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I'm stopping posting art here for good. It's not worth it at all. Really thought to try again but it's just not working out. Anyone here that still wants to see my art then go to my bluesky. It's something in there

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I have no idea how to evolve my art anymore. I'm tired of how stagnated it is, but I can't seem to figure out how to implement new techniques.

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New base up on my kofi for only $10!

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She looks good in pink <3

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Gift to my friend @BudgetGremilinz. Thank you for the Fortnite Skin!

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I wanted to do one last test art and I'm in awe at the results. I think I did amazing with the lineart and shading. Definitely settled down on how I'd like to evolve my art style.

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Delusion

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Blushes

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This little practice piece took too long... Not just from the procrastinating, I swear

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Testing out a new screen tablet because I had to cave and buy a refurbished one of the same model i bought and never got to use lmao the mousie is my beloved partner @gyapona !!!

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The last few months have been really rough. I've actually considered now more than ever quitting art. Even in my lowest as a teen, I had friends and followers motivating me. So no matter how lowly I felt that my art wasn't good, I could get back up.

But due to how isolated I've become due to the ways social media became all about mass media consumption, I've been unable to forge those friendships. I've been unable to meet people to talk about art. I haven't heard critiques or any sort of feedback for years I believe.

It's getting harder to remember, but there used to be a time that random strangers would want to see my art improve because there was potential in it. Now the only one that wants it to improve is myself, and no matter how badly I want it to improve, I can't if I don't know what go improve. It was always great having my artistics flaws being pointed out and getting to work on them. But now it's radio silence.

Worse, posting online has been miserable for me. I had to give up my dream of becoming an online artist that I chased since I was 7 or 8, all due to the supression of art in social media. People seem to care about speaking up about artists being underappreciated when it comes to big artists that already have a stable following. I look into the #furry many times and see plenty of art that goes unnoticed and unappreciated. I hate that mine has been too.

Whenever I look at the tag I love looking at the stuff that falls under the cracks. I learned to draw wings because I only saw a pegasus art with 1 note, and I thought the wing was impressive and I DMd the artist asking for advice on that. It was great.

But more often than not that is not the case. So many other artists I've contacted to just complement them or ask about an art technique. I wish I had the courage to ask again, because I would really appreciate the personal help they could offer. But who cares about an art community ? All that matters is having the most followers/notes, right.

I'm trting to pick up my broken mental state and get into art again. But it's truly hard when whatever I post, no matter the hour of day, the day of the week, the art quality or my commentary on the art, people won't care. I'll get a few notes which is always sweet, but I'll always be stuck here. No friends, no artists to talk to, and never getting to leave this bubble. Not because I don't want to, but because we live in an environment that doesn't allow you to.

Was practicing some shading now that I'm using Clip Studio. I think this came out alright. Can't wait for it to fall under the cracks.

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Was practicing some shading now that I'm using Clip Studio. I think this came out alright. Can't wait for it to fall under the cracks.

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A quick Diana headshot! I just wanted to get the brush down and have everything working.

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Trying to do some art again and made this. Trying to adapt to Clip Studio.

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This guy has constant nightmares!

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Sorry there has been no arts. I've had 0 motivation the past months.

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I have a personal blog I didn't touch for so long, but I feel like sharing my mind about things, videogames and film/TV. So if you wanna hear a random talk about some random thing, hop on by!