#i watched pewdiepie play it when it came out and boy it was an experience

[felixcosm]

Nothing beats being introduced to Doki Doki Literature Club as laying on the couch of a stranger's house with a fever, dogsitting two nervous dogs that kept running into dark hallways and whining while you watch a girl hang from her bedroom's ceiling on their giant television

[thelostnymphaeum]

I'm with you 'til the end of the line.

Entry: 004

// Cinema //

Marvel Cinematic Universe

MARVEL MANIA

Superhero movies were not my thing. The only superhero movie I have watched as a kid was Spiderman. I am not into sci-fi or superhero movies albeit being a huge fan of cinema. But during this quarantine, I decided to experiment with my taste and try to indulge in a new set of genre – the Marvel Cinematic Universe. These movies were a far cry from films that are to my liking, such as “Brooklyn” and “What’s Eating Gilbert Grape”. I used to find superhero movies corny or cheesy, because they were not based on real people and I fancy movies that tackle the inner spectrum of humanity. Additionally, I used to think that actors who choose to be in these movies are not “real actors” because portraying a superhero does not really seem to me as a role where you have to internalize the character. I was probably the only person in my class who did not cry when someone said “I love you, 3000” after the Endgame came out, and the only one who did not get the “Wakanda forever” reference. That changed because yester night, I finally finished the entire MCU. I came in with a viewing guide from my friends and I came out feeling like I just had a whole cultural experience.

THE AVENGERS

I like all of them. Except maybe the Captains. I don’t like Captain America. I understand that he’s supposed to be the poster boy of “superheroes” where he’s all righteous, courageous, virtuous and kind to everyone – but that does not seem realistic at all. His character just seemed predictable and bland for me. Maybe that’s why I prefer Tony Stark, he is more dimensional. He is someone who is unapologetic, makes mistakes, smart, arrogant; but his heart will always come from a good place. During battles, it’s always Tony Stark who is thinking of ways to end them (like how to diffuse Ultron at Sokovia) so I feel as if it’s him that should be leading them. Captain America only lead them because he was born in 1918 (just kidding, don’t eat me Steve Rogers stans).  He also looks way too good. It’s unreal. What a knucklehead (Loki will agree with me on this). Jk. Anyways, he earned plus points from me when he returned the infinity stones successfully. As for Captain Marvel, I don’t think I need to explain why I find her insufferable. 

A little piece about Spiderman. I like this reboot of Spiderman, and Tom Holland deserves all the hype he got because he worked so hard for his movies. No one can beat Tobey Maguire of course, but we are all just glad that Tom did not ruin Spiderman for us. The only thing I did not like about his reboot was that he relied too much on Mr. Stark. Tobey’s Spiderman never relied on anyone, he was just his own superhero. But for the sake of integrating him into the MCU, I guess that they have make this fun and fresh Peter Parker juvenile in order to be able to develop his character more. So I think I’ll give it a pass.

I personally like the Thor films the best. Because it was based on Norse mythology. Because of Loki. Because Anthony Hopkins is in it. I dislike the Captain Marvel movie the most.

ENDGAME THOUGHTS. We did not need Captain Marvel. Thor did not deserve to become a drunkard and a greasehead – he’s a freaking Norse God! Why was Pepper Potts at the final battle against Thanos? Thank you, Doctor Strange. Tony was genuinely and undeniably- the heart of the Avengers.

SCORSESE, COPPOLA & PEWDIEPIE

Along with its colossal popularity, the MCU movies have also acquired prominent detractors. Prior to watching the entire MCU, I would have probably agreed with Scorsese, Coppola and Felix (here is his “controversial” video on “I don’t like Marvel movies”).

“Honestly, the closest I can think of them, as well made as they are, with actors doing the best they can under the circumstances, is theme parks. It isn’t the cinema of human beings trying to convey emotional, psychological experiences to another human being.” – Martin Scorsese

"Martin was kind when he said it's not cinema. He didn't say it's despicable, which I just say it is." – Francis Ford Coppola

Parts of it are true, on the basis where the entire plot lines are predictable and it’s not the kind of cinema I learned to love as well. Marvel movies usually follow the same backbone. This is a huge reason why some cinephiles don’t like them, because the mystery is gone and it’s all obvious. After watching all of them in a 3-week streak, I could pretty much sum up the Marvel movie plot line into this:

The protagonist is in a helpless or vulnerable position.

