s barely left her apartment all week because she’s been painting 😑

y/nsart don’t expose me 😔

charles_leclerc now that you’ve finally finished… movie night? 🙂

y/nsart omw

username have you ever thought about selling some of your paintings? because i’d pay definitely pay for these 😍

y/nsart i’ve never really considered it, but maybe in the future!

username UHM HELLO?! WHY IS NO ONE TALKING ABOUT THE SECOND SLIDE???

username HJSHJS THEY’RE SO CUTE

arthur_leclerc

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joris_trouche looks very friendly 😁👍 ↳ arthur_leclerc 😂😂 charles_leclerc arthur… delete this 🙄 yourusername neither are you mate x ↳ arthur_leclerc it’s disney of course i’m not ↳ yourusername not the disney slander 🥲 leclerc_pascale Très mignon! / very cute ↳ arthur_leclerc n’est-ce pas ☺️ / aren’t they just

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y/nsart i’m so excited to announce that four of my paintings from the ‘flow’ exhibition will be going on sale at monaco fine art auction next week! thank you so much to everyone who’s supported me and my art in the past few months. it means the world to me 🩵

if you’re interested in bidding for any of these paintings, don’t hesitate to stop by monte carlo sales hall between 12 and 2:30pm! hopefully i’ll see you guys there 🌊

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username i wish i had the money to buy these 🥲 but i’m broke lols x

username the one on the third slide looks so real omg

charles_leclerc i’ll be there 🫡

y/nsart you say that like you have a choice 😭 i need you there for moral support

charles_leclerc whatever you want, chérie x

username charles stop simping on main challenge

leclerc_pascale Je suis si fière de toi, ma fille ❤️ / so proud of you, my girl

y/nsart je n'ai encore rien vendu, ne parlez pas trop vite 😭 / i haven’t sold anything yet, don’t speak too soon

leclerc_pascale Vous le ferez 😊 / you will

username so excited!!

username oh my god these are beautiful 😍

username you’re so talented 💗 did you study art at university?

y/nsart yes! i studied at the sorbonne in paris :)

username your art style is incredible! i’ve been painting for 3 years but i still can’t quite capture this kind of realism like you 🥲

y/nsart oh trust me it’s taken a long time to perfect 😅 keep going and discovering your own unique art style! i promise it will all come together sooner than you think 💕

username oh my gosh thank you so much 🥹

username i bet charles is sobbing rn because he knows he can never bag a talented queen like y/n 🙄

username so true bestie

username he’s just a simp for her like the rest of us 😔

username the way she’s drop dead gorgeous, an artistic genius, and like the nicest person in the entire world 🤩🤩 bitches wish they were y/n

username ‘bitches’ aka me

arthur_leclerc alright maybe you’re not so bad at this painting stuff 🙄

y/nsart THANK YOU arthur

username is he only just realising this now? 😭

y/nsart he’s still convinced he’s better than me (the only thing he can draw is a 2 dimensional car)

arthur_leclerc did you really have to expose me like that 😃

username PLEASE 😭

username i remember when charles first got into f1 and people used to say y/n only got so much attention for her art because she was friends with him. this is the biggest fuck you to those so called ‘fans’ who hated on her and i am LIVING FOR IT

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➜ part 3

[adrianasunderworld]

More of the Twst Stardew Valley au!

Just because I like it and want to continue.

Part One

Part Two

I've mentioned before that the witch that turns your chicken eggs into void eggs is Malleus grandma. That also means the witches hut is also his grandmas house. In that quest line you learn more about Malleus backstory of how he was orphaned and raised by his grandma and Lilia. And how his childhood was all about learning magic and thus he never got used to making friends. That is until he meets Yuu.

When you go down into the mines, the deeper levels have the blot phantoms for you to fight.

Fleur Town is the neighboring town you can take by bus, and there you can meet Rollo and friends. You can buy things off of them there, and yes, like Fellow and Giddel, there is a quest to get him to move to Night Raven.

If you marry Epel, he will occasionally gift you an apple or even an apple sapling.

Marja is kinda like the Evelyn in this au. Your sweet local granny who will occasionally gift you food if you befriend her. Specifically her famous apple pie.

The towns little school house sadly does not have much to offer in terms of arts programs. So Vil has occasionally volunteered to teach the kids about acting and helping them put on small shows for their families for them. Maybe a heart event or quest line for Vil is to help him collect supplies for the kids show. " Farmer, help! I need this amount of wood and this amount of cloth so I we can build the sets and costumes for the children."

In the same vein as the farmer going into Robin and Demetrius room in the game, and finding books about blended families, if you go into Falena and Ashas bedroom, you'll find books about how to recognize being the Golden Child and moving forward from there. One of Falenas friendship heart events is him expressing how he wishes to be closer to his brother and recognizing that their father played favorites and wasn't a good parent to Leona.

Again in the same vein as above, part of Leonas storyline is learning about his childhood and always being ignored by their father, and when he wasn't, being compared to Falena and how that soured his relationship with his brother.

If you marry Leona, The Kingscholars recognize you as a member of the family and make references to it. Like Cheka referring to Farmer Yuu as Auntie/Uncle/etc.

Idia has once, and only once, attempted to go into he mines and considered joining the adventures guild, thinking it would be like one of his fantasy RPGs. He was sorely mistaken and never did it again. He saw one green slime and got the fuck out.

Cater lives in a house with his two sisters and they are almost always arguing over the division of chores.

Once Yuu starts getting close to Riddle, his mother will have a cutscene telling them that Riddle has a bright future ahead of him, and that Yuu should tread lightly around him so as not to ruin anything.

Like Kent in game, you don't meet Lilia until after the first year in game. Baul, Silver, Malleus, and Sebek all mentioned Lilia throughout that first year. From they tell Yuu, Lilia is a veteran and the leader of the adventurers guild and is off on his travels. Hes written to Silver that he will be back soon, and then the mysterious Lilia shows on your doorstep at the start of Spring of year 2 to introduce himself.

Ruggie lives in trailer just outside of town and close to where he works, he mentions he sends money to his grandma back home. Obviously if you marry Ruggie, his financial situation is much better, and he has dialogue about how he can help his granny so much more now thanks to you for it. The house is always in top shape and the animals fed when Ruggie is your husband.

Crowley is always hatching schemes to bring in more tourists and business to town. So he often ropes Farmer into helping him get supplies for whatever event or ideas he has in mind to bring people to Night Raven. That usually includes handing over fliers to Rollo to hang up in Fleur Town. Or gathering wood to build stands for the farmers market he decided to open.

If you marry Jack, his personal add on room and hobby corner in the yard is full of exercise equipment and his cactuses. He has dialogue about how it's great being able to jog around the farm in the morning and how you shouldn't strain yourself and ask him if there's any heavy lifting to be done.

The cave on your farm that lets you either grow mushrooms or collect fruit are two separate offers. Jade will tell you that the cave on your property is a prime spot for growing mushrooms and he can set it up. Or Lilia will come and tell you about the fruit bars in the area and how he can help so bats are more likely to hang out in their and this leaves fruit for you to collect. You can choose to accept one offer over the other, if you reject both at the time, you can tell them you changed your mind later.

Mr. And Mrs. Shroud will ask Yuu about the blot monsters in the mines, and regularly put out commissions on the community board or Guild about the monsters. They are scientists that research them and always welcome whatever info you tell them, or giving them the stone items they drop when you kill them.

