#i will always miss you

[theaceofarrows]

So I was looking at some tattoo stuff and this came up⬇

And I just...⬇

I'm still not over them. Never will be

[kentopedia]

the era of tv where shows were aired weekly with 22 episodes and 5 or more seasons 😔🤞

[will80sbyers]

why did I have to remember they cancelled Half bad. I wish I never watched it so that I didn't know just how good it was and what I lost

[guhara]

remembering hara 💌

[spilled-ink-like-spilled-wrists]

Missing you is like a low hum, always in the background of everything I do, every thought I have.

But sometimes it comes in waves, crashing over, and threatening to drown me.

[seductiveandcynical]

I would do just about anything to get you back, but I would not survive losing you a second time.

I’m begging you to stay gone.

[daddyhitsmehard]

I’m currently so starved for touch. I can nearly feel the ache in my core. I can hear it calling out, needing a hug. A cuddle would mean so much right now. I miss having the touch of someone who cares.

[mellowinternettrash]

I am a toy

I smile when you ask

Cup you around my arms when you need

Open my legs wide when you want

I'm the toy

You threw out

when you were done playing

Burnt every piece of my memory

Like i didn't exist

I'm a toy

I will listen to your screams

Endure your insults

Embrace your affection

More than anything

I love you

Even when you don't want me to

I love you

I love you

I love you

I will always love you

[shineee-world]

There isn't much that I can do expect try to comfort you with this song.

"at the end of a tiring day, even if the sun has already come up, I’m finally closing my eyes."

"because even though we’ve been in different worlds all day, we always end the day together."

"you did a good job today, you worked so hard, you are my prize."

I hope you can continue to shine wherever you are. I hope you are always smiling. I hope you can get lots of rest and not be in pain anymore. I hope you know that you are loved and how much I love you. I wish I can continue to comfort you even if we are in different worlds. Now that the end is already here, farewell my love. I hope one day we can see each other again. My heart will always be with you. Though it hurts to part, let us continue to walk along the flowery path, even if it is is different directions. Don't be sick anymore. Thank you for leaving so many songs and moments for us. Thank you for giving me so many happy memories and shining in the darkest of my days. Our precious moon Binnie has gone to join to join the other stars in the sky. Keeping shining and sparkling. Bin-ah, this is my goodbye to you.

To the person reading this, please take care of yourself. Get help if you need it. Surround yourself with people who love you.

[lanesinsanes]

Cocaine and Blue Eyes

Cocaine and blue eyes

Her lips quiver slight

When she oaths those old lies

She cries at night

Hurting from his goodbyes

Pockets empty always

He swipes his card tonight

She's ashamed now

It hurts everytime he pays

She feels selfish and greedy

She can't help but take

"Why do you still entertain me?"

"Because without you my insides ache."

Her forgiveness will never come

Sinful behaviour, sacrilege

The imperfect Saint

Used and abused by scum

"You're undeserving of this,"

She apologises

"Never again, I promise,"

She lies

Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow

Her heartless sadism is inevitable

a sonnet type love letter for coolcat

i love you, never forgive me

Credits

Literary Inspiration

Fred Zackel (1916-present)

Cocaine and Blue Eyes

1978

Visual Inspiration

[daddyhitsmehard]

**This has been sitting in my drafts for nearly 6 months. My heart is still broken from him. It’s somehow a different heartbreak than I’ve known before. I don’t know how to explain it. **

The more I look back on us…

And tonight, I’m struggling. I see that you’re not the same person anymore. I fell in love with someone different. The change seems so gradual, yet it also seems like it was very sudden. I think the suddenness of it comes from my own denial of the situation. I still have things about us to work through. I’m afraid of relationships now, to a certain extent. We were so good. We we amazing. What the hell happened? When did the lies start? Were they always there and I just didn’t know? I know you loved me. I’m sure, in some way, you still do. But I was still a filler. And someone else is now your filler. And someone else will be soon, I’m sure. Please stop running away from your life. You need to sit and look around for a while. You’ve been on the defensive for so long, you’re not able to see it. Your life has been upside down for nearly a year and you haven’t stopped to take a breath. You just keep running. I thought I saw you hit the bottom, but I’m afraid that’s when the spiraling picked up speed. My heart breaks for you. I miss you. I miss the old you. I’ve been able to let go of this newer version of you…because we share very little. But I mourn who you were. Because now, I don’t even know you.

[unbalanced-boundaries]

I have lost you. Though you were never mine.

[mokomakin-lapamato]

Scrolling back to the time before everything changed.. We had no clue what was going to hit us.

If only we could turn back time...

[juststanveggietales]

Anyone else ever crushed by the all-consuming weight of missing everyone you have ever known combined with the knowledge that people you loved in your past will never mean the same to you ever again? Just me?

[spilled-ink-like-spilled-wrists]

Some days I miss you with every beat of my heart, every breath that fills my lungs.

Other days, I don’t even remember what you look like.

[daddyhitsmehard]

I remember when I’d pack for a weekend at His house. 2 of my stuffies made the trip every time. Doug and Grendel.

Now…they just sit on my dresser.

*packs all my stuffed animals in my bag* i’m ready to go