The protagonist meets someone who can help them.

The protagonist works hard to get to his pre-final form and along with it, learns to fight in the name of eradicating the bad guys. 

The protagonist finds out that her/his master is not all-good.

Chaos but then they forgive and understand the master.

2-3 battle fights, the last one is usually the peak battle where we see the protagonist in final form.

I like movies that tackle more about realism. I like seeing actors play roles that depict humanity as humans. I’m not a huge fan of special effects or super powers either. When Scorsese said that they are “not cinema”,  I understood it because there are no intricacies or space for a different form of expression when you’re doing mega franchise films that are meant to sell to the general public. Which brings me to another point, that MCU is largely a business profit. These movies are made by mega corporations in the film industry, and it might also hinder other smaller filmmakers from showing their films if a titanic franchise is showing on the same week as theirs. Comic book fans are enormous in numbers which is why there is such a huge following for these movies even if they use the same plot lines all throughout. Humans are slaves for nostalgia, and people like to see the characters they have read and admired during their childhood come to life. Because of that, these corporations will try to capitalize on that and make more movies for as long as they can, and in a sense, you can see that they might be doing it only for the sake of money and not of art any longer. This is what the disparagers would say; that there is very little artistic values to these films because they are made to be sold, not appreciated for its artistry. 

“Many of our grandfathers thought all gangster movies were the same, often calling them “despicable”. Some of our great grandfathers thought the same of westerns, and believed the films of John Ford, Sam Peckinpah, and Sergio Leone were all exactly the same. I remember a great uncle to whom I was raving about Star Wars. He responded by saying, “I saw that when it was called 2001, and, boy, was it boring!” Superheroes are simply today’s gangsters/cowboys/outer space adventurers. Some superhero films are awful, some are beautiful. Like westerns and gangster movies (and before that, just MOVIES), not everyone will be able to appreciate them, even some geniuses. And that’s okay.” – James Gunn, Guardians of the Galaxy Director

Here’s my two cents on this whole hullabaloo. Art is expressed in different ways. Just because something is popular does not mean that you should hate it or feel as if it lacks creative value. For one, I think that if the Norsemen would see the Thor films, their jaws would drop. Art in these movies is seen through the elaborate special effects and costumes. A lot of people work behind the scenes to make this kind of art form. They are not any less of an artist. The effects are wonderful, amazing and beautiful. Sure, they don’t have meandering plot lines or mysteries that are meant to make you think. But they are able to show art in a way that is along with the times, showing the capabilities of what computer generated imagery could be. It gives us the fantasy that otherwise would not be achievable in real life (for all I care, my favorite scenes are seeing Spiderman glide across the buildings of New York).

These movies are intended for children and teenagers (adults are there for the sake of nostalgia or lighthearted entertainment, I guess?). For kids, it inspires them that they can be anything they want to be. For teenagers, it might be a good footing for their moral compasses. For me, it just inspired me to get fit (hehe). My point is, these movies are made to cater to a particular type of audience, and the others are there just for the spectacle. If all the movies were Scorsese or Coppola, what would the kids watch in the theaters? Kids would not understand “Taxi Driver” nor would be a good foundation for their morals. It was a classic and it deserves the reputation it has, but after only a certain age will you be able to appreciate it, and only if you had a particular knack for appreciating films. MCU movies are made for people who just want to have a good time; you don’t have to like high-brow or art-house movies to understand it, and that’s all there is to it. It’s made for entertainment, what’s so wrong with that?

And the actors – a lot of them played the characters so well which made me realize that taking on a superhero role does not lessen your credibility as an actor. My particular favorites are Tom Hiddleston, Benedict Cumberbatch, Scarlett Johansson, Tom Holland, Mark Ruffalo and Robert Downey Jr. (bonus points for Anthony Hopkins, his range, man, his range). They were able to bring their roles to life in such a distinct way that it would be hard to never associate them as superheroes, which of course, is a double-edged sword. As a starting actor, that could be a bubble that is hard to get out of. For example, Tom Holland as Spiderman; people will always associate him as that, and how many of you has actually seen the movies he has done aside from MCU? It might be hard for him to bridge his career from being a huge franchise film protagonist into doing films to his own preference. MCU movies make the popularity and the money; indie films – not as much. 