Royal Sword Mart Manager, Ambrose has a grandson he mentions if you come over to shop. Eventually said grandson, Arthur, will come to town, stating he's come to live with his grandfather now that he's getting older and Arthur worries for him and his health. Yes Arthur is also a marriage candidate.

Trey works at the local bakery and often gifts Yuu things like cake and bread as they become better friends.

One of Riddles cut scenes is Yuu overhearing a conversation between Riddle and his mother. Mrs. Rosehearts complaining about Riddles friends, Trey and Che'nya. Riddle tries to defend them, but his mother won't hear it. Once she walks away, Riddle notices the farmer, he explains how his mother was always strict and homeschooled him over sending him to the local school house with the other kids. Especially because she didn't approve of the local kids like Trey and Che'nya, who would always sneak Riddle out to play. If you marry Riddle, he has plenty of dialogue about how he's excited to invite Trey and Che'nya over for dinner, what sweets they should serve for dessert, and how much his mother would disapprove.

@mangacupcake @marrondrawsalot @writing-heiress @the-weirdos-mind

[adoremoonie]

The Mixed Legacy Challenge for The Sims 3

This is (gonna be) a 10 generation legacy challenge. I came up with this challenge simply because I could not decide what legacy challenge I wanted to do so I did a mix of all my favourite ones. Including Not So Berry, Jam Legacy, Zodiac Legacy & All In One Lepacy! So all credit goes to the creators! ପ(๑•ᴗ•๑)ଓ

Rules: ☆ Finish the rules of every generation, but there are different options for some generations so you can do whatever fits your gameplay preference more!

☆ There is a color for every generation if you want berry sims etc!

☆ There is a family trait that you choose that every generation heir will have. If you can't have a trait because of your family trait you just swap out that one for one similiar!

☆ You got to have this mod to be able to give your sims all the traits I have given them OR you could cheat them when they age up and change them in CAS OR just give them 1-2 of the traits. Would also recommend NRAAS mod aswell because of the money changes etc!

☆ Most importantly do what you want and have fun!

Now for the generations...

Generation 1: Purple You left everything you know behind, escape your past for a new beginning. Finally start that family you always wanted with someone new. You want to change, but can you?

Traits: Family Trait, Kleptomaniac, Nurturing, Rebellious, Frugal Job: Start at the cemetery then switch to criminal OR kleptomaniac full time LTW: Become a master chief OR The emperor of evil OR Possession is Nine Tenths of the law

☆ Master athletic and martial arts skills ☆ Use the kleptomaniac trait to provide for your family ☆ Get with your partner and marry them fast ☆ Get the death flower (perhaps at the cemetery?) ☆ 3 or more children

Generation 2: Yellow You don’t want to end up like your parent. You have dreams, big dreams! And you will do everything to be the biggest star, hopefully your family name won’t ruin that.

Traits: Family Trait, Star Quality, Diva, Lucky, Ambitious Job: Singer LTW: Vocal Legend OR Lifestyle of the rich and famous

☆ Have a band as a teenager ☆ When you become an YA you quit the band to go solo ☆ Master an instrument (guitar, piano etc) ☆ Become a five star celebrity ☆ Marry a big celebrity ☆ Only have one child

Generation 3: Red You lived in luxury thanks to your parent but did that make you a little spoiled? Maybe. you say as you move to a big mansion in the tropics. But you do actually have a job! You are a lifeguard and you save tons of cute tourists everyday. Yeah, maybe you did buy an hotel just to flex but can't be that hard to run one of those?

Traits: Family, Great kisser, Loves to swim OR Sailor, Party animal, Snob Job: Lifeguard then Resort owner LTW: Resort Empire OR Seaside Savior

☆ Have only one child ☆ Buy and run an hotel when you are an adult ☆ Reach level 5 of scuba diving ☆ Have one of those people you saved OR a mermaid be your future partner ☆ Own a house boat

Generation 4: Blue You had a little bit of a rough childhood, sure you were rich but your snobby parent barely gave you any of that rich money so you start working on cars on the side to make some side money, but turns out you LOVE it. You’ve always craved that big family life and you will spoil your children rotten in ALL the ways.

Traits: Family Trait, Family oriented, Slob, Schmoozer, Vehicle Enthusiast LTW: Surrounded by Family Job: Work at a part-time job OR Daycare before you quit to start making cars for a living

☆ Meet your partner in high school and marry as soon as you both age up to YA ☆ Be best friend with all your children ☆ Fix up ATLEAST 10 cars ☆ Throw family parties every season ☆ Buy every thing your children wishes for

Generation 5: Green You had an amazing but messy childhood. You had everything. A big loving family! But that also meant no privacy and you couldn’t do what you love the most without your siblings disturbing, science. So now you just want to be alone.

Traits: Family Trait, Loner, Eccentric, Neat, Grumpy LTW: Monster Maker Job: Science Career or none

☆ Move to a new town and the house should be as far away from the town as possible and never move out ☆ Make imaginary friend real ☆ Have ONE friend ☆ Marry your (only) friend OR an alien/imaginary friend/simbot ☆ Master the inventing skill ☆ Build two simbots optional: have an alien baby

Generation 6: Pink Having been stuck in the same town, in the same house, you need something new! You need adventure! And you want to capture it all. But you also have to get home to look after your plants.

Traits: Family Trait, Daredevil, Outgoing, Gatherer/Green Fingers, Adventurous LTW: World class gallery OR Great explorer

☆ Go to China, Egypt and France ☆ Master the photographing and gardening skills ☆ Complete atleast 3 thombs at each location ☆ Marry someone from China, France or Egypt ☆ Get atleast one VISA ☆ Have a big garden with every plant

Generation 7: Orange You have always loved horses, a horse girl (or boy, or person) if you will. But having your own horses and a big ranch is expensive and your parent wasted it all on traveling so you work smart not hard!

Traits: Family Trait, Equestrian, Horse Lover, Dislikes children, Mooch LTW: Gold Digger OR The Jockey Job: Any job before you get married then quit

☆ Start with 30 000 simoleons ☆ Marry rich and have them mysteriously die ☆ Master the nectar making skill and riding skills ☆ Win a competition on the highest level for racing ☆ Have 3 or more horses ☆ Have twins

Generation 8: Grey Yes you are twins, you look exactly like each other but your personalities couldn’t be more different. One of you got your nose in the books since you had the chance, always got good grades, got the diploma and finally got your dream job. While the other wasn’t as lucky in school, it was just too hard but you still go to university with your twin and you might have not gotten the best grades but you sure had fun and also met your soulmate.

☆ Have both twins as heir ☆ Go to university with both twins

Twin 1 Traits: Family Trait, Over-emotional, Irresistible, Workaholic, Non-Committal Job: Politcian OR Doctor LTW: Master Romancer OR perfect student ☆ Have a rocky relationship with your partner/partners ☆ Get married for the first time as an older elder ☆ Max charisma skill ☆ Only have one child or none ☆ Good grades ☆ Get the naughty reputation Optional: Get two diplomas

Twin 2 Traits: Family Trait, Loser, Artistic, Easily impressed, Nurturing LTW: Jack of all trades ☆ Have 5 or more different jobs ☆ Get fired from at least 3 jobs ☆ Meet the love of your life in university ☆ Max painting OR sculpting skill ☆ Bad grades ☆ Have two or more children ☆ Help children with all skills ☆ Get the Eternally Faithful reputation

Generation 9: Plum Your parent got you this supernatural book for you when you were a kid about werewolves, witches, vampires… All of it! Ever since then you have been hooked. Can you find it out in the real world too? And of course, your cat is sleeping right beside you while you read.

Traits: Family Trait, Bookworm, Supernatural Fan, Socially Awkward OR Brooding, Cat Lover LTW: Any from the Supernatural expension Job: Fortune teller OR Ghost hunter

☆ Max the writing skill (writing supernatural books) ☆ Don’t have a tv in your house, only books and computer ☆ Marry a supernatural creature ☆ Become a supernatural creature ☆ Own 3 cats or more Optional: Find cure to become human again

Generation 10: Turquoise

In the works...

If you play this challenge you can use the hashtag #mixed legacy or tag me!

and please give any feedback you might have! ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა

[1-upboys]

A quick update on my medical thing...

I want to give you guys a quick update regarding my emergency commissions.

First of all, I really want to thank you guys so much for always being interested in my art - I appreciate your support, I appreciate every single donation, every single sharing of my current commissions and every single nice word I'm receiving from you guys. It's been tough times and I cannot thank you enough. Really.

Since I really wanted to work on my mental health and actually go through some medical procedures that sadly aren't being paid by the state, I've worked a lot on collecting some money through cheap commissions to undergo it as well as inform myself on those procedures in the first place. ( I won't go into details on what I wanted to do, cause it's private - some people know and those who know, I ask you to please keep it to yourselves.)

Coming straight to the point now: I have been to Vienna last weekend and went to 3 separate, non-dependent clinics that offer these treatments. 

Two of them were absolute rubbish, they were unprofessional, therefore not trustworthy, and I felt very uncomfortable. After these two appointments I've already doubted a lot of those things. The first one even told me it would  be a waste of money if I didn't want to take any pills accompanying the treatment (which was an absolute no-go for me and a border I didn't want to cross). So my brain has already been thinking of.... just leaving it be.

The third appointment was absolutely great. The first time, a real doctor who really knew what he was talking about, talked to me. And he was trustworthy, he was honest, he was absolutely lovely and great. He also was absolutely transparent, even with the price and all (11,500 bucks… PFFFFF) But I have already decided, long before I even went to Vienna, that I don’t need it. 

The problem lies deeper than that. I learned a lot about myself in these two days in Vienna. And I learned that this is going to be the start of an era where I will obtain self love and only self love! Because that is the problem I am struggling with a lot. The lack of respect I have for myself. And this procedure won’t make it better.

The money I have collected for this treatment is now, without a doubt, useless when it comes to the treatment I was hoping to get. And the more I think about not doing it and not undergo surgery, the better and relieved I feel. 

But

The money won't be useless when it comes to my job situation - as you guys maybe know, I will most likely lose my job and the money I have collected by drawing countless commissions now will come in handy for that near future where I will maybe have to look for a new job and maybe build up my own business.

So I’m thankful for every tiny little commission you still want to buy off of me and, as I already said above, I’m so thankful for your support and for every tiny donation. You guys are great.

I wanted to be honest with you, I don’t want you to keep donating or paying commissions for a lost cause (the medical one) because that wouldn’t be the right thing to do. Not at all. I wanted to let you know that the cause kind of changed now.

And that I will still offer cheap commissions until the end of 2024 before I go back to my regular prices! 

2025 is going to be a year in which I will work on my confidence and self love. It’s gonna be tough, but nothing I won’t be able to handle.

Again, thank you so much for being the best community an artist wishes for. 

Love ya all!

-- Lu

[espejodejade]

Inspo for my next handmade project

After my first handmade skirt I got excited and now I want to make a full OP ▼⁠・⁠ᴥ⁠・⁠▼

This is something that made me fall in love with lolita since the very beginning: the strive for creativity and experimentation. I once again want to use the fabric of a garment that I no longer use to create a new and unique piece!

Maybe I'm getting a little too excited, after all I've never done a full dress from scratch before, so I'll be kind to myself if I make some mistakes and learn from them. (⁠✪⁠㉨⁠✪⁠)

I'm still new to lolita, so getting brand pieces and filling my wardrobe has been hard since I don't have a lot of money (I work selling my art and it doesn't pay off much lol). I've been buying clothing from local lolita brands since their more accessible for me, but I think that learning to sew it's gonna save me from bankruptcy :⁠,⁠-⁠)

I'm gonna follow some instructions that I found on the internet, I plan on documenting the process so I will share the tutorial that I'm gonna follow when I finish it in a future blog. Wish me luck! (⁠♡⁠ω⁠♡⁠ ⁠)⁠ ⁠~⁠♪

[bluelocksource]

Shidō Ryūsei’s trivia (source: twt & Egoist Bible 1 & 2).

"What I’m doing on the field isn’t just ‘soccer’ but ‘life’ itself.” (EB1)

"My soccer instincts are exploding, and my muscles are alive!" (EB2)

☆ Character's colour: Shocking pink.

☆ Weapons:

Scoring ability, Penalty Area Perfection. (EB1) Penalty Area Perfection, Dragon Drive (Ryūsei's direct shot). (EB2)

☆ Nickname: Explosion Demon.

☆ Birthday: 7th July.

☆ Current age: 17 18 (3rd year of high school)

☆ Zodiac: Cancer.

☆ Birthplace: Tokyo.

☆ Current height: 185 cm.

☆ Dominant foot: Both are nitro (spectacular/explosive).

☆ Blood type: AB.

☆ Motto: "All for the explosion."

☆ Team before joing BLUE LOCK: - (Unaffiliated)

☆ Favorite food: Yukhoe. “Because I’ll feel more like a carnivore.”

☆ Disliked food: Bean sprouts. “They look weak and withered.”

☆ Favorite animal: Dinosaur, especially Velociraptor. “I like the scene where they eat the humans in ‘Jurassic Park’ movie.” .

☆ Favorite season: The beginning of summer. ”My cells gets excited.”

☆ Favorite football player: Zlatan Ibrahimović.

☆ Favorite song: “Hide’s music, especially ‘Pink Spider’.”

☆ Favorite manga: “Lately, Chainsaw Man.”

☆ Favorite movie: A Clockwork Orange.

☆ Mushroom shoots vs Bamboo shoots: Bamboo shoots. “They have strong and tough form.”

☆ What goes best with rice : Soy sauce and butter. “Why don’t you try wrapping them with nori? It'll tastes so good!”

☆ Hobby: My explosions.

☆ What makes him happy: A pass (soccer pass).

☆ What makes him upset: Players who won’t explode.

☆ Best subject: Art and P.E.

☆ What made him cry recently: “I cried because I thought of maybe one day, I won’t become anyone.”

☆ Usual sleeping time: 7 hours.

☆ What he usually ends up buying from convenience store: Baby Star Ramen. “At times, I crave for it.”

☆ Place he washes first when taking a bath: Neck.

☆ What will he do if received 100 million yen: Divide the money into 100 pieces and use them as dominos.

☆ What age he stops receiving presents from Santa: “Isn’t it fun getting yourself a present than by some old, red and white, fat man?”

☆ What was his last wish from Santa: “A world where Santa disappears.” .

☆ How he spent his holiday: “Break free from everything and do nothing.”

☆ What will he do during his last day on Earth: “Watch the outcome of the Earth reaching it’s end.”

☆ Favorite historical figure: "It's you, the one reading this. Life is equally beautiful and ugly for everyone. Since we were born in the same era, let's enjoy it!"

☆ If he hadn't encountered soccer, what will he be doing: "I would be into art. Being a painter would be nice, and so would sculpting. I'd create shiny and overflowing works!"