I don’t think that the existence of MCU is throwing away the spotlight from smaller filmmakers. Because back then, I simply chose not to see MCU movies because I was not interested. People will find ways to support art that they like, and just because MCU existed, it did not hinder me from looking for movies that I like. The cinema is made by individuals who like to create movies. There are different ways to express them. There are different subscribers to different genres. To each their own. But then again, I am not working in the film industry, so I can’t speak for them, I can only say what it’s like for a movie buff like me.

These are the movies that make up people’s childhood. These are characters that gives reason for people to bond together. When Tony died, the entire world felt like they lost a father. If it’s able to touch lives as much as any other film, why should we discriminate against it? Love is love, after all.

[halorocks1214]

Alright. 

So I’ve been thinking.

For around maybe 5-6 years, I’ve been into first-person shooters (as well as an assortment of other dark games.)

I remember my huge Halo phase, the one that gave me my online name that I still use even though I don’t really play it anymore. I remember getting Call of Duty: Black Ops 2 and playing Transit practically 24/7 with my brother and friends. I remember getting my own computer, getting Steam and playing TF2. Certain game modes of Garry’s Mod. I remember how gory these games could get, and how they still get.

I remembered I played Grand Theft Auto 4 nightly. I got Grand Theft Auto 5 practically the year it came out. I’ve been there for every single update, from the Beach Bum one to the recent Smuggler’s Run.

(I also played Don’t Starve quite frequently. The nights where I had to panic to make fire freaked me the fuck out since I didn’t want to experience whatever had been in the darkness that night brought. The monsters that came when you became insane made me nearly never turn it on again.)

(On a smaller note, I’m a huge fan of The Walking Dead by Telltale Games. I remember crying like a bitch at the ends of both games.)

Around the same time, I got into Youtube. I remember watching the "adult” channels. Pewdiepie, Rooster Teeth/Let’s Play, SkyDoesMinecraft, etc. I remember all the swearing that could be in one video, all the jump scares and all dark games they would play (minus Sky for the last point).

Jump back to about 3 years, I get into anime and other Japanese related things. I can’t remember exactly what started it, but I know the game called Corpse Party had a huge impact. The game where it describes in great detail and picture how the main characters died. I remember how fucking depressing the bad endings could get. How sad I felt when the ending music/credit played in the true end.

I remember staying up until one in the morning to try and finish an Attack on Titan episode that didn’t have a cliffhanger. I remember watching Another, an anime where the plot was literally the characters dying the worst, most gory deaths for some unknown curse. 

I remember watching Panty and Stocking With Garterbelt and how it had dick/dildo jokes on the screen every five minutes. Black Butler’s main character was literally a 13 boy who lost his parents to a horrific fire, was nearly put into sexual slavery, only to escape by making a deal with a literal fucking demon.

Looking back at all the games I played, stories I’ve heard, videos I’ve watched, friends I’ve made and lost, hobbies I’ve gained, all the toxic fandoms I’ve seen and had to deal with, you wanna know what stands out to me the most?

I’m only 15 years old.

15. I’m still in high school, I’m still learning to drive, I still need to experience many new things, still have lessons that need to be learned.

But I still get straight A’s. I have many friends (at least compared to other people who do the same things I do). I go to band and choir. I’m in honors math and I’m constantly told by my friends, family and other adults that I’m kind, helpful, generous and one of the nicer students in the school.

But at the same time, I’m at home shooting and exploding cops while robbing banks. Fighting off zombies and monsters mostly seen in little kid’s nightmares. Reading some of the dirtiest smut/fanfiction and looking at art to go with it, swearing every other word, making dick jokes and horrible dark humor with my friends in the form of shitpost memes at 12 am.

I’ve doing this since I was 9 -10 years old.

And I turned out better than most of the kids at my school.

So I see these antis go on and on about “protect the children”, “I’m only a minor uwu”, “they don’t know what’s wrong with this!!!!” and I can’t help but think...

What drove them to this idea?

Why did they take the soccer mom conservative side? The main argument they use was and is the same one religious fundamentalists use as an excuse for not having LGBTQIA representation in tv shows and stories.

“The kids won’t know why a man is with a man this is wrong!”

“I can’t explain why it’s sinful harmful to them, they won’t understand!”