☆ If he could only take one thing to a deserted island, what would it be: "I'd bring a lot of pink paint. I'd paint everywhere and make it my island! Oh! I’ll mix in some blood-red color too ♪"

☆ If he had a time machine, would he go to the past or the future: "I'd go anywhere. No matter the time or place, I would still be me!"

Last updated: 31/10/2024

* The crossed words are the changes made from twitter’s answer to the answer from Egoist Bible.

note: i want to apologize in advance for any mistake made in the translation!

[silveraura]

Join the party campaign 2 ending spoilers

(I know it's been out for a while, but I'm also behind, so the spoiler warning is just in case)

Alright yesterday I finally finished listening to JTP campaign 2 and it made me tear up. So a little context to my day: I had just been hit with a rent increase and me and my housemate realised our basic rent is higher than we thought (and now even higher), so we won't be getting any rent allowence from the government after my birthday like we thought. Basically, it was a huge dissapointment and made me want to cry about capitalism.

So then I go do other stuff and start listening to the final bits of the finale episode. (Insert obligatory "what the fuck Eric?", but like, lovingly, because it was so good). Multitool makes the ultimate sacrifice, and asks for people to be able to do what they want without having to worry about earning enough to live. I feel a lump in my throat. That's a beautiful wish if I ever heard one, and my god do I want to not worry about rent rn.

Eric plays a scene between two people in a grocery store. It's so simple, yet it makes me wish to live in that world so much. The symbolism of the stretched out hand makes me tear up. I have so many things I want to do and a big source of worry and stress is money. I'm not even doing bad, I'm fine. If necessary I could even lean on my parents, that would just be complicated. It's just that every soul in my body wants to reject capitalism. I don't understand the economy (and barely want to) and investing. I have student debt and the safest way to get myself out of that after my studies is to keep working in this field, even if I am currently much more motivated about my dreams of writing books and doing art than my studies.

I know some people are gonna read this and think I'm acting like a child, and I should suck it up. It's not that bad, I don't have much to complain about. And they're right, in a way. I live in a world where I can escape to others, like the worlds of Join the Party, and honestly it helps me cope. But every now and then these fantasy worlds become so idealistically reachable but realistically fantastical that it hurts. It's not an insane farfetched idea to have universal basic income. But it feels terrifying to hope to transform the current systems of the world so much to allow for something so nice, because most things don't promise we're heading in that direction. As a gen z young adult I can barely dream of owning a house in the future, because our current housing market would have to annihilate itself will I ever get the chance to buy anything that permanent at all.

Anyway, long post, many thoughts, some tears. The conclusion is that I love Join the Party and they make me keep wishing for a better world. I'm not a pessimistic person, just some days the world hits me in the face and makes me cry a little. Those days I dream of hugging January, questioning doctor Morrow about physics, asking Val for advice about being queer and fashion and a bunch of things, nerding out with Milo, petting Tuna and Pizza, sharing oldest sibling struggle stories with Aggie, and much more. And maybe some people who read this feel the same.

[stardustjessie]

JESSIE'S 2024 ROADMAP

So, I just wanted to ramble about the projects I have planned out for 2024. I've been very ambitious about some due to being able to afford to invest in them. Of course, art will forever be my #1 ambition and will continue to improve my craft. I'm always finding new ways to improve and exploring new ideas. However; I do have various non-digital art related! And I want to tell you all on my own personal blog about them and what you can look forward from me in the future!

MUSIC PROJECTS

I've actually been taking my time to figure out how FL Studios work, and how to work with it with Audacity. I've been attempting at voice training, so once I'm satisfied with my voice, I'd really love to do lyrics. I'm planning on working out something special for the first quarter of 2024. An EP called "Hear my Voice! (Existence)". I want it to be focused on the progress of HRT and Voice Training and just the idea of artistic freedom and the great feeling it is to be able to create things the way I want after being so long unable to. I don't know, 3 songs sound good for an EP. I want to be crafty and creative with them. I'd love for it to be Lo-Fi Pop Punk. As in, actual Lo-Fi, not the Synthwave kind of Lo-Fi. I want it to be the classic lower quality and lower frequency sounding music. I have a grudging respect for Lo-Fi and what it can represent, so I want to have my own take on it. The other project would be a proper album for once I get the hang of it all. I plan to call it "Celestial Wishes". I so far only have the plans for it to be Pop Punk and be very angelic sounding. I want it to be like heaven answering my wishes to finally do music. Obviously I won't sing about that-! I want it to carry the story of Ponies living life and miracles happening in various ways. How many songs ? God knows! It's only an idea thus far, and will take shape later. Right now I want to focus on making a couple of singles, maybe having one done in December still even. That and focusing on the overall theming and style I want for "Hear my Voice! (Existence)". I'll post all of these on a new Youtube Channel I've created, StardustJessie Music! Subscribe for when I start posting some!

YOUTUBE VIDEOS

I don't know how aware you are, but I do have a Youtube Channel. I primarily post Video Game Analysis Essays. I'm extremely proud of the ones I made this year, those being Deus Ex 2 and Amnesia: The Dark Descent. Well, I have two more videos planned out! The first, POKEMON SUN & MOON ARE GREAT AND HERE'S WHY; Which I'm very ambitious and passionate about this idea. Everyone was very quick to defend Sword & Shield, Sun & Moon didn't get that same treatment. I want to be one to defend Sun & Moon, which I have a lot of argument for, and have a lot to say about its history and the state of pokemon in that age. I actually really hated S&M when I first played it and deeply regretted buying Ultra Sun (Which I still do.), so it's almost like a redemption arc for me! I'll have to gather up a shitload of footage though. Pokemon Red, Silver, Sapphire, Ruby, Diamond, Black, X, Alpha Sapphire, Red Team Rescue, Explorers of Sky, Gates to Infinity, Super Mystery Dungeon, Sword, Violet, Rescue Team DX, Sun, Ultra Sun, and more! These are just the pokemon games I'll have to record! Not to count other games I bring up as a precedent and examples like Persona 4 which is some 60 hours of gameplay! So yeah. It's a lengthy project. Thankfully I'm purchasing a 4TB HDD this week so I should be able to gather that much footage without a worry. I imagine I'll only have this done in a year or even 2025! It's a tough project. However; I want to also work on another video! MORROWIND WALKED SO SKYRIM COULD RUN (AWAY WITH MY MONEY); I really despite Skyrim for a lot of reasons. But I really love Morrowind. A lot of the things I see people praise Skyrim are things I genuinely believe they'd have a better time and enjoyment of those aspects if they played Skyrim. I believe I can actually get this video done in 2024 as these games are waaaaaaaaaaaay shorter than all the shit I have to play for a Pokemon project! But even then, Skyrim would be some 30 hours and Morrowind some 15, not to mention any other games I talk about. It's a great topic to analyse and I'll be very ambitious. I should get to write it sometime and have a W.I.P project in mid 2024 so it'll be my annual essay.

BOOK PROJECTS

I'm very interested in writing my own book honestly. Ever since I read Dracula I've considered writing a story that touches on similar themes and ideas and can evolve them further through the lens of 2024. I'm slowly taking shots at it. Sometimes I write a sentence or two. As any Tumblr Writer knows, it's very tough. Be on the look out! Once I have anything concrete I'll definitely post!