It hurts to see this. It hurts to see everything that people have fought for getting thrown out the window because “muh representation.”

What did they fight for? They fought for the fact that it was fiction and reading dark comics and playing bloody games won’t actually make you like that.

Also, have any of you realized “fiction affects reality” is another argument really similar to one radical conservatives use?

“I don’t want them to see that/hang around them, it’ll rub off on them and I don’t want my child to become one of them”

I know that I probably shouldn’t and don’t have a say on the topic. I probably should leave this to professional discourse blogs. The ones with 2000 followers and a more mature understanding of the world.

But I’m just tired. I don’t care if this gets even 50 notes, I just want fandoms to go back to a time where your own life didn’t get threatened for accidentally using certain lightings and headcanons in your drawings.

[apassionthatisdead]

qs + a(to the g to the u to the std)s

♡ ♡ tagged by  @pyojhoon & @mintchocfringe  ~ thank friendlings ♡ ♡

1. ultimate bias(es)? min yoongi ♡ ( taeyeon is my ultimate girl bias but min yoongi 5ever above everyone else )

2. who are your top 3 groups?  bts, dreamcatcher, snsd  (ioi should be there too but... you know... life is cruel, rip)

3. what are your 3 favourite songs?  the last by agust d, mr. brightside by the killers and youth of america by birdbrain

4. what do you like to do in your free time?  listen to music, play the piano, slepleplep, tell my dog i love him, play video games, watch youtube

5. are there any places you would like to visit that you haven’t already visited?  SWEDEN. top of my list. it’s v important that i go. also want to see japan and s. korea ofc. 

6. do you have a dream job?  [sweats] a dream? weird concept. unrealistic. sounds fake. lol but nah not exactly.. i mean, i would love to do something music related but i don’t feel like i’m talented enough so it’s just not feasible, and i used to want to write but i can never stay motivated long enough so  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

7. if you could meet ANY korean CELEBRITY (includes actors, models, k-music artists, etc.), who would it be?  min yoongi. 100%. no question. i wanna talk about a certain mixtape released last year

8. what do you love most about your bias group(s)?  well, not to be obvious but.. their music. ? the music is always top priority for me and i really like their styles and lyrics especially ♡

9. who are your ultimate bias wreckers?  park jimin oh lord.  for girls it’s gugudan’s nayoung, sowon, sejeong, chungha, soyou, dami, yeonjung, somi sajdosiar i love girls too much hlep

10. what do you wish for the most to happen? yoonmin subunit

11. when did you get into kpop and how?  oh boy, lemme tell u: so i was rlly sad back in 2014- i’m always like 40% sad but i was at least 87% sad back then ok i was emo af- and i used to always see kpop on my dash but i was like “that looks too happy for my tastes” but then one night i was really fkn sad bc 1. boys (lol wtf) and all my friends were about to leave for college but i was taking a year out so i was feeling lonely and i was watching pewdiepie to try cheer myself up but he wasn’t making me laugh and it concerned me bc pewdiepie didn’t make me laugh??? unrealistic. sounds so fake. so anyway, i was like “??? i must fix this” so i tried to think of the happiest thing i could and kpop came to my mind and i was like “well, if this doesn’t make me smile i will have to accept my fate of being sad forever” and i ended up watching sistar’s ‘i swear’ mv and it made me feel v light and happy and kpop healed my soul and it all escalated from there ♡

12. what made you decide to have a tumblr blog?  idk a few of my friends had tumblrs and they seemed to like it so i joined too.. there isn’t really a story here

13. favorite colour?  grey / sea-green

14. favorite animal?  red pandas

15. what are your interests?  music, animals, video games, ships, geography (miss me with that human geog. shit- no thx. but rocks? neat. volcanoes? super cool. hurricanes!? unbelievable. clouds!?! WOW.) 

16. would you prefer movies or music? music. 100%

17. what would you like to achieve (or experience) before the age of 60? i would like to have traveled to those places i mentioned above and i hope i have found something i both enjoy and am good at and... i hope i have a cat called trico  i’ll tag... @kellsierr @my6gfriends @frstlv @mycreativewritings  ♡

[toastedmarshmallowbooty-blog]

LET'S GET PERSONAL

1: 6 of the YouTubers you watch the most? Probably Markiplier, Jacksepticeye, PewDiePie, MattShea, paulsoaresjr, and literally every account with chickens on it. 2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Markiplier, hands-down. 3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. 4: What do you think about most? My life after college, I guess. Or chickens. 5: What does your latest text message from someone else say? "Orange daddy puff whyyy" 6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on? With, but, like, tank tops and shit. 7: What's your strangest talent? A while back, I did magic in a banana costume for a talent show. Oh, and I can play the recorder with my nose. 8: Girls... (finish the sentence); Boys... (finish the sentence) Girls matter just as much as boys do. 9: Ever had a poem or song written about you? Haha, nope. 10: When is the last time you played the air guitar? Air guitar? Nah. I'm a bigger fan of the air piccolo. 11: Do you have any strange phobias? Can't remember what it's called, but that thing where you don't like holes bunched together, like a wasp nest and stuff. 12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? Skittles. Turns out, doesn't work as well as eating through your mouth. 13: What's your religion? I don't consider myself anything, really. I don't know, and probably won't know where we go, if we go, when I die 'til I die. 14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing? Probably taking pictures like the white piece of shit I am. 15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Usually behind it. 16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band? Does Ninja Sex Party count? 17: What was the last lie you told? I don't lie often. "I don't lie often." 18: Do you believe in karma? Hell yeah! 19: What does your URL mean? It came from a comment on Wattpad, something about your favorite flavor booty. I started to go for pineapplebooty, but it was taken, so I went for toastedmarshmallowbooty. 20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength? My weakness is Nutella, my strength is how much I can eat it how fast. 21: Who is your celebrity crush? Ugh, Laura Prepon, hands down. That woman is sexy as FUCK. (Yeah, I'm gay.) 22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping? Nope, praise the Jesus. 23: How do you vent your anger? Fuck shit up til I calm down. 24: Do you have a collection of anything? Neat leaves. 25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? FaceTiming. 26: Are you happy with the person you've become? Eh, I'm alright I guess. 27: What's a sound you hate; sound you love? I don't like the sound of chewing/ metal on metal, but I love the sound of chickens clucking. It reminds me of my grandparents' farm. 28: What's your biggest "what if"? What if my cat is plotting to kill me, and how the hell would I even know? 29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Yes and yes. 30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm. Right arm: a pillow. Left: my cat. 31: Smell the air. What do you smell? Spring!!! 32: What's the worst place you have ever been to? Ugh, this motel we had to stay at on the way to Orlando. I had to sleep with one eye open. There was a lot of screaming/yelling in the room over, and I saw several roaches. 33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast? East coast. 34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender? Gross, men. 35: To you, what is the meaning of life? I don't know, I guess chickens. 36: Define Art. Hate to be that guy, but pretty much everything. 37: Do you believe in luck? Yeah, short answer. 38: What's the weather like right now? Too damn hot for winter. 39: What time is it? 6:27 PM 40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed? Not much and no. 41: What was the last book you read? Bad Kids, it's a book on Wattpad. 42: Do you like the smell of gasoline? YESSSSSS! 43: Do you have any nicknames? Not really, if we're not counting my Wattpad and Tumblr username. 44: What was the last film you saw? The Bee Movie 45: What's the worst injury you've ever had? Thankfully, I haven't had any serious injuries, knock on wood. But I do have a tendency to fall down stairs, so it's probably coming. 46: Have you ever caught a butterfly? YES AND IT'S AMAZING. 47: Do you have any obsessions right now? Orange Is The New Black and Stardew Valley, currently. 48: What's your sexual orientation? Fabulous. ❤️💛💚💙💜 49: Ever had a rumour spread about you? Yes, several. 50: Do you believe in magic? I'm not sure what the question means, but sure, yeah, why not. 51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong? Yes, too many. I'm like a blonde Soup Nazi. 52: What is your astrological sign? LEO! 53: Do you save money or spend it? Usually save, and then spend all at once once I've saved enough. 54: What's the last thing you purchased? A new cage for the rats. 55: Love or lust? Love, 8/8 that's great m8. 56: In a relationship? Nope. 57: How many relationships have you had? Zero, as far as I can remember. 58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue? Yep. 59: Where were you yesterday? In Stardew Valley. 60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? Yes, my socks. 61: Are you wearing socks right now? Yes, they're pink. 62: What's your favourite animal? CHICKENS. 63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you? People like me? Wow! 64: Where is your best friend? Probably on Tumblr rn too. 65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr. I just started, so there's only one I can REALLY remember, and that's chickenhugs. It's too pure for its own good. 66: What is your heritage? Swedish, Irish, Dutch, and Scottish, mainly. 67: What were you doing last night at 12AM? Writing friendfiction. (It's called Don't BOther, and it's on Wattpad, if you want to read it.) 68: What do you think is Satan's last name? Imma guess Mr. Satan. 69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off? Nope, but I've heard it can reduce stress. I use tea for that, so there's not really a need. 70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend? Fuck no. 71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? Screw McDonald's, get the dog!!! 72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid? I don't like to think about that, so Imma be a loser and not say any more on that subject. 73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love. Trust, you can't have love without trust, so what's the point of it? 74: What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? The Orange Is The New Black theme song. 75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number? dick 76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship? Trust and happiness on both ends. 77: How can I win your heart? Be Laura Prepon. 78: Can insanity bring on more creativity? I mean, Gary Busey told me yeah. 79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? Existence... 80: What size shoes do you wear? 6 1/2. I'm a smol child. 81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone? "Told you so." 82: What is your favourite word? Perkele 83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart. The Lion King 84: What is a saying you say a lot? I'm an idiot. 85: What's the last song you listened to? 'Wolf In Sheep's Clothing,' by Set It Off 86: Basic question; what's your favourite colour/colours Indigo 87: What is your current desktop picture? Harambe. 88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be? Trump, hands down. 89: What would be a question you'd be afraid to tell the truth on? Literally anything about death. 90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do? Wake up. 91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power? Coca-cola shoots from my wrists at will, and I can teleport from alternate universe to alternate universe. 92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again? The time I first met my rats. ❤️ 93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? Hearing that Pharrel Williams song, 'Happy' 94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be? I'm asexual, sorry guys. 95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? To the universe where Laura Prepon is my wife. 96: Do you have any relatives in jail? They were bailed out recently, but yes. 97: Have you ever thrown up in the car? Far too often. 98: Ever been on a plane? Yes, but only a few times. 99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say? "AHEM!... ya like jazz