I believe this would be it! I don't have many individual projects, but they are ambitious and time consuming projects that I want to have done next year or have something substantial to show in 2024! There are more projects, like my Game Project which I'm very passionate about and have 74 pages of documentation of and still working on it! Since it's on very early planning stage I rather not talk too much. But maybe 2025 roadmap ? Thank you for reading this if you have at all! I just want somewhere to put all my ideas. Who knows. It'll be interesting in 2034 to look back to 22 year old me being so ambitious, while 32 year old me has those ambitions fully realised and onto new projects. This is almost like an archival of my personal artistic ambition and my passion for the crafts of Writing, Visual Arts and Music.

[illiath-the-fae]

Art Screed...

I love seeing stuff about learning to draw/paint/whatever from published artists, always makes me think "what-if?" about my own skills.

In my case, in the dim-dark early days of the pre-public-internet era, I took some university-level art courses. During one of them, I asked the professor about using a computer for some of the work (this was waaaaaayyyy back btw, think "Commodore Amiga, the powerhouse of animation!"). Her response was simple "none of the finalists for the end-of-year art judging have been on a computer, maybe it'll happen in the future, but not now". So I went back to my 8'x3' (yes, feet) canvas and continued working on my final piece.

Fast forward until around 2021, and I finally buy myself an inexpensive (for me... around $200USD) screen-based art tablet. I wish I had tried it far earlier as I had the money to buy even a really nice one since around 2005-2006, and it's really helped me rediscover my interest in art. In the early years there, I was too poor for art supplies. Even buying a sketchbook would have meant I could not afford to eat for a week, so I stopped doing art, even sketches, because doing so would waste paper I might need for something my other skills did that put food on my table, or keep the roof over my head. So I basically didn't do art at all for most of those 30 years, other than CAD, or fixing stuff that marketing sent over for websites, or fixing fricked up websites.

However, I have a grounding in colour theory. I learnt how to draw using charcoal and paper. I learnt how to sculpt. How to work with clay and fire in a kiln, work with glass and create stained glass using lead linings, and more. I had all those skills, and I just didn't do art, at all, because I was stuck in a mindset of "I need these tools to do art and they're expensive", but today, there are inexpensive screen tablets that let me do drawing, and even some limited (to me) painting.

This sort of ends with an interesting point. With modern electronics, it's possible to make drawing and painting accessible to far more people, however there much to be said about using whatever materials you can to just do art, for your own sake, that it's hard to put it into words. But don't define yourself, or your art, or others art, by the medium, art has throughout history been done with what's on hand, because the artist felt a need to create and used whatever they could to get it done.

I guess, if I wanted to put a TLDR on this... When created by a mind, there is only "True Art".

And yes, even if it's a traced image, or photo that's been modified by an algorithm at the direction of a person, or a banana taped to a wall, a play put on by four years olds, or music made with bottles and rocks in a parking lot, or the finest piano concerto in a large performance venue, it's all art.

[pacifymebby]

i think backgrounds is a thing but also kind of like what they stand for. R is rich and privileged living off her parents money (which is fine) and constantly jetting off to places lol (again fine) and doesn’t have a job or even need one tbh like that’s literally unheard of in the north like you literally need a job to afford a living

I get the crux of what you're saying here but I promise you there is a "posh" north and it's somehow even more horrifying than posh London

But aye those experiences are what shape your values

Thing is can any of us say we don't want to better our futures and give our kids better futures?

I for one hope that one day I'm well off enough that if my kids graduate uni and they don't know what to do with themselves and are trying to break into a tricky industry, they can come home to the family house and keep working on their goals? Like I wouldn't want me kids dossing but id fucking hate to think I'm working my arse off now so that one day in the future I can force my kids to slog it too?

Like I really get where all these anons are coming from about the culture clash and about like how it isn't fair that certain people have life so so much easier, and also like how it's weird that a man who's made a lot of being "rags to riches" is now seemingly dating someone with different principles so is kinda sacrificing his own BUT

1) it's only dating

2) no one in poverty wants to remain on the poverty line, I really don't blame him for "social climbing" he's having experiences that were barred from him by the class system for a long time and that can only be a good thing.

3) maybe he's not sacrificing his principles, I've seen very privileged women learn/grow when they've been in relationships with people from poorer backgrounds (relationships teach both people different things afterall)

4) he's not a hypocrite for shagging. He isn't sacrificing any principles by dating someone middle class. If anything it's weird to say that all working class people must remain completely true to their poverty stricken roots, that only reinforces class structure and makes certain things "not for us" like would you say it's sacrificing principles for a v working class lad from Stockport to go to Oxford? Is he a class traitor? Am I a class traitor for buying a gingerbread man in Morrisons or like idk Waitrose one time? Is it class traitory for working class people to go to art galleries, or listen to classical music, or learn to play the flute, or read lit fiction?

Do you see what I mean like, there's loads of things deemed middle class which have always been "not for the likes of us" but if we start saying any working class person who engages with those things is a traitor to their class then we're the ones reinforcing the structure that oppresses us?

Like idk, I tryyy very hard these days not to judge people who are middle class, because I do know nice people who are, my dad's got some lovely middle class friends... lots of the people I've met in Scotland that are southern English middle class snd have moved up here for cheap rent are nauseating cunts but idk, best to give people the benefit of the doubt until they actually start on the "i just dont see why we should give free school meals to children just because their parents smoke 40 a day and want the latest iphone" rant

The best situ for them is class divide causes misunderstandings and mild irritation but they are happy together anyway and it's not a deep problem. the worst is that the relationship falls apart because they can't understand eachother (this is usually what brings down all relationships though even ones that are class balanced? Is that a phrase that felt weird to write?) Like I grew to fucking despise my ex for being privileged and out of touch but I wouldn't wish that on anyone lol I lost a bestie and it sucked!!

Anyway my point is mostly just that you don't know them at all and to hold your horses accusing anyone of abandoning their principles just for dating someone from a different class background that's meh

Obvs btw anon not all of this is aimed at you in anyway because you aren't the one who has sent me all these things, it's just yours is so far one of the only ones that's on theme with the other anons that's polite enough to post. Some of the stuff in my inbox right now is harshhhh

[surveillance-0011]

Some thoughts on the comic going off of the lil blurb. Spoilers for that, if it matters

So, it’s taking place after the main game so… maybe no G3. Maybe because there’s always a chance of extra members or people coming back for one reason or another… or there could be segments of them whether flashbacks or standalone bonus pages (copium here I’ll admit). If we don’t get them, I guess that’s alright, but I do wish we could get some more antics from them. The writers did a good job at putting together some colorful characters and it seems everyone wants at least a little more. Hey, it could always happen in the future if the first batch of comics goes well.

But this might go over all/some of the bounties between HOL and HOK, tho it could possibly be after HOK or include it. I think it would be nice to flesh out all the little bounties in between, I’m certainly excited to flesh out Harper and the other guns! But esp Harper bc she’s so new to the scene and as endearing as she is her introduction was very sudden and she needs more of a spotlight to be really acquainted with her. Fingers crossed that it will quell people who go all “agh she’s just a replacement for Kenny!!1l. Though, speaking of… Maybe we’ll get to see what’s happened with Kenny. And Lizzie! I wanna know where she’s at.

I’m also expecting some Gurgula, even if it’s just easter eggs to be found. Very very curious abt him…

I looked into the artist and colorist, both of their work looks rlly nice so I’m expecting some very unique, fun art of good quality!!

Looking forward to the comics, I will probably buy em if I actually have any money for stuff but I may wait to see what the consensus is or just go for one at a time :3c

[zentaiges-blog]

my new years resolutions

(Yes it took me 2 weeks into 2024 to materialize this and for some reason im putting this on tumblr for all to see. Idk why ok here we go)

Listen to more classical music cause it makes me feel good, also listen to more indie artists that make chill music for the same reason as stated earlier.