[therainroguefanfiction]

About Me Tag

Tagged by the angelic @prettywordsyouleft, thank you so much ^~^)/ I’ll list the questions at the top and then add my answers under the cut~ By the way, I waited to post this because I was looking for a picture AND THEN I FORGOT I’M SORRY

1. It’s your birthday! What did you ask for and did you receive it?  2. What was the last song or album you listened to? 3. What is your go to snack when you’re hungry or bored? 4. What is your morning routine? 5. What mythical/cryptid creature would you be? 6. How do you interact with someone that you don’t like? 7. How do you define a toxic person? 8. Have you ever been to a concert or fanmeet type of event? If not, would you want to? 9. Do you believe in astrology? Why or why not? 10. If you had only one sense (hearing, touch, sight, etc.), which would you want? 11. Who is your favorite celebrity or idol? 12. If you could talk to your favorite celebrity(s) for a limited time, what would you tell them? 13. I’m taking you out on a date and it’s your choice. Where are we going and what are we going to do? 14. Do you like sweet or savory foods? 15. Do you have any band merchandise or merchandise from any of your favorite artists? If so, what?

━━━━━━༻🌧️༺━━━━━━

1. It’s your birthday! What did you ask for and did you receive it? 

My birthday was in February, so it was forever ago lol To be honest, I don’t really celebrate my birthday and we usually don’t have the money to really do anything, so it’s just a normal day. Knowing me, I asked for Taco Bell 😂

2. What was the last song or album you listened to? 

“MANTRA” by Bring Me the Horizon because I love this song so much like please play this at my funeral?? 😩

https://youtu.be/VAXg78MKJcM

3. What is your go to snack when you’re hungry or bored? 

Is Taco a snack? 🌮 Because it’s my go-to everything lol For real though, I usually just snack on whatever I can find, but I’m trying to be more conscious of what I snack on because I’m trying to lose weight and be healthy.

4. What is your morning routine? 

Wake up > listen to music until my bladder threatens to burst > keep listening until MANTRA starts playing > sing the song in my head to impress my current anime boy obsession > go to the bathroom > put water in the freezer > fall in front of the computer.

Riveting, I know.

5. What mythical/cryptid creature would you be? 

By choice? A dragon because they are dope 🐉 But if the universe chose for me, my mind keeps saying it would choose a Wendigo/Skinwalker lol

6. How do you interact with someone that you don’t like? 

I try not to. Why would I when I don’t like ‘em? Of course, since I can’t work, I’ve never really been forced into that situation, but I’m super non-confrontational, so when someone I don’t like tries talking to me, I usually just grit my teeth and act nice, or make up some excuse as to why I can’t talk 🤷

7. How do you define a toxic person? 

Someone that doesn’t value my opinions at all. They believe their opinions are fact and if you disagree with them, they lose respect for you because you’re wrong. Someone that constantly puts you down, even in a joking manner, even though you ask them to stop. Someone that won’t respect your wishes and continues to do something that you’ve clearly stated that you don’t like but they do it anyway because they get off on seeing you get upset. Someone that forces their beliefs and values upon you as if nothing else in the world matters except for their own thoughts.

Not that I have experience or anything.

8. Have you ever been to a concert or fanmeet type of event? If not, would you want to? 

Once, before my anxiety got as bad as it is today. I was like... 17? And I had stayed up for like a week straight trying to win tickets to a Good Charlotte concert in St. Augustine, which I did end up winning, thank you very much. We were able to meet them, but it was super rushed - in, snap a picture, out. Very disappointing considering they were the main ones I came to see. But the other bands were actually out in the rain greeting fans and talking to them. Even though I had no clue who they were, they were super nice. Actually, I think I might have some pics buried on my facebook!

...after extensively searching through the mess that is my facebook, I can’t find the pictures T^T and my external hard drive won’t connect soooo

phooie

9. Do you believe in astrology? Why or why not? 

I believe the signs do have some sway over our core personalities, and I’d like to get more into it, but I’m not obsessed and I certainly don’t believe it controls every aspect of our life.

I remember once for christmas when I was younger, I got an astrology book and I didn’t understand like 90% of it but it was dope 😎

10. If you had only one sense (hearing, touch, sight, etc.), which would you want? 

How dare you come at me like this I am #TRIGGERED

I can’t hear MANTRA or anime or the sound of rain or blackpink or youtube or rustage’s awesome raps?

I can’t feel my cats fur beneath my fingers?

I can’t see anime or video games or the words I write on the screen or rustage’s awesome videos or iamcrusty’s awesome videos?

I can’t taste tacos?

I can’t smell black cherry merlot hand sanitizer and candles?

I can’t... wait, ain’t there another sense?

Anyway, I can’t 🙀 Stop tRiGgErInG me

11. Who is your favorite celebrity or idol?

Actor: Johnny Depp Kpop: Winwin Anime VA: Junichi Suwabe YouTube: Pewdiepie

12. If you could talk to your favorite celebrity(s) for a limited time, what would you tell them? 

How much I love their art and how happy their work makes me and how they’ve helped so many people and I would probably die because, you know

aNxIeTy DiSoRdEr 🤮

13. I’m taking you out on a date and it’s your choice. Where are we going and what are we going to do?

A nature walk or cat cafe. Maybe some boba tea? I’d rather stay home and watch anime with you, though 🤓

14. Do you like sweet or savory foods? 

Surprisingly, I’m not that fond of sweets. I mean, I enjoy the occasional ice cream or chocolate bar, but I’m not big on candy like I used to be. And the only cake I eat is lemon.

Does taco count as savory? 👀

15. Do you have any band merchandise or merchandise from any of your favorite artists? If so, what? 

Band merch? I think the only band merch I have is from B.A.P - I got a bag and a ring! I got loads of other merch, but they aren’t from musical artists. For example, I got youtooz of Jim Pickens and Pewdiepie, a keychain of Erza Scarlet, etc.

━━━━━━༻🌧️༺━━━━━━

Now you know more about me than you ever needed to.

Tagging @kittifer​ @edentaba​ @justemileelove​ @fionathebanana​ @squishytenya​ @the-broken-halo-writer​ @janellion​ @sugacookiies​ & whoever sees this and wants to do it! If you don’t want me to tag you, please let me know ^~^)/