Listen to less anything else (god please dont get home from your draining and dead end job and fall into a mindless coma listening to video game ost that you liked 5 years ago ever again for like the whole rest of the day)

eat more fruit and vegetables, its better for the environment and also it helps you not get rashes and coughing and heartburn constantly thats making you miserable and slowly killing you cause of coca cola and mcdonalds and many other evil brands that want everyone to be unalive

watch more cute cartoons and look at flowers outside and little critters, listen to people on the bus and train and be nicer and friendlier even if you dont feel up to it, it will make things better

watch deep and meaningful movies and read good and meaningful books. No, you dont have a 'favourite genre' that you have to watch things of, just enjoy yourself for once instead of trying to make your behaviour fit your personality, which barely exists anyways

Dont buy stuff you dont need. No, i dont need 2 packs of cookies cause they are 30% off. In fact, you need 0 packs of cookies cause even if you get 1 pack youll eat it all immediately and get sick so whats the point. Just buy stuff that will actually get made into an enjoyable meal and not snacks that will make life suck more.

Dont wonder why you are here or why god is tormenting you ( if you believe in god, which changes constantly, its like a 50-50 coin toss every day). Just think about something to look forward to

And that leads into this point, which is a continuation of resolution number 6: dont buy stuff at all actually. Dont make a budget plan, just try and spend no money cause your future is uncertain my dude, me, I

Get into poetry. Remember when you were in that book club in school? And they read poetry all the time and you were like: eh i dont get it and why am i even here if they wont let me talk about the golden compass which was my fave book at the time( they did let me talk about it but most of the club was poetry). But now i finally get it. Poetry is like music or art. Its so beautiful. I dont know why i am such an idiot that it took me a quarter of a century to finally get poetry. But now i want to read and learn. And maybe even write my own and inspire others to discover this truly magical world. Its so much more than just words, stories, or information or emotion. Do you think i could get my sister to read poetry? Or maybe even some colleagues at work? Can I make enough money this year to keep living on my own or will i have to beg other people who dont like me to let me move back in? If this job doesnt work out, can i find another one that pays enough for me to feel safe? Will i fall back into depression somewhere along my path? Or will something unexpected and good happen? Maybe i will find people who like me despite my neurotic and unloving and apathetic (and pathetic) nature? Or will something bad happen? Will I live?

This is not a new resolution just me ending this post. I hope you have a better life than me and a great year. Best wishes!

[nickywhoisi]

wow i'm starting to hate the heart for likes...I guess i was unfortunately correct about the likes being equivalent to my wants being ignored, and that not being okay anymore as an artist, and as a human being in general, sharing my thoughts? Just. Maybe Tumblr should make an update where only the reblog function exists, and could...be the like heart? Just mashing them together maybe? If that would help?

I don't know man. I guess it just hurts to see something i poured my heart and soul out on and established my boundaries with just got the same treatment as what I originally complained about. This fucking stings is what I'm saying. Fuck the people on here using this like twitter or facebook. It makes me all the more grateful to see when somebody has reblogged. I wish that happened more often.

So anyway, I had meant to provide some links to some new places I'm going to post my work on. I tried to find a simple photo uploader, but shit wasn't going right there. My god everything is going to shit here.

But here's the good news! I have some places in mind; one is on Gaia online, which still exists! Wow no wai guyz, but yah wai. I'm Foxishpeep, and another one of mine is NicolleneCosplay. I encourage you guys to make an account if you like, and get access to things like my profile and journal, and make comments on threads I make in the future, because despite what things happened there, you don't necessarily have to keep up with monthly collectibles, and it's one of the most iconic avatar designers on the internet. Buying items with real money is just like any other gacha; optional. And I'd actually say gaia has gotten fairer about getting gold and fancier items now. It's way easier than in the past! I like that. I'm gonna post my art and writing, and just generally play around with avi customizing, as I always have. It's actually a fun way to render original characters!

Another spot I have is on Pixiv, NickoWicko, which is exclusively for art posts. That might be good for comics too, so I'mma try it out. I've already posted some concept ideas for my Fate/ fanwork, Fate/WildPinnacle! I have SO MANY SCRIPTS FOR THIS ALREADY. But for anything I want to create visually for it will go here. As for writing...

I have overheard of a project called Neocities, and I haven't decided what mine will be named, but it will basically be my tumblr here, but even more personalized and just better all around. This is where I guess everything will go. Just wanna see if I can spread myself around. I'm especially excited, because while I basically know next to nothing about coding, I have always wanted to make my own website since all the way back in the late 90's. THIS IS AN OLD DREAM THAT HAS A CHANCE TO COME TRUE AGAIN, HOW CAN'T I GET HYPE ABOUT THAT. I'VE GOT THE POWA

The other two places I have in mind is Fanfic.net or AO3, exclusively for writing. I have actually been making more written work than art lately...because I have never found the free time or a safe space to wind down and have a focused atmosphere to create like this. I can still type, but my fucking god I miss being able to have a quiet draw session... It especially hurts because I want to post pictures with my fanfics and original works! Uuuurghgrhgg

REBLOGS > LIKES, THANK YOU!

[magicsunwheel]

Why You're F#cking Amazing

Pick-a-Card

How to play: pick one of the photos below using your intuition. You can close your eyes and meditate for a bit or just take a few grounding breaths while thinking of the topic. Feeling drawn to more than one is fine! You might have messages in more than one pile

Pile 1 (x) Pile 2 (x) Pile 3 (x)

My pile numbers always go from left to right, then down to the text row (if applicable)

Pile 1

Cards: The High Priestess, Five of Swords, Seven of Pentacles, The Moon Rx, Five of Rods, Ace of Pentacles

You are so intuitive! You're either very in touch with your divine feminine or are working your way there right now. Something about you is severe in the most beautiful way. You can take things seriously when they need to and the way you command a room with just your presence is unmatched. Maybe you're also a tarot reader or involved in spirituality/divination in some way. Maybe you really like Pick-a-Cards.

Something beautiful about you is that you never give up on a fight, especially when you know the end is worth it. Your ambition is strong and you will fight for what you love and what you want. You are not weak-willed by any means.

This also makes you so unique! You work so hard and put so much labor into your love even if you know it will take a long time to come to fruition. The times that you feel discouraged by a lack of results are few and far between. If for some reason you do find yourself wistfully hoping for faster results or an easier path, you can easily remind yourself of why you started in the first place.

You might have moments where you think of yourself as sneaky or like you're hiding a part of yourself from others, like your true self would be too much for them. I'm here to tell you that your intensity is exactly what make you such a beautiful person! You thrive in competition and in adversity. It gives you a chance to show off your quick thinking and survival skills. Others look at you with envy of how you can make an opportunity out of seemingly nothing!

If you need help improving your self-love, Spirit says to stop comparing yourself to others! You are amazing and beautiful and unique all on your own! Throwing yourself into the fray to compete against others who are nothing like you will only fim your inner shine. And you really do shine! When I asked for a card about why you are beautiful, nearly half the damn deck flew out!

Sprit loves you and I love you so please take care of yourself and keep making those amazing opportunities to improve your physical surroundings. (I feel like you have a very clean room/home)

Pile 2

Cards: Nine of Rods, the World, King of Cups, Three of Rods, Ace of Rods, Two of Cups

Ahh the Loona pile!

Similar to Pile 1, but much more fiery! You are resilient! Taking time to collect yourself before pushing forward with a renewed sense of energy and purpose is such an amazing and useful trait. You maybe aren't as commanding of a presence but you have such an inner strength that no one can deny.

You got the World for the reason why you're beautiful! Maybe it's related to physically being very beautiful and possibly exotic-looking. You might have very specific features associated with a certain area of the world that stand out where you live. You also have such a wonderful understanding of the world and where it's currently at. Things can seem negative or like hope is lost but you still seek out the beauty and share it with others. You see opportunity where others do not and feel a sense of peace and connectedness with all of humanity. Wow!

Your uniqueness shines in your emotionality and compassion. You might be a natural born leader who makes sure to understand all under your rule. You lead with kindness and, most importantly, by example. You don't have any desire to use you position for ill-gotten gains. Power to you does not corrupt, it solely provides a tool for you to do good in the world and really make a difference in the lives of others, whether it's on a large or small scale. You are probably the kind of person who makes sure to give money to those who need it when you pass a begging mother and her children, or buying a homeless man a bottle of water on a hot day.

Your card for why you think you are not perfect actually came out quite positive. Maybe you don't have a very low self esteem, but I can see a few possible scenarios here. You might be constantly planning in your head, waiting and watching for the next move to take but never actually getting to the action part. Maybe you're planning for your future and have so much planned out that you're excited for, but haven't made the practical plans on how to actually get there. This could make you feel bad about yourself especially on days where you're reminded of others moving ahead in their lives while you're still planning. Visualisation is very important in manifesting your desired reality! If you are moving slower than others around you, remember that it is okay to not be where "everyone else" is. Life is not a race or a competition. Taking your time to get to where you need to be when you need to be there reminds me of the story of the tortoise and the hare. Quick does not necessarily mean better.

You can improve your self-love by creating! Using your creativity and passion to make something! Create art, whether it's physical/digital art, music, writing, inventing, anything that uses those creative muscles of yours. It doesn't have to be good! Just creating something will help burn up that excess energy you have that's trying to rush you somewhere. Self-expression this way can be a wonderful hobby even if you don't consider yourself as a creative person.

Your kindness really shines through. You care so deeply about the people around you and your spiritual team cares just as deeply about you. You are loved and watched over and protected by Spirit. Others around you also see your sparkle and appreciate and admire you, even if they don't show it. Know you are beautiful and amazing and bringing a light into this world that needs to be here.

Pile 3

Cards: Six of Rods, the Hierophant, Four of Rods, Six of Cups, Ten of Swords, the Hermit Rx

Damn, who are y'all!? You've got some mighty power and pull in this world. Maybe you're a public figure or have some kind of platform, like a social media with many followers. You could also be well-recognized within your field of study/work. Whoever you are, people see you and look up to you. They celebrate you and how amazing you are! Spirit loves this about you and you really shine in the spotlight. Your achievements deserve all this pomp and celebration!

You are naturally authoritative. People listen when you speak and take your words to heart. You might also be a religious person or someone who enjoys organization and the comfort of hierarchy. People will willingly follow you wherever you lead them because they trust you with all their hearts. "A merciful ruler" (lol) You hold your position with grace and dignity befitting a king or queen.

You are unique in ways the public recognizes, but we knew that already! You might be someone who likes to entertain and you throw the greatest parties and get-togethers. Maybe you've planned a wedding and everyone had such an amazing time! You know how to relax and have fun when the time for celebrating arrives. You can out down your guard and bit and let loose. Not many people with such responsibility can let go of the reigns like that, but you don't seem to hold on to control too tightly.

Your past might be a source of anxiety for you. Maybe you're worried that what you've done when you were younger will catch up to you and ruin what you've got going on now, but it's important to remember that the past is the past. It cannot be undone or wished away. Taking time to accept what happened and recognizing that you've moved on to bigger and better things is important here. Whatever happened, take time to heal your childhood wounds and forgive past actions.

Ending this cycle will bring much more self-love to your life. Old habits and patterns being out to rest is the way forward. It might be a painful ending and something you don't necessarily look forward to, but it is something that needs to happen to clear out old energy and welcome in everything new. You can't expect to move on if you're still repeating old actions or ways of thinking. It's time to set these things to rest and evolve. Leave behind what no longer serves you.

Your understanding of yourself knows no bounds. You've taken the time to inquisit yourself and learn all of the shadows that lie there. Self-reflection might be a favored pastime for you. Through this knowledge of yourself you are able to see truths that many struggle to see all their lives. Your light can cut through the fog if bullshit and see the true source of something. Use this knowledge of yourself to become the best version of yourself that you can be! I know you're already on your way there and it's amazing to see! Spirit is so proud of you and loves you so much!

[mahvericks]

feels like home // tokyo

Summary; The team gets closer in between the professor’s classes.

Warnings; smoking, drinking,

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prologue | chapter one

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“ What if it goes wrong? What happens then? ”

No one could blame Río for asking this question, after all, he was the less experienced and the youngest of the team- he had every rights to be worried about what could happen if this went wrong.

To be fair, if this heist went wrong, only two different outcomes could happen, either you were arrested and sent to jail or you’d get killed- and you didn’t like neither of those possibilities, however if you truly had to choose between those two, you’d rather be killed than sent to jail.

“ Well, darling, the usual- back to prison, a cigarette in the yard, four pieces of shrimp on Christmas, conjugal visits, sometimes.”

Chuckling at Nairobi’s answer, you sarcastically added, “ a life of luxury! ”

You had only went to prison once in your life so far, and while you didn’t regret the reason you had been sent to prison, you’d rather not get sent back there.

“ It’s worse if it goes well- what do we do with so much dough?”

“ I’ll buy a maserati- clear as the blue sky. And a martial arts studio. Yeah, and a bar with three floors with music so loud it’ll make your ears bleed.”

Nairobi and you laughed at Denver’s plan for his future, if that’s all he wanted, he didn’t need that much money, “ three millions would do the job!”

“ A pair of lungs for you dad, ‘cause you fucked up yours up in the mine. ”

“ You’re spending your money on a pair of lungs? Come on son! ”

“ Where the hell would you find some lungs anyways?”

“ Some people sell kidneys, there must be people who sell their lungs. I think? ”

Shaking your head in a smile, you wished everything was as easy as Denver made it sound like but if it was the case, it would be known by now.

“ Well me, I want a winery in Provence. A 200-acre vineyard to cultivate my own wine, in oak barrels.”

Maybe you were too young or just didn’t find any appeal in doing all of this only to drink wine, it sounded boring and a lot of works- Tokyo and you exchanged a confused look, you weren’t the only one who didn’t see the appeal in this, which is why, even if you didn’t want to talk to him, you asked, “ what’s the point, though? You could go to any supermarket and buy any fucking wine you want! ”

“ For the art. ”

Owning a winery wasn’t something you would deem as art but to each their own, to you, art was painting, dancing, music, cinema, novels or even sculptures, but a winery? Not in the slightest. However, you didn’t want to argue for something as insignificant as this and only nodded, accepting the answer.

“ Well, I want an island. ”

“ I want one too. ”

“ Then make it three! ”

“ That’s a bit too much- that’s an archipelago.”

“ I think some of us need to sort some stuff out first, right? At least, I do. And then, with what’s left, I’ll buy a plane that I’ll fly myself.”

Now, this sounded fun- to have a plane to pilot yourself, even if you didn’t know how, as you were about to ask if Nairobi knew how to pilot plane, Tokyo beat you to it as she asked, “ why not taking a hot pilot with you?”

“ You don’t get it. I want to pilot the plane to annoy the control center guy when I land, I’d say ‘ it’s the crazy chick, get out of the landing zone!’ “

This earned a laugh from basically everyone, even if it had only been a bit over a day, you already loved Nairobi and her personality, it was definitely going to be fun to be around her for five months.

“ What about you, y/n? ”

“ I haven’t really thought about it yet, and I like to live of the thrill of robbing. Maybe I’ll start robbing somewhere else or I’ll buy a mansion on an island and hang world renowned paintings in it, I’ll wear overpriced fancy clothes and only drink the most expensive rosé ever made.”

“ First option sounds way more like you.”

Tokyo was right, while you would definitely like to wear overpriced clothes and drink expensive beverages, this life would end up boring you so quickly, “ yeah it does, living in a mansion alone would be boring.”

“ I think I’d record an album singing corridos.”

“ Show them what a corrido is, dad. Show them! ”

“ No way.”

“ Come on!”

“ I’m not going to sing! ”

“ Sing! Sing!”

All of you started to cheer and encourage Moscow as he got up to sing, you couldn’t lie- you were curious to hear what this sounded like.

As you all listened to him sing, quickly joined by Denver as they both sang the first verse and chorus together. Once they were done, Denver went to put some similar music to what they just sang- Tokyo went to dance with Moscow, Oslo and Helsinki started to dance together and Denver went to dance with Nairobi.

Finishing your beer bottle, you almost choked on your beverage when Berlín extended his hand for you to dance with him- you couldn’t say no in front of everyone and give a hint that you knew each other, you hated that and the fact he was using this with you.

Giving your father a death glare, you sighed before reluctantly taking his hand and started to dance with him to the music’s rhythm just like everyone else.

Surprisingly, it wasn’t that bad, you weren’t as much of a great dancer as he was, but it was still enjoyable mostly because neither of you had to speak or confront each other- for a minute, you allowed the little girl you used to be to enjoy spending a moment with her dad.

However, halfway through the song, you were basically snatched away from your father by Tokyo, who also wanted to dance with you. A part of you was disappointed- you couldn’t recall the last time you actually shared a moment with your dad without it turning out badly, but on the other side, dancing with your friend was just as enjoyable.

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You couldn’t believe that your uncle had suggested a football game as a way to form a bond between all of you- it wasn’t something you expected to happen here, you thought all the ‘ lessons ’ would happen in the room you were yesterday, turns out you were wrong.

You liked the idea of a friendly football game, it was always fun and never hurt anyone- that being said once the professor picked the team, you already didn’t like that idea as much. At first, you suggested to not play as one team would have four players and the other would have five since the professor was the referee.

However you weren’t given a choice and had to play too. You weren’t the most talented when it came to football but you enjoyed it, what you didn’t like was that you had been put in the same team as your father- which you didn’t quite understand why as Sergio knew damn well how you’d despise his choice.

Thankfully, Nairobi and Denver whom you were growing closer to, were in the same team as you, this made it easier for you to focus on the game and actually have fun instead of staying upset with Sergio for putting you in the same team as your father.

It turned out to be a good game with a friendly competition between the two teams. While the rival team opened the score and made it hard to catch up on the score at first, when you finally put your bitterness on the side for the sake of this game and started to play with your father too, the game became easier and soon after you had caught up on the score.

You even got to score a goal after your father gave you the ball at one point- while it was mostly due to the adrenaline and euphoria of the moment, you jumped in Berlín’s arms to celebrate your goal but also that your team was now leading the game.

At the end of the game, you were the one to give the ball to Denver who scored the final goal, making your team win. As your friend slid on his knees to celebrate your team’s victory, Moscow, Nairobi, Berlín and you jumped on him to hug him and celebrate the win.

Once the adrenaline cooled down, you felt stupid for letting the euphoria of the moment lead your actions, you didn’t want to let your father thinks that you would forgive him any time soon. It was just a game- that you definitely enjoyed, especially because for a moment, you allowed yourself to not think of anything else than to have fun but now, it was over.

You could only half focus on your uncle’s words as he explained the danger of the heist, the possible outcome that not even him could prevent if something went wrong.

“ They’ll enter through four access points- the main door, the loading area, the emergency exit and the rooftop. Watch the back doors. Don’t let anyone in. But they’ll wait.”

Frowning, you wondered how he could know for sure what would happen- you knew that he had been working on this heist for years, that he was a genius and liked to know how things would go.

“ They’ll wait for the tactical team to set up surveillance and asses. They’ll do that from the loading dock.”

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When you agreed to join this heist, you never expected to get along with everyone so well, to enjoy your time there this much and feel like they were already all your friends. Every moment where you were all together, it was filled with laughs, jokes, sometimes music that would end up with most of you dancing.

It was so different than what you had been used to your whole life, even when you lived with your friends, years ago, you had never experienced this much fun- and it was only your second day in this house in Toledo.

Of course, you weren’t gullible and knew it wasn’t going to be like this for five months, at some point there were going to be arguments and little fights but it seemed like no matter what you would overcome them.

Smiling to yourself, you were enjoying your little moment alone with your half emptied beer, outside in the night- the garden was lit by the light strings you spent two hours hanging up with Nairobi, Denver and Río to make the place feels more welcoming and lively.

“ What are you doing?”

Turning your head on the side, you saw Tokyo walking up to you, a cigarette lit in her hand. You smiled at the girl, you didn’t really expect your absence to be noticed by anyone, “ enjoying the outside ambiance, we didn’t hang those lights for nothing.”

“ It looks great, I like it. ”

“ Yeah, me too. It feels like a home. ”

“ It does- do you think of this place as a home?”

You shrugged at her question- it was your house for the next five months, but did you consider it as a home yet?, “ I’m not too sure, but it feels more like it than the apartment I used to live in.”

“ I get it, I lived in a trailer before… all of this. This place feels more like what I imagine a home to be.”

“ Maybe home isn’t a place but a person? I’ve heard people saying that in the past, I think it can be both.”

“ I think so too.”

Nodding, you put your beer on the side and lied down on the grass to look at the dark sky full of stars. Looking at the stars had always been something you enjoyed, it was appeasing. Soon enough, Tokyo imited your movements and lied down next to you.

“ What brought you to this way of living? ”

“ I’ve met people and became friends with them, I followed them and started stealing too but I think it’s also because of my family. ”

“ What does that mean?”

You didn’t want to tell to much about you, not because you didn’t want to but because you didn’t want to disappoint Sergio and the rules he fixed. That being said, it was hard not to tell Tokyo everything, you loved being around her and knew you could trust her, “ my dad is also a thief- I’m not close to him, I never was but without realizing, maybe it was a way for me to understand him and his life.”

“ What about your mom? Does she know?”

“ She doesn’t care, she never did. I haven’t spoken to her in years and it’s better that way.”

“ That’s sad, I’m sorry for you.”

“ Don’t be, that’s how life is.”

After your answer, a comfortable silence settled between the two of you until someone inside the house put music on and started to sing along, you smiled hearing this ambiance, “ I love this song. ”

“ I like it too- wanna dance? ”

“ Here? ”

“ Why not? ”

Watching as Tokyo quickly got back on her feet to dance, you realized she truly wanted to dance with you- getting up too, you started to dance with your friend and laughed at the silly moves you both were making. You were nowhere near being a skilled dancer but you didn’t need to be a good one to enjoy dancing.

No matter what would happen next in your life, you would never forget this moment- it felt great to forget about everything else and just have fun, just as if you were a teenager